#(or Fear)

[bobbinalong]

i'm such a fake bart fan, i haven't even read a third of his appearances

[void-thegod]

How long do you put up with stupid bullshit?

Give the benefit of the doubt?

Try to be understanding of other people's fights?

...

Until you can't anymore?

Until you're sick and tired of it?

Until you've grown bitter and resentful?

...

The type of person I want to be

The type of person I am

The type of person I'm growing to become

They're all just a little different.

But I want to change that.

To harmonize and crystallize and distill my existence down to something

More like a blue fire

A bright light

A laser that can cut through anything

...

I think I can do that, finally.

Now that there isn't so much noise.

Now that I'm away from people and environments that aren't for me

Or are otherwise harmful

...

...

...

Even if I'm not "me" anymore

Even if I'm not who I thought I would be

This Self is much more expansive, divine, and strong

Than anything I could've imagined myself possible of

...

And maybe that is why

And how

I've been called towards spirituality and towards a new way of being and living

For as long as I can remember I haven't been of this world

Made from it but not of it

Existing in it, yet being beyond it

...

I've always known, of course.

There's so many ways to look at it

...

Autistic

Voidpunk

Weirdo

Spiritual

Intelligent/Genius

Idealistic

...

But the Truth

Is that I am that I am

And I will continue to be

[i-didnt-do-1t]

To continue from my last post, an older Oscar maybe 20 or 21 who has spent most of his childhood being ignored.

Who can’t stand it when Morris greets his questions or remarks with silence. Can’t stand when he asks Weisel something and he doesn’t even look at him, too distracted with something else.

Morris who knows this, who knows how much Oscar hates it, how much it will almost immediately send him spiralling because suddenly he’s a kid again. morris who knows how easy it is to do when Oscar’s done something to piss him off because he doesn’t have a lot on his older brother who seems unshakeable but he has this, had their ma’s love

Oscar who hates that something so stupid can have so much of an effect on him, hates that it can immediately make him feel like that kid on the farm again, tugging on his ma’s skirt.

Oscar who has no issues making whoever pay attention to him.

[sasster]

"Jeez man, loosen up that collar, You seem Steamed! No need to take it out on me, Cylion! Look I was coming to check on you! Got a vibe, Y'know! What's got you so.... bitey and Feral?"

"Do not assume yourself a friend of mine that gets to know the intimate details of my life.

What I will tell you is something has apparently happened with my father, but he has not come out of his room and I do not make it a habit of barging into his private quarters. Out of respect."

[asklordcaptaincastronova]

Amadeus, do you just have really bad luck whem it comes to finding partners? Because I know there are people who are more than fine with cybernetics, hell there's people who go for members of the cult mechanicus because of the cybernetics

Implying I actively search for a partner. Because I kinda generally don't. But good to know.

[anthophilafalls]

*points: “YOU”

so ok yeah fine i watched gravity falls again and read the book of bill

[donnieisaprettyboy]

“what if kids identify with something and it ends up just being a phase-?” good. stop teaching and expecting kids (and adults honestly) to formulate permanent traits and ideas of themselves. everything in life is a phase. that doesn’t make it any less legitimate while you experience it. let people explore themselves and know it’s okay if what you think about yourself changes.

[aimlesspoet]

a bottom-tier autistic experience is being told throughout your entire childhood that you are just an overthinker when it comes to social situations and later finding out that your friends did, in fact, hate being around you and tried to communicate that through weird little hints

[boxmakesart]

Eldritch Miku omgggg

[problemnyatic]

so matt's absolutely giving scorched earth orders behind the scenes right. Not only are publically visible transfems dropping like flies, but every third person who musters up the audacity to comment negatively on Staff or Matt about this vanishes fucking instantly

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[slfcare]

ten years ago you were so scared of such different things, but you survived them anyway. the same goes for five years ago and two years ago. everything that has ever felt like a hurdle, you’ve passed through. so be afraid, identify your fears, and then allow yourself to remember that in just a little while, this will be another thing that you have overcome.

[freshbaked-bread]

i saw this:

and thought it would be fun to actually work that out. so

^^^ every doctor who episode in chronological order

(pls let me know if theres any mistakes! i got most of the info from the tardis wiki so idk if its 100% accurate)

btw!!! the episodes are ordered by where they go FIRST in the episode :) (PLEASE STOP TELLING ME TO PUT UNEARTHLY CHILD FIRST THEYRE IN 1963 FIRS TPLEASEEEEEYEGEHFEHFYUFHGEUYS)

[pimsri]

I make art about grief again

[serenityquest]