#((KUSA FORGIVE ME))

[under-my-pillow]

Nice!

People normally have different levels of empathy. It's influenced by the people or the environment they grew up in.

Yona and Soo won had different lives.

Soo-won had to worry about so many things. It is only natural he'd become numb to certain things - just goes to show how much more he has experienced in life because just as @soo-won said as a child he is quite sensitive to Il's feelings about him, he adores Yona, and wants to play with her just like any other child his age.

Yu-Hon's death at his brother's hands is a shock! It is not abnormal to ask Yon-hi if she wanted Il to die.

If anything Yon-hi is the abnormal one for not recognising the grief and fury locked deep within her soon-to-be orphaned 9 year old's heart.

Even if she did believe that her husband could've killed Kashi and was killed in revenge by Il— the least she could have done was hug her son and tell him it was alright- She was still there for him.

But no. It was the other way round. And this dame was busy writing a three page warning to the man who killed her son's father.

Soo-won had to grow up a lot earlier than Yona and he was being raised to be King.

Becoming numb to certain things is just a consequence of seeing too much, experiencing too much, and feeling too much but not being able to appropriately express it.

It's not the same as lacking total empathy. He does have empathy, just for different things.

To put it nicely he's a King. To put it bluntly, he's just someone who from beginning till end his sufferings and hardwork have been unspoken and unheard.

do you think soowon is sociopath? i saw some fans saying he lacks empathy and i don't think he does.

Hey Anon! Thank you for the ask :) I didn't expect to receive that kind of question that was the heart of debates years ago, but I'm more than happy to reply!

Very long answer below the cut. Sorry for being unable to be brief, there's nothing that I love more than talking about Suwon and his emotions!

Short answer is no I don't think Suwon is a sociopath, at all.

I've read people say that many times, especially in response to chapter 196, I don't know if that's what you have in mind. From personal experience, I've never seen anyone call him a sociopath know what that word really means or not being a Suwon-anti and I think most of the time people say this in the pejorative "cold and emotionless" way. The manga has shown countless times the range of Suwon's emotions, and to imply he doesn't feel anything is just, wrong (Kusanagi stated it explicitely too). I guess it's understandable for series going on for years like akayona, but I feel like it's a common mistake to read a chapter as a standalone and not something that adds to what was established before. Like, it's not because the diary and castle arc showed new sides of Suwon (through the eyes of other characters on top of that) and in specific circumstances that it invalidates everything shown to us about him before. It's one piece of the puzzle for sure, but nothing less nothing more. I'm no psychiatrist and I'm not qualified to give anyone any kind of diagnostic, but Suwon feels very much, and he feels guilt, is even paralyzed by it at times and it is sometimes an obstacle to him. Suwon is all about discarding feelings, and for that to be a thing, feelings have to be there to begin with. From what I know about sociopathy, this isn't it. And even if he was, that wouldn't make him any less lovable and deserving of compassion to me.

Now on empathy specifically, it's more arguable, but I don't see lacking empathy as something inherently wrong that makes someone broken or cold. What you feel or not doesn't matter in my opinion, it's what you do to care for others. So like, yeah, if you compare with Yona I guess you could say Yona is more empathic than Suwon, but in no way that alone would make her a better person than him(I don't want to make this about Suwon vs Yona, she was just the first character to come to mind).

Lack of empathy is also not exclusively a sociopath thing. Like, everyone feels it to a different degree and there is a lot factors that can be at play.

Suwon feels and thinks differently, his differences with characters like Meinyan, Yona and Hak being the most obvious examples of that, and it's one of the many things that make me see him as neurodivergent in some way. But in the end, whether he feels empathy or not is not important. Or like, yeah, it can be interesting to explore, but it isn't relevant to define him in the slightest.

That being said, let's talk about what we know. First, what we know for sure, is that he cares! And even if you admit he doesn't have the same level of empathy as others, he tries to help when he can and if it's not in the way of his goals. Whether it's when he was a child comforting Yona and his mother, or reassuring an insecure Lili, or again, trying to comfort a trembling Yona in the way he knows best. It's something that comes naturally to him, something that very much makes him, him. Suwon is someone who wants to help, and who finds joy in making others happy.

He is also intelligent, can understand how people think and feel, and why people act the way they do. He is able to sense very young that Il doesn't like him. He was able to give Yona exactly what she needed when she was mourning her mother. In the present, Suwon understands why Yona or Hak would want to kill him, or how his words would only upset them because he is able to put himself in their shoes. (This, is different than empathy imo. Putting yourself in someone else' shoes is an effort you make to understand others, whether you feel what they feel) It's because he understands how people feels that he was able to come this far and unite the country like he did. He is able to play with how people perceive him to get the upper hand over them too. And he is very aware of the consequences of his colder decisions. Everytime he discards someone, he very much expects their hostility towards him and doesn't ask anything of them again. In my opinion Suwon just doesn't think in term of good vs bad. He can tell between the two in like how it matters to others, but it's not relevant to him, and he rather thinks in term of "is that thing on my way or not". (I think he does struggle to understand the extent of how people feel about him, though. He thinks logically, so it's hard for him to understand things that go against all logic, like Hak and Yona helping him after everything.)

Then I think it's important to mention the part of Suwon that shows a discardment of emotions and empathy, and Yuhon.

Actually, how much of that comes from how Yuhon raised him, the environment he grew up in, or from how he is inherently as a person is interesting sure, but not that relevant either. Whatever the roots of it, he is able to put his feelings on the side and stay composed in dire situations. But again, it doesn't mean he doesn't feel anything. And what the war against Kai shows is that his ability to not be affected by the deaths of his people is the reverse of the determination-turned-desperation to not lose against Kai. "Even death is acceptable"(his own included) he says to himself. The fact this is a thing he had to tell himself to begin with says a lot in my opinion. He was struggling, and had to remind himself repeatedly to not look back, to think about nothing but the war. Suwon has limits, even if he is more composed and determined than most, and when he reaches these limits he needs to cling onto his father's words, because otherwise he would falter and stop being able to think clearly.

Thanksfully this desperation turned back into his usual determination(still kinda fueled by the urgency of his situation) after the events of this battle. But like, Suwon is not at all a character that is a complete facade when he acts as a King and whose cold decisions go completely against his heart all the time. He really is the King not hesitating to take harsh decisions and make sacrifices to achieve his goals. He really is the King not unfazed in the slightest about losing his own castle and capital, and people dying in war for his cause. That's also what makes him, him, and something more than helpful in war where you have to deal with losses and unpredictable events all the time.

Going back to chapter 196, when Yonhi thinks to herself "How can he be so detached?" or when Yuhon's faction is impressed by how unfazed he was about investigating his own father's corpse, in no way it is that Suwon doesn't feel anything about his father or Yona. He so does. He is shown burning with anger, and he is shown not looking the least enthousiastic about killing Il. The situations and ways in which he expresses these emotions are simply not what you would usually expect from a child, but why should there be any rule about how someone is supposed to react and feel? There's nothing scary about that. When you stop to think about 2 seconds, is it that fearsome for someone to cope by taking the lead and prioritizing dealing with the problems at hand first, and being unable to process things emotionally? Like, isn't that pretty common? I can relate a lot to that personally. I guess what is surprising in this case is how Suwon is able to do it so young and to this extent, but it's nothing more than that. When Suwon asks Yonhi if she wants Il to die, and she gets scared of that, Suwon is genuinely asking too. Is that this far-fetched for him to assume Yonhi would want that when everyone else around him does? When revenge seems to be the very reason Il, supposed to be peace-loving, killed his father?

People might say that Suwon lacks empathy and maybe they wouldn't be wrong, but he constantly tries to understand what people want and answer to their expectations anyway. And I think that's what matters the most, even if he fails at it sometimes. He couldn't understand how Yonhi felt about Il in chapter 196, but he still tried hard to be what he thought she wanted from him: a replacement of Yuhon (Again, logical conclusion when that's what everyone else around him encourage). He still did all he could to comfort her, and he gave her strength.

He became the ideal King most of the generals and Yuhon faction wanted, and a lot of the issues in his relationship with Yona and Hak come from the fact he behaved in front of them as the Suwon they (used to think they) wanted. He cared for them genuinely, but he couldn't show the rest of him because it would go against the idealized image they had of him. Just like he can't show all of himself in front of his supporters either, because what they want is for him is a perfect, never faltering King, following Yuhon's footsteps. When it became impossible to be these two ideals at the same time, he discarded one. Suwon cares and loves, and this has nothing to do with empathy. He is both the caring friend and the pragmatic king and can't discard either.

Suwon might have less empathy than others, yet he is the one who acted to better the lives of his country's citizens, in contrast to Il, that sure, might be more empathic (except when it comes to Suwon visibly) yet barely acted on it.

I'm gonna stop here but I could go on forever. I hope it's not too much all over the place. Sorry I can't help it.

TDLR : no I don't think he is a sociopath, mainly because he feels guilt and regards what people think a lot, and all he does is never for his own personal benefit. But empathy or not, he cares and does his best. There is so much to explore about him, and basing the morality of a character on empathy is just not it. I think the fact he has such a different way of thinking compared to the rest of the main cast is what makes him so fresh and interesting and I wouldn't want him any other way. He doesn't give a fuck and idk it's funny and so cathartic sometimes. We should embrace that.

[apothecaryscript]

Maomao no Hitorigoto Episode 10 : Aconite Flower and Nectar / 猫猫のひとりごと　第10話　『鳥兜の花と蜜（とりかぶとのはなとみつ/Tori-kabutono Hanato Mitsu）』

Please note that the English lines are just my translations.

壬氏「薬屋！いないのか？」

Jinshi “Kusuriya! Inai-noka?”

Jinshi “Apothecary! Aren’t you here?”

猫猫「お呼びでしょうか？壬氏様」

Maomao “Oyobi-deshoka? Jinshi-sama.”

Maomao “Did you need me? Master Jinshi.”

壬氏「おお、そんなところにいたのか」

Jinshi “Oo, sonna tokoronin ita-noka.”

Jinshi “Oh, there you are.”

猫猫「んん…」

Maomao “Nn…”

壬氏「ん？」

Jinshi “N?”

猫猫「そっ。…そそ。…んんん…」

Maomao “So. …Soso. …Nnn…”

壬氏「今日はまた一段と…汚泥でも見るような目をしているなぁ…。失礼を通り越して、いっそ清々しい」

Jinshi “Kyowa mata ichidanto… odei-demo miru-yona me’o shite-iru-naa… Shitsurei’o toori-koshite, isso suga-suga-shii.”

Jinshi “Today, you look even more like you’re looking at mud than before. Beyond rude, it’s rather refreshing.”

猫猫（何が清々しいだ。変態蜂蜜野郎！）

Maomao (Naniga suga-suga-shii-da. Hentai-Hachimitsu-Yaro!)

Maomao (What’s so refreshing about that? You Pervert Honey Bastard!)

猫猫「ここで、猫猫の豆知識。鳥兜は根に毒があることで有名だが、蜜にも葉にも、植物全体に有毒性がある。見た目が似ている草花が多く誤食に注意が必要だ」

Maomao “Kokode, Maomaono mame-chishiki. Tori-kabutowa neni dokuga aru-kotode yumei-daga, mitsu-nimo ha-nimo, shokubutsu-zentaini yu-dokuseiga aru. Mitamega nite-iru kusa-banaga ooku goshokuni chuiga hitsuyoda.”

Maomao “Here’s Maomao’s bits of knowledge. Aconite is well known for having poisonous roots, but the whole plant is poisonous, including the nectar and leaves. There are many plants that look similar, so you need to be careful not to eat them by mistake.”

猫猫「玉葉様に行動を慎むよう、言い付けられましたので」

Maomao “Gyokuyo-samani kodo’o tsutsushimu-yo, iitsuke-rare-mashita-node.”

Maomao “I was told by Lady Gyokuyou to be careful with my actions.”

壬氏「なるほど…。先日は過ぎたイタズラであった。悪いことをした」

Jinshi “Naruhodo… Senjitsuwa sugita itazurade atta. Warui koto’o shita.”

Jinshi “I see… It was an awful prank the other day. It’s my bad.”

猫猫「えっ。どうかお止めください。そのようなことをされる身分ではございません」

Maomao “E. Doka oyame kudasai. Sono-yona koto’o sareru mibun-dewa gozai-masen.”

Maomao “Please stop it. I’m not worthy of such apology.”

猫猫（最近、妙に素直でやりづらい…）

Maomao (Saikin, myoni sunaode yari-zurai…)

Maomao (Recently, he’s been strangely obedient and it’s hard to deal with…)

壬氏「では、許してくれるのか？」

Jinshi “Dewa, yurushite-kureru-noka?”

Jinshi “So, will you forgive me?”

猫猫「…御意」

Maomao “…Gyoi.”

Maomao “Yes, sir.”

壬氏「ありがとう」

Jinshi “Arigato.”

Jinshi “Thank you.”

猫猫（うわあああ！この蜜のように甘ったるい声…あああ、胸やけがする…！）

Maomao (Uwaaaa! Kono mitsuno-yoni amattarui koe… Aaa, mune-yakega suru…!)

Maomao (Aaaaah! Such a sweet voice like honey… Aaah, it gives me heartburn!)

猫猫「次回、『二つを一つに』。あのお方と、直接対決に挑む」

Maomao “Jikai, ‘Futatsu’o Hitotsuni.’” Ano okatato, chokusetsu-taiketsuni idomu.”

Maomao “Next episode, ‘Reducing Two to One.’ I’ll take on a face-to-face confrontation with that person.”

猫猫「…そっ。…そそ。…そそそ」

Maomao “…So. …Soso. …Sososo.”

Maomao “Sneak, sneak.”

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「鳥兜（とりかぶと/Tori-kabuto）」: aconite, monkshood, wolfsbane

「蜜(みつ/Mitsu)」: nectar, sweet syrup

「お呼びでしょうか(およびでしょうか/Oyobi-deshoka)」: Are you calling for me? (It means almost same as “What can I do for you?”)

「通り越す（とおりこす/Toori-kosu）」: beyond, pass by, pass through

「いっそ(Isso)」: rather, better yet

「清々しい（すがすがしい/Suga-suga-shii）」: refreshing, fresh, invigorating, clear and clean

「失礼を通り越して、いっそ清々しい(しつれいをとおりこして、いっそすがすがしい/Shitsurei’o toori-koshite, isso suga-suga-shii)」: Beyond rude, it’s rather refreshing. ←I’m wondering if you get the meaning with my translation. Maomao’s attitude is very rude, but she’s doing it intentionally without any hesitation, so it’s rather refreshing.

「過ぎた(すぎた/Sugita)」: It usually means “passed” but in this case the prank was “やり過ぎた: too much” so I translated to “awful prank”. I’m wondering if “awful” is appropriate or too strong.

「御意(ぎょい/Gyoi)」: “Yes, sir.” “As you wish.” Typical response to an order given by someone of extremely high position.

「直接対決（ちょくせつたいけつ/Chokusetsu-taiketsu）」: a face-to-face confrontation, direct confrontation

「そそそ…」: Sneak, sneak. It’s an unique onomatopoeia used in this anime, when Maomao is running away from some inconvenient situation. I guess 「そそそ…」 comes from 「こそこそ」 which means action of hiding and doing secretly without making loud sounds, and also 「さささ…」 which means doing or going quickly.

[jadeoru]

s*kusa better get his ass in amsterdam and bring y/n a miffy plush ASAP brother eughhh he's so gross (yoga) I DONT WANT TO FORGIVE HIM GIVE ME MY BAg

me when people hate a character i made do awful things

[spatio-rift]

what people dont get about karin forgiving sasuke is that its way more than just that he tried to kill her... its the way she is treated just like in kusa by the person most important to her through tobis influence... the way they always dismiss what she has to say, the way they keep manhandling her without any concern for her, the way she ultimately is only useful for them if she can heal and better off dead if she cant do it anymore. it makes me so angry

[yoursafehavensblog]

Ang dami kong natutunan dito.

1. Ang babae kapag buo ang loob para sa isang lalaki, lahat isusugal, lahat ibibigay, lahat igigive up para lang sa pagmamahal. Na kahit wala na matira sa kanya, basta mahal nya yung lalaki ay go lang.

2. Cheating is a choice not a mistake. I cheated before, I suffered a lot for its consequences on how to earn his trust again. I earned it. We built it again. But at the end of the road, his promises na di nya magagawa sakin yung cheating, ay nagawa din nya sa akin during Live in days namin. Now we are separated, no contact. And with these span of time na wala kaming pag uusap, unti unti kong nakikita yung worth ko as a person. Ang pinagkaiba lang namin dito sa palabas na ito, Lance (Alden) kept his cheating issues until Justine (Julia) found it from other people pa. Naghiwalay sila, habang si Lance wanted to reconnect again with Justine, kaso ayaw na ni Justine. Pinagkaiba lang din namin dito, pinili ng ex ko yung third party and he left me shattered and broken. Nung una tinatanggi pa nila, but eto na, unti unti na lumalabas lahat. Sya na kusa naglalabas ng mga nangyari at ng tunay na ginawa nya sakin ☺️

3. Quantum Entanglement, na kahit anong layo ninyo sa isat isa, kahit saang sulok pa kayo ng mundo magpunta, you guys will still found each other and find its way to be back on each other arms again.

4. Always appreciate, communicate and hear your partner. Kasi kung wala yan? Guguho ng tuluyan yung relationship na matagal ninyong binuo. And it resonates with our relationship too. Before nandyan yung appreciation, nandyan yung saya, yung communication, pero nung nakulangan na sya sa akin, he chose this mistake, he chose to cheat and I pray na maging tama at di nya pagsisihan yung pinili nya na tao over me.

5. If respect is no longer serve on the table, learn to leave. Dati nasa isip ko na, kahit ano mangyari, magsstay ako kasi asawa nya ako (tho di pa kami kasal, muntikan lang kahit ilang taon nya ko pinangakuan). Until umabot na sa mga pagkakataon na masasakit na salita na tinatamo ko yet I still chose to stay kasi mahal ko eh. Pero di ko pala nanotice, nauubos na pala ako. Nakakaubos, nakakasagad. Nakakalungkot.

6. Forgive and let go. Siguro di ko pa kaya ibigay ngayon yung pagpapatawad sa sarili ko ganun din sakanila nung babae. Like what I said, sana maging masaya sya sa pinili nyang landas. Sana maging tama yung desisyon nya na yun. Ako? Ok na ko siguro na ganito. Kasi ito naman talaga gusto namin dati, simple, tahimik, masaya kaso ako nalang mag isa. Kasi sya, masaya na sya sa ibang tao at di na ako dahilan ng kasiyahan na nya na un.

7. No one is perfect. Di tayo perpekto, lahat tayo may flaws sa sarili natin, sadyang natapat lang talaga tayo sa taong akala natin kaya yakapin yung flaws natin pero mas pinili tayo iwan sa mga pagkakataon na bagsak na bagsak ka na at mas pinili mag seek ng comfort sa iba.

Nakakadurog yung movie. Sobra. Iyak ako ng iyak.

[dearlittlekatrine]

Was browing some old convos at msgr, then I saw this:

Storytime ~

Latter of 2018, when this girl got pregnant and chose not to let anyone know that she is, not even my fam, people thought that she is just getting fat or probably bloated by having an enlarging tummy.

Disclaimer: I am the type of woman na maliit magbuntis, even on my eldest, by this time maliit tyan ko (pero still meron bump but not as big as the usual pregnant woman) and iniipit ko din sya with a girdle — the reason why I automatically had a flat tummy after I gave birth, yep no saggy skins literally after.

[see photo below, weeks before I give birth, who would've thought diba?]

Maybe you'll have this question: "Hindi ba nila naisip na buntis ka?" And I bet sure they did, but chose to shrug the idea of it since I was very much single by that time — literal, wala silang alam kahit kalandian ko or ano man, tapos malakas pa ako mag inom halos araw araw na inuumaga pa ako sa inuman, thinking na kusa na lang mag swim down sa'kin yung dala dala ko.

I intentionally hid this pregnancy and I won't deny that I planned on getting the child aborted — I searched for medicine or ways on how can I abort pero I don't know how will I be able to execute it kaya nag stick na lang ako sa mga paraan na possible na mag kusa syang mawala.

Can you imagine how terrible I am?

So bakit ako nabuntis? Kasi malandi ako kaya di ako pinipili e. Char. Basta, it is a whole different story, ang alam ko lang — I was hurt, I had self doubts, I was lost by that time.

The whole 9 months was just nothing unusual. No pre-natal check ups, no vitamins, nothing related to pregnancy. My mind was full of suicidal thoughts or ways on how will I be able to get out of this self-made chaos.

2019. Late night of 23rd, sumakit na yung tiyan ko, denial pa ako na manganganak na ako by that time pero continuous yung pain which I remember na sabi ng OB before na kapag every 5 mins ang pain ibig sabihin in labor na, so I decided to find a lying-in clinic sa facebook if ever na makakapag-accomodate.

Around 2am, hindi ko na kaya, since no one knows that I am giving birth tumakas ako sa'min bringing nothing but myself and a 3,000 cash on my wallet — walang kahit na ano maski lampin o damit ng baby, with the thought in mind na iiwan ko rin yung bata somewhere since I have no plans on letting the people know about this.

May abudung forgive me if he'll ever know about this.

That night, I know sinundan ako ng tatay ko to look for me, I saw him roaming his head around before ako makasakay ng tricycle. I can't imagine how painful it is for him.

Bakit nga ba hindi ko sinabi sa parents ko yung condition ko? Hmm, sobrang haba na ne'to if ikekwento ko pa anong relationship ko sa parents ko. But to make it short, I grew up insecure, longing for attention, bata palang ako black sheep na ako ng pamilya, everything I do for them is a failure and disappointment, kaya tumanda akong malayo loob sa kanila.

The lying in staff was very much surprised to see me, sobrang layo pa nun to think na narating ko sya mag-isa while on labor at nasa kalagitnaan ng dilim sa madaling araw, I too by this day can't even imagine how I managed to do that.

They let me in. Asked how old I am, my name and some baby records — e, anong ilalabas kong baby record? Ni hindi nga ako nagpacheck up all throughout that pregnancy — and they are even more surprised when I told them my condition, kung pwede lang nila ako tanggihan by that time, baka nagawa nila pero since I am in labor at probably open cm na, wala na rin silang nagawa.

Around 3:45am when I gave birth, pikit-matang nag iire kahit CS sa panganay. I am expecting an abnormalism sa bata, since wala akong check up tapos panay pa ako inom, but sabi nga diba, the Lord loves the little children kaya hindi nya pinabayaan na magkaganon ang baby kahit pabaya ang nanay nya.

Nung narinig kong umiyak na, umiyak na lang din ako, hindi ko pala kayang pabayaan lang ang isang walang muwang na sanggol, may konsensya pa rin palang natitira sa katawan ko, sabi ko na lang sa sarili ko, "bahala na kung papalayasin na ako, o kung di ako matatanggap ng mga tao."

I accepted that reality. It is what it is, tigilan na natin pagdadagdag ng kasalanan.

Buti na lang mabait at accomodating yung clinic kung saan ako nanganak, they have a set of clothes na needed, even a baby pillows and blanket. They are checking me from ime to time, feed me and reminded that everything will be fine in time.

In a way my heart is at ease, thanking the Lord for giving me this path to go to.

Tinext ko si nanay, "Nay, nanganak ako."

I know to her replies, masakit.

Tinext ko si Roselle, one of my trustest friends — she is the one who brought me baby clothes, distilled water, formula milk, feeding bottle, and everything she thought I will be needing.

My officemates also, sinabi ko hindi ako makakapasok and for them to ask a maternity benefit sa accounting ng company and SSS — they knew that their instincts are right all along.

Iwa, one of my officemate, and her partner [the one who took the picture above] are one of the few people who visited me, she even brought food na biling tindahan lang kasi ayaw daw naman nila na walang dala — they brought me BIG Zest O and a bunch of fudgee bars. 😂

After 3 days, umuwi na ako.

Mas mahirap, mas mabigat.

We became a stranger in my own house, tanging nanay ko lang ang kumakausap at nag aasikaso sa'min. May instances pa na tinatakpan yung side ng crib para hindi makita ng tatay ko yung bata. I was depressed, di ako natutulog, di ako kumakain, may mga araw na maghapon lang ako iyak ng iyak. The regrets are eating me alive.

Pero sabi ko nga, hindi ako pwede magreklamo kasi choice ko 'to.

Everyone was surprised, everything happened to them very sudden, and its all on me and my failed life choices.

I thought we will be in that situation forever, takot na takot akong manghina at sumuko kasi mawawalan si abudung ng kasama, ng pamilya. I kept praying na kahit hindi na ako tanggapin o mahalin ulit ng pamilya ko, kahit si abudung na lang sana, na magkaron sya ng pamilya bukod sa'min ng kuya nya.

And hindi naman ako nabigo sa mga dasal ko, hindi man para sa'kin, naging matagal man, pero at least nadinig.

Si abudung ay parte na nila, at masaya na ako doon. ❤️

this is my ading and tatay.

But still, if tatanungin ako kung bibigyan ako ng pagkakataon na maulit 'to, I would turn my back and say NO. Don't get me wrong! Hindi ko pinagsisisihan yung bata, pero kung paano ko sya nakuha, napabayaan all through that 9 long months, kung paano ko naisip na ipalaglag and leave him behind, gahd this haunts me up until this day.

.. and the fact that I can't even give them the life they deserve after everything na naging thoughts ko for him before.

I hope wala ng ibang dumaan sa ganito.

Life is hard, yes. But it is harder when you are living with regrets and paying up for it.

[leanstooneside]

serial

- son of Santanu

- descendants of Bhrigu

- learned of foresight

- truthful king of Kasi

- austerities of celibate

- constant habit of forgiveness

- language of atheism

- splendour of blazing

- rites of religion

- man of weak understanding

- command of his

- foremost of all swordsmen

- hundreds of Mahatmas

- twin sons of Madri

- covetous sons of Dhritarashtra

- herds of she

- O son of Kunti

- crown of his

- season of rut

- energy of his

- singleness of purpose

- forest mighty herds of gigantic elephants

- others suffereth loss of wealth

- permission of Kunti's

- germs of food

- bereft of anger

- offerings of excellent fruits

- fierce brother of Duryodhana

- son of Dharma

- heard of them

- forest of Kamyaka

- prosperity of Suyodhana

- lord of Yama

- man of wisdom

- seat of kusa

- object of alarm

- cause of his

- they of tranquil souls

- sacrifices of other kinds

- Godthe Supreme Lord of all maketh

- son of Dasaratha

- foremost of virtuous men

- doth he of sinful heart

- desire of reaping

- speak of peace

- resolution of his

- principal Brahmanas of Kurujangala

- ways of virtue

- O daughter of Drupada

- slayer of men

- Kurus O son of Pritha

- barks of trees

- hearts of my

- excellent virtues of his

- sons of Draupadi

- foremost of male persons

- length of days

- his toy of soft earth

- history of Bharatas

- son of Pritha

- O son of Dharma

- delightful woods of Dwaita

- Nishkas of gold

- detail of forgiveness

- regions of immortality

- days of prosperity

- power of illusion

- prowess of his

- misery of all creatures

- tree of life

- command of their

- vice of gambling

- possession of me

- twang of bows

- point of hurling

- Brahmana of reputation

- science of duty

- sight of Nakula

- true force of character

- O thou of fair hips

- fruitlessness of virtuous acts

[themainandrea]

I still can't believe that I got cheated on by someone whom I gave tons of chances, endless love and support. Ang sakit sakit pala. Ang sakit when akala mo okay na, nabago mo yung tao. Kinalimutan mo lahat ng mga nagawa sayo in the past.. Lahat ng pag sisinungaling, pagkausap sa ex, sa ibang babae habang ang alam ko lang e mahal na mahal din ako ng taong mahal na mahal ko. Naloko ng paulit ulit at the beginning of our relationship but I still chose to forgive. I tried my best to forget about those things kahit na sobrang hirap at mag umpisa ulit.

Ang saya at sarap sa pakiramdam na nakalimutan ko kahit papano lahat kasi I was very willing to focus on making our relationship work and stay stronger. We became okay. Smooth yung relasyon during our 4th-5th years kasi on our 1st-2nd and 3rd year he was not serious, he was still into other girls/exes. I was trying to heal. We only become okay on our 4th,5th and half of our 6th year.

We are getting older, sobrang daming discoveries sa isat isa, nag mamature, nag kakaron ng bills and other responsibilities na nakakaapekto na sa kung paano kami sa isat isa. We somehow lost the "spark" in the relationship.

In my defense, I knew that I love him very much. Sobra sobra pa nga na hindi na niya nagugustuhan. I would often ask for lambing and he would often say "may ginagawa ako" "mamaya na mahal" "lalambingin ka naman kapag walang ginagawa" until sinabi ko sa sarili ko na sige hindi nalang ako ang mag lalambing o hihingi ng atensyon. Susubukan kong hindi na maging malambing o mag ask ng attention at baka sa kali na siya na yung gumawa.

Later on, I got busy with my work. He would say na busy ako sa work at hindi na malambing sa kanya and all but I don't really think that's right.. I know that no matter how busy I get I always find time para makabawi. Though I know na naging masungit ako due sa stress sa work and dahil sa alam ko na nawalan narin siya ng oras sakin. I have been longing for his attention. Yung attention ng lover, ng partner.

Masakit isipin na mas may time siya to spend sa ibang tao, na kapag iba ang hihingi ng oras niya mabilis niyang maibigay. Masakit na mas nageenjoy siya with other people than when he's with me.

Masakit na nag hanap sya ng affection sa iba at dinisregard na yung mga attempts ko, yung love ko.

Masakit na sa kabila ng mga panloloko niya noon at paulit ulit ko na pag papatawad nagawa parin niya na ulitin at mas malala pa. It's been almost 3 months since I found out na niloko ako.

i know that if kagaya lang nung noon, mapapatawad ko padin talaga but I can't believe na kahit may sex involved heto parin ako. Nagpatawad at pilit na kinakalimutan yung nangyari para makapag umpisa na ulit.

I am slowly getting some realizations now, nung sinabing iwiwin back ako, I really thought that something will change. Akala ko may magbabago sa love, akala ko mas mararamdaman ko yung pag mamahal niya. Sa ngayon, parang mas mahal ko parin siya kesa sa mas mahal niya ko gaya ng sabi ng iba.

Ang sarap siguro sa pakiramdam ng mas mahal ka ng taong mahal mo. Kung alam ko lang na ganito parin, sana hinayaan ko yung sarili ko na mag heal at makapag isip isip. Sana dinama ko muna lahat ng sakit kahit isang linggo lang. I can't believe that I forgive that quick. Bukas sa puso ko yung oag papatawad kasi alam kong mahal ko sya kaya ko sya pinatawad but looking at it now I should have given myself a time to feel everything.

Ngayon kasi kapag naalala ko parang bawal. Nagagalit siya. Pinaparamdam nya sakin na bawal ko maalala instead na ireassure ako ng maayos. I just wanna feel that "win back"

Sa totoo lang araw araw padin ako nasasaktan at nakakaalala ng nangyari pero pinipilit ko na itago kasi akam kong negative ang reaksyon niya.

Gulong gulo ako, I just wanna feel like I am in a relationship. Gusto ko lang maramdaman na worth it yung forgiveness na binigay ko. Na sana maramdaman ko na may boyfriend ako. Hindi ko narin alam yung gagawin. Hindi ko naman dapat hinihilinh yun. Kusa naman ibibigay yun ng taong mahal ako talaga.

[forestgreenbpd-blog]

Acceptable Losses | Green & Anabel

Plotted Ahead! | @ghostofemerald

Yeah, he pretty much knew in this day and age that his prospects of research were gonna kill him one day. He... pretty much knew. It was a dangerous business — even something as sweet and simple as research of all the damned things; but then again, it was his everyday hobby; it was his everyday life — going about the thick, tall grass and going up to par with whatever creature he’d find there. And it wasn’t just grass, either; no, that was the easy stuff; that was the stuff where, yeah, sure, a Skarmory or something could come springing out to say hello to you — or if you were unfortunate enough to find yourself in Unova’s Double Grass, then maybe even a Metagross or two if you were really unlucky, or having a really bad time (or, hell, if you just really wanted to wrangle with a fucking Metagross; more power to you). 

But it was the cave systems, the underwater where things really got fun. That’s where you’d encounter just about three Steelixes at once whose versions of hello were wrapping themselves around you, ready to squeeze the life out of you. And, yeah, for some reason, Legendaries of all things liked to hang around dark, deep areas — where nobody could find them, go figure. That’s where the real fun stuff happened — where you’d have to pack strong enough Pokemon, or enough Repels, or enough holy items to pray to whatever god you’d wish that you’d be able to get the hell out of your present situation to safety soon enough. 

Caves... yeah, caves; they were relentless, unforgiving sons of bitches where there was no safety net and no places to heal and where nobody would hear you screaming to your mama when things got tough, or even borderline deadly.

So of course that’s where Green decided to travel — in Alola, no less. It was a fun challenge, and thus far, Alola was... simply fascinating. It was perhaps the latest place in a long damn while where he found himself able to grin ear to ear on a regular basis — where he actually had the motivation and want to get up and explore, take in the fresh air and see all that this crazy fucking region had to offer. And by now, he’d wanted nothing more than to explore the deepest, darkest, scariest, and worst parts of the Alolan wilderness — and what better than within the grittiest, strongest area of Poni Island?

He’d found his way to a place called Resolution Cave by then, rumored to hold tough trainers and tough Pokemon, sure enough to give any daring trainer a real challenge. Sad part to say about that was that those sorts of things were... massively hard to come by — what, with Green’s team of Pokemon all nearing their nineties, things were... hardly a challenge these days. It even got to the point where he’d just about gotten tired of Golbats and Dugtrios (yes, even if they were the incredibly amazing ones with the fantastic hair) that he was practically Max Repelling his way through the area until he would... maybe? Somehow? Find something more interesting? Hopefully? He wasn’t even quite sure he would find something of that caliber, frankly; many of these caves did have an end, for sure — namely, somewhere at the very bottom that you’d have to backtrack all the way out of; it was annoying as hell — but very little of them actually had something worthwhile at the very bottom, at the very end, where there was nowhere left to go. And why should they? They were fucking caves, for Christ’s sake; did they need some fantastic treasure at the bottom of it worth finding? Did every clearing in a forest have some magical treasure chest filled with junk beyond your wildest imagination?

No. It was nature; nature did whatever the fuck it wanted.

But either way, Green was determined to find some sort of end to this place — not insomuch that he’d wish to find this fantastic treasure that couldn’t possibly exist; but rather, he just wanted to find it to mark the end of his need and want to explore any further; finding the end would be able to tell him that there would be nothing more to discover, and that his curious mind could finally rest.

Well. You know what the fuck they say about curiosity nowadays — whether or not there’s that cute secondary phrase that society had been hiding for dozens of years to try to discourage kids from sating their natural curiosity and try to reel them into mundanity — you know the one: ‘curiosity killed the cat, but satisfaction brought him back’? Well. Well well welly well well. Green only hoped to God, Christ, Arceus, or who the fuck ever that he’d find enough satisfaction in his growing curiosity that he’d be able to come back alive from this one.

His Pokemon were exhausted, right? Just because they so happened to be stronger than the other Pokemon in any part of the cave didn’t mean they wouldn’t get tired from doing the same old shit over and over. So he decided, for the time being, to return them to their Pokeballs so that they could rest, wandering around the cave with nothing but his Max Repels, khaki shorts, inappropriately-circumstantial sunglasses, and fine ass to save him should anything really dangerous come his way. But see, here’s the thing — he’d been exploring around this cave for fuck-knows how long right about then; probably an hour; two hours; he didn’t even know anymore; he only knew he was in there for much longer than he could bear anymore. At that point, he wasn’t even worried that anything new would sneak up on him anymore; it was just the same thing, over and over and over — Golbat, Dugtrio, mediocre trainer. Rinse and rinse and repeat.

So by the time he got to a very different mouth in the cave — a new, unmarked entrance that he hadn’t seen before — he was... hardly expecting anything different. Just Golbat, Dugtrio, a few trainers; Max Repel the fucking trainers in the face, why didn’t he. But no. He’d entered in, looking around a bit, and that’s when he just about realized where he was. This fabled end. The end of the cave — nothing else left to see. It was just a... a long, winding tunnel, with nothing at the end of it.

Or so he thought, like a dumbass.

His eyes weren’t even curious anymore, by the time he was looking around; simply alert for the sheer inkling possibility — no matter how small — that there could be something new around here that he might have missed, or that only lurked around in this neck of the woods — err... cave. God, he was so tired. But it wasn’t before long that he was woken right the fuck up by a deep, harsh rumbling further within the same room — the thud, thud, thud growing more powerful and rumbling some of the loose rock right from the cave walls and ceiling. Green’s eyes grew wide then, curiosity certainly returning the color to his eyes, as well as sheer fear, above it all. And how could he have missed it? Maybe it was due to his tire, or due to his lack of particular care for anything this cave had to do with anymore, but in the center of that room, backing out from the rock that obscured his view, was... a girl? Yeah, no, he wasn’t being stupid; there was a girl there, with long, lavender hair and she was in a suit. The girl certainly looked like she meant business of sorts and — wait. Was... that... Anabel? Salon Maiden Anabel? With her hair grown out and... who knows, there for business in Alola? What the fuck was she doing there?

Yes, Green had met the girl a few times — he’d met pretty much every important figure, from Gym Leaders, Elite Four, professors, and the like that held down the Battle Frontier. Anabel was... among one of them. She was an acquaintance, at most, having met her for business, just to check up on a few things for the sake of research. It helped a little that she was participating in the Battle Tree campaign as one of the elites that the kids could battle. He’d known that she was there, then, but... he never really dared to gather what exactly she was doing; after all, he’d assumed everyone was there for the sole business of the Battle Tree — like Cynthia and, uh... that one kid... Wally. What Cynthia and Wally were there for; he never really imagined that... Anabel was there for something else, and it only baffled him that now, she was here. In this fucking cave, with these thuds slowly approaching her, and she seemed none too happy that they were that close to her.

His exhaled shakily as the loud thuds gave way to crunches, low growls, ethereal, without a precise name or voice or Pokemon for it to belong to, soon revealing two long claws like mandibles to the jaw of a great Pokemon and its gaping blue maw, its large body revealing to be its entire body, much larger and more imposing than Green ever would’ve imagined; hell, the thing’s entire mouth... torso... thing was bigger than about three Greens put together; Buu-Buu-chan would be lunch for that thing. And it was coming right for her as she backed up with precautionary steps away from that thing.

He himself took a step back with a shaky breath, reminiscent of a nervous laugh — quiet and fearful and instinctual all the same, his breath spilling out “Hah... hahaha... what the fuck...” at the sight of it. “Buddy... Jesus Christ... what... are you...?” He murmured, backing up and away, slowly, quietly, hoping that, whatever it was, it was far too dumb or blind or something to be able to see who he was now fully assuming was Anabel, and that she’d be able to slip away, unseen, count her lucky stars pretend this never happened. Who knows? She might’ve seen the damn thing, it didn’t quite see her yet, and she was biding her sweet time to be able to get away from it unseen, right? That it wasn’t coming towards her. It was just... blind or stupid or its sights were set too high to really see her, and she was taking it low and slow to be able to find the perfect opportunity to turn tail and run.

So much for wishful thinking, right?

He wasn’t quite sure what part of this thing was its eyes; it seemed to have two sets of them, which, well, didn’t bode well for his whole blind theory. The thing was so massive, so terrifying and... so strange, he couldn’t even quite say for sure that it was a Pokemon that he was looking at. No; he... he was looking at something alright; and that something hunched itself down with its giant fucking mouth that could chew either Green or Anabel alive for dinner, and... oh. Dear God. As it turned the corner, and she backed up down the corner all the same, a few dozen feet from where Green stood, it finally looked right down at her, and she froze in her place. 

It dared to open up its mouth wider, whatever the hell that garbage disposal thing was at the back of its throat gnashing and its two mandible arms clamping menacingly, and the thing cried out in a voice out of a science fiction movie, loud enough to push Green and her back a space or two, the room shaking and crumbling slightly further in the notification that the thing did, in fact, see her, and wanted her dead.

And you bet your sweet ass Green screamed right back — though it was out of... sheer fucking terror more than anything else; not necessarily that he was trying to... one-up the thing or anything? He wasn’t even quite sure he could, at this point.

And sure, yeah, his first instinct was to turn right on his heels, at the great, gigantic thing that was now only feet behind him, and to run for his goddamn life. But dammit, Anabel was right there, right in the path of that thing’s fury. She’d be killed. He shook his head as his fingers curled into a few locks of his hair above his forehead, giving more of that nervous laughter that was quickly growing maniacal, because honestly. Really. His plan and his idea was... simply insane.

Yes, certainly, in Green’s field, he’d imagined quite the few ways he’d die. Caves caving in were... among them. Death by Steelix. Poison-types galore. But this? Dying from a whatever the fuck this was swallowing him whole (or not whole; he didn’t want to imagine that prospect)... was not one of them. But he would be damned if he was going to let that be Anabel’s reality. 

He’d. Be. Damned.

He reached down onto his belt for one of his trusty Pokeballs, grabbing Hara-Hara’s familiar Pokeball off of its loop, giving the top of it a quick kiss for good luck (to Hara-Hara, him, and Anabel, all the same), and he finally decided to cry out, “Hey! Buddy! You giant, fat fuck with six arms too many! Garbage truck — yeah, I’m talking to you! You wanna dance, big man? You wanna dance? Huh? Well why don’t you take one someone your... uh. Fuck. Why don’t you take me on instead, huh? Instead of the girl? I got a much fatter ass and I’m ready to party, buddy! C’mon now! Go, Hara-Hara!” He cried, sending out his Pokeball to reveal his familiar and trusty Charizard, dwarfing in comparison to the large black creature’s size. Without hesitation, he reached up to his Mega Ring secured on his wrist, activation Hara-Hara’s Charizardnite Y, and transforming his form into a much greater and more powerful being — hopefully enough to be up to snuff with whatever the shit this thing was. “You and me, buddy! Let’s dance!”

[dreamerandcrazy]

how high is the probability that soo-won is canonically gay? tbh it it would just make so much sense. soo-won loved yona but really he had eyes for hak since young... i just wish that in the eventual soohak reunion (kusa WHERE IS IT) that they'll acknowledge this fact somehow. that hak is still and forever will be soo-won's goal

Oh, anon, you have no idea how much feelings and ideas I have regarding SooHak, but when it comes to Soo Won’s sexuality, I am in the dark just as every other reader, because sadly we don’t have much insight/p.o.v. from Soo Won himself, and I think that’s on purpose and something Kusanagi is saving for later. However, he mentioned once that he didn’t feel love romantically, but he did like people, and Kusanagi also implied he wasn’t interested in romance during the high school omake, so there’s a chance he could maybe be asexual/aromantic? But he has blushed before whenever someone put him in the spot, like Yona in ch. 1, and when Lili threatened to say he was in a brothel, I think during Sei or Xing arc. So I think there’s a little bit of chance he could be, but the chances of him being asexual are definitely higher. But like you said, if Kusanagi decided to write in canon that Soo Won is gay period, it would also make sense, align with past moments that have made us raise our eyebrows, and it wouldn’t affect the story or his personality, except for other than giving us much needed insight on what goes inside Soo Won’s mind.

(I talk a lot about SooHak underneath, so I put it under a keep reading, lol).

It’s important to note that it’s very much canon that he still cares for/loves Hak and Yona, despite everything that’s happened. However, I do get the feeling that the love he has for Hak is slightly different from the love he has for Yona. It’s very interesting how since the start, Soo Won has kept his emotions in check around Yona and co., but like Zeno said, his face just looks more human around Hak. I guess maybe because Hak has always been the most normal part of it all for Soo Won, since they were kids, which is why I get the feeling that they were closer. They raised Gulfan together, they trusted each other more than anyone, and can read each other so well they were able to know what the other was thinking through a single look. The only time in the manga both of them were seen crying, truly crying over adult emotions, was because of each other. Soo Won wasn’t able to raise a sword to defend himself against Hak when they reunited in Nadai arc, but his hands automatically flew to his sword the moment he saw Hak in danger during the battle in Sei. It’s like a quote from a gifset I reblogged recently, “People change, but habits don’t”. Or even as Ik-Soo himself said, “some love cannot be discarded,” and I think that was as true for Yona then as it is for Soo Won and Hak. They both can try themselves their best to convince they no longer care for one another, and will be ok if the other dies, but we have seen that that’s not true.

Also it’s interesting, like you said, anon, sometimes I get the feeling that Hak is still Soo Won’s goal, but like in a dormant way. Soo Won seeks for the power of the humans, and nobody embodies that as much as Hak, in the story. We have seen since the start that Soo Won admired Hak, and wanted to be like him, so I feel like that feeling is still there. They both literally wanted to be on an equal footing just so they could walk side by side, and that is a powerful want, to have someone mean so much to you that you are motivated by them, which is why their dynamic is probably one of the most interesting for me, whether it’s platonic or romantic. But we shall see how it goes. Many fans have been theorizing that in the next chapter or 204, Soo Won might go to see Hak, and I think that’s something the story really needs right now. They have been avoiding each other for over 200 chapters now, and they’re getting to a point where they can no longer do that. I think Hak has come very far in the manga and is also in a point where he’s willing to listen to what Soo Won has to say; prior to this castle arc, people liked to say he was narrow-minded and refused to see meaning in Soo Won’s actions, but Hak only had the grasp of what he’d seen that night: that Soo Won killed Il and was willing to kill Yona as well, after presenting her with that hairpin. He had no idea about what happened to Yu-Hon, or any of what happened in the past, so from that point of view, Soo Won had usurped the throne and wanted to destroy the evidence of him (Yona seeing what happened). The fact that Soo Won also said “the Soo Won you knew never existed” definitely didn’t help Hak see his side, giving him the impression that their friendship had been a lie since the beginning. And thus, his heart shattered into a million pieces. And he had to live with that hurt and betrayal every day to himself, to the point where it was suffocating him and he broke down completely when he and Soo Won came face to face in Nadai. But like I said, he has come a long way since then, and now he has some idea of what happened and Soo Won’s real reasoning for killing Il, so their next conversation, which I pray happens soon, might come more easily, but that will also depend on what Soo Won will be willing to say. Let’s remind ourselves that Soo Won has expressed he is ready to live an unhappy life, and is not exactly desperate to explain himself to Yona and Hak nor ask for their forgiveness, even if his heart longs so much for his old friends. He’s that kind of character that doesn’t mind being seen as the bad guy so long as he can get the job done, which is one of the many layers of his character that we’ve seen over and over in the manga.

I am sorry this answer was so long, but like I said, I have a lot of feelings regarding SooHak and I really need them to talk it out soon. I’m sorry if something I expressed about Soo Won is not to your liking or to anyone else’s, but this is my point of view from what I could get from the manga. SooHak is the kind of relationship that works just as well for whatever it’s meant to be, but I have a feeling Kusanagi will leave us in the dark about that one and let us believe it is what we wanna believe it is. At first I was 50/50 about Soo Won dying, I still think it’s a possibility, but now it’s no longer one I necessarily would like to see happen. I want him to make things right with Yona and Hak before the manga ends, and beat this crimson illness. I think a fresh start is something he definitely needs for himself, he was robbed of his childhood when he was only 9 and was pushed into a role he didn’t exactly want, so I would like to see him come to terms with that and close that page, and begin living the life he wanted to live before all this.

Tl;dr; I think Soo Won might be asexual, but his feelings for Hak are definitely still an important part of his character arc that I believe we will see more of. But how Kusanagi will go about them, we can only wonder. Thank you so much for the ask, I really needed to let this all out lmao, and for anyone who disagrees with what I said, please just do me a favor and ignore this post because I really don’t wish to be part of discourse. Soo Won is a character that’s hard to read, and maybe my view of who he is can be different from someone else’s, so let’s be grown ups about it and just respect each other’s opinions and agree to disagree.

[authorjoydragon]

JOY I have neglected to send you Taangy asks and I'M SO SORRY.

I forget though... have you told me which aunts and uncles the dunebabies prefer? If not I would like to know, and if yes, then I've got some scrolling to do LOL. :)

STITCH. I FORGIVE YOU. Even if you didn’t remember me in your fame 😭😂

Okay I could have sworn that you have asked me this and I answered it but I literally cannot find it anywhere soooooo OPE I guess I’ll do it again. It will probably be different answers bc I don’t remember what I said LOL. All I found about faves is this ask about parents/siblings.

Bumi is just so easy going and calm, when he was younger he liked to cuddle with Auntie Katara a lot. Being in the Fire Nation is his favorite. Grandpa Iroh teaches him Pai Sho, Uncle Zuko is always giving him tea and Auntie Katara always lends a listening ear.

Gyatso is a little more squirrely! His favorite is Uncle Sokka because that guy is awesome! Gyatso loves his jokes and dorkiness. He aspires to be more like Uncle Sokka.

Tasha, much like Bumi, likes a calmer environment. Her favorite is Auntie Suki, but she also loves Auntie Ty Lee. She likes being around positive and bubbly people! In her spiritual nature, she loves learning the art of reading auras from Auntie Ty Lee.

Rimi is very introverted and she gets along best with Auntie Mai. They like throwing knives at things instead of talking about feelings.

Kusa is a little bit of a troublemaker, so naturally she’s more drawn to Uncle Sokka. Auntie Katara is too mean for her.

Nishe is double trouble in comparison. She’s going through a bit of a phase because ALL adults are mean and horrible and their rules are stupid.

Raanzin, bless his heart, is just always annoyed by the chaos his siblings create. He likes to be in the FN (especially if his siblings ARENT with him!). He loves Uncle Zuko best because they’ll just sit and read books and not talk. It’s a good time.

Suhn is really happy just about anywhere with anyone, though he does prefer it if it’s quieter. He gets along great with everyone! If he had to pick a favorite it would be either Auntie Katara or Auntie Ty Lee. When he’s young he loves the snuggles, and when he’s older he’s really entranced by their fighting styles.

[aylinnworld]

1) What makes Yona a mary sue isn't her being always courageous it is the fact that she always has or acts like she has the morale high ground that makes her a mary sue. She never really left her house since the day she was born, lived her life while knowing nothing of the outside word, spent a few months in the wild and somehow she always end up lecturing

2) others about right and wrong, she always has the morale high ground no matter what she knows what's right, she knows what's best and she never let negative emotions take the best of her. Chang Ge set out on her journey with rage and thought full of revenge, Yona thought she has to seek revenge but could never bring herself to hate SW she is even feeling bad for Keishuk.

3) u know why ? cause she is a a mary sue A well written character is a character who fails, who struggle, who has ups and downs not a character who never gets challenged, who always win and who is always right. A character who always forgives and raises above is hard to relate to, the way kusa portrayed Hak's struggles regarding SW was always more appealing to me

Hi anon,

I agree that Yona acting like she always knows best is really tiring, especially since the author makes sure that Yona indeed knows best even in places where it makes no sense.

I can say that I don’t mind that Yona quickly got over her hatred for Soo-won. I think it in itself was not so bad as it was different to how Hak felt and it felt real that different people react differently.

However, I agree that Yona goes on unchallenged. To be honest I think it if this was fixed, Yona’s goodness would not be so annoying for you. For example I think the whole diary thing was ultimately a waste. I thought that Yonhi’s diary would challenge Yona’s views on Yuhon, her father and Soo-won, but it did nothing of that sort. All it did was reinforcing her views and basically showing her that her initial judgement, which often is incorrect for people if not supported by solid gathering of information and analysis, was correct.

If it were shown that Yona can fail like an ordianry person or can have a bad luck while trying to achieve something, it would also make things look differently, but alas.

[writer168]

If you had to give a colour to everyone/MC in eight, what colours would they be? And flowers if you’re interested in that! 🌸🔸🔹🔻▪️◽️

Hmmm, that’s a really interesting question actually!

(long post, i got really into it lmao)

Sakura: King Protea and Purple 

The King Protea symbolizes change and transformation, daring and resourcefulness, courage and diversity. It has a lot to do with Sakura and her journey from the Akatsuki to Konoha and back again, and a lot of Sakura’s issues stem from being brave enough to stand up for everyone she loves and being brave enough to change from what she was raised to be. Proteas were also named after Proteus, the son of the sea god Poseidon, so that’s extremely fitting considering who her father is. Purple is the color of royalty and also a sign of transformation, but also of mystery and cruelty. Sakura is a lot of things, and sometimes mysterious and cruel fit her perfectly.

Kiba: Gladiolus and Red

The Gladiolus flower is named for the shape of its leaves and symbolizes strength and moral integrity. Kiba is most definitely the most morally upstanding of his pack and the one who gets hit the hardest in the general sense. His outbursts in Orochimaru’s Lab and when they found out the truth of the Uchiha Massacre were proof of that, and it took all his strength to walk away from the Inuzuka when he picked pack over them. Red is anger and passion and aggression, and Kiba is easily controlled by his emotions and his drive to do the right thing.

Shino: Edelweiss and Brown

Edelweiss was the flower to give to your loved ones, though it wasn’t an easy flower to obtain. There were stories of men falling from icy ledges and snowy peaks trying to collect them and bring them back to the ones they loved. These flowers represent strength, bravery, and love, and there’s nothing Shino wouldn’t do for the pack he loves. It’s most notable when he stood up for his team during the Chuunin Exams, standing in front of Orochimaru and telling the man he would do anything for Sakura and Kiba and Akamaru. And he’d lost an eye for it, but he doesn’t hold any regret. Brown is more of the color symbolizing what Shino wants in life: warmth, foundation, wholesomeness, security. It’s what he strives for and what he desires most, for him and all of his loved ones to stay safe and warm.

Akamaru: Lavender and Orange

Lavender is the flower of silence, devotion, caution, grace. There’s the obvious language barrier between Akamaru and most of his pack even though he can understand every word that they say, but it doesn’t matter to him that they can’t understand him. Dogs, I think, are those companions that are always filled with love. And as long as they know you know that, there’s not a lot that they ask for. Orange is the color of energy and balance and warmth and a demand of attention; like I said, Akamaru is a dog. Even if he’s intelligent and trained and learned fear and revulsion from his month and a half at the Coliseum, at the end of the day, its pack that matters to him.

Tenzo: Anemone and Indigo

The Anemone is sort of a tragic flower. Its darker tones are ones of fading hope and the feeling of being forsaken, and hadn’t that been most of Tenzo’s life? He was an experiment who’d forgotten his name and the only one of his batch to survive. He was a tool for Orochimaru, for Danzo, for the village, and didn’t think much more than that. But Anemones also symbolize anticipation and excitement, and that’s pinpointed the moment Team Eight stepped into his life. These were kids who would remember his name and who he would come to care for; these kids had seen the truth and extended their hand, and he’d taken it. Not to mention the love he’d come to share with Kurenai because of this chance meeting. Indigo is the color of devotion, justice, and wisdom. He was first introduced as a character who justice forgot, and came to be someone wholly devoted to Team Eight.

Kurenai: Moss and Pink

Moss most certainly isn’t a flower, but that doesn’t mean it has any less meaning. Moss is symbolic of maternal love, and Kurenai is a strong kunoichi who time and time again had been shown to see Team Eight as her own kids. Of course she’s not infallible and her biggest mistake had been when she walked away because she couldn’t bare to see her own children die, but could you blame her? Everything she’d ever known had been turned on its head when these fresh-faced genin found out truths that weren’t meant to be known, and she was scared. But she’s slowly making up for that because just because she left doesn’t mean she’d loved them any less and this time, she’d made that decision to go with them this time. Pink is the color of love first and foremost, and in that inn room in Kusa, all she had was love for every single one in that room. A love that would have to expand after learning what Shino discovered from her health assessment. 

Kisame: Purple Hyacinth and Blue 

The Purple Hyacinth is regret. “I’m sorry,” and “Please forgive me,” are what these flowers would say if they could speak. Kisame isn’t a happy character in this story, not since the beginning of Hoshigaki, and certainly not now. He loves Sakura more than life itself, but every day he lives with the guilt of ruining her life. To him, Sakura lost her chance at any semblance of a normal life the moment he cursed her to the Akatsuki, and especially without her civilian mother as the last thread that could possibly hold her down to something normal, he’d unwittingly subjected her to all the horrors Akatsuki had to offer before he gave her up in hopes of her finding a better life. (And we all know how that went, so...) Blue is the color of peace, loyalty, skies, water, and depression. Kisame is level-headed, brutal, and a shinobi to be reckoned with. But he’s kind, and he’s guilty, and he loves Sakura so, so much, and he’ll never forgive himself.

[excutient]

closed birthday ask for @mediioxumate

“Are you sure he’s gonna like ‘em?” Fuyuhiko furrows his brow, nervous as hell as he lays the multicolored cupcake wrappers in the gift box, “I’ve never even made these before, what if they’re shit?” All Fuyuhiko wants is his best friend to have a good birthday, it’s what he deserves after.. well, everything. And if Fuyuhiko manages to fuck up something this simple, he’s never gonna forgive himself for it. They’re brothers now, after all.

Peeking over Fuyuhiko’s shoulder, Nagito watches the other stress over the placement of the small wrappers, “Of course he’ll like them! You really don’t need to worry as much as you are about this, Fuyuhiko. Hajime always raves to me about your baking, and why wouldn’t he? You’re incredibly talented!” Ultimate Baker wasn’t exactly Fuyuhiko’s given talent, but he’s proven again and again he sure is super high school level at it! Nagito watches in awe as Fuyuhiko carefully places the clover shaped kusa-mochi onto the carefully assorted wrappers.

“Remind me again why you insisted so hard on making these clover shaped?” Fuyuhiko asks to distract himself from just how fucking terrified he is to give these to Hajime. He’s so convinced they’re gonna be bad, that he’s gonna ruin Hajime’s favorite dessert for him. The would be the most god damn soul crushing thing, now that baking really is just Fuyuhiko’s whole thing. 

“Ah, yes,” Nagito rubs the back of his neck in embarrassment at having to explain this to Fuyuhiko again. He was more than happy to help the other with making this gift, it was an honor someone like Nagito didn’t deserve. Still, Nagito wanted to add his own personal touch to it, “It’s just a nickname Hajime has for me, his way of making my cursed luck into something affectionate I suppose. This way when he sees them, he’ll think of me. But when he bites into them, and they’re absolutely the most delicious thing he’s ever tasted, he’ll think of you!” Nagito can tell Fuyuhiko is nervous about gifting him something this special, and frankly Nagito is rather nervous too, but he knows it wouldn’t help if he showed that. 

A blush burns in Fuyuhiko’s cheeks and travels to his ears at Nagito’s compliments. He’s sure as hell not unused to Nagito going on and on about how talented they are, but it’s a whole different thing when it comes to Fuyuhiko’s baking, a talent he actually feels invested in. Finally, he finishes perfectly placing each kusa-mochi on the wrappers, and closes the box, “Yea yea, sounds sappy as hell to me. Just go ahead and wrap the ribbon and let’s go.”

As soon as Nagito wraps the ribbon prettily around the box, he leads the way out of his cabin and down a couple doors to Hajime’s. Fuyuhiko steps ahead of him to pound on Hajime’s door, “Open up birthday boy, just because it’s your special day doesn’t mean you can keep us waitin’ out here!” 

[freewilllife]

Now that 2019 is over and we are going into 2020 and we are slowly but surely reaching the end of the story, what do you think of Suwon's journey so far? his feelings, his personality, his goal , his relationships ? What do u think Kusa has in store for him?. I can't help but feel scared for my son cause i feel that sensei will kill him off in the end to make Yona queen.

Apparently the mangaka wishes to continue the manga for 1/3 of its actual length. This means it is not so near the end.

I wonder what she intends to do? I mean it seems as if Soo Won would tell his story this could mean one volume of his story ( I mean even Zeno got one whole volume for his story!)

You know one chapter ago I would have laughed at everybody who told me that the mangaka would kill Soo Won off in order for Yona to become queen.

The reason seemed to be apparent for me: Why bother include a pretty complex character like Soo Won and then throw him in the litter after we got a dull version of a confrontation ?( Yona and Hak forgiving him just because he is deadly ill.What the f....!).

But now I am not sure now. I am sorry anon.

Let´s come to his development:

To be honest, we can conclude or guess how he developed, but a big junk of it is still missing. These missing pieces are hopefully the content of the “story of Soo Won” that the mangaka has to portray in order to complete this character.

Soo Won has developed before Yona and Hak.

He was the one who changed from a child who wished for friendship and comraderie to the determined leader of his clan/the country that threw away exactly the people he still loves before the first chapter. That he still loves Hak and Yona becomes apparent in the later chapters. Still he has refused to give in to this sentiment and followed his path. Which throws us back to the question we have posed ourselves since the beginning.

This contradiction in Soo Won´s character:

To state it clearly he is not a character that suddenly turned dark. He seems to be a “good character” that made questionable decisions for a reason we do (partly) know, but there are too still pivotal elements in the equation that are still missing!

What happened

1. Between King Il and Soo Won?

2. What happened between King Il and Yu hon?

3. What kind of people were the two brothers?

4. These two are the lurking ghots hunting this manga since the beginning.

5. How much knows Soo Won of all this?

6. What were his exact motivations?

These are the question the reader poses at the beginning and still up until this day there has not been a satisfying answer.

So we can guess and partly Soo Won answered it himself in the second chapter.In order for him to fulfill his father´s (dying) wish he resumed the throne. ( I think we can add to the question this “dying wish of his father” since we do not know what exactly Yu hon said or if even there were any direct words to Soo Won that clearly told him to take action. It could be that Soo Won concluded this last wish from the words his father told him previously.)

So:

Soo Won is a morally grey character who was rather driven by certain circumstances to make the decisions he made and not because he suddenly thought that the murder of his uncle was a good idea.

What would I expect from the mangaka:

a) to fill the blanks, which means that the questions above will be answered!

b) don´t make a demon out of Yu hon

The reason is easy: There are some people who could twist the events. Now Soo Won was in the wrong to kill the saintly King Il since he only got rid of the biggest threat of humankind or at least for Kouka.

Good news: This development seems to be unlikely

1. Keishuk illustrates that this cruel man, helped a common child that has been wounded. This illustrates that Yu hon actually didn´t value nobility that high and that he valued the live of the common people.

Hak is told by a common soldier that the support of General Yu hon had been massive in the past ( General Geuntae, General Jong gi, General Ju do ect…)

It was important that Hak was told by a common soldier that King Il didn´t die, because the soldiers had harbored hate towards him, but for Soo Won to take charge!

So the question that poses is the following: Why did they support Yu hon if he was supposed to be such a monster? ( I think there will be a few other good deeds or at least deeds that benefitted the country, which explains the attitude of these people! And maybe and now we come to the second point:

c) It is important that it is demonstrated that King Il was not a complete innocent person. If this person was completely pure and saintly then Soo Won would pose the evil guy who just got rid of him because 1. he didn´t know or 2. just killed him for revenge

Good news: Ju do actually pointed to some shady things that went on behind everybody´s backs in the past ( or mostly Hak who was so trustful was the one of his subordinates that didn´t know.)

Coming back to the earlier question:

There is still hope since all this topics where actually present in the latest chapter:

Yu hon

Yu hon was maybe for the first time presented as a guy who was not hung up on social status

it was emphasized that many people had supported him

King Il

Ju do just told Hak that there was more to King Il than he was aware of!

Soo Won was presented as heir to his father and this was the reason he was supported.

Which means good news for the confrontation between Hak, Yona and Soo Won.

It seems that the illness is not necessary to make Yona and Hak care...

Alright, I can say that there are a few reasons against Yona as queen, which would actually reduce the chance for Soo Won having to die for this.

It was mentioned that King Hiryuu actually wasn´t happy to be king

Yona herself doesn´t feel as great when she lives in the castle

Yona is not queen in the first chapter, when she tells us her story...which means a couple of months or even years later, if we think about the length of her hair.

Soo Won is pretty young to be killed off. Not even 20 years old.

So I cannot guarantee that Soo Won will stay alive, but it would be a waste of time, opportunity and not the wisest decision storywise.

[vinodiriso]

Disinterested civility. [ShikaYosh]

TW; angst, adultery.

“You comin’?” “No, I am going to stay here a while longer, if you don’t mind.”

Shikaku sighed as he promptly sat with his wife on the porch. She was admiring the pale moonlight, as creamy and white as her complexion, her hair freed to the nocturnal breeze, the fabric of her clothes way too fine for her not to feel cold, but she wasn’t complaining. She rarely did it anyway, complaining, he meant, Yoshino was a woman that silenced her troubled heart three times on three. Stubborn, tough, inscrutable doe of his. Shikaku was known for his wisdom, his charisma, his ability to read his opponents’ minds and choose the best tactic based on theirs and their wills; yet, Yoshino was unfathomable like few others. The pain had signed her too deep for Shikaku to get close without suffering. That was part of why she rarely spoke her mind; she feared to upset him, to hurt him. Fool. Couldn’t she see she was his all? He was a bastard, he knew. But never once in the world would he have wanted Yoshino to suffer alone.

“Speak to me.” “Dinner’s ready.” “Yoshino.” “Go away.” “No.” “Then, be quiet.”

Yeah. Be quiet. After all, she was contemplating the moon and she shouldn’t have been disturbed in such occasions; stargazing and cloud watching were for Yoshino sacred rites. He knew he had to stop talking. It didn’t matter that he had heard Yoshino crying when she thought he was sleeping the last few nights. It didn’t matter her gaze seemed a little bit less bright since he had come home from Kusa. It didn’t matter Shikaku dreaded that maybe she found out he had been seeing a woman while he was on mission. God, God, he wanted to kick himself so badly. Shikaku was a proud man, proud of his ethics, proud of his abilities, proud of his appearance… the fact that right then looking himself in the mirror disgusted him spoke volumes of the self-loathing he felt. He hurt his doe. He hurt his doe. He could never forgive himself.

“Come here.” “Uh--- no, sorry, I… I just want to sit here for a while. Please, Shikaku.” “Yoshino...” “Shikaku, please.”

Yoshino was never that polite to him. That cold, freezing courtesy lacked her warmth, her gentle kindness, that tough love he was addicted to. He would have preferred her caring scorn to that disinterested civility. Oh, God, what had he done? Please, please, please, he only cared to win her heart back. He just wanted her heart back, his wife back. He was selfish, he was a traitor, he was nasty and evil, but he ached for her smiles. Please, please, he only wanted her back.

“I---” “No, you aren’t. I know you aren’t, because you are no idiot. You are perfectly aware of your deeds. Leave. Me. Alone.” “...I love you. That must be worth something.” “I know. That’s why it hurts.” “Please...” “Shikaku.” A sigh. “At least eat something.” “I will. Later.” “Promise me.” A tremble. Her lips trembled. “Promise.”