#(KILL dysphoria no more dysphoria >:])
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fmk-polls Ā· 1 year ago
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Ask box is open and I am taking poll suggestions
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droppingartintotheinfinite Ā· 3 months ago
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when the dysphoria hits amirite
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vulpinesaint Ā· 1 month ago
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itā€™s like. i love being trans. and also if there was a loving god he wouldnā€™t do this to me
#usually my mental illness is emotional Nothingness. when i take wellbutrin i can feel again!#and when the wellbutrin loses efficacy i keep the feeling but lose the good ones so i just unlock Regular Depression. which fucking Sucks#and a couple weeks ago i ran out of t gel and it is a controlled substance so they wouldnā€™t give me my refill until the full 60 days were up#which meant i had to be off t for like a week. and i was so so hopeful that it wouldnā€™t do anything to me.#but it restarted my cycle so iā€™m bleeding rn. and it is so fucking awful#it Hurts and it feels Humiliating and Wrong#cramps and stomach issues And dysphoria and bleeding. nothing more evil to do to me right now#and itā€™s worse cause i was done with that. i literally GOT RID OF IT. I PUT THE WORK IN. I WAS FREE.#but i couldnā€™t have my medicine and now i no longer control my own body. horrifying. so horrifying#wore a kind of ill fitting binder today too and it kickstarted Other dysphoria on the drive home so. messed up rn.#i just want to be able to live my life man. i want to have a body that looks and functions like me#and can feel things and do things#and doesnā€™t subject me to hurt in multiple multiple ways. that would be really cool.#genuinely it does not fucking matter if god loves me. cause if this is what i go through when he loves me#then i donā€™t want his fucking love.#i hope god kills himself actually#i want to wake up and just be able to put a shirt on and leave the house. can you imagine a fucking world#gonna try nd sleep for like five minutes and then go to dinner with my mom. i can be okay. i can be stronger than my struggles#i just need to be really fucking angry with god.#great time to be reading paradise lost#valentine notes
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megumi-fm Ā· 8 months ago
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11/18 days of habit
and... I got my period. it's been a weird day overall but I really tried my best šŸ˜©āœŠšŸ˜” hopefully tomorrow is better
šŸ¶ ~ 3L of waterĀ and I'm still dehydrated šŸ“µ ~ 2.5 hrs + 4hrs of being on a call with my besties šŸŒ™ ~ 7 hours // 7:30am wake
šŸ’» did some work ig šŸ‘Ÿ tried a new choreo! // it was pretty easy to learn but it's gonna take a while to perfect, especially if I'm attempting to recreate the dance gods themselves
yeah. that's it for today, hoping the pain subsides by tomorrow āœŒ gnight besties!
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revenancy Ā· 2 months ago
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don't mind me, just casually ruining my life in episodes of mania
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yardsards Ā· 1 year ago
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transgender dysphoria blues is one of those albums where halfway through you slowly lose the ability to sing along to it and just start bellowing wordlessly because even screaming along to the lyrics can't get all the feelings the music is giving you out of your system
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aroacesigma Ā· 6 months ago
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what is it about working on my assessment that has me spiralling into every single bad thought about every bad thing in my life
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seeveekat Ā· 6 months ago
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sherlock-is-ace Ā· 1 year ago
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kulvefaggoth Ā· 8 months ago
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"girl" who wasn't posted a single image of herself for months: why is no one ever interested in me? :c
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dar1ing-d0ve Ā· 8 months ago
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ive literally haven't had a consistent period in years why am i NOW starting to get them monthly šŸ˜­ like pls I was happy having a uterus that didn't work why must you betray me like this body
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be-gay-do-crime-ahaha Ā· 9 months ago
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Holy fucking shit the dysphoria is dysphoria-ing right now. I feel physically nauseous oh my fucking god. Iā€™m gonna fucking kill someone maybe myself rn Iā€™m gonna lose my shit holy hell.
Doesnā€™t help that Iā€™ve been incredibly overstimulated the past few days every sound is like a fucking cheese grater in my ears oh my god.
#dysphoria#gender dysphoria#sensory processing disorder#tw emetophobia#for the nausea mention#idk if thatā€™s needed or not#but yeah Iā€™m about to tear off my fucking skin and jump off a building I am losing my fucking mind#itā€™s so over#lmao my brain is fucked i genuinely wanna off myself over this shit#and my mother keeps refusing to even entertain the idea of getting my name changed on the school role#even though all my teachers and friends call me Alex and thatā€™s what Iā€™ve been going by for a few years now#and it would make things significantly easier for everyone because it would fix my email name as well#so thatā€™s not helping#and she was talking about my period and being all ā€œitā€™s okay all WOMEN get these ā¤ļø youā€™re just becoming a beautiful woman#and now she keep being rude to my sister because she uses menā€™s deodorant (because it works better) and doesnā€™t really wear dresses#(because she finds them annoying and inconvenient)#and is being all ā€œhurr durr youā€™re copying your SISTER stop being so masculineā€#like fucking hell#shit talking me and harassing my sister all at once#man I want to fucking kill myself im so done with this shit#and Iā€™m so overdue on school work and I feel so overwhelmed and stressed this fucking sucks#and I know the school work and stuff is fully my fault for forgetting and slacking off but I canā€™t bring myself to do them because the#stress of fucking up and just how much of it I have to do is pushing me to my damn limit#I canā€™t even bring myself to start on my film and media assignment thatā€™s a week overdue because Iā€™m so fucking stressed just thinking about#it and Iā€™m so overwhelmed I canā€™t fucking do this. I just canā€™t. and I know Iā€™m at fault for procrastinating and being too lazy and stressed#to bring myself to start working on it#and things are just gonna get more and more difficult#so yeah. rant over I guess. sorry guys#did not mean to rant in the tags this much dysphoria is just killing me and so is general stress#tw suicidal thoughts
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nightfallsystem Ā· 11 months ago
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"what if you regret it" my god i literally dotn care. if i do something and regret it its my fault and i just learn from the experience. but identifying as male has made me so happy and being called a girl ruins my day if not entire week
if i choose to transition after looking at all the side effects, things that can go wrong, etc. then thats kind of my fault anyway
and the transition regret rate is like 1%
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mx-paint Ā· 1 year ago
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Never get tired of blocking fascists but claiming that trans genocide is good because it stops gay genocide isn't the serve you think it is
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callixton Ā· 1 year ago
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what if i got into make up
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starlooove Ā· 1 year ago
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Actually donā€™t go in those notes very rancid in there
#i canā€™t take white beef seriously Iā€™m sorry#and me personally Iā€™m not gonna have an opinion on smth i donā€™t know about#however I wanna know what some of yā€™all are tryna accomplish with the type of discourse you get up to#and this isnā€™t judging Iā€™m genuinely so curious like how does excluding ace ppl or ppl not trans enough for u furthering ur community#and Imma keep saying it Iā€™m genuinely asking this like I donā€™t understand why we care so much#like words and definitions are important and everything but I donā€™t see the issue in including ace/aro ppl in the community?#i genuinely donā€™t understand downsides#and the whole u need dysphoria to be trans thing like some ppl donā€™t have dysphoria and transition anyways so do they not count?#again. just to reiterate. since some of yā€™all donā€™t like to read#Im genuinely confused as to what ur accomplishing or tryna achieve#like idk these feel like post liberation convos to me#like maybe worry about that after weā€™re not worried about our queer siblings getting killed every single day#but thats just me#and maybe Itā€™s being black on top of it bc the convos in majorly queer black communities are just different#like not to say there arenā€™t discussions like that but I havenā€™t really seen the vitriol from other black ppl on that front#but maybe thatā€™s just how I curate my space#like i just feel that thereā€™s more pressing shit to attend to#but also! again! everything Iā€™m saying is 1000% genuine like I do wanna know#and this isnā€™t saying we canā€™t worry about multiple things at once and I looove gatekeeping I just donā€™t understand this specific gate#like why do u draw the line at ace ppl neopronouns and lack of dysphoria?
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