#(yea it's technically from last christmas. but it's cute.)

[mothric]

A cute Christmas gift from a friend - a handmade They Might Be Giants mini-zine!

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HS^2 bloggin’ mainline 2020-12-25

I’m not going to spend time BLOGGING an upd8 on Christmas morning!

...yes I am who the fuck am I kidding.  (Bonus stuff and Hiveswap are still well on hold though.)

So are we gonna follow up on the main ship?  Probably not, right, with that perfect Karkat point to cut away, right?  We’re just going to leave Roxy’s question hanging, as well as makeouts etiquette, and leave while having seen a COUPLE FRAMES of non-possessed canon Jade with only whatever fun fanart was inspired across the internet by the moment to tide us over????

Yeah, probably.

Ugh, more Dirk.  I guess it’s overdue.  :(

> CHAPTER 16. Welcome to my Secret Lair

Oh huh, I guess not?  So... Jane’s, or Rose and Kanaya’s?

Karkat stays for longer than John thought he would. They talk a bit, but mostly they are quiet. Eventually, Karkat gets called away on yet more important war business, leaving John with one final touch on the shoulder. John leans into it in response, though he’s a bit ashamed of chasing down a sliver of physical affection so soon after obliterating Karkat’s evening like he had.

Pretty much, yeah.  Can’t blame either of them.

When Karkat is finally gone, John still doesn’t move. It isn’t as though he has nowhere else to go, since there are quite a few places he might attempt to make himself useful, for better or for worse.

You’re still abandoning the task that was explicitly yours to protect your literal kid and his friends, but, oh well.  Low-point.  Dave dead, house dead, broke news, I get it.

He just doesn’t feel ready for that yet. The remnants of his house are still smoldering, and he can’t stop staring at them. It would make sense, he thinks, to want to root around through the rubble for anything that’s still intact; some half-charred keepsake to claim as the last thing left that’s still his. But he doesn’t want to do it, and he doesn’t want to think about it. And he still can’t move.

Can’t move.  No Breath huh?  What’s going to get him to, then?

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Oh boy, that might help.  XD  She’s pretty good at that.

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Still with the waistline gap.  And was his phone always yellow like his God-Tier shoes?

ROXY: hey john can u do me a quick solid ROXY: actly idk how quick itll be but its definitely solid ROXY: harry anderson says i just missed u being here but could u skip back on over?

Nice, huh!  No judgment, just a hey-any-chance-you-could-swing-back.  He sort of needs to be needed right now, in a simple, almost everyday non-judgmental way I guess.  (That’s what he NEEDED anyway-- whether he deserved it though is up for debate.)

ROXY: i need help w/smth and yr darling boy is holed up in his room working on some fuckin craft project or other and cant be bothered

YES SEW JOHN A BETTER FITTING FUCKING OUTFIT

ROXY: and now that me and u are freshly on speakin terms again i might as well take advantage of that olive branch and put u to work ROXY: assumin you havent died in an air raid, that is ROXY: which id also be interested in knowin about so if u wld be so kind as to reply instead of leavin me hangin

Heheheh.  Gosh Roxy is always the best.

JOHN: yea yea sorry im here. JOHN: i just had a hard time getting my phone out of these fucking tiny pants.

Hah.

JOHN: and also my house is bombed out so i'm kinda grappling with that. JOHN: but i honestly am not sure how much longer i need to sit around staring at it. trying to align my memories of my youth with whatever is happening right now so JOHN: short version is no i’m not dead, and yeah i can come back over there and help you out. ROXY: oh sweet yr alive and down to do manual labor its a win/win JOHN: see you soon.

Yep!  Pulled away from all the metaphorical, ultra-meaningful bullshit, back to some brass tacks with some easy humor.  Definitely something Roxy can do well.~

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EXCUSE ME.  What is that outfit and pose.  Did you--

ROXY: sup ROXY: follow me ROXY: well were just going to my room so i guess technically u know the way JOHN: haha ok.

Did you invite him over for the manual labor of banging you while your son is sewing in the other room

Or maybe the labor is making him a new sibling.  JFC

Is this plan part of why we got the sudden content warning that was mocked or was that mainly for Hiveswap 

John follows, trying to shake the ominous feeling he got from what she’d just said. He’d been in and out of this house a lot in the past few days. Why should this be any different?

I DUNNO JOHN DOES THIS SEEM DIFFERENT TO YOU

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Yea this seems like a fucc room.

JOHN: it’s not like i could forget! ROXY: ya i guess u only really saw the living room when you were here the other day but i have changed some stuff up ROXY: done a lil redecoratin here n there

So it’s MORE of a fucc room than previously >__>”

ROXY: may have to do a smidge more if my old bff decides im next on the list for bombing out ROXY: but so far so good

Ah geez.

ROXY: just a coupla exploded cars in the yard from some shenanigans our dear son and his friends were in but u kno it is what it is!!!

Well, that’ll buff out easy.

ROXY: can i get u anything? ROXY: just made some coffee JOHN: no, uh, i’m good.

Of course she has a fancy handled winecoffeeglass  (and the handle does look ridiculous but it’d be too hot to hold otherwise)

Roxy shrugs and swirls her own coffee around in her novelty mug. John looks around. A lot about the room is the same. The family photos, the rug. There’s a lot more cat stuff in there now, though. The bed is new. John feels like he’s about to take a test he hasn’t studied for. He makes himself focus on what she’s saying.

That would be the feeling.

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MY GOD.  Roxy is so fucking good at this holy shit

She KNOWS she’s making him squirm and she loves it

JOHN: so uh anyway. JOHN: what was this favor? ROXY: yo why dont u just come rest yr tush for a bit ROXY: take a lil relax next 2 me here JOHN: haha uh. JOHN: roxy i uh. JOHN: im flattered, but i don’t know if that’s really the right step right now. JOHN: don’t get me wrong, everything seems so fucked up right now that when i try to think about what might actually BE the right step, it feels like a huge cartoon question mark might physically manifest over my head. JOHN: but I’m not sure if um rekindling our physical relationship is really the best--

So is Roxy trolling him, about to reveal she wasn’t thinking of sex and was just making things seem sultry?  Or just had “lol jk” as an option-select, maybe.

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ROXY: r u kiddin me rn egbert JOHN: i’m not? unless you were, in which case yeah lets say i was also kidding. JOHN: oh my god, i’m sorry, i don’t know why this making me freak out.

OH NOOO NOT THE DISDAAAAIN - CRITICAL HIT D:

ROXY: i remember our past boot knockin with fondness but that is a situation im not interested in revisiting

boot knockin XD

ROXY: look john ROXY: i was trying to be polite about it ROXY: offering u sustenance n rest n all ROXY: but you look like shit ROXY: i just wanted to catch up on the whole heinous war situation were in and maybe check in on e/o before leaping strait to the real n actual nonsexual manual labor favor i have in mind for u JOHN: oh.

Hey, she can’t help looking sexy she’s too good at it.

Is the manual labor moving the crashed cars?  Can’t Roxy pull that off on her own, or... banish the cars to the void or something?  (Oh, but WOULD she want to do it on her own when she can rope in John and bring him down to earth by giving him a useful task?  And admittedly his strength and wallet would make things easier.)

John feels his shoulders unbunch. Of course. Yeah. He’s almost embarrassed by how relieved he feels. So what if his ex wife wanted to hook up? Shouldn’t that be a situation he could navigate? Don’t people like to find solace in human physical connection during dire times? Why did the idea of it make his mind white out in panic more than, say, any number of the traumas he just experienced?

Probably some gender stuff mixed up in there too, June.

He doesn’t know, but he believes Roxy that he must look pretty haggard. He probably feels haggard? Maybe sitting down will feel better.

Just put your feet up yeah

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WHAT A CUTE IMAGE

JOHN: sorry. like i said, my "how to react to stuff" meter is completely fucked right now. ROXY: thats fair bud

she’s used to being patient with you don’t worry otherwise you never would’ve gotten this far

ROXY: real fast i do need to do a quick takeback of all that shit i said last time we talked about janey not being literally the most evil person we knew or whatever ROXY: i guess i was hopped up on arguin or somethin since that was before we hit our conversational vibe bc of course u were right and i shoulda listened

Ouch.  Yeah, we saw just lately just how far off the deep end she was.  (Where was that funny upd8 reaction art summarizing the bit where Kanaya was holding Tavros hostage and Jane was transparently debating “hmm do I let my son die?” and Kanaya and Tavros were just looking at each-other flat-mouthed nervous?  I REALLY wanted to share that but I don’t usually want to reblog or put most stuff HS^2 not under a read-more, for spoiler purposes, usually.)

ROXY: im just glad ur ok ROXY: or like alive JOHN: yeah, jury's still out on "ok" but, you know. ROXY: ya ROXY: u said ur house is gone?? JOHN: yep. JOHN: completely. ROXY: jeez ROXY: i would ask how ur feelin but like the answer 2 that has got 2b "prtty bad"

Talk it ouuuut~~  get those feels out there and articulated john

JOHN: yeah. JOHN: i mean. JOHN: no? JOHN: it’s weird. JOHN: it feels like it should be a bigger deal, I guess? JOHN: like it’s my HOUSE. JOHN: but mostly it always felt like my dad’s house? JOHN: and when i started living there after i moved out of here, it was like i crammed myself back into whatever was left of my kid self? JOHN: and it didn’t feel good, but it at least was familiar, you know? JOHN: like living there let me feel closer to my dad, trying to be like the way i remember him, or like how i remember him wanting me to be, or something? JOHN: and i didn’t realize how much i hated doing that until i saw it all go up in flames. JOHN: so i guess i could have used my powers to stop the fire and save whatever was left of the place, but i couldn’t bring myself to do it. JOHN: like some fucked up part of me was glad i got there too late? JOHN: so i just sat there, watching, trying to figure out why watching my house burn down felt like i was being released from prison. JOHN: and even now i keep trying to explain it away, as though it’s because of how fucked up everything else is that it made me feel good. JOHN: but that’s just bullshit. JOHN: it DID feel good. JOHN: i DO feel free. JOHN: sorry.

I was kind of saying some Breath/Blood stuff at the time of him losing his last tie to his stubborn sticking-to-his-kid-self bit?  Except now we’re mixing it in with June Egbert and his gender-identity questions too.

ROXY: no need 2 apologize ROXY: we just delved in2 my whole gender thing last time so it seems fine for u to have a turn JOHN: i didn’t say it was a gender thing.

Oh shit

ROXY: well no i just meant like i did some sharing ROXY: like referrin 2 the topic i brought up when we chatted last ROXY: but like now that u mention it ROXY: *meaningful pause* JOHN: … JOHN: i JOHN: ROXY: lol well we can move on 2 the favor part if youd rather ROXY: stick a lil pin in that topic n come back 2 it when u have had sleep

Are you just INCREDIBLY incisive Roxy or have you and John talked about this before?

ROXY: like i said the other day its not like this shits figureoutable in 1 sitting anyways JOHN: yeah... ROXY: sooooooo ROXY: movin on

It’s just fine for Roxy to slow-roll this yeah, if she’s going to pry open that door a little

ROXY: dont be mad but theres a part of the house u didnt know abt the whole time u lived here JOHN: what? ROXY: yea ROXY: i got a secret lair ROXY: for my sciences

OH FUCK YES SCIENCE LAB, of COURSE Roxy would want a cool science lab basement because she always wants a cool science lab basement

ROXY: and i get to it via a transportalizer underneath our bed ROXY: which is 2 heavy 2 move by my lonesome so i just needed to borrow some o your aforementioned powers of wind

Okay no.  Wait.  What the fuck?

First of all, as funny and MSPaintAdventures-y as furniture being in the way of things is, why would you block it with a bed too heavy to move, but,

Second of all, more importantly, how is a GOD-TIER ROXY not strong enough to lift a heavy bed?!?!?!?  Either she’s lying to get John involved in things or this is a gendered cop-out because these characters are superheroes at the TOP of their echeladders, given obnoxiously powerful video-game strength and athletics only to then have ascended into DEITIES.  God-Tier Roxy could probably have lifted a bed like that when she was SEVENTEEN!  And now she’s an ADULT, out-of-shape or otherwise!  If this were a whole CAR I might be willing to handwave it, but just a heavy BED?!?  And none of the GUYS are going to have this much trouble lifting a bed like this, are they??  This just feels like following classic cartoony gender tropes in the complete absence of these characters’ super powers, what the fuck, and also Roxy if you didn’t make it Transportalizer-only access you could have given it an entrance you could phase through with your fancy powers to get to.  FUCK.

This feels stupid.

ROXY: so if u dont mind woosh away JOHN: uh ok, well... JOHN: a secret science lair, sure, i can deal with that. JOHN: why not! JOHN: it doesn’t work out great when i do the windy thing indoors, though. ROXY: aight then no wind bending just use your mangrit

Roxy flexes, the corner of her mouth pulled up into a familiar grin. John feels his guts, so recently calmed, twist up into knots again. Her eyebrows shoot up and the smile loosens. He must have shown something on his face.

You’re already THIS sensitive about gendertalk?

ROXY: ok or just like push when i push ROXY: we both got sick muscles ROXY: no other adjectives necessary JOHN: yeah ok. ROXY: on 3?

Please, please reinforce the idea that they both have sick strength, because they fucking do and the idea that Roxy actually a hundred percent NEEDED John to do this is BS.

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JOHN: holy shit? ROXY: sorry to lop yet another huge scoop onto ur lil brains ice cream revelation sundae JOHN: so wait, if this thing's always been under the bed, how’d you get down here before without me? ROXY: well thats neither here nor there john JOHN: i mean it is kinda. Here. ROXY: fine ok checkmate ROXY: i dont ACTUALLY need ur nerdgrit for this escapade ROXY: like im sorry but i said it ROXY: i mostly just wanted to see you and show u wats down here

THANK FUCKING CHRIST.

If that wasn’t actually just a lie to get him involved I was going to stay SO mad.  Of COURSE Roxy can move a fucking BED no matter how heavy it is.  OF COURSE.

ROXY: and also uve been ~sent for~ JOHN: ok but like ROXY: john i am inviting u 2 my inner sanctum ROXY: i am literally bringing out the word "sanctum" in case u werent already clued in 2 how cool this is ROXY: so do u wanna go into my secret lair or wat JOHN: yeah!? JOHN: yes? i guess? ROXY: aight good

Yes John of course you want to stop fighting it

ROXY: then as they told me in the hospital before lil h a was born ROXY: just push

eyeroll, but yeah, of course

> (==>)

Oh cool, sprite form version of her loungewear.

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Sorry for my compulsion to post every full-frame image of Roxy in this awesome outfi-WERE YOU KEEPING CALLIOPE UNDER YOUR BED THIS WHOLE TIME?!?????

That’s like... almost a fucking metaphor isn’t it????  For the relationship you preferred in the other timeline and possibly THIS one TOO or

ROXY: hey callieee i got him ROXY: o damn john sorry i shoulda also told u callies here weve been hangin out again ROXY: 1 more freak for ur bean

Oh huh, so this isn’t an always thing.  And these two can get close in more than one timeline where it would’ve worked out nicely.  :)

JOHN: oh it's ok, my bean feels pretty well adjusted to freakage at this point so keep them coming if you like! ROXY: k cool i will JOHN: do i get to know what that big thing under the sheet is? ROXY: hmmmmmm no JOHN: oh ok. JOHN: are you sure? i mean, it seems like a pretty prominent feature of the room. JOHN: space. JOHN: wherever we are. ROXY: and a totally mysterious n COMPLETELY inconspicuous feature it will have to remain for now ROXY: we r kinda in a hurry here fyi ROXY: and by that i mean ROXY: we are in precisely the amount of hurry that means im excused from having to a that specific q rn JOHN: right, sorry. JOHN: i will pay no attention to the object behind the curtain. ROXY: u catch on fast egbert ROXY: anyway theres more cool info coming so just follow me

I don’t have any big theories.  Is it just the Hiveswap device or something?  If Calliope helped with it it’d help explain the Cherubic theme.

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JOHN: so... this is all downstairs? JOHN: it seems like you had a lot of work done. ROXY: well no not x actly ROXY: were in the old meteor JOHN: under the house??? ROXY: ok so ROXY: in hindsight it may have been a bit misleading 2 say like ROXY: "downstairs" ROXY: in reference to a place which is hells of buried underground and may not actually be literally under the house ROXY: but there is no time to explain all that rn john so instead im going to refer u to my adorable little green friend here CALLIOPE: #U_U# ROXY: (hehe) CALLIOPE: *AHEM* CALLIOPE: hi john! CALLIOPE: long time no see. ^u^

Cherubs just really like dark cavelike places full of weird tech don’t they.

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THEY’RE SO CUTE

JOHN: oh, uh. hey callie! JOHN: it sure has been a while huh. JOHN: now that i think about it, the last time the three of us hung out like this... CALLIOPE: was when i was aggressively third wheeling yoUr prenUptial coUrtship? CALLIOPE: if yoU dont mind, john, i'd rather not rehash that period of oUr lives. CALLIOPE: it was more than a little painfUl for me. JOHN: oh. JOHN: god, jeez, i'm sorry. i didn't mean to-- CALLIOPE: hee hee john i am only pUlling yoUr leg, don't worry. CALLIOPE: if anything i was personally a little thrilled with how things shook oUt in that respect. CALLIOPE: imagine, if yoU will, a yoUng cherUb raised in solitUde, whose only solace was the convolUted and tUmUltUoUs romantic schemata she projected onto her only friends from another Universe. CALLIOPE: and then fUrther imagine that this yoUng cherUb, throUgh varioUs even *more* convolUted contrivances, ended Up in the company of those selfsafe friends as an eqUal participant in their sphere of social discoUrse! CALLIOPE: it is a joy the like of which yoU possibly cannot fathom. u_u

Reinforcing that things turning out this way was in fact the FANTASY that Calliope was writing over in the Canon timeline.  Just, heavily, HEAVILY implied that the Candy timeline is -- or at least originated as -- Calliope’s fanfiction as a Muse of Space, and its competition for audience interest with canon is the essential conflict between alt!Calliope and Dirk (or Dirk and Andrew Hussie).

CALLIOPE: so to pUt it simply, getting to experience sUch emotional drama myself was an impossibly enriching experience. CALLIOPE: possibly a first for my species! CALLIOPE: it's actUally qUite interesting, if yoU ROXY: *nudge* CALLIOPE: oh, right. yes. i'm getting a little carried away, haha. CALLIOPE: argh, i'm sorry, this is not how i planned to begin this vital conversation.

Vital conversation?  What sorta truth-bombs are coming?

CALLIOPE: but to sUmmarise, what i was trying to say is: CALLIOPE: don't beat yourself Up aboUt it john. CALLIOPE: besides, hUman divorces are even more fascinating than i had ever imagined, and being able to witness yoUrs in motion was an honoUr. CALLIOPE: so i consider Us aboUt even at this point. JOHN: hahaha!!! JOHN: okay, well that's good to know! CALLIOPE: ^u^

Holy SHIT that was savage!  And we’ll NEVER know whether or not she really intended it so savagely, either.~

JOHN: so um... JOHN: i hear that there's this big secret thing you wanna tell me about? CALLIOPE: oh right, yes of course! CALLIOPE: let me jUst say first of all how thrilled i am that yoU're on board. CALLIOPE: i wasn't sUre if yoUr natUral inclinations woUld have preclUded yoUr coming to such a place as this, and yet here yoU are. CALLIOPE: this whole endeavoUr will be *so* mUch easier with yoUr help.

Uh oh.

Hopefully babies aren’t involved.

JOHN: oh! well, shucks. JOHN: not really sure what that means but i'm just glad to be of use somewhere, haha. JOHN: which, speaking of somewhere, CALLIOPE: ah right, right. yoU're probably a little cUrioUs as to where the dickens we are. CALLIOPE: how much do yoU know aboUt black holes? JOHN: um... like, the big space things? CALLIOPE: they aren't always big actUally, and in fact their relative smallness is practically their defining qUality. JOHN: oh. CALLIOPE: bUt okay i think we are on the same page. CALLIOPE: so, what if i told yoU that we are inside of a black hole right now.

Oh dear, we’re getting into the canon/noncanon divide?

JOHN: um... JOHN: like, HERE? JOHN: we just transportalized into a black hole? CALLIOPE: no, i mean, what if oUr whole WORLD was inside a black hole. JOHN: ok.

Yeah, that’s gonna be John’s reaction.  “ok.”  Pretty much inevitable.

CALLIOPE: earth c, or at least oUr version of it, has, from the moment we crossed the victory threshold, been inside a black hole. JOHN: ok. CALLIOPE: and not just any black hole, bUt the very black hole in which the green sUn Ultimately met its demise, allowing oUr victory in the first instance! JOHN: huh! ROXY: ("huh!") ROXY: (rofl my fucking ao egbert) JOHN: (shhhh!)

And Roxy enjoys his non-reaction reactions as much as we do, hehe.

CALLIOPE: bUt, paradoxically, the critical moment which determined its capture within the black hole happened *after* that point. CALLIOPE: i refer of coUrse to yoUr decision not to retUrn to the mediUm and fight my brother. JOHN: wait, wait. JOHN: you mean, the meat and candy thing? JOHN: oh my god. JOHN: you mean i actually DID make a mistake that day. CALLIOPE: well, that's not exactly what that-- JOHN: ugh, i fucking KNEW it! JOHN: i'm so sorry. JOHN: i'm so sorry that i put the earth inside a black hole everyone. ): ROXY: john ROXY: listen ROXY: u have got to get out of this mindset i am begging you JOHN: ):

Yeah shake him out of this shit.

ROXY: your choice literally didnt matter ROXY: the whole thing was symbolic in the first place ROXY: literally symbolic in the case of the picnic i mean come on ROXY: it was just some steak and a plate of candy suckers JOHN: oh. CALLIOPE: i mean, i wouldn't go so far as to say that the meal we shared was unimportant, given the sacred significance of the two options i presented. CALLIOPE: but yes, yoUr choice of snack was infinitely less important than the choice which it presaged. CALLIOPE: and even then, calling it a choice woUld be sorely misleading. CALLIOPE: think of it like a coin flip. CALLIOPE: the series of events that led to Us being trapped beyond the event horizon of an Ubermassive black hole could be considered "tails", while the events which would have occUrred otherwise could be considered "heads". CALLIOPE: since both were possible, and paradox space is the way it is, they actUally both happened. and we jUst "happened" (hee hee) to get tails instead of heads. JOHN: you mean we ended up with the bad possibility. CALLIOPE: not at all! since both possibilities depend on one another's existence, it really doesn't make sense to call them "right" or "wrong". they both just "are". JOHN: o...kay... CALLIOPE: u_u

Yeah, it’s going to take a bit more than that to convince him he didn’t make the “wrong decision”.

CALLIOPE: i realise that this may be a lot to process. CALLIOPE: it's easy to forget that this wasn't obvioUs to everyone from the beginning. CALLIOPE: anyway, the reason i went on this tangent in the first place was to explain that the space we are standing in right now has a special significance, in that it is the location which corresponds to the black hole's singUlarity. JOHN: oh, wow. JOHN: um. JOHN: ok so, sorry if this is a dumb question to ask suddenly, but what does being inside of a black hole actually... mean for us? JOHN: is that bad? JOHN: is it like in movie, um, JOHN: shoot. JOHN: roxy what was that matthew mcconaughey movie from your earth that we watched? ROXY: u mean interstellar JOHN: RIGHT. JOHN: the one with the organ. JOHN: man. i cried at that movie so much. ROXY: lol u can say that again ROXY: iirc at least part of y u got so weepy was the fact that u couldnt believe a version of earth existed where ppl got 2 watch more mcconaughey films than you JOHN: listen. JOHN: i simply don't think you all appreciated the gift you were given. CALLIOPE: i don't believe i'm familiar with this particular film ^u^;; ROXY: oh dont worry cal you didnt miss much JOHN: (gasp)

This is all gold

ROXY: but the important point is that no its not really an interstellar type situation here egbert ROXY: ur not gonna enter a weird time vortex and change the trajectory of a little girls life with the power of love JOHN: aw.

Dammit, now we have to be on the lookout for that possibility.  Or it did sort of already happen more than once to John.  ...Whatever.

CALLIOPE: to go back to your original question, john. CALLIOPE: it's not strictly speaking "bad" for Us to be inside of a black hole, mUch thoUgh that contradicts most of what anyone knows about them. CALLIOPE: of coUrse, if we had fallen into it, that woUld be a whole other kettle of fish. CALLIOPE: the tidal forces woUld have stretched Us all into spaghetti and then ripped us apart! CALLIOPE: bUt the natUre of oUr arrival was more akin to simply "being" here, sUddenly. one moment we were not, and the next moment we were, and somehow always had been. CALLIOPE: in everyday, practical terms, being inside of a black hole has very little bearing on Us. CALLIOPE: i mean, the natUre of space and time is a little finicky in here, bUt for the most part it doesn't seem to be anything too oUt of the ordinary. CALLIOPE: bUt beyond that, it means that we are sealed away from the rest of existence. CALLIOPE: oUr sphere of inflUence is limited to the sphere of the black hole's bounding horizon. CALLIOPE: as far as everyone else is concerned, we might as well not even exist! JOHN: is there no way we could let anyone know that we're in here...? CALLIOPE: almost certainly not!

No?  So this doesn’t have to do with the divide?

CALLIOPE: there are very few ways for anything to escape the kind of predicament that we are in right now. one of them is to be an all-powerfUl being with control over the very fabric of space, with the energy of two Universes at yoUr disposal. CALLIOPE: in which case, escape woUld become rather trivial, if a little Unscientific. JOHN: ok. i am going to assume that we can't just do that. CALLIOPE: yoU've hit the nail on the head, UnfortUnately. U_U CALLIOPE: the method i described was the one employed by my alternate self, who yoU may recall crashed through the event horizon in the body that once belonged to jade harley. CALLIOPE: she departed through a pUnctUre she created in the black hole's surface shortly after consUming my brother, a deed which provided her with the necessary "oomph", and which was frankly rather breathtaking to watch. =u= CALLIOPE: bUt Upon her departUre, the rift closed for good. as far as i can see, there's simply no way for Us to commUnicate with the world oUtside the black hole.

What the heck?  Calliope SAW all this?  Is this her Muse powers at work, letting her observe these things, or was she there?  And John certainly did NOT see ANY of what Calliope just said happen.

CALLIOPE: i woUld certainly be very sUrprised to find oUt that anyone had managed sUch a thing!

So we’re going to find that out if we haven’t already.  Maybe something to do with the way Vrissy just conks out narcoleptically?

JOHN: ...right. JOHN: so... let me just get this straight. JOHN: knowing that we're inside of a black hole... does that actually change anything? JOHN: like, can't we just go on living like normal? CALLIOPE: oh absolUtely not. CALLIOPE: i don't know if yoU've noticed john bUt this world is on the brink of a total cataclysm. JOHN: oh.

Um, what?

CALLIOPE: oUr exclUsion from the overarching coUrse of events which governs all reality means that oUr existence here is liable to dramatic and violent Upheaval. CALLIOPE: to pUt it another way, becaUse nothing in here "matters", we are likely to be sUbjected to things which are a bit bats in the belfry, for no reason other than it's totally insignificant to the wider canon of reality. CALLIOPE: and mUch thoUgh i am personally titillated by some of the conseqUences of this predicament, it is a degrading way for Us to live. u_u JOHN: that's... certainly one way to put it, yeah...

No plot-armor for your entire timeline, I guess, yep.  Outside of canon, we can imagine and write about ANYTHING happening to the characters, or just drop their existence entirely, much like a doomed offshoot timeline.  It’s a plot stability that depended heavily on the threat of Lord English and being trapped in a story, and without it things are bound to see a BIT chaotic (or “degrading” if you view it as subjected to the whims of fanfic writers, certainly).

CALLIOPE: at first, i believed that this was simply necessary. Us playing tails to oUr coUnterparts' heads, the black to their white, and so forth. CALLIOPE: bUt over the years i have come to the conclUsion that this is simply not kosher. ROXY: its total bs is what it is CALLIOPE: right, yes. CALLIOPE: a steaming pile of bUllshite. CALLIOPE: and so we have decided that something needs to be done aboUt it.

Ah fuck.  You’re going to regulate non-canon?  “Canonize” it?  Is the fact that you eventually succeed at whatever it is you’re trying to do part of why we have the story presented to us in this bifurcated structure?

ROXY: this is finally where u come in jegbert ROXY: we gots quests for yous CALLIOPE: hee hee, yes. CALLIOPE: or *a* quest, to be specific. JOHN: oh boy! ROXY: (this fkin nerd i s2g)

Roxy and Calliope setting him on this quest as a Rogue of Void and a Muse of Space feels fitting.

JOHN: i'm not sure how i can go about freeing us from a hellish space prison, but i'm up for giving it a try i guess? JOHN: i have... literally nothing better to be doing at this point. except for maybe hanging out with harry anderson. ROXY: nice save lol

YEAH WE’RE STILL GLOSSING OVER HOW YOU LEFT HIM UNPROTECTED, JERK

ROXY: but u dont need to worry abt busting us outta space jail tbh ROXY: thats not ur problem to fix JOHN: oh. JOHN: i'm... not sure i follow, then. ROXY: i mean yeah ur gonna obvs facilitate it in a sense ROXY: but only by going and busting the person who can actually help us outta normal earth jail CALLIOPE: we need yoU to free vriska from the clUtches of oUr misgUided friend jane, and bring her here, to the singUlarity. ROXY: weve been calling it the plot point CALLIOPE: yes, the plot point is a key part of oUr plan. CALLIOPE: as far as we have been able to sUrmise, the only remaining method for escaping oUr grim confinement depends on leveraging the UniqUe properties of this location to create an event of sUch catalcysmic proportions that it simply cannot be contained within the black hole any more. CALLIOPE: something SO dramatic, so hyper-relevant, that it becomes ontologically impossible for anyone to ignore it. CALLIOPE: for that, we need an individUal of sUfficient narrative cloUt, so to speak. CALLIOPE: and to liberate her, who better than the embodiment of the aspect of freedom itself? CALLIOPE: ... CALLIOPE: phew. okay, i'm finished. CALLIOPE: CALLIOPE: sorry, that took longer than i expected to go throUgh.

..............................

OOooooh, kay.

Whatever this is, it’s going to be really weird and PROBABLY infuriating and/or shippy, and I’m probably not going to like it.  Plus it seems like it’s some sort of inverse belated canonization of some other black-hole-rescue theories I went on about at some point.  Although, related to that link, “aspect of freedom” if anyone wasn’t paying attention!  That’s a (sorta-)canon mention of the purpose of it!

They’re going to attention-wh-- attention-hog themselves out of the black hole so that they’re “considered canon” too, or close enough.  Huh.

ROXY: what r u talking about cals that was great ROXY: i could listen 2 u plotsplain for years CALLIOPE: oh you >u< ROXY: fyi this was why i wanted u to get a move on eggbread ROXY: so callie could have more time 2 infodump ROXY: thats love bitchhhhhh JOHN: hahaha. JOHN: ok, well, i think i understood all that?

Love with who? Callie, John, both?

In reality, John isn’t sure what most of this means. But on balance, it feels okay? He’s gone back and forth about a hundred times in the last week about where his place in everything is, so he might as well ride this out. Plus, the last time a Lalonde kind of told him to do something, he thinks that he chose not to, and look where that got him. And it’s not like he has other plans. He may as well do this! It’s at least going to get him involved in things again, if nothing else. He turns to go, and then hears a sound. It’s the sound of feet and knocking on doors, echoed through stone and digital static.

Oh shit.  Is Andrew trapped behind some fourth walls behind the curtains.

> (==>)

Oh RIGHT also that DEVICE is where they want to bring Vriska.  Are they going to overturn part of canon itself with a super-retcon thus making this timeline unbelievably relevant or--?  Maybe make all the PESTERQUESTS canon or something?!  I don’t know.  Maybe they’re INTENTIONALLY starting the game like Vriska wanted to??????

Guh, this is something so big that I don’t WANT to theorize about it, do I.

JOHN: did you hear that? ROXY: wha ROXY: oh yeah uh ROXY: i may have messaged rose and kan and jade to check on them too ROXY: so its prob onea them showin up ROXY: they don’t need to know bout all this tho ROXY: we got time to chat with them b4 u go get vriska

No, even if it’s a knock at the somehow-top-level-house-even-under-buried-- oh, right, maybe it’s covering in part a monitoring system that looks up there.  But still, part of that sound was DOUBTLESS these two hiding something, all standing in front of the curtain like that.

JOHN: i’ll go stall em. ROXY: thx babe ROXY: oh is it 2 soon for that joke or JOHN: no, weirdly enough, that one’s fine. ROXY: oh good ok see u up there soon!

How is calling your significant other “babe” not cool REGARDLESS of gender?!  Like wasn’t that always cool? --Oh wait is it because they’re not together or... but... guh, I don’t know.

Anyway, see y’all after the holidays at least.

[queenofgotham800]

Anniversary

(Roman Sionis x Reader)

Requested by: @stardancerluv

Warnings: Gramatical Errors, Swearing, OOC Roman, OOC Victor

Summary: Roman and (Y/n) have their 5th anniversary and (Y/n) would want to spend it only with Roman in their apartment. Roman is used to give her tons of gifts and take her into expensive restaurants. But this time he calls Victor for help.

(A/n): Sorry it took me so long to write it, but here it is. Hope you will enjoy it 💜

Getting up from bed early morning wasn't your favourite thing. Today was a big day. It was yours and Romans 5th anniversary. Getting up from bed, you nearly tripped over a big gift packed in blue paper with little hearts all over it. Roman loved to give you expensive gifts, not just on anniversary but every day. And if you two had anniversary, or if it was valentine, birthday, christmas or any other festive day, Roman always nearly drowned you in gifts. Not just one... Many of them. On last anniversary he bought you car, dresses which matched with his suits, vacation in Paris and many more. You were always happy, but you weren't materialistic type so you always told Roman that he doesn't have to buy you such expensive things. He always explained that making you happy, makes him happy too. 

You already packed few gifts for him, but you were sure that he has much much more gifts for you. Not like it was an competition, you wanted to enjoy this day with Roman and only Roman.

As you opened the gift with big bow, you found inside beautifull dresses your favourite collor and high heels shoes matching with them, which were packed in box next to those dresses.

You smiled, becouse Roman also left a note on them.

My dearest (Y/n),

I bought you these dresses on our special day, hope you like them. Please meet me in club, at the place we first met. I'll be waiting.

R.B.S.

You put your pajamas down, putting on fancy dress and shoes. After you dressed you went to have some breakfast in kitchen. Roman wasn't there but that was no surprise, he never ate breakfast, only if you made them for him.

He would never reject your delicious food.

On the counter was another gift, new mug with hearts in which was written in initals R+(Y/n). It was so cute that your heart nearly melted. The food was also prepared on it. That was probably Victor's job.

You took the dishes with mug and went to dining room.

"Hey, (Y/n)," Victor greeted you and sat next to you.

"Hey Vic, how are you?" you asked him, slowly sipping tea from new mug.

"I'm good, happy anniversary by the way," he smiled and pointed on the mug, "It's from Roman."

"Yeah thanks, this is so cute," you smiled at both, mug and Victor, "I just wish he... I don't know," you gasped.

"What's wrong (Y/n)," Victor watched your worried expresion.

"I don't want to sound ungrateful, but sometimes I wish he was romantic the other way," you said.

"How?" Victor asked, he was lost in these romantical things.

"Like...Something sweet, not big that would involve just the two of us," you said thinking, "I'm not saying that these gifts are not sweet. They are very sweet, but... You know what I have in mind."

"Yea-No..." Victor mumbled.

"Remember how he bought me tickets to concert?

"Yeah, it was nice," Victor smiled. He met somebody there, but didn't wanted to speak about it.

"But you know... Just for once. Tonight we will probably go to the best restaurant in Gotham," you smiled slowly collecting your dishes from table.

"And if I understand it, you don't want to go," Victor said.

"Well, it's not like I was ungrateful, but you are maybe right. I would like to spend the time with him here, watching movies together, cooking together, I don't know," you said.

"Yeah, I think I understood," Victor said, collecting his dishes.

"Okay, I have to go," you waved to Victor and left to club.

Roman was sitting on the couch you two first met years ago. He was wearing his best suit, smiling at you, like the first time he saw you. Little blush spread across your cheeks when you sat next to him.

"Hi babygirl, how you like these dresses," Roman smiled, pulling you closer to him.

"Roman, I love them, thank you! And thank you for the mug, it so cute," you hugged him and gave him a kiss.

"I have much, much more for you, don't worry," Roman laughed teasing you becouse he knew your oppinion on expensive gifts and you rolled eyes.

"Boss, I... Henry is here," Victor strolled across the club and tapped Roman at shoulder.

"Victor, I... We are celebrating something," Roman frowned on Victor.

"..." Victor was waiting on Roman, speechless.

"Honey, if it's so important I don't mind," you said and gave him kiss. You knew who was Henry, it was one of Romans bussines friends.

"Are you sure babe?" Roman asked and you nodded. Roman smiled and walked with Victor away to the main entry hall of club.

You stayed in club, looking at your phone in thoughts. This is probably going to take hours and hours.

Meanwhile in the entry hall, Victor and Roman exited the club, going to the stage doors back to apartment.

"Thanks for reminding Victor. I nearly forgot," Roman said opening the fridge and taking out of it food.

"She wasn't picking up the food in fr-"

"The fridge? No, I prepared it on the kitchen counter next to your mug," Victor said.

"Great, bring me the bag with projector and technical stuff," Roman said and closed the fridge, "And maybe some picnic basket for the food."

"On my way boss," Victor yelled and ran for these things.

Roman hoped that this idea, which Victor gave him few years back will go well. You were telling that he didn't had to be so generous towards you, that you are not materialistic person. But always when he gave you some gifts, he saw that your eyes sparkled and you were geniuenly happy. He loved seeing you happy.

You were waiting in club, used to these things. Roman had to have some important things to do, that was his work. It came in unexpected times and you completely respected that. He was so bussy that sometimes he just came home at midnight and laid next to you on bed exhausted. He always woke you up, it was not becouse he wanted but his steps were echoing through the whole apartment. When he came exhausted like that, you used to pull him closer to you and play with his hair untill he didn't fall asleep in your arms. He looked so innocent when he slept in your arms.

Your thoughts were interupted with familiar man walking around in club. Where was Roman if Henry was here?

You put your phone back to bag and headed to Henry.

"Henry, welcome in club," you smiled, like nothing was happening.

"Mrs. Sionis," Henry smiled.

"Oh, I already told you to call me (Y/n). Romans friends are also my friends," you were still smiling, "Speaking of Roman, didn't he had some meeting with you today?"

"No, no we met yesterday. Why are you asking?"

You took a deep breath, "Nevermind. Enjoy your time here Henry," smiling, you took a drink from passerby waitress and turned to leave. When you turned away from Henry, your smile fastly dropped and on your face appeared wicked smirk.

It was time for preparations.

"Victor we have to prepare it fast. I don't like the thought of my dearest (Y/n) waiting on me in the club while we should spend that time together," Roman mumbled, walking up to the roof of Black Mask club. Victor was right behind him, taking the basket with food, huge case with projector, candles, radio and blankets. Roman took four pillows and that was all.

"Yeah, yeah boss," Victor nodded, carefully putting the stuff down on roof.

After he put it down, from somewhere sounded the song Everybody loves me-One Republic. Victor lifted eyebrows, while Roman serached for his phone.

Victor smirked, turning his head away from Roman's sight, so he wouldn't see Victors quiet laugh.

After Roman finaly found his phone, he picked it up.

It was you, calling him.

"Hey honey, I have to do also some work, I hope you don't mind. I'll be back as soon as I can. When you finish your job, you know, that appointment with Henry, call me or something," you said.

"Yeah, It's okay babe, I'll wait. Love you," Roman told.

"Love you too honey," you said and cancelled the call.

You didn't knew that somewhere above you are Victor and Roman. They also had no idea that you are under the building, next to the car ready to go for Roman's gift.

You had few gifts for him. Tailor texted you that you can go to pick up the gift for Roman.

Driving through the Gotham City you saw many couples which held hands, hugged and kissed. Your mind was on Roman, what was he doing if he didn't talked with Henry? Maybe something in warehouse... He just didn't wanted to tell you that becouse of the anniversary. Yeah, probably.

"No, Victor you have to put it like this!" Roman yelled on Victor, who was putting the pillows around the blanket on roof.

"Well, you can do it boss. Just land me over that projector," Victor said. Roman was preparing the projector and screen, but he struggled with it more than Victor with decorating.

"Yeah, sure," Roman nodded and placed few candles around the blanket, "You know what Victor... I'm gonna go for another blanket."

"Sure boss," Victor mumbled and whistled as he slowly build pieces of screen together.

Parking in front of tailor shop, you made sure you had sunglasses and cap. You were sorta famous in city, mostly becouse of Roman. Paparazzi were all over the city and you didn't wanted drawing attention now. Roman made sure these people with cameras wouldn't be following you all the time, but there was still more and more of them.

You entered the shop and came to counter.

"Mrs. Sionis," older man greeted you and waved at you.

"Oh- I hoped this would sorta..." you pointed on cap and sunglasses. Surprised that he recognized you.

"I expected you," said the man confused.

"Oh, right," you laughed, "So, I am here becouse of that suit, is it finished?"

"Yes, I wrote it in the text."

Well, this was an uncomfrontable comunication. You cringed at your previous words, but decided to continue confidently.

"Yes, can I see it?"

"Sure, sure," he slowly went to the back of the shop.

You were anxiously tapping with feet, looking at the expensive watches that you got from Roman last year.

"It's here," he told, putting the suit on the counter. It was truly magnificent.

"I hope you got the size right," you mumbled, sliding your fingers across the velvet suit. It was Roman's favourite collor, he didn't had suit like this and he still talked about how much he wanted it.

Your second gift for him was waiting in the trunk of your car.

"Victor, I found five blankets and I couldn't pick just one so I brought them all," Roman came to rooftop, putting those blankets and ground, looking on Victor. Roman was surprised, Victor actually builded the projector and the screen in such short period of time.

"How did you managed to build it so fast?"

"I had a good teacher," Victor smirked.

"Are you talking about the mysterious person from the concert?"

"Maybe," Victor mumbled and looked around, "You know that you need to have computer to play those movies."

"Sure," Roman said and pointed at doors, "Go and get it mister technician."

Running to the car, you put the velvet suit in already prepared big gift box in the trunk, next to the second gift. After closing the trunk you looked on the phone and texted Roman.

Hey honey, I'm going home. Everything is alright in fact great. I can't wait to see you soon <3

-(Y/n). S.

How you sent this message, you drove back to club, parking your car on the usual spot.

Roman looked on his phone and opened your message. He loved to see your initials under it. He also wanted to buy you gloves with your initials. Roman still wants, but not now, he may save that for later. Maybe christmas...

He texted you back.

My dear (Y/n) I can't wait to see you. I'm dealing with something now, but I'll be done any minute. Can't wait to see you too <3

-R.B.S.

"Boss, I found only this one," Victor came and brought Roman's old laptop.

"Yeah, my old laptop," Roman looked on it, slowly blowing the dust away from it's surface, "I hope it will work."

"I'll try it," Victor took the laptop from Roman, trying the it on the projector. It worked!

You were already in club on the way to apartment, taking those gifts upstairs to the kitchen. Kitchen, since Roman refused to go anywhere near it when you weren't by his side.

"Fuck, these things are not working," Roman broke the last match on the match-box.

"Those never work, that's normal," Victor mumbled, "Wanna lit up candles? You have to use the flamethrower for that."

"What?" Roman turned to Victor with terrified look.

Victor laughed it off and Roman bursted it laugh too.

"On a second I really thought you did it," Roman said.

"Yeah, few times. Nearly lit up the fucking place," Victor laughed and Roman stopped.

"Do we have some matches?" he asked.

"Yeah, they should be in kitchen," Victor told.

"Okay, this time I have to go for them I guess... Freaking pyroman" Roman mumbled, walking to the stairs, watching how Victor couldn't stop laugh at his remark.

You hid the gift boxes under the kitchen counter and heard how is someone walking through the hallway.

Those were Roman's steps, you knew them very well.

Hopefully he's not comming into kitchen, you thought.

Roman was walking to kitchen, anxiously fixing his sleeves. What if (Y/n) was already here, Roman thought. He entered the kitchen to found out that he was right.

"Roman, hey honey, so... How was the job?" you asked, blocking the kitchen counter.

"(Y/n)... Hey babe, it's- well," he laughed and nodded.

"Yeah? I met Henry in club," you said carefully, "You know that whatever happened you can talk with me."

You were both so anxious, it was obvious.

"Yes, yes... Ehm... Have you seen here some matches?" Roman asked you.

"No," you said.

"Or a flamethrower?" Roman smirked.

"What? No, that's not in kitchen. Actually I heard that Victor has few at his apartment," you said. Victor lived right next to your and Roman's apartment for safety reasons, becouse he was Roman's right hand and also becouse he was a great friend.

"So it wasn't a joke... Heh..." Roman lifted eyebrows and left. You turned back to the kitchen counter to check the gifts, but you stopped when Roman's hands touched your hips. His chest was on your back and his head on your neck.

"I love you, (Y/n). After the bussines I want to spend the time with you," Roman whispered in your ear and you smiled, giving him kiss.

After Roman came back to the rooftop, candles were lit and Victor was playing with his knife.

"What? Victor? How?" Roman pointed at candles.

"Oh, I forgot that I had a lighter in pocket," Victor smirked and Roman rolled his eyes.

"She is here Victor what should I do?" Roman asked Victor.

"Well, invite her upstairs. I'll go to take care of the club," Victor said and patted Roman on shoulder.

"Thanks," Roman said. Victor smiled and walked away.

You were still standing in kitchen, thinking if the place under the kitchen counter was good hiding spot for gifts. After you heard Roman's familiar steps echoing through the apartment again, you decided to get to him first. Walking on hallway, you locked the kitchen and put the key in your bag.

"(Y/n), I would love if you would follow me," Roman said, cupping your cheeks.

"Alright" you smiled and followed him to the rooftop.

He opened doors and you smiled in surprise.

"Oh my... Roman, this is so sweet," you turned to him to kiss him.

The scenery was truly romantic. Few blankets on ground, candles around the place, pillows, picnic basket, projector ready to play some movies.

"I cancelled the dinner in restaurant. I hope you don't mind," Roman said. You hugged him, "No. I love this," you smiled and looked at the rooftop.

"You do?" Roman lifted eyebrows.

"Yes I do," you looked up to him and he smiled. You had those sparkles in eyes.

"Let's party then," Roman smiled and poured you wine into glass.

"Alright," you laughed as Roman spilled the wine at himself.

"That is not funny (Y/n)," Roman said, but laughed too. He couldn't resist your sweet laugh. You then got a genius idea.

"Wait here," you smiled and ran to the kitchen, taking your bag with key.

After you came back to roof with box, you found Roman trying to wipe the wine stain away from his suit with napkin.

"Honeey," you smiled, gently shaking with box. He looked up to you, throwing the napkin aside.

You sat next to him and Roman unpatiently unpacked the gift.

"Thank you my dear," Roman looked on his new velvet suit of his favourite collor, "I'm going to get changed, I'm back in second," Roman said, but then his eyes drifted to second gift.

"And what is this?" he asked with smile, taking the second gift out.

"I hope you will like it."

Roman opened the second gift and pulled out of it small model of Rolls royce.

"I love it," Roman leaned closer and gave you small kiss, "I'm gonna go to dress this beautifull suit."

After few hours of spending time with Roman, he asked you, "What do you want to watch?"

You said the name of your favorite movie which Roman also liked.

"Okay babe," Roman gave you kiss.

The movie was running and you leaned on his shoulder. You smiled when you felt his hand gently rubbing your back.

"I love you my dear. Happy anniversary," Roman whispered in your ear and you felt how he put something around your neck. It was beautifull golden necklace with rose.

"When I first saw this, it reminded me of you," Roman smiled. The necklace was truly beautifull.

"Thank you Roman," you smiled and kissed him, "I love you too. Happy anniversary."

[twdmusicboxmystery]

TWD 10x13: What We Become -Details

Okay, let's talk details. This won’t be terribly long. Most of these are things we’ve been talking about for years, so I don’t think I need to over explain them. If you have questions about anything I point out here, send me a message or an ask. ;D

***As always, spoilers abound for 10x13 below. Don’t read until you’ve watched!***

There are a lot of small symbols that were very important, but also things we’ve seen a lot before, so I won’t go over absolutely every instance. For example, in Michonne’s hallucination of Andrea, she finds bullets on the ground. I thought that was significant.

We saw a lot of boats, such as the little boat Michonne and Virgil arrived in. She had him locked in handcuffs on the boat, a symbol of the sheriff. We also saw a lot of fives. Virgil said something about how she could've unlocked him five hours ago, his kid was five years old, etc. Of course, we also saw a lot of threes.

The herb garden reminded me of Herschel at the prison, and the fact that Virgil kept talking about making tea was kind of a call back to Herschel making the tea in order to fight the virus in S4. I'm also wondering if the tea theme this episode might be related to the Tibet theme we've seen a lot of lately. When talking about his kids playing, Virgil mentioned sailors and buried treasure. interesting references, no?

Okay, one thing that jumped out at me was the fact that we saw three graves for Virgil's family. It reminded me of 7x04 when Father Gabriel filled in an extra grave so that they could lie to Negan about Maggie having died. In the episode, it only really focuses on the one grave (the fake one) but if you think about it, there were three graves. Glenn, Abraham, and then the fake one for Maggie. Well, TD pounced on that at the time because we're literally talking about an empty grave. About someone Negan thought was dead, but who's really alive and well in a different place.

So, a callback to that, but I'm starting to think the three graves represent the three resurrections from the pickle story. I will talk a little bit more about that either tomorrow or Thursday.

Virgil’s backstory was just a little bit confusing. Apparently, this facility was still functioning, even after the apocalypse hit. But when stragglers would come to the islands in boats, they would take them in. He talked about how people started to run short of food rations and a fight broke out and resulted in a newbie being killed. I kept thinking that that story and wondering how we're supposed to apply it.

Then it hit me. I do believe that this entire thing was sort of a replay of Grady. Think about it this way. Grady didn't really take in stragglers so much as force them in, but they were bringing people in all the time. The newbie who was killed in a scuffle could be Beth. 

Plus, you have the fact that Michonne was thrown into a cell, imprisoned, and at one point, she makes a break for it, much like Beth did. She even let people out on her way out, just as Beth let Noah out with her. And, like Beth she wasn't able to escape as she'd hoped, because the boat was on fire. Also, the food try Virgil gives her looks an awful lot like the ones they used at Grady.

When Michonne and Virgil first go into the facility, there's a whole bunch of debris almost blocking the hallway. There's a small space they can squeeze through, but a blonde, female walker is caught in the space. So, Beth walker. After Michonne kills her and lowers her to the ground, you can see a phone cord and receiver wrapped around her. More of the Communication Theme there. It also reminded me a lot of Still, when Beth and Daryl had to go over and under things and right the clock because it was in their way. Just reminded me a lot of the golf club.

They even use a stretcher as a shield – talk about a hospital theme — and there are lots of posters about that talk about not spreading virus. That's a little weird with the pandemic going on right now, but obviously there is a theme here. (And yes, it’s a VD poster. 😊)

As I mentioned yesterday, there are people hanging in the room, just like a golf club.

I also thought the dead rats in cages were interesting. It reminded me of the pet shop in 6x03, which was right before Glenn’s death fake out. This is also the second time we've seen rats the season. The first time was right before Alpha’s horde arrived when a pack of rats ran across the field in front of Yumilo and Kelly. I’m not sure how to interpret the rats, yet, but I’ll keep an eye on them.

There's technically a water theme because of the island, but we also kept seeing water dripping from the faucet. We found out that Virgil accidentally locked his wife and kids inside the right happened. It's a lot like Father Gabriel, only the opposite. He locked inside instead of out, but they still died.

Every time Virgil looked through the door, he reminded me of Rick and the Governor and last season Daryl looking to the door the same way. That theme very much revolves around Coda.

Threes. Virgil told it had that conversation three times and he kept saying, "I want you to see." Part of the speak no evil theme. When Michonne is hallucinating, she says she's cold, and he says, "then picture of the sun." Remember that we saw the sun drawing at the prison and it's always been sort of a symbol of Beth.

Another big thing that jumped out at me is that when Negan gave Michonne his bat in the clearing, he said, "wish them a happy new year from us, will you?" I'm not entirely sure clear on what this means, but we have definitely heard it before. In 4x16, when the Claimers were about to kill Rick, Joe Claimer also talked about New Year's Eve. These are the only two times I can think of that we've heard it, though I might've missed other instances. 

The only thing I can think of is that New Year's comes after Christmas. If Christmas represents someone returning from the death fake out, then maybe New Year's Eve makes a weird kind of sense. Nobody really had a death fake out quite like Beth in S4, but it's also true that when everyone scattered from the prison, no one knew if anyone else was alive. Rick and Michonne didn't know if Daryl was alive and Daryl didn't know if they were alive. I don’t know. I’ll have to think on it more.

I will say anything more about Michonne’s hallucination, except that it was really epic. I really enjoyed that part of the show.

When she gets out and realizes the boats been set on fire, she tackles Virgil. He's talking about his wife and says, "she always told me the right thing to do, and then she was gone, and I didn't know what to do." Sounds like something Daryl could say about Beth, right?"

Michonne talks about mercy and letting Virgil live. I thought that was sweet because it was a callback to what she and Rick learned from Carl.

The next day when she talks to him in his cell, he talks about looking up at the stars (constellation = Sirius) and also about heaven, will Michonne talks about hell. So there's a big heaven and hell theme going on here.

After she finds the boots in the storeroom, he takes her to the boat. One thing I noticed was that he talked about the boat washing up in the big storm. I think the characters were talking about a big storm in the very beginning of the season, so I’m assuming it's meant to be that one. There’s something strange about that big storm because they keep referring back to it.

We see red crustaceans and reads near the boat. I’ll talk more about those in my next post. On the boat, we see a yellow life preserver, blue coolers, and a pickle jar (resurrection. Yea!). All important symbols.

The book Michonne finds suggests the boat set out from the New Jersey shipyard. I'm assuming that's where she’s headed.

When Virgil is surprised that they're willing to let him come with them, Michonne says, "sometimes the most injured are also the most forgiving." Just reminded me a lot of Daryl.

I thought it was super cute that RJ chose Little Brave Man for his call signal. I totally didn't get it at first, but remember that earlier in the season, Judith was telling RJ the story of Rick on the bridge and she called him, "the Brave Man." So, using “Little” Brave Man, is just another way of saying Rick Junior. Super cute.

Here are some other quick things my fellow TDers have pointed out:

During Michonne’s hallucination, the camera angles were weird and skewed, much like a Grady.

Andrew had a bone-handled knife, just like Beth did.

When Michonne killed herself in the clearing (hallucination) she said, "welcome to the New World." That was originally Jesus’s line. I'm not sure if we should be reading into that too much, but it could be that they're going for the fact that this kind of the opposite. Jesus’s line was said with hope, where Michonne says it here in a negative, homicidal sort of way.

I thought it was sad that Virgil ended up staying behind. Even though he said he pictured heaven with his family when he hallucinated, the island is actually his personal hell, because they're dead. He's just staying behind to put flowers on their grave every day. So, it's like he’s staying in hell. Also, the flowers are very much a symbol of death and loss in this episode. I'm sure that will segue into the next episode, Look at the Flowers.

Finally, the two people Michonne helped were interesting. It reminded most of us of the two people Morgan helped at the end of Here’s Not Here. In this case, the guy was wearing a sheriff's hat and a poncho, which I find suspicious. But no way to know where that's going yet.

Okay, I think that's all the details I have. I'll probably put up a new TWD video tomorrow. The next day, I have something I'm super excited to show you guys. It's gonna be crazy! Stay tuned.

[yestodaymvv]

third time’s a charm || mark lee

an: happy holidays everyone! i finally have time to write and in time for christmas too! i wish all of you the best holidays filled with joy, laughter, and time spent with the people you love. you all so much for being patient and i hope all of you have a great day <3 (this is not proof-read so please tell me if you see any typos!)

—

You absolutely loved the holidays.

It was your favorite time of year. The cold weather, the cups of steaming hot chocolate, the beautiful lights that lit up the streets. It was just truly the most beautiful time of the year. It was also the time of year of your favorite holiday, Christmas. Nothing felt better than waking up early on Christmas morning, smelling the aroma of pancakes your mother would make in the morning mixed with the cup of hot cocoa that your father prepared for you and your siblings. Opening the presents that was given to you by all the people you loved and just spending the morning with laughter and joy and then spending the dinner time with all your family and friends that came over for dinner just completed the day. You were beyond excited for the holiday when December rolled around because who doesn’t like Christmas?

Apparently, it was Mark Lee.

“What do you mean you hate Christmas?”

Mark sighed, shaking his head before answering, “I didn’t say I hated Christmas Y/N. I just said I don’t see the big deal about it and why you’re so excited about Christmas.”

The both of you were in 127’s dorm. You walked into Mark’s room, more like ran, exclaiming your excitement for the holidays. You expected Mark to cheer and dance around with you, sharing your excitement about Christmas, but he stayed in bed, using his laptop.

“Which is technically hating it Mark. Why don’t you like Christmas?”

“I just don’t like it. I don’t get all the hype about it.”

This was a new fact you just learned about Mark. The both of you became friends just this year, in mid January. You were a new SM trainee and met NCT as you were training and practicing late at night, like how they were practicing for their comeback. You met Mark when the both of you went to get more water and Mark accidentally spilled his water all over you. The both of you eventually became closer and were now best friends, a fact that always made Hyuck frown.

“I can’t believe we’ve been friends for this long and you’re just telling me now that you hate Christmas,” you exclaimed, bringing your hands up over your head.

“Y/N, I told you I don’t ha-“

“Shhh!” you said, bringing a finger to Mark’s lips. “Not another peep from you Mark Lee. You know I absolutely love Christmas and I just found out my best friend most definetly does not love Christmas.” You paced around his room, walking back and forth in front of his door, shaking your head.

“You must have a reason why you don’t like Christmas.”

“I do.”

“Okay, then tell me,” you said, demandingly.

“No Y/N.”

“Oh, so we’re keeping secrets now? I thought we were best friends Mark you have to tell me! It’s absolutely ridiculous that you hate Christmas but maybe if you tell me the reason why you hate Christmas then maybe I can let this slide.”

“No Y/N, I’m not telling you. You know I tell you everything but this is just.... I just don’t want to tell you yet.”

You sighed, taking a seat at the edge of Mark’s bed and facing towards him. You look at him with a sad expression, hoping that he would tell you.

“Your sad puppy dog face won’t work Y/N. I’m not saying anything.”

You huffed. “Fine, don’t tell me but don’t think I’ll forget about it. I’ll get it out of you eventually. In the meantime, I’m going to get you to like Christmas.”

Mark groaned, rolling his eyes. “Y/N, no. I don’t want to do any of those cliché holiday traditions.”

“Yes you will Mark Lee. We will do exactly all those cliché holiday traditions. We’ll have to do all those traditions in three days, looking at your hectic schedule but we are going to do it Mark Lee. By the end of it, you will like Christmas, maybe even love it!”

—

The first idea you had in getting Mark to like Christmas was so let go get a Christmas tree.

You and Mark met up at a Christmas tree farm. You wanted to get Mark a tree because you saw that there wasn’t one in his room. You even bought him ornaments already so the both of you can decorate it once you’ve chosen the tree.

You both of you went around, more like you running around and dragging Mark around, to find the perfect tree.

“C’mon Mark! Choose the one that catches your eye.”

“They all look the same Y/N.”

“Mark! No they’re not! Look at one over there is too short and skinny. The pine are starting to fall off too. And that one over there, the top is flopping over, how are you supposed to put a star on top of it?”

Mark once again sighed. “Y/N, it’s really cold. My hands are freezing and I don’t care at all about a tree.”

You grabbed one of his hands and held it tight. “Here, hold my hand then if it’s getting too cold. We are going to find a perfect tree.”

Mark looked shy about the fact that the both of you were holding hands but you didn’t notice because of how busy you were looking for a tree.

Eventually, you came across a tree. It was short enough to be put into Mark’s room and also had enough plump and pine to look full. It was the perfect one.

“Mark! This one! This is it!”

You pulled Mark towards the tree, running to make sure no one else would take it.

“Ok! Now, take the saw and cut it off.”

“What?”

“Yea! Like this,” you said as you repositioned yourself so you were standing behind Mark, hands over his own which was holding the saw and started to cut the tree.

Mark’s hands were really cold and once your warm ones made contact with his, Mark felt shivers go through his body.

“There! We did it!”

You and Mark were now in his room, putting lights and ornaments on the tree that you bought. You were putting the finishing touches of the tree before putting on the star.

“C’mere Mark! You have to put the star on the tree.”

Mark was sitting across the room, strumming his guitar and playing any song that wasn’t a Christmas song.

“Do I have to?”

“Mhm. It’s tradition. Now get your butt over here.”

Mark got up from position, set the guitar down and started making his way towards you.

He took the gold star from you and placed it on top of the tree. Not as enthusiastically as you wanted.

“Yay!!! You got to decorate the tree!! Do you like Christmas yet?” you said, both hands clutching his own and looking him in the eye.

“If I’m going to be honest Y/N. Not at all. Getting the tree made my hands freeze and it was actually painful to cut the tree and carry it back to the dorm with my freezing hands. There’s glitter all over my floor now because of all the ornaments and there’s too much light because of the tree.”

Your hopeful look disappeared, replaced with a frown. You really hoped that this would help Mark get into the Christmas spirit but it didn’t at all. If anything, it seemed like it made him hate Christmas even more, giving him more reasons to hate it. Nezt day. You were really going to get him into the Christmas the next day.

—

The second try didn’t go any well either.

Your second day plan consisted of simple things. It was to bake cookies and watch Christmas movies. It was something simple and easy to start with in getting into the Christmas spirit. It was an indoor type of day. You invited Mark to come over your house. You were able to spend the holidays over at your home and not at your dorm. Mark came over around 6 pm, right after his practice. When you opened the door, Mark was greeted with the sight of you in Christmas pajamas.

“Mark!!!!”

“Y/N, what are you wearing?”

“You don’t like it?” you frowned. “It’s Christmas pajamas! I thought it was cute. Where are your festive pajamas?” you said, noticing that Mark just came in blacking sweats and a grey hoodie with his glasses.

“I came from practice Y/N, it’s not like I would practice in Christmas pajamas. And besides, it’s not like I have any.”

Mark came in, taking off his shoes and greeting your parents who were in the living room. You lead Mark into the kitchen, all the ingredients for gingerbread cookies spread out and ready.

“You know Mark, our friendship is on thin ice. You don’t have Christmas pajamas and you hate Christmas. This is ridiculous. You have to be careful with what you say next around me, 12 months of friendship could end just like that.”

“You’re being dramatic.”

“I most definetly am not.”

You and Mark started baking the cookies. Just like Mark, it was also your first time making gingerbread cookies. You always made sugar cookies, just because they wer easier but you wanted to make gingerbread cookies because you thought it was more festive and would help Mark get into the Christmas spirit. Maybe, you should’ve stuck with the sugar cookies. The gingerbread cookies were a lot harder to make than you thought. The cookies didn’t exactly end up right. You and Mark burned them and set off the smoke alarms. The both of you earned scolding faces and a small lecture from your parents. The kitchen in the end was a mess. There were flour and molasses everywhere and a ton of burned, black cookies that had to end up being thrown into the trash. Cleaning up the kitchen took forever and so by the time you and Mark were watching Christmas movies, Mark fell asleep and so he wasn’t even able to enjoy the movie. Right as Mark left, you were determined to make the next day even better and to make sure Mark would really then like Christmas.

—

This was your last chance to get Mark into Christmas. Christmas Eve was the next day and if Mark wasn’t into the Christmas spirit on Christmas Eve Eve, then he wouldn’t be able to get into the spirit in time for Christmas.

Today, you decided that the both of you would go ice skating. You remembered Mark mentioning that he liked ice skating so you figured that the both of you should do it.

So there the both of you were, in line to get your skates in the rink.

“Why are we here again?”

“Because you love ice skating!”

“Why do we have to do it outside? Why not in an indoor ice skating rink?”

“Ah Mark. It’s because indoor ice skating rinks are boring. Plus, there’s Christmas decorations here. Look at the tree in the middle! It’s so beautiful. I’m trying to get you to like Christmas and I will continue to until the day I die. You like ice skating so i figured this wouldn’t be so bad.”

But you were so wrong.

It was true that Mark liked ice skating, but what you forgot was that he only liked watching it. Mark mag be good at dancing, but ice skating was a whole different story. You werw fairly good, getting experience from all the years you’ve done it around the holiday time. Mark has not been able to go ice skating ever since he joined SM and whatever talent he had in ice skating disappeared and probably went into his dancing skills instead. Point was, Mark was terrible in ice skating. Mark continously fell, not being able to skate without holding either your hand or the railing. His falls were pretty hard too. Everyone in the rink has started to take notice of him and has started laughing at him whenever he falls. By his 17th fall, Mark has had enough of it.

“Come on Mark, you ca-“

“That’s enough Y/N!”

Mark’s yell startled you. You reached back from helping him up as he got up himself.

“I’m tired of this! I’m cold and embarassed. I’ve got bruises in places that I absolutely do not want, and I’m tired of you! Gosh Y/N, can’t you just accept the fact that not everyone likes Christmas? This entire plan of you trying to get me to like Christmas has only gotten be to hate this dang holiday even more! Just stop!”

Mark turns to exit the rink, leaving you alone and with people staring at you with pity in their eyes. Your heart sank. You didn’t mean to get people laughing at Mark and you most certainly didn’t want him to hate Christmas even more. You just wanted him to like your favorite holiday so the both of you could celebrate together. It was the best time to create new memories with the people you love and this would be the first Christmas you got to spend with him. You thought everyone loved Christmas. But you guess, not everyone does.

—

It was now the night of Christmas. 10:34 pm. Everyone in your family was downstairs, eating, talking, and having fun playing Christmas games. You, of course, has fun on Christmas. In the morning you and your family had the traditionally Christmas breakfast with pancakes and hot cocoa and opened your presents under the tree. It was now the family Christmas party, one that your family always celebrated at your home. You snuck out of the party after the Secret Santa and went upstairs into your room. You were now sitting outside on the balcony, looking at the pretty Christmas lights that lit the neighborhood and listened to your cousin and siblings laughter ring throughout the house. Beside you was Mark’s Christmas present. Mark mentioned that he didn’t want a Christmas present from you but you imagined that by the time Christmas rolled around, he would accept your present as he would officially like Christmas, but that wasn’t the case.

You continued to sit outside, a hot cocoa in your hands to keep you warm from the freezing cold. Snow has started to fall when you hear a click from your door and a voice you weren’t expecting to hear on Christmas day.

“You’re going to catch a cold you know.” You didn’t look back, continuing to stare at the sky and sip on your hot cocoa.

“That’s fine with me.”

You hear Mark’s footsteps as he takes a seat on the empty chair next to you.

“Hey look, I’m so so-,” you started but was cut off by Mark.

“Wait no, don’t. Don’t apologize. I’m the one that deserves to give you an apologie. Just, don’t say anything. Let me talk, yea?”

He waited until you have a small subtle nod before he continued.

“Okay. Look, I’m sorry for what I said two nights ago. I know you just wanted me to like Christmas and if I’m being honest with you, it actually worked. It worked the moment you helped me cut off the tree and we decorated it in my room. I actually liked baking those gingerbread cookies despite the fact that they were burnt and we got a pretty long lecture from your parents. And even if I kept falling on my ass and kept getting laughed at by random strangers, I enjoyed ice skating with you. It was a fun experience and I thought it was adorable how you ahd so much faith in me that I could skate without holding anything or falling. I loved it all Y/N. I know you love this holiday and that you just wanted me to be able to spend it with you. I’m so sorry. I guess, the reason why I was such in a bad mood was because I miss my family. I wasn’t able to go home this year to Canada and spend Christmas with them like how it used to be. But it’s not like it would be how it used to be. For the past three years, whenever I went home for Christmas, I felt so out of place. I wasn’t able to laugh along with the inside jokes that my family made throughout the year. I wasn’t fully caught up with all the family news because of how busy I am. I just didn’t feel like the Christmas I’ve always known. So I hated it. I hated feeling left out. I hated how much Christmas felt so different now. How I’m not able to spend it with the people I love anymore. I know this is a shitty excuse for how I treated you but... I don’t know. It’s just the reason. I’m sorry Y/N. I truly am.”

Mark looks at you with a look that you know his apologie is real.

“Mark-“

“I’m not done. I always wanted to tell you something else. I really like you Y/N. I just- I don’t know how to deal with my feelings. I really liked spending time with you and I guess I’ve just been afraid that yku wouldn’t feel the same.”

You look at Mark. A small smile formed on your face as you shook your head.

“Ahh Mark Lee, you really are the worst beat friend ever.”

“Hey! I said I was sorry okay?”

“You really think I’m mad at you? Of course not. How could I ever be mad at you?” You leaned forward and kissed him on the cheek. “I could never be mad. I never knew that you were feeling this Mark and I’m so sorry. But you have me. And the other members. They are your family. We are your family and you spend Christmas with us. Always.” You looked at sky as you rest your head on his shoulder. You feel Mark give you a light kiss on the forehead as you whispered, “Happy Christmas Mark.”

“A happy Christmas indeed.” He turns your face as your lips touch one another’s.

[zonkutonshorrifyingpeenie]

12, 13, 14, 2?

Anon said: All of the powerwolf asks I dare ya

welp here we go.

How long have you been a fan?

About 7 or 8 months give or take?

Who is your favourite band member? Why?

Attila all the way. short answer, him… soft. Long answer, I love his voice, his humour, his kindheartedness, and also he makes me feel really gay things every time I see him.

Do you write fanfiction? Who do you ship?

Welp  I certainly do that, currently in the process of writing a long-ish werewolf au of the boys (MarilynsWolf on Wattpad *cough cough*) with the two ships being Falk/Attila and Roel/Charles.

Which is your favourite song?

Venom Of Venus or Sacramental Sister are my two go-to favourites

Which is your favourite album?

Overall? Probably Bless and Possessed

Have you seen them live? When? What was it like?

I fucking wish. I am but a poverty stricken Australian who could never afford to travel to bloody Europe to see them cause god knows they’re not coming here any time soon.

Favourite song off Return In Bloodred?

The Evil Made Me Do It

Favourite song off Lupus Dei?

In Blood We Trust

Favourite song off Bible Of The Beast?

Moscow After Dark

Favourite song off Blood Of The Saints?

Son Of A Wolf

Favourite song off Preachers Of The Night?

Last Of The Living Dead

Favourite song off Blessed And Possessed?

Let There Be Night

Favourite song off The Sacrament Of Sin?

Venom Of Venus

Favourite bonus track? (Orchestral versions, bonus tracks off History Of Heresy II, etc)

The orchestral version of Moscow After Dark

Favourite Communio Lupatum cover?

Ira Sancti by Eluveitie. I love the vocals of it so damn much

Favourite makeup era?

Probably the one where Falk had the tear lines running down his face, so just before SoS came out.

Favourite song performed live?

Lupus Del is a fun one they’ve done live

Do you have any merch? Show meeee!

Well I technically do, but it’s in another country atm cause a friend and I haven’t worked out shipping stuff. It’s one of the recent tour shirts, nothing fancy. Also EMP doesn’t ship to Australia so there’s that barrier as well…

Do you have a Powerwolf-related lockscreen/homescreen/desktop wallpaper? If yes, what is it?

My phone lockscreen is Attila and so is my laptop’s lockscreen.

Favourite melody/instrumental?

Look, the entire instrumental of Let There Be Night makes me feel things a lot

Are you in the FB meme group? Which is your favourite meme?

Yes. I am an admin of said group, even. As for my favourite meme? I am but a simple man. 

Favourite Wolfsnächte 2018 recap video?

London, definitely. Mainly cause I can spot a few dear friends in the video

Favourite interview?

I liked the interviews they did for the DVD release. Matthew’s accent when talking in english is really fuckkn cute and I liked Falk And Attila playing off of each other in their lil interview parts

Favourite A Day With Powerwolf video?

Shit man, I couldn’t tell you. They’re all p good

Have you seen the documentary? Did you like it?

Yes I have and I actually went to some degree of length to actually buy the damn thing cause I can only understand english and ¾ of that doc is in german so I cried a little bit. But it was cool and I did see it and I liked the little insights the boys give us from it.

Do you want a Powerwolf christmas album in your life?

Hell Fucking Yea

Do you have a Powerwolf tattoo? Post a pic??

I unfortunately do not, but I’ll probably get the logo on me somewhere at some point.

Have you ever DIY-ed something? A t-shirt, necklace, etc?

Well, I’m planning a full on cosplay of Attila at some point does that count?

Which season goes best with Powerwolf’s music?

Probably Autumn or Winter. I find them to be good “curl up w a cup of tea and listen to them” music.

[syuga]

I’m working to stop apologizing. I’m slowly getting there but sometimes it slips back in. Sodkdkdmf It’s also cool to know we’re similar in answering. 😁 I would understand if it had been a month after if they’ve answered to you... but the jump from March to November is big. Nine months technically. 😳 But it’s good to know the creeper stopped. (1) 0w0 Anon

*nod nod* Stress is one of the things that will affect our periods if we’re under situations that trigger it too much. Make sure to take a breather once in a while, and eat healthy. Because I get you on that, I was basically having panic attacks and mood swings up the yin yang. Both my physical and mental health was declining. (2) 0w0 Anon

One of the factors was due to some eating problems, a little trauma and too much anxiety because I didn’t noticed I was surrounded by shitty people. Turns out that knowing someone for years means shit, considering they will easily turn their backs on you for finally getting help for yourself and not putting up with their toxicity. But then again, I’m always too naive and like to see the best in people. 😅 (3) 0w0 Anon

Oof, you used OJO does that mean you speak Spanish? *curiosity strikes* (I would go off anon tbh. Because you’re uber awesome to speak with. But for the moment this year I’ve lost too many friends. Call it at the moment a precaution. But this won’t be forever. I’ll probably reveal myself one day I’m feeling brave.) (4) 0w0 Anon

I think a lot of people were ready to cross the screen and fight the directors. Since… dodmdkdnd okay I won’t rant about how with Thanos everything could have been done so much easier, precisely since he has the damn infinity stones. But noooo, instead of expanding the universe and stuff let’s kill fifty percent of it. And agreed on the superheroes, like everything would have ended if Thor had gone for the head sodmdkfmfkg (5/last) 0w0 Anon

Take all the time you need to answer, no need to rush Sharm. I’m getting on a flight tonight to visit the family for the holidays. 😂 I hope you wake up feeling well rested and that you get to eat some delicious food today. Fighting! 💚❤️✨~0w0 Anon

ooh i hope ure having a good time back home! lkgjkdl those xmas themed hearts… i did treat myself to some banana cake today nom

LKJKLFJG oops yea sorry for not answering this straight away omg i havent been on my laptop in 2 days. omf i could have been pregnate in that time… dumblr plz :( i guess they couldnt do much about it ugh (whats new tho)

yea i think i was stressed and being too anxious. but omg im glad ure better now though! your situation sounds shitty :( GJDKLF wow yikes @ those people CUT THEM OUT OF UR LIFE YES. but its good youve realised how toxic they were and now you can distance yourself from them and focus on yourself!

oh i thought OJO was a face like… owo but.. like a more pronounced nose OOPS i always think of jungkook when i use it lmaooo. aw u really dont have to if ure more comfortable on anon tho! we can still talk (but uh hopefully ‘read more’s work or else people’s dashes will get spammed dfgljdlk) also im sure you’ll find better friends than the trash u were with!! >:/

yea the plot was kinda.. dumb especially when he rewound time and killed vision like.. all that fighting for an AI machine smhhhhhh. ngl not very excited for captain marvel but im looking forward to spiderman 2 tho! tom holland is kinda cute hm.. i guess.. i like lipless men LMAO. 

oh im guessing u celebrate xmas so merry christmas/ happy holidays!

[death2normalcy]

Pretty sure this is there are only two left of these, this one and the last one. Yea, just this one and one more. They are both going to be on the shorter side, because I only have a few videos left, which is insane. This one has all the Christmas videos, plus Placebo and Scars.

Parts One | Two | Three | Four | Five | Six | Seven | Eight

*I’m going to add this disclaimer on all of them. These are just my   opinions, these opinions are coming from someone who has only been a   Stay for 2 months. I may miss stuff or think of things differently than   other people, I don’t know. I’m just commenting on how I feel. Also, these are my opinions on the music videos as a whole. I’ve already   talked about the songs themselves, and who I think stands out in a video   may not be who I think stands out in the song.

Scars - These have to be some of my favorite looks from anything they’ve ever done. They’re Japanese video looks are always so top tier, but this are my top favorite. Love the quick dance scene between Hyunjin and Changbin and then that solo scene with Seungmin. Really, love the entirety of the choreography. Love the concept of the apocalypse, but the boys have each other kind of thing. There’s not much else to say, other than I love all of it. Hard to pick a favorite, each one stood out to me, but I guess I’d go with Chan.

Christmas Evel - I already commented on this one on the post about the Christmas songs, but I want to expand on it, since both the song and the video have grown on me since then. First off, Felix is my favorite here, but that’s a given. Also, Minho. It’s pure chaos, but that’s pure Stray Kids at this point. I love the nods and easter eggs to other skz content/videos, love the scene of them in the van, love all of it, honestly.

Winter Falls - Another one I technically already talked about, but I’ll say more. I still love it, I think all the boys looks fantastic. Love the night setting, and the more muted colors here, it really works for the song. The concept is relatively simple, but doesn’t need to be crazy. Favorites would easily be Lee Know, I.N., and Hyunjin. But they are all great here, you already know.

24 to 25 - And the last Christmas song. I already mentioned that this song wasn’t really my cup of tea, and that hasn’t changed. It’s a very sweet and soft song, so of course the video is sweet and soft. These boys have 3 modes. Chaos, soft, and laidback. I appreciate that. The concept is relatively simple, but it works. It’s very...POV, like they’re singing to someone. It’s a lot, but it works. Seungmin is definitely a favorite for me here. Actually, no, they are all my favorites in this one, I love soft Stray Kids. Special shoutout to Chan’s glasses!

Placebo - I wasn’t going to comment on this one, but then I saw the second half and it’s so cute. I love when they are being chaotic and soft at the same time. The looks are soft, but all the chaos that’s happening as each boy tries to sing is so cute. The opening scenes were great too, but I love the second half. No favorites this time, besides all the almost kisses that occur, lmao.

[tenecity]

from haters to lovers; lin yanjun

from haters to lovers—a series where nine percent and you have the cliche, typical love story

au; highschool

cr. @aestheticninepercent i juST HAD TO ADD THIS IN its so prettyyyy bub ure a genius

[AT THE START]

You hated playboys. Like you absolutely hate them. You think they are detestable. I mean, they literally go around, leading other people on, enticing others with their enchanting looks and the later on, turn from the angel to the devil and break people’s hearts. I mean hello?? We’re in 2018?? Some respect for others’ feelings please??? They never take relationships seriously; everything is just a fling for them. But have they ever considered the fact that some people emotionally invest in relationships??? This world isn’t always cruel and cold; people have feelings too, people have emotions too, and playing with their heartstrings like a puppeteer isn’t what a decent human being should do.

Hence why you hate Lin Yanjun. He is literally

playboy

ˈpleɪbɔɪ/

noun

      Lin Yanjun

He is the Original™ playboy of the school, that one heartbreaker that everyone doesn’t want to fall for, but eventually falls for, gets broken and moves on from. Everytime he opens his locker or looks under his desk, there is at least 5 love letters waiting for him to read but they are never read because he just glances at them, waits for them to pile up, and then at the end of each term, he throws them into the rubbish bin. You have seen him do it. And it makes your blood boil.

So yes, you absolutely hate Lin Yanjun. Not popular opinion, especially since at least 90% of the girls in school pine for him, 9.9% of them have boyfriends so technically they can’t pine for him (although you have seen boys crying at the rooftops because their girlfriends had been stolen by Yanjun) and then there is the 0.1%, which is just basically you, who shows no interest whatsoever for that idiot.

“Oh my god!!! Lin Yanjun!!!” The girls screamed as they all crowd around the volleyball court and watch the said boy play. Honestly, it’s not like he is a very good player. Average, at best? You scoff when you hear the screams go off again and drop of your bag. “Y/n!” Your captain calls you. “Decided to take a break from studying?” You shrug and smile cheekily at him, playfully hitting his arm. “Closet mugger, you don’t get to say that to me.” Picking up the other edge of the net,, you head over to the court and helped Zhengting set it up. You hooked the ends up to the pole and asked “Zhengting, you’re not seriously considering Yanjun as a main player, right?” “Why not?” He questions as he tugs the string to pull the net up. “Because, he is a terrible player.” You say it in a matter-of-factly way.

“He is, quite unfortunately, not a bad player. You have a bias! That’s why. Don’t give that pout now. Go and join the team and start warming up.” He says as he rolls your eyes at you, knowing full well how you hate Yanjun; and he secretly agrees. Whether it is because Yanjun had kissed his girlfriend during last year’s Christmas party, it doesn’t matter. At least there is one person in the school is clearly not blinded by the stunts Yanjun pulls.

You get on the opposite team, fist bumping your teammates. Yanjun is at the edge of the court, a smirk on his face as he throws the ball up and sends it flying over the net. Ziyi hits it back perfectly, catching Fei off guard and she misses it, crashing ungracefully on the floor. You can almost hear Yanjun inwardly groaning and you send him a wink as he glares back at you. 1-0, playboy.

The game continues and neither team is having a strong win. As soon as your team ends their victory hug, Yanjun’s team scores another point. And you’ve had enough; it’s now or never, you think as Xukun sets you the ball and you jump up, hand posed and you slam the ball down to the other court. You can hear Zhengting screaming “Perfect spike y/n!!!!” and you smile smugly to yourself as you land.

What you didn’t expect was to hear a body crashing to the ground and a sharp cry of pain.

[SOMEWHERE IN BETWEEN]

You cross your arms as you wait outside the infirmary. It’s not your fault Lin Yanjun sucks as receiving the ball and he ended up fracturing his arm. Does he not know how to break his fall? Who the hell breaks their arm while playing volleyball?

The door opens and the doctor comes out, with Zhengting and Yanjun trailing behind him. You speechlessly bow the the doctor and look at the two. Zhengting is giving you the warning look and Yanjun… that’s weird. You thought he would be glowering at you, but he wasn’t. He just looked rather dazed, if not stunned, a deep crease between his brows and his head sometimes tilting to the left and right. You sincerely hope he didn’t hit his head.

“Y/n, y/n? Y/N!” Zhengting is nearly screaming at you when your head snaps up and stare at Zhengting. Was I staring at...Lin Yanjun this whole time? You frown at the thought. Gross. “Y/n, stop frowning, you look exactly like Yanjun. Yanjun, Yanjun, YANJUN! Hey yes brother, welcome to reality. You feeling ok? Why do you look so dazed?” Zhengting shakes Yanjun and the other’s eyes shift their gaze from you to Zhengting. “Huh….?” Zhengting rolls his eyes and looks back at you.

What? You mouth.

Apologise. He mouths back, jerking his chin at Yanjun.

You sigh. “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hit you, Yanjun.” Zhengting stares at you with doubt written all over his face and Yanjun seems to snap out of whatever trance he is in and just nods. “Not your fault, I should have broken my fall better.” He says nonchalantly. “Captain, my chauffeur is here. Can I go?” He doesn’t even reply and slips from Zhengting’s hold, stalking over to his car.

“Close your mouth, y/n. You look ugly like that.” Zhengting says as he wrinkles his nose in fake disgust and walks towards the bus stop. You automatically seal your lips together. You don’t know whether you should be shocked that he didn’t even blame you for a single thing, or be further disgusted by the fact that Yanjun is not only a playboy, he is also rich. Filthy rich. I mean, who the hell calls 4 cars to bring one person home?

Zhengting puffs out some air and turns to look at you as you take a seat next to him on the bench. “Y/n, if you did that because-”

“You know I didn’t,” You idly reply back. Zhengting sighs and takes a seat next to you. “Yea, I know you didn’t…”

He sighs so hard that his shoulders slump. “I am just worried…. Because I don’t know just what his fanclub of hysterical girls will say about you.”

Zhengting is right. Those hysterical girls had spread word that you had intentionally slammed the ball down and made it impossible for Yanjun to receive. Every single girl you pass by has at least said one comment about how you’re a single loser who is just trying to get Yanjun’s attention. You close your eyes as you seat at your place, hoping that the crude comments will wash over you like water.

You hear a fist slam down on the table and you open your eyes, thinking that it was Zhengting, for he had a short temper, especially when it came to people bullying you. He hated it that you would passively allow others to push you over and taunt you. You had shrugged and just said it didn’t matter.

Well obviously, it mattered a lot to a certain Taiwanese because he is looking at you from across the classroom, the desk he had slammed slightly dented, a glint in his eyes as his irises pierce through you. Normally, such a glare wouldn’t put you off. But today, your stomach feels weird and you feel choked, words stuck in your throat.

“Are you seriously going to continue to let this bunch of giggling shits bitch about you?” You have never noticed how silky his voice was; like a lightly flowing stream, gentle and soft, but at the rocks they gush and rush and cut the edges of the hard stones. The room has fallen silent, besides the crunching sound from the edge of the classroom (probably you zhangjing). The smirks on the girls’ faces have fallen and the snark comments, dead on their lips. “I, er,” You mumble, looking at everywhere but Yanjun.

“God.” He sighs out and walks up to you, an unreadable expression on his face. The next thing you know, his hand is having an iron grip on your wrist and he is dragging you up to the rooftop, despite your protests for him to let you go.

[AT THE END OF THE DAY]

“GOD! I told you to let go, damn.” You glare at him, and snatch your hand away from him, rubbing your red wrists. He almost looks apologetic when he grabs it again, but this time, his thumb gently swipes over the red spots. Your wrists is lifted up to his face and his eyes are assessing if there was any damage done.

The sun rays hit perfectly against his angled face, giving his skin a pretty glow, the shadows casted all at the right angles and positions, accentuating his beautiful features. You tear your eyes away from him and swallow hard, praying hard that the pulsing rate of your heart wouldn’t be detected as his fingers graze over your translucent skin, where the veins are pumping with life and vigour, like the waters plummeting down the Niagara Falls.

You feel his lips ghost over your skin and out of pure reflex, you jerk your hand and simply stare at him. “What are you doing?”  “Trying to kiss your ‘injured’ wrist?” He casually replies, an eyebrow raised, as if asking why are you so startled?

The audacity of him, seriously! To actually say that out, shamelessly! Playboy syndrome perhaps.

“You look extremely cute when you blush.” The heat only flames even stronger and your cheeks burn. “So, would you rather stay here in the stairway or would you go to the rooftop?” He asks, a hand extending out to you. You take it and continue climbing up the stairs, the colour in your cheeks not dissipating as you become hyper-aware of how Yanjun’s fingers graze the inside of your palm and move stealthily to intertwine with your fingers, as if like water, flowing through your palm. Only, unlike water, the fingers anchor themselves at your knuckles and hold on tight.

“Do you plan on telling me what you want to talk to me about, or are you going to just continue staring at me like I grew another head?” You mumble out. Yanjun laughs, a tinkling one.

“Wanna know why I missed that ball you spiked, when I definitely could have received it?” He begins. You roll your eyes at the ‘I definitely could have received it’ part. “Oh, so it wasn’t because you’re a trashy player?”

He leans in, pink lips so near, you didn’t think you would have the self control to keep your hands to yourself. “Ok, ok, I get it, sorry. Now tell me why.” You awkwardly move backwards and stutter out.

“Because, when you spike,

You look so damn hot.”

“What?” You attempt to wrench your hand out of his grasp, out of pure surprise and because you want to hide your burning face in your hands. Who the hell has so much courage to say that? Well apparently, Lin Yanjun-

His name is the last thought as your hand is flipped and Yanjun’s fingers are flowing through your fingers and are intertwined with yours, gripping hard as he presses your hand against the wall. The other hand lands itself on your side and he holds you gently, but firmly. Pink lips lean in but stop just an inch near your lips, ghosting over the trembling skin, as if contemplating.

Okay, that’s it.

You lean in and press your own lips against his. His lips are chapped but surprisingly soft. They are soon slick from your tongue swiping against his, an apology for the hurt spot that had just been in between your teeth. He kisses back with equal fervor, lips capturing and recapturing yours, each suck on the lips, a needier one than the previous. His right hand releases your hand to cup your jaw, tilting it upwards as he squeezes it a little, as if he can’t have enough of you. The other hand snakes behind your back and preses you forward, flushing your body against his. You take in a breath. He smells like fresh dew on freshly cut grass and wet earth, a hint of new flowers and blossoming spring.

His lips move down to your jaw and he traces it carefully with his finger, his lips trailing right after. The kisses flow down to your neck and you bite your lip as he presses teeth prints onto your the pale skin, lips brushing over the marred skin.

Your fingers weave their way through his silk-like hair, gripping at the roots and pushing him down, clearly not having enough of him. He moves back to attack your lips; and then, a light fleeting press of the lips against your forehead that leaves you light headed. He leans his head against yours as he catches your breath.

“You are exactly like what they say. I would rate a 9/10 for kissing.” You say once he pulls away from you. He laughs. “Is that all you have to say?”

“What else do I say? Will you go out with me?” You had mindlessly said it, but as soon as the words are out of your mouth, you regret it immediately. The crease reappears on his forehead, the refreshed and youthful look disappears. “You mean, you weren’t planning on accepting my request for a date?”

You choose your words carefully, but in the end, they flow out relentless, like water bursting out from a dam. “I mean, how do I know if you’re serious about me? And come on, just a couple of days ago you hated me-”

“And you hated me too. I….” he scratches his head and huffs. “I never hated you. You… you didn’t whine for me, like all those other girls did. You didn’t suck up to me. You...were intriguing and enchanting. I…..I had a crush on you for the longest time.” You stare at him. Residential playboy has a crush on you? Impossible.

“Do you remember when you were 10? You lived in that log house temporarily, for a holiday I think. I...live in that village, and lived in the village. I was the boy who helped your aunt. But after that, you barely spared me a glance.”

“Remember when you were 12? I was that boy at the stream but after that, you… you left and never came back.” He whispers the end, the hand that had still be on your side, squeezes your hips slightly with trembling fingers, as if he was scared you would be gone again.

“But still, everyday, sneaking peeks at you from my window when you went with your aunt to the market, and seeing you wrestle the boys instead of playing with dolls, made me love you even more…” He chuckled. “You were...different. Everyone else was predictable, flowing all in the same direction. But you always went against the tide.”

“I couldn’t believe my luck, when I saw you walking through the gates on the first day of school.”

You stare at him, and searching for words, you could only say, “Lin Yanjun, you really are a hopeless romantic.”

He laughs, warm, safe and home. “Is that really all you can say?” And you chuckle back, warmth surrounding you, peace and serenity filling your entire being.

As you lean against Yanjun, you vaguely remembering doing the same thing for a little cute boy with dimples, behind the log house, at the edge of a forest stream, where the glistening water had flowed amongst the dark green trees.

—水

[BEFORE]

As a little child, you loved going to your aunt’s house. She was those few city people who grew to dislike the hustle amongst the tall buildings, and had decided to move outwards and into nature.

She created the log house herself and it was the most beautiful thing you have seen, with pretty wild flowers and vines running up the edges of the door frame, a comfortable fire in the living room and a warm bunk for you to sleep in. You loved the peace and quiet; you loved going to the village just down the narrow path, to listen to the old folks tell you acient legends and secrets.

When you were 10 or so, she had asked you to help her bring some pots up to roof. While she was bringing them in from the village to the house, a small boy, who had been bouncing a ball had come up to her and asked if she needed help, so she passed some pots to him and that’s how she brought the boy to you.

As you held the pots and glass bottles and climbed up to the roof, the boy didn’t speak a word, his eyes only following yours. It’s fine. You like the silence.

You get to the to the rooftop and pull out the dirty old cloth off the roof floor. Unbeknownst to you, when you did that, the glass pots and bottles had slipped from your hand.

The coloured glass shards fly and some fall onto the newly uncovered skylight with a clank. The boy raises his eyebrows and then furrows them together. Eyes avoiding his, you stoop down to pick up the glass shards when a hand grabs yours, stopping you from picking them up.

Head tilted up, you give him a questioning look. And for the first time his lips unseal. “Look.” He says, pointing at the house below.

The glass shards have caught some of the setting sun’s rays and were shedding red, orange, green shadows on the wooden floor.

Without another word, you take a glass bottle from the boy’s hands and break it, as he moves to arrange the broken glass pieces to cover the skylight.

You meet the boy again, when you were 12 and had gone to pick some berries with your aunt. You had wandered to the stream and were marvelling at the small but blossoming life under the crystal surface. He wasn’t too far away, standing in the middle of gushing waters and rocks, trying to catch a fish.

You sensed his presence and your eyes automatically moved from the glittery scales of the fishes to his lean figure. You find that his eyes are already on you.

“Want one?” he blurts out, pointing at the basket on the other side of the bank. “.....You give me one fish for 5 berries?” You reply. He shrugs and waddles towards you, carefully guiding you through the waters and pulling you to the other side.

Your aunt had found the two of you at the stream, talking and laughing, and had decided to leave the two of you there. She left you a lamp and a phone, before trudging back to the log house, a smile on her lips.

“There’s the constellation, Crux. I think it might just be the smallest constellation, but it’s one of the brightest.” He lies down next to you on the grass, and breathes in, enjoying the smell of wet earth.

“And?” You ask him, turning to face him, an elbow propping you up.

“And, that’s exactly like you. I’ve seen you wrestle with the boys in the village. You’re small but fast and quick. And bright, like the constellation.” His irises, almost black from the lack of light, still shine brightly in the darkness, reflecting the fleeting moonlight. It looked just like the stream’s gushing water, glittering from the reflections of the same moonlight.

And you think, he is one, the Crux, the brightest of them all.

“You’re really pretty, you know.” He almost says it idly.

Him. Is the last thought you have as he presses his lips against yours, breathing in your scent of fresh flowers, and you taking in the scent of wet earth that clings to his clothes.

That’s the last he sees of you, because the next day, you had gone back to the city. You had then moved from Taiwan to Beijing for your education. And you never saw him again.

That is of course, until now.

series

Cr. idea of broken glass shards to pg 205, 206 of “counting by 7s” by Holly Goldberg Sioan

“there’s the constellation…” line to weightless, written by johnsonzzzyc

[raychulemma]

50 Completely Random Questions People Rarely Ask Tag:

1. What’s your favorite candle scent? Red Apple Wreath - Yankee Candle. It's perfectly Autumnal and always goes on half price sale after Christmas. I have far too many versions of it

2. What female celebrity do you wish you were related to? Probably Maya Rudolph because she's a shameless weirdo like me

3. What male celebrity do you wish was your brother? Probably Peter Kay. I feel like he would be easy to open up to. And he would make awkward family events so much more bearable

4. What’s your favorite thing about marriage? (And if you’re not married, what’s your favorite thing about being single?) Security. Safety. I didn't expect it to feel any different because we had been living together for a while but something about the actual marriage made me feel protected and comfortable. Also because its a same-sex marriage it's a lot nicer to say my wife than my fiancée, because i would wonder if they assume my fiancée is male

5. What’s one thing you own that you should probably get rid of, but just can’t? Books that I'm not going to re-read but have memories linked to buying/receiving/reading them.

6. Can you do a split? not a chance

7. How old were you when you learned how to ride a bike? Seven. i learnt at the end of my road because it's a dead end. and i got a green bike for my birthday with a seat for my teddy

8. How many oceans have you swam in? just the Atlantic ocean 🌊

9. How many countries have you been to? 6. France, Spain, Germany, USA (Florida), Wales, Scotland.

10. Is anyone in your family in the army? No, my Grandad was, and some of my Great Uncles but no one during my lifetime

11. What was your favorite TV show when you were a child? Superted, Adventures of Winnie the Pooh, The Story of Tracy Beaker, Dick n Dom in da Bungalow, Jungle Run

12. What did you dress up as on Halloween when you were eight? A classy binbag witch

13. Have you read any of the Harry Potter, Hunger Games or Twilight series? I got into the Harry Potter books in 1998 and am still in love with the series. I went to the midnight release for the last book. I watched all of the films in the opening week and vividly remember that the cinema i saw the first film at in 2001 had a Harry Potter themed sweet shop. I have jewellery, clothing, books, dvds, wands, other collectibles. I read the books with my mum when i was younger and watched all of the films in the cinema with her. she had her own HP merch. My wife also loves Harry Potter. We have been to see Cursed Child twice and have been to the Studio Tour 3 (or 4?) times. We had a Harry Potter themed wedding which was absolutely perfect. Hunger Games was something i avoided reading until the first film was coming out, and then absolutely loved the first 2 books (3rd one got too political for me) and the films are still some of my favourites for costume and set design. I read the twilight books after my best friend recommended them to me. We all actually read them as part of our sisterhood club. I went to blackpool to watch the first film in the cinema with my best friend. I watched the last one at midnight with my wife and one of the girls from the sisterhood who is one of the biggest twilight fans i know still. she has behind the scenes books and dvds and has re read the books that much that the spines are just gone. my mum was also a big twilight fan and would watch them any time they were on tv. i watched a few at the cinema with her, always her choice. she hadnt seen hunger games at the time of them being released but we did watch them all with her a few years ago

14. Would you rather have an American accent or a British accent? i film YouTube videos and always think my accent would be more interesting if it was American

15. Have you ever taken karate lessons? no, my 2 brothers and sister did when i was 5 or 6. i didnt like being touched so never did it

16. Do you know who Kermit the frog is? yup

17. What’s the first amusement park you’ve been to? im going to guess Gullivers world Warrington because its the closest one to where i live

18. What language, besides your native language, would you like to be fluent in? French because I love disneyland paris. or japanese because i would love to visit tokyo but its way out of my comfort zone

19. Do you spell the color as grey or gray? grey. e for england, a for america

20. Do you know triplets? yes, 2 girls and a boy but i only met the girls

21. Do you prefer Titanic or The Notebook? Titanic. my mum was a massive fan. She watched it 3 times in the cinema when it first came out. we watched it with her when it was released in imax on an anniversary. she had behind the scenes books, a few versions of the vhs and dvds, playing cards. her love for it made me love it

22. Have you ever had Indian food? no im a very fussy eater and have never tried indian or Chinese

23. What’s the name of your favorite restaurant? Of all time? Tough choice but im going with pizza hut. Cheesy bites base with double mushroom. Never craved something more

24. Have you ever been to Olive Garden? they dont have it in England so no but i would probably like it

25. What would your parents have named you if you were the opposite gender? i have no idea, maybe jason after my dad?

26. If you have a nickname, what is it? rach, chicken, chickadee

27. Who’s your favorite person in the world? i want to say scruff but shes technically not a person. kirsty is my best friend and i would pick her every time

28. Would you rather live in a rural area or in the suburbs? where i live is in between. drive one way and its city, the other way is farms. so living in one ot those farmhouses not far from city life would be the dream. i would have chickens, sheep and cats.

29. Can you whistle? yep but my cats hate the noise

30. Do you sleep with a nightlight? i can see the hallway light from where our bed is so i dont generally need a nightlight but we do have cute ones. i have 3 HP ones on my bedside table

31. Do you eat breakfast every morning? yea as long as i have time

32. How many times have you been to the hospital? ive only ever been to a&e. once for palpitations, a few times for mental health and once for an x ray on my hand. ive been to walk in centres for urine/kidney infections and for fractured fingers. oh i did go to hospital to see a neurologist to be diagnosed with essential tremor

33. Have you ever seen Finding Nemo? yes i love it. my brother and sister both bought me the dvd for christmas the year it came out so i had 2 copies for a while. i also had the game for pc and ps2. and i had a game on my phone and ipad where you could build up the seabed and gain fish. the film is just so nice and calming to watch. the scenery, the sound effects, the movements are all just gently flowing. and somehow you get attached to these characters and root for them whether youre a fan of tropical fish or not.

34. Where do you buy your jeans? primark, next, sainsburys, asda

35. What’s the last compliment you got? kirsty said my eyelashes look like im wearing mascara when im not

36. Do you usually remember your dreams in the morning? yea and they're weird as fuck. the latest one was about the bath being clogged with poo

37. Favorite beverage that isn’t water? Tea ☕

38. How many pairs of shoes do you currently own? a disgusting amount. maybe 20. maybe more

39. How old were you when you found out that Santa wasn’t real? about 8 which I think wasnt too young or too old. my brother told me which I was glad about because i was prone to being bullied at school and would have hated to be told by nasty kids

40. What is one food that you used to hate but now you love? cheesy garlic bread WTF

41. What is a weird lie you’ve told? i told kirsty once that i had pood the bed and asked her to help me clean it.

42. Heels or flats? flats always. specifically trainers. i think dresses look so much cuter with trainers. same with suits

43. Do you have any weird phobias? no just common ones. moths, spiders, flying insects, beetles, heights, being completely isolated, finding a dead person

44. What is a phrase or word you always say? i cant actually think of a current phrase i say but i do get stuck on phrases

45. What is a song that you bast or belt out when you are alone? part of your world, let it go, bridge over troubled water, over the rainbow. any that i try to actually hit the notes on

46. What is one of your biggest pet peeves? nails. nails tapping, and the sound of cutting or biting nails. or people that stop in the middle of an aisle or walkway when you're trying to get past

47. Do you sleep with your closet door open or closed? they dont even have doors on yet so open

48. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees? bear. the noise of bees terrifies me. i had a flying ant in my hair on flying ant day but i didnt know. i heard it buzz and cried

49. Do you have any weird things you do? i cant have 2 cream biscuits together (custard cream and jam n cream). i sometimes say hi to my teddies so they know i havent forgot about them. i buy hatchimals when theyre on sale even though i havent previously collected them cos im an impulsive pos. (honestly collecting animal jam figures and my little ponies were the best though)

50. What movie could you watch over and over again and still love? any of the harry potter films, titanic, sisterhood of the travelling pants, Princess diaries 1 and 2, enchanted, princess and the frog, raise your voice, catch me if you can, chalet girl, the shining, slumdog millionaire

[braveheartdarlings]

1-99! 💖 i love you

 oh my lord nicole i love you too. also i love your picture you look ethereal.

okay here goes. this is super long im sorry

do you have a favourite sweater? -yea but it changes. right now its my color guard one

what’s your middle name? -rose

do you still talk to the first person you kissed? -nah she and i were never close

do you get on with your grandpa`? -sorta. but some things were said after my mom passed that have always been hard to ignore tbh

what was your favourite cartoon as a kid? -lilo and stitch/kim possible

what’s your favourite cartoon now? -steven universe

do you read the news paper? -no

who was the last text you sent to ? -my director for BCPE

what does the last text you sent say? -lots of stage managing stuff

if you could have any hair colour what would it be? -auburn red

do you like nature documentaries? -love them

what is your aesthetic? -night sky full of stars in the middle of the forest or on an empty beach

when did you last pet a dog? -last rehearsal at the office, charlie is the best boy and i love him so much

whose friend’s parents do you like the most? -Graces mom? maybe carolines dad & step mom? idk bruh but they get honorable mentions

have you ever been on a road trip? -a few

tell me about someone you know called emma -little sister of the she devil herself

are you reading a book in english class, what is it? -no college for me folks!

do you have a favourite aunt? -my aunt mary. she geniunly cares and remindes me of my mom tbh

baths or showers? -showers

skiing or sun bathing? -neither

do you kill spiders? -honestly they scare me so much i kinda just blank out until its taken care of

have you ever made an ice pop? -yeah when i was a kid

are you wearing shoes right now? -nope

tell me about you favourite primary school/elementary school teacher -dont know honestly. maybe blankers cause that year was really bad and she went easy on me

who was the last person you hugged? -joseph! i can always count on him for a hug

do you wear glasses? -yep

do you have a cat? -absolutely

do you have a favourite pair of underwear? -yep

what was your last tweet? -dont have twitter

do you still use facebook? -for birthdays reminders

do you like birds? -yea

who was the last person you called cute? -one of the kids in my cast. shes 6 and the cuttest fucking thing on earth

who was the last person that called you cute? -uhhh? i dont remember the last time that happend. its been a few years at least

how did you meet your best friend? -look you know who you all are but this thing is already too long. i love you

escalators or elevators? -elevators

are you named after anyone, who? -my grandma roz

what was your first url? -mama-maymay?

autumn or winter? -autumn

do you win at scrabble? -never played but i doubt i would ever get close to winning

put your ipod on shuffle , who is the first song that comes up by? -spotify cause i dont own an ipod: Lu Pluie by Amethystium

have you ever drunk from a mason jar? -yeah most of my sisters cups are jars

can you draw? -not well

what was your first profile picture? -dont remember

favourite tshirt? -dont have one

best tumblr friend? @alderandphoenix she keeps me going

when did you last run? -yesterday back and forth from the tech booth to the stage a few times

do you like to paint your nails? -sometimes

did you ever do something as a kid that got you into loads of trouble? -not that i remember

who is your favourite dog that isn’t yours? -charlie hes an old blind deaf dog that has my heart and the heart of pretty much everyone else that joins the act1 family

have you ever been drunk? -never had alcohol

have you ever done something you regret while drunk? -see above

do you want to kiss anyone right now? -no one comes to mind

do/did you like you math teacher? -stans was the best math teacher i ever had

do you often ride the bus? -no but mostly cause i dont go anywhere

do you have a fireplace in your house? -no

are you violent when you’re angry? -mostly i just cry

do you cry when you’re angry? -see above

favourite Harry potter book? -havent read them

can you remember your last dream? -something about being in a lab and having a panic attack

do you go to bed early or late? -late

do you speak a second language? -sadly no

who was your first ever best friend? - @chat-miaou preschool was a long time ago

have you ever had an operation? -ive had a tooth filled? i doubt that counts

tell me about your favourite cousin -not close to my cousins

do you have a piece of clothing that doesn’t even fit you anymore but you can’t bare to throw away? -no?

have you ever been in a musical? -several

do you have a porch? -kinda

how many times have you watched your favourite movie? -a billion

what do you order at mcdonalds? -fish sandwich

do you get on with old people? -well its my job so i kinda have to

science fiction or romance? -both?

do you take naps? -i wish i was taking one right now

how many classes do you/did you take in high-school? -uh the normal amount?

when did it last snow where you live? -a few weeks ago

does it ever snow where you live? -never this early

how many months until your birthday? -a lot

how much charge does your computer have right now? -87%

what is your favourite disney channel movie? -HSM

the city or the sea side? -not sure

what is your least favourite colour? -bright pink

do you have homework to do? -nope!

are you still friends with your first best friend? -absatively posolutely

do you have/are you the gay cousin? -damn right im the gay cousin.. not that they know lolol

do you own dungarees? -no

do you like to play sport? -no

what was your favourite ever christmas present? -i dont remember

how old are you? -19

what is your mum’s name? -Lisa 

do you ever use internet explorer? -Only when trying to help petra with her email

have you ever had blonde hair? -technically im still blonde but my hair is getting darker

is their a play park near your house? -theres one in the complex i live in

when did you last see the person you have a crush on? -not crushing

who did you last talk to on the phone? - @whenwilltheyrealize 

pants or dresses? -pants

do you read fan fiction? -yep

what is you’re favourite blog? -i duno

do you write poetry? -no

drama or comedy? -both?

have you ever had a hickey? -yea

that took.. far too long. i would say ask me some more but the only one left is a make your own soooooo

love you nicole

[buckygirl-fanfiction]

Sparks Chapter 14

Pairing: Bucky(POV) X Reader(POV) ft. other characters from the avengers team

Word Count: 1.3K

Summary: You and Bucky hanging out binge watching twd. Bucky going out to buy you tampons when he sees you got your period.

A/N: This is a story about two people building a great friendship and then slowly falling in love. y/n is a strong, independent, and smart scientist. She meets Bucky when she wakes him up from cryo sleep and they become friends. This is going to have all the angst / best friends falling in love / fluff / drama / & eventual smut ;) that I can possibly fit in it. This fic is going to be looong! So far my document is like 40,000 words. So editing is hard If you catch any grammatical or formatting errors let me know.

December 12, 2015

y/n’s POV

“You’re a big girl y/n you can watch the Walking Dead alone,” Bucky says to me as we drive through midtown on a Saturday night. The traffic from New Jersey was insane. We left the party around six and it’s almost eight thirty now.

“Come on hang out,” I whined, “i’m bored.”

He sighs and says, “Alright,” giving into my nagging. I yawn for about the millionth time during our ride back and he asks, “tired?”

“Yeah, kind of,” I reply. After failing to find a spot outside my building, I turn the corner into the parking structure. As I drive up to the second floor of the garage I spot Stanta. I still forget sometimes how close Christmas is. Just around the corner. Like two weeks actually. Wow, i’m still astounded sometimes by how fast time flies by. I spot a tall fat man standing at the trunk of his car, donned in the iconic red suit and for a second I swear the huge white beard hanging off his chin is real. At least it looked real until he pulled it off and tossed it in his trunk along with his cap. I laugh at the image, Santa getting off work, going home to be a normal person.

“Looks like Santa’s lighting up,” Bucky says as we walk past the man whose holding up a lighter igniting the roll wedged in between his lips.

“Kind of ruins the whole Santa vibe right?” I say. Sometimes people should not be seen out of uniform.

“Did you buy your secret Santa gift yet?” He asks. The group decided to do a secret Santa this year for fun. I got Nat and I decided on getting her this really cool holographic switchblade I saw online. Nothing fancy, gifts were supposed to be under 20 bucks.

“Yeah. How about you?” I ask as we walk down back to the street.

“No, not yet just contemplating what to get,” he says.

“Who’d you get, maybe I can help you pick something out,” I ask mostly because i’m curious and i’ve been slowly trying to figure out who picked me. So far through the process of elimination I know that Steve got Bruce and Nat got Cho, but the rest won’t spill who they ended up with.

“y/n the concept of secret santa lies in its title. Secret.” he says and I scoff at him.

“Come aren’t you curious who got you?”

“No,” he says shrugging his shoulders. “I’m more concerned that i’m going to get who I picked a shitty gift.”

“It’s secret santa, you can’t really get a shitty gift.” I say as we walk towards my building. The cold wind is blowing at my face and I shiver. I hate winter I think. I shove my hands in my pockets. “Just get them something fun, or something they can use, or if all else fails just figure out what they fangirl over and get them a t-shirt.”

“A shirt?” he says raising an eyebrow at me.

“Yea, it’s secret santa Bucky. It’s supposed to be a fun casual thing.” When we get to the door of my building I quickly fish out my keys and open the door pushing past into the warm lobby. I sigh relaxing a little now that i’m out of the cold.

We walk up the stairs to my floor and once inside I toss my keys on the small table by the door. I make a beeline to my sofa. I pick up my favorite beige blanket lying on top of the cushions and wrap it around me, not bothering to take off my jacket. I’m still freezing from being outside. I feel like the cold has invaded my entire body. Like the winter has invaded my bones. Bucky grabs the remote off the coffee table and flips on the TV and plays the last episode I left off at.

“So whats happening? Why is the Sheriff going crazy?” he asks referring to Rick.

“His wife died.” I say pulling my legs up to my chest and curling up with my blanket, leaning against the arm of the sofa.

“When?” he asks staring at the screen as the opening credits play.

“She gave birth, died, then got eaten. Baby’s alive… for now…” I say trying to recap the last couple episodes for him. “You would know this if you watched it with me last weekend,” I say rolling my eyes.

“Well, I’m sorry, Bahni wanted to hang out,” he says. I shush him as the opening credits come to a close and the new episode starts playing.

Bucky’s POV

I don’t even like this show at times. I mean it’s alright, interesting even. But it’s very… intense and work is already intense enough for one day. But y/n is obsessed with it. As the episode comes to a close y/n yawns and stretches her arms. The blanket she has wrapped around her falls off her shoulders as she stretches. Sometimes i’m surprised by how cold she gets. Ice to the touch. That can’t be healthy

“You wanna watch another episode?” I ask her.

“Sure,” she replies.

I hear her stomach growl and ask, “you got anything in?”

“Uhh,” she says as she thinks over what leftovers could be lurking in her refrigerator. “I think I have some cold pizza.”

I raise my eyebrows at her, “do you eat anything else.” I say sighing.

“Don’t drag the pizza,” she says.

“Of course, it’s such a great source of nutrition. How could I?” I say sarcastically.

“Yep, it’s got fruits, veggies, dairy,” she say standing up and shrugging of her jacket.

“The tomato sauce doesn’t count as a fruit and jalapenos are not veggies,” I say.

“Technically tomatoes are a fruit and jalapenos are green, bam all major food groups covered.”

“You’re a doctor…” I answer back. How can someone so smart be so unhealthy.

“Yes and as a doctor I deem my diet very healthy,” she says, “Now, stop shaming my love for pizza. Do you want some?” she asks looking down at me.

“Sure,” I say giving in. She smiles smugly and turns around to walk to the kitchen and I notice a small red spot seeping through her jeans. “You’re bleeding.”

She turns around, looks at me, and says, “huh?” I point to her bottom and she turns back to look down over her shoulder and says, “fantastic.” She walks back over to the coffee table where she tossed her jacket. “I gotta run to the store, ran out of tampons.”

I look at the clock and it’s almost 10pm. It’s cold and dark outside, I push myself off the couch and say, “I’ll go.”

She lets out a breath of relief and says, “really?” A smile spreads over her face. “Bucky, you’re the realest friend I got.”

I let out a laugh and grab my leather jacket. “So i’ve never actually done this before but what am I buying exactly.”

She smiles and says, “Small box blue box with ‘always’ written on it, either orange or purple. I’ll text you a picture incase you get lost,” she says bending down to reach for her phone.

“Alright, I think I can manage that,” I say as I walk to the door.

“Oh, and get some mango ice cream if they have it,” she says.

“Got it,” I say before shutting the door and walking down to the lobby.

The store is just a couple blocks away. I get there in about five minutes and i’m standing in front of the cashier handing the box of tampons and ice cream to her. She’s a ancient looking indian woman who looks down at the counter and smiles at me. She hands me my change and I pick up the plastic bag and walk back towards to y/n’s apartment.

…

y/n’s POV

I can’t believe Bucky actually went out to get me tampons. That kind of restores some of my faith in men. I’m sitting curled up again on the sofa and we’re munching on the left over pizza and mango ice cream. We’re on our third episode when I finally drift off to sleep.

A/N: Enjoy the happy cute moments while they last bc shits bout to get real sad real fast.

[batsysims]

100 QUESTIONS NO ONE ASKS

I was tagged by @tickledsims ty ily!!

1. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR CLOSET DOORS OPEN OR CLOSED? CLOSED when i was younger my little sister had a baby doll that would talk on its own at night and we called it the demon baby and hooooly shit

2. DO YOU TAKE THE SHAMPOOS AND CONDITIONER BOTTLES FROM HOTELS? i dont take those bc my hair cant take cheap hair products but i do take the soaps!!

3. DO YOU SLEEP WITH YOUR SHEETS TUCKED IN OR OUT? i put the mattress cover sheet thingy on my bed but i dont use an actual sheet :/

4. HAVE YOU STOLEN A STREET SIGN BEFORE? nah lol

5. DO YOU LIKE TO USE POST-IT NOTES? YES i love using office supplies i could spend all day at staples omg

6. DO YOU CUT OUT COUPONS BUT THEN NEVER USE THEM? no lol but il save the lil receipt coupons and find them in my wallet months after they expire

7. WOULD YOU RATHER BE ATTACKED BY A BIG BEAR OR A SWARM OF BEES? hhhhh bees

8. DO YOU HAVE FRECKLES? yep!! i love them its why im scared to use foundation i dont wanna lose em

9. DO YOU ALWAYS SMILE FOR PICTURES? i either smile or if my moms takin the pic il make a stupid face 

10. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST PET PEEVE? i have terrible road rage...... um........... i also hate it when men interrupt me i just walk away at that point 

11. DO YOU EVER COUNT YOUR STEPS WHEN YOU WALK? yeah i pretty much count everything

12. HAVE YOU PEED IN THE WOODS? i dont think so??

13. HAVE YOU EVER POOPED IN THE WOODS? def not lmao

14. DO YOU EVER DANCE EVEN IF THERES NO MUSIC PLAYING? i have an eating dance, a drinking dance, and a video game playing dance hahaa

15. DO YOU CHEW YOUR PENS AND PENCILS? yes ugh it annoys me but i cant stop

16. HOW MANY PEOPLE HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH THIS WEEK? at LEAST 0

17. WHAT SIZE IS YOUR BED? i think its a single? a single or a twin either way im miserable send help

18. WHAT IS YOUR SONG OF THE WEEK? ummm probably You by Weird Milk?? its the most recent song i added on spotify so  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

19. IS IT OK FOR GUYS TO WEAR PINK? yeah def unless its one of those “real men wear pink shirts” like just.... stop

20. DO YOU STILL WATCH CARTOONS? sometimes my sister makes me watch stevens universe?? il watch phineas and ferb too bc honestly who doesnt anime too but not always cartoon ones or w/e

21. WHAT IS YOUR LEAST FAVORITE MOVIE? 2001: A Space Odyssey and Daughters of the Dust come to mind

22. WHERE WOULD YOU BURY HIDDEN TREASURE IF YOU HAD SOME? u kno where ;) no how big is the treasure?? if its a lil bit id put it in that drawer under the oven bc my family never uses that but if its BIG TREASURE id hide it in the backyard of the last house i lived in bc a. nobody lives there now and 2. its totally overrun with green bc of like two floods

23. WHAT DO YOU DRINK WITH DINNER? water! only water ever

24. WHAT DO YOU DIP A CHICKEN NUGGET IN? honey if theyre mcnuggets but other than that i use honey mustard!

25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FOOD? chicky parm

26. WHAT MOVIES COULD YOU WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN AND STILL LOVE? honestly Inception is my feel-good movie

27. LAST PERSON, YOU KISSED/KISSED YOU? a lil babu

28. WERE YOU EVER A BOY/GIRL SCOUT? i was in girl scouts much longer than i ever wanted to be lmao WISH i coulda done BOY SCOUTS

29. WOULD YOU EVER STRIP OR POSE NUDE IN A MAGAZINE? if cash is involved absolutely

30. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU WROTE A LETTER TO SOMEONE ON PAPER? aboutttt three months ago!

31. CAN YOU CHANGE THE OIL ON A CAR? no but i can watch

32. EVER GOTTEN A SPEEDING TICKET? when i first got my license yea :( 15 yr olds are dum

33. EVER RAN OUT OF GAS? twice! very good memories

34. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE KIND OF SANDWICH? egg salad gud

35. BEST THING TO EAT FOR BREAKFAST? the all star breakfast at waffle house yasssss

36. WHAT IS YOUR USUAL BEDTIME? honestly like 9 since i always have to wake up at 7 in the am but il stay up til 11 if i can

37. ARE YOU LAZY? absolutely when have ACTIVE ppl done ANYTHING

38. WHEN YOU WERE A KID, WHAT DID YOU DRESS UP AS FOR HALLOWEEN? i was usually a cat bc i never could find a costume i liked smh but when i was 2 i went as winnie the pooh lmao

39. WHAT IS YOUR CHINESE ASTROLOGICAL SIGN? ox!

40. HOW MANY LANGUAGES CAN YOU SPEAK? just english but im tryna learn spanish and japanese and im fluent in french if a two year olds speech patterns can be considered as such

41. DO YOU HAVE ANY MAGAZINE SUBSCRIPTIONS? nah

42. WHICH ARE BETTER: LEGOS OR LINCOLN LOGS? LEGOS lincoln logs are big with nostalgia thoooo

43. ARE YOU STUBBORN? with dumb shit yeah but i usually just dont care enough abt stuff to deal

44. WHO IS BETTER: LENO OR LETTERMAN? theyre both old idc

45. EVER WATCH SOAP OPERAS? no lol

46. ARE YOU AFRAID OF HEIGHTS? not really tbh i like the adrenaline

47. DO YOU SING IN THE CAR? if im alone!! nobody deserves to hear that

48. DO YOU SING IN THE SHOWER? nahhh

49. DO YOU DANCE IN THE CAR? when im in the drive thru haaaa

50. EVER USED A GUN? id like to go to a shooting range some time but ive never used one im also very anti gun so i probs would never buy one unless it was a cute lil glock i can handle well

51. LAST TIME YOU GOT A PORTRAIT TAKEN BY A PHOTOGRAPHER? st patricks day it wasnt technically for me tho

52. DO YOU THINK MUSICALS ARE CHEESY? not in general but when ppl start obsessing over a certain one for months on end abt a certain time period and certain performers and certain songs and certain people of history i start wanting ppl to die

53. IS CHRISTMAS STRESSFUL? YEAH I NEVER HAVE MONEY WTF

54. EVER EAT A PIEROGI? my sisters obsessed with them so yea but never like. authentic polish potato pockets or anything just a frozen box of em

55. FAVORITE TYPE OF FRUIT PIE? apple?? im not rly into pie tbh

56. OCCUPATIONS YOU WANTED TO BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID? ive wanted to go into law enforcement/criminology my whole life!! for a sec i wanted to be a firefighter, a journalist/writer/poet, and some sort of artist but u know how kids are

57. DO YOU BELIEVE IN GHOSTS? i tried to find that clip from malcolm in the middle for like ten mins but i couldnt yea

58. EVER HAVE A DEJA-VU FEELING? doesnt everyone tho?

59. DO YOU TAKE A VITAMIN DAILY? no im a bad adult

60. DO YOU WEAR SLIPPERS? nah

61. DO YOU WEAR A BATH ROBE? im not rich!!

62. WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED? usually just my undies but when im living with other people il wear a soft shirt and my dc heroes pajama bottoms ayyy

63. WHAT WAS YOUR FIRST CONCERT? ive never been to one! i was gonna go see metallica in baltimore but i moved before i could smh

64. WALMART, TARGET, OR KMART? walmart sry targets cool but too much money!!! i go there for home things tho does kmart still exist

65. NIKE OR ADIDAS? ADIDAS ive been trying to get a full adidas tracksuit for YEARS

66. CHEETOS OR FRITOS? fritos! i like the super hot cheetos tho

67. PEANUTS OR SUNFLOWER SEEDS? peanutsssss

68. EVER HEAR OF THE GROUP TRES BIEN? Nope but they must be good im keepin @tickledsims response bc it made me laugh

69. EVER TAKE DANCE LESSONS? when i was a lil babu i took ballet and gymnastics a lil later

70. IS THERE A PROFESSION YOU PICTURE YOUR FUTURE SPOUSE DOING? i hope to never have a spouse  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

71. CAN YOU CURL YOUR TONGUE? yep

72. EVER WON A SPELLING BEE? ive actually never even had a spelling bee im sure theyre a myth

73. HAVE YOU EVER CRIED BECAUSE YOU WERE SO HAPPY? i think so??

74. OWN ANY RECORD ALBUMS? nah

75. OWN A RECORD PLAYER? nahhhhh

76. DO YOU REGULARLY BURN INCENSE? no but i had a roommate who did i fell in love

77. EVER BEEN IN LOVE? yeah ok lol so one time when i was a sophomore my french teacher had to use a substitute teacher and hes the reason i believe in love at first sight im STILL in love with him wtf ive also had a bf haha im hilarious

78. WHO WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE IN CONCERT? i dont really do concerts so i couldnt say but i think matd would be fun!!

79. WHAT WAS THE LAST CONCERT YOU SAW? oh my god

80. HOT TEA OR COLD TEA? hot!!!!

81. TEA OR COFFEE? coffee!!!!!!

82. SUGAR COOKIES OR SNICKERDOODLES? i dont rly like either but i prefer snickerdoodles over sugar

83. CAN YOU SWIM WELL? i can only do that weird frog swim i forget what its called so no im shit at it

84. CAN YOU HOLD YOUR BREATH WITHOUT HOLDING YOUR NOSE? ye

85. ARE YOU PATIENT? if im able to distract myself?? it also depends on the severity of what im waiting on i guess

86. DJ OR BAND AT A WEDDING? probs a band i guess i dont rly think abt that kinda stuff sry

87. EVER WON A CONTEST? when i was four i won a coloring contest at the ice cream store

88. HAVE YOU EVER HAD PLASTIC SURGERY? nope im poor 89. WHICH ARE BETTER: BLACK OR GREEN OLIVES? both are good!

90. CAN YOU KNIT OR CROCHET? i can knit but i cant crochet

91. BEST ROOM FOR A FIREPLACE? fckn bathroom

92. DO YOU WANT TO GET MARRIED? not rly unless its a partnership longlasting romance stresses me out especially with financial responsibility etc

93. IF MARRIED, HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN MARRIED? -20 years

94. WHO WAS YOUR HIGH SCHOOL CRUSH? my high school boyfriend hahaaa h,,,,

95. DO YOU CRY AND THROW A FIT UNTIL YOU GET YOUR OWN WAY? im an adult sry

96. DO YOU HAVE KIDS? 1!

97. DO YOU WANT KIDS? nope! lmao i love her tho

98. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR? red but i also like many others??? idk

99. DO YOU MISS ANYONE RIGHT NOW? ummm not rly?? im not close enough to anyone to miss them and those i am close to im able to hang with

100. WHO ARE YOU GOING TO TAG TO DO THIS TAG NEXT? god uhhh if you havent done it already and want to, @dreambot @nebula-simms @ellowynsims and @pixelbloom

[aphroditeurl]

>:D

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

I mean. That’s the goal. 

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

Incorrect

3. Have you taken someones virginity?

Yep I have

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

Oh fuck yea lmao

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

NO AND THAT ISN’T FAIR

6. What are you excited for?

Seeing Alvin. At some point. Idk when but I want to. 

7. What happened tonight?

A lot of fucked up shit

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

No? What the fuck? Let them live their damn lives ya fuckheads. 

9. Is confidence cute?

It can be but to much is nauseating 

10. What is the last beverage you had?

Milk

11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

Like. One. 

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

Yup, several

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

I hope I’m gonna discord with Alvin 

14. What are you going to spend money on next?

Seeing Alvin 

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

Nope

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

Probably, I mean people change. For the better, I hope. 

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

My best friend Callie

18. The last time you felt broken?

Today

19. Have you had sex today?

@funkypanda no and it’s his fault >:c

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

That I need to start treating my body better

21. Are you in a good mood?

I’m in a decent enough mood

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

Sure, that sounds cool

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

Let’s not talk about that fuck

24. What do you want right this second?

@funkypanda

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

I wouldn’t say anything I’d be so heartbroken. I’d sorta just. Lose my shit. 

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

Sorta? I need to re-dye it. 

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

No

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

Honestly can’t remember. 

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

Yes

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

No. It’s circumstantial. For example, if someone stabs me, they aren’t getting a second chance. 

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

No?

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

Yes we’re dating

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

I have a guilty need for coke

34. Listening to?

Nothing atm

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

When I need to

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

Nope

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Sorta, yeah, technically

38. Who did you last call?

My mom

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

My best friend in high school

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

We were like a couple but we aren’t anymore

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

TOO LONG AGO

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

Nope

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

Every time we talk I think

44. Do you tan in the nude?

Yes

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

No

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

No :c

47. Who was the last person to call you?

My mom

48. Do you sing in the shower?

Sometimes, but not often

49. Do you dance in the car?

It depends on who I’m with

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

Yep I was in archery at one point

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

I was like, 6

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

Yes but that’s why I love them

53. Is Christmas stressful?

Hella

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

Yesss it was so goooodd

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

Cherry 

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Zoologist. Still the dream.

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

Yup

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

Yeah a lot actually 

59. Take a vitamin daily?

Nope

60. Wear slippers?

Ew no

61. Wear a bath robe?

If I had one

62. What do you wear to bed?

Sweats and a t or just sleep naked

63. First concert?

I don’t even remember. Some Christian rock band I assume. 

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

Target bittcchh

65. Nike or Adidas?

Nike

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

Cheetos

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Sunflower seeds

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

I don’t know her

69. Ever take dance lessons?

yup when I was little

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

Hacking for the FBI

71. Can you curl your tongue?

Yup ;))))

72. Ever won a spelling bee?

Nope

73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

Oh yeah

74. What is your favorite book?

Will Grayson, Will Grayson

75. Do you study better with or without music?

With, but it has to be vaporwave or classical

76. Regularly burn incense?

Yup

77. Ever been in love?

Currently

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

Florence + The Machine

79. What was the last concert you saw?

Rascal Flatts at the country fair. I come from Iowa okk

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

Cold, sweetened

81. Tea or coffee?

Neither

82. Favorite type of cookie?

M&M

83. Can you swim well?

Yeah I’m not terrible

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yup

85. Are you patient?

It depends on the person

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

Oh this is hard...........

uh both?

87. Ever won a contest?

Yeah

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

Nope

89. Which are better black or green olives?

Black

90. Opinions on sex before marriage?

Been there, done that ya’ll

91. Best room for a fireplace?

Bathroom, before ya’ll yell can you imagine how romantic? yeah so sit down

92. Do you want to get married

Yes to my beautiful wife @mama-hellscream

[ryqoshay]

How to Handle a Nico: Different

Primary Pairing: NicoMaki Hinted Pairing: NozoEli Words: ~2.1k Rating: K Time Frame: The week between Christmas and New Year, during Maki's 1st and Nico's 3rd year of high school. Story Arc: "First Christmas" First Christmas Different

List of all HtHaN scenes

“Maki-chan!” an energetic orange-haired girl called and waved. “Over here! Over here!”

“Yes, I see you, Rin.” The redhead stated flatly, walking over to join her fellow first years.

“Good morning, Maki-chan.” The brunette beside the orange-haired girl said with a smile.

“Good morning, Hanayo.” Maki replied, returning the smile, though nowhere near as wide.

“I see you’re wearing the scarf Kotori-chan and Nico-chan made for you, nya!” Rin pointed out.

“It’s cold today.” Maki replied with a shrug. “And like I said last night, this is warm.”

“Uh-huh…”

“What the heck do you mean by that?”

“Is that the only reason?”

“I don’t get it.” Maki said, honestly confused. “What other reason would there be?”

Rin just smiled back.

“Besides, you two are wearing yours as well.”

“We like ours, nya!” the cat-like girl pounced on her friend to nuzzle their cheeks together. “Right, Kayo-chin?”

“That’s right, Rin-chan.” The mild-mannered girl replied, leaning into the embrace a little.

“Don’t you like yours?” Rin turned her attention back to Maki.

“Of course, I-kyaaa!” the redhead cried out as something impacted her from behind. Arms encircled her waist and a chin plopped down on her shoulder.

“Someone’s wearing their new sca~rf.” A voice cooed near the redhead’s ear.

“N-Nico-chan?!” the first year squirmed against the surprisingly strong embrace of the smaller girl.

“It looks cute, Maki-chan.” The third year continued. “I knew red and pink would look good on you.”

“I-I’m j-just wearing it because it’s cold and…”

Wait.

Maki stopped struggling.

Something was wrong.

No. Wrong was the wrong word. Something was… different.

“Maki-chan?” Nico detached herself from the other girl.

Maki turned quietly and stared at her senior.

“You feeling alright?” The twin-tail responded with half a smirk. “You’re not sick or anything? The scarves were kind of supposed to help prevent that kind of thing.”

“I’m… fine…” the taller girl responded hesitantly.

“You sure?”

“Yeah.”

“Uhm…” Hanayo spoke up, “I think we’re going to be late soon if we don’t hurry.”

“Then let’s go, nya!” the orange-haired cheered, throwing a fist in the air. “I’ll race you guys to the gate!” That said, she immediately started sprinting towards the school.

“R-Rin-chan!” the brunette cried, jogging after her friend. “Wait up!”

“C’mon, Maki-chan,” the raven-haired girl said, grabbing the redhead’s hand. “I doubt we can beat Rin, but we can’t get left too far behind.”

“A-alright…” Maki responded, letting herself be pulled along.

“Maki-chan!” Nico greeted, walking into the first year classroom. “Rin! Hanayo!”

“Nico-chan, what brings you here?” Hanayo looked up from the sizable onigiri she was enjoying for lunch.

“I wanted to talk you two, Rin and Hanayo, about the next radio show.” The third year explained, taking a seat next to Maki.

Why does she always have to sit so close? And why is that difference there again?

“D-do you want me to leave?” Maki asked.

“Don’t be silly, Maki-chan.” Nico laughed. “Of course you can stay. Heck, if you have any ideas, let us know, we’re always looking for more fun things to during the broadcast.”

“A-alright…” the redhead fell into silence as she let her friends continue their conversation. Her thoughts focused more on Nico, her proximity and the difference.

“As you all know, Maki and I wrote a new song for BiBi, which they performed for you last night.” Umi explained from her position at by the whiteboard. “But that was just the first part of our gift. We also wrote songs for lily white and Printemps.”

Maki started handing out sheets of paper from her music folder. “As usual, I recorded myself singing both songs with piano accompaniment.” She explained as she took her seat again. “The files are in the shared portion of my cloud drive.”

“I’m the center this time, nya?” Rin spoke up, looking at the page in her hands.

“We thought it appropriate, considering the title.” The blue-haired girl replied.

“So, did you make me the center because I cheer a lot?” Honoka asked, tilting her head.

“You do cheer us on, Honoka-chan.” Hanayo pointed out.

“It’s what keeps us motivated.” Kotori added.

“Awww… thanks you guys…” the leader of µ’s said, scratching the back of her head as she grinned somewhat sheepishly.

“So why was Maki-chan the center of Silent Tonight?” Nozomi pondered.

“Well, Maki-chan is often quieter than the rest of us.” Kotori offered.

“Hehe, yeah right.” Nico laughed, reaching towards the first year.

“Don’t you dare.” Maki glared at her.

“See?”

“Nya!” Rin cried, using the opening to tackle her fellow first year from the side.

“Rin!?” Said first year cried. “What are you…?!”

“Maki-chan’s not silent at all!” the twin-tailed girl ignored the warning and joined Rin in smothering the redhead.

“Ahhh... Mohhh! Nico-chan! I told you…” Maki protested, earning only laughter in response. “Rin! You guys are heavy…”

There it was again.

Something was different. Maki hadn’t noticed it when Rin hugged her, so it definitely had something to do with Nico. But what was it? She’d thought about it all day and still couldn’t put her finger on it. Why was Nico different today? She was as clingy as ever and up to her usual teasing. Her pride also high, going by her conversation at lunch and the decisions about the radio broadcast. Her twin-tails were still tied with the same ribbons. She was still slipping into her idol persona and happily repeating her favorite catch phrase. She was still short and bratty. Nico was still Nico. What the heck else was there that could possibly be different?

“Alright,” Umi was saying, “let’s break up into our subgroups and start practicing our new songs.”

Most of the rest of the girls responded with various cheers.

“C’mon, let’s go, Maki-chan!” Nico said, excitedly, grabbing the other girl’s hand.

She was still dragging her around incessantly as well, Maki noted before replying. “Alright.”

NicoNii: Ughn�� Why does Maki-chan have to be so dense?

SpiritualPower: What do you mean, Nicocchi?

NicoNii: I was trying all day to get her to notice, but she didn’t

SpiritualPower: What, that you’re using her gift now?

NicoNii: Exactly

NicoNii: Thank you. At least someone noticed.

SpiritualPower: I think Maki-chan did notice.

NicoNii: She didn’t mention it to me

NicoNii: Did she say something to you?

SpiritualPower: Not technically, but she did seem particularly interested in you today.

NicoNii: Yeah, she was staring a lot

NicoNii: Especially during practice.

SpiritualPower: I think she noticed but didn’t realize she noticed.

NicoNii: What

SpiritualPower: Like you said, she can be a little dense sometimes.

SpiritualPower: So I think she knew something was different, but couldn’t figure it out.

NicoNii: Geez, she really is dense…

SpiritualPower: She’s not that good with subtlety.

SpritualPower: You’re just going to have to be more obvious, Nicocchi

SpiritualPower: Just tell her you like the gift.

NicoNii: I suppose

SpiritualPower: It’s good to know you like the gift, though. She’ll be happy

NicoNii: It’s nice

SpiritualPower: … but…?

NicoNii: Geez, you’re psychic.

SpiritualPower: ^_^

NicoNii: It’s nice. The products are really high quality. And I’m thrilled to be able to try them. But they’re different from what I’m used to. And I’m kind of afraid of getting used to them because I know I won’t be able to afford them again when they’re gone.

SpiritualPower: Understandable.

SpiritualPower: So think of them as a special, one-time treat.

SpiritualPower: You know, like some special chocolates someone brings back when they travel, or something like that.

SpiritualPower: But then again, who knows, maybe it won’t be a one-time thing.

SpiritualPower: Maybe Maki-chan can get you more for your birthday.

NicoNii: Yeah right.

NicoNii: We’ll have graduated by then.

NicoNii: Who knows if we’ll still be in contact by then.

SpiritualPower: I doubt Honoka-chan will let us grow too distant.

NicoNii: Yeah, she’ll probably insist on regular reunions.

NicoNii: Not that I’d mind, of course.

SpiritualPower: Of course.

NicoNii: But honestly, I’d almost like to help pick out the next batch, to get stuff I know would work best for me.

NicoNii: Like the skin cream is nice, but it’s not the best for my skin type.

NicoNii: I mean it’s not bad and it’s not going to damage it or anything, but I’m pretty sure the company makes one that would work better.

NicoNii: But who am I kidding?

NicoNii: It would be really awkward. Who helps a friend pick out their birthday gift?

SpiritualPower: Elicchi and I have done that.

NicoNii: Figures…

NicoNii: And what the heck could I possibly get her to match something that expensive?

SpiritualPower: I don’t think Maki-chan cares about that kind of thing

SpiritualPower: You obviously saw her reaction to that teddy bear you gave her

SpiritualPower: She just wanted to get you something that made you as happy

NicoNii: I am happy with it

SpiritualPower: But it could be better

NicoNii: You know that’s not what I mean, Nozomi.

SpiritualPower: I know

SpiritualPower: But I also think you’re overthinking things

SpiritualPower: Maki-chan gave you a gift.

SpiritualPower: The gift makes you happy.

SpiritualPower: It’s as simple as that.

SpiritualPower: Now show her that it makes you happy so she can be happy as well.

SpritualPower: Or tell her, because showing her apparently isn’t working.

NicoNii: I suppose you’re right.

SpiritualPower: Of course I am.

NicoNii: Don’t you dare say the cards told you that.

SpiritualPower: They don’t have to

SpiritualPower: All I have to do is remember Elicchi’s smile when she knows how much a gift she’s given me makes me happy.

NicoNii: Fair enough, I guess

NicoNii: I’ll tell her tomorrow.

SpiritualPower: Good luck!

SpiritualPower: See you in class!

NicoNii: Yeah, see you.

Maki sighed as she slid down into the tub until the water lapped over her shoulders. She loved a nice hot bath after a heavy workout with µ’s. The scented candles always helped her relax as well. And tonight was the first night she had used her new shampoo. It was the same brand as the bottle she had given to Nico in the gift basket last night, just a different version. So long as she was buying the products as a gift, she had figured she would try some for herself as well.

Scent. Shampoo…

Maki’s eyes snapped open. Of course! That was the difference! Nico was using her gift! How the heck did she miss that? Geez… and she often called Nico an idiot… what did this make her?

Well, it’s not like she had paid a ton of attention to what Nico used before. And really, the scent was pretty mild to begin with. That was a good enough reason to not notice, right?

Still, she would probably have to apologize to Nico tomorrow. Somehow…

“Maki-chan!” an energetic orange-haired girl called and waved. “Over here! Over here!”

“Yes, I see you, Rin.” The redhead stated flatly, walking over to join her fellow first years.

“Good morning, Maki-chan.” The brunette beside the orange-haired girl said with a smile.

“Good morning, Hanayo.” Maki replied, returning the smile, though nowhere near as wide.

“I see you’re wearing the scarf Kotori-chan and Nico-chan made for you, nya!” Rin pointed out.

“It’s cold today.” Maki replied with a shrug. “Wait, didn’t we do this yesterday?”

Rin bounced up and down on her toes while sporting a toothy grin.

So that means…

Maki spun around.

“Kya!” A surprised third year lost her footing and stumbled towards the first year.

The redhead, more prepared than yesterday, braced for the impact and prevented the other girl from falling to the ground.

“Oh… hehe… you caught me, nico…” Nico looked up, sheepishly.

“Literally.” Rin added, earning a roll of the eyes from Maki.

With the other girl’s head in such a position, it was almost impossible not to notice the new scent now.

“You smell… dif… good.” Maki concluded after a moment.

A smirk curled Nico’s lips. “Finally noticed, huh?”

“Yeah, sorry.”

“It’s alright. Nico will forgive Maki-chan for ignoring her this time.” She slipped into her idol persona as she slipped out of the embrace.

“I… what? I wasn’t ignoring you.” If anything, I was paying more attention to you.

“Just this time.” Nico sang.

A guttural sound of annoyance came up Maki’s throat. “Don’t make me start ignoring you now.”

The twin-tailed girl only laughed in response.

“Uhm…” Hanayo started to speak up.

“Let me guess, we’re running late for class?” Maki shook her head, remembering the day before.

The timid girl nodded.

“And you’re going to race us to the gate, Rin?”

“Absolutely!” the orange-haired girl exclaimed before dashing off.

“R-Rin-chan!” Hanayo called, breaking into a jog. “Wait for me!”

Maki sighed and held out a hand.

“I thought Maki-chan was going to ignore Nico.” Nico said, still not dropping her persona.

“I’m still considering it.”

“Well, in that case.” The older girl’s voice returned to normal as she grabbed the younger girl’s hand. “Let’s see how well we can keep up.”

“Alright.” Maki nodded.

It seemed there were a few things that stayed the same.

Author's Note: Before anyone asks how someone could be as oblivious as Maki is in this scnee, I will say that this scene is partially based on real life events, with me playing the part of Maki. Though it wasn't a gift, I still helped pick out new shampoo for a friend who disliked her previous bottle. I even made my decision between the final two picks based on which scent I liked more. Then I utterly failed to recognize the scent the very next day.

Not long after, a mutual friend failed to notice that she had taken about a foot and a half off her hair length and dyed it. In his defense, it was over a holiday break. He also pointed out that the change did not affect her personality; that she was still the same person. This is the reason for the "Nico was still Nico" part of the scene.

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1-90 for make me admit stuff ask

1: would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

well i mean considering it was a group chat full of my str8 friendos i would have to say hard no

2: you talked to an ex today, correct?

technically but it’s complicated

3: have you taken someones virginity?

VIRGINITY IS A SOCIAL CONSTRUCT but also no

4: is trust a big issue for you?

not really. i’m actually a little too trusting. 

5: did you hang out with the person you like recently?

yes

6: what are you excited for?

spring break is in 20 days and i’m going to spain with my spanish class so the hype is real

7: what happened tonight?

i’m actually answering this in the morning but last night i went for a walk with my dog and my friend and we adventured all the way from her house to target and back and we made some nice friends and screamed into the void to tell it to stop playing country music and all in all it was a good evening.

8: do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

no. let them live. just please don’t vomit on me and also be safe.

9: is confidence cute?

ehhhhh i don’t really like this question. like i like confident people but that’s just because they’re healthy and happy with themselves and that’s admirable and beautiful but “cute” isn’t really the right word.

10: what is the last beverage you had?

water

11: how many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

GENDER IS A FLUID SPECTRUM AND THERE IS NO “OPPOSITE SEX” but also 5 off the top of my head. 6 if we’re counting guy fieri.

12: do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

i don’t own any jeans that aren’t skinny.

13: what are you gonna do saturday night?

next saturday is my birthday and i really don’t know what i’m doing. probably hang out with my friends. make some s’mores. maybe see a movie (because i’ll be 17 and so r rated movies are an option and yea).

14: what are you going to spend money on next?

candy and flowers for my friends. only one of them has a bf and she’s not doing valentine’s day with him so they’re all getting presents from me. i love.

15: are you going out with the last person you kissed?

no

16: do you think you’ll change in the next three months?

of course. next month i’m going to spain without my family and by may i’ll have taken my ap exams and i’ll also have been in a play and god i really hope between all that i grow up/glow up a lil.

17: who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

my friend who i went for a walk with last night. she was one of the first three people i came out to (i did it via text bc i’m a fucking loser) and out of all my friends she’s the one who’s the most honest with me so i like to return the favor.

18: the last time you felt broken?

february 10

19: have you had sex today?

no

20: are you starting to realize anything?

yessSSSSSSSSS AND IT’S FREAKING ME OUT

21: are you in a good mood?

i’m too stressed to be in a good mood.

22: would you ever want to swim with sharks?

not really. like don’t get me wrong i live for adrenaline rushes but i don’t really like swimming in salt water. it burns. also swimming with sharks is problematic. but anyway.

23: are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

nope. he’s got brown and mine are blue. i’m a spitting image of my mom though.

24: what do you want right this second?

a magical machine to do all my homework for me

25: what would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

good for them but also BUDDY BOI WYD

26: is your current hair color your natural hair color?

yea. i did some colorful streaks last week for a project but by now i’m pretty sure they’ve washed out.

27: would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

no. that’s the most important thing imho.

28: what was the last thing that made you laugh?

my own awkwardness

29: do you really, truly miss someone right now?

miss isn’t the right word. i need to talk to some people but i’m not filled with a bottomless pit of longing or some shit.

30: does everyone deserve a second chance?

most people do but definitely not everyone.

31: honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

oh god no. he’s in the aforementioned 5/6 people.

32: does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

hard maybe. i think so??? but i’m a mess.

33: are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

no. i mean i haven’t had soda in forever and i usually choose water over soda just because health and also bubbles in my stomach are not the best feeling but i still like it.

34: listening to?

just got done listening to in the heights for the billionth time

35: do you ever write in pencil anymore?

every day

36: do you know where the last person you kissed is?

n/a

37: do you believe in love at first sight?

no. i promise i’m not some cynical angsty teen but i just don’t think that’s possible.

38: who did you last call?

ummm i never make actual phone calls they kind of stress me out but it was probably my mom or dad

39: who was the last person you danced with?

my friends

40: why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

n/a LET ME LIVE

41: when was the last time you ate a cupcake?

thursday? i think? i ate a muffin this morning tho

42: did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

not yet but they just came back from a run and that’s a lil gross

43: ever embarrass yourself in front of your crush?

sweaty my life is an embarrassment

44: do you tan in the nude?

i used to but i burn really easily and now i’m more about the soft, unwrinkled skin life anyway

45: (woOAAHHHHH WE’RE HALFWAY THERE) if you could, would you take back your last kiss?

N/A

46: did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

no

47: who was the last person to call you?

i think it was my grandpa

48: do you sing in the shower?

i perform

49: do you dance in the car?

i. perform.

50: ever used a bow and arrow?

actually yea in 5th grade i went to this cool camp thing and we did archery

51: last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

a couple weeks ago we had school pictures with the clubs we’re in

52: do you think musicals are cheesy?

some definitely are but they’re so good

53: is christmas stressful?

certain aspects of it are but in the end it’s two weeks off of school so i can’t complain.

54: ever eat a pierogi?

ever eat a what now

55: favorite type of fruit pie?

does key lime count

56: occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

i remember when i was really little and didn’t understand how business worked i really wanted to work at sonic so i could wear roller skates and bring back the pancake on a stick. if that didn’t pan out my backup plan was being a dinosaur.

57: do you believe in ghosts?

sure

58: ever have a deja vu feeling?

i’m living a deja vu feeling right now sis

59: take a vitamin daily?

i used to. i need to get back on that.

60: wear slippers?

no. i have perpetually cold feet but i refuse. fuzzy socks are where it’s at.

61: wear a bath robe?

eh sometimes

62: what do you wear to bed?

usually an old t shirt but it depends on how hot/cold im feeling

63: first concert?

i’m lame i’m sorry

64: wal-mart, target, or kmart?

target obv

65: nike or adidas?

nike only because adidas sports bras ain’t shit

66: cheetos or fritos?

cheetos

67: peanuts or sunflower seeds?

peanuts (although sunflower seeds are very aesthetic as far as snacks go)

68: favorite taylor swift song?

my second favorite song i ever had was love story

69: (aw yisss) ever take dance lessons?

i used to when i was really little. that lasted 2 ish years and then i did gymnastics for like 8 years.

70: is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

i don’t picture a future spouse

71: can you curl your tongue?

NO AND EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY CAN DO THE FOUR LEAF CLOVER THING AND ALL SORTS OF WEIRD SHIT AND I CAN’T EVEN WINK AND MY FACE MUSCLES IN GENERAL ARE WOEFULLY INADEQUATE

72: ever won a spelling bee?

YES.

the day is february 18, 2011. my birthday. i stand before my elementary school along with the other nerds who participated in uil academics. they begin to announce the winners for the district-wide spelling competition. 7th place. 3rd place. “and corbell elementary is proud to present the first place medal to...” i look around. all my classmates have already taken a seat upon collecting their medals. i am alone on stage. i grin with the realization. “SUZI”. the crowd goes wild. my parents are cheering. obama is there.

73: have you ever cried because you were so happy?

all the tim

74: what is your favorite book?

WE ARE THE ANTS BY SHAUN DAVID HUTCHINSON OH MY GOD EVERYBODY NEEDS TO READ IT ASAP

75: do you study better with or without music?

with

76: regularly burn incense?

no but i have a few candles in my room

77: ever been in love?

no (?)

78: who would you like to see in concert?

hank green and the perfect strangers

79: what was the last concert you saw?

NNNNN/AAAAA LEAVE ME ALONE

80: hot tea or cold tea?

both

81: tea or coffee?

both.

82: favorite type of cookie?

chocolate chip

83: can you swim well?

i mean i haven’t drowned yet

84: can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

yes but not for very long

85: are you patient?

god no

86: dj or band at a wedding?

dj

87: ever won a contest?

actually yea i won a book giveaway last summer on here but i never claimed it

88: ever have plastic surgery?

i haven’t yet but i probably will. i don’t have self esteem issues or anything but i just want to.

89: which are better black or green olives?

ew neither

90: opinions on sex before marriage?

live your life just pls be careful

BONUS (because there’s only 2 more anyway)

91: best room for a fireplace?

living room

92: do you want to get married?

not really. the only reason i ever would would be out of spite but in that case it would probably just be eloping or something bc mi familia would not contribute.