#* 𝆕 . . . v: 06. / you get your dreams for free. 𝄒

[deatheless]

@curseplay sent: who do you think we were to each other in our past lives? / accepting.

❛ ooh, ❜ mina giggles, cheek pressing against paris' as her voice takes on an airier tone, ❛ historians would call them besties, for sure. ❜ her words are punctuated by a dramatic flourish of her arm, before she laughs again, dropping it by her side to wrap around her girlfriend's waist. her expression turns properly thoughtful, then, and she rests her chin on their shoulder, humming softly as she thinks. it's a nice thought, isn't it? to have known each other even before all of this. when she speaks next, you can hear the smile in her voice.

❛ maybe ... maybe i was a busy princess, and you were the brave knight i would watch from the windows. ❜ she tilts her face into their neck, lips pressing against the skin in a gentle kiss before she lifts her head with another soft laugh, lost in the daydream. ❛ or we were high society women, learning how to sew and talking about the newest jane austen together, ❜ fingers brush down their bicep, down their arm, until they reach their hand, and mina laces their fingers together. ❛ or maybe we just went to school together, and sat in front of each other in english class, and thought about saying hi. ❜

she didn't know paris thought about stuff like this — which means she was probably joking. and all things considered, mina's not sure she really believes in this kind of stuff either, but that doesn't mean it's not fun to think about. picturing their old-timey selves dancing around each other, swooping in and out of time and somehow always finding each other. like some kind of dream.

❛ i dunno, really, ❜ she says, finally, voice softer as she brushes her thumb across paris' knuckles, ❛ but i'd like to think ... if all this stuff is real, that we knew each other. you're too special to not be there for every version of me. ❜ mina buries her face into the crook of her neck, arm tightening around her middle as her voice dips to a sweet murmur. ❛ i think we'll know each other in the next one, too. ❜ even if she's not quite sure how this life — if you can even call it that, anymore — is going to go. that's not on her mind right now, though.

because what really matters is ... ❛ i know i'm lucky, though. 'cause you're here for this one. ❜

[irisofmyi]

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Antenne Vorarlberg Chillout Lounge (August 27, 2023)

23:59 Sven Van Hees - Ocean Jive 23:55 Moguai, Vize, Anna Grey - You're Not Alone 23:52 Vievie - Sea Roses 23:44 Boral Kibil, Mahmut Orhan - Herneise (Original Mix) 23:41 Goldfish Feat. Nate Highfield & Dan Silver - Forever Free 23:38 Nora En Pure - Fibonacci 23:34 Alejandro De Pinedo - Raindrops 23:27 John Kah - Carina (Enui Remix) 23:24 Consoul Trainin Feat. Steven Aderinto & Duoviolins - Obsession 23:18 Mic Max - Como El Viento 23:15 Dennis Kruissen Feat. Liza Flume - Another Soul 23:11 David Guetta, Robin Schulz, Cheat Codes - Shed A Light (Blank & Jones Remix) 23:08 Nancy Sinatra - Bang Bang (My Baby Shot Me Down) 23:00 True & Berger - Imprint Of Pleasure 22:57 Blank & Jones - Summer Sky 22:50 Rodriguez Jr. Feat. Liset Alea - What Is Real 22:47 Alok & Timmy Trumpet - Underwater Love (La Vision Remix) 22:43 Lemongrass - Angel Wings 22:37 Deep Dive Corp. & Setsuna - Transatlantic 22:34 Robin Schulz Feat. Alida - In Your Eyes 22:30 Sway Gray Vs. Sal De Sol - Crosses 22:28 Lost Frequencies & Elley Duhé - Back To You 22:26 Srtw & Mave Feat. Sønlille - Last Train Home 22:22 In Lonely Majesty - Sing In The Dark - Alle Farben Remix 22:18 Above & Beyond Feat. Zoe Johnston - We're All We Need 22:13 Anrey - Lost Lands (Extended Mix) 22:07 Schiller - Harmonia 22:04 Sum Wave - Passing Clouds 22:01 Ypey - Life Time 21:58 George Geccoo Feat. Maik Pinto - Dolce Vita 21:55 Tom Staar & Cedric Gervais - Playing Games (Mixed) 21:50 De-phazz - Anchorless 21:47 Twisted Harmonies Feat. Mougleta - You & Me 21:43 Sofi Tukker X Mahmut Orhan - Forgive Me 21:40 Disciples - On My Mind 21:36 The Alan Parsons Project - Old And Wise 21:28 Doyeq & Jay Medvedeva - Break Into My Walls (Armen Miran & Hraach Remix) 21:23 Nor Elle - Dubsolution 21:17 Dale Anderson Feat. Anil Chawla - Pimento Grove 21:13 Viva La Panda & Finding Molly - Bring It On (La La La) 21:09 Kygo Feat. Maty Noyes - Stay 21:06 Robin Schulz & David Guetta - On Repeat 21:03 Alan Walker Feat. Gavin James - Tired 21:00 Klingande, Wrabel - Big Love 20:56 Nora En Pure - Dry Sobbing 20:50 Bent - I Love My Man 20:47 Munich Monstrs - Shine 20:44 Jan Blomqvist & Bloom Twins - High On Beat (Sofi Tukker Remix) 20:40 Serafim Tsotsonis - Small 2 20:37 Kungs Feat. Jhart - Dopamine 20:33 Sound Nomaden - The Morning After 20:28 Evadez - Caught In The Crowd (Original Mix) 20:27 Above & Beyond - Quieter Is Louder (Original Mix) 20:23 Nora Van Elken - Sumatra (Lstn Remix) 20:21 Lost Frequencies & Zonderling - Crazy 20:15 Beyhude - Terso 20:08 Jan Blomqvist - The Space In Between 20:06 James Carter & Ofenbach Feat. James Blunt - Can't Forget You 20:02 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Kings & Queens 19:56 Groovecatcher - Angel Of Nature 19:53 Gibbs - Waiting For Lonely 19:50 Lost Frequencies X James Arthur - Questions 19:46 Enya - Caribbean Blue (Remastered 2009) 19:43 Cotone - Faded Glory 19:38 Pete Tong & Tale Of Us Feat. Jules Buckley - Time 19:35 Regard & Raye - Secrets 19:32 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Jake Reese - Need You Now 19:27 Schiller - Der Goldene Engel 19:19 Klangwald - Sadame 19:17 Nora Van Elken - Heaven Is A Place On Earth 19:13 Ultravox - Dancing With Tears In My Eyes 19:10 Nora En Pure & Lika Morgan - In The Air Tonight (Sons Of Maria Remix) 19:03 Beyhude - Akasha 18:58 Themba & Nico De Andrea Feat. Tasan - Disappear 18:55 Vize & Leony - Dolly Song (Devil's Cup) 18:52 Shouse - Won't Forget You 18:47 Nick Sinckler, Lukas Termena - Get Up (Original Mix) 18:43 Mandala Dreams - Mirror Lake 18:39 Nora En Pure - Tantrum 18:36 Gabriel & Castellon - Es Vedra (Touch & Go Radio Mix) 18:33 Felix Jaehn, Cheat Codes Feat. Bow Anderson - I Just Wanna 18:30 Tinlicker & Helsloot - Because You Move Me 18:25 Chicane - No Ordinary Morning 18:21 Pretty Pink Feat. Mark V - Don't Dance 18:16 Depeche Mode - Home 18:10 New Age Kings - Illusion (Instrumental Remix) 18:04 Tebra - Suton 18:01 Bob Marley - Sun Is Shining 17:57 Sunnery James & Ryan Marciano - Let It Lie 17:54 Zoe - C'est La Vie 17:51 Patchy - Friend (Original Mix) 17:48 Blank & Jones - Swept Away 17:43 Thomas Lemmer & Andreas Bach - Embracing Love 17:40 David Guetta Feat. Sam Martin - Dangerous 17:34 Good Guy Mikesh Feat. Filburt - Place Of Love (Mp Edit) 17:32 Felix Jaehn & The Stickmen Project Feat. Calum Scott - Rain In Ibiza 17:28 Mark Brown - The Journey Continues (Acoustic Version) 17:25 Panama, Satin Jackets - The Future 17:19 Ian Pooley - Stonyridge Terrace 17:15 Nora En Pure - Life On Hold 17:12 L'imperatrice - Peur Des Filles (Montmartre Remix) 17:08 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Ost - Lost Souls (Nora En Pure Remix) 17:06 Kygo, Paul Mccartney & Michael Jackson - Say Say Say 17:02 Armin Van Buuren & Garibay - Phone Down 16:57 Mahoroba - Soft Breeze (On Air Mix) 16:53 Mousse T. - Boyfriend (Alle Farben Remix) 16:50 Wave Wave Feat. Evie - Real 16:47 Dynoro Feat. Gigi D'agostino - In My Mind 16:45 Wave Wave Feat. Lena Sue - Repeating 16:42 Leony - Faded Love (Noøn Remix) 16:36 Sherrie Lea - No Ordinary Love (Arnold T Chill Mix) 16:32 Alok Feat. John Martin - Wherever You Go 16:29 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Void 16:26 Blank & Jones Feat. Zoe Durrant - Erase Rewind 16:23 Cyrillic Feat. Lara - Zero Gravitation 16:19 The Alan Parsons Project - Lucifer 16:16 Rene Rodrigezz & Tristan Henry - Let Me Go 16:13 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Angel Taylor - Make It Right (Trinix Remix) 16:09 The Chainsmokers & Coldplay - Something Just Like This 16:06 Majestic & Boney M. - Rasputin 16:04 Kamrad - Feel Alive 16:00 Xillions - Somebody Like Me 15:56 Golden Tone Radio - Glück 15:52 2raumwohnung - Wir Werden Sehen (Paul Kalkbrenner Remix) 15:48 Kinobe - The Green Piano 15:45 Blank & Jones - Alone In This Rhythm 15:38 Jazzanova - Bohemian Sunset 15:34 Fritz Kalkbrenner - Good Things 15:30 Robin Schulz - Above The Clouds 15:27 Sam Feldt Feat. Deepend & Teemu - Runaways 15:25 The Alan Parsons Project - The Turn Of A Friendly Card 15:19 Deep Dive Corp. Feat. Dennis Le Gree - Water 15:15 Sonic Adventure Project - Waters In Motion 15:11 Christopher Von Deylen - Infinity 15:07 Nore En Pure - In Your Eyes 15:03 Air - You Make It Easy 15:01 Gil Glaze Feat. Dante Thomas - West La 14:57 Claptone Feat. Dizzy - Queen Of Ice Queen Of Ice 14:53 Edx - Missing 14:49 Bronson Feat. Lau.ra - Heart Attack 14:44 Blank & Jones - Give It To Me 14:39 Rìfìs Du Sol - Alive (Anyma Remix) 14:34 Lstn - Times Of Sorrow 14:28 Hraach, Armen Miran - Aldebaran (Original) 14:21 Valeron - Jamal 14:18 Bernward Koch - Lonely Dream (Solo Piano) 14:13 Benny Royal, Dani Hageman - Tigereye 14:06 Beyhude - Rüzgar 14:04 Neptunica & Lunax - We Don't Even Talk Anymore 13:59 Badmarsh & Shri - Day By Day 13:56 Sofi Tukker & John Summit - Sun Came Up (Radio) 13:53 Jeremy Loops - Til I Found You 13:47 Bloomfield - Boulevard St. Germain 13:44 Robin Schulz - Never Know Me (Radio Mix) 13:37 Paji - Viola (Original Mix) 13:35 Paratone - Time After Time 13:32 Rita Ora - You Only Love Me 13:28 Labrinth - Jealous (Bakermat Remix) 13:25 Mike Candys - Sky (Club Mix) 13:21 Passenger 10 - Voices In Her Head 13:15 Estelle Feat. Kanye West - American Boy (Lost Frequencies Remix) 13:12 Sans Souci - Nanda 13:10 Chaël Feat Kaii - Don't Speak 13:04 Alex H - Seeking Agapism 13:00 Kygo & Sasha Sloan - I'll Wait 12:57 Glockenbach Ft. Clockclock - Brooklyn 12:52 Depeche Mode - Useless 12:50 Steve Forest, Te Pai - Never Gonna Give You Up 12:46 Gary B. - Lead Me Home 12:43 Loud Luxury And Frank Walker Feat. Stephen Puth - Like Gold 12:39 Lstn - Thoughts 12:32 Lucy Neville - Shameless 12:28 Chicane Feat. Bryan Adams - Don't Give Up 12:21 Sébastien Tellier - La Ritournelle 12:18 Zaz - Demain C'est Toi 12:11 Armen Miran Feat. Jivan Gasp - Lost Memories 12:06 Sean Hayman - See Of Love (Whisper Mix) 12:00 Schiller X Tricia Mcteague - Miracle 11:57 Trinix - Vision Deluxe 11:54 Sam Feldt - Post Malone (Feat. Rani) 11:49 Lamb - Wonder 11:43 Nora En Pure - Tears In Your Eyes (Extended Mix) 11:39 Tom Novy & Dan Le Blonde - Let's Dance (Tom Novy Remix) 11:36 Agatino Romero - I'm Feeling For You 11:31 Gary B - Let You In 11:28 Feder & Ofenbach Feat. Dawty Music - Call Me Papi 11:25 Lstn - Sky & Sand 11:18 Gregory Porter - Liquid Spirit (Claptone Remix) 11:12 Rodg - Heights 11:09 Dimitri Vegas - Pull Me Closer 11:02 Gerrit Van Der Meer - Solaris 10:58 Edx - Vommuli 10:55 Lucas Estrada & Henri Purnell & Neimy - In My Fantasy 10:48 Max Melvin - Earth Inside 10:45 Felix Jaehn Feat. Zoe Wees - Do It Better 10:42 Blank & Jones - Grown Minds 10:37 Three Drives On A Vinyl - Greece 2000 (Sebastian Davidson & Melosense Remix) 10:34 Nora En Pure - Sign Of The Times 10:30 Jan Blomqvist, Elena Pitoulis - More (Original Mix) 10:27 Edx & Amba Shepherd - Off The Grid 10:18 Christopher Von Deylen - Heaven Can Wait 10:11 Aural Float - Still Here 10:08 Deepend & Graham Candy - Belong (Deepend Edit) 10:05 Tinlicker Feat. Nathan Nicholson - Be Here And Now 10:00 Ohm-g - Hulectric Soul 09:57 Sam Feldt & Sam Fischer - Pick Me Up (Vavo Remix) 09:53 Klangperlenspiel & Puzzls - Kyoto (Wish You'd Move On) 09:50 Rita Ora Feat. Alesso - Anywhere 09:46 Tonenation - Hijo De La Luna 09:42 Bob Marley - Is This Love (Montmartre Remix) 09:39 Twopilots - Take My Breath Away 09:36 Avian Grays & Azteck - Endlessly 09:32 Michael Gray & Shelly Poole - Borderline (Lee Muddy Baker Acoustic Mix) 09:30 Lizot - Daddy Cool 09:21 Super Flu - Mygut (Solomun Remix) 09:17 Glenn Main - Message To Spain 09:14 Nora Van Elken - Okinawa 09:11 Above & Beyond - The Inconsistency Principle 09:07 Ayoe Angelica - Dr. Jekyll 09:03 Daniel Portman - Vulnerable 08:57 Twocolors - Together 08:53 Unclubbed, Zoe Durrant - Need To Feel Loved (Original Mix) 08:47 Airstream - Your Tears (Del Mar Mix) 08:42 Cinemascope - Sweetest Story 08:39 Portishead - Revenge Of The Number 08:33 Anrey - We Are The Mirrors (Extended Mix) 08:27 Mathieu & Florzinho - Maha - Amba 08:24 Laniia - Fireflies 08:18 Hraach & Armen Miran - Nowhere 08:14 Robin Schulz Feat. James Blunt - Ok 08:10 Eelke Kleijn Feat. Diana Miro - You (Frankey & Sandrino Remix) 08:07 Sum Wave - Milkyway 08:03 Wamdue Project - King Of My Castle 08:00 Karsten Kiessling Feat. Helin - Fight Like A Lion 07:56 Kygo Feat. Will Heard - Nothing Left 07:50 Placebo - Running Up That Hill 07:48 Sam Feldt Feat. Lateshift - The Riddle 07:43 Ivy - Edge Of The Ocean 07:39 Elderbrook & Bob Moses - Inner Light 07:35 Mahalo - High Life 07:30 Simple Minds - Mandela Day 07:26 Jean-michel Jarre - Equinoxe, Pt. 5 07:23 Dj Antoine & Dead-line - Shout 07:16 Lexer & Paji - Red Puddle 07:14 Möwe - Bad Intentions 07:11 Nora Van Elken - Mount Fuji 07:06 Loopaland - Born To Be Alive 07:03 Armin Van Buuren Feat. Rbvln - Weight Of The World (Feat. Rbvln) 07:00 Basixx - Stay In Your Sunlight 06:53 Tiana, Anton Ishutin - Deeply In My Soul (Original Mix) 06:50 Viva La Panda, Finding Molly - Chances 06:47 Night Cruzer - Timeless 06:42 Worakls - Caprice 06:35 Consolidation Feat. Moguai - Ode To Joy 06:28 Watermat - Bullit (Original Mix) 06:21 Nora En Pure - Cognitive Fadings (Club Mix) 06:13 Boral Kibil - Never Again (Bobby Deep Mix) 06:06 A Forest Mighty Black - Rebirth 06:02 Hein Klein & Cheyenne - Every Breath You Take 05:59 Schiller - Once Upon A Time (Cahill Remix) 05:56 Starley - Lovers Strangers 05:49 Rìfìs Du Sol - On My Knees (Oliver Schories Remix) 05:46 Topic Feat. Nico Santos) - Home (Alle Farben Remix) 05:43 Lost Frequencies - Are You With Me 05:41 Kai Schwarz, Cayus & Yass - My Love Is Your Love 05:32 Dante Klein & Jordiz Feat. Megan Brands - Life 05:28 Wim Mertens - Close Cover 05:24 Rodriguez Jr. & Liset Alea - Amplify 05:17 Nora En Pure - Oblivion (Extended Mix) 05:10 H. Garden Feat. Joi - Gentle Rain 05:05 Tebra - Istok 04:58 Boral Kibil & Gulec - Lost Language 04:55 Portugal. The Man - Feel It Still (Ofenbach Remix) 04:51 Schiller - White Nights (Don't Let Me Go) 04:47 Julian Wassermann - Painfully 04:45 Cantoma - Gambarra (Lexx Remix) 03:25 Rodg - Life Is Life (Chill Mix) 03:20 Joachim Pastor & Signum - Something You Need (Extended Mix) 03:17 Rosa Linn - Snap 03:10 Melih Aydogan - Between 03:07 Dj Antoine & Deep Vice - When You Want Some Love (Dj Antoine Vs Mad Mark 2k21 Mix) 03:04 Pascal Letoublon - Feelings Undercover 03:00 Blank & Jones - Nothing Can Come Between Us 02:54 Christopher Von Deylen - Euphoria 02:51 Moli - Cloud No9 (Montmartre Remix) 02:46 Dalibor Dadoff, Nacho Lezcano, Grabo Bakos - Sounds Like A Melody 02:43 Lost Frequencies, Zonderling & Kelvin Jones - Love To Go 02:36 Joris Voorn - Ringo 02:34 Blank & Jones Feat. Coralie Clément - Cest Mieux 02:30 Edx Feat. Jess Ball - Take Me Home 02:27 Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike Vs. Diplo Feat. Deb's Daughter - Hey Baby 02:22 Tinlicker Feat. Nathan Nicholson - Always Will 02:18 Robin Schulz & Alle Farben & Israel Kamakawiwo'ole - Somewhere Over The Rainbow / What A Wonderful World 02:15 Matt Simons - Catch & Release (Deepend Remix) 02:11 Jelly & Fish - Appreciation 02:07 Robin Schulz - Moonlit Sky (With The Void Pacific Choir) 02:00 Kendi Underground - Chasing Cars (Hed Remix) 01:57 Tomas Skyldeberg - Chillin With You 01:54 Arty Feat. Cimo Fränkel - Daydreams (Sultan Shepard Echoes) 01:47 Steen Thottrup Feat. Annette Berg - Heading For The Sunrise 01:41 Monolink & Zigan Aldi - Fidale (I Feel) Vocal Version 01:36 Schiller - Zukunft 01:32 Joachim Pastor Feat. Nathan Nicholson - Saint Louis 01:28 Undressd - Forever Young 01:25 Jubel - On The Beach 01:19 Monolink - Otherside (Club Mix) 01:15 Milkwish - From The Earth To The Moon 01:09 Gary B - Love Rain Down 01:06 Hallmann - Always Be 01:04 Jerome & Neptunica - High On Music 00:59 Index Id - Nautik 00:52 Worakls - By The Brook 00:48 Jean-michel Jarre - Oxygene, Pt. 4 00:43 Lustral - Everytime 00:39 Above & Beyond - Is It Love? (1001) (Original Mix) 00:34 Cristian Marchi Feat. Block - Baker Street 00:32 Dj Antoine & Flip Capella Feat. Evelyn - Dark Love 00:27 Passenger 10 - The Lonely Boy Who Wanted To Make Friends 00:22 Schiller - Ultramarin 00:19 Chris Avedon - The Letter 00:17 Luca Schreiner Feat. Johnny Chicago - Its All Gonna Be Good (Junge Junge Edit) 00:11 Antennasia - First Flight (Lemongrass Remix) 00:04 John Kah - Carina (Enui Remix)

[ggukkieland]

📕BTS Fic Reads - 2021 January Pt 1

A lot of new fics and old favorites I was in the mood to read again 🥰

Fics are not mine. Credits go to all the writers. Please show them love 💖 by reblogging or commenting on their work 🥰.

Note: if link doesn’t work, click on author and go to their masterlist

🥕Ongoing - most recent chapter [as of date this list was posted] 🥕Completed - completed one shots | series 🌹 S - smut | F - fluff | A - angst 🌷 posted a reaction/commentary on completed fics

🥕[Ongoing Series]

Belong @v-hope​​ - KTH | smau | Enemies to Lovers, Roommate AU, artist!Taehyung x heiress!reader | A, F, humor ~ [updates Wed & Sat]

Calculated @whatifyoulivelikethat​​ - JJK | 18.4k | Noona AU, basically responsible TA learns how to get wild courtesy of Dom!JK 😁| S, F 

01 02 03

Ego Killer @zibermuda​​ - JJK | 21.4k  | Fuckboy AU, Enemies to Lovers, FWB AU, College AU | S, A, F ~ [2/3]

01 02 

Just One @jungxk​​ - JJK | 60.6k | Fuckboy AU, College AU | S, F, A ~ [8/10] 

01 02 03 04 05 06 07 08  

Mars @to-star-lake​​ - KTH | 18.6k | Ahistorical AU, Military AU, kind of Enemies to Lovers | A, S, F ~ [4/?]

01 02 03 04

Netflix & Chill Series @1kook​​ - JJK | 106.1k, so far | Blind Date AU,  Established Relationship | S, F, A ~ [9/?] + [9 drabbles]

Fragrances @jj-ktae​​​ - JJK | 10k, so far | Perfumery AU, Music Composer AU | A, F ~ [2/?]

Plot Twist @kimnjss​​ - KNJ | smau | Idol AU, Rapper AU, Rich Girl AU, Enemies to Lovers | A, S, F ~ [updates daily]

Pretty Boy Drabble Series @angelguk​​ - JJK | aka jock!jk, Bestfriend AU, Established Relationship AU | S, F, A ~ [7 drabbles, so far]

Sh @wwilloww​​ - OT7 | 25k | Wilderness AU, Friends to Lovers, Poly AU |  S, A [4/?] 

01 02 03 04

🥕[Completed Fics/Series]

Namjoon 

By The Moonlight  @hobeemin​​ - drabble | 1k | Fantasy, Humor, Sailor Moon AU, Anime AU | 🌷  (so funny 😂)

Reverie @minstrophywife​​ - one shot | 5.2k | Sci-Fi AU, Lucid Dreams AU | A, F, S  🌷

Underground King  @sugaxjpg​​ - one shot | 13.4k | Boxer AU, Gang AU | S, slight A 🌷

Seokjin 

...cause I Iike you?! @scriptaed​​ - drabble | 2.1k | Enemies to Lovers | F 🌷

Blurred Lines  @yoonia​​ - series | 25.9k | Teacher AU, Tattooed Biker!Jin, Bar AU | S ~ [3/3] 🌷

01 02 03

What We Left Behind @suhdays​​ - one shot | 9k | Exes AU, Travel AU | A, F

Yoongi

Inevitable @btsarmy9593​​ - drabble | 1.7k | Mafia AU, Childhood Friend, Bar AU | F, A  🌷

Litost @ethertae​​ - one shot | 7.8k | Enemies (to Lovers?) | S x A = hate sex 🌷 (I’ve read this years ago and I am so glad I found it again 🥰]

She’s not Afraid @moononthejoon​​ - series | smau with written parts | fwb AU, College AU | A, F, S   ~ [31/31]

Stay High  @personasintro​​ - one shot | 16.5k | Exes AU, inspired by Tove Lo ‘s Habits (so expect toxic behavior) | S, A  🌷 

Hoseok 

Covenant + Repose @junghelioseok​​ - one shot + drabble | 17.7k | Werewolf AU, Bestfriends to Lovers, Arranged Marriage AU | 🌷

The Talent Finder @threeletterslife​ - one shot | 10.5k | Musician AU, kind of Supernatural (OC can see person’s calling) | F, A 

War & Peace @out-of-jams​ - one shot | 9.9k | ABO dynamics, alpha!hoseok, omega!reader, Enemies to Lovers | F (this is really cute) 

Jimin

He’s Pretending + drabble @crystaljins​​ - one shot | 4.9k | Faerie Reader x Demon Jimin, Enemies to Lovers, Fantasy AU | F 🌷

Nine One One @yminie​​​ - series | 41.2k | Exes AU, Detective AU, Crime AU | A, F, S ~ [3/3]

01 02 03

Rules Of The Game @probablypjm​​ - one shot | 6.7k | Dom!Jimin, Office AU, Slytherin Jimin, Hufflepuff Reader, MMF with Yoongi | S, A, slight F

Taehyung

Aquarium  by whatifyoulivelikethat - two shot | 6.8k | Breakup AU, Strangers to Lovers, about Healing | A, F [2/2]

01 (Jungkook) 🌷  | 02 (Taehyung)  🌷

Black Waltz @jimlingss​​ - two shot | 26.8k | Butler AU, Historical AU | F, A  [2/2]  🌷 

01 02

Curtain @btssmutgalore​ - one shot | 4.8k | exhibitionism, (kinda) Strangers to Lovers | S 

Love Me or We Both Go Down @gukyi​ - one shot | 32k | Arranged Marriage AU, Enemies to Lovers | F, A, S 🌷

The Snow King @bloomsuga - one shot | 25k | Fantasy AU, Royalty AU, Arranged Marriage AU | F, A, S 

Jungkook

Ancient History by moononthejoon - one shot | 12.8k | part of the Playlist series, Exes AU, Actors AU | A, F, S  🌷

A Quarter Past Us @jjiimin​ - one shot | 13.8k | Exes AU, Breakup AU | A, F 🌷

Brat Taming @sugasbabiie​ - one shot | 8.2k | Fuckboy AU, Roommates AU, Enemies to Lovers, Tattoo Artist!JK, Noona AU | S, A, F

Casual @omot7​ - series | smau with written chapters| idiots to lovers AU,  College AU | A, S, F ~ [20/20]

Concealed Weapon @gimmesumsuga​ - one shot | 10k | Established Relationship, Husband AU, Mafia AU, Assassin AU(?) | S, PWP 🌷 (probably the 4th time I’ve read this 💦😝)

Confidential @sincerelyourfangirl​ - one shot | 4.2k | Secret Agent AU | S, F 🌷

Cut Me Loose  @dreamyjoons​ - one shot | 3.6k | fwb AU, Rebound AU 😭 , Unrequited (?) Love | A, S, F (the ending reminded me of Say Anything boombox scene lol)

Heartbreaker With A Heart Of Gold @filmflowersbangtan​ - one shot | 3.8k | Rockstar AU, Exes AU | A, S, F 🌷

Hot Boy Bummer @jungkxook​ - one shot | 14.6k | Bestfriend AU, fwb AU, Fuckboy AU | S, A, F 🌷 

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Mango by whatifyoulivelikethat - series | 13.2k | A love story between bad boy Jeon Jungkook and a strange girl with mango eating obsession. | A, F, S 🌷 (it’s a healing type of fic, I love this so much 🥰)

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May 31 @jeonjeonggukenergy​ - one shot | 5k | Roommate AU, College AU, a different take on “there’s only one bed” | S, F 🌷 (second time reading this!)

Microwave Misadventures  @bymoonchild​ - one shot | 20k | Roommates AU, Enemies to Lovers, College AU | A, F, S 🌷 (this was one the fics that launched my love for roommates x E2L combo years ago)

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Safety Net @pradaksj​ - two shot | 40k | Boxer AU, Enemies to Friends, Friends to Lovers, Roommates AU | A, F, S 

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Sex Education 2.0 @extravaguk​ - sequel | 9k | Established Relationship AU, Brother’s Best Friend AU | F, S, A 🌷 (sequel is even better and Part 1 is already great 🤗)

Somnolent  @forgottenpasta​ - drabble | 3k | Roommates AU, Friends to Lovers | pure FLUFF 🌷 (an old favorite)

Sugarplum Energy by bymoonchild - one shot | 17.9k | fwb AU, College AU, Soundcloud Singer AU, Idiots to Lovers AU, secret identity | S, A, F 🌷 (a re-read 🥰)

The Likelihood Of Being On Your Mind by jjiimin - one shot | 18.2k | Childhood Friends AU, Neighbors AU, slight Enemies to Lovers, College AU | F, A 

The Lonely Hearts Club @vantaenims​ - one shot | 17.5k | College AU, Friends to Lovers | A, F (erm, poor Koo? 😭)

The Tutor by sugasbabiie - one shot | 4.1k | Jock AU, Tutor AU | S, F 

Way Down In Bed Stuy @minstrivia​ - one shot | 5k | Sister’s Boyfriend AU, Infidelity AU | S, A 🌷 (a re-read)

The Weeb Kook Collection @himbojk - drabble series | 29k | College AU, nerd koo x popular girl | S, F, A 🌷 [4/4 + seasonal drabbles]

🥕posted: 2021 Jan 23 🥕link to other reading lists  | Jan Part 2  🌹 I love to read so feel free to recommend a fic =

[1uckygold]

Keys to the Magic Door (2)

Summary: The Bangtan boys one night encounter a woman that looks exactly like the animation ARMY from "Magic Door" and "Dream ON." What if it's not a coincidence? What if it's actually the female from the animation video? Except she needs their help... she needs to go back to her universe before it falls apart. BTS agree to do anything to help, but what happens if they all start to fall in love with her? What do they do when...

When it's time to say goodbye?

~Pairing: 방탄소년단 (BTS) | ot7 x f! Reader

~Genre: Fluff & Humor, Alternate Universe - Bangtan Universe

~Word Count: 2.3K

Part: 01 / 03 / 04 / 05 / 06 / 07 / 08 / 09 / 10 / 11 / 12 / 13 / 14 / 15 / 16 / 17 / 18 / 19 / More Chapters Soon...

The seven bangtan brothers led you into the living room where everything started. Hoseok pulling you gently by the hand, as to not frighten you since hesitation was still in your steps. It wasn’t until your eyes caught sight of the laptop did you tug on Hoseok’s sleeve to get his attention.

“What’s wrong?” Hoseok asked, concern dripping from his tone of voice as you pointed at the technology. Hands waving around and making explosive gesturing motions, you were certain that this was the most interesting game of charades ever.

You frowned at the boys, everyone practically shouting answers excitedly but failing when no one got the answer correct. Lightly smacking your forehead, you let Hoseok’s hand go and ran towards the laptop to show them a different way on how to communicate what happened.

Only for a yelp to fly out your mouth, feet tripping over something lumpy as you fell to the hard floor, landing next to the coffee table with a groan.

“Shit, are you okay?” Yoongi’s eyes widen, holding back a laugh and small smile that was trying to break free. Though, him and the rest, didn’t waste any time to help you back up.

“You’re not hurt or anything, are you?” Seokjin examined your palms, checking for any sign of injury that needed to be treated but finding none whatsoever. You nodded in reassurance, dusting yourself off. It wasn’t the first time you fell to the floor clumsily and your hundred percent certain it won’t be the last.

Seokjin sighed in relief, Taehyung checking to see what made you trip in the first place. Curiosity shining in his eyes while picking up a gray backpack off the ground, something that neither of them owned. “Who’s bag is this?”

The sudden comment had you glancing up, eyes widening at the familiar bag, not expecting for that to travel with you. Gently grabbing it out of Taehyung’s hand, you sat on the couch in a crisscross manner. The members sitting around in empty seats, all of them watching with an interest as you stuck a tiny bit of tongue out when searching through the backpack.

Your eyes lit up when feeling a familiar object, glad that whatever the hell was happening left this. Pulling out a pink phone and typing in the password to unlock it, eyes scanning throughout many apps. Finally you found the photo icon, giving the phone to Hoseok.

The sunshine boy gasped in amazement, not believing what he was seeing while scrolling through many pictures. Everyone getting up to huddle around Hoseok, wanting to know what caught his attention so badly.

“That’s… That’s us! —Or a mini version of us at least,” Namjoon shouted, almost falling off the couch in surprise at seeing many photos of tinytan with you in each of them. Every picture containing all of you doing silly things with one another, traveling throughout the city, even some with you designing mini clothes for them and having a fashion show.

You nodded eagerly, getting up and running around the house to find something to write with, coming back after rummaging through drawers with a pen and paper in hand. Scribbling on the notebook, you showed the guys what was written with a soft smile. “That’s tinytan! Also known as RM, J-Hope, Suga, Jungkook, Jimin, Jin, and V. They are practically my whole world!”

“But that means… how is that even possible?” Jimin questioned, not quite believing you were from another world compared to theirs. A glance at the other guys and he didn’t have to be told that they were just as baffled by the news.

“I don’t know, but this is the video,” Jungkook spoke, catching the attention of everyone, including yours. The youngest having grabbed the laptop and wake it up, the page still on the same video.

Video? What video? Your nose scrunched up in confusion, trying to understand what Jungkook meant before a familiar noise echoed in the room. The video replaying of tinytan singing and dancing, only for it to glitch and freeze when your animation figure came into view.

“Is it buffering?” Yoongi asked, raising an eyebrow only for all of them to let out a scream when the laptop screen started to fizzled out. Jungkook rushing to put it down as everyone stepped away from the technology. It wasn’t until the screen turned completely black before turning back on again as if nothing happen did everyone frown.

Namjoon was about to comment on what had happened, but he didn’t… no one did when you kneeled in front of the screen. A sad smile appearing on your face, touching the laptop screen with a longing look before writing something new on the paper. Not wasting time to hand it to the closest member, Namjoon.

“I know this is hard to believe—Hell, it’s hard for me to get my head wrapped around this, but… please. Help me, I want to get back home. No tricks, I promise,” Your eyes pleaded for them to listen and understand even if it sounds crazy. Each one of them looked in their eyes, almost as if they were communicating slightly before turning towards you.

“We’ll help you, uh… I’m Taehyung. Me, that’s me… V,” Taehyung explained with a bright smile, pointing to one of the tinytan on the laptop that had you smiling slightly.

When everyone started to introduce themselves, you didn’t bother telling them that you’d already had known their names.

“How old are you?” Jungkook asked in curiosity, the older members chuckling at how innocent the boy looked when asking such a question. The super bunny looked as if he was going to win the grand prize.

“Twenty-two. You look a lot like my mini Kookie, he was adorable too,” You gave a cheeky smile, writing your reply and giving the youngest the paper. Jungkook’s eyes widen, glancing away shyly as Jimin snatched the paper out of his hands with a huge smile. Teases being passed left and right as Jungkook’s face went slightly red from blushing, a bunny smile breaking out.

A small laugh escaped out of your mouth from his reaction, only for the attention to be pulled away when Seokjin tapped on your shoulder with a smile. “Since you can’t remember your name… we thought about giving you one!”

“We talked it among ourselves earlier, so what do you think of the name Y/N Army? The name just clicks you know, it reminds us so much of army,” Namjoon asked, showing off his dimple smiles as all the boys puffed up proudly at the beautiful name.

Mouthing the name to yourself, no words coming out, but you liked the way it sounds inside your head. Though, your nose scrunched up in confusion on the last part not understanding what he was talking about. “Who’s army?”

“Oh, well… that’s another thing you should know,” Namjoon trailed off sheepishly, looking towards the other members for help. The six boys raising their hands up in surround and shaking their heads, pointing at the leader to tell her. Namjoon could’ve shown it felt like when they needed to give a speech in public.

No one said anything for a long while, your eyes darting back and forth between everyone. Namjoon sighed, rolling his eyes playfully at the childish way the guys were behaving. “Army… is special,” He started to explain, a soft far away look in his eyes.

“See… in our world, we’re idols—Ah, famous. We dance and sing because we love it and want to share our love with the world, especially with army. They’re known as our fanbase, but… they are so much more than that! They’re amazing and I can’t wait for you to meet them!” Namjoon gushed out in excitement, ranting until Seokjin nudge his arm for him to get back on track. “Right sorry, anyways here you are supposed to be an animation version that represents army for tinytan. As well as them chasing their dreams.”

You nodded in understanding, staring off into space to try and process everything that was told. Army, huh? That sounds like a beautiful family… and it seems they mean so much to these seven. A feeling of pride went throughout your body, it was an honor to be represented by something so important. Now that you think about it… there was some sort of pull that you felt to these seven and something else that you couldn’t quite place. Something about them just felt the need to trust them, and you did.

“You can sleep in Jungkook’s room, he can sleep with me tonight,” Seokjin offered with a comforting smile, the comment catching Jungkook’s attention. You were sure if he had bunny ears, they would be standing tall right about now.

However, the offer was nice, you couldn’t take them up on it. They were already being so nice, not believing you were crazy, or calling the cops. Which to be honest, is something you wouldn’t have hesitate to do… maybe even calling a mental hospital as well.

Shaking your head at the offer, you pointed towards the couch and sat down, hugging a pillow closely to your chest.

“Nonsense! It’s not like Jungkook doesn’t from time-to-time sneak into my room to sleep,” Seokjin scoffed, pulling you gently to your feet as Jungkook gave a bunny smile in reassurance.

“It’ll be okay, the room is just right here. Taehyung, Jimin, and I are right next door if you need us, Jungkook’s room is basically the inside of a sandwich between them,” Hoseok smiled brightly, unconsciously hugging you from behind when feeling your hesitation. The sudden affection making you jump before relaxing.

After a little more persuasion, Jungkook showed you the way to his room. Puffing up proudly as you awed at every little thing that caught your attention with fascination. “Make yourself comfortable, Y/N!”

Smiling shyly, you placed a small innocent kiss on Jungkook’s cheek in thanks. The action causing him to become shy and flustered, using Namjoon as a tall shield to hide his blushing cheeks. Everyone letting out a laugh at Jungkook’s reaction before wishing you goodnight one by one. Seokjin and Namjoon the only ones who stayed behind and didn’t leave just yet.

“In the morning, we’ll talk more about this and think of a plan to help you—Maybe Halsey has any advice on helping you. I don’t know how, but… hopefully her comic book knowledge will help. We also need to inform our boss and manager about this situation,” Namjoon stated slightly serious, Seokjin nodding along in agreement as you understood completely. The two saying their goodnights with a smile, closing the door behind them and footsteps fading away the farther they went.

Letting out a deep breath, you looked around Jungkook’s room with a keen interest. The atmosphere feeling nice and warm in here, your nose twitching slightly at the comforting scent. You could have sworn that you smelled a wonderful flowery and vanilla scent, maybe even a tint of mint.

Though, your hands twitched to touch everything in sight, forcing yourself to just grab your backpack and head to the bed. You didn’t want to seem rude or accidently break something that wasn’t yours. Instead, opening your bag and dumping all its contents out on the bed to see what else is inside.

A charger, earphones, music sheets, gum, and… a wallet! Maybe this will tell you more about yourself, opening the black fabric object. Frowning when it was empty with only a few dollars inside. You growled in frustration, practically throwing it across the room.

Then an idea popped in your head, scrambling to grab your phone that you’ve left in the living room. Not wasting time to scroll into the contacts, finding your moms number. Quickly pressing call, you put the phone to your ear, heart pounding before deflating. The words echoing loudly in your ear.

We’re sorry. The number you dialed is not a working number.

Hanging up the phone, you sat on the bed and went through all your photos once more. What if you couldn’t ever go home? What happens then? These thoughts had a single tear falling from your eye, dropping accidently on the phone screen.

What shocked you, however, was when the phone started to glow a brilliant purple color. Your hands instinctively throwing it on the bed, afraid it was going to explode. You shield yourself, clenching eyes such as you waited until the light died down. Taking a quick peak, you were shocked when seeing a small realistic glowing purple whale staring at you.

This… this is just like that day. Smiling brightly, you were about to touch the top of the head but flinching back when it started to fly around. The purple whale looking as if he was happy to see you. Though you didn’t expect for him to head towards you, flying right through your chest where the heart rested. Fading inside as the purple light disappeared.

Blinking in bewilderment, you reached up to touch your chest gently as the same purple light illuminated from your heart. It didn’t burn, it wasn’t cold, it felt… warm. The light slowly traveling to your hand as you stared on in amazement, slowly blowing on it as glowing starlike particles flew around the room in a calm manner. Each one creating tiny images before bursting into sparkles as the light and magic faded away.

Everything having gone back to normal after a while, you had no clue what happened but after everything… it certainly wasn’t the weirdest that happened. You smiled down, stress leaving your body because something in you screamed that it’ll be alright and all of it was going to be okay.

Getting under the covers, a yawn escaping your mouth before everything faded away into darkness. A peaceful dream creating itself inside your mind, taking away any worries or fears.

Yeah, it was going to be just fine.

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Welcome to the second chapter of Keys to the Magic Door!

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I posted 178 times in 2021

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#5

I’ve got you

T.y flinched at the sponge that touched his skin, a small almost not there rasp leaving his lips in confusion as he snapped his aching head over to look at Todd with his tear glossed eyes.

His brow twitched in confusion at the sight and feeling of Todd being so gentle to him, his usual scowl and harsh comments gone and now placed with unspoken concern.

Why was Todd being so gentle, T.y thought for a second before looking down at his body, seeing the blood that dripped out of the multiple scrapes, slices and cuts that his own brother littered his skin with for 'stepping on his turf' and 'being a dirty mutant' gave him his answer.

13 notes • Posted 2021-10-06 05:05:37 GMT

#4

“ discretion was never as strong a suit for you as your… other, talents. ” - Luna said with a small giggle

"Can't tell if that was a reference to my pole dancing or something else..?" Quinncie glanced over at Luna from where he sat on the carpeted floor, unbuckling and peeling his heels off with mild difficulty.

17 notes • Posted 2021-03-08 08:04:09 GMT

#3

heyy! last time i'm gonna bother you with an oc. but i'm fleshing out Amira for my dnd campaign on sunday. i wanna get her personality down. (this is her VVV)

(song reference: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kPk9c0UK0Fg)

"The valley green was so serene, in the meadow ran a stream so blue~"

The voice of a young elf carried out through the gentle breeze of the forest. the shiny grass creating waves of light from the sun's rays. The woman's lithe and frail looking body partially hidden by flowers of all kinds as she laid in a valley clearing.

"a maiden fair, in despair, once had met her true love there and she told him."

She sat up, allowing the sun to warm her face as she closed her eyes and tilted her head back, the bright day making her hair shine like gold silk, very pale skin seeming to become a beacon. An elegant and dainty hand reached up to the sun as she continued to sing, just to pass time.

"she would say; "promise me, when you see, a white rose you'll think of me. i love you so, never let go~ i will be...huh?" suddenly, loud footsteps interrupted the peaceful moment, the sound like something out of a thriller movie. the young elf quickly got up and hid behind a giant fern, pointed ears falling downward to convey her fear. Who was here? poachers? kidnappers? orcs?! Her breath was ragged as her free hand covered her mouth an nose, hoping that whoever they were that they would leave soon. [someone, anyone, i beg the divines for intervention, to protect me from any and all wicked intentions from these lost souls. I beg, i beg, protect me from my imminent doom.] Thin body trembling in fear as the footsteps got closer. [help me...please...]

Zeffirelli stepped through the flowering plain, following along their normal path from the town back to their small home.

Sticking their tongue out to swipe over dry lips they sighed; counting their coin as they thought to themself, a long day at the potion shop causing them to drag their tired feet slightly, stomping harder then they meant to.

27 notes • Posted 2021-04-29 18:16:28 GMT

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30 notes • Posted 2021-10-07 06:57:22 GMT

#1

It’s a dark gloomy night where the streets are open and bare. Anon runs, trying hard to remember the smell of a old friend, hoping that they are nearby. “I-I hope. He’s here… huff, huff…” Anon sniffs around each corner while running low on breath.

Flesh grumbled peeling off the glittery stickers his brother and younger sister left behind in their wake. Pulling off one of the bigger stickers he stuck it to the railing of the fire escape.

Smoothing his hand over his bare skull, his hat having been discarded and left inside, he turned to go inside only to hear the sound of feet slamming on the concrete and panting huffs of breath.

He turned his head to look at the entrance of the alleyway, seeing a familiar form in a red jacket.

35 notes • Posted 2021-08-29 18:28:08 GMT

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Kait Reacts To The AE 7/?

Hi! These reactions are written out every time a Chatroom opens and it’s done over the course of the day. So, you’re watching me react in real time as it is for me. So, Spoilers AHOY. Expect Another post like this later today, there is just too many chats to put it all in one post. So, hey, if you click this, you’re opening yourself to spoilers, you make the choice.

[01:02]

It's time to deal with Rika again. I'm not at all in the mood. It's really no different than what she's been telling us thus far and honestly I don't really expect anything to change on her front or anything with V. They are both made it pointedly clear to me how they feel about the situation and I don't think that there's any reasoning with them so it's just a matter of trying to hang on the until the RFA rescue us. We don't know exactly what's going on per se but we don't know for a reason and I'm not upset about that because they're trying to take precautionary measures. They're doing everything that they can and I trust them with my heart.

Basically, she calls them weak in this chat room and says that they did the right thing by bowing their heads in accepting that. This is really no different than the strong and the weak argument and symbolism that we used to have at Magenta where she would make it clear that the strong only those that would stomp before stop being stomped on. Trample before they are trampled to the ground.

She wants be live in this falsehood and deny reality and everything that's going on because she can, due to the deal they made, herself and V, and honestly, I don't to expend my energy on this woman. She's wrong. You can tell her that over and over in this chatroom and it will just not dare end. She just won't quit. It's always about what Rika wants and what Rika gets. It's never about anyone else. She is selfish and shallow to the core.

There's no fixing this because she refuses to change. She needs to go down with the Agency and Saejoong, and at this point, V, too. Get the two of them back into counciling while they're in jail because that's the only thing I can see in their future because it sure as hell isn't forgiveness and I won't assume it will be. She can say whatever she wants and lie all day, but we all know Rika, at her core, is deeply saturated in her anger and maladies. She cares not. She is quite literally just doing what she did as Savior but denying that it's the same.

Saeyoung is drugged and out of his mind right now, passed out, and Saeran is desperately trying to stop all of this and all you can think about is your selfish wish to have a decency on a false family you're building. I am hardly listening to this woman. I'm disconnected and literally just letting her prattle until I can tell her she's in the wrong over and over again.

OH BOY. THE VISUAL NOVEL IS A GODDAMN DOOZY. Jumin is speaking to his father and he opens up about what’s on his mind. The talk about Seven and the deal that they made. Chairman Han thought that... Saeyoung was a very good person from speaking to him and that the deal is made because he wanted to repay Jumin without... you know, doing it directly because Jumin would never accept something like that. Saeyoung is a stubborn man and we all know that, it is always sweet to know the lengths that he would go to for his friends that don’t just talk about... 

compassion. 

Little things like this, I don’t know, I have a lot off faith in him and I’m torn for Jumin be cause he’s spiraling. Even his father can see that Jumin is holding his sturdy mask on his face as he’s crumbling inside, and Chairman Han tells him that no matter what happens, he will be able to move on, and he should try to do so with his loss... Jumin’s mother is mentioned, and how he should keep moving from that, and I don’t quite get the context but I’ve heard there’s more on that in his BE but I’ll never know until I bother to look at the spoilers. 

Either way, Jumin starts crumbling and he cannot drink. He knows that he cannot lose his clarity. He’s envious of Saeran, who seems to be fueled by his emotions and ready to act. He wishes that he could do such a thing but it is so foreign to him. He thought he could trust V... Rika... but he can’t. He was stabbed in the back and now it hurts so much that he’s losing it. He wants to fix things but I don’t know if he can fix those relationships given what’s happened and I think he knows that. 

That’s why it hurts so fucking much.

[06:04]

I made an alarm. I’m awake. Saeran made a secure chat to talk to me and I.. I don’t know. I have dread in my heart that I’m heading towards a bad ending right now because of the way that he’s talking. I don’t know... there were CGs and it’s kind of right... right? Saeran won’t say anything because anything can get hacked right now and he won’t risk himself, the others, or us because of a loose text message on the background. What really scares me about this is the fact that he keeps saying over and over that no matter matter—

He will protect our happiness. As in, my happiness, and it feels like it’s written in such a way that he wants to leave... wants to let me be free and that this may be our goodbye soon enough. I don’t want that. I don’t want him to get hurt. I’m just in a state of confusion and hurt over you Saeran. I want our true promise of happiness and I want our return of joy. He vowed every Four Seasons and I want to keep that promise with you and only you, my love. 

He tells me to have faith in him, in our love and that he will do anything he can to protect me. I believe in him. But, I don’t want to lose him. He knows that I want to be free with him. I stated that, but he won’t... he won’t tell me anything and I hate being in the dark while I’m trapped here with Saeyoung. I don’t know if he is trying to be careful to warn me or if this is fate. 

I don’t know.

I just don’t. 

He says that he’s coming... I don’t know if I’m ready. I don’t trust Rika, I don’t trust V, I don’t trust anyone in this fucking place and I wish that Saeyoung was awake but he’s still... knocked out, my God. What’s worse is that he shares that he has flight tickets. FLIGHT TICKETS. You know, like the passport merch that you can buy and that I did actually buy but won’t be here for a few weeks cause we all know how shipping works and it’s not going to give me answers right away but I think this has to be the right direction...? 

It does say “the travels you made with Saeran.”

But, he says that we should go with the RFA. 

It doesn’t outright include him when he’s talking to you. I don’t know what to think. Why would we leave the country? How are we fighting? Please, I don’t want you or Saeyoung to live in fear anymore... Saeran, please, do not force me to leave you behind. I know you want me to be happy but please, you need to be happy, too. 

This is bittersweet and hurting me and I can’t think about how this is going to play out right now. I hope they have a plan and I hope that plan is something that won’t involve more separation and sacrifice. 

The visual novel did not ease my heart but I was greeted with a very lovely CG of Saeran so maybe that makes up for it. I think it’s a dream sequence where we get to share a picnic with him... he playfully teases and jests with me about my eating habits and lets me know that he loves hearing my laugh. I ask if this is a dream but... Saeran is like, “Even if this is a dream... it doesn’t matter if it’s a dream. I’m so happy. I wish I could spend more time with you like this... I feel like I’m greedy.”

And I say, “We deserve to be happy.” 

Because I mean it. 

No beating myself up, nor he. We deserve to be happy. 

Saeran’s not helping me in the dream, “Sure, but... if the world does not want us to be happy... I hope we can continue that dream in heaven.” 

NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. NO. Saeran please, even in my dreams, you cannot die and I refuse to die. You wouldn’t want that for me and I wouldn’t want that for you and why do I get the picnic that I wanted and was begging for. Why am I so always right about what could happen, but Cheritz has taken my hopes and used so many of my wishes to be angst or bittersweet and I—

Saeran, you’re not helping! 

DO NOT DIE FOR ME. 

I AM NOT WORTH THAT.

Okay, no, I promised not to depreciate and so did you. Please, let us be happy together, my love. 

[08:51]

Okay, I’m still not okay. Saeran is here and we’re just waiting for him to make it past the agency and the narrative here is trying to warn me that if I’m not careful with what I do, Saeran is going to try to sacrifice himself for me. I don’t know his plan and he says that he’s going to tell me very soon. But, he keeps dodging it and saying that no matter if we are near or apart, our love will never change or stray from what it is. He’s never had more peace inside of his heart as he has come to this realization. He’s clearly conflicted about his past and the more that he thinks about Magenta—

The more it... he knows that it’s trauma. He knows that it’s a wound that will stay with him but. He also knows that he escaped that trauma and found himself, he says that he knows who he wants to be. He doesn’t want to hate anymore or be angry, even though it’s justified. Don’t get me wrong, he’s not saying that he will forgive anyone that hurt him, that’s not the tone. It’s just that he doesn’t want to be fueled by hate. 

This is what he believes is going to really help himself. He knows that he has peace knowing that he was wronged, but he choose to escape and to leave all that behind. He found himself, and he knows who he is now. I’m proud of him for that but I’m scared at the same time that he will suffer to ensure my safety. I do not want that. 

I think what bothers me the most is how Rika feels so entitled to the idea that she can just forget and avoid the past. She’s just so flippant. I don’t want to talk about it. No, ma’am, you don’t get that right. You hurt him. You hurt so many of these people that once thought of you well, and you don’t get the right to pretend you are holy or better. You don’t get to forget. You don’t get to pretend. We have to live with our trauma. 

Why should you get peace? 

Nope. Nu-uh. Not happening. 

However, Saeran notes in the chatroom that she’s... something wrong about Rika. She is frantic and confused, and he isn’t sure what to make of that. She will not talk about anything but her selfish wish that will only hurt all of us the way that she’s acting and the way that V is acting. I don’t really want waste my energy on what’s up with Rika because, we all know how I feel about Rika and she just keeps proving her bullshit to me time and time again. She’s in denial and she’s lost. I don’t really care. 

The visual novel is brief, we get to see him again. V and Rika are back on their bullshit but Saeran is relieved to see we aren’t harmed, Rika asks him to join her so there’s no funny business as she tries to decide when I’m supposed to leave this place now. I don’t know when they’re going to shove me away. I’m surprised they aren’t gonna kill me. That’s a lot easier. 

They leave me with V and V’s on my fucking shit-list right now. I cannot deal with him anymore. He tells me to understand Rika. I won’t. I refuse. He says it’s great that I can leave. He says to rest before I leave. He’s going to look over Saeyoung now. I wanna tell him to fuck off because at this point, he’s proven that I can’t trust him and he’s doing nothing to help. You resigned yourself to this sun, Icarus, you can burn all you want at this point, but you do not have the right to let us burn with you. 

I’m just worried about what Saeran is going to do. I talked to Jaehee on the phone and she said that Saeran kept saying goodbye, over and over, and she hopes that I stick close to him. It’s like he wants to leave behind everything to save us. I don’t know his plan and I don’t... I don’t know what I’m supposed to know right now and I still have two hours before I get to learn his plan, I guess, and I need to know now. 

Also, Jaehee said she’d use Judo to save me if she could. What a woman.

I called Saeran as well, and that was more... unease. I’m proud of him for standing tall against his abuser. He won’t let her sway him anymore and that’s the good thing I take from this call. This shit took me years to learn myself and he’s... figured it out much faster. I’m happy for him. He seems to be better in his spirits about this and he deserves that.

Saeran: I will take care of Rika and V until you’re out of here. I love you. This mission must not fail.

WHAT THE FUCK IS THE MISSION, GOOD SIR. WHAT THE FUCK IS THE MISSION. SIR. I HAVE FUCKING ANXIETY. 

[technobladetimestamps]

Nov 15 Stream Timestamps

Timestamps from Technoblade’s “THE EVE OF REVOLUTION (dream SMP)”

Link to my youtube comment with all of the timestamps x

Timestamps with hyperlinks below

01:46  tagging everyone in the channel member discord / level 231 03:43  agenda book / revolution tomorrow / slept through stream time / sleeps twice a day for 4 hours 05:21  “I did not write 100 pages. Or did I. Maybe I have a traitor manifesto on the other 99 pages” / no steering wheel / coronablade jokes are very funny / went to the doctor and figured out his cough / “Stomach acid is useful for at least one thing” 08:47  can’t believe no one told him these things about post 1.8 / splash potions, regen, thorns / thorns aren’t intuitive and no one told him / youtube ads 12:50  “At least I didn’t insult the Ethans, the Ethans are everywhere” 16:02  “I was gonna talk about something on the way but I forgot. And now it’s gone forever” / “They found your base” “Well I have livestreamed it” 17:04 wants to buy a gong to be the ultimate sellout timer / “I would get kicked out of my parents house so quickly, but for the day it takes them to do that I would get so many subscribers” 20:31  thorns stacking 25:21  “There’s actually some pretty affordable gongs out there” 27:32  vc with BBH and Tommy / confusing Tommy and Tubbo / “Don’t you hate it when people just consider streamers an extension of their famous friends Tommy” / “I’m just the child from Technoblade’s videos 29:08  “Let's be allies. Can I have your helmet and boots?” / saying he’s rude for hijacking the call but forgetting to leave call / double sellout 33:55  “Me and Techno the leaders of Pogtopia” / “That is a fair assumption” / “I can’t believe Badboyhalo hates his fans” 34:57  BBH offering Tommy a bow / “Tommy you are so broke” / “Average sized man” / no one believes Tommy is 6’3” / Techno is taller in game 36:34  just wearing a face mask / “I do not support any of the views being espoused by this particular individual” / Tommy trying to imply covid but BBH asks if he’s talking about bigfoot 37:39  Techno hunting down BBH / Midair stabbing / “I’M SO GOOD AT MINECRAFT” / Tommy desperately trying to be included 40:41  “Oh Badboy halo~” / “It just doesn’t work when your name is 4 syllables” / detective work to find BBH 42:52  “So you want Tommy to be successful?” / “I wouldn’t go that far. I want my enemies to be unsuccessful” 43:58  battle ender chest plan / “I’m going to deafen. I don’t know why I’m explaining to you my pvp tactics” 46:15  “I would be absolutely furious if Tommy stole my 4th fastest horse. Tommy and I go way back” / being excited to see Tommy / Tommy could have sworn at BBH as an attack 47:34  “I guess I could spare a little bit of iron” / “I think that was a sarcastic joke that I didn’t understand” / Techno picked youtube over girls many years ago / Subpoena pet war 50:37  recruiting Techno to fight Sapnap / place where Tommy ran over Dream 55:22  vc with Tommy and Sapnap 56:51  “Sapnap I hate men so much. If I see a man in the street I grab a knife and plunge it into his neck” / “Wow surprise attack” / thought it’d be a real fight 59:09  needs Sapnap to come geared / “audience retention” / “I saw Sapnap fighting Punz earlier and they had potions and full netherite an it was fun” Tommy tries to suggest Techno sit the fight out / “You asked for me to be here” / “Tommy I’m stabbing someone with armour and it might just be you” 1:00:29  arranging a fight with BBH / “Not now sellout timer I haven’t earned it” / 161k / “New phone who this” (to Tommy) / 2v1 with BBH and Antfrost 1:04:38  hasn’t done a lot of fully geared 1.16 fights / trying not to make fun of Antfrost’s fire prot helmet 1:06:30  Sapnap and Tommy have worked out their differences and don’t need Techno 1:07:34  “I love my fans, I forgot to plug my cha nnel and they’re all reminding me” / “Only 1v2” “I could only find 2 guys” 1:09:25  “I’m so unbelievably lost” / “I have to have seen a location to add it to my human gps” / Techno hates the ugly pranks that take forever to fix 1:11:28  server losing connection / guy who Techno told not to drop out is going back to school 1:13:20  “That’s the thing about senior yearbook quotes, its right at the end of the year...the amount of time to beat you up is shockingly low” 1:16:24  offering Tommy assistance / the Dream Team has logged on / “I have to be quiet...My parents are threatening to turn off the wifi” / “You’re getting owned in every world” / Techno taking his sweet time 1:19:11  “We want to kill Sapnap” “agreed” / “Dream alliance pog” / “unless he meant to add a comma” / vc with Dream and George / Techno talking over Tommy 1:21:28  “I feel like Thunder is a werewolf” / Tommy questioning Dream and George / “I have my swag and no one has that” “Well they’d have that if they killed you and picked up your swag” 1:32:22  “You guys all work for me” / everyone killing Tommy / “anti Sapnap expedition” / “ask George ask George” “ask Dream” 1:23:54  stream crashes / and also his whole pc / asking for viewers to come back from Tommy 1:26:39  joining vc / Dream recap / cutting back on calling Tommy lame 1:28:01  photoshoot / “So much clout in this one picture” / Sapnap begging Tommy to kill his pets / “What if [the pets] belong to some god tier pvper” / S-L-A-V 1:30:12  “L-A-M-E” / “Shoutout to the slavs” / giving the fox a grapple 1:31:20  Dream taking off his leggings / fox eating the gapple / “Dream you are a highly unusual individual” / back to 125k 1:34:05  “People can’t yelling me for not roleplaying when Dream is mooning us in the background” / “You can disrespect my family, you can disrespect my religion, but you can’t disrespect minecraft” / “I hate this man” “NO” 1:35:40  Tommy challenging Sapnap a fight / Tommy trying to make Techno kill pets for him / Karl thirsting for the animatic 1:39:34  “If you make it out alive, give this to Sapnap’s cat for me” “If I make it out alive all his pets actually die” / Techno shooting the start arrow / “I’ll do the countdown...because I am an impartial mediator” / “You know how between those fight they have those sexy girl?” (Dream takes off his armor) / very engaging fight 1:42:31 post fight / “My chat’s spa.mming lame. It’s not my fault chat, Tommy doesn’t know how to crit” / “You might as well be naked” “Please don’t say that Dream” 1:44:28  “I wouldn’t say you’re that far from S-Tier” / “What tier am I in Technoblade?” “Who are you?” / “That was not an insult, I don’t know people’s voices” / “This entire server is just people that have killed Tommyinnit” 1:45:40  SMP Earth / “What country did you have” “I owned the world” / “A single country? (Dream) / trying to thorns kill Thunder / “Maybe if you die again the armor will come back” 1:47:12  Techno letting Karl trap him / Quackity tempting fate / snitch Dream / framing George 1:49:44  Dream complaining about trident flight / Techno bailing bc of boredom 1:57:19  Awesamdude leaving a potato trail / vc with Quackity and Sam / lying for content / complaining about getting free stuff 1:59:58  still lying to Quackity / “Quackity my entire chat is spa.mming lame, you’re going to need to pick up the pace” / heading to the jungle base 2:02:18  saturation stew is useful / “especially for content” / “If Carl dies I’d be okay with that, but not Andrew” 2:03:49  “Is Carl the orphan you said you were going to adopt” “Let’s go with that” / “If Carl dies I stop donating 2:04:31  Awesamdude snitching on Quackity / “I would be furious if I came back and Carl wasn’t in the exact block I left him” / lots of threats    2:06:41  “I’m not an orphan” “Not yet” 2:11:03  “It’s not an experiment, I’m just putting my hypothesis through multiple controlled trials where I adjust variables and record the results” / “I care about about the armor much more than the horse” 2:13:01  “Are you betraying anyone?” “No. I would never betray my personal ideals” / “What if the people you’re fighting alongside have different ideals?” “We’ll burn that bridge when we get to it” 2:17:28  Quackity’s failed forgery in chat

[deatheless]

@curseplay sent: ∗ 14﹕ sender places their head in receiver’s lap. / accepting.

it's been a rough day so far. she hasn't said anything to imply that, she doesn't think — at least not on purpose, but she's got a feeling paris has clued in anyway. they always seem to know when something's wrong, whether she wants them to or not. for the first time in a long time, she doesn't really want her to.

she'd had an episode this morning when they were out on SILK business ( a photoshoot, or an interview, or ... something she can't quite remember anymore ) — the pain of it is long gone by now, barely an echo remaining at this point, but she can still feel the weight of it on her shoulders. maybe they saw the mug she'd shattered by accident. she'd tried to hide the shards in the garbage, but it's possible she didn't do as good of a job as she thought.

( it had slipped from her grasp and onto the ground when the flare in her chest had hit, suddenly-translucent fingers unable to catch it even if she wasn't feeling the crash of it in her heart. when fiona had run in at the sound, barking and pawing at her legs in a panic, she hadnt been able to corral her away from it through the fog, and when everything has dissipated enough for her to think again, she'd come to to the sight of their dog sitting, tail wagging worriedly, right on top of the shards. by some miracle, she doesn't think anything got in her paws, but the guilt is still gnawing at her, taking up the hole in her chest where her beating heart should be. it's been hours, and it still hasn't come back. )

fiona hasn't left her alone since, either. that's probably a clue in and of itself to paris, if she's being honest.

the three of them are on the couch now, and while mina's doing her best good girlfriend impression, halfway through a question about how the interview-photoshoot-whatever it was ( she knows this, why didn't she listen? ) had gone, she can tell paris isn't buying it, and cold anxiety starts to grip at her in preparation for whatever questions they're about to ask. what is she even going to say? it's not like paris doesn't know how it goes, but — what if she's upset about the mug? or about fiona, or that she didn't tell her when she got home?

but they know her as well as she knows them. instead of a question, instead of speaking at all, paris simply scoots a bit further across the couch cushions to give herself the room to move, and lays down, resting her head against her lap and smiling up at her in a way that makes mina's chest fill with something that she could almost think was a heartbeat. fiona, dutifully curled by mina's other side, begins excitedly licking at the side of paris' head, and something warm splits through the lingering blank in her chest. ❛ hi, ❜ she whispers, as if they haven't been sitting next to each other this whole time, as if it's a prayer, and her fingers find their curls like a lifeline. all things considered, it basically is.

( i love you, i love you, i love you. neither of them speak again, not for a while. but they don't need to. they both know. )

[minijellycircus]

122 + 74 for yeosang ! 🥺

eee thank u for requesting!! sorry it took so long 😔 but it was v fun to write, and i think it's p cute 😊 i hope u enjoy it!!

feel free to request more pls!

member: yeosang

genre: fluff, comfort

word count: 490

prompts: 122 - telling them a dumb joke just to see their smile, 74 - "it's 2am, go back to sleep"

~

you were in your bedroom, the bad dream you had just woken up from still on your mind. in that dream, you were being chased by someone who had already gotten to your friends. your heart was still racing from that.

realizing your boyfriend, yeosang, wasn't in bed made your heart drop.

you looked at the clock, which said 2:06, then you got out of bed and walked to the living room. laying there on the couch, looking at his phone, was yeosang. he heard footsteps, so he turned around to see you.

"what are you doing up? it's 2am, go back to sleep." yeosang said with concern in his tired voice. you gave him a weird look as you walked over to the couch.

"wh- i had a bad dream, what are you doing up?" you replied. he lifted his legs, allowing you to sit down, then he placed his legs onto your lap.

he averted his eyes, "i couldn't sleep." you gave him a small pout.

"why not?"

"i dont really know honestly. but what was your dream about?"

you sighed, "someone was chasing me. and before that, he… got to all my friends. including you." yeosang offered you his hand, and you softly took it, and started stroking his hand with your thumb. he then took his legs off your lap, and scooted closer to you so he could wrap his other arm around you, and lean his head on your shoulder.

"you doing ok?" he asked.

"yeah." you sighed, leaning your head on top of his.

a few minutes passed with you guys just sitting there with each other in comfortable silence. you figured you should both go back to bed, since your eyelids were starting to droop, but you couldn't bring yourself to say anything.

finally, yeosang broke the silence for you, "did you hear that scientists discovered the largest thing in the entire universe?" yeosang asked sleepily.

you gave him a confused look, wondering where this came from, "no, what is it?"

yeosang looked up at you from his position on your shoulder with a cheesy grin on his face, "my love for you."

you sighed, breaking into a smile. "you're such a dork." you chuckled. yeosang just happily stared into your eyes.

"i love you." you told him, pressing a small kiss to his forehead.

"i love you too." yeosang snuggled into your shoulder even more.

"we should go back to bed." you said.

"yeah." yeosang agreed, yet made no effort to move.

"seriously, get up." you chuckled at him, starting to shift your weight. yeosang just groaned and held onto you tighter. you finally managed to stand up, while dragging him with you, and started walking towards your bedroom.

you both laid down on the bed, snuggling up underneath the covers. luckily you fell asleep quickly, and with yeosang cuddling you, you felt completely safe, and slept soundly the entire night.

[kajahealer]

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🌳 Overall Guidance 10:14

＞＞＞ to be continued...

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🌳 You may be out of balance and embroiled in some difficult situation that has caused you to lose clarity and even power. This could indicate stressful legal matter - or a situation that seems unjust to you. You may feel all tied up in red tape, but you need to be proactive. Take the action needed to unite the situation bit by bit. Acquire good counsel and advice to see this situation through and help you get all the details straight. The outcome may not go exactly as desired, but remember to keep your balance. Seek only justice; release revenge and anger. You don't want your urgent attachment to create more difficult karma in this matter.

🌳 On a personal level, this is warning you to get centered and balanced once again. Bring balance back to your diet, your physical exercise, and your mind. Consider how your choices and thoughts are going to impact your future in this life and in lifetime to come.

🌳 Take the actions that will set the scales back in balance - not just between you and others, but within your life as well. There may be components of your daily schedule that have thrown you off your center. It's time for you to set things right again. When all things are balanced, the good energy you send out will attract great energy back to you.

🌳 Something disruptive in your life may have thrown you off balance. Or you have gotten very busy, and the personal self has focused on the little details of life instead of the inner priorities of spiritual truth. You have put the Higher Self behind you and may turn to it only occasionally - and sometimes only when a personal need arises. Understand that as long as you ignore the highest part of who you are, you turn away from the greatest source of your power and joy. The Light of Eternal Wisdom is knocking. Open the door. And keep opening it until you hold it within you absolutely.

🌳 The Higher Power reminds you that you are more than a person trying to get ahead and make things happen for yourself and others. You have an immortal soul and are gifted with a human life through which a Higher Power can express itself. At this time, you need to be conscious of your connection to Spirit and foster it through prayer and meditation. Ask: What is the highest good for all? How can I serve? Then get out of your own way and trust that there is a plan for your life more wondrous than you can ever know. You are always protected and divinely directed.

🌳 Regocnize that your partnership with Spirit is your number one priority. When you enter agreements, begin projects, and negotiate deals with Spirit as your partner, you will always succeed. Let your Higher Power lead. The synchronicities and intuitive nudges you feel will help you see which way you are being pointed, giving you confidence to move forward in the right direction. Don't forget to give credit where it is due. You wouldn't be a success without Spirit's guidance. Humility will serve you well when this symbol appears.

🌳 There are conditions brewing in your life you have no control over. Don't fight them. Change is inevitable and is for the best, for the higher good. Even if this storm blows away the structures you think you've built your dreams on, all will turn out as it should. You will have a renewed clarity and strength to do something even better. Spirit is your ally.

🌳 Temperance doesn't jump to excess. Instead, she is a mosaic of parts, and she melts it all together in a way that spins the best of the best of the best into one. She weaves purpose and harmony into the lives of others. And her greatest alchemical gift is the treasure of healing. She reminds you to turn despair into the gift of patience, and blend the need to thrive with the need to enjoy. When you walk the middle path that is available to you, what areas find greater balance?

🌳 When the flame/the spark is lit, we are connected to our purpose and sense that life is a sacred gift. It is said that those who cannot see the sacred around them have let their inner flame go out. Think of this as a call to reignite that fire, to cup your hands gently around those things you've forgotten and protect the flame, no matter how harshly the winds around you blow.

🌳 I release all fears and doubts. I accept myself and create peace in my mind and heart. I now choose to free myself from all destructive fears and doubts. I am loved and I am safe.

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[sondepoch]

XII: Neutral Route (Rika)

Where Futures Begin

Life used to be simple for you. Peaceful. But the Savior had other plans for you, and in moments, she ruined what you thought was your one shot at happiness. Blinded by anger, you escaped the Mint Eye, but that triggered a series of events that would bring you further into the world of brothers Saeran and Saeyoung. And further into the twisted world of your love for them.

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MASTERLIST

The world had grown cruel.

That was the one truth Rika knew to be absolute. Decades ago, it was a different place. The sky was bluer, the grass greener, the people happier.

But the twenty-first century was an era of purpose. Life was dedicated to work and advancement, where people couldn't be troubled with matters trifling as joy.

The Mint Eye was a safe haven from the cruelty of the outside world.

Closed off in the depths of a forest, where the sky couldn't be seen, and the only sign of natural life was the flower garden inside, the people of the Mint Eye could revisit a simpler time—one free from the chains of responsibility that shackled those outside. They lived in peace, wholly content with leading a life devoted to harmony and happiness.

A life devoted to magenta.

Rika had chosen the color carefully; she was acutely aware of its rarity in nature, and that was what made it such an admirable choice. The Mint Eye was everything the world was not. A shelter from time itself, it was too perfect to be natural.

It was mint.

It was magenta.

And yet, (Y/N) has chosen to leave my protection, Rika thought bitterly. How ungrateful.

A part of Rika had known that the other girl, MC, would be gone as fast as she had arrived. That was why she had opted not to waste time throwing the brunette into primary and secondary commitment. (Y/N)'s escape was entirely unexpected, though.

Was she that devastated when Saeran chose MC over her? Rika considered the notion with care. The blonde knew that she had played a critical role in separating the two. Then again, Rika didn't truly consider (Y/N) worthy of Saeran's affections. A woman like MC, someone who came from a respectable background rather than an orphanage and then the streets, was much more fitting for the delicate boy.

It had taken significant work to separate the two, but Saeran had finally given in to what Rika had tried so hard to make obvious. He chose MC. MC over (Y/N).

Rika sighed as she looked at the clock.

Saeran should be there any moment now for their meeting.

Though, with the absence of (Y/N), the boy was growing increasingly unpredictable. Rika had found herself with no other choice but to swap out his usual pills for those soaked in the Elixir. It wasn't enough of a dosage to cause any pain, but it should have been sufficient in keeping Saeran in line when (Y/N) wouldn't do it for him.

Rika glanced down at her nails. Perfectly trimmed and painted, as usual. If V were here, he would have me pose.

Rika frowned at the memory of the man. V had left the Mint Eye without a word, abandoning the young woman and breaking her heart in turn. Yet still, she found herself remembering him and his habits, remembering what he would say at certain things, his old actions seeping into her subconscious to produce thoughts she never authorized.

A knock on the door pulled Rika from her mind.

She straightened her dress, making sure she looked as prophetic as the Savior of the Mint Eye should. After a moment, she called out, "Come in, Ray."

The white-haired boy entered and closed the door behind him, seating himself on the Victorian-style couch he always took. Usually, in Rika's sessions with him, he would immediately begin talking. Something (Y/N) this, (Y/N) that. In truth, if it weren't for Saeran, Rika wouldn't have paid the girl any extra attention. For the past month and a half, though, Saeran had grown quiet.

As he sat across from Rika, for the first time, he said nothing at all, his expression dead.

Rika coughed.

"Do you not have anything noteworthy to report to the Savior, Ray?" Rika kept her tone was calm and inviting as she spoke, making sure she hid her irritance behind a facade of serenity.

"No." Saeran's face was sullen, his expression somehow even darker than it had been when Rika had first been told to take him in.

The blonde sighed, picking herself up off the couch to join Saeran on his, wrapping him into a delicate hug, genuinely trying to comfort him. "Ray," Rika murmured when the boy didn't respond, still staring numbly ahead. "Ray, look at me."

Rika sighed.

"Ray."

No response.

"Ray!"

The boy raised his eyebrows, but said nothing.

Rika took a breath.

"Saeran."

That seemed to shake him. The white-haired boy turned to face Rika, his eyes no longer empty but instead sorrowful, searching for something he couldn't find in Rika's emerald eyes.

Rika turned her head away. After all her years with Saeran in the Mint Eye, she still struggled to meet his gaze when he had that expression on his face. The boy feared her, she knew. After all the pain she had forced him to endure as she tested out Elixir after Elixir on his broken body, he should fear her.

But their history together was too great, too sorrowful, for her to look Saeran in the eyes and lie to him. But the truth could never come out. She had sworn it. And that was one of the few promises she intended to keep.  

Saeyoung's eyes had never looked so determined.

"I know you heard me, Rika."

"B-but that's too much of a r-responsibility for me! I can't take care of another human being altogether!" Rika's words were short, the young girl stuttering through the shock. She was twelve. Too young and naive to do what Saeyoung was asking of her.

"You can do it better than me." Saeyoung's lips were set in a hard line, his eyes fierce and golden. They had the same determined glint to them that a king's crown does as he gives an order of utmost importance. "Take care of Saeran for me, Rika. I can't..."

Saeyoung took a breath, pausing before he could grow too emotional. "I can't stand by and watch him grow up in a household like mine. Things are about to get fucked up. Really fucked up. Saeran should at least be safe. You have to promise me that you'll keep him safe."

Rika swallowed, turning to gaze at V. The elder boy had always been a voice of reason in her life. He was the one she turned to whenever she hesitated, his advice always working out for the better. "Rika...I know this is difficult to hear," V murmured softly, pushing a loose strand of hair behind her ear, a loving little gesture established early on in their childhood friendship, "But Saeyoung is right. He's ready to handle what he's about to do...but he can't do it until Saeran is out of the picture. Safe. Only you can offer that kind of shelter."

Rika hesitated, her lip trembling. This wasn't a normal conversation between them. It wasn't a friendly banter with her and V on one side, arguing with Saeyoung and Jumin whilst Saeran watched from afar, sighing. This was important. This was real. This was the future of a human life they were discussing.

"What he's about to do?' Wh-what do you mean, V? What are you going to do, Saeyoung?" Rika's question was innocent enough, but the redhead couldn't meet her eyes as she asked it.

"Saeyoung," She whispered, serious. "What are you going to do?"

Saeyoung looked away, stubborn as usual. That was one thing Rika hated about him—he was thick-headed when it came to situations like the one before them, never willing to rely on others unless it was absolutely necessary. "You...you really need me to do this for you, don't you?" Rika mumbled, coming to terms with the situation before her.

Saeyoung nodded, still not meeting her eyes.

"...Okay, I promise. I'll take Saeran in and keep him safe. But, Saeyoung, you know what he's like. If he thinks you abandoned him, then he'll never forgi—"

"Let him think I abandoned him," Saeyoung said, interrupting her. "After I do this, he's better off without me."

Rika bit her lip.

"What are you going to do?" She turned to V after receiving no response. "Well, V? What could Saeyoung do that's so horrible he doesn't think he's fit to be around his own brother?!"

Even V turned away, mumbling a soft, "It's not my place to say," before backing away.

Rika sighed, a trigger for many more exhales of frustration that would be brought forth by her decision to take Saeran under her wing.

It was worth it, though.

And nearly half a decade later, it still was.

Though for a very different reason.

Rika hadn't expected to form the Mint Eye. She hadn't planned to become the Savior of the broken, bringing salvation to the world one lost soul at a time. But without Saeran, that unexpected future wouldn't have been possible. If not for his acceptance of her idea, and his decision to become Ray, none of her dreams would have been brought to reality.

She had spent nearly half a decade manipulating the boy, but she still did care for him.

"Saeran..." Rika murmured again, pulling back from the embrace. "What can I do to ease your pain, my sweetling?"

She looked at Saeran with motherly eyes. Ever since she assumed the role as his caretaker, even though she was scarcely two years older than him, she had looked after him like the proper mother he never had. Rika felt the connection as well. She found her heart breaking with his, rising with his, beating quicker with his. Even when V had left, utterly shattering Rika's heart, she had still found it sadder when MC had chosen to leave Saeran—she knew what heartbreak felt like, and she hated that Saeran had to go through it as well. "What will make you smile again, my sweet Saeran?"

Saeran opened his mouth to speak, but the sound that came forth seemed inhuman. It was a desperate groan, but whether it was a sound of distress or pain or fear was something Rika could not tell.

"Speak to me, sweetling," Rika cooed, her words gentle as the fingers she stroked Saeran's hair with.

"I...I want..." Saeran was hesitant, tears beginning to form in his eyes.

"Yes?" Rika encouraged, trying to hear what Saeran wanted. She truly did care for the boy. Whatever he wanted, whatever he needed, would be his.

"(Y/N)." He said, his voice soft enough to have been carried away by the gentle breeze brought in by the open window. "I want...(Y/N)."

Rika felt her stomach coil.

So hard.

She had worked so fucking hard to get (Y/N) out of Saeran's head. Why couldn't the boy realize that MC was better suited for him? That (Y/N) was just a pathetic girl from the streets, a leech on the Mint Eye? The girl was undeserving of magenta and undeserving of Saeran, but the boy's heart kept going back to her.

"You don't want MC?" Rika asked cautiously, choosing her words with care.

"I never wanted MC," Saeran mumbled, throwing his head into his hands, "It was (Y/N). It was always (Y/N). And I screwed it up with her so bad, Savior. So bad."

Rika felt her eyes narrow.

"What did you do, Saeran?"

The boy hesitated, but Rika didn't say another word. She knew the truth was eating him up inside, it was only a matter of how long he could hold out. "I..." Saeran hesitated, but Rika was more patient than he was cautious.

"I spoke to her," He mumbled. "She tried to access the Mint Eye's primary database, and so I hacked into the laptop she was using. And I talked to her. And I said such horrible things...I don't know what came over me, Savior!"

Rika's eyes widened. Could it be that the Elixir is having an effect on how he treats (Y/N)? Rika paused for a moment, the notion seeming more and more reasonable with every passing second. Yes...the Elixir instills self-destructive instincts into the mind. It must have manifested itself in Saeran's mind to ruin his relationship with the one girl that, for some stupid reason, he seems to love. No wonder! He was on the Elixir ever since MC joined the Mint Eye...yes, that's why his relationship deteriorated so quickly with (Y/N)! This is perfect!

Rika smirked.

MC was the woman Saeran was destined to be with. It was the girl Rika had chosen for him, and he would fall in love with her, whether he liked it or not.

And it seemed that Rika just realized how.

"Saeran, my sweetling," She murmured, her voice tender. "Would you like to see (Y/N) again? I can make it happen."

Saeran's ears perked up, his entire expression clearing like the clouds after a particularly destructive thunderstorm. "You can? Really, Savior? Oh, thank you so much!"

Rika smiled at Saeran, sweet as ever.

The boy wouldn't understand her reasoning. But MC was his destiny. Rika had decided as much, and as the Savior, her wish was law in the Mint Eye.

Rika made a mental note to double Saeran's medication orders; she'd sneak the Elixir back into his diet until the poor fool had convinced himself once more that he wasn't worthy of (Y/N), that he was in love with MC. Then, when the two met, she would allow the Elixir to deliver the final blow to their relationship, crushing it forever.

Then, even if Saeran realized the truth and tried to go back to (Y/N), it would be too late.

Whether he liked it or not.

MASTERLIST

Neutral Route: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | ✔

Saeyoung’s Route: 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | ✔

Saeran’s Route: 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21 | 22 | 23 | ✔

Word count: 2.3k

Notes: February is going to be a busy month for me T^T So much for my New Year's Resolution of maintaining a good sleep schedule

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[askbittyerror]

Wedding RP part 13 (end)

AskbittyerrorToday at 12:46 PM Their hand dips where it touches. "Well, I think I'm missing a rib, but I'm pretty sure I took off a chunk of Pal's arm somewhere in there, so I think we're even." He gently nuzzles their head, pressing a kiss to their hair. "My soul is fine, beloved."

with-bells-uponToday at 12:48 PM Relief, so deep their whole body says a little. They nuzzle him with a gentle whisper of okay... though missing a rib, isn't exactly dismissable. "You, came close to corrupting again."

AskbittyerrorToday at 12:54 PM "That would explain why my mouth tastes like Nightshade." Magnus grumbles. "...I wish that would stop happening."

with-bells-uponToday at 12:57 PM "...I'm not going to ask how you know what he tastes like." It's an attempt at humor, if a little forced. a kiss for their beloved's forehead, and a whisper of, "I'm just grateful you're relatively okay, beloved. you have me a real scare there."

AskbittyerrorToday at 1:02 PM "One time I grabbed one of his tentacles and bit it, just to piss him off. Got slapped across the room, but still, worth it." He hugs them tight. "Yeah, yeah I know. Sorry, babe."

with-bells-uponToday at 1:12 PM A squeeze, and a soft nuzzle. "Its okay. as long as you're both okay? That's all that matters." A pause, as they look up at Huitzi. "Pal is okay, right?"

AskbittyerrorToday at 1:46 PM Huitzi looks up from where he is comforting a sobbing bundle of feathers. "...physically, yes."

with-bells-uponToday at 1:47 PM "...thanks, Huitzi." a nod, turning their attention back to Pal. "your call, what to do now, beloved."

AskbittyerrorToday at 1:56 PM “Pal?” Magnus says. A short pause, then the bundle shakes, wailing. “Pal.” Magnus frowns. “I’m not upset.” More wailing. “Zi?” Magnus looks at him. “Can you put him down?” “If you are sure.” Huitzi gently places Paladin on the ground, the brothers about a foot apart.

with-bells-uponToday at 1:58 PM A nuzzle for their mate, before letting go- albeit reluctantly. They want the two to make up, to be okay... they, also just want to not let him budge for about a month, so they can hug him until theyre able to convince themself he's okay.

AskbittyerrorToday at 2:21 PM “Pal.” Magnus walks over, sitting by his brother, gently parting his wings. “C’mon.” Paladin whines, eyes squeezed shut, shaking. “Hey.” Magnus cups his cheeks, tilting his head up. “Paladin. Look at me.” His voice is calm, but commanding. Paladin’s eyes open and he immediately chokes on a sob and tries to wrench his face away. Magnus doesn’t let him. “Paladin.” The Nightmare is stern. “Listen to me. I am not upset. Our biology is fucky, and it messed with both of us. It’s not your fault.” “I- I could’ve killed you!” Paladin sobs. “But you didn’t.” Magnus presses their foreheads together, aura and eyes glowing, reaching out, searching for its match. Paladin’s aura hesitantly answers, the two winding together, his glow identical to his brother’s. “B- Brother…” Paladin tries to pull away. “I- I don’t- I can’t-” “Hey.” Magnus shushes him, his aura like a warm hug. “I still love you, nothing is ever going to change that.” Paladin wails and yanks his brother to his chest, wings wrapped tight around him. “It’s okay.” Magnus purrs softly, rubbing his shaking back. “It’s okay.”

with-bells-uponToday at 2:26 PM So. Much. Relief. Blue takes the opportunity to push to their feet, and head to the pair of goopdads, hoping against all odds that they too managed to get through the situation relatively intact. "Licorice? Domino?"

AskbittyerrorToday at 2:33 PM "Hey kiddo." Domino smiles at them, the pair looking a little brown but intact.

with-bells-uponToday at 2:38 PM "..." Blue immediately hugs both. Carefully. "Hey," they whisper, nuzzling first one, then the other. "Thank you for saving Pal from-" a pause, uncertain who they'd saved him from.

AskbittyerrorToday at 2:45 PM "No problem." Domino hugs tight, Licorice nuzzling. "Like hell we were gonna let our golden dumbass get his ass kicked by another Nightmare." Licorice huffs.

with-bells-uponToday at 2:49 PM a sound of amusement, of affection, and of gratitude. "good, can't exasperate the guy if he's broken in two."

AskbittyerrorToday at 2:59 PM "Are you alright?" Domino asks gently, dad mode fully engaged.

with-bells-uponToday at 3:01 PM "...yes. I may wake up from a few nights of rough sleep after that, but yes." A smile, which does seem to reinforce their words, nuzzling. "As long as I've still got everyone accounted for? I'll be fine."

AskbittyerrorToday at 3:23 PM "We'll make sure to stay over for a few days." Domino says. "SLEEPOVER!" Mercury shouts a distance away.

with-bells-uponToday at 3:27 PM "...best family." "..." "Can we please go home now?"

AskbittyerrorToday at 3:30 PM "Of course." Domino nuzzles. "We just need to call Flare. He's our ride."(edited)

with-bells-uponToday at 3:35 PM "okay-" tired enchanter. grateful to have met so much new family? but very ready to crawl into a familiar bed, and snuggle loved ones. "lets do that then. Bells probably won't be back down tonight anyway." A faint smile, remembering the two sappy flirting with each other.

AskbittyerrorToday at 3:38 PM Domino snorts. "Ah, young love." He calls to Huitzi. "Mind summoning our chariot?" "Certainly." Huitzi pulls out his phone, dialing the bigger Dream. He gets no answer. Huitzi frowns, hangs up, and calls again. And again. Still no answer.

with-bells-uponToday at 3:43 PM "..." "Do you think something else happened?"

AskbittyerrorToday at 3:44 PM "...I did feel some flaring auras earlier...." Huitzi looks up.

with-bells-uponToday at 3:45 PM Blue frowns, unsure what that means. "Well... this place is still standing, right? So it couldn't have been... too, bad?" Yeah. Not remotely sure about that.

AskbittyerrorToday at 3:56 PM "I did not feel any deaths, so I think it is fine." Huitzi says.

with-bells-uponToday at 4:03 PM "I guess it's okay then... um, but, now what do we do?" They didn't want to just, walk up and knock on the honeymooners door... wherever that was.

AskbittyerrorToday at 4:06 PM "Surely there are some other guardians we can ask?" Huitzi says hesitantly. "Or askers?" "Might I assist?" Words appear, carved into the floor.

with-bells-uponToday at 4:07 PM "..." Blue takes a small step back. Well, for them it's large, but currently bitty sized. They look from the words, to Domino, to Huitzi.(edited) [4:08 PM] A fairly blatant wtf, albeit unspoken.

AskbittyerrorToday at 4:14 PM The others are frozen, just as confused. "I'm V. Consider me a friend. Would you care for a convenient portal home?"

with-bells-uponToday at 4:24 PM "..." "I swear to someone there was a whole book about why not to trust words that write themself." "...I uh, dont... have any other ideas, though."

AskbittyerrorToday at 4:26 PM A portal opens. "This ones free of charge." The words disappear. [4:26 PM] "...that was ominous." Magnus mutters.

with-bells-uponToday at 4:28 PM "..." "Seriously, there was a book about this, right?" But, again, no choice- they try to peek, and see what's on the other side of the portal. "-i guess... we go through?"

AskbittyerrorToday at 4:30 PM It's just the shop, the backroom specifically. "...hi?" Moose hesitantly waves.

with-bells-uponToday at 4:31 PM "...oh-thank-god-it's-home!" The bitty sized Blue is hugging is ankle. Huh.

AskbittyerrorToday at 4:33 PM "Did something happen?" Moose carefully leans down, offering his hand, the bitties filing through. "Are you alright?" The portal closes. Welcome home.

with-bells-uponToday at 4:35 PM "...am now." they sigh. yes. home.

AskbittyerrorToday at 4:36 PM He pets their head. The family hugs him. Moose is happy, but confused.

[songsofacagedbird]

Hello, I’m Katie, this is my sunshine daughter Balo, and you’re watching Disney Channel! Jokes aside though, I’m so excited to bring Balo back and while not much has changed (truly this is nothing more than a continuation where I only omit plots my partner doesn’t want to revive), have a new intro / bio anyway because... I felt like it ok.  I’ll be good and not ramble too ungodly long though so without further ado - another one of my excessively long intro posts:

TWs: Child Abuse / Abuse, Alcoholism (not Balo’s, but her dad’s), Eating Disorders (anorexia nervosa)

Is that BALIAN “BALO” DRISKELL? Wow, they do look a lot like CANDICE SWANEPOEL. I hear SHE is/are a SEVENTEEN year old JUNIOR who originally attended LUXOR Academy. Word is they are a(n) REGULAR student. You should watch out because they can be NAIVE and SENSITIVE, but on the bright side they can also be OPTIMISTIC and BUBBLY. Ultimately, you’ll get to see it all for yourself.  [KATIE, 23, EST, SHE/HERS]

Last Edit: 8/26/2020

★ basics;

Full Name: Balian “Balo” Grace Driskell Age: 17 Birthday: February 7th, 2003 at 08:06 am Sexual Orientation:  Balo really doesn’t label it (although I like to say bisexual, biromanitc to make my own life easier), she always just falls for who she falls for regardless of gender. If you ask her exactly, she’d probably say MOGAI though. Relationship Status: Kinda dating Caitriona but it’s unofficial Occupation: Student Nationality: American

★ classes;

Communications

French

Geometry

U.S. History

Fashion design

Visual Art

Pilates

★ extracurriculars;

Arts Club (Member)

Balo also used to be a Cheerleader (Flyer) and part of the Gymnastics team but due to her leaving / concerns about her health, she was required to step down, much to her devastation.

★ background;

Place of Birth: Rochester, New York Hometown: Saratoga Springs, New York Health Issues: Eating Disorder (Anexoria) Traumas: Abuse (Constant/Ongoing - from her father)

★ physical;

Faceclaim: Candice Swanepoel Eye Color: Blue Hair Color: Blonde Height: 5′11” -- not at fc height because I don’t wanna change her height with the new fc Weight: 120 lbs - give or take Tattoos, Birthmarks, Scars, etc: Nothing I find a need to link at the moment.

★  zodiac;

Tropical

Sun: Aquarius Moon: Aries Mercury: Capricorn Venus: Capricorn Mars: Sagittarius Jupiter: Leo Saturn: Gemini Uranus:   Aquarius Neptune: Aquarius Pluto: Sagittarius Lilith: Aries N Node: Gemini

Placidus Orb

I ASC: Pisces II: Aries III: Taurus IV: Gemini V: Cancer VI: Leo VII: Virgo VIII:  Libra IX: Scorpio X MC: Sagittarius XI: Capricorn XII: Aquarius

★ relatives;

Father’s Full Name: Lance Driskell Father’s Status: Alive Father’s Occupation: Restaurant Owner Mother’s Full Name: Cassandra “Cassidy” Driskell Mother’s Status: Alive Mother’s Occupation: Waitress at a local diner (not Lance’s place) Siblings: 1 older sister and 2 older brothers

Driskell Children Oldest to Youngest:

Ivan Marsden (22, attending school in England)

Grace Driskell (19, in California for school)

Zander Driskell (LINK TO HIS INTRO)

Balo Driskell

Here is a link to the Driskell family page if you’d like to know more about her family.

★ misc;

Hobbies and Talents: Balo’s a sketch artist and painter who tends to focus on realism, in particular realistic humans and animals. It’s her true passion and I have an inspo section for her sketchbook here! She’s also quite flexible and skilled at gymnastics, part of why it’s bothering her she can’t participate currently because she loves it and she’s good at it - making her removal from the team eat at her even more.

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- Balo’s kind of a literal ray of sunshine who believes (almost) everyone is truly good at heart. While she tries to see the best in everyone, no matter what, she truly can’t see it in her father, a fact she feels extremely guilty over it. - She loves art, sketching and painting especially, and she always dreamed of being some sort of artist. While her mother encouraged it every chance she got, her father is truly a different story. - Balo is very easy to manipulate and I encourage it constantly. - She truly just wants to love and befriend everyone, while it’s not really too hard to make her cry, usually you’ll see Balo running around with a smile trying to brighten everyone’s day. This is an issue because she’ll put everyone around her before herself every time, your happiness is a priority before hers. Again, making her easy to manipulate. (So I welcome manipulating Balo and love it when it occurs, please feel free to do so at any point) - Her best friend / favorite person in the entire world at this point is Logan Keller, mention him only if you really wanna see this girl light up like a 4th of July fireworks show. (They’re still in touch, for those of you who remember him from when Jia was playing him here!) - Balo recently got out of extensive inpatient for her eating disorder so while she’s doing a lot better, she’s really doesn’t want it to be the main topic of conversation either. She's okay and back at Luxor and she feels that’s the most important thing at the end of the day.

★ bio; TWs: Child Abuse / Abuse, Alcoholism, Eating Disorders (anoxeria, weight loss, and complications from both)

“'Cause I know that nothing good comes easy, if it did, I wouldn't be me.”

If there was one quote that fit Balo Driskell’s life to a t, that would be it. Nothing was truly easy in the Driskell’s home, she was the youngest of three children - an amount that her mother never wanted to have, and would do whatever it took to stay at after this point. Anytime her father walked in after work, the stench of alcohol clung to. She could smell it on her breath every time he yelled, each time he threw things, anytime he hit her. One could have easily convinced the young girl that all families were like this, that everyone covered up bruises and pretended they were much happier than they actually were if it wasn’t for her mother.

Perhaps Casandra Driskell never wanted her children, but she loved them with her entire heart. She’d sneak her children money, things they weren’t allowed to have - guitars, paints, canvases, sheet-music, legos, and whatever else her father deemed banning fit at a moment's notice. She wasn’t always around, working a job at the local diner, but when she was she did everything in her power to protect her children. It was never enough, though.

Lance Driskell still hurt his children close to daily, whether it was smashing Grace’s guitar over her head the moment he found it, pulling Balo down the stairs by her hair, or lashing Zander with his belt - there were quite a few times where a Driskell had to go the hospital and the family had to lie through their teeth to keep people from looking too closely at them at their mother’s urging. If it was investigated the three children would be separated, they would lose their mother, or at least that’s what they were told - and none of them wanted that. It became common for one child to intervene for another if they could, Zander especially taking the brunt of the punishments for his sisters.

It was part of loving someone in the Driskell home, trying to keep everyone else safe no matter the cost it had on you.

Her childhood wasn’t all bad, however, there were quite a few silver-linings in the dark cloud called the Driskell home. She had a close friendship with her siblings and her mother, and she has plenty of fond memories with them. Christmas was always peaceful, as her father always took that shift at his restaurant and refused to celebrate the holiday with them - a time where he couldn’t taint the joy inside of the Driskell home. She could paint when her father wouldn’t catch her in the act, something she loved doing (and she still does every chance she gets), and she had Logan. Logan Keller was her next-door neighbor and her best friend. If you saw one of them, the other probably wasn’t too far behind. In many ways, he was her person - someone she felt like she could go to with nearly anything (she could never discuss home with him at this point, of course, but everything else she could and she did). 

And then the Driskells moved away and it was like the world was ripped out from under her feet - leaving her spiraling and looking for some sort of control. Her new friend didn’t help matters much either, constantly encouraging her to “shed the weight” they swore she gained. She soon found this sense of “control” in the form of her eating disorder, careful attempts to keep herself as thin as she could, of restricting her food every chance she could.  It wasn’t healthy, far from it, but it fulfilled the desire to have some semblance of control over her life.

Sending the children to Luxor had been an easy decision for Cassandra the second the children were able to attend, a way to ship them off to safety while not being too far away from home. While it pained her a first to be away from her mother, eventually she began to understand. She was safe while at school, and at the end of the day, that was what mattered the most to her mother, right? It wasn’t hard to get into the flow of life at the school, staying at school and only coming home for the breaks that the school refused to keep students during. It broke her heart when Lance shipped Ivan to England and told him not to come home (a thought that still pains her to this day), after the boy served his use, and it only grew harder when Grace graduated and moved to California. But she was happy at Luxor, in spite of everything.

And in a way, her love for the school only grew after the merge. Now there were twice as many people to befriend and support, and in the process, she realized something she had been missing had been under her nose for a while. Logan was attending school at Luxor too, and all of a sudden, she had her person in her life again. At the time she felt on top of the world, regardless of the circle beginning to stir up issues.

And then, suddenly, she was knocked right back down to the ground.

First Logan was kidnapped and forced to deliver the message, and then he was forced to go home for personal reasons. The support she had so quickly grown used to having was seemingly being ripped out from her yet again. While he was still in touch, continuing to be her rock, her eating disorder only continued to spiral out of control. And no matter how much she tried to pretend she was fine, it was getting to the point there was no way to really do so. Balo was sick, and now everyone could tell. It was concern from her teachers that helped fuel the chain of events that resulted in getting her help, no matter how much she tried to assure everyone she didn’t need inpatient therapy and that doing outpatient would be fine. After several months of inpatient followed by a bout of “readjustment to the real world” time at home, she’s back at Luxor and as sunshine-y as ever.

TLDR / quick important notes bio recap for rereads: - Balo’s home life is far from perfect. Her father, Lance - is an abusive alcoholic, and while her mother tried her best to protect her children - she also covered things up without hesitation. It wasn’t uncommon to see a Driskell in the ER with a lie and people willing to back up the story. - The lack of control in her life is what led to her eating disorder, in hopes of regaining a (false) sense of control. - She’s been attending Luxor since freshman year, although she recently had to leave for a few months to attend extensive inpatient treatment. And now she’s back to her normal sunshine-esc antics, trying to love everyone, feeding all the strays at Luxor, and trying to spread smiles everywhere she goes.

★ wanted connections;

Friendships

Someone to manipulate her, please I beg you

Um, pretty much anything? She likes everyone cause if you do something to hurt her she does mental gymnastics to come to the conclusion you are a good person and it was an unintended side effect so...yeah. Doesn’t mean your muses have to like her though (I have a lot of fun when they don’t actually, so… don’t worry about hurting the sunshine daughter. Okay?)

Anyone who knows her from the gymnastics and/or cheer teams, as she was on the teams through Freshmen & Sophomore years, and until October of her junior year.