#(it's complicated)

[nell0-0]

I was just having a bit of fun with incorrect quotes stuff and. well-

Look, do I love Fi? Yes.

Do I think Mask would be a tad salty and sensitive about that specific subject? Also yes.

[tangledinink]

What's the twins relationship with Tigerclaw like (I see that warriors reference, I see you)

it's complicated. [ ✩ the gemini ✩ ]

[tealvenetianmask]

More about Blitz and anger . . .

Anger is a super stigmatized emotion. That's for a reason- it's powerful. When we see it from other people it's usually externalized- it's ugly, aggressive, shows up in abusive situations- it sometimes leads to violence. But when we talk about righteous anger, or the anger of marginalized people, we sometimes praise it. That's because anger can be empowering too.

I want to talk about how Blitz's anger, while it's also destructive at times, has empowered him.

Personal note: when I was a kid, I was yelled at frequently by my mother. The house I grew up in was a 60's rancher with a long hallway in the center, and she would chase me down the hallway yelling. As I grew older, I learned to yell back. Feeling anger and externalizing it didn't make the hurt go away, and it didn't solve our problems- it turned us into two people yelling at each other- but it did make me feel less helpless.

So let's look at Blitz as a kid. In addition to guilt tripping him, his father tells him that "there are scarier things," than stealing from a wealthy and (literally) powerful family, and he doesn't disagree. I think this screenshot captures their relationship pretty well.

We see moments of defiance from Blitz though, even as he's very much under Cash's control. Georgia Dow pointed this out in her video about how Blitz learned resilience in his childhood. Here, have some defiant expressions:

Notice Blitz's eyebrows here, mirroring his father. I suspect that as he grew older, Blitz learned to push back harder, to argue, maybe even to yell. He learned to channel his anger- at being used, diminished, devalued (very likely yelled at and probably physically hurt too) into expression, into fight (I don't picture him physically fighting Cash, but the guy has fight in him- of all kinds).

He learned to feel angry at the world and express that too- for treating imps as lower than other demons, for limiting his options in life, for filling the road to success with exploitation (as we see in the Mammon flashbacks with Fizz).

Speaking of that flashback, he's very ready, as a teenager, to express anger exactly when he needs to for the purpose of protecting a loved one.

Fast forward to the present.

Blitz's anger helps him stand up for the people he cares about- see Fizz in the present at Mammon's show but also Moxxie in Spring Broken.

It helps make him good at his job too. When we see him fight, he doesn't tend to seem all out enraged, but he's super determined and all in. He's at home in a conflict. When he's doing his best fighting, we see a mix of the "angry" facial expressions and pure confidence.

Anger also helps him manage a lot of difficult emotions. Disclaimer (and idea I'll get back to soon)- I said manage, not deal with.

When he interacts with Verosika and with Robo Fizz early in season 1, there's genuine underlying pain from how the relationships with Verosika and the real Fizz ended, but he channels that into anger. The anger makes him take action (Good action? Eh. But still action- he's not crying on his couch.) rather than get consumed by more painful emotions. He's able to keep going.

It also gets in his way, even as he uses it as a coping mechanism. Is his anger at Muffy and the Karen in the doctor's office understandable as he's dealing with his frustration about the inaccessibility of healthcare for Loona and his worries about losing Stolas? Yes. Is it helpful? No, probably not.

It isn't useful with Stolas either. Stolas is this person who's kind and beautiful and quirky and able to match his wit, and who Blitz has grown genuine feelings for, but who is also deeply entwined in the unfairness in Hell's society that Blitz has grown to resent throughout his life- AND Stolas unknowingly participates in some very familiar microaggressions himself.

Blitz channels a whole range of complicated emotions- love, fear, despair at the thought that he isn't loved back- all into anger because he HAS been wronged and his world IS unfair, and anger is COMFORTABLE because anger is ACTIVE, and with it he doesn't have to just let things happen to him!

So we end up back here.

[brokentrafficknight]

[probablybadrpgideas]

Maybe the real mimics were the friends we made along the way.

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[the-nothing-maker]

Home is where the heart is

(Alastiel is a vampire lord NPC from @luposlipaphobya's D&D campaign, Une Cour de Chair et de Charme!)

[lukolabrainrot]

I am going to talk about some of my thoughts about why I believe N's behavior changed as the PR tour progressed. I am also going to talk about my thoughts on if L&N ever got "jiggy with it" 😂 I'll try to get to my thoughts on Toronto and Ireland tomorrow.

Before I start though, I want to mention that I am trying to come to my theories/opinions based off of things I have been able to observe, and verified information online. Obviously though, I don't actually know any of these people irl, so I am never going to understand the full story of what is going on between L/N. All of this is just my thoughts and theories on what is going on based on what has been put out to the public. There has been a lot of speculation online about everything, but I am going to try and not give that information too much weight when coming to my conclusions here. I am interested in hearing everyone's thoughts/opinions though, since this story has a lot of moving parts. Just wanted to put this disclaimer out before moving forward with more of my thoughts/theories.

Alright, on to the main course (this is going to be a LONG post btw)...

N on the PR Tour

I want to start off with the following that we know to be fact about N:

She is INCREDIBLY private about her personal life, especially her dating/romantic life (the same isn't/hasn't really been true about L). In fact, I don't believe N has ever publicly come out as being in a relationship with anyone since she entered the entertainment industry/been in the public eye (although I can't 100% confirm this, so please let me know if there are any articles/or something on her SM where she has publicly confirmed she was in a relationship at some point)

She is VERY online, and very careful about controlling her public narrative

She is a naturally touchy and affectionate person with people, but she seems to hold her true feelings a lot closer to her heart, and it seems to me, that she is kind of "on" in public (which is actually an important skillset to have as someone in the entertainment industry because you really need to know how to stay in control of your public narrative--your fans are your livelihood)

She LOVES photography/taking photos (it is one of her love languages I believe)

Now as I mentioned, L was always a lot more of an open book on the PR tour about his feelings for N (refer to my post here). N seemed to be a lot more reserved/gaurded during the tour when it first started in January, but everything shifted in like April when the world tour started. Below are my thoughts:

N started to become a LOT more obvious through her nonverbal cues about her genuine feelings for L as the tour unfolded. I will say that I believe PART of it probably had to do with getting a little "lost in the sauce" with the energy of the tour. However, I think the larger factor was that L & N were pushed together for many months (in close quarters), and were therefore forced to have conversations about their feelings for each other that I think they had been tiptoeing around for quite a while. From what we then saw from like the middle of Italy (I'm an Italy truther), there was more of a confidence, security, and contentment in how they interacted with each other that signaled to me feelings were shared and reciprocated.

Like I mentioned, she is a PR queen and very, very private about this part of her life. Therefore, why would she decide to be so obvious about her feelings on such a public stage when she knows people analyze everything? Well... I believe this is her way of publicly acknowledging their romantic feelings for each other without ACTUALLY publicly acknowledging anything more than "work besties" is going on with them. Which totally makes sense when you think about it because 1) The fandom would LOSE IT rn 2) That would put a LOT of public pressure on them, and I think these feelings they have shared with each other are very new (but had been brewing for a long time), and I don't think they are confident enough to go public. There is also, of course, the A of the whole situation, which L needs to figure out how he wants to move forward with that. TLDR, the situation is very messy, and I think there is a lot that L/N need to process in private regarding each other out of the public eye. I am pretty confident though that this tour put them in a situation to confront, clarify, and establish what their romantic feelings are for each other outside of the show (and they were reciprocated), and they are taking the space right now to explore that privately.    

Lastly, because I really like analyzing photos and N loves taking pictures, let's talk about those "boyfriend pics" of L she posted since the world tour started. Yes, she was promoting the show, but a lot of those pictures (especially recently) have a very specific vibe. She wants the world to see him the way she sees him. She loves that man, clear and simple. He shines around her, and she knows that. I think it’s also especially telling that she posted the most recent boyfriend pic of her last day of filming (which was the most obvious one in my opinion) now that A is publicly connected to L. It was a statement in my opinion, that regardless of all the drama unfolding, her and L have a really deep and meaningful connection that is special to her. I think it also served as a message that we don’t know the full story, which I think is a positive thing for us Lukola fans. Now I can’t predict the future with these two, but I am fairly certain we wouldn’t have been seeing the type of behavior we saw from them on the PR tour, and the types of photos she has been posting of him lately, if they weren’t confident in moving forward with their romantic relationship in the near future (especially since A has been in the picture for quite some time). I think these pics serve as another crumb that they are a little more than just work besties.

One last note, I think the reason our PR queen started slipping up and changing her answers to certain questions on the tour is because SHE WAS REALLY HAPPY WITH HIM. This can be a whole separate post at some point if people are interested, but I am almost certain from everything I have observed regarding N, that she is quite jaded when it comes to finding a romantic partner, and has been hurt in romantic relationships in the past.  I feel like L is the more sweet, hopeless romantic between the two. I think he allowed her to heal some of her relationship wounds. I think there is something about L and the experiences they’ve shared together that has reignited something within N to make her feel more hopeful about having a deep romantic connection while she can still be very independent and successful in her field. And I think it specifically has something to do with who L is when he is with her and how he treats her. I get the impression he has really altered the way she sees certain things related to romantic relationships. My whole point is that I think they both know what they have, and they know that if they can get on the same page, this relationship would get serious pretty quickly. Therefore, even though N is really private with this part of her life, for L, I think she would publicly acknowledge their relationship, but only when/if they are able to get to a point where they feel confident enough that their relationship would be able to withstand the pressures from the public. They just aren't there currently because of all the other confounding factors, but I don't think that necessarily signals where they will be in like 6 to 8 months imo...

Have L/N ever gotten freaky deaky irl?

From before the PR tour, I just don't have enough information to confidently say yes or no. A lot of people have different opinions on this, and some people think they casually dated near the end of filming season 3/sometime last year (but we don't have any proof of that). This is what I will say:

N still follows J (and vice versa I believe, please lmk if I'm wrong?), so I don't think there is any bad blood there. This makes me pretty certain that L/N never acted on any physical feelings for each other until after that relationship was completely over. I do think though that L/N have had a spark for a while (and tbh, I think L has kind of had a thing for N since they met, and his feelings for her have always been stronger). Therefore, this likely played a part in him emotionally distancing from his relationship with J when season 3 started filming, but at the end of the day, we will never know the specicifics of why they decided to part ways. My guess is that there were a lot of reasons that relationship did not end up working out considering how serious that relationship was.

Considering how WILD L/N's sexual chemistry is, it wouldn't surprise me if they hooked up at some point before the PR tour. But considering L was on Raya by February/March 2023 (from my understanding?), and the fact that N was SUPER busy last year and traveling a bunch, I just don't think there was any time for them to have anything more than something super casual/no commitment (if anything). Even if they did maybe hook up some, I don't think they really directly addressed the depth of their feelings for each other, which is why we saw all that behavior between them on the tour, because I don't think any clear boundaries had been put up and their feelings came flooding back.

Now I feel a lot more confident that somethingggg intimate happened at least once between them on the PR tour. Here are my theories:

I don't think things were great between them at the beginning of the tour (like January) because feelings I think started popping up again for these two during the reshoots in December 2023, and then the NYE kiss comes out, and N and L are feeling disconnected and aren't really on the same page about the tour.

I think they had some conversations in private, because by the VDay event, they seemed a lot more on the same page (and L was giving N those total heart eyes). The extra layer is that (I believe?) A accompanied L to the city the event was in (I think NYC?), but even though A was staying with him, L was STILL looking at N like THAT during the event (which I think speaks VOLUMES).

I think though there were a lot of things they still weren't talking about, and everything came to a head when they got to Italy, which is why the vibes were off at first and it seemed like there was tension between them. This also occurred soon after the Instyle stunt, so I feel like N probably had some feelingssss about that.

I have recently been converted to an Italy truther, so I believe that Italy was where L/N finally addressed/readressed some of their feelings for each other, and N was trying to get some clarity on WTH was going on with A, and making sure it wasn't going to mess anything up with the tour. But I think they "kissed and made up" 😉 and got back on the same page. Which is why there was the shift in Italy, and why we saw what we saw for the rest of the tour.

Not sure exactly what happened of course, but I get the feeling something physical happened after they started having some BIG conversations about each other that they had needed to have for a long time (and I think they continued to have these conversations with each other as the tour progressed). Let's also remember that these are two very non-confrontational people, so I feel like there must have been a LOT of pent up feelings/emotions for them to publicly show that they weren't super happy with each other/beefing during the beginning of Italy.

I also definitely think they physically acted on their feelings in Brazil (like they just had the "glow" imo 😂). And the eff me eyes, c'mon. Like Brazil continually reminded me of that New Girl quote "The stench of filth and lust is all over this room." It just seemed pretty obvious to me 😂 Especially considering the events that transpired right after that with A, and between L/N for the rest of the tour.

Lastly, I know a lot of people believe that L/N didn't physically act on their feelings because the tension would go away. However, I actually think it's a good sign that tension is still there, because I think it shows that there is a pretty deep connection between these two, and they are still feeling that pull/sexual energy after having sex. They kind of remind me of like two friends in a friend group who just admitted their true feelings for each other but aren't ready to go public, but are also having crazy good sex, so they are super obvious and can't really hide it when they are together LOL Regardless if they had ever physically acted on their feelings before the tour, I think these experiences (IF they did indeed occur), helped L/N get clarity if their strong feelings and attraction for each other went past the show and their characters. And I personally think they got that clarity 😉

Wowww okay that turned into an essay LOL, but I think the TLDR is that the situation seems very complicated right now, and I think there is a lot that L/N are needing to figure out in private. But I don't think that negates or invalidates what we saw between them on the PR tour, or that they were "faking" their feelings. Human beings are messy and imperfect, and that is okay. I think the part that still really confuses me is the whole A of the situation, because I just can't wrap my head around it. I would love to hear other people's opinions though on how she factors into all this, so if you have theories/questions you would like to add to that discussion, drop them in my asks. Because I have thoughtssss 😂

[megalony]

It's Complicated

After so many requests and so much amazing feedback for my last series, I've decided to make a new Evan Buckley series. This is based on a few different requests I've merged together and will have a lot of fluff and angst. Any feedback would be brilliant.

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Summary: Things start to get tricky when Evan falls in love with his best friend's sister. It causes complications within the team. And things only start to get worse when an accident occurs.

Enjoy.

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Evan let himself slump down until his weight was resting on his knees and his forearms that were dented into the mattress either side of (Y/n)'s shoulders. The uneven distribution made him feel like he was at the gym trying to do the plank position, but he couldn't drop his weight down when (Y/n) was laid beneath him. He would crush her.

He could feel the sweat trickling down the back of his neck towards his shoulder blades and he knew his skin was starting to turn blotched red and flushed. The heat was radiating off him as his chest heaved up and down, constantly merging with (Y/n)'s rapid breathing.

A dazed smile spread across (Y/n)'s lips while she moved her hand higher up the back of his neck and slowly tangled in the short curls at the back of his head. She could feel his head burying into the side of her neck causing his hair to tickle her cheek and make her squirm beneath him. He was kissing the hickeys he had just bitten deeply up and down her neck a few minutes ago. And when he kissed a particularly sensitive mark, (Y/n) gave asharp tug on his curls just to feel him groan breathlessly into her neck.

His hips were pressed crushingly down on hers, their groins mashed together while (Y/n) tensed her thighs to squeeze Evan's legs that were resting between hers. His broad frame squished between her legs caused her hips to bend to the sides to accommodate him.

"You're gonna make me late, I should have been up ten minutes ago," (Y/n) whispered and her smile turned into a grin when Evan laughed into her neck. She loved the sound of his laugh. She didn't want to leave. She wanted to stay right here with Evan laid on top of her, pinning her down for the whole day, preventing her from leaving him and his intoxicating kisses that he was now peppering along her jaw.

If it was her choice, they would stay here in bed all day with no interruptions or work to get in the way.

But they both knew (Y/n) couldn't be late for work again, especially when it was only a morning shift she had to do today while Evan was at work in the afternoon.

"Hmm, I want you to stay here with me." Evan kissed along her jaw until he was hovering over her enough to reach up and peck her lips, gently at first. Then again and again until he was pushing her down into the pillow, devouring her lips like they were the air he needed to breathe.

"I have to get up," (Y/n) groaned against his lips when he rutted his hips down into hers and he took her lower lip between his teeth. Her hands moved round from his neck to cup his face and her thumbs brushed across his sharp cheekbones. She pressed a quick, simple kiss to his lips before she attempted to push up against him but it didn't work.

Evan tensed his bare chest and leaned down, effortlessly pushing her back down beneath him where he wanted her.

"Can't you spare another ten minutes for me, baby? I'll make it worth your while."

He let his weight lean on his left forearm so his right hand could slither down (Y/n)'s side and grip the underside of her thigh. Surely she could spend another few minutes in bed with him before she had to get ready and head to work. For once, he didn't have to get up yet and he was wide awake when normally he was sleeping until noon after a long shift.

"I've given you ten extra minutes, Buckley, I can't spare you any more." Coiling her leg higher, (Y/n) smacked her foot down on his backside and curled her arms tighter around his neck, doing her best to try and push him back so she could sit up.

It worked this time, but not like she hoped. Evan kept a tight hold of her thigh and he leaned up so he could sink back on his heels, pulling (Y/n) with him as his other arm curved around her lower waist. He pinned their chests together and dug his fingertips into her thigh until she got the hint and wrapped her legs around his hips, clinging to his front.

(Y/n) tilted her head to the side before she leaned closer and attached her lips to his sharp jaw. She sucked and bit down until she could feel him practically shaking against her, growling her name through gritted teeth while his hand slithered up from her thigh to cup her bum.

Evan was breathless and on the verge of stuttering when he felt her kiss and nip down his throat, something she knew made him putty in her hands.

"Let me get to work on time baby, and you can have me in bed for the whole day tomorrow," Bargaining was the only thing (Y/n) thought would work to get her partner to let her get up. He would be working this afternoon and into the night, finishing early in the morning and that usually meant Evan spent the morning in bed to recuperate. She would join him for the day and let him pin her to the mattress for as long as he wanted if he didn't make her late today.

(Y/n) squeaked when she felt his short nails puncturing into her bum and his other hand moved to cup the back of her neck. He tilted her head up so she could no longer kiss his throat and hovered his lips half an inch away from hers. There was something devilish and daring in his eyes, it made her unsure whether he was going to agree or throw her down on the bed for round three.

She knew the answer when his hands moved to hold her differently. One pinned to the middle of her back to keep her steady on his hips while his other hand drifted from her bum to hover between her legs.

(Y/n) had never heard him growl so deeply as he did when the doorbell sounded, along with a few knocks at the front door.

"Baby," She whispered against his lips, moving her hand to cup his jaw when he didn't set her down.

"Leave it, they'll call back later," His lips barely touched hers before (Y/n) unhooked her legs from his hips and managed to shuffle off his thighs and flop back onto the bed. She leaned up on her hands, a devilish grin on her face while she silently tilted her head towards the stairs.

No one knew she had moved in with Evan yet so the chances of the person at the door being there to see (Y/n) were zero. They hadn't even told Eddie they were in a relationship yet, let alone tell him that his little sister had moved in with his best friend who she had been sleeping with for a few months now.

"Where do you think you're going?"

Shivers bolted up and down (Y/n)'s spine and a pleasurable thrill like ecstasy thundered through her blood when Evan's low voice hit her ears. Within seconds, his large hands dug into the bare flesh of her thighs and with a sharp tug, Evan yanked her across the bed. When she fell on her back, he thought she looked like an angel with her hair fanned across the mattress like a golden halo and her smooth, bare skin exposed for him to take in and possess.

His eyes rolled and his smirk turned into a grimace when another round of knocking sounded at the door.

"Go answer the door, with any luck I might still be laid here when you come back." She whispered breathlessly, closing her eyes when Evan kissed her and sucked her lower lip between his teeth.

"That's a good girl,"

Stars swirled in front of (Y/n)'s eyes and pins and needles rattled through her blood as she watched Evan like she was put under a spell. Her lower lip caught between her teeth and she leaned up on her elbow to get a better view.

He hastily threw on his underwear and shimmied into his sleep shorts, trying to mess with them and tug them higher to make the tent in his pants less obvious. He didn't bother with a shirt, there was no time when another rough knock banged at the door and Evan turned and hurried down the stairs which were cold and rough against his bare feet.

"Keys," He muttered to himself, looking around until he found (Y/n)'s keychain and unlocked the front door to see who had disturbed them this morning. Evan knew if he wasn't quick, by the time he got back upstairs (Y/n) would already be dressed and ready to leave for work.

His jaw went slack and his dopey smile morphed into a passive look when he opened the door and saw Eddie and Chris on the other side.

"Morning," He gasped, opening the door wider to let Chris toddle in and make his way to the sofa like he always did whenever he came round. He watched Eddie smile, look him up and down and change his smile to bite his lip when he took in Evan's ragged appearance. He had clearly disturbed something.

"Hey… I'm on the morning shift, you're on the afternoon one… we did say you'd be good to drop him at school in an hour, didn't we?" Eddie took a few steps into the apartment so Evan could close the door. Carla was out of town for two weeks and (Y/n) and Evan had both offered to help with Chris. Evan had said he was fine to drop Chris at school when he was off in the mornings.

He forgot that was happening today.

"Yes, yes we did, I just need to get a shower and I'm ready." He planted his hands down on his hips and smiled at his friend.

"Great, thanks. You having a sort out?" Eddie moved his hand to gesture to the few boxes piled up near the back wall of the lounge.

"Yeah, tidying up some old crap,"

Those were (Y/n)'s things.

"Rather you than me," Eddie stuffed a hand into his pocket and advanced over to the sofa where Chris was already sat watching cartoons. He leaned over the back of the sofa to kiss the top of his son's head. "Alright Chris, I'll love you and leave you with uncle Buck and I'll see you later."

"Bye dad,"

"I just need the toilet before I head out," Eddie pointed to the stairs and was already climbing up them before Evan registered what he said and what that meant.

"No!"

Evan bolted towards the stairs and clambered up, cringing when he heard Eddie laugh in confusion and turn to look back over his shoulder. He'd gone to the bathroom millions of times here in Evan's place, he knew where it was and any mess wasn't going to surprise him. He couldn't imagine the toilet was broken either because Evan was a dab hand at fixing things, if something was broken it would already be fixed by now.

"Jeez, Buck what's up with you this mo-"

Eddie trailed off when something caught his eye and before he could stop himself, his head turned to the left towards the bed beneath the window. His smile disappeared, his jaw tightened like guitar strings and his lips curled up in distaste and anger.

(Y/n).

His little sister.

Panic, pain and terror rumbled through (Y/n)'s body along with adrenaline that made her sure she was about to be sick. Her trembling hands pulled the cover higher up until it was tucked beneath her chin; the last thing she needed was for her brother to find out like this and see her naked in the process. She couldn't hide herself beneath the cover quick enough before her brother saw her. They had been caught out.

Tears were already falling down (Y/n)'s gface before she could stop herself and when she tried to reach a hand out to grab her brother, he waved a hand at her like he was dismissing her and turned his body away from her.

He wasn't risking seeing something else he shouldn't and he had no words for either of them. Nothing that was nice, anyway.

How could they keep this from him?

How could Evan sleep with his little sister when Eddie told him she was off limits the moment he saw Evan drooling over her when they first met. He explicitely told Evan that (Y/n) was younger than him, she was Eddie's closest family and she meant the world to him. He couldn't have them both getting involved with each other and things going wrong leaving his two best friends torn apart with him in the middle of the madness.

Evan didn't have the best track record with girlfriends and relationships and Eddie didn't want (Y/n) mixed up in that mess.

"Eddie let me explain," Evan held a hand out in front of him but he wasn't sure what he was trying to do or how he was going to explain this away.

"Don't bother. I don't want the details of what you've been doing with my sister."

His stomach churned when Eddie shook his head and barged his shoulder into Evan's chest, pushing him back into the wall so he could storm past and leave them both behind him. He wasn't arguing about this now. He had to go to work. Chris was downstairs and would hear anything they said. He wasn't in the right mindframe for this madness.

When the front door slammed, (Y/n) shuddered and coiled in on herself, covering her face with her hands. She didn't dare look up when Evan slumped down on the side of the bed and curled a gentle hand around her knee.

"Oh, fuck."

***

"Eddie please listen to me. I want- I need, to talk to you so you can't keep avoiding me." Desperation clawed at Evan's voice as he hurried out the locker room and followed Eddie into the main area of the station.

Since he'd come on shift all Eddie had done was glare and walk away from him, but Evan could talk forever and Eddie was going to have to listen to him at some point. He didn't answer Evan's calls this morning, he wouldn't talk to (Y/n) either who had been in a state when she left for work. He couldn't ignore them if they weren't going to stop asking to talk.

"Leave me alone Buck." Eddie didn't break his stride but he did claw his arm out of Evan's grasp and pull back when Evan moved to stand in front of the stairs, blocking his way to the annex.

"Let me talk and then I will. (Y/n)'s going out her mind because you won't answer her calls."

"Don't use her to guilt-trip me. Move." He didn't wait for Evan to take a side step, he roughly pushed past him like he had done this morning and headed upstairs. It was time for a strong coffee and maybe being around the rest of the team would stop Evan from trying to talk his ear off when he didn't want to listen.

He would speak to them both when he was good and ready.

"Eddie!"

Stopping in his tracks, Eddie clenched his hands into fists at his sides and closed his eyes, trying to take a deep, calming breath. He could feel all the eyes on them and he could sense how close Evan was behind him, desperate to make a scene so there would be no choice but to air out the tension.

"Alright, what's going on?" Bobby put his hands on his hips and looked at the two of them with a raised brow.

He had felt the thick tension ever since Evan turned up for shift this afternoon. Eddie had avoided him on their first callout and since then, neither of them were taking and it was creating tension.

"Eddie just let me explain-"

"You don't have to explain, Buck. I know what it means when I find my sister in your bed! My fucking sister."

A groan tumbled past Evan's lips and he threw his arms out at his sides, tilting his head back until it felt like his neck was going to snap. Why was he making this a scene? Evan wasn't causing a scene, sure he was following his friend around like a lost puppy, but he wasn't shouting or screaming or telling the whole team why they were in an argument. That wasn't fair, but Evan knew he probably deserved it nonetheless.

"That's who you've been seeing? (Y/n)?"

Anger crossed Evan's face and he shook his head at Chimney who didn't quite know what he was walking into.

He and Maddie knew Evan had found himself a new partner, they had seen how happy he was lately. Maddie probed until Evan cracked and said he was going out on a date or that he was staying in with a certain someone. She and Chimney were happy for him, they could see how Evan's mood had lifted recently and how much brighter he seemed. He was a lot better in himself since he'd been seeing someone.

The only worrying thing was that Evan wouldn't tell them her name. He said he was waiting for the right time to introduce her but Maddie was worried why she couldn't know the girl's name. Now Chimney could see why.

"Yeah, little Buckaroo here has been going behind my back seeing my sister without telling me."

"But you told Maddie she's moved in with you-"

Evan's lips purse and his face turned a pale shade of grey when he saw Eddie's face inflame bright red and his eyes almost popped out from their sockets.

"Come again?"

Why? Why did Chimney have to make things worse? This wasn't his battle or his argument, this wasn't anything to do with him. Evan had asked (Y/n) to move in because she was always round his place anyway and he wanted to be around her as much as he could. But it only made things worse that they hadn't told Eddie yet and Evan wouldn't let his sister meet his girlfriend who was already moving into his apartment.

They just wanted to spend time being a couple, being together and being with each other before their relationship became something more and everyone else knew. Once the team- and Eddie- knew, dynamics would change. Dates would morph, they would spend more time together with the team around and go out on days out with the team. It wasn't a bad thing, but they wanted to be a couple first before they progressed into the 118 family together.

"The boxes… (Y/n)'s just moved in with me," Evan's hands fell to his hips and he jutted one leg out like he was tempted to bolt into a run and leave. This wasn't how they wanted to tell Eddie everything. They wanted to have him round for dinner and break things to him and Chris gently.

(Y/n) hadn't told their parents yet that she had met someone. Once they found out she was dating a fireman, someone Eddie worked with, their hassling questions would be relentless. Their dad wasn't the easiest person to get along with.

"Anything else I don't know about, Buck?"

"Eddie come on!"

"Your sleeping with my sister and now you're telling me she's moved in with you and no one's told me! What else did you forget to mention when you've seen me almost every bloody day, hm? Is she pregnant too? Have you cemented yourself in my family for good-"

Eddie paused mid-rant, narrowing his eyes as his head tilted to the side when he watched Evan's sudden change.

He was no longer stood in front of Eddie with his hands on his hips or one hand stretched out to try and calm Eddie down. He wasn't stood close to Eddie anymore, desperate to reach out and calm him down and explain his side of the story.

Evan had taken three steps back towards Bobby as if he needed some sort of protection and his pale grey complexion was now almost pure white. But it was Evan's eyes that made Eddie uneasy. They were blown wide, pupils taking over almost every inch of blue in his iris and a sheen of sweat layered on his forehead. His lips parted but he didn't say anything, instead he dropped his arms at his sides and slumped his shoulders down which made him look like he had shrunk three inches.

He hadn't?

No, there was no way Evan had done that… had he?

Oh no.

It was as if the whole station suddenly came to a standstill, no one daring to move an inch or let out a single breath. Even Bobby couldn't find it in himself to step in and break up the tension. He had his hand stretched out, almost reaching Evan's shoulder but he paused when Eddie's upper lip curled into a snarl and if he could, steam would have been billowing from his ears.

Chimney felt like moving would get him shot down, but he couldn't stop his eyes from darting to the left to look at Hen. If this situation had gone in any other direction, the two paramedics would have been laughing. They would be holding their stomachs, gasping for the breath at the whole situation.

It was comical that Evan was in a secret relationship with his best friend's sister, had gotten her to move in with him and now seemingly had gotten her pregnant. All under Eddie's nose.

But Eddie's reaction stopped anyone from laughing, smiling, whooping or making one single comment.

"Eddie, I- I'm sorry-"

"You will be."

Evan barely managed to bring his arms up in defence before Eddie was in front of him. He fisted Evan's shirt in his tight grip, grabbing him by the shoulders and before anyone could stop him, he threw him on the table.

If it had been anyone else, Evan would have defended himself. He would have thrown a fist at their face, brought a knee up to their groin and tossed them on the floor without breaking into a sweat. He'd gotten in enough bar scrapes over the years and had done enough sparring to know how to stop a fight before it managed to start. But he couldn't fight Eddie. Evan wouldn't throw one punch at him.

He was the closest person to Evan, he was like a brother to him and knew every dark part of Evan's mind and he was (Y/n)'s brother. Evan wouldn't start a fight with someone he thought of as his own family and someone who was close to (Y/n). It wouldn't be fair.

Instead of throwing his fists, Evan kept his arms deadlocked like iron bars in front of his upper chest and face, blocking any punch Eddie tried to throw at him.

His shoulders stung and twinged uncontrollably when his back hit the table and it sent his nerves bursting with pain down his spine. And when his head slammed back and bounced off the wooden table, he had to close his eyes when stars flooded his vision and made him feel like he had received whiplash.

Eddie managed to land one punch to the side of Evan's ribs before his arms were pinned behind his back and he was forcibly thrown down onto the floor, landing on his backside with a thud.

"You bastard!"

A groan tumbled past Evan's lips and he slammed his left foot down to the floor to try and steady himself on the table so he didn't slide down to the floor. His arms flopped down at his sides and he took five deep, ragged breaths before hands slipped beneath his arms and pulled him up until he was sitting upright on the table, swaying forward unsteadily.

"Buck, you okay?" Chimney whipped the light from his pocket and flicked it in front of both Evan's eyes to check his pupilary response while he pressed a hand to his back and felt his breathing.

"I'm good," He waved a hand out, dismissing Chimney's medical assessment he didn't need. He'd only gotten a blood rush and a few bruises, he would be fine. One hand stayed clamped around the edge of the dining table to keep himself upright while his other hand moved to cradle the back of his neck while he hung his head down and sighed.

He deserved more than a few bruises.

He deserved any and all fury that Eddie could throw his way. Being with (Y/n) wasn't a mistake and it wasn't something Evan would ever regret, but he regretted sneaking around. It was his idea in the first place. He didn't want to make things awkward or upset Eddie, he knew how much family meant to his best friend and how protective he was over them all.

Evan being with (Y/n) was going to unsettle Eddie and make him worried. He thought of Evan as a brother and if anything went wrong between Evan and (Y/n), it would put Eddie and Chris in the middle and that wouldn't be fair. It compromised things for them both. It meant there were two people (Y/n) had to worry about when they went to work, it meant they would have to watch each other's back even more because they both had (Y/n) in the back of their minds. Desperate to keep the other safe for her.

Eddie was more upset at not being told than Evan actually being with (Y/n); in the space of an hour he learned his best friend was sleeping with his sister, had let her move in with him. And now he'd gotten her pregnant too. It was too much to take in.

"We wanted to tell you properly-"

"Buck, leave it. Eddie go take ten and simmer down. You're both lucky I'm not writing this up." With a rough hand on Eddie's shoulder, Bobby nudged him and pointed in the direction of the stairs.

They needed to be apart for a while and cool down, they were both on shift and they couldn't do their jobs properly if they were arguing with each other and starting fights. And as much as Evan wanted to explain because he couldn't let things lie, he had to wait a while.

Eddie shrugged off Bobby and Ravi and stumbled to his feet, sending one last glare over at Evan before he thundered out of the annex, down the stairs.

"Is she really pregnant?" Chimney kept his voice quiet as if Eddie would still be able to hear them from such a distance. He wasn't trying to be rude or gather gossip but he was intrigued. If she was, then he knew Evan would have been planning some special way to tell Maddie she was going to be an auntie. This was something Evan would be boasting and proud of and excited like a little kid.

Saying nothing, Evan dropped his hands to his lap and nodded while he kept his eyes on his hands.

(Y/n) had barely been moved in two weeks before they found out she was pregnant. It wasn't planned but it wasn't unwanted either, Evan wanted this more than anything in the world. He had only been with (Y/n) for a few months but he already knew he loved her and a baby was like a dream for Evan.

"Congratulations," With a gentle pat to Evan's shoulder, Chimney gave him a lasting smile before he headed over to the kitchen to make everyone a drink. If they weren't on shift, they would all have been on the whiskey by now.

Evan barely lifted his head up before he dropped his eyes back down to his clasped hands when Bobby stood in front of him. He wasn't up for a lecture, he knew what he had done wrong and how he could have changed the situation. And Evan certainly didn't want to hear Bobby telling him off, he thought of the Captain as his dad and he hated disappointing him in any way.

"Buck, come on, I'm the last person who's going to judge or comment here." Bobby waited with his hands on his hips until Evan finally looked up at him with deep, watering eyes and his lips pressed into a thin line. "All I'm going to say is give Eddie time to cool down, then you've got five minutes to explain before I want you both back on shift with a truce. Whatever's happened, it can be sorted out tonight when you both go home."

"I don't think he'll forgive me for this,"

"Yes he will. If you and (Y/n) are happy, he won't stay mad at you for long."

His words of wisdom calmed down a small storm raging within Evan, but he still felt like he was going to be sick.

This wasn't how they were supposed to tell him.

[velnna]

i think staeve's ref sheet being him in camp would be perfect !! if you wanted to go that far, you could even show what his tent might look like sort of like those old school inside-of-bag ref sheets!

Haha yeah I think I might play around with something like that! And on that note I'm pleased to announce that after frankensteining two different OC backstories into one with Staeve as the final piece of the puzzle, he now has A Backstory.

In case anyone remembers Nita, my artillerist tiefling who needed a redesign for a guest appearance in ThUG. Rejoice they're now siblings

[lunameimei]

- Simon?

part 1?

upd [2]: More posts with my arts/headcanons about Ice Queen (Icelynn Quinzel)

[etrevil]

[pianokantzart]

A silly thought, but what if...

[pricstlys]

“A little conversation between two exes who were trying to get their way back to each other's arms? trying to patch things up– in an intimate yet quite mild angsty conversation.”

ok ok just to add a little more sprinkles to @melospace's au idea for jane (it's complicated) x jules (the intern), since both of the films are from nancy mayers, the total idea isn't really hard to imagine, hence, editing these scenes looks like it came out straight from an actual movie. i could really imagine this one to mirandy. if only i could manip the hair of meryl here and make it silver it would be great tho im not that great.

[brokentrafficknight]

Cinder introducing [Cinder ship of your choice] to the Wholesome AU Arkos parents?

Summer: *Casually sipping tea because Cindy introduced her to them first as a practice run* I should record this...

[bullshitcharacterssay]

Ice: If we don’t get out of this alive… If we’re both about to die… I love you, Mav!

*Neither of them die*

Mav: …

Ice: …

Mav: So do you wanna talk about somethi-

Ice: No thank you.

[farshootergotme]

When Bruce is trying to be a good parent but he keeps messing up but he loves his children so much but he doesn't know how to show it but they understand even if he doesn't show it but they also don't know if they really have a place in the family but he tries to make them come back because they will always be his family but-