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I still kinda wanna be able to make art about it but idk how or where to start

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therapist was rly validating and reaffirming yesterday about all of (gestures) everything btw. sometimes you really just need a professional to go “wow that’s horrible!” when you explain something to them

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I don’t wanna have to go to work tonight I wanna collapse in bed and write sad poetry

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again and again and again and again

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Wow hi did i really make a text post when I was borderline nonverbal unable to string full sentences together this morning. That’s embarrassing :/

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words hard sorry but feel like everyone try to ignore when I talk abt. like no one know what say when just want hear wow I’m sorry

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I am honestly doing a lot better than this weekend when I was more actively in crisis but man. I still think I should get a gold fucking medal if I get through this week without any kind of relapse

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I know ultimately I just have to learn to trust MYSELF about what happened and what I do remember and what I believe to be true, and let other people think whatever they want, but it’s so hard :(

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none of y’all liked my practice poem the only ones who liked it were one acquaintance who doesn’t follow me and two ppl who annoy me :/

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like a bird, trapped,

a poem beats its frantic wings

against the inside

of my skull.

I could get it out of here,

if only I

could catch it.

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10 Important Steps to Recovery

1. Believe that you can have a new, and better, future.

2. Believe that you can get there – one step and day at a time.

3. Allow yourself to really feel your feelings.

4. Don’t judge yourself for what happened in the past.

5. Know your triggers.

6. Have a plan to cope with your triggers.

7. Challenge negative and self-defeating thinking.

8. Seek out healthy and inspiring role models.

9. Accept yourself completely.

10. Practice self-care.

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ummm

I kind of miss writing poetry but I’m scared I don’t know how to do it anymore and worried if I try it’ll come out really… cliche and teenaged

… can i tell you guys a secret

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… can i tell you guys a secret

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Sorry but lol. Lmao. I’m still thinking about the time someone told us we’re obsessed with having sexual trauma. I don’t remember even who said this so I can’t direct my anger anywhere I’m just mad!

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this is kind of an embarrassing baby tag to use but I’ll probably only use it when I AM embarrassing and baby so tag for any ag*re stuff is gonna be “tislhours” so block that if it bothers you at all

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oh I see. it was the crime of wanting. that's why I deserve it.

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I’m being so fucking brave not deleting all my posts from earlier now that im normal age again