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teyrnacousland · 8 days ago

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Thinking about post game Illario again and the mental state he must be in. He's literally lost everything.

Things will never be the same between him and Lucanis. Even if they do get better someday, they can never be the same.

He is never going to be First Talon now. He's actually gone down the ladder, which I don't think he even considered as a possibility, since he figured it was a success or death kind of deal. The man who loves being admired and adored now has to face a future full of disdain and hatred.

He has to watch Lucanis become First Talon. Something he wanted (needed). And worse, something he knows Lucanis doesn't want. He has to watch Lucanis continue to be suffocated under Caterina's grasp and the weight of her expectations until it kills him. He's back to having to watch and wait for Lucanis to die. He was able to justify killing Lucanis in part to prevent this exact fate and now he has even less power to stop it than he did before.

Where do you even go from there?

#Not to mention that I think his life was pretty empty BEFORE all of this went down #Even Lucanis never mentions anything Illario likes besides his image and that's hardly a personal hobby #you could even argue that's just a survival tool for him it's no different than Lucanis and his knives #Illario Dellamorte #Does he have even one thing for himself?#Has he ever?#His only personal goals and desires seem to be living a comfortable life #(his likes include being First Talon and luxuries like fancy silk gloves nice clothes good wine etc)#(And 'debauchery' but that's just the unhealthy coping mechanisms talking)#He doesn't have any friends. Or hobbies. Or any general interests at all that we know about?#Lucanis knits and brews coffee and cooks and likes wyverns.#Even as children all we get is Illario listening to Lucanis talk about wyverns and going wyvern hunting with Lucanis #Everything about Illario is actually about either Lucanis or Caterina #Tbh I think getting knocked on his ass and having everything taken away from him could be the best thing to happen to him #If he can pick himself up and go on from here #He was probably never going to have the freedom to develop a sense of self as First Talon either #Use all this new free time to get a hobby Illario

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