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[frogchiro]

Beauty is in the eye of The Beholder

Author's note: My first kinktober entry!! Yay! We're staring with a new-ish concept so I hope you like it!

Also I apologize for the short story but I was moving into my dorm for uni today and it literally took all day so I apologize in advance :((

Warnings: slight nsfw, reader is female, general creepyness, whatever König is (human or not) isn't explicitly specified but he does some unnerving/possibly uncomfortable stuff like stalking so keep it in mind, mentioned death but nothing explicit.

The almost suffocating warmth coming from behind you is almost too much. Almost. However considering the events of the day you guess that it could be called comfortable to be cuddled and nuzzled by König, your colonel, your superior and...well, mate as he calls it. It can be sometimes tricky to hear him, for a man that size he's unnervingly silent and stealthy and his voice is low and quiet, almost whispery, not to mention that König just doesn't talk much so to hear him rasp that one word, 'mate', in your direction is a feat in itself.

While at first you were terrified of the enormous male due to all the stated reasons something about him was equally unnerving and yet alluring, like an invisible pull towards him.

At first you thought you were going crazy, everywhere you went you saw the tall, lean figure of the colonel doing nothing but just...watching you. His bloodshot eyes stared at you without ever blinking as you laid a USB stick with data you managed to hack with a tremble in your hands, your eyes not daring to meet his. Another such instance was when he almost scared you to death in an empty hallway at night when you just wanted to get a quick midnight snack from the kitchen and just barely held in a scream when you noticed König standing in a dark corner, silent and static like always, his head wasn't even moving under his cowl except for his eyes which followed you as you were scuttling and whispering shaky excuses.

You were KorTac's newest asset, a skilled hacker and yet many soldiers underestimated you; you guess you can't really blame them, you're only in your early twenties and your soft build isn't really military-esque so you suppose you kinda look a little mismatched, but that doesn't excuse what people were whispering behind your back. Not all of them, not even the majority as you were considered friendly and overall harmless, and yet these few whispered sneers cut deep into your self esteem which eventually led you into the moment you were now in.

You were laying under a thick blanket with König plastered against your back, your quiet sniffles the only thing that disturbed the otherwise quiet room. You felt bad that you were taking up König's time, after all as a colonel he surely had better things to do than lay around with his 'mate' and comfort her after some asshole insulted her although a small, selfish part of you was over the moon with happiness that the huge male behind you was cuddling and comforting you so sweetly despite not muttering anything besides the occasional nuzzle and a raspy 'pretty...soft...mine'.

Turning around, you smiled tiredly at the man beside you, his wide blue eyes never blinking as they continued to stare at you with the devotion and love someone may only give their god and yet here you are, loved and cherished by this huge man, a monster many call him, a merciless goliath that kills and destroys everything in his path like a god of war but you know better. König's huge hands ran up and down your soft sides, lightly grazing your belly and finally his large, warm hands slipped under your pajama shirt and up to your breast where he squeezed lightly, pinching at your nipple.

"König...Please I-", your pleading for...whatever were quickly cut short when the long haired male leaned in with a purr deep in his chest and nuzzled his hooked nose against your cheek, scarred lips making tiny movements as if kissing you making you giggle wetly, your former awful mood lifting, instead being replaced by a warm feeling of love and pleasure as the big male above you kept nuzzling and kissing you insistently, his hand working your sensitive breasts and slipping down to your pants to finger at your clit making you moan out.

Unbeknownst to you, König already had a plan in his mind. A plan he started to make the moment his sensitive ears caught your distressed sniffles making a concerned whine come up from his chest and the moment he saw you, he could clearly see right through you. Someone hurt you. S̷̙̭̦̜͚̑͝͝o̷̹̺͓͙̭̍̚ͅͅm̸͕̹͖̩̰͝e̸̤͖̞̯̍̂̋̚͜o̷̝̫͎̬͎̟̲̦̞̍̆̿̀̀͛̐ņ̴̧͉̭̪̣̖͆̉̅̀e̵̜̜̪̯͛͑́͘ ̶͎̣̱͎̹̻͍̥̔́͝h̵̙̰͊̈́̑͛̌̚u̷͉̝̤̾̆͌̂̓̀̏̕r̸̛̞̘͉̦͙͈͎̫̩͒͊͗̓́͝t̶̯̝͎̮͕̩̹̀̍ ̷̧̨͔̮͉͇͊͂̏͌̆̅͠y̸̡̛͕͉̖͈͗̿̅ơ̷̢͖̼͉͚͔͊̍̊̂̈ͅŭ̷̦͔͚̈́̊̚. And now he needed to know who. Ah. It was Gavin huh. That overly confident, cocksure rookie who thought that the military was rainbow and fucking sunshine, shaded glasses, cool uniforms, huge expensive cars and women to fuck left and right.

He suspected that that prick made some unwanted advances towards you and the moment you rejected him it was 180 and he was nitpicking everything you did or even how you looked. König knew he was gonna be a problem from the moment he laid eyes on him and now he though it funny to make his mate cry?

You know what they say: beauty is in the eye of the beholder, Him being the mentioned beholder and König isn't known to be the most benevolent person...If someone doesn't appreciate your beauty of a goddess, why would they need their eyes?

[txtmetonight]

For Him ✆

call summary ⋆ ★ Chan is quite puzzling. But you're determined to break his walls.

pairing *. * Bang Chan x Fem! Reader

genre⋆ ★ Fluff, Harry Potter AU

warnings *. Crude language (just one word lol)

call duration⋆ ★ 1.4k

a/n*. * I'm back in my hp phases lol and while I'm doing that, I'm pushing my chan wolf agenda yay

You suppose you’ve always known about Chan’s mysterious life. And then again, you suppose you always loved him since you were eleven, just as you placed your eyes on him onto the Hogwarts Express. But he is a tricky person to figure out and someone who doesn’t want to be broken down into pieces and given to another to be investigated upon.

Yet he still lets you do so in the very manner as you sit next to him with a full glory on your lips.

You used to wonder why you were the only one that he would let get close, but now as you stare at him with big eyes that hold much adoration, you’ve come to realize how grateful you are.

Chan is puzzling but god he’s a sweetheart when it comes down to it, always a gentleman and always with gentle love beating in his heart for anyone and everyone. Though he reckons that his organ is a little more honeyed for you though, not that he would ever admit it.

For he lives in the shadows of his past and present, and through a fear that he believes in will conjure into reality. And so, he hides a part of himself from you. You despise it very much from the bottom of your heart. You really do. You want to be his but he’s holding himself back and it leaves a bitter taste on your tongue.

The first time you chipped away a little deeper than he wanted to show, was when you were fed up with the white lies that slipped through his teeth.

When he excused his absences for something so abnormal you thought he was mental almost. Every once a month he left you alone with your thoughts over something so trivial or something extreme–just an explanation that made your head spin. So, you had the bright idea to follow him.

Everyone knows of the curfew set in place every night, yet he seemed to have a justification for doing so…why?

Your footsteps were quiet when against the floor and you held your breath, hiding amongst the dark and following the footsteps in the moonlight that shone brightly. It was a full moon.

You’ve known the castle like it was the back of your hand, 3 years since coming and the footsteps you’ve marked were etched in the back of your mind. And you very quickly realized where Chan was going–to the whomping willow. Your lips shivered to cry out to him, to ask him what he was doing but you clap your hands over your mouth when he starts to violently shake against the wind. He collapses. And the clouds reveal the luminous light in the sky.

Before your eyes, his hair shrinks back into his skull, and his body changes. You both see the same things, yet he feels it with pure disgust and embarrassment when his bones grow and rip underneath his skin.

But your perception is different because when he looks into the reflection of the deepest lake and sees a monster staring back at him, you see Chan. Not just a werewolf, but Chan, your lover. And you know that for sure when your nerves tingle with endearment as you stare at him in awe. He’s quite magnificent, you can note when he turns back to escape into the woods.

The second time you cracked it even more was 2 years later when O.W.L’s took over your brain, alongside Chan. Every single night, since that fateful day, you’ve found yourself stalking over the gardens to watch him on the full moon.

But you don’t dare to tell him that; you want him to feel like he has the right to tell you when he has gotten over his fear. Then so, you’ve trained yourself to go blind-eyed every moment except for that night. You suppose you could be selfish.

Chan is lonely. He carries a deep burden in his heart, and it aches to be released, not on its own but in the hands of another where they can sing a lullaby to soothe the pain. And you knew that it was going to be in front of you, but it left a sense of a hole in your heart when you saw him cry. You still sing to him, though.

“Hey Channie, what’s wrong?” You ask, wiping away the peals that streak down his cheeks. His face is flushed red, and he sniffles miserably. He doesn’t say anything, so you move in a little closer to place your hand over his heart, lips just ghosting over fingers at where it lies.

“I feel like, there’s something wrong with me.”

You look up to look at him, but he’s already staring at you with deep fondness in your eyes, you think that you’re going to tear up too. But you don’t. You question instead. “And why is that pretty boy?”

“Oh, I wish you would stop calling me that” He weakly chuckles. “But…I dunno why. I just–just know that there is something wrong with me. Like definite, for sure. And I hate it. It hurts, I suppose. I think it’s puncturing my brain.”

Chan sobs the last word before you grab his jaw and pull him, so your forehead gently tapped against his. Both pairs of eyes close and you realize how much your love runs deep for him. Again, where he feels nothing is where you’re encased in everything for him. For him.

The 3rd time is now, just after a year. You think. You hope his stone wall will shatter soon to let you in.

When the night is young, and the moon rises, you watch with curious intent as Chan drinks out of a gauntlet and shivers with grimace before the potion's professor with great urgency pushes him towards the hills that envelop around the school.

You follow him and it brings you great Deja vu that wraps around your stomach. Yet this time, rather than just breaking the mere school rules, you’re breaking the law by becoming an unregistered Animagus. Perhaps you’re a dunderhead, but you can’t find it in yourself to care. You want to keep him company.

When the willow ceases its chaos, you slip past the hole near the trunk. Howls and whimpers echo but you don’t pay any attention. The shrieking shack is known for its ghostly activities but not for the true trauma that happens within the wooden boards. How Chan is in great pain because he is in love with someone whom he can’t have. Just because of himself and who he truly is; a bloodthirsty creature.

Yet he’s truly Chan when you strut your way into the broken-down living room, It’s truly Chan when he doesn’t attack you, and he growls against the moonlight. And it truly Chan when nudges you with his nose for a sense of doting that he craves.

You give it to him and lie on the floor, where he joins you. Your ear is near his pulse, and you feel it thrum alive against you, beating harder and harder. The thick wall is about to crumble, you reckon.

When it comes time for dawn to rise, Chan is Chan again, so you painfully twist back into who you are. Where the hardwood floor lies, instead is your boy, who scoops you on top of him. His eyes are glistening with tears and his lips quiver. Your fingers begin to tangle themselves into curls, placing a soft kiss on his forehead. Neither of you have tried to get up yet.

“How long have you known?”

“Since 3rd year. You’re very handsome has anyone told you that?”

He turns pink but shakes his head no. You kiss him once more.

“Turning into an animagus…why would you do that for me. Go through all the trouble. You don’t have to.” He speaks. He starts to cry now.

As for his question, you decide that you don’t have anything else to offer but the truth. “I love you, Channie.”

He scoffs, “Am I not a monster? I could tear you…you apart if I got too out of control. I’m sick in the head and outside of it, do you not understand? You deserve better.”

You tug at his hair which results in a wince, but you move up closer to his lips, just where they hover above them. His breathing stills and he thinks that you’re a complete stunner in his eyes. You think the same if not more.

“And who is to say that except for myself. You’re not a monster, you’re just Chan who can’t eat spicy food. And I’m (Y/n) who’s been in love with you since the very fucking beginning.”

And then you kiss him hard, expressing unsaid emotions into that kiss, starting to tear up when he reciprocates, his fingers gripping your waist making you feel dizzy. When you two pull apart, Chan chuckles as he wipes away a stray tear.

“You’re so beautiful it hurts me. I love you too.”

You’ve completely broken in.

[randomalistic]

first off. i can't believe that i already followed you- your spam blog -and didn't know.

second. i literally just had a dream shere i was rambling to someone about turbo using stuff from your essay. apparently it rewired my brain so hard it, and you, manifested in my dreams lol (i even made a bad joke that "you can say he's Turbo-tastic!" hah)

and congratulations on making such great work of art that is the essay, you can feel and hear the love(and hyperfixation) poured into it.

i do wonder tho, what was the hardest part when making it?

I’m so glad you enjoyed it yay :)❤️ and also recognized me from my sneo blog LOL

I feel that so horrendously much. I legit had a dream a few nights ago about someone APPROACHING ME cuz they recognized my voice from the essay (girl get an ego check) but they then said “dude it’s so obvious you’re into him” or something. And I was like. 🧍‍♀️Well you don’t have to say it out loud

Anyways you’re not the only one cuz the video haunts me too. even after its birth.

The hardest part?? Oh Man. Can I say Everything.

There were a few stretches that were REALLY TOUGH. short answer: Entire first half of the video. Also the longer parts like the Manipulation section, Turbo reveal section, and the Cybug King Candy section. I had a lot to say for these and it was tricky to condense it into something Comprehensible

Long answer:

I completely overhauled the entire first half of the video (EVERYTHING before the kart breaking scene) because I wasn’t satisfied with the writing/delivery etc. (Which was a good choice because my arguments were pretty half baked before) but oh my god that was like a week and a half of 7 hour recording and rewriting sessions it was brutal. Especially annoying because those arguments were super old and I was getting sick of thinking about them. So instead I used them as a backbone to structure better arguments and revamp the script so that kept me from going insane. However it was also really fun because I got to see my old ass arguments finally be explained to their fullest capacity. And also I got to write shit like ☝️🤓Excuse me sir your turbo is showing..

The biggest issue with this being my first ever video essay and it taking so goddamn long: you could SEE my writing/editing/voicing skills improve over the span of the video itself. Which is really cool improvement wise but REALLY . REALLY BAD CONSISTENCY WISE. Like the first half of the video is the part people are gonna see first. It SETS EXPECTATIONS. IT HAS TO BE PEAK

I think I re-edited the synopsis upwards of 5-6 times. Which makes sense as that was like the first thing I started the project with but ouhvhhhgghghr. Making a section from scratch is WAY easier than going back and having to redo something

Early on I cut out an entire fully edited/scripted/recorded 3 minute section of me talking about Megamind and its sequel because I realized. This is pointless and everyone has TALKED ABOUT MEGAMIND BEFORE AND THIS HAS NOTHIBG TO DO WITH WRECK IT RALPH. There were a lot of scrapped ideas

Audio was also really challenging, just entirely. Making sure the levels were consistent (I had absolutely zero voice volume normalization I did it all manually 😭 I’m gonna have to figure out how to do that) Also just the concept of recording my voice and having to speak out loud in a space was Real Bad for my anxiety but You Do it Scared. Had to wait until I was home alone or like 99% sure I was alone before I could say anything without worrying. Also training my voice to sound engaging and consistent was so hard and it took maybe 6 months for me to get it down. Also I had no fucking idea where to record, like at first I was recording in a CLOSET (and later under a piano??) and then I was wondering why my lines sounded so weird. Then I realized I could just Record in a room and it would sound JUST FINE. So basically uhhh every single part was the hardest part. But it was worth it and very fun I think 🫶

[writingforatwistedworld]

Ah, I hope this isn't annoying, but I couldn't resist! I just read the request for the self-aware au, for a player who is actually a god and I really LOVED the idea!!! So if it's not too much trouble, could I ask for the exact same idea only with Ruggie, Riddle and Ace?

By the way, I love your blog and your work, I love your creativity!! ❤️❤️❤️

Self-aware au

I do not take any responsebility for you reading this no matter which age group you are from!

WARNINGS: Yandere themes, religion, obsessiveness, murder, blood, beheading, violence, death

My works are not meant to be taken seriously. Neither am I telling you in what kind of religion you are supposed to believe in.

Riddle Rosehearts/Ace Trappola/Ruggie Bucchi-Player is a real god

God of law and order

Oho, so we are actively trying to make him loose his mind (mhm good plan good plan)

I mean, come on, the Queendom of roses is a place I would rank “third-most-not-so-fluffy-relationship-with-you” and he grew up in there so what did you expect?

Something normal? Ha! You are making me laugh

But here we are, croquette master with a hedgehog in his hand in person, almost dropping his needely friend

But how did he even find out? Well… Leona. Leona and a lot of ink (you catching my drift, right?)

Things were looking south and everything was just so…. so… unruly

Mhm I can see how a God of law and order popped a blood vessel in that kind of situation

And whilst you aren’t some kind of being creating bloodshed and war getting hit by a rule book and whatever kind of abilities you have has to hurt

Also it was giving away who you truly were

I mean, yay? Now you have an (somehow possible) even more obsessive follower…

And they all wonder why he suddenly became so religious

Even if you are a more “chill” kind of entity concerning your field of work (the market of Gods is always having too little workers) he is still like “Nope Trey. Imma go pray to ruler number 168” or something like that

Like I said, religious

But oh dear heavens (u get it heavens in like… ok I’ll stop) someone disrespects you or tries to take his seat as “most devoted follower of the month”

Uh… he was in the mood for a “realistic” demonstration of how the Queen of Hearts would deal with annoyances

Just tell him that you are proud… otherwise I’m not sure that even the hedgehogs would tolerate him and his… rather red behaviour

God of trickery

Hmm… this one is kinda tricky

You see, he is from the Queendom of Roses but at the same time he is not powerful enough to do that much damage… with magic at least

When Ace found out that you were everything but a ordinary student you two were in a rather unhappy situation

I mean, either you make that huge glass thingy behind Riddle trip and fall or you can eat rose bush which it was swinging around like crazy… pick your poison

Ace isn’t the fatest tool in the shed but when you, a magicless student, suddenly used something akin to magic he knew that something was up

And who would have known, maybe if it wasn’t for the bad parenting of Riddles mother you may have hidden this until the day you would go separate ways

But oh well, seems like fate decided it wanted him to be religious

I mean, a God of trickery, something like that is perfect for him!

Not to mention that you are way more approachable than some God of law and order because who would want to follow such a stiff deity? (Jokes on you Ace but Riddle...)

Despite him being on the “chill, man” side I can also see a huge spike in religiousness in his personality

I mean, come on, it’s now literally proven with his own two eyes that God (or Gods) at least exist

You know that meme “he don’t but-YES IT DOES!” that’s him

My man just turns feral when someone dares to take your prescious attention and time away from him

Literally a menace, and not the peaceful kind

Before you know it he is asking you if you can help him dig holes for a “garden project”

In the middle of the woods. Aha. Totally believable

Well, all I can say is that Trey will probably miss the kitchen knife... yeah I would buy a new one and never use the old one again...

You know... Maybe the cake looks a bit red if he were blind and never noticed anything.... It's a “garden project”, ok? Let the man raise his Gladiolus, Aconitum, Lycoris and Chrysanthemum

God of kindness and equality

So we feeding the carnivores today? Sounds like a plan. Not a good one but at least it is one

Ruggie has always been someone who needed to clench his teeth and do stuff other people wouldn't do simply to have his basic needs fulfilled

So imagine you standing there one day, opening up that you are in truth literally the things he had been craving all his life for

Mhm, I am just had he doesn't have rabies. You could have fooled me with how aggressive he becomes towards new people (and also your own little circle to be honest) after finding that out

Here we are, Leona is dealing with his stuff in an unhealthy way and someone needs to step up and bring him down to earth again

But imagine his surprise that you were actually the good of kindness after you slapped our local lion who may or may have not escaped from the Zoo next door back into reality (and out of his doom)

After he spends even more time with you it starts to make sense thought

Even though he is the closest person to Leona which could be used for someone's benefit people still tend to be at least wary of him because... well broken bones hurt, you know?

But here you are, holding out your hand to him, offering him your kindness and friendship

Though you could have said “marry me” because win his eyes that is exactly what you did

And who is he to say no to such an perfect being literally being from heaven (or whatever higher place)

He is scratching, biting, kicking and using all the dirty tricks in the book just to keep you alone, isolated and all for himself

Of course he won't do that in front of you, he isn't a monster! Such a pure and perfect being lime you doesn't need to witness such a thing!

If you thought that Diasomnia is already bad then I would say yes, he is only a teeny tiny bit better than them

Why? Oh well, he doesn't have the magical or physical strength to start a war

That doesn't mean he won't leave you alone

Oh no

You will spend somewhere the rest of the time he exists in a small in the middle of nowhere thinking that everyone despises you

He has a way with words (and sharp, suspiciously red teeth) you know?

[cicerenella]

now i’m so curious, what are your thoughts on spaus, historically and in the modern day? what do you imagine romano thinks of them?

I'm jumping to answer this ask because I'm continuing the Austria train! And also because I have a lot of thoughts about this pairing that is (sadly) very overlooked in my opinion. Slight Spamano following.

OK SO I love SpAus. Great angst machine, I love their historical accuracy and a way to portray my view on Empires in Hetalia, since most of the time power gets into their head. Oh well, a marriage between two of the most powerful empires in europe, what's the worst that could happen?? a divorce that brought war to half of europe.

Spain and Austria's marriage was probably one of the longest and most powerful europe has seen, but that doesn't mean that it was good LMAO. I have an idea that for the first century or so of their union everything was...ok? Sure, it could be better, and it had it's ups and downs (I'm looking at Spain) but that doesn't mean that it was that bad. Except for like, the revolt of the Comuneros, that was a bad one.

I think their marriage started to go really south after the Netherlands' independence and the decline of the Spanish Empire, because after that things only started to spiral downwards. And I do not have a good and kind portrayal of "Empire Spain". He was awful both historically wise and also in his personal relationships and it SHOWED.

So, the war of Spanish Succession. A shitshow, Europe's messiest divorce, it did not end good, and Spain lost massive chunks of territories. The treaty of Utrecht/Peace of Rastatt was probably their divorce papers AHAHHA. In thirteen years more than eighty wars where fought.

And about Romano...I know many people make the love triangle between Roma/Spain/Austria and honestly? I like it. ALTHOUGH I have a very specific characterization that I am going to analyse through just now!

So, Naples was considered an "anomaly" in the Spanish Empire. It was the biggest and most populated city, and often times even overshadowed cities in Spain. Historically speaking, Antonio would admire the HELL out of Romano, even if he was one of his subordinates. I don't think he "loved" him yet, more than he considered him his favorite out of all his colonies.

Although I think the more his marriage with Austria deteriorated, the more his kindness to Romano turned into straight up obsession. The civil war twisting Spain's head in a lot of ways too.

That is to say, that while Spain was having his twisted villain arc, Romano would both hate and care about his superior. In a friendly way, of course, because it would be scandalous having an affair with his "master" that was married to another (plus not to mention Romano's internalised homophobia). So while my man was fighting to get independence, Spain was trying both to save his crumbling marriage and keeping his favorite colony with him (spoiler: he failed in both).

SO UHM YEAH. Romano probably wouldn't want to get into the SpAus business, and Spain obsession for Roma definitely irked Austria a bit. Can you imagine after all that crap that was the Spanish War of Succession going on a rampage in trying to reconquer South Italy?? From your ex husband?? Absolute madlad. I love SpAus. Spamano is my number one ship but this one is a guilty pleasure of mine.

[OH SHOOT, forgot about modern day SpAus. Uhhh, since I ship spamano it is a bit tricky. But most of the time I make them stay on friendly terms!! ex husbands that often nitpick at eachother yay. The venom of their divorce is long gone, and they're both old men that like to crack jokes and reminisce about their past adventures.]

[espers-n-espurrs]

‼️PKMN Doodle Event‼️

okay, so, i reached a ✨follower milestone✨ and will be doing a pkmn request doodle event today in celebration. yay!

im going to try not to strain myself while doing this so pls be aware that some responses may be slow or that i may take breaks after a while. i may also switch up how the doodles are done as i go along to find a way to do them quicker or easier.

Rules:

You are to send an ask/anon saying a pokemon species. I will not be drawing your pokemon as that can get a bit tricky and I dont want to get peoples pokemon wrong.

I will not be accepting requests to draw legendaries, mythicals, or ultra beasts. You cannot make me do that.

You can suggest more than one pokemon though I would rather they be separate asks.

I have done a doodle event prior to this and would prefer getting to doodle different pokemon this time BUT I understand not everyone knows what I doodled beforehand so I am in fact fine with repeats though if you know I doodled that pokemon before please try to suggest smth else or maybe a different member of that evolution line.

the tag i will be using for this event is #espers doodle event

i will start doodling around an hour or two after this post is made depending on how i feel

// this is an in-character art event which is why i must limit what pkmn can be drawn as esper has a phobia, sorry </3

[writergirl2011]

9 and 26 for the writer ask!

Asks! Yay! From this post:

#9: Thoughts on cliffhangers.

In other words, am I eeeeevil? Or just a little evil?

I go with "just a little evil." I'll use a cliffhanger on occasion if I want to draw out a little bit of suspense--like in the Regency story, when I ended a chapter with Jaime at Brienne's bedroom door (although I was probably a little more evil there since the following chapter went back in time instead of picking up right after that). But I don't think a story should go overboard with cliffhangers--I try not to use more than one unless the story is very long.

#26: What would you describe as OOC?

Oooooh....this one's tricky, because everyone has their own idea of what constitutes OOC. Some people have a problem with a Jaime who's bisexual. Some think a sexually confident Brienne is wrong. (I've written both, and in the same fic, so obviously I have no issue with them, lol.)

I don't know how well I write Jaime and Brienne from an authenticity standpoint. Sometimes, I think I do well, especially with Brienne. She's complex and stubborn and judgmental and yet underneath it, soft and yearning for someone to love her. And when she loves someone, she can't hide it to save her life. That's not always the easiest to write, but it's fun. Jaime's trickier because he's something of a dick while having that vulnerability that he doesn't want the world to see, which he hides by being more of a dick. If I write him the wrong way, he's either too much of an asshole and unlikeable--or he's too soft and woobified. If I say "fuck it, I'm writing him however I want," then I try my best to give him some characteristics that at least make him recognizable as Jaime Lannister--someone who, when he falls in love, does so with everything he has in him and will go to extremes. (Not "throw a kid out of a tower window" extremes, but I've had him do some pretty wild things to prove how much he loves Brienne. Like dancing in a Valyrian maid costume while lip syncing to "Umbrella.")

I guess my answer to the question is that a character is OOC to me when they're not recognizable at all.

Thank you!!!

And anyone else who wants to ask me something, please do so!! 🥰

[agentrouka-blog]

Yunkai, Astapor, and Mereen were already in chaos because they were slave cities. I agree she was naive in thinking things would resolve themselves after merely overthrowing slavery, as reconstruction is notoriously fickle and tricky business. But it’s hardly just vanity, considering she herself had been a slave. And abolition IS a step forward, even if it’s not the final step like she thought

She was not a slave.

Her brother offered her to Khal Drogo as a wife. Or "gifted" her in exchange for an expected return, which is undeniably unjust and cruel abuse based entirely on the patriarchical power that men have over women in Westeros and Essos. It was a marriage contract in its starkest, least romanticized, objectifying, exploitative form.

But she was not an actual slave, with no rights, no status, no power. No more than any girl in Westeros who is married off for a political alliance. It is not the same as slavery, even if Dany likens her fate to being sold when talking about it with Xaro.

She owned her own slaves, her "handmaidens" Irri, Jhiqui and Doreah, gifted to her as wedding presents. Drogo enslaved a whole town and the suvivors of two khalasars, and she barely batted an eye, and only the rape of Eroeh inspired her to shift the ownership of the female slaves to herself, including Mirri whom she later murdered with fire.

Dany was a slaver herself. Not a slave.

And you are missing my point. Dany was not "abolishing" anything. She decided to have all the Astapori slavers (and tokar-wearing freeborn aged 12 and upward) killed, essentially on a whim, because it was cheaper than buying the Unsullied and felt like an easy win against some evil men. Afterwards, the Unsullied followed her in the exact same way they would have if she had simply bought them, no thought of making their own plans for their own lives with their sudden freedom. What a bargain! Oh, and those pesky civillians chose to follow her too, can't be helped.

She didn't go in with the intention to end slavery, it was a series of spontaneous decisions that each 100% benefitted her short-term conquest plans and felt satisfying because it meant violence or humiliation towards a cruel class of elite slavers who had treated her much more rudely than the elite class of slavers at Qarth that she had apparently no problem with at all.

She was taking a cut from slave sales in Meereen before she even decided to stay there to see through her "abolition" project. She forced random free people into unpaid labor. It was complete vanity, briefly joined by the awkward feeling of guilt and horror at her own violent impact. She hated that it wasn't a quick fix to make herself feel powerful and just, because it was vanity.

Also, chaos is not what was going on in Slaver's Bay before she arrived. Horrific exploitation, yes. Unbelievable cruelty, yes. Injustice that utterly needed ending, yes. Chaos, with mass starvation, rampant disease, civil war in the streets, war between states, and no functional authority to establish the rule of law? No. That's the thing that happened because Dany was being "naive" with the fate of thousands of people. "Naive" meaning "mass murder is the solution, yay, so simple!"

[may-nr1rooftoptriodefender]

What comes next

pairing: Levi Ackermann x f.reader/kinda oc

(it’s supposed to be reader but there are a few things important for the story… Nothing is mentioned in this chapter but for it to make sense in later chapters Im gonna say it. She has no first name bcs I suck at names but she has a last name. Her family and her background is already set. Hair color is black)

summary: When Yelena and her people arrive at Paradis, Levi finds himself in a tricky situation.

warnings: might contain Spoiler for Season 4!, set during 4 year time skip, ooc Levi?, kinda explicit (mentions of sex and vague descriptions) <- it’s not filthy hardcore but it’s there,…

(if i forgot anything I’m sorry, it’s 4am rn)

notes: Hi! I’m back y’all. First published Levi story, yay. Soo before we start, there are going to be more parts. This is just a little intro and the moments described happened in the past, next parts ain’t going to be flashbacks. English isn’t my first language so if you find any mistakes pls let me know🙏 tips are always appreciated.

Lastly, this is kinda smutty so I’ll put a MDNI here. You have been warned, if you still proceed to read, it’s on your own risk. I cannot stop you from reading anything but at least be aware of what you’re reading! (this is like the first smutty thing I published so bear with me..)

masterlist

part I

Seeing the outside world- the ocean, finding out about the enemy- Marley, the truth about the titans,.. it was hard to process. they needed new plans- new strategies to defeat Marley. Eren was their ultimate weapon. With him on their side they had to win. But how?

When Marley send out one of their ships to Paradis, it was like a gift. The second ship marked the arrival of their new accomplices. Yelena and her people were more than helpful. But Yelena wasn’t the only one. Onyankopon, Niccolo, and her.

Normally, he wouldn’t care. A soldier from Marley is nothing special. But she was so different at the same time. It was strange that all of them wanted to help Paradis. They betrayed their own country for them.

In order to come forward with their research, they accepted Yelena’s help. They started to build outside the walls. The titans were all gone, no need to worry now. Some were forced to help, some wanted to.

Niccolo wasn’t very impressed at first. He was complaining nonstop while cooking the seafood for the scouts. After Sasha took the first bite, he shut up quickly. He was quite flustered actually. She and Yelena were there too. She found it hilarious.

Laughing loudly with a quiet ‘I told you’ at the end.

Just like Yelena and Onyankopon, she never seemed to hate the Eldians of Paradis Island. He hated it. Thinking about her. She wouldn’t leave his thoughts. He tried, he really did- she was the enemy after all. But he couldn’t. He tried to see something he wouldn’t like. And maybe he didn’t like talkative people. Or people who invade personal space. But at the same time, she was a bit shy. She would give space if he needed it.

She was the only one who dared to come closer than the rest. Even if he was supposed to be enemy. This conflict was going on for years now.

Even if he didn’t really show it, he didn’t mind her tired eyes looking into his. Or how she sometimes followed him like a lost puppy. How she always greeted him when he entered the room. The way she says his name…

‘Good morning Levi.’

‘How are you Captain Levi?’

‘Do you need anything Levi?’

‘Levi.’

But is he really that special? It’s not like he’s the only one she’s friendly with. She greets everyone. She talks to everyone the same. She always smiles when someone said something funny.

But not everyone gets a knock on their door at every possible hour of the day.

‘Could we have some tea together Levi? I think I have a few more ideas regarding…’

‘Hanges the commander, You should go to her.’ , is what he should say. But he lets her in. Every time. Conversations are nice, if it’s with the right person. He isn’t talkative, so she does the most of talking. He normally would prefer it quiet, yet he doesn’t mind the conversation. She’s always calm, it’s never about difficult topics, she stays polite,…

He wants to hate it. They notice. Everyone sees that she spends more time with Levi. But that he actually likes his time with her goes unnoticed. And it’s not like she tries anything with him. Hange said to him once that she probably tries to befriend everyone. Showing that she isn’t the enemy.

‘And you know, it’s so hard to read you, she wants to make sure that you two are on the same side!’

Hange didn’t help his problem.

He genuinely thinks that those are her true intentions. There’s this other side though. What if she’s a spy for Marley. What if she’s trying to get more information. What if she wants us to trust her so she can betray us.

But she wouldn’t do that, would she?

No.

He still has to be careful. Actually, he fucked that up too. It’s too late for being careful.

He couldn’t resist when she looked at him with those eyes. These damn eyes. And her smile. How could someone look at him this way? No one ever did. He can’t believe it. But he wants to. He wants to be selfish for once.

One evening, she would come to his door again. With two teacups in her hand.

‘Would you mind if we talk?’

He could never say no to her. So she comes in. She sets the two teacups down and starts to prepare everything. Levi just sat down. He wanted to help her, but every time he tried she refused. He doesn’t like how other people do his tea. This was his room and she, a prisoner from Marley, tells him what to do?

He accepts it. When everything is ready, she sits down with him and they drink their tea. She starts talking, he replies sometimes. It’s nice.

Somehow, their usual routine changed. She did nothing wrong. One small slip up and it was over. He was listening, until she stopped talking. Looking him directly into the eyes. The smile from before slowly fading. Did he do something wrong? Well fuck.

And then the unexpected came. She complimented his eyes. He expected everything, but not that.

‘What.’

‘Your eyes. They’re beautiful. With the grey and the little blue sparks… You don’t see that often.’ Her smile was returning.

‘Why would you say that.’

‘Huh? Because it’s the truth?’

Not a lot people made him compliments. He has gotten love letters before, or weird request. But not compliments. They either found him to scary to say that to his face, or they simply didn’t find anything to compliment. Well maybe expect on the battlefield. On how he did a good job or something like that. But not about his appearance.

They loved to comment on his height rather than his other features.

And that was his moment of weakness. He didn’t know what to say. And he didn’t. He grabbed the base of her neck and brought her forward to his face. He kissed her. He didn’t know why he did it. He didn’t know why she kissed him back, bringing her hand up to his cheek. This was his sign to stop. He pulled back and stared at her. His eyes were wide because what the fuck just happened. Why did he do it. Shit she’s going to slap him now.

She looked at him. Not one word came out. Levi did the only rational thing.

‘Don’t take that personal.’

‘I won’t.’

‘Okay.’

…

‘Will you take it personal if I do it again?’

He should’ve said no, but he couldn’t. He couldn’t say anything, so he shook his head. A tiny smile formed onto her face and she pressed their faces against each other. He didn’t mind, even if he should.

She also didn’t take it personal when they left the kitchen. Or when she sat on the bed, when he followed soon. Or when he undressed her. She didn’t mind him seeing.

He didn’t take it personal when she whispered his name. It was so different compared to the other times. Only for him to hear. It felt good.

He didn’t take it personal how she let him do things he could only dream of.

How it could even get to this point. They shouldn’t have. The only thing he could focus on was the way she looked when he touched her. This beautiful face still looking at him this certain way.

No one could know. This intimate moment together. How she moaned his name. How he held her even closer every second. How good they looked together. How good they felt.

It was so against the rules. They were from two different worlds. Their countries were at war, yet they decide to forget all that for what? The world was cruel. He wanted more of that.

No one really knew what to say afterwards. Both in his bed. He felt filthy. Not because of what they had done, but because of what he had to do now.

‘You should clean up and then go to your room again. It’s getting pretty late.’

He couldn’t even look at her. But he saw the nod in the corner of his eye. She stood up and fuck- he might do it again. It wasn’t only the sex, her in his room, his bed, he wanted that. She looked so beautiful like this.

She started collecting her clothes and just as she was about to put them back on-

‘Clean up here. You can’t go back like this.’

Only a nod again. She looked guilty. A bit sad even. Before she could really disappear in his bathroom she turned around.

‘Levi-‘

‘That wasn’t personal either. No one can find out about this. We would get into trouble, you hear me?’

It was harsh, but he had to set boundaries. This went too far already no need to make it worse.

He could only dream of what was about to come.

———

I almost forgot- Happy Birthday Levi!!

requests are always open (I need ideas please🙏🙏)

Song recommendation - White Dress by Lana Del Rey

[ultfreakme]

ok ok your posts about the superfam and DC are making me interested in the franchises. what would you recommend me to do in case i want to get more into it??

OH MY GOD YAY!!!! I am feeling so nervous compiling a list. I am mostly into Superfam so my recommendations will be around that. Comics are a bit of a tricky medium to get into because stories have been written for them since like, the 1940s, but there are new characters who help ease into the DC universe. It helps to read runs(usually what you call one comic book serialization)based on characters rather than titles because your fave may show up in random other places.

I'll give my journey with comics and how I got to know these characters

For superfam, starting with Jon Kent & Jay Nakamura! They're the ones I'm always posting about

Superman: Lois & Clark by Dan Jurgens and Lee Weeks: backstory with Jon as a kid with Lois and Clark, if you want to know more about Lois & Clark and how Jon was raised, this one is good.

Superman (2016) by Tomasi and Gleason: Further backstory on Jon's life with Lois & Clark as a child, it's a mediocre story with a bunch of american right-wing propaganda but the Jon stories are important build up for what comes next

The Man of Steel (2018) by Bendis Issue 6: Yes, JUST issue 6.

Superman (2018) by Bendis Issue 7-10: Continuation from Man of Steel and covers what many refer to as "the jon kent age-up". This is gonna be a bit of a tedious read because the writer for this sucks at his job. But this is unfortunately essential to understanding how Jon gets to where he is.

Superman: Son of Kal-El by Tom Taylor: If you want to jump right into Jon's time as Superman and see his blooming relationship with Jay, this is the go-to. This was my first DC comic and acts really well as an introduction for new readers

Action Comics (2016): #1050 (a big thing happens wrt to Jay and Jon)

Adventures of Superman: Jon Kent by Tom Taylor: Direct sequel to SOKE

Steelworks (2023) by Michael Dorn: Has a bunch of Jay cameos

Titans Beast World Metropolis Tour (2023): An important Jon thing happens with Nia here.

Action Comics (2016): #1060 : it's a follow-up from Metropolis Tour and is in a back-up story(basically what they call a side story- you'll have to scroll down a lot to see the Jon parts of it) 10. 1. Suicide Squad: Dream Team: Neither Jay nor Jay appear here BUT it is CRUCIAL to understand the context of this story- the main character in this- Dreamer- is a friend of Jay & Jon and she does something that betrays them . You'll figure it out while you're reading the rest

Absolute Power: Ground Zero #1 (2024)- Jay-centric

If you want a more comprehensive list for Jon, @bobbinalong has made a reading list for him and it's in the blog's pinned post.

Next up is Clark Kent:

Just as an introduction I'd say:

Superman Smashes the Klan (2019) by Gene Luen Yang: It's not related to current continuity but it really endears everyone to Clark, explains what he is all about and establishes what Superman is.

Warworld Saga: It's really well-written and is part of current continuity

I've been posting often about a character called Dreamer, she is very important to the current stories with Jay and Jon, but she is also an amazing character on her own. Her introduction happens in Superman: Son of Kal El but she has her solo stories as well:

Bad Dream: A Dreamer Story (2024) by Nicole Maines: An origin story for Dreamer

If you want to catch up with the rest of Superfam and want a starting place:

Kong Kenan/Super-Man: The New Super-Man (2016) by Gene Luen Yang

Natasha Irons/Steel and Lana Lang: Superwoman (2016) by Phil Jimenez (Natasha shows up in Warworld a LOT), and Steelworks

Kara Danvers/Supergirl: Supergirl: Woman of Tomorrow(2021) by Tom King

Lois Lane: Lois Lane (2019) by Greg Rucka

Not all of these are essential, characters appear in runs that I haven't specifically attached to a character as well. But if you want to catch up on my faves, these are the ones I'd recommend. As you read, you'll get to know more of the characters and you can naturally find those who interest you as well.

If you are confused, you can always ask me again, and there's a bunch of my moots who are super eager to help anyone new get into the stories and I could ask them too, or you can get in touch with them!

Happy reading!

[just-bee-lieve]

just found out we're mutual-in-laws which kinda gives me the courage to talk to you. hi!!! hii!!! hello!!! hi!!! tell me about the stinker (william)

RUNS AWAY CRYING AND SCREAMING IDK HOW I HAVENT FOLLOWED YOU?????

ANYWAYS HI HI HI never be afraid to talk to me, i love to yap im literally a professional yapper. if that terms means what i think. ANYWAYS. WILLIAM.

so i don’t have many concrete thoughts on will, like everything else- i kinda just play dolls with canon, no hard and fast ideas!

my main will traits- so sooo charismatic. constant performer, always bending over himself so people see only what he wants! he’s tricky, he’s fast, everything is a game to be WON, not just played. he’s the same with his family, i think. only people who’ve truly seen that mask fall is henry, when they were first getting started way back when, and mike, mid mci. from the animatics you can probably get a sense of how he approaches mike and that whole thing- idk idk YEAH YIPPEE

main deisgn notes- hair is straighter than mikes, eyebrow tail thingies, moles, chipped teeth, very very sharp jaw and cheekbones post-bite. for david miller i jsut give him glasses and a mustache, for pre-bite i give him sideburns and a more ruffled appearance, he’s much more easy going then. still very much always watching and playing the game, but in a like. different way. idk i have different ways of trying to soften or sharpen depending on the emotions/place in the timeline/whatever else. YAH YAY YIPPEE OKAY RUNS AWAY FOREVER

[inchidentally]

tricky asks time! a lot have built up so I'm definitely going to have to do a multiparter - remember to bl 'wank adjacent' to not see these posts <3

I'm putting these two together bc the first one is to do with a super creepy anon who has a very loud and fully parasocial "our relationship" attitude toward Lily and Oscar and ironically thought that me saying that I engage in rpf for fun on a website that requires multiple hoops to get through to even scroll one page of someone's blog. and the second is the side of fandom who have developed a certain idea of "perfect relationships" based solely on the woman remaining largely unknown and the man a major public figure.

okay, so. full disclosure: I don't have a great view of heterosexual relationships when it comes to what they do to women and what they take from women. I'm not automatically down on any of them and as always I'm like, other people's choices are fully their own and my opinions are irrelevant as far as they're concerned!

it's pretty obvious from me repeating over and over but first and foremost !! I am aggressively against internalized misogyny in fandom spaces, and esp toward the women who date or marry male public figures. it's absolutely rampant on a larrying level in carlando and pretty damn bad in dando and I've been adamant that landoscar won't fall prey to those people (carlando and dando fandoms still have plenty of great people, just to say <3).

but make no mistake, me sticking up for these women is because they do not deserve abuse as a basic decency. they're not dolls I pick up and put down based on if they happen to be with a guy I post about. they deserve respect regardless of who is observing them and why. *if they're genuinely problematic then that's a separate topic but holy shit only bring that morality if you're prepared to apply it to the men you're a fan of at the same time !!

the fact that we only know these women based on the man they're dating or married to is already problematic and I get pretty grossed out when fans go hard for a gf or wife and then easily transfer that energy immediately when there's a breakup and a new gf or wife. it's equally gross when they continue to follow the ex and say how much they "miss her" or constantly bring up her ex in spaces she can see.

so when I speak up about or for Lily and any other wife or girlfriend of a driver, I'm doing so with full respect for how uncomfortable it is that I only know of her existence bc of a man. and that I also have a responsibility in a fandom space - even one as fairly invisible as tumblr - to kick back at fans who attack them purely to create space for their rpf ship fantasy or their own unhealthy obsession.

it's also why you'll see me being a broken record about keeping the line between rpf for fun and the reality of these men's relationships.

I don't think I'll ever believe that a woman is anything but relatively happy in a partnership with the type of man who has to give their entire selves to their career. especially F1 that demands 10 months of almost nonstop travel and commitments. and sorry, the whole 'yay she has her own career/life!' as some kind of consolation prize for her sacrifices doesn't work bc in order for the relationship to exist beyond phone calls and texts has always required the wife or girlfriend to fly wherever he is to spend time together. very occasionally, I see someone like George or Alex make the effort during the season to fly out to their girlfriend. Oscar went on a minibreak with Lily during the break last season. like, that's bare minimum lol and nothing compared to these women flying across the globe and being stuck waiting around while their bf or husband only has the rare hour or so between commitments on a race weekend.

so any "praise" of a wife or girlfriend for how they accommodate a man's career and "stay out of the spotlight" or "stay private" is a massive red flag for me. an largely invisible woman dating a man with a public profile will never feel like an organic decision on her part to me. it's a reaction to a situation that shouldn't exist.

"his fans and fangirls are awful though" yea and that's not fucking right and it's not a reason to let them win. decent fans can work harder to suppress the shitty ones and mass report accounts. and I know that for Lily Z, she's gotten temporary respite by being nothing more than a woman walking beside Oscar and not "giving haters any ammunition". but for example, even though Lily M and Carmen still get occasional shit from idiots who just want to hate, they go relatively unscathed because the decision was made early on to be in on the rpf ship jokes and George and Alex consistently make as many posts about them in a sort of joint, impenetrable "this is our relationship and you will not drive these women into hiding". Lily's hugely intelligent and has professional STEM aspirations of her own.

it's wayyyyy too convenient to say she's as private as she is because privacy fulfills her and brings her happiness. it's just the flipside of haters giving her a conditional reprieve bc they don't have to be annoyed by her having a visible personality.

and guess what? we've never once heard from Lily herself that she would be private even without dating a man in the public eye. we've heard what her boyfriend has said. we've heard from Kym Ilm*n. and women in fandom have taken that and decided it's permission to praise her for not wanting to face unfair abuse. like ??? I am not ok with that lol.

"maybe she just doesn't want to be super visible or have a public identity!" nah. if she's under 50 then having a public identity is fully the norm so it's too much of a convenient reach to make that assumption. and if she has a career of her own then she absolutely needs to have a public identity. even when you start out in entry positions, showing the work you do and the people you work with is totally normal for advancement. (I'm in shitty jobs so that doesn't apply to me lol but no F1 wife or gf will be working my jobs. almost all the women I know are in aspirational careers tho.)

women deserve to at least have a go at being a dynamic, public person who pursues life to the degree she chooses irrespective of her bf - and if afterward she finds she wants to be super private and raise a man's babies out of sight AND SHE SAYS SO HERSELF then that's absolutely wonderful.

but absolutely no one can convince me that women aren't conditioned and pressured in a world like F1 to either shut up and stay out of the way, or that they're "asking for it" if they do live publicly and have crazies stalking them and sending them abuse.

*side note that I've heard some ummm potentially not great things about Seb with regard to women that are not worth repeating here in case they've been blown out of proportion or just rumors. (I get the whole "he may have changed" but a lot of the videos of him flirting with women or objectifying them is... not great and hopefully he's seen the error in that) but even if it's all untrue (and obv I hope it is) I'm only happy for his wife if she has openly stated herself that she voluntarily chose to remain largely invisible and put up with him being absent so often and her having to be the one to alter her life to be with him during the F1 season. if she hasn't clearly said that herself (a direct quote "" and not just a reporter stating it) then there's no point in us assuming it about her. and the Seb's words are not a replacement for her own, sorry.

I'm not at all a person to comment on this myself but I fully respect your experience babe <3 I personally know and know of a few ppl who got together in HS and ended up getting engaged or married and they're already cheating or breaking up so I also can't contradict you aslfgsjalgf

and just to say: while I (for all the reasons above) will never be yay I'm so glad Lily is tied to a man whose job absorbs his entire life I will NEVER say that outside these replies. I will always push support for Lily - and any gf Lando might have at some point - bc they deserve and need it in fandom. and any of our takes on these relationships are pointless and irrelevant anyway.

I think I covered my own feeling about this above and tbh it depends on the intent. if they're going to drop the woman in question if/when a breakup happens then yea that is super creepy and weird to make fan pages etc.

I like following certain wives and gfs accounts mostly bc I live vicariously through the glamour of their lives but I'd feel weird interacting with their content or making fan content of it when I know damn well I only started following them bc of a man.

it's tricky to say and I think it depends so much on the individual fan's intent and how they create that content y'know?

but god yeah, unless a ship is a joke openly shared by the men in question like carlando and dando then I need these official accounts to just not do rpf. it's why I tend not to rb when that happens with landoscar bc I so want this ship to remain mostly under the radar and not attract rpf truthers.

[the-property-of-stupid]

TPoH Theory: RGB d/ed because of a train.

CONTENT / TRIGGER WARNING: Mentions of s/icide and mental issues in general, if you are sensitive to this type of stuff i recommend to not read.

This will be long af so get ready-

WELL, here's a theory i've had in the back of my head for a while, and it says that RGB died because of a train, why? Let me explain.

In chapter 4 (Diegesis page 73 to be exact) we can see RGB standing on train tracks when he's having the funky dreamy thing, then he gets distracted from whatever the hell was happening there and proceeds to say the phrase that almost gave him an oscar: ''This isn't how i died''

Second:

He mentions that he felt like he just got ran over by a steam locomotive, taking into consideration the first image it starts to make some sense, but it takes even more form later.

Page 249 on its entirety starts to give more obvious hints to RGB, a train literally passes behind him, but only when he turns around to see what happened the iron and the person (probably hate) appear, getting all of the attention instead.

(I'm going to come back to the iron later, keep that in mind)

Now i think we all know what happens in Chiaroscuro, with the black and white train appearing out of nowhere just to chase our heroes and scare the hell out of them, this one was kind of tricky, but i interpret this train as a way to show how the thought of knowing the answer is chasing RGB wherever he goes, wandering around a desert full of erased memories trying its best to keep itself alive as a hint for him to catch up to.

Also one more fact about this train, is that it seems to be the only place where RGB gets a memory of him while being human (not counting the butterfly thing), which is pretty odd considering that all the previous memories show him as a TV-headed monster, just wanted to point that out.

Now to stop making this way longer than it should, lets check page 506

He's trying to figure out how he died, but nothing convinces him, he's sure that none of the things that are being shown are the reason of why he's dead, but then the train appears, almost on a way that screams ''I'm right here'' And then, it cuts to the scenes with the doctor that i'm going to bring up.

Now we get to the fun part, which is my interpretation of how he exactly died, i'm going to try and make it short to not waste more of your time.

So, RGB was an actor, a well-known one actually, he had everything that he could want, but even with that he wasn't happy, he hated himself, and he did it so much that he wanted to smash the mirrors where he saw himself and his hands started to shake everytime he looked at them, this is here where he decides to go with the doctor, which gives him the gloves and tells him to avoid the mirrors, while also telling him that therapy is ass (because it's the 60's yay).

However, this was not enough, and due to his untreated mental issues he started having problems either with his boss, or with hate (if we follow the belief that they used to know eachother before entering the world of make believe) which caused such a conflict that escalated into a fight, where the iron comes in.

So what is the worst thing that you can do to an actor?

Ruin how they look

Now with his face (and possibly body) burnt by the iron, his career ended inmediately, and his problems got even WAY worse than before, to a point where he decided to end everything, there was no point on continuing anyway.

So he decides to go to the nearest train station that he could find, and the rest, is history.

Another detail i want to bring up. What happens to a human body when it gets ran over by a train?

It disappears almost entirely

And guess what

RGB literally does not have a body.

[id-element0]

You don't play for weeks doing other stuff and when you finally decide to play, the game welcomes you with crashes. And the funny thing is that I called it. I was like 'I feel like it's going to crash' the whole time and when it did 'I knew it!' 😅 But what I didn't know was that it was one of those persistent crashes. Happens at the same game time almost always.

This time I really felt the despair. For a moment, I entertained the idea of starting a new save in a new world particularly because I'm kind of sick of Fayne Island. But that means I have to move the whole town because I care about the legacies and everyone is a relative in this town.

I dealt with persistent crashes for at least 4 times with this save. And each time, it feels like it's the end. Yet again, I decided to follow through with my debugging process, which is using NRaas Debug Enabler on the City Hall > Dump Alarms 15 minutes before the crash time and right before the crash time. Then I usually wait for it to CTD with my eyes glued upon the game clock.

Dumping alarms creates another Script Error xml in your Sims 3 folder and I believe you also need Error Trap for this. Looking at logs for errors is basically a guessing game 🧐 😸 You mostly look at what's happening around the time of the crash. Identifying the problem can be tricky, like playing darts blindfolded. 😹 This time, it only took like 6 or 7 reboots!

The theory in NRaas' chatterbox is that persistent crashes are caused by alarms. The game uses alarms to check things periodically or occasionally depending on the situation and when the check returns with an error it may crash the game. My uneducated guess.

In my case, one of the town kids had a play date with Midori. The next day around noon the crash started to happen. It was Snowflake day and there were multiple parties happening around the town including my active lot. Looking at the logs I guessed it might be a visit situation issue. One by one eliminating parties before the crash time didn't solve the issue.

And then I realised there is still a visit situation happening on my lot even though there was no ongoing event. Checking the error logs again I found out that the game was still checking time for the child from previous evening, whether it's time to leave when the child was actually at the Winter Festival.

And this one big adventure ends with me reseting that child and saving the day. Yay. So Fayne Island perseveres once more.

[macherkissed]

SFW Alphabet; Thel Vadam x Reader with ADHD

This took a little while, but I'm a little rusty with the alphabet format so I made sure to go over it a couple of times. Also the first thing I've actually written with Thel as a focus so yay.

I hope you enjoy

Notes/Warnings: Fem!Reader, ADHD, Exophilia, Marriage mention, slight violence mention

Requested by Anon

A= Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Thel is a little more affectionate than you'd likely expect

He is quite physically affectionate, he'll hug and cuddle you, hold your hand with a chuckle at how small your hand is compared to his, pick you up and carry you for little to no reason

Verbally, as well, he compliments you and reminds you how he feels about you, and he'll happily learn about your fixations so he can follow along easier with you.

B= Best Friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

The friendship starts off when he first comes into the UNSC. Even with the dubious level of trust that people have with him and his fellow Sangheili, he finds that you help out eagerly and willingly, even defending him against your fellow Marines when they insult and degrade him.

He's quite a good friend, even if his methods are unusual to you. He trains with you often and tries to teach you some Sangheili methods just to spend more time with you, he brags for you to other Sangheili, and he does as you often do for him and defends you when the time calls for it -sometimes using combat but he can use his words as well.

C= Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

He loves cuddles. It's not a common Sangheili practice, but once you introduce it to him, he's insatiable. Any time you want a nap or want to go to sleep with him, he's scooping you up in a second. He's not shy about cuddling you as well, he'll have you wrapped up in him on his lap in the middle of the rec room if you're feeling it

If you're having a 'weird' day where your ADHD is acting up in a very negative way and you can't focus or do anything, you're on edge all day, losing and forgetting noticeably more than usual, he offers cuddles as a way to recharge and recentre yourself

He prefers being the Big Spoon, because he's taller and stronger and wants to protecc his little human, but also because the stature of his species just really suits cuddling like that. It can also calm down your restlessness, having him be so present behind you. If you want to try being big spoon, he won't mind but it may be a little tricky

D= Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

Due to the Covenant-Human war, and the Flood war, he hasn't had much time to think about settling down with you. He occasionally entertains the idea on the rare downtimes that he gets between battles, and it makes him feel warm inside.

He can cook, though needs a little more practice with human dishes; luckily, Sangheli cuisine is pretty nice anyway -Colo makes for a nice meat and Irukan bread is surprisingly good though humans shouldn't eat too much of it. He's not as proficient with cleaning, usually the Covenant had Grunts or bots clean up after them, but he'll help if you ask him to.

E= Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Depending on the circumstances, he'll approach it differently.

If the relationship has just run its course naturally, he'll have a serious but quite blunt talk about why he thinks you should break up. He honestly wants to be friends afterwards, since your friendship has always been so valuable to him, but that's up to you.

However, if he has to break up with you, either because of UNSC rules or because you're being targeted by the covenant or people who aren't very fond of Human/Alien relationships, he'll try and distance himself from you for your own protection. Even though he doesn't want to, and you know he doesn't want to, he'll act cold and spend as little time around you as he can. it breaks his heart but it's for you.

F= Fiancé/e (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

As said before, he doesn't really think too much about the future a-la settling down pre-war. But as it starts to calm down and he has more time with you, he realises he wouldn't mind marrying you

While marriage is present in Sangheili culture, they don't really have a formal marriage ceremony, it's more of a personal devotion and vow without any ceremony, so he could literally marry you in the middle of a gunfight if he wanted to (don't test him on that, he will do so)

If you'd prefer a marriage in your own cultural terms, he's fine with that as well. He might even find that preferable, in some ways. If you'd rather not get married at all, he's fine with that.

G= Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally)

Gentle giant? Gentle Giant

He's patient with you when you're struggling to find words or put your thoughts out, he knows ways to ground you when your mind is racing and knows the signs of you getting stressed, he'll keep track of your tasks or anything you tend to misplace, and he'll guide you back to your train of thought carefully when you lose it.

Physically, he doesn't treat you like glass, but he does treat you carefully. He knows you're UNSC, stronger than the typical human, but you're still human and he knows to treat you with a little more care than he does his fellow Sangheili.

He holds your hand like he'll lose it, and his hold on you when he hugs is probably a little looser than it needs to be. In fights, he won't hesitate to hide you behind him and will be quick to do the same if anyone, Human or Sangheili, tries to intimidate or argue with you.

H= Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

He adores hugs about as much as he does cuddles. Hugs aren't foreign to the Sangheili like cuddles are, he's hugged several of his clanmates and UNSC members after a successful fight, so he eagerly takes you up in his arms at any given point.

As said before, he doesn't hold you as tightly as he could, but regardless he manages to make everything narrow to him (partly because he's just that big)

He'll hug you pretty much every day, wether you have much alone time or not. He won't do it so openly in front of your coworkers or superiors unless you initiate it, but you can practically guarantee that you won't leave him without a hug

I= I Love You (How fast do they say the L-Word?)

He first says it, not after a battle or a mission, but as you're just working late at night and he decides to keep you company. You can't spend much attention on him, busy with some work for Commander Keyes, but you lean against him and maybe even sit in his lap as you work and idly chat about anything that comes to mind.

The topics jolt around like a grunt in a minefield but somehow you get around to the cultures you were both raised in and he's surprised that you know so much about not just current Sangheili practices but the historic ones as well. You tell him you've been researching, asking other Sangheili and searching for first-hand accounts.

He can't help the affection he feels for you at that point, and he tells you that he loves you. It's out of nowhere and you smile at him like he handed you a planet made just for you, then you kiss him on his cheek and tell him that you love him too.

J= Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they're jealous?)

Thel isn't a jealous person, usually. He knows that you chose him, that you care about him, and that nothing would turn your head. He's secure in your relationship like that

However. There are times, especially around specific other elites, where he is a bit possessive; he'll hang onto you a little more than usual and refer to you with pet names more. It's not so much jealousy, more a rivalry with other elites or even a little braggy.

K= Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

It's hard to kiss an Elite. They obviously don't have lips, so he can't kiss you the typical way. He tickles his mandibles against you instead, or mimes kissing your hand or cheek to make you smile

He likes when you kiss him, quite a bit. Regardless of if you kiss his cheek, his head, his brand, he'll melt under your lips each time.

L= Little Ones (How are they around children?)

Male Sangheili usually don't go around their own young, they don't typically know who their fathers are and are collectively raised, if by any males, by an 'uncle' figure, so he is as good around Sangheili children as you'd expect

There aren't many opportunities for him to meet human children either, since you're in a military setting and they don't exactly have 'Take Your Kid To Work' days. If he ever met a human child he would be very cautious and probably a little worried/confused about how to interact with them

M= Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

When you're on a break from work, he likes to stay in bed a little longer, though he still gets up before you. He'll bring you breakfast if you're still not awake by the time he gets some for himself, and when you're both done he mostly leaves you to your own morning routine. He asks if you have anything planned throughout the day and, if you do, he wouldn't say no to joining you unless he absolutely had to

N= Night (How are nights spent with them?)

Should your schedules allow it, he eats dinner with you, either alone together or in the general mess hall, and then you go to your quarters. Both dressing into comfortable clothes, he'll lounge around with you and cuddle if you want to, either in silence or talking until one of you (probably him) starts to drift off, and then it's off to bed

It's simple but he treasures it.

O= Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

He doesn't really outwardly offer information about himself, ever. He'll say off-comments about his time in the Covenant that he will expand on if asked, but those are mostly in his files which you can access at any time if you really wanted to.

Anything more personal will either gradually trickle out in similar ways or you'll have to ask him about it

He never makes a big deal about it either way

P= Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Despite the rumors and stereotypes that some of your less open-minded colleagues have spread around, he's pretty hard to anger.

It takes quite a lot to provoke him, but he sometimes likes to play it up when around those who are purposefully trying to get a reaction from him, just to see how their behaviour changes when they think he's actually going to do something.

It can be quite useful, especially to ground you when you're getting frustrated or flustered since he can either cut through it or untangle whatever is happening to get you to calm down, without losing it himself

Q= Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing or do they kind of forget everything?)

He remembers quite a bit, especially the important things, even if you just casually tell him it.

You don't remember telling him your favourite food, or what your childhood obsession was, or that you had plans to meet up with an old friend from the training academy, but he remembers that.

When you first tell him outright about your ADHD and how to help you along, or what it's like when you're struggling, he commits that to memory and just adds to it the more he finds out

R= Remember (What is their favourite moment in your relationship?)

He doesn't have a definite favourite, more a few memories that he cycles through when he feels like it, but one that stands out to him is the first time you used a move he'd taught you in battle

He was fighting alongside you and a few of your fellow marines, when a Kig-Yar got a little too close as you were mid-reload. Before anyone could shoot at it, you shot your hands out and grabbed the Jackal, planting your feet heavily in the ground and twisting your body in a way you'd practiced dozens of times. You ended up on the ground with the Kig-Yar under your boot, it impaled on a energy-sword that you had managed to pick up and activate mid-manoeuvre

Honestly, he was so impressed and proud, among other things, that he was ready to marry you on the spot

S= Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

He is very protective, but not in a way that is overbearing.

He knows you can handle yourself but he will step in if it gets too much for either of you. In battle, he doesn't get distracted in looking out for you but he always knows where you are and if you're okay.

If someone is criticizing you for something you can't help, caused by your ADHD or otherwise, he'll be in protect mode instantly but will wait until you either search him out or he can tell he has to butt in.

You have protected him several times, both in battle and from people who aren't too fond of Sangheili, and he loves it. He likes having you stick up for him or look out for him and has, on very rare occasions, fished for it by looking to you for help in a confrontation he could have handled easily

T= Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

While 'proper' dates aren't that common between you, due to the everything that's happening, he does try with what he knows.

Sangheili don't date, not in the way humans do, but he gets the idea of it when you start the relationship. He'll do movie nights with you after you get off shift, or if you're off-ship then he tries to make sure it's on a planet that he can just walk with you and see some beautiful things.

He'll convince your superiors to let you have your anniversary off, if not a few days around it, so you have time to really relax and spend time together even if it's nothing spectacular.

For gifts, he tends to buy you things you've mentioned needing or wanting, even in passing when you thought he wasn't paying attention. Sometimes it's something that hits you in the nostalgia to the point it brings you to tears, or something surprisingly heartfelt that makes you love him even more

U= Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

He can be very blunt. Not just due to a cultural difference, just with how he is, if he opposes you in something he won't shy away from it.

More than once he's accidentally offended you or an idea you had and has had no idea that he has

V= Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

Not really much, he doesn't think much about how attractive he might be

At first, yes he was a little confused as to how you found him attractive since he's heard many humans react in disgust to Sagheili's appearances, but once you assured him that you find him attractive, he didn't question it again.

The only thing that is really a soft spot, looks-wise, is the brand on his chest. It's a remnant of his darkest moment of failure and a reminder of the Covenant, and it bothers him every so often.

W= Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Of course. Even if, outwardly, he barely reacts when you're apart for a while, his days feel a little less when you aren't with him or he can't in some way contact you.

The longer he is away from you, the worse he feels. He doesn't let it effect any work too much but he'll sigh quite a lot to the point it irritates people

X= Xtra (A random Headcanon)

Thel is a mum friend. Marine or Elite, even Chief, he's the type to make sure that everyone's had breakfast and is fully rested before a mission, making sure they're fully prepared. In the ship back from missions, you know that he has snacks and will offer them out if he has an idea anyone needs it (where he hides them, you have no clue). He'll even do a once-over of his team to check that everyone is okay and sleeping.

He says it's being a responsible leader but he's mum.

Y= Yuck (What are some things they wouldn't like, either in general or in a partner?)

He doesn't like laziness. If any soldiers around him are being lazy or half-assing anything, out of a mission or not, he is going to make his displeasure known. There have been marines who have totally changed their behaviours since the fusion of the elites and UNSC.

He knows the difference between your ADHD-riddled executive dysfunction and laziness, so he won't be too hard on you but there's a point where he'll be sterner with you

Z= Zzz (What is a sleep habit of theirs?)

He doesn't exactly talk in his sleep, but he does make little noises. The typical Elite noises, but very quiet and low-pitched. Between snores, you might catch a few muttered words of incomprehensible Sangheili.

[10holmes]

Thanks for the fanfic ask game qs, now it's your turn! :D

I hope these aren't too many qs, but I'd love to know your thoughts:

C, K, M, S, T, V, Y

Thank you :)

Yay! Thanks so much for asking! So excited to answer these questions 😍🙏🏼🎉

The full (very long - sorry!) answer to be found below the cut! 😁

C: What character do you identify with most?

Oooh that's a tricky question... I think I can't boil it down to just one character but a blend of characters? I think the characters I tend to stan and ship are a good indicator bc I usually fixate most on ships and characters that somehow speak to me or that I relate to.

For example with XueXiao, I really identify with Xiao Xingchen in the way that he is kind and helpful to others and follows this ideal of wanting to make the world a better place and leaving the mountain for that, aka a place he could stay placid and content in, to instead do something about the injustices he knows about in the "real world", even if that means facing hardships and pain and struggles.

As for Xue Yang, I really relate to him and see him as my deepest darkest side if I could throw my morality over board. I am someone who whole-heartedly proclaims "eat the rich" and means it, so if I was any more like Xue Yang in the way not to give a fuck, I'd also just kill the people that hurt me or others and go unhinged... 😅🙈 Slight difference between us being I would not kill indiscriminately and for the fun of it or for the slightest offense but really only target corrupt rich people and super capitalists and fascists that have it coming for them 🤭

K: What's the angstiest idea you've ever come up with?

I really don't want to spoil anything, but it has to do with an alternative chapter / ending I came up with for my LiuJiu A/B/O fic. I love happy endings as much as the next fanfic reader but sometimes I just want to make myself and others hurt. And this one will hopefully make my readers scream.

Also there's a XueXiao reincarnation fic WIP I can't wait to post. It's nearly finished and I wrote it while listening to Tom Odell's "Another Love" on repeat - which should give you enough of a vibe to imagine the angst level of this fic. I'll just say this much: unrequited love 🤭👍🏼

Sorry I can't be more specific but I really don't want to spoil anything more😅🙈

M: Got any premises on the back burner that you'd like to share?

Maybe it's because I'm too young to know that phrasing or maybe it's a native speaker thing but I had to google what this meant first and hope Google got it right 😅🤣

My WIP file is massive... To give you a glimpse: Next to the ones mentioned above I've also started:

- an angsty post-canon Beefleaf fic, where SQX is haunted by a hanging ghost and made to kill herself but HX intervenes and they start their journey of reconciling, don't know if I'll ever finish it...

- a VegasPete vampire / vampire hunter AU based on a Tumblr prompt and gif-set post but I'll very likely never continue that...

- a LiuJiu AU where SJ is present during the events of SVSSS and LQQ knows SY is an imposter and now tries to bring back SJ into his former body. This has angst and hurt written into every line. Sadly it's merely all in my head...

S: Any fandom tropes you can't resist?

Enemies to Lovers always hits! It's my jam!

Also the angstier the merrier! Hit me with the feels, the pain, the hurt, the agony! Doesn't even have to have a happy ending, I'm a sucker for being emotionally destroyed and also emotionally destroying my readers (though I tend to give them a happy ending at least) 😈🤣👍🏼

And, like you, omegaverse is my guilty pleasure - the smuttier the better 😏

And speaking of guilty pleasures I also have to say monster-fuck AUs are on the menu as well... There have been some really good SongXueXiao ones, I've read. Didn't know that was something I'd ever be into - my 14 year old self would probably be appalled. But here we are 🤣🤣

Soulmate and Fated Pair AUs are something I like to dig into as well.

And I'm also really into mermaid AUs. Especially when one is human and the fic gives off The Little Mermaid vibes.

T: Any fandom tropes you can't stand?

I don't know why but any modern day AUs especially High School AUs... I just can't read it. The most I will do is mob boss / mafia or reincarnation where they slowly uncover their past, but if canon events are set in modern times/contexts I don't really like it for some reason 😅

But I'm actually quite open to a lot of fics and it's mostly not the tropes I can't stand but characterisation or writing style 😅🙈

V: If you could write the sequel/prequel to any fanfic out there (not you own) which would it be?

Bruh... What a difficult question... I haven't ever thought about writing continuations or pre-quels for existing fic as I love them the way they are and mostly just in between imagine possible canon-divergences if the characters had made different choices...

But I guess, from the top of my head, I'd like to write a sequel to "Mark of Jasmine" to give LiuJiu an alternative or reincarnation happy ending because they've really been played in that one... 🙈😅

Y: A character you want to protect?

So many. All my little blorbos and meow meows. On the top of that list - obviously - Xue Yang. But I'd also step in front of my best bois Loki and Shen Jiu to shield them. They deserve so much better 💕😭

Now thanks again for the ask and for reading this long-ass reply, it was my pleasure 🤣