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[lovelinoss]

nonidol!seungmin x afab!reader

college!au

Warnings : smut. MDNI!! adult content below, brat tamer seungmin?, use of pet names, enemies to lovers trope?, unprotected sex (no not do this), tutor seungmin, etc.

a/n : this has been stored in my drafts for so long unfinished.. but i decided to finish it and its so bad?! im gon sob. Butttt… my inbox if always open for req so feel free to ask !

wc: 5k (5,069)

“Can’t you see where you’re going?!” the guy in front of you said. More like above you, since you were on the floor with your books everywhere and your spilled coffee to the side. It was so embarrassing, trying to get into the library’s “office” room for people who study or work to get some work done when you ran into this guy on his way out.

I mean what a jerk, right? It was your fault, but a person who was thinking straight and is a decent human being would have said “it’s okay” and help you up!

The concrete floor was cold, the winter days adding more of this chilliness. Your bottom hurt from the fall. You just looked up at him to see his face in an annoyed scrunch. He noticed you staring and he met your gaze. He sighed.

“C’mon, get up,” he said, reaching his hand out for you to grab. You looked between him and his hand. You reluctantly reached out for it, grasping his hands. He tugged backwards for you to get up.

“Thanks.. i guess,” you said, dusting off your coat and crouching down to pick up your books.

“Is that how you thank someone?” He said, catching you off guard. You stood up after picking up your books.

"What?" You responded, staring at him. He raised his eyebrow, making it seem like he was intimidating you.

"Want me to say it again?" he said, crossing his arms with his backpack slung over his shoulder. "is. that. how. you. thank. someone?"

"Fucking no!" you yelled out of frustration. "What as in is that something to say to someone? Are you this rude on a daily basis?"

“Whatever,” he shrugged, bumping into your shoulder as he left his own way. That was so obvious that it was on purpose! You could feel the way he smirked once he walked away.

What the fuck. Who even was he?

You’re mind was on this random guy the whole time you were trying to study. Trying to right down your notes in your notebook would just lead you back to slamming your fist on the table out if frustration. You sighed, leaning back against the chair you were sitting in. It’s been 2 hours and you barely got your work done. You were tired. You were frustrated. You need a break.

You left your stuff as is on the single desk. No one in the library cared enough to steal stuff. It was never said so, but everyone knew that no one steals stuff in the library.

You walked into the nearby convenience store once you got out, wanting to get some snacks and some coffee to keep you awake all night.

You reached the area where they kept the drink when you spotted your favorite brand of coffee sitting on the shelves. Lucky for you, it was the last one. You cheered mentally, walking over to grab it.

However, when you were reaching your hand out to grab it, another hand reached it first, grabbing it off the shelf. You turned to your left to see who stole your coffee. And nonetheless, it was the guy that you bumped into earlier in front of the library.

“You!” You screamed, glancing over to the coffee in his grasp. He was tossing it up like he won a battle or something, like a victory prize.

He groaned.

“Not you again,” he sighed, turning around to head over to the register.

“Wait!” You screamed, making him turn back to face you. You really didn’t mean to call him out like that. But you were desperate. No other coffee brand fit your taste. “Give me that coffee.”

“What? Are you fucking crazy. Finders keepers, losers weepers,” he said. “Go cry to your mommy about it.”

This son of a bitch.

"C'mon. Give me that coffee. Be a gentleman, would you?" you told him, reaching your hand out.

"What, no." he shrugged, shaking the can of coffee in his hand right in front of your face. "It's mine now."

This infuriated you. Who does he think he is?

You snatched his hand away. He looked a bit shocked for a second, before his "O" shaped mouth turned into a smirk. How could anyone be this annoying?

"FINE!!" you yelled, crossing your arms. "keep that stupid coffee all for your stupid self."

He shook the can in front of you for a second before dropping his hand, knowing you would swipe it away again.

"Okayy~" he said. "My stupid self will take this stupid coffee and leave~" he mockingly said. He turned around and walked to the register, laughing.

You cursed him in your head a million times, opening to fridge door to get a random cup of coffee you never tried before. This'll have to do.

୨ৎ

"fuck!" you screamed, jumping out of bed turning off your alarm clock. You were late. Late for your last class of the season before your exams. You sighed, running over to your bathroom to get ready.

Finally after around 7 minutes, you surprisingly got ready in comfortable sweatpants and a sweater, fitted nicely for the cold weather. You rushed toward your class building, running in and finally reaching your lecture hall.

"Ms Y/LN, you're late." your professor, Lee Minho, announced for the whole lecture hall to hear. Embarrassed, you bowed to him quickly, a way for you to say sorry, and quickly found your seat next to Felix, your best friend.

"Were you on your phone all night again?" he asked you as you sat down next to him, sighing.

"What? No!" you exclaimed, crossing your arms and glaring at him. "Who do you think I am?"

"Then what were you doing?"

Before you could answer him, your professor hit his pointer stick on his desk to get everyone's attention.

"You guys all remember about the exam you guys are taking in 2 days, yes?" he asked, followed by a unison of yes's. "Well good. I know some of you are having a bit of trouble studying. This is why I have a special guest."

That was when a figure walked through the lecture hall door dressed in a simple oversized t-shirt and sweatpants, followed by a backpack slung over one of his shoulder. You groaned when you saw the figure's face, sighing as Felix looked over to you for any answers. It was the guy that you kept running into. That jerk who had no manners.

"This is Seungmin, everyone." Mr lee announced, putting a hand on his shoulder. So that was his name. "He was top of the class last semester. He did leave.. worst decision, am i right? But he did agree to help students who are having trouble with the exam, since he too had to take it before."

That was when you noticed that he noticed you in the small crowd of people sitting in the lecture hall. He smirked. He fucking smirked.

"Do you know him?" You heard lix saying.

"Remember that guy I told you I ran into? That's him!" You complained, hiding your face into the palm of your hands as you let out a loud sigh.

"Oh girl.." he said, letting out a small airy laugh.

"If you are having trouble, sign the paper that is sitting on my desk at the end of the class. You'll have small, extra classes with Seungmin whenever you choose to, since the sign up sheet has time slots for each person. You could choose whether to have a 1 on 1 or a small group study session." Mr lee explained while Seungmin went over to his desk to hold up the sign up sheet.

"Stop." You whispered to Felix. "I need help. Like what the fuck are those questions on the study guide? ughh, but I can't ask him." you complained.

"Of course you can. Let's just sign up together for a group study session and we could stick together, yeah?" He offered. You accepted, knowing you had to get help in some way.

After class, Mr lee dismissed you guys so that you guys can either go and be free or sign up. You had to pack up, so Felix, who was faster than you, went ahead to sign both of you guys up.

You caught up with him soon after. His expression seemed bad.

"uhm.. so. Every group session that was available was full.. so I just signed up for a 1 on 1.. and that's the only option you also have."

"What!!'" you exclaimed, making way for you to see the sign up sheet for yourself. You groaned, looking at all the names that were next to the group study sessions. Well what choice did you have? You really did need some help to pass this exam.

୨ৎ

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck! You repeated in your head while you were standing right in front of the door of the small mini lecture hall that is provided for students. Students such as Seungmin to tutor.

Based on the sign up sheet, you were the last one he was going to be tutoring. The campus was silent, with everyone being in their dorms or professors doing their own stuff.

You straightened your clothes, making sure he wouldn’t look down on you again, literally.

You pushed on the door, trying to make it open. Instead, a figure opened the door the other way, making you bump your head lightly and fall backwards. You fell, landing on your ass.

“Pfft” you heard. You looked up a bit, placing a hand on the spot on your forehead that got hit. It was yet again Seungmin who was looking down at you with a pair of glasses sitting lightly on the bridge of his nose. “Did you seriously try to push? It says pulls right below the handle.”

Oh.

“Ugh, whatever..” you protested, getting up by yourself, dusting your clothes off. “Why were you even coming out of that room? Now I have this bruise on my forehead..”

“I saw you struggling through the window,” he shrugged, going back into the mini lecture hall. “Come in when you’re ready.”

You groaned. This was not going to be a delightful hour.

୨ৎ

“Move this bla bla move that bla bla and the exponent bla bla graph this and the answer is….” Was all you heard while Seungmin sat in front of the desk you were sitting at, using his pencil and scribbling all over the paper. “Now you try.”

“Huh.”

“Huh,” He said mockingly, pushing his glasses higher. “Were you seriously not listening to me?”

“Not really..”

“You think you’re gonna pass the exam like this?”

“No..”

“Ok here. Let me explain it again. You see the first digit? Get that and multiply these to get the term. These terms are common, yes? Multiply them.”

He continued to explain, saying how this is a part of the easier questions.

“You try.” He said, placing the pencil he was holding in front of you, glancing at the pencil indicating for you to start.

After about 3 minutes, you placed the pencil down. Seungmin turned away from his own study to look at it.

“Nice. You got that right. Let me give you 3 more questions.” He said, quickly jotting down numbers, letters, and symbols. “There. Can you try these?”

You nodded.

10 minutes passed, and you handed the paper to him. He looked over your answers, nodding at some and squinting at others.

“This one’s wrong.” He explained, turning the paper so that you could see it and pointing at the second one you did. “Look at it again. Can you point out what’s wrong?”

You shook your head. It looked right in your eyes, but obviously it was wrong.

“On the second step you made a mistake. Simple mistake. You multiplied these wrong.”

“Oh.” you simply stated, grabbing the paper again. “Sorry.”

“Don’t be. Unless you’re apologizing for how you’re wasting my time.”

“Whatever, jerk.” you fought back, grabbing your pencil and fixing your mistake.

Quickly, you handed him back the paper.

“There.”

“Ok.. that’s better.” He said, taking off his glasses. “Time’s up. Come back tomorrow, same time, yeah?”

You groaned loudly, loud enough so that he could hear you.

“Do you not want to pass your exams?”

“Never said that! It’s just a pain in the ass to be taught by you, especially.”

“Seems like someone doesn’t want to pass.” He remarked, packing his backpack with the books he had.

“No i do!” You said, packing your own things in your bag. That’s when you noticed him taking something out of his backpack.

“Here. For you.” He said, sliding over a can of coffee, your favorite brand, across the table.

“Ew.” you said, gliding it back.

“Didn’t want to say this but this girl that has a crush on me bought it for me. Gross! Take it. It’s gross like you.”

You scoffed.

“I don’t need coffee from someone like you.” You remarked, sticking your tongue out at him before running away and leaving the classroom.

“Brat.”

୨ৎ

“How was tutoring?” Felix asked you as you sat down minutes before your lecture with Mr lee started.

“It sucked! Total pain in the ass, yknow.”

“Well me personally it did help. I understood it more,” Felix said, patting your shoulder to comfort you. “He even said i was good enough that I don’t have to come back today!”

“Lucky!!” You exclaimed, pouting at him. “He told me I had to come back today. I suck.”

“It’s fine. As long as you pass the exam, yeah?”

“I guess.”

That’s when Mr lee tapped his pointer stick on his desk.

“I heard some students who signed up yesterday did very well! And i also heard some students still need more help. If you have any questions, feel free to go ask Seungmin in lecture hall 4a after this lecture is over.”

Obviously you knew you had to go again. He said it himself. How you dreaded for the moment lecture ended.

୨ৎ

“Ughhh. You’re back.” Seungmin said the moment you walked in through the door. He was leaning back against his own chair, legs crossed with a simple sweatpants and a white tank top with a windbreaker on.

You scoffed.

“You told me to be back, idiot.” You said, sitting down in your seat you were in last time.

“idiot?” Seungmin said in disbelief, letting out an airy laugh.

“Yes. Idiot.” You spat out, crossing your arms along with your legs, leaning back against the chair.

You were wearing a denim skirt today with tights underneath it with a white tank top, topped with a thick jacket over it. You were planning to hang out with your friends later that day, just to get some stress off before the exam tomorrow. With your legs crossed, your skirt rid up your thighs, making you more exposed. You didn’t care, you barely even noticed.

But he did. Seungmin did.

Your plush thighs wrapped around the tights had him staring for a second, looking back up at you in your eyes with a glare.

“Fucking brat.”

What? What did he just call you?

“What?” You said in disbelief, rolling your eyes and glaring up at him. “What did you just call me?”

“You really aren’t the type to listen, aren’t you?” He said, walking closer to you. “I said you’re a fucking brat.”

“What the fuck? Why are you so-“ you started to say. But before you could even let another word out, he leaned down, putting his face as close to yours as possible. You felt his breath every time he exhaled. You were squirming in your seat. Why was he so close? It was obvious that Seungmin was the good looking type. It was a fact. You even overheard some girls while walking to your lecture saying how hot he was. You never really saw it until he put his face close to yours until it was only a centimeter away.

His eyes were dark, alluring you into his deep, dark brown eyes. His nose was pretty sharp, with light, natural blush covering his cheeks. You looked down even more. His lips were as plush as marshmallow. So plush. So soft to the point you wanted to kis-

What? Why were you thinking this? You don’t like Seungmin. You hate him. So why was your core pulsing around nothing and wetting your panties every second.

“Tell me you don’t want this” he said under his breath. “I’ll stop.” But you didn’t answer, staring into his deep eyes, wanting him.

“please..” you whispered. You heard a faint brat before grabbing your chin with one hand, placing the other on the desk next to you to steady himself, and leaning in to kiss you.

Why the hell did he kiss you?

Truth be told, he liked you ever since he glanced over and saw you studying your ass off one day during his library visit. You looked cute. Your round glasses perched on your nose bridge that you got rid of when it was day time with a lollipop in between your pink, plump lips.

Then, he saw you sometimes in the hallways, all flirty and talkative with your gfs and your friends. You seemed so bratty with the way you talked with your friends. It was hot.

When he bumped into you that one day, he couldn’t help but be happy. That was also when he realized that you were definitely a brat.

He didn’t want to admit it, but he sometimes came to him dorm, lock himself in his room, and jack himself off to the thought of you. To the thought of him brat taming a bitch like you. You under his hands squirming while taking in his cock in your tight cunt. Imagining this would only lead to soiling his clothes he was wearing.

He couldn’t help it.

You were already hot enough when you didn’t wear make up, but seeing you all dressed up would make him go crazy. Like you were all dressed up for him. For his cock.

Your lips were like cushion against his. So soft. So warm. So hot.

You whimpered into the kiss, which he quickly swallowed. His tongue caressed your bottom lip, making you slightly part them, allowing his tongue to intrude your mouth.

Out of breath you pulled back with a saliva string still connecting you and Seungmin. You were panting, looking up at him.

“J-jerk” you managed to stutter out, not sure why you said it. He got face to face with you again, landing light slaps onto your cheek.

“Are you gonna listen to me, brat?”

You whined a bit at the pain you felt on the right side of your face. He chuckled.

“You like pain? Are you a pain slut?”

You nodded slowly. No one knew this. It was your own little secret. But the stare Seungmin gave you was so endearing it just came out of you. He smiled, grabbing you by the wrist to pull you up. He swung you, making you hit the edge of the table. He leaned closer yet again. “Gonna let me do what I want?”

You smirked a bit, nodding slowly yet again.

He leaned in to make out with you again. Which you gladly accepted. Mid-kiss, his hands slowly went down to grab you by the waist. He lifted you up, placing you to sit on top of the desk. He pulled away. You were squeezing your thighs, trying to get some friction to your core. That was when he took his hand and started to grope your plush thighs. You let out a sigh of a moan.

“Open for me, yeah?”

“Don’t tell me what to do.” You said, glaring at him.”

“You’re such a fucking brat.”

You did as he said contrast to your words, slowly spreading your legs out for Seungmin. He grinned. Oh how you wanted to slap the fuck out of him. He took his jacket off at that time, too, revealing his pretty slender arms with muscles hidden underneath. It wasn’t very visible, but him being so close to you, you saw the hidden veins in them and it turned you in more.

His slender fingers started to rub your clothed core, making you whine.

“W-wait.” You looked up to him. “What if we get caught? The door is unlocked.”

“Better keep quiet than, yeah?” He smirked, grinning a proud smile as he made his way toward your tight’s waistband, until you heard a loud RIP.

“What the fuck?!!” You exclaimed looking down to see a big, gaping hole in your tights in your crotch area. “You better pay for those.”

All he did was shrug, before bringing his fingers closer to your panties, gliding his digits over the lace on the fabric.

“Lace, huh?”

He slid his fingers over your clothed cunt, gathering the wetness that was dripping out of you, making a wet patch on your panties.

“You’re so wet. All wet for me baby?”

You nodded, looking down at his fingers go to work on you. They were long, in general, his hand size was huge.

“Can I?” He asked while tugging slightly at your panties. You looked dazed, not even wanting to fight it off. You wanted this. He took that as a yes, sliding your panties to one side, the cold air now hitting your warm cunt. You winced at the feeling. You felt his digits going below, but without any warning, his cold finger penetrated your warm cunt, making your whine out at the feeling. It really was long. The cold added an extra bit of sensation. Seungmin chuckled, landing a peck on your cheek.

“Baby can’t handle one finger?”

You shook your head. Who did he think you were.

“I c-can” you muttered out, which allowed him to slide in a second finger. You grabbed onto his bare forearms to balance yourself. He curled his fingers in and out of you, making whines and moans fall out of your lips. His long, slender fingers reached your g spot, making you bend over with high pitched whimpers falling out of tour mouth.

“Shh,” he quieted you. “Remember, there still might be some people outside.” You covered your mouth with your hand, making him laugh, still curling his fingers deep into you. He knew there was barely any people on the campus at this time, let alone this building. But why would he tell you that?

He pulled out his digits, making you cry from the feeling of loss.

“Seungmin, I want you.” You whined, but he shut you up with his fingers that were just inside of you. You groaned at the taste of yourself, looking up at him with teary eyes from both pleasure and yearn.

He felt his cock grow harder in the confinements in his pants. You teary eyed with your mascara running loose slowly but surely.

“You’re gonna get me, alright? Just be patient, brat.”

He pulled away his digits out of your mouth, giving a small kiss on your lips before pulling his pants down.

It was hard to see due to the bagginess of his sweatpants, but his growing bulge was clearly visible to you now. He was big. Or at least you could tell from the angle you were sitting in. Oh how badly you wanted his cock to penetrate you so deeply-

“You’re staring.”

You woke up from your thoughts, looking back up to look at Seungmin’s eyes. He’s smirking. He could tell what you wanted.

“Get down.” He said, nodding to the floor in front of him.

“What?” You fought back. “I’m not doing that! That’s gonna spoil my-“

“Didn’t you hear me? Get on the floor.”

A shiver was sent down your spine, along with the feeling of your panties getting wetter and wetter.

You obliged, slowly scooting off the table before you got on your knees, feeling the cold floor hit your warm skin. You were now face to face with his crotch, still confined. You looked up at him.

What was with you always below him and him always looking down at you with that condescending look?

He hooked his finger through the waistband of his boxers, pulling it down slightly, making his cock bounce up, his tip hitting his abdomen, and it was right in your face.

It was big. His cock was long with a bit of girth with veins running along his length. His red tip already spilling out some precum.

You looked back up at him to see him smirking the shit out of his face.

“Suck me off and I’ll see if you could have my cock, ok?”

You wanted to beat the shit out of him. Who did he think he was to control you like that.

But you couldn’t help it.

You leaned in a bit, now with your lips only a few centimeters away from the tip of his cock. You stuck out your tongue, coming in contact with his salty tip covered in precum. You winced at the taste. You wrapped your lips around his tip, now slowly taking in more and more of his length. You heard him groan. You smirked, still having his length in your mouth.

You slowly lifted your head, then going back in, repeating this movement while still hearing him slowly pant out.

“Fuck- you’re so stubborn” he grunted out before he grabbed your hair in a makeshift ponytail. He bobbed your head on his length himself, making you moan along with him grunting with the feeling of your warm lips wrapping around his length.

You moaned around his length, causing vibrations to hit his girth. He grunted.

Seungmin pulled you off his length, making you cough a bit, wiping the saliva that was dripping on your chin with the palm of your hand.

He pulled you back up, tugging your hair with his hand that was still tangled up in a makeshift ponytail. He brought your face closer, giving you a kiss before setting you back up on the desk.

Your pussy was throbbing, begging for attention. You pouted at Seungmin, who had a thirsty look in his eyes while eyeing your figure up and down while you were sitting there, neatly on his desk.

"Just fuck me already, min." you argued, looking up at him with a pleading look.

"Be patient, fucking brat." he retorted. Despite his words, he took his cock in his hand, stroking it slowly while staring at your face who was basically drooling at the sight of his tip disappearing and reappearing in the fist of his hand. You squeezed your thighs together, trying to get some friction on your cunt. He chuckled, noticing your expression and your movements. "You're eager, pup. I'll give what you want, just be patient, okay?"

The pet name made you squirm. Who knew you were such a slut for meager names?

He slapped your thigh, indicating you to open your legs so that your sweet cunt could be exposed for him. You obliged, opening them slowly until your wet pussy was out just for him.

"You obey easily, don't you? Just like a loyal dog." You nodded, eagerly, only focused on what would his cock feel like when he stretched you out. You bit your lip, trying to suppress a moan awaiting to come out just from the desire of his length.

He got closer, leaning in to give you a kiss on the lips, distracting you while he brought his cock closer and closer to your tight pussy. He pulled away, looking down to focus on you. He slapped your pussy with his hot length, making you wince from the sensation. It wasn't enough. You wanted more. No. You needed more.

"Just fuck me.. you're so slow, min," you pouted.

"Stop fucking complaining," he hissed, before lining his length against your hole and thrusting in without warning. You gasped, feeling his cock penetrate you so deeply. He grunted himself, feeling your tight walls engulf his length. "fuck- you're so tight pup."

You mewled as he pulled his length out, just for him to thrust back in, deep inside your soppy cunt. He thrusted for a bit, making you pant and a chorus of moans and whimpers fall out of your lips. He, too, let out groans.

He pulled you by the hair, forcing you to look up at him. Your eyes swelling up in tears as his rhythm didn’t stop.

“Look at me, pup.” You did. Focusing your attention on Seungmin’s face. He smirked. “Good little puppy, yeah?” he said before bringing you in for a sloppy kiss. Spit everywhere, drooling down your chin, teeth clashing as he thrusted into you. You whimpered, the pain in your scalp as he pulled you in closer. He let go, a spit string connecting both of your guys’ tongues.

“M-min,” you managed to whimper out. He hummed in response, grabbing you by the waist to thrust in deeper. You mewled. The knot in your stomach began to tighten, making you grip along the edge of the table you were so nicely placed on.

“Gonna cum, little puppy?”

you nodded fastly, moving your grip onto his tank top. It tightened, your grip as long as the knot in your stomach.

He maneuvered your right leg a bit higher, and with a final thrust, you came. Your jaw dropped, eyes shut as pleasure overwhelmed you as he kept hitting your cervix.

With a few more, he too, came, coating your walls white. You both breathed heavily together in unison. Looking at his face filled with pleasure was so.. so alluring. His eyebrows scrunched together with his eyes closed.

He pulled out, shoving his length back in his cock as he packed his bags.

“M-min?” You said in confusion, still practically naked sitting on top of his desk. He looked back up at you with his backpack hung over his shoulder.

“C’mon. Round two at my place.” He said it so casually, but also as a sort of question.

“Uh..” you muttered, hopping off the desk, smoothing out your skirt. “Yea-“

Before you even finished, he grabbed you by the wrist, turning off the lights to the mini lecture hall and leading you out the door.

[montypng]

new follower here, love your art so much it's filled with so much character! I saw your tag on the lovely ghoul art; so, thought I'd send an ask: I'd love to hear your thoughts on danger days! Any things at all, feel free to ramble if you want! I always love hearing others hcs/opinions/etc on the series!

HELLO this ask has been sitting in my inbox since january sorry..its mostly bc i have sooo many things 2 talk about and i wasnt sure what i wanted 2 say in this answer but whatever im just gonna ramble SO!!! U get a bunch of random hcs and maybe thematic analysis yippee!! and thank u soo much for the kind words :]

imo all the kjs have some form of body focused repetitive behavior because this is my world and i do what i want.. poison and ghoul have dermatillomania (compulsive skin picking), and kobra and jet have trich (hair pulling) maybe. I think constantly being on the run + adrenaline highs and lows would lead to unhealthy coping mechanisms for all of them and desert living leads 2 pretty shit skin (poison+kobra have at least had bad acne for sure) which is conducive to skin picking..i think the venom siblings and ghoul are bat city runaways too so the withdrawal from bli pills (+shakes and sweats) contributed to them developing bfrbs.

ghoul also gets really bad shakes and jitters from withdrawal, so when it gets so bad that they can’t work on their explosives he blasts mad gear as loud as it can from its speakers and lets himself scream all the frustration out.

also ghoul definitely has hearing loss from bomb detonation in too close proximity. tell me it would know abt proper hearing protection safety protocols with a straight face its impossible.

kobra was born w microform cleft lip, which means he has a little deformity/groove in his upper lip kind of similar to a snake’s . also he broke his nose at some point and it healed wrong so crooked nosebridge↴

both jet and kobra are prone to migraines bc of eye strain and sensitivity (jet is nearly fully blind in his right eye and both kobras eyes are extremely sensitive to light, hence the sunglasses).

sometimes when the migraines are too much they both lie down in the trans am seats together at night and close their eyes and breathe in the dark

prior to jets eye injury they were the teams best marksman, and im not sure yet how greatly that changes after they lose depth perception, but one thing i like to believe is that jet is also a great sniper (stereoscopic vision due to retinal disparity is also only effective up til about 30 meters too so he wouldnt need to rely on binocular vision for that), so maybe they focuse on that skill post-injury. how i picture their scar ↴

this is so long already but 1 last thing more in a thematic analysis vein: i need ppls opinions on the girl and her story PLEASE. she has so little agency in the canon narrative but . Where r the girlposters around here i need to hear others thoughts on her guilt complex from the fab 4s sacrifice and her running away from her own role as the protagonist of a story she never wanted 2 be part of and her blowing up the city that killed her family and whether or not that alleviated her neuroses and brought catharsis or not and her characterisation as a literal bomb and destructive force even though shes just a kid and ughhh. Linking this girl post i made a while ago w an anne carson quote that makes me crazy ANYWAYS. Talk 2 me about her. Im begging.

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[mossywashere]

All about me!! :D

Hello Tumblr!!

Feel free call me Goose!

I go by he/they pronouns, and don't prefer one over the other!

And yes, im queer, and im here. if you dont like that leave.

I am a minor!! SO nsfw blogs, or anything to do with proshipping, racism, homophobia, transphobia, ableism, etc, stay away!! DNI. Seriously.

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☆ i LOVE 92sies, absolutely adore it! So feel free to pop in and talk to me about it!! ↳ feel free to talk to me about livesies as well!! ↳ feel free to talk about your ocs as well!! ☆ percy jackson and the olympians (+ heros of olympus), phantom of the opera (book and musical), scream (1996), the owl house are all things im open to talking about as well!!

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Inbox rules

☆ anything sfw is fine (obviously)!! ☆ ships!! ☆ headcannons!! ☆ questions!! ☆ ocs!! ☆ cant think of anything else right now, but will add on!!

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Tags

#a goose tries art - my art #a goose found rambling - anything to do with writing honestly #a goose makes ocs - my ocs #a goose makes friends - anything to do with my friends

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that's all!! thanks for reading!! :D

[worldhell]

♛ WORLDHELL ━━━━ laws.

INTERACTION.

mutuals only. I don't follow minor muns because I am in my mid twenties. if I follow you it means I want to write, so come kick my ass if I have yet to send anything to you. I am open to starter calls (from however long back), inbox memes (from however long back + at random), and plotting (just hit me up for my discord or over IMs whichever you prefer!). I write with crossover characters (though I may be selective) and original muses (lets make them canon now bby). basic etiquette applies. mun doesn't equal muse. I will always have my own portrayal for my characters and no I don't take influence from other writers - it's just very common for multiple people to take points from the character and series to adapt into portrayal and writing.

ACTIVITY.

I work a full time job and have a lot of adult responsibilities to attend to, so my activity can be sporadic. I try check dash as often as I can. my timezone is also GMT+8 so I am usually more active when people aren't online. I can take a hot second to get back to people ooc just because I am both nervous or my social battery is drained from rl.

MUSES.

I am prone to add a lot of muses. and I do often forget to write up their bios. as I go along building them I usually try and add information to their pages. I write my canon muses here and my original muse on a separate single blog (on that note: don't feel pressured to follow that blog because you follow me here. I am p happy just plodding along on that blog and vibing in my area if ocs aren't your thing) please do specify musein comments for starter calls or when you send things to my inbox. not specifying = I give you floch by default as punishment.

PLOTTING AND THREADS.

I try not to drop any threads and will respond to them all even if it's been awhile. never feel pressured to respond back if it has been too long, but I will try my best to always write back. I have no cap for threads, and I am so happy to leave anything if we lose the vibe for it! it will always be etched into my character's canon even if the thread isn't complete. I wing a lot of threads to see what my character does, but I am also open to plotting scenarios and bonds! I struggle to put my thoughts down so bear with me on that, or I just ramble and scream random things.

SHIPPING.

I am always very receptive to the idea of shipping. that doesn't specifically mean romantic either, because there's so many different kinds of bonds. romantic shipping I do enjoy if our characters mix - I also like the entire build, which means it's not always just soft and fluff, because we as humans we be build different. and often it's not about saying I love you, but showing it in characters own unique ways. I won't ship anything romantic with vets and 104th etc. don't force ship.even if our muses are interested in each other in canon I prefer to build towards that (this won't apply so much to characters who are married in canon). that being said please feel free to reach out! I am super friendly and happy to see if our muses end up vibing. shipping with ocs is the same. if our muses are vibing that way then absolutely open to discussing! I don't consider flirting forced shipping, or someone having a one-sided crush. as long as the mun themselves aren't trying to force something with that, then I actually have a lot of fun with that kind of dynamic!

DARK THEMES & NSFW.

the series is full of dark themes ranging from war, violence, gore, death, abuse, mental health, etc. and they won't be ignored. I do my best to tag the heavier content. things I won't touch are incest, noncon, etc. you know the drill. NSFW content is written given all my current muses are of age (if I add minor characters, this definitely does not apply to them) and found on my sideblog listed in my pinned post.

DRAMA.

Don't care just don't be a sus or shitty person pls

FOLLOWING / UNFOLLOWING.

if we haven't interacted over a decent period of time I usually do a little blog sweep to keep my dash for my rp partners - I am also not strict about this because I do know we have lives outside rp, and often make a little post before I do anything. I usually base my follows of who my mutuals interact with and if the mun seems chill. again if you are someone that vague posts or starts drama then I don't follow / I unfollow.

I swear I am so friendly even though I am so spacey at the best of times. I appreciate you all very much <3 if you need or want anything / or even just need to discuss something with me, once again come fly kick me. as long as we act like adults and use basic decency, let us vibe c:

[deadincel]

who gives a

fuck about

movies?!

welcome!

masterlist

archive

about me !

i’m 19 years old

not much to say other than that i post a lot about the scream franchise, but i will occasionally post from other horror media as well

expect to see a lot of posts about scream V and VI! the main characters i post about are the teens from both movies + richie and sam, but i will likely also post a lot about ghostfaces from the past movies

obviously as you know this blog is not spoiler free

i love to chat and make friends! my inbox is always open to talk about the franchise and its characters

writing guidelines

i do not take fic requests but i do take drabble/headcanon requests in my inbox!

i do not write insert reader. i only write ships with canon characters (mainly slash or femslash), so PLEASE do not request any x!reader/oc content! i will ignore it

but with that being said, im extremely lenient when it comes to multishipping and will write just about anyone! the main ships youre likely to find are chad/ethan, tara/amber, chad/tara, mindy/anika, and stu/billy. honorable mentions are gale/dewey and jill/kirby. i do hc amber as a lesbian and ethan as gay, so only you will only find femslash/slash with those characters

i am not a smut writer so do not ask for smut requests! i only write implied/medium nsfw content

a lot of my content may be dark and contain triggering/squicky topics so PLEASE HEED MY TAGS before reading anything! i especially warn that my works will often depict unhealthy/unstable relationships between couples, friends, siblings etc…

other major warnings include graphic violence, abuse, manipulation, dubcon (usually implied), and major character death. i consider myself a horror writer and do not write these topics for romanticization purposes.

i think that just about covers it! if you have any questions feel free to dm/ask me!

[worldhell-archiving]

♛ WORLDHELL ━━━━ laws.

INTERACTION.

mutuals only. I don't follow minor muns because I am in my mid twenties. if I follow you it means I want to write, so come kick my ass if I have yet to send anything to you. I am open to starter calls (from however long back), inbox memes (from however long back + at random), and plotting (just hit me up for my discord or over IMs whichever you prefer!). I write with crossover characters (though I may be selective) and original muses (lets make them canon now bby). basic etiquette applies. mun doesn't equal muse.

ACTIVITY.

I work a full time job and have a lot of adult responsibilities to attend to, so my activity can be sporadic. I try check dash as often as I can. my timezone is also GMT+8 so I am usually more active when people aren't online. I can take a hot second to get back to people ooc just because I am both nervous or my social battery is drained from rl.

MUSES.

I am prone to add a lot of muses. and I do often forget to write up their bios. as I go along building them I usually try and add information to their pages. I write my canon muses here and my original muse on a separate single blog (on that note: don't feel pressured to follow that blog because you follow me here. I am p happy just plodding along on that blog and vibing in my area if ocs aren't your thing) please do specify muse in comments for starter calls or when you send things to my inbox. not specifying = I give you floch by default as punishment.

PLOTTING AND THREADS.

I try not to drop any threads and will respond to them all even if it's been awhile. never feel pressured to respond back if it has been too long, but I will try my best to always write back. I have no cap for threads, and I am so happy to leave anything if we lose the vibe for it! it will always be etched into my character's canon even if the thread isn't complete. I wing a lot of threads to see what my character does, but I am also open to plotting scenarios and bonds! I struggle to put my thoughts down so bear with me on that, or I just ramble and scream random things.

SHIPPING.

I am always very receptive to the idea of shipping. that doesn't specifically mean romantic either, because there's so many different kinds of bonds. romantic shipping I do enjoy if our characters mix - I also like the entire build, which means it's not always just soft and fluff, because we as humans we be build different. and often it's not about saying I love you, but showing it in characters own unique ways. I won't ship anything romantic with vets and 104th etc. don't force ship. even if our muses are interested in each other in canon I prefer to build towards that (this won't apply so much to characters who are married in canon). that being said please feel free to reach out! I am super friendly and happy to see if our muses end up vibing. shipping with ocs is the same. if our muses are vibing that way then absolutely open to discussing! I don't consider flirting forced shipping, or someone having a one-sided crush. as long as the mun themselves aren't trying to force something with that, then I actually have a lot of fun with that kind of dynamic!

DARK THEMES & NSFW.

the series is full of dark themes ranging from war, violence, gore, death, abuse, mental health, etc. and they won't be ignored. I do my best to tag the heavier content. things I won't touch are incest, noncon, etc. you know the drill. NSFW content is written given all my current muses are of age (if I add minor characters, this definitely does not apply to them) and found on my sideblog listed in my pinned post.

DRAMA.

I'm not going into heavy details but I just won't have that behaviour on my dash. what people write vs. their actual beliefs, the best fictional works in our current day have so much cancellable shit that if you condemn an rper then I better see you going after actors and authors too; but also if you do that then you can't tell the difference between fiction and reality and that worries me more then what people decide to write. people have triggers and content they don't want to see and that's so damn valid yes! use the block button and blocklist those tags because you also deserve to feel comfortable. you don't have to see that kind of media, so don't try and hunt for it. on that note, 2% of people will be weird, but its not the majority in the slightest, assess them vibes and keep yourself well. if mun is genuinely sus, block! block! its on sight.

FOLLOWING / UNFOLLOWING.

if we haven't interacted over a decent period of time I usually do a little blog sweep to keep my dash for my rp partners - I am also not strict about this because I do know we have lives outside rp, and often make a little post before I do anything. I usually base my follows of who my mutuals interact with and if the mun seems chill. again if you are someone that vague posts or starts drama then I don't follow / I unfollow.

I swear I am so friendly even though I am so spacey at the best of times. I appreciate you all very much <3 if you need or want anything / or even just need to discuss something with me, once again come fly kick me. as long as we act like adults and use basic decency, let us vibe c:

[kaibacorpbros]

Lesson Two

// Proceed with caution, lost of triggering content, check the tags.

“100 in calculus. 100 in world history. 100 in chemistry. 98 in literature. 100 in physics.”

There’s only the soft sound of fast scribbles on documents as he stands at attention in front of his adopted father’s desk. He’s left waiting longer then he would have liked. When the pen is finally set down he wishes that paperwork had lasted forever. 

“Quite admirable. Especially considering how much you whined about seeing the urchin.”

How dare he talk about Mokuba like that. Seto holds his tongue.

“Explain the 98.”

He hates this. This little game of figuring how much in the wrong he was. There were several options he could take here. None of them ever did much good. But blaming the teachers was certainly not. No matter how much he wanted to sometimes.

“It won’t happen again.”

“And yet it did,” Gozaburo retorts. “Now, what are you going to do to stop that?”

What to do? He’s done everything. There’s no more time to be spent studying because there is no time. The only hours there aren’t lessons or he’s not already studying is when he’s eating, sleeping, or his limited time with Mokuba.

“It was my mistake, I will study harder.”

His adoptive father drums his fingers on the dark wood of the desk. “And you think admitting your mistake to an enemy is  a smart thing, now do you?”

This wasn’t how it should be. A father shouldn’t be an enemy. No. He’s no longer his father.

Seto had hesitated for too long.

The chair scraped against the floor as the man stood staring down at him, making him into nothing but an orphan boy once more.

“You think you’ll be able to be my heir like that, boy?”

“No sir--”

“Weak.”

Seto sucks in a breath and straightens his posture more, if that’s even possible. He should be silent. Talking would only dig the grave deeper. But silence is punishable too. He’d take it as if Seto didn’t care.

“I am doing all that is possible with the time allowed, sir.”

Gozaburo walks around his desk to stand right in front of him. Seto’s eyes don’t wander, nor does he flinch.

“So you are claiming my expectations are unfair.”

Wrong move.

They are unfair. They are utterly ridiculous and Gozaburo must know it, he must--or maybe Seto just wasn’t the prodigy people thought he was. The prodigy he thought he was. He used to be better. A Kaiba was better. He had to be better. This was just him, falling behind, being a disappointment again. Maybe he needed to cut his hours with Mokuba down to study more. Perhaps that was what was distracting him.

No. He was doing all he could. There wasn’t enough time, and he did not have enough rest. This wasn’t how school was, things shouldn’t be like this--

“What am I supposed to do when I can’t get any sleep?”

--things shouldn’ be like this...right?

He realized his mistake long before fingers closed around his neck. He talked back. Like a bad son.

Wrong move.

“Sleep deprivation is necessary for if you are to be my heir.” Gozaburo did not raise his voice. He just watched, as his fingers tightened and Seto struggled, tearing at his hand with his nails.

The boy tried to cough, trying to force air into his lungs, but the constriction around his neck just tightened. All while the man watched as if he were a bug under a microscope.

“Your life is in my hands, boy. Everything you are is thanks to me. And there is nothing stopping me from pressing and pressing until you’re dead. No one would miss you. Well, maybe the urchin. But I’d dump him back at the orphanage before anyone ever realized you’d gone ‘missing.’”

The man’s head tilted, looking for something in Seto’s eyes, but Seto wasn’t sure what. His sight was swarming with too many black spots. All he knew was he needed it to stop.

“Don’t forget that.”

He was released and he collapsed to the floor, coughing and hacking. So panicked he couldn’t hear his thoughts over his own heartbeat.

“Out of my office. You have lessons tomorrow.”

In record time it was like Seto had never been there.

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// If you’ve ever read it this is inspired by one of the first scenes with Peter in En.ders game. Precisely the, “press and press until you’re dead. Seto has conflicting sentiments, as he always has and always will because of how good Gozaburo was at manipulating him. He’s caught between knowing very well he’s a monster, but also he’s been conditioned to want to be Gozaburo’s son, wanting to be a Kaiba, no matter how toxic that all is. This is also where his fear of asphyxiation comes from and why he doesn’t like tight things around his neck.

[oluka]

I really spent an hour or so scrolling through your blog because im desperate to read comic opinions and i cant seem to find the right tag to be able to find them easily :( but like hard agree on the opinions!!!! like i think if they took the whole idea of tony considering his privilege and then contrasting it with past experiences (abuse, homelessness, etc.) it could have had some potential but the way its being written its a hard no for me and this whole need to prove hes a regular dude?? (1)

like i think back to the MCU and IM3 where he went You can take away my house, all my tricks and toys. One thing you can't take away...I am Iron Man and im fairly new to comics so im not at all certain but i get the feeling that was probably inspired by at the least a sentiment from the comics??? also like even the side characters are being messed up i find it hard to believe that patsy would call him selfish for being suicidal, AND RHODEY he deserves so much better than to be shoved into an (2)

outdated kind of racist trope and god im upsetttt, sorry i didnt mean to go off in your inbox i just really got excited to talk comics, I was also wondering if you could reccomend any comics centred blogs, and good runs?? ive read some stuff like armor wars or demon in a bottle, and ive been up to date on current runs since international iron man but i really wanted some good well written runs to read if you dont mind reccomending ?

First of all, I loved to see you in my notifications, and enjoyed reading the tags in your reblogs :D

Second of all, what a lovely bunch of asks! Please come scream at me some more :)

Now, on to the actual topic of your asks: The tag that most people use to talk about current marvel comics is #wednesday spoilers , since comics come out on wednesdays and people often talk about them as they come out. I use this tag as well. It’s a bit trickier to see posts about Iron Man (2020) specifically. I tag my posts with #Iron Man (2020) by Cantwell, but you might try searching for #Cantwell or #Iron Man (2020), (don’t search for Iron Man 2020 without the parenthesises cause that’s the previous Iron Man run lol). I don’t know which tags people use apart from the wednesday spoilers one.

I completely agree about the characterisation! I’ve heard from people who know Patsy that she’s being ooc, so it seems like Cantwell is just badly writing all of them. It doesn’t really make it better, but at least Tony’s not the only who’s suffering? And, yeah, hate to see sexist and racist tropes show up. 

You’re right about the IM 3 quote. There’s a quote from a Daredevil comic that goes:  “You could drop Tony Stark naked in the middle of the desert and he'd fly out in a jet made of sand and cactus needles. It's not his stuff that gives him power. It's his brain. [... ]”

This is Tony! He’s not a rich guy! He’s a smart guy who also is rich, and there’s an important nuance right there. It feels cheap to go the “back to basics” route the way Cantwell does it because he writes Tony as if Tony cares more about his reputation and his standing than helping people. I don’t like it >:(

I don’t know a lot of comic centered blogs, and most of them are tony or stony blogs, but here’s a very short list (followers and mutuals, feel free to add to this list, don’t be afraid to promote yourself too <3):

@in-a-cave-with  @ironman-withaplan @welcomingdisaster @knightinironarmor @616s  @sineala @tonystarkisafruit @blossomsinthemist

My favourite IM runs aren’t maybe the most well-written ones, but I’d recommend Extremis and Execute:Program. If you want a lot of angst, read Civil War and the tie-ins The Confession, Civil War Casualties of War, and What If? Civil War, and the Director of Shield run.

I think a general consensus is that Iron Man vol.3 is a must-read, as well. I’ve read part of it and enjoyed it :)

You could also read Iron Age (the one where Tony travels through time), and the run where Tony gets stuck in Camelot with Victor von Doom. 

There are a lot of fun iron man comics but sadly I can’t remember more than that. 

Here are some comic rec lists and guides that other talented people on here have made: link 1 , link 2, link 3 

Hope this helps, otherwise feel free to come into my inbox once more

[chil2de]

Hey don’t apologise for clearing your inbox. You did it for your own mental wellbeing and you can’t be apologising for taking care of yourself. I’m happy for you for finally doing it, it must’ve been daunting to try to get through so many asks. This must feel so refreshing and I love that for you. Take care of yourself (that’s a threat, if you don’t I will force you to) - 🥰

aaaaaa anonnnnie please you’re so sweet TwT iknowiknow but that’s just being an infj for you, you know? i’ll bump into a chair and apologise to an object that isn’t sentient in any way shape or form, i’m sure it doesn’t care that i just bumped into it

thank you for the supportttt thankyouthank you it seriously means a lot <3 more than you’ll ever know tbh hdhbfhshdhf it feels really refreshing now, really strange in all honestly but i like it (: feels like i just cleaned my room after a while lmao

o i’ll also reply to your previous ask below!!!

im so!!! excited for when u do read it! i can’t wait to see your reactions towards certain scenes KDNGJFBFHS

hunny if i saw toji and/or naoya in the street i’m not sure what i would do???? i might faint LMFAO naoya would probably spit on me i won’t lie i don’t know how i feel about that😳 maybe if i manifest internally by screaming at them to approach me they will cause lord knows i’m not going up to them, mfs look so damn intimidating... toji with his 6 foot something self and naoya with the cocky smirk, yeah no thanks

ariana always has really nice vocals, but i have to admit that i probably don’t enjoy all of her new songs preferred to the older ones. it’s just preference but i can’t vibe with them as much

as for wicked games aaaaaa i’m glad you liked it! the weeknd is one of my favourite artists ahah and i always thought it would suit toji. but yeah... his backstory isn’t pretty. at all. i think compared to the grand scale of things and all of the character’s backstories you’ve heard so far in the anime, his is probably one of the most depressing by a landslide. oh god, and yuuta? absolutely tragic... they might even be on par, though perhaps that’s me acting on a bias towards two of my favourites

i have an inkling that when the movie gets released yuuta will be extremely popular :/ i mean, like, i don’t care? don’t mean to go on a tangent but i dislike when ig lesser known characters only gain popularity by conventional means, not because people actually enjoy them or their character. they’ll see him animated and be all “wow! this guy is really cool!” then all the ogs are just sat there like “yes, honey, we told you so” (obviously this excludes anime only fans he was briefly mentioned in the first few episodes— how megumi states that he’s the only other second year he can openly respect, and how he won the kyoto school event by far etc etc, later that one scene of him in the second opening)

trust me u will love baby boy yuuta <3 i don’t share, if ever!! but hell i’ll make an exception for you :)

but in all honesty sometimes i wish i just stuck writing for one fandom because no matter how hard i try there will always be a time where i favour one fandom over the other, e.g i was writing gintama for the longest time, and that’s how my blog started growing, but then i got into haikyuu again and i started writing for them. therefore now because i’m into jjk it’s mainly what i write for and i always feel so terrible for the other fandoms fhsbfhghs

but i don’t hold any regret towards it, i’m glad that i switched to multifandom. i wouldn’t be happy writing for gintama forever, i’d feel so trapped and suffocated in terms of the free reign and variety so it’s all good (: besides i think it’s good to take breaks and to write for characters with vastly different personalities, i always find that my writing becomes a little bit more sharper and accurate when i’m trying to clean up and polish someone else’s dialogue or antics. needless to say, no shade to people who do write for only one fandom, because that takes major dedication so that’s a kudos!

anyways, didn’t mean to ramble on babe LMAO i do have a horde of google docs😭😭 i debated screen recording but there’s so many that after a while of scrolling it has to wait for the next batch to load, so you’ll just have to take my word for it (genuinely wish i could see somewhere that tells me how many overall docs i have, i’m pretty interested to see considering i have around ~500 posts, then again, not all of them are fics)

hfbshghd i hate how this was all about me please— ur giving a sister out here heart problems, i beg u pls tell me something interesting

OH OH OK i got a question, how about, who was your first fictional crush? can be anime or from a book series, etc

and is there any favourite anime characters you have from other fandoms?

(ily thank you once again I WAS LAUGHING SO HARD WHEN U SAID USING UP UNLIMITED MINUTES— the rest of the ask got cut off imsosorry we’ll just improvise from here on out, bUT hey dude let’s go to shibuya together!!! i’m so sure that they put a life size statue of gojo there everyone keeps talking about it LMFAO i’ll be whizzing around w my phone taking some very cool pictures :) then we can go grab some food or a few drinks, also ill stock u up on merch ok ily take care)

[cirilee]

i just found a text my browser had saved on a word count website, and i apparently typed it last november while being sad - i just wanna have a place to post it, and it explains why i was gone for most of may through november last year.

if you’re interested, u can read, it’s basically just a long long long vent and i wanna save it somewhere :’)

(and if you wanna, you can tell me what u think of the whole thing, maybe share if something like that happened to you too, because man, this whole thing was WEIRD for me)

bottom line is: i’m much better now and have way better friends then back then and in general, i’m a pretty happy person again^^

My parents and me had been fighting a lot the past years. I still love them. For a while though, it was just shouting matches between us. We weren't really speaking to each other throughout january 2019 until april 2019, so i wasn't informed by them that they were planning to mOVE OUT. And the place they wanted to move to only had enough space for 2 people. now my brother and me had 3 months total to find and finance our own flats. i was desperate. 2 months i unsuccessfully searched for a job or a flat or a way to make a deposit for said flat, without any saved up money. an old school friend offered to move out together. i only saw him once every month for group activities. he was nice, but we also had a bit of a history. 3 years ago he had acted kinda scummy and tried to get me to be his girlfriend because "he couldnt find anybody else” - ending in a "movie night with friends" that turned out to be a trap, where the only one spending the night was me because he only invited me. creepy. he apologized and i forgave him and we were chill and it was normal between us. i realize now, that i should have just left him out of my life at that point. but time was running out, so i gave in and asked myself "whats the worst he could do. i’ve known this person for 12 years and the he's part of my friend group" we set up basic rules, how we would pay for stuff, etc. .. we moved in. it seemed fine. then i noticed that he talked A LOT. and he wanted A LOT of attention. after a day of working on my diploma or working at my job, he would assert himself in my room and try to engage in smalltalk. i am not the hermit type. i engaged with him, i joined in on his conversation. but when i was already tired he wouldn't accept "i'm gonna go to sleep". there was always something else he needed to talk about. I was trying to make clear to him that i needed alone time too, but no matter how honest i was, the message either didn't seem to stick, or he'd get upset and start asking me if i hated him. With that, i could have kept up with in the long run. Then he started knocking on my door. even when it was already late and i already told him i was gonna go to sleep. Repeatedly knocking on my door. At some point he just opened the door. It was 1am. I pretended to sleep. I could hear him breathing, it sounded angry. He eventually closed the door. The next morning i confronted him. He argued it away as him trying to warn me that he was going to take a shower, so that i wouldn't use the bathroom. He started commenting on how i wasn't funny enough around him. in that friend group, i'm the funny one :c. but i cant keep up that energy 24/7 (this was supposed to be a home, not a free neverending standup act, for this one guy). that confused him. the next day he asked me if i had depression. My parents had given me a griller/toaster as a parting gift (there’s a backstory for that too but anyways) my flatmate ALSO had that same toaster. He demanded we make up our minds which one to keep. i didn't understand why this was important to him and i hated discussing this useless topic with him so i stored the toaster in my room. He repeatedly suggested i throw mine away (?). One evening i got hungry and decided i'd make myself a toast in my room. So i made some toast. Suddenly he bursts in. And he starts ranting. "why are you doing this are you CRAZY you cant TOAST in your own room thats DANGEROUS you're gonna start a fire, don't ever do that again, we have a KITCHEN for that. why don't you want to use the kitchen you cant just HIDE from me every day, this is OUR flat  and i want us to live TOGETHER!" He didn't stop talking and it overwhelmed me, so (this is embarrassing, but) i actually started crying and i turned away from him so i could try to control myself. and he just started babytalking me "awww its alright i didn't mean to scare you, but you see, you shouldn't have done that". he tried putting his arms around me, i told him to stop. "you need a hug right now" ...... i was so angry i think my brain might have short circuited because the next hour was me just acting the whole way through. i told him everything he wanted to hear. i was so sorry for almost burning the house down and made up some explanation that my parents were still making me sad, so i needed distance. The next big thing involved one of my best friends. she wanted to spontaneously go out for an evening. so i put on some pants and of course: HE appears in my room, asking where i'm going. i was surprised by the question and just answered "going out with Lina" he left it at that. then suddenly: "can i come too?" He threw me off with that question. Lina had said she needed some advice on personal stuff, so I said "no" because i didn't have a better answer. he got ANGRY. i explained. "Lina wants some privacy, i'm sorry" He starts arguing that Lina is just as much his best friend, and that he should be allowed to hear what she wants to say to me. Before i can reply he slams his door shut. "Don't even try to explain yourself", he says. I told my friend while meeting up with her and she began with the sympathetic "you should have said yes" and we argued about it and then she came out with this absolutely horrifying sentence: "you know how he is. you cant be *too* honest with him. he's sensitive. you need to lie to him so he doesn't get mad" it was as if i'd been splashed with cold water. i said i didn't agree with that. that that was actually unfair to HIM. nobody likes being lied to and treated less than. she called him, told him i was gonna apologize and he showed up with the angriest expression i ever saw in his face. he accused me of being depressed and that he now has the burden of my mental issues to bear. This he assumed because one night i told him about me dissassociating sometimes a few years ago. Then he wanted me to promise i would never leave him, because he's afraid i won't be able to pay my part of the rent. the crowning moment was my friend Lina mostly agreeing with him and both of them berating me for not having my life together because i still hadn't managed to find an open-ended contract job, only limited-time jobs. at the end he justified himself by saying he cant stand my parents phoning me. (at that point they had started calling me everyday and showed genuine concern ... i was trying to reform a bond with them) - apparently he resented that. he knew about my parents disciplining me with face slaps as a kid (when i was 9-11 yrs old) (they feel bad about it, and they they stopped doing it fairly early) in that moment my flatmate chose to tell me ..... (hoo boy i need to get ready to type this) .... "i'm concerned about you. if your father would ever beat you, i would beat him  to a bloody pulp" then he repeated "i would beat him/kill him" a few times, VERY agitatedly. it was scary and at that point i was numb. i didn't really respond, i just said "its fine" or something to that extent. the  thing that made me decide to move out (although certainly among many that followed that night) was this: one morning i informed him i was going to visit my parents that weekend. we had started talking again (as i mentioned before and i wanted to meet them without fighting for once). he says "but you're coming back, right". i say "of course don't be so nervous". i go to work. i get a LOT OF texts from him suddenly. i skim through it. he's mad about me calling him "nervous". i don't reply/read bc i am at work. Then he actually CALLS me. i don't pick up.  now i'm thinking: What is so  important, that he has to call me during work.  there's a 4 paragraph essay in my inbox. "watch your mouth", "you have no right to speak that way to me", "you should have more respect". he was mad i called him nervous. i responded that i don't have time to reply. he argued back. at one point i said "if i cant even call you nervous then i'm ACTUALLY gonna stay with my parents" he fiNALLY didn't reply to that. after a 10hour day i come home. i wanna shower. i go to my room, close the door and start undressing myself. of course, there's knocking on my door. i say "No" he flips out. i calmly tell him i'm only half dressed. he flips out even more, says i'm a horrible person who WANTS to fight because my "no" wasn't a good enough answer and i should have explained in full detail why he couldn't get in. he was actually SERIOUS. this was his reasoning for flipping out. he goes away. not even a minute passes by and he hammers his fist against my door again. "OPEN UP THIS TIME I *HAVE* TO COME IN" at this point i'm beginning to get kinda scared  so i say "come in" He comes in and says he needs me to disconnect with the wifi because he needs it for his work. i calmly say "ok" and disconnect my wifi. he goes away, leaves the door open. i stand up to go and close my door. HE ACTUALLY GOES AND PULLS AGAINST ME TO TRY TO PRY IT OPEN AGAIN. eventually he lets go and then he flips out FOR REAL. he starts screaming about how i'm a psycho, and that im crazy and awful and he has been nothing but nice and that he "saved" me and i haven't been thankful enough.

.... ..

yes, i was in a difficult position. but that flatmate arrangement was made on even ground. he had wanted to move out from his parents for years. i fled and left. called my parents, but they were miles away and laughed it off. i would have probably too. i called my friends. Lina offered to come and mediate. He continued screaming even with Lina there. It culminated with him roaring at me, pointing at the door saying "if you don't like how i treat you, there's the door, leave right now" with lina replying "don't say that, you NEED her money to pay rent!" it was awful, and an eye-opener. the next day, on the way to work, i decided i was gonna move out. and before i could tell him, i get a message from him (!). An ultimatum. he tells me i have 3 options. 1) leave immediately and take my stuff away within a week. i wouldn't have "pay any more than i've already payed" (it was the first day of that month and i had already payed my rent. nice) 2) stay for half a year, but immediately pay him something so that he knows i'll stay 3) stay indefinitely, but set up a " bevahiour contract" with him, so this "never happens again" i told him i'd take option 1 and then i stayed over at a friends house. then at a friends shared appartement. then at dormitary and soon i'm gonna move in with my younger brother. we've been estranged a bit but grown closer through this whole thing. now Lina and him are still friends and lina blames me for "everyone in our friend group" being mad at him. one of her first concerns, was that her birthday parties are gonna be weird now. i am completely done with her as well and don't want her in my life anymore. according to her, I left him with a rent he cant pay  and i should feel bad for that. except i dont. should i though?

[dansiere]

HOW I RUN MY BLOG

Speed:          sadly, I am quite slow. && by quite I mean HORRENDOUSLY slow. I often need several days to finish my drafts or ask replies. Sometimes the same applies to ims & discord messages. I am just very, very bad at replying at a steady pace whenever I do multiple things at once. I need absolute laser focus aka if I work on drafts I go silent for hours. That does by no means mean that I have no interest in you or our plot, I simply have to do one thing at a time, haha. 

Replies:       I usually queue my posts or keep stuff in my drafts until I feel ready to handle an immediate reply. I do, however, try to minimize the time my finished stuff stay in my drafts because said drafts are usually filled with half-finished hcs or memes that I keep in there for various reasons. My replies can get VERY long because I love to put a huge emphasis on Pearl's inner life / thought process. -- I do NOT expect my length to be matched at any point; just how I like to never limit myself I expect my partners to respond as they see fit. Sometimes a thread just doesn’t vibe with you & that is perfectly fine. I am also okay with waiting for a respond. Honestly, take all the time you need. Quality over quantity ! 

Starters:      well, I usually post one starter call, publish two or three starters immediately & continue to ignore those I still owe for weeks. -- joke aside, I write them whenever a fitting scenario strikes me. Most part of the time I plot before I start working on them. Again, I am slow & usually write LONG starters out of habit. I am trying to change that because I know how intimidating long starters can be but uh... yeah.

Inbox:        AH! My inbox is always open, honestly. It may take me years to reply but if I do, you will most likely get a huge ass drabble. Feel free to continue my reply at any given time! I also love anons, questions or just crack stuff. Never be afraid of just barging in there!

Selectivity:           I can be picky but most part of the time, I am inclined to give everyone an equal chance. I do have standards in regards to content & character; I reserve myself the right to not follow based on a ship or aspects of a portrayal that just... don’t vibe with me. However, as long as you have a rules page, a dossier & a nice attitude, I will most likely follow. I am private, however, and sometimes when my dash gets too cluttered, I will go on unfollow sprees. With that being said, I am also quite selective with my replies. Unless I have some really old drafts, I pick based on my muse & my personal state of mind. -- if I favor certain people it is solely because that is the kind of dynamic or interaction my muse responds the most eagerly to atm. Again, this does not mean that I have no interest in you as a writer or person, it simply means that I have been around long enough to understand how my inspiration works & how to best carter to my moody brain. 

Wishlist:            Young Pearl stuff; mainly Gem War-centric threads that allow me to develop her long before the Crystal Gems came into focus. After all, this era includes parts of her life which I consider pivotal to her development & growth as an individual. Everything that happened off screen interests me too aka sign me up for timeskip stuff such as the dismantling of the Empire, etc. I would kill for some Homeworld or Future Pearl interactions with other pearls or the diamonds because they belong to the group of Gems Pearl has unfinished business with in my opinion. Bonus points if it is a thread set after “Volleyball” or during the rebellion for whatever reason. -- also Jasper. I have several hcs in regards to the history Pearl & Jasper most likely share [again, war centric] & I have been dying to use them. Otherwise I really crave interactions between Garnet, Amethyst and Pearl. Give me early post-war stuff!! 

Honest Note:         I often fear that I might come off as intimidating at times or... too edgy? I know that my prose & content can come off that way & that muses like Pearl, who appear fine on the outside but are an utter mess on the inside can be tricky to deal with. I am simply very, very passionate about my character’s feelings, struggle & shortcomings. That can sometimes lead to me crying in my tags / writing tag novels that nobody ever asked for. Sometimes my uh... obsession with detail & love for it gets the best of me. All in all, I can assure you I am a meme. I still cry about “Rose's Scabbard” & howl along to “It’s over, isn’t it” at any given chance. I am an overly emotional person who just loves to put a lot of feelings into my replies. Send me asks, ims or like my nonsense posts & I will love you forever. I am also someone who writes a lot, may it be in - or out of character. -- like I said, ‘passion’ is my middle name so you can literally come into my ims at 3 am & scream about your headcanons or muse without ever fearing that I may be mad. You have an AU idea? Throw it at me! You have a headcanon about my muse? Gimme! Roleplaying has been a hobby of mine for 10 years & nothing makes me happier than having my followers / writing partners interact with me. 

Tagged by: the magnificent @bloodlot​. Tagging: let’s see, since this is more an information post than anything, I would say STEAL IT.

[cyberlifefortune]

Users Manual

Use Search Function and Key Words to skip portions and find what you’re looking for. 

Interaction Generalizations. 

     Just be nice. The meaner and more impatient you are, the less inclined I am to interact. It’s how to push me far, far, FAR away from you; I’m anxious, tired, old af and just here to relax.       Please don’t hesitate to DM or Inbox me, the WORST thing that could happen is I say no thank you right? Unless you’re being a dick and then the worst thing is I ignore and block. But I mean if you’re coming in prolapse first, I’m probably not going to give the time of day. So.... Be nice! 

I cut my lengths, usually by approx 2-4 posts depending how short/long our responses are. 

Responses/One Liners/ParaRP

     Please don’t hesitate to write as much as you feel appropriate. If you write a para novella response, I will do my best to give back what I have been given, but please don’t treat it like a high school essay (Don’t double space, HEADERize everything and then add a lot of cushioning words, or repeat yourself unnecessarily. I want to be able to respond to you too!). If you seem disinterested, please don’t suffer through a thread, I am happy to finish a thread if you feel that it is done and spent or have no muse for it. We can start another or plot or even just leave it there until we have the muse for their interactions again. 

    I personally prefer Para, or longer, but sometimes my time constraints only allow for so much and I will understand for yours as well. Don’t feel bad if I slam you with a paratellenovella in a six part series and you only put out a few paragraphs; sometimes it’s a lot of establishing and internalizing for characters that I enjoy exploring too! Don’t feel that you have to match letter counts or length. You write what you want and if we don’t feel it then there is no hard feelings.

Starters.

     If they’re tagged as an open thread, please feel free. If it’s open to mutuals only, please respect it. If you want to interact and you want something along that plot; Message me. You’ll be much better received this way than you will be if you insert yourself into threads not meant for you.      Closed starters are strictly meant for those my partner(s) and I have tagged. If we bring some one else in, it is not an invitation to slide in like a Stop Light Bar. 

Ask threads/Separated Open Starters

     If it’s a thread that you are continuing with me, please don’t hesitate to start a separate thread with it! I’ll appreciate it, and believe me, so will you; no dealing with other threads that might stem from it, no dealing with the likes of acknowledgement from the rest of the rp community, and a much neater, easier to use posting format. 

     Are you posting an open starter? ahhh.... I might... have to message you. I’m quite anxious that people are overwhelmed with threads so I will likely message you regarding it first. If you are overwhelmed, tell me. I do not take offense. We can plot when you have time and if you feel it. I promise I’m not ignoring your starters; I’m just very anxious. If there is something that you would like to plot please just tag me randomly or DM me! I will do my best to reciprocate this as well! I just need time; I’m anxious and sometimes it counterbalances my meds and I’m more ‘FLEE’ than I am ‘BREATHE’. 

TRIGGERS/WARNINGS/READ MORES

     Triggers; I have none. I really dislike slamming a random thing into an established thread, but I’m not against it in most aspects. What do I mean by this? Please don’t have a cute thread going with me and then BAM CHAR A IS NOW RAGING ANGRY THAT CHAR B IS DOING THIS THING WE NEVER ESTABLISHED HAPPEN. Now if Char A is angry because Char B said something offensive (meant or not) and Char A lands a punch on B; then, Yes. I do not mind this. If you leave an action open, I will use my discretion whether or not it lands (Keep in mind I do love seeing how androids in distress will behave on any/given terms). If I leave an action open to your discretion of being hit or dodging, please do not JUST dodge it every time. I’m trying to give you the option of progressing a fight, not feed you pudding through a straw.       As far as violence, gore, etc; I do not mind it. If it gets too gory, we will use RMs or fade it. If it’s too kinky then I will tag and possibly read more it. It all depends on it’s severity and the warning. 

      Warnings for me are often forgotten; it’s not out of disrespect but because I DO forget. I have lots of things I need to study and RP wise, recalling a hundred and eighty four details is not exactly a priority. It’s not that you’re not important as a partner; it’s that I can fix it if you bring it up with me and we’re adults. I will do my best but please, understand, sometimes I need reminding. 

    Read mores I forget more often than not, if I use them at all. xkit has a blacklist function. Please use it as it’s more reliable than I am if sex/etc offends you (though if it does I’m not sure what is compelling you this far into my blog). If my partner uses/requests them, I can often remember since they will likely be using them as well, but if I’m using them for a sole reason of this trigger then I’ll likely forget. 

Late replies/Slow Replies/Ignored Replies

     As a general rule I will do my best to respond to threads as often as my time constraints give me, but that also relies on how me or Connor responds to the thread/the topic/muse.       Late replies will likely happen as I’m quite slow at times. If I respond to thread A three or four more times before I respond to thread B, it’s just because I feel thread A more. It doesn’t mean that I dislike our thread, it’s just based on what Connor is willing to do as a muse at that moment. If it feels like I’m ignoring your reply; has it been a few days? You can prod me if I’m responding regularly and come off like I’ve gotten through most of my threads, but if it’s been a week or two please prod me. I might not have seen it, or have forgotten about it. Do not, however, ask me why I respond to Thread C more than that thread, guilt me, try to manipulate me or get short with me. I’m here to have fun, not as a compulsive demand. I am a human just like you and sometimes life just happens to overwhelm me more often than you or the next person.  Thank you for understanding, though! 

Magic Anons/Topic Suggestions/Anon

     MA will be accepted most days, but please give me a time frame for it or I will assume it as three days MY time, or if it is something that I don’t see taking a significant amount of time X amount of hours that I’ll choose myself. IE MA!Connors a real boy.  No time? I’ll select for you. Connor as a real boy would be lovely, so I would likely suggest three days.  MA!Connor is stuck in his suit for a week! A week? That’s insanely long, I will take liberty and shorten the time to a few days, or I’ll just override it/ignore it.       Topic suggestions are adorable and sometimes quite interactive and fun! You get content you like, I get a topic to try with my partner(s) and every one wins! Maybe a few people don’t but that, again, is what xkit is for.       Anons will be interacted with as Civilians or generic Androids. Regularly visiting Anons will be named and respectively tagged to the best of my ability. Any anon hate, call out anons, gate keeper anons, fussing anons will be just ignored. No skin off my back, none off of Connors, and even less off of the rest of my follower base. If Anons are inboxing for critique or an opinion asked for- then I’m happy to respond or even read them, I may post them, I might not. It is all up to me. It’s my blog, my Connor and if you dislike him, why is you here? It’s not meant to sound rude, but there are many of us out there, find some one that makes you happy. 

Discord/IMs

Strictly for Mutuals or for those I would like to interact more with! If I’m actively giving it to you- I’m excited, please feel free to take it or don’t. If You want it, ask, but understand that I might decline or I may accept it. Please don’t pressure me. I would never pressure you. 

Duplicates

     Hello other Connors and RK800s alike! You’re welcome here. I’m not here to compete and monopolize; you will each have your own universe with CyberLifeFortune, unless you state with me otherwise. Your worlds will not cross with other RK800/Connors unless we establish. I welcome each of you!

Cross Overs

     Please yes! But please, lets figure it out first! Who has the master realm? Are we smashing them together? Making a whole new world? What are we doing, friendo? Lets talk! 

OCS

     Hello! It’s a hit or miss with me! I prefer fleshed out characters with their own sets of flaws, ups, downs, perfections and quirks.       Things that will quickly turn me off of a character, please respect that this is only personal preferences, are inserts, selfserts, Sues, confusing characters, drama/tragic types (IE whole family dead. Became a ninja, almost died of abuse, saved by a four legged fox with 72 tails that died shortly after training. Turns out they were kami status legend and this char is taking their place but no one believes in them so they are dying and doki doki club literature inspired their life).       Fun parody characters are well received too! Hi there Sumo Rpers, Super minor cameo androids and/or Officer Wilson (Sweet Cop saved on the rooftop in Mission one)

Shipping

     I do not do autoships unless we discuss it. I refuse to continue a thread in which some one is forcing a relationship or has inserted themselves into Connors life. He does not have children, he doesn’t have ‘file’ children (Like the child Cortana makes in Halo), Connor doesn’t have adopted children he doesn’t know about. If you want to autoship please talk to me. If you want it enough you’ll prod me! Think of it this way; we can scream about it together and yell about it as long as we want and then we totally get to do it if we’re both in agreement!

      I have no real preference to who/what Connor does. Likely if they exist in the game I’m down to ship them (this includes Rk900s, Gavins, Hanks, etc). I’m purely curious to see what this muse clicks with. I have every right to say no as much as you do. Keep in mind that unless we establish it I play him with his genitalia but he will not be a Traci type. He is and always will be RK800 model. 

     If you would like to write the raunchy; yes. If you’d like to fade to black; yes. Do you want them to be suggestive? Sure.  Kinks? Name it- I’ll try it. I refuse scat and vomit. Like. Hard nopes. Both make my skin crawl and I just get squeamish in those regards. You do you, but I would appreciate not those two please and thank you; much appreciated. 

[becauseyouremybigbrother]

MAINS CALL (MUTUALS ONLY)

How do you become a main? Well you like this post, of course so I know who wants to be a main. We also must be mutuals (meaning I follow you and you follow me. And we have been interacting for a while. Both OOC and IC (meaning I just won’t add any old person who likes this post). I’m open to plotting with new people, but I’d like to ask you to respect those guidelines for this. Crossovers / OC’s / Multiples are VERY much welcome, though I will have to cap multiples at three (3), just so it doesn’t get out of hand.  This doesn’t mean that I’ll stop interacting with duplicates ; this just means I’ll prioritize you over them. 

Please note that I am NOT an exclusive (** see note) blog, and I am always open to rp-ing with multiples of the same character, but this post is for the people who I will prioritize first when it comes to replies/asks/random starters/whatever !    

BEING MAINS MEANS:

First attention basis when it comes to your character ( meaning I answer your asks and threads before those of your duplicates )

A spot on the mains section of my blog

I can come to you to scream about plots

I have permission to go into your inbox and send you memes, and you can do the exact same!

Either of us can continue ask memes

I can write you random things

Headcanons added to my muses history based on yours

A disgusting and tragic amount of love and friendship from me

Plenty of IMs and Discord chats

Me constantly tagging you and sending you posts regarding the relationship between our muses

Just me being eager about our characters in general!

Give this post a LIKE if you’re interested !

** Exclusives: I will never go exclusive with major characters (i.e. Dean) as there are so many amazing writers and opportunity for interactions out there it would be unfair to my muse. However, minor characters/OCs/crossovers, etc, are open to potential to become exclusive. I leave it entirely up to my muse. If she doesn’t see herself interacting with a muse outside of yours, then I might approach you about exclusivity. It would have to be a mutual agreement, though. If you ever consider exclusivity with Sammy, please feel free to reach out to discuss !

[wrappedinpetals]

soft q&a

tagged by: @melonkooky ily, my love!!!

rules: answer the soft q+a’s and tag 5 of your most recent followers and 3 of your biggest fans.

what’s the smell of your shampoo? white grapefruit + mosa mint . . .i had to go check mine too lol

what’s your aesthetic? black, casual, soft, tea, stars, art, films, photography

what’s your favorite time of the day and why? i love the late mornings, around 9:00am - 11:00am. there’s a sense of peace and quietness that fills the air. everyone is either at work, school, staying in, etc. idk what it is, but its such a calming time to me.

what do you most like about the beach? i love the windy, salty sea air, the sound of the waves, and freeing sense of escape at the beach. 

what do you worry about constantly? oof, we can get real deep if ya want! like @melonkooky i worry about a lot of things, things out of my own control, things in my control, will i be okay in the future? will i achieve happiness? will i make it to work and back with this much gas left in my tank?

what is a song you’ve cried to before? i recently cried to two songs, while in my car this past week. iris by the goo goo dolls and my blood by twenty one pilots 

what are some relaxing tips for your followers? tea (hot, iced, boba, milk, tai, etc.) it’s my go to, also i relax by taking buzzfeed quizzes, listening to soft indie music, simply counting my breaths, gilmore girls, watching heyitsfeiii on yt.

but honestly, guys, simply finding something you really enjoy and making time to engage in that really helps, deep breathing and eating food, nurture your heart and you will find relaxation. 

what are some things that make you tear up? i am a very sensitive soul, that likes to pretend im tough, so really anything can make me tear up. . .cute pups driving with their owners, kids being cute and kind and silly with each other, bts, the titanic, sad/emotional commercials, idk man >.< 

what is your favorite from each sense?

- sight: art

- smell: coconut; cinnamon

- taste: savory

- sound: music + laughter

- touch: floofing my puppies

what is one alternative reality you’d like to be in? i would like to be in a harry potter or sabrina spellman type of alternate reality! OR if i could be in the gilmore girls’ world i would in a heartbeat tbh

what are some troubles you face on a daily basis? just my anxiety. i get it all the time on my way to school, even if i have nothing to worry about. i overthink the smallest things a lot too. <-- @melonkooky that’s a big MOOD + same omg

what is one scene from a book that makes you really sad? there was a scene in looking for alaska that i remember really got to me when i read it. if only i could remember what it was about, i just know it was after alaska passed and the MC and his friend were trying to find out how she really died. 

say something to your followers!! listen omg! there’s only a few of y’all but i truly love every one of y’all! like you all make me feel so soft and happy, i thank you guys for following a lame lil kpop fangirl from texas :’) also, pls stay happy and healthy! love your selves, be kind to your selves bc you are the only one there with yourself 24/7, so treat her right because you all honestly deserve to be happy! my inbox/PMs is always open, and i’m here for you all to scream about your faves or talk about your day! ty for following me, i love y’all! <3

tagging: i know the rules say to tag recent followers…but i don’t know who recently did. my three biggest fans (who i always see on my dashboard)… @moedits @baekinmylife @yeolsangeleyes and i would like to tag @utopiajeon @ellrouxx @yehet-me-up @glassydear @rissa-is-a-nerd

[planettaeil]

Boyfriend!Johnny

Thanks for your requests!

Here’s my third entry for Boyfriend!NCT! I really enjoy writing these so much and please tell me what you think of these fluffballs! And also please check out my Boyfriend!Taeyong and Winwin! 

🍀 My inbox is always open yall! 

🍀 Feel free to send me requests! 

• okay why are u dating this boy 

• how did you even managed to survive???

• but seriously this guy is definitely irresistible like damn have you seen him ???

• and your relationship with Johnny is definitely #goals

• ok so everything started when he saw you drooling over him backstage 

• you were so star strucked you literally forgot to close your mouth when he walked past you 

• “hi are u okay?” He asked out of concern (or curiosity lol) 

• and you wanted the ground to swallow you bc the embarrassment is too much 

• but don’t worry Johnny thought it was so cute ☺️

• you tried to act cool but somehow ended up saying one of the most embarrassing things you’ve ever said in your life 

• “sorry I drooled you were just so hot onstage”

• “oh god I’m sorry I said that”

• cue the laughing fit from johnny 

• “I’ll pretend I didn’t hear that" 

• you made a huge impression on johnny and now he can’t stop thinking about you

• he spent the whole day searching for your name and asking people about you around the company 

• and when he found out who you were, he couldn’t contain his excitement and immediately asked for the other members’ help

• he’s a pretty confident lad but when it comes to you, he just can’t seem to have the guts to ask you out

• he’ll probably ask jaehyun to talk to you tho 

• “jeffrey man help me ask her out”

• “idk ‘bout that she might end up falling for me instead”

• so yeah jaehyun decided to help the poor guy but instead he asked you to play along with him while johnny’s watching a few feet away from you like a creep

• “help me tease johnny im just so tired of his shy ass” he whispered as he discreetly looked behind him (just to make sure Johnny knows nothing about his plan)

• “his shy what?”

• “just act like you are falling in love with me”

• “how am i supposed to do-”

• “juST IMAGINE ME AS JOHNNY I know u like him ugh" 

• “but i don’t like him tho??” #lies

• so yeah you ended up playing along with jae and after a few seconds of your fake heart eyes to him, johnny popped out of nowhere and pushed jaehyun off you

• “dammit jaehyun i didn’t ask u to make her fall in love with you!?!!”

• you were absolutely confused about the whole thing

• so johnny ended up pulling you outside instead and asked you out on a date without Jaehyun’s help

• you’ll probably hear Jaehyun’s faint “ABOUT TIME JOHNNY” inside the building 

• “what’s up with that guy teasing me so much ugh” Johnny complained 

• so fast forward and now johnny’s like the happiest guy ever 

• you’ll probably have jaehyun teasing you two

• so expect a lot of knowing looks from him with Johnny trying to kick his ass 

• there’s never a dull moment with Johnny

• he definitely knows how to have fun  

• he can somehow make staring at the table fun whenever you two are alone

• you spend most of your time laughing with him

• he loves resting his chin on top of your head with his arms tightly wrapped around your shoulders 

• likes the fact that he towers over you

• a big fan of back hugs and kisses on the cheeks 

• he loves talking sht about the other members with you in english 

• “i want to beat up haechan so much”

• “what’s up with winwin’s hair”

• likes to crack jokes that aren’t even funny 

• cue all your fake laughs

• “you seemed to be hanging out with Taeyong these past few days”

• “did he teach you that fake laugh?”

• “should I laugh more then?“ 

• "come on! It’s funny (Y/N)!”

• “ha ha ha ha ha”

• but actually, Johnny is a very funny guy.. You just love messing with him

• and..is it even possible to fall in love with him again and again and again? 

• he’s the type to record his own voice singing, or shall I say screaming “HO HO WAKE ME UP THIRSTY THIRSTY FOR LOVE” and set it as the alarm tone on your phone 

• he loves calling you everyday just to check on you

• and he’s so cheesy too like ugh

• one time he randomly told you he’s planning to marry someone in the future and have like a dozen of kids 

• you were kinda confused like “is he talking about another girl?”

• but then he pulled out the mirror and said “that’s her. I’m gonna marry her one day" 

• "oh my god youngho what the hell" 

• but the other members heard him and can’t stop making the gagging noise 

• "I’ll be back. I suddenly felt sick” Donghyuck probably 

• Johnny likes being touchy in public 

• expect lots and lots of kisses, holding hands, hugs in public 

• a big fan of showing you off for everyone to see 

• calls you baby, sweetheart, jagi, honey, or even lollipop (ugh) this boy just loves calling you these sweet petnames 

• sends random texts in the middle of the night 

• “babe yellow or blue”

• “johnny it’s 1 in the morning wtf do you want”

• “JUST CHOOSE ONE”

• “ILL CHOOSE TO SLEEP NOW GTFO" 

• but he’s only asking you that because he’s preparing something (probably a yellow or blue teddy bear, etc.)

• loves showing off the new dance steps he learned to you  

• "ew johnny you look gross”

• “remember how you drooled over this gross looking person before?” Touché

• “get out”

• and oh a jealous johnny 

• remember the way he pushed jaehyun away from you before?

• yeah he can be a bit agressive when he’s jealous. he gets all protective and serious everytime things similar to that happen to you

• but don’t worry, he knows how to set a limit for himself 

• he easily gets jealous and will immediately tell you when he’s uncomfortable of something 

• he won’t waste any second and would whisper something like “I don’t like the way that waiter looks at your legs” while the said guy takes your order 

• he’ll probably end up asking for another waiter instead 

• “I would appreciate it if you aren’t looking at my girlfriend legs bro" 

• never fails to tell you he loves you everyday

• sends you selfies 25/8

• movie dates every weekend 

•  your overall relationship with Johnny is fun, hot, and full of love (lucky!) • (im crying