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ratsreading · 6 months ago
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Mid year book freakout tag
This has been a bit of a weird reading year for me so far but here we go.
1. What is the best book you've read in 2024 so far?
Toss up between Exo+Cross Fire (Fonda Lee) and Alien Clay (Adrian Tchaikovsky)
Right, so Exo+Cross Fire, a duology, is a fantastically nuanced take on colonialism/imperialism, and also a very compelling, fun, interesting, heart-wrenching read. There are fun aliens! Well, I say "fun". Interesting might be the word.
And Alien Clay is a drily humorous story of a man at an exoplanetary labour camp attempting to scientifically understand alien life while also straining against dogmatic rules for said science. There is fun alien life! Well, I say "fun". Interesting might be the word.
2. Best sequel you've read so far in 2024?
Cross Fire (Fonda Lee) or The Girl and the Moon (Mark Lawrence) (it really stuck the landing. Like really).
3. New (from 2024, ideally) release you haven't read yet, but want to?
Most Ardently, Gabe Cole Novoa (Pride and Prejudice retelling with an trans Oliver Bennet, who most believe is a girl named Elizabeth, as main character? Yes, please)
4. Most anticipeated release for second half of 2024?
I haven't really looked at what's coming :/
5. Biggest disappointment?
I've read some really meh books this year but they've mostly been weird romance stuff where I wouldn't necessarily expect them to be great either. Idk. Maybe Sweet Berries (CM Nascosta) or Bound to the Shadow Prince (Ruby Dixon) because they were worse than books by the same authors I'd already read - so below expectations.
6. Biggest surprise?
Probably that I really enjoyed an Omegaverse book: Lola & the Millionairs (Parts 1 and 2), Kathryn Moon.
7. New favourite author?
I read my first T Kingfisher this year - A Wizard's Guide to Defensive Baking - and it was so fun and lovely! I am a sucker for familiars (in various shapes and forms) and this one has two :D so probably that one. I guess we'll see how I feel once I've read more from Kingfisher.
Runner up is Mark Lawrence - I read him for the first time 2023 (The Girl and the Stars) but finished that trilogy, Book of the Ice, this year - and am now looking forward to reading more by him.
8. Newest fictional crush?
Oh this is always hard, I don't know that I get crushes like that? I tend to like the characters in the relationships they're in, not for myself. I certainly liked the pack from Lola (maybe especially Matthieu). I loved Edwin and Robin from A Marvellous Light (Freya Marske) together. The Shadow Creature in Two for Tea: Welcome to Azathé (CM Nascosta) was an inspiring concept.
9. Newest favourite character?
Bob the Sentient Sourdough Starter (A Wizard's Guide to Defensive Baking, T Kingfisher).
10. Book that made you cry?
Exo/Cross Fire, Fonda Lee (I read these in quick succession and am struggling to remember what happened in which book, but I think both may have made me cry, actually. Certainly at least one)
11. Book that made you happy?
Well, plenty of cozy romancy stuff, I guess - at least temporarily (The Dragons of Mayfair come to mind. Also Lola). But also any of the really great books like Exo and Alien Clay will make me happy just because they're good and I enjoy them.
12. Most beautiful book you've bought this year?
Didn't by either of these as I listened to them via my audiobook service (where you don't pay for individual books, you subscribe and get access to their library), but the Book of the Ice books are all gorgeous, and I love the cover of Alien Clay as well.
13. What books do you really need to read by the end of the year?
Oh god, I need to get back into and finish Witch King (Martha Wells), it is silly and stupid that I've just stopped in the middle. I mean I love it! It's so so good. And because I love it so much I worry I'll ruin the reading experience of it by being in a weird reading funk. (Also I feel bad because I'm (supposed to be) buddy reading it with @moriaine).
And that's all! I'll tag @moriaine, @ibringthebroccoli and @waittosparkle and hope you have the energy to do this :)
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emma-is-swaggy-and-epic · 2 years ago
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Hi guys!!!! I just finished playing danganronpa trigger happy havoc ALL THE WAY TO THE END and i'm REALLY proud of myself so i wanna give my thoughts on the game! (WARNING: spoilers and some brief mentions of suggestive themes)
Now tbh i'm not really one to finish games once i play them for the first time (the only other game i've finished was pokemon sword) so this is REALLY exciting for me!!! I even got out some ice cream to celebrate!!! And let me just tell you this: I. LOVED IT. (The game i mean....though the ice cream was good too lol, it was birthday cake flavored!) I would've loved it SO MUCH MORE if i didn't spoil it for myself YEARS BEFORE i even played the game but that's okay, in my defense this was before i got my nintendo switch AND before the dangan trilogy got PORTED to the switch so i didn't think i was ever gonna play it....also if there wasn't so much problematic stuff in it like ableism and transphobia that would've helped...but anyway! Where do i even begin? This game is just AMAZING!!!!! The characters are really REALLY interesting and cool, the writing is absolutely SUPERB and despite having the game spoiled for me, it still managed to keep me on my toes and i just COULDN'T HELP BUT WONDER WHAT HAPPENED NEXT!!!
When i first started playing the game, my favorite character was hifumi! I sorta felt a bit of a kindred spirit with him since we both write fanfiction and are huge nerds (don't worry though, i've never sexually harrassed anyone!!!) Though as i played through the game a little more, i found that my favorite characters changed to toko, byakuya and celeste. Funnily enough i actually didn't like toko AT ALL at first! She REALLY didn't give me a good first impression; though the more i played, the more i started to warm up to her and i actually kinda realized that i relate a LOT to her....we're both child-like, antisocial brunettes (well....toko has purple hair but it just LOOKS brunette..) with blueish eyes, a passion for writing and a not-so-great relationship with romance/sexuality.....hell, without the DID part and y'know....the sexual harrassment, i'd say toko literally WAS me!!! I AM A TOKO FUKAWA KINNIE AND IT'S CONCERNING EVEN TO MYSELF!!!! That being said, i feel like some of probably know why byakuya and celeste are ALSO my favorites...ngl i never really expected myself to ship them as much as i do, ESPECIALLY considering i got into the ship because i was listening to the song gold digger by kanye west one day and had an epiphany. Though i'll leave my thoughts on the ship for when i make another cringey longpost talking about how much i like it (and when i get around to that, I'LL HAVE SOMETHING OF ACTUAL VALUE TO SAY ABOUT IT AND NOT JUST "THEY'D PROBABLY HAVE HATE SEX AND THAT'S AWESOME" LIKE MY LAST ONE!!! LIKE WTF WAS I THINKING WHEN I WROTE THAT???).
Y'know...usually when i play a game, watch a show or whatever, i never really go into it with critiques and reviews in mind so i usually tend to enjoy my experience and if i don't, i just stop engaging with that thing!! That being said, while i do ABSOLUTELY LOVE danganronpa! I have a couple criticisms, for starters: i've noticed a couple typos in the dialouge, they were VERY few and far between but it was still somewhat noticable and i'm a bit surprised that they were never patched out (hell, idk if it's just my monkey brain being dumb but i'm pretty sure there was even a typo IN THE VOICED DIALOUGE THAT THE VOICE ACTOR STRAIGHT UP JUST READ OUT) not only that but they replayed the voice clip of kyoko saying "mukuro ikusaba, the 16th student lying somewhere within this school, the one they call the ultimate despair, watch out for her" WAY TOO FUCKING MUCH, LIKE B R O WAS IT TOO HARD TO JUST SHORTEN IT OR SOMETHING???? I CAN SEE WHY THIS LINE IS SUCH A MEME IN THIS FANDOM AGHHHHHHH!!!! YOU KNOW IT'S BAD WHEN I CAN LITERALLY WRITE THE WHOLE THING FROM MEMORY OMGGGGG!!! Not only that but they played that one flashback of monokuma saying there were actually 16 students WAY TOO FUCKING MUCH too! Honestly i feel like this game sorta just has a problem with replaying flashbacks too much IN GENERAL!! Also tbh i feel like the final class trial was a bit too drawn out, like i understand that it's the end of the game and they kinda needed junko to explain why she's the bad guy but tbh the whole time i was just kinda thinking "CAN WE JUST KILL THIS BITCH ALREADY AND GET IT OVER WITH?????"
Sooo....yeah, i guess that sorta wraps up my thoughts on danganronpa THH. Ngl i'm gonna miss this game....i know there's school mode but tbh idk if i'll ever get around to playing it, if i ever do i'll probably only get the kyoko ending since i ship naegiri. Tbh i'm kinda nervous about starting up danganronpa 2 now since i've gotten so used to the characters and the storyline from trigger happy havoc that i feel like the sequels are just not gonna be the same....
Sooo.... yeah! I gave this game an 8½/10! Also genocide jill says nonbinary rights (just in time for pride month too!)
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Oh yeah, and also SHIP CELESGAMI FOR CLEAR SKIN!!!!!!!!
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wordscanburnarchive · 5 years ago
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♡ :  //    @guiltspelled​
‘                Wait he said   WHAT   ?                 ’                    she asks ,  her voice  r i s i n g  as she immediately sits up from her previously  slouched  position on the couch .  The glass of wine in her hand almost  spilling  with the sudden movement as she turns her full attention to the other woman .
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alreadyblondenow · 4 years ago
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My best friend, my p*rn 
▸Johnny x camgirl!reader (cam girl au, best friends to lovers) ▸ 2,103k words ▸ Fluff, Smut ▸ Cam girl reader, prostitution, online bidding, heavy making out, lots of kissing, lots of touching, fingering, mentions of oral sex male receiving, oral sex female receiving, mentions of sex  ▸ Requested, see anon message at the end of this drabble. 
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Being a cam girl is something you’re not proud of but it pays the bills and puts food on the table. Bringing pleasure to other people is not the best idea but you kinda like what you do and it’s like living a double life where in reality you’re this simple college student but when you’re live or on-air, you’re very popular that girls and boys beg for you.
Of course, the only person you trust knowing your double life is your best friend Johnny, whom you don’t is madly and deeply in love with you ever since the two of you became close friends. When you told him that you’re a cam girl, Johnny supported you all the way and became a regular to the point that he has become your anonymous generous tipper.
“User chicag0127 is being generous again- wow. I’m speechless. Thank you”
Tonight is kind of a special broadcast because you hit 100k followers and you have a surprise for everyone. “To celebrate our first milestone, I’m gonna hold an auction online, the highest bidder will be featured two times during my live stream this month....”
Upon hearing what you’re saying right now, Johnny cannot believe what has gotten into your head. Then he remembered, you were three semesters late on your tuition and the school might not let you graduate. “Fuck- you could end up with a creep! Fuck- Savings savings” he was quick to check his savings and easily closed the deal with you. He was sweating the entire time, scared that maybe the next higher bidder next to him might win you, but Johnny was successful.
“Sorry folks, but as expected, user chicag0127 is the higher bidder. I guess you will see us on my next live then!...”
After your live stream, you are more than thankful for chicag0127. The money went straight to your college tuition and now you can relax and not worry about the school holding you up for graduation. That night, you told Johnny what happened through text and waited for his reply before you go to bed.
You: were graduating together! That user that I was telling you, just covered my whole tuition.
The smile on Johnny’s face and the happiness that he felt was priceless, knowing that he could help his true love.
Johnny: Why didn’t you come to me in the first place? You know that I have money saved from my internship right? And idk where to spend it haha!
He jokes so he won’t sound suspicious.
You: it’s your money Johnny, you earned that because you worked hard during your internship.
And that night, you slept like a baby knowing that all is well.
One week later
You were sitting on the edge of the bed wearing only your silk robe and nothing else underneath. Any minute now, user chicag0127 will arrive and you're very much excited to meet your anonymous bidder. When the doorbell rang, you opened the door with a flirty smile that’s replaced with a confused expression when you see Johnny in front of you.
He was quiet. He was waiting for you to realize.
Then....
“Y-you’re”
“chicag0127”
“R-right... because you’re from Chicago and you’re Korean... fuck- I mean, come in, welcome. D-do you want coffee?”
Johnny went inside the hotel room quietly and without saying a word. To be honest, he didn’t know what to do too, like you, he’s confused and nervous. But would you rather see a stranger? So he balled up his courage and confronted you.
“You sit on my lap whenever I’m busy playing games on my phone, kiss me good morning whenever we have sleepovers, heck I already saw you naked because you don’t close your room whenever you dress up and you will say it’s completely fine-“ he breathes heavily and combs his black hair with his fingers, “I don’t understand why are you like this all of a sudden. I can leave you, know? But you can't disappoint your fans”
“Right we cant” you don’t know why Johnny feels like he’s a stranger now but you suck it up and remind yourself that Johnny paid for this. “You paid for this” you added while fluffing the pillow.
“Hey. I did not do it because I want to take advantage of you I did it because you could end up with a pervert a drug addict or an abuser” he points his fingers at you and sat on the bed with a heavy sigh.
“You’ve been tipping me for months!” You bite back, “Fine-Okay okay I get it. Uhm... wear this they can only see our lips, bodies, and not our faces” you hand him the silk mask that’s similar to what you’re using.
“This is our first day so kissing and touching only no more, no less,” you said, and upon explaining the instructions to Johnny, he proceeds to strip in front of you. Unbuttoning his dress shirt and looking so hot like he always does. You gulp when he’s only wearing his black pants in front of you, ready to remove his belt and his pants.
“On the second day, oral sex, however you like it. 69, blow job in the shower, anything then that’s it-oh and one more important thing. No talking you can whisper and make sounds but no talking for your safety. People might recognize you”
After explaining what’s needed, you dimmed the lights, closed the curtains, and setup the camera.“The live will automatically stop in thirty minutes”
“So we can kiss and touch for a whole thirty minutes?” He asked.
“Yes”
“I paid all my savings and thirty minutes is all I get?” He murmurs but you didn’t hear it. You pat the space on the bed next to you as you wait for the live to start automatically in five minutes. When he’s right beside you, waiting for your next move the room is cold and silent as he watches you remove your silk robe. He has seen your boobs far too many times, but this time it’s special like he’s seeing it for the first time again. ‘I'm sorry, he mouthed’ thinking maybe this is hard for you because you’re best friends.
‘It's okay,’ you mouth back because you would rather be with Johnny than a creep.
Slowly your faces move closer until your lips touch but not kissing yet. Johnny gave you a peck as if he’s testing the waters, then gave you another but this time it’s longer, and then another but this time his hand cups your face. It was a filthy kiss and you didn’t expect that Johnny is a good kisser. His tongue is sinful in so many ways. The way it swirls around your tongue, whenever he sucks your tongue leaves you breathless, his grip on your face is getting tighter and you feel his cock poking your thigh.
So with all your bravery, you put your hand inside his boxers briefs and palmed his cock while he kisses you. Slowly, he began to start touching you softly, running his fingers on your shoulders to your nipples until you shiver at his touch, making you stop kissing him and bite your lower lip. Johnny is amused and happy because you like what he’s doing to you.
While kneading your boobs, he started kissing you on your neck, licking you like you’re his favorite ice cream, and doing soft moaning sounds. He kissed you all over your body, making you feel loved and protected by him as always.
“Is this fine?” He whispered oh so quiet beside your ear and slowly run his finger on your very wet slit. Johnny’s finger slides up very smoothly because of your juices, he got excited because he can make you wet like this. You nod your head ‘yes’ and spread your legs a little more for Johnny and the viewers and with that, he finger fucked you before he ran out of time. Feeling his thick fingers go inside and outside of your cunt slowly. It feels so fucking good.
“Ten minutes” you whispered and kissed him again. You feel his smile in between kissing while he feels you getting near because you’ve clenching and unclenching around his finger.
The alarm on your live started beeping and the live is automatically cut off.
No one stopped when the live was over. You kept kissing Johnny and Johnny made you cum using his fingers. When you finally calmed down, Johnny kept you close and apologized. Until now he doesn’t know if you’re doing this with him because you’re actually loving it, or you’re doing this because he paid for it.
“Warm bath?” He offered.
You giggle and hugged him back like you used to, “we didn’t have sex you jerk.... but sounds good”
He gets out of bed and effortlessly scoops you from your comfort and brought you to the bathroom. The shower with Johnny turned every awkward situation around because he made you laugh the whole time you two were taking a shower. Singing different songs and thinking of what you should eat for dinner.
The next day, you and Johnny are laying in bed together enjoying the quietness of the hotel room like you guys did not do something filthy last night. Lips on your forehead hands at the back of your head, you hear his steady heartbeat and you’re actually happy that he is the one who did it.
You’re not with user chicag0127, you’re with Johnny. Things might take time but what he’s doing for you is heartwarming and stupid all the same time.
Second day
Johnny had a few ideas for day two. For starters, he really wanted to fuck your mouth and cum inside it. But it doesn’t feel right doing it to you, he loves you way too much for a thousand people see him do that to you. So he decided he’ll just tire you out the whole thirty minutes.
Your legs are perfectly spread and Johnny’s fingers spread your pussy lips as he licks up and down on your slit. It’s been a good twenty minutes already and your legs feel like jelly after cumming two times. When he felt your legs shaking and you’re breathing heavily, he stopped and kissed you all the way until he reaches your lips and automatically cups your boobs. You feel his very hard cock poking your thigh like he’s going to put it inside you any minute.
Surprisingly, you feel the tip of his head glide on your slit and you gave him a push as a warning but your strength is nothing compared to Johnny’s. “I will not put it in. Trust me on this” he whispered to you.
Nervous, but his lips calmed you in an instant, you trusted Johnny with his plan and let him do whatever he wants.
He continued to grind and gliding his cock on your wet slit and you are very thankful that you trusted him. You smile when he rolls his hips, you grip Johnny’s shoulders when you started being sensitive and then you don’t know what has gotten into you but you rolled your hips and put his head inside your cunt. You kissed him as you grind underneath him and he did not expect that from you.
He noticed you’re liking it too much, so he stopped then the alarm beeps and you thought he was regretting it. You let out a heavy sigh and covered yourself with the thick sheets, avoiding Johnny’s gaze.
“I stopped because I didn��t want any cameras involved when we do it”
Johnny started kissing your exposed shoulder, your neck, and your lips until he earns a smile from you. “let's go out on a date. A proper date. I’ve been always in love with y/n, and I’m sorry we have to get to this part first. I’m sorry for lying. I’m sorry for using your work to express my feelings to you”
The way Johnny confessed to you is something you will never forget. He’s everything you’ve ever wanted and more so there's no harm in giving this a chance. You kissed him and invited him under the covers with you, “Let’s have a house date, we can cook. No more expensive stuff please, you’ve given so much money for the past few months” you rake your fingers through his hair and boops his noise.
“Anything for you” he smiled and reached for your lips again.
That night, you and Johnny stayed in the hotel bed and ordered ramen for dinner.
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Hello!!! I hope you love this because I enjoyed making this to the point that I want it to be a full fic but I dont have the time yet :( thank you for requesting! 
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🚷 📓✨☕ for miss ingrid?
Alright, I'm finally getting to it
Favourite beverage:
Haven't thought of it a lot, probably tea, I don't really imagine them drinking coffee in such a northern country because ok, yeah, they do import a lot of stuff but I'm not sure if from that far away?? Or actually maybe they do but it's this super luxury item and so she, being born into a royal family, and marrying into another one, would certainly be able to afford it. As for what her tastes would be, hm, idk. Probably bitter (coffee, tea etc).
Something that makes her happy:
Music, dancing and adjacent things. I imagine her doing dance moves and stuff when in a particularly good mood (see picture below) and I also imagine that she's into stuff like ballet, opera etc. She also likes singing etc. I imagine her singing together w Anatoliy (see picture below). I imagine she, much like Anatoliy, has various hyperfixations, but again, more socially acceptable ones. If she encountered some sort of sound recording tech she'd go absolutely wild tbh (still debating whether they have gramophone type things or not). She'd be the first to get herself one and record Oleg's almost-music-sounding baby noises. Oh I almost forgot, she not only loves ballet and dancing "on land" but also ice skating.
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Songs, lyrics that I associate with her
I don't have many songs I associate with her except like these two, but they are about her in relation to Anatoliy (for her personal struggle I'd have to find some songs about mother daughter conflict or something)
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(I like to imagine the way they see eachother is like, oh finally, somebody who doesn't expect me to be perfect and with whom I can be absolutely honest etc + they do have a lot in common)
And especially the piano guys version
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I am imagining an animatic with full choreography of them romantically ice skating when I listen to this
Difference between her and me:
Oh is this question because she's my pfp on my main? Well I chose said pfp mostly because it looked good, it had enough detail but not too much and the picture could be cropped nicely (as opposed to other good looking character illustrations). My last pfp was Sveta, and she's more similar to me. And even Anatoliy is more similar to me (but I wouldn't like having a male character pfp on my main).
Ok so, what I have in common with Ingrid would be like... being ambiguously neurodivergent I guess. In their world they have an abysmally underdeveloped field of psychiatry so... but in real life she would pretty certainly get diagnosed with ADHD. Which is even sadder because in her backstory we learn that her mother was abusive to her and basically considered her to be dumb or crazy etc. Which is probably why she felt do validated by Anatoliy (also ambiguously neurodivergent... irl would absolutely 100% certainly get diagnosed with OCD; in story people think of him as crazy too, and being a conspiracy theorist doesn't really help matters - but let's be real, she's into that too, like yeah absolutely somebody is plotting against us as we speak etc).
Oh also big similarity: looks innocent/ helpless, is actually very "not innocent", in her case mostly like bitter, sarcastic etc. It's hard for her to forgive people who wrong her. Overthinking etc. Comparing herself to others etc.
Differences: well for starters literally everything regarding physical appearance (see pictures below). Her main tendency would be to blame others (and not herself). Her upbringing was obviously more rough. Her hobbies are different etc.
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Thank you for the ask!
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kythed · 3 years ago
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WELL R U GONNA TELL US WHAT THE TEEN MOVIE EXP WAS??? U CSNT LEAVE US HANGING LIKE THAT
HSHSHDHHDJD OKAY YEAH I GOTTA SPILL
I’m writing this as I’m in the airport lol (because I have to fly up to my uni before school starts for off season training)
aNYWAYS some background — I wasn’t cool in high school. (LMAO you guys are prob like: yeah gwen we know SHSHSH) but I was *kind of* well known because of sports and a small amount of academic clout, so somehow I got voted prom queen in senior year?? (man I swear I’m not the usual prom queen type but yEah,,,) and the guy who was prom king was a dude I’ve known since junior high. we were never super close but I tutored him in english a little, and in exchange he helped me with calculus HAHAH
also important: I had a puppy crush on him for all of high school, but he was kinda the school’s golden boy, and I knew I wouldn’t have a chance T-T so I just suffered in silence and helped edit his essays LOL
anyways, last night I went to a small birthday party for a friend of mine, but it ended earlier than expected, so I had some time to kill. at the party, my friends had ended up talking about Mr. Prom King for a bit (his name is luka) so he was on my mind,,, and so I VERY IMPULSIVELY texted him and asked if he was doing anything, and if not if he wanted to hang out HAHSJDJD IDK WHAT I WAS THINKING but he said yes so I drove the half hour to his house and picked him up even though we’ve literally never hung out before
AND OMFG IM SO APPALLED because my conversation starter when he was like “so how’ve you been?” was “uhhh… I mean, I’m okay — I was sick last week and my snot was literally green, it was so gross” HAHSHHSIWJSJSK but he just LAUGHED,,, and I kept making these terrible, awkward jokes and comments the whole time 😭😭 like at one point he was telling me how he has an addiction to chewing gum, and he used to get in trouble for chewing it all the time (even in bed) as a kid, so he learned to hide it under his tongue when his parents checked…… aND I JUST BLURTED OUT “so that must mean you have great tongue flexibility, huh?” HAHSJWKKSJD and I also told him I was planning on being a formula one racer if I failed out of school,,,,, the entire hour was just me embarrassing myself essentially
anyways aside from that — we got ice cream, and he literally lunged in front of me to pay for it which was a CHANGE from my ex HAHAH, and then when I went to go drop him home, he unbuckled and just kinda sat there, and we smiled at each other, and I was kinda thinking man I hope he kisses me bUt he didn’t *sad face* so then we just hugged awkwardly and I drove home
AND LIKE FIVE MINUTES AFTER I GOT HOME our mutual friend texted me like “DUDE YOU HUNG OUT WITH LUKA?? he’s been into you since like 8th grade lol, he told me he wanted to kiss you but thought it would be weird since you aren’t that close” aND I JUST — *fist clench* WHAT THE FUCK,,,,,, MAN,,,,,, HE HAD SIX YEARS TO SAY SOMETHING,,,,, AND WE FINALLY HUNG OUT THE NIGHT BEFORE IM LEAVING,,, AND I WONT SEE HIM AGAIN UNTIL CHRISTMAS,,,,, IM SO SADDDDD
tldr; turns out gwen’s unattainable high school crush liked her back the whole time and she’s not gonna see him again for months T-T
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galactichoneybee92 · 4 years ago
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The Problem With Spinning Out and Zero Chill
Okay so spoilers. All the spoilers. Go into this at your own risk because every possible spoiler for both shows. Also: I will be speaking about these two shows with the assumption that readers have seen both and as such, will not need a summary of either. Okay, still here? Cool. 
I have no big hot take, just some observations that I would like to put out into the universe in regards to Netflix’s two most recent ice skating shows. Because I have a lot of thoughts, and also one big question for anyone who can maybe help me? 
For starters, Spinning Out and Zero Chill are both Netflix originals that premiered around approximately the same time, both of which feature figure skating as a backdrop for a lot of interpersonal drama surrounding the characters. It’s wonderful, because while I’m not very invested in sports I adore figure skating- It’s beautiful and fun to watch even if you don’t know a lot of the technical aspects or the names of the moves. However, for centering around the same sport the two shows are very different. Also, Spinning Out has already been confirmed to have been cancelled after the first season, while the future of Zero Chill is still up in the air.
In regards to personal preference, I liked Spinning Out a lot more than Zero Chill. It had a love story for me to invest myself in, as well as some messy, dramatic family dynamics, and overall the show was a lot more mature. I suspect that this may have actually been to the show’s detriment but that’s for later. In contrast, I found Zero Chill to be fluffy to the point of an ABC Family special. 
Do you remember those? Shows like Switched at Birth or Secret Life of the American Teenager, that tried to tackle big mature topics while keeping things family friendly? Do you remember how the writing was usually pretty sub par and the drama all seemed super contrived because there was only so much they could actually do within their given boundaries, so they made a much bigger deal out of small issues than they deserved? Yeah. Zero Chill felt like that. For example, the “hazing” from the hockey team was to...put balloons in his locker? And that was a...major diss? Worth getting super pissed? Idk. It’s just that, without the confines of being family-friendly day time programing, I have come to expect more from Netflix original programming. 
Alternatively, Spinning Out may have veered too far into the dark and gritty spectrum. If I had to guess where it failed, I would say that it introduced A LOT of drama, all within the first season and at times felt, overwrought. I think Spinning Out could have done with slowing down and taking a breath. Draw things out. Have the mother slowly escalate her abuse, stop and start with her medication, stretch out the love triangle between Kat, Justin, and Marcus. When I first started watching I thought that maybe Marcus would be Kat’s Luke Danes. Like throughout the show she dates other people, but eventually she realizes that she loves him and they end up together but...nope. The show established pretty early on that we were not going to have an epic, interracial friends to lovers romance. And I loved the enemies to lovers romance we got between her a Justin (Though I really think it should have taken longer. I liked that they hooked up before and that he was kinda low key pining but stretch it out. Sloooooooow buuuuuuuurn. Make it goooood. I want to feel the pining.) but it did feel like the cop out answer. And then they immediately introduce a black female character because apparently in the year 2021 we still have shows with exactly 2 black characters that are there to date each other. Like fuck, even South Park has made fun of that trope, it’s time to move past it. 
Secondly I think that it’s super out of character for Kat to ever go off her medicine, even if it is to help her skating. It’s the same way I felt when they introduced Ian’s mental Illness in Shameless. Like, maybe it’s a thing that people do and if you’ve known people that act this was in these scenarios than sure, maybe I’m wrong. But it just feels like they go to so much effort to show the effect that their parent’s mental illness has on them and their life when left untreated, they establish the characters as grown up too quickly, forced to mature due to their parent’s poor choices, and then just decide to have them follow in their mother’s footsteps when the plot demands more drama. I hated that as a choice for Ian and I hated it for Kat. Partly because I feel like it’s very out of character and cop-out writing, and also because I feel like if they had to do it at all it should have been later on in the series. 
One advantage that Zero Chill had for me over Spinning Out is that at least the characters were consistent. In this case I’m speaking mostly about Kayla, but also some of the others. Sure, I found Kayla’s impulsivity annoying instead of charming like I feel was the intent, but I liked her friendship with Skye arguably more than Kat’s friendship with Jenn. Mostly because Skye was pretty chill throughout the entirely of the show while Jenn would go from hot to cold and back. Do I think it’s stupid that Kayla and Skyle’s big storyline was “I want to skate with my BFF but regulations don’t allow it?” Yes. You’ve already established that Kayla doesnt care about competitions. The only time she ever did was because she wanted to skate with her OTHER BFF. So like....just skate now? You have Skye’s mom’s approval at this point, it doesn’t have to go anywhere. But at least the two seemed to genuinely be friends. Kat and Jenn started off with potential but then turned fairly toxic. Kat was never that supportive of Jenn, always wrapped up in her own stuff and Jenn just got crazy at the end there. I understand her being upset about Justin but then she learns that Kat is bipolar, you think theyre cool, and then she immediately throws that back in Kat’s face at the first inconvenient moment. 
Can I just say though, how much more interested I was when I thought the secret figure skater was someone on Mac’s hockey team? I was trying to guess which boy it secretly was and I thought that there would be a subplot about her trying to convince him to figure skate with her, but he would feel pressured by his parents to play hockey instead. And that would work as a foil to Ava, who wanted to play hockey but was instead forced to figure skate. And there would be an eventual romance because what can I say, I’m here for the romance. But no...it was Skye and then there was just that subplot about Mac wanting to date his sister’s only friend. And like, when I was trying to guess who it was I thought it might be Bear and that would be her romantic interest but....no. Bear just, also likes Skye. 
Also, is it some unwritten rule that for every white girl figure skater with brown hair, there must be an Asian best friend? This isnt a complaint, just an observation. 
And clearly I don’t ONLY have complaints. I thought that both shows ahd a promising premise, and I loved the relationship on Spinning Out. When Zero Chill actually bothered with real issues instead of contrived nothing issues, I think it did it pretty well. I liked the friendships and family dynamic better in Zero Chill, but wished that it would have been a little more mature like Spinning Out. I liked that the characters in Spinning Out were mostly adults and that it had a more adult tone, but I wish that they had dialed the melodrama back just a bit. What I really want, I supposed, is a combination of the two shows which leads nicely into my question for you all: 
I remember browsing Netflix months ago and seeing a figure skating show advertised, however it wasn’t either of these shows. It feels like these two shows were once one, and then got split up into two because I am completely unable to find the show I originally saw a commercial for. 
In that original ad there was a brother and sister, one who played hockey and one who figure skated. But the hockey brother was jealous of the sister because he felt like their parents prioritized her figure skating. So one day, before a big performance of hers, he met her right before the performance and yelled at her about how unfair everything was and it shook her up and when she went out on the ice she wasn’t focused. She slipped and fell, split her head open on the ice, and her confidence was shaken. 
But like...that wasn’t either of these shows so what the hell was it??? Were they once one? Was there some other show that hasn’t been released yet? Did I see it in a dream???? 
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austinbaker94 · 4 years ago
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Answer All the NSFW questions 
Ask me these probing NSFW questions ‘cuz I’m bored
SEXYTIMES EXPERIENCES
1. How many people have you had sex with?
Just 5
2. Can you remember the names of everyone you’ve slept with?
Nope, to be fair i never did get one of the names
3. With whom did you first do the sexytimes? Was it good?
With an ex boyfriend who was at least 7 years older then me, and it was okay. The anti depressants I was on made me pretty numb.
4. What’s the best sex you’ve ever had?
Honestly I’m not sure, there really isn’t a time that was the best just parts of different times that were really good. Like the time a guy ate me out for like a half hour before we went at it.
5. What’s the worst sex you’ve ever had?
The last time an ex and I had sex was the absolute worst, I was hungover as fuck, and there was defiantly a lot of blood. I’ll just leave it at that.
6. Where’s the most unusual place you’ve had sex?
In the middle of my high school football field.
7. Where’s the most unusual place you’ve masturbated?
Parking-lot of the college I was going to in between classes.
8. Have you ever been caught doing the sexytimes?
I don’t think so, there were defiantly times that were supper close though.
9. If you masturbate, when did you start, and how?
I was way too young, and I really don’t remember. 
10. Have you ever been caught masturbating?
No, thank god!
LET’S GET PHYSICAL
25. Describe your nipples in too much detail.
lol, smaller kind of pinkish, a little bit of hair around them. Sensitive, they're nipples how much detail can I really give
28. (Penis-owners) Describe the size and shape of your penis. Are you happy with it?
Oh god , It’s okay. It sticks straight out, Id say it was average size, Maybe 7.5″ idk I have checked in a long time, decent  girth, not too big. 
29. (Penis-owners) Have you tasted your own cum? Did you like it?
Yes, and it honestly tasted like nothing
SEXUAL FANTASY LAND
31. Describe your most unusual/taboo fantasy.
oh man, I really don’t think this is too taboo/unusual but I’d love have a guy ride me while another guy sat on my face and let me eat  him out. So basically a three way lol
32. Do you fantasise more about real situations, or imaginary/impossible ones?
More real, the impossible stuff/imaginary stuff just doesn’t really do anything for me.
33. Who’s the oddest person you’ve fantasised about?
There’s defiantly hot older guys out there that were probably someones grandpa but no one really specific. 
34. Do you ever find yourself fantasising absent-mindedly, or is it something you do on purpose?
Usually absent-mindedly. I see a hot guy and my brain just goes for it lol.
35. Do you always fantasise while you masturbate?
Yes? pretty sure it’s a must
36. When you fantasise, does it usually lead to masturbation?
No, most of the time I’m in a place or situation where that isn’t possible.
37. Have you ever had sex with someone while fantasising about someone else?
No, I don’t think so. Sometimes My mind will wonder off and i zone out bad.
38. Do you have any celebrity crushes that you fantasise about?
Do pron stars count? lol
39. Have you ever fantasised about something by accident, and felt weird about it after?
Yes, some of my friends have hot dads and honestly that can lead to things feeling awkward.
40. Describe your most sexy fantasy.
I’ll just refer you back to 31
KINKTOWN USA
41. How do you feel about BDSM?
I’ve never tired it but some of it looks like fun.
42. What’s your most unusual kink?
I don’t think i have one :/
43. In an SM context, do you prefer giving pain, or receiving it?
Neither (?) I mean a good smack on the ass is nice but like idk if i want it to hurt more then that.
44. Do you consider yourself to be dominant, submissive, both, or neither?
I’d say submissive, just tell what to do.
45. Describe your most recent bondage experience.
I don’t have one :( 
46. In a BDSM context, have you ever referred to anyone as “daddy,” “mommy,” or any similar term?
Nope
47. Do you have a kink for any bodily fluids (pee, saliva, blood, tears, cum, etc.)?
Big no, like cum is kind of a given but the rest of it you can keep to yourself 
48. Have you ever revealed a kink to someone and had them react negatively?
Nope
49. Do you have any kinks that you’re ashamed of?
Also no
50. How much money have you spent on equipment for your kinks (toys, whips, chains, etc.)?
I have spent plenty on dildos and cock rings but I couldn’t begin to remember how much it all was.
COME FOR THE QUESTIONS, STAY FOR THE SUBHEADINGS
52. Have you ever come solely from penetration (anal or vaginal)?
Only once and it was the best!
53. Can you have an orgasm without your genitals being touched?
No, wish I could though
54. Describe how you like your genitals to be touched.
Can I say firmly grasp it ?
55. How sensitive are your nipples? Does nipple play turn you on?
Enough that I enjoy nipple play
56. Do you find it easier to orgasm with another person, or through masturbation?
Defiantly masturbation
57. Have you ever had an orgasm that you weren’t expecting?
No but that kinda sounds amazing
58. Do you get off easier from rough contact, or gentle?
Both to be fair
59. What’s the best orgasm you’ve ever had?
i was by myself using a vibrator in my ass and a fleshlight  between that and the edging I was doing I’m shocked I didn’t explode 
60. Did it take you a while to have your first orgasm, or were you an early starter?
Early starter, I think I was 14 when I really finally had an orgasm 
ORAL FIXATION
61. Do you enjoy giving oral sex? Why?
Yes and no, i get to worried I’m doing a bad job, but if a guy wants to face fuck me I’m all for it.
62. What’s your favourite position in which to receive oral?
I really don’t think i have one
63. Describe your oral sex technique.
Lots of tongue, and don’t be afraid to use your hands
64. Do you find it easier to give oral to someone with the same genital configuration as you (eg., you both own vaginas/both own penises), or different?
I’d say the same but I have experienced anything else 
65. Describe the worst oral sex you’ve ever received.
I don’t think I’ve hand any bad enough to remember 
66. Describe the best oral sex you’ve ever received.
My hands were tied behind my back and I was standing leaning against my dresser and he was just going for it while teasing me
67. Do you ever simulate oral sex while masturbating (sucking on dildos etc.)?
I’ve tried a couple of times but I get distracted if I do that
68. How sensitive is your mouth? Is it an erogenous zone, for you?
I don’t think it is but idk how i’d know that 
69. Do you like 69ing?
Yes but we have to laying on our sides not on top one another, i need to freedom laying on your side gives you
70. Can you deep-throat?
I’d like to think so, idk if I’ve sucked anything big enough to go to far down though
EVERYTHING BUTT
71. Do you like it in the butt?
Absolutely!
72. What’s the strangest object you’ve had in your butt?
i made an Ice dildo once so id say that
73. Do you enjoy being rimmed?
OH MY GOD YES!!
74. Can you take a lot in your butt, or just a little?
My biggest is an 11″ dildo (its not super thick) so you tell me
75. Describe your most recent experience with buttsex.
I don’t think I’ve had sex in 2020 yet so there is no recent 
76. Do you like doing stuff to other people’s butts?
Sure if they’ll let me
77. (Prostate-owners) Have you ever received a prostate massage?
No, but it sounds amazing!
78. Do you own any buttplugs?
I don’t, thought about getting some though
79. Have you ever had an embarrassing buttsex experience?
No, I’m way to paranoid that something embarrassing is going to happen, so i make I am perfectly clean
80. Have you ever pegged someone (ie., worn a strapon and fucked them in the butt)?
I haven’t but I don’t think I’d need to
SHARING IS CARING
All questions assume you’ve done group sex of some kind
81-90 are all a no lol I’ve never been with more then one person at a time
**BONUS DARES**
91. Post a selfie. 92. Post a naked selfie.
I’ll reblog with one
There is 100 but these were all the ones that were actually NSFW
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eldritch-araneae · 4 years ago
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Here, have more of Sparkpulse x Pokemon crossover bc my brain couldt stop throwing more ideas, so I’m gonna copy it from Discord)
About two shiny Ralts that Bumblebee and Windblade got as their starter pokemon.
I was thinking about Bumblebee ans Windblade got their first pokemon.
Both of them in early twenties, they are not sure what exactly they gonna do ( i do imagine they did some work at professors lab?) and definitely never thought that they gonna become one of the strongest trainers in the region.
So they went into wild to get some berries, none one them have a pokemon yet.
The reason is complicated, Bumblebee is really having hard time to choose bc there are so many, and Windblade wishes it be special meeting or something, like not just go and grab random pokemon.
So they just chilling with each other, until Bumblebee gets into bush and anger a random Pidgey that was testing there.
This angry Pidgey attacks Bumblebee and it cases the pair deeper into the forest.
After it left them alone, they realised they got lost. Welp, they really should have to pick up their pokemon.
Though they weren't too upset about this, they began joking about how this Pidgey practice social distancing and personal space better than some ppl.
Suddenly, they hear rustling in the bush near them. They were ready to run in case if it's another Pidgey, but to their suprise it was two Ralts, coming out to them.
Ralts are rarely come put to ppl, ulness they feel that you are good and positive. Not to mention, both pokemon are shiny!
Windblade comments that they just spent all their lifetime luck, which makes Bee laugh.
So Windblade and Bee interacted with Ralts, even played with them. Then they were about to head out, but noticed that both Ralts took liking of them and began to follow. They realised that both pokemon  wanna join them, and they luckily had pokeballs, and they both pokemon joined willingly.
They probably gave both Ralts nicknames but i have no idea for now.
While the pair explored the forest,they noticed more  differences in their pokemon.
Windblades's like to scout ahead, walking above them and finding random thins. He likes to explore the area around.
Bumblebee's Ralts perched on his head, having a look out from anything interesting from higher ground. She took liking in Bee's soft hair and his trademark headband with horns.
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Also yeah! About how Ralts hide in presence of hostility. Bee's Ralts just hides in his hair, while Blade's Ralts is hiding behind her leg, carefully peeking from there)
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I did it accidentally, but like how pokemon personalities seem to be opposite of their trainers.
Bumblebee easy gets along with ppl and does most of the talking in their travels, his Ralts is very shy, often hides in his hair, though she grows more confident as she evolves.
Windblade is more socially awkward and it can be hard to her to interact with new ppl, meanwhile her Ralts us just, in your face, all the time, no escape!
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Also, regarding evolution. So after Bee's Kirlua evolves into Gardevoir, they expected Blade's Kirlia evolved soon since they are the same level.
Except he wasn't evolving fir some reason, instead he seems looking something on the ground. Gardevoir asks him, and then sends mental image to Bumblebee's mind of dawn stone. That made them realise that Kirlia want to evolve into Gallade, not Gardevoir. So they when in the short side journey to find the dawn stone for Kirlia.
I think Gardevoir was the one find it, then she gives it to Windblade. Kirlia was jumping around his trainer like GIMNE GIMME GIMME))
About Bumblebee’s Alolan Ninetails.
Bumblebee's Alolan Ninetails, who even as Vulpix, has this strong "Try me, bitch! I Dare You!" attitude, and pretty epitome of "cold anger" bc the stare she might give you can send chill dien your spine.
And that how Bee and Blade learned that yiu can emerge victorious in disadvantage. This Alolan Ninetails can and will throw hands against fire type pokemon and win.
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It all start when Bee comes to the town, to catch up with Windblade that arrived earlier ( idk why they got separated, probably were doing something important.) and sees this asshole who was shouting at Vulpux who froze like, half of plaza and angrily snarling at the dude.
Seeing that shit, Bumblebee steps in, defending the Vulpix. The guy explains that his Vulpix has way too short temper for an ice pokemon and she's impossible to be trained.
Bee snaps at him, telling ges just shitty trainer and he did something bad to make her lash out like that.
Guys laughs be like " ha, if you like her so much, sure take her, see if you can handle this", puts Vulpix back into pokemon and throws it at Bee.
He catches it and tell the guy that he'll make him regret his decision.
Later, together with Windblade, Bumblebee lets her out, but she immediately runs away. Seeing that she resents trainers, he figured that perhaps he can approach her with pokemon.
He sends Gardevoir after her (and later Gallade joins). This seem to work and after few hours all 3 return. Vulpix is still giving Bee cold death glare as she still don't trust him, but she return to his pokeball peacefully.
Bee spends more time on trying to bond with her first, he sees she legit has short temper and lash out easily. So he decides to talk to her that went along the like that there is nothing wrong with being angry, but lashing out onto everyone wont do any good, so instead he tells her to try to use this anger to fuel her resolve in battles.
So this actually works, she becomes calmer and start getting along with Bee’s and Blade’s other pokemon, but turns absolutely furious in battles which makes her serious oponent, regardless the type.
Much later, after she evolves into Ninetails, they stumble upon her former trainer.
The guy thinks that Bee abandoned this Vulpix, but suddenly, before Bee even replyes, Ninetails jumps from the pokeball and give the guy same cold death glare which looks even more intimidating in evolved form.
The guy cant believe this, though he still thing that Ninetails will disobey. Bee grins and challenges him in battle.
The guy thinks he can easily win this fight bc his 3 pokemon are fire types, Charizard bring among them...but his team gets crushed bc nothing stand against ice fairy fox, powered by sheer fury!
Bumblebee be like "I told you so, I will make you regret your decision~"
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i-need-entertainment · 4 years ago
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Thank you @citrussweetie for the tag! Their post can be seen here~
Game Rules:
Tell me characters you self ship with...
1. The date you wish they’d take you on
2. The date they’d actually take you on
3. Your usual hangout
4. Their favorite thing about you
Washio Tatsuki:
1. I would like to go to the movies with him. To be honest, I don’t really like the movies cause I have the attention span of a small rabbit, but it just seems like it’d be better with him there. After we’d go out to eat somewhere where we could talk about the movie and him making snarky comments about the bad decisions made.
2. I think he would take me on a classic date. Like a nice dinner, and then a walk on the boardwalk (I live by water, and it has always been a dream of mine for the Haikyuu!! Boys to walk with me on the boardwalk😞) where he holds my hand and gives me his jacket when it gets cold. (lol he’s one of the few characters whose jacket would actually be big on me cause I have *shoulders*)
3. This might be weird but hEaR me OUT. Him driving (definitely not cause I can’t..) while I sit in the passengers seat, us going to get groceries or food or something like that. He would let me play whatever music I wanted (@foodacoochie you already know who we’re listening to~) and smile as I beautifully sang along.
4. The fact that i’m reliable. I’m a responsible person, I do what’s expected of me and I do the best I can! I hate letting people down, and I want to be someone people can rely on. I think he’d like that he wouldn’t have to worry about me as much because I am very independent,  I’d also be someone he could go to for his problems because I would listen.
Numai Kazuma:
1. I’d want to go on an amusement park date! For some reason when I imagined going on a date with Numai, amusement park was the first thing I thought of. I just think it’d be so cute!! I’m not a fan of crowds, but I wouldn’t feel uncomfy cause he would be there to ~protect me~😌
2. I honestly think he’d actually take me on the amusement park date! (that or I really just wanna go to six flags right now-) He seems like someone who might be a little clumsy in a relationship at first, and dates is one of those things he just has to get a hang of, so I think an amusement park is a good first/second date cause I think he’d be more comfortable. (Did that make any sense?)
3. Our usual hangout would be at one of our houses just lounging on the couch on our phones with our limbs all tangled together and eating some kind of snack, showing each other funny stuff we find and what not~
4. I think his favorite thing about me would be my character. I’m very morally inclined, and I do what’s right because it’s right, I have a strong moral compass. I think he’d like that because he hates being called a cheater for being on Nohebi, so I think he’d like that, I also can’t stand cheating/lying.
Shirabu Kenjirou:
1. I would like to go to a museum with Shirabu. I love museums, I always have. I don’t even care what it’s about, I love pretty much all subjects, but history museums are my favorite.
2. I think he’d be down for the museum date, but I think he’d choose something like one of those couples paint lessons (?). Like, you go to a one time art lesson where all the couples follow an instructor to paint a picture. idk I just think that sounds like something he’d pick, and it’d be really cute.
3. Probably him making me sit down at my desk and do my homework :p It’s not like I’m bad at school, there’s just so many better things I could be doing. So it would probably be him making me do my homework when it’s assigned, not the night before it’s due😔
4. My bluntness. I am very blunt. I have a filter, and i’m sure it’s in great condition because it’s never been used✌😙. I’m not like Ushijima blunt, I have social skills, but things have slipped before. Nonetheless, I think he’d like that i’m straightforward and to the point.
Iizuna Tsukasa:
1. I would like to go on a beach date with him! For starters, I think he’d look real nice with sunglasses on (don’t judge me, it’s 12:40 am and i’m halfway through an iced coffee, I’m not thinking my thoughts all the way through anymore), and I think it’d be a good relaxation day, to just get away from everything and spend time with each other. I do think he’d splash me, or at the very least try to throw me into the water.
2. I think he’d take me to the mall, where we’d just walk around and look at the shops. I do think he’d be one of the best Haikyuu!! Boys to take to the mall especially if you’re shopping for clothes. He’s stuck between 2 sisters, he knows how to give solid advice without falling into the ‘does this make me look fat’ trap that most boys do. He’d also carry the bags🥰 (whether he does it by will, or by force is irrelevant)
3. Us cooking together! Whether it was baking a cake at 10 pm or making dinner together, I think it’d be fun to cook with Iizuna, and a regular thing that we just did together.
4. My sense of humor. I have a very sharp wit, and that paired with my bluntness has ngl lead to some funny conversations. I think he’d appreciate it because it would let him wind down from being captain of a powerhouse school. Cause with me he gets to be himself, with no pressure to be perfect.
Kunimi Akira:
1. I’d like him to take me to a baseball game. Now, I don’t actually like sports, but for some reason I like baseball. More like I like going to baseball games, cause it’s its own experience, but he would ‘watch’ them with me and eat a bunch of the good stadium food.
2. He’d take me to a concert. I think he would do this for my birthday, cause I love music. Even if he didn’t like the singer/band, he would go just to make me happy. AND, concerts are pretty fun even if you don’t know the artist, so I think he’d enjoy it too!
3. Him laying his head on my lap as he took a nap while I wrote my stories. I think he’d be pretty chill with me simping for fictional men, cause he’s my boyfriend, and it makes me happy so he’s fine with it~ The typing would just lull him to sleep faster so he’d really be fine with it.
4. My laugh. I can’t really explain this one, I was thinking one day and I just thought he would like it. idk man, this one just made sense to me~
Tagging: I highly recommend doing this!! It was so much fun🥺 Also, you don’t have to do as many as I did, I just got carried away! (and sorry for spamming you guys with tags you don’t have to participate!! I just appreciate you guys💗 Feel free to tell me if you no longer want to be tagged I will stop)
@foodacoochie @cowninja1@fushiguroll @motoyafightclub @keijicyl @theuntamedmulti @owlnymph @aquariarose + Anyone who wants to cause it really was fun<3 **also, make a separate post cause this’ll get real long, real quick**
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mitsuhidethesnek · 3 years ago
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Time to liveblog Ikepri!
There will be complaining so I won’t tag the characters when I’m complaining lol. Also, this will reflect my blatant bias for scary boys plus Leon. I’m not into softies or tsuns. This is just me airing out MY opinions, so please feel free to disagree and have your own thoughts. I knew I should have started this liveblog earlier. I’m already 4 chapters into Chev’s route. Character first impressions under the cut. Just prologue content.
Prologue thoughts - I like that she owns a bookstore. IkeVamp also had an MC after my own heart, travel journalist. - Yves and Chevalier both lay it on so thick with the insults. Everyone is unworthy to Yves, but it’s his overcompensation from the start. For Chevalier, everyone is just literally inferior because apparently he’s worked so hard to be so ruthlessly superior.
- Eight princes have gathered, one of them will be chosen to be king. Except only our three starter pokemon want to be king, and more than half of them have asked you to be less formal with them lol.
- pfft. Everyone calling Sariel out for kidnapping me. Sariel is like “how dare you accuse me? MC is here of her own free will, right, MC?” and only LEON actually asks my opinion. But he also tries to persuade me by pointing out the icing on top of the ordeal lol.
- I like that Sariel was impressed with me the moment I slapped a drunk. A man who appreciates violence “for a good cause.” I mean, a solid reason to choose me.
- Okay, it is furthermore not about eight different princes vying for power. It’s really just two factions. Team Chevalier and Team Leon. plus Yves kind of
- Prologue Chapter 8 is where Leon starts being nice to you wants to know your thoughts. uwu
- This MC asks questions multiple times. She asked “why her?” for Belle multiple times. It’s extra self-deprecating, which I’m not into, but I guess it’s humble. She doesn’t understand that just being a commoner is enough. It could be anyone. And it just one unlucky standout moment she was chosen for. Leon gives a good reason though. We need someone common who understands what it’s like to be human, because all the royals are a bunch of beasts.
- I love that Belle is a title. Such a good trope. Like how Alice is a title in Ikerev
- I wonder if our translation enthusiasts are complaining. Probably. >> The English localization seems really on the nose with some lines. ><
Individual character thoughts
Rio
- I was expecting puppy immaculate sub. I wasn’t expecting literally obsessed with you. But the fact that he makes Sariel nervous and is too much for Sariel is HILARIOUS. Terrifying levels of enthusiasm. I approve.
- Unfortunately Rio is exactly the type of man I have often had to discourage. It is never just harmless flirting! >< Girl, he gonna keep trying even once you’re married.
Sariel
- Sariel has some sexy lines, but it is 100% creepy since we don’t know each other. - I figured he was my type. Sadistic. Devil-type. The way they do it is he says some pretty unnatural things that imply violence and madness. Disciplinarian. He’s extra and kind of unbelievable and way too handsy in a way that makes him come off shady, but I’m here for the sadistic disciplinarian ride.
-I was looking forward to the contrast between Sariel and Rio, someone who makes you serve and someone else who loves to serve, so I’m here for that contrast. Yves
- No, I don’t appreciate you insulting me every second. He seems like a dainty tsun, so not really my type off the bat.
- However, something tells me his story might be surprisingly moving and relatable? Kind of like Ikevamp Mozart or Ikerev Jonah. Very prim condescending characters who reveal relatable insecurities and standards. Characters that reveal more in their routes than as NPCs.
Luke
- I’m not into big kind guys, but he’s honestly a breath of fresh air. I like that he’s not an active flirt, but what he says is just extra friendly so it comes off flirty. He’s the tallest and is compared to a bear. He doesn’t want to be king. So he seems like someone who will just be nice. I like that he’s super not into the drama and tries to get away from it and discourages it.
Jin
- He’s not my type either. He’s the eldest brother, so he has this knowing air about him all the time like nothing surprises him. But he’s just an observer and commenter so far, doesn’t really interfere. He’s more cool like IkeRev Ray, not an uptight brother-mom figure.
Licht
- Not my type either. Reminds me of IkeRev Harr and Luke. Just really quiet at first so it’s hard to say. He might be the most normal though of all the brothers. Similar to Luke, where he wants to stay out of the drama, but much more taciturn and grumpy about it.
Nokto
- He’s my type. Constantly trying to get in your pants. But he’s coming off kind of cheesy and just nonstop horny to me. Idk, I like seductive enticing dialogue, and I lose interest when it goes past coaxing to full on pushing.
Clavis
- I was REALLY hype for Clavis. Constantly amused character. Turns out, he’s not just this puppeteer in the background. He’s a full on meddler, which I’m still into. He likes starting chaos for its own sake.
- I wonder if he’s different in other routes, but so far having started Chev’s route, I don’t like that he’s mostly here to cause chaos in all matters relating to Chev, instead of being about causing mischief in general. And I don’t like that he’s more of a prankster. I was hoping for sophisticated knowing trickster.
Chevalier
- He lays his superiority complex on SUPER thick. The payoff is supposed to be good when he goes from being utterly unimpressed with you to being obsessed with you. But it’s super disheartening to have characters that make me feel like an idiot. And it’s just how he treats everyone, not just me, but he lays it on thickest at me.
- I literally only like this dude because he’s got that regal IkeSen Kenshin gaze and black fur-lined cape. My brain goes stupid for the regal fur boa, and I like that it’s black against his white color scheme because it suggests that he is the sinister brutal white of winter. So I’m here for all those metaphors.
- But he’s really extreme in how his character revolves around basically two thoughts: Love is worthless. Everyone has a use, and I don’t care about anything but the use of things.
Leon
- saved Leon for last because he’s too easily my favorite!! I’m glad I started Chev’s route because there’s no way I would have touched anyone else if I had started with Leon.
- He’s the best parts of Ikesen Masamune and Nobunaga and Ikevamp Napoleon and Leo! 
- I’m a sucker for the one character who actually cares about what I think and values it even when I underrate my own opinion. ;~;
- He’s the domestic faction in contrast to Chev the foreign faction. so already Chev is about conquest, and Leon is about doing a good job as King taking care of the people. Leon radiates power and can apply it at will, but mostly he asks first, and it’s so nice. Best of both worlds! Power and compassion!
- In a lot of his dialogue, the way he appeals to you is: “You don’t have to if you don’t want to. You don’t have to do anything that you’re not ready for. But if you do, it will be fun and life-changing. What do you say? Will you put your trust in me?” He never makes me feel bad for choosing what makes me feel safe or better. And he makes the danger option sound good because he acknowledges the danger and shifts your focus to the benefits, and you know you’ll be protected if you stay by him.
In summary...
I’m here for Leon.
I’m hopeful that Chevalier, Nokto, Sariel and Rio will scratch my itch for their tropes.
Luke and Yves surprised me. I’m open.
Lost interest in Clavis.
No interest in Jin and Licht so far.
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r6shippingdelivery · 4 years ago
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Fuze and tachanka or some other operators on the base find out about glaz' and kapkans relationship and seem really against it and homophobic and all that shit but turns out it was all just a big misunderstanding, either they though one was cheating on the other or kapkan was being abused(?) Cause of all the.. *cough* love bruises on his hips and shit Idk
That’s an interesting idea 🤔 I do have an idea planned for the cheating misunderstanding, for a fic involving poly!Spetsnaz, so since I didn’t want to re-use a similar premise, I chose to go with the “suspected abuse” one. It’s a really out there idea, and I’m a bit nervous about the result. It already got longer than I planned, since I was aiming for a snippet under 1k and this is around 2k 😅
You can read the story here in AO3 too!
Coming out to their teammates didn’t go as expected. First of all, it was an accident. Glaz knew Kapkan was uncomfortable with the idea, and while he was of the opinion they couldn’t hide forever, for the time being he agreed to keep their relationship a secret. That they ended up kissing in front of all their friends was an accident, a miscalculation they blamed on the alcohol.
It happened during poker night, which had become sort of a weekly tradition. Bets were made, drinks flowed freely, and in general their guard was low. After all, most of the people in the room were their friends, there was no reason for them not to relax. 
At one point, Bandit tried to get Kapkan into some silly bet. Glaz wasn’t sure about the specifics, he’d been too busy trying to determine if Thermite was bluffing or not. He only heard the last part of the conversation, with Bandit saying that if he won, Kapkan would have to kiss Glaz. It was almost endearing how Kapkan’s friends were trying to set them up, albeit clumsily. 
Then, to everyone’s bafflement, Kapkan replied, “I don’t need a shoddy excuse to kiss moy dorogoy.”
After which he grabbed Glaz by the neck of his shirt and kissed him. The sniper was confused, because while feeling Kapkan’s lips on him was always a delight, he also knew this went against the hunter’s wish to keep their relationship a secret.
Predictably, the room exploded: hooting, clapping, incoherent screaming... everyone seemed delighted by this development - probably because of the betting pool they had going on, as Glaz learnt later. The only ones looking glum were Fuze and Tachanka. Glaz wasn’t naïve enough to think they would be totally fine with it from the get go, but he hoped they would eventually see reason. Despite the prevalent attitudes in Russia, neither of them had struck him as particularly bigoted. 
Maybe they were worried about what it could mean for the team, if this would cloud his or Kapkan’s judgement during a mission. So, for the time being, he put those concerns aside and enjoyed the rest of the evening playing cards, while an unusually affectionate Kapkan sat by his side.
Next morning Kapkan groaned and cursed when remembering how he accidentally outed them, but after the kiss and then going to sleep in Glaz’s room there was no backtracking now. The secret was out, and everyone seemed okay with it. Mostly. Tachanka and Fuze didn’t comment on it, but at least they acted as always around them. Well, around Kapkan. Glaz could swear their demeanor was warm with Kapkan and considerably colder around him. Which made no sense to Glaz.
For the rest of the week, he observed how both Fuze and Tachanka seemed to be fine with Kapkan yet became more guarded and silent around Glaz. There was also the fact they seemed to keep him away from the hunter. Tachanka often coming to snatch Kapkan away for some reason or another, or Fuze staying around instead of leaving the lovebirds alone. At some point he had the feeling they would forbid them to sleep in the same room if they could. None of it made any sense to Glaz. Why was he a problem in his teammate’s eyes but not Kapkan? Not that he wanted them to have a problem with the hunter too, but that one-sided distaste was really bizarre.
Glaz was a patient man, but he was also fed up with his teammates giving him the cold shoulder for no apparent reason, and decided it was time to have a talk with them. After asking around, he discovered Tachanka had taken Kapkan away for some extra training, which he wasn’t even surprised about, so he went to find Fuze instead. It was always easy to find Fuze, since he spent most of his free time in the workshop.
“Shuhrat, we need to talk.”
Fuze grimaced at that, maybe because he knew what this was about, or maybe because Glaz’s expression was the complete opposite of his usual friendly demeanor.
“I wanted to talk to you too. In private.”
The walk back to the dorms was excruciating, the silence between them heavy and awkward and full of anticipation of the worst kind. Once they were back in the privacy of the Spetsnaz quarters, Fuze just looked at him, clearly uncomfortable and presumably thinking of how to breach the issue. Glaz took a way more direct approach.
“Are you going to tell me now why Sasha and you have been treating me like I spat in your food and insulted your entire family?”
“I want to say I don’t think you’re the type of person to… I said nothing until now because I wanted to have more evidence one way or another, but Sasha insisted we had to act now.”
That made absolutely no sense and Glaz was getting increasingly pissed. “What the fuck are you talking about?” 
“It started two weeks ago now, with Sasha saying how Maxim was reminding him of his sister before her own divorce, and not in a good way.” The explanation made Glaz blink, trying to process what the hell was that supposed to mean. “Maxim started to act weird, refusing to use the communal showers, always wearing those damn hoodies of his zipped up almost to his face. There were also the injuries, the sprained wrist, the busted lip. He never explained those, deflected the questions, you know? And Sasha… during their sparrings he noticed how Maxim sometimes limped a little, and the bruises hidden by the clothing.”
While Fuze talked, Glaz had literally felt how a burning cold fury grew as he realised what was being implied. The sheepish look from Fuze at the end did nothing to ease the rage threatening to overflow.
“You really thought, even for a moment, I am the kind of man to abuse their partner?” He hissed, slowly losing his composure the more he thought about it. Because beneath the anger, he was devastated that one of his closest friends would entertain such an idea. “Is that what you’re fucking implying, that you thought I was hitting Maxim?”
“I didn’t believe that!” Fuze shot back, agitated. “Sasha was convinced there was something weird going on, and we both know he’s not reasonable when he goes in protective mode. After we found out about you two, I suggested we wait a few more days, see how things went.”
“And what’s your verdict now, hm? What do you have to say?”
“I think Max has been acting weird, but I’ve seen how you two are around each other too,” Fuze sighed. “And I’m not sure you even realise how in love you both look.”
An uncomfortable silence filled the room, both glaring at the ground instead of looking at each other.
“Why didn’t you come to me with your doubts?” Glaz’s voice was small, still laden with anger but letting the hurt shine through. “Why avoid me if you were convinced of my innocence?”
“Because I had no idea what to say or how to apologize! Hey Timur, sorry I was cold with you, I thought Max might be in an abusive relationship, but then we found out you’re together and now I feel like an idiot, how’s that as a conversation starter?”
“Well, it would have been better than saying nothing!” 
“You’re right. I didn’t want to fuck up and I think I ended insulting you even worse. I’m sorry.”
Glaz nodded, silently accepting the apology. “About Maxim’s sprained wrist, do you remember how he boasted about swinging The Caber? Guess who ended up putting ice on his swollen wrist that night. The busted lip was from training, he didn’t tell me the details, so I assume it was an embarrassing and completely preventable accident he doesn’t want to disclose. As for the marks and bruises he hides, well. Couples fuck.” He felt a vindictive surge of satisfaction upon seeing Fuze blush violently, and continued his explanation despite Fuze telling him it wasn’t needed. “Sometimes I get carried away and get a bit too rough, but most of the time he’s the one asking me to mark him. Telling me to make sure he’ll feel it the next day. You should see my back, it’s like a wild animal scratched me. And you know how Max is, very private and weirdly shy about personal stuff. I guess he avoided the communal shower because he didn’t want people gossiping about the marks”
Ironically, that was exactly what happened. Kapkan would not be pleased if he learnt about it. In fact, if he learnt about this ridiculous situation about an abusive relationship, the hunter would raise hell. Glaz was quite sure he might even end up punching someone, most probably Tachanka.
“I’m sorry I acted like an idiot, and I’ll make sure Sasha realises he’s being an idiot too,” Fuze said again, looking truly remorseful. “You realise that if it had been you, or me, acting like that, Sasha would have done the same, right? He’s protective of all of us, even if he acts before thinking.”
“I know,” Glaz sighed. “I’m still pissed at him., though.”
With the air cleared, the unpleasant atmosphere was mostly gone, although Fuze acted like he wasn’t sure of how their friendship stood after that. Glaz wanted to reassure him they were still friends, but it could wait until tomorrow. He needed time to process everything first. It had been an extremely emotionally taxing conversation.
He retired to his room, ready to work through his feelings through painting, as he tended to do. Judging by how it was coming along, all jagged lines criss-crossing to hide the pattern beneath, Glaz was sure it wouldn’t be one of his best works, but at least it did its job to help him clear his mind. He was almost done when Kapkan barged into the room without even knocking.
“Timur, holy shit, you won’t believe the weird conversation I had with Sasha,” Kapkan said, a worried frown adorning his face.
“What happened?” Glaz was sure it wouldn’t beat his conversation with Fuze, at worst it would be on the same level, but then he doubted Kapkan would be so calm about it.
“I think Sasha might have a crush on me? He kept asking about our relationship, how long I’ve been dating you, and trying to talk about our sex life. He said I deserve someone who would love and worship me.” At this point, Glaz broke out laughing, Kapkan’s horrified expression making it even funnier. “Don’t laugh, I’m being serious! He was also weirdly hostile when talking about you, I don’t like it.”
“Don’t worry, I’ll talk with him and set things right. I’m sure it’s just a misunderstanding,” Glaz replied, knowing what was Tachanka’s problem, and how it would stop being an issue soon.
“Hmm,” Kapkan wasn’t convinced, that much was clear. “I’ll go with you and make sure he doesn’t act too much like an idiot.”
“I think you’ll be surprised, he might be reasonable.”
Kapkan narrowed his eyes. “Are we talking about the same Sasha?”
Glaz chuckled, because Kapkan was right. Tachanka was usually stubborn and hardheaded, but this time Glaz had information Kapkan didn’t know about. And for now, he wasn’t sure it would be a good idea to tell him. Painting finished, he put the brushes aside and cleaned his hands with a rag.
“Enough about Sasha. We haven’t had much time for ourselves this week, how about we make up for it?” Glaz tilted his head towards the bed, and Kapkan took the hint instantly, grabbing his hands and dragging Glaz to the bed with him. 
Tomorrow there would be fresh marks on both of them, but he didn’t care. It was not a crime to leave a hickey or two on his lover, and part of Glaz wanted to see his teammate’s reaction.
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wordscanburnarchive · 5 years ago
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@saraqxeen​​   𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎𝚍  𝚏𝚘𝚛  𝚊  𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚛   ♡
Biting on the inside of her cheek ,  Peyton   l e a n s   on the table and cranes her neck to look back to the tablet .  She really didn’t consider herself an   impatient  person ,  yet she finds her fingers  drumming  against the table as she waits for Sara to read .  Will that speed up the process ?  No .  Will it guarantee that she’ll  help  ?   Also no .  Pursing out her lips ,  she curls her fingers into a fist against the table in attempt to  S T O P  the impatient    t i c k ,    glancing between the tablet and the other’s face before she finds herself unable to keep  quiet  any longer .  It could have been two minutes for all she knew ,  but it sure felt like it was at least  thirty  .                     ‘           So what do you   think ?            ’                   she asks .
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lideria · 5 years ago
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Lost in Yesterday. | Jeno (POV shift)
Request: helllooo!! i just read lost in yesterday and it so heart-wrenchingly beautiful that i must ask; is it possible for you to make the same fic but in jeno's point of view?
Author’s Note: I tried and I’m not mad at it! Keep in mind that I’ve done a write-the-same-fic-but-from-a-different-pov thing for the first time ever in my life, I’m suggesting you take this piece with a pinch of salt please and thank you! Plus, this was kind of hard to write? As in, I had a clear vision of Jeno’s character and feelings but when it came to expressing them it was really difficult. (and that’s on my alexithymia lads)
Important: If you want this piece to fully make sense, I’d highly suggest you read the reader’s pov and the backstory.
Warnings: Swear words, brief mentions of suggestive themes, mentions of war, mentions of heartbreak, mentions of family distress/unhealthy relationship, themes of manipulation, themes of confusion. English is my second language so there might be errors, please let me know if there is more that I should add!
Word Count: 4.003 again, like the first part, idk why but that’s so satisfying to me.
Genre: MUCH ANGST SUCH WOW, royal!au, rivalkingdoms!au, loverstoenemies!au
Hope you all enjoy it, loves! And anon, I hope this lives up to your expectations! Stay safe and healthy, and take care of yourselves for me 💚
Jeno gets done with writing his notes down with an exhausted breath through his nose.
The conference is stretching out and it is only the first day out of the three. There are demands from every monarchy aimed towards him and his rule. Every single letter that leaves his mouth is a step on the mighty thin ice that is the peace between the nations, one that must be protected at all costs, and he recognizes that. And he tries to meet everybody’s needs and wants. Figures that is the least he can do to ensure the continuity of this peace.
But in reality, he knows most people in the room would like to tear his monarchy apart in pieces if they were given the opportunity. That intimidates him even though he tries to hide the fact that it does.
As years go on after the war he expects the requests to get lighter. But they do not— if anything, they get heavier and even more challenging to provide. Even though he gets further into his life as the primary ruler and collects more experience.
And if there is anybody that gives him a particularly difficult time, it is you.
He has to watch you every year. He has to watch you stand up from your seat and take a deep, heavy breath as you link your hands and shut your eyes momentarily before proceeding with your speech. He has to see you do anything and everything to avoid looking at him as you speak up about what the monarchies and the governments must do to ensure the safety of peace the upcoming year, word out your opinion on the political problems that are the agendas for the session and your share of possible solutions that are up for a debate, and see the way you look forward frozen in place as you talk about the matters that regard his kingdom specifically. Even when you talk about the espionage, and the soldier you still could not hand over to his rule since his judicial process was yet undecided, you would not look at him. Never. Not a single time in years.
Yet, he cannot take his eyes off of you. Not for a single second, watching you as you act like the powerful and strong monarch he always knew you would come to be. It makes him proud.
The only thing— person— that pisses him off is the King. The man that took your hand in eternal marriage months, almost a year ago now, that was once your personal guard. The King that was once his friend, the only man outside royalty and his staff that he could share a laugh with, as well as a heart-to-heart conversation. Jeno does not hate him. But he hates the fact that Donghyuck gets to sit next to you and deliver speeches with you in this conference, and he hates that he can do it so well— matching your, a person who was born into the royal world, level of knowledge and confidence after such a short amount of training and education when Jeno had to pave the way for himself with his nails and teeth from day one. He hates that he gets to eat with you and see you from the moment you awake to the moment you go to sleep.
But when he finishes taking his notes and the conference goes into a break with the tired sighs leaving nearly everyone’s mouths, he can see you make your way to the doors opening to the balcony after a couple of words with your husband. Who, to his great surprise, does not accompany you because, to his great pleasure, a representative starts speaking to him.
Jeno knows this would be the right moment to talk to you. To tell you. Because you deserved to know.
So he follows you promptly, grooming his attire before making his way out.
The palace guards open the door for him, and he can already spot you, leaning on the parapet slightly. Your hair sways with the ocean breeze. He takes a second, not more nor less, to watch the way it does, because it is the most peaceful sight he has seen in a long time.
And then he walks over to you with his hands placed on his back. There is a growing tension as he does, he can feel it, but he feels fine. He is in control of every atom in his body. You, not so much. He can basically see the way you stiffen up when he stands beside you.
So he tries to ease you into the conversation. Jeno puts a smile on his face, partly because he finally gets to talk to you after all the years. “It’s a pretty day here,” The contentment is apparent through his words. He does his best at trying to sound welcoming but it still feels weird to be talking to you directly after all this time.
“It is.” Your voice sounds colder than the winter nights he spent traveling through the roads to get to you and your secret meetings. The signal gets across— you do not want anything to do with him. Hell, you sound more enthusiastic in the conference room doing politics.
Jeno knows you do not want to have anything to do with him. If it ever came to your defense, you had made that much sure when you spit the words take your men and never come back with all the disappointment and spite onto his face years ago, on that faithful night that ultimately caused all of this to happen according to the butterfly effect. But he does not give up on the opportunity to speak to you. Even if it will make you feel uncomfortable.
Because he knows how it feels when you do not get the news beforehand.
With a breath for starters, he turns his head to face your profile. You look so familiar, he smiles. “I need to tell you something, if you would hear me out.”
Either his words hold a weight to them heavier than he would ever like to make them out to be or you are so sick of him that you want him out, out of this area of peace or out of this world; out of your eyesight and out of your heart and mind because the way you breathe is almost concerning. That is, if he had not known you like the back of his hand still. You nod, and Jeno sees your eyes fixed on the harbor, where a carrier ship is being loaded. He can remember setting foot onto the pier during the war with his father.
It was the very place his father had smiled to him genuinely for the first time, and had landed his heavy hand on his shoulder, before telling Jeno how proud he was of him and his strength. He remembers having actual conversations during dinner for once, about what they would do with the land and how they would develop the towns and such without his father shutting him up even once. That very harbor was the first place Jeno’s father had listened to him and what he wanted. The first place he had acknowledged him as his son that needs to be heard rather than the Prince who needs to be educated and trained until he is perfect, and it was not even their home.
And then Jeno had given the city up as an area of peace once the war had ended shortly after his father’s passing. It seemed like the right thing to do although he knew his father would not have liked it.
Lost in the nostalgia of everything, the need to look into your eyes grows bigger. “Can you look at me as you hear me out then?”
Although he is very impatient, he relaxes the words as he speaks them out. He wants you to know that he respects your choice, even though love is not prominent in whatever it is the two of you have. And if your choice happens to be pretending like he is not there as you let him speak to you, that is fine too.
But you turn your face to look at him. Like the good monarch you are. Ready to face the past and the present and, as being a monarch demanded, the future.
But he sees something falter immediately. Truthfully, he sees many things falter immediately. He sees doubt and longing and nostalgia that is much like the one he had been experiencing just now. The look in your eyes are like ancient ruins to him: it looks so familiar, he knows what it means, yet it is impossible to make it into what it once was. Jeno chuckles even though he tries to help himself not to, because he sees it.
There is some sort of care in you for him still. Even after everything.
He almost feels this giant lightness, something so big it can swallow him whole, wash over him, but he brings himself back to the world so quickly that it is like the feeling never even existed. If anything, this made things harder to tell.
It is a pity that he cannot bring himself to care all that much, but he internally justifies it by telling himself you had not showed him half the mercy he has been showing you, months ago. “I’m to be wedded this winter.”
Shock covers your eyes. The kind that tells him you are clearly dumbfounded. But that only lasts for a few seconds before he sees it shift into hurt, and your breath hitches as the look in your eyes shifts. “Oh.”
The shaky response pulls a string on his heart only you can pull and it is hard to not give into it; maybe, just maybe, he would have given into it, had you not turned your face away from him back to the harbor before he could. It gets him feeling somewhat angry, though. He was being considerate of you, and he was being considerate of what you two had in the past, and he was being considerate of your right to know. All three of which you had not been considerate of when it was him that should have listened to you, and now you would not even face him after facing him. After showing him you can do it. He cannot understand that. “With all due respect, your Majesty, haven’t you been married for months now? I cannot understand your response,” He calls you out with every bit of frustration in him, laughing lightly in the hypocrisy you seem to be showing. “Especially when I’ve taken the time to tell you about it.”
“Everything was over with, I wasn’t obliged to tell you.” Your attacking defense comes just as he finishes what he is saying, but he can tell that even you do not believe yourself all that much. There must have been a mutual respect. Jeno would like to believe that you too had loved him magically and wonderfully like he feels he had loved you, and if you did, then there should not have been an excuse for him to not know until it happened.
With his own fair share of hurt now, he turns to look back at the town he once ruled, with his once-lover. But he does not dare drop his hands, or his shoulders, or his smile— like his father had taught him. If you stand straight enough, you will be strong. If you keep your head high enough, you will be stronger. And if you smile long and hard enough, nothing and no one will be able to break you, my son.
As he looks down he wonders if the shoemaker remembers him, because he is wearing his shoes today. Actually, he is wearing the pair that used to be his father’s. He had never used them or cherished them the way his son did, whereas Jeno had made sure he wore them until they lost any shape they held.
“Who are they?” His ear perks a bit at your question, and he looks at you from the side of his eyes, smile widening ever so slightly. “A princess,” He figures you would like the answer instantly. “From one of the state kingdoms. You must’ve seen her at least once, but I hardly think you know her name.” Maybe you did, but he would not bother telling you. You would be learning about her soon enough.
“Do you love her?”
Everything stops. You stop breathing, his heart momentarily stops beating, the world seems to halt.
Do I love her the way I loved you? No. Never. That is really hard to do, and for that matter, I do not think I will ever be able to love someone like I loved you. I may have kissed her, but never have I once ever got the same sparkling feeling on my lips or the warm feeling in my chest like I did with you. I may have hugged her, but not once did I feel like she would be able to catch me the way you did if I fell. I may have sobbed in front of her, but I never gave her the key for the lock on my mouth and just let her hug me into her chest as I kept everything inside— sometimes you inside. I may have danced with her, but only because she makes it easy to dance with the way she moves around. I may have let her sob in front of me and listened to her struggles, but no matter how hard I tried, I could not listen to her struggles as deeply as I had done with yours. I may have shared my body with her, and accepted hers, but only because she is in love with me and has told me herself that she is ready to accept me the way I am; once too in love to ever be in love again. But I care about her enough to take her hand in marriage and have children with her, because she might be the only one to love me ever again, and I respect her for it. “I presume we can say that. She’s the bearer of my child— the heir to my throne, after all. That must mean something.”
Jeno only looks at you again because of the deep, aching breath you take and the intense inhaling sound it makes. Your face is once again turned away from him, not even looking at the harbor anymore, just anywhere but him. Your body shivers only for a short amount of time, maybe a few seconds, before it stops and when it does, he can see your eyes from the side.
He knows that look. He would know that look anywhere at anytime, even if he forgot his own name. It is the same look you had given him when you looked at him for the last time. Hurt, broken, betrayed and so, so disappointed. And this time you would not look at him. “We could have been amazing.”
The way you say it, and the way your head tilts slightly in disappointment before going back to how it was, makes Jeno feel like a monster.
Because he feels the same way. You really could have been amazing.
He could have been the one to properly ask you to marry him, because with Donghyuck he was sure you had asked first, even though he once asked you in private, and you had asked him also. He could have been the one to hold your hands at the altar and to tell you he would love you day and night and in sickness and health and would have meant it. He could have kissed you in front of the thousands of guests, he could have been the one prompting the thunderous applause that followed, the one that he had learned from one of his close friends that cared enough to call him to tell him about it— your wedding. He could have cried after seeing you in your beautiful attire.
Jeno could have taken the oath with you. He could have taken a knee before you with the cape around his shoulders and the crown on his head. He could have hosted many royal balls with you, to dance with you again and again until you hated dancing. He could have gotten lost with you in palace gardens to reminisce the old days. He could have imagined the idea of having heirs with you, and he could have grown old with you.
He could have made you happy. He could have taken you to the forests he knew you loved more than anything, he could have played snow fights with you in the never-ending snow, he could have gotten lost in the library countless times with you as you read novels. He could have played guitar to you, and serenaded you with moonlight hitting your cheeks. He could have dragged you to the palace kitchen and the two of you could have made your own meals with all your staff, making them laugh with the way you act— dancing, singing, laughing, smiling, kissing, putting sugar instead of salt, stupidly in love— and at the end you could have had grand meals with your staff and their families. Could have established a festival celebrating your love and the unity of the two of the biggest reigns.
But that is the point. These are things that could have happened. Amazing is something the two of you could have been, not what you were supposed to be. He had his duties, and he had his family, and he had his people that he had to protect. The same went for you. And during the war, your stances were different from one another.
So it was maybe for the best that what once was ended when it did. Maybe, if what could have been  actually came to be, it would have gone worse, like his father had suggested him. Maybe the two of you would have used one another, like his father had suggested him. Maybe you would betray him, like his father had suggested him— and you did, because you acted like he never existed. Did not tell him anything, did not look at him, threw your experiences out the window just like that.
Maybe, just maybe, his father was right.
Yet, if he was, why did Jeno feel like the world was against him and he was all alone? Truly, and utterly alone, save for the soon-to-be queen?
He watches a tear run down your cheek, and sees you biting at your lip, and he thinks why? Why are you so upset by this? Are you really all disappointed? Did you have the right to be?
Jeno keeps on smiling. If he smiles long and hard enough, nothing will be able to break him.
The balcony doors open, and he knows who it is that is coming. This scenario has happened many times already, before he was the King but a guard, and usually he would tell you either that he had spotted royal photographers nearby and that you have to move, or that things were starting to get suspicious, anything of that sort. But now he did not know what Donghyuck might say or do, which is unsettling to him.
Without even making his presence known first, Donghyuck places a hand at your waist, and Jeno notices how you do not get surprised. “Dear,” He does not see even a bit of the discomfort on your face that you had on your face when he first approached you. Jeno is incredibly envious of that, and he must be glaring at your husband, because he turns to look at him in such a way. He can feel Donghyuck accusing him of screwing everything up yet again, and he can hear him asking what is wrong with him, what part of ‘never’ do you not understand?
Donghyuck looks at him only for a flash, but Jeno understands what he has to say.
He sees you lean against him slightly. “Shall we go inside? We can go get you something.” No, do not go yet, not now. I want to make things right with you.
If he only knew that he would never be able to do it.
You actually nod at Donghyuck without much consideration, which is almost bad enough in itself, but then you hold his hand, which seems to just emphasize everything Jeno did not like— and everything that once made him feel bad. And it infuriates him to see.
But it should not. Because he does not love you anymore. You cannot break him if he does not love you anymore.
He watches as you leave, wanting to be relieved, yet not quite able to feel that way. And he hates to admit it but there is hope in him, flickering in his chest much like a candle light in the wind, when you turn back around to him with Donghyuck.
“Send an invitation for us, too,” You say to him. Gentle and kind, and strong, despite your disappointment and hurt. Slightly, he sees you raise your chin a little to keep your composure as well, and he thinks of his father’s words. How true they are. “Our monarchs must be better than abandoning each other on their best days. Let us host you in our palace once honeymoon is over, which I hope is enough to make up for my mistake.”
It is not, he thinks. It is not enough. How do you expect me to come to your palace, where so many of our memories of love— kissing, hugging, listening to each other, seeing each other, looking deep into each other’s eyes, whispering sweet nothings and sometimes all that we know will keep the other one going, hiding from the photographers and the guards and your family and anyone who can catch us, adoring each other, cherishing each other, making love to each other, dreaming of the future will haunt the two of us, and be there with my wife that knows I will not love her fully like I did with you, and your husband that you have a deep enough relationship with that you give in to his support? How do you expect me to sit at the same table with you, knowing you told me to never come back and yet you invited me back? Knowing you would not even look into my eyes after all this time no matter how much you try? How do you expect me to look at you and see you when you will not do the same for me and expect it to be enough in return for your erasure of me and our memories?
He sees you smile, and once again you are eye to eye with him. “And if you do not, then I wish all the happiness to you and the queen, your Highness.”
You blow the flickering light in his chest.
Not your Majesty, no. You do not call him that, the title for the Kings and the Queens, and any primary rulers, but instead you call him your Highness. The title for the heirs. The name you would be calling him years ago, before he did any of what he did, before the two of you became what you have become.
You remind Jeno, with a sure and firm voice, that you do not, and you will not recognize the person he is today.
And when you turn your back and proceed with your way inside amongside Donghyuck, he cannot help himself as his shoulders drop— ruining his perfect posture for the first time since whoever knows how long.
Suddenly, Jeno cannot find it in himself to smile anymore.
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randomoranges · 4 years ago
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idk i woke up with this dumb silly idea and just had to write it. 
Christmas Shenanigans
Mid-late December 2020
 Edward doesn’t necessarily regret every action that has led him to live the last few weeks, but he really wishes he would have thought things through and realised that he was putting two pranksters together when Étienne came back and Calvin drove up a few weeks later.
 Now, he loves them both fiercely and he’s very happy that he gets to spend the holidays with them, but he had not calculated the increasingly alarming number of practical jokes both Étienne and Calvin would attempt to play on him. He’s obviously quite glad that Étienne’s mood has gone from closed off depressed lump to cheerful and teasing, no questions asked there, he had been very genuinely worried, and he’s naturally pleased to see that Calvin and Étienne are getting along, but he had not ever expected whatever truce and alliance they had formed seemingly overnight.
 Of all the stupid and childlike boyish tricks they had chosen, they had to settle on the Elf on a Shelf shenanigans and on placing mistletoe branches seemingly everywhere.
 For starters, the elf had started as just another ornament Edward had taken out of a box.
 It had never ever been meant for mischief. He had never used it as such. Calvin had never even suggested it.
 And then Étienne, his wonderful, darling, Étienne, had had the misfortune of sharing a video to the both of them of a silly elf joke some poor sap had shared on social media.
 The joke had been funny, he’ll admit that much.
 But then, as if the clogs churning in both of Étienne’s and Calvin’s head had clicked at the same time, they had looked at each other and grinned in that very mischievous way of theirs that had made Edward just a little bit weary.
 He could deal with Étienne’s wild ideas. He was well versed in Calvin’s crazy plans. But both together? Utter chaos.
 Apparently, Calvin and Étienne had agreed that the best way to honour the Elf on the Shelf tradition was to surprise Edward with the elf, somewhere, anywhere, when he least expected it, every day until who even knew when. They hadn’t gone the normal, cute way. Nope. Edward had once found the elf in the microwave, sitting on a plastic toilet, holding up a newspaper and that would have been fine, had it not been for the foul smell that came along with it. (It had only been some cleverly hidden boiled broccoli, but still.)
 Then, another time, Edward had gone to put his boots, and the damned elf had been “sleeping” in his boot. It had been like stepping on a Lego brick, but worse, somehow. (And the elf hadn’t even been damaged.)
 Another time, Edward had gone to scoop some ice cream out of the container and somehow the cursed elf had been in a plastic bag, in the container, waiting for him, plastic smile in place.
 And it went on. And on. Every day. Every god damned day, he never knew where the blasted elf would be, and every time he ended up finding it, it would be to raucous laughter from both Étienne and Calvin, who somehow or other always happened to be around when he found the elf, while he cursed and threatened to kick the both of them out. (He would never. Deep down – very deep down, he was very pleased that they were getting along, he would have just wished that they’d found something else to bond over.)
 He tried retaliating, but – he apparently lacked the ideas.  He’d even offered to form an alliance with Calvin, who had laughed in his face and Étienne had politely declined saying that his reactions were too good to pass up on.
 Rude. The both of them.
 And then.
 And then came the other thing. The blasted mistletoe branches that seemingly appeared out of nowhere. It was as if Étienne and Calvin had randomly decided to see how many times in one day they could each manage to get Edward under the sprig of greenery for a kiss.
 The first few times he’d thought it was cute. Because it had been. They’d been subtle then. Conveniently putting up a branch over the door and then calling him over. Only to be shyly told “look, mistletoe” and Edward had actually melted at it because it was sweet and cute. And of course he’d give his boyfriend a kiss.
 Until he caught on.
 Until they started getting obnoxious about it.
 And – okay, he still thought it was endearing and, honestly, he didn’t really mind. Who the hell was he to say no to kisses? His two boyfriends were perpetually finding clever ways to trap him under the mistletoe to get kisses from him. Why would he say no to that?
 The issue was – the issue was that – actually, what was his issue with that?
 The issue was that he had to keep up pretenses that he was “annoyed” because the more “annoyed” he seemed, the more gleeful Calvin and Étienne got and the crazier their next tactic was. (And honestly, it was interesting to see how far they were pushing their creativity with this.)
 So he played along.
 Until now.
 It seemed the universe was finally cutting him a break and oh, this ought to be really, really good.
 Étienne and Calvin stand beneath a sprig of mistletoe that one of them has forgotten to remove from earlier in the week and they have not realised it yet but he has. He’s a few feet away from the door where the mistletoe is and honestly, it’s a coincidence he’s even seen it.
 But this is his moment. He feels as though these past few weeks have led up to this. A glorious, crowning moment and it is his for the taking.
 “Hey,” He says and both Étienne and Calvin stop the conversation they’rehaving from the threshold of the door they’d been standing underneath and look at him, “Mistletoe!” He says, jubilant, as he points to a spot above their heads. He watches with great satisfaction as they both freeze, mirror expressions of shock on their faces, and then look up, slowly, realisation crashing onto them.
 This is pure chaotic cinema. He loves it.
 Calvin’s shock is quickly replaced by panic of some sorts as his cheeks turn bright red and he sputters his way through a sentence Edward doesn’t really quite get.
 Étienne, meanwhile, still looks surprised and a little unsure as to what he’s supposed to do next, calculating the right course of action.
 Edward stands and watches infinitively curious as to what will happen next. He’s honestly intrigued.
 “It’s just a kiss, Calvin, come on,” Étienne tells him as Calvin’s cheeks turn an even darker shade of red. “This wouldn’t be the weirdest thing ever to happen to me. Just a peck on the cheek.”
 “I – yeah, okay – yeah, cheek is fine. I’ve done that before. Heck, I kissed your cheek before as well!” He laughs, nervously, and it’s endearing, really.
 Étienne rolls his eyes and Edward is convinced that it’s even a little bit fond. “It’s tradition,” He reminds them, still very exuberant that the situation is reversed. How many times have they both told him that every time they’d managed to get him under the mistletoe? Now it’s his turn.
 “Right, tradition,” Calvin says and tries to settle his nerves.
 “Oh, come on, it’s just a peck.” Étienne says as he gets on his tippy toes and makes to pull Calvin down to get it done and over with, but then the greatest thing happens just as Étienne is about to kiss Calvin’s cheek.
 The telephone rings, startling everyone, but mostly Mercury, who barks, and her bark startles Calvin, who turns his head in the opposite direction, surprised by the noise, and so Étienne finds himself kissing Calvin on the lips as opposed to his cheek.
 Time, Edward swears, stands still for a second or maybe more.
 He had never expected this but he is not complaining. At all. (No one needs to know, thank you very much.)
 There’s a little moment of silence that accompanies this extraordinary event and when finally Étienne steps down, Calvin, if possible, looks even more flustered, while Étienne, the absolute mad man, smirks and then winks at Calvin.
 “Not bad, McCall, was that a bit of tongue I sensed at the end?”
 Edward has no idea what’s going on, but he is living for it.
 Calvin sputters and tries to regain some sort of dignity, but his entire face betrays him, “It was not! I have no idea what you’re on about, Maisonneuve.”
 Étienne laughs, that teasing laugh of his and it’s such a pleasure to have it not directed at him for once, “You know, if you wanted to make out with me you just had to ask.”
 Edward isn’t sure if this is Étienne’s go to deflection or if he’s being serious, but he’s not about to question it. Not now anyways. This is a magical moment and he does not want to ruin it.
 “Yeah – well, maybe if your lips weren’t so smooth –” Calvin cuts himself off before he can say anything more embarrassing and Étienne offers him a kinder smile.
 “It’s okay; it was just a kiss – don’t worry about it.” Calvin looks relieved, but then Étienne goes and delivers the final blow to poor Calvin’s heart, “Although, it wasn’t bad, wouldn’t say no to another, if ever,” He winks at Calvin and then saunters – Edward is convinced it’s a saunter – away and goes to find Mercury, calling her over for a walk. On the way towards the entrance, Étienne stops for a fraction of a second by him and smirks, before continuing on.
 Edward has no idea what just happened or what game Étienne really is playing at. In fact, he’s not even sure if he hasn’t just hallucinated all of this, but – he’s not about to complain.
 FIN
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fcarher · 5 years ago
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THE MEGA RP PLOTTING SHEET / MEME.
First and foremost, recall that no one is perfect, we all have witnessed some plotting once which did not went too well, be it because of us or our partner. So here have this, which may help for future plotting. It’s a lot! Yes, but perhaps give your partners some insight? Anyway BOLD what fully applies, italicize if only somewhat.
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Mun Name: slug / ellie     Age: 19       Contact: IM, discord
Character(s) I rp: Yunaeisha Adynora, other demons from my lore Which muse(s) inspires you the most atm?(for MM): Yunaeisha Current Fandom(s): None really  Fandom(s) you have an AU for:  Naruto, PKMN, Magi, Gangsta, OPM, MHA, Hazbin Hotel & currently working on an ATLA verse My language(s): german, polish, italian, english   Themes I’m interested in for rp:   Fantasy / Science fiction / Horror / Western / Romance / Thriller / Mystery / Dystopia / Adventure / Modern / Erotic / Crime / Mythology / Classic / History / Renaissance / Medieval / Ancient / War / Family / Politics / Religion / School / Adulthood / Childhood / Apocalyptic / Gods / Sport / Music / Science / Fights / Angst / Smut / Drama / etc. Themes/Genres you have an AU for: highschool, modern & fantasy/medieval
Preferred Thread length: one-liner / 1 para / 2 para / 3+ / novella. Asks can be send by: Mutuals / Non-Mutuals / Personals / Anons. Can Asks be continued?:   YES / NO   only by Mutuals?:  YES / NO. Preferred thread type: crack / casual nothing too deep / serious / deep as heck. Is realism / research important for you in certain themes?:   YES / NO. Are you atm open for new plots?:  YES / NO / DEPENDS. Do you handle your draft / ask - count well?:  YES / NO / SOMEWHAT. How long do you usually take to reply?:  24h / 1 week / 2 weeks / 3+ / months / years. I’m okay with interacting: original characters / a relative of my character (an oc) / duplicates / my fandom / crossovers / multi-muses / self-inserts / people with no AU verse for my fandom / canon-divergent portrayals / au-versions (as main or only verse). Do you post more ic or occ?:  IC / OOC. Are you selective with following others?:  YES / NO / DEPENDS.  
Best ways to approach you for rp/plotting: the best way is just to straight up approach me. most often than not, just liking a post is not enough because it’s too vague ?? like if i post an idea & you like that, i’ll still be hesitant when it comes to roleplaying or approaching you because, while i appreciate such gestures, i’m just too anxious. therefore, plopping into my IMs without a properly fleshed out idea is also fine ! it, at least, gives me the hint that you’re actively seeking interaction. however, just saying “i want to roleplay & plot !” won’t cut it; at least, have something in mind, please !
What expectations do you hold towards your plotting partner:  basic ideas & pouring their heart into plotting! i don’t mind waiting, at all, so if you’re busy, don’t worry about keeping me waiting; i completely understand since i’m also often busy with work or university. but !! please don’t only come to me with the statement: “i want to plot!” it’s not gonna cut it & it’s not gonna help with a proper interaction, at all. if i approach someone, most often than not, i have SOME sort of idea in mind. but yeah, being passionate is the most important thing!
When you notice the plotting is rather one-sided, what do you do?:  most often than not, the conversation will die down because i will loose motivation; i don’t like it because i’ll feel like a bother & i shouldn’t feel that way when it comes to a hobby! therefore, one-sided plotting is one of my deal breakers; i usually end the conversation & there will be little to no interaction happening. like i said; i don’t mind waiting, i just hate that feeling of coming on TOO strong when my plotting partner delivers no input. 
How do you usually plot with others, do you give input or leave most work towards your partner?:  often than not, i start off with rather simple question like; are you interested in a certain verse ? do you already have something in mind ? if not, i will go through their about page & ask them things about their character & how that could possibly bring our characters to interact. sometimes, the about pages of a muse cannot give you every single bit of information; muses grow & change with each thread, therefore, it’s often better to just ask the people about their characters ! & from then on, it often just comes naturally. 
When a partner drops the thread, do you wish to know?:   YES / NO / DEPENDS. - And why?: if the thread is not THAT important or vital for our character’s relationship; i don’t mind & won’t need to know if the thread is dropped. sometimes, if it’s a heavily plotted thread & i’ve anticipated the interaction a lot; i’d appreciate a quick heads-up from my partner that they’re not feeling that certain thread any longer; i don’t mind that !! - What should your partner do when dropping a thread?: they don’t need to tell me; SOMETIMES, it’s just a nice gesture but most of the time, i don’t care, we can always start another thread !!
What could possibly lead you to drop a thread?:  many things can lead to me dropping a thread; just losing motivation, having no muse for a certain genre or simply having the feeling that my partner is not liking it, any longer (ex. extreme lack of trying to match the reply length ). my health & my schedule can also, sadly, affect my motivation, so, more often than not, i tend to drop shorter threads & keep longer ones.  - Will you tell your partner?:   YES / NO / DEPENDS.
Is communication in the rpc important to you?   YES / NO. - And why?:  i get anxious really fast if people stop replying for a very long time, out of the blue. it has happened to me once before with a good friend with whom i have no contact with any longer due to miscommunication & them not trying to communicate the issue with me; therefore, yes, it is very important. i wanna know if something is bothering you; i wanna know if you like something very much; i wanna know what’s up ! we’re humans & we’re adults; we can talk about this.  - Are you okay with absolute honesty, even if it may means hearing something negative about you and/or portrayal?:  yes ! as long as it is constructive criticism & not straight-up bashing my characters or lore; i’m all for it. i don’t mind hearing negative things; in fact, i appreciate the honesty & it gives me room to work on myself & my writing ! - Do you think you can handle such situation in a mature way?  YES / NO.
Why do you rp again, is there a goal?:  building relationships that LAST & exploring my muses through & through; it is amazing how much yuna has grown through interactions with others; how different she has become from the yuna i once started out with; it’s almost been a year now & it’s just amazing. however, i’m not stopping anytime soon; THERE IS SO MUCH MORE I WANT TO EXPLORE !! the ultimate goal is for me to just look at my blog & be completely proud of what i have accomplished & written; i want fleshed out relationships & threads; deep stuff !!
Wishlist, be it plots or scenarios:  yuna talking with someone about her struggles; mentally & physically. being open about her abusive father & how it has traumatized her & painted men in the worst picture one could imagine. HOWEVER; a hard thing because i don’t want these things to be pre-est or something; i want a thread where there is struggling, screams, conflict ! it is rather hard to find someone, though, who is willing & fitting to go onto that long journey with me & yuna. also, i’d love to write about darker stuff; i love fluff, though, sometimes i sure want a bit of that, too. 
Themes I won’t ever rp / explore:  the only things i won’t rp or explore are stated in my rules; ex. pedophilia, rape & really descriptive animal abuse. killing, torture, gore as well as cheating, heartbreak or toxic relationships are okay, while i do prefer to have a deeper bond with someone while exploring the latter & be communicating the whole time; i think these are really REAL topics & that’s why i wouldn’t mind exploring them because it does happen, more than one would like them to happen. however, if i see you, the mun, glorifying or romanticizing these; just no. 
What Type of Starters do you prefer / dislike, can’t work with?: i like everything with some sort of substance; i love short ones as much as long ones, nevertheless, you have to give me something to work with. yuna would ignore anyone not of any interest or value to her; therefore, if your muse just asks her random questions, the interaction will go nowhere. if you’re unsure; just ask !!
What type of characters catch your interest the most?: i love characters with uniqueness to them; it can be a certain interest, certain appearance or their species can be totally unique to them; i’ll love it ! i do have a thing for villains, though; always had, even when i was young 8^) so, dark, stubborn & “evil” characters catch my interest far more than a really nice muse who just is all smiles all day. i love a muse that can kick mine & yuna’s ass, basically. someone with strong morals or who is just really set on their beliefs can also offer conflict which i ADORE !! i need it; i live for it !!
What type of characters catch your interest the least?:  really kind & unbothered muses who are self-sacrificing, perfect & loved by everyone for no reason ?? idk, i just think it’s bad writing. everyone has flaws; no one is perfect ! 
What are your strong aspects as rp partner?:  i am a very open person who will talk with you about anything & is keen on exploring our character’s relationship at all times & through all means; i often send my rp partners prompts in form of my yuna just being her dumb-self or through memes ! i will constantly think about our characters & will try to have them interact as much as possible. i am, most of the time, very active & respond to the threads fairly quickly ! if i am totally invested; you’ll get everything you want; a moodboard, an edit, a drawing, etc. i literally pour my heart & soul into every bond my muse has; i live for them. oh !! i also love asking people question about their characters; i just love learning new things about them !! 
What are your weak aspects as rp partner?: i’m very slow out of character; i don’t approach muns a lot because i’m scared to be a bother, working on it ! i often ramble a lot & my writing can become a bit convoluted & hard to understand, i apologize ! i tend to not message people on discord as often as i’d like to; mostly because i’m really socially awkward or just don’t think that what i want to show to them is THAT important. i’m not as straight-forward as i wish myself to be; however, even with all that; i still have a lot of fun & am acknowledging & actively working on my weak aspects ! 
Do you rp smut?:  YES / NO. Do you prefer to go into detail?:  YES / NO / DEPENDS. Are you okay with black curtain?:  YES / NO. - When do you rp smut? More out of fun or character development?:  often, it is because i want to develop the relationship or yuna’s character; she’s a very sexual being who hardly connects to someone emotionally; therefore, writing sex & exploring the vulnerability behind it can be really beautiful ! though, fun is also involved !  - Anything you would not want to rp there?:  non-consensual stuff is a no-go ! also, certain kinks that make me uncomfortable are also off the table; ex. anything involving bodily fluids other than spit. 
Are ships important to you?:   YES / NO. Would you say your blog is ship-focused?:   YES / NO. Do you use read more?:  YES / NO / SOMETIMES. Are you: Multi-Ship / Single-Ship / Dual-Ship  —  Multiverse / Singleverse. - What do you love to explore the most in your ships?:  i love the conflicts the most; clashing ideals or just two stubborn muses arguing for the heck of it is really fun & can develop the relationship beautifully ! yuna is a person who likes someone that can be properly fought with, verbally here. but of course, i also adore the very soft moments!! i love meaningless fluff; it warms my heart.  - What is your smut tag?: SINFUL.
Are you okay with pre-established relationships?: YES / NO. - And what kind of ones?: nothing TOO drastic; a friendship, a rivalry is a-okay ! however, i’m very hesitant when it comes to having pre-est. romantic relationships; though, you can quickly change my mind if you pour your soul into the plotting; then i’m fine with it ! everything that needs time when writing also needs time when plotting; don’t just straight up jump into something if you’re not able to give it your all.
► SECTION ABOUT YOUR MUSE.
- What could possibly make your Muse interesting towards others, why should they rp with this particular character of yours now, what possible plots do they offer?:  i think yuna is a person with whom it is easy to form relationships with; it takes a bit of time but due to her rather drastic ideals & opinions; anything can be founded within seconds. she doesn’t hold back when it comes to her honesty & conflicts will arise. also, for all muses with demonic or deity backgrounds; being a daughter of the literal queen of hell, though, also harboring fragments of a god’s soul makes her unique in the supernatural world which can spark interest with your character or even they can develop an ill-will towards her ? i think it’s really interesting exploring what makes one work & go on & yuna has the philosophical potential to tickle that out of your muse; she question EVERYTHING. now for certain plots; one-sided love or even friendships are always really interesting, especially when she is the one having such feelings. other than that; she has enormous & dangerous powers; so if you’re into character or world-building; can offer that as well !
- With what type of Muses do you usually struggle to rp with?:  humans; she doesn’t approach humans who are just kind & have nothing to offer for her, the least she’d do is have sex with them or kill them to harvest their life energy. i’m sorry but she really does hate all of humanity & to change that opinion ? man, you must be the most stubborn person ever.  - With what type of Muses do they usually work well with?:  characters who are of supernatural or demonic nature; she’ll be very interested & even nosy to a point. also, very attractive characters who are not afraid to speak their mind; she’s really superficial most of the time & will flirt with anything that she deems good-looking. muses who have ideals that contrast hers or that are similar to her but also, generally, people who are open-minded. 
- What interests your Muse(s) in general:  sex, parties, plants & flowers, astronomy, writing, demons & hell, the underground scene, killing, knives & playing the piano - What do they desire, is their goal?:  the questions that bother her the most are; why did her mother had to die ? why would nobody help her while she was being abused by her father ? why was she kept alive by her sisters ? is there love out there for someone like her ? what do these strange visions mean that occur almost every night ? she has a lot of things she wants to experience & wishes to have a normal life once she has killed her other mother, lilith, which is her ultimate goal, at the moment.  - What catches their interest first when meeting someone new?:  their appearance; the scent of their blood & if it differs from humans; how they react towards her & what they do in front of her.  - What do they value in a person?:    strong opinions, loyalty, good looks, humor, strength (not limited to physical strength) - What themes do they like talking about?:  herself or the world & the state of it; she likes being philosophical with some, can often be somewhat self-centered; THOUGH; it is almost always for her to see how they would react to that. 
- Which themes bore them?:  love & drama; she does not care a lot for gossip or anything relating to it; the topic of love, no matter in which sense, is always brushed off because she just doesn’t find any appeal in it. 
- Did they ever went through something traumatic?:  Being the reason her own mother committed suicide; Her father & sister abusing her all her life, spouting lies & beating her until she could stand no more while her other sisters would watch & do nothing, even though, they were supposed to support each other; laewa, one of her sisters, fancying the idea of killing yuna for the greater good; two of her best friends turning on her when they find out she’s not human & then being killed right in front of her eyes; her one & only boyfriend protecting her from a demon hunter & being killed in the process - What could possibly trigger them?:  loud sudden noises; making fun of her attachment to her late ex-boyfriend, being awfully nice to her, the sight of any dog or wolf, tender touches (esp. her back being touched), being alone with her thoughts for far too long  - What could set them off, enrage them?:  people who make fun of her & her powers; calling her a monster; not understanding her pain when she opens up; purposefully touching her back or any other scarred skin, being nosy  - What could lead to an instant kill?:  you are a demon hunter that does not show remorse when killing demons with a consciousness, trying to kill her, killing one of her comrades 
- Is there someone /-thing they hate?:  Keela Adynora, Myra Adynora (Father, Sister), the other D.O.L.s, EYES’ superiors (the organization she works for), Humans, Lilith - Is there someone /-thing they love?:  Evelin Adynora (Her biological mother)
Is your Muse easy to approach?: YES / NO. - Best ways to approach them?: If you’re not quite human or are a demon, you could literally stand next to her & be silent; she’ll become curious on her own. other than that; be interesting or flirt with her; just do something that does not involve small talk; she hates that.  - Where are they usually to find?:  strip club (her workplace), bars, clubs, clearings within a forest, nice areas that are full of trees & plants; a roof-top
Something you may still want to point out about your muse?:  Yuna is basically pandora’s box personified; she may seem nice & attractive from the outside but within her are sleeping demons that only wait to be awakened. & withal, she is still a cutie who will become your number one supporter & protector if you manage to build a proper relationship with. it’s hard to get through that shell & what awaits is NOT that pretty but with years upon years of abuse, neglect & shit being thrown her way; it’s not easy being a carefree immortal. 
CONGRATS!!! You managed it, now tag your mutuals! ♥
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