#(I am lying to myself )

[creatorbiaze]

this is bsd, Bram will be ok definitely

[artistic-moth-man]

Getting 2 scammers in 2 days means ive made it as an artist

[shameonrauxel]

first of all, yes, i am utterly delusional

but

if fyodor dies now, then he wasn't really a well-written character. i mean, come on guys, we literally knew nothing about him, except that he's very very evil. if he really did die, then he had no actual purpose other than being the villain. bsd is way too complex to just have such a shallow antagonist.

so here are the reasons why i think he's alive or he'll have an important role in the future:

- what's up with the V thing? we still don't know what's going on with that. what happened to it? how is this organization even connected to him?

- what's up with nikolai? he doesn't really have a purpose anymore, but he's still alive. what is he going to do now? it's pretty obvious that he's still conflicted and not really happy with the results of these events, and he's still not freed from his emotions. is he going turn on the ada or dazai? is he going to try to find a new cage of a purpose?

- his death was so anticlimactic and he had no character development. we knew nothing about him and his "goals" weren't very well-defined. he probably wouldn't have a redemption arc anyway, but he had so much potential to be a really interesting character. for example how did he get to his theological conclusions? why was he such a control freak?

- he was incredibly intelligent, but for what then? i feel like it's very unlikely that the only one who could challenge dazai would be written out of the story so easily.

- what's up with sigma??? he passed out from all the information he got from fyodor. then fyodor can't be THAT simple of a character, on the contrary, he's probably very complex.

- also when someone dies in this story, my immediate thought is always "ok but the book can manipulate reality, it can also bring them back to life"... (sooooo maybe nikolai's new purpose is to bring fyodor back? omg fyolai? probably not, but LET ME BE DELUSIONAL)

but still,,, it's very much possible that he's simply dead and i'm just trying to find a reason why he isn't, because i like him. but then i am very much disappointed

[pritchypitchperfect]

YES FINALLY RELISTENED TO MAG ARCHIVES IN THREE OR LESS WEEKS AGAIN SO I CAN FINALLY DESTROY THE WORMS ROTTING AND SQUIRMING IN MY BRAIN ABOUT THESE GAY FUCKS

[heretherebedork]

Dome is an inherently empathetic and caring person who has not been jaded the way so many people around him are and, very specifically, the way Khatha has been. And Dome can break the jade, can hear the artifacts, can show Khatha that's he's not only not alone but that the world still holds hope and happy endings and the chance to protect people, the chance to keep people safe.

Dome is the power of compassion and the power of caring and the strength not to give in to despair or to sympathy but to care and to protect and to be and Khatha passed that point long ago, lost that long ago, only to find it again in Dome and for Dome and with Dome.

(Reality: Dome most likely looks like/is somehow related to Khatha and reminds him of what caring meant. Fantasy: Dome looks like Khatha old lover and reminds him of what it meant to be mortal and to love, to care, to want and dream of more.)

I truly just love how they look at each other because it's all about the care and the worry and the way they are aware of each other.

[nate-acmilan]

Sandro's still in Milan btw

[thebrideofreanimator]

RENFIELD 2023 WILL NOT SUCK #AFFIRM

[patchesjam]

#iamnotadrolo #iamnotadrolo #iamnotadrolo

[thefanciestflower]

okay guys I won, I never have to play this game again

[justanotherhornycatgirl]

(convincing myself) if i didnt live in a mobile home in rural Tennessee id definitely pull

[langernameohnebedeutung]

Going to Bettchen. Having a Nickerchen. Straight up schlummering.

[unholylavender]

Today is the day.

I will be going to bed at a timely manner.

[bred-is-a-dumb-name]

Anyone remember that drawing challenge from a while ago where you would draw your otp or OCs as the go for it nakamura cover??? Yea well I like the second Manga covers pose a lot more so I did that...also it's klapollo <3

[traaumaa]

i give up

[answermywearyquery]

the theerapanyakul kids: how close are you with each other?

loan’s kinnporsche 2nd anniversary: favourite familial relationship: the theerapanyakul kids (insp: ½+½)

[madbard]

I just realized another reason I love Hozier’s music. It’s not just that the lyrics are complex, or the music itself is beautiful - it’s that Hozier is a musical liar.

Take Cherry Wine. This is a song about an abusive relationship, told from the perspective of someone very much in love with their abuser. Throughout the song, the narrator describes their lover’s cruelty. Lyrics like “I walk my days on a wire” and “open hand or closed fist would be fine” make the darker aspects of their relationship all too evident. At points, the song suggests that they are defending this relationship to someone else who cares about them (“it looks ugly but it’s clean. Oh mama, don’t fuss over me”) and even the more beautiful and seemingly romantic lines later in the song (“oh but she loves like sleep to the freezing”) have dark undertones (what else is sleep to the freezing but death?) Still, I often come across the song being used in a wholesome, romantic context. A lot of factors contribute to this, but I would argue that this song mainly gets mistaken for a romantic song because of how soft and gentle the music is - it presents as a sweet love song in every way except the lyrics. Even those lyrics are told through the lens of someone defending their broken and abusive relationship, deepening the lie. Our narrator wants to portray this relationship as something dark, yet also immensely beautiful and encompassing. The result is a song about the agony and pleasure of a broken relationship, disguised so well as a love song in every possible way that it gets mistaken for something romantic. (Even if you are aware of the meaning, there is still that deep urge to experience the song as something romantic. Just like the narrator, the listener is drawn in by beauty and the powerful idea of love, so much so that it can blind them to reality.)

Variations of this can be seen in Talk. In this song, the narrator makes their intentions very clear - they are sweet-talking someone in order to hide their own thoughts and desires (“I try to talk refined, for fear that you find out how I’m imagining you”). Despite knowing this, the sheer power of the lyrics (“I'd be the voice that urged Orpheus / when her body was found. / I'd be the choiceless hope in grief / that drove him underground. / I'd be the dreadful need in the devotee / that made him turn around, / and I'd be the immediate forgiveness in Eurydice”) overwhelms the listener. We know the speaker is putting on a show. We know they have ulterior motives, and likely don’t even believe what they are saying. But their words are so beautiful that we don’t care. The intense, almost mythic music in the background is so lovely and deep, it makes the lyrics seem genuine, because what lie could sound so astounding and true? In this case, the song about smoke and mirrors and empty talk becomes a love song because the narrator is just that skilled at lying.

Even songs like Too Sweet, sung by a narrator who refuses to be with someone unless they allow their standards to slide, become ‘romantic’ and ‘sweet’ to certain listeners - not because the lyrics are impenetrable, but because so many of Hozier’s narrators are unreliable. His songs spin sweet stories, lies so stunning that listeners are willing to deny what they know in order to experience the beauty of that untruth, the complexity of that space between what is real and what we want to believe.

And isn’t that more true to the experience of being a person, and loving other people, than the simple truths we often see in these types of songs?