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why did i agree to this?

now my mind rots in misery instead of my body rotting away.

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what was it all for?

it seems so useless and worthless now.

i hate myself.

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sometimes i want to go back to him.

or at least, i want to unblock him just to type and send the words: “i hate you, bastard. you ruined my life.”

but i’m scared that if i did that, i would hesitant to block him again.

i’m scared that i might not block him again at all.

and then he’d curl his slimy fingers around my mind again, and i might not escape this time.

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TW: ED implied

he doesn’t deserve to watch me deteriorate.

to watch my skin cling closer to my bones,

to watch my ribs start to jut out of my body,

and for me to slowly become less and less able to walk.

he doesn’t deserve to feel responsible for that in any way.

to feel that pain in seeing me.

i wish i could remove him from that position, and that i can rot without hurting anyone.

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being self-aware about your disorder and how much you do its behaviors, but you can’t stop since it’s a disorder designed to make you not stop it<<<<<<<<<<

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Me: im just faking it i bet im horrible

My body after washing dishes: i will fucking kill you if you do anything else.

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<3

Polycule but it’s just two people in a romantic relationship with each other and their third who’s pretty obviously aroace but also somehow so deeply intertwined in their lives that it’d just be wrong to not count them as involved. Is this anything.

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NUH UH I LOVES YOU THE MOST, I SEE YOUR SNEAKY ASS IN THE TAGS

Polycule but it’s just two people in a romantic relationship with each other and their third who’s pretty obviously aroace but also somehow so deeply intertwined in their lives that it’d just be wrong to not count them as involved. Is this anything.

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would you still love me if i was a worm

yes baby, i’d still love you if you were a worm, always ♥️

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yesssssssss

You ever been in a state where you physically have no energy, but you're bored and socially understimulated so you kind of wish you could just invite people to come over like this:

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it’s called love, babes, love. 0-0

Polycule but it’s just two people in a romantic relationship with each other and their third who’s pretty obviously aroace but also somehow so deeply intertwined in their lives that it’d just be wrong to not count them as involved. Is this anything.

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maaaaybe we gotta do some digging into things, cuz you being overweight would not explain that, i don’t believe.

okay, so, apparently your kneecaps shouldn’t be able to be moved around a lot or side to side, and if it can do that, it can be indicative of instability in those joints.

i can and always have moved my kneecaps around whenever i’m bored or just randomly, especially side to side.

this is a very fun (not, but useful at least) discovery.

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could just mean that one is more unstable than the other one, or that one is more flared up currently than the other one

okay, so, apparently your kneecaps shouldn’t be able to be moved around a lot or side to side, and if it can do that, it can be indicative of instability in those joints.

i can and always have moved my kneecaps around whenever i’m bored or just randomly, especially side to side.

this is a very fun (not, but useful at least) discovery.

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and other things

okay, so, apparently your kneecaps shouldn’t be able to be moved around a lot or side to side, and if it can do that, it can be indicative of instability in those joints.

i can and always have moved my kneecaps around whenever i’m bored or just randomly, especially side to side.

this is a very fun (not, but useful at least) discovery.

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it’s common with hEDS

okay, so, apparently your kneecaps shouldn’t be able to be moved around a lot or side to side, and if it can do that, it can be indicative of instability in those joints.

i can and always have moved my kneecaps around whenever i’m bored or just randomly, especially side to side.

this is a very fun (not, but useful at least) discovery.

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PROBABLY NOT 😭 MINE DO THAT

okay, so, apparently your kneecaps shouldn’t be able to be moved around a lot or side to side, and if it can do that, it can be indicative of instability in those joints.

i can and always have moved my kneecaps around whenever i’m bored or just randomly, especially side to side.

this is a very fun (not, but useful at least) discovery.

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okay, so, apparently your kneecaps shouldn’t be able to be moved around a lot or side to side, and if it can do that, it can be indicative of instability in those joints.

i can and always have moved my kneecaps around whenever i’m bored or just randomly, especially side to side.

this is a very fun (not, but useful at least) discovery.