#(I'm still into mcyt and such it's just with school and everything i just haven't been on here really i haven't spoken to like any of

[violets-r-purple]

hi

[thecranewivesrpf]

vent it's 1am

sometimes I see posts about people's parents being supportive of their interests, and I wonder what I could've had about that.

instead I'll sit in my room, smiling, laughing at a funny video, chatting with my friend, having fun and enjoying myself in my little safe space and I'll hear my dad laugh from downstairs and I'll wonder if it's at me.

why do I like the things I do? isn't it pathetic you're so invested in fucking minecraft roleplay? these creators will never know your name, but you still hold the time jimmy briefly said your name out loud on stream dear to your heart despite the fact you didn't even clip it, it just plays in your head sometimes. hi chewby, he said along with a long list of other names. he doesn't think about it and yet it felt like you existed for a moment.

it's unreasonable and incredibly paranoid, but sometimes I get scared and look through my phone for keyloggers that might've been installed, try and dig around my room for cameras and get scared new people I meet are my dad trying to fool me into trusting someone to tear it away and laugh. Point at the heartfelt messages I said to them and say isn't that pathetic? you trusted someone that much so quickly, this thing you said was so stupid. why did you say that? what's wrong with you? you're a fucking freak.

my mom says she tries not to let him have an effect on her life, don't be mad, stay apathetic. I would if I could. I'm terrified.

my only safe space had been torn away before, and it was one of the worse periods of my life. I was so disassociated I can't really tell you what happened in that time. I remember seeing a wildflower growing between the fence on my way home from school and crying. that flower got me through that day. I'm so scared of that happening again.

I pretend to nod along, I agree with every horrible thing he says, I have an entire horrible transphobic and bigoted story written out for how I use each social media I do use, and it's all to make sure he's happy and okay with me. I don't genuinely give a shit what he thinks, but I consider his opinion on everything I do to make sure I have a decent cover up story or way to hide it. I've done a lot, even as a kid to keep up that innocent perfect kid persona, even if then I didn't have a real reason to. I have zero respect for that man and yet I bow to him because I'm terrified. sometimes I wish I could've smiled and told him about the lmanburg flag I was sewing 2 years ago, and he would've smiled and listened to me talk. I think that conversation was ammunition. I hate talking about myself already, and I have extra internalized fear about my interests now. I assume everyone thinks I'm pathetic outside of my bubble, and it surprises me every time I see someone outside of the mcyt community not clowning on us or putting dni in their bio, thinking we're just weirdos. we're wonderful weirdos, I love what we've made here, but it's been ingrained into me to hate myself for what makes me happy.

I wish I didn't have to filter my thoughts. have cover up interests, pretend I'm so invested in a video game I haven't played in months. I've picked up my sister is masking and sucking up to him too. I feel bad for her.

im tired. I escape here and it's so wonderful, I can talk to people that make me happy and understand and won't lecture me and make me feel pathetic over the tiniest slip of my words. people will cheer with me, make me feel not alone, I love you all so much. you'll listen to me be happy, think about things that make me happy and interest me. even if I'm incoherent, even if you don't know what I'm talking about, even if it's too late and I'm making too many typos, I love you. I love you I love you I love you.

[maybe-its-micheal]

howve you been micheal :D

I've been really well!!!!

I don't post on tumblr as often, and honestly I haven't watched mcyt stuff in a while, but I've been feeling very fulfilled with other things!

I am in college and it is a slay. I'm studying neuroscience with hopes of going to law school and getting into neuroethics or criminal deffense. I really like my classes, and final grades foe the semester just came out, and I got all As and Bs!!! I was failing my Biology lab for a little, but I pulled through! And did well in the rest of my classss too!

I also have a whole bunch of awesome friends and loved ones. I feel lucky to know each and every one of them, everyone is so unique and wonderful. I've neved been in a place I feel so supported, and I'm growing and learning so much!

A recent highlight are the night of finals week me and a group of like 7 broke into this 7 story building and ran around playing real life among us at 2 am. When we got kicked out we all went our separate ways, and I went on a walk with someone and we just talked and wondered around until we had gone 8 miles.

In terms of interests I still care a lot about mcyt stuff, and I have another friend who likes dsmp, hermitcraft, and the life series so we talk about it or watch things together sometimes. Mostly though I've been getting into table top role play games! I'm hosting one where its sort if similar to DND, but the plot is inspired by Don't Starve, and I added mechanics like Hunger and Sanity. I'm also listening to The Magnus Archives, which has been a slay as well! Oh and music. My friends and I share music and listen together all the time, sometimes we sing and dance, or other times we just sit quietly and enjoy the moment.

Obviously not everything is perfect all the time, but I really like my life overall. I am surrounded by good people, and I am participating with things that make me happy. The world is beaitiful and I am glad that I get to experience it :)

Thank you for asking! And how about you? :D

[v01dbug-s1nr0se]

*inhale* Hi-

Hi! My name is Lunar Rose, but you can just call me Lunar!

I write, draw, voice act, read, and make various kinds of content :D

Heavy TW : I do swear a whole lot and tend to forget warnings on some posts, but yeah that's a thing I do!

If you wanna know about me some of my interests are: -Encanto *** -Sanders Sides *** -Hazbin Hotel *** -Helluva Boss *** -Fairy Tail * -My Hero Academia *** -Miraculous Ladybug ** -She-Ra ** -Series of Unfortunate Events *** -Undertale(+AUs) *** -Delta Rune ** -Keeper of the Lost Cities ** -Five Nights at Freddy's *** -Minecraft *** -MCYT *** ~Minecraft Diaries(the original) ** ~MyStreet ** ~Mystery Beyond Lakegemy ** -Gacha Life/Gacha Club *** ~The Music Freaks *** ~Royal Fairy Academy * ~Influencer Island * ~Element Protectors ** ~Blackout.EXE(My own project :D) *** *** = Decently caught up with it/understand enough of it to hold a conversation(Hyperfixation, love rambling about it) ** = Knowledge is a bit rusty, but can reread/rewatch/replay it to understand(On the back-burner essentially) * = Still a bit interested but haven't found time to reread/rewatch/replay or just overall don't want to(Possibly falling out of interest of it or just generally can't find find motivation to reread/rewatch/replay)

And more! I generally reblog most things I like :D

This account is more my shitpost-y account, if you want my generally creative posts(art, writing, etc) then follow my other blog - @rosevoid-works :D I write/create videos more than anything, so yeah-

I communicate via system - Mindset Void. We are not diagnosed with DID/OSDD and aren't too fond of self-diagnosing(unless given reason to or proper research is done on it all) so we won't claim to have either. However, I let the headmates publicly talk out of personal comfort.

If you don't want specific voidmates talking to you, let us know and we'll try to take not of it.

I am in no means any professional creator, I'm literally some high school/uni student that's just posting shit onto the internet - don't take everything put here to heart and understand that you do have the option to literally just block me if you don't like what I post. A lot of us swear like every other sentence and I overuse a lot of words/phrases(like, ofc, bestie, ok but, no but, ok no but, literally, but, frfr, mood, what fuck, i love how --, so uh, A, collapses, passes out/away, fair enough/that's fair/fair, etc)

Do note: I like interacting with people but I have horrible reactions to being complimented and having interactions outside of likes, so expect screaming and keysmash at first. Also if you wanna try to become my friend then feel free to, but just respect my boundaries, triggers, etc - and know that I'm either chaotic or awkward at first. HAVE A PFP/DESC AND AT LEAST 3 POSTS OTHERWISE YOU'LL BE ASSUMED TO BE A BOT AND YOU WILL BE BLOCKED