#(idk we'll see most i can do with this idea tonight is like)

[juniperdugong]

Photobooth - Wonwoo

WC: 2.8k || Genre: Fluff, Angst (?) || Ooo they crushing on each other

A/N: We'll call this a late bday present for him lol lotsa fluff, is this also angst? Idk. This is the song I had on repeat writing this, Imagine it during the climax

You and Wonwoo had hung around the same people for a while, your friend groups slowly merging before you could comprehend it. So it wasn't exactly a surprise that you'd see him here tonight but you're trying your best not to look in his direction all the same.

You guys haven't talked much... or really at all without someone else in the group being there. It's a given seeing as you're both on the introverted side anyway.

Over time you've grown to welcome seeing his face at a party or in a crowd and you've developed a little bit of a crush, one that you definitely did not mean to create. But really who could blame you?

It was Wonwoo. And the way his messy hair hung so perfectly over his face. How his glasses would fog up on occasion. And god... the way he'd lift his shirt up just a tad to wipe them. You might be insane for the thought but there's no way someone that attractive isn't getting gawked at 24/7, like clockwork.

And that's exactly what you're trying to hide as he sits across the table from you. You're drinking more than you had before he got here and you can feel the heat in your face as the buzz sets in. You've been avoiding his eyes as best you can, but you can't help noticing that he's been looking at you very intently since he sat down.

Wonwoo's been nursing a beer for the past 30 minutes, his face still slightly red from the pregame he and the boys did at the previous bar. Now he's sat in front of you. Purposefully he had pushed Dokeyom out of the way to get this seat but now that he was here he had zero idea of how to approach you. He's been trying to catch your eye the entire time but you haven't looked his way once. He goes to speak but is interrupted.

"Guys! I have a great idea!" Your friend stands up to address the table, the fact that most of you are completely out of it only makes it so that several people are cheering her on the moment she rises. "Let's go to a photo booth shop!"

In minutes someone's already handled the bill; No one cares to ask questions this far into the night. And your posse is perusing the streets looking like a bunch of fucked up college students; Not exactly wrong but not right either.

You're hanging back in the pack like you usually do. The cold air hitting your warm face feels so good that you have to close your eyes to take in the feeling. "Hey." You're startled from your daze as you see Wonwoo pull back and wait for you to catch up to him, "The night air?"

"Yeah, feels nice." The silence grows between you two as you continue walking side by side. Neither of you can tell if the heat you're feeling is from the drinks or from the intense blush you feel coming on but both of you are glad that tonight is breezy, the air serving to calm down some nerves. The last time you were alone was that night.

Not too dissimilar from tonight actually. A bunch of your friends were hanging out at a camping-themed cafe where you could sit around a fireplace. Due to how many of you there were several campfires were taken up.

You and Wonwoo sat a few chairs away from each other, by coincidence you had ended up in this smaller group as a close friend also sat here. It didn't take long for either of you to notice the other. Small glances back and forth and flickering smiles when you caught each other's eye.

Somewhere along the way, almost everyone got up to go and order more food, and as people trickled over to the counter you and Wonwoo were eventually left alone.

The tension was thick with unspoken attraction and you were both waiting for the other to make any moves. Finally, with a lump caught in his throat, Wonwoo got up and sat in the chair next to you. "Y/n, right?" You gave a little nod and chuckled, "Yeah and you're Wonwoo?". "Yep, exactly right."

You guys kept talking and talking the entire night, the conversation never dipping into silence or awkwardness, it felt like you could be here forever and never get bored. It all seemed to come naturally with Wonwoo.

Even once your friends came back the chatting didn't stop. Some of them eye the way you guys had gotten close within a matter of minutes, smirks as they could see the connection forming before their eyes. The way that with each new topic, you guys somehow managed to get physically closer. Scooting your chair to hear him better. Wonwoo leaning in subconsciously as you ramble. Both of you are practically knee to knee by the end of it.

More and more of your group dispersed as it got later in the night but you both were too enthralled in conversation to notice anyone had left until it had gotten dark.

"It was nice talking, y/n." The way the moonlight and campfire gleaned on him made your heart race.

"Yeah, I had a lot of fun Wonwoo." His cheeks hurt from smiling so much and his chest burned whenever anything so much as a smirk was on your lips.

"I'll see you around?" You hoped he was talking sooner rather than later.

"Of course!" He held onto those words like a promise.

It wasn't until you both had gotten into your cars that you realized that you didn't get each other's numbers. Shit!

It's been months since then. You've seen each other at other hangouts but neither of you had the guts to talk to the other again. Something ate at the confidence you had that night and you haven't been able to look him in the eye since. You'd never thought that you'd have a crush this intense at your age but something about Wonwoo made you feel like a highschooler again.

And he's been the same way, although a bit more direct than you. Every time he's seen you since then he'd try to get closer to you, at least be near you to quench his thirsty lovesick heart with your voice... Even if it's not directed towards him. Just staring at you made him flutter, honestly. He's been festering on these feelings for a while, even since before that night if he was being honest, but every time after that his tongue hasn't been able to form coherent sentences around you. It's like a curse.

A curse that it seems some alcohol can quell, at least for a little bit.

"We haven't talked much, have we?" He starts, the shop is just around the corner yet right now he prayed that it was miles away so he could take his time.

"Nah, we haven't. Not since..."

"Not since the campfire?"

"Yeah."

"Hey! You two! Get inside!" A quaint smile forms on your lips as someone yells for you to hurry up. Wonwoo gives a small chuckle but bites his lip to suppress the touch of anger rising now that your conversation has been cut short.

As you get in you can already see that everyone takes charge in claiming different accessories and filing into photo booths in small groups. You didn't really feel up to taking photos, far too heated from Wonwoo's company from before. Looking around, you spot some fun sunglasses shaped like daisies. They were good enough for photos and who knows? Maybe sober you will like the outcome.

After grabbing the sunglasses you dip into an empty booth and begin going through all the different styles. You're slightly hiccuping and now you can definitely feel the alcohol kicking in.

"You mind?" You'd just settled on the only appealing style out of your choices, one obviously meant for couples, one surrounded by red and pink hearts. Of course, Wonwoo had to interrupt. You have half the mind to tell him you do mind jokingly but you're too swayed by him to joke right now, "Not at all."

Now you're sat squished up in the booth with him. The flush on your face could be explained by the drinks but it's more than likely getting redder due to Wonwoo's presence.

"Sorry, all the others were taken and I didn't want to be left out." An excuse, he'd seen you come in here and he was eager to talk to you again. Alcohol really did wonders for confidence.

"It's fine, really." You smiled a bit in his direction and suddenly his heart is thumping like a rabbit's foot. "I don't even like taking photos..."

"Why not?"

"I never like how they come out."

Impossible, you're like the most beautiful person in the world, y/n. He can't even begin to comprehend your way of thinking. You were the most stunning thing in his field of view whenever you were around, how could pictures with you in them ever turn out bad?

"What?" Fuck Did he say that out loud?

"What?"

"Did you just *hiccup* call me beautiful? Wonwoo."

"I don't know." His eyes are wide and suddenly he feels as sober as a dog. He feigns innocence with a confused stare in your direction and thankfully your drunkenness takes him for his word.

"Wonwoo..." A numbness came over you that allowed for words to spill.

"Yeah, y/n?"

"I think I really like you." Great. Now he's sure he's completely sober. He turns to you, the sunglasses hiding your drowsy eyes as you lean against the side of the booth. And he's not even sure if you'll remember saying this. Great!

"You mean that?" Please say yes.

"Mean what?" You're completely out of it and he can see it, as quickly as he resigns to you forgetting what you said you speak again, "That I like you? I do mean that."

His jaw drops and he isn't sure what to do. Does he run away and grab one of the accessories that will cover the intense heat on his face? No, he doesn't want to leave you. Does he tell you he likes you back? No, that's in vain you're already not all here. Well, you are in a photo booth... He presses the START button.

"Will you be mad if I kiss you right now, y/n?"

You look at him with glazed-over doe eyes, letting the sunglasses slip off your face and fall to the floor. You didn't know if this was some sort of sick joke, a hallucination fueled by the copious amounts of alcohol in your system, or worse a drunken mistake on his part. But it was too sudden a question for you to process the options in this state.

3...2...1...Say Cheese!

"Sorry, I shouldn't have asked-" He opens the curtain to the photo booth and is ready to get up. This was a bad idea. Nothing you said should mean anything to him but it doesn't keep from the pang of disappointment he feels. Suddenly your hand is gripping his wrist telling him to stay seated, and he does.

3...2...1...Give the Camera a wink!

Both of your hearts are racing. The tension of the moment suffocates you guys but you're too caught up to notice the heaving of your breaths. You grab his face with both your hands, trying your hardest to focus on just him. Your stupor makes it extremely hard but you persist with the small amount of soberness in your body.

It takes far too long for either of you to realize as your lips press together. The shock of plush lips lights you ablaze, it's as if someone held a flame to all the booze coursing through you. You're too far gone to know that you're the one that had leaned into him and not the other way around.

3...2...1...Blast off!

If Wonwoo's eyes could pop out of his skull they would. He's nearly out of the frame of the camera as you push up against him. Your brows furrow as you close your eyes getting more into the kiss and now he's feeling awkward with his eyes wide open. He thinks your focus might just be the cutest thing he's ever seen. God, you are all he wanted, huh? A smile creeps up on his lips before he lifts his glasses and deepens the kiss, placing a hand on the small of your back and using the other to gently wrap around the back of your neck.

3...2...1...Silly Faces!

Maybe it's all the drinks but both of you swear that the other's taste is addictive. Your hands travel from his face and down his neck, pulling him in impossibly closer. You're both hungry for each other, if any of the others saw it'd probably look like borderline cannabilism with how animalistic you were going at it. Mouths trying to trace the memory of each other onto the walls of your cheeks.

It was sensual yet innocent, any trace of lust replaced with an intense passion and love. You can vividly imagine the many kisses that you could share with Wonwoo in your lifetime. Pecks on the cheek, goodbye kisses as you leave the house, intense makeout sessions, all of it. All the little quiet moments of intimacy to the burning giant gestures of love, everything with Wonwoo. It's the only sober thought you think you've had all night.

3...2...1...Big Smile!

You release him from your grip, letting your hands rest on his shoulders. Wonwoo's arms hold you in place but loosen ever so slightly. Foreheads resting on each other you just take a minute to take it in. You let your eyes open and meet his, you feel his glasses fall on between you two.

"Sorry." You say as you back away, allowing his glasses to drop back down fully.

The silence is deafening. Outside you can hear as the rest of the group giggles and chatters on, oblivious to what's just happened. You wipe your mouth as you feel a slickness on your lips, your combined spit coating you both.

You're a lot more aware now. The kiss sobering you enough to maybe be able to remember this in the morning but you weren't confident in that thought.

While you're getting that realization Wonwoo's taken the liberty of doing the finishing steps on the photos. Printing 2 copies for each of you and inserting his own email when it asks him if he wants a video of the photo-taking process. Thankfully you weren't looking when he did that, hopefully, he can show you the video at a better time and you can reminisce on your first kiss.

You startle him as you stand up. A solemn look on your face at the thought of all of this being gone by tomorrow. You really wish you didn't drink tonight. That Wonwoo hadn't sat in front of you. That he hadn't stared at you with those eyes, the ones that made you so nervous that you had to chug drink after drink to just get a modicum of confidence. You wish that what happened in the booth had happened not because you were drunk but because you were ready.

He sees the look and wants to say something... anything if it'll make you feel better. He knows all too well that that look meant that you were regretting things.

You reach out to him, cupping his face in one of your hands and swiping at his cheek with your thumb before he can say anything. Biting your lip you look at him, the feelings are all too overwhelming right now.

"Hey Wonwoo, if you remember this in the morning... remind me of it so we can do it when we're sober sometime, yeah?"

With a slight nod, he leaned into your hand and gave a lingering kiss to your palm before watching you open the curtain and walk away. His eyes stayed glued on you through the window of the shop until the moment your taxi came. A hollow feeling overcoming him as the drunkenness sets in again, although he couldn't quite decipher if this down came from the drinks or from the pure ecstasy you gave and so quickly took away, maybe both.

He walked out of the shop, a group of high-schoolers giggling in merriment as they picked out their accessories and got into their booths. The thought of wherever his friends were was purely background noise at this point.

Getting out and into the cold air he stood with his back against the glass, clutching the photo strips in one hand and his phone in the other, he set an alarm.

"Remind y/n".

A/N: I really really fucking like this one guys, smiling throughout the whole writing process. Also lovelies, for those of you reading Perfection pls know that the upcoming chapter has been delayed till next Saturday! Please reblog and comment your thoughts and as always my asks are open to any and all thoughts!

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[koolades-world]

the brothers 100% have a marketable plushie slash merch line

Asmo's sells the best, it was his idea after all, he's the most popular brother, but Lucifer is close behind

they only went through with it because Mc and Diavolo begged Lucifer to allow it (they both really wanted a Luci plushie)

Mc owns the entire line

They are also the spokesperson. they can and will be a walking advertisment to anyone who dares to ask

for some reason, a pink sheep is introduced with the side characters. nobody knows why but after seeing everyone who has a place in the line seems to have at least three, so obviously all the fans buy at least three. it outsells both Diavolo and Asmo's combined

nobody seems to connect the dots that Mc does not have plush but this random sheep does

the sheep is pretty cute though

idk I'm just obsessed with the thought of all the character's beds being stacked with these plushies like teenage girls stack their bed with squishmellows

half of the characters jump into the bed to feel like they're being hugged by the softness and the other half gently make room for themselves so they don't crush them

mc does the same thing but they only own one of each so they can make them all feel special individually

"babe come over to my room tonight"

"sorry babe no can do, it's movie night with the boys"

"are you talking about the damn stuffed animals again"

"do not talk about the boys that way ever again"

whenever Lucifer comes into Mc's room to talk about anything serious or bad about Mammon, they will cover plush Mammon's ears and act offended on his behalf

the brothers regularly steal Mc's plushies of each other because they're jealous but always returns them since they feel bad making mc worry about the wellbeing of a plush

Satan has waterboarded plush Lucifer and only gave him back after holding him for ransom

"not talking, aye? we'll see about that in a moment"

"SATAN IS LUCI PLUSH IN THERE WHO ARE YOU TALKING TO"

"nobody"

"I CAN HEAR HIS SUFFERING PLEASE GIVE HIM BACK"

"only if you promise to go to that new cafe with me"

meanwhile, somewhere else... "I can feel a disturbance in the force"

[caramelpenguin]

S3 EP6 (thoughts + theories)

I want to get all the insane predictions out so I can look back on how much I clowned.🤡

These are ideas based on the moments that were in the trailer/teasers/stills. Or things that I feel might be addressed before the end...

Hillerska closing down🏫

We aren't directly told what Felice said in her interview. It's left ambiguous. So why wouldn't they tell us? Sure, there's a chance that she just praised the school but....

we got that very small snippet of the forest ridge boys yelling at each other. Could this be because they heard that Hillerska was going to shut down?

Simon (and his family) might move away 👋

they have the money now ig. this could be a reason why the ending, as ive seen around, has occasionally been described as 'open'.

this could be the context behind the shot of Linda's head on Simon's shoulder.

or maybe the 3 of them are doing smthn related to micke?

Abdication or King Wille? And August...👑

I think one of the reasons for August's storyline this season was for us to understand him more as a character so that if he becomes King, we know that he'll actually try or that he may not have been as bad as we thought. (my opinion of August isn't necessary here).

we really see how much the monarchy consumes Wille this season. Though I don't know how we'd approach the topic of abdication in just one episode.

wille has said that one of the reasons he wants to remain Crown Prince is bcos of Erik. Knowing what we now know, i'm intrigued as to what will happen.

will they acknowledge more of August's eating disorder?

August and Sara🤔

I think felice will (eventually) be fine with it. I don't know about Simon.

Things will work out, i'm sure.

Frederika and Stella💵

....they'll kiss in ep6. something will happen between them, anyway.

Shot of the 4 girls hugging

frederika has realises she likes stella by this point??

Roussea?🐎

maybe Roussea will get a slight mention in a conversation with August. Or maybe not. Who knowwwss

Wilmon screaming in the car🚗

is this Sara's car? things need to be okay by this point, right? is it after the lake scene??

Wilmon stare down👀

how? will ? this? fit? in?

is it after the graduation ceremony but before the neon party and the lake scene? does the shot of wille (with simon's hands around his neck) come after this?

is the lake scene not the final scene? is this scene actually the next day during the graduation?

does simon tell wille he's going to move away?

The Neon Party + Lake Scene 💧

the neon party is where they reconcile.

BUT i dont think it'll be a full reconcile. Simon's line 'Can't we just forget everything that's happened? Just for tonight?' makes sense to be here.

the lake scene with the swimming could happen because they both leave the party early, i dunno.

is this the last time they're able to hang out (bcos simon is moving away and bcos Hillerska will shut down)?

but we've all SEEN that it looks sad, which doesnt look all that great for endgame, and we've also been told that this is (most likely) the final scene. so. get tissues ready.

(am i crazy or is there a tiny smile on simons face in this scene? from that edmar promo we got? )

swimming happens after the sadness right? bcos (apart from the tears) they dont look wet.

if its the final scene idk what the hopes r for wilmon endgame icl

MUSIC (+Wille's birthday present)🎶

we know that 'Alice' by Rhys will play at some point. Doesn't mean it'll be a wilmon scene. it could be sara and august OR frederika and stella (?)

normally, there's a song in ep4 that's repeated in the final moments of the season. ep 4 in s3 doesn't end with a song and (from the one check I've done), i can't really hear any of the other songs used in that episode as the final song of the season. then again, i could be wrong

ELIAS SONG?? they could play 'revolution' again to make it a full circle (dont think this will happen tho). they might use a new song. i just rlly hope we'll hear an Elias song and...i feel like we will.

THE TRAILER SONG? I really pray this will be in the episode. I pray i pray i pray i-

we'll hear Simon's new song. I don't know how or when (especially if this is simon's gift to wille) but...c'mon

initially, i didn't think Redlight would appear in YR. Omar has a career outside of the show, but i do agree that the lyrics fit wilmon quite well. also, if we're gonna hear Simon's new song then I don't know how the script would work around Simon singing another song. He told Wille that his present isn't yet finished (which im sure is the song simon is currently working on), tho ig we could argue that he may sing a brand new song.

BUT then i realised that simon doesn't have to sing this song. redlight could just be part of the soundtrack ( it seems that everyone got to that conclusion before me). and the way that it's being promoted this week has me suspicious. I don't wanna get my hopes up, and maybe Omar is just being clever and promoting it during the week of YR hype, so i dont think redlight will be in s3. BUT I WILL BE VERY HAPPY IF IM WRONG❤️

ig we'll find out when the playlist gets updated

Football Field Scene

to my knowledge, we haven't got proof that they filmed there apart from that pic from Lisa (and are we sure this pic is from s3 filming?)

it would be AMAZING if they returned to this setting. ICONIC.

but idk how why they'd return here and how it would fit

it might not be a wilmon scene (could be simon + rosh + ayub, but i think theres a higher chance of it being a wilmon scene than the trio)

question- lisa said it was a wrap with a pic from the football field. which COULD mean that the last scene they filmed was there (tho it might not be the actual final scene) - was this where edmar couldn't stop crying?

💜WILMON ENDGAME?💜

they better or im going to riot

no but srsly, i dont think we'll go down a 'la la land' route. worst comes to worst, it'll be a positive open ending e.g. 'you were amazing. you'll be wonderful. we'll meet again with more freedom.' it'll be even better if there's a time skip here hahahha

like the end of ep5 gave me no hope cos idk how they're gonna get back together in one episode. but anything is possible.

arguably, the promo we've got since then leans towards endgame (?), but i dont think they'd reveal they're gonna be endgame if there wwen't gonna be more issues.

EXTRA

theres so much to cover in the final episode!! so i dont think everything will be acknowledged/addressed. things will be left ambiguous to keep the viewers thinking.

imagine if the break up at the end of ep5 wasnt that huge. that theyre still together (with tension) at the start of ep6, then they kidna ignore their disagreement. this culminates until the end, where they break up ( but very unlikely)

the future letters were there to show august's past. but could there be more to it? could we get a time skip? (again, unlikely imo. but would be sweet if done well)

a reference to the heart simon drew? maybe? probably not...

will simon give wille his orange jumper back? id love to see this on our screens but im sure we wont.

will sara's necklace make a comeback?

where does wille's 'what if I don't want to?' line come in? and the queen's line...

the shot of wille in the library (with that book in clear sight) hasn't yet appeared, right?

simon talking to sara by micke's house....hmmm. i would love a simon and micke interaction

volleyball scene + running into the lake happen as a connection to graduation?

wille with those sunglasses is a moment with felice?

do we hear anything more abt wille's birthday wish?

EXTRA .2

there are plenty of moments that happen that we don't see as viewers. so that jumper simon wears at the start of ep 2 looks like wille's. and if it is, then we didnt see the moment simon stole it wille gave it to him.

and when simon mentioned a mental health foundation, it implied that they may have had a discussion abt wille's anxiety before.

the piano scene in ep2 could have been a piano lesson that wille was giving simon, which probably means a lot more of these happened without us knowing

this makes me wonder how much wille knows about micke??

simon told august that sara's with her dad and all that- so does wille also know?

WHEN I FIRST WATCHED AND FINISHED S1 AND S2 OF YOUNG ROYALS, i knew wilmon would be together by the end of s3. like i was 100% convinced the show would end with them happy bcos that's what it had leaned towards the entire time. the vibe of it just screamed wilmon endgame to me.

i really hope past me was right, bcos the s3 promo really had me wondering. and then ep5 had me proper questioning. but netflix (and lisa) will have to pay for so much therapy if they arent endgame sooo🤷‍♀️

livelovelaugh wilmon ig

edit: ive just listened to omar's interview and now im qquuiiitteee sure redlight wont be in ep6🤷‍♀️

edit 2: will anyone else find out that it was august who posted the video?? will this prevent him from taking the throne??

[bomberqueen17]

holding it down

currently am being held down in the chair by Chita, who was waiting patiently next to my recliner while i was in the other room packing up my clean laundry. I'm going back to the farm today, and need to leave sometime before noon to arrive in time for dinner. The only productive thing I really did this week is that last night I made a Vat of Borscht that i'm going to bring to serve for dinner tonight so my sister doesn't have to cook. anyway. Oop Chita just had enough of absorbing my body heat / qi (we joke that's what she's after, absorbing qi by sitting on people) and has transferred herself to the other chair, where she will sleep for six to ten hours without moving much. Her life is hard.

anyway wittering on behind cut

my dreamwidth crossposter broke so i should figure out how to set up an RSS thingy there, idk how to do that though. i think tumblr did something that broke how they do RSS and that's why the crossposter went down.

I'm trying Vyvanse again, a slightly higher dose. One pill a day, I can do. Yesterday I just felt scattered and ran around not getting things done. I did go double grocery shopping with Dude, and there was a Pokemon Go thing going on so I was catching cyndaquils while wandering through the grocery aisles, and i just-- sometimes I can feel that what I am doing is really bad for my attention span, and I could super feel that this was not helping me at all.

"I need to meditate," I said, sweating, on the ride home in the car. (It has been so hot. It was so hot yesterday. It was 87 and so humid and even with the ac in the car I was just sweating. ugh.)

"So meditate," Dude said, but I don't know how.

I probably should start writing in my journal again. I had been using a like day planner thing, and I was doing pretty poorly at it-- i'd write goals but they were never concretely connected to anything, and mostly I was writing down what I did after I did it, but at least that tied me to reality somewhat. So I should at least go back to that, I stopped the last week at the farm when things were so fucking hectic I didn't do anything but work, eat, and sleep.

I don't know if it helps but doing nothing doesn't help either.

And it's a lie to say I did nothing this past week. I was very off my game, but I did consult two different medical professionals for whatever that's worth, and I did manage to get past a huge writing block that's been deviling me for over a year really.

The horrible heat is supposed to break, which is good timing, because there is no climate control at the farm, and the only air-conditioned room is insufficiently conditioned and so is usually warmer than the surrounding spaces. I would have had a miserable week if I'd been there this past week, when it was over 90F most days and wasn't getting below 75F at night. (It was 81F here this morning at 6am, but it is supposed to rain and the day's high will only be 82. So.)

I did get some sewing done this week, though not as much as I wanted. I did a bunch of laundry. I did not clean the house or make any progress organizing any spaces, which were things I had wanted to do. But the writing, I can't describe how important getting that writing done was for me.

I'm having trouble being confident in my writing currently, a couple of scenes I feel are not emotionally true to what I was trying to say. I did rediscover some old notes though, and I think I've figured out what was bugging me in the Geralt/Emhyr scenes, and what I should work on with them. (I think the background information that Pavetta was an unhinged little gremlin monsterfucker and that was what formed Emhyr's id is really important and I have to work out how to incorporate that into everything going forward.)

I also keep finding myself yearning to write some original stuff. So we'll have to see, if I can get through the backlog of ideas in the Witcher stuff and start winding some of that up (??!!?!?!) then maybe there'd be some time to poke those ideas.

Anyway. Cat tax, here is what Chita looked like as I began this post, being a feline seat belt holding me into this chair:

[image description: small gray cat, head turned and eyes closed, is lying on my green-clad lap and has one paw outstretched toward the camera, touching the gray arm of the chair we're sitting in, holding me in position.]

[wjhik]

Pussy pt. 2 /positive end/ (Jude Bellingham) *Smut*

A/N: will come out with a negative ending too. I feel like this story could develop more, and the positive end is slightly finite, so to give more opportunity to continue, i'll make a negative one too.

Y/N's POV:

It's been 3 weeks since Jude walked out on me, and saying I miss him is an understatement. He's lurking in every corner of my mind. "Are you sure I have to come?" I ask, hunching my back at maya. "Yes!! You'll have fun, Y/N. You can't rot in here forever." She tells me, blending my eye makeup. "You know who's going to be there!" I tell her. "Oh my god. Big deal. Your lover is going to be there. Why do you care? Stick with us and you'll be fine."  Phoenix says. "How am I supposed to 'be fine' when he's around?" I tell them. I don't think I'll be able to bare seeing his stupid face without kissing it. "He's not even worth it. You'll find some good dick, tonight. Trust me. It'll make you forget all about him." Milly says. She's probably right. How am I tripping over a guy I never even had?

The girls were right. This is the most fun I've had in weeks. I'm sat at the bar, chatting away with phoenix while the rest of the girls dance in the center of the club. "I just thought that she was so much better than that! Oh- Hey baby." Our gossip gets interrupted by Alex. "Hey, love. Can I sit?" He asks for my permission. I stick out my hand, pointing to the chair next to his girl. He takes a seat and orders his drink. "So, what are you ladies on about?" He asks. "Just updating Y/N on the latest gossip. She's a little out of the circle." She tells her boyfriend, whispering the last part, jokingly.(in like a whispering loud enough to seem like she's not trying to keep a secret from me idk if that makes sense)"Yeah, I've noticed. Where've you been lately? Jude's sweeping you away from us." He says, sipping his drink. Phoenix lightly nudges him to where he gives her a questioning look. "Jude and I aren't talking. He hasn't told you?" I ask him. We all know all about Jude's past hoes, so why hasn't he starting shitting on me yet. "Oh. I'm so sorry. I didn't know. Umm, no. He hasn't mentioned it." Alex tells me. "It's fine." I smile at him.

About 2 hours of gossiping and drinking at the bar with phoenix has passed, but it feels like less that 10 minutes. Her and I are obnoxiously laughing about something that I said. At this point, we're damn near falling off our chairs, holding our stomachs and wiping the tears from our eyes. This girl makes everything so much better. I haven't even thought about Jude. Jude. Where is he, anyways? I haven't seen him. "Hey, Alex?" His attention turns away from his light conversation with the bartender. "Hmm?" He raises his eyebrows at me. "Is Jude here? I haven't  seen him today." I feel Phoenix roll her eyes without even looking at her. "Yeah, he's over there." He points towards the corner of the dance floor. He's talking with Sienna, a friend of Milly's. She knows nothing of Jude and I relationship. He look so focused on her, his arm rested on the doorway of the bathroom, his body towering over her. I feel fire burning in my eyes as he indulges in her, the same way he used to indulge in me. "Hey. Leave him. Let's go dance." Phoenix and I are much more reserved than the rest of the girls in our group, but after a few drinks, were the worst of the bunch.

She grabs my hand and pulls my off the barstool I was sat on, leaving her boyfriend alone. She drags me up the stairs of the nightclub to the dancefloor on the second floor, far away from Jude. It is the VIP section, however. "Phoenix, we can't get in here." I tell her, pulling her hand. "We have tits. We'll use them." I roll my eyes at her crude, drunken ideas.

Phoenix has been arguing with the bouncer for what feel like an eternity. "Let's just go dance downstairs. It's not that serious, Phoenix." I tell her, my feet hurting due to my very high heels. "They're with me." We hear a deeper voice say from behind us. We both turn around to see Jude standing there. He looks so beautiful. His hair as clean as normal. Despite my heels, he still towers over both of us. He looks down at me and gives me a warm smile. The same warm smile that made me catch feelings for him in the first place. The bouncer immediately apologizes to Birmingham's golden boy and let's us in. Phoenix, forgetting the whole point of why we were trying to get in to the VIP section in the first place, thanks Jude and drags me in.

"Can I steal her for a minute? Thanks." Jude asks Phoenix and grabs my hand. He walks me to a secluded table. He has some buffalo wings and virgin drinks on the table. "Are you sober?" He  asks, sitting down. I'm trying to keep a cold shoulder towards him, but I want to kiss his stupid face. I want to cover his face with kiss marks. I used to take  pictures of him covered in my lipstick. My lock screen used to be a picture of him covered in my lipstick. Him and I had just finished getting high together. Him and I were all cuddly and lovey. He ended up telling me how he hated lipstick marks, so I covered his face in kisses.

"I am now." I tell him, my voice coming across softer than intended. "I want to talk to you, and I think you know what its about. I want to explain myself. If you don't want to talk here or now, I get it, but we need to talk." If Jude is going to reject me for the 50th time, I don't want to hear it. Lets give him a chance. He did say that he just didn't want to hurt me. "Well, go on then." I cannot handle being mean to him. "I know you're mad. I understand. I take full responsibility for what I did." He explains. He offers me some chicken and a drink. I haven't eaten in hours, so I gladly take it. Jude continues pleading his case to me as we finish the basket of wings in front of us. He pays for his open tab. "Can we go home?" I ask him, breaking my silence. He simply gets up and guides me to his car, avoiding all my friends.

"Sorry. I just couldn't feel comfortable talking to you there." I explain to him. "Jude, the fact that you fucked around with me but refuse to date me is vile. I've had feelings for you for so fucking long, and I can't help how I feel about you. I didn't understand why you wouldn't commit to me until you explained it. Before you did, I just assumed that I wasn't good enough for you but was easy to keep around. It's not fair of you to assume you're going to hurt me without even giving us a chance. I understand wanting to keep me safe and all that, but you're actually just hurting me. If you're going to reject me then do it. I will respect it more if you do, and you won't loose me. You're my best friend and that's never going to change." I say, tears prickling at the corners of my eyes.

"Oh, my love...I'm not going to reject you. I just needed time. Everything moved so fast that day, and I didn't want to hurt you. I'm so in love with you, and I always have been. I think all of my hidden feelings have been revealed. I actually wanted to ask you to go out with me." He tells me. He wants to go out with me? "Like a date?" I ask him. "Yes, like a date." He smiles at me. "Awh, Juju..." I say, getting up from my place on the table. We agreed to sit opposite each other on the dining table to keep it from being awkward. I walk towards his chair and hold his hands. "I would love to go on a date with you." He pulls me in between his legs and wraps his arms around my waist. My arms go around his neck and I hug him. I pull back from the hug and stare into his beautiful brown eyes, his seated position making them level with mine.

He's looking down at my lips while I'm looking at his eyes. His eyes come up and meet mine. He makes me so nervyy. "Whhaaatt?..." I ask him, hiding my face in his neck. His hand comes up my neck and onto the back of my head. He pushes my head deeper in the crook of his neck and nuzzles his nose into my shoulder. "You smell amazing. And look amazing." He says. His lips come up to my ear and whispers, "I'm sure you taste amazing too."

(Smut)

"Fuck, Jude! Right there..." I moan out as Jude flicks his tongue on my clit. He laps my cunt over and over again, until I'm shaking around him. "Baby, I'm going to cum..." I say, grabbing his hair. Jude is so strict about who does and doesn't touch his hair. Only him, his barber, and his mum are allowed to touch his hair. Apparently, that list has expanded to him, his barber, his mum, and me. I know it seems small and insignificant, but it's not. You don't want to fuck with Jude and his hair. "Go on then, baby. Cum on my face." He tells me, sounding like a hungry beast that hasn't eaten in years. I let my wave of orgasm wash over me as Jude sucks my juices up.

"Ready, love?" He asks me, teasing my hole with the tip of his dick. "Are you sure you want to do this?" I ask him. I was far too pushy last time around. I'm not fucking this up again. Jude simply raises his eyebrows at me and asks me again, "Ready?" I smile up at him and pull his face into a kiss. He takes that as a signal and sticks it inside me. Tears prickle at the corner of my eyes because of his sheer size. I grab ahold of bicep. "Slowly, baby. Please..." I tell him. He slowly works his way all the way inside me. "Whenever you're ready." I tell him.

Jude starts to thrust inside of my. "Fuck, baby. You feel fucking amazing." I grunts as he fucks me at an ungodly pace. Jude leans down and kisses me. When he pulls away, I kiss his cheek. "Ugh. Y/N, you know how I feel about lipstick marks." He tells me, not stopping fucking me. "I know." I say in between giggles. I grab his face and leave dozens of kisses on his face. My lipstick leaving marks all over him, including on the collar of his white dress shirt. I try to kiss his neck, but the shirt gets in the way. I unbutton his shirt to the best of my ability. You can only do so much while getting fucked into an oblivion. Jude helps me take of his shirt and leans down. He kisses me, smudging my lipstick around my mouth.

"Baby, please. I can't take it anymore. Enough..." I tell him, my voice shaking. Jude has made me cum too many times to count, and it's starting to hurt. "Last one, love. I promise." He tells me. "Don't bullshit me, Jude. You've said that the last 3 times." I tell him. He smirks and gives me a laugh. He sticks his pinky out for me to take with mine. "Pinky promise." He says. I take his finger in mine and let him fuck me.

"Go on, love. Come for me." Jude says, moaning into my ears. I cum around his dick as he whispers sweet nothings in my ears. My chest is heaving as Jude continues to fuck me, searching for his high. "Come inside me, Juju. I want your babies inside me. Get me pregnant." At this point, I don't know what I'm saying. Jude and I both know damn well we're not having any babies anytime soon. Jude laughs at my cum-drunk state and kisses me, most likely to shut me up. He moans into my mouth as he spills inside me.

"I'm so so happy you gave us a chance." I tell him, snuggling into his side. Jude got me cleaned up and has me resting on his chest. He has the blanket pulled up on me, the top of my boobs peaking out. "I'm so excited to see what this new chapter has in store. And I don't even read." He tells me. I laugh at his incellular humor. He kisses the top of my head and abruptly gets up. I feel my heart drop. Jude gets out of bed, puts on his boxers, and walks towards the living room. Deja vu. I put on his hoodie that he left here a while ago. Now that I look around, all of his stuff is still here. I quickly walk out in nothing but his hoodie. "Jude?" I ask him. He is taking something out of the pants he came in. "C'mere." He tells me, pulling out a box. I walk towards him and he grabs me by the shoulders and faces me away from him. I puts a necklace around my neck and clasps it. I look down and see a 'J' hanging from my neck. I put my hand on the charm and turn around to face him. He shows me his wrist where he has a bracelet with my initial on it. He kisses my forehead. "Let's go to bed, honey."

Jude is asleep on top of me. He's starting to suffocate me because of how big he is, so I'd like the role him off me. He lets out a few groans. "What's going on?" He asks me, rubbing his eyes. "Nothing. Go back to sleep, baby." I notice that the lipstick marks from when I kissed him earlier are still all over his face. I think I need a new lock screen. At the perfect time, Jude opens his eyes. I grab my phone from the side table, and grab his face. I give him a kiss on his cheek and snap a few photos with my phone. We're both smiling uncontrollably. I go into settings and put it as my new lock screen. I go to show Jude, to see that he is fast asleep. I'm so happy he's here.

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Alternate ending

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[moulinblanc0800]

why wandering clown is wataru singing to eichi

or, wataru's second solo from the fine trip album lyric analysis as seen through a wataei lens (honestly though this song is so incredibly specific to his and Eichi's story 😭)

Thank you to lucidstars on youtube, whose translation I based this off. Let's begin!

Verse 1: A wandering clown crosses the sea of stars while taking light steps, as if kicking beads

'Sea of stars' makes me think of outer space, how Wataru views himself as an alien or monster, something otherworldly.

A few other things come to mind: stars are very Eichi symbolism, like in his first solo Shining Star; and Jingle Bells, when the Angel flies through the sky with Eichi. The beads are immediately reminiscent of Eichi's solo Crystal Pleasure. (There's actually an insane number of parallels between the two solos as we'll see.)

The applause is for you, my whole soul that goes into a whirlpool of emotion And to be able to lock eyes with you in the garden of joy would be such a wonderful thing (showtime)

This is a stretch but walk with me. The first line is daydream. "A resounding applause (kassai ga hibiki wataru)" is the first line. The applause was for Eichi alone, while Wataru was enmeshed by all his conflicting feelings at the time.

In Wataru's words to Eichi in Blackbird, which directly follows daydream: "It’s as though something I cannot quite comprehend is stirring inside me", "as though he were a child who had just tripped for the very first time in his life."

I tried looking up garden of joy (歓喜の園 kanki no sono) to see if it was a reference but couldn't find anything. But I did think of the garden of Eden and the idea of exfine being holy angels, divination...idk.

Chorus: Let’s sew countless sparkles into this dream Sing as the wings of love flap Tonight at the end of the world, the clown you invited Will deliver a surprising song you’ve never heard before

This part screams Blackbird, where Eichi and Wataru write the next part of their story. In fact this is pretty much blatantly repeated by Eichi in Crystal Pleasure: "I want to connect all the sparkling moments" and "let me give you happy dreams". (I really have to do a separate analysis for Crystal).

Wings of love --> can be Wataru's bird imagery, callback to Jingle Bells' Angel, or the continued bird imagery in Blackbird

"At the end of the world"- In Neo Sanctuary, fine sings "And that is the Neo Sanctuary, the blooming new world I offer this victory to". In the same sense, they were at the end of the old world, about to embark on a new one, with the clown that Eichi invited... to fine :) [Oh this is ALSO mentioned in Crystal Pleasure's second chorus: "I’ll invite you into the brilliance, towards the tomorrow that you wish for"] This is one of the most blatant Wataei parts of the two solos.

Verse 2: Tied together with mischief, the melody of the constellations echo so close to each other every time you resonate your wish I want to speak to those eyes of yours, on this stage coloured by enthusiasm

The star imagery continues... Suspiciously in alignment with Crystal Pleasure. I will note that the same word for wish 望む is used here as in Crystal's second chorus. Both Wandering and Crystal sing about eyes countless times, I'll let you play with that yourselves.

But maybe I’m the only one who wants that When the curtain rises, the boundaries fade away I can almost feel your breath, you beautiful person

This part. Ough. Again, walk with me, this is like a reverse, or parallel of daydream. "Maybe I'm the only one who wants that"--when Wataru, unlike the other Eccentrics, was always fascinated by Eichi and even went to join fine, to the befuddlement of the rest.

In daydream, Wataru catches Eichi as the curtain falls, telling him that the audience is still watching, and commenting that it's unsightly (jury's out on whether he was talking about Eichi or himself, but anyway). Meanwhile, Eichi thinks Wataru "beautiful". They are so close that Eichi coughs up blood on Wataru's face.

These last lines of the second verse aren't daydream, but they're the present. Instead of a falling curtain, it's a rising curtain. And they're close as ever, so close he can feel his breath. And in this implied performance, they're standing on the same stage. In Wataru's words in Diner Live: "I wanted to stand on the same stage as you, Tenshouin Eichi [...] Unlike the confrontation of the past, a “what-if” that shows a past where we are standing shoulder-to-shoulder, or maybe even in the present. That’s the kind of dream I wanted to see."

Yeah. I'm. I'm normal

The second chorus ends with two different lines:

Tonight at the end of the world, the clown you're dancing with Will deliver an incredible dream just as you wish for

At this point

they're just not hiding anything are they.

Now that I'm done destroying myself here, I have to do Crystal Pleasure god i have to do crystal pleasure. I hope u enjoyed this post! Thank you for listening to me bend my back over for them. Feel free to add on if you noticed anything else.

[boowritess]

okay but wouldn't it be funny if-

before Alejandro and Rudy got together, when Alejandro was in his Valeria phase; all the Los Varquaro's just didn't like Alejandro. everyone either had some idea or feeling that Alejandro and Rudy were a perfect duo, like the sun and moon, sky and earth, popcorn and movies, dance and song etc etc.

even if Alejandro and Rudy were both completely unaware, their soldiers knew. they knew and were absolutely livid when Alejandro and Valeria happened.

"dad-is-cheating-on-dad." like a hive mind this went rampant. and suddenly Los Vaquero's are half assing everything Alejandro is asking of them. being absolutely, unnecessary petty towards him, and when Valeria is on base, ohhh my days. the pair never get a moment alone because all of a sudden Alejandro is needed for the most smallest of things.

Los Varquaro's barging into Alejandro's office where he and Valeria are, every five seconds. "hey colonel! where's the toliet paper?" "do you want to come spar?" "can you come get the spider?" "alejandro! you need to look at this!" etc etc.

or, when Alejandro and Valeria find a small slither of peace, but they are interuppted again. all of a sudden the soldiers aren't listening to Rudy and Rudy has to go fetch Alejandro, but one of the soliders steps in to get him so their favorite dad didn't have to see their father cheat on him. this happens everytime Alejandro and Valeria are together on base.

oh and yes the Los Varquaro's are definetly sucking up to Rudy.

Los Vaquero's:

Dad we went out today and got your favourite chocolates oh and some of the snacks that you like!

We cleaned your weapons and your gear!

Dad we're cooking dinner! It's your favourite!

Oh you want us to do that? Of course we can! What do you mean other dad asked us to do that thing an hour ago? Oh strange don't remember!

Can we help with that?

Dad can we sleep in here tonight? What do you mean no!? Dad! We'll sleep on the ground!

There are always soldiers close by to Rudy. He's never alone. They are always hovering behind Rudy, this is especially worse when Alejandro is trying to spend time with Rudy and someone is always lingering by, or involving themselves. Also when Alejandro, Valeria and Rudy are together, one or a group of Los Varquaro's would swoop in. Whether to save Rudy or butt themselves into conversation.

Rudy figures out the reason for their change in behavior when he spots a few soldiers brushing off Alejandro's requests, others glaring at both Alejandro and Valeria. Los Vaquero's commanding officer, who was loved, respected and admired by the Los Varquaro's suddenly became the most detested. and it broke Alejandro because he didn't understand why.

One night, Rudy encourages Alejandro to go out with Valeria, there's a lot of things to do on base, but Rudy is adament. so Alejandro goes. While Rudy gathers all of the Los Vaquero's in one room.

They are terrified. they get the lecture of their fucking lives. are reminded why Los Vaquero's exists, reminded of everything Alejandro has sacrificed for them, has done everything for them, has given Los Vaquero's everything he can and so much more. he doesn't ask why tbey have been doing the things they do. he knows why. they expect a punishment and are shitting themselves because when rudy wants too, his punishments are fucking brutal. but at the end they get,

"thank you. thank you for being the most caring, loyal, respected, people i've ever had the pleasure of working with. for caring and trying to protect me. i'm proud of each of you. i will not tell you all what to do. you know what's right."

then he wishes them all a good night, turning away. somehow getting no punishment was worse for the Los Varquaro's.

a day later, everything changes. Alejandro is met with no resistance, soldiers doing as told again, even being more welcoming to Valeria.

idk i just think it would be cute if the Los Varquaro's went fucking guard dog for Rudy

[heartsofpearls-en]

Criminal Love : Falling?

CHAPTER TWO ⸙͎۪۫｡

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Pairing ~ Jake x reader (Jisu)

Genre ~ Fake dating, contract relationship, forbidden love.

Warnings ~ contains excessive use of Cuss, angst, one or two punch scenes, kiss scenes, etc. (But nothing too over the top). Mention of Karina & Ningning (Aespa), Yunjin (Le Sserafim), Yujin (IVE), Hanni (New Jeans), Beomgyu (TXT), and Enhypen's Hyung line.

Author's note ~ idk how to use Tumblr for the love of god. So, I hope you'll enjoy this as, I've wrote it after listening to criminal love. You can also find this work on wattpad too. And as for the oc, her name will be Choi Jisu as I really don't like working with Y/N. Anyways, happy reading <3 and another thing is that, I've excluded some parts like the texts and social media parts because it would've been too lengthy. When it comes to your first love, it usually hurts more than you think.

Word count ~ 3k

With a sigh, both Jake and Jisu got in the car and started to drive away. To say, it was so hard to explain how they started dating and how, both of the moms started to gush oven them, saying it was destiny.

And now, it's the next day.

Jisu didn't have morning classes today, so she came to the college late. Exactly an hour before her class as, she had to meet Jake.

He was currently waiting for her in the collage garden. She soon spotted him and waved at him. He smiled at her as she approached him.

“Hey butterfly” Jake smiled at her, making Jisu tilt her head.

“I don't understand, why you like calling me that” She asked him as he chuckled.

“I like you call you that for unknown reasons. Maybe I see butterflies as a cheerful species to exist on earth, and you remind me of them” She genuinely blushed at his statement as Jake handed her a cup of coffee.

Vanilla sweet cream cold brew, the one she always gets and also got back on the café when she made the deal with him. It's one of her favorite drinks and Jake was attentive enough to pick that up.

Renjun never knew her favorite drink.

“Thank you” She stated quietly as she held the sup near her lips and took a sip.

“So what—” She was cut off when suddenly, Jake held her waist and pulled her close, his breath hitting on her nose.

“Renjun. He's looking at us” Jake stated. He made it look like he was kissing her, as it

would make Renjun more jealous.

“Is he gone?” Jisu asked as she made eye contact with Jake. A fuzzy feeling running down her body as she gulped at the proximity.

Soon enough, Jake left her as the cold air, hit her body.

“I wanted to talk to you because Yunjin gave me an idea” She started, ignoring her pounding heart. “We should go on a date” She stated, making Jake look at her.

“A date?” Jake asked, making Jisu nod.

“It'll be honestly , so believable. We'll click some pictures together, and it'll make people believe it more” She said, making Jake ruffle her hair and nod.

“Sure, let's do that” He smiled.

Jisu stated that she'll text him all the details before rushing to her lecture.

Jake just looked at her back, smiling at her cuteness. He tried to deny it, but couldn't.

He was starting to have a soft spot for her.

To say the truth, Heeseung, Jay and Sunghoon were still baffled with the sudden announcement of Jake and Jisu dating. It's already been a week, but they're still going on about how, the most silent guy of their group is dating and not them.

The girls, as in Ningning, Karina and Hanni took in the fact that they were dating but, Yujin and Yunjin's act was too believable.

Currently, they're all sitting on the cafeteria with Ningning asking questions to Hanni about her ideal type.

“Age wise, older men or younger men?” Ningning asked as Hanni blinked a few times.

“Older men” Hanni replied as Ningning went on with her question round but stopped when Jake reached at their table with two cups of coffee as, he sat one down in front of Jisu.

“Let's go on a date tonight, Butterfly” Jake stated, a smile displayed on his lips.

Heeseung gasped dramatically as everyone's jaw dropped. “That was too smooth!” Karina cheered as Sunghoon pouted.

“He stole my girl” He grudged as Yunjin patted his back, filled with sympathy.

Everyone knew, Sunghoon was actually playing, so they didn't mind him acting like that.

Jisu smiled softly and nodded, making Jake smile back at her as he ruffled her hair.

It was a mess.

Jisu was so annoyed that she messed up her whole closet and now, she's laying on the floor like she just got punched.

“Jiji, what's—Holy shit!” Yunjin gasped, looking at the girl's condition, whose face was covered with her hair.

“Yah Choi Jisu, get up!” Yujin hissed, pulling the girl up. In return, she let out a loud whine.

“What's with you, huh?" Yunjin looked at the messed up closet and sighed. It looked like there was a typhoon.

“I don't know what to wear. Moreover, another thing” Jisu spoke, pulling her phone and opening up something.

It was the conversation between her and Jake.

Jisu blinked and looked at the two girls as they sighed. “He won't even say anything.” Jisu whined again, dropping her body on the bed.

Both Yunjin and Yujin went through the clothes and threw a white dress in her face, which made Jisu groan.

“Ouch!” She snorted, annoyed, as she analyzed the dress.

It was a white dress with reach until knee and had ruffles on the end with puff sleeves.

“Wear this” Both the girls stated at the same time as Jisu blinked.

“I will be over dressed” Jisu said as Yunjin groaned and had a firm grip on Jisu's shoulder.

“You look pretty in anything, Jiji. It doesn't matter what you're wearing but, whatever you wear makes you look pretty” Yunjin stated with a small smile as Yujin sat beside Jisu.

“You're pretty, no one can disagree with that. And being a bit over dressed won't hurt no one. What if Jake took you to a fancy restaurant?” Yujin asked, holding Jisu's hand, making her nod.

“Can I confess something?” Jisu spoke in a little voice as Yunjin gasped dramatically.

“Your confessions always gives us heart attacks! Even last time!” Yunjin whined, making Yujin slap her hand, playfully.

“It's not like that confession I made when I told you that I wanted to become a writer and took up literature. It's worse” Jisu sighed, making the other girls widen their eyes.

“Did you kill someone?” Yujin asked as Jisu shook her head.

“Had a one-night stand?” Yunjin asked as Jisu furrowed her eyebrows.

“Eww, no!” She protested.

“Then don't tell me you're pregnant” Yunjin stated, but got a flying pillow in her face in return.

“What the fuck is wrong with you?” Jisu hissed as Yujin sighed.

“What is it?” Yujin asked as Jisu looked down.

“I think, I've broken rule one” She spoke out, quietly as both the girls looked at her confused.

“Rule one?” Both of them asked in unison.

“I think, I've fallen for Jake” She spoke as they froze in their place.

Jisu was getting this fuzzy feeling for a long time and today, during the ride back to the dorm from the college, she realized that she may have fallen for Jake.

“You���gosh.” Yunjin muttered out, throwing the pillow at Jisu's face as she started to whine.

“Are you serious? Girl, you know you're going against the rules, right?" Yujin sighed, looking at Jisu.

“I know it's a crime to fall for him” She muttered out, sighing.

Jisu looked at herself in the mirror as a sigh left her mouth. As for Yunjin and Yujin, they were awed by Jisu's beauty.

But Jisu was determined to not stare at Jake and make in body contact or eye contact and get rid of the little feeling she had for Jake.

But they say that, determination always doesn't work.

In fact, she fell for Jake even more after seeing him in a white suite with opened buttons and his hair done neatly.

"You look... Heavenly" Jake spoke out, eyeing the girl in her completely white outfit.

She blinked a few times as Jake handed her a bouquet of white and pink roses.

Roses were common. However, Jisu loved them, especially white and pink once.

"I asked Yujin about your favorite flowers" Jake stated, making Jisu go nuts.

Her heartbeat was going crazy as she took slow and steady breaths to calm herself down.

"Thanks. You look great too. Now let's go" She stammered as Jake opened the car door for her as she got in.

The drive was silent. Nobody exchanged any words until Jisu decided to break it.

"Where are we actually going?" She asked, looking at the palm of her hand and playing with the band on her index finger.

"I told you that it's a surprise, didn't I princess?" Jake asked as Jisu shut her eyes close for a second before opening them.

"What's with your fascination with nicknames? Every so often it's butterfly, then it's princess" She asked as a small blush spread across Jake's face which went unnoticed, due to the darkness of the car.

"I just, like calling you those. No reason in specific" Jake explained as he focused back on the road.

Only if someone could tell, they were reciprocating feeling but, due to the contract, they've to hide it from each other.

"By the way, I wanted to ask you something" Jake stated, looking at Jisu as the car stopped at the red light.

"Yeah?"

"Can I, like, say Heeseung about our dating thing?" Jake asked as Jisu kind of narrowed her eyes at him.

"I know it's sudden and weird, but like, he would understand as he's the oldest. And if I wanted to speak about it to Jay or Hoon, they'll definitely make a big deal out of it" He explained it calmly but knew that his words held more profound meaning.

"Okay, I guess?" Jisu sure was dumbfounded but Jake never asked anything, in return for this relationship, except for the shooing away of girls, so, she agreed.

It was definitely Yujin and Yunjin.

Jisu looked in front of her to see the restaurant. The one she came with her parents for the first time on their wedding anniversary before they moved to America, leaving her alone. And, it was also one of the top restaurants in Seoul.

Her eye's started to sparkle up which, didn't go unnoticed by Jake. He chuckled softly as he guided her inside the main lounge and after asking, they went to the reserved table.

Jake smiled at Jisu's awestruck state. “I asked the other two about your favorite restaurant. They told me that this is your favorite restaurant, and you haven't come here for over a few years”

“Four years, actually. I came here with mom and dad before they moved to America for business” A small smile escaped her lips.

Jake called out a waiter as both gave their orders. After the arrival of the food, they ate silently together, enjoying the soft music in the background. Soon after, as they were done, Jake drove both of them to the Han river.

“It was a pretty cool date” Jisu uttered out, looking at Jake as he smiled. “But I still can't believe that you never had a girlfriend”

She teased him in the end as he chuckled. “You just gotta be a gentleman, not an ass” He stated as Jisu slightly giggled at his statement. Both of them knew that he was referring to Renjun.

Both of them stopped and admired the river, which reflected the full moon perfectly.

Jisu felt something drop around her shoulders. She turned to see Jake took off his suite jacket and draped it over her.

She smiled at his thoughtfulness but again, wasn't she supposed to get away from him and not fall for him, harder?

Just as she entered her dorm with the big bouquet of white and red roses, Choi Jisu was tackled by Huh Yunjin and Ahn Yujin.

They needed to know every single detail.

Jisu explained to them everything while taking off her heels and earrings.

“You told him about the restaurant?” Jisu asked as both the other girls nodded their head simultaneously.

“Jake called and asked me about the place you liked the most. I asked Yujin and remembered that you told me that you went to that particular restaurant once with your parents and never went there again” Yunjin explained as Jisu dropped her body on the couch as they took a seat beside her.

“I liked the atmosphere. It was calm and quiet. Even Beomgyu was there that time” She explained as Yujin nodded.

“Ah Beomgyu. I haven't seen that brat for ages” Yunjin muttered as Jisu gave her a look.

“He's my biological brother and us three years older than you” Jisu snorted as Yujin chocked out a laugh.

Jisu and Beomgyu had an unbreakable sibling bond. They never fought with each other but, Yunjin couldn't stand him. While he was in Korea, Yunjin would always bicker with him and Beomgyu would always tease her for being short-tempered. That was until Beomgyu left for the United States to attend business courses at Harvard.

“He's a smart ass with more smart mouth” Yunjin rolled her eyes.

“But Jisu, don't you think, you're blushing too hard?” Yujin pointed out as Jisu covered her face.

“Am I?” She asked and sighed.

“You know that falling for him isn't a crime, right?” Yunjin asked as Jisu shook her head.

“I can't. It'll make it weird and, he's the first guy I'm in love with”

A pause.

“What about Renjun?” Yunjin asked in disbelief, as Yujin blinked, registering whatever Jisu just said.

“I got in a relationship with Renjun because he asked me out. Momentarily, I started to like him, not close to love. I usually saw him as a frat boy who only likes to get into women's pants” She explained.

“That's the reason you never ever kissed him?” Yujin connected the dots as Jisu nodded.

“But then, why are you taking this revenge? Like making him regret and stuff?” Yunjin gave her a look as Jisu sighed.

“He still played with my feelings. I know I might sound as if I lost it completely, but, it hurt. It hurt my heart. He made multiple promise but was able to fulfil one” Jisu stated and sighed again.

“Atleast it's reasonable. He dumped you because you weren't giving what he wanted and Soojin was up to get on his pants" Yunjin snorted, looking at the bouquet.

“Jake also asked if he could tell about this too Heeseung” Jisu said as they looked at her.

“I think this shit is getting deeper” Yujin sighed.

To say the least, Lee Heeseung felt like he was stabbed by numerous swords.

The awfully cute couple, wasn't actually a couple?

He gave Jake a blank stare as Jake rubbed the back of his head, sheepishly.

“You're scaring me, you know” Jake tried to smile but failed. “Yunjin and Yujin knew about this” He added, looking at Heeseung to see any kind of emotions. But he saw none.

“You gotta be kidding me” Heeseung hissed, slightly screaming. When he was about to launch himself at Jake, Jake pulled out a pillow as a barrier.

“It was Jisu's idea!” He squeaked as Heeseung contained his anger.

At least they were at Heeseung's private apartment, so there was no one to interrupt them.

“You know what kind of shit you're playing currently? You know how I'll react an—”

“I like Jisu” Jake cut him off as Heeseung's blank stare returned. “Maybe love?”

“Mate, you've never been in love” Jake snorted up on Heeseung's words.

“Mate is my words and I love my mom, Layla" He defended himself, earning a scoff from Heeseung.

“The dog?”

“She's my daughter!” Jake screamed, throwing the pillow at Heeseung's face as a growl emerged from his mouth.

“You're acting like a lovesick teenager, asshole! If you have the dick, ask Jisu out, bastard” Heeseung couldn't control anymore as he threw a few cusses at the other.

“I can't” He dropped his head on the palm of his hands. “She still loves Renjun"

“She never loved him” Heeseung stated. “Truth to be told, as I'm Beomgyu, her brother's best friend, she and I share a close bond. She told me the whole situation with her and Renjun. He asked her out, she accepted. No feeling attached. He dumped her and made a fool out of her, she wants to make a fool out of him. Simple”

“Wait, no like—”

“Kid. You're all over her. Like, I never saw how you look at her or how you call her all those nicknames. At least you're not too dumb to understand your feelings” Heeseung gave a smile as Jake snorted.

“I'm not dumb” He defended as a low chuckled emitted from Heeseung.

“Sure. But get your ass out of here. And right, you said that Yunjin and Yujin know about this?” He asked as Jake nodded.

“One of them suggested it to Jisu as a joke but Jisu took it by heart” Jake stated as Heeseung let out a loud chuckle.

“She was impulsive from the time I met her. Taking rash decision and later, Beomgyu had to clean up after her. It was fun at that time” Heeseung sighed.

“But tell me, what I should do?" Jake whined as Heeseung gave him a look.

“Get your ass out of my house”

In the morning, Yujin, Yunjin and Jisu were getting ready for their classes. They were still at their dorm as Yujin excused herself as she got a call.

“You're going with us, right?” Yunjin asked as Jisu nodded. Today, Jake had early morning classes, whereas, the girls had afternoon classes.

Soon, Yujin came out of the room, cold sweat dripping down her forehead. “Hey Ji, why don't you go and sit in my car? I'll bring out Yunjin in a while” Yujin said, handing Jisu her car keys.

“Okay?” Jisu appeared dumbfounded as she walked out.

“Why do you look like that?” Yunjin narrowed her eyes at Yujin as she cleared her throat.

“Heeseung wants to talk about, Jake and Jisu" Yujin stated, making Yunjin drop her phone on the carpet.

“Bull! Jake definitely blew it out” Yunjin whined, picking her phone up.

“I always tell you to shut your impulsive mouth” Yujin snorted, making Yunjin scoff.

“Impulsive? You—"

“Are you two done? Classes starts in twenty minutes” Jisu yelled from outside as Yunjin and Yujin sighed, grabbing their bags and walking out.

@ heartsofpearls-en — 2023

[thegreatlibraryfangirl]

1, 3, 5 and 7 for the arospec asks? :)

when did you realize you were arospec?

First half of 2021! Exactly when escapes me. I have a feeling it's on my main blog somewhere, and fuck searching THAT. You can see proof on this blog of the vague time here lol.

Storytime that you didn't ask for: this was after a very weird lockdown relationship with a girl who was apparently extremely into me. We had like, 5 dates or something, and then she ghosted because of mental health difficulties. And, while of course even allo people date people that they don't click with, it just crystallised the realisation that dating has NEVER ever worked for me, and that I always envisioned being friends with someone first. Even my teenage possible-crushes were always on friends. And I'd never fallen in love (then). And yeah idk, I just sat there and went, ok I think this might actually deserve a label. And then I fell in love with my best friend (bad idea) and I was like OH. YEAH. THIS IS NEW. Which helped solidify that I'd never fallen in love before.

3. do you go by strictly aromantic or fall under one of the arospec umbrella labels?

I generally go by demi or arospec! See here for more rambling about that on the other ask.

5. are you partnering or non partnering?

every day there is new terminology oh my goddd. This was hard to google, dammit. I think I'm probably partnering, I just have no hope or belief that it can ever happen for me lol.

7. do you experience any forms of attraction? i.e., romantic, platonic, aesthetic, sensual, sexual, etc.

Romantic to my best friend (fml, no I will not shut up about this tonight apparently). Sexual attraction, absolutely!! (Nobody ask me about the aegosexual component to that or we'll be here ALL NIGHT). All the tertiary ones, yesssss. And also one that I've never been able to make it sound Sane enough to put into a label. Let's try.

Ok, it's like, so, imagine you made a new friend, and they were VERY COOL. So much cooler than you could ever be. And also you were not their best friend/most favourite friend in the group. It's like an obsessive desire to become that person's MOST IMPORTANT PERSON.

ahahaha can you tell i had fucked up friendship situations from the formative ages of 7 - 18, ahahahahahaha. ha.

also I would like to point out that I, to my knowledge, and I've asked people!, have never been visibly weird about this. Thank fuck.

But yeah, that. I don't know to what degree it counts as, some weird type of possessive/admiration/envy/seeking approval platonic attention thing, but it's regularly a feature of my life and in certain friendship groups can motivate all my interactions if I don't ignore myself.

Welp, that's more than anyone ever wanted to know about me. Night, all!

[monstersinthecosmos]

Omg omg can I ask you all the questions 🙏

❤️ What is your favorite line that you’ve written in a fic?

🦋 Which character is your favorite to write?

🦈 Which character is the toughest to write?

🍬 Do you write for multiple fandoms? If yes, what is your favorite fic of yours for each fandom?

💛 What is the most impactful lesson you’ve learned about writing?

🎨 If someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?

(Feel free to answer as many or as few of these as you like!!)

❤️ What is your favorite line that you’ve written in a fic?

Today was a fucking mess, but.

What else is new. 

Everything fades as he slips down, deep, unconsciousness enfolding him. It’s a soothing warm embrace. Like the touch of a mother. There’s a phantom kiss to his forehead. 

Your whole life has been a fucking mess. 

But you endured.

🦋 Which character is your favorite to write?

GOSH I THINK I ALTERNATE BETWEEN KEITH AND SHIRO PRETTY EVENLY DEPENDING ON WHICH ONE SERVES THE IDEA MORE??? Shiro is fun to write because I just fucking adore him and I think I find it a little more cathartic because I can project onto him a bit more. IT'S LIKE HE'S THE MAN I WANT TO BE. But writing Keith is so fun too because he's a sloppy mess and I feel more free to write false starts/stops and just generally salty cynical nonsense.

🦈 Which character is the toughest to write?

With Sheith I find Shiro a bit harder to write because he's way smarter than me. 🤣 Like I always want to fold in fucking, quantum physics humor like in canon but I can't just think of it myself cause idk anything about that stuff.

🍬 Do you write for multiple fandoms? If yes, what is your favorite fic of yours for each fandom?

I've been writing fic for 20 years so I've dabbled in many fandoms LOL but my current AO3 incarnation I'd say: Sheith: Tonight the Stars Revolt! (I'm sorry I update this like once a year but I think about it every day and it's my baby but it's canon compliant so idk what's the rush, we all know where it's going LOL) Vampire Chronicles: So Falls the World Yuri on Ice: Crashland 💛 What is the most impactful lesson you’ve learned about writing? I wanted to give this one some breathing space so I answered here :)

🎨 If someone were to make fanart of your work, what fic or scene would you hope to see?

I answered this one early but I'd also love to see any art of one day we'll find our way because it's FemSheith and I made Keith such a fucking hot milf imo

[dayseternal-blog]

saw that you saw Hamilton for the first time and couldn't help but wonder what your favorite song/s were? or maybe some songs that you would like to learn all the lyrics to?

:DDDD They toured here, and I got to see them live last, last Friday!! It was wonderful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Of course all the songs are great. Right now (subject to daily changes), my faves in order, and I'll link to yt in case you want to listen, too, right now haha:

"Dear Theodosia" - The way they are singing to their babies!!! AHHHHHHHHH. I could die. It's SO soft. and SO heartwarming. omg. I just. love love love this. the line: "You will come of age with our young nation." and "If we lay a strong enough foundation, we'll pass it on to you. We'll give the world to you, and you'll blow us all away." Seriously, is there anything more important than this 😭😭 And finding out that the original actor for Aaron Burr was praying for his yet unborn daughter when it wasn't his part to sing, and that by the end of the run, he had prayed around 500 times for her ugh 💓

"The Story of Tonight (Reprise)" - idk, no real explanation, it's just a funny, touching song. The line: "Raise a glass to freedom, something you will never see again." and John Lauren's "What are you trying to hide, Burr?" is so funny. Also, Alexander Hamilton's "Oh, shit" when he finds out that Aaron Burr is having an affair with a married woman. Just a feel-good song. Out of context, I now see that those lines don't sound funny or feel good.

"Guns and Ships" - My favorite character is the Marquis de Lafayette. I was so enthralled by the actor's charisma, I read the entire Wikipedia article on Lafayette and have been info-dumping this guy's whole life story on anyone who is a captive audience for me. Which has happened 4 times already. Did you know he was only 18-19 years old when he snuck away to America against King Louis XVI's orders because he was so sympathetic to the American cause and hungry for war glory? Did you know he was a war hero by the time he was 24? Did you know this? And Hamilton was like about the same age as him. Also did you know Lafayette picked up English fluently within a year of his travel to America? Shall I keep going? I can tell you more!

"It's Quiet Uptown" - This song gives me really emotions, I cry.

"Satisfied" - "From your sister who's always by your side." Anyone else has a loving eldest sister who's the wittiest, funniest, smartest, most charismatic in the family? 🙋🏻‍♀️ Honestly, Angelica Schuyler does NO wrong, and I am convinced based on the info in this musical that she did nothing wrong her entire life haha. Facts. Did you know she and her husband organized to help Lafayette escape from Austrian prison? (Which succeeded, except Lafayette got lost and recaptured).

"Helpless" - This song was my top fave after watching the musical. The actress sings so well. I love how absolutely gone she is in love with him, and that's basically how I aspire to write my NaruHina fics haha. This line: "I'm trying not to cry cuz there's nothing that your mind can't do." Just, the absolute faith she has in him!!! The admiration she has for his intelligence and the belief she has in his worth and capability!!! I love it.

"A Winter's Ball" - This song is very short. It also does the best job at showing that these guys were like. 19-20 years old. College age bros forreal.

"What'd I Miss" - Undeniably Thomas Jefferson has the most charisma of any character in the musical. I love the jazziness of this song, too.

"Non-Stop" - whoever said that this song is the entire musical crammed in 6 minutes is so right.

"Who Lives, Who Dies, Who Tells Your Story" - Since this idea is basically the theme/lesson of the musical, it left an impact on me at the live show. Also, yeah, I'm a sucker for recording generational history and making sure that the sacrifices of the past aren't forgotten.

"Cabinet Battle #1" - This rap song convinces me I would've learned better in AP Gov if this musical had been around 13 years ago.

"The Election of 1800" - Hamilton's drag of Aaron Burr is such a burn. Ouch.

"Cabinet Battle #2" - These lines: "We signed a treaty with a king whose head is now in a basket. Would you like to take it out and ask it? 'Should we honor our treaty, King Louis’ head?' 'Uh… do whatever you want, I’m super dead.'" lol, point made.

Oops, I spent like over an hour writing this post and listening to the songs. Please anon, come back and tell me your favorite songs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[genopaint]

This should be Week 9 of Daily Dragons! Apologies for the delay on updating this but I've been incredibly busy and stressed due to moving. And while things haven't settled down per say I am no longer on a time limit to move out so hopefully I can have the ball rolling on the daily dragon challenge a little better!

As always you can follow me on twitter where they’re posted daily

And read more info on each of them below the cut

Daily Dragon #56 - Fygar

Another cute, arcade dragon! Fygar was always one I was gonna do eventually, and I didn't have a huge oomph to draw tonight so I figured this was a perfect opportunity for a simple one! Tried to do a new take on it inspired by a few different designs :)

i know ive been posting these all so late into the evening, apologies, im all over the place lately lmao also, am i nuts or didn't there used to be grey fygar? i couldn't find ANY sprites of them so I guess I made it up. Oh well

Daily Dragon #57 - Percipitar

A mollusc-like dragon that swims through rivers and ponds, slurping up water to bulk up its pouches, then turns that water into clouds for fighting and hunting! Their shell is very hard, but the yellow flesh is VERY soft and gooey.

Since the last few were all redraws / fanart, I really wanted to make a brand new one today! Originally this was gonna be a poison mist spewing dragon, but I couldn't decide on a color/effect for the poison. And I eventually thought just regular water and mist powers were a little more interesting because we've already had a few poisonous dragons or dragons that spew stuff that has effects on enemies. Note to self, stop making dragons that produce some kind of toxic or mist???

Just for fun and some background because I have it here, this is the unfinished version of the picture when I was making it poisonous instead. I changed it at the last possible moment lol

Daily Dragon #58 - Mega Charizard Z

"Its head splits into 3 to become a menacing Hydra. While its brain power is divided in this form, its fire power becomes multiplied!" Not sure what type I'd make it? Maybe Fire/Fairy or Fire/Electric or something idk

Also I already have ideas on how I would maybe tackle this design a little differently so, maybe we'll see Mega Charizard Z 2 in the future

Daily Dragon #59 - Feral Cave Dragon

My brother found some ANCIENT art of mine in an old book tonight, so of course I had to redraw all the characters on it!

This is, as I'm sure you can tell, an old bookmark! From back when I used to read... Horrifying times! My brother said he found it in a book I was reading around 2011 or so?

Daily Dragon #60 - Dragon Girl Green

This fun little dragon is February's most popular dragon as decided by vote!! That means she gets new art! Soaring through the sky and flying by some migrating birds! Seems like she's having a magical day~

My personal favorite from February? There were a LOT of dragons I actually really liked. But ultimately I'm just really smitten with Percipitar! Been a rough month! March is gonna be rough too but we will get through it! Thank you all so much for your continued support!

That means there's like... 305 days left? 306 cause of leap year??? Roughly 300

In case you're curious about the votes:

Dragon Girl Green - 6 votes Three Frilled Clovradon - 1 vote Percipitar - 2 votes Howl Gravwyrm - 1 vote Shellizard - 2 votes Succubusaur - 1 vote Shelldrogon - 1 vote Dragostein - 1 vote Floofizard - 1 vote Neck Lizard - 1 vote

Daily Dragon #61 - Rawrnosaur

A large, feral dragon with some odd properties. It has chameleon-like eyes, salamander-like skin, gecko-like tail, and a long lizard-like tongue. They're often found in places with more humid climates and eat tons of food constantly!

This is yet another redraw of an INCREDIBLY old monster of mine! This one is even older than the Feral Cave Dragon (which I found out is from 2011-ish) as this would've probably been before I was even in Kindergarten. Crazy stuff!

The original was found while we were helping my grandma clean her house, which is cute. Some things never change, I've been a reptile fan for life! I'm actually SO happy with how this redesign came out. I might have to go through and color it in later!

Daily Dragon #62 - Mountain Dragon

This dragon lives high on mountain tops, where it makes its lair. It rarely comes down to ground level, only occasionally to find shiny things to add to its horde or when food on the mountain becomes scarce. As such, they're a bit rare.

Been having a stressful week, so I haven't been having a lot of original ideas for dragons. So this is another redraw. This dragon from 2023 was just called "random dragon" in my files. So there wasn't much to work with aha

[troglobite]

[sighs loudly]

also still only 2 ppl have confirmed they can make it to our next miss frizzle game on sunday.

i've asked them all for info abt what they wanna do/cover in the next session before we dive into the next class session.

nobody has responded.

1 of them i already spoke to like weeks ago so we're fine

another i have one thing set, but i just earlier tonight msged her a question, and i'm sure she'll get back to me

3 of them silent (one who, still, idk when if ever they're going to rejoin the campaign bc Absolutely Brutal Clinical Depression)

and 1 messaged me today.

lacking enthusiasm. didn't even know what to suggest for her character to buy. had no particular ideas or motivations abt anything for her character to do.

and typed it that way.

blasé, unenthusiastic, careless

it literally opened with "Sooooo...."

meanwhile, weeks ago during a different session, she had--at minimum--THREE NPCs she wanted to talk to and shit she wanted to follow up on

now what? i have to be the one to fucking remind her of this and prepare it?

IT'S YOUR FUCKING CHARACTER

TAKE FUCKING NOTES

but she doesn't take notes

almost none of them do

when we played w someone else as the DM, i was the only person consistently taking notes.

they've even commented on it, now, how w me as a dm--they don't have easy access to good notes.

WELL GET BETTER AT IT OR I'M GONNA FUCKING LOSE IT.

anyway i'm super looking forward to having to scold them all like a fucking angry teacher on sunday before our game.

i'm sure it's not going to end w tears or discomfort or ppl wanting to leave or whatever.

doesn't matter how kindly and carefully i put it.

i'm just tired.

i don't wanna dm for ppl who don't have any respect or any thoughts for me or my life or how much work this is OR the fact that i'm willingly doing it FOR THEM bc i want us all to have fun!!!

so we'll fucking see.

but truly the DM i received made me so fucking mad i just haven't even responded.

like i know as the DM i should keep track of some things, but this is a WEIRD CAMPAIGN.

they are in a static location for most of the in-game week, w scheduled outings in controlled circumstances. there is also an overarching plot that can only really be explored in those in-between days in-game.

so they have COMPLETE CONTROL over what they do--more so than a regular campaign where i populate it with whoever and whatever i want on the fly or ahead of time

bc the world is consistently populated and the same around them. the NPCs are always around. they can talk to them whenever.

so i simply ask them

hey what do you think your character did during the week? is there anything they wanna do or accomplish, or anyone they wanna talk to? can you let me know ahead of time?

bc they're all students.

they are not in a position, currently, to have ppl calling THEM in for meetings--except in specific circumstances, one of which has already happened.

they also aren't wandering around meeting strangers.

so they have a lot of agency here, and i want them to exercise it and clue me in so i can provide what they want.

and nobody is engaging.

and i'm really sick of it.

so we'll see how it goes.

[grimgrinnr]

hostmortem replied to your post: “Genuine question Should I make a sin side blog for...”

// i like having my smut on a sideblog because it lets me rb nsfw aesthetic stuff and musings too, so i'd say go for it

That is

A fair point

The only counter argument I can think up is that I... Do not know how to find any of those dcfgvhbjnkm

[jinkookspencil]

take off your glasses | jjk

your eyeglasses gave you sight and comfort, but jungkook looked too sexy wearing his....

description/tw/tags: ~2.1k words / jungkook just finished recording his birthday message for jimin.... and he looked too good in glasses / SMUT (minors DNI) / established relationship / y/n is a little insecure

author's note: inspired by two things: jungkook's birthday message to jimin which was so unnecessarily sexy, AND namjoon jokingly told jk "take off your glasses" in an episode of run and something switched inside me at those words... >.< this is so smutty that idk if i feel comfortable enough sharing to the point where i'm actually considering just doing a jk style complete delete of it with time.... we'll see. as always, any feedback is welcome! <3

“Ah, Jiminie will laugh at that,” Jungkook boasts as he put away his phone. “I guess I have to start recording video messages for all my hyungs now.”

“That’s nice of you,” you utter, sat across from him at the desk, head buried in the book you were reading.

“Baby…” It’s Jungkook’s voice only louder and the air around you had shifted, you realize. Looking up from your book, you found Jungkook standing right behind you.

You had been so immersed in your book you never took in Jungkook’s presence that night - and judging by the way he called you and started rubbing your shoulders, he seemed to be getting needy... But as you look up at him, you realize you also never took in how he looked tonight, the weight of it all hitting you all at once. Towering over you, Jungkook’s long hair - which you had always adored - was ruffled as though he played with it, sleeves rolled up to reveal the tattoos on his arm while his chest peeked through a couple of undone buttons, and the thing that got you the most…. he was wearing his glasses…

It shocked you when you found out earlier on in your relationship that Jungkook had poor vision too, since he seemed so perfect. But it also helped you feel more at ease for some weird, unknown reason - like you were glad bad eyesight was yet another thing he understood you on, added to the endless list of shared problems, mindsets, beliefs, and interests that always made your relationship feel safe. Yet, unlike you, he always preferred contacts and only wore glasses rarely around the house. The sight of it - and him - took you by surprise.

“Hey,” you say, taking in the sight of him, your shoulders hunched together.

“Hey,” he laughs at your sudden reaction, as if you hadn’t been in the same room for over an hour after he came home from working late at the studio. “Good book, huh?”

“Glasses,” you point out, tilting your head and ignoring his question. “I like it. You should wear them more often.”

“Thanks, but….eh,” he shrugs. “You know I prefer contacts, but I think I need to give my eyes a break from them...”

“Still, you look…really…good. At least wear them more often around the house, for me?”, you stare up at him through your lashes and flash him a smile, rubbing his arm, unaware of the entire effect that’d have on him.

Jungkook rolls his eyes and pokes the inside of his cheek with his tongue. “Sure, baby,” he says, kissing the top of your head. “But this is a two-way deal, you have to try contacts for me too.”

All you can do is sigh. While Jungkook preferred contacts, you preferred glasses - and for many reasons, as you have made clear to him all the other times he asked you to take them off. Firstly, you were clumsy and the idea of poking at your eyeball regularly felt like a disaster waiting to happen, not to mention it freaked you out, especially the horror stories of people forgetting to take out their contacts. Secondly, someone mentioned once that there were different types and it just seemed like a hassle. And, the biggest reason: glasses helped hide your face. You just never liked the way your face looked. Plus, it didn’t help that your ex once shrieked when you took off your glasses in front of him and told you to keep them on… 

Jungkook’s entirely different. He knew you could be insecure, but instead of feeding your insecurities he never passed an opportunity to tell you that you were beautiful and hype you up, whether you were wearing your glasses or not.... the not being while you got ready every day or during sex and really intense make-out sessions when they just kept getting away.

“Jungkook, you know I -“

“I know, but baby, you’re so beautiful,” he resigns. “I wish you knew that. If only you could see yourself the way I see you. Do you at least see the face I make when you take them off while we kiss?!”

“.....I thought it was just because we're in the heat of the moment.”

“Baby…”, he shakes his head, taking yours in his hands. “It’s like that scene in Business Proposal - it’s funny that I get why girls love that scene more than you do. It’s sexy. YOU are sexy.”

You raise your eyebrows at him, looking down in denial and at your outfit, wondering if you wore anything different that drove Jungkook crazy, but it was just one of his t-shirts and your short shorts that he liked.... but it was nothing special.

“Look at me,” he says, a commanding tone in his voice that you couldn’t ignore. “Take off your glasses.”

“If I take off my glasses I can’t look at you, Jungkook,” you say with a sarcastic tone, but Jungkook doesn’t take any of it, bending down until he was a breath away from your face.

“You can now.”

Your hand reaches up to the frames that sat on your face, and the second you take them off Jungkook’s lips meets yours in a kiss.

“Fuck…,” he sighs into your mouth before meeting it again. His arms wrap around you in an embrace, pulling you up and between his legs as he leaned on the desk. His hands squeeze your butt before toying with the hem of the t-shirt you were wearing, taking it off of you the moment you lifted your hands from his shoulders in permission. You wrap your arms over Jungkook’s toned shoulders and around his neck as he felt your back and kissed you - on your lips, your neck, and all over your face. Just as you had gotten lost in his kisses, anticipating where he’d kiss next, his large arms swerve you around until you leaned against the desk and faced him standing between your legs instead. 

A smirk appeared on his face at the sound you let out, and in a flash, Jungkook absentmindedly takes off his glasses and pulls you in for a deeper kiss… Yet you’re too stunned to kiss him back well, grab onto him, or even feel him up.

“…Fuck, okay,” you whisper against his lips. “I get it now - that was… so fucking hot, Jungkook.” 

“Wh- oh.... I didn’t even realize I did that," you feel him smile against your lips, unknowing if he was sincere or if he planned the entire kiss to get you to understand him.

The image of Jungkook replayed itself in your mind, and with the feeling of his lips and bunny teeth brushing against your lips…. you were about to go insane. You wrap your arms around his neck once again, your hands running through his long hair as you pull him into a kiss and he toys with the hooks of your bra.

When they snap open, he wastes no time reaching for the bra between your bodies and chucking it across the room, unbuttoning and stripping off his own shirt before bending down to kiss your chest. You stare down at him, and when his gaze meets yours, you feel your entire body come alive. 

He looked unbelievable and already showed you so much love… You wanted - no, needed, to do the same to him. Reach for Jungkook’s length, you stroke it through his boxers, and, reaching inside them, he grunts as you feel him hard in your hands, only for him to shove your wrist away at the elastic of his underwear.

“Jungkook… let me feel you,” you moan against his face, his forehead brushing against yours as he shakes his head. 

“Lean back,” he commands, and all you can do is obey, already moving backward to lay on the desk the moment his hands find your shoulders. Jungkook hooked his fingers to your underwear, and after raising your hips for him to swiftly pull them off of you, you lift your legs to wrap them around his body…. but he separates them.

“No….,” he says “You won’t be able to see me, but I’ll make sure you feel me.”

His face disappears from view, leaving you nothing but a blurry sight of the ceiling as Jungkook wraps his arms around your thighs. “Fuck, baby.” 

The feeling of Jungkook’s tongue clouds every other sensation a human being is capable of, you were unable to register or control even the incredibly loud noises you were both making. He got hungrier as you ruffled his long hair, and when you begin feeling Jungkook’s nose rubbing against your heat, you were unable to hold yourself any longer, letting go of him and yourself. Jungkook continued to lick and taste you, before standing up and leaning over you, removing your hand from your face.

“I missed this face. Did you feel me?,” he whispers against your neck. 

“Fuck, did I feel you….,” you reply, catching your breath as Jungkook continued kissing all over your chest as it rose and fell. “But I missed your face too….”

Jungkook snapped at those six words and met you in a kiss, his face remaining millimeters away from yours, even long after he says, “I’m right here, baby,” while you catch your breath.

You try to avert his gaze as he stares into your eyes, but he never lets you, a hand caressing your cheek while the other roamed your body, grazing and scratching at your arms, shoulders, and torso, pinning your arms against the mattress when you tried hiding your face.

“Look at me, baby…..”

When his fingertips took over and his touches got lighter, you were reminded that Jungkook hadn’t had enough… and you didn’t either.

“Ready?”, he hummed against your lips before you nod.

Jungkook kissed you on the cheek before he got up and on top of you, his gaze never breaking even as he aligned himself with your entrance. You only caught glimpses of Jungkook’s focused, aroused face, his necklace dangling over you and blocking your sight, at which your hand leaves his shoulder and grabs his neck, holding both Jungkook and his necklace in place.

“Ffuck,” he moans.

The sight of him in a flustered rush did the same to you, and Jungkook closed his eyes as he picked up his pace, bending down to kiss your body. Topped with Jungkook’s murmurs of “Beautiful”, “My beautiful girl”, “Baby”, and countless other curses and moans, the sensations were overwhelming, and all you could do was cover your face with your arm as you neared your high, but a firm grip attaches itself to your wrist and pins your arm above your head.

“No, baby,” Jungkook heaves. “I - want to see you.”

Almost in obedience, your body responds with just what he wants as he watches you come undone, doing the same at the sight of you. Jungkook catches his breath and returns to normal before you do, kissing your chest as it slowed its movements while you caught up to him.

“My beautiful, baby,” he murmurs against your tummy, moaning when you run your fingers through his hair before he stood up and pulled you up. He brushes away any hair from your face and tucks loose strands behind your ear, his fingers finally resting on your temple and your chin. “This is my favorite face.”

Jungkook nears, tilting your head downwards and kissing your forehead, just above your eyebrows, before kissing your eyelids, nose, and lips one final time.

“I'll get you cleaned up, baby, then let’s move to the bed and stare at each other all night,” he smiles, holding your face in his hands.

You can’t help but giggle. “Sounds like a plan. Can you do it all night though? We both know you pass out so easily.”

“Yeah…. I always sleep after you, you know?”

“What?!”

“I don’t sleep that early! I watch you sleep a little,” he strokes your shoulder. “Then, when I feel you asleep and relaxed against me… when I see your face, so bare and peaceful, so close to me…. It relaxes me and I go to sleep.”

“You watch me like that scene in Twilight?!”

“I do,” he laughs. “Can you blame me? I’m fucking in love with you, beautiful.”

[lavenderbexlatte]

Hello!!! Welcome to 🦋 anon's probably-way-too-overthought analysis on the m&m series in light of the new part. I have stopped crying and had about 24 hours to think, and I have discovered I have many thoughts, and this will probably be way more detailed than it should be.

The first thing I would like to address are some of the accusations Chan made at the end of the most recent part. (While I understand that they're supposed to not quite be accurate because of their obvious root in insecurity, and a lot of what I'm saying may just be like "yeah, obviously," I still would like to tell at the character a bit but I can't so this is what I have.)

Claim #1: "You fucking came at us at that party with your little girl-dom agenda and the guys fell for it, hook line sinker!"

This one's fairly self explanatory, no she didn't. They literally came onto her, even him, with his "There’s that pretty blush," and "Whatever you want it to be," lines. (And while yes, it's very likely that he was just trying to play it cool, but there's no way she could've known that, I'll come back to this later.)

Claim #2: "Nobody fucking asked me what I wanted!" "Nobody asked if I was sure that I wanted…"

Also mostly false, but he does have a tiny bit of a point. Yes, reader did grab his hair without asking, which is a little iffy, but she didn't actually rough with him until he goads her on. But I would argue that the reader is actually the ONLY one who asks him what he wants, if he's okay with things. While there may have been a little bit of discussion on the decision to approach the reader that we didn't see because of perspective (him saying this is kind of telling me that there wasn't, or at the very least not enough, maybe even some pressure for this to be the moment), or maybe Changbin said something while reader is with Jisung on the couch, after that, we don't see Jisung and Changbin check in with him at ALL, and there's not really an opportunity any other time for it just not have been noticed by the reader. As his partners, and the ones in the situation who have the full knowledge of Chan's situation, it should've been their responsibility to make sure he was alright throughout the process, even if they're not the ones in control for this situation, ESPECIALLY if they're going to keep this information from their Domme for the night (which really, I would say, wasn't a good idea, but no one is required to out themselves so I'll leave it alone).

HOWEVER, the reader does check with him, several times. She asks for boundaries/hard limits/etc before they even start anything, and while again, he's not required to say "hey, having a sexuality crisis, first time with a girl, kinda nervous," and he may not want to tip off Jisung and Changbin that something's wrong, that would be the time to say something like "I'm not feeling anything rough tonight, if you could be gentler that would be great." She asks them if there's anyone that doesn't actually want to fuck her. Also, she implements a safeword system (which she specifically calls him out to make sure he's okay with), which they weren't even going to USE, and asks them at least twice throughout the scene for their color, and Chan specifically if he's okay at least two more times besides that. Actually Chan almost makes fun of her for asking so many questions, so I think this claim is just another part of his insecurity-fed delusion that she's conspiring to ruin his life, or something, but again I'll come back to that. My point is that despite being the only one who doesn't know his situation, reader is also the only one who checks in with him.

There are a few other things he said that I took issue with, but those are the main two.

Next; Chan's delusion that reader is like conspiring to ruin his life. (Really like how you depicted this by the way, though I may be thinking wayyy too far into this.) I remember watching some video when I had one of my mental health/disorders hyperfixations. The video was about schizophrenia, and while I definitely don't think Chan has schizophrenia, one of the things the video talked about was types of delusions, and this kind of reminded me of one of them. I don't remember what it's called, but it's basically a delusion based around one idea, and then you force the world around you to fit into that idea. One example of this that I can think of is Azula from ATLA. Towards the end of her arc in the TV series, she starts seeing hallucinating her mother everywhere, and you get a peek of her fixed belief that her mother is behind everything that has gone wrong in her life, which is expanded upon a little bit in the books. Obviously Chan's not experiencing delusion to the extent that she did, but I did see some (albeit much less intense) parallels that were interesting. See, if he only talked about how his boyfriends seemed to like the reader more than him, that would be one thing, but he brings up his mother as well, which even though they did speak, it's a little out there to say that your mother likes someone she's talked to once more than you. That, combined with his insisting that the reader is playing some sort of game makes me think of that a little.

Of course this was only at first, when I was like "wtf, where is this 'my boyfriends like you more than me' thing coming from?" And then I reread the first few parts for this monstrosity of an ask that I'm writing rn. While at first I thought that this was entirely out of left field, when I read through the first few parts, especially the second one, with the knowledge that he felt that way, I noticed a few things you had put in there.

For the majority of the scene, or at least the first good chunk, the reader deals with Jisung and Changbin alone, leaving Chan by himself to watch. Obviously, as we see the reader's perspective, we know that it's because she found Chan's attitude intriguing and wanted to be able to deal with that one on one (at least that's what I got from it), it's easy to see now how to someone who's already insecure about their relationship and themselves, that would read as someone replacing you. Especially when Jisung, with no ill intent, but still, outright rejects his help in favour of the reader, and once again, he is left out, only this time it's accompanied with the sting of knowing (or at least feeling) that your partner didn't want you involved.

Now I kinda want to go character by character, and idk, talk about what I think they did wrong? We'll see, I'm not going to edit this so here we go.

Jisung and Changbin : Honestly, looking back on 3racha's first encounter with the reader, they really should have done better as Chan's partners. Like I said earlier, as the ones who knew Chan's situation, and the ones who likely pressured him slightly into he whole ordeal, it was really their responsibility to make sure Chan was okay with everything that was going on. That, and them feeling the need to sneak around with reader behind Chan's back doesn't sit right with me. I get that they have an open relationship, but there's a difference between having an open relationship and hooking up with someone your partner doesn't like, and actively trying to hide that you're hooking up with them. Their relationship boundaries may be fine with that, but idk, something feels off about it.

(I couldn't figure out where to put this and you may have already addressed this but it's my little theory/headcanon that Chan actually suspected it was reader at Jisung's place, and when there wasn't anyone there, he kinda gaslighted himself afterwards, idk. With the new knowledge it feels likely.)

Also, knowing that they were together for a while before Chan joined the relationship I think explains so much about the communication issues they seem to have with him. While I do think Chan has trouble communicating his feelings about things, I think their established communication and knowing eachother really well doesn't help. I may just be making things up at this point, but I feel like they have trouble with communication with Chan specifically, maybe forgetting that he doesn't have the same time/experience thy have with each other? If that makes sense?

Chan : oh boy. I've gone into a lot of detail already, so I'll try to keep this brief. Obviously, I think he has a looooottt of insecurity he needs to work through. If I were reallllyyy analyzing this I would say maybe a past cheating partner(?), but unless that's relevant to the plot I'm not sure if that's just me reading too much into this. Also mentioned before, COMMUNICATION ISSUES. One thing that would prevent half of the issues with this series is Chan communicating with his partners, though I suppose that wouldn't be near as much fun to read. Or just communicating I'm general, like I said, he had a plethora of opportunities to communicate to reader if he wanted something different, and didn't. So, yeah. Honestly I think he causes most of his own problems, but I feel like we knew that.

Reader : Now. I spent most of this series completely on the reader's side. Last night after reading part six, I was like "oh my god. He's right!" But then I took a while and thought a lot about it (as you can see), and honestly, I think reader probably did the least wrong out of everyone. Yes, the hair thing was a little iffy, like I said earlier, but once I went back and realized that he was actively participating and egging her on, I don't think that's necessarily something she did wrong. Beyond that, she did the most in regards of communication (at least during sex, after is another story), even more than the partners themselves. I think she did the best she could with the information that was given to her. She saw three guys approach her as a unit, and while yes, she didn't ask before engaging with Chan, I don't think it's really her fault for assuming that they were all interested as a unit as well. She had no reason to question any of their sexualities, why would she? She sees three partners approach her in unison, why wouldn't she assume they were on the same page? Anyway, all that to say, I think reader is the most innocent of all the main characters so far, though I may feel different after sitting on this for more time.

Anyway, here's this unedited brain dump, loved the new part, enjoy. Or not ig - 🦋

i've been sitting on this for like a week bc it's just so long and amazing??? and i have no idea what to say?? 🥺🥺

the bit about chan having a sort of delusion that reader is out to ruin his life in a pointed, conspired way is VERY interesting. their dynamic is actually something that i pulled from myself, in a way. i'm really superstitious about dumb things. i hate, like, bumping into someone or accidentally saying something that hurts someone's feelings bc i know that that karma/vibe/intention (whatever you wanna call it, i'm not spiritual just paranoid) is gonna come back around.

reader is the opposite. she's just walking around doing things and thinking about herself, and then being shocked when there are equal and opposite reactions to the stuff she does. i overthink everything, so reader doesn't think nearly enough.

but lemme say

that the best thing you said is how jisung and changbin are absolutely not the innocent bystanders that everyone seems to think they are 🤐🤐 most readers LOVE those two. but think about it...what are they trying to accomplish, here? 👀