#(or anyone else if anon wouldn't)(if that was okay with you too ofc since this is your idea)

[juustozzi]

oh my gods i cant believe i didnt think of that plot twist it actually works so well

suzuno nagumo and hiroto are still like the three higher-ups but whenever one of them need help, they go to fubuki. especially hiroto.

also, fubuki(shirou) feels guilty when others end up getting harmed because of aliea's soccer, but he cant really do anything when atsuya takes over and everyone insists that its fine and that nobody's actually getting seriously injured(lies)

atsuya on the other hand well in his eyes their opponents are trying to ruin their soccer and he would probably be distrustful and view their opponents as the villains so he probably wouldnt go easy on them at all

— same aliea!fubuki anon

I'm taking the "Aliea is tearing Fubuki apart (before it gets better) routa here... Shirou and Atsuya keep clashing harder and while Suzuno and Nagumo are trying to help in their own ways (by trying to make their favourite persona win), Hiroto is a neutral force and while relying on Fubuki himself, he tries to keep him together the best he can. for his own sake, or for Fubuki's sake? maybe both, who knows.

[chaoticdelinqueerwithglitter]

you are so right about sanzu/takuya. i wanna hear all about them! what are your hcs? I'm so curious!

First of all, thanks for this question anon, it make me so happy to know someone else like them! 💜

In case some one is curious where this comes from, here is my HaruTaku fic!

Okay, for properly answering this I think that I also need to go first with my Sanzu hc for that specific timeline, because for me is related in why they make sense! (and bc I love talking about my lil gremlin, ngl)

Sanzu headcanons for Bad Toman Takemichi TL:

Okay, obv he did wharever he could for being close to Mikey, that goes without saying. But there is two big differences with Bonten.

He's not the second in command, so he has to kinda obey Kisaki (what he hates, always giving that silent hater looks 😎). But since he never showed that "good guys toman type of morals", Kisaki allows him to be one of the fews that still sees Mikey, bc he's not going to influence him or stuff like that, Sanzu is totally fine with the darkness (he isn't bc it triggers him tl0 memories but his denial is strong xD) So his job here is mostly watching over Mikey and ofc, getting rid of traitors! No way Kisaki didn't use that once he realizes, Sanzu devotiton is too easy to control and too useful for his own good 🥲

In the other side, this means is less confident about himself than what we saw in Bonten. He's still unhinged but he's not that loud about it, he doesn't have the selfsteem boost of being his king's right hand. So in a way, he's more insecure about himself and the mission he does, since he has less control about what happens to Mikey. Also, Sanzu is a weirdo, so like happened in early Toman he doesn't properly fit with the rest, besides job related thing he doesn`t have friends there (we could count Mucho if in this timeline Izana was never on the picture, but even with that Sanzu doesn't easyly trust people). It took him more time to stop wearing his mask here and it was probably more gradual!

And what we know about Takuya?

Not much, just that he's a sweet person and a good friend. He probably followed the rest of the Mizo gang (specially Takemichi) and got caught in Toman's violence.

He wears a choker in this timeline and had and aming glow-up including some sick tattoos. Pretty boy with sumi vibes!

This is where my hc starts, there is something about Takuya that screams addiction to me. I don't know how to explain it, maybe is his dull eyes, maybe his body language, but Takuya is coping with drugs (mostly downers bc he just wants to disappear for a few hours... Takuya is a softy 🥲)

Finally... HaruTaku headcanons!

One thing about addicts is that we have a radar, we know when someone else is an addict (similar to gaydar but more selfdestructive). So Sanzu probably started noticing the subtle changes in Takuya and he was intrigue about it. Specially coming from someone that was always surrounded by people he dispised. They never really interacted before, but Sanzu started paying more attention to Takuya, noticing more things about him, like how Takuya was actually shy and sweet behind that quiet appearence. And yeah, maybe a part of him felt indentified with that, he could understand having to act quiet to hide yourself better than anyone. For some reason, Sanzu started thinking that maybe they have more in common that it seems at first sight, and we all know he can be a little bit obsessive, so...

At some point, Sanzu aproached to Takuya. He probably created a situation when it could feel almost natural, I personally picture him waiting until Takuya is having some drinks alone (no way he's gonna talk with the other idiots if he can avoid it) and sitting next to him, paying the next round.

Takuya was probably intimidated, with reasons. But at the same time, he was drunk and high and Sanzu is pretty, so damn pretty! So he couldn't and wouldn't resist, it was easy for him to feel flatered by Sanzu's awkward way of flirting (c'mon, he doesn't have social skills, we all know that). And Sanzu? He just told to himself that he was curious, nothing more. Just one night for satisfying his curiosity, that was all. For understanding why on earth he felt that weird attraction towards Takuya.

OBVIOUSLY IT WASN'T ONE NIGHT! 🔥

Mix two pretty boys that are craving for love and affection and a lot of drugs? Recipy for disaster and unhealthy relationship, yey!

The fact Takuya is a submissive person who is numbed by the drugs most of the time and Sanzu has a lot of pent-up agression and is usually high of a mix that includes more estimulants than what Takuya is doing, only leads to unsafe sex where no-one is controlling shit or in the proper state of mind to be aware of how dangerous is what they are doing. What means a lot of next day regrets! 🎉 (extra: Sanzu has a kink with Takuya's neck and is obsessed with the choker, he calls him "pretty neck" on bed. Takuya weakness is Sanzu in high-heels, specially if they are red, I'm not projecting at all on that one, nopes 👀).

Besides sex, there is more to say about their dynamic, don't worry!

Takuya is the type to be sweet and caring, he hides that side of himself inside of Toman but still shows it in his personal life. It wasn't easy for him to feel relaxed around Sanzu and he was afraid of showing his kindness and being mock by the other. But for me Takuya is also an observing person, so I think it didn't took him a long time to realized how wounded is Sanzu, how he actually hates being in his own mind more than anything, how much he craves love, aproval, affection. So he started showing more of his loving side, having small gestures towards the other, always in private. Physical displays of affection in general, but also waking him with coffee, paying attention to his needs or his routine, making sure he felt comfortable even when they slept in Takuya's apartment (that now is always extremely clean only for Sanzu)

And Sanzu? He was melting with all of this. Well, to be fair at the beginning he was baffled, unsure or what to do or how react to someone showing him affection and kindnes, specially since Takuya didn't seem to be expecting anything in return. But once he finally understood it was fine to let Takuya spoil him and treat him like he actually deserved love... Then he was melting. Wakui said Sanzu is the most needy/clingy, so he started to be the one asking (demanding) for affection, wanting to be pampered, resting his head on Takuya's lap and enjoying how he plays with his hair (that's a privilege, he's really protective of his glorious pink hair! It's totally baji's fault)

Do they love each other? Well, that's complicated. Their relationship is not exactly public and they never talked about what it is, always pretending is something casual. It's easier like that (no it's not but they are bad at feelings). Takuya is aware that he's falling more for Sanzu every day, but he's terrified of the other reaction if he actually says the three words, so he hides it. Or tries to, because he pours this love in every small gesture, specially during their lazy mornings, when between the hangover and the guilt Sanzu acts a lot softer, wanting to give Takuya all the after-care he's able to dom

And Sanzu... Well, he wouldn't say he loves loves Takuya (because Mikey exists 😮‍💨), but he admits to himself that he deeply cares about the other. That there is more than atraction, that he enjoys their time together. Affection? A less obsessive love than what he feels for Mikey? He isn't sure and he can't deal with it, so he settles with caring.

Of course, we also need to talk about Mikey's ghost! Sanzu knows Takuya is not Mikey, is not that he's projecting him on the other all the time, it's just... He yearns for Mikey, he can't help it. So, sometimes, Takuya's blond locks make him feel that longing and he can't stop himself to imagine for a few seconds (delusional HaruMai in every timeline, hell yeah!🔥). In counted ocasions, when he's really high and out of himself, he says Mikey's name during sex and pretends to not remember the next morning because he feels too ashamed of it. He remembers more than he wishes, but he feels like shit and can't talk about that, he can't avoid feeling guilty, thinking that Takuya deserves better, deserves somone that is not using him as a replacement. Takuya understanding only adds more fuel to his guilt.

In that ocasions he tends to act distant for a few days, trying to dettach himself, to pretend he doesn't miss Takuya's affection. Until reality comes crushing down on him again and he ends up looking for Takuya, knocking at his door in the middle of the night.

Takuya felt hurt the first few times this cycle happened, but he didn't had the courage to actually confront Sanzu about it. Until one of that nights he saw how broken was Sanzu, he saw a little bit of the pain that the other usually hides from the rest of the world. It was the first Sanzu cried infront of him and the first time he called him "Haruchiyo", earning a surprised look and a weak smile 🥹

Since then, when Sanzu acts like that Takuya gives him space, understanding is not about him, that the other is fighting with his personal demonds.

And... That's it for now because I need to stop myself at some point or this will end up being longer than a fic. Maybe I will add more things in the future! 🙈

And hey, now that I look at it, they are not that terrible for each other if it wasn't for the amount of drugs and the dangerous sex. But hey, there is also love and sweetness and Sanzu needs that, so... Not that bad? 👀

I almost forgot! @lucifugousart is the amazing artist that did a Takuya fanart and is cooking something even better!

(feel free to add your own hc too, Andre! HaruTaku is a collaborative ship 😌)

[elliespuns]

I was wondering, would you mind introducing yourself a bit? Your age, hobbies (except for blogging of coure), music taste, your favorite movies, etc? I love the content you post and i love you and I don't even know you. I wanna know my favorite blogger.. lol. Only if you're okay with it

First of all, thank you for such a lovely compliment. I love you too and I don't even see your blog, mate!

To answer you; I was answering something similar once. This anon sent me questions and I filled them in, so if you allow me to just copy and paste those so I wouldn't have to type it all again (nothing has changed since then, honestly) then I'll be happy to oblige.

How old are you? I'm 30

Tall or short? Very short, I'm only 5'1 ft, 1,56 m

Sexuality? Eh, I don't like labeling myself but if I HAD TO, it'd say bisexual/demisexual.

Describe yourself briefly I'm an introverted dork that doesn't vibe with most people. I dig music, art, and I love a lot. I either love too much or not at all. I've been vegan for over 10 years now and I love funny people. Other than that, I'm just a very poetic soul that also loves to play video games from time to time and I write. I write a lot.

Something you like about yourself? I'd say it's my knowledge in English. I've been self 'learning' it for 9 years now (never been abroad) and I was able to learn the language to the point where it became a huge part of my life. Like I literally use it more than my mother language. That's a thing I'd say I like about myself.

Favorite hobbies outside your blog? I write; creative writing, poetry. Both fulfil my mind. Then I love reading (ofc). I also draw, play video games, work with graphic programs and I love taking pictures.

Something no one would guess about you I have a very high sex drive, lmao 🫣😂 and people would never say so about me, because I literally look like I have a ribbon buckled to my vagina.

Weird quirks you have Oh, god, I can't stand hand cuts. Like you can literally show me a video of someone having their throat slit and I'll be fine, but then you show me a vid of someone having their palm sliced, or simply just someone cutting their finger and I'll go all asdfghjklsdfghjk.

One talent you wished you had Damn, I wish I could draw from imagination. I can draw but I can't seem to draw anything just by trying to see it in my head. That's so fucking frustrating. And weird. Anyone else having this problem?

A word your friends would use to describe you Idk about one word, but my best friend says I'm the funniest person she has ever met, so does that count? Lol, Idk why she says this. I'm literally a potato.

Craziest thing that's ever happened to you Omg, trauma alert… when my boss (a 70 year old male) caressed the top of my head telling me I'm pretty.

Have you ever been in love? Yes, for over 10 years now (no, it's not a fictional character, lol).

What is your biggest fear? Fuck, it's hurricanes and tornados. I actually have a phobia, it's called 'ancraophobia' and it's a fear of strong wind. (I swear I don't fear normal wind tho, I'm not that weird, actually, ok?).

Why did you start this blog? When I came here one day I realized that there were only a few blogs that were dedicated to the game stuff. So I said why the hell not? I didn't expect to have an actual fanbase here, it's crazy. Love you guys.

Your favorite food? Lentils, that's the shit.

Least favorite food? I'd say meat.

Favorite TV shows? Okay, not gonna mention TLOU cause it's obvious, but the very first show that pops into my mind every time is Breaking Bad. I love this show to bits. Then I also love TWD, OITNB, Better Call Saul, Wentworth, This Is Us, Lost, The Killing.

Favorite movie of all time? My most favorite movie of all time will forever be Ginger Snaps (2000). I've loved this movie ever since I was 11. It's been 19 years ever since and I still love it to pieces. Aaaaah!

Favorite musicians? I love a lot of music, but my most favorite is Damien Rice. I love that guy and what he does. Right behind him are Cigarettes After Sex and Mazzy Star (just pure love). Then it would be Joshua Radin, The Hope Arsenal, Yaeow, The Paper Kites, The Smiths, R.E.M., Blur, BoDeans...

Do you have any pets? My chonky boi guinea pig.

[sugarcherriess]

okay so . the younghoon thing . the one i forgot abt . i've been thinking abt it for like 24 entire hours n finally managed to write something down . eheh . im supposed to be sleeping rn but here i am writing abt it .

so , scientist (with a tiiiiny bit of yandere behavior) hoon is a little too "basic" isn't it . we need some plot . said plot being , bunny hybrid reader 😁

basically , its not that all hybrids get experimented on but you happen to be one of the few that do . idk what experimentation/research goes on but that's irrelevant to the plot honestly . n each like ,, experiment subject (? the english language is kicking my ass rn im struggling sm with words) doesn't usually have an 'assigned' scientist to them, but after a few encounters with you younghoon has taken interest in you and decides that he can't possibly let anyone else get near you, that would be outrageous wouldn't it? so he goes out of his way to make sure he's the only one who gets to see you, maybe to the extent of dedicating extra visits to you just to "make sure his favorite bunny is alright" (he said that i swear) . n ofc you don't really question the fact that he's the only person you see at this point (almost 24/7 since he finds any excuse to be with u), surely there is a very valid reason you don't need to be informed of .

n i cant write more than this bc everytime i think abt it my brain explodes . im sorry if its not that explicit but i physically cant write explicit stuff without feeling awkward lol -🦦

I AM UNWELL???? FORST OF ALL IM SO??? AMAZED AND SO THANKFUL FOR THE UNIVERSE TO BESTOWING ME WITH TALENTED WRITERS FOR ANONS BC YALL NEVER MISS. SECOND OF ALL??????? NAHBDDNXJNCNDNENJFJCCHDHD

Thank you for your time 💘

[ticklish-n-stuff]

oh my god oh my god.. comfort tickles with lee rui and ler kaito.. platonic ofc but WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

Big bro to the rescue!

Anon I literally love you SLSKSKAKKS

If you couldn't tell...I absolutely LOVE Kaito 💙 i am a big kaito simp aksjaksjsj

So ty for giving me an excuse to write him

Enjoy! :D

I was gonna put a pic of one of Kaito's 4* cards but lo and behold the two of them were having a convo, it's a sign from the universe *^*

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Rui x Kaito (PLATONIC) Kaito is mine alskaksjaj

Lee: Rui

Ler: Kaito

Warnings: Tickles! My love for Kaito~!

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Rui was feeling quite frustrated. None of his inventions seemed to be working out. No matter how hard he tried they just wouldn't perform how he wanted them to. I guess he was having an off day today. In hopes of letting go of some steam, he decided to head over to the Sekai. Maybe a change of scenery will serve him well.

When he arrived, he noticed that none of the vocaloids nor plushies were around. Good, he could really use some peace and quite right now. He sat down on a nearby bench and took a deep breath, trying to clear his mind. Suddenly, he heard a familiar voice pop up from behind.

"Rui? What are you doing here?" It was none other than Kaito. He could tell something was bothering Rui based on the unusual frustrated expression on his face.

"Oh Kaito...I didn't think anyone else was here".

"I saw you coming in all alone and was worried something had happened. Is everything okay?".

Rui could tell he truly was worried for him, after all, the others didn't call him 'Big brother Kaito' for nothing.

"Well since you asked..." Rui proceeded to explain all his frustrations to Kaito as the blue vocaloid took a seat next to him, listening intently.

"I see...that does sound pretty frustrating".

"*sigh* yeah...I've been feeling pretty moody all day. I thought maybe a distraction would help" the purple guy sighed as he slumped in his seat looking all dejected.

"A distraction? Hmm...is there anything I could do to help?" Kaito asked genuinly, but he couldn't help but notice a slight blush form across Rui's cheeks at the question.

"Uhh...y'know what? It's fine. I'll be fine" Rui went to get up from his seat but Kaito gently held his hand before he could.

"Please, I insist" Kaito flashed him a genuine caring smile, how could Rui say no to that?!

"It's pretty silly..." the purple guy fiddled with his thumbs as his blush grew deeper.

"There's nothing to be embarrassed about" Kaito gave him a loving squeeze on his shoulder to reassure him.

"Uhh...could you maybe...t-tickle me?" That last part came out in such a soft whispery tone, the vocaloid almost didn't catch it. Rui quickly averted his gaze as the question left his mouth. He was sure this was something odd to ask the vocaloid to do-

"Of course! See? Nothing to be embarrassed about".

Rui couldn't help the soft smile that formed on his lips when hearing that response. Kaito truly was like a caring older brother. The vocaloid then proceeded to position him across his lap.

"Is there anywhere in particular you'd like me to tickle?" Kaito's genuine, caring side made Rui feel all giddy and a bit flustered. It was too much for him to handle! But in all seriousness, he was glad he could confide in someone like him.

"Uhm...a-anywhere is fine" Rui broke into a nervous smile as he saw Kaito's wiggling fingers approach his torso. Once he felt the vocaloid's fingers delicately dance across his tummy, Rui broke into the sweetest giggles imaginable.

"Eep! Hehehehehe!" Poor Rui couldn't help but wraps his arms around his ticklish tummy, but Kaito could tell he was enjoying himself so he kept going.

"There's that smile!" Kaito giggled when he heard a squeak come from the purple guy. He then proceeded to playfully tickle his sides up and down.

"Gah-! Hahahahahaha!" Rui squeezed his eyes shut and threw his head back as he got lost in his hysterical laughter. It was embarrassing to admit, but he was having a lot of fun, and so was Kaito!

"Looks like you're pretty ticklish here~" Kaito couldn't help but tease him a bit. It was fun seeing the cool stage director let loose and have a laugh.

"Dohohon't say thahahat! Ahahahahaha!".

"Don't say what? Ticklish?".

"St-stahaHAp! Hahahahaha!".

Kaito snickered at the flustered mess in his lap. He certainly didn't expect Rui of all people to get so easily flustered by a simple word. Rui then proceeded to cover his flushed face behind his hands. Kaito took the opportunity to softly dig two fingers in between his ribs.

"EEP! K-Kaito dohohon't! Ahahahaha!" His arms instantly came crashing down, revealing his big, bright smile and flushed cheeks. Kaito could only smile in adoration at the scene. He kept up with the rib tickles as Rui squirmed and cackled in his grasp. Suddenly, the purple guy could feel his arms being pulled up...that can't be good.

"W-wahait! I knohow what you're gonna doho!" Rui spoke through nervous giggles, knowing what was to come. Still, he only felt excitement and joy in the moment.

"Is that so? In that case, prepare yourself~" was Kaito's only warning before playfully scribbling all along his exposed armpit.

"GYAH-! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!" Only the most genuine laughter would pour out of Rui's mouth. He felt so happy and at peace, he even forgot what he was so upset about earlier.

"Hehe, tiiiickle tickle~" Kaito teased as he kept playfully assaulting the ticklish hollow.

"NOHOHO! D-DON'T SAY THAHAHAT!" poor Rui squealed and cackled at the tease.

Feeling like a lil shit, Kaito leaned his head down and whispered into Rui's ear 'tickle tickle~' once more, earning another flustered squeal from the ticklish male.

"Y-YOHOU BAHAHASTARD! AHAHAHAHAHA!" Rui quickly shook his head and tried scrunching up his shoulders. This for sure had to be considered bullying, right?? Then again, Rui couldn't really complain, he was having a lot of fun!

Kaito only laughed in amusement at the flustered mess he had created. As he saw Rui's face getting more red and his eyes starting to water, Kaito slowed his fingers to a stop. He gave the stage director room to breathe and to compose himself, but Rui seemed to still be too giggly for that.

"Ahahaha...t-that wahas mehehean!" Rui accused playfully. Kaito replied with a smile and playfully ruffled his hair.

"Did that make you feel better?".

"Y-yeah, I am feeling much better actually. T-thanks for that..." Rui got all shy again, averting his gaze.

"Anytime!" Kaito gave him one last poke to his tummy, eliciting a squeal from the purple guy. They both giggled at the fun and wholesome situation. If Rui ever needed someone to distract him again, he knew the right person for the job!

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Not me getting excited when i got this req. and writing it at 1 am akdkalsakdjd

Now if youll excuse me, imma go get flustered at the thought of ler Kaito- aksjaksjsjdj

[genshinconfessions]

Okay this is about to be really random and kinda dumb, but I really wanted to tell you this:

I love you guys so much. Like, for real. Whenever I see you post another ask, I get a bit excited because I really, really, like reading your answers, and they rarely fail to make me smile. Without getting too far into it, I haven't been feeling my best these past couple weeks, but you guys brighten my day a little whenever you post, be it a small joke or a theory or anything else honestly. This is gonna sound silly but I mean it when I say I kinda consider you as friends in a way (actually idk if the word friend fits since you barely know me and I barely know you, but it's the closest word I can think of). I'm so incredibly glad I found this blog and decided to start sending in asks one day, especially since I usually don't do that even if Anon is an option because I'm too anxious.

Thank you for being so awesome, and I'm sorry if this is weird/if I'm overstepping. If this ask makes you uncomfy, I totally get it and honestly wouldn't be surprised, and while I do think you don't need anyone's permission to post or not post certain asks, I wanted to mention that I understand completely if you choose not to publish this.

Hope you have a nice Weekend :)

-Seelie

ghhmndhey 😭😭😭 seelie man we love you too! (i use man/dude/bro as general terms of friendliness but if it makes anyone uncomfy at all pls do tell me)

i think the feeling's the same for me (can't speak for the others ofc)! i was really sad during those few days a couple of days ago when we didn't get any asks :( i was like awww did ppl forget about us but ppl didn't and things have picked up these few days so i'm happy hehe

even though we barely each other (and some anons only send in one ask and never again), i really feel like yall trust us enough to tell us your opinions and that's smth that really makes me feel happy, both for yall and us!

we really appreciate every single one of yall <333 and we really hope everyone can find their own happiness irl, and we're very honored to be part of that process!

- katheryne from liyue

[canongf-archive]

hi liv! this is anon who asked for some advice. sometimes i wonder if my f/o and my s/i just wouldn't be good for each other. like they wouldn't really mesh well with each other, and my s/i is "too nice" to be able to be in a relationship with my f/o. sometimes i feel like their chemistry is just forced, because in-canon my s/i probably wouldn't really stand a chance, especially with other canon love interests, based on both canon and the widely agreed takes of people in the fandom. (1/2)

(2/2) how do i deal w this? i'm not exactly the type of person who can just ignore canon even if they wanted to. it's gotten me feeling like i don't understand my f/o at all as a person and it feels like my ship is being disingenuous. unfortunately i'm having trouble remedying this. sometimes i wonder if i should just drop my f/o entirely despite being too invested in the ship already & not having anyone else to ship with. tysm for your time if you decide to answer, but ofc there's no pressure.

hi anon!!! 💗  let’s unpack. 

first! i’m gonna link you to this ask because it was fairly similar and i’m probably gonna end up repeating some things here that i said there.

now! something that i think is really important to remember, both in self shipping and in real life, is that people connect with all different kinds of people for all different sorts of reasons. that’s kind of the beauty of the human spirit. we’re way more complex than what we can write down on paper. 

it’s very easy to say that you wouldn’t work because of a list of reasons, but humans don’t work like that. 

we fall in love with people that are different than us and we fall in love with people that we wouldn’t expect and we fall in love with people we shouldn’t and it’s so common and it’s been so common since the beginning of time that we write poetry and books and music and tv shows and movies all about this concept, about love prevailing when it seems like there is no reason or way for it to. 

and that could be you two. i mean, it sounds like your s/i and this f/o are fairly different. but your s/i fell for him, right? for some reason? if there’s enough reasonable doubt that your f/o wouldn’t fall for your s/i then there’s gotta be enough reasonable doubt that your s/i wouldn’t fall for your f/o. but it still happened. it still happened because there’s something there. there’s a connection there. there’s love there. and if there’s love, then there’s a will to figure out how to make things work.

also! i know that you said that it makes you feel like you don’t understand your f/o as a person at all, but i wanna talk about that. you can understand your f/o completely, as the person that they are with you. because different relationships bring out different parts of us! if you only ever saw me with my parents, and then suddenly you saw me on a date, i’d be someone completely new. because the dynamic is different! even if you saw me interact with one f/o of mine and then you saw me interact with a different f/o of mine, i would still be someone new! because these relationships meet my needs in different ways and that means that i adapt. so you might see your f/o interact with people, even love interests, and know that version of him! but just because the dynamic with your s/i would be different, that doesn’t mean that you don’t actually know him or that you were wrong all along. both versions can be right! he can very much be one way with other people and be something else entirely with you because the feelings aren’t the same and the relationship he has with your s/i brings out a different dynamic. 

there is always a way to make things work, anon! sometimes it just means thinking outside the box. but that’s okay, because that’s where love lives! outside the box! love doesn’t follow rules and love doesn’t have to make sense to exist. it just does. which is both terrifying and freeing. 

and listen. at the end of the day, you don’t actually have to ship with anyone. it’s supposed to be fun and if it’s turning out that you’re not actually having fun with it anymore, it’s okay to step away for a while or forever! don’t force yourself to do anything that doesn’t feel right. it’s for you. give yourself freedom.

good luck, friend. i’ll be rooting for you! 💗

[softhaos]

ONE (1) YEAR OF SOFTHAOS

fellas, as of today – jan 14th 2019 – softhaos has turned one year old!! honestly, i never expected to last this long?? over the past year, i’ve gone through many ups and downs, made close mutuals, received so much emotional support from all kinds of people on this site and overall, i’m so thankful that i pulled my shit together and joined the community on tumblr! 

i still remember clearly when i first started out with this blog and posted the neighbor aus and got SO much support for it?? like?? i never thought it’d come this far where i could touch readers’ hearts with my word vomits?? that’s just insane. and even if you don’t read my works yet still follow me: wow, i’m so grateful that you managed to cope with my bullshit – be it from my undying hatred towards pcy and kmg, me abusing the uwuwuwu or my personal thoughts.

in other words, this is my message directed to everyone: thank you for keeping up with my bullshit uwu

now on to the part where i thank specific people for making my existence on this site more bearable,, i’ve left a message for everyone i tagged (i would’ve tagged literally everyone but i’m a stressed student i am so sorry if i forgot you kjldl and i would feel bad if i didn’t leave a note to everyone i tagged) and the list is in alphabetical order! @ anons i also left notes from you at the very bottom.

@baekberrie 💌 even though we just talked once literally two days ago thanks to my clumsy ass sending you an accidental ask, i’m so glad i actually did. pola (okay i got this from your about page im sorry kljsdl) you’re an amazing, kind and talented soul with whom i could’ve talked hours about soft bbh if it weren’t for my tiredness. i’ve only read your junmyeon oneshot so far but trust me, i’ll get to that cuddling fic with baek real soon once i’ve got more time uwu you’re honestly a talented writer and i hope we get to talk more in the future!

@baekbuns 💌 i’ve known you for how many days already you anon thot and i really can’t believe that i was vv intimidated by you at first (not gonna lie, you still scream bde but that’s another story-) hope, despite you trying to steal pretty much everyone from anyone, it’s still very fun to fight talk with you and you’re also an excellent writer uwuwuwu i am still very attacked by the thought of bartender yixing one day I WILL SUE YOU ALONG WITH PCY

@baekwell--tart 💌 bella!!!! ngl i’m still very pissed at myself for not realizing you from your old url but i’m glad i found you again!! (did i find you again? idk anymore i suffer from short term memory but i hope i got my point across sdjlkj) you’re such a warmhearted person and i’m really grateful that i got to know you. however, you’re also a funny person and that also shows in your writing - istg one day i will probably have “perpetual boredom” tattooed on my forehead don’t ask why that description of sehun will NEVER fail to make me chuckle!! you deserve all the love and happiness in the world and so much more uwu

@boosoonhao 💌 i know i keep repeating myself when it comes to you aj, but i really have no idea what else to say. i wrote it in the letter, i expressed myself way too often in the tags whenever i reblog your works, yet here i am doing it again (and maybe even more exaggerated than usual, we’ll see): aj, you are one of the most talented writers i’ve ever known and one of the greatest blessings in the community. there, i said it and i mean it! you are one of the very few i know that doesn’t shy away from fantasy-ish aus and executes them brilliantly. the way you have with your words is just fascinating and i find myself sometimes jotting down what you wrote for future references? but writing skills aside, you are a beautiful and kind person and up to this day the key chain you sent me is still intact. aj, thank you for blessing me, blessing everyone with your talent and general existence. 

@byuncaa 💌 bianca you smol soft bean you have my heart right there and though we don’t know each other for so long, i hope we get to talk more in the future uwu you’re such a cute soul gaaah it really makes me wanna send you all the soft memes i possibly own anywaY i hope you just stay as bubbly and bright and adorable as you are uwu

@cafechenle 💌 hani, kaito kid, i don’t know whether you’re still alive on tumblr or not but idc i’m still writing this to you anyway. you’re one of the first people i’ve met on this site and gOD i remember it as clear as day where i was so close to blocking you within the first few minutes of knowing you. yes, i’m talking about the entire mansae chan era discourse. anyway, we don’t talk as much but i hope you’re doing fine my wee lil silver boys supremacist!!

@changbeanbag 💌 landon, we literally just met yesterday but as you can see, i don’t care and i’m writing you a wee lil note anyway. you, my dude, radiate uwu energy and ngl i may have squealed when i saw your tags in the ask i sent you teehee - i hope we get to talk more in the future (that is, if school hasn’t killed me until then-)

@changbiinn 💌 kirra, you beautiful, blue haired visual goddess who has everyone else (including jisung yES I WENT THAT FAR) looking like a mere smurf and found dead in a ditch! i didn’t think i’d get an instant dm from that one inkigayo shitpost but you went ahead and proved me wrong sjljlks timezones fuck me up all the time but nonetheless i hope we get to interact a lil more and gET ENOUGH SLEEP OR ELSE

@cheolsjigyu 💌 MISS VAN NO I DID NOT FORGET YOU HEAR ME OUT. first of all, how could i forget you when you provided me all the great twt aus and the wild chats we had back in?? sometime early last year i guess. it’s been a very long time since we talked and i’m sorry i couldn’t reach out to you any time sooner due to school and the usual stuff (also, uh, i’m not the biggest friend of tumblr dms and barely check any messages there so there’s that too) believe it or not i still wheeze whenever i think of your fic swing baby because goddamnit that jyp song was one repeat for a good week. anyway, i hope you’ve been doing well and are not at the brink of near death like me uwu

@cherryxiu 💌 gran, frank, satan incarnate, whatever else i call you. you may fuck me up with the pcy i’ve never asked for but i hope you know you have a soft spot in my heart (i’ll never say that out loud again tho so see it as a one of a time thing). you’re my fav minseok stan and while i wouldn't necessarily jump off a cliff for you, i’d jump with you uwu anyway, aggressively refrain from sending me more pcy content i’m just trying to live an easy life here. but knowing you, you’ll definitely pretend as if that last part was never written so why do i even bother-

@chillihansol 💌 hanni my child!!! i hope you’re doing fine, aren’t as stressed anymore and have received the love you deserve and more!!! i still remember when i was highkey intimidated by you so i went on anon but then somehow you were startled by my lil threat and then i became your mom anon? funny that has changed over the time skldj hanni, i don’t regret ever going on anon for you and you’re an amazingly talented writer. i already said it once but i’ll say it again: guns n roses was the first svt fic i read on tumblr and just thank you for creating that piece uwu

@choco-seventeen 💌 miss choco, i almost tumbled down the nonexistent stairs in my apartment when i saw you ??? sliding into my dms ??? and then reading my word vomits ??? and then you followed me ??? and everything that followed after ??? i don’t know what in the world i did to have you notice me and up to today it remains a mystery to me ngl. we love a talented, kindhearted, fantastic, stunning, visual writing queen who is ofc the right person to love thanks to the avatar discourse she started!!! choco, keep on enlightening everyone’s life with your mere existence, the tags you put in your reblogs that make me smile and of course, wonderful stories <33

@custardheart 💌 taylor, i don’t think we have ever talked (unless you approached me on anon maybe then maybe yes??) but i just wanted to thank you for blessing my notifications. you’ve been supporting me / on my notifs for quite a long time - may i say you’re like one of the first followers i had when i first started out? THAT’S how long you’ve been here already and i can’t thank you enough <333 (please don’t ask me why i know that but goddamn every time i see that jeonghan profile picture i already know it’s you djklj)

@dinoshaur 💌 sha! lee! i know we barely talk to each other but i just wanted to use this opportunity to thank you for making some of my days with your astounding fics!! one of my favorite works from you will always be “flower crown prince” because you have NO idea how much i struggle with finding seungkwan fics dkkjljlk i’m sorry i didn’t submit anything for the lfw challenge i really tried to make it but you know, life problems happened whoops. i wish you all the happiness and inspiration and love from chan himself you gifted angel uwu

@forevershua 💌 dear fossil mother ryan, i can’t believe i internally pronounced your name wrongly for pretty much half a year knowing you. please forgive me. okay, but all seriousness aside, you’re one of the closest people from this site!! i really love you so so much though i can’t guarantee that i love you as much as you love jeonghan more than shua; i still shed tears whenever i pull out your two postcards - especially the minghao one; i think i suffered from mild heart palpitations when i got it in the mail (and still do). i hope we get to meet this year and possibly clown rat together and just stay the somewhat sane person left in the gc <33 p.s HOW DO YOU FUNCTION WITHOUT A FRIDGE I STILL CANT BELIEVE THAT

@gamerwoo 💌 rocket, you’re always active when it’s the ungodly hour where i live and it has happened more often that i stay awake because of you. not only do i have loads of stuff i can queue from you (teehee) you recently started posting stories again and the ones you hammered out lately just??? do things to me??? for real though do you have sadistic tendencies or somethin because you posted TWO (2) nsfw stories that I indulged at 2 AM IN THE MORNING. aside from that minghao and junmyeon stuff, uuuh, i finally got around to finish your ghoul au which i completely adore!! i’m looking forward to your upcoming works uwu and hope you get all the positivity and good vibes only uwu (p.s i have to confess: my dumb ass seriously thought the “woo” in your url referred to jungwoo and for some good weeks i thought you ult jungwoo rIP ME)

@hearttoshu 💌 jess, i don’t know what in the world i did to have you notice me because i’m gonna be honest here, i was scared of you skaljdlkjslkj please i don’t even know why, you seemed very intimidating but i was proven wrong in an instant!! you are one super soft bean with hq gifs and a love for jun and shua that reaches up to infinity and beyond!! your tags always get the best out of me and i’m really grateful for having you in my life uwuwuwuwu 

 @jejublr 💌 ew rat, you’re finally adulting. jokes aside, you were the first victim to fall under my disastrous typo errors and may i say that i’m just simply ICONIC for forever slapping that legendary nickname on you uwu nat who?? we only know RAT. you’re the one person i can always run to when more serious issues are bugging me since i guess you can relate the most to my personal dilemmas and i just wanted to thank you for being there for me <33 that, and for keeping gran somewhat at bay. i hope we get to meet up this summer where i’ll feed you with lots of chocolate while teasing ryan about her biasing jeonghan LMAO and just like most people from the gc, you’re one of the first close mutuals i’ve made. in a way, you could say you’ve been with me here since day 1 (almost) xx

@jin-hua 💌 mayo / mango / mayo that tastes like mangoes / idk i bet i have misspelled your names approximately 993828 times in 937987 different variations but guess what? i still love u to death uwu i love me a fitness queen, a visual goddess not even god himself could ever and i’m so so glad that you exist in my life <333 i know i promised you a crackhead message but when i think about it there’s not really a lot to say that’s out of place when it comes to you?? you’re an angel uwuwu the light of my life frank could NEVER

@justsomekpopstuff 💌 jj it is i, your #1 supporter!! since you’re also part of the nug club gc from the beginning on, you have an extra special place in my heart <3 jj, i love how supportive you are and i don’t think you realize that i cherish you to the moon and back and that times 903809. i love how you get so fired up about your hockey team and like to gush and suffer from the wrath of Joshua hong and i hope you’ll stay eternally happy uwu that, and dRINK LESS COFFEE ISTG

@lxveille 💌 veille we’ve never interacted a lot but i just wanted to let you know that i admire you a LOT. i haven’t got around to read more of your works lately, but i do have a favorite fic that i still clearly remember. okay, that’s a lie, i have several that left a strong memory. but let’s say, if i had to reduce it to one fic, it’d be the 100wtsily dystopian au with jihoon and 66 & 70! you’re one of the very few writers who hit the dystopian genre spot on and you truly are an inspiration. seriously, thank you a lot veile xx

@middle-of-a-wonshua-sandwich 💌 LOOK, i didn’t even know you changed blogs or something and i’m so eternally sorry that it took me ages to figure that out! (RIP me) you’re one of the first followers i had if i recall correctly (i’m pretty positive of that) and i just wanted to thank you for sticking with me so long uwuwuuwwu i wish you all the happiness bb <3

@multi-yeol 💌 haaaa we’ve only known each other since a day or something but i’m really glad we did!!!! honestly, that Loona song sorter is harder than any of the german exams i had and though we don’t know each other for so long, i hope we’ll talk more in the future bub!!!

@oatmealupdates 💌 lynna, you too are one of the first followers on my blog i’m wheEZING you’ve been here for so long sdlkjlkj thank you for your support and your comments under the fics always make my day i swear!! i’ve also noticed that you haven’t been that active as you used to be (maybe it’s just me idk sometimes my dash is kinda wacky) but all in all i hope you’re doing good!! if you ever need to talk to someone, you can always hmu <33

@queerjunhui 💌 vane, ngl, you really scared me at first. i was really intimidated by your for reasons i can’t even explain and i always thought you were out of my league sdkljlk i think we started talking since the cyzj thing and you’re one of the funniest and nicest people i’ve met so far on tumblr, seriously! your content - be it from your shitposts to mindless thoughts like the entire indirects to j*** * yES I STILL RECALL THEM - you always manage to make my day brighter whenever i see you on my dash. i wish you all the happiness and hope you’re doing good uwu

@seungcheolsbodyharness 💌 katey, sis i still think about that criminal seokmin and the entire au we made up - from FBI agent cheol to incompetent intern vernon and all that jazz. besides the fact that your url is a pure 10/10 as well as your other URLs, you’re such a nice person and i really enjoy your presence - be it in the form of reblogs of any kind of thing to the comments you occasionally leave and don’t get me started on the aSKS; katey, i’m so glad to have met you on this site!!! uwu

@softwonwoo 💌 jian darling!! honestly, i have no idea how you even know of my existence. just like pretty much everyone else i’ve tagged here you kinda had that intimidating aura?? but then the more i talked to you somehow, the more i was proven wrong and you’re such a sweet pea i can’t- also, i’m glad that i found someone who can agree with me when it comes to chungha dsakjlskj pls stay healthy, stay happy jian!!

@swyllh 💌 sara, i don’t think we have ever had a proper conversation, but i just wanted to give you my appreciation. you are one of the most underrated writers within the community yet you always give your best when it comes to your writing and honestly, i really admire you. i haven’t found the time to read your interactive fic yet (i keep pushing that back i am so sorry but i’ll get to that one day) and one of the fics that i absolutely adore is that one end of the world fic with chan, as well as the vernon collab with sha!! i really hope you’ll get the recognition and love you deserve you gifted writer !!

@tonicandjins 💌 faye my snowflake, i haven’t seen you around lately but if you read this, i hope everything’s alright from your side! i’m quite sure i’ve already mentioned this to you but i’ll say it again. i will NEVER shut up about one and two small petals and will NEVER recover from it. another banger is that wonwoo fic with the printer- ugh, you’re such a talented, beautiful person and i truly wish you all the best. remember, don’t stress yourself and relax once in a while uwu

@yeolsmiling 💌 angie hi!! i legit only sent you one (1) ask so i really don’t have much to say so far unless i wanna repeat myself lMAO one day, i aspire to purely emit soft energy for yeol but i doubt that day will ever come. i hope we get to talk more in the future you soft bear <33

honeybunch anon 💌 honeybunch, i hope you’re doing well! i still remember that i called you that when you slipped into my asks and gushed about that one mingyu fic up to this day i’m still flattered and eternally grateful that you’re still here uwu thank you for your support and making my day <33

fromis anon 💌 idk if you’ll ever read this but i miss you uwu i hope you’re doing fine and just a quick update from my side: i still haven’t found a bias yet uGH 

sugarpie / tulip anon 💌 you seem like such a cool person i’m really glad you stopped by in my inbox thank you for hitting me up uwu since i have no clue who you are and since i’m a dumbass, i’m can only rely on you messaging me jslkdj

none of the letters are proofread i am so sorry