#(lowkey. wouldn't have minded if that name stuck...oh wells.)

[vanosslirious]

SMii7y: Can you guys do the clantag as "S+S" it's cause you're the SMii7y+ Squad, please, thank you.

Puffer: *disgust noise* Sorry, I audibly threw up.

Blarg: I love it.

[still-a-morosexual-help]

Yeah, I love Mystic, but it was hard keep up with them хд

Well, what's their name? Do you have any pictures of them? Do you ship them with everyone bros or not? Aaaaand maybe a few facts about them :3

Did you write their story before Devildom? I always find it hard and just make a little episodes sometimes

Oh okay, I don't think I've ever really spoken about my MC in detail to anyone before

But I write fics about unnamed gender neutral MC x Mammon (I've posted 18 so far) and because it's hard to write MC with no actual consistent example in mind I base them off my particular MC and because of that a lot of my MC's backstory and attributes are derived from whatever snippets of information canon gives us?

This got really long cause I started writing out all my theories for OM's general MC... oops?

1. Their name is Eliza and they will tell you that it stands for "A-Lizard" because that's the truth (I had a little rubber Lizard stuck to my wall when I was trying to think of a name for MC and that's honestly where the name came from. My The Arcana MC is Len cause I had a Lenovo laptop in front of me at the time...)

2. My art skills more or less suck BUT there's this picrew that lowkey resembles some of the devilgram art styles?

Here it is (if anyone uses it @ me? cause I wanna see more MCs....)

but no wait, do I get a pic of your MC too?

3. Just with Mammon, they were lowkey interested in Lucifer at the beginning but with the way things fell into place they quickly changed track

4. OKAY facts (so like I said most of these are derived from actual parts of the game that I just theorised and expanded on):

a.) They're a wildlife photographer

• You know all those professional photographs on Devilgram that are taken from a weird angle and by a third party

• You know how in a lot of those pictures the brothers are giving heart eyes at the camera

• Well yeah...that's the reasoning behind this

• Plus a wildlife photographer needs to have an incredible amount of patience and the ability to stay calm and general MC has both of those

b.) They have chronic pain

• The lady on the train in S1 (Gisella ?) told MC that you never forget dying which feels very forshadowy

• And MC died a pretty painful and violent death

• The pain is mostly lowkey (because even though they - the alive MC - is the one that got attacked it was past MC that died so I imagine the pain would be somewhat muted) but there are days it flares up and it's on these days that Eliza avoids Belphie, and these days when Belphie has learnt to avoid them too

c.) They don't have an actual stable job and work small things while trying to find work in their actual field

• The fact that MC was looking for a job, as a babysitter, at the beginning of S3 and are upset when they aren't paid at the end of S3

• Both Asmo and Beel note that MC loses weight between the times where they separate and are reunited

d.) They don't have a family in the human world + they're the last in Lilith's line of descendents

• How ready MC always is to drop everything and go live with the brothers

• How in S1 when they go to London Lucifer asks if MC was hoping to get in contact with their family and they say no

• How readily MC accepts the brothers as their family in S2 and how happy they were when Lucifer gives them a key to the HoL, how they were willing to run away with the brothers at the end of S2 and never go back to the Human World and even pleaded with Diavolo to let them stay and how they call the brothers their family multiple times and in S3 they are 100% willing to officially join them

• If there were more people with Lilith's genes/magic I think they would have been worth mentioning? I mean ik OM! wouldn't because this is MC's story but realistically they would have been worth mentioning so I figured might as well make 'em the last in the line.

- The way I see it Lilith's magic travelled from person to person as she tried to find a way to see her brothers again. When a child was born the magic would leak into them over the years and the parent (Lilith's previous descendent) would get subsequently weaker until all the magic was transferred and Lilith's fragment of a soul was anchored to the child and the parent would pass away.

- Eliza's mother was an artist (I believe the creators wanted to make MC's mother an artist too?) who died when they were around nine and their father dipped even before they were born. They were bounced around from foster home to foster home and that's why they're so obsessed with having a real family and why even when they barely knew the brothers they were determined to help fix their family because they saw what the brothers could be and how they had something Eliza's always wanted but never had and yet how they're letting it all fall into ruins.

e.) It's questionable if they're fully human

• In a devilgram of Belphie's after Lucifer locks him in the attic Lucifer tells him that even if Belphie was able to call out to the Human exchange student in their dreams and get them up the stairs the room itself was charmed so that humans couldn't see it (I don't know if I'm remembering this wrong but to was something to that effect). In S1 Belphie tells MC that the stairs to the attic are charmed so that demons can't climb them. MC has no problem climbing the stairs and seeing the room but they're also definitely not an angel

• In S2 when MC starts using the pacts to make the brothers stop fighting they are able to command all the brothers in one fell swoop without feeling any sort of adverse effects or any difference at all really. Solomon is surprised by this and says the first time he used the pacts he felt like he might die

• In S3 even after MC identifies themself as a human to angel Lucifer he's still skeptical and doesn't seem to believe them, saying something along the lines of how he doesn't know what they are and he has a similar reaction if they try to identify themselves as an angel or demon, whereas he immediately identified Satan as a demon

- I think this is because Lilith was never fully an angel or a demon when she died and was reincarnated as a human. At that point she had fallen - so she was no longer an angel. But she hadn't turned into a demon - so she wasn't a real demon. She was stuck between the two when her soul was reincarnated. The soul of a literal Fallen Angel in the body of a human and this unique new kind of magic is what has been passing down the generations

- Some irl stories refer to Lilith as the mother of monsters/demons and so yeah

f.) Eliza wears binders in S1 but gets top surgery between S1 and S2

- This has no basis in the actual OM! canon (obviously) just that being part of a family in s1 helped them a lot and they started leaving behind their more guarded personality (this part is actually something Lucifer notes in early S2) and expressing themself more. Midway through S1 they also start getting unusually lucky with money so that helps. Through S2 & S3 they start straying away from wearing exclusively jeans and oversized hoodies, wearing clothes that even reveal more skin or even clothes that are considered as stereotypically "feminine" that they usually stayed far away from (though they still default to more gender neutral clothes and they always have a hoody on hand) and even growing out their hair on occasion instead of cutting it the second it grows an inch too long (they still cut it real short at the end but sometimes they even let it grow enough to be able to properly tie it up before they think it's time to cut it). Just like with general MC they become more outspoken and emotive after S1 and part of the reason for this with Eliza is that they feel more comfortable with themself and their body and finally having a group of people who love you to death and back and support you no matter what helped with that a lot

5. I do have an idea of their story from before the Devildom. I'm pretty sure I mentioned all of it up there ^ I usually really find it hard too (none of my other MCs from games have proper backstories) but Eliza's came easily to me when I just took minor details from the game and built it up from there

Okay so this got much longer that I realised but this is the first time I've spoken so much about them and I got excited? I'd love to hear more about everyone else's MCs too!!!

[lubdubsworld]

Listen when you said Namjoon and infedility I WAS NOT EXPECTING THIS AT ALL oh my god this series??? The plot??? The characters... Damn most of the characters are assholes (looks at mínimoni👀) buy they're so set and perfect in their own way I am absolutely mind fucked tbh

By perfect i mean their description, the glimpse into their personalities.. That beta omega discriminatory rant.

1. Namjoon's description was mouth watering. That built like this and that and I went SHYN NO I'M AT WORK NO😩 that Dragon name suits him.. And the tattoos? The man bun??? The dimples??? Also conniving and assholish??? BIKER FUCKING CLUBS??? man I'm gonna have a huge problem with stomaching this Namu and how bad he's gonna be for my health🥲🥺

2. Dalmi.. I get her mental challenges and that need to appease and obey versus carve her own. I also get the fact that she's in some sort of a relationship with Jimin knowing he's also cheating on his wife and she wouldn't want that for her own sister but it seems like she's stuck between the devil and the deep sea. And despite this.. Not judging Dalmi rn but i feel like there's some serious competition in favourite OCs now. (Heejin and Nara still rule my heart)

3. Now I get your posts on arranged marriages from this morning. Alpha Jung and his wife remind me of the most arranged power dynamic fuelled marriage that made me lowkey disturbed because wow that's reality.

4. Iseul as a character-frivolous, shallow and kinda expect her to be trouble later on.

5. Jimin seems to be stringing her along for his convenience and a gray shade character (my autocorrect switched character to cheater 😂😅)

A 100/10. What a power packed chapter and such a tricky plot 🥺 I love how you inject a slice of everything in your characters. They're so well written.

Loved it so much. Hope you're doing well and had a nice day today 🤗

Ahhh yes....you know this fic is easily the fic with the most number of characters. As in characters who deserve stories of their own.... Its going to be a struggle and a half to get it right but I'm going to do my best..... Love you 🥺🥺 thank you for reading baby

[radellama]

Thanks for the tag @hellishgoat !!

Name: Rads

Gender: male

Star sign: Aires

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Fave solo artist: Jamie cullum

Song stuck in my head: hostage by nbt

Last movie: I watched Edward Scissorhands last night! Was so nice to be reminded how much I adore that movie

Last show: I'm watching derry girls with my roommate rn

When did I create this blog: 2014...15?? I dunno I was still in school lol it was years ago

What do I post: literally whatever the fuck I want lol. You can often tell when I'm thinking about/watch something cause I'll spam stuff. It's always been a mess like this so :P

Last Google search: kids on a slope, was trying to show my roommate the show to see if she knew what it was. I watched it years ago and I liked the jazzy vibes

Other blogs: made an art blog too keep all my art shit together, and my chrono trigger blog. Oh also I have a blog made specifically for my ct star trek au lol, I wanted somewhere to show off any art and lore that I could categorise nicely in order not to clog up my ct blog with my own shit lmao. The rest are just url hoards

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Why I chose this url: just wanted to take the numbers off and have a sleek look, couldn't have just adellama tho so put more of my nickname in it Lmao

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Lucky number: 9

Instruments: I own a little ocarina collection, but I'm not very good at playing lmao. I can play like one or two songs but I haven't practiced in years, they're more a fun lil collection for now

What am I wearing: my Avengers pyjamas lol. I was wearing my sonic pjs but it's too fucking hot rn so wearing my short sleeve and shorts with avengers all over them Lmao

Dream job: honestly just something I can be creative with. I've always wanted to do something revolving around storytelling, so last year I started uni to get into film making and understand everything about making movies as much as I can. I worked as an editor last year at a local advertising place and that was really nice, was mostly in office and whenever I went on shoots with my boss I was just the helping hand and that kinda the vibe I want. Just working hard in something I know how to do pretty well so I can be confident in the end product - so I feel like doing concept art or cinematography or directing. Gotta learn a whole lot more about writing, I get excited about good concepts but I still need to learn a lot about how to get it across well with good writing Lmaooo so it's good I'm studying

Dream trip: I'd like to see Japan and Korea one day, new Zealand too. Tbh tho when covid has been taken care of, I wouldn't mind traveling around Australia more in the future and get to know the country. But I'd wanna go with a friend or two or something lol, not by myself haha. I've moved around so much growing up I didn't really care about traveling, and tbh I'm still a bit lowkey, atm (when covid is well and truly taken care of, I'm not silly) I'd only really travel to visit friends Lmao

Favourite food: I fucking love spaghetti bolognese lmao.. And tonkatsu... I like a good deal of Italian and Japanese food lol.

Nationally: Australian

Favourite songs: ummmm.... I'll just pick a few songs I've recently been obsessing over

Nbt - take this lonely heart

Gotye - out here in the cold

Jamie cullum - edge of something

RY X - hold me love

The neighbourhood - w.d.y.w.f.m

Last book I read: just finished skulduggery pleasant a week or two ago, just haven't really had the mood to read recently cause it's way too hot lol

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[haechanmochi]

Summary: apartment hunting and coming across a perfect place but a somewhat intimidating room-mate.

Pairing: BTS Jimin X fem!reader

Yes I lowkey write for bts.

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[10:16am]

It wasn't the most comfortable of mornings because the humidity was enough to make you feel claustrophobic, and you didn't even have claustraphobia. It didn't help that you had to be out the whole day in the heat and in formal looking clothes.

You were almost certain that your white button up shirt would be soaked in sweat if it weren't for the inner vest you wore.

"You're doing great sweetie, just three left".

Your cousin brother, who was technically a brother seeing as how you grew up in the same household, Bang Chan ruffled your hair and you thanked him for adding onto your already exhausted appearance.

"What's this guy's name?"

"Mr. Yang Soobin, make sure you don't call him by the wrong name like you did for the last lady".

You hide behind your hair in embarrassment as Chan roars in laughter at having reminded himself.

-

"Chan I freaking love this place", you whisper quietly when the landlord goes to his car to retrieve some documents.

"Me too, your room is big enough for the whole squad".

The landlord was back with the documents and after a brief q&a, you were feeling like this was it. This was the place.

"You are aware that you'll be having a room-mate yes?"

What? No wonder the place was underpriced, the rent was split.

"Well now I am", you smile nervously and Mr.Soobin laughs heartily. You couldn't help but draw comparison to his laugh with that of Santa Clause's.

"He's not a troublesome boy and he's pretty quiet and rarely at home, so you won't really notice his presence either".

He sounded like a nice guy and you were in a hurry to move out, so you figured it was part of the deal. He handed you a pen and you went over the contract, signing and jotting you initials wherever needed.

You were still signing when a gust of wind entered the apartment as you looked up to see the front door opened and a boy with a helmet on blocking your view of the outside. He hadn't noticed your presence yet, taking off his helmet and then his coat. As he shrugged off the sleeves of his coat, he turned momentarily and you saw his face, his eyes meeting yours in an instant and then flickering to the other people in the house.

His confusion weared off when he saw the Mr. Soobin and he nodded his head to Bang Chan first and then you.

"Ah there he is just in time", the landlord exclaimed, breaking the silence and the boy walked over, very gracefully, extending his hand to Chan.

"Hey, Park Jimin, pleasured to be your new roommate", his eyes flickered to yours again briefly and Chan shook his hand but laughed.

"Nice to meet you, but I'm not the one moving in, she is", he moved slightly to the side, exposing you.

Now that he was up close you could see all the details of his face clearly and to say you were impressed was an understatement. The man was extremely sculpted to perfection and you couldn't tell if his grey eyes were lenses or natural but they were stunning. All in all, it wouldn't be too bad to be his roommate, you thought.

"Um, hi I'm y/n".

Your voice was shy and small and you knew Chan would tease the fuck out of you later.

You stuck out your small hand that had now gone cold as it always does when you're nervous and he encased it with his slender fingers.

"Pretty name".

You blushed and heard Chan snicker but you chose to ignore it.

-

"That's all there is to the contract, you're officially living here now, here's the keys", the landlord slid them towards you on the kitchen counter and you took them gladly.

Jimin had headed to his room after his brief introduction and he didn't seem to be an issue so you had made up your mind that this was the apartment for you. Either way you'd have Chan and the others over alot and figured you wouldn't associate with Jimin much.

You took your copies of the contract and the keys and handed it to Chan.

"I need to pee really bad, would you mind waiting in the car for me?"

You asked Chan and he nodded cooperatively.

You make your way to the bathroom and open it to reveal a shirtless Jimin with a loose towel around his waist.

"Oh fu-, I'm so sorry", you blabber out endless apologies and see a small smile making it's way onto his face.

"You can keep apologizing but you can also just close the door y/n".

You were a stuttering mess and apologized for not knocking again, slamming the door shut and instead going across the hall to use the other bathroom.

You washed your hands, still looking like a tomato in the mirror and flushed the toilet. You step out and close the door, turning around only to be trapped back against the door.

Jimin had changed into a pair of red basket-ball shorts, hanging dangerously low on his waist, as long as his towel had been or maybe lower. He had a hand on the door next to your head and his eyes were boring into yours. You noticed that they were now a soft brown and you figured that he was in fact wearing lenses before. His dark eyes didn't fail to make him look good either way.

"I'm sorry to have flustered you but next time, knock, okay?"

You gathered some courage and fired back,

"If we're going to be living together, you might want to consider locking the door, it's there for a reason Park Jimin", not knowing which name he preferred to go by.

You calling him by his full name and the fact that you had started a little argument instead of submissively agreeing, played at Jimin's dominant demeanour.

"Don't start war with me, y/n- I guarantee you, I can be the worst roommate but still look like an angel to the landlord".

"It's not war if I'm fighting a man without a gun".

"Excuse me, are you making references to my dick?"

"What the fuck? No that's not-"

Your argument came to a halt when you started laughing at his misjudgement and though he wanted to fire-back, he found himself smiling sheepishly. You push gently past him, leaving him to stand there scratching the back of his neck awkwardly.

"I'll see you around Park-"

"Oh for god sakes, just call me Jimin, you make me feel old".

"Keep the door open for Monday, Jimin. I'll see you then".

You replied walked to the front door and he followed you,

"Which door?"

You turned around to see him grinning and you reply as you closed the door,

"Definetely not the bathroom one".

-

"Jesus what took you so long?"

Chan was eyeing you suspiciously as if you were Hannah Montana, living the double life.

"Got a little lost".

"In a one story apartment that you got a tour of?"

He grins and makes out the different situations that could've occurred, in his head.

Your silence made it much more of a juicy story and he figured he wouldn't let you live it down.

"How was he?"

He wiggled his eyebrows and you turned to him in shock of his assumptions.

"Fuck's sake, just drive it's not even like that- I'll tell you when we get home".

He laughs at your reaction and accelerates along the free road to get home faster because his curiosity was eating away at him.

"Slow down, it's not that much of a story".

Chan grunted at your failure to make his day interesting and you chuckle at his displeasure while also realizing,

You couldn't wait for Monday.

[awakeshedreams]

Helping Hand {2}

Prompt: “what are you waiting for?”

Summary: You’re used to helping people and you enjoy doing so. However when a friend asks for something your heart heavily accepts, you find the will to be selfish for once in your life and get what you’ve always wanted- who you want, even if it’s just for a moment.

Pairing: Jungkook×Reader

Genre: Fluff, Angst, Smut. College!AU. Friends to Lovers!AU

Wordcount: 4.5K

Warning: sex lol ?

A/N: KKSSRY SORRY :( better later than never right ? Anyways here's the second part have a nice day and enjoy! Thank you for the responses on the last one, means alot 💜 I'd like some feed back on this one too if you have time thank you 💜 ps my laptop is acting up so I had to post this on mobile so I can't add 'read more' im so sorry :(

*italics=flashback

1 . 2

You're running so fast down the hall, sneakers squeaking with every pressure of your feet against marbled floor.

Your lungs burn and your eyes sting but it doesn't matter. You can’t stop running, you won’t stop running. Not until you get to him. You need to see him. But are you ready for it though? The realisation dawns on you and you slow down a little, hesitant as your sudden rush of excitement dies down, reality and fear taking its place.

But it’s too late, because as you bump into a broad solid chest and almost fall over only to be rescued by a strong arm encased around your waist that has you looking into deep dark eyes you had begun to miss and longed to look into, a conversation you shared with Mia not too long before resurfaces in your thoughts and you find yourself fisting the fabric of his shirt.

You exhale and inhale deeply, sweaty palms gripping the doorknob as you gulp. All you have to do is get pass this door, into the bathroom and apologize. Easy.

“You can do this Y/N.” You chant again for the nth time and the more you say it the less effective it is. You’ve been standing in front of the toilet door for over 5 minutes. Luckily no-one else has come to use the loo because it'd look weird as hell having you just stand there when you could just walk in. But you’re scared. You’re not sure of what. You've said so yourself that you don't mind what choice she makes, you don’t deserve to ask for more. You're lucky if she even as much says anything to you. But still there’s a churn in your belly that tells you that this is not going to end or proceed as expected.

Shaking your thoughts away you finally push the door open and step into toilet. You find her there, applying her favourite lip gloss through the reflection. You stiffen when her eyes jump to you before she resumes her duty, wiping off some around the edges.The silence is toe curling and so you decide to finally speak; “We need to talk.”

She pauses, squinting her eyes before turning around to face you with her arms crossed, "I know you fucked Jungkook.” Your face reddens as you grip your bag handle tight, lips ajar.

“I’m sorry.” Is all you manage to say and you watch her eyes narrow as she huffs. This is so not like her but maybe if she ended fucking the guy you like after he lowkey rejected you right after your date you wouldn’t be yourself too.

“You know Y/N, I never expected you to be such a whore.” You stumble back slightly at her words, throat going dry. Ouch. “Come on, fucking the guy you knew I liked? You're the last person I expected to do that. I trusted that you would be-useful to me but you ended up stabbing me in the back. I really hate you Y/N.”

“I know what I did is wrong and you don’t have to accept my apology but I'm sorry. I just- I don’t even know."

“It doesn’t matter. I guess I’ll just do things on my own and get Jungkook by myself. You weren’t of any help.” She throws her hair over her shoulder with a sigh as she grabs her bag on the sink and leaving the toilet. Wait. Did she just say... “Mia, you were using me just to get with Jungkook?” you catch up to her, grasping her arm. You don’t care at how she eyes your hold on her with disgust as anger and confusion brews in your being. “Answer me.”

“Yeah. I was. I was using you to get with Jungkook.” She admits annoyed, wiping her arm when you let go of her but you don’t catch that over dramatic display of hatred. Your heart sinks to your feet.

“Mia..." You croak out as your eyes begin to tear up. You thought you lost Mia the night you lost Jungkook, but there was an inkling of hope in you. However now learning this it feels like you’ve lost her, your friend, twice. And it has an ugly twist forming in your belly.

“Don’t act all hurt. I should be the one who is hurt. Y/N, you have no idea how shit you’ve made things for me and Jungkook.” She shakes her head as she clenches her fist and glares at you.

“Mia, I know I fucked up and I’m sorry for sleeping wit-"

“Not that. Even since before.” She scoffs and you furrow your brows. What is she talking about. “Before you and Jungkook met, we were dating for 6 months.” The information settles in slowly, but surely. And soon your small heart is filled with so many overwhelming emotions welling up in you. Jungkook was actually in the longest relationship term you've ever seen him be in before he met you and it was with Mia. You didn't know that. You feel so deceived, Mia said she didn’t know Jungkook and Jungkook pretended not to know her. What happened? What created such a hostile air in between them and what caused they’re break up?

“Suddenly you came around. It was because of you.” She seethes and you’re more confused than ever, did she just answer the questions in your head?

“What do you mean?”

“You. He started caring for you. He literally only knew you for a month and he was so relaxed with you... do you know how hard it was for me to get him to open up to me even just a little? And you had him wrapped around your little finger in one fucking month? Someone like you?” You don’t manage to answer, just looking at the ground as you fiddle with your fingers. It looks like you had done her more wrong than you knew you have. “I got jealous . I mean who wouldn't get jealous? I did, so thought I'd make him jealous too. I fucked his friend.” She says with no remorse but you can tell she wish she had never done it because she obviously would do as much as faking a friendship for months just to get him back.

“And it’s all because of you. You know the moment we had an argument, he ran straight to you? God sometimes I wish you would just disappear. I don’t even know what Jungkook see’s in you to like you that much.” How did she know that Jungkook liked you? You doubt she was standing outside the room when he confessed or that he told her.

“He told me that night at the date.” She confirms and you gape at her. Oh. "He told me to stay away from you because he knows what I'm doing, he said that he won’t forgive me again if anything happens to you, can you believe him? He’s such a prick!” she groans and while she is going through it your heart is fluttering, he talked of you like that?

“He really likes me...” you deadpan, forgetting Mia's presence and it bothered her as she clicks her tongue but you’re not paying attention to her. Jungkook really likes you and you just shut him off.

You’ve apologized to Mia and now that that is out of the way, you need to get things with Jungkook right for once and for all.

“Mia, again I’m sorry. I need to go.” You sincerely say one more time before you zoom off, leaving a stunned Mia standing there.

“Y/N?” Jungkook breathes out, his face barely inches away from yours, your chests pressed flush against each other as you gaze into each others eyes. So many words are being exchanged through a simple look of the eye, words neither of you know how to convey verbally.

“Jungkook, I-" you thoughts get stuck in your throat and you feel your eyes tear up. You were the one who cut him off but you were crying.

“Y/N, what’s wrong?” he furrows his brows, trying to reach up and cup your cheek but you flinch away from his touch, heart breaking when pain flashes across his face at your repulsiveness.

“Sorry,” you push him off you, not looking at him once as you walk away. You heart sinks with every step as the image if Jungkook's shoulder slumping when you walked past him replays in your head.

It feels so wrong but you know it’s right. You’re not ready, not yet. Because all it takes is you crying your heart out to sleep that night for you to wake up feeling fresh and determined.

.

This isn’t good.

The moment you step into the field you freeze in your spot. Maybe the look of defeat and loss on the faces of those who sat at the gold and black benches in contrast to the cheers of those in red and white should have indicated the situation for you but now that you see the score board you realize the initial assumption your tried to push back was right. Your college team is behind by several marks. And this is very unusual.

Your eyes fall to the team members who are clearing the field, on a 10 minute break before the game resumes. Naturally you search for him in the midst of people as you walk past the audience bench to the players area but there’s isn’t a sigh of him. Hesitantly you tap one of the players shoulder, a broad shouldered Seokjin you knew to be a friend of Jungkook's.

“Y/N!” he beams, almost going in for a hug to which you raise a brow at him, eyeing his sweaty figure.

“Sorry,” he sheepishly laughs as he scratches the back of his head, making you chuckle. “What's going on?” you motion towards the score board and Jin sighs, placing his hands on his hips.

“Man, I don’t really know but we're doing pretty shit. Even Jungkook isn’t playing as well as he should be.” Your ears perk at the mention of his name and you clear your throat. “Do you know why?” you ask almost desperate and you wonder if it makes you sadistic to want to be the cause of his apparent distress, frankly you do want to be the reason. Only because you want to be the one to de-stress him.

“No idea. Why?” he teases with a knowing grin and your cheeks flush, “But I think it should be fine. Since you’re here now, our lucky charm. Should've come earlier.” He pats your shoulder and you laughed. There’s this inside joke/myth within the team, that you’re their lucky charm. The college football team didn't really have that great of a reputation but ever since Jungkook took over as captain in the new batch, they have been on a winning streak. And quite coincidentally you’ve been there at every game.

“Come on, you guys work too hard for you to say that I’m the reason you guys win. I just sit there and barely pay attention, football is boring.” You joke and SeokJin raises a brow as he hums.

“Yet still you come here all the time, to watch this ‘boring football’, I wonder why...” He ponders aloud and you pout at him.

“Anyways, since you’re here and we're on break, you should go check up on Jungkook. He's in the locker room at the end corner by himself. I think he'll gain his senses once you guys talk or something.” He begins walking into the locker room and you furrow your brows before you speak. “What makes you think that?”

“I know.” He winks before disappearing into the crowd of his team mates. Ripping your gaze from the group of sullen boys who cheer up when Seokjin begins cracking his dad jokes, you walk towards the opposite direction.

You brace yourself and step into the room. The first thing you notice is that just dark, the lights weren’t switched on and the sun was setting ahead. You walk in further before you find Jungkook, his head hunched over his body as he sat at the bench. He’s is shirtless, a light sheen of sweat over his back that moves up and down with every heave of his breathe. His fists are clenching, unclenching , clenching.

You freeze when he abruptly looks up and turns his head to face you, looking at you with wide eyes that glimmer through the wet bangs that lay over his eyes, some sticking to his forehead. “Y/N?” he says in disbelief, voice hoarse but low, afraid that you’re a figment of his imagination and that even the force of his voice would have you fading away into thin air.

“Hey.” You smile, awkwardly standing there.

“Hi.” He responds and then there is complete silence as you just stare at each other.

“Fuck, you probably think I'm a loser even more now. I didn’t want you to ever see me like this.” He laughs humourlessly, running a hand through his locks in frustration. “No Jungkook, you’re not a loser. And I certainly don’t think that.” You sit down next to him and Jungkook scoffs throwing his head back to rest on the lockers with his eyes shut. You try to keep your eyes on his face, not his ripped body but even that is hard since he looks even hotter now, all sweaty and breathless.

“Yeah right. I’m a fucking excuse for a captain. Can’t even lead my team into winning because i- you know what forget it.” You frown at him, is he dumb? “Jungkook, you’re not a loser. How many times have you guys won huh?” you place a hand over his thighs and Jungkook's eyes shoot open, gaze flickering to where your hands are before he looks up at you.

"Jungkook you’re a great captain. You've brought honour to the college with your team and no-one else could have done it. You're a champion. You can get back there on that field and win it.” You squeeze his thigh and Jungkook stares at you blankly. It’s hard to read his thoughts when he remains so blank and unresponsive. “You know, we can only win if you're there.” He suddenly says, leaning forward and you chuckle at his ridiculousness.

“Well I’m here now aren’t I?”

He turns to face you, his dark eyes locking with yours and the sudden proximity of your faces has your breathe hitching, cheeks prickling. “Y/N, why are you here?” he asks, almost sounding frustrated but you take no offense to it somehow.

“Because ... because I care.” You gulp, finding it hard to form a sentence with his intense gaze on you. “For me or the team.” He questions, head tilted.

“Both. But especially you.” you confess and then there is a long silence as you simply stare at each other.

“You confuse me. You tell me go away and then you tell me this. Why?” he shakes his head as he looks away, running his fingers through his hair again, biceps flexing.

“Because I like you.”

“What?” he whips his head towards you as he shifts in his seat as his cheeks redden. "Why are acting so surprised I literally told you that already.” You roll your eyes at his reaction as you chuckle.

“Yeah but I thought... You know... after that night and when we bumped into each other and you ran away that you didn't feel the same anymore.” He shrugs and you groan in frustration. Why was he making this so hard?

Without warning you push yourself off your seat to straddle his lap and cup his cheek. “I’ll show you okay? How I feel. How you make me feel.” He stares at you wide eyed and surprised but he nods as his hands rest on your hip and waist.

You lean down, capturing his lips in yours. The kiss is sweet from the fruitiness of your gloss and a little salty from the sweat on Jungkook. You take in all of him, fingers trailing down the edges if his torso while the other tugs at the hair in the nape of his neck. His hands slip under your top to fondle your breast and eliciting a deep moan from you that has him tightening his grip on your waist to pull you closer to his chest. You feel his hard cock pressing against your soaking clothed core and you can't help but grind onto him.

“Fuck,” he groans, hips bucking up to met yours. You steal a glance at the digital watch on your wrist. You've got about 6 minutes left. “We need to make this quick, baby.” You pant out, not missing the way Jungkook smirks at the term of endearment as he bites his lips.

You palm him through his pants and he rolls his head back, he hisses when you reach into his tight pants and take out his angry hard cock. "Wait, I don't have a condom on me.” He grabs your wrist to stop him, but you peck the corner of his lips and grin at him.

“I’m on the pill.” He nods and let's go of you, his balls going tight at the thought of being able to fuck you raw with no hindrance and fill you with his cum. He let’s you take control, watching in bliss with hands tight around your waist as you rub his tip against your slick entrance. When you sink down on him both of you gasp. You immediately clench around him but you don’t stop, the drag as he guides you further down while you take in all of him pleasurably painful. It’s intoxicating and it has you catching your breath, nails digging into his shoulders as you start moving. "Oh my god,” you moan jumping on his cock as Jungkook’s fingers hook on the middle of your bra under your top, pulling the fabric down so that your breasts are now free of the constraints, nipples pebbled visible through the natural just shows how aroused you are home your tits bounce and your chest heaves with every thrust.

“Look at you, hopping on my dick like a fucking slut.” He growls as he latches onto your stiff nipples through your top and you shriek, arching your back into his mouth. He chuckles against your jiggling breasts as he moves onto the next, pinching and flicking your free needy buds with his thumb and it has you rolling your head back, the corners of your vision blackening as your high arrives. “Jungkook, baby, I’m so fucking close,” your thrusts are weaker, thighs aching but you are desperate and try to go faster despite your throbbing thighs. Jungkook senses your frustrations through your whines and hooks his hand on your hips, lifting you up and slamming you against his cock, occasionally bucking his hips up to yours.

“Jungkook, I’m going to come oh my god,” you pant as you let him fuck into you and you cry out as you release around him, hips twitching as he continues thrusting his hips up to yours with his brows knitted. "I’m so fucking close.” He grunts, snapping his hips up to you before he spills his warm seeds into you with a growl.

You stay like that for a while, his head on your shoulders and your head on his breathlessly. “I really like you Y/N. Fuck I love you so much.” He confesses into the crook of you neck and pulls you closer to him by your waist. A smile graces your features as you tightened your embrace over his shoulders.

“I’m sorry I didn’t tell you about Mia and I earlier. I didn’t think it was important. Sorry.” “It’s fine.” You chuckle with a shrug and he chuckles as well.

“Are you going to pull out or...” You remind as you eyes trail down to where you are still joined and you’re surprised his still intact in you, did he get hard again? "Fuck right,” a tint spreads over Jungkook’s cheeks as he lifts you and stands you up, shoving his dick back into his pants. You try to ignore the outline of an obvious bulge with pursed lips, holding back a laughter. “If you win, we can go for a second round tonight. Maybe more.” You sing song with a shrug as you begin walking out, leaving a wide eyed Jungkook who is getting dressed. A grin slowly spread across his face as he catches up to you.

“Wait,” he holds your hand, pulling you into his chest as he drapes his varsity jacket over your shoulder. You notice he is wearing his gear already. You raise a brow at the action, a bit taken back. Jungkook’s eyes trail down to your chest, where two wet patches lay where your nipples should be. Your cheeks heat up as you recall how Jungkook was sucking on them before this. "Thanks,” you gulp and Jungkook chuckles, taking your hand in his. Just then the door flies open sand Seokjin peeks his head from the door, light pouring in.

“Hey cap, hey Y/N. Hope you guys are done, the games about to start.” He smirks and you roll your eyes. “Right. Um, guess I’ll be going then.” Jungkook grins, unable to control the giddiness he feels and infects your heart too, swelling as he swings your joint hands.

“Good luck Jungkook. Go win it.” You pat his chest. “I don't need luck, I have you here. And a night of just me and you fucking to look forward to.” He quirks a brow with a smug smirk and you smack his chest.

“Whatever. Go.” You usher him out and he laughs, heading for the door. “Oh and Jungkook?” you call out, biting your lips and hugging the jacket closer to your body when he steps out the door. "Yeah?” he leans against the doorframe, arms crossed.

“I love you too.”

Jungkook tilts his head, a grin that makes your heart race spreading across his features as he pushes himself of the door frame. He nods to himself before turning his back on you and walking out.

What was that? You furrow your brows but you don’t pay much mind to it.

They do end up winning the game, and you should've recognised the look Jungkook had earlier sooner. The look of determination and unmatched prowess, the same look he’s giving you now as you’re sprawled beneath him, completely naked while he is half dressed hovering over you with a devilish grin.

“Tired, sweetheart?” he cocks a brow and you quickly shake your head. You don’t care for the ache in between your legs, you want him even more now. “Alright baby girl, on your knees.” He commands and you quickly scramble into position. He takes his place behind you, wet chest pressing into your back while damp hair tickled got ears when he places a kiss on the top of your glowing shoulder.

“Are you ready?” he breathes into your ear, and you eagerly nod, whimpering when he cups your breasts under you roughly to gain a verbal answer from you.

“Yes, fuck Jungkook I want your cock!” you arch your back to press your behind into him, gasping as his twitching member rubs at your entrance. “Such a needy slut for my cock. Even after I’ve fucked you so good so many times just tonight... tsk tsk tsk,” he shake his head and you let out a strangled cry as his hands trail down and pinches your engorged clit, sensitive from previous abuse. But still you buck your hips into his hand, panting as rubs the button of nerves.

“Please, I can never get enough of your cock, I need it. Please fuck me again- oh Fuck.” You throw your head back, immediately clenching around him as he shoves himself in you with ease, gasping with every thrust while you grip the sheets.

From the reflection of his mirror ahead, you feels yourself grow wetter with time at the sight of him pounding into you ruthlessly from behind, lips caught in between his lips with furrowed brows. But from the corner of the mirror image on the reflection, something glimmering catches your attention.

The gold trophy of today’s victory.

A reminder of how you ended up in this situation not that you were complaining at all.

Also a reminder that tomorrow, and for more than a couple days, you might not be able to make it out of bed or even stand on your own two feet. But you don’t mind. You really don’t.

“Fuck,” you grunt as Jungkook strengthens his thrusts, the bed squeaking while you fist the sheets , mind on the edge of sanity again as his cock pounds into you and bumps your g spot.

This is going to be a long long night.

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Carly & Ali

Carly: heard from drew? Carly: long shot Ali: Ha, good one Carls Ali: God no Ali: he's AWOL? Carly: yea Carly: gimme calebs number? Carly: longer shot Ali: 'Course but doubt they're chillin' Ali: and he might act like saying his name invokes him to pop up like a demon but you know Ali: Have you spoken to Meena? Surely he's keeping her in the loop Carly: shes not picking up Carly: to me Carly: same as my mum and dad Ali: That's not like her, she's probably just busy, keep trying Ali: As for your 'rents, where have they gone? And why do you need Drew so urgent? Gah, sorry, so many questions Ali: Just go with this one, are you okay? Carly: ive been trying ages Carly: shes not on spanish time idk why she cant answer Carly: idk wot to do Carly: how do i get it to stop ?? Ali: Spain's only an hour ahead of us anyway, not an excuse Ali: I'm 8 hours ahead and I've managed Ali: get what to stop babe Carly: the crying Carly: i cant think Carly: its all it does Ali: You've had the baby Ali: how long ago? did you go to the hospital? you need to if you haven't, like now Carly: what Carly: why would i go there Carly: its over with Ali: Because you both need to be checked over Ali: its really important Ali: have you birthed the placenta? Is it all out? If not you could die Ali: Never mind if there's anything wrong with the baby Ali: Call a cab and give me your deets, I'll transfer the money now Carly: that alien shit Carly: yea Carly: it screams healthy Ali: that is a good sign but there could be something you're missing, maybe that's why its screaming? better safe than sorry, they're not allowed to ask you about shit unrelated, so if you're high, sober up and then go, yeah? Ali: When did you last do a feed? Have you been able to? They'll show you how, it can be tricky Carly: id scream if i was born here Carly: gonna be stuck Carly: sober up? i need more Carly: shit hurts dont need to tell you Ali: They'll give you stuff at the Hospital Ali: why do you think anyone goes? Ali: and fo free baby gurl! please Carly: i cant Carly: gotta be hear for when my mum rings back Carly: & drew might come Ali: Give me your mums number and I'll tell her where you are Ali: then she can ring the hospital and they'll let you know Ali: I bet Drew has a key, no? Ali: Leave a note Carly: he left it when he went Carly: threw it at me Ali: Oh bab Ali: I'm sorry Ali: but you gotta focus on you Ali: and the baby now Ali: Not him, he knows where you are Ali: I can text him if you want, or try to call Ali: I swear nothing bad will come out of it Carly: but its his Carly: and i am Carly: he should be here Ali: But he isn't Ali: maybe he'll come back but you gotta keep going 'til he does, alright? Carly: i need to find him Ali: Not right now Ali: next step Ali: he's not lost, he doesn't want to be found Ali: i know that's harsh but its the truth Ali: he'll come back when he's ready, alright? Carly: what about me Carly: im not ready Carly: he doesnt care Carly: why should i Ali: he cares about himself Ali: AT LEAST do that Ali: if you can't the baby then the people at the hospital will help with that too Ali: you can't just leave it Ali: boy or girl? Carly: its a girl Carly: another one Carly: hes gonna be mad Ali: I don't think he's salty about not having a male heir babe Ali: If you really won't go...I'll do my best to tell you what I know and I'll send you links Ali: we'll do our best health check and then you've got to try to feed her, yeah? Is that okay? Carly: mad that shes here Carly: i said i wasnt having one Carly: you want me to read? cant hear myself think Ali: But you were Ali: and if you were doing it without protection then he was fully aware it was a possibility Ali: I'll voice memo you then Ali: it'll stop the crying Carly: he says its not his Carly: maybe not Carly: idk Carly: its got blood on it but could look like him when thats gone Ali: He said that to me when it definitely was so kind of his go to Ali: but even if it isn't, doesn't mean he has to be a dick to you about it Ali: Its not right regardless Ali: Especially not when you're alone Carly: how do i make it sleep Carly: im tired Carly: should i sing? Ali: That might help yeah Ali: Skin to skin to, that's comforting Ali: Lemme break down how you feed it, yeah? Hold on Carly: i cant pick it up what if i drop it fuck no Carly: gotta stay where it is Ali: You won't Ali: its your baby, its safer with you than it is on the floor Ali: get a towel, that'll keep it warm and put it to your chest Ali: [Sends 38 sec video] okay, if that's easier this vid shows you how but I'm here to talk you through Carly: all the towels are wet Carly: it can have my tshirt thats warm Ali: Good idea, see Ali: you know what you're doing Ali: you've got this Carly: its too small Carly: i have to put it back down Carly: ill hurt it Carly: fuming about me coming near it Ali: She's just hungry and confused Ali: Understandable, right? Dunno about you but I'd be pretty fucked off too if I'd just been pushed out my nice comfy home of the last 9 months Ali: You'll be her best friend in my time at all Carly: id put it back if i could Carly: whyd you wanna do this 3 times Ali: 'Cos I'm a bossy bitch and I want underlings to do my bidding and I get to tell 'em what to do Ali: speaking of, time for your masterclass Ali: get her and get comfy on the sofa or your bed or wherever is bed Ali: best Carly: k Carly: shes heavy wtf Ali: That's good! You did a good job cooking her then Ali: and if she's a lil chunk, this should be easier Carly: shes small but im sleepy Ali: you can both take a snooze when this is done, usually conks 'em right out Ali: is your tiddy out? Carly: knew you fancied me Ali: you know Ali: getting in there while your defenses are down Carly: im single Carly: you too Ali: Lets do it mama Ali: cutest fam ever? i think so Carly: shes not cute like yours Carly: weird coloured thing Ali: she's probably covered in the gunk and pink from screaming her head off Ali: no ones finest hour i bet she's beautiful Carly: ill get it to take a selfie Ali: yay! get it on the nip 'cos i gotta see my boo too 😍 Ali: line her nose up with your nip, kinda tickle her top lip with it, she should open her mouth wide Ali: then you can shove it in Carly: done that before Carly: weird Carly: [Sends pic of tiny baby Indie] Carly: does she look like him idk Ali: Definitely Ali: Looks a bit like Edie Carly: ill send him the pic Carly: probs should take a better one Carly: how do i look? Ali: Like you've just given birth Ali: so a goddess Ali: but a knackered one Carly: youve got a fetish Carly: cant trust that Ali: me??? Ali: didn't impregnate myself Ali: look at Caleb! Carly: and drew Carly: wont see him Ali: Clearly its his thing too Ali: but he's more about the before than after yeah Ali: he can't stay away forever Ali: he wouldn't leave Meena Carly: youre smart Carly: if i go there he cant avoid me Ali: Exactly Ali: Camp out Ali: Ana will help you with the baby shit if you like Carly: why Carly: she doesnt know me Ali: Because she's a good person Ali: plus she's a social worker, it what she do Ali: and she knows Drew better than most, she raised him Ali: worth a shot Carly: shes not his mum Carly: but she can take this kid Ali: yeah she's better than Ali: is that what you want? Ali: she'll discuss it with you, make sure you both get what's best Carly: im not talking to her Carly: she can take it or not Ali: No one will just take her with no questions asked Carls Ali: for your welfare and the kids Carly: im not answering a social workers questions Ali: They're not entitled to judge you Ali: She won't Ali: and as far as drugs are concerned, if you want to give the baby up then literally none of their business at all after that Ali: and if you did decide to keep her then they work with you Ali: they're not gonna just shop you, it ain't like that Carly: make me go to rehab is how its like Carly: fuck no Ali: They can't make you Ali: there's no point Ali: you can only get sober if that's what you want Carly: my mum and dad'll make me Carly: i know theyre gonna Ali: well, where the fuck are they now? Ali: if they're so concerned about you they'd be here Ali: actually supporting you Carly: theyll come when they find out about her Carly: i never told them Ali: Good, I hope they do Ali: but how did that happen Ali: how could I see and they didn't Ali: or Drew Carly: they dont come back Carly: drew did see thats why he left Ali: yeah but they must talk to you Ali: your mum has obviously been there how did she not clock something being up Ali: and not soon enough in Drew's case Carly: i call them if i need money Carly: they gotta think its why im calling now Ali: When do they call you? Carly: if i call and they didnt pick up Carly: unless theyre busy Ali: I see Ali: how's she doing? done feeding? Carly: sleeping Carly: how are yours? Ali: best feeling ever, right? Ali: much the same, its late here Ali: I'm pulling an all-nighter lowkey, finishing up some work Carly: i miss junie Carly: whatever your on for it gimme some Ali: i'd be creepy and snap him sleeping but no doubt the flash would wake his highness Ali: he misses you too, i'll get him to facetime Carly: aw Carly: go work bitch Carly: i shouldnt kept you this long Ali: don't be daft Ali: queen of multitasking Ali: and not just junie who misses you is it Ali: #massiveLESBIANcrush Carly: my tits are gonna go down Carly: snap me up now Ali: Trying, like Ali: make it facebook official Ali: that'll get the lads attention ey Ali: why else do it Carly: yea Carly: my parents too probs Carly: lapsed catholics Ali: be on the next plane over to get you back on the dick like Ali: i'll get on it #longdistancelesbians Ali: my ex gonna be so mad Carly: mine too Carly: wtf am i gonna do Carly: I dont want him to be an ex Ali: even though he's fucked you over like this? Carly: i fucked him over first Carly: i lied Ali: not really Ali: if anything, you lied to yourself Ali: but you didn't wanna hear it, couldn't Ali: and that makes sense Carly: cant block it out any more Carly: fuck Ali: it gets really real really fast Ali: doesn't it Ali: but you have got this Ali: i've got you, however i can, yeah? Carly: i dont want it to be Carly: i dont want it Carly: i cant do this Ali: okay, that's okay too Ali: but she isn't going to just go Ali: whether it was getting an abortion earlier or what you have to do now Ali: you have to do something Ali: there's no quick fix for it Ali: ana can get you in touch with the right people who will make it as easy as they can for you and her Ali: or my mum Carly: if i leave her she'll get found Carly: why does nobody ever call me back wtf Ali: Yeah but they'll still try to find you Ali: or Drew Ali: and his DNA will be on the system so Ali: and I reckon if they got to him, he'd sell you out Ali: when's the last time you slept? Carly: idk Carly: what day is it Ali: Tuesday Carly: sunday Carly: saturday Carly: idk Ali: fuck girl Ali: you shoulda been banking up on it before Carly: ha Carly: easy fix Carly: need my dealer Ali: not if your gonna be breastfeeding Ali: unless he gonna bring formula too Carly: i can go myself for that Carly: get a car Ali: you getting enough cash in, yeah? Carly: ha no Carly: no student loans for this bitch Ali: you'll have to look into getting help with that Ali: there's funds and shit, i'll find out the info Ali: that or tap Drew up for child maintenance Carly: yea cos hes declaring his earnings Carly: i wish hed talk to me Ali: exactly, bribe him like Ali: he's got a lot to lose Carly: hed never forgive me Carly: i cant Ali: but you can forgive him for all he does? Ali: got it bad honey Carly: yea Carly: its fucked Ali: is there anything he could do to make you stop loving him Carly: idk Carly: why Ali: cos you'd be happier if you didn't Ali: right Ali: like, he treats you like shit Carly: i wasnt happy before Carly: & he hasnt this whole time Carly: it got bad Carly: me too Ali: but you could be Ali: you don't have to give up hope of ever being Ali: and he did for the majority of the time though, that should outweigh the good Carly: with what Carly: this kid Carly: im not you Ali: no Ali: of being happy Ali: with just you Ali: or someone else who treats you better Carly: i dont have a job or friends here and i live in a caravan Carly: not gonna happen Ali: you can get both Ali: you're cool Carly: ha Carly: youre dreaming Carly: fucked the allnighter Ali: i'm not the only one Ali: and why not? Carly: drew says im a junkie Ali: what does he know Ali: and anyway, functioning junkie Ali: shits possible Carly: he knows me Carly: he loved me til i fucked it Ali: you haven't DONE anything Ali: a baby happened to you BOTH Ali: you're both reacting, right or wrong now, whatever Ali: and he probably still does but Ali: love ain't always enough Carly: why are you my friend? Ali: I said, you're cool Ali: funny, smart, nice, you already know i fancy you so no need to kiss arse any more, yeah? Ali: you're SO friendable, babe Carly: shoulda fallen for you Ali: yeah well, the tragedy of being straight and feelings not following logic Ali: sometimes, you gotta fuck feelings tho, do right by yourself Carly: i dont feel anything when he isnt here Carly: nothing happens Carly: cept today Ali: make stuff happen Ali: its only chaos darling Carly: youre not here either Carly: what am i gonna make happen on my own Carly: this shit Carly: idk Ali: what do you wanna make happen Ali: anything, however unlikely you think it is Carly: i want him to come back Carly: my parents too Carly: but none of them are Ali: can't control other people nah but you can do all YOU can to make it happen Ali: what would make him come back? who would he wanna be with? and you can try to talk to your 'rents and tell them what is up...longshot but maybe they don't realise how shitty they're being Carly: they're not Carly: theyre busy Carly: and im not a kid Ali: busy with what? Ali: living it up in spain? Ali: they kept you, you're their kid for life Ali: they don't get to peace at 16, 18 whatever the fuck Carly: they didnt vanish Carly: i know where they are Ali: yeah but they should be here rn Ali: you need them Ali: maybe if you ask, when they answer, they will come back Ali: i'm not slagging on 'em, its just facts Carly: i dont want to go live in spain Carly: fact is theyll try and force me Ali: well, they can't make ya, tell them why you wanna stay here Ali: they could still be supportive Ali: even if they're not physically with you every day like Carly: they wont let me stay for him Ali: okay...make something more parent friendly up then Ali: what they don't know won't hurt 'em Carly: youre so smart Ali: so i've been told Ali: with varying levels of sarcasm Carly: yea Carly: same Ali: You are though Ali: One of the many reasons we get along Carly: youre such a mum Carly: bigging me up like Ali: s'what i do best right Ali: shoulda been a cheerleader, fucking irish schools not letting me shine Carly: thats what schools do best Carly: be shit Ali: true dat Ali: even if my uni is pretty swish Ali: and full of nerds like me Carly: looks it Ali: still, miss the homeland like Carly: switch places Carly: shes crying again what does she want this time Carly: headfuck Ali: think its a bit too early for her to have shat, maybe wee but Ali: probably wanting her next feed Ali: you do it roughly every 2 hours for the first month Carly: ffs Carly: howd you get anything done with 3 of them Ali: ask myself the same question Ali: luckily they're not all on the tit 'cos form an orderly queue lads Carly: not getting my tit out again Ali: its that or formula run to get her to stop crying Carly: i cant put her in the car Carly: she'd fall out Ali: that solves that then honey Ali: get 'em out get 'em out get 'em out Carly: perv Ali: 🤷 Ali: single mum, gotta get my kicks where i can yo Carly: get fucked Carly: not offering Carly: one of the nerds would be up for it Ali: no need to tell me Ali: desperation station Ali: bless 'em Carly: do you go to class with your shoulders and knees out Ali: its boiling here, not even trying to be a shameless hussy Ali: can't be swooning erryday, got places to be, shitty bums to wipe Carly: yea Carly: cant steal that excuse myself Ali: sadly not Ali: can use breastfeeding though Ali: you're just out here feeding ya kid, looking hot as a by-product, fight me world Carly: don't Carly: how is this happening Carly: im looking at her and idk Ali: i can't believe you did it all by yourself Ali: you're a right tough nut Ali: but you don't have to keep doing it alone Carly: but i have to do something Carly: wtf Ali: yeah, keep both of yas alive until you figure out your next step Carly: make it sound simple Ali: 'course Ali: i'll allow you some melodrama but i can't claim hormones as hard Carly: u can Carly: and homesickness Ali: alright, lets have a good sob Carly: this kids done enough Carly: has you beat bitch Ali: rude Ali: already winning fresh out the womb Carly: what you naming it Carly: said you would Ali: you're serious? Carly: idc Ali: probs think on that a bit longer, whether you wanna name her or nah Ali: but my lists be ready don't fret Carly: k