#((I hope my rambling makes sense lol

[wassupmygays]

"even if death tags along, i dont mind,

its still you and me.

I'll never leave you alone

I'll never leave you alone

I'll never leave you alone."

I'll be honest i have been listening to this album On Repeat for the past few weeks and only just now really Heard that first line. oh my god man. this is so important to me. they are so important to me.

just. this entire song is so very beautiful and speaks so much about these two characters. but johnny ending the song by saying he does not care if pony is right about this death around him. he doesnt mind if another horrible thing happens to them, because he will be there. they will be together no matter what. no matter what end is destined for them.

and then i think about ponyboy. this kid who thinks he is somehow causing all of this death. forgetting the frosting, or spitting in a soc's face. Or throwing his cigarette. his best friend in the whole world tells him that no matter what, he will be there with him. they will stick together, and he will never be alone. but then, suddenly, johnny is gone. ponyboy watched him die to a fire that his cigarette caused.

no wonder he was so broken after everything. after everything that happened, and all of their promises, ponyboy felt Alone. johnny was gone and it was his fault. and johnny must have been wrong, back in the church. ponyboy was right after all, and johnny was gone. he left pony alone in the end.

and no wonder he clings to johnny's clothes. that ragged vest that he always wore, with the intricate patterns stitched around the collar. something so loved, so tattered, so johnny. but clutching that pile of clothes to his chest just reminds pony that the boy who wore them is gone. johnny was wrong, and pony was alone.

it isnt until after pony finds Johnny's Letter and starts his theme that he realizes johnny might have been right. he starts to be able to see johnny in everything; in the sunrises, or the gang's laughter during a football game, or in the patterns he doodles in his notebooks. pony starts to see the beauty in the fold, he sees the world with the love that johnny described in his letter. and he feels his best friend in the whole world right there next to him again.

its still you and me

i'll never leave you alone

[salty-an-disco]

popping outta my lockdown cuz watching my friend stream Pristine Cut and we just got Apotheosis and Damsel's new chapter and fuuuuuuuuuuuuuck

(SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT!!!)

focusing just on Happily Ever After for now, cuz fuuuuuuuuuuuck, this route messed with me–

like. badly. like. gotta step away and take a break before continuing badly.

From the branching path alone– the way Smitten reacted to the first disagreement we ever had with the princess. The way he panics, thinking the 'Happily Ever After', is ruined– he had a perfect fantasy prepared for us, and we ruined it. We said it wasn't enough. We… rejected his perfect ending. So he had to take it upon himself to craft a better ending for us–

But he couldn't do it alone, he needs her for that, so he showed her our heart and asked for help–

And. Gosh. Can we just talk about how eerie this chapter feel? It's so bright and yet so. hollow. Empty. Quieter. Realizing Smitten isn't with us just made it worse. Me and my friend started worrying he had actually turned out to be similar to Tower, and for a moment, while talking to the princess, it seemed like it was just that, but… no. He's just doing what we asked for. We asked for a 'Happy Ending', so he gave us that. No matter how much it takes out of him, no matter how much it pains him– we can see the shadows, at first onminous and almost malicious, softens and slouches. He's just as tired as we are, as she is, but– we asked for this, we asked to drag this out, we asked for our 'Good Ending'–

Gosh. And the way Narrator himself starts getting tired of it. Realizes what's happening and– how much it fucking hurts. How painful it is. How empty it feels.

You both feel empty. You say as much, and you both are so tired, and clinging to this 'happily ever after' won't bring you any fulfillment, you just– gotta let go. You gotta let her go.

Not even Narrator tries to stop. He realized just as you did how meaningless eternal happiness is. "There are worse endings than the end of the world," he says. He finally gets it.

And then– THEN

you can finally do what she wanted. And you dance under the stairs.

[merlins-strawberriesandroses]

TO be honest. I don’t understand what it means when people say Merlin was Arthur’s bane. Mayhaps I misunderstand but. Arthur was a bit of an assassination magnet (not to mention all those magical creatures and bandits... so many bandits), and Merlin actively prevented Arthur's death for years, which would have occured without him anway in the very first episode. I can see why one might argue that Merlin was just delaying the inevitable, or that he didn't succeed in keeping Arthur safe until Arthur could enact the golden age, but certainly I don’t see how he could have been Arthur’s bane.

Also, it’s implied in the last episode that the golden age does occur, but under Guinevere. Which makes sense as she knew Merlin was the sorcerer and that she was pleased about it (and I recall it was confirmed in interviews), so I also don’t follow the twin train of thought that Merlin was his own bane or even Camelot’s. Camelot was already bane-d(?) under Uther. But partly because of Merlin's steady friendship, Arthur matured into a king who was kinder than his father. He also actively sought magic's aid on multiple occasions, so he knew magic had potential for good (like healing his queen) without Merlin needing to tell him about his magic.

I don't think it's fair to say Camelot's laws on magic remaining relatively static was because no one close to Arthur came out as having magic. There was still much risk in that, and for Merlin a lot at stake, not just his life. A law change was still possible (and almost seemed to be set up that way) without Arthur needing someone he was personally close to having to do the work to humanize it for him (in the sense that the episodes with the druids, the druid boy with Elyan, and the dolma seemed like they were pointing to a law change because Arthur sees the diversity of magic and those who have it).

At worst Merlin’s efforts didn’t change the status quo, but we do have things indicating that they did. And Merlin was not single-mindedly serving Arthur at the expense of everyone else. He saved Camelot as a whole multiple times. He was also very willing to stick out his neck for many others even during the height of his anxiety and agitation in season 5. (Also only being slightly silly when I say this, but he was also THE wingman for Arthur when he was getting with Gwen, so in a way Merlin’s help led to their courting being a success and thus contributed to her being in a great position to change the laws. so personally I give points to Merlin for that). Most of the decisions centering Arthur's safety seemed to stem from the fear that Albion would crumble before it began if Arthur were to die, so he tried his best to prevent that from happening in any way he knew. (Like, when Arthur is dying, Merlin asks "So I failed?" regarding the whole golden age thing, which I think is telling that the prophesy and his role in it was still VERY much at the forefront of Merlin's mind).

And this is a digression but I know people think Merlin should have done more for Camelot, or for folks with magic (like, as a revolutionary or something akin), which I understand but no one reached out to network with him really? It'd require resources, people (always confused why there weren't a whole bunch more folks offering Merlin material/intellectual/emotional support if they thought he should be the one to bring about the golden age. all he was told was that the forseen way it actually happens succesfully is through Arthur), time (I doubt it’d have been much of a ‘quicker’ way necessarily), and incredible planning + foresight if it's meant to be something that works out effectively + long-term. Okay I think I've digressed enough now. This is a whole seperate thought that I don't think I'm gonna do any justice here lol, and I'm already rambling, so I'll stop now :,)

But anyway, in terms of being his own or Arthur’s bane, we know Arthur will return, and we don’t know how Merlin spent his years. His magic can play with time and maybe he learns how to control that, or he could have entered a stasis like in various legends, etc etc etc. And I mean it is tragic on many levels, and it’s sad we didn’t see Arthur’s arc completed, and that Merlin sacrificed so much for a goal that didn't get much acknowledgment by the show at the end, but still. I don’t think Merlin was Arthur’s bane, or Camelot’s, or his own.

[marabout2772]

Just a silly little comic of my hc, Derek's very first impression of Titch ! 😔✊🏽

(From shoot from the hip's longform, the unrelenting aubergine, again)

Ofc it was love at first sigh for Derek 😀 Titch have some temper issues and Derek find this incredibly attractive. Later on, Derek will help Titch navigates his feelings, but for now he's just enjoying the ride 🙈

bonus panel ⬇️

The cool and strong lady was invented just for the plot, and i really want to name her Jemima, you know, for the meme 🙈

Likes are cools, reblogs are cooler btw, it keeps tumblr alive !

A few headcanons below the cut !

At this point i imagine that James and Titch are in very bad terms, their father's not dead yet, but very sick, and this is really impacting Titch's mood and his capacity to regulate his emotions

I like to think that Titch is a stubborn mf by nature, and this, in addition of all this situation, make him really insufferable by moment. The precedent assistant actually quit bc he couldn't stand Titch's outburst anymore

Thanks god for Jemima (yes thats her name now) who has a strong mind and is not too bothered by Titch's atitude. She worries a lot for him and James, but she can't do anything except helping at the farm, so that's how she shows her support. Titch will be very grateful for it, but for now he's too much in his own head to notice her efforts

Then comes Derek, remplacing the former assistant. He is very patient, very persistent, and very much in love. So after countless tentatives of trying to get closer (that involves a lot of failures, a near firing experience, and this "one time that counted a lot for me"), Titch finally let his walls down, and accept that Derek actually want to help him. Derek actually want to love him. He still has trouble believing it sometime, still have a lot to re learn, but they're moving forward together.

At some point, Jemima, seeing that Titch doesnt need her anymore, will allow herself to live her own life and move out of the country. And here comes Phillip ! I have nothing on him, yet

Okay my brain is frying rn, so i'll stop. But yeah, i have a lot to say about these two idiots. Titch really is the perfect vessel to shove all of the trust and abandonment issues, so that's fun 😀🤡

[mosspodge]

ok so ive been. Thinking. about @okartichoke ‘s ace avian AU- specifically vulture Godot bc ya :]

ANYWAYS ITS TIME TO DO MATH FOR FUN!!!

Vultures have some of the largest wingspans, aside from seafaring birds like albatross and pelicans! so i got real curious about Godot’s wingspan being a bearded vulture n all

For atarters, here they are next to people!

I’m gonna be using the averages of all tge size ranges for this btw

The average bearded vulture stands at about 2 feet high, with an average wingspan of around 8 feet.

This leaves them at about a 3rd of the height of Godot, who (according to the wiki) stands at 6ft 1in! I’m rounding down to 6ft even for sake of ease

Taking the wingspan and tripling it, that would leave us with 8ft x 3 = 24ft wingspan

For reference, each wing would be around

11 FEET LONG

(subtracting around 10in for the shoulderblades, based on my brother lol)

this would be about 2 godots on their sides for EACH WING.

anyways i know there was the question of how godot’s wings ended up coffee stained, have you considered he consistently knocks the coffee pots over with his GIANT BIG WINGS

[aroacefanartist]

no bc apollo is so easy, he isnt even level 1

you know when you start a game and at the very start, you're just being shown the controls and stuff? That's apollo

[gjsxj0]

mindless rambling in tags don't mind me

[jestierabbit]

ok here we go! 1) how would both of them find out about their own feelings? 2) would oswald be with ortensia still or did they break up or is it an open marriage or? 3) hows mickey feel about this? or does he not know? would oswald want to keep it secret?

Okay, okay bare with me! I’ve written a lot and drew some doodles so—

1) So this is a friends to lovers thing

It starts pretty basic, Oswald feeling outcasted by Mickey and his group-- on his own accord, they're all very nice and welcoming but it's very overwhelming and it's Mickey's friend group. Which draws him to the outskirts of the group-- one of those people being Pete.

They're good at bantering, playing off each other. Oswald isn't scared of him so isn't afraid to talk back. Pete likes the spunk. I also like to imagine when they first meet Pete doesn't know that Oswald is Mickey's brother. I REALLY like the idea that he finds out from Goofy on accident.

That being said, friendship and bonding leads to subtle feelings. They likely don't notice it at first as it is just a really close friendship. Ultimately I think Oswald realizes his feelings first. And it's instant guilt. He's already felt a little bad getting along with Mickey's "enemy" granted Mickey never seemed to care about that-- but Os starts to act weird, keeping to himself a little more just to try and curb the feelings which leads to Pete realizing his feelings and RAAAAINING denial of that fact.

But it's hard to ignore when he's like... missing Oswald. What's up with that????

2) So obviously this one is hard because as you know I'm an AVID Oswald and Ortensia stan but Oswald has two hands~

BUT in this case I'd picture an AU of sorts-- similar story beats or something entirely new really it doesn't matter much what the background is because their personalities work really well together. So if it wasn't an open marriage, I'd say it's because of the same excuse I have given in the past-- Oswald and Ortensia are actors and as actors they are always paired together as a couple but are not officially an actual couple. Again, realistically details don't matter much I can MAKE IT WORK!!!

3) SO! Mickey knows about the growing friendship Oswald and Pete have and is happy about it! Oswald is a good friend to have and Mickey knows Os can handle himself, Pete isn't making him do anything he wouldn’t want to so ideally it'll be good for both of them! He is naive to the feelings though, mostly because he's pretty certain Oswald would've told him if that were the case. Oswald WOULD want to keep it secret as well, mostly because at first he has no -lans to act on them. He'd tell Mickey if Pete and him actually went any further then a friendship, but he'd keep his mouth SHUT about a budding crush. This draws a rift between Os and Pete of course, like I mentioned before.

If/WHEN they get together though and Mickey knows 9because he would know)- Oswald will openly talk about Pete often. He thinks that jerk is amazing and Mickey supports him.

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Any tips possibly, for drawing Barnaby’s ears and making them floppy? I find that with how fluffy I like to draw them (similarly to you) it’s hard to show gravity laying them down on his shoulders and such. (Also if you see this I REALLY REALLY LOVE YOUR ART, YOUR HUMOR AND YOUR WAY OF TEXTING AND SUCH AND YOU ARE SUCH A BIG INSPIRATION TO ME IN MANY WAYS!! 💙💚)

i can sure as hell try!!! my scribbling process is very much a Subconscious thing so let me know if all of this is too vague / doesn't make Any sense, cause trying to translate it is Tough

okay so

the first Important thing is to visualize Barnaby's ears as physical objects. they have weight, volume. im just now realizing i could have used Clown's ~official site~ art to help clarify, oops. we'll have to do with my own scribbles. they'll mold to whatever manipulates them - not to the extent of water, but they're plushy.

personally, i view them as beanbags, or half-stuffed pillows - or water balloons. thick, and having a specific Shape but not solid. i always start with the basic shape before adding the fluff, as shown below. the "meat" of the ear, the heaviest part and the most affected by gravity, will distort the most when manipulated, and the volume will distribute

then when adding the fluff, keep in mind that the fur/plush folds with the grain. like if you have a pet, and you press your hand to their side, their fur will kinda bend and be "pinned" under your hand.

also! it helps to test this out yourself. if you have a beanbag, or a water balloon, a pillow with depleted stuffing - mess around with em. study how the shape changes and how the volume distributes. if you have something fluffy (a pet, a funky pillowcase, etc) mess around with the fur/fluff! a strong visual inventory helps So So much with art

speaking of weight and distribution!

i split Barnaby's ears up into two (technically three) parts - the anchor, where the ear attaches to his head, and the ear's weights. the first weight is attached to the anchor, so that one doesn't move much. it's mostly just affected by the ear's main weight, which is So Much Fun to play with.

honestly, the second weight is a beanbag all to itself. it really molds to fit the form of whatever presses against it. like shoulders! idk if the white lines are showing it well, but the ears' distribution usually flows off of the first weight and hits the second, where it kinda "bounces" on or falls around the solid surface blocking it

& the space between the weights (blue circles) is just connective. like, it still has stuff in it, but Less, yk? i think this thin space is good for portraying gravity/weight through how much there is - more = stretch, less + squish.

here's some additional visuals for weight, volume (shown with mesh), and gravity

so just.... yk... keep in mind that his ears have Volume and will fold over itself, bunch up, the basic shape is just Very malleable! his ears are beanbags attached to a fixed point on his head - other than that point, they can swing and squish however!

[which-qsmp-egg-would]

HEY. YOU.

I AM GRIPPING YOU AND EVERYONE ELSE BY THE SHOULDERS. CRINGE IS DEAD. FANWORKS REIGN SUPREME. I LITERALLY JUST FINISHED ANOTHER DRAWING OF MY EGG OC'S WHILE PROCRASTINATING ON THEIR LORE.

Also don't worry, the summer camp event won't be the only event I do, you can join the playdates at any time (and even initiate your own events! I'll be so excited if you do!!!)

aaaand I also would be so super excited to see your eggsona because I'm always excited to see eggsonas :D That's kind of my thing over here lol.

(I hope you don't mind me calling you out, @raineedayss )

[dootznbootz]

This might be my asexualness speaking but simply putting your faces together, nuzzling, and quick pecks on cheeks/forehead/nose/etc. will ALWAYS be more loving/intimate than kissing on the lips.

To me, those "smaller" acts of affection are more intimate as it's simply a physical reminder of "Hey, I care about you" and/or "I love being close to you".

I've seen so many people make out just to make out even with folks they don't know (Good for them! I do not care what others do as long as everybody involved is okay!) and I think for Allos, the act of kissing each other's lips is a way to gain physical "pleasure" as well as there are a lot of nerves on the lips.

But lil kisses elsewhere? Your skin isn't touching their skin enough to GAIN any pleasure for yourself other than a happy "I'm just letting you know I care" sorta thing you know? And if it is prolonged nuzzling/closeness, it's still just very "soft". You're doing a small physical act of affection for THEM. And idk I just really love that. Little reminders of love for THEIR sake, you know?

[kyouka-supremacy]

Well.

[zoya-nazyalenskys]

finished veilguard and my final thoughts on it are that it's a pretty fun rpg but a bad dragon age game

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

four walls playlist

[incorrectsibunaquotes]

tumblr glitched and spared you all the most heated rant of my entire hoa fandom tenure

[princeblue]

No but seriously I truly think Alastor was genuinely caring for the hazbin hotel group pre the battle, the personal talk with Charlie? There’s no way he would have had that conversation with say, husk, or Rosie, maybe Mimzy because the way she talked about him inferred that they were/are really close despite the way she runs to him for protection. Hell’s greatest dad was definitely a tactic and a jab at Lucifer, why I’m not sure. Probably because he wants to be the ruler (once again why? Why would a mortal soul want that? We know Alastor is ambitious but I can’t see him wanting to be bothered to deal with overlords and seven deadly sins and angels. The only plausible reason I can think of is so it would get him out of his deal but then again that seems like an insane trade off for your freedom which he mostly seems to have.) but every interaction he had with Charlie & Rosie & Mimzy seemed so genuine.

Watching him so obviously be alastor (wanting to guide Charlie and probably not in a good way) and speaking fondly of the group with nifty and calling them his friends during such a vulnerable moment where no one could possibly see and him speaking openly about such a secret, such as him being shackled to a deal and nearly losing his life for them (which I think was partially of his own free will with wanting to challenge Adam and we seen how that went, but him being at the hotel 100% wasn’t out of his free will AT FIRST imo) is such an interesting conflict in Alastor and the best part is that you can believe it or not believe it.

Characters who keep you guessing like this are always just so fucking fun, I can’t wait to see more of him if they keep this direction of Alastor having moments where he cares for them and then snaps back to the Alastor who wants nothing more than power.