#(her bf ended up coming over to deal with her. no idea what happened afterwards bc i didnt care! still dont either!)

[nightmare8-420]

grape and watermelon mikes hard and 6 bud lights heart shaped box,,,hggn…,

[chaoticspacefam]

For the SWTOR NPC asks. What happened to Loyat and Cytharat in your canon?

From the [SWTOR NPC Headcanon Asks List]

thank you for the ask, as always! <3

I’ll start with Cytharat since I definitely have more headcanons for him than Loyat atm! 

Based on him mentioning being Malgus’ apprentice and a very newly-appointed Lord, and also being way Pinker than the obviously-older Pureblood NPCs/the PC Pureblood skintone options, I’m assuming Cytharat is pretty Young for a Pureblood, so I figured him around about Ty’s age, maybe 10 years (~2 human years max age difference) younger if that

Vano and Kas are kind of working in tandem by the time the Makeb storyline comes around so they attend to the Makeb questline(s) together. 

Kas had one conversation with Cytharat and immediately went “Yep This Is My Apprentice Now If Malgus Wants Him Back He Can Come Fucking Fight Me” (Malgus was never brave and/or stupid enough to come fight her XD). Since they’re working together, Kas and Vano manage to split up so Vano saves Catha Niar and Kas manages to save Cytharat. Afterwards she offers him a spot on her crew and since its obvious to him that even if she might be A Little Weird, Kas obviously Cares unlike most of the other Sith so he accepts and ends up becoming part of Kas’s crew. 

While he’s hesitant at first about the idea of teaming up with Jedi/Republic personnel, he trusts Kas by that point so when she says they’re going with Lana and Marr to Yavin IV to help deal with the Revanites Cytharat just accepts it. When Kas is reunited with Rai after arriving there, Cytharat meets Ty and maybe (Definitely) gets a crush. They’re only together for a little while before the whole temporary alliance dissolves again and when Rai (and by extension Ty) refuses to go back to the Empire with them they part ways for a time

Cytharat misses Ty a lot more than he was expecting to and Kas Notices (™). She casually mentions that she has Ty’s holofrequency if he wants it and deliberately leaves said frequency where she Knows he can find it. Cytharat sneaks a few message/letters through and keeps chatting with him until Arcann and the Eternal Empire give them more pressing concerns at which point they lose contact again until one day Lana rocks up to Kas’s office with Rai and Ty in tow. 

Ty gets left with Kas and co. while Rai goes with Lana and Koth to Zakuul and the poor kid is a Nervous Wreck about it so Cytharat has to help Kas calm him down because they’re the only two people he Trusts. Kas then pulls a classic old “oh Cytharat do you think you could help us with this star chart, oh wait a second is that Ashara and Khem calling me? You and Ty can handle looking through this one by yourselves right? I’ll check on you later byeeee~” and at some point during their moving everything over to Odessen he ~finally~ asks Ty out. 

So of course Cytharat stays on with the Alliance afterwards. I’m not 100% sure if they’ll ever get married yet (haven’t gotten that far with their relationship planning yet but they’re defo solid as an item :’3) but Cytharat is absolutely okay with being the muscle of the relationship while his bf hides behind him when things get scary (which is, unfortunately, very often. Poor Ty XD) 

And Loyat!! (who I do not have any screenshots of rn since none of my current pub toons are as far as Ilum (anymore, I yeeted a few of them when I stopped vibing with them oopsie)

I have less solid plants for Loyat but I do love her and I am definitely kidnapping her she’s mine now Bioware /hj

Loyat and Aria are definitely buddies. Probably even drinking buddies, much to the abject horror of anyone who happens to cross paths with them when they’re out drinking XD

They absolutely would meet during the Ilum war/storyline. Though it’s not until after (the Assault on Tython FP) that Aria’s officially outed as a Sith plant, Loyat can probably Sense It so she agrees to go with Aria to the Jedi if only knowing that Aria probably has an Out Again if she’s managed to be in deep cover this long and not get caught.

It’s a minor wrench in the plan when Aria tries to fuckin fight Satele and gets arrested, but I’m kiiind of feeling like Loyat might go with her to Manaan. Especially since with Zenith and most of the other Consular crew lickity splitting when they realise Aria Was Sith The Whole Time. Ya girl’s gonna need some crewmates/friends, so why not Loyat? ;3 by the same vein, probably goes with Aria to the Alliance and ends up working under Kas’s Force Enclave sector, but where specifically I have yet to decide owo

I definitely want to expand on Loyat more, but for now sadly that’s all I got for Loyat! 😅😅

[rinharu-purple]

Testing the Waters: Prank Date

In my post here, I've briefly touched upon this date and it's significance in the development of Gavin and MCs relationship. Which is why here is a quite short analysis on this date.

Before we start some update on my works... I've received all of your asks and read them all, there are so good questions among them that I just can't answer them in a single sentence. But I've also received all of the analysis requests. Thank you all so much for your compliments, comments and trust! I appreciate it dearly in my heart and reading them brightens my day! 💖💖💖

All of them already have a draft, but please have just a little bit of patience until I complete them. One of the asks is including all of the LIs and therefore requires me to go through their dates as to not overlook anything. If there is a committed Victor Stan out there to volunteer, I would appreciate it so much! I'm also working on putting GavinxMC storyline in a chronological order (with a healthy sparkle of Headcanon as to which date might take place during which chapter). In this work, I put everything together alongside their highlights which might also serve as a Date/Main story glossary for the new Gavin stans and the older ones, so beware! 🥰

Without further ado...Spoilers ahead!

First things first... This date takes place right after the Romantic Date and before the "Kiro crisis" Date ;)

During this date Gavin and MC are still in the earlier stage of their relationship. Gavin is surprised to see MC awake at 6 am and MC worries about getting a cold from the wind swh. But Gavin already knows about MCs favorite breakfast spot and MC knows that Gavin can handle spicy food. The date comes to because Gavin takes MC to the shooting spot, which is roughly an hour away (MC wakes up 90 min. earlier to make it in time, but Gavin needs only 30 min. to get her there). So he makes sure they can have breakfast first. Assuring that their date starts early in the morning.

The shooting has a Prank theme to it so everyone on set is in a mischievous mood. For example the director offers MC sandwich biscuits with mustard in them, to which Gavin activates his "protective bf" protocol and intimidates the poor director. Freezing the atmosphere in an instant. BUT! Get this... What he does next earns my respect.

After this the director tries to smoothen the vibe by saying Gavin does that because he cares about MC and then offers him a biscuit (which is a pretty shameless act since everybody knows now that some of them are pranked. One shouldn't ever try to pull a prank on someone with whom they had an unpleasant encounter just a second ago). Gavin knows this so well and yet thanks him, takes the spicy biscuit, eats it as a whole and then says it tastes good. People, this is how you deal with bullies elegantly. Plus the friendly tone he uses shows that he is over with what happened a moment ago and that he isn't important enough to annoy him. Gavin had the chance to just downright rejected him, but instead he saw his challenge, accepted it and robbed him of his joy. Moreover, the director then thought Gavin had a normal biscuit so he tried one lol... What an idiot.

After the break, MC takes Gavin to the backstage room and asks him to wait for her. And than leaves for 2 hours! Once she's back, she finds Gavin sleeping on the couch, inviting her to... check on him?! Anyways Gavin was apperantly having a nightmare, MC tries to touch him to which he reacts with his military reflex by catching her hand mid air all the while having messy hair and then MC comes up with the idea of grooming him a little since she wants to see him bare foreheaded to which he replies he did, in fact, have shorter hair in the military! (we need a karma on this, asap)

Afterwards Gavin took on the role of a coiffeur and braids her hair first but then gives her the look she had while at high school (our birdcop is always nostalgic about high school).

One thing leads to another and Gavin decides to take the advantage of the situation they're in. As I said earlier, this date takes place after Romantic Date, so Gavin has spent a valentine's day with MC and met her family before that, so my guess is that he is already sensing some mushy vibes (Joe's word for romance) on MCs end, that's why he decides to test the waters and see how frequent these vibes go.

The best part is, he doesn't plan on doing anything up to this point, but as he sees her in a low pony, I think it just triggers his inner emotions and he gives in. He can't help but opening up to her about how he wished he could've spent the missing years with her, which flusters her big time. He takes this as athe signal he was waiting for so here he goes.

Gavin's 4 step plan in seeing if MC is willing to kiss him:

Step 1: Call her out on being nervous.

Step 2: Intensify the sexual tension.

Step 3: Answer her questions with questions. (keep the ball in her court)

Step 4: Tilt your head and shorten the distance...

Step 5: Get cockblocked 😂

God knows I die for his sigh by the end. It speaks a thousand words 😆

But Gavin isn't a quitter, so once they're left alone he makes sure he clears the air and explains his intentions as he has her in his arms...

Still keeping the ball on her court though and leaves it to her interpretation as to what he just did was a Prank or not. ;)

Well played Gav, well played. 👏

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Masterlist

[galacticlamps]

im sorry im sorry im sorry i know it’s been well over a year but i accidentally thought about Short Trips: Deleted Scenes (again) and it’s killing me (again) so i think im just gonna go ahead and post all these stupid thoughts that have been plaguing me about it since i first heard it & maybe that’ll help clear up some space in my head for like, real life things.

Spoilers I guess? It’s like a year and a half old but also high key the most recent 2nd doctor content i believe we’ve gotten which is like, the only negative thing I can say about it

The TLDR version is this:

I literally cant believe how sweet it is? Painful, but sweet. Like. I don’t honestly know what’s more likely - did they set out to write Jamie a nice little straight love interest and just fail miserably at it by constantly likening her to the Doctor AND paralleling the Doctor’s perspective with her ex’s AND putting Jamie’s relationships with both of them in direct tension with each other while constantly letting his with the Doctor win out?

OR - did they do a very 1960s thing and say hey we’re gonna write what’s essentially a story about how much Jamie and the Doctor love each other and release it on Valentine’s Day thinly disguised as a one-off romance with a french lady?

Now, as a general rule, my attitude toward questions like that is usually “don’t know, don’t care, doesn’t matter” - and while I 100% stand by that, I also have to admit that this particular audio seems to pay enough attention to detail that I’d kind of think I was selling it short if I assumed too many of these things were just meaningless coincidences, you know?

Anyway, that’s the most coherent/overarching thought. And here’s a disorganized list of things I absolutely cannot get over about it (they don’t form any kind of argument, mind, they just all happen to live rent free in my head):

- Celine is first taken in by Jamie being an idiot (specifically him claiming not to speak French, in perfect French); likewise, her entrance in the scene where they actually kiss is marked with a little anecdote about her hat getting stuck on a doornail and her scolding it as she attempts to fix her un-tameable appearance, and the narration says Celine “would often clown for Jamie like this” - all of which, while undeniably adorable, don’t exactly strike me as entirely original traits to have been assigned to Jamie’s love-interest (but also Celine is so cool and her perspective on film/media/time is an excellent addition to the long list of dr who characters)

- When they’re in the present, describing Jamie’s relationship with Celine in 1908, they call him her “companion” and highlight his going nearly everywhere with her, which earns a laugh from the 4th doctor (and me as well, though probably for slightly different reasons - but like, is that really all it takes to have a fling with someone in 60′s era who? bc if so...)

- Celine’s ex-fiance is still in love with her and is jealously watching when she kisses Jamie ... and then the Doctor appears beside him, evidently doing the exact. same. thing. They have the following conversation:

“You know, it’s not prudent to spy on people. But then, people in pain can’t be expected to act prudently.”

“Pain, monsieur? You mistake me.”

“Ah, do I? Good, because I rather thought you’d lost something.”

“What would you know about loss monsieur?”

- I’m sorry doc but who do you think you are, saying stuff like that and smiling sadly at the floor to boot? I 100% had to pause it here the first time I listened, just to not throw my laptop across the room. 

- Then when I recovered continued, the Doctor closes the door so they can’t watch anymore and explains “Possessing things comes so terribly easily to some men that losing them can feel cruel, intolerably cruel. In my experience, only the very best of men cannot be tempted to answer that cruelty with more - I do sincerely hope that you are the best of men.” (guess who gets described as the best of men by the end of the audio?)

- Jamie and the Doctor apparently develop a habit of walking along the river in Paris in silence

- During one such walk, Jamie suggests Celine come with them since she already figured out about the Tardis - and when the Doctor’s worried by this, he says he only allowed Jamie & Celine to grow closer “because of Victoria.” Jamie takes offense at the ‘allowing it’ comment and also refuses to admit he knows what the Doctor means about Victoria, which leads the Doctor to say that he knows how fond Jamie was of her - he was too, of course, but with him, “it was different, wasn’t it?” Jamie only says maybe that’s true and maybe that’s not, but his voice catches until he changes the subject

- Jamie doesn’t see Celine for days both times that she’s recovering from the shock and depression of her work being destroyed. In contrast, when the Doctor’s not well, Jamie’s "afraid” and “guilty” and hardly seems to leave his side at all, if his being there “rushing to embrace him” the second he wakes up - after a period Jamie describes as “at least a week” - is anything to go by, anyway. so either bf writers need to learn how to write a committed straight relationship or admit that’s not what they ever intended in the first place

- Oh yeah, and the Doctor spends that week "asleep” in Jamie’s bedroom - no, there’s no explanation as to if that’s where he was when he first collapsed or if it’s where Jamie decided to take him bc why would they feel the need to explain him being there? why was it even relevant to tell us it was Jamie’s room in the first place?

- The Doctor somehow manages to control the Tardis enough to take Celine on one trip to an alien planet and then return to the correct time & place for her to use the footage she recorded there in her new film - and while the audio doesn’t do very much to explain how that was possible, it does treat this as A Pretty Big Deal, and immediately afterward the Doctor has to spend a week communing with his past self (and/or the Tardis?) debating how likely it is that the Time Lords could use this to trace him. When he decides it’s not worth the risk and they have to stop the film from ever being shown to the public, Jamie asks why he agreed to it in the first place, and all he can say is “Because, Jamie, you asked me to!” earning awkward stares from the crowd.

- Oh, but, lest we forget, that little outburst is also immediately followed by him putting his arm around Jamie’s shoulders, and, shockingly, apparently beginning to actually explain the truth about the danger from the Time Lords - until they’re interrupted, of course idk why exactly but the idea of a 60s dr wanting to come clean with a companion but not being allowed to bc the show demands the war games be something of a reveal hurts me in a very good way

- The mental image of “the Doctor and Jamie, resplendent in borrowed evening wear”

- The audio admitting that Jamie’s not very good at subterfuge, and the Doctor asking if he’s going to be alright with them having to steal the film back from Celine - and Jamie’s little “Aye, Doctor” as he feels a ‘glass arrow piercing his chest’ glad to see bf is reading all my letters about exactly how i feel any time something sad happens to james robert mccrimmon

- The Doctor’s anxious to get out of there for obvious reasons, but he hangs around bc Jamie wants to see Celine again - which doesn’t happen, because of her aforementioned shock & depression, but she does leave Jamie a note that ends “you and that Doctor of yours - look after him Jamie, he loves you dearly, as do I.” yeah, if you didn’t want people to draw a parallel there, you could’ve picked, like, any other wording in the world.

- In case you weren’t fully convinced I’ve been reading too much into this whole audio already, consider this: Celine dies in Long Island in 1968, three days before her birthday - 1968 is when this story would’ve taken place in the show’s history (between Fury & Wheel), and dying three days before/after a birthday in America seems a bit... well I had some deja vu from it, anyway

- Four of all people being the one to bring back the film - I know he does it bc Sarah Jane makes him, but personally, I often feel like despite the length of his run, 4 is the Doctor with which we might’ve gotten the fewest glimpses into his interiority, so the fact that it’s him and not one of the more overtly sentimental Doctors makes it feel like it carries even more weight somehow, to me anyway. I think I wrote a post saying roughly the same thing about 4 & Fate of Krelos/Return to Telos but maybe I only did that inside my own head lol. Still, I’m all for any opportunities for Jamie to be one of the few characters to draw some noticeable emotion out of Four, but in fairness I haven’t touched too much of his EU stuff to really be able to compare the frequency with which this happens with other past companions

- Is Four referring to Two or Jamie when he says he got the film from “an old family friend”? Two did the actual stealing, but he probably means Jamie’s involvement - either way, it’s an interesting way of describing old companions - or selves?

- When Jemima goes to call Jamie a thief, Four is “roused” to defend him: “he really was the very best of men” again, any time four freely shows he cares about someone, im over the moon about it

- Oh ha ha, there’s an audio called “Deleted Scenes” featuring the Doctor who’s most affected by junked episodes. And at the end of it, a character who’s spent her life researching and lecturing about a lost film gets to watch it be ‘rediscovered’ after it’s gone unseen for decades. I feel marginally less stupid for reading into the other details of a story like this when it ends up deciding to be to be clever & slightly meta like that

But yeah

all in all, it’s kind of amazing to me that this genuinely reads like they sat down and said okay boys it’s valentines day, let’s write an audio where jamie kisses a girl, since that hasn’t happened except as a plot device in one story in 1967 - but then when they got down to business they accidentally(?) wrote a story all about how important his bond with the Doctor is and how easily that can be compared to a legitimate love interest (even if the love interest in question is a one off character & the extent of the relationship appears to be like one kiss & then having Jamie spend most of his time around the Doctor instead)

I realize there’s something slightly illogical about writing the words “shipping aside” after a post like this but seriously - no matter how many categories you’re able to see two & jamie’s relationship fitting into, this is 40 minutes of big finish just hitting you over the head with how powerful/special/important that relationship is, and with them being two of my favorite characters, i really haven’t been able to stop thinking about it since

[missmorosis]

here’s our bus route map for my bus ride! (masterlist!)

here’s the original event post :)

HI EVERYONE!! i just wanted to thank you all for your participation BECAUSE AAAAAA YOU GUYS DELIVERED AND UGH I WAS LITERALLY SO WORRIED NOBODY WAS GONNA WRITE ANYTHING BUTSJFLKFASDF

ALL OF YOU ARE SO TALENTED OKAY??? LIKE BYE I WAS BLOWN AWAY

I WAS SO EXCITED FOR THIS EVENT HEHEHE I LOVE ALL OF YOU SO SO MUCH!! AND THE FACT THAT YOU SPENT TIME ON THIS EVENT 😭😭MWAH MWAHH

THANK YOU AGAIN FOR 400!! MUCH LOVE AND HUGS AND KISSES :D

ALSO SORRY AHHA THIS WAS POSTED SO LATE

WE IGNORE HOW IT’S PHYSICALLY IMPOSSIBLE TO GET FROM LA TO LONDON VIA BUS JKDFJKFJK

here’s how i formatted it!

title- author’s @!

pairing genre warnings word count their summary that they made

-> my review!

let’s take a look at our map...

starting from LA, heading to bilbao! we’ll stop along the bus stops on our way! 

and yes im aware that the route is going in a weird, illogical way if bilbao is our last stop, shush i wasnt thinking when i made bilbao our last city KJDFJKS

masterlist under the cut!!

now arriving at... los angeles, California!

-> write an AU!! the AU can be literally anything: royalty AU? road trip AU? GO FOR IT!! just as long as it’s not in the canon era hehehe

first stop... “something only the stars know” - @luvoratomi​ 

pairing: suna rintarou x gn!reader genre: secret relationship au, royal au, crown prince!suna, knight!reader, established relationship, fluff, angst  word count: 544 their summary: in which you and crown prince, suna rintarou, find comfort in each other’s arms underneath the moonlight, where only the stars are witnesses of your love.

-> my review: um. nayru. OKAY IM CONSTANTLY BLOWN AWAY BY YOUR TALENT AND THIS IS NO EXCEPTION. i dont even KNOW who rintarou is but im in love with him. ALSO I DONT THINK IVE EVER READ A ROYAL AU BUT KLASDFJ THIS WAS SO?? WELL?? WRITTEN?? ive reread it at LEAST 5 times.   

next stop... an untitled zombie au from @eunoianthia

pairing: yamaguchi tadashi x female!reader genre: zombie au, angst :) warnings: a lot of angst, death, a bit of gore? word count: 1.1k their summary: going to Los Angeles was a dream, and you were finally achieving it. It’s like a dream come true, going to Los Angeles and your boyfriend tagging along? What could go wrong?

-> my review: OKAY WAIT THIS IS THE FIRST ZOMBIE AU IVE EVER READ. like EVER. AND WHAT I DIDNT EXPECT IT TO HURT THIS MUCH. i- the ending- PLEASE I- i dont even know what to say. how COULD YOU.

now arriving at... 3:38 am from @arquitecturadelanada​​

pairing: zuko x fem!reader genre: roommates au, i would say fluff! warnings: none! word count: 1.1k their summary: As sokka’s best man zuko has to write a heartfelt speech for the wedding day, the only issue? he doesn’t believe in love, but maybe his roommate can change his perception on the matter.

-> my review: so youre saying this whole time youve been supporting my writing when YOU WRITE BETTER THAN I DO?? ugh you’re so talented this isn’t funny, and this fic ALMOST MAKES ME WANT TO BECOME AN ATLA BLOG AGAIN BAHHA- “he noticed he was considerably less stressed just by hearing his roommate’s voice” IM GONNA CRY​​

last stop... “what are the odds” from @hikariakaashi​ 

pairing: kuroo x fem!reader genre: roommates au, i would say fluff! warnings: none! word count: 3.2k their summary: it was an act of desperation, to say the least, downloading the app lev recommended for him. but he was in dire need of a wedding date. so when kuroo opened up the brightly colored app titled rent a girlfriend, he knew he was in for an interesting evening.

-> my review: so uh 1) i remember writing a review for this and i have no idea where it went IM SO SORRY DSKJFJ and 2) i would do anything for kuroo to be my bf even if it was just my job 😩😩 and 3) um ??? YOURE SO TALENTED?? MISS MA’AM??

now arriving at... london, england!

-> breakup fic time </3 you can make it an angsty breakup, or a fluffy exes to lovers!

first stop... “i love(d) you”- @floralkawa​

pairing: tsukishima x reader! genre: angst! warnings: none! word count: 300 their summary: one where tsukishima never showed his love. making it onesided, leading poor f/n on in a bitter relationship. of course, no one can handle it forever, can they ?

-> my review: this is the reason why i dont like angst. i felt this IN MY HEART, OKAY? NOELLE YOU LIED & SAID YOU COULDN’T WRITE FEELINGS. i hate it I HATE IT I HATE IT. but ugh youre talented enough to pull anything off and your angst is PROBABLY the only ones ill read willingly :( 

next stop... “i should have seen the signs”- @kirishimas-manly-eyeliner

pairing: oikawa x reader! genre: angst! warnings: none! word count: 2k their summary: going to the city of love and london was supposed to be an exhilarating vacation after a long week of exams. as it seems, love is fake and so is toru oikawa.

-> my review: um. this kinda hurted me tho. how am i even allowed to be friends with you like ?? miss ma’am? YOURE SO TALENTED??? i hate angst and ill say it again: I HATE ANGST. IT HURTS IT HUUUURRTSS. OIKAWA MY BABY WOULD NEVER DO THAT BUT HE DID. I CANSTEALK I CANT DEAL WITH THIS 

now arriving at... berlin, germany!

first stop... “Spring Chills”- @wesokkasimp

pairing: oikawa x reader! genre: fluff! warnings: none! word count: 447 their summary: you and Oikawa go for a walk on a chilly spring day. beware: banter ahead

-> my review: 😐😑😐 my heart wasn’t prepared for this. AND!! I BET Y/N LOOKED GREAT IN THAT TANK TOP; OIKAWA BETTER HAVE GIVEN HIS JACKET TO HER AFTERWARDS. jacket + tank top = cute outfit smh

next up... “warm and fuzzy”- @oikawaplssteponme​

pairing: kuroo x reader! genre:  fluff, a hint of angst, childhood friends to lovers, ‘boy next door’ warnings: one swear word, kuroo calls the reader ‘pretty’ however no gender pronouns are used, mini make out word count: 1.4k their summary: n/a but a quote: "The lights in your room were dim. Their golden-yellow tone shone above you, though you paid little attention to what was going on inside your room. You were much more interested in what was happening outside.”

-> my review: wait this actually reminds me of me and my front door neighbor GOODBYE AKLSJDF I MISS HIM :( ANYWAYS BAHHAHA- see you never miss 😐 i think awkward tetsu is underrated BYEALKSF THIS WAS SO CUTE I CANTASEKL

last stop... “ice cold”- @kyotarou​

pairing: tsukishima x reader genre:  fluff! warnings: bit of fanon tsukki, mutual pining, smidge of angst, fluff word count: 700+ their summary: n/a but a quote: “Asshole was the best word to describe Tsukishima Kei. He was an asshole to his peers, and it didn’t change towards you, his best friend.”

-> my review: mY TSUKISHIMA HEART OMG- okay OKAY I THOUGHT I GREW OUT OF MY LOVE FOR HIM BUT ITS ALL COMING BACK ASLKJFDL- oh to share a jacket and be vulnerable with tsukishima ✋😩 once again bestie youre so talented it isnt funny

now arriving at... bilbao, spain!

our only stop in this city... "break-in”- @kohi-zeri​​

pairing: iwazumi x reader! genre:  fluff!! warnings: mentions of food and common illnesses, use of “darling” and “brat” word count: 1.4k their summary: n/a but a quote: “there’s something so… infuriating about having a migraine. especially when it’s uncalled for.”

-> my review: i cant express to you how much i love sickfics. like JLSDFLJKFSALJ SADFL I CANT- ALSO I READ THIS FOR THE FIRST TIME WHEN I HAD THE WORST HEADACHE SO WHENEVER MY HEAD HURTS I COME REREAD THIS BAHAHHA-

here’s what some of our passengers are saying...

one passenger says “Wait. Stand right there, I want to take a picture of you.”

“pretty petals, pretty pictures”- @shxyo-sho​​​

pairing: iwazumi x reader! genre: fluff, mutual pining, just two best friends crushing on each other warnings: none! word count: 590 their summary: If you could describe your best friend, Kiyoko, in one word; what would it be? I would pick the word, flawless.

-> my review: repeat after me: kiyoko is a queen. and YOU DO HER JUSTICE I ASFDLKJ PLEASE- in all honesty i would be blushing if kiyoko said a word to me too- y/n you arent alone ✋😩

another passenger asks “Why aren’t you asleep?”

"night owl”- @atlabeth​​​​

pairing: sokka x reader! genre: fluff! warnings: stress over school and one (1) curse, but other than that it’s pure fluff word count: 907 their summary: If you could describe your best friend, Kiyoko, in one word; what would it be? I would pick the word, flawless.

-> my review: alright this isnt fair where is my irl sokka 😐 YOURE BRINGING ME BACK INTO MY ATLA DAYSDF LKSJA- not complaining tho I LOVE SOKKA SO MUCH. and “But for a “fairly smart person”, you made a lot of bad decisions.” THATS TOO RELATABLE STOP IT RIGHT NOW SFKDJK

HEHEHEHEH THANK YOU AGAIN!! SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG GOOD BYE

[nightshadedawn]

Persona 5 Royal Playthrough pt3

I ended up going through two Palaces before I could update y’all. Oh well.

...Yeah, no, quit calling me Miss Special Snowflake's boyfriend. It's not happening.

Ryuji, Morgana, and Yusuke having a conversation in the laundromat: "It's like he's our mom," says Ryuji... the mom friend.

Every time Morgana is like "I have to turn into a human so no one else can have Lady Ann!" then expects no one else to hear him makes me laugh. Like, bitch, no.

I have the restaurant in my Thieves Den 'cause I like it. Yusuke, Ryuji, and Morgana are there. They're so precious.

I got a three in a row Tycoon on cutthroat!!!

Ryuji and Ann just keep going "Shoulda figured" and other versions of the statement every time I win.

Ann just rejected Morgana's feelings HARD. I am happy.

Ryuji is too good, honestly. Why would anyone not like him? He's... He's always trying to build the team up, make them proud of themselves and what they've done. I will admit that he has his moments of being not a great human, but they're teenagers who were given absurd powers, so honestly, can you blame them?

I didn't know darts was an actual minigame! There's so many minigames. I'm so happy.

I don't like Akechi. I don't know why some people do. Like, his death scene was a bit... too late for a redemption for me, right after he tried to kill Joker, several times. His pain is understandable, but still... I can't.

Their "two sides of the same coin" also doesn't seem particularly fair. It's totally uneven in everything but color schemes.

Guys, GUYS, please, PLEASE decide whether you're going to react to my teasing or not.

"We don't have to deal with them directly," Ryuji says joyfully about the mafia. Oh you sweet, sweet, innocent child, if only you knew what I do.

I literally can't play this game around anyone else because I tend to yell "BABY!" to Ryuji, Ann, and Yusuke and "BITCH" or "FUCKER" to... a rather long list of villains in this game... and Makoto.

I can literally feel Yusuke's anxiety about his painting when you take him to Leblanc to see Sayuri.

How can you say Yusuke isn't gay when he says everything I do is beautiful?

I love Ryuji's 9th social link. It's LITERALLY written like a confession scene. This also means I kinda hate it because... I can't date him.

Also... PRETTY BOY RYUJI PRETTY BOY RYUJI PRETTY BOY RYUJI

I actually kinda thought that the new scene for Ryuji being a crossdresser is kinda funny??? Is this bad??? I wanna see him in a dress, tho. I gotta agree, he'd be a natural. Not the like, painfully obviously not taking it seriously from the dancing game, though.

Though I do think it's valid that he freaks out when two strange adults come up to him and try to take him somewhere, especially in a place known for being shady, and at night.

...When Ryuji complains about it, I do feel bad about ditching him. Then again, I blame the cat.

Ryuji may be my ideal type on paper, but I'm also highly attracted to Yusuke and this is so totally unfair.

*softly chanting* butlers butlers butlers butlers

Don't mind me just... *makes meticulous plot to avoid having Makoto join the team that i may or may not write a fanfic about*

Makoto is one dumbass bitch. Like, honestly, there's nothing she does that's in any way remotely smart.

...I thought I'd just skip Makoto's scenes until she became relevant, but here I am, still skipping her scenes. Does that mean she’s still irreleveant?

"Witch" I suggest, and Makoto complains! "Would you prefer "Bitch"? I can use that too.

I put Yusuke on the team in the middle of the palace through settings, replacing Morgana, who had been standing right behind me. Which made Yusuke stand right behind me. It looked like he was holding onto my waist and standing uncomfortably close. Bro, babe, I love you, but not in front of my boyfriend and girlfriend!

Just accept the compliment, guys, I'm not going to compliment Queen.

...Opening chests with Ann or Ryuji is just so sweet because they're so affectionate and touchy feely. Especially Ryuji.

Math. Fucking. Sucks. I should not have to use math in a game. I hate this. Obviously it's the Palace Makoto comes in that this happened.

Well, I finished the Palace in a day. I love the feeling. But it was getting close there. Joker and Yusuke were down to no spells...

...Yoshizawa hasn't showed up yet. When is she getting shoehorned in?

WHY IS THE VELVET ROOM RED!?

My very first playthrough I didn't execute a single execution except for the first one we have to do. It  really screwed me over my second playthrough...

...I broke the electric chair. That's certainly something that happened.

147 games of Tycoon later and I've only been a beggar 31 times in total, versus the pure thirty wins in just Cutthroat.

They're in their summer uniforms and it makes make miss warmer weather already. It's fucking snowing outside. Grrrr.

Beat Kaneshiro! ...Wasn't a fan of his new boss battle. I'm even playing on safe mode! But whatever.

Makoto is a DISASTER at Tycoon. She exclusively got beggar all three times I played with her!

...RYUJI YOU CAN'T SAY SHIT LIKE THAT AND NOT LET ME DATE YOU.

Ann, sweeties, baby, you're doing so well.

She confessed to me, then in the call afterwards it was basically insinuated I proposed... WHICH IS LIKE FUCK YEAH 'CAUSE SHE ACCEPTED IT.

It makes me think of the future conversation where they're talking about marriage.

Anyway, if you haven't noticed, l love Ann.

My next playthrough I'm not gong to date her, though. I'm a completionist and I want ALL of the possible awards. But... I refuse to cheat on Ann. So I'll date everyone else then just hang with Ryuji... despite how cringy some of the date things are.

...If Akechi wasn't, you know EVIL and tried to KILL ME, SEVERAL TIMES, I might, MIGHT, like him. But in truth, I think that's really just the Persona 5: Revival talking. We get... into some stuff during that.

I know that either Atlus or the translators know EXACTLY what goes on in the Persona fandom because otherwise "He's too pretty to be wrong" would not be an option when talking to the newspaper girl about Akechi. I have to agree with her that his looks aren't really, you know, awesome enough for that.

Also, I read it as "He's too petty to be wrong" at first and I think that's an accurate sum of his character.

YO AKECHI-FUCK I HAVE NO NEED TO SEE YOUR ASS LIKE THAT WHEN I HAVE BOTH A BF AND AND GF.

...fucker fucking giving me shit about my fake glasses...

If you COULD date the boy out of mod, Akechi would definitely be the one they were pushing you to date. Like Makoto. Or Yoshizawa.

But hey, at least I get to not be nice to him.

I remember seeing this picture where Ann, Ryuji, and Joker kept going to the movies together and seeing 3D movies, and Joker couldn't wear the 3D glasses properly because of his own. I keep imagining that picture during this event with Caroline and Justine.

You know what? Some people call Joker a loli lover because of them, but nope! He's just adopted two more siblings. That is my stance on it.

FUcking

Fucker

WHAT THE FRRRRRRRR

FUCK YOU ATULS OR TRANSLATORS OR WHATEVER

APHRODITE AND MARS ARE FROM TWO DIFFERENT MYTHOS. Aphrodite is GREEK, Mars is ROMAN. Their reversed are VENUS and ARES. USE ONE OR THE OTHER PEOPLE.

I get very pissed about this, and it's worse with Hades.

7/4 is the day I am screaming at, if you were wondering.

My dad asked me if the other students think Joker's stupid because every time I answer a question right they get all surprised.

I don't really like Makoto, as I'm sure you've noticed, but she was super nice about Ryuji's special move idea. And that put her ahead of Akechi in my book.

TESTS ARE NERVE WRACKING EVEN WHEN THEY'RE FICTIONAL

Yusuke and Ryuji are good boys, the best boys. And they're so awesome about their special move.

AND RYUJI OFFERED MONEY FOR YUSUKE'S FOOD. And implied that he did it before???? Ryuji, you best boy.

This boys' outing DOES make me happy, though. Like, insanely happy. Dunno why.

Maybe because Joker gets to be so flipping cheesy.

...fuck you, Yoshizawa.

HONESTLY WHAT THE EVER LOVING--- Grr. Too many choices while with her. Too many. OOC Joker when with her. 0/10.

I LOVE THE FESTIVAL PHOTO

And you know, it's really hard to choose between Lala-chan and Ann, but... GONNA TAKE ANN ON A DATE

Got her some flowers. Lets see if we can give them to her this time!

"Such a good FRIEND." Babe, we're DATING. For like, TWO WEEKS NOW.

AND I DIDN'T EVEN GET TO GIVE HER FLOWERS

Ann called Yusuke a pretty boy, but then she's missing out on the REAL pretty boy, Pretty Boy Ryuji.

Ryuji, why're you so worried about other girls when you've got ME?

"I like the shade." "What are you, moss!?" Oh, admit it, Ryuji, I'm growing on you.

Cargona. Snrk. Gods, I love you, Ryuji.

Dome town with Ryuji! "Isn't it all couples?" That's the point!

I COULD GIVE RYUJI THE ROSES!?

Sadly, I bought those for Ann. Ryuji, you get the noodles.

AND HE FUCKING LOVED IT.

"It feels like I really captured Ryuji's heart!" FUCK YEAH I DID

Gonna give Yusuke the bracelet when I get the chance.

Why is everyone color coded in the chat room? Kawakami, Akechi, Mishima, and the reporter are all ORANGE. What's the point? Well, Akechi's more of a golden orange, but close enough.

While Mishima is not my first choice for a date, he's definitely not my last.

...But the boy really needs some fucking sleep. He's not drawn with the bags under his eyes, but I can see them!

It's not fair that they give Akechi a kicked puppy sprite. I'm... goddamnit, they're trying to make me not hate him.

When Makoto doesn't know something, I'm brought great joy.

NO DAD MAKOTO IS NOT MY GIRLFRIEND ANN IS AND SHE IS LITERALLY R I G H T T H E R E

First day in Futaba's Palace! I've gotta say, this is my second favorite palace. Kamoshida, Futaba, Madarame, Sae, Okumura, Shido, Kaneshiro, Holy Grail. In that order. I HATE Kaneshiro's place and dealing with the Holy Grail. But whatevs, man. I love this game. (Vanilla, at least, this one is still on the fence)

I found out a cool little thing. On the uphill sand slopes in the town (don't know about anywhere else) if you're running and turn back quickly, Joker will do a little animation to steady himself. It was cool and made it seem, I dunno, more human? Anyway, while I was admiring this, Ryuji and Yusuke just stood at the top of the slope and Ann followed me while I was running. Best girlfriend ever.

Kin-Ki is looking pretty kin-ky if you know what I'm sayin'

Please don't murder me because I do terrible puns.

*we fall through the trap door* *Ryuji starts screaming* Same, baby, same.

...Makoto is seriously annoying. Like, she's got no business acting as familiar with Futaba's situation. The one who WOULD be the most familiar is Yusuke, and I'm glad he recognizes that. It's not the exact same, none of their stories are after all, but I feel like those two get each other better than even Ryuji and Joker understand each other.

Yusuke and Ryuji's special attack is THE BEST

Ryuji and Joker getting up close and personal in the shadows. All those fanfics coming true, man.

I thought Futaba was sloth, not wrath? Why are her Will Seeds called Wrath?

Beat it in one day! It's so satisfying to watch all those achievements when I leave the palace.

You know, I'm thinking of wearing the Christmas outfits for the final battle. Just to be kinda funny.

Spending a relaxing day with Yusuke after going through Futaba's Palace... kinda want to take him to the bathhouse to check out that new scene, but I also REALLY wanna feed the boy... gonna feed the boy.

Apparently I can only make 'decent curry.' Which is fine. Because "I" can't make curry at all. Joker, you've done much better than I.

THE DATE CHANGE SCREEN HAD A RAINBOW AND RYUJI WAS COMING OVER ON THE SAME DAY FUCK YEAH MY BISEXUAL BABY

...Broooooo, the way you talk about your manga is how I talk right before I start shipping.

Took him to the bathhouse, 'cause I don't gotta worry about Mama Sakamoto feeding him.

...Can I take Ann to the bathhouse?

Asked Ryuji to move in. He was all up for the idea until he remembered that I live in an attic.

I'm Charismatic now!

...I was all hoping Ann would stop by but then Akechi asked me out. Laaaaaaaame.

Ryuji's smile is so fucking cute.

...I say we just be honest, and everyone's so fucking stupid about it until Makoto explains it. This pisses me off. They're not that dumb... At least, they weren't until Makoto showed up.

Futaba's hiding in the closet. ...I've spent too many weeks making jokes about closets to not have a joke about it.

Really, Yusuke? You see those books and think she can't understand?

...Wait, that sassy tone of voice... You were TRYING to pull a reaction of her. I knew I shipped those two for a reason. OTP and BroTP. Doesn't matter, they're both awesome.

I love you Ann, but I don't think your situations were the same at all. It's not like both are valid and bad, but... different.

Joker is SO fast compared to the others, especially when he's speeding.

What the...

Holy fuck...

JOKER IS TOO EFFING COOL

THAT MOVE TO GET FROM THE ENTRANCE TO TO TREASURE DOOR? Awesome!

Damn, Joker has my heart too.

I kinda wish we could see Futaba's costumes in her Persona. That would be pretty neat.

The moment right before Wakaba appears is so aesthetically pleasing.

...Futaba being happy is almost enough for me to accept Maruki's offer, and I haven't gotten there yet.

Ryuji and Ann keep smacking each other out of their ailments. Like, you guys just love each other so much! It's awesome.

Joker has lackluster responses to Wakaba... I'm hoping that isn't one of those "Answer these wrong and you break her!" things... Not that I think I was, but still.

I liked Futaba's new animation for when she defied her mother.

I wish the anime looked more the cutscenes. I'm trying to rewatch the anime so I can pinpoint specific moments for future editing purposes, but it's kinda painful.

1- This is the SECOND TIME you've landed on Yusuke while running from trouble.

2- YUSUKE LET GO OF MY GIRL

No Makoto, I don't want to go see Futaba with you! I can go see her myself.

So, I like Takemi's new voice with her lines during this scene.

Sure, she collapses every so often and sleeps for a while. Stays like that for a few days. Sorry that I put her into a coma for a month, Boss...

SHE LOOKS SO CUTE WITHOUT GLASSES

Guys, we have a month. Stop worrying.

THE TWINS ARE SO CUTE WHILE HANGING ONTO THE BENCH PRESS

Damn, Joker's dying to the amusement of two little girls.

I'm kinda disappointed I didn't get results for all that training. But I liked the scene.

Yusuke just casually be lugging bigass paintings around.

Taking the girls to the church may have been one of the funnier moments. These cement them as Joker's little sisters. With Futaba. Damn, Joker, you got no brothers.

Yusuke promises to come by every day and we can tell him to take his clothes off. ATLUS, you have some EXPLAINING to DO.

..And Yusuke took it and ran with it. My sweet summer child, I don't think I could handle you in as little as possible on the day to day.

"The heat induced delirium made me think outside the box." Same.

Guts takes sooooooooooooo long to level up.

"Punish me more" he says, as if Takemi won't do it.

"Good god. Well, none of my medicine can cure THAT." AT LEAST WE'RE ALL ON THE SAME PAGE

BATHHOUSE WITH YUSUKE

Awe, he had fun. :)

[alolanrain]

I know u probs aren’t looking for another au but u kind of inspired this: Raihan being Ash’s BF for a bit now when Mew and Mewtwo appear. They hand Raihan a lump wrapped in clothes and Mewtwo is like “there was an incident we’re working on it but we need someone to watch them while we work and they can’t leave the region bye” and teleport away. Raihan is so confused until he finds a de-aged baby ash and Pichu in the lump (it takes a week before Celebi/Dialga can fix it).

OKAY FIRST OF HOW DARE YOU BRING THIS WONDERFUL AU TO MY DOORSTEP!?!?

Second off this is absolutely amazing and I’m taking it now.

Raihan is absolutely shocked because he did NOT plan is day to be like this at all. Ash is now babey so he can’t be left alone at all, something in Raihans gut is telling him not to hire a nanny even though that would take a large chunk of work off of Raihan’s plate, and the Pichu with the baby has to be Pikachu.

He goes back to his house, not saying a word besides what he sputtered out to Mew and Mewtwo before they vanished, and sits down on the couch. Pichu curled up and clinging to his headband as Raihan looks down to his de-aged Bf who’s looking up at him. Making baby gurgling noises and raising his hands up at Raihans face. It’s only then does it sink in that his wonderful Bf is de-aged and he has absolutely no fucking clue how to take care of a baby. So that means there’s only one thing...

Call Melony

Raihan being a coward goes through like forty google links on How To Take Care Of Your De-aged Boyfrind, more like babysitting a baby for dummies, before submitting when he STILL has no clue. The call goes to voice mail and Raihan is to scared and panicking that he just stutters out “I have a baby, help.” Before ending the call and instinctively chucking his Rotom phone across the room. Rotom is kinda pissed at that but they understand because their afraid of Melony to, Pokémon like trainer.

Raihan doesn’t get any answer or notifications from her until like 3 hours later she basically kicks his doors down and send both Raihan and Ash, who he was still cradling in his arms, into a scare fit. Ash starts crying and Raihan wants to to when he see’s Melony now armed with Kabu and Opal behind her.

It’s a mess and Ash starts crying even louder when he gets taken out of Raihans arms, Pichu gets angry as well and Raihans Pokémon are so close to attacking as well because the 3 adults scared them as well, by Melony and All three question him about where he got Ash and how come someone trusted Raihan with a baby this young?

Raihan panicking and about to have a anxiety attack: it’s Ash!

Melony stopping: it’s who!?

Raihan getting worse: it’s Champion Ash! A new and some kind of knock off Mew called Mewtwo gave him to me along with Pikachu *waves to the sparking Pichu on his shoulder*. I don’t know what happened, something to do with Dialga and Celebi, but I’m supposed to watch him until he un-de-ages.

All three adults: *simultaneously shocked Pikachu meme*

Bby! Ash: *still crying*

Raihan: can I.... can I have him back?

So Raihan gets him back and Ash calms down a little but still is a sniffling mess and Raihan is still close to crying himself from under all the sudden stress and anger from the three most badass gym leaders. Opal acts first while coming closer and uncharacteristically correcting Raihans hold with a shaking hand. Raihan then remembers that both Kabu and Opal were once parents but both lost their kids in different accidents long ago before Raihan was born, a secret kept between any and all Galar Gym leaders.

Melony is still a bit stressful but both Opal and Kabu calm down, or Kabu relaxes a little since he was mostly calm during that interaction, and help Raihan clean Ash up. Pichu is still distrustful but let’s it go for now since no one is yelling anymore and Ash isn’t crying. It soon boils down that Melony would bring her old nursery stuff down to Raihans house later that day while Kabu and Opal help Raihan order baby stuff to his house. When Raihan questions why not go out and buy stuff they point out that Raihan with Ash out in public, with the public Not Knowing Ash is a baby until who knows how long, would cause a rucus and that would cause Rose and Oleana coming down to talk to Raihan.

He then points out that he’s a Gym leader, and it’s nearing the end of the training season as well, AND that he has a large following on social media. His fans are bound to find out that he has a baby by either stalking his house or the public just finding out that he’s taking care of a baby because Raihan has to go to work and back.

Hiring a nanny is immediately off the list Raihan states when they try and brainstorm some ideas. To risky which Raihans position and crazed fan clubs, and he doesn’t trust Rose’s hired league nannies after what he heard of what happened with Melony young twins, and that one of them might somehow find out early and work into the selection pool and now Raihan is falling into another panic induced episode that’s slowly working its way to upsetting Ash.

It takes Kabu gently getting Ash out of Raihans grip for him to realize that he almost set of Ash again. They agree nannies are off the table and are now forced to agree with just going with the flow and going out to public and dealing with Rose and Oleana afterwards.

What Raihan dreads the most is when Sonia and Nessa find out, their very big on babies and Raihan knows that they’ll try and be over almost 90% of the time, or Arceus forbids Leon finds out. That man was such a little terror when his baby brother Hop came into the world. Constantly rebelling against Rose and Oleana, much to everyone else’s amusement in the league besides Rose and Oleana, to go see little baby Hop. Dude has a sixth sense of when there’s a baby nearby.

Raihans fears happen and the moment someone spots him in public with Opal, Ash, and Pichu theres photos spread all across Galars social media. He refuses to check his phone, turned off because no-fucking-way is he answering anyone’s calls in public, and continues to ignore the chatter and uncharacteristically stick by Opals side who glares at anyone who dares come to close to the young adult and the baby.

Melony and Kabu go back, with an extra house key to Raihans house just incase they magically get back before he and Opal do, to Melonys house to get her old nursery stuff and transport it back to his house. Opal isn’t really playing until her usual Crazy Old Eccentric Lady normal personality. she’s more wise and calm as she easily answers all of Raihans, still, slightly frantic questions.

Ash is a quite baby throughout all this, maybe it helps that Pichu keeps chittering down to the baby at all times through the ordeal, and only really made any noise when Raihan brought a toy into his sight. Other then that Ash was more tuned to the idea of sleeping and drooling on Raihans hoodie.

Once they got back to the house, Kabu and Melony nowhere in sight and Raihan was taught how to clean, feed, burp, and dress Ash, did Raihan turn on his phone. Half surprised by all the calls, voicemails, and frantic all calls messages by everyone. What worried him the most was the most frequent call, from Lance of all people.

Lance pops up on his screen again and Raihan quietly prepares for the man to question him before answering.

Lance: where’s Ash and when did you get a baby!?

Raihan, extremely tired: the baby is Ash

Lance: ... that makes so much more sense and not at all at the same time

Raihan: from what Mew and Mewtwo told me before disappearing, something happened and Godly de-aging for both Ash and Pikachu

Lance: ....

Raihan: .....

Lance: so how long-

Raihan: I have no fucking clue

Lance: well Shit.

Melony and Kabu come back, with Gordie and Bea in tow as well, and they all start setting up the nursery in Raihan office room and the crib between Flygon’s ‘nest’ of pillows and blankets and Raihans bed. Raihan orders pizza as a thank you and the next thing he knows Sonia comes bursting through the door.

Raihan, to tired for anymore of this shit today, does not let her hold Ash. Using his height to his advantage and keeps Ash, who’s also sleeping, out of her grip carefully. After an hour or 3 he kicks them all out of his house and finally settles Ash down for bed after going through the motions of checking his diaper and everything else.

Ash sleeps well through the night besides one crying fest early in the morning, thankfully right around 5:30 when Raihan usually gets up, and Raihan has to stumble through the journey of getting Ash cleaned, fed, burped, and dressed before looking over a pre-packed baby bag and going to work the next day.



[hanramm156]

Rammstein Family Game: Get to know me! (Warning: a long ramble)

I’m honored to be tagged by @cherrisplace​ and @momoredcrow​. ^^ It’s been a pleasure to read other people’s Rammstein memories and opinions, so here comes mine as well. Writing is one of those rare things that keep me sane during this crazy season, so I apologize this being super long. More rambling is probably coming when everything’s cancelled and I have nothing else to do.

Rules: There are no rules. Tag whoever you want. Don’t tag yourself. Tag yourself. You don’t have to answer all the questions. Do what you please. Have fun.

Created by: @vapor-stein

1. I’m curious: when did you discover Rammstein?

2004 properly, but I might have heard Du hast or other popular songs even earlier.

2. Tell me your story. How did you discover them?

As said, it was 2004 and I was watching some random Finnish music show. Back in the days, I watched a lot of music videos from the tv and recorded my favorite ones to VHS. One evening Rammstein’s Amerika came from the show and I was like “??? What on earth is this??? Sounds interesting…”. I wasn’t into metal music back then (I mostly listened to indiepop and alternative rock), but for whatever reason, I got hooked instantly to this German band’s dark, eerie sound. It was refreshing to hear something else than English and the video was also thrilling.

Rammstein had intruded my mind already, but the final straw was when I saw the Mein Teil video. I liked both the song and the video A LOT - so much that I even felt kinda “dirty” for liking something this dark. A 14-year-old me was constantly asking from myself that: “am I even allowed to like this kind of stuff this much?”. The backstory for the song was creepy, but so mesmerizing – like I had been introduced to the darkest corners of human mind: yes, this kind of stuff happens, and we shouldn’t close our eyes from it. So next, the only thing I could do was to buy Reise, reise album, listen to it on loop and sketch my German notebook full of Rammstein lyrics. Here’s a proof:

I have so many stories about my relationship to Rammstein that I might have to write them all down now when there’s a lot of time.

3. Favourite song?

This topic would be worth a novel itself, but here are some of my favorites:

Asche zu Asche – So badass, gives me such an energy every time – plus, not to forget the burning microphones and SILVER REESH!

Bück dich – Yes, it’s a horrible story once again in this song, but I can’t help but to admit that the song is freaking catchy and in a weird way, hot. Also, there’s a funny backstory when I was in 9th grade and we almost performed this song in our official graduation party with my boyfriend and a bunch of our friends (maybe good that the idea was abandoned in the end…). We had a vague clue what the song was about, but we just thought it was funny – also, our German teacher dressed always in leather and loved Rammstein (she played us Bestrafe mich during one class and I’ll always remember the awkward atmosphere) so we were thinking to dedicate the song to her for as our goodbye. XDD Seriously, why I have been so weird for all my life…

Sehnsucht – In most of the pop songs, longing is described by tender words and soft lyrics, but not in Rammstein’s case. I’ve had this weird feeling of “longing” all my life that I can’t describe properly. It’s kind of an inner emptiness, only arts and music can help to deal with it when it hits. I think Sehnsucht describes so realistically what is longing about in reality: it’s this angry pressure in your heart which you want to get out of your chest but can’t. In the end, you just want to scream your lungs out.

Mein Herz brennt – Powerful song that always gives me goosebumps. I can’t even explain why. Maybe the fact that “tough” men being emotional is my soft spot and Rammstein hits that spot hard.

Links 2-3-4 – I have always been kind of a rebel and I feel like when everyone else is going to the “right” I have to go to the left, to the unknown. My heart is longing for adventure, for the paths the others are not going. I dunno, but this is such a powerful song for me. When I hear it, I always just want to jump around. In Tampere concert I went totally nuts when Links started as the second song, lol. From that moment I felt like I was back home with my boys.

Mein Teil – No need for further explanations anymore.

Los – The harmonica solo!!! The dropped c tuning and the acoustic sounds!! I love it.

Amour – My favorite R+ ballad. I confess that I listen to this and think about the lyrics when I’m in the mood for writing something painfully romantic.

Weit weg – There’s this painful longing once again that always resonates to me. I listened this to a lot after the “after blues” of Ratina concert.

Tattoo – A song that I didn’t care about so much at first, but for whatever reason, it’s almost my favorite from the new album nowadays. It’s catchy as hell and I like the “rattling” guitar riffs.

4. Least favourite song? Come on. I know you have one.

Feuer frei – Too much Vin Diesel vibes. I also get a picture of drunken, middle-aged Finnish guys on a R+ gig who don’t care about to band, but just want to have a party of their life and get drunk, far away from their wives. (No offense to anyone, but as music is almost like a religion to me, I can’t help but to have a bit of disrespect for kind of people who just “consume” music.)

Pussy – Both musically and lyrically, so bad, but I get the point the guys tried to give with this nonsense.

5. Favourite album? & 6. Least favourite album? aka. I ramble about all the albums.

Tough one… as the rules were vague, I decided to have a short opinion about each of the albums.

Herzeleid – Summary: a bunch of guys, born and raised in DDR, are tired of everything so they get together and play aggressive songs - you can almost smell the testosterone miles away while you are listening to this album. I have to admit that I love this album even though it’s not musically super creative. It’s just raw men with raw feelings – and I have to say, it works for me.

Sehnsucht – I was creeped out of the album art as a teenager, lol. But yeah, musically improved from the former one and there are some classic songs that make Rammstein as they are nowadays. I listen to this often when I’m driving.

Mutter – The album that they had the most struggles with if I have understood correctly. The pain can be heard through the songs and it’s so honest and raw. I lost my friend in 2004 tragically and this album was one of the things that kept me sane back then. Especially the beginning of the album (MHB, Links, Sonne) hits me hard in the guts.

Reise, reise – The album that started all this hype in me, so it has a special place in my heart. I also liked how they tried something different to their usual sounds in this one, like orchestral and acoustic songs.

Rosenrot – To be honest, this album has always left me a bit “cold”, so I cannot even make a real opinion of it. There are some good moments though, like Mann gegen Mann that really speaks to me.

Untitled: This has been on the loop since last August and I was honestly surprised how good the album was. I hadn’t listened to Rammstein for a while, but when I got this album to my hands after the concert, holy shit it hit me. I like hearing the path the guys have gone: their new music is much more mature than the first angry albums. Also, I love Till’s poetry in this one, like Was ich liebe and Weit weg.

I think I answered the question #7 already, so I’ll skip to #8.

8. Unpopular opinion about a member? A scandal? Anything?

Even though I appreciate Till as an artist and a poet, I don’t find his appearance attractive. You can throw rotten tomatoes at me now, but this is just my opinion, no means to offend anyone. Maybe the reason is that my taste for men tends to go for androgynous side, so I am not drawn towards very masculine men.

I’m not interested in Lindemann project and I don’t like their music so much, but the tour looked entertaining though. I bet all the people who attended had a lot of fun.

How Richard pronounces English is extremely sexy to my ear, even though it clearly sounds like a German guy trying to sound American - still, it’s like honey to my ears. Stupid man who makes my knees weak with everything he does.

I hate to admit that I don’t like Ohne dich so much. I don’t know why. :(

9. Have you ever seen them live? Tell me what you felt.

Three times this far! Oh man, I could talk about for hours how the concerts have made me feel, but I try to be reasonable now.

Ruisrock, Turku, 2005 – My first time seeing them live – and going to a festival without any adult supervision, so it was a special experience overall – and they blew my mind. It was raining and thundering and we were completely soaked with my friends, but it was worth it!

Bonus for everyone who managed to read this far: teenage me waiting for Rammstein to start playing, looking so badass with my denim jacket and R+ logo drawn with eyeliner. :D

Hartwall Arena, Helsinki, 2012: We went to the show together with my boyfriend to celebrate Valentine’s day and holy shiiiiit it was awesome. Hands down one of the best evenings of my life. I was so hooked to Rammstein afterward that when we were at my bf’s family’s cottage, his brother had to tell me to stop blasting Herzeleid all the time in the kitchen. :’D

Ratina Stadium, Tampere, 2019: Aka. byebye my life, say hello to fics, listening to the band all over again, stupid memes and all the content this fandom creates. I fell in love again with Rammstein during this concert.

I have tickets for Düsseldorf and Tallinn, but now I can only wait and stress that will Corona ruin everything. In that case, I’ll weep alone and write fics about the tour 2020 that ended up never happening.

10. Do you play any instruments? If you do can you play any song by them?

Yeah, I play guitar and piano but nowadays I mostly sing. Rammstein songs are super easy to play with guitar and I recently learnt to play Tattoo and Sex. Have been practicing Engle on piano as well. Some songs I like to sing are Deutschland, Tattoo and Engel. The “speaking” parts are difficult though. ^^;

I’m not sure who I could tag to this who hasn’t done it already, but I’ll try my luck: @ah-its-too-much​ @soronya​ @einemelodie​ @xiaolianhuax​ @so-darya-darya​ @maximaembra​ @kvidasjuklingur​

[eldritchsurveys]

674.

have you ever violated school dress code? >> I wasn’t allowed to wear anything that would have violated any school dress codes, so I have no idea how that would have ever happened.

if you are listening to music, is the singer male / female? >> I’m not listening to music.

what [ if anything ] do you give up for Lent? >> I don’t observe Lent.

what phrase leads your mind directly to the gutter? >> I mean, I can’t think of any on command, but there are plenty I come across online and stuff that make me snicker. I just like wordplay, tbh.

when you feel like giving up, how do you convince yourself not to? >> I mean, it’s mostly Can Calah who gives the impassioned arguments in defense of not giving up. I just listen and gripe and wait for his infallible logic to work its magic.

what are your opinions on immigration? >> I don’t have a blanket opinion on immigration. I have no personal issue with individual immigrants, no matter their story. They’re just people to me, who want the same things I want -- to survive, to have their needs met, to make a better life.

would you tell an actual immigrant your views? >> Of course I would, if they were unsure where they stood with me.

what was the subject of the last list you made? >> I don’t remember the last time I made a list.

do you ever get nervous before interviews / important meetings? >> I mean, I would if that was a thing that occurred in my life.

who pays for the majority of your belongings? >> It’s pretty evenly split between me and Sparrow.

would you ever willingly shop in a thrift store? >> Of course...?

what is the most that you would ever spend on an outfit? >> I mean... that depends on many factors, including what the outfit is for and how much money I have.

is there anything you do that just outrages your parents? >> ---

when was the last time you were embarrassed in public? >> I don’t remember.

have you ever won an award you were actually proud of? >> I mean, maybe a long time ago. Doubtful, though.

the importance of education, rate it from 1-10, 10 as most important? explain your choice to rate it as such? >> I rank formal education rather low on my personal importance scale, but I rank informal, interest-based learning very high on my personal importance scale. I love to learn, but I don’t operate well in school settings and actually end up learning less in those settings.

what is the coolest science experiment you've ever done? >> I haven’t done any cool science experiments. :(

are you experiencing difficulties with any friends right now? >> No.

how do you deal with a fight between yourself and a friend? >> I don’t know how to deal with that kind of thing anymore.

when you apologize to someone after a fight, how do you go about saying that you are sorry? >> I haven’t been in this situation in a long time, I don’t know.

have you ever played around with "dry ice"? >> No.

do you think parents are responsible for the actions of their children? >> Of course they are, if we’re talking literal children (not teenagers). It takes some time for a small human to develop the sense of independent reasoning and reckoning of consequence that would allow them to take full responsibility for their actions.

how do you, personally, define music? >> I never really thought about it, it’s one of those concepts where I basically take my understanding of it for granted.

should the military draft take both men AND women? why / why not? >> That’s not a debate I’m willing to get into. I want nothing to do with a draft and I ideally wouldn’t want anyone else to have to deal with getting drafted, actually.

when was the last time that you corrected someone? >> I don’t remember. It was probably something really minor and not a big deal for either party. --Oh yeah I remember now, it was about why Bourbon Street is named Bourbon Street.

when was the last time you were corrected? >> It was also probably about something minor and nbd. I think the last time might have been when I misspelled “Lolth” because believe it or not, I’ve been doing that since 2009. I always misspell it “Lloth”, it’s just what happens.

when did you last say " i told you so "? >> I don’t remember. I try to avoid saying that unless it’s about something funny/silly.

is there any celebrity you like to " keep up with "? >> Not especially. I mean, there are definitely actors and directors that I pay attention to more than others when they get involved in new things, but I always forget to like, keep regular tabs on them or whatever.

celebrity gossip: YAY or BOO? >> Boo.

what is the most life-changing book you have read? >> I couldn’t say. A lot of books I’ve read have had a significant impact on me in some way.

have you had a negative impact on anyone's life? >> Sure.

has anyone had a negative impact on yours? who / why? >> Absolutely. I’m not going to elaborate, the negative impact that others have had on me is both 1) way too lengthy and sensitive to elaborate on and 2) not worth dwelling on right now when I just want to chill and take a survey.

what does marriage mean to you, specifically? >> It means legal recognition of our partnership, which is necessary for things like, say, being each other’s advocates in a medical emergency.

how will you know when you are ready to get married? >> I didn’t bother fretting over whether I was “ready” or not. We’d been living together for a couple of years by the time the topic even came up, it didn’t seem like a weird next step to make.

how much time have you spent contemplating your own death? >> Way more time than is logical, probably.

is there a joke that you just can't stand? >> I mean, probably. There are a lot of insensitive jokes out there.

have you ever read any self-help books? >> Yeah.

what's your take on the obesity problem in america? >> I don’t have a take on it. You know what I do have a take on? The constant social pressure to be thin, and the resultant contagious obsessions with eating the “right” foods, compulsive exercising, and worrying about a number on a scale. Being fat, of all things, shouldn’t be this dramatically frightening or repulsive to people, but that’s what we’re made to believe, and that’s the message we’re all internalising on a daily basis. I’m fucking tired of it. I got enough problems.

what is something you used to love, but now greatly dislike? >> I don’t think I’ve ever flipped that hard on anything. There are things I’ve liked casually that I ended up not caring about later on, but nothing that I loved that I started hating later. I might shift from being obsessed with something to just being chill about it, but that’s it.

what is something you used to dislike, but now like? >> I disliked Metallica as a child.

when ( if ) you become a parent, what will you do differently, compared to how your parents raised you? >> I don’t plan on being a parent, but how I treat children in general is almost directly in contrast to how I was treated as a child. I treat them with respect, I listen to what they have to say, I let them feel their feelings, I show interest in their interests, etc.

do you equate spanking with physical abuse? would you spank a child? >> Let’s just say that I did not ever feel loved or respected when I was spanked. I felt terrified and shameful and being left alone to self-soothe afterwards with no real understanding of why I was being punished so harshly definitely didn’t help. I don’t feel like my understanding of right and wrong was healthily developed by corporal punishment. I don’t see any benefit to it, but I see a lot of harm. So, no. I would not spank a child.

what's the most ridiculous thing you've done this week? >> I have no idea. I don’t think I’ve done anything especially ridiculous?

--- did you regret it / love it / hate it / want to do it again / etc? >> ---

is emotional cheating ( in a relationship ) as bad as physically cheating? >> I have no opinion on this, it’s irrelevant to my life.

if your bf/gf wanted to wait until marriage for sex, would you be willing? >> ---

when you look at the sunset, what do you think about / feel? >> I mean, it all depends, don’t it? I don’t have the exact same thought every time I look at something.

is there someone you wish you could trust / you wish was trustworthy? >> No. I just wish I didn’t have such overdeveloped trust issues.

is there anyone that you no longer want in you life? who / why? >> Well, yeah, and those people are, therefore, no longer in my life.

how has your outlook on life changed in the past few years? >> I’m not sure, I haven’t really kept track.

have you ever walked out of a boring movie ( in theaters )? >> No. I did want to walk out of Infinity War, though. Not because it was boring, but because it was pissing me off. (Also, that was back when Anthony was still around, and he wanted to walk out too.)

how open are you with people you know online? >> It depends on how I know them, what we have in common, how long I’ve known them and to what degree, etc.

what do you think of athletes that take steroids? >> I don’t think about that.

if a celebrity is involved in scandal after scandal, is that likely to effect how you view him/her & his/her work? >> Not really. I barely notice when scandals like that happen, anyway. It also seems like most scandals are just sensationalised overhyped nonsense to get people talking about whoever it is, for publicity, and has nothing to do with, like, the merits of the performer’s art or whatever.

what is one celebrity that you have zero respect for? >> ---

what is one fashion trend that you hope makes a comeback? >> ---

what is one that you wish would just die out already? >> ---

have you ever driven under the influence of alcohol / drugs? >> I don’t drive, period.

are you overly attached to your material possessions? >> No. I can be a bit under-attached, in fact. I’ll throw a thing away in a heartbeat. (This doesn’t apply to like, electronics, or any other expensive thing that I use on a constant basis. But like, t-shirts, books, toys, novelty items, other shit that ends up just taking up space and collecting dust? Bye.)

have you ever ridiculed anyone for their clothing choices? >> Not since I was a teenager, most likely.

living in poverty: what do you think it'd be like? >> I... I have lived in poverty. Poverty is my default state of existence. I don’t really know what to tell you about “what it’s like”. What’s it like to not be poor?

what is one " diet " that you think is just utterly worthless? >> All of them are worthless to me.

what advice would you give someone that is uncomfortable with his or her body / appearance? >> I wouldn’t give them advice. Advice is what the entire world is going to try to give them. I’d imagine they’d be tired of advice (unless they’re specifically asking me for it, I guess). But I’ll always have a “mood” or “I know that feel” to offer, because... yeah. Same. The shit sucks and there’s no easy way out of it.

what advice would you give someone about to start high school? >> I don’t even want to think about that phase of life, I’ll pass.

what foreign food are you NOT interested in trying? >> *shrug*

what foreign country do you believe is misunderstood? >> I mean, I don’t know. USian attitudes towards and assumptions about a lot of countries are... misinformed at best.

have you ever felt entirely unwanted and alone? >> Yeah.

in your eyes, which is worse: rape or murder? >> Nope, don’t care.

do you understand / read shakespeare? >> I have never been able to grok Shakespeare, and I’m not interested enough to keep trying.

would you feel comfortable living with someone that owned a gun? >> Most likely not. Luckily, that’s not likely to happen.

do you know anyone that lives in a foreign country? >> I mean, yeah, I use the internet.

[god-hunter]

I feel very stupid...

I have to get this out now, because if I don’t, the feelings will be bottled up forever, with nowhere to go, and I’ll end up taking micro aggressions out in my future interactions wherever I go.

There’s this girl at work who used to be the hot quiet girl that talked to nobody, but was all over her social media.  Eventually we befriended each other.  In her shy way, we kept it to Facebook and barely talked.  But as she would always post funny memes and a random thought about how work sucked, of course I would like them or “love” them, here and there.

We eventually got to talking, but it was very minimal.  I had invited her to join my friend group on breaks, and she politely gave a maybe (which was probably really a no) and I left her with a “you’re always welcome to join us.”

Flash forward to 6 months later, she finally was comfortable enough to finally come out and join us.  Our Break Group had new life as we got to know her, and soon enough she’d be joining us for Happy Hours and stuff.

We all talk to each other, but soon enough an interesting bond formed between us.  I don’t know how...  But she invited me out to a Haunted House thing and no one else could come out, not even my Girlfriend!  But, I third-wheeled it with her and her Boyfriend.  And somehow, it wasn’t as awkward as you’d think.

Flash forward a little later, her and her boyfriend joined the group for drinks again.  I definitely saw some controlling issues happening in their communication at the table.  (In the car during the Haunted House thing too).  But I left it alone, since it wasn’t my place to talk about her BF like that.

Yet.

Another month or so later, she’d brought up drinking in Patchogue over the weekend.  She mentioned that she wanted to do this with the whole group before, and I expressed interest when no one else really did, and everyone else kinda had plans.  But this time it happened to be her Boyfriend’s Birthday, and I was loosely invited to join them.

At that point I had band practice, but I told her to keep me informed. After band practice, I had to hit her up and ask what was going on, and of course, she told me they were leaving soon... but at least she got back to me at all.

Then that night, she was drunk and vented to me about how her night out sucked.  And that she really wanted to be single sometimes!

I couldn’t believe it, but I was there for her.  Told her I understood completely.  And then we left it alone.

By this point, I had established in my mind that we were definitely friends. But now I cared about this girl.  I thought about her wellbeing.  

But I just rode the wave of friendship.

It’s been a while since a drinking thing happened.  She said to the group that she wants to go crazy soon.  She wants to get “Fucked Up!”  And she had also confided in me Again about how her and her Boyfriend weren’t doing well at all, and in fact, she was considering ending it eventually.

Now...  This news came as a shock, but also a bit of a fear.  Because I’m not gonna lie to you.  This girl is very hot.  But also.. we like each other’s company.  It got to the point where at break, we practically break into our own side conversations all the time.  Not always...  but often enough.

We have each other’s numbers.  Texting happens.

But lately it’s been all about putting a hang out together.  She mentioned wanting to get “Fucked Up” and somehow Bowling became an idea between the 2 of us.  This became Our Plan, that we’d present to the group.

And here’s where I start to feel stupid.

As an aside - on Friday’s I always have my own after-work obligations where I visit my parents and teach some private music lessons while I’m in the area.  Then I come home late on a Friday, spend some time with the lady, and go to bed tired.

The work friends talk about how their night starts at 10 usually anyway, but... so far I haven’t seen that.  Things never linked up before.

So this time I made a Sacrifice!  3 weeks in advance!!!

I told my Students, “No lessons on 2/7!” We told the Co-workers about going Bowling on 2/7 waaaaay ahead of time, and they seemed down for the idea.

I looked up locations, places with good food, either nearby or within the facility..  And even bars to go afterwards if we wanted.  But no one budged in our little texting group chat.

This girl and I would talk about it here and there.  She was definitely down, no matter what.

Well, this week, Bowling quickly turned into Pool when another friend suggested alternative plans.  In my mind, I kinda cemented this one particular Bowling Alley, and now everything was thrown off.  We’d be in a different town, who knows if this place had food.  Etc. Etc. Etc.

I brought all this up in the chat, which caused it’s own drama between me and someone else, who wasn’t even joining us, but in the end, a 3rd Waaaaay Better option was brought up by the Girl!

“Let’s go to Patchogue!”

FINALLY!  

I was gonna get to see what the whole deal was!  We were gonna get trashed, and barhop at these clubby kind of places that lend themselves to dancing and grinding.  Who the fuck knows.

She mentioned pre-gaming at her place.  She talked a big game of crashing at her place if I wanted, [which I thought was insane!] and that would probably never happen.  I wouldn’t let myself get that bad.

But I don’t lie.  Ideas were set in place now.

Chilling at the girl’s place, beforehand.  And maybe even afterwards.  Probably not, but ya never know...

Then, yesterday at work, she left early during lunch.  She texted me heart eyes and said that she was leaving early.

I was like, “Whaat the Fuuuuuck?”

She went silent all day, and then this morning she texted me saying that she was really sick and that it probably wasn’t happening.

All day I was getting texts of , “I’m feeling better, but still uneasy” and then we’d talk and she was saying she was better, but she’d see.  I really tried not to push the issue.  I know she wasn’t feeling well.

At the end of the day, she mentioned that she told our other friend that she might meet up later.

But then on text, when it was kind of go-time, she told me, “I already told him I’m not gonna come through.”

To which I had enough, and was just like, “Thanks for keeping me in the loop”

I didn’t want to fight, but I had to express some form of disappointment.  Because, what the Fuck man, we Planned this!

And I just stressed to her to be real with me.  Let me know it’s not happening straight up and I’ll go with it.  But this back-and forth wishy washy maybe, maybe not thing is only hurtful and unfair to both of us.

I didn’t use those words.  I was way smoother.  But still, I got the point across.

...  And literally as I was writing this up, plans have changed AGAIN!  It’s BACK ON.  She even CALLED me for the first time.

I expressed the only thing I couldn’t say on text.  And I didn’t want to overtext. I told her that.  “I’ll never give you shit for feeling sick.”

And I told her, don’t feel this weird social obligation to come out just because you feel bad and the others want you to come out.  I want you to do you and feel good about whatever it is, because it’s what you need.”

But she was all, “I have all weekend to recover and we never go out so...  It’s all good.  So you wanna go?”

That happened about 3 times.  So...  It’s on.  I asked if she was sure, twice.

a 3-way call even happened to cement the plan.  I’m gonna meet them at wherever once I get the address.

I still think it’s gonna be a very different night, because she’s somewhat under the weather?  But good enough to hang??

But isn’t that always the reality of things.  You pump something up so much, that once you get to the actual destination, you find yourself way less excited?

Who knows.  I’m looking forward to tonight, but Man, this vent rant really turned around.  I’m both excited and concerned for her health now.

But we’re all going out.  And it’s gonna feel a little date-ish, being that the other 2 co-workers we’re going with are... secretly together, but haven’t told everyone flat out yet??  So, this’ll be an interesting vibe.

When the girl I’m talking about wasn’t in, I Really didn’t want to be a 3rd wheel.

But now that’s not the case!

I... have zero expectations for tonight, except to have a good time. Which is exactly what I told myself last night, before this entire day occurred.

So now I’m defaulting to that mode and I guess I’m gonna get ready.

Now I just hope that anything that was said to any party hasn’t made things awkward between anyone.  But probably not.

It’s gonna be a cool night out.  I hope.

I guess I don’t feel stupid after all!

[faerietaled-archived-blog]

doreile, caetain, and uh what else do we got. if u got it in u swing a bat and do what it lands on

okay so i’ma do doreile and then put the rest under the cut! 

doreile

who asks the other on dates: dori! éile does too but the dates are more his thing. she does a lotta gifts and touchiness and he likes to get her outta the house so that she doesn’t go crazy n he just likes. goin and doin things w her i reckonwho is the bigger cuddler: éile! she initiates it and once he gets used to it he always welcomes it. she just likes to have physical contact, even if it’s just the smallest thing. she likes being sure that it’s not just a dream. just flat out lying on top of him and closing her eyes and doin nothin is her favwho initiates holding hands more often: éile is touchier but i do feel like dori holds hands more! i think he just really likes it. i feel like it’s calming for him n there’s just somethin real nice about her letting him hold her tiny, soft lil hand in his big, rough one and like his whole hand swallows her but it feels just rightwho remembers anniversaries: éile better than dori but he’s not bad at it! he’s really sweet about their anniversary actually he knows it means a lot to her bc she never thought she’d get anything like what they have who is more possessive: i think éile?? it comes from a spot of being absolutely fucking terrified to lose him. she feels guilty for it but she does get possessive. she won’t act on it too much tho she’ll just stew. i’d WANT dori to be possessive tbh and i think lala would enjoy it as well but i know for a fact she’d have a hard time w this who gets more jealous: i would say éile again but i think i could also see dori being a bit jealous?? like i feel like he would start feeling unworthy and stuff more than jealous but. i could see it for both of them! but not super intensely. and dori would just feel crappy he wouldn’t do anythin (except maybe Sexy Times later) who is more protective: éile. she will fuckin destroy anyone that upsets him and god fuckin help ya if you HURT dori oooh boy- not to say that dori isn’t protective but he is so in a way that involves sheltering her rather than destroying people sdhgjfwho is more likely to cheat: um neither? they’re a pretty loyal pair and just… they wouldn’t. god, they just wouldn’t everwho initiates sexy times the most: oHOHOOOO they’re both fuckin horny on main who are we fuckin kiddin here like. You Know Matthew. You Know. although i’d reckon dori might feel worried he’d be pressuring her if he asked so he probs is thinkin bout it n lala just rolls her eyes and tackles himwho dislikes PDA the most: dori. éile is v touchy w him she just doesn’t realize it all the time. she has no problems with smoothin him rather intensely in public bc she’s an impulsive lil bitch and that’s her Mans! she’s gonna kiss him if she feels like it who kills the spider: why do i feel like it’s éile? i reckon neither of em care too much who asks the the other to marry them: dori- éile would want to be asked and she’d be way too terrified to do the asking who buys the other flowers or gifts: éile!! dori does for sure but she just. fuckin bombards the poor man. he has never lived down her bringing him roses at work one time. she mostly writes him cute lil notes thowho would bring up possibly having kids: both! by accident tho. they’re both too nervous to purposefully say anything i think and they’d just push it aside afterwardwho is more nervous to meet the parents: i think dori? éile knows richard’s kind of a dick and therefore is less nervous and more confrontational feeling i thinkwho sleeps on the couch when the other is angry: dori tries to but éile argues that he’s to big and throws shit at him when he tries to pick her up to move her (they always end up on the couch or in bed together anyway) who tries to make up first after arguments: both of them are p good about this BUT dori wins more on this one. éile feels her emotions REALLY strongly and it’s really hard on her when they fight plus it’s hard for her to calm them down enough to like. be logical and start talking it out. dori goes to her and then they sort it out, quiet and calm, from therewho tells the other they love them more often: tbh i feel like they both show it a bit more than they say it, but éile feels the need to say it more (despite how that kinda scares her). she’ll say it after every rough time p much. just to make sure that he knows i guess

caetain 

who asks the other on dates: cael! étaín like never leaves her house (and her kids) so he makes it his mission to get her out and living life morewho is the bigger cuddler: neither of them are cuddly per se but cael is more touchy with her. étaín is more hesitant about it and has to be eased into physicality more who initiates holding hands more often: i feel like they both just grab each other all the time bc they’re constantly on edge and tugging each other away from dangers and whatnotwho remembers anniversaries: étaín but she won’t admit that she doeswho is more possessive: cael. no man who even looks at her for too long is safe, as says my gut who gets more jealous: étaín (her name even means jealously lmao). she hates the idea of him with anyone else. it drives her mad, she’s kinda awful about it tbh. she can’t help it he’s all she has in a sense. the only link to a real life, her only chance at something like love and maybe happiness one day (but that’sa  fool’s dream, isn’t it?) for now he makes her feel alive and she doesn’t want to share that who is more protective: oh they’re both extremely protective… but cael is used to hurting people and étaín is used to defending people (her kids) so maybe étaín? don’t poke the mama bearwho is more likely to cheat: cael. he has more opportunity and i feel like he doesn’t wanna get too attached to her so…who initiates sexy times the most: i feel like it’s pretty damn equalwho dislikes PDA the most: both of them!! but esp étaín bc she’s divorced and has kids who kills the spider: both of them. with like 1200 weapons just fuckin thrown at the corner the spider is in. with deadly accuracywho asks the the other to marry them: it’d be étaín and it’d be very difficult for her to- in her mind- beg a man to marry herwho buys the other flowers or gifts: cael. the one nice thing the bastard does (jk). he probs brings her stuff from his travelswho would bring up possibly having kids: neither. étaín has two already and cael doesn’t strike me as someone who’d want a kid, esp given his line of work. if a kid were to happen it’d be an accidentwho is more nervous to meet the parents: i’d reckon both sets of parents are dead but if they WEREN’T it’d be étaín funnily enough bc she’d worry a lot about what they’d think of her being divorced and already having kids etcwho sleeps on the couch when the other is angry: cael. as fuckin if étaín would let him in her bed when she’s pissed at him lmaowho tries to make up first after arguments: i would’ve said étaín BUT she is absolutely HORRIBLE to deal w when she’s angry like it’s intolerable so i’d reckon cael would end up trying to make amends first bc her being angry is hell for the rest of the word who tells the other they love them more often: hjsdfgj fuckin neither of them!! these two are absolute fuckin messes and i’d guess they just leave it unsaid a lot. like “i presume you just know this.” i could see them saying it when they’re fighting tho. like yelling angry etc

and what the hell i’ma do tate and sef too! tasef! 

who asks the other on dates: both do! they’re v equal on this front n it’s v cutewho is the bigger cuddler: tate do i even need to go into detail about this you know how sweet and touchy tate is who initiates holding hands more often: sef! i feel like that’s his way of being more tate-style affectionate (and also making sure that tate doesn’t run off and blow something up) who remembers anniversaries: again sef… sorry sef. tate’s a scatterbrain and he always has a lot going on and a lot to remember. he never knows what day it is unless he’s told who is more possessive: tate. mostly outta insecurity but also he’s kinda clingy anyway… who gets more jealous: tate? sef doesn’t seem like the jealous type who is more protective: tate is SUPER protective i mean he’s had éile to protect all his life, right? he’ll protect anyone but himself p muchwho is more likely to cheat: i’ma say a strong neitherwho initiates sexy times the most: hmm idk! who dislikes PDA the most: sef. tate is ALLLL over that shit! all over it. handsy bastardwho kills the spider: sef bc tate can be a fuckin wimp and he would not shut up about the spider until it was deadwho asks the the other to marry them: sef bc tate would be terrified that their relationship isn’t actually all he believed and he’d get a no. he’s afraid sef would realize that he’s not worth it etc who buys the other flowers or gifts: tate like TAAATE! he loves that shit, loves spoiling people and doing cute stuff and spoiling his bf who would bring up possibly having kids: both, i think! maybe sef more bc tate’s insecure- tate would just LIGHT UP whenever it happened like god i’m makin myself emowho is more nervous to meet the parents: tate. he thinks he’s a whole ass mess (which he only sorta is and he’s v loveable)who sleeps on the couch when the other is angry: i feel like tate just fucks off to éile’s? idkwho tries to make up first after arguments: sef. tate gets SUPER wrapped up in his feelings and it takes him awhile to sort through emwho tells the other they love them more often: tate. he just does it without thinking. it’s basically a reflex to him after the first time. he’ll say it in response to anything if he’s not paying attention lmao 

[beowulfs-booty-call]

Professor Willow for that character challenge

Me, currently about to go writing another field journal report: Plz don’t judge me Arceus. You MADE him like this.

Sexuality Headcanon: Honestly all professors are gay end of story. waioesjdfi I’m gonna say gay. Simply because there isn’t anything straight about him too like have you seen the way he dressed himself? Literally gay athlete who douses himself with the sports bottle he carries with him.

Gender Headcanon: Male. Just your average guy who dedicated himself to Pokemon and has been traveling the world to stretch his research internationally. (Probably was a Gen 1 fan at first seeing as Oak is his mentor) What an icon™

A ship I have with said character:

Willow and the GO™ trainer (Aka all of us awfesdg)

Willow and his star field researcher! (I have yet to, but I’m gonna be drawing up a series of like one shots between me and him because Y E S)

A BROTP I have with said character:

Oak / Willow = “Wow dad you’re so old.” “Look in the mirror smartass” The two are... Well, one may be the teacher, but both are rivals in the way they’ve studied Pokemon. I’d say Willow is more than eager to surpass his old teacher and learn more, but Oak’s still on the cusp of teaching him that knowledge and wisdom comes with both age and experience, not just talent.

Willow / Sycamore = Sycamore teaches him how to flirt but all he can say in French is Omelette du fromage. Sycamore just gives him a thumbs up and nods. Also likes to talk to Willow about his thoughts on Lysandre and other presumptions of Mega evolution. Currently, the professor has been researching it with me!

Willow / Kukui = Nut Oil 

The two are super super close in terms of being pretty darn compatible! One likes to trek the world, the other likes to TAKE Pokemon moves front and forward. I’d say they’d both pull up at the gym to compare research before getting down to it (Don’t think like that, ya nasties. Unless you DM about it so I can die with you on it.)

I’d say because they’re the most newest professors to be “here”, they’re more than eager to prove their work, but once the Professor told me that he’s worked in Alola for a short while to get a better understanding of Z moves... I wonder if he has a Z ring..? I heard those are WAY special, even for a regular guy like me!

Willow / Juniper = Can you imagine if Willow like, had a past with her / knew her when he was younger and they had a “thing”? Like, maybe not BF / GF but like, openly flirting with each other but neither actually taking a step. They’re close friends regardless and do like to chat when free... But I think internally, Juniper’s greatest “regret” would be similar to Agatha: She never really had time for romance or for being “a simple person” since she’s always gonna be Professor Juniper: Woman extraordinaire. And I don’t mean this in a bad way at all, what I’m getting at is: Juniper is the pillar of stability for Unova as a professor, so, she doesn’t have time devoted to being anything else but that. I like to think that she and willow have that in common; The desire to be unique, yet... Also the desire to be a normal person too. 

In reality, it’s probably Willow who reminds her that everyone can be that too: Self care’s important as if you don’t take care of yourself... How the hell you gonna take care of anybody else can I get an amen?

It’s that reasoning that causes Juniper to take Bianca as her assistant: not just to give her help round the lab but to help Bianca form her identity like she wanted to with the help of the BW protagonist as we see in her Dreamlink battle.

Willow / Elm = He... Doesn’t know Elm much since Elm’s more than happy to take time to simply work on Pokemon breeding and abilities, but the two get along alright. In reality, Elm was the one who gave Willow advice / basics of Pokemon eggs and helps him develop theorems based on what eggs can hatch what Pokemon we have now! TBH, I’d say if given the chance, Willow is literally the “Cool guy” at the party and Elm is the “Hey I’m just here for the dog” dude. They both bond over Candela’s growlithe who was hatched out an egg and had ice fang as a move.

Willow / Masked Royal = Willow keeps a poster of him in his lab! (I had to REALLY get him to get me one too, god, so lucky!) He’s a fave of the professor and even Willow has been “trying” to wrestle! Tho, given how much he’s had to be bandaged afterwards, and Kukui prolly told him how he once got guillotined by a Vikavolt I don’t think it’s a good idea... That said one time the professor showed up to alola to see a match and the Masked Royal invited him to fight against him and boy oh boy I STILL wanna hear what happened! Supposedly the joint said it was one of their biggest events yet! The headliner? 

“Rag-tag wannabe Wrestler sizes up the comp. with the Masked Royal! Blow to blow and and Pokemon to Pokemon, there is no competition without motivation!”

Willow and the other assistants = 

Spark: “Thanks so much for Mcdonalds dad!”

“Dad?”All three, eating a McFlurry in summer ‘17: “Dad.”

Honestly Willow trusts them a great deal and it’s obvious he’s the guiding hand to their exploits and understandings of their own journeys. Blanche learns about the power of emotion and trusting in others, Candela learns about taking things easier and letting go, and Spark understands the essence of both knowledge and power: He still walks the middle path.

He sees aspects of himself in each of them, but I’d say that’s his favorite thing about them: it reminds him he’s still growing and journeying on his own too!

A NOTP I have with said character:

Child characters as a whole

A random headcanon: Willow once tried out to be a Pokemon ranger, but in regions and times where Rangers aren’t “very well used” globally aside from Fiore and certain other places, Willow dedicated himself instead to research as he was more so interested with reading his Styler’s bestiary rather than to simply befriend Pokemon alone.

Because of this, he can still USE a capture styler, and he’s a fairly good ranger, but in spite of the effort to BE a ranger, he’s much more better and tossing curve balls and getting an “Excellent” on a jigglypuff!

General Opinion over said character:

Daddy of my ass

And the coolest professor thus far! There’s a lot of things unsaid about him but man... I’m totally here for him! And not JUST because he’s cute as fuck. He’s always a caring character who watches your trainer grow and motivates you to keep on going forward! 

It’s hard not to like that when you’re playing the game and incorporating that in your daily life! 

I think unconsciously I also still have that big dad issues thing where that when I have a father figure in life, I WANNA do things to make them proud because of the little to no relationship with my own father. I’ve done that with my high school teacher, and I’ve cried when I saw that in Lisa’s Substitute from the Simpsons. It reaches into that for Willow to be so welcoming and a breath of fresh air, it’s turned into a “I wanna do this not JUST to be praised for it. I wanna do it because it’s for ME.” instead. I mean, I’ve grown from the person I was, but there’s still the need for wanting to make someone proud and to see that Willow is pretty big now on measuring your journey now with these daily tasks, I think that sorta makes me idk more grateful for a character like that?

My feelings for the dude as a whole started out as thirst, but it’s become more of a psychoanalysis of my own relationships with men and my “types” as a whole. I quite like that, since he isn’t so “detailed” as it stands. It gives me more of a chance to make him out to be instead something I want to be, rather than what I just find ideal.

Pfftt, sorry, it sounds rather complicated, but really saying? Willow is kinda like the new beginning I wanna start for myself for a long time. I’ve reached it, but it’s the fact that he’s such a cool character that it’s really just me projecting wanting to be that cool on a character that COULD really be amazing. I’d say I’ve reached that coolness now, being myself. So, only thirst remains.

[kathrynmjaneway]

Meeting Naoko & Kai at Time Lash III

So! The thing you may or may not have waited for! Just one thing beforehand – this is really, really personal and emotional for me, and I want to share this with you guys, but I’m asking you to please not reblog this. Thank you :)

Anyway! It’s been almost three week since Julia and I went to Time Lash and met Naoko Mori, Kai Owen and Scott Handcock (& a bunch of the DW cast, but personally, I was there for Torchwood). This is about my experience at Time Lash, but mostly about how I met Naoko and Kai (ok….. mostly about Naoko and the three hugs I got from her). This post is really incredibly personal, but I just had the best experience I could wish for, meeting them, especially Naoko, means the world to me – I’m explaining why in the post. What I experienced really shows why Torchwood, the actors and the fandom are so great and why it’s the best group of people. I just feel like everyone should know this and a reason why …. :’)

(I’m sorry there will be a lot of rambling…. I wrote this down over the course of a couple of days, because I’m so emotional over this. It’s also really kinda long, soooo *shrugs*)

We got up at around 6am on Sunday and arrived at the convention at 8am to be there when the convention opened.  We didn’t have to wait for long to be let in and get out convention bracelet thingy. The convention was really tiny and super cute! I think I heard something about there being only around 800 visitors during the weekend – which made so different than the conventions I went to before, and I loved it! We decided to spent the first hour or so in the main room and listen to the presentations there (which were both really interesting) and after that we went to check out the dealer’s room and where the actors would sit to give autographs (they had a Big Finish booth and we caused a bit of a havoc because they [german sellers] tried to sell us Aliens Among Us pt 1 & 2 and we said we already had those, but they insisted that they’d only officially come out in December – which is kinda true, if you want to get them from somewhere else besides the BF website, but they apparently didn’t know that haha).

So we just went back downstairs (yk, where the autograph room and the panel room was) and we’re standing on the stairs, not really knowing where to go, because none of the actors had arrived yet, and then SUDDENLY Naoko walked by.

I may have died a little. (She’s so beautiful?? And I think she smiled at me?? I wasn’t prepared??)

So that was that. (!!!!)

Fast forward a bit, about half an hour or so (because I think she had a meet and greet, so she didn’t go to the autographs immediately, and in the meantime I spent the first bit of my money on a Tosh action figure) (who would have thought), and we go check the autograph room again and there she was! Naoko was sitting at her table and giving autographs! There was a tiny queue, so we got in line for that, and I suddenly became really nervous??? Because I was NOT PREPARED AT ALL. You would have thought that I had thought about what I wanted to say to her, because this is a big deal, right? But nope, nothing. I was just so incredibly nervous.

What really kind of helped was that in front of us was this couple with their son, who was maybe 2 years old? And he was dressed as a mini Jack Harkness??? And my heart melted??? It was sooooo cute! (And Naoko loved it as well and even took a photo of them, and I’m probably lurking somewhere in that photo lmao). And during all that Kai Owen arrived as well and sat down on his table right next to Naoko and aah, Kai Owen was there!!! They greeted each other really cute :’) I can’t even really remember what they did, but I think Kai was teasing Naoko in some way idk? (I was a bit overwhelmed tbh)

Anyway! It then was suddenly my turn and I still had no idea what to say or do! I had Torchwood: Cascade with me to let her sign it and was sort of really holding on to it (boy, I was shaking), and Naoko was still kinda looking after the tiny Jack and then looked at me and went “Isn’t he cute?!” and I replied that he was, sort of, yk, going “!!!!!!!!” because I was talking to and standing across from Naoko Mori?!?!

And then she went and greeted me (“Hi!”) and she shook my hand (!!!) which was kinda awkward because I was so nervous and I was holding the CD case in one hand and the leaflet thing (that I wanted to get signed) in the other hand and I think she noticed how nervous I was. I think, she asked me how I was, but I didn’t quite catch it and was just sort of stuttering a “Hello!” and then she stood up and went “Aw, let’s hug!” and that’s what we did! (it was really really really nice) (holy shit)

She then asked again how I was, and I think I rambled a bit and said something like “Really good, now!” (and this was the moment where I really realized how nervous I was, because I know from past conventions that I tend to be nervous before I meet them, then am kinda cool and chill while I talk to them, as I’m running on adrenaline, and only afterwards really flipping my shit and starting to shake. I’ve only been nervous like this once before and that was when I met John Barrowman a few months ago – more on that as I go along with this)

I think I dropped my CD case or something when I tried to hand her the leaflet to sign?? (can you believe? Aaah) (awkward) (she was so kind)

And this is the point where I started rambling and as I said before, I didn’t have a clue about what I wanted to say, right? I had nothing. When I met John Barrowman back in July, I was on a mission. I knew what I wanted to tell him, I had planned for that moment since he was announced as a star guest five months or so before. That had been the moment for me [you probably know if you’ve been following me for a while. The prospect of meeting him gave me the reason and the confidence to come out, he was the first person I actually talked to and came out to in person (after I had only made a post about coming out the night before here on tumblr)], so of course I had been a nervous mess and cried, but I knew what I wanted to say, right?

Anyway – I start saying the first thing that came to my mind: what a great character Tosh is and how much I love her. And it just went from there and I found myself talking about how I haven’t been in the fandom that long and how Tosh is really important to me and that it’s because it means so much to see Tosh as a canon bisexual character, because it helped me coming to terms with my own bisexuality and coming out to some of my friends.

At this point I’m shaking and started to cry (which as I said, I kind of expected to happened when I met John, but didn’t think it would happen AGAIN) and Naoko then held out her hand and took my hand and held it. THE WHOLE TIME.

She asked about how my friends reacted, so I told her about it and how John was kind of the first person I came out to in person and that right afterwards I came out to my friends that I was at ComicCon with (ily guys ♥) and how nice and great they were about it.

She then asked really kindly if I had come out to my parents yet (I haven’t) and she was so nice and encouraging to me, that it’s alright and that it’s one step at a time.

AND AT THAT POINT I’m about 90% sure???? I got another hug from her (I honestly can’t tell for sure, even in the voice memo I made like 10 min after this all happened for some friends I already wasn’t sure anymore, I WAS A MESS) and I think before that? Or after? She and her assistant were searching for some tissues for me. I honestly forgot most about what happened in these few minutes because I was (still am) an emotional mess about this all :’)

But I remember her saying almost the same as John did back at ComicCon. “Those are happy tears, right?” (my answer was a very shaky yes, what a déjà vu)

And now she said some really beautiful things and this is the another reason why I really wanted to share this: She talked about how she and the others love “Torch” and that doing these events, because she feels like they and the fans “have this connection, you know?” and that this made it all so special.

(She said some more really beautiful and encouraging things to me and congratulating me for coming out, but as I said, I FORGOT most of it because I am still crying at this point)

At the end of our conversation I GOT ANOTHER HUG and I said thank you (probably not for the first haha) and she was so nice and kind (yes I really have to keep mentioning this) and she asked me she would see me later (yes!) and she offered me a cookie, which I took and then it was OVER and I left and walked a few feet away to hopefully calm down a little and sort my stuff before I’d go to Kai. And you know what? The cookie was a kind I usually don’t like at all, but it was soooo good in that moment and I feel like I’ll forever associate these cookies with meeting Naoko now :’D (how cliché, I know, fight me.)

So, I’m still sort of crying and completely overwhelmed because this???? Really??? Just had happened??? It took a few minutes to somewhat calm down again and come to my senses because I wanted to get my autograph from Kai and I eventually managed to get it all sorted and got out my AAU pt. 1 boxset for him to sign.

I paid for the autograph and handed him the boxset (and this is also all a bit hazy) and he asked me how I was (and now remember how he’s sitting right next to Naoko) and I sorta just gesture in her direction and say something like “Good! I don’t know how much you heard….” And he was really kind and said that he’d heard some of it and “Good for you” and probably some more, but well (aaahhh) and we talked a little about AAU and how I sorta cried when I thought Rhys would die at the beginning of pt. 2 (“Oh honey no!”) All in all he was really nice and friendly and really kinda chill (I didn’t start crying again at this point!!) and I died a little again, because KAI OWEN!

So after all that I stepped aside again and waited for Julia (whose turn it was after me each time) and I was still really emotional about everything and I promptly started crying again and it took me like 10 min or even longer to calm down a little again and then I had the grand idea to send a voice memo to some of my friends that couldn’t be there and told them about all that and promptly almost started crying again (only almost!).

Anyway – fast forward a few hours to the double photoshoot with Naoko and Kai!

Naoko recognized me! And she greeted me with “Ohh! Happy tears!” (it was so cute and my heart melted and I died a little) (again) (and I think Kai must have recognized me as well but I was kinda focused on Naoko calling me ‘happy tears’ haha) and I stood between them. She then found a hair on my tshirt so we both tried to get it off and it was just idk. It was such a small thing but it was so cute?

So that is the story of how I met Naoko Mori and Kai Owen at Time Lash and I’m honestly so happy that I was able to go (all thanks to Julia!!). This really means the world to me that I was able to meet them both (and Scott!).

This is why I’m not exaggerating when I talk about how much Torchwood means to me and that it literally changed my life over the past 11 (!!!) months. I’ve met quite a few actors over the past three and half years and it all means so much to me, but meeting the Torchwood cast is just a completely different level, for the reasons that I mentioned here.

And really, I just want to share this because Torchwood is just the Best.

[and please remember to not reblog it. I don’t mind likes or replies/messages if you feel like it, just no reblogs :)]

[ohbelladonna]

All the gay

jesus fucking christ

1. describe your idea of a perfect date

tbh??? chilling like. going to a park, around town or having a netflix day w/ cheesy-ass movies

2. whats your “type”

like??? i’ve been thinking about this a lot lately and i’ve realized im into futches-butches 

3. do you want kids?

dEPENDS BUT OVERALL I WOULD LIKE A CHILD

4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?

if we were to have a child through one of us i’d like to be the one carrying the child tBh but im all good with adopting as long as i know the genetics and all that

5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been on

i lowkey don’t wanna think about that soOO

6. describe your experience having sex for the first time (were you nervous? or was it easy peasy?)

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

7. are you a morning time gay or night time gay?

both??? i stay up late and get up early so it’s all crunched together

8. opinion on nap dates?

jesus christ take me

9. opinion on brown eyes?

jesus christ take me

10. dog gay or cat gay?

i,,, Dog gay

11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?

i used to own a shitload of mice so fuck yeah hmu with them hELL YEAH

12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someone

eating habits

13. what is a misconception you had about lgbt people before you realized you were one?

that we go to hell, but its like hEY live while u can

14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger self

hey buddy pal amigo yeah its me. 19 y/o u. yeah motherfucker u lasted this long u shithead u did it man. u tHOUGHT IT WOULDN’T HAPPEN BUT UR STILL FUCKIN AROUND PISSHEAD. also yeah ur gay u like girls/nb ppl hell yeah bro thats a Mood keep it up

15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?

same status lOL

16. who is an ex you regret?

im bout to get #shady alright yall noah offense but lemme tell u??? the dude shes seeing now i can tell ya my fucking clit is bigger than his dick probs. my dick vision never lies. but her like?? lol if we being honest here yeah u hurt me and YEAH i halfway forgive u but hey, i gotta love those crippling trust issues lmAO

17. night club gay or cafe gay?

BOTH

18. who is one person you would “go straight” for

okay this is gonna sound so fucking weird okay sO FUCKING WEIRD BUT @cockbiteproductions and i have been talking about fucking,,, bLeach and we BOTH AGREED WE WOULD GO STRAIGHT FOR BLEACH MALE CHARACTERS OKAY 

19. video game gay, book gay, or movie gay?

video game/movie gay

20. favourite gay ship (canon or not)

rn my fave ship is amberprice (I think??? thats what its called) but yeah thats my fave rn

21. favourite gay youtuber

i loveee lucas and shane dawnson ahshhdhd

22. have you ever unknowingly asked out a straight person?

thank fucking god nO but i have flirted with one on accident 

23. have you ever been in love?

yeah boi

24. have you ever been heartbroken?

yeah boi

25. how do you determine if you want to be them or be with someone

its a gut feeling that starts screaming “hey!! look at them” and its “oh. fuck.”

26. favourite lgb musician/band

i fUckING LOVE STARS THEY’RE GREAT

27. what is a piece of advice you have for young / baby gays

take ur time don’t force yourself cause it’ll be super overwhelming. baby steps my friends you got this. it doesn’t matter how old you are, it’s okay to take the baby steps cause i know that in the end you’ll find your safe place.

28. are you out? if so how did you come out

ohhhhh myyyy goddd this story is long and ohhhhh my GOD. 

okay so i had a bf and blah blah blah he wanted to kiss me at homecoming and blah blah blah i found out i was not into guys rIGHT AS HE ASKED TO KISS ME AND I WAS LIKE “OHHHHH MYY FUKCIGNNNG” so i went to the bathroom to call my mom to say quote “hey i think im gay what do i do can we get mcdonalds afterwards” and then like two or three days later i broke up w/ him and to this day he’s still fucked up over it cause theres this dude named trevor (@ friends YEAH that guy) and for two years without my knowledge he teased my ex bf that he turned me gay and it fucked him up legit. but yeah thats how i found out and coming out was a progressive progress. i first told a small portion of my friends and then slowly i began to alter my appearance (clothes, hair, etc) and then it became pretty self-exclamatory

29. what is the most uncomfortable / strange coming out experience you have

in my econ class my teacher made a HUGE deal when he found out i was gay like (okAY ITS ROBBINS @IRL FRIENDS) and it was a Time

30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexuality

i can’t say it’ll be okay for now, but it will be. it will take time. there will be moments where it’ll be tougher and harsher, but it will someday be okay. it’s not immediate, but there will be a time when it’ll click, leading to the acceptance that you’ve longed for. it may not be okay right now, but i promise that it will be soon.

thats legit all the questions whoops

[rcmoncs-blog]

------ hello, hello!!! my name is georgia, n i’m gonna be playing this small, precious gal by the name of ramona. i am currently somewhere in the cst timezone, and i’m eighteen years young. i never rlly know what to say w these things, so forgive me?? anywho, if u wanna learn more about how problematic ram is click HERE for her stats (basically her social media which took me forever like shit), and if ur lookin to learn more, sit tight bc her bio is being tweaked atm. basically what u need to know is that ram was all shy n unhappy until she and her childhood bff started to date around sophomore yr of highschool, but during their senior yr, the two got in a car crash n her bf was unfortunately killed, so that sent her off the deep end kinda. she moved here to throw herself into adventures and whatnot, but she has been here for around 3-4 yrs idk; she’s an old one. basically, she’s just rlly spontaneous and absurd. anywho, i have some connections i’d really love 4 her to have under the cut, and as always, i’m down for anyone to message me, but if that ain’t ur thing, i’ll come ur way! also if u just wanna sit down talk abt life and it’s turmoil i’m down for that always

most of these DON’T belong to me as i’m not that creative ifnedioneif i just searched plot ideas ok

gimme a rich x poor muse plot. i want to watch them clash because of their social statuses, i want to see how they adjust to each other’s different lifestyles. imagine muse a taking muse b to really expensive and fancy restaurants or muse b taking muse a to really cheap hidden gems around the town. (in this instance lol ramona would b the cheap one bc she ain’t spendin her money on fancy things)

gimme a plot where both muse a and muse b have gone through lots of shitty things in their life, yet find clarity whenever they’re together. maybe it could be a simple friendship or maybe it could become a friends to lovers thing. (THIS WOULD BE AWESOME TO HAVE BC RAMONA HAS BEEN THROUGH SOME SHIT)

gimme a friendship/relationship where they can’t help BUT hate each other, and no matter what they do if that person is in danger you bet your ass that they’ll fuck someone up because no, that’s my person to hate and if I can’t kill them fuck you you can’t either. They will bet the shit outta each other every now and then, but damn if they don’t know that despite their anger, hatred is too strong of an emotion to waste on someone you don’t love. and they have each other’s backs no matter what.

*tw: alcohol. muse a and muse b met at a bar. throughout the night, muse b got more and more inebriated. being the good (or bad) samaritan they are, muse a decides to take muse b back to their house before they end up on the floor. when they arrive at muse a’s building/house, muse b (loudly) asks muse a how the heck ! muse a knew where they lived. turns out – they live a mere few floors/doors/houses away from each other. (ram is a big big big fan of alcohol btw)

it started with something simple, when muse b dropped something on the ground and muse a chased after muse b to return it. needing to thank muse a, the two went to coffee and the two hit it off and are now close friends.

muse a and muse b aren’t really friends outside of the times they’re spilling their hearts out to each other. originally it started when muse a, extremely distressed, literally ran into muse b and muse b refused to let muse a go until they were talked down. when something goes wrong, you can be assured that these two are together.

muse a and muse b work together and while they aren’t each other’s favorites, they have common workplace enemies. when they’re working together, they have easy conversation which often includes complaining about their mutual dislikes, but their banter hasn’t gone outside the workplace.

muse a and muse b are often seen at the same place, but never together. in fact, they only found out each other’s names because they’ve heard other people speak it so frequently. they’ve had few, small conversations but not much else.

muse a and muse b have the same goal and will do absolutely anything to get it. if that means getting their hands dirty, they will. muse a has been known to send in tips to important people in muse b’s life and muse b may or may not have blackmailed muse a at one point or another, but neither will admit to anything.

muse a and muse b used to be so close that people knew that when they invited one, they invited both. that is until the two got into a fight over something (a person, a scholarship, an award, a passion, a move, etc.). now, when they get into the same room it’s almost instantaneous back and forth. they are both set on taking the other down gloriously and for good.

muse a and muse b met through mutual friends and quickly hit it off as friends. offhandedly one day, muse a mentioned something one day that muse b quickly turned sexual. they locked eyes and the next minute they were in a room, locked away, undressing each other. after exiting the room, the two agreed that it would never happen again…until a few days later, when it did. they keep saying they won’t come back for more.

muse a and muse b have had a flirtationship going on for quite some time. they’ve always hinted at feelings toward another in conversation, never outright saying it. a few days/weeks ago, muse a blurted their feelings for muse b and quickly changed the subject afterward. they haven’t spoken about it since.

muse a and muse b were friends prior to their spontaneous hook-up and their world turned upside down. dazed, they decided to start dating that moment and to their credit, tried to make it work for a few weeks. muse a finally (and nervously) let out that they weren’t feeling it. to their relief, muse b admitted they were feeling the same. they decided to stay friends, but now have the added “i’ve seen you naked” awkwardness.

AND FINALLY!!!! i really need someone for ramona to turn to when she needs to discuss matteson and can help her get over them?? this doesn’t have to be romantic at all and is open to anyone and everyone. they’d have to know a bit more abt her of course but that doesn’t take too long. this person has got to deal w her mood swings, stumbling in drunk, and her aloofness. idk it’s a tough job

[summylise]

OK GUYS THIS IS REALLY CUTE

So something SUPER amazing and cute and wonderful happened to me when I got home from work today but if you’d rather just skip by for more FT, you’re more than welcome. I just need tell someone because it was THAT. GREAT. 

OK. SO. BACKSTORY. (if you don’t care about backstory, just skip to the bold at the bottom :3) This year was going to be the first year I went to prom and I was SUPER excited. Like I went early to buy a dress, was willing to go out of my comfort zone for a date, and was actually excited to be in a public setting to have fun (which is a pretty big deal for me). 

ANYWAY it came down to the wire so I was double checking to see if my date was still willing to go with me. Turns out, he decided that he didn’t feel like going and decided to just mess around with his friend instead. I was distraught, naturally, but it was whatever; I didn’t need a boy to have fun at prom.

So I went over to my closest friends and asked if I could tag along in their group (knowing full well that I’d be third wheeling, something I hate doing, and not caring anyway). 1st friend’s boyfriend decided to take just her to dinner when it was originally going to be a bigger group of people. This one I understood because it’s prom and it’s your bf. (After this, I started asking around to my other friend groups and they were either not going or already had plans and dates.) 2nd friend said that I couldn’t go because... “idk”. That was her only explanation as to why: “idk”. I had to find out through someone else that her reasoning was because a person in her group didn’t like me and would have made everything about herself and would make a big deal out of it. This one I was not-so ok with a) because she didn’t give me a reason, b) because I had to find out through someone else, and c) because it was a really bad reason seeing as the girl that doesn’t like me could either pull up her pants and deal with it or leave. (I talked to this friend that denied me later and she said she was “really stressed out” (I get) and “forgot to text back” (i don’t really get? because the explanation didn’t happen for another several days and when I was the one prompting her?) and “is probably not going to have a good time anyway” which are all kind of dumb reasons but whatever). The 3rd friend has a longer and more complicated explanation but basically, we had planned an anti-ish-prom and at this point, I felt very hurt and rejected by the people I had known for years and thought I could trust. I wanted to go to a nice dinner beforehand with the fancy dress that I had already bought and then go laser tagging afterwards. She said sure to all of this. Later when we went to buy her dress (like we were inside the mall which isn’t close to my house), she decides to throw “oh my mom said that she wouldn’t buy my dress unless I went to prom and I don’t like people but I would have to stay the whole time oh and btw I don’t have money” ALONG WITH “oh and you can’t throw this back on me because I never said sure”. This explanation doesn’t make sense but at that point, I was really angry and frustrated and upset and a whole bunch of emotions so I can’t really remember all that much. I just remember calling my mom and asking her to pick me up after I told the girl how I was more than willing to go out of my comfort zone for her but she wasn’t willing to do a tiny thing for me (keep in mind, I hadn’t asked her to go to prom because I knew that she would feel uncomfortable). I still have not received any further contact from her and it’s been a few weeks.

ANYWAYSSSS GETTING BACK TO THE CUTENESS

So throughout this entire time, I’m texting @solidscriptjess and telling her what was happening and even going so far as to call her sobbing (after 3rd and final friend). She’s over here being hella supportive and sweet and amazing (and even willing to come over and fight some peeps) and comes up with the amazing idea of binging anime and eating a crap ton of junk food. Me being MORE THAN WILLING TO A) BINGE ANIME, B) EAT BAD FOOR, C) CHILL WITH MY BEST FRIEND, AND D) DO SOMETHING SUPER AMAZING FOR PROM says sure. 

BUT WAIT

there’s more 

She messages me a few days later asking for my address (which is a-ok because I was just about to ask for hers in order to send binging snacks to her) and I think nothing of it. She later texts me a pic of my address and her return address in her cute little handwriting on a box. Me, thinking it’s a silly cute little present/prank, got really excited but hAD NO IDEA WHAT WAS IN STORE.

I HAD THIS CUTE LITTLE PACKAGE SITTING ON MY BED WHEN I GOT HOME FROM WORK TODAY. It was pretty light so I was like “wow jess did you send me air or something?”

BUT

NO

I FOUND THIS

I. SHIT. YOU. FUCKING. NOT.

I STARTED CRYING. HERE WAS SOMEONE WHO DID NOT HAVE TO GO OUT OF HER WAY TO DO SOMETHING LIKE THIS BUT INSTEAD OF JUST LEAVING IT AS A TEXT SHE WENT OUT OF HER WAY TO MAKE ME FEEL SPECIAL, SOMETHING ONLY MY EX DID ON A FEW OCCASIONS. LIKE I’M EVEN SITTING HERE, SMILING LIKE AN IDIOT BECAUSE OF THIS. 

JESSICA, you are the sweetest, most understanding, most thoughtful, most amazing person and friend that I have met in my short 17 years and I hope that we stay friends for a very long time (bc tbh one of us is going to die at some point and it’ll probably be you from wanting to fight someone or something ahahaha.... or me for being a dummy and protecting you or something #remember the pact).

anyway, this absolutely made a really sucky week bearable and worth it because without that, I wouldn’t have been this grateful or touched. I would say that I’m blessed but tbh, I’m not all that religious. ahahaha....END RANT.