#(however I'm working out a way to make being the unhealthy 4 that should just accept that it's ok to be ok BUT DOESN'T into my identity)

[sillyfreakx5]

TRANSIDS RELATED TO SUFFERING (transharmed, transtrauma, etc i can't think atm) ARE ENNEAGRAM TYPE 4 CODED

pls tell me someone else here is into enneagram i just got into it and FUCK

(feel free to ask me to elaborate i need to get my thoughts in order)

[creaman]

—BECAUSE KUNG FU PANDA 4 KILLED MY GRANDMA, OKAY?

To preface, I watched this movie and I'm genuinely tweaking right now so I had to write down a very brief (lie) criticism on this film — which you should boycott, by the way.

Starting with the things I liked, before briefing my primary points of criticism:

Po's Character Regression

Po and Zhen's Dynamic

The Chameleon

I'd also yap about Lord Shen and the death of the art style and the entire narrative and pacing and use of the staff of wisdom but my therapist says being such a hater is 'unhealthy' or something. My heart is full of hatred.

SPOILERS for the entirety KFP4 for the 2 people who care.

KFP4 undermines and ignores the previous three movies — Unwriting character developments, outright removing the Furious Five, straying from the character design philosophies and is completely inconsistent with the established lore.

Things I Liked About Kung Fu Panda 4

The Chameleon's character design

Visual gag in the Tavern where Po uses a recently thrown axe as a hat rack (made me laugh)

When Mr. Ping did this:

so cute! the little heart!

Po — Character Writing

Po, as established in the previous movies, is confident in his abilities and identity — he’s learnt inner peace, he’s matured as a character. However, in KFP4, his character has completely regressed. He’s immature again (such as KFP1, possibly worse) and says verbatim, “only knows kicking butt and taking names” — UNLEARNING inner peace and insisting that “…being the Dragon Warrior is all I know.”

It’s childish, and sort of Hotel Transylvania-esque.

Which isn’t helped by the comedy, the dialogue — a large chunk of which are jokes in the style of:

Master Shifu says something philosophical

Po quips off of it / doesn’t get it (i.e. Whoa!! beat I don’t know what that means.)

Oh, it’s great, yeah, very tolerable. Po’s shenanigans are normally reeled in by the presence of the Furious Five who are generally more serious in nature, creating a much needed balance in the dynamic — So without them, it’s just Po becoming increasingly obnoxious and insufferable with every consecutive quip throughout the screenplay.

Po and Zhen — Character Dynamics

[No more graphics sorry I'm too angry]

As if it wasn’t obvious that Zhen was going to be the next Dragon Warrior the second she was introduced.

Zhen, as a character, has no depth besides being a quippy thief. She quips, she steals. This character has no motives — it can be assumed that the writers intended on a ‘change of heart’ thing, but she isn’t established as evil, her working for the Chameleon is written as a (albeit poor) twist reveal.

By which point, her taking either side wouldn’t make sense, given that she has shown no loyalty or attachment to either Po nor the Chameleon.

The movie artificially strengthens their bond by having Zhen start opening up about her backstory out of nowhere for no reason but they have done nothing to grow closer to each other.

Small tangent, her backstory is exactly what you’d expect it to be with no subversions or even emotional weight. Woe is me I was so small and hungry I had to steal to survive. Glossed over in about a minute.

The majority of the dialogue between Zhen and Po is spoken exposition — explaining how powerful and badass the Chameleon is, explaining how ‘we have to go here to do that’ and ‘this place was cool until the Chameleon did such and such’, and the rest of their time together is spent engaging in filler chase sequences and fight scenes.

The Chameleon

Where do I even start…

This is where it becomes apparent that the movie relies heavily on telling rather than showing —

She is the weakest villain by far, not only in universe but as a written character; which is particularly disheartening because I genuinely adore her character design and feel as though a shapeshifting character has great potential.

The movie artificially inflates her power by insisting through exposition that this is the most capable antagonist thus far (lie).

The audience is TOLD by Zhen and various restaurant patrons that the Chameleon is a powerful shapeshifting sorceress and that she 'dominates the city' whilst the film does nothing to showcase this.

'Dominating the city' meaning letting her henchpeople run amock and bully the civilians just like Lord Shen's wolves in KFP2... uninspired.

I just realised they didn't even give her a NAME what the FUCK is going on

She describes HERSELF as ruthless, clever and unsentimental when comparing Zhen to herself.

She says HERSELF that she’s “Stronger than every opponent you’ve ever faced.”

Let’s see what vile reprehensible things she’s done, shall we?

Gently push someone down some stairs

Her first appearance is through Zhen’s exposition, as opposed to the dramatic and memorable entrances of the previous villains. Her motives or character aren’t established until the final third of the film. She doesn’t even FIGHT anybody until the final third of the film; and even then, her fight sequences are uninspired and she never really poses a real threat. (She goes down in two hits.)

That being said, WE CAN STILL SAVE HER GUYS WE CAN STILL GET HER OUTTA THERE I'M COMING FOR YOU CHAMELEON I'M GONNA DRAFT YOU A PROPER BACKSTORY AND MOTIVE AND YOU'RE GONNA BE THE MOST THREATENING VILLAIN THUS FAR

There's a scene after the climax of the film where all the kung fu masters and previous villains from the spirit realm bow to Po. I'm not going to provide my thoughts on this because I fear I may burst a blood vessel. Good day!

Closing Statements

To put it simply, Kung Fu Panda 4 was my Megamind 2.

The film rejects its predecessors in every way. It really feels as though they brought in somebody with no prior knowledge of the franchise to direct the movie.

It's a film that relies heavily on telling rather than showing — banking on the previous three movies to carry it through the box office.

It's just really disheartening to see studio execs turn one of the best franchises into a safe sequel cash grab and regress every character's development.

Nevertheless. I do adore the chameleon's character design so I might do my own take on her character.

As far as I'm concerned, there is no fairy godmother, there is no tooth fairy, and there is no kung fu panda 4.

[stellastra-scribbles]

PINNED POST - about me~

Made: Sept. 12, 2024

Updated: Dec. 25, 2024

IMPORTANT LINKS

Twitter: k_stellastra (retired account/not posting there anymore)

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Hi, hello! You can call me Stellastra. This is my art blog I made in September 2024, but I've been on tumblr since 2014 on my personal blog.

To tell you a bit about me: I like to draw, play video games, take photos, work out, and collect historical fashion books.

I'm admittedly a fairly shy and private person, so my posts will almost strictly be related to art and/or my OCs. However, feel free to send me a message, whether it's about me, my art, my OCs, or if you just wanted to drop in and say hello. If you send me an ask about my OC, I might accompany the answer with a drawing!

All I ask is for some basic cordiality if I don't know you.

Some Ground Rules:

I make art based on mature games/genres. My content is intended for an adult audience. I do not interact with minors (people under 18 years old).

Reposting my art off-site is fine, so long as I'm credited/it links back to me. For example, if I drew you something and you want to add it in your OC's reference compilation on Toyhouse or wherever, that's fine. Something as simple as "art by stellastra [insert link to my blog]" is all I ask for.

I can't believe I have to say this, but just be a decent human being. It's not that hard. I will not engage in petty discourse openly nor in DMs.

I am not doing commissions. I am not offering them nor do I intend on doing so in the foreseeable future.

My favorite video games are:

The Elder Scrolls series (particularly Morrowind)

Guild Wars (both GW1 and GW2. GW1 is my childhood jam~)

Arcanum: of Steamworks and Magick Obscura (a D&D-like fantasy setting paired with the 19th century aesthetic? *chef's kiss*)

Fire Emblem series (especially Shadows of Valentia and Three Houses, crossing my fingers for a proper remake of the Jugdral games)

Halo series (Bungie-era, haven't played any 343 entry since 4)

Tomb Raider series (the Legend games are my childhood classics)

More random fun facts about me I'm willing to share (if you wanted to know for some reason):

I'm half-Filipina (Igorot, specifically Kalinga) and half-white (apparently of mostly British ancestry, according to a 23andMe test my dad did).

I was born and raised in the the southeast USA.

Unfortunately, I can only speak English (+ some rusty high school-level French). I want to learn Tagalog or Ilocano (my mom's native language) someday.

I have pet cats.

I can safely say that I really started drawing when I was around 10 years old, when I was doodling in the margins of my schoolwork in the fourth grade.

I love watching 'so bad, it's good' movies like The Room, Troll 2, Samurai Cop, Neil Breen movies, etc.

I have an unhealthy collection of historical fashion books. Most of my collection is 19th century European stuff, but I'm always looking for books of an earlier time or even non-European cultures.

If you're looking for any specific resource regarding historical clothing, feel free to shoot me a message and I can point you to some resources for reference material. Should you need something specific, I'm willing take a look in my collection for you. I JUST LOVE TALKING ABOUT HISTORICAL CLOTHING!!!

Well, with that out of the way, it's a pleasure to meet y'all~

[starship-trolls]

A small update.

I've been working my security job almost a month now. However, I took on extra shifts as I needed the money for some doctors visits, these shifts were eight hours, so some days I would work a six hour shift at my original placement then an eight hour shift later that day.

Typically I worked 10 AM to 4 PM at my usual job but on Sundays I would work 4 PM to 10 PM. This was my usual schedule.

Now, below will sound quite ventish but I think it's very necessary information to tell as I do feel guilty for letting my life essentially overrun me and get in the way of what I love to do.

Content Warnings; Dehydration, Heat Exhaustion, Description of harsh Conditions as well as Unhealthy Behavior.

So without further ado; what happened?

So, as stated, I took on eight hour shifts. My job is security and at the facility I work I typically gain above 12k steps a day and my highest step count ever to date has been 23k+. This is to state my job requires a lot of walking, which really saps my energy. Now, usually I am inside and have access to water. But as my work went on I would be placed outside or need to walk outside during my break times for food/drinks.

This was not bad, however I have to note I do already have issues with my body keeping sugar, water and other necessities so I did understand I was already pushing myself further than my limit, which is a reason I wished to see a doctor. That way maybe I could find out what's going on.

Doctors cost quite a lot and so I couldn't afford one, therefore I pushed myself even further and wound up with eight hour shifts for the weekend and a day.

These shifts were midnight to eight in the morning, I figured that since these were the hours I already wished to work anyway I would be able to do them no problem. I needed the money, the time was comfortable and it was a new location that I was excited to work in.

For Friday I worked 10 AM to 4 PM and couldn't sleep, I got up and went to work at midnight and came home the next morning exhausted. I had been awake 25 hours at that point, which I already knew was bad but I figured maybe if I sleep enough (as I don't work on Saturdays) then I would be fine.

Well, another thing important to note is usually where I sleep it is 90° WITH the AC on and a window open. So, dangerous levels. Without getting into other things I have to say unfortunately I do not feel comfortable sleeping anywhere else where I live.

To add onto all of this though, I only slept five hours before waking up extremely dehydrated and sweating from nightmares. I figured since I was up though I should get ready and so I went again to an eight hour shift; midnight to eight in the morning. That day was completely fine.

Then Monday happened, needless to say all issues stated before cannot and did not leave within a day and so I was suffering. Sundays 4 PM to 10 PM followed by immediately going to my 12 AM to 8 AM was genuinely not the best idea but I thought it would help the person who drove me so that's what I decided.

The person who drove me couldn't pick me up as they worked on Monday too and because I didn't know the area all too well I spent about four hours in the sun in my already thick uniform just trying to find the bus stop to get home.

When I finally got through my emotions (being upset from lack of sleep as well as heat), the pain (15 hrs on feet basically) and everything else I found the bus stop. I was wiped as one would imagine but I thought when I got home everything would be fine and that I'd have about two days off to help myself.

Unfortunately, I pushed way too hard and I am paying the price now.

Not only am I experiencing what I believe to be heat exhaustion but I've lost all of my personal and important cards. My bank card, my ID, my Social Security Card even. All gone. Stolen, I believe when I was on the bus home but I can't be sure. I'm livid, I'm distraught.

This isn't to make anyone feel guilty as I did this to myself, some solace to all is I've gotten replacements for two of my monetary cards that are coming in maximum ten days. However my ID and my SSC will be much harder, which stresses me to no end.

While I'm out of work though (as I could not obtain my license for having my personal items stolen) I'll work on commissions to make up for lost money.

I would like to apologize properly, I'm very sorry I've let my personal life eat up all of my time. I should have managed it properly as I am an adult. I will work to do better with time management, as it's important for daily life anyway. Thank you all for your patience as well. You are those who help me through rough times- therefore you have my utmost gratitude.

Thank you for reading, I will be visiting a doctor as soon as I can afford it. But as it is now, I would not be able to be treated without identification unless I was in a life or death situation. As I am still remaining conscious with extended movement, they will not see me without these requirements.

Thank you all again, please have a swell day.

[nathank77]

5/25/24

3:54 a.m Significantly Added to/Edited 4:20 a.m

Sometimes I hate myself. I matched with a white girl. I'm always on okcupid saying, "where all the white women at??" Like for real. Only because of the location changers from Kenya, Phillipines and other various locations out of the USA.

She's one of those girls with only face pictures... she calls herself, "full figured." Sorry not sorry but if you won't show anything from the neck down, men aren't stupid we all know what that means. If you're a larger lady, show it off and weed out the guys like me who won't give you a chance. It's stupid, I advertise I'm bald and my height cause like I don't want to be ghosted and/or told that I'm too short or I'm bald if they chose honesty. It just sets you up to be hurt.

Show what the world sees and reveal what they can't slowly overtime. But if I can see you're a larger lady if I ran into you, then don't hide it. Hide the fact that you take antidepressants cause some people are judgey. No one can see that. Share it or reveal it at the right moment. Idc take the meds you need but my point is somethings you can't hide and you shouldn't... but the things that people may be judgey about maybe hold back a little and feel the person out. But I don't like bigger girls and you can't hide that.

I'm debating talking to her but I don't want to waste our time. She's prob huge. She wears stupid glasses and it's like I'm not afraid to say, "Oh I liked the one photo where you didn't have glasses." Cause I don't fucking like glasses on my partner. I have a fucking fetish for being the wearer. It's like I'm sorry to say it but I want my partner to be a voyeur of my glasses....

I don't want to stare at your ugly glasses. Wear contacts. And idc what style, color, shape or size your glasses are THROW THEM OUT. IM THE ONLY ONE WEARING GLASSES IN THE RELATIONSHIP. IM THE ONE WITH THE SHINY LENSES WITH LIGHTS REFLECTING OFF OF THEM NOT YOU.

IT RUINS MY ENTIRE FETISH IF YOU WEAR THEM TOO!

She's in Connecticut. She like Stevie Nicks and has dogs. She saw yellow jackets but I really hate glasses on girls and boys. Look at my exes none of them but Cecile wore them and she was special okay. It worked for her. I wouldn't date another girl with glasses. Ever.

Either way- I know she's a larger lady and she's insecure about it... and my rejection once I "find out" is not going to help her self esteem. She's setting herself up to get hurt. Too many guys are like me. We can't make ourself attracted to larger women. However a lot of guys are into bigger girls and they like when you're confident about it. That's the thing. The bigger girls who say this is me and I'm proud, the guys who don't mind bigger girls radiate towards them. One of my friends is like that. She doesn't struggle finding someone at all. Cause she's like I love my body and yea she ain't my cup of tea but her confidence makes her more attractive to other people and she is honest about her body from the get go filtering out assholes like me... and she is pretty. Prettier than other big girls, why? Her confidence.. I still wouldn't date her but if I liked big girls I'd go after her.

I even looked up bigger girls naked and I hate myself bc whats wrong with it? I just don't find it attractive. The oversized arms and legs. The fat on their knees. I'm an asshole but I can't make myself attracted.

Either way idk if I should waste my time and hurt her feelings, when she finally "reveals" she's a big girl I'll lose even more interest bc I lack interest due to the glasses and.... I mean let me tell you, I would NEVER tell her she's too big for me I'd just say I wasn't over my ex and I want friends. Cause I'm not a dick head but they probably hear that excuse a lot.

Either way I thank my father for calling me fat for years and making me, "fat phobic", cause I was told my whole fucking life fat is bad. Fat is unhealthy. And that i needed to lose weight and then he was proud of me when I thinned out on testosterone.... it felt so good his comment. It's all rooted with him and then my self image of before I transitioned being a fat guy and not wanting to look like I used to at all. I want no resemblance..... at all. And put me at 240 and I mean same nose, eyes, mouth. Just make my face round and not much has changed. I won't have a chiseled jawline anymore.

My beard sucks okay. I'm majorly disappointed with it. I make due with it but I see every hole and it drives me crazy. I won't shave it bc it's SOMETHING and I'm 12 years on t and I guess Maybe by year 20 I might have less holes??? Idk...

Being thin is important. It's no wonder why I find it completely unattractive. Especially with how hard I work to stay somewhat on the average side of the weight scale. That's why I'd rather eat for survival than enjoy a cake at this point.

I saw a candy bar advertised in stop and shop and I legit thought why would anyone eat that? Food is for survival. Food is legit to satiate you. And then I thought stopped myself and said wow wtf. Appearantly I'm a fitness dude now cause I love chocolate and I love eating for pleasure but I stopped.

When you have Graves disease and you eat like a piggy for years, food gets to be annoying rather than enjoyable and then you go to normal and things keep you full for so fucking long it's weird. And I don't eat for pleasure. I get things that taste good. But I eat for survival. I don't want candy. Or chocolate or French fries (they kinda are my weakness I do want them okay 😭) I want a protein bar and a thin waistline.

Also my headache went away... and I guess I'll monitor symptoms and go if I need to. Cause I mean I'm probably fine. If I die, I die, I guess.

[venus-vampire]

𝐏𝐀𝐂: 𝙼𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚜 𝚏𝚛𝚘𝚖 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚞𝚗𝚒𝚟𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚎/𝚠𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚝𝚘 𝚑𝚎𝚊𝚛 𝚛𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝 𝚗𝚘𝚠

⠄･ ⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄･ ⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄⠄･ ⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･

Hi! I want to preface this by saying that it's normal if you don't feel drawn to a particular pile, or you feel a pull from multiple piles. It's okay to read multiple piles because they both may have different messages for you. I'm planning on doing another PAC with more options in the future, but for now I hope you enjoy this one and don't be shy to give feedback if it resonated, or not.

ミ☆ 𝙿𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝟷 — ミ☆ 𝙿𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝟸 — ミ☆ 𝙿𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝟹

⠄･ ⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄･ ⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄⠄･ ⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･

ミ☆ 𝙿𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝟷

𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬: 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐢𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝟗 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐡𝐢𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐭.

Ok, first of all I feel y’all might be afraid or don't like asking for help, even to their closest friends. A person who’s reserved and likes to keep their secrets to themselves you know?  Even though you’re sulking in your room, isolating yourself from other people, overthinking and worrying about stuff, you need to go out and do something about it. It’s normal to have periods in life in which you spend more time alone, reconnecting with yourself, but at some point you need to get up, get your shit together and face the world, or your problems. If there’s something that's been bothering you, you need to face it instead of running away from it. With the empress I sense that whatever project you have in mind will come to fruition. You might be worrying about that, being like “Is it working? Am I doing the right thing?” and your answer is a big YES. The vibe I get is that y’all have the necessary skills and the abilities, but your lack of confidence makes it difficult for them to shine. I feel like y’all may have issues getting into the hierophant role, the teacher role instead of the student one. There are people who might like to learn from y’all because y’all are highly capable, after all.

ミ☆ 𝙿𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝟸

𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬: 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝟖 𝐨𝐟 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐫𝐞𝐬𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐨𝐰𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝟗 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐬

I sense that y’all may be getting a lot of new opportunities, new chances to do something, but perhaps only one is worth it in the long term. I believe the emperor is encouraging you to make the right decision, spending time working each and every option until you find the one that’s more suitable for you. I encourage you to act like the emperor, the boss, the leader. As for advice on which option to pick, you should ask the femenine figures in your life, whichever that means for you; your mom, aunt, grandma, girl friends, etcetera. You might be realizing some unpleasant things about yourself (be just had an eclipse, so fair enough to be honest, y’all may be a scorpio sun too?) Y’all may believe you are the 9 of cups, satisfied with what they have, controlled, calm and ready to face whatever challenge comes to you. However, in reality y’all may behave more like the page of cups, being emotionally immature, sometimes reacting in such a way that later makes you regret and say “Why the hell did I say/do that?”. On the bright side, this can be improved and you can leave these unhealthy emotional habits in the past. I wish you the best of luck, try to channel the tower in a way that helps you to destroy the bad things and not the positive ones in your life.

ミ☆ 𝙿𝚒𝚕𝚎 𝟹

𝐂𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐬: 𝟒 𝐨𝐟 𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐬, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐥𝐝, 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐞𝐦𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝟗 𝐨𝐟 𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐬, 𝐣𝐮𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐞 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐬𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐝𝐬 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝟑 𝐨𝐟 𝐩𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐜𝐥𝐞𝐬

I get that y’all are currently feeling like the 4 of cups, stagnated, bored, but you’re unable to see all the things you have in front of you. Once you do see it though, y’all are going to experience such a nice phase in your life. Please enjoy it for fucks sake, learn to be in the moment and find pleasure in the world around you as much as you can. I feel y’all may be a spiritual person, connected to source, whatever that may be the universe, Spirit, your ancestors or your guides. Your guides made themselves known in this reading, they really came through. Connect to your inner boss, your stable self. Y’all may be blessed economically during this period of time, enjoying things considered luxurious you couldn’t before. With justice and the ace of swords together. If you have been struggling with other people, who have been attacking you or coming for you without a reason, let me tell you that justice will step in quickly. You might take the matters into your own hands, symbolically speaking, grabbing the sword. This situation will end victoriously for you, even if you choose to do it yourself or let your friends help you with it. Y’all got some good friends and close people, so I’d say it’s better to resolve the conflict as a group, rather than fighting it alone.

⠄･ ⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄･ ⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･ ⠄⠄･ ⋆ ･ ⠄⠂⋆ ･

[nanaminokanojo]

[10:00 PM] Ryomen Sukuna

LOG 14 OF MY JUJUTSU KAISEN TIMESTAMP DRABBLES

CHARACTERS: Sukuna X You WORD COUNT: 1,202 GENRE: fluff | kinda smut? | kinda angst | salaryman Sukuna TRIGGER WARNING: nudity | some touching lol | profanity | possessiveness | unhealthy amounts of jealousy lol SPOILERS: n/a

collection masterlist

photo/fanart credits to @/Natsushio on Weibo

"Baby."

Sukuna knows you heard him. Still, you continued walking as if you didn't, going ahead of him about ten paces ahead, your posture and the overall attitude in your gait speaking volumes of your current mood. He easily kept up with you, placing an arm over your shoulder, but much to his surprise, you shrugged it off you and walked the remaining expanse of sidewalk towards your shared apartment. He just watched in annoyance as you walked into the lobby and got into the elevator before him.

"Trouble with your princess?" this nosy grandma, who lived at one of the units at the first floor, asked.

Sukuna just smiled awkwardly, bowing slightly as he passed her by on his way to the elevator. When he finally got into your unit, he found your coat lying on the hallway, picking it up only to see your jeans a few steps ahead then your shirt. He finally found you in the kitchen already wrapped in a robe which you didn't even bother tying up, agitatedly pouring yourself a glass of wine, the cerise liquid sloshing around the glass violently.

You were behaving rather out of character, making a mess out of your clothes when he knew just how much you hated it when he leaves his things scattered about. On top of that, you left the cutlery drawer open with the corkscrew you used on top of the counter, droplets of red wine littering the granite top. You just passed him by without saying anything, refusing to look at him on your way to your bedroom.

I see how it is, he thought, taking long strides to the direction you went. He eyed you sternly, having had enough of your attitude. "Y/N, what's going on?" he demanded.

You flinched visibly at the way he addressed you. He doesn't call you by your name unless he was dead serious about something. "It's nothing. Don't mind me."

"Woman, don't tell me it's nothing when –"

Before he could finish, you walked into the adjoining bathroom, turning on the tap to the tub to tune him out. You were evidently being passive-aggressive now, and he detested it when you did that.

"Just go back to your party. I'm sure everyone's wondering where you've gone," you told him, picking up your glass from the dresser top. "Especially Miss Hanako." You shot him a sardonic smile before taking a swig out of your wine, the way you said the woman’s name dripping with vitriol.

And then it hit him. You've been dishing out barb since you told him you wanted to leave the company party he was partly hosting for his department. You did so when the secretary to the president arrived and started chatting him up. He was now thinking your behavior thereafter had something to do with it. You were fine before that so it could only mean one thing.

He didn't know whether to laugh or what at the thought of it. When he decided to pursue you, he didn't have qualms about it even if you were a good six years younger than him. He knew how problematic it could get having an immature partner, but that's where you were different. You held yourself with such confidence, grace and equilibrium way beyond your age, you shared the same pragmatic mindset he had and you didn't seem to have a proclivity for drama like others your age. You hardly ever fought because of petty things and he loved that about you.

But then, you're still young and he didn't hold it against you that you're suddenly acting like a brat. If anything, he was happy about it because you were never ever jealous. It sometimes made him doubt how you felt about him when you yourself would be pointing at other chicks for him to look at while saying things like, "Baby, look at her ass. Damn, she's sexy." And now that the green-eyed monster is rearing its head to the surface, he couldn't say he didn't like it.

"What about her?" he asked cautiously, making you jump the hoops.

You sneered, the action very intimidating despite your angelic features. “Oh, I don’t know, Sukuna. You tell me. You seemed to be enjoying her company. Don’t stop at my expense.”

He leveled his expressions to you. “Well, she is something, isn’t she? Smart, too.”

“Yeah, you deserve each other,” you hissed, the anger flaring up in your eyes making him stir alive.

“But she’s married.”

“All the better!” Seeing through what he was doing, you turned towards the bathroom and slammed the door shut. He didn't hear you lock it so he followed suit.

"If you're jealous, just say so already!" he told you. He wanted to hear it out of your mouth.

"Why would I be jealous? She looks like a bad rip-off of 80s Brooke Shields!" you spat, confirming his thoughts. You climbed into the bathtub sulkily, eyes on the bubbly water.

Sukuna knew he shouldn't even be thrilled about the prospect of it. If you were jealous then that means you were kinda doubting him in terms of his loyalty to you, and he should not like that, but at the same time, you were also being possessive which you rarely do. He couldn't help it.

Loosening his tie, he began shedding his clothes off, stripping naked before you, revealing the tattooed expanse of his skin and his impressive musculature as he tossed one garment after the other.

"What are you doing?" you asked as he approached, the way you mumbled the words causing him to just sigh, feeing defeated at how endearing you looked hugging your knees to yourself. "I thought I told you to go back to your party."

He didn't say anything as he went into the tub, sitting opposite you, but it wasn't long before he was pulling you towards him, positioning you between his legs so your back was pressed against his hard chest. He then began planting hungry kisses on your neck, down to your shoulders, his large hands wandering all over your body, one already having found itself on your breasts while the other coaxed your head to turn towards him so he can kiss you, his movements urgent yet languid and gentle.

"I'm all yours," he breathed against your lips, grinning. "You know that, right?"

"I know." You shrugged, facing forward again. “I don’t like the way that witch was touching you though. And you were all smiles about it, too.” You smacked him on the thigh, eliciting that deep laughter you adored no matter how mad you were at him. “Don’t laugh! It’s not funny.”

“It kinda is.”

“If you even think for a second that anyone can have you, Ryomen Sukuna, you’re wrong.” You looked him in the eyes, your dark orbs boring into him while your hand touched the side of his face, your crimson-painted nails looking like claws against his cheek. “You’re mine.”

He wrapped his arm around you, kissing you on the temple before placing his chin on your shoulder. "Jealousy is ugly, baby," he whispered in your ear, "but I gotta say, you wear it so well."

-END-

Okay. Before I get another "untimely (and unsolicited, if I'm allowed to say) lecture" about the etymology of the word "Ryōmen (両面/りょう)" meaning "two-faced/two-sided" and not a surname or given name , let me say it now, I KNOW, but thanks anyway. Sukuna and I are neighbors, just 4 hours by train. Geez. However, I am using his whole name in literature form, so if I do switch it up and use it as a surname for him (cause heaven forbid, the Kamigami rain hell on me) it's all for fun and literary creativity. No need to get too pressed over it.

No more fighting on my comments to point this out @fushigummy @kenkinori XD

And I have nothing against the 1980s or Brooke Shields. *waves at her fans*

It's established. I love bathtub scenes although I detest the idea of stewing in my own filth. But yeah, look forward to more bathtub drabbles.

I say too many things. Bye.

Thank you so much for reading. Likes, comments and reblogs are deeply appreciated! Hope you enjoyed it.

© ORIGINAL WORK BY nanaminokanojo. CHARACTERS ARE INSPIRED BY GEGE AKUTAMI'S JUJUTSU KAISEN. [20210603]

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can you speak more to that re johns insecurities over their friendship. idk, maybe it could be johns close proximity to the relationship and not being able to see from a birds eyed view but i feel there were so many instances where paul really showcased his loyalty to john and their bond. ie being there and defending him during the Jesus affair, actually trying to understand his and yoko’s relationship (albeit not enthusiastically, but none of them truly did in the beginning, however you have Paul in the let it be tapes discussing trying to understand John & Yokos relationship and explaining it’s importance to John to the rest of the gang). paul going with j&y to sir John lockwood’s office when two virgins was going to be released and providing his support. Paul letting j&y live with him for a while. even on the white album, paul being there while john plays julia, providing encouragement over the intercom on such a personal topic for john. I don’t think paul is fully innocent or anything in the band dynamics (i think the way he especially treated George during the beatle years really should have been better), but in terms of john, idk I feel he really tried to make an effort at least? i take the point that heroin obviously play a part, but John was already doubting before H was ever in the picture (e.g. family way). i really wonder why.

Hi anon!

I think this is a very difficult topic, to be honest, which doesn't have a very straightforward answer. I think there are multiple things that factor into this.

1) First off, there's the fact that John probably wanted some sort of sexual relationship from Paul. Maybe Paul and he even engaged in SOME kind of sexual thing at some point — though I don't tend to believe that — but I'd say it's pretty clear that whatever they had going on, John wanted more commitment, as can be attested by this quote:

The only thing ever lacking in working with another artist and they were usually male – whether it was Stuart Sutcliffe (my art school friend) or Paul McCartney (my musical friend) – is that the relationship only goes as far as the front door and after that you are alone in bed. It's a plus not a minus. The plus is that your best friend can also hold you. (x)

There's a few other quotes where John seems to imply that, to him, romantic/sexual love is the natural next step beyond friendship.

((I actually find it interesting how in In My Life, he compares the subject to both friends and lovers, but that's sort of veering off-topic))

My main point here is that I think John interpreted Paul's unwillingness to commit to him more as being a result of a lack of "sufficient" love, not incompatibility or other factors.

2) John pretty clearly had very deep-seated, life-long abandonment issues, which don't go away just because your friend is nice to you. Ultimately, his insecurity was due to his own unhealthy outlook on life and/or mental health problems, not primarily due to how Paul treated him.

3) I do think though, that Paul just is a kind of emotionally closed off person who also doesn't tend to express his feelings with words. John was probably a "Words of Affirmation" kind of guy. I get the impression from that dialogue where John is saying "Do you hate me? I'm crazy, you know?" that he's heavily baiting Paul to contradict and thereby reassure him. It's both an indirect way to get external help to alleviate your insecurities and, with people who don't really "think" of saying nice things, it can give them the idea to go out of their way to express their affection.

Also don't necessarily see Paul as an apologetic person who sought reconciliation after he'd messed up, which several people have attested John actually was. This would definitely be frustrating and contribute to insecurities.

4) I think it's quite likely that some part of John wanted Paul to push back against Yoko and "claim" John for himself, but Paul tended to take what John said at face value and instead tried to support JohnandYoko, which John may've interpreted as Paul simply not caring about who John was with. John seems to have kind of had a habit of saying one thing to Paul and hoping he guessed that he actually meant the opposite, like with The Family Way. It comes across as some twisted idea of what it means to be a friend, that true friends are mindreaders. Where he got this idea from, I'm honestly not sure, but I can fully believe that before the end of touring they were more on each other's wavelength generally, because they spent so much time together, and maybe John missed that later on.

5) LSD: I think John probably felt some kind of hurt from the fact that Paul wouldn't take the leap and drop acid with him for months. This probably made him somewhat doubt Paul's overall loyalty.

6) Heroin: From what I can tell, the biggest issue within their relationship that H contributed was making it generally harder for John to relate to the world outside his bubble and severely dampening his communication skills, which worsened some of the above points.

7) John might've felt like their friendship was built on John being the dominant leader, who set the pace, and if Paul was starting to be more in control, this could mean that John would one day no longer be necessary, which would've flared up his abandonment issues.

I think that's all my theories, others are free to add factors they think are relevant!

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May, I request a headcanon for fallout 3, fallout new vegas, and fallout 4? Yandere companions with Lone/Six/Sole, basically how they develop their secret obsession for them and what type of yandere they would be

Yandere Headcannons Part 1: FO3 Companions + Gob and Nova

So, Imma be honest, I'm not suuuuper familiar with yandere characters, but I did my best 😅 I decided to do something a little different than your standard headcannons, but hopefully this is still along the lines of what you were looking for!

I found a Yandere HCs Alphabet that was pre-made on tumblr (I don't remember where, I'm sorry!) BUT it is just with the letters from the companion's first names (or what I tend to call them by when I do my reactions and such). It'll make sense, I hope. Repeated letters were improvised to make it work with the system I made.

I hope you like it!

(The other two parts with FO4 and FONV Companions are on the way as well!)

Also, TW for typical Yandere behavior: Possessiveness, unhealthy relationships, manipulation, cruelty, and mentions of torture ahead.

Butch:

B) Blood. How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

Butch isn’t out for blood. Even if Lone doesn’t quite cooperate with what he has planned for them, he won’t turn violent to the point of really injuring them. However… he is willing to manhandle them a bit if he feels as though he has to. If only so he doesn’t have to lose them again.

U) Unique. Would they do anything different from classic yandere?

He wouldn't be as threatening as traditional yandere characters. He would still obsess over Lone, and would even manipulate them (without realizing it), but he wouldn't be able to physically hurt them. Specifically, he also wouldn't be able to hurt the people Lone cares about, even in order to distance them from anyone but himself. He wants Lone to love him and be dependent on him, but he definitely wouldn't go so far as to kill someone they cared about just to increase their dependence on him.

T) Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream/cry/or isolate themselves?

He feels sorry for them, he doesn’t enjoy seeing them unhappy, but he is never able to accept that he's the cause of their tears and anguish.

He’ll try to comfort his partner when he sees that they’re in pain, but if they continually try and convince him that he’s the one who caused their suffering, he won’t have it. He passes it off as delusion and leaves them alone to cool off before coming back to see if they feel any better after they’ve thought about it.

C) Cruelty. How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

He might sometimes bring up some insensitive jokes (it wouldn’t be the first time he’s poked fun at Lone), but he wouldn’t be particularly cruel. He wouldn’t mean some of the rude things he says, it’s just his way of expressing himself, and he’d make it clear to Lone afterwards that they were never meant to take his insults seriously.

Overall, he'd treat his partner well. He doesn't see what he's doing as "abduction," per say, he just sees it as a very co-dependent relationship. Why would he be cruel to his partner if they are happily in a relationship?

H) Hell. What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

Bad haircuts (just kidding, sorry.)

Butch doesn't consciously try, but he does blame Lone for what he's doing to them now. They were the one who left him in the vault. Alone. Twice. They should have known that he would go to drastic measures to keep that from happening again. If they feel trapped, or unhappy and they express it to him, he turns right around and shoves the blame onto them; which, over time, takes quite the mental toll on them. Again, he doesn't know that he's manipulating his partner to the point of them being unable to trust their own judgement, but it would be a symptom of his obsession and control nonetheless.

Charon:

C) Cruelty. How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

Charon wouldn’t ever be cruel to his partner, but he would be firm with them. Control is the only way Charon has ever experienced affection, it’s all he knows, so when it comes to Lone, this would be his only way of expressing his dedication to them. As long as they follow his orders, he's remarkably cordial with them. He has no interest in mocking them, and would try to keep from harming them in any way. He does care for them, after all.

H) Hell. What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

If Lone tried to escape him, Charon would be very strict. He makes himself irreplaceable, and makes Lone feel as though they physically could not survive in the wasteland without him chained to their side (not literally, but you know, pretty damn close).

If they ever did manage to get away from him, the irreparable damage would already be done. They would feel empty without him, they would feel helpless and vulnerable, and likely wouldn’t be able to keep themselves from returning to him. Charon will make it so that they need him.

A) Affection. How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

He’s not an overly affectionate ghoul, that’s for sure. But as the pair grows closer, he would try to express to them that he’s only taking control over their life because they’re the one person he’s ever really cared about.

It wouldn’t be obvious to anyone but Lone, but his demeanor would change over time. Eventually they may even find themself walking beside Charon with his arm firmly resting over their shoulders, or at night, they could feel him move over just to press himself against them as they slept. The moments are few and far between, but Charon wants to emphasize to Lone that he doesn’t hate them, that’s not why he needs to control them, it’s because he can’t lose the one employer, the one person he’s ever actually cared about.

R) Regret. Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let them go?

He would never let Lone leave him, and would do everything in his power to make sure they felt like they never could be without him. Though he would often see that they were unhappy with the way he was treating them, Charon would have a hard time understanding why.

To him, this was how people showed affection. Lone is dependent on him, and he provides everything they need, that’s how love works in his mind. Why would he regret his actions, if he’s doing everything one is supposed to do when they care about someone else? Of course Lone would have bad days, everyone does, every relationship has its rough patches, that doesn’t mean they should just give up.

Sometimes, late on quiet nights, Charon thinks about what would have happened if Lone hadn't taken his contract from Ahzrukhal. When they seem unhappy with him, he wonders if he's worthy of being at their side. But no matter what he thinks now, it's too late. Lone feels like they can't live without him, and he couldn't possibly be with anyone else, let anyone else hold his contract after Lone. Even if he does come to regret it, Charon will never undo what he has done. He won't be able to.

O) Oppression. How many rights would they take away from their darling?

He would do absolutely everything for his partner if he could. That’s the way he knows how to show his dedication to them.

That being said, he’s not going to force them to eat out of the palm of his hand or anything like that. But he will scavenge/hunt and make the meals for them, he’ll provide water, he’ll watch over them when they sleep, he’ll ensure their armor is clean and well taken care of and he’ll keep a wary eye on them at all times, ensuring their safety under every circumstance. Again, he wants Lone to be unable to live without him, but he doesn’t want to reduce them so much that they feel like nothing more than a helpless child again. He just wants to be as present in their life as possible, as necessary as he can be, so that they can never feel ready to leave him for good.

N) Naughty. How would they punish their darling?

Usually his punishments come in the form of denying Lone certain things. No dinner for behaving the way they did, no sleeping tonight, we’re just going to keep on walking, no going anywhere, they will just stay locked up in an empty room in the house for a day.

If he feels he needs to, he will manhandle them, but it’s usually just to get them to cooperate for their real punishment. He won't purposefully physically harm his partner, as he knows his strength and capability, but he’s not afraid to remind Lone of his physical prowess if they try to challenge him.

Clover:

C) Cruelty. How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

It’s not Lone she would be cruel to. Lone is her partner, her beloved, she loves them more than she thought she could love anyone. She would be sweet and kind to them, doing everything she can to make sure they know how much she cares for them. It’s everyone else she’d be cruel to. She couldn’t hurt her darling, but if anyone showed them any unwanted attention, Clover has a gun, and she’s not shy with it. She would make it plain that she didn’t want anyone looking at her Lone the way that she does. No one could ever love her partner like she could. Not even Lone’s father, nor their friends from the vault. Compared to her, they had no affection for Lone whatsoever. In time, Lone will even see that.

The only form of mockery would be without her knowledge. If Lone had reservations about her dedication to them, she would belittle that opinion of theirs, reiterating over and over how strongly she feels for them. How silly they were to think that anyone else could love them the way she does. It’s impossible.

L) Love Letters. How would they go about courting or approaching their darling?

Clover’s not subtle. She openly flirts with Lone, and is very touchy with them the moment they take her contract from Eulogy. At first she tells herself it's to make her old boss jealous, if he sees the way she treats Lone, he’ll want her back for sure, he'll regret the day he gave her up. Maybe he'll make her come back, he'll get rid of Crimson and just be with her...

Later though, Clover finds herself imagining all of these scenarios with Lone instead. These romantic ideas, these flustered feelings, these sexual desires, all focused on this new master of hers. After this realization, she would be even more obvious, more bold, more openly romantic and affectionate. There’s no ambiguity in the way she went about getting Lone’s attention.

O) Oppression. How many rights would they take away from their darling?

Mostly, she would just make sure that Lone was always completely loyal to her. She wouldn’t be overly controlling towards her partner, she knows what that’s like, but it’s also all she knows. Eulogy’s control over her is what drew her to him, and now with Lone… If she took away their right to speak with other people for any personal sort of reason, if she didn’t allow them to leave the house when she wanted to spend the whole day with them, if she could force Lone to put her above any of their other commitments, then they could see how much she cared for them, right? They could learn to love the control as well, right?

V) Vice. What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

Above all, Clover loves Lone. If they threatened to harm themself if she didn’t let them leave, she might stutter, or freeze, giving them an opportunity to get away from her. One other option is to return her to Eulogy, if he will take her back. She’ll be furious, and feel betrayed, and cry out to her love as they leave her under her old employer’s charge. But maybe, if given enough time, her dedication will turn back to focus on him once again. Though, after she's been with Lone, not likely.

E) Exposed. How much of their heart do they bear to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

Clover is pretty emotional, but she doesn’t realize how damaged and vulnerable she really is. She’s been like this a long time, felt broken so long that it’s just normal for her now. So, she’ll often say something to Lone that she doesn’t even realize is an indication of her pain, of her unhealthy mindset and the damage that’s been done to her both physically and mentally. Eulogy never cared when she mentioned any of this, he often referred to it as weakness. So, she always pushed it away for his sake.

If Lone can help her work through the reasons behind her behavior though, through all of her past trauma, maybe the pair really could have a healthy relationship, in time.

R) Regret. Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let them go?

She never sees it as ‘abduction.’ Clover and Lone are clearly just in a relationship, and to her, it’s a good relationship. She’s with the one she loves more than anything else in this ruined world of theirs. She can show them how much she cares for them every single day, be at their side, clinging to them and holding them close to her all the time, whispering praises and sweet nothings to them all the while. Who could ever want to get away from this? What is there to regret?

Cross:

C) Cruelty. How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

She wouldn’t be cruel, not to her Lone. She’d have convinced herself that all of this was in Lone’s best interests from the beginning. She was keeping them safe, protected, so the raiders and the mutants and the Enclave alike couldn’t lay a finger on her companion.

She might be harsh, but never cruel. She’s not malicious, but she does expect Lone to be respectful of her, to follow her orders, and understand that they will be safe if they simply do as she says.

Any punishments she issued would be standard military consequences of being unable to properly follow orders. Physical labor, cleaning, and exercises that test the body and the mind. It’s all familiar to the paladin, and it’s all to help Lone understand their place, and learn to respect and trust the one in command.

R) Regret. Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let them go?

This depends fully on Lone’s reaction to Cross’ abduction of them. If they fought back and were clearly unhappy, Cross would feel hurt, and it may give her second thoughts about her actions. Still though, she would convince herself that it was for the best, even if Lone doesn’t see it that way initially.

At times, she doesn’t even realize that what she is doing is something Lone isn’t comfortable with, so there’s no reason, then, to regret it, correct? She’s thought out what she’s doing, she’s taking care of her companion, and they should feel safe and content with her protecting them. She’s a star paladin, after all, who else would they rather have looking out for them?

O) Oppression. How many rights would they take away from their darling?

Cross would leave as many of Lone’s privileges intact as she could without potentially allowing them to escape her. She simply expects Lone to follow her orders. Meal times, bed times, wake-up times, exercises, chores, all need to be done in a certain order and with efficiency.

She wouldn’t use cages, chains, or restraints, anything of the sort as long as Lone didn’t try to leave, if that was the case, she would use something non humiliating. She wouldn’t degrade Lone and take responsibility over the type of food they ate, or how much, unless they refused to eat at all. She honestly just wants her partner to be safe and taken care of.

S) Stigma. What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc.)?

Cross has not had an easy life. She’s lost many soldiers under her command, good men and women that she has served alongside for years. The Brotherhood is not a place for the faint of heart or the weak of will and mind. Her bonds with other members of the Brotherhood have served as her only reference for the structure of relationships, and by the time she is reunited with Lone; the one good thing that seems to have happened to her in all this time, the one mission that was successful, that she cared about, she can’t bring herself to be forced to say goodbye.

She can’t lose Lone if she keeps them at her side, if she trains them to be strong, to be defensive, to be careful, to be hers. She won’t lose them.

S) -- Tears: How do they feel about seeing their darling scream/cry/or isolate themselves?

It confuses her at first, she's not quite sure where Lone would rather be. With her, they're safe, they're taken care of, they have the Brotherhood at their back, why does this upset them? She doesn't like when they are emotionally distraught around her, but it's not the first time she's dealt with people in distress, she knows how to try and calm them, or to knock some sense into them, if necessary.

Cross will be gentle with her partner, but she will be firm as well. As her name suggests, she can be very strict when duty calls, and no matter how Lone whines or screams at her, she sees herself as their best bet for survival out in the wastes. She owes it to James, to herself, and to Lone themself to keep them safe, even if they have a hard time seeing it that way.

Fawkes:

F) Fight. How would they feel if their darling fought back?

Fawkes would be confused. Why was Lone trying to get away? Why didn't they like him? Before now, they had made it clear to him that they wanted him alive, that they wanted him to be happy, and now… He doesn't know.

What he is sure of is the fact that their struggling won't make much of a difference. Fawkes won't try to hurt his partner, but he is much larger than them, much stronger, and cleverer than he's often given credit for. He doesn't know why they are trying to fight him, to get away from the safe home he's made for them, but he knows that it's no use.

A) Affection. How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

Fawkes loves to compliment Lone. He tells them everything sweet and kind that he can think of, expressing his love in every soft word spoken quietly to them, in every overwhelmed bellow, filled to the brim with the admiration he has for his partner. Physically, he would like to show his appreciation, but if Lone is unwilling to receive his hugs, handholding, and pats on the back, he won't push it too far. He would never want to hurt them.

W) Wit’s end. Would they ever hurt their darling?

(See above) He would try not to. With everything in him he would try and control himself, his desperate love for them, and his methods of keeping them there beside them. He would never want to hurt Lone, but if they struggled away from him hard enough, if he felt like they were slipping from his grasp, like they would leave him and never return, he might grow desperate enough to grab onto them with more force than he ever would have intended. He might manhandled them as a result of the size difference between them, but make no mistake, he doesn't enjoy a second of it. It's just something he feels he must do, just to keep his love in his life.

K) Kisses. How do they act around or with their darling?

He'll try and act like nothing has changed. Like they still are mutual companions, like they were around each other after they had first met. Now though, he tries to be even more affectionate. He wants Lone to know how thankful he is to have them in his life, and if they permit it, he'll try to express it physically. The mutant can't get enough of his small, soft partner. The way he can envelop them in his embrace, the way their skin smoothly accepts his rougher touch. He'll always try and be gentle with his love.

Fawkes means well, and he just wishes for Lone to see that. He wishes the pair could share a normal relationship, but how is that possible? When he's a mutant and Lone… well, Lone was everything good in the world. Surely, if given the chance, they would leave him in favor of someone more like them.

E) Exposed. How much of their heart do they bear to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

He's overwhelmingly obvious. Lone will always receive an explanation, they'll know how he feels and why he's clinging onto them, onto their relationship with such a steel grip. He is emotional, and he's not afraid to express how much Lone means to him. They don't need to worry about ambiguity with Fawkes. Even if he doesn't always understand his own actions, he'll try his level best to explain them to Lone as best he can.

S) Stigma. What brought about this side of them (childhood, curiosity, etc.)?

It's interesting, before Lone, Fawkes never would have felt entitled to anyone's feelings, let alone a human's, and a damn good human at that. Now though, after their kind treatment of him, their respect, the help they gave him without a second thought… Fawkes felt love when he looked at them, when Lone spoke his name.

He's remarkably aware of the fact that he's a mutant, that Lone is too good for him, and it scares him to death. He wants to be with Lone forever, he loves them, and he knows that they must care for him in return, for them to be this good to him over the time he's known them.

Everything good in Fawkes's life has been stripped from him, he's spent his life in isolation, and now, he's not alone, and he has something incredibly, indisputably good going for him in this period of his life. He simply can't let that go.

Gob: G) Game. Is this a game to them? How much would they enjoy watching their darling escape?

The poor ghoul hardly knows what he’s doing when he forces Lone to stay at his side. He’d mostly gain their devotion through emotional manipulation (that he’s usually not aware of.) If they tried to escape him, Gob wouldn’t see it as a game, he’d just be offended, he’d feel betrayed and wouldn’t enjoy a moment of his partner trying to leave him behind.

He thought that Lone wanted to be with him, that’s one of the things he adored about them. No one had ever wanted him like that before. Sure, Carrol had loved him, he would always be grateful for that, but no one had ever treated him the way Lone did as a friend, as a partner, and a romantic one, nonetheless. He wouldn’t be surprised by Lone’s trying to leave him, but he’d be deeply troubled by it. He’d never view their actions or his own as a game.

O) Oppression. How many rights would they take away from their darling?

He doesn’t feel like it’s his right to take anything away from Lone, not after their kindness towards him, and not after he’s felt the repression of his own freedoms for so long. He’d just ask that the two of them stay away from Moriarty, and preferably even Megaton as a whole, fearing what his old “employer” is capable of.

However, if Lone decides to be disloyal to Gob, to neglect his presence in their life, or to leave him completely, they’ll find it hard to get far. While the ghoul isn’t controlling, he’s emotional, and highly self-depreciating, and would make that known to his partner at every opportunity, consciously or not. If they can still treat him badly, if they can go through life without taking his preferences or feelings into account, then they’ll have to live with the shadow of the kind man that Gob once was, where he would take the abuse or disregard that was given to him without complaint. His unhappiness would be palpable, his misery plain on his face and in his voice. He’d make his companion feel guilty, make it hard to see him this way, in hopes that they would change, that they would grow to accommodate him more than they already have, that they would do what he wished without him needing to ask.

B) Blood. How messy are they willing to get when it comes to their darling?

Gob would never hurt the one he loves. He knows what it’s like to feel like a slave, like a prisoner, to be mistreated every day, and he would never wish that pain on the one that was so kind to him when they met, the one he now calls his love. Gob wouldn’t even know how to harm his partner, he could never see himself acting the way that Moriarty did for so long.

If anything, he might spill blood for them if need be. He's not a violent man, but Gob wouldn't hold back when it comes to trying to protect his Lone. He hopes it never comes to that, but after everything they've done for him, he'd give his life for the one he loves.

Jericho:

J) Jealousy. Do they get jealous? Do they lash out, or find a way to cope?

Jericho? Jealous? 100%. He gets jealous remarkably easily, and isn’t afraid to voice it to both Lone, and anyone in their close vicinity.

It mainly stems from his own insecurities with his age and appearance, but he has no doubt in his mind that he is the one for Lone. He can and will protect them from anyone and everyone else. He’ll be at their side constantly, so why would they need anyone other than him in their life?

They won’t. They never will. And if they decide to pay anyone else any mind at all, Jericho will ensure that that person never shows their face around him and Lone again, if he even lets them go alive.

Odds are Lone will be at the receiving end of a few colorful choice phrases at a loud volume, and in the contact zone of any flying objects that Jericho may feel the need to smash against nearby walls and furniture, if he finds that they showed any indication of even the slightest interest in someone else.

E) Exposed. How much of their heart do they bear to their darling? How vulnerable are they when it comes to their darling?

If he drinks enough, he can get emotional, and even apologetic. But this is the one and only time he will let himself be vulnerable, and if Lone ever tries to bring it up, he denies it, saying they must be delusional.

Other than that, he keeps himself removed from his emotions. He’s got a pretty hard shell after running with raiders for so many years. The groups he fought alongside weren’t known for their empathy.

R) Regret. Would they ever feel guilty about abducting their darling? Would they ever let them go?

See E. When he gets in his emotional states, Jericho can get a little apologetic, but he'll never regret it to the point of letting Lone go. He still believes they're his, and that they wouldn't survive the harsh wasteland without someone like him looking out for them.

So, no. He doesn't regret having them as his. But he may feel a pang every once in awhile when the thought crosses his mind that they don't want to be there with him, that, if given the opportunity, they'd leave his ass on the spot. He's not as sick of a bastard as he used to be, or as he thinks he still is, and part of him wishes Lone would want to be with him of their own accord; but whether or not that's true, he could never bring himself to let them go, now that he knows what it's like to have them at his side.

I) Ideals. What kind of future do they have in mind for/with their darling?

Jericho wants Lone by his side until he perishes. Or they do. Whichever comes first.

He’s not huge on family aspirations. He's an older guy, kids are messy and loud, hard to take care of (especially in the Capital Wasteland), and a huge burden… but if the opportunity for Lone and him to raise a child did present itself… He knew he’d be shit at being a father, but having someone to pass along his name, to remind the world that he existed, to leave a mark like that, even after all he’s done… That doesn’t sound too bad.

C) Cruelty. How would they treat their darling once abducted? Would they mock them?

He won’t mock Lone. Unless they’re blubbering like a baby. Then he considers his insults warranted. If they go along with Jericho, if they don't try and leave or fight him, he won’t be too nasty to ‘em.

If they want to fight though… Jericho knows how to break folks. He’s done it longer than Lone’s been alive. It won’t bring him the kind of satisfaction it did when he tortured people he didn’t care about, but he’ll do what he feels needs to be done. He’s not big on tracking down people Lone cares about, so he’ll go for what he knows as far as keeping them obedient. All the shit they used to do to their prisoners as raiders; the torture, the starvation, the maiming, the sleep deprovision, it’s all on the table. Unless Lone does what he wants. Then it’s all nice and simple.

H) Hell. What would be their darling’s worst experience with them?

If Lone doesn’t come quietly and do as they’re told, see above. Jericho doesn’t mind a little bit of a fight, it’s something he’s always admired about Lone. But if they try and get away in earnest, very little is off the table for him.

O) Oppression. How many rights would they take away from their darling?

Look, he doesn’t want to baby them. Lone can eat, and drink, and sleep, and clean themself however the hell they want.

However, they go where he wants to go and on his time. When he says to fight something, they do. When he says they’re gonna stand down, they do. If he wants to take out a few innocent traders and have Lone sell their wares in a city, they’d better play along nice, or there'll be hell to pay.

He’s got weapon coverage for the most part, but he may allow them to have a gun if he's to the point where he trusts them not use it on him. Lone stays in front of him, in his sights at all times. That’s non-negotiable.

Nova:

N) Naughty. How would they punish their darling?

She’d punish her love mostly by taking away some of their rights. She’ll give them the silent treatment, refuse to touch them, to look at them. Anything she usually provides them with is off the table when they’ve done something she doesn't like. Nova makes their life blissful when she’s in it, makes it so they never want to let her go, just as she never wants them to leave. Piss her off though, and that blissful life she’s provided for them is snatched away until Lone can make up for it. Then it’s back to the same devotion and caretaking she just knows they can’t live without. Nova likes to remind her partner how much better off they are with her in their life, at their beck and call; and how shitty their life can be when they do something she disagrees with.

O) Oppression. How many rights would they take away from their darling?

Slowly but surely, Nova tries to weave others out of Lone’s life. She wants herself to take precedence and priority over all else. So, she takes away their freedom. But so slowly, so subtly, that they themselves don’t even notice how things have changed after they’ve been together a while. They start going places Nova likes, drinking and eating what she prefers, seeing the people she likes to associate with, and never speaking to anyone she doesn’t allow them to. Loyalty is extraordinarily important to her now that she herself is devoted to only one person, and she won’t stand for anyone potentially taking a piece of Lone’s heart. Not when it belongs to her.

V) Vice. What weakness can their darling exploit in order to escape?

Nova would never want them to leave her. After she’s found them, or they found her more like, she feels like she’s been saved. How could she go back to Moriarty, go back to being who and what she was, now that she knows what it is to be treated right? Lone is free to leave her, if that’s what they want, odds are she can’t stop them. She’s not as adept with weaponry as they are, that’s for certain, and she’s not particularly strong, or more cunning than anyone else, if they want to leave, they merely need to take advantage of all that. But if they do go, they’ll have to live without her, and she’d ensure that that, even the thought of that, would be nearly impossible for them to bear.

A) Affection. How do they show their love and affection? How intense would it get?

Anyone who didn’t know the couple well would say they looked like the perfect match for one another, that they looked as happy as they could be, with the way she looks at Lone, the way she hangs off of them, and leans against them, and holds onto them. Nova is always touching her partner, ensuring that they notice when she’s not beside them. Because really, where else should she be? The crook in their arm exists to fit hers perfectly inside. The spaces between their fingers exist only for her own to fill them. Their lips are so easy to pucker in order for hers to meld so effortlessly into them.

Lone was made for her, she’s known that from the start. The way they treated her… So kind, so sympathetic, the way they cared for her, and never seemed to take advantage of her, the way everyone else did. It’s clear that they were made to be hers; and her, theirs. She wouldn’t hesitate to show it, not ever.

[itsastrobixch]

hello 🖤 I will also be going through your posts to try and answer my questions myself… but because asks are open I thought I’d send it in as well just in case you have ideas on it.

I’m going to list 4 placements but of course ignore one or more of them if it’s not relevant or you don’t have ideas related to it… Virgo Sun, Scorpio Moon, Libra Venus, Gemini Mars.

Questions- So I am about to turn 30, but have never dated before in my life let alone had sex with anyone. I want to meet another woman and start a relationship but I barely know where to look or how to start and honestly I’m such a particular person it just seems unlikely. I know I can be happy (and sexually pretty active and physically fulfilled) alone, so that is good. I’m not distressed by this too much. But it surprises me how much this has stumped me. Do I even know who I want to be with? Where will someone like her be? Do I know how to be attractive to who I am attracted to, or keep up with a relationship long term? Is there anyone who would fully agree with having our relationship be private/secret but also dedicated and monogamous? Should I give up on that?

Those questions may be to diffuse to answer. If you don’t want to approach that but maybe want to answer a question, my second one is more concrete. Basically I am about to become the leader of something I am apart of. What likely mistakes to avoid?

If you don’t answer that’s fine. Thank you

Heya 🤗

I'm not an expert on leadership skills..but uh..i can offer u some tips I know .

1. Always consult with your team if you're taking any major decisions which will affect them too.

2. Don't show favouritism among ur team members however much you're close to certain people there.

3. Show your team that you understand and know them.

4. If u come under the fire be prepared to take the brunt. At that time u can't point hands. That's not the situation for it.

Now that that's over moving on to the more important part,

Didn't want this to go public but since it's anon we've to work with that. See...love all of your worries in the first part are... normal and natural worries. Social anxiety or anxiety about life if u will. Maybe you are overwhelmed rn. Astrology, sometimes doesn't hold answers to all of our worries and I'm saying this as an astrologer. Like ..there are sometimes when life is shitty and it's not always related to planets and retrogrades. You go through stuff you don't deserve. In your case, these questions u just asked me are the ones you've to be asking yourself darling. Reflect on yourself. Yes you say you're happy and content with being alone, but if u were really happy about that u wouldn't have worried about it right ? Sit down and think. Why do i miss out chances on relationships. There are no mistakes, in terms of why you're single. I'm not asking u to see where you're going wrong cause you aren't. U just haven't found the person who'll embrace u whole I'll say.

TO ALL THE ASTROLOGERS ,

when people like anon come to u with life issues pls don't try to relate that to astrology. Don't make it their escape. If they need life advice give them that. However much we know. People are desperate. They wanna know why the things that they're going through are going a certain way. It's unhealthy for us and them to make it All about astrology. It's time we acknowledge that not all things is astrology, especially life issues like this, and that not always will we find an answer to shitty stuff in astrology. Pls let us stop encouraging the idea that if they're going through some shitty times, it's solution can be found in astrology. This makes them codependent on astrology and they always look to it to find answers that won't be there in the charts but in themselves.

The answer to why you're single won't be in the planets love. It's in you. You can't look at placements and figure out why that is. Sure there may be some planetary influence like Saturn or some asteroid delaying things but that is not an excuse for you to just make that the reason why you're single uk. Nothing in astrology is concrete. All planets do are just give us the blueprint and we choose how to move based on that.

Ik this could be a controversial take. If anyone has any questions..or clarifications or Just about anything..just DM me.

[transsexualhamlet]

I feel like Exposing Myself online today so here's a completely unasked for, in depth bulleted list explanation of why I kin which bsd characters. the short answer is i am very mentally ill feel free to come into my asks and roast me bc of this

NIKOLAI

first of all thats my gender sir. i wish to dress and present myself like him

superiority and individuality complexes to the extreme

would kill/die/commit heinous acts for my good sir fyodor dostoyevsky (and anyone else I cared about)

if i think about society too hard i want to murder everyone and am filled with existential horror and disgust

that good old deep set desire to make everyone i love despise me so they'll know who i truly am

"I am completely sane /neg"

if anyone slightly normal likes anything about me i need to change it immediately

every torment i experience is entirely on purpose and my fucking fault

every single way i am perceived is wrong yet please i need to be perceived objectively because i as a human cannot see myself from all angles

DAZAI

called the FUCK out by irl dazai's works

strong desire to fuck around and find out as in "if i am reckless and put myself into dangerous places and situations then I might gain calvin+hobbes style 'character' and my own feelings will then be valid"

acting silly and speaking of serious issues like jokes to distract from Constant Internal Crisis

my one true love, unhealthy coping mechanisms

no filter and no idea of what is socially acceptable

generally just kind of a shitty person who says "i'm gonna change" and keeps doing the same goddamn thing because they can't be bothered to go through the emotional pain so has just decided that they are a Bad Person and not do actually put effort into becoming better

"i hate pain" as an oxymoron

goes through elaborate hoops to make sure people don't think of them highly

hasn't managed to keep any friends from more than 4 years ago (for understandable reasons)

the mortifying ordeal of being known

deep emotional need for people to call me slurs so i feel special<3

RANPO

lists off the entire autism diagnostic criteria and related symptoms

i like literally every single thing i could think of that i kin him is related to neurodivergency ie:

his blunt style of speech, sounding rude, knowledge in academic areas but deficient in social, always a complete mess, different way of thinking about Everything, age under/overestimated etc etc etc

oh also i love his awful style he is wearing his tie backwards me too buddy

praise praise praise praise praise gimme gimme gimme gimme

takes any criticism absolutely HORRIBLY aka rejection sensitive dysphoria

POE

GENDER GENDER GENDER GENDER

desire to always have my hair entirely covering my face

spending insane amounts of money on people i care about

remembering people for years as a huge impact on my life and having them not remember me at all

trying to be "mysterious" and ending up just a huge nerd

always carrying around giant stack of books

literally always writing and a large amount if not all of my writing is to please those few people who understand me

KYUU/Q

kyuu is. not an important character and has not appeared since the guild arc. there is not much to go off of however i think it's very important

gender. i rest my case

i am not god's strongest soldier if subjected to any amount of pain i will scream and murder anyone i can to get rid of it

there is so much rage there is So Much Rage pent up in that tiny fucking body and if anyone underestimates me or provokes me they're getting the goddamn electric chair

i am just a little guy do not do this to me please sir im just a little guy and it's my birthday

hey besties if i were given the nuclear launch codes we would all be dead

horrible distaste for any medical professional and Extreme Problems with giving anyone especially said medical professionals access to my body or any knowledge thereof

objectively someone should probably lock me up

FYODOR

hey he's got stand up and pass out immediately disease same he is a frail young lad

give me my blood back it is falling out

hyperempathy and low empathy working together manifests as "we should all just die" disease which is objectively not true and never something you should base your political views on but it sits there in my brain it sure does

as like with nikolai society and living within it and the way it is structured ie capitalism makes me want to enter jeff bezos's house and start my life of crime right then and there

ROMANTICIZE ROTTING INTO THE GROUND WITH YOUR LOVED ONES BY GOD

not to be that guy but if i was in any way capable of helping i would so join the DOA excluding fukuchi fukuchi doesnt exist fyodor runs the doa and anything about fukuchi is a mass hallucination /j

and of course CHUUYA

I feel like there are many chuuya kinnies who have much more claim to him than me and I will cede that however have you considered short overpowered trans man who is always feeling 73 emotions and 60 of them are variations on anger

feeling alienated/like i'm an imposter at being human (although this is a theme of the whole series and nearly everyone in it)

i bite and kill medical professionals<3 (you can sense a theme here)

i always get adopted into friend groups and then they fucking Leave (thankfully not by dying in my situation. as far as i know)

i had my newly out transmasc era too chuuya *points at picture of 15 chuuya's outfit and haircut and general demeanor*

i know i have said this on nearly all of them but by god his gender

concluding this you can tell i am an on fire garbage can

[strangertheory]

"anti-Mileven"

I know you submitted this as a message and not an Ask, but I hope you don't mind if I answer your question with a longer post because this is a topic that is important to me but is complicated. I've meant to do a post about this, but kept putting it off because it is a very layered topic for me and my thoughts about Mileven are probably not what a lot of fans want to hear.

I respect that everyone develops an attachment to their preferred couples in stories for personal reasons, and as such any criticism of the dynamic between two characters that are dating can feel like a very personal criticism. I respect everyone's head-canons and favorite ships as sacred ground: I don't want to tell anyone how they should or should not relate to a story. That's unique to each of us as fans, and we will all enjoy Stranger Things for different reasons.

However: I do have some thoughts regarding the way that the narrative has established the dynamic between Mike and El. And I personally do not find their dynamic *as it currently is* to be one that is ideal for either of them yet.

I really care about Eleven and I really care about Mike. They are two of my favorite characters in the story.

To say that I'm "anti-Mileven" is a huge oversimplification of how I feel about Mike and El's dynamic.

I am very much anti:

overlooking the fact El has been treated as a lab rat and abused and isolated from society for the majority of her existence and her ignorance of her own identity and her own desires is repeatedly reinforced canonically. ("How do I know what I like?") El has spent only a few months out in the world beyond her cell at the lab and beyond Hopper's cabin, she knows very little about the world yet, and she is being taught much of what she now knows by her boyfriend who also happens to be one of the few people she interacts with in her daily life. The power difference and social difference between them is huge currently regardless of whether Mike is a nice kid with good intentions or not, and they are both fourteen years olds.

overlooking that it is superficial and not representative of a "deep" relationship to only kiss and make out with a significant other and not do other meaningful activities that establish a real day-to-day relationship (like hanging out with friends and other loved ones as a couple.) There's a popular misconception that the act of two people kissing is inherently romantic and a sign of emotional closeness. But kissing becomes romantic psychologically when two people share a deep affection for one another that is based on shared experiences and emotional and psychological connectedness. If two characters can be shown to care about one another without ever physically touching, they have the potential for a deep connection that is based on more than the thrill of physical affection. Give me a well-developed relationship first, and then kissing will seem romantic to me. Without an established psychological and emotional connection between characters, kissing is merely a superficial representation of the idea of intimacy between characters without any actual substance underneath. Sure that's what kids do when they're figuring out how dating and feelings and physical intimacy work and it's not harmful in itself provided that they are both comfortable with it, but keep this in mind within the context of the other concerns I list here.

trivializing Mike's dishonesty and blaming Hopper for Mike's lying when the truth is Mike could have easily explained to El that Hopper didn't want them spending as much time together and having some space would be better. El is well aware of Hopper's dislike for their time spent together. This should have been a very easy conversation. As Lucas rightfully asks as Mike is ranting about the situation he got himself into: "Why lie?" Good question, Lucas. Good question. El asks Mike this again later at the mall. "Why do you lie?" Mike stares back at her with an awkward expression, and does NOT answer her. Why is this answer not an easy one? Why has Mike still not addressed things with El? I think there is more going on here than just Hopper's threats.

I am very in favor of:

El learning more about who she is and what she wants to do with her life outside of the desires and expectations of other people.

Mike figuring out how to effectively express his thoughts and feelings honestly. He is clearly struggling to do this throughout season 3, and it is uncharacteristic of the kid who defiantly said and did what he wanted frequently in seasons 1 and 2. Clearly Mike is not comfortable and is nervous, which is understandable for someone exploring new emotionally vulnerable territory like dating for the first time, but he needs to learn to be honest and tell people how he is thinking and feeling or else he is also putting himself and his feelings and needs at risk and potentially establishing an unhealthy relationship that will hurt him and hurt others even if he doesn't mean to. Mike's nervousness is STILL present in the final goodbye scene in which Mike and El talk, and El tells him she loves him and kisses him. He is still stumbling over his words and anxious, and he seems notably confused after El kisses him. These small details are not trivial, they are clearly intentional.

Recognizing that Mike is the first person her age that was kind to El when she escaped the lab, and given that she has only known pain and abuse her entire life and has never known friendship let alone romance that her psychological readiness for understanding a romantic relationship is NOT the same as an ordinary 14 year old's and this cannot be stated enough.

Recognizing that societal pressures and personal insecurities might be a huge factor in how Mike clings to El's attention and affection for him, and that there is evidence in the story that supports this interpretation. We know that Mike is bullied frequently, and that there is a layer of homophobia often involved. (Even if James and Troy were speaking rudely about Will, they were still directly confronting Mike. The implication is there.) We know that Lucas yelled at Mike "No Mike. You're blind. Blind because you like that a girl's not grossed out by you!" This reveals that Lucas knows that Mike is insecure and wants validation. Just because Mike has a desperate desire to be loved and liked by a girl does not mean that his appreciation of El's attention is based on his genuine romantic affection for her. Mike might be dating El because he enjoys the attention, he likes being liked, and he likes how having a girlfriend makes him feel more accepted and normal.

Recognizing that every moment that Mike has tried to share something that he is passionate about with El (the Yoda figurine, the dinosaurs) she has been completely disinterested. Since El has no cultural connection to the pop culture stories Mike loves and she lived in the Lab her entire life, it makes perfect sense that she will have no interest in these toys. Her lack of interest in what Mike is passionate about, however, is worth noting: not because it's a bad thing, but because it's just one of many reasons they are "not even from the same planet" and cannot bond and connect easily. El has lived an incredibly different life from Mike, has suffered through so much, and is still learning about the outside world and about herself. She is severely behind in social and personal development. She needs time to learn and to grow and to heal so she can live her best life and recover from what she has been through. (She doesn't really care about your Star Wars toys, Michael, because she just learned what a phone is and is processing a lot of other things right now.)

*I want to credit @kaypeace21 for pointing out many of these particular observations listed above: you can read her very detailed and extensive analysis in her post here: El is Not in Love with Mike.

These are just a few of many thoughts I have regarding Mike and El's dynamic together, and why I find the romanticization and idealization of their dating relationship to be more suited to fan-canon and fanfiction. For El to have a relationship with Mike that I would personally enjoy and appreciate, the story would need to convincingly allow her to establish a notably better understanding of who she is and what she wants, and have time to heal from her trauma and learn a lot more about the outside world. While I suspect that the Byers moving away will be very difficult for Will, in many ways I think it will benefit El tremendously and I hope that she is given more opportunities to learn and to grow.

I also agree with @hawkinsschoolcounselor 's hypothesis that Mike is projecting his feelings for Will onto El. It's impossible for me to see Mike's dynamic with El as entirely separate from Mike's relationship with Will because El was found in the woods when they were looking for Will in season 1, El helped everyone find Will in the Upside Down and saved his life, and El reappears at the end if season 2 and saves Will from the Mindflayer. Until season 3, El's appearance in Mike's life has been directly tied to Will's survival and safety. I do not think this is a trivial aspect of El's narrative. El's importance within the larger story being told is repeatedly tied back to what Will is dealing with. The reason that El and Will's narratives are so deeply intertwined has not been revealed in the story yet, but I suspect that there are some important aspects of El and Will's stories that haven't been fully revealed yet that will bring all of these seemingly isolated plot threads together. The creators of Stranger Things repeatedly tie El and Will together visually and narratively (re: @kaypeace21), and I believe there is a very specific reason for this.

I look forward to seeing what happens in season 4. Whether my interpretation of El and Mike's dynamic is fair or not, I trust the writers have a compelling next chapter in their story for us all to enjoy.

[sagessoftwings]

Hiii could I please get a mha matchup? Preferably with a male pls. My pronouns are she/her. I am 5’4, an ambivert and a Latina. My enneagram is type 4. I have pale skin, mid-length brown wavy hair with bangs, and hazel eyes. I am described as someone who comes off as cold or aloof when I’m around people I don’t know. After getting to know me, I am the complete opposite. I’m just a bit shy at first lol. My friends have told me that I give good advice but like to joke about my stubbornness. I like to make people laugh and try to make the best of any situation. However I have a hard time expressing my emotions. I’m also described as easy going and fun to be around. I also really love animals.

I am a hip hop dancer and love to perform. Dance to me is very freeing and I'm usually dancing anywhere anytime haha. I choreograph a lot as well. I also enjoy reading could vary from manga to non-fiction. I love music especially hip hop, rap, & reggaeton. I also love to write music/poetry. I never show anybody though since I’m really shy about it. I'd love to one day tho! I can be playful and love to tease my friends. I also really like to eat and travel. I am a bit of a homebody but I enjoy hiking because of the exercise. I really enjoy having deep conversations. I can’t stand people who bully others and people who are fake. I like to be honest and helpful in any way I can. My style is usually anything comfy/casual and I don’t really like wearing skirts or dresses. I speak English and Spanish (learning Japanese & Portuguese). I would love to learn ASL and Hawaiian one day as well. I enjoy watching crime investigations, probably one of my favorite things to watch.

I don’t really any fears, just not being able to accomplish my goals/dreams. I tend to daydream a lot and I’m also a big procrastinator 😭. I'm usually overthinking a lot which tires me a bit. Alone time for me is definitely important. I would say my love languages are words of affirmation and physical touch. I’m usually really cold towards the person I like lol. Only because I test the waters to see if I should spend time and energy on them. I mostly look for someone I can eventually open up to and feel comfortable being myself since I never had growing up. I tend to be a bit jealous/possessive, not in an unhealthy way though. Just wouldn’t match with someone who is very flirty with other people lol. I'm also a bit touch starved lol. Thank you so much 💖💗💕

babe. BABE. YOU’RE DROP DEAD GORGEOUS UGH 😩💦 SO SO FINE MY BEAUTIFUL

I ship you with Eijiro Kirishima!!!

HE IS SO SWEET AMD GENTLE WITH YOU

Melts the heart 😪

Kiri finds you so so beautiful and is so loyal

You can literally trust him with anything

When you first started dating he asks about everything

“Is it okay if I hold your hand?” “What’s your favorite color?” “Do you like cats or dogs more? Or both?!”

So FAWKING cute 😌

He wants to know whatever your comfortable with telling him

Never ever feel pressured around him, he’s slow and easy

Always drinks his respect women juice

Loves to take you on little hiking adventures!

You fit in so well with the Bakusquad and it warms his heart

Denki is your brother in arms 😤✊🏽

You’re first on the phone charging list

Kiri can read you quite well and can tell when something is wrong or bothering you

But when your ready to talk, he’s there to listen

You did act cold to the boy in the beginning but he’s so used to Bakugo’s threats he literally didn’t even notice

Kiri always helps you push to do your best but if you need space or are having a burn out, he’ll let you work it out and come to him when you need to

Loves that you’re learning more languages! Thinks it so awesome!!

Is your number one encourager

“You’re doing great babe! I’m so proud of you!”

THIS IS MELTING MY HEART HE LOVES YOU SO SO MUCH

Kiri avoids talking to other girls except for Mina

It just feels so wrong to him to talk to another girl when your not around

Usually asks permission which you find odd but he just wants you to know he only has eyes for you

Please let him lay in your lap

He has a built dad bod so he’s peeerfect for cuddling

Just hop on up!

He’s open for cuddles whenever you want

<33

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Hiii could I please get bnha & haikyuu matchup? Preferably with males pls. My pronouns are she/her. I am 5’4, an ambivert and a Latina. My enneagram is type 4. I have pale skin, mid-length brown wavy hair with bangs, and hazel eyes. I am described as someone who comes off as cold or aloof when I’m around people I don’t know. After getting to know me, I am the complete opposite. I’m just a bit shy at first lol. My friends have told me that I give good advice but like to joke about my stubbornness. I like to make people laugh and try to make the best of any situation. However I have a hard time expressing my emotions. I’m also described as easy going and fun to be around. I also love animals especially dogs.

I am a hip hop dancer and love to perform. Dance to me is very freeing and I'm usually dancing anywhere anytime haha. I choreograph a lot as well. I also enjoy reading could vary from manga to non-fiction. I love music especially hip hop, rap, & reggaeton. I also love to write music/poetry. At one point I was composing 2-3 songs a day but lately I've lost my creative streak. I never show anybody though since I’m really shy about it. I'd love to one day tho! I can be playful and love to tease my friends. I also really like to eat and travel. I am a bit of a homebody but I enjoy hiking because of the exercise. I really enjoy having deep conversations. I can’t stand people who bully others and people who are fake. I like to be honest and helpful in any way I can. My style is usually anything comfy/casual and I don’t really like wearing skirts or dresses. I speak English and Spanish (learning Japanese & Portuguese). I would love to learn ASL and Hawaiian one day as well. I enjoy watching crime investigations, probably one of my favorite things to watch.

I don’t really any fears, just not being able to accomplish my goals/dreams. I tend to daydream a lot and I’m also a big procrastinator 😭. I'm usually in my head a lot which tires me a bit. Alone time for me is definitely important. I would say my love languages are words of affirmation and physical touch. I’m usually really cold towards the person I like lol. Only because I test the waters to see if I should spend time and energy on them. I tend to be a bit jealous/possessive, not in an unhealthy way though. Just wouldn’t match with someone who is very flirty with other people lol. What I look for in a partner is someone that is selfless, mature and has depth to them. Also if they are really accepting because I’ve never had that growing up. I'm a bit touch starved lol. Thank you so much 💖💗💕

tl;dr Hinata Shoyo thinks your really cool and supports your goals/you in general fully. Tamaki Amajiki thought you were scary at first, but once you warmed up to each other he ally admires you, and thinks your cute.

Hope this is alright, still new to the whole matchup thing:

Haikyū!!:

I give you…One Shoyo Hinata

He may not always be the most mature person, even in the Haikyū timeskip, but he makes up for it in other ways.

You would probably meet after his first year, probably sometime between end of his second-timeskip around 2018.

Really depends on where you are, I won’t go to into detail seeing as some people might not want spoilers, I will put any spoilers down below the cut at the end of this.

If it’s during high school still, you might be a new manager for Karasuno, or even the manager of another team they are having a practice match with.

Just some things…:

> would love that you can speak multiple languages, he thinks it’s so cool that you can communicate to all kinds of people, and he’d probably ask you to teach him a little bit as well

> he probably wouldn’t care if you were ever distant/cold, he understands that it takes time for people to warm up to each other, (Kageyama, Kenma even, good examples there)

> if you told him/he saw/you showed him your dancing, he would probably be open jawed thinking stuff like “that- is so freaking cool!!!” yeah- mental exclamation marks.

> if you showed him how to do a couple moves? amazing, he’s gonna brag and go show his teammates tomorrow at practice what he learned how to do

> sometimes he can be a bit energy draining, but if you tell him you need alone time? he understands completely and will give you your time (might be a bit impatient in waiting for you to send him a message saying hi but he respects that all fully.)

> this dude would be so freaking supportive of you- I will go more on this below the cut for manga spoilers- but he’d just think your one of the coolest people ever

> if you do warm up to him, and decide “this is alright” he’d smile so big and just- hug you so tightly because he’s so happy you feel comfortable around him

> being the kind of person he is, he totally understands you wanting to pursue your dreams. he’d support you, your hobbies, all of it.

> if you told him about your song writing + that you’ve been a bit out of it in your writing he would beg you to let him read or hear some of your work (if you said no he’d understand but he’d still in his mind hope someday maybe you would), he’d ask if you wanted him to try and give you some inspiration, his first answer being “Volleyball!”

> he’s so freaking cuddly once he knows if your comfy with that, he’d hug you, hold you hand, all of that

> start of your relationship he’d definitely be blushy and a bit shy (girls though amiright?)

> he’d watch crime shows with you for sure, he might not share the same love for them, but he loves to cuddle up with you to watch them, he might play with your hair, he just likes to be near you to be honest

> he just thinks your freaking cool and really pretty

BNHA:

Ah hmmm…I give you one Tamaki Amajiki?

Its quite the flip around from Hinata but hear me out….

You are probably also a hero-in-training. You might training to be a more rescue based hero, knowing multiple languages you’d be good at containing a scary situation/containing the crowd. Good at calming people down to evacuate or get to safety..

When you meet to be honest he thought you were scary, shivering in his shoes,

as he gets to know you though, whether it’s from observing you or because Mirio or Nejire have tagged you along with them so he had no choice really-

he finds your not all that scary! The other too can be exhausting so you might drift off towards him for a chiller vibe…

Just some things:

> you’d probably bond over food a bit, and both having the want to stick up for others, (or a dislike for meanies).

> it would take a while for you Both to warm up to each other much/fully, but when you do its quite great

> A slower relationship for sure I think, even once your both more comfortable with each other, not a whole lot of affection at first though

> if you first initiated any affection (verbal or physical), he’d probably be a blushing mess, don’t worry though, he finds it easier to show not tell, so once you’ve talked about it to each other and he’s gotten reassurance from his friends, he’d probably be much more affectionate

> probably lots of comforting, cuddles, not a lot of public affection- he’d rather keep it behind closed doors. when your alone he loves to hold you hand or just pat your head, mostly small things but baby steps matter

> if you tell/show him your dancing he might be intimidate, he’d think it’s cool but he’d definitely have a little bit of a mindset about you like he does with Mirio, he loves and supports your dancing fully though

> same with your writing- if you showed him he would probably think “oh well now i have to add to my list of reasons my s/o is amazing.”

> food dates + movies/tv shows probably, he’d watch crime shows with you, he thinks they are interesting, he mostly loves the look on your face when your doing/watching something you love

> definitely lots of comforting him when he’s anxious

> he likes it when you speak in languages he doesn’t speak, he also likes to try and mentally guess what he thinks your saying

> you both need your alone time, so he gets that and respects your space, he hopes you’ll do the same

> he really understands your want to fulfill your dreams and goals, and he really admires you and thinks your really cute.

this was a little rushed and I probably could have found better characters-

hope this is alright if you want a re-match I can do that for sure <3

timeskip!hinata/manga spoilers below the cut

if you meet after high school:

> you both can speak similar language! (assuming that in this made up universe you have already learned how to speak the rest on your list..)

> imagine that cuddly hinata- but better. it’s the timeskip beef all the characters got like—

> if you met/were together when he was doing beach training, he would definitely try and teach you a bit of beach volleyball/indoors as well.

>when he goes back to japan and joins msby? you probably moved over there with him, if not you can probably make a long distance relationship work just fine

> he would brag to his new teammates so freaking much about you too, especially about your dance skills and how many languages you speak

> he’s just really proud of you tbh

> he understands your want to succeed/ achieve your dreams/goals, I mean he moved to freaking Brazil to help him achieve his, so i think he definitely relates

[spencers-dria]

Turn for the Better

Someone To Stay Ch. 1

Spencer x fem!reader

Spencer POV:

I open my eyes and glance around the room. It's darker than I remember. I must have fallen asleep reading on the couch again. I glance down and see a pile of books on the rug. Oh yeah...I only made it through about four books this time before I nodded off. I sigh in frustration that I'm awake. Might as well get up I suppose.

I wander into the kitchen and pull open the fridge only to be met with a jar of peanut butter, week old left overs, and a half empty jug of juice. Next.

I try again with the pantry. Almost completely bare. I guess this is what happens when you stop going to the grocery store. I settle on a cup of apple juice and a bag of chips... better than nothing right?

I slump back down onto the couch and pull my green wool blanket over me. As I stare up at my ceiling, as I begin to let my mind wander. But this was dangerous territory. I have to keep my mind occupied, I just have to. So I quickly sit back up and turn the TV to one of my favorite Dr. Who episodes. They say that anxious people re-watch the same shows because they find the familiarity comforting. I could definitely understand the feeling.

It was the weekend, which meant I wasn't called into work. Cases had been slow lately, as we spent quite a bit of time doing paperwork back at the office. Unfortunately for me, this meant less distractions. Distractions were good. Distractions were necessary. They are the only way I make it through the days anymore.

Things had finally returned to normal for me back at work. I was going into the field, and it felt like my coworkers were no longer tiptoeing around me. I hate when they do that, and it bothers me more than any amount of teasing ever could. I'm not so delicate, so easily breakable. Look at everything I have been through, everything I have endured. Yet here I am, still alive, still doing my job. I didn't need to be babied. So it was a relief when I felt the regular rapport I shared with my friends return. They had gone back to the sarcastic remarks and silly nicknames. I was grateful for it. They did, however, continue to check up on me. This was something that I did appreciate. They've seen me go down a dark road once before. I have no intentions of ever returning. I was stronger than that... I think. All I know is I have held on this long without resorting to any unhealthy coping mechanisms.

Coping mechanisms...oh how I wish I had something to make the healing process easier. Having a fairly empty social calendar left me alone often. Normally I would find comfort in the peace and quiet of my solitary apartment, but not quite so much lately. I couldn't very well make plans to go out, and I wouldn't even know how to begin to do that. Who would want to hang out with me right now anyways? I'd be a damper on the fun, and everyone knows it. That's probably why my friends stopped inviting me to the nights at the bar.

There I go again, letting my mind slip into a dark hole of anxiety. Its not a safe place to be. I quickly turn my attention back to the show in front of me, letting it drown out all other thoughts.

The ring of my phone quickly draws my attention away. Finally...another case! I jump up to answer, seeing the name on my screen: Derek Morgan. That's odd. Usually Hotch or Garcia call to notify us of a new case.

"Hello?" I answer, confusion lacing my voice.

"Pretty Boy! Buzz me up!"

Well now I'm even more confused. Derek never comes to my apartment. I quickly press the button letting him into the building and opening my apartment door, waiting for him to arrive.

As he comes up the stairs, he gives me a grin shouting, "Come on man! Get dressed. We're goin' out!"

I roll my eyes and retreat back into the apartment, Derek close behind me.

I sink back onto the couch, my eyes glued to the television as I tune him out.

"Aw c'mon. Don't be like that. How long have you been sitting there watching TV? Have you done anything else today, at all?"

I don't answer, I don't even look at him.

"Oh, let me guess. You've been reading all day, huh?"

"Wow, can't get anything past you huh?" I say dryly, regretting my tone as soon as the words left my mouth.

"Alright that it. You've been cooped up in here too long. Like I said before, we're going out. And I'm not taking no for an answer" he says sternly, raising an eyebrow at me.

I finally look up at him as I roll my eyes.

"You know I can kick your ass right?" Derek smirks.

"Fine" I concede. "Well...where are we going? I don't know what to wear unless you tell me what our plans are."

"Don't pretend you don't wear the same fancy button ups no matter where you end up going."

I let out a small laugh...he's got me there.

"Dinner at Rossi's. I know pretty boys are high maintenance but, hurry up or you'll make us late!" I smile at the nickname. Same old Derek.

Y/N POV:

You let out a sigh of relief as you watched your coworker approach you, ready to receive report. It had been a particularly busy shift, and you were ready to get some much-needed rest. You walked to each patient room, giving Clementine summary of the day and the latest updates on labs and vital signs. You stepped into each room with her, checking one last time to make sure each of your patients was doing well and didn't need anything else before you left. Normally you and Clem would spend some time catching up and making jokes, but she could tell you were tired and needed to be home more than anything. You wished her good luck on her shift as you made your way to the break room. After putting away your stethoscope and the large collection of pens, pencils, and markers you kept in your pockets, you finally headed towards the elevator to leave for the day.

You opened the door to your apartment to be greeted by your dog, Juneau. She was a rescue you adopted a few months back. She still needed to make progress, but she had really warmed up to you and your friends and seemed much more comfortable in her new home. After feeding her dinner and taking her for a short walk, you heated up a quick frozen dinner and sunk into your couch.  Curling up in your blanket, you spent a few minutes browsing through different streaming services only to land on The Office, as usual.  Your mind drifts to what your next few days might consist off. You just so happened to land 4 days off in a row, but you had no idea how you would spend your time. You glanced down at your phone as it lit up.  It was your Uncle Will.

"Hey, whats up!" you chimed, glad to hear from your favorite uncle.

"Hey, (Y/N). I'm actually calling to invite you to a dinner some friends of mine are having tomorrow night. I know your schedule is real busy. But I haven't seen you much since you moved up here to Virginia! I know you haven't met many people here yet, but I think I can help you make a start. "

The kind gesture made you smile. You had always been fairly close with your father's side of the family. He had grown up in Louisiana and met your mother at a college in Texas. You spent your childhood in Houston but frequently visited the Cajun half of your family. Uncle Will had moved away once he fell in love with Jenifer Jareau, his now wife, and you hadn't seem much of him the past few years. But as luck would have it, your nursing career had lead you to a hospital in Fredericksburg, VA. You felt extremely lucky to have family nearby, or else you would have been completely alone. But sometimes you still felt that way, which is why you were so grateful for his offer.

"That actually sounds great! I am off for the next four days, and I didn't really have anything planned. Who will I be meeting at this dinner?"

"Well it's some of JJ's coworkers. They're like a second family to us, and I know they'll be just as welcoming to you. I already told them you moved up here, and they've been begging to meet you."

"Aww I can't wait to see Aunt JJ and my sweet little cousin, Henry! Its been so long since I came to visit you guys. I think Henry was barely two years old the last time I saw him."

"Well we all hope to see you a lot more now that you're here. You're like a daughter to us, Y/N. You are welcome to visit any time you like. I know nursing is a stressful job, and it can take a toll. Its important to have family and friends around you when things get tough." You could hear that this was a genuine offer and you fully planned to take him up on it in the future. Being alone in a new state was taking its toll.

"So where and when should I plan to meet for dinner?"

"I'll text you the address real quick. Everyone is planning to meet around 6. It shouldn't be too far of a drive. It's one of JJ's coworker's houses. David Rossi. He's a real easygoing guy, and he loves cooking for everyone. He loves meeting new people even more, so you should feel right at home!"

"Sounds like a fun time. Thank you again for thinking to invite me. I'm really looking forward to it!"

"Alright boo, talk to you later."

You smiled at the pet name used by the entire Louisiana side of your family. I guess the north had yet to steal his southern roots. You hung up the phone. You finally had plans. It would be nice to talk to someone who wasn't a coworker.  It would also be your first excuse to dress up since moving and starting your new job. Too excited to wait, you jumped up from the couch and began to rifle through your closet for something to wear. You didn't want to be too over or underdressed. You grabbed a black spaghetti strap fit and flare dress and throw it on with some black panty hose, a lightweight maroon cardigan, and some black heels. You snapped a quick photo in the mirror and shoot a text to Aunt JJ.

Y/N: Apparently I'm joining y'all for dinner tomorrow night...is this too much???

Aunt JJ: I heard! I can't wait!

And oh my goodness, no! You look gorgeous! It will be perfect.

Also...Henry is so excited to see you!

You smiled, more confident in your choice. Aunt JJ had great taste. You had only had the chance to meet her in person a couple times, but the two of you had clicked right away and stayed in touch over text and Facetime. Sometimes she felt more like the sister you never had.

Starting to feel the effects of your particularly difficult shift, you start to get ready for bed. You wanted to be well rested for tomorrow. You say goodnight to Juneau and crawl into bed, snuggled under all the blankets. You fall asleep with a smile on your face, with the feeling that things in your life are about to take a turn for the better. You couldn't explain it...but somehow you just knew.

[cupiditity]

Hiii could I please get a mha matchup? Preferably with a male pls. My pronouns are she/her. I am 5’4, an ambivert and a Latina. My enneagram is type 4. I have pale skin, mid-length brown wavy hair with bangs, and hazel eyes. I am described as someone who comes off as cold or aloof when I’m around people I don’t know. After getting to know me, I am the complete opposite. I’m just a bit shy at first lol. My friends have told me that I give good advice but like to joke about my stubbornness. I like to make people laugh and try to make the best of any situation. However I have a hard time expressing my emotions. I’m also described as easy going and fun to be around. I also love animals especially dogs.

I am a hip hop dancer and love to perform. Dance to me is very freeing and I'm usually dancing anywhere anytime haha. I choreograph a lot as well. I also enjoy reading could vary from manga to non-fiction. I love music especially hip hop, rap, & reggaeton. I also love to write music/poetry. I never show anybody though since I’m really shy about it. I'd love to one day tho! I can be playful and love to tease my friends. I also really like to eat and travel. I am a bit of a homebody but I enjoy hiking because of the exercise. I really enjoy having deep conversations. I can’t stand people who bully others and people who are fake. I like to be honest and helpful in any way I can. My style is usually anything comfy/casual and I don’t really like wearing skirts or dresses. I speak English and Spanish (learning Japanese & Portuguese). I would love to learn ASL and Hawaiian one day as well. I enjoy watching crime investigations, probably one of my favorite things to watch.

I don’t really any fears, just not being able to accomplish my goals/dreams. I tend to daydream a lot and I’m also a big procrastinator 😭. I'm usually overthinking a lot which tires me a bit. Alone time for me is definitely important. I would say my love languages are words of affirmation and physical touch. I’m usually really cold towards the person I like lol. Only because I test the waters to see if I should spend time and energy on them. I mainly look for someone I can eventually open up to. Also, if they’re accepting because I never really had growing up. I tend to be a bit jealous/possessive, not in an unhealthy way though. Just wouldn’t match with someone who is very flirty with other people lol. I'm also a bit touch starved lol. Thank you so much 💖💗💕

Hii!! I see your profile picture is Dabi so i'll assume you'd like a My hero Academia match up. I think you would be a good match with Denki Kaminari!

You said you love hip-hop choreography a lot and have a hidden passion for writing and poetry. I think Kaminari would quickly find out about your passion since he is quite observant and he would encourage you to show off your work! Kaminari is a very up-beat guy and he would bring the light everywhere with you whenever you both hangout! definitely the DJ at your parties! You mention how you are a bit shy at first but I feel like Kaminari would quickly break that wall and you both would be very close friendship wise in a quick matter of time! Maybe even more than that after you both got to know eachother a bit more. Words of affirmation are one of your love langauge? say no more! He loovess giving you so much love! he constantly tells you how amazing you are and late-night talks are high! Sometimes you can even hear him talk to the others about how amazing you are! the others who don't know you well are quite impressed that you're very open with him but the bond you and Kaminari have are like no other! Kaminari would definitely not be flirty with others when he has his eyes on you, he would be focused on you and would have goals each day like to make you laugh and the other to make you cry of laughter. You said physical touch is also a love langauge and you're touch starved; i feel like Kaminari is a man to have his arm around you all the time, or he'd rest his arm ontop of your head to tease! You and Kaminari would definitely bring the best out of eachother :)