#(but this other woman who awakens every possible insecurity in me also made his dick hard so too bad)

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k and I had a chat about jealousy (and up next is a stupidly long ramble in the tags)

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Do You Feel Beautiful Now?: Arthur x Reader

Hellloo, and thank you for reading! This is my very first fanfic EVER so I really hope you enjoy!! It’s a soft and romantic piece where Arthur comforts the reader after she’s gained a bit of weight and helps her feel better about herself. Also, NSFW!

Pairing: Arthur x Reader

Warnings: Weight gain, body insecurity, slight eating disorder references, talks of skipping meals, etc

You looked in the mirror and sighed. There's no way this was happening. You had been trying so hard to prevent it, yet here it was. You squeezed the extra fat on your hip that you know wasn't there yesterday. Holding your breath and hoping for the best, you stepped onto the scale. Your heart sank. 165 lbs. That was 5 lbs heavier than you were two days ago. You yelped quietly and felt your heart sink in your chest. You had been trying so hard, too. Slowly eating less over the last few days, but just enough for Arthur to not notice... Arthur. 

Your mind automatically flashed to your boyfriend. His beautiful smile, his thick curly hair, his electric green eyes… His eyes...  What they would think when they saw you now? You did everything you could at that moment to hold back your tears, but it was futile. What would he think of you? You couldn't prevent the thoughts racing through your mind, the sinking feeling in your chest. Maybe Arthur deserved someone more beautiful, someone who looked more like the girls on TV. He deserved the entire world, and surely you weren't it. Not now, anyways. You quickly brought your hand up to your mouth and sobbed loudly, the tears flowing freely now. Arthur was so perfect, the best thing to ever happen to you. He was kind, and soft, and always truly saw you. He was everything to you. You were always a bit on the chubby side, even when you started dating. But Arthur never seemed to mind, or if he did, he didn't say anything. You had seen it in other men you had dated before. The occasional disapproving stare at your tummy, the occasional remark about your face filling out, but Arthur... Arthur had never given your appearance so much as a hint of dislike. He was always seemed to love every inch of you. You felt yourself getting dizzy as you wondered if this was all about to change...

Arthur stood outside the apartment door, the small pink box in his hands. He had spent so much care picking out each donut in the box, imagining how you would react as your teeth sunk into each delicious treat. He thought about what he would say as he surprised you with your favorite dessert, practicing each line in his head. 

"Some sweets for my sweety!" No, that was too corny.

 "A donut for my doughy girl!" Wait, no. That was way too forward. 

Arthur had noticed the changes in your body recently. How could he not? He had studied every inch of you like a scholar. Every curve, every soft spot... Especially the soft spots. His thoughts immediately went to the soft places all over your body that he couldn’t help but grab. So squishy, so sinfully sweet. He thought about them all day, dreamt about them when he went to sleep. Arthur may had been inexperienced before he met you, but he knew what he liked. He felt his dick starting to get hard at the thought. 

"No, not now" he thought. How strange would it be for him to walk into the apartment with a box of donuts and an erection? 

Still, seeing your body change in the way it had been had awakened something primal in Arthur... He had always had a difficult time gaining weight, but seeing you put it on so eloquently, filling out in so many delicious ways.... He stopped. He had to get rid of this erection before going in. He looked around cautiously and started to palm at his hard dick in his pants. 

"Oh no, the mail!" you thought. You had been expecting a letter from your friend. But Arthur would be home any minute now and you were right in the middle of cooking dinner for the both of you. Thinking you could make it if you ran fast, you grabbed the mail key and hurriedly rushed out the door before feeling something in your way as you went to push the door open. 

"Ow!" you heard a deep, raspy voice yell in surprise. 

You’d recognize that voice any day of your life. It was Arthur.  What was he doing waiting outside the door? 

"Oh, hey honey..." you said, the curiosity in your voice apparent "...what are you doing out here?" 

"N-nothing!" he stuttered, turning bright red and nearly dropping the box in his hand. The box... What is this? You grabbed the box from his fumbling hands and opened it. Donuts. You felt your face start to get red. Arthur had brought you donuts. You thought about how they would go to your belly, your hips, your arms, your face.... As you looked down to avoid eye contact with him and felt the tears well up in your eyes you felt soft hands grab your arms. 

"Sweetie, what's wrong?" 

"N-nothing" you hurriedly reply, wiping a tear from your eyes. But he saw it. He saw everything with those electric green eyes. 

"Y/N... What's wrong?" 

You feel the tears coming up again. "Oh Arthur, I---" you sob as he puts his hand on the small of your back and leads you inside. He closes the door. He walks into the kitchen and turns off the stove for you. You set the donuts on the counter and slump onto the couch. 

"Nothing Arthur, it's nothing" you insist, wiping the tears from your eyes. You hope with every part of your soul that he doesn’t notice the changes in your body. You are not about to point them out now. He walks up to the couch and kneels. He rests his hands on your knees and looks up at you. 

"Sweetie, you can tell me anything. Did I do something wrong?" a look of sadness flashes over his eyes and you can see the harsh laughter beginning to form in his throat.

"NO honey," you quickly respond, feeling your heart break at the response you were causing in your boyfriend. "I just...." you continue. "I am feeling bad about myself today.." 

"Y/N.. why?" he responds. "Is everything ok around the house? I mean I know I haven't been bringing in the most money lately, but I---" his sentence now punctuated with suppressed laughs.

"NO" you cut him off again. You could not continue to let him blame himself like this. "I've.... I've been gaining weight." You flatly reply, pushing your face into your hands.

"Oh sweetie.." he replied, the laughter now gone. "Y/N..." He slowly grabbed both of your hands in his and pulled them away from your face, looking deep into your eyes. He was smiling, his crooked teeth flashed in a grin that made your heart melt. "I know," he responded.

You felt your heart sink "Y-you know?! You've noticed?!" you felt the tears trying to flood your eyes again, there was no holding them back now.

"Yes baby," he quickly responded "but," he continued, caressing your face now and wiping the newly formed tears. "I love it so much. You look so beautiful." 

"What?" your words trailed off. Is he being serious? Is he just saying this to make you feel better? You looked into his eyes. No... This was real. You knew Arthur. You knew that look. It was the same look he gave you on your first date. It was the look he gave the first time you told him you loved him... This was genuine… You sighed "Oh Arthur, really?"

"Yes Y/N" he responded. "You look so beautiful, so sexy. I just..." his mind trailed off. He couldn't stop himself from imagining your body now. Your curves. Your belly, your hips... He felt his pants start to get tight. He loved every inch of you, and he needed to make you believe it. 

He grabbed you by the hand now, gently pulling you up from the couch, and led you into the bedroom. You followed along, wiping your tears with your sleeve, a feeling of relief forming in your chest. You were in the room now, standing at the end of the bed. He grabbed your head in his hands and kissed you, softly. You sighed as you kissed him back and he gently pushed his tongue into your mouth.

"Y/N, you are the most beautiful woman I've ever laid my eyes upon, and I want to show you how much I mean it" 

He took your hand and guided it down to trace the hardness in his pants. You felt your body start to get hot. This was all for real. Arthur was just as turned on by you as he ever was. Maybe, if the hardness in his pants was anything to go by, even more... You felt your heart start to flutter and wondered how you could have ever been so silly as to think Arthur wouldn’t love you anymore.

He looked into your eyes now and brushed your hair behind your ears. You wrapped your arms behind his neck and kissed him, hard now, and gently brought the both of you down onto the bed with him on top of you. He started to undress you while his eyes gazed longingly into yours. As he pulled your shirt up he finally looked down at your body. A hunger you had never seen before flashed in his eyes and he gently reached down and grabbed your belly. You felt yourself start to blush "Arthur, no--" but he lifted his hand to your mouth and cut you off.  "I fucking LOVE this" he whispered while his eyes took in every inch of your body, his hand gently squeezing and kneading your belly. His entire body was on fire now. He put his mouth down on your stomach and started to kiss and gently lick. His tongue getting lower and lower, until…

You had the most amazing sex of your life that night. Arthur had always been an attentive lover, but tonight was something different, something special. Arthur never took his hands off your soft and squishy flesh as he worked on top of you, his dick caressing your g-spot with every stroke, squeezing your belly hard as he finally came inside of you. He stayed there for a moment, panting and gasping in your ear before rolling over next to you. He leaned onto his elbow and looked lovingly into your eyes 

"Do you feel beautiful now, Y/N" he teased as he started to grin. You smiled back, wider than you ever thought possible.

"Oh Arthur... I feel like the hottest woman alive” you giggled, truly meaning it.

Sudden a look fell over Arthur’s face, a look of excitement. He’d remembered something good. He jumped up happily and ran into the kitchen. “Arthur, where are you going…” a moment later he came back with a box, the same one as before. Donuts. You smiled. Those were your favorite. 

"Here Y/N, I.." he said shyly as he presented the box to you. You opened it, finally taking in the appearance of the donuts without the panic from before. They were decorated so beautifully, you noticed with awe, but your eyes paid special attention to the one in the middle. It was the only one with colored icing. It had a red nose, green hair, and red paint around the mouth…  It was decorated as a clown. But not just any clown. Arthur had ordered it to look like his clown persona, Carnival. You looked up at him, grinning. 

"That one's cream filled" he smiled. “I know it’s your favorite.”  

Tagging those of you who asked, @lavenderwatercolor, @glamorizedtrainwreck, @jokingarthur