#( no verse u pick love me bye )

[freedomfireflies]

hi , ‘s me 📚

Normally I don’t indulge in saying something like this, but you’re so silly for thinking people wouldn’t love part two of the infinite-verse (is that a thing?)... anyway, almost got distracted and forgot my point but… Um… I told you so. Respectfully. Affectionately. I told you so.

I am reeeeeeeeling for his possessiveness. Like obviously there’s always a flattering aspect with possessiveness but the way you write it, for him, is sooooo hot. Like there’s something special about it. Idk. I can’t tell if it’s because I wouldn’t expect it from him, because of the open relationship aspect, or because he’s…. I have no idea. But the way you write it for him specifically is soooo yummy. So hot. Loved that. 

What’s crazy is that after the first part, I was kind of nervous to see how a full story of them would play out. Because something like this you’d inevitably expect to be messy and painful and someone always ends up hurt and the idea of that stresses me out. Because Rebecca doesn’t deserve that. And ruined friendships? All of that scares me. It becomes too real. Emotional pain and disharmony can be overwhelming (especially when the writer is so good and it gets you emotionally attached to characters). You know what I mean? But after reading Insatiable You and the anons and their ideas and your responses, it seems a little less scary. Like I can see a light at the end of the tunnel. And I always think it’s funny when you see something come to life that seemed like it wasn’t possible. Like oh, I guess… I guess there is a way out that maybe wouldn’t be so awful… You know? If that made any sense. (it’s probably an unpopular opinion, because I know people love angst, but I feel like I have enough emotional turmoil in my personal life LMAO)

Yes please to all of these:

Harry's jealousy doesn't really come out with Rebecca anymore...but with Kitty? 😗 New fear: unlocked and I kind of want to see him lose it hAHHA 

I'm thinking maybe if they go rougher, she could slip into her subspace and we'd see how he reacts!! Which also would make it harder for him to leave 😗 and he'd maybe realize how much he actually cares for her 😗😗 THOUGHTS ARE BEING THUNK! 

AGREED!! Also bye HAHAH I literally love the idea of him actually being so confused?? Like this was just sex?? Why do I want to rip this guy's fucking teeth out?? CONFUSION??

Maybe even Rebecca having to be the one to say, "My dude.............why do you think?" SLFJSDF

Maybe a double date with Harry and Rebecca 😗 I feel like that would be wildly hilarious asfjsdf just them sitting at the same table, both getting jealous while their partners are completely obvious HAHAH

As for part two thoughts... Just gonna give you a zillion clips of pieces I loved.

d i a l o g u e  pops

He slaps your clit. Hard. “Beg me,” he repeats. “Fucking beg me, baby. Beg me to touch you. Beg me to stretch you. Beg me to fuck this cute little hole until you’re coming all down my hand.” -

“Have you been going around, trying to give away what’s mine?” 😵‍💫

He grins a bit wider and it makes your chest swell. “Is that right, Kitten?” 😵‍💫

“Don’t care,” you vaguely hear him murmur before he’s nipping at your clit again. “Again.” - what the shit. Whoa. yeah. Okay. whoa. 🫣

This is what you wanted, isn’t it? 😵‍💫

Then, the book is suddenly snatched from your hand and chucked across the room before he kisses you harder. He growls, “Enough. You don’t come for him anymore. You fucking come for me. Is that understood?” 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

“You are not to pick up that goddamn book as long as you’re mine, do you hear me? You will not touch yourself to another man’s words or soak these fucking sheets for anybody else but me.” 🫨

“Huh? I don’t fucking care who wrote it. It is no longer yours to read. Tell me you understand.” 🫨

“I know,” he says gently. He’s watching you again. Curious to your reaction and seemingly enthralled by your response. Happy. Content. “I know, baby. S’good, yeah?” 🥺😖

You feel him nuzzle his cheek against your head. “Shh,”  he coos, and rubs his other hand up and down your spine soothingly. “You’re okay. You’re gonna take it, aren’t you? Gonna give me another—” 😵‍💫

“You’re okay,” he repeats firmly. “You’re fine. I know you can take me, so take me. Just like you took your little fingers before I got here. You come for me the way you came for him. Okay?” 😵‍💫

You let out a relieved sigh that makes him smirk and you adore his smugness. More than you should. - Relatable. Deeply relatable.

You feel him smile against your throat. 😵‍💫

Then, he dips down, and nuzzles his nose against yours. “You’re too good to me,” he exhales. It sounds heavy. Scared. Sweet. “I don’t deserve you, Kitten. I hope you know that.” - Wanna know why baby boy doesn’t feel like he deserves her:( he’s so giving:(

All the smacking, the clit, the thigh, the spanking 🫨

Grits his teeth and fists your skin until he’s completely bottomed out. And then…he kisses you.

Long and slow and it almost feels grateful. Like he’s thanking you for letting him inside and you sigh against his mouth.

🫠

You like to think he’d laugh if it were any other time. Today, however, he merely yanks himself out of your pussy and flips you around. - so cheeky of her, love this character development.

He slows his thrusts. “Are you thinking again?” he asks gently. “Did I lose you to those ugly thoughts?”

You could almost cry from the way he notices. The way he cares. Still, you force a brave face. “No, sorry. Just feels really good.”

He’s unconvinced. “Kitten—”

😖🥺💔

You feel your eyes grow larger while your head nods all on its accord. And he grins when he sees how mesmerized you are

🥹

Kissing and licking your tits while his palm flattens against your spine to keep you on his tongue. 🫠

He smiles and takes your hand. “Right here,” he murmurs, as though anticipating your wonder. He presses your palm flat against your stomach before nudging himself up into you and— - precious omg tender omg 😭

You surge forward and kiss him. Taking your hand away only so you can drag it down his chest and claw at his heart as though desperate to reach inside and take hold. To keep it. Forever. 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

there’s something so incredibly wonderful about knowing he’s equally as possessed as you are. 🥹

He seems to realize he’s the first man to do something so intimate with you and he likes this idea.

Yet your tears and meek reaction only entertain him further. He grins wickedly as he rolls you faster, taking your nipple in his mouth before looking up. “What’s the matter, baby, hm? S’it hurt?” 🥵😵‍💫🫨🫠

But you can’t help the whine that slips out when you see those delicious pearlescent drops go to waste and you squirm when you realize how much you’re really losing.You’ve never been one to care about keeping it inside. In fact, you’ve never really cared about it at all. But now…it feels like you’re losing him. You’re losing this experience by letting it drip down and disappear, and you nearly start to cry.

He takes hold of your cheek and gently sweeps his thumb across the soaked, warm skin of your face. “Baby,” he breathes. “What’s wrong?”

You swallow thickly and attempt to relax. You don't imagine he'd understand. “Nothing, sorry.”

His head tilts but he’s still smiling. “Then why are you clenching me so hard? What’s wrong? Are you in pain, does it hurt?”

“No. No,” you assure him quickly. “No, I just…I don’t know. Feels like…a waste, I guess.”

He’s confused until you look down and the moment he realizes, he laughs again. “Oh, you sweet fucking girl—” He tugs you in for another kiss and now your body is numb, too. “God, I really don’t fucking deserve you.”

You whimper against his tongue and he sighs.

“I’ll give you more, don’t worry,” he says before kissing down your throat. “Next time. I promise. But right now, I wanna clean you up and make sure you’re all right.”

O b s e s s e d with this entire thing. Her not caring? Her getting sad about it? And she feels so fragile and sentimental? And then she tells him and he laughs because he’s flattered and adores her? 

“Yeah. Because I know my partner trusts me to take care of them even if I’m being harsh. And there’s something powerful in that, I guess. That their pain and their pleasure belongs to me.” - he’s perfect 🥺

He laughs. “Was I mean, Kitten?” - i love him 😫

He hums before he looks toward the discarded novel on the other side of the room. “Yeah, well…fuck that book. I mean it.”

“Yeah. I just picked an easy one since I didn’t want you to get too jealous.”

“Is that right?”

“Yup. Although that clearly didn’t work very well.”

You feel him land a firm smack to your ass that makes you squeal before you settle again.

“Watch it,” he warns. “Or I’ll pull you over my lap right now.”

You grin. “Maybe you should.”

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The final dialogue about Rebecca is so real but in such a soothing way. Everything he does is so soothing. Like I genuinely never stop worrying but he’s just so… disarming. And I think I’d be shit at sharing too but I actually can see how maybe she’s holding onto what she can get from him because he is so soothing and so perfect and his words are just. You’re brilliant for this. And Kitten is so real and raw for her words. 

I adore you more than WORDS!!!!!!! You have absolutely no idea how much this meant to me, especially the fact that you took the time to say all this!!! I appreciate you endlessly and will never be able to express it enough 😭💞💞💞 THANK YOU AGAIN for always talking to me and being so sweet!!!

[hi1234456]

This Time | Tomioka Giyuu x Gender Neutral Reader

Genre: Fluff/Angst

Description: Giyuu lost you in his past life, but he’s determined not to let you go this time.

Reader Gender: Gender Neutral

Warnings: SPOILERS!!! (Spoilers from the KNY manga), Mentions of violence, death, cussing

Universe: Canon-verse (Although non-canon events occur) Also reincarnation AU (When you meet your soulmate from your past life, you regain some of your memories with them)

Requests: Open!!!

Author’s note: I just realized that the concept I tried to do is confusing- So basically, if you get reincarnated and meet your soulmate from your past life, you regain some of the memories you guys had with each other.

Giyuu had always been in love with you. After meeting you, he immediately became a victim to the hands of love. Your smile, your laugh, your personality, just everything about you was amazing to him.

He always felt a sense of euphoria when he was around you, and he always found his mind wandering back to you when the two of you were apart.

“I love them?” Giyuu asked, turning to face his fellow pillars Mitsuri and Tengen.

“I mean, from what you’ve said about them...” Mitsuri took a second to swallow the dango she was eating. “Yes, it really does seem like you’re in love with them!”

“Are you sure about that? Me being in love with...” Giyuu turned towards your direction.

Giyuu’s gaze softened when his eyes landed on your smiling face. You had been picking random cloves from the grass, and had finally found a four leaf clover, which excited you.

“Man! Look at the way you’re looking at them too!” Tengen groaned, rubbing his head. “And you say you’re not in love with them. Obvious bullshit.”

Mitsuri just giggled while Giyuu looked a Tengen, astounded.

“In love...?” Giyuu asked, raising a hand to his own blushing cheeks.

He always knew that he felt a special feeling around them, but love? Was it really that?

“I mean, if aren’t gonna believe us, it’s ok,” Tengen said, giving Giyuu a small smirk. “But we’re just saying that you most likely are in love with Y/N.”

Tengen got up from the bench he was sitting on, and waved at Giyuu.

“I gotta get going now, so bye.”

“You’ll be able to figure out those feelings Giyuu!” Mitsuri said, giving him a smile before following Tengen, leaving a confused Giyuu and his thoughts behind at the dango store.

Giyuu then glanced at you again, only to have his gaze met by yours, which startled him. You smiled before running towards Giyuu.

“Giyuu! Hello!”

“Oh... Hi.”

“I saw you talking with Mitsuri and Tengen! What were you guys talking about?”

“O-oh, nothing,” Giyuu gave you a small smile, trying to brush off his awkwardness. “What were you doing?”

“Oh, I was looking for a four leaf clover! There’s a wish I have, and I’m hoping that the four leaf clover brings me enough luck to make it come true.”

“Hm? What is it?”

“It’s a secret! Just kidding, I’ll tell you. I’m hoping for my next quest to go well.”

“You’re an excellent demon slayer though, Y/N, and you’ve never seemed so nervous about a quest? Did something happen?”

“Ah, there’s this gut feeling I have that...” You looked at the ground for a second before regaining your eye contact with Giyuu. “That something bad is going to happen. But it should be fine! It’s probably just a dumb thought!”

Although you just laughed it off like it was nothing, Giyuu couldn’t help but become worried. What if something bad really did happen to you? What if you ended up getting heavily injured? What if you even died?

“Giyuu, I’ve got to get going, unfortunately. I have to set off for my mission,” You gave him a small smile before turning around. “Goodbye!”

“Wait!” Giyuu’s hand suddenly latched onto one of your hands, startling you.

“Hm? Is there something wrong?” You ask him.

“I...”

“You...?”

“U-uh, I... I hope your mission goes well.”

You give him a warm smile before saying, “Thank you. I must get going now. Goodbye!”

He watched your figure disappear more and more into the distance. He couldn’t help but feel more and more anxious as you got farther and farther away. He now couldn’t shake the feeling that he too, feels like something bad is going to happen to you.

And something did happen.

“Y/N is dead, Giyuu.” Tanjiro said, showing up at the doorsteps of Giyuu’s mansion.

“Wh-what?”

“They’re dead...” He managed to choke out.

So it really was true. Giyuu had heard about it from his crow moments ago, but he refused to believe it. He thought it was some sort of mix-up, and that you weren’t truly dead.

“I’m s-so sorry,” Tanjiro choked out, tears falling from his eyes. “I wasn’t able to protect them. This is all my fault.”

“Don’t blame yourself Tanjiro,” Giyuu patted Tanjiro’s back lightly. “Y/N wouldn’t have wanted you to.”

Tanjiro managed to look at Giyuu one more time, trying to give him a small smile before he left Giyuu’s mansion.

As soon as Tanjiro left, Giyuu immediately shut the door and broke down on the floor.

Why?

Why didn’t he tell you that he loved you that day?

Why was he such a coward?

Negative and regretful thoughts clouded Giyuu’s head as he continued to sob about your passing.

He never got to tell you how much he loved your smile, your hair, just everything about you. He would never be able to express his feelings for you because you were gone.

There wasn’t a single day after that where Giyuu didn’t regret not expressing his feelings for you. Every single day, he always wondered if anything would’ve been different if he had just told you his feelings for you, or if he had stopped you from going on that mission.

He even thought about that until his last breath.

Giyuu was sent on a mission to exterminate a group of demons, nothing that was supposed to be too hard for him. However, there wasn’t supposed to be an upper-rank moon there. He had tried to kill it, but it had overpowered him and sent him to his death.

As Giyuu laid on the ground with a large wound stretching from his chest to his stomach, his mind wandered back to those unsaid words.

“Please...” Giyuu whispered, his eyesight getting hazier and hazier with every passing second. “Please let me tell Y/N that I love them in my next life.”

And with that, Giyuu had taken his last breath.

Time skip... (After all the demons were slain)

Giyuu waddled out of the bakery happily with his freshly baked raisin bread. He had always loved the Kamado Bakery’s raisin bread, and always woke up at 6:30 on Saturdays to get the freshly baked ones.

Giyuu sat on a park bench and started munching on one of the loaves of raisin bread. He smiled to himself.

“Nothing beats the raisin bread at the Kamado bakery.” He said quietly, taking another bite of the bread.

“Actually, I’d personally have to disagree with that.”

Giyuu turned towards the side of him to find a figure leaning on a tree, observing Giyuu.

“Who even are you?”

“Oh, I’m Y/N! Sorry for interrupting your eating time! I just wanted to say that I think their yakisoba bread is better. I mean have you tried that stuff? It’s so freaki-”

At that moment, you and Giyuu both felt a painful throb in your heads, and memories came rushing back to you both. Memories of your past life as demon slayers.

“Giyuu?! Wait, you- you’re...” You paused for a second, before exclaiming. “You’re Tomioka Giyuu?!”

Giyuu didn’t say anything, he just simply pulled you in for a hug, not caring if he had dropped his raisin bread.

“I missed you so much Y/N...” Giyuu muttered, his head buried into your shoulder. “And I’m so sorry that I couldn’t tell you this earlier.”

“Tell me what earlier?”

“I’m so sorry that I couldn’t tell you that I loved you...” Giyuu drew his head back and looked you in the eye, giving you a small smile. “So I’ll tell you now. I’ve loved you ever since we both joined the corps together, and I’m so sorry that I didn’t tell you I loved you that day. If I could go back to tell you, I would. But since I can’t, I’ll tell you now. This time, I won’t chicken out like last time. Y/N, I have always loved you, and I always will.”

[ambivartence]

OH MY GOD BIAS LOVING HOURS????? I WAS MADE FOR THIS, GET READY SIYUAN!!!!!

(i almost want to do two but idk if you wanna read that so i will pick jaemin since i feel like i've been giving my love disproportionately to mark lately <3)

favorite thing about him: he is so sweet and caring to his members 🥺 and he has the best smile 😭 and his life skills?? so attractive. every time he grills meat during things like 7llin???? 😍 also honestly his introvert side is so relatable hahaha and i love that he can literally not say a word in a 30 min video, and it's cool cuz he's just chilling and having fun watching his members <3 the self confidence it takes to do that (and ofc also his members make him feel comfortable being just who he is). i think it's awesome that he does his own thing and doesnt care what you think!!

when i knew he was my bias: i got into dreamies after 127 but the moment i laid my eyes on na jaemin i was done for.....HAHAHAHAH. i think it was dream in wonderland (the one from july 2021) that sold the deal for me

fav looks on him: i literally have a whole series for my fav outfits of his ahahahaha but of course im going to drop some pics here....first, i am a huge fan of the simple tshirt and athletic wear/baseball caps:

but i also love a man in a good suit and jaemin is no exception

but i have SO many fav outfits and this is just a drop in the ocean

fav verse/choreo: i LOVE LOVE the part in my youth where he does his lazy rap in his super deep voice and then he harmonizes with renjun in octaves oh my god i could listen to that part on repeat forever (and sometimes i rewind that part just to listen to it again lmao). also his dancing has really improved in the past few years and i think he does choreo like universe really well (not that i actually know anything about dance). of course the ice cream part in boom is iconic and i'm whipped for that (also the "let's roll" part in ridin lol)

my wish for him: PLEASE PLEASE KDRAMA ACTOR JAEMIN SOON!!!!!! im begging

anything about him: i love that hes handsome as hell but also cute BUT ALSO such a meme all at the same time??? see this post for reference: https://mieohmy.tumblr.com/post/650834428624568320/jaemin-also-jaemin-who-is-somehow-at-the-same

also he's such a model oh my god

i also feel the need to point out that he looks good even with mud on his face:

okay bye im having a heart attack at these pics and this has been an essay on this man, thank you for reading <3333 love you

(and sorry for the weird picture dimensions lmao)

"every time he grills meat during things like 7llin???? 😍" pls i remember our entire cry session over this iasifnoeasefksdfsf also im throwing a tantrum how does he look so good even caked in mud that's so unfair what the hell!!!!!!!!!!!!! anyways this entire essay was so valid and his lazy rap is >>>>>>> in my youth and every should go listen to him and also to renjun (beloved boy) and jaemin truly is the whole package of hot cute chill and absolutely crackhead hilarious and (u already know) i have sUCH a soft spot for him too 🥺🥺

> bias loving hours are (always) open <

[trvelyans-archive]

i am on my hands and knees begging for u to tell me about lila and margot 🙏

jasmine.............. thank you for this gift

under the cut because i expect it’ll get very long <3 :) update after i finished writing: it is, in fact, very long and also took me over an hour. so. take that as whatever sort of warning you might want.

let’s start with margot !

she was born to a couple of really young parents who..... did not want to be parents. at all. they were still in the party-and-get-drunk phase of their life and didn’t want to have a kid to worry about, so a large part of her childhood was spent couch surfing between relatives, mostly her grandfather.

they were really close! he would help her with her homework, they would cook together, he would let her drink underage so that she was well-versed in beer by the time she was like. idk. 16 lol. but she felt closer to him than her own parents, who were good when they were around but. they mostly weren’t around <3

when she was 19, her grandpa starting showing pretty serious signs of memory loss and whatnot and eventually had to be moved into a home. she was living with him by that point, so she had to continue to spend a year or so of her adult life couchsurfing. it didn’t help that she was in school full-time to get an engineering degree of. some kind. i think mechanical engineering. idk. and didn’t have a job, so to pay back her roommates she took up a majority of the housework as well as picked up odd jobs on the weekend. her grandpa’s health continued to decline through this time so she didn’t actually mind being busy because then she. didn’t have to think about it at all <3

and then.............. when she was 20......... her boyfriend of a year  suggested that she not only move in with him but that they get married and margot, who has never had stability ever in her life, jumped at the opportunity !

after she graduated, she found it incredibly hard to find a career (even though they were in the same program and He had no trouble finding one), so she was back to not working but her husband didn’t mind and he supported her whole-heartedly. during this time she started running and then eventually started going to a gym with a couple of her female friends from their neighbourhood! she would also spend a lot of time at her grandpa’s but his health was still rapidly declining. eventually her now-husband said that she should probably stop visiting him and margot was like “.... ok i guess”

And then. :)

she kept spending time outside of the house and started taking self-defense classes with a few of her friends and her husband was started to get very antsy. he wanted her to be at home, told her that he didn’t like her going out at night or, eventually, at all, and would find ways to keep her home every night so she didn’t go out. during this time he also started getting. um. very manipulative. he was easily triggered into starting arguments. so she increased the frequency of her self-defense classes and, eventually, they became Very Useful in an argument with her husband. so. we hate him :)

after that she filed for a divorce, moved away and changed her name to her late grandmother’s last name. she started working at a gym in her new town and eventually decided to open her own ! she had gotten the building about 2-3 weeks before the outbreak hit and didn’t have any furniture or equipment of any kind, so she met up with 2 middle-aged women from her old gym and they travelled together until one of them was bitten in a fight with walkers and dragged into a big crowd of them to be eaten and the other one was bitten and margot had to shoot her when she got zombified and tried to attack. :(

that’s where i have left off for now but i am going to develop her More the more i watch the show !!!

okay. backstory over. now for the fun bits:

her faceclaim is mackenzie davis specifically in terminator (without the. lines on her arms and whatever idk what those are) and this picture is the most margot-vibe imaginable.

the haircut was an incredibly recent choice but it came in handy during the outbreak because she didn’t have to worry about keeping hair out of her face. girlboss !

she is 6′2 :) her and her husband were funnily enough the 2 tallest people in her graduating class

she spoke occasionally to her parents after graduating and moving away but they fell out of touch a year or so before the outbreak began and she......................... unsurprisingly doesn’t miss them at all

she has 1 keepsake and it’s an old keychain of her grandpa’s and if anything happens to it. she will kill everyone in any room and Then herself !!!

she likes to where tank tops to show off her big arms. is this very ergonomical in the apocalypse where zombie bites can kill you instantly ? nope! will she do it anyway to intimidate people ? yup!

she Cannot cook. at all. she lived off of take-out and microwavable meals for the first 20 years of her life and then she always had someone else making food for her until she moved away on her own when it was back to takeout.

on the topic of food :) her fave foods are mac and cheese with breadcrumbs and meatlover’s pizza !

she will do literally anything for a good beer. anything. she keeps an eye out for them every time she goes scavenging in buildings and will try to get at least 1 bottle per trip. girlboss !

she cannot sing. in fact she’s not just average, she’s Terrible. she can, however, play mad guitar because her grandpa taught her.

now onto miss lila :)

she was born in a town a couple over from rick’s and was the younger sister of 2 ! she had a really great family and a very very happy childhood :) her dad was a wildlife rehabilitator and her mom was a landscaper who took a lot of pride in their nice big backyard and garden and Land where they. you know. rehabiliated the wildlife and what not

she worked a lot with her dad and mom at their wildlife centre and also helped her mom garden a lot (their house was on the same property as the centre so it was a nice big plot of land). she took a lot of interest in rehabilitating animals and it sparked a very early childhood interest in Caring for things (namely little wild critters) which extended to her helping out little kids on the playground when they got scraped knees and things. she always had a package of bandaids in her backpack from second grade on. an angel <3

in her final year of high school she had a very quick fling with a boy from her high school that ended… poorly. and then she got pregnant! which she. Did not expect. nor want. nor need in her life because she was planning on moving to atlanta to go to medical school and kickstart her career. her sister, who had recently dropped out of school and lost her job, decided to Take One for the team and claim the baby as hers so lila could go to medical school and stuff. their parents promised to take good care of her and they all made a plan to hide lila’s pregnancy from their town (although i’m sure literally everyone knows anyway) and then she moved away in the summer after giving birth to go to school

she quickly finished up her nursing program but was out of job for a few years until she got a job offer to be the nurse at king county elementary school aka the school were one Carl Grimes goes to school. she moved there in may and one night, when her car Squealed to a stop in front of a dog who had run away from his home and was being chased by. Um. a certain sheriff’s deputy who was intending on bringing the puppy back home <3 they got to talking and. Well. the rest is history…..

she was a very beloved member of the staff and kids would often fake sick just to come to her office and get a sucker and she grew esp close to the grimes family :D after a couple of years living in king county she got a job to start working at some fancy prep school in atlanta and decided that actually she might want to. You know. start being a mom now that she was finished with school and had a career. so she moved away from king county at the end of the next school year and was unfortunately in atlanta when it was bombed by the government at the start of the outbreak so she and her daughter and sister all died :) and that’s that !

some fun facts because that was a very depressing end to her story:

she always has suckers in her office at school and her favourites are the watermelon ones.

she can often be found gardening in her backyard or watching the birds in the trees like a little nature baby !!!

she is very meticulous about planning. she Does have a daily agenda. she Will kill you if you touch it. shane likes to leave her little notes in it for her to find when she’s at school. sometimes they are not Just cute. she usually erases those.

she likes collecting ugly thrift store paintings of animals and hangs them up in her dining room and she Does think they are incredibly funny.

she is a vegetarian !!! very unwavering about it. shane finds it annoying because he’s good at cooking steak but she just has a salad and then they’re both perfectly happy <3

sends basically everyone she knows a Christmas/holiday card every year. even the teachers at the elementary school who don’t like her and or barely talk to her !!!

she is a terrible maker of tea and usually forgets about cups before she’s even halfway through them (thank god for her). makes everyone tea when they come over except shane (stupid ass) because he doesn’t like it and usually people just politely swallow it even though it’s too steeped or. sorry idk how tea works. she just Makes It Bad ok

she perpetually forgets to do laundry. Most of her non-scrubs have dirt stains or dressing stains or whatnot (except for her Really nice clothes) which is why she tries to buy a lot of patterns. makes things easier to hide <3

and that’s it for now !!! i have so much other lore for them but i will stop here for now :) thank you very much if you read this also i’m very sorry i have twd brainworms i cannot help it. anyway ok that’s it thanks love you bye

[izukult]

This is such a cute idea! I’m addicted to making weirdly specific Spotify playlists so this is perfect. I have an ✨eclectic✨ music taste but my favorites are usually bedroom pop (mxmtoon, chloe moriondo, khai dreams, etc), romantic classical (think Debussy and Revel), and indie (although I like some Megan Thee Stallion, AC/DC, Nirvana, etc when I’m hyping myself up). As far as my personality goes, I’m pretty insightful and like to support people whenever I can, even if I don’t know them well. I can be a little chaotic sometimes, but I like to think it’s a chaotic good. I love tea, blankets, philosophy, deep conversations, the outdoors, and writing. I’m also an INFP and a Taurus :)

Sorry if that was too much, thank you so much! Take care of yourself and stay well

- Elle ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ

( @snoozless ) you don’t understand how bad i want to be your friend. 😐😐 ok so you kind of get bonus 😀 but it rly might not be bonus because akfjakdkw. so, i gave you matsukawa!! but he’s not always like revered about so if u want a character lmk!! i am. in love w him tho. you’re so sweet you would balance him out and yall would be equally chaotic together.

he would have philosophical questions w u!! he might just be a little blunt & might accidentally cut the convo short, but he would listen to everything you said.

he’s used to a wide variety of music bc i’m convinced the seijoh playlists are absolutely fucking cracked like so loud. so he really could sit there and listen to anything. and i mean ANYTHING. like if you wanted to put on christian rock he’d awkwardly try to tap his foot on beat for you.

but, that doesn’t mean he’s gonna geek over you i feel like he’d be pretty private about the relationship. he’s not like secretive but he’s not gonna post you every two seconds yknow? he wouldnt put prom photos, but if yall went to look at the stars or go on a little hike he’d take a pic and youre wearing baggy sweats and one of his shirts and your hair isnt brushed for shit and it’s way too dark to properly make your face out and he’d put that shit on his main absolutely 😒

this man would be the kind of mf to look up his “crush’s” zodiac just for shits & giggles, so if he randomly knows a taurus fact, don’t question it<3 (he looked up your compatibility and he will take that to the grave)

issei is an infp idc. so yall got that in common.

he’s genuinely so pretty.

bc i took so long, i’m going to put descriptions for all the songs i love you thanks for requesting sorry for taking forever i’ll link the playlist and list the songs<3

1. silly girl- chloe moriondo

okay while this song is actually kinda sad, i think tHIS is pretty cute. issei comes off as this intimidating guy, and the more you get to know him the more you forget ab this idea of him you had or whatever? like the lyrics “i made him perfect, cause i wanted him to be” are really prominent in the point i’m tryna make because like even tho the lyric is obviously sad bitch shit, music is up for interpretation and this is like “hello ok he actually a real mf and shiiit maybe he cool😁✊”

2. nice boys- TEMPOREX

kinda sad. i don’t care how unemotional he might act, everyone has shit that brings them down. PLUS HES A PISCES THERES NO WAY HES NOT SAD SOMETIMES. this song just really taps into insecurities for him, and the song just gets under his skin in like a very therapeutic way. also “because he’s a pisces” some of his emotions are super intense so the “because he cares too much” line hits him fuckin hard

3. IV. sweatpants- childish gambino

this is some shit he listens to more with his team, absolutely. no doubt they blare this shit during weekly practice. but, he really really likes the song. so, when you’re hanging out and he has the aux? it’s one of the first ones he puts on. you two jam to it together. he’ll come up w dumb little dances to fit with certain lyrics (stole some of them from oikawa and hanamaki, but he won’t tell you)

4. you get me so high- the neighbourhood

okay unfortunately i must say him and hanamaki get fuckin faded in empty fields at two am all trashy like. but they make it look good idc. and if you smoke, cool, if you don’t he does not care. he always associated getting high with,,, getting high and everytime he listened to this song it just was one of his getting blazed jams, but now he’s got like a different kinda “euphoric” feel with loving you? like i said this bitch is a pisces even if he doesn’t overwhelm you with affection, he thinks ab you 24/7

5. 80’s makeout session- dacelynn

thIS SONG IS SO CUTE. but it’s p self explanatory. in love and also spare a kiss pls

6. can i call you tonight- dayglow

i feel like actually coming to terms with genuine feelings for someone would be kind of weird for issei. like no offense, but he sees it as kind of a pain in the ass. i genuinely think he would be someone to put his all into work or a task in front of him. he’s super intuitive, and constantly uses it to be better. whether it’s in volleyball or like cremating ppl i guess (HE WORKS INA FUNERAL HOME POST TIME SKIP IF U DIDNT KNOW). and it’s the same in relationships, but it’s also harder because he can’t have this complete clear head because you make his brain go kinda fuzzy. so, this song is like his little way of expressing that even tho he was like ‘internally conflicted’ this mf chose to go for it and that’s how much u mean to him

7. clair de lune, L. 32- claude debussy

i’m gonna be fucking honest with you. even though he’ll listen to anything, i really don’t think this man is looking up ‘classical romance study tunes’ playlists in his free time. he definitely enjoys the music, but that’s only if someone points it out to him. and he’s listened to you talk about it before, and watched you as you heard the piano and gauged your reactions and thought u were pretty cute he’s not gonna lie😼. so he definitely just looked up classical romance and picked the first recommended song and added it on there. he’ll dance w you a lil bit, but it wouldn’t be that quiet, intimate slow dancing in the dark you think would come w this song. itd just be a little sway as he hugs you from behind while you get water, or he twirls you once randomly with a laugh UGH I LOVE HIM

8. like real people do- hozier

ok. this one was fun for me. idc. double meaning lol. so this song is literally about two dead bodies in a bog and ,,, and he works in a funeral home PLS LMAOFJAJDJA I THINK THATS SO FUCKING FUNNY AND SO DOES HE. but also this song literally is my idea of love. this is my idea of love. and yall listen to it, with your stupid little death joke, but he looks at you and he’s just like ‘oh’. yknow? YKNOW?

9. BS- still woozy

like i said, i think he puts a lot into work. and he literally plays for a powerhouse school there’s no way he doesn’t practice a lot. so that means there’s a lot of time where he’s physically not there and definitely can’t text, because he’s trying to improve. and while he wouldn’t stop volleyball for someone else, he understands that you are like super amazing for being so Cool with him not being the most available. the song just reminds him of how compassionate you are and also he does miss u when he’s at practice YKNOW?

10. i <3 u- boy pablo

this one made me so fucking soft ew. ok. this song reminds him of you so so much. he’s totally okay being vulnerable with you? and even though he has pretty heightened emotions, he’s never felt like so strongly for smth other than like ??? volleyball and caring ab his siblings (BUT HE FEELS DIFFERENT FOR U THAN HE DOES FOR A VOLLEYBALL AND HIS SIBLINGS PLEASE😁). HE LUVVVVV YOU

11. heart-shaped box- nirvana

so many reasons. for one, simply fucking JAM. yall would scream this on a drive. if you ever got drunk together, this would be the first song you play. also, little lyrics remind you of each other. (the pisces lyric in the first and third verse, and even tho the flowers aren’t being used in a sweet sense in the song he does remember talking ab flowers w u, and now any flower is mentioned and he’s like “ah yes. my girlfriend.”)

12. pluto projector- rex orange county

FUCK. FUCK THIS SONG. GOD. NO. LIKE HE REALIZES HE’S IN LOVE WITH YOU WITH THIS SONG. HE T E L L S YOU HE’S IN LOVE WITH YOU WITH THIS SONG. the first time, he just sends you the name of it like ‘pluto projector <3’ and you listen and it’s so sweet and ur like ayo turn this shit up. and he adds it to your playlist, which definitely gets a smile from you. and then one night like two weeks later youre just laying together, and he’s running his fingers through his hair and he pulls away for a second to grab his phone and he turns the song on and you just listen to it in silence and it’s so fucking intimate. and he’s just like “i don’t think i’ve ever related to a song more” and you think he’s making a joke so you tell him to shut up (also jokingly) and he just laughs and it’s dark in his room and he’s playing with your hair again and he just goes “god, if you’re telling me to shut up over that i don’t even want to imagine how you’re gonna react when i tell you i love you” and it’s right around 3:10 in the song i’m literally so gone for him. bye you cry and try to hide it but he can tell HES PERCEPTIVE

13. i wanna be yours- arctic monkeys

okay for one, it’s a good song. it’s a song he absolutely let’s play in the background, just to cover the static lol. but also? ALSO? THE TITLE APPLIES TO YOU THE FUCK? it’s as if,,, he’s whipped,,

14. supermassive black hole- muse

hanamaki prolly showed him this song, and it’s one of his vibe songs. he will do falsetto while singing it if he’s in a really good mood and it just makes everyone laugh, including himself. it actually kind of grosses him out, because this song used to literally just be a song he would aimlessly go hard to but NOW his little bitch ass is like “you set my soul alight”? i guess i relate and “oh baby, i’m a fool for you” well, surely i’m not a fool but yea i get you muse sing it. it’s so gross. at this point he wants one thing that doesn’t make him think of you, just to prove that he’s not that gone, but he struggling

15. desperado- rhianna

i’m sorry to say it but this song makes him feel like a bad bitch LMAOOOOO. like if he’s ever getting pregame jitters or anything, he will just play this song. whether it’s on the speaker or in his headphones, he puts this shit on full volume and gets a lil too cocky LOL. this is also on the main seijoh playlist no doubt. he wants to share his bad bitch song w you, so you can aLSO feel like a bad bitch?? dUH

IM SO SORRY FOR THE WAIT BABES! IF YOU WANT ANY OF THE SONGS CHANGED (or even the character) LMK!! UR AMAZING ur so sweet it makes me ill

[strayneoculturekids]

Teasing Fullsun - Haechan x Reader

Summary: You didn’t exactly enjoy Haechan’s presence, and he didn’t exactly enjoy yours either; you and him being mortal enemies made it horribly hard for your guys’ mutual friends to hang out all together. It wasn’t until you were put in the direct line of danger that Hyuck first showed genuine care for you.

Enemies to Lovers AU, Highschool AU

Genre: fluff

Requested by @chagi-nana: Hey love! Can I request an imagine of 00 line of stray kids and nct, please? Like they are all y/n best friend and one of them is their s/o? I will be looking forward to it! Lov u 💜

Warnings: brief moment of sexual harassment

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“Oi, Y/N!” A shout came from behind you from a voice that seemingly belonged the Han Jisung

You turned your head around with a smile on your face, quickly letting it drop when you saw who else was walking alongside Jisung. Haechan was with him, along with Renjun and Hyunjin. 

“Hey guys!” You managed to find your smile again and walked backward from the school gate you were about to leave from “Jisung, Hyunjin, Renjun...” You went through and greeted them all separately, pausing once you met eyes with Haechan

“Hyuck”

“Y/N”

You and Haechan greeted each other curtly, both ignoring the three friends surrounding you so obviously rolling their eyes. Before anything else could be said, you all heard loud, annoyed yelling from behind you. You spun around and saw that the rest of your group had shown up, Felix, Jeno, Jaemin, and Seungmin.

“Don’t tell me you two are arguing again” Jeno frowned, eyebrows furrowed, looking between you and Haechan

“They were just about to” Renjun sighed, mentally face-palming

Jaemin opened his mouth, looking like he was about to say something but decided to leave it and settled for staring at you two with a look of disapproval that neither you, nor Haechan, could look at without feeling bad.

“Well” Felix came in, breaking the second of silence “Us four are heading to the mall to eat” He gestured at the group that came with him “You guys want to come?”

“Nah, I can’t. Got something up” Haechan said quickly, looking quite sad

You frowned, shoulders beginning to get slightly droopy before you realized what you were doing. You couldn’t be feeling sad that Haechan wasn’t coming, could you? No, that’s ridiculous you thought to yourself, trying to brush away the bad feeling but ultimately failing.

You walked along with the rest of the group, barely pausing when they all waved bye to Haechan. As much as you hated to admit it, Haechan was handsome, possible one of the most handsome people you’d ever seen, but he was a jerk. He always teased you past the point of it being friendly, something he seemed to not think.

The seven of your friends caught up to you, Jaemin and Seungmin were walking right next to you, going quick to keep up with your abnormally fast pace.

“Why are you walking so fast?” Seungmin asked in a teasing voice “Scared you’ll see Hyuck’s oh so beautiful face and fall in love with him all over again?”

You glared at him but kept your mouth shut. It was true, though; whenever you saw Haechan around everyone else, he was just being himself, he was laughing and smiling, cracking jokes, and you were undoubtedly in love with him. You just weren’t in love with the way he acted towards you specifically.

The eight of you arrived at the mall about fifteen minutes later after catching the train. You spent most of the train ride staring out the window with a sour expression mulling over your mixed feelings for Haechan. Some of the ride though was you trying to stop Seungmin and Renjun from full-on attacking Felix for doing fortnite dances on public transport.

You walked into the mall and immediately you and the rest of your friends were dragged away by Hyunjin and Jaemin to get Cha Time, something that you weren’t exactly complaining about. You guys were just strolling around, no doubt disturbing the general public with how loud you were. The amount of time you and Seungmin had to smack everyone else upside the heads to get them to quiet down was ungodly.

You were actually having a good time, until you spotted Haechan in the distance. He was running towards you guys, a small smile playing on his lips and it wasn’t long before the rest of the group noticed him as well.

“Miss me?” He smirked

“Yeah right” You muttered under your breath, your voice being drowned out by the other seven boys with you greeting the last addition to the group

It wasn’t until you guys made your way over to the arcade that your mind was taken off of your enemy. You spent your time versing each member separately or going off on your own to play a couple games. You were beginning to have a lot of fun once again when Seungmin just decided to challenge you and Hyuck, saying that you couldn’t be each other in a game of dance revolution. Both you and Haechan took this as a personal offense and immediately got onto the surprisingly empty machine, starting up a game.

What you seemed to not remember is that Haechan was one of the fastest learners in the group, especially when it came to dancing. Everyone besides you and Haechan seemed to have already realized that you were absolutely screwed.

A couple minutes in and you and Haechan were both sweating like crazy, but neither of you had done many wrong moves yet. Hyuck, regrettably, took the time to glare at you, causing him to mess up far more than necessary. You smirked triumphantly, not taking your eyes off the screen.

The competition must’ve lasted ages, and by the time Hyuck had finally beat you, you were both completely out of breath, a thin layer of sweat over your entire bodies. 

“I win” He grinned, holding his breath so he wouldn’t appear to be panting

“Whatever” You groaned and glared at him

You marched over to Seungmin, frowning at him, knowing he dared you to do it aware of the fact that Haechan was so obviously the better dancer.

“You suck,” You said to him simply

“You need to stop being a child and finally confess your undying love to Hyuck” He retorted, doing a horrible job of hiding any sarcasm

You groaned and looked over to Haechan, who looked just about as annoyed as you. A shade of red was hinting at his cheeks, just like it was yours, but you just assumed it was from dancing for so long.

The day sky eventually began to get dark and the nine of you decided that it was about time for you all to head home. You began walking to the back to the train station, you were walking a bit behind the rest of the boys, still slightly tired from the competition you and Haechan got stuck in.

“Y/N, what are you doing?” Haechan turned around, eyebrows furrowed

“I’m just tired, anything wrong with that?” You retorted

Haechan frowned, he looked far more than annoyed. Out of nowhere, he dropped back from the rest of the group and started walking slightly closer to you, but still in front. You shook your head, wondering what the hell he was up to. You were about to ask, but before you got the chance to, you felt someone from behind pull you backward, slapping their hand over your mouth so you couldn’t make any noise other than trying to flail around. Your heart suddenly picked up its pace by a million and before you could even try to stop it. Just as you felt the person’s breath behind you on your neck, assumably trying to whisper something to you, Haechan turned around to check on you.

“Fuck!” Haechan ran up to the man behind you, who seemed to have realized his mistake by now

Hyuck’s loud shout attracted the attention of the other seven boys in front of you, and before you knew it, they were all running back to you. Haechan was evidently the first to reach you and ripped you from the man’s grip, bringing you into his chest and holding you there tightly while the other seven full-on attacked the man. Hyuck turned you around so you were facing his chest, not able to see anything, only hear pained grunts.

Before you knew it, Haechan was walking you away from the situation and most of the noises had stopped, yet only a few of your friends came back to join you.

“Where’s Jeno, Hyunjin, Jisung and Jaemin” You frowned, not exactly fond of the thoughts of what they might be doing

“They’re just taking that guy to the police” replied Renjun simply

You hadn’t noticed thus far, but looked down at a particularly hard squeeze on your hand. Haechan had had his hand wrapped around yours and was holding it tightly.

“People like that are gross” Haechan muttered to himself, earning a chorus of agreements from the group

“Haechan...you can let go of my hand now...” You were grateful that your friends were protecting you, of course, but you couldn’t help but feel something that was awfully similar to helplessness. You didn’t enjoy being the damsel in distress all too much

Haechan’s face fell and with an obvious blush, he hastily let go, scrunching up his nose, pretending to be disgusted by the fact he’d been holding your hand.

“Was that why you started walking closer to me?” You asked timidly, the other three boys were now walking protectively behind you, with Haechan walking right next to you

“Of course it was. I didn’t- you’re my friend- you shouldn’t stray away from us this late at night”

“Friend?” You scoffed, the conversation that Renjun, Felix and Seungmin were having behind you came to a sudden halt, but neither you, nor Haechan seemed to notice

“Yes?” Haechan looked offended at your comment

“For the amount you tease me, sure as hell doesn’t seem like it”

“Tease you? I don’t-” Haechan paused, momentarily getting lost in his thoughts “I- I didn’t think that- that you cared”

“Well, you’d think that me purposely avoiding you and insulting you was enough for you to notice”

“I...” he started, but began to trail off

“Thank you for protecting me Hyuck, but it’s just...why do you need to be so contradicting?!” You huffed

“Y/N...I’m sorry, I actually thought- I didn’t realize that I-”

“Then why do you always give me dirty looks back?” You interrupted him

“It’s just a- It’s an immediate reaction. I thought you just hated me for no reason...if you’d told me sooner, I would’ve stopped...I don’t want to hurt you”

You stayed silent. For once in your life, you couldn’t think of anything to throw back at Haechan. He was looking at you intensely, and slowly, you looked at him as well. His eyes were intense but genuine and it didn’t take long until you started laughing, much to Haechan’s confusion.

“Why are you laughing? I’m serious!” He sounded slightly distressed

“I know you are” Your chuckling died down “All this time it was just a dumb misunderstanding? Ridiculous”

Soon enough, Hyuck found the humour in it too.

“FINALLY” Seungmin’s voice came from behind you two

BONUS

You and Haechan glared at each other, both working your asses off on dance revolution in the arcade. Finally, after not being able to go on any longer, you gave up and over-dramatically fell from the machine. Hyuck laughed and finished the game while you caught your breath, going over to help you up as soon as it was over

“I win” He smirked

“Fine” You breathed, smiling “What do you want as your prize, your highness?” You bowed mockingly

“For you to go out on a date with me” His smile widened when you looked up to him, surprise evident on your featured, awaiting your answer

“Of course, my liege,” You said in another mocking tone, earning a light punch from Hyuck on the arm

[strvwberryblcnde]

👫 teddy/lana

send a 👫 and I’ll write four headcanons i have about our muses’ relationship.

ok so. lana has a habit of sharing food as one of her many love languages i think. she jst likes.... giving ppl things even if it means she’ll have less. she’d let a wolf make a meal out of her n eat every last piece if she loved him n she knew he’d feel full. bt of everyone i feel like teddy hs always been the one she does this w most.... like even when they first met in the cafeteria she gave him spoonfuls of her greek yogurt n honey. whenever she’s eating fruit (which is a lot she’s obsessed w strawberries n peaches n grapes n tangerines n oranges) she’ll ALWAYS give him half whether tht’s segmenting up pieces or dividing bites evenly between them n Without Fail it’ll always b half tht she gives him whereas she might give other ppl like.... a bite or a piece or two bt......... it’s rly specific each time tht she gives teddy half. it isn’t even intentional it’s jst like a subconscious thing bt if we were to slide on spectacles n analyse this in an english class fr it’s Meaning then. looks at u then looks away. i think this represents the way tht teddy hs always felt like another half of her. they’re one in the same. in a lot of ways they’re very similar mayb even................ TOO similar n that’s why it’s been sch a fking.... bastard of trying to work things out ever bc they very much hv the same rampant commitment issues n bad timing n fears of never being gd enough. i feel like in the past a guy she ws dating (noncommittally as lana tended to do these things) wld have even noticed this n it would have bugged him a lot just like... how close she was w teddy in general............. n he would’ve one day brought it up in the middle of a fight he’d picked jst cutting away from what they were talking abt to be like. u only ever give me one bite but u would give teddy all of it if he asked u to. tell me i’m wrong. n she’d scoff out a laugh in disbelief looking around like omg...... all this over a fruit...... what are u even sa-- n he’d cut her off n be like. literally tell me i’m wrong lana. n she wouldn’t even b able to after going quiet n rly realising what it was he was actually Saying. he’d storm out. relationship over. icons of always being a little bit in love w each other n not even noticing it until someone else points it out <3

god. sighs dramatically at the idea i jst had. i cn imagine in la verse lana being rly drunk getting bk from a date one time n inevitably it was just some random loser since she’s back to dating Trash in this era bc she just truly cbas trying after her breakup w dom n............. it would be like a parallel to tht one time they’d fallen out over him sleeping w imogen when she ws upset w him bt crawled into his bed drunk at a party just to lie w him for a little while despite everything...... she wld have gone to his instead of hers on some drunken automatic pilot n somehow got into his room n..... she’d clamber in n flop nxt to him n maybe it wld be funny at first if he woke up n was like lana what the fk...... are u doing here.... so disorientated n confused.......... n she’d just be joking initially bt very clearly drunk like making fun of her date talking abt how he kept complimenting his own hair n calling himself a tesla in a sea of prius’ n checking himself out in every window they passed n then the laughter wld slowly trickle off n she’d go kind of quiet fr a moment n maybe teddy wld assume she ws passing out bc she’d drank sm bt after a short silence she’d perk up with a mumble out of nowhere n, barely conscious of what she’s saying, b like “why didn’t u wait for me like u said u would”. n if he was like.............. huh? she’d have her eyes shut n just b murmuring half awake then open them sleepily to look at him n rly quietly be like........ “u promised”. mayb she’d even reach out to gingerly trace his face bt then her wrist wld go slack bc she was rly tired n she’d just wriggle closer n tuck her head to get comfy n be like “warm” then promptly fall asleep. JSGSFKGHFHGKHGSFKH. literally jst jolting him awake w this rarely serious n genuine conversation then passing out. jst the worst fk teddy’s life bet he lay there staring at the ceiling fr so long after tht one <3 lana wouldn’t remember this in the morning either she’d wake up like why am i here........ did we meet up last night............ teddy jst like >_> u crashed here it was nbd.

i picture the first week they moved to LA lana wldn’t have admitted it bt she wld be feeling rly homesick............ radcliffe was very much like the first place she truly felt was her home n she’d miss all of the ppl there n just the general area A Lot............. one night i can see her jst wanting to spend with teddy to have like a sense of familiarity in an unfamiliar city (even if she’s spent a decent amt of time there over the yrs bc of jameson records hving studios etc bt still) n i’m imagining them like. breaking into an indoor swimming complex that her n her friends in high skl used to break into in the summers when they vacationed yrs ago.... maybe lana still has a key cut tht works from a connection she made bk then idk <3 it doesn’t matter <3 n they’d inevitably be drunk n just messing around n splashing each other n doing handstand competitions n all the typical..... fun frivolous childish antics lana n teddy tend to get into whenever they’re around each other.... truly jst transformed into big kids whenever they’re in the other’s company..... inspired a little by this gifset jst in terms of the playing around underwater vibe. anyway. mayb they mostly dry off bt they end up climbing up onto the rooftop after n it’s a baking summer night anyway so it isn’t like they’ll catch a cold being damp bt they share a big fluffy towel n bottle of rum between them huddled overlooking the lights of the city. n maybe somehow it gets onto lana admitting how much she misses home n how it’s kind of weird being here especially bc she’s further from caleb. she’s never been this far from him since he was away in the army n we all kno hw tht turned out. mayb she’d go a bit quiet after saying this bt then i think she’d take his hand w their fingers laced together n she’d rest her head on his shoulder n be like. at least i’ll always have u. it’s like i took a piece of home w me. we’ve always had each other like that. then she’d perk up n lift her head n be like let’s make a deal. i’ll be ur home if u’ll be mine. ok? n make him pinky promise. i dnt think she’d quite consider the sentimentality in tht bt 😔 she nvr rly does she jst says what feels natural without attention paid to the deeper meaning tht motivated it n.... sighs. looks at u then looks away....

this is inspired by tht scene in don’t trust the b in apartment 23 where she’s like “look. that video of me getting rawed by my best friend means the world to me.” KJGFGJKSFHKGHKSFGHKFSHKGSHGK god. inevitably in lana n teddy’s prime when they were literally hooking up 24/7 in earlier college yrs they made.............. a few videos. i mean it’s jst realistic. it’s jst common sense. probably even a feature length film at one point. n i had this idea where bc teddy’s trying to get into acting etc mayb if he gets an agent his agent is like.... do u have any dirt u need to take care of? loose ends to tie up? incriminating files to delete? sex tapes? n if he was like... ya..... mayb his agent wld have asked him to delete them if he still had them on his computer or w.e i mean i kno lana wld n wouldn’t have deleted them she wld have been proud of their work of art...... bt maybe he told lana abt this just laughing abt it n the atmosphere ws lighthearted at first bc she’d find it rly funny too like ommmmggggggg i’m a skeleton in ur closet tht is so fun if u get famous i cld be blasted all over perez hilton that’s kind of sexy..... bt............... mayb she’d as a joke be like. mayb we shld watch it one last time before u delete it. kind of like a funeral service. a goodbye party. sailing out the flaming viking raft n paying our respects u know??? n they were joking bk n forth bt then she’d be like. seriously tho mayb we should? growing more accustomed to the idea actually being a genuine one even tho tht is fking. the WORST idea i have EVER heard in the world like i do NOT know how lana wld think she has the self control to do that bt in her head she’s like. teddy n i are jst best friends now... it’s fine........... we’re open w each other it’s just a bit of fun.......... n then i can imagine if he went along w this it’s like a game of chicken they’re playing w each other where they’re both like fking hell shd we do this.... dnt wna seem like I’M the one tht thinks i can’t handle it........ n it’s some back n forth like nick n jess in new girl where they’re daring each other to have the threeway w the landlord. bt then like not even.... a minute into watching it as they’re both silently holding their breath n crunching popcorn they mde for the occasion (insisting on acting like it ws just a normal movie night) lana wld literally have to be like. slams laptop shut. UMMMM i forgot.... i....... have a very important meeting......... n teddy’s just like. meeting? u don’t have a job... what are u ta-- n she’s like A MEETING A VERY IMPORTANT MEETING...... very blatantly squirming around as she slowly gets up n tries to head fr the door... n teddy’s like.... taking the excuse without much question too like... ya i have to run lines actually i jst remembered gt an audition coming up..... n they’re both like ya haha... maybe some other time.... or maybe just delete it it’s whatever.... anyway we gtg haha... bye.... ttyl...... lana wld literally hv to SPRINT out of there to go home n. deal w how flustered this made her i won’t lie. she bumps into parker n is all flushed in the face n is just like CAN’T TALK BYE n takes off sprinting again like some kind of freak. it’d b a train wreck. i jst think that’d b rly funny tho n dare i say it? it’s canon. 

[twotwinks]

rules: list ten songs you’ve been listening to a lot lately and tag ten people

Me? Actually doing a tag game for once? Listen I always plan on doing them I just get distracted but right now I’m procrastinating on my final projects and also this gives me a chance to scream about my current hyperfixations so here we go tagged by @supergeekytoon lov u also I’ve included links in case you wanna listen but don’t wanna exert effort (aka me)

1. Pokémon Sword and Shield - vs Gym Leader

I’d love to tell you who composed this but unfortunately Bulbapedia is still lacking in specifics outside of “The game's music was primarily composed by Gō Ichinose and Minako Adachi. Additional music was composed by Keita Okamoto and Toby Fox, the latter of which only composed one track.” I don’t know how trustworthy the credits in the description of this video are either. ANYWAY this gym leader theme is a fucking BOP and I live for the cheering crowd it just makes it feel so real!

2. Pokémon Sword and Shield - vs Hop

I haven’t gushed about Hop on this blog yet but trust me I’m getting ready to. He’s now the second rival I’ve adopted and ugh I just love him. He doesn’t deserve all the shit this game is putting him through and he CERTAINLY doesn’t deserve all y’all’s hate just because he’s the Tutorial Boy like have you looked at his smile just leave him alone already! Also his themes have them Latinx vibes and it’s to die for. And yes, I did say themes, which leads us to...

3. Pokémon Sword and Shield - vs Hop (v2)

HAVE YOU NOTICED A PATTERN YET listen I just really love Hop ok. In unrelated new I’m gonna kill Bede with my own two hands and I hope Opal makes him cry himself to sleep every night because that little fucker deserves it. This theme has them dance vibes, but I’m not well versed enough in dance to tell if it’s salsa or tango or flamenco or what. Also it makes me wish I’d done Latin dance one semester instead of swing. It also has the return of the cheering crowd! I know they’re saying “woah” but it’s fun to pretend they’re saying “Hop”.

4. Pokémon Masters - Battle! Barry

Again, I tragically can’t seem to figure out composer information, but Bulbapedia gives music credits to Haruki Yamada and Shota Kageyama. Anyway Barry was my first rival son, and this is the first official remake of his theme from D/P/Pt we’ve ever gotten, and LORD does it do him credit. It’s unbearably hype and full of so much energy, and it’s still recognizable as his theme even though it also adds loads of new motifs, and it just works so well. 10/10 would get fined and then bubble beamed into another dimension again.

5. Together — あきよしふみえ (Fumie Akiyoshi)

What, you thought I was done with Pokémon? SURPRISE, I’M NOT! This is the first opening for the original Japanese version of the Diamond and Pearl anime, which I’ve been watching religiously because my aforementioned son Barry appears in it. Tragically he doesn’t show up until the 101st episode, which is why I’ve been trying to tear my way through the first part of the series. (If you’ve seen my Discord status, it’s literally just a countdown to Barry’s debut. I’ve still got a long way to go.) As a result of this I’ve now got this theme ingrained into my brain matter. At least it’s v good and you bet I catch feels over “Fog Clear the sad feelings” every time.

6.  ルマ (Ruma) — かいりきベア (Kairiki Bear)

Away from the Pokémon now, we have the NEWEST track from my favorite Vocaloid producer, Kairiki Bear! He’s normally not great at tuning Miku, but this one is actually really good. Definitely his finest Miku work yet. It’s also got that crazy guitar Kairiki is known for, and the subtle animations in the video are as good as ever. It’s also got super catchy repetition and just. Well. Every Kairiki song is a gift and as usual I’m hooked on this one even though I can’t explain it really well. ROAR!

7. ゴキブリの味 (The Taste of Cockroach) — MARETU

THE TRIUMPHANT RETURN OF MARETU TO VOCALOID AFTER OVER A YEAR OF NOTHING BUT ONE OUT OF THE BLUE INSTRUMENTAL ALBUM! Basically MARETU ended up in a bit of a scandal where he was caught cheating on his girlfriend with a minor with an undisclosed mental disability. (It’s important to note that the minor was over the age of consent, but below 20, thus still considered a minor in Japan...at least as far as I have been led to believe.) He did the whole public apology thing and then disappeared. Now it seems like he’s back! While I definitely have mixed feelings on him as a person now, I can’t deny that he’s a hecking great producer and one of the absolute masters of Miku tuning. You’ll notice in this song alone he’s tuning her in three different styles. The mastery. Anyway, all of MARETU’s songs are edgy as fuck, and this one is no different, this time tackling bullying in Japanese schools. The questions throughout the video fucked me up, man.

8. エイリアンエイリアン (Alien Alien) — ナユタン星人 (Nayutalien)

My favorite song of this quirky little alien series, Alien Alien has the cutest little dance and I’m super excited to see it in the next Project Diva game, even though it’s getting a dance pv instead of a story one. At least it fits with the original pv for once (stares at Sea Lily Deep Sea Tale). Anyway the story of a little telepathic alien who doesn’t quite understand human emotion falling in love with a human and realizing that not even impending oblivion can negate this feeling is just so sweet. I hope they’re happy.

9. ハウトゥー世界征服 (World Domination How-To)  — Neru

I was obsessed with this song a while ago, got out of it, and now I’m back into it again. Just when I think I’m used to what Neru has to offer, he goes and sucker punches me with a song like this. I don’t even know how to explain it. The hopelessness of the pre-chorus compared to the sheer power of the chorus. The concept of looking at your past, present, and future selves and trying to decide where you stand and where you want to stand. The “let’s promise no matter what from now on that we’ll tear off the price tags on our backs”  — a motif from the earlier Abstract Nonsense of being priced and labeled. It’s just so good. Definitely worthy of being the title track of its album.

10. シティー・ボーイ (City Boy)  — Mitchie M

This last song was really hard to pick, because I’ve really only been listening to the first eight songs on this list over and over, occasionally throwing in World Dominaiton How-To, and outside of that everything else is mostly just listen-once-when-I’m randomly-in-the-mood-then-back-to-repeating-the-others. But of the rest of the songs in my giant music library, this one has been randomly played more often than anything else. It’s extra strange because it’s actually a cover that was done for a New Wave Vocaloid album, but Mitchie stuck it on one of his albums and then I was hooked. Mitchie is another master of Miku tuning, though you’ll notice that his specialty is making Miku sound ungodly realistic, whereas MARETU specializes in using her voice in unique ways. I would have liked to talk about Seraphim on the Ring or Assassin Princess here instead, since they’re way newer and also Mitchie’s original work, but that just wouldn’t have been truthful to my current music tastes. Sorry, Mitchie.

Alright, that’s officially it. I’d tag people but I’m pretty sure most everyone has been tagged already as usual but if by some fluke you were missed consider yourself now tagged. Ok bye y’all I’m gonna go cry about Hop

[rhapsody-under-pressure]

Save Me pt 13

“He did what?”

“Came right back here yesterday thinking everything would be just fine if he saw Roger again.” John explained once more to a stunned Freddie. From the first time he’d told the story, John could already see the gears whirring about inside of Freddie’s head and, even now after he’d told the story again, they hadn’t ceased in speed.

“Did you call the police or-” Freddie started.

“‘Course not. He left anyway and good thing he did. I don’t know what Roger would’ve done if he saw him again in such a short amount of time.”

Freddie uncomfortably shifted in his seat once again; John didn’t even need to consider what was going on in his mind. To think just two weeks ago Bret was still in their lives and now that bastard hadn’t dared to even call, let alone show up to their flat. Most of them couldn’t care less, especially with all that’s gone on with Roger and Brian. Yet Freddie still seemed to care more about that than he should’ve and it was absolutely infuriating to him. Every single time he had to see him look longingly at the phone in hopes that he’d call or look so sad and dejected that he didn’t have someone in his life anymore made his own blood boil. Why? Just why? He wanted an answer already, not just Freddie blowing up in his face about ‘being in his business’ when he knew damn well that there was something else going on.

That night came storming back into John’s mind; if Freddie really did like him in any way, why did he still long for Bret? Could someone-especially someone like Freddie-really be so linked to someone like Bret that they’d ignore their emotions like this? Or was he just imagining it...Was it all just a rouse? Or, once again, was Freddie desperate for someone-anyone-that night that he’d resort to him? The thought disturbed him and made him look away from Freddie. He wanted to forget him, he wanted to ignore the way he’d felt for so long, he just wanted to be friends and yet he felt like he could never really get there on his own. In this moment, however, it felt like Freddie was making it far easier to ignore him with all his erratic emotions since Bret left. It wasn’t worth his time anyway: love. If a relationship as strong as what had once been Roger and Brian’s could be destroyed in a matter of seconds all because of primal desires, what use was there in him trying to pursue anything himself? He groaned quietly. He needed to stop asking so many questions about this and just move on already.

He got up from his spot and walked towards his room, closing the door quite quickly behind him and sat down on his bed. Out of that quick conversation with Freddie came a flow of inspiration that mingled with his current anger and frustration. John grabbed his tattered notebook, brushing away a few loose strands of paper from the cover and opened it up. First thing on the page sat some silly little doodle Freddie must’ve put in there one day; no one else would have drawn little cats all over their paper. Each had their own little design and he couldn’t help but marvel for a split second at the cute faces that Freddie had put on each one of them. Both of them had been quite happy back then, but that had been two years ago, he could tell from his own lyrics that ended up on A Day at the Races. John shook his head, trying to clear away the memories that were slowly quenching the fiery anger within him.

The black pen hit the paper, John writing out his thoughts onto the paper: “You little spoilt thing”, “How I trusted you”, “How I was pushed around”, “Empty feeling”, “Where were you when I needed you”, “Twisting me around like your little plaything”. A common theme began to emerge along with a little guitar riff, one that was oddly soft and gentle sounding compared to the vicious and seething thoughts that went through his head. “I don’t need you.” He wrote down, leaving the pen at the end of the “u” and watching the letter soon disappear under the large blob of black ink. He didn’t need him, he kept telling himself that. He was complete as is and having Freddie at his side wouldn’t make him whole or anything. But he had trouble believing his own words. Although he knew it was impossible to get over a years long infatuation with someone, he had hoped that it would be a tad easier with his current anger. He rewrote “I don’t need you” and “Who needs you?” multiple times across the paper, no longer following the lines and letting them go wherever his hand fell. A relationship wouldn’t fix him nor erase what had happened in his past. Freddie wouldn’t get rid of his parents’ ideas on who he was, Freddie wouldn’t get rid of that girl’s high-pitched cackle, and Freddie wouldn’t get rid of the ever nagging feeling that he wasn’t as important as the others. They could say all they want about how he really was as important as them but it didn’t matter; Freddie’s own anger showed that and Roger’s mistrust in him and forcing him out of the closet told him enough. Was it so hard to find someone that wouldn’t treat you that way? Was it just his destiny to be left as the loner, someone who would be forgotten in due time because he was quiet, because he wasn’t the outspoken or flamboyant one of the band. All the others had their own unique trait: Freddie, the loud showman, Brian, the sophisticated guitarist-though John wished the former descriptor would vanish from peoples’ minds if they knew what he really was-, and then Roger, the pretty boy drummer. Where was he in peoples’ minds? The quiet bassist. Unless he had some tragic end like Brian Jones or Buddy Holly, no one would care, would they? What did he care anyway? He liked being out of the spotlight anyway, didn’t he?

John hadn’t even been aware of the tears streaming across his face until one happened to fall onto his notebook, leaving a water stain right near the ink blot. He shook his head, what was he crying about anyway? Anger? Perhaps sadness? Frustration? A mix of all three? Who knows? John didn’t get the chance to consider the cause, he just sat there staring at the two blots, watching the ink slowly fall into the water stain and move away from the “u” it had once been covering. He looked next to him, seeing that empty spot on his bed that he so desperately wished had someone sitting in it so he could talk. If someone could just listen, it might help ease the turmoil currently storming through his mind. Even just a mere hug at the moment would help quiet everything for just a second.

He picked up his pen again, letting the next thought he had go out onto the paper. A second later the words “reaching out for a helping hand” sat etched into the paper, John now unable to think about anything other than those words.

...

When John had finally put the pen down again, there were multiple more verses written out and eventually scratched out on his paper. An odd sense of calm and accomplishment came over him as he placed it away in his nightstand along with the pen. He stood up, his muscles aching after sitting in the same position for that long. Upon looking at the clock, he shook his head to make sure he had read it correctly and sure enough, the clock told him it had been about three hours since he had come in here. John rubbed his eyes, suddenly becoming aware of the muffled chatter out in the living room. Someone sounded happy, something he hadn’t heard in a while.

“...later. Bye then.”

Freddie? What was he so happy about? He walked further down the hall until he saw Freddie hang the phone up.

“Who was that?” John asked, startling Freddie in an instant.

“Hm? Oh, just Roger. He said he’s at the studio right now. Said he wanted to try getting more work done. Good to hear that he’s doing better, ain’t it?”

Same could be said about you. He thought before smiling in response, Freddie reciprocating the sentiment with a wide, toothy smile himself. Maybe things were going to turn around now and that’s all he needed to hear. Finally, some familiarity later on with three of them working together in the studio.

“It is. I’ve actually got another song we could try out when we get there.”

“Is that what you’ve been doing for three hours? Hah! Better than me sitting out here on my ass the whole time!” Freddie exclaimed, John giving a weak laugh in response, that old fluttery feeling returning to his stomach, Freddie’s ensuing smile making it do backflips once more. God couldn’t he just ignore it for five seconds? Apparently not as even when Freddie looked away from him, he continued to stare at that brilliant grin upon his face.

“Think Roger’s got anythin’ new?” John asked as he wandered over to the fridge.

Freddie paused for a moment. “Maybe that’s why he wants to go in. Er...He sounded quite excited on the phone.”

“You seemed just as excited. You got anything new for us?” John questioned.

“Eh...Yeah, well I do; I didn’t finish it yet though.” Freddie admitted, looking rather sheepish after being asked another question.

“Great then!” John beamed, waves of joy flooding through his body at the prospect of the future. “We should get this all done soon then! God it’ll be great, won’t it?”

“Yeah, I bet it will be. All of us on tour again and just...being together again after all this shit’s out of the way.” Freddie commented, his eyes starting to drift off. John only smiled, his mind far too busy thinking of the future and the happier prospects that it held for them.

…

“John?”

He perked up at the sound of his name, placing down his book and turning towards Freddie, who was looking antsier than ever. His eyes were constantly flashing around the room, his leg kept shaking up and down-even if he wasn’t sitting-and he kept busying himself with menial tasks like cleaning dishes and straightening the fridge. John figured that it was just because he was tired of waiting for Roger to get back there or at least call them to say that they could come on down. He wasn’t going to complain since he couldn’t remember the last time Freddie cleaned up anything besides himself or his bedroom.

“Hm?”

“You know, I think I’m gonna get a headstart before Roger gets back to us...er...just so that we don’t waste time later on!” He said, seeming oddly pleased with what he had just said.

John just shrugged it off, though he silently agreed with him since Freddie did need some kind of cleaning up. He was one to talk though; all three of them hadn’t put much time into themselves over the past few days. Once Freddie did leave the room, John got up himself, marking his page by folding down the paper and leaving it on the coffee table. He picked up his plate and left it in the sink before turning around to head to his own room.

For some reason, he couldn’t help but stare helplessly at the shirts he had in either hand. Why did he suddenly-he didn’t have to finish that sentence. John shook his head, clearing the ever present thought and desire to impress him. Freddie had made it perfectly clear to him: he didn’t want him; putting all this effort into an outfit was going to get him nowhere. John tossed the black shirt aside and put on the blue button-up instead. Despite his previous thought about abandoning any attempt to look nice, he couldn’t help but straighten out the collar and try to remove as many wrinkles from the shirt as possible. Out of pure habit, he ran his hands through his hair, trying to make it look less like a hideous rat’s nest.

He spent the next ten minutes debating on whether or not he should clean himself up any more than he already had. God how he wished he could get rid of the ever nagging thought to make himself look presentable to Freddie and yet, all he wanted to hear was Freddie say that he looked good or give him any sort of compliment; at this point he’d take just a smile and and shocked glance from him if that meant he liked what he had on. John couldn’t help but smile at the latter expression his imagination had curated. To think Freddie had helped him put clothes away not too long ago and had once took him shopping, claiming that everything he owned was ‘dreadful’ and how he ‘had the fashion sense of a colorblind hermit’. He glanced towards his drawers, knowing that those old velvet black trousers still sat buried beneath so many other articles of clothing from their earlier days.

The door out in the living room slammed shut, John pausing his thoughts for just a moment before realising that Roger must’ve finally got back home. Glancing down at his watch, he found it odd that Roger hadn’t given them any kind of heads up about when he’d get back there. Upon standing up, he fixed his outfit one last time and headed out. Sure enough, Roger had indeed arrived home, but not in the state he had expected. Right there in front of him sat a disheveled mess of a human being, one that made himself look like a fashion model. Roger glowered at him, John wincing at the wild glare in his bloodshot eyes.

“Wha you lookin’ at?” Roger asked before collapsing on the couch.

“I was just wondering when you wanted to head to the eh...studio?” John replied.

“Now whhhyyy on earth would I...I want to go there?!” He said.

“Freddie said that you called and-”

“I never called todaaayy...I been at Jack’s ‘round the cornerrr…Leas’ til he kicked me outta there...” Roger muttered. “You jus’ dreamt it…” He continued, whispering something incoherent under his breath before falling silent.

The worst thought came to mind. Despite his best efforts, those same old protective emotions arose once more. He knew. He knew exactly where Freddie was going and he knew he didn’t have much time left. As anger and determination boiled inside of him, John rushed down to his room, pulling on his coat and shoes. Numerous thoughts clouded his mind, but they all centered around the same goal of getting to Freddie before he could reach Bret’s apartment.

How could he? How could he lie about this again? Was he really that desperate? Or was he scared of how they’d all react? He shook his head, why would that matter? This was Freddie, a man who couldn’t give a damn about anyone else’s thoughts or opinions and just did as he pleased. Why else would he ignore all their advice and stay with that raving lunatic?  Even with all these arguments swarming about in his head, John kept up and got ready as fast as possible.

“Where you goin’?” Roger suddenly asked from the couch, his eyes trying to stay focused on him as John reached for the door.

“Freddie’s  going to see him again! I just know it! And I’m not letting him screw his life up again for that bastard.” John snapped, slamming the door behind him before Roger could get out his response.

He ignored every single glance from the other pedestrians on the sidewalk, he ignored the cars whipping past him and honking viciously when he rushed across the zebra crossing without waiting, he even ignored his own thoughts telling him to turn around, that Freddie wouldn’t listen to any of his reasoning and how this was all just a waste of time. None of it mattered now. He was fed up with waiting, he was fed up with doing nothing, and he was fed up with the notion that Bret would be the one to ruin Freddie’s life because of Freddie’s own stubbornness and desperation for any kind of affection.

Suddenly, he stopped at an intersection. A few people gave him an odd look, but went right on with their surefire trek to their destination while he stood there like a complete buffoon. Which way was it? Left or right? He racked his brain for an answer; how could he not remember this? John looked left, seeing only similarities: his usual pub where he’d gone so many times, the faint sight of the streetlight where they’d turn to head to the studio, even the corner store where he’d gone so many times with his friends before heading back home. He looked right, seeing nothing too similar. Countless restaurants he’d never set foot in, apartment buildings he’d never looked twice at, there seemed to be a corner store right on the opposite side of the street that he’d never seen before. Something stirred in his gut and John turned, heading right into the unknown.

The street was practically deserted. Above him came a rumble of thunder as the three or so people on the pavement instantly zippered up their coats while a woman on the opposite side took out a fiery orange umbrella that stood out against the dull surroundings. John kept going, despite the pain surging in his lungs. His eyes continued to flash around, desperately trying to spot Freddie amongst the area, finding little to no luck during the quick hunt. Within a few minutes, the rain that had been hinted at by the thunder soon caught up to him, starting softly and quickly growing as he continued down the long street. He turned right once again, pausing only for a second to catch his breath and wipe the water off of his brow.

John looked behind him for a moment, only seeing the lady with her fiery umbrella walk across the opposite street, pausing at the beginning of the crosswalk and waiting for the light to change as the cars zoomed past them both. He took in a deep breath and rushed down the street once again.

In the distance sat something familiar, a head of raven black hair that was hanging low as it hurried along the sidewalk. Using his last bit of energy, John rushed forward, the water slamming into his face and burning his eyes as he forced them to stay open, not wanting to lose sight of Freddie ever again.

“Freddie!” He called, earning no reaction from the person in front of him. “Freddie! FREDDIE!”

Finally, they stopped. John kept going until he was only a mere metre away from him. Freddie turned to face him, those brandy eyes filled with fear and shame as he turned away.

“Go away, John.” He muttered, starting up once again.

“No, no I’m not going to go. I know exactly where you’re going and you’re not going back to him.” John said, the strength in his voice startling both himself and Freddie, for his eyes widened for a quick moment after he finished his sentence.

Freddie whirled around the face him, his lip curling up into a snarl as his fists clenched by his sides. “Why would I listen to you? Is this your life? Are you affected by this? No. Last time I checked your name isn’t Freddie. Now stop interfering in my damn life already!”

“I hardly ever do! It’s not my fault that you’re the one who wants to go out there with some brute!”

“He’s...He’s not a brute! Besides, why do you care? Why should you care?! You don’t know anything about my damn life and you’ve no right to dictate who I date!”

“WOULD YOU STOP ACTING LIKE A TEENAGER ALREADY!” John howled, Freddie stepping back a bit at the ferocity in his voice.

“Listen to me John. Go back home already. I’m not in the mood to deal with you right now so just leave me alone!”

Everything was boiling up inside of him as Freddie turned away once more; the burning flame of all his jealousy, frustration, desperation, anger, and love came together into one scorching hot fire at the pit of his stomach that soon rose up through his throat and out of his mouth in one loud scream.

“FREDERICK MERCURY WOULD YOU JUST LISTEN TO ME!”

Freddie paused, turning around to face him with his eyes wide and arms crossed over his chest. John swallowed and took in a deep breath before marching forward.

“That thing doesn’t care about you. I’ve seen it since you two met. He wants to control the uncontrollable instead of work with them and that’s what he’s doing to you. If he cared he wouldn’t try to beat you into submission because he wants to dominate everything around him. If he cared he wouldn’t have gone out with that other man. If he cared then he would’ve called the house, not wait for you to call him.”

John stepped closer, the fire quivering for a second before spreading out to the rest of his body; everything he wanted to say for the past year finally started to come out into the open with the fire powering his will to continue.

“He doesn’t know you. You think he does because he gave you some of his time while you gave all of yours to him. He knows nothing about you. He doesn’t know that you adore Japan, he doesn’t know how much you love lilies and orchids, he doesn’t know how you love little gifts whether it be a small photo or just some time spent lounging around in the local theatre. He doesn’t know how much you love opera or how you’d kill to meet Aretha Franklin. He knows the man on stage, that loud, flamboyant, man who looks like a burning flame that could never be contained. He sees you as a challenge, not a person. If he did, he would’ve called you, if he did, he wouldn’t have laid his hands on you…”

Even with the raindrops falling down Freddie’s face, he could tell that there were a few tears mixed in. From his hands tightly gripping either side of his chest to his quivering lip, John could finally tell that he had heard him. He took another step closer, his mouth going dry as he wiped away the water that was dripping down his face.

“There’s people out there, Fred. People who would do anything for the person they love. Being in love isn’t extravagant displays of affection. It’s being patient, it’s being comfortable with one another, it’s being stuck between decisions because you never want to hurt them when you see them in pain. It’s like being with your best friend to where it’s not an obsession anymore, but just knowing that you’re safe with them and that you’ll save each other from anything that hurts them, that you could trust them with anything. Bret isn’t that person Freddie. He left you because you dared to stand up to him. That’s not love. I know there’s someone out there for you but please, please, don’t go back to him. He doesn’t deserve someone like you.”

Both were a mere few centimetres from each other now. John was trying too hard to avoid Freddie’s gaze just as Freddie was trying to avoid his own. Across Freddie’s face laid the few leftover marks from Bret’s last assault on him, each fading away into his skin and leaving those invisible scars inside. His hair was curling up slightly from the rain, a few stray pieces clinging to the side of his face while the littlest tips of his teeth stuck out from his upper lip. Freddie’s eyes were solely focused on the ground, but in the little bit that John could see, the tears were still falling out of the corner as conflict swarmed about in those beautiful, brandy eyes.

“Just come home.” He said.

“What home? The one where Roger’s moping about because Brian cheated on him or where Bret and you nearly killed one another right in front of me?” Freddie snarled, still unable to look his way.

“No; the place where we all became a group for the first time, the place where some of our best songs began, the place where Roger and Brian had first gotten together in, the place where good and bad can happen, but that’s what keeps things interesting.” John said, wishing with all his might that something would break through to Freddie. “Life sucks, there’s no beating around the bush there, but it’s those moments of joy that keep us going. You’ll find your light, I know they’re out there somewhere. Try something new so you can find them. Besides, when have you ever been afraid to go out and try something new?”

All the breath was instantly knocked out of him as Freddie flung himself towards him, tightly wrapping his arms around his waist and nuzzling his face against his collarbone. John just looked down in awe, his chest growing heavy at the sad sight of Freddie looking completely beaten down and messy by the storm around them. He said nothing and just let him cry against his chest, offering the occasional whisper of ‘It’s okay’, even after John reciprocated the hug just so that he could hold him closer.

“I just hate seeing everyone else find someone and I’m there all alone. You’ve any idea what it’s like to have so many people around you be happy while you’re there without a single person wanting you back?”

Try something new.

John just nodded his head as Freddie continued, seeming to not have seen his response. “I’ve seen Brian and Roger together for years now and then there’s everyone at our concerts who go there with their partners and I’m left with no one…” His body tensed up. “They use me!” He howled. “That’s what they all do! They come by spitting out the same bullshit how they love me and would do anything for me and then they just leave! They always leave!”

Try something new.

“You wake up every single morning in an empty bed after they said they’d be there the next morning. Everyone I’ve brought home does the same thing to me...And I believe it! I always believe it. I believe that damned lie that they’ll be there and love me...They just want bragging rights, don’t they? I’m just a trophy for them to win, a room to rent for the night instead of something they’d actually want to invest time in…”

Try something new.

“Is it me?”  He asked. “They must fall for the person up on stage. That blasted beast I’ve put out there for them to all see. They expect me to be that loud and obnoxious prat that they first saw, don’t they? Then they see I’m nothing like that, not in the slightest…”

Try something new.

In that moment of silence, John brought them closer together than they’d ever been before in their lives. His eyes fell shut as he wrapped his arms even tighter around Freddie, who had gone quiet as he stood rigidly between his arms, but still stayed there, unmoving. It lasted for a mere three seconds, but in John’s mind it was an eternity that made everything around him cease to exist: the rain, the cars on the surrounding streets, even the chance that someone might spot them wasn’t going to spoil that moment he had envisioned for so very long; his only focus then was the one whom he had longed after for years and how wonderful it felt to finally feel the rushing beats of Freddie’s heart against his chest. Each of their lives sat behind them and, in a fleeting act of bravery, were merged together by some twist of fate in which he had followed the very fire that led him to this moment suspended in time.

When those three seconds had passed, John reopened his eyes; his eyes landed on Freddie’s face, whose own eyes were still closed even after he had pulled away. For the first time in months, there was nothing but bliss upon Freddie’s face; how he had missed that peaceful expression that now stood in front of him that when it turned to shock with his opening eyes it struck him like an unexpected bullet.

“I’m sorry...I should-”

Freddie’s shock was immediately transferred to him as he grabbed each side of his face and pulled him down to his height and tried to replicate the kiss from a few moments ago; but this kiss was its own, like every single one was: unique in every single way and one that, no matter how hard two could try, could ever be made again. John hung onto that shock, his eyes remaining open during during Freddie’s three seconds of contact while Freddie’s were shut. Once he parted, John continued his previous sentence.

“I should’ve said something sooner...I put you into that horrid situation because I was scared...I said nothing for more than five years because of that.”

The previous shock came back at his revelation, but not a hint of anger came across his face. All John got were two words in a voice so unlike Freddie’s usual confident tone yet one that was covered in his own brand of empathy.

“Five years?”

He answered with a nod, Freddie’s expression shattering as he clung tighter to his outfit. John barely heard what he was muttering, but the sentiment was readable even to the most antisocial of people: regret. The ensuing tears told even more as he held onto him like a tree held to the earth. Had he upset him with the very revelation he’d held onto for years? No, for once John knew that his fears were just lies; he knew for it was Freddie’s previous statement of how he truly saw himself that it was the exact opposite of that.

With that last realization settling in, John cupped the side of Freddie’s face, tilting his head up ever so slightly so he could see every bit of it. Through the harsh rain that marred his sight, Freddie’s brandy stare met his grey, and John saw the faintest spark of hope start to shine within the depths of his eyes.

[lowkeyorloki]

phoebe anon: wow wow wow i love everything u just said lmao 1) i know bruh #justiceforwatingroom Phoebe please it’s fantastic. 2) i am literally SO glad that i sent you that random ask yesterday lol i didn’t even think i should send it cause it was so out of the blue and i was worried you wouldn’t think it relates but Waiting room randomly came on shuffle when i was in the shower and i was like. this is asis vibes fr.

YOUR LINE BY LINE ANALYSIS OF HOW IT RELATES TO LOKI AND ASIS IS WOW. AMAZING. i really really liked how you made the point about Loki feeling like maybe if the roles were reversed then he wouldn’t have been someone reader noticed. i had never thought about it like that before and that’s really such an interesting thing to think about, and i definitely can see him thinking that about himself. also like ok do we think loki was a little shy in school or what. ig it doesn’t really matter but what a cutie (babe i would notice u i promise). the “who am i to ask for more” line too wowie. hit the nail on the head fr that’s definitely something loki would spend a lot of time thinking/worrying about 🥺.

also as for songs he should listen to omg AAAH i could go so many directions with this i’m overwhelmed by choice. i think maybe the chorus to Smoke Signals since it’s so vague & could be applied to a lot. i see it as kind of like a cry for help being answered? idk but i think that really applies to both the reader and Loki. also KILLER!! i think Killer sounds a lot like a lovesick or just desperately in love person feeling like they aren’t enough for their partner or are like too “screwed up” which is..Loki in a nutshell i feel lmfao. I’m sure i’m forgetting a lot of songs that would fit them and his inner monologue super super well but really any song can fit if you choose to interpret it like that so whatever you choose (if you end up doing it) will be so perfect. ANYWAY IM SO. EXCITED FOR THURSDAY. MUCH LOVE BYE

i am also SO happy you sent it!! honestly my music taste (aside from PB ofc ;) ) is shit and i know that so i welcome any music recs lmao. but it's so crazy that you decided to send it and we figured out how similar our PB preferences are. again, i'm glad you did :D literally the only time the song hasn't been playing today was while i was doing my homework. i ran to pick up something up and i listened to waiting room on the way to my car and also once i was in it. i'm not kidding, it's the best song anyone has ever recommended to me <3

AND YAY OMG IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKED THE LINE ANALYSIS!!! to answer your question, i don't think loki was necessarily shy, but i also don't think his social life was super riveting. i can see him in class trying to look nonchalant while his prof tells everyone to get into groups, but on the inside he's sweating because he's never invited to be in a group and he's tired of his professors making exceptions for him so he can work alone. kind of a downer :( i do think he hooked up with a fair amount of people, but that was almost worse because no one seemed to want anything more with him - which is part of the reason loki doesn't know if you would have noticed him in any other context. or, at the very least, that he would have held your attention. i'm right there with you tho, i would notice mr lokey 🥺

and omg... you r a genius because that 2nd verse of killer is calling out to me. i'll have to write the scene, and if the surrounding inner monologue/overall emotions are too heavy then i'll go with the chorus of smoke signals (GREAT interpretation on ur part top tier). but i think killer is going to be one and i'm definitely going to credit phoebe bridgers anon in the author's note of that chapter (unless you don't want me to! i know you're on anon so if that makes you uncomfortable i 100% get it) :D (PS i was reading a random article about songs that are subtly about serial killers and Killer was on there and they cited the line about jeffery dahmer and i was like a) not subtle b) not what the actual song is about?? this is a dumb thing to tell you but i just did it anyway)

I AM ALSO EXCITED FOR NEXT WEEK'S CHAPTER and omg if you vibe with all the angst (and angst that can match a phoebe bridgers song, no less) then oh my gosh you'll love the chapters that follow the next one too. OKAY I SHOULD ALSO GO BYE <3

[the-ultimate-pie-family]

Blood and leysa ancient Egypt adventure part 1

Chapter 1 the Pharoah death and the rise of the new Pharoah

"Blood and his niece leysa went threw time to ancient Egypt where the Pharoah king of Egypt ruled with a iron fist no one dared judged the Pharoah power but there was one girl who could stop him nocturne" uncle blood this place is cool. "Leysa was amazed by Egypt and it's life style but while leysa was amazed and wondered off blood smelled a rotting smell as he did walked to the smell" hmm? "Blood looked around moving the the decayed bodies finding a cute little Egyptian cat like unicorn" why hello there sweetie "blood picked up the filly caticorn were these ur mom and dad? "Nocturne nods crying hugging blood but blood knew it's hard to lose loved one" wats ur name sweetie? Nocturne the Pharoah killed my mom and dad..... "nocturne started crying again" shh shh there there how about me and my wife adopt u but nocturne u'll get ur vengeance i swear as god as my witness i will make u the new Pharoah "nocturne ears twitched getting scared" uncle we need to go now the Pharoah saw me steal something off a guard who's this? My new daughter here take nocturne and hide I'll be back. Daddy don't the Pharoah he'll kill u too...... im not scared of death nocturne "god took control teleporting in the center of the city" Pharoah bring urself to ur lord now!!!! "The Pharoah looked down at god shocked" kill god "the Pharoah command guard to strike god but as they did failed turning to dust nocturne was surprised her dad was a god then blood took control again" Pharoah!!!!!!!!! "The Pharoah summoned more guards to attack blood but failed to lay a hoove on blood" Pharoah ur dead "blood tackled the Pharoah into his room tearing him apart blood going everywhere blood screams and body parts and jewelry firing everywhere ponies cheering" nocturne come here sweetie "nocturne ran up the walls jumping in the room" yes dad? Picks ur jewelry sweetie ur the new Pharoah hurry ur subject r waiting "blood walked out closing the shades" attention fellow ponies ur new Pharoah will be ready soon "the salve ponies cheered in joy nocturne slowly got her jewelry on and started to think" i'll u proud mom and dad "then nocturne heard blood knock" u ready sweetie? Yes daddy im ready "nocturne open the shades approaching the ledge" my dear salves all i ask for is be happy enjoy life and ur families and gold and clothes for everypony "they cheered for nocturne the new Pharoah of Egypt" dad i did it "nocturne smiled pulling her dad in her room" here this is for mom "nocturne gave blood a Egypt box" sweetie i can't? Plz dad u already done so much for me and i mom will love it "nocturne ordered a guard to paint a picture of blood and her" here my Pharoah "the guard bowed" stand my dear and spread this gold and clothes to my salves plz and thank u yes Pharoah "blood smiled knowing his new daughter will be a powerful Pharoah then nocturne hugged her dad tight" thank u daddy for everything. oh nocturne i wasn't me it was u who did all this and don't forget to visit us ok Pharoah nocturne "blood chuckled hugging nocturne" take care sweetie don't forget about ur family ok? Leysa let's move were done here seeya around nocturne. "Blood and leysa teleported back home" Bye daddy

Tag for @ask-the-equuleus-verse

[overdove-a-blog]

two thousand, four hundred and eighty-four songs on her phone, and she’s been putting the same one on repeat for the past half hour. might be ‘cause she’s a little drunk, a little stoned, and a little too tired to care — might be that she just really needs a moment to listen to some good music, to not worry about anything at all (especially not the bad things inside, the empty parts, the carved holes, that aching void she tries so desperately to fill). tunny helps — tunny always helps these moods. maybe ‘cause he’s fucked up too, and both their fuck ups go hand in hand, like old friends. maybe it’s just ‘cause he’s the most honest person she’s ever known, and a ‘fuck you’ from him feels better than any other kind word from fake people who really don’t give a shit. morgan lazily outstretches an arm towards him though not really bridging the gap between them, too busy holding her corner of the floor to herself, her phone safely tucked inside her jeans’ pocket just so he won’t change the music - she still needs fuel, though. “ — yo, morrissey, pass me a beer. ”

@astrificare bc it won’t let me tag tunny’s blog :’|

[felicityb-reviews]

Review Roundup - February 2018 Week 1

Hello, my loves!! My name is Jace (aka Felicity B), and this is your Review Roundup for Week 1 of February 2018!!

So... Last Friday, I mentioned making some changes to my Review Roundup format. The reasoning being that as I've expanded my network of Korean music channels, It's become very clear to me that it's too difficult for me to write a substantial review of 25+ videos every week without each review mixing into the last. I've also come to realize that I can't include *every* song I find that happens to be in Korean, and that's fine!! Most songs are either ballads or OST ballads (which are even worse), and it's just not worth my time to flog those at you guys.

So, I'm gonna try to explain this to y'all as best as I can. It sounds more complicated than it is in practice, but I wanna give y'all an idea of what's going on.

I'm gonna present to you all the playlist of songs for the week. From there, you'll see a new segment called the Titacular Ten. Yes, I am aware "titacular" is not a word, but catch me not givin' a fuck in these streets. These guys are songs I enjoyed, but didn't like enough to put in the Fabulous Five. They'll be rated (*not* reviewed) according to my replayability scale.

And speaking of my rating scale, I've decided to add a new category called KoKoNotABop (because nothing brings me joy more than pissing off the stans of my favorite K-Pop group). This sits in between Conditional Replay and Trash Bomb with Shuffle Bait. I decided to add KoKoNotABop, because there wasn't really anything for those songs that weren't complete Trash Bombs, but fell short. I could enjoy these songs from time to time, but I wouldn't intentionally put them in a playlist, so I didn't want to call them Shuffle Bait. In short, I just wanted to expand the range of my extraness.

Moving on, you'll see the Honorable Mentions/Trash Bombs of the week after the Titacular Ten. The Honorable Mentions are tracks that didn't make it into the week's Fab Five, but I still wanted to speak on. And if you've seen my previous RRUs, you know what Trash Bombs are.

I haven't had to rated many songs as Trash Bombs, but that should be considered a small mercy. Y'all know how I get when I don't like a song

So!!

Let's get started!!

This Weeks' List

The Titacular Ten

Saturn (Nevada51 featuring Gayoung Seo of Spy Girls)

Rating - Heavy Rotation

Perfectly Perfect (MxM of BRANDNEWBOYS)

Rating - Heavy Rotation

BLOCKED (Ash-B featuring Cherry Coke)

Rating - Heavy Rotation

Ballad of Full Speed (Evolution of Sound)

Rating - Conditional Rotation

Grayish (JUNA)

Rating - Conditional Rotation

Run Away (Mona)

Rating - Heavy Rotation

To the sky (CLC)

Rating - Heavy Rotation

If (Day6)

Rating - Heavy Rotation

Mi Amor (CoCoSori)

Mi Amori Dance Practice

Rating - Heavy Rotation

Good Bye (Hong Jin Young)

Rating - Heavy Rotation

Honorable Mentions

You Have a Crush On Me (No Brain)

If you guys can believe it, this was the type of song I loved during my J-Pop days. Oh boy, does this take me back.

And yes, I do realize this song is literally a decade old. There are idols active in the industry that this song is older than. But I'm gonna need y'all to bring me some freshly prepared fucks to care.

The children deserve to know about No Brain!!

Crush On Me (sorry, that title is too long to be typing over and over) is a punk track that is fun, personified. Every time I queue up the song to play, I just wanna dance the night away~ have my own little party, dancing and singing along. And don't think that you can get away from this song unscathed, cause the hook (neon naege banhaesseo) will stick itself in your brain and torment you till you're singing along like a good little Baby Borgie.

No Brain is a band that I want every single NuGen K-Pop (2014/2015) fan to get into. Every single one of you. Cause while this band is hella talented (they've literally been in the game for twenty years), they don't write music to show it off. They write music because they fucking love it. And that's the best kind, sis. I could clock this song for a lot of things I'd clock a modern K-Pop song for, but I won't because this song is entirely too fun to be picked apart like a science experiment.

My main reason for including Crush On You was that I love how fun this song is, BUT!! I also wanted an excuse to include No Brain's collab stage with Lovelyz from the 2017 MBC Year End Song Festival.

Now *that* was a oollab stage, ladies.

Rating - Heavy Rotation

No Gravity (Yoon Mi Rae)

Yoon MiRae is the OG Korean Female Rapper.

That's not my bias speaking (although it's definitely showing), I've never heard anyone speak ill of Mirae. NEVAH!! And I mean, why would they want to!?!?! She's magical. I literally can't say enough nice things about her.

I literally zone in on her and don't pay anyone else any mind when she's in a song. Whenever she's gracious enough to give us a solo, my wigs bow in reverence to her. I just love this woman so much. She can do no wrong in my book.

Gravity is a pre-release track from Mirae's upcoming Korean album. We have no word on what it's called or when it's dropping, but I already know it's amazing. Gravity is a midtempo rap ballad, and I usually find these cheesy af, but I really like Mirae's take on it. For those of you who've been YMR stans for a while, the vocals are arranged in Mirae's typical fashion - hard hitting rap verses, brackted in by Smoove™ vocals.

Yes, Mirae is the one who has your rap fave givin' Soulful Vocals™.

THANK!! HER!!

Gravity is just so nice, you guys. I don't know what it is about these Korean acts dropping really hopeful and healing tracks this year, but I want it to continue. These types of midtempos are usually reserved for Bad Days™, but I lowkey wanna listen to Gravity all the time. There's enough groove that it doesn't drag my mood down if I'm feelin' good, but at the same time, the uplifting vibe is great for everything kinda sucks.

Off Topic, but if y'all haven't heard Mirae's Black Happiness, I urge you!! It's S U C H a good song!! That's a song that's for the worst of days, sis.

Rating - Heavy Rotation

Free Somebody (Luna of f(x) x HEDA)

I really do not understand what the point of this release was. Can someone from SM DM me on Twitter and explain. Cause sis, this shit made no sense to me.

Firstly, congratulations to Ms HEDA are in order!! If you weren't aware (like me), everysing (a Korean karaoke company) and Genie Music (SM Entertainment's distributor) ran a contest called Battle Singer to select a new feature vocalist for an upcoming Station release. Why SM didn't give her her own Station track, I'm not sure, but I rather liked the way she sounded here. So, I can't be too mad.

Wha I *am* mad at, however, is why SM decided to have Luna and HEDA do karaoke on one of the unused sets of Younha's Parade video, and releasing that shit as a single. Y'all couldn't call in nobody to produce these vocals?!?!?! Every single one of y'all vocal producers were busy?!?!?!

K...

I'm just so over SMSTATION releases varying in quality and effort spent. Some weeks, SM puts in the time and effort to rock that shit out, but then we also get lazy as fuck all releases like these. And I get it, there was a contest attached to this and we don't know if SM is gonna pull Ms HEDA back in for a round 2. I'm hoping they do, but SM is fickle. I just wish this release was up to the standard as Luna and Amber's Lower. Some of y'all thought that song was dry af, but at least the video was dynamic.

Rating - KoKoNotABop

The Fabulous Five

5. Mystery (Jalhyejun)

Mystery sounds like Lim Kim and Neon Bunny decided to team up for a song. They didn't, but if they ever did, I'd need at least three albums worth of material from it.

Mystery is a very cutesy synthrock song. It lowkey reminds me of something Puffy AmiYumi would do 2003/2004, but it mostly sounds like a bonus track on Neon Bunny's Seoulite. Not a bad thing; Puffy AmiYumi were literally my gateway into J-Pop fifteen years ago (I still listen to them), and Seoulite is one of the best Korean albums of 2011.

Mystery sounds like it belongs in a kids' show, and that's exactly why I like it. It's not anything crazy energetic, but it's really fun and every time I listen to it, it puts the biggest smile on my face. And because it isn't super in your face, you could also use it very peppy background music.

We love a versatile queen, sis.

Rating - Heavy Rotation

4. To Do List (Kim Hyorin)

Okay, sis... I was a lil nervous when I heard the teasers for this. Too many of my faves been droppin' ballads as digital singles, and then disappearing into the ether. Hyorin is my girl, but I will *always* put the music first.

Fortunately,I had nothing to worry about; Hyorin did with To Do List what Henry couldn't do with Monster. Give me an engaging ballad.

Hyorin's To Do List is the same flavor of stripped back ballad as Henry's Monster; it's just Hyorin's sweet vocals layered over a clean electric guitar. It's just that she can emote with her voice and is an overall better vocalist.

I'm finding that I really enjoying this style of ballad. There's just an unexpected element to having a song be just electric guitar and vocals, ya know?!?! Like I mentioned above, I was very unsure about Hyorin making her solo debut under her own agency with a song like this, but I can see why she did it. Ballads do stupidly well in Korea, so Hyorin was catering to that market. BUT ALSO!! There's enough spunk here to keep the more adventurous crowd happy.

Of course, Hyorin could also sing me the dictionary, and I'd be like, "YASSS KWEEN!! BUILD THE CHILDREN'S VOCABULARY!! TAKE EVERY SINGLE OF MY WIGS, GODDESS!!".

So what do I know?!?!

Rating - Heavy Rotation

3. Unstoppable (The Night Of Seokyo x Minju)

I normally don't include covers on this list, and I definitely wouldn't put them in the Fab Five. But y'all, this fucking cover. I really wish they covered the entire song, because it's fucking M A G I C A L

Which only makes sense, because the original is even more magical, but still...

Minju and the Night of Seokyo's Unstoppable is a cover of Lianne La Havas's 2015 song Unstoppable. I have no idea why I don't know this song or artist, because they're both magical. I already said Unstoppable was magical, but I'm gonna say it again!! This song is so good!! Can I live in the feeling this song creates?!?! I'd enjoy that a lot, sis. It's just so calm and healing, and I need that to be my energy for all of 2018.

And Ms Lianne, y'all. My wig toppled off my head the first 30 seconds of the song, because ma'am looks like a Black goddess. Can I be her when I grow up?!?!?! She looks so cool, and her music is just so nice. God, I love just Black women, you guys. They're so amazing, and they never get credit for always being ahead of the curve (as mentioned in my Nega Dola review). But I love Black women. I wouldn't be who I am today without Black women. None of us would. And I think it's time that we acknowledge that!!

So now that I've gotten that out of my system (we are unapologetically stanning Black women in 2018 and beyond, sis), let's discuss the Night of Seokyo and Minju's cover of Unstoppable. Absolutely beautiful. Breathtaking. I felt like I was floating. I usually don't care for covers, because 90% of them fall into two categories - a) indistinct from the original because they do everything the original does and b) complete and total trash because they did Too Much™ when reinterpretting it. But Minju and the Night of Seokyo strike the perfect balance - the rearrangement for piano and vocal does Just Enough™ to stand out on it's own without feeling like it's fucked up the vibe of the song.

I really should have just done a standalone review of this cover, since I *clearly* have so much so say on it, but it's just so good. A very big thank you to my girl sunnysidae who found the original version for Unstoppable for me. You're the best, sis!!

Rating - Heavy Rotation

2. Baby Funk (Yoo Naul of Brown Eyed Soul)

Y'all.

Everything about this song n video is so Black!! I'm Shook™!!

I don't know Brown Eyed Soul that well, so I really thought Naul was the Black dude in the video. Thought BES had a whole ass (well, half ass) nigga in the group!!

Baby Funk's name is a little misleading - the only thing Funky about her is that guitar line (and the beatswitch that happens towards the end). But that's fine!! We love a good throwback to the Soul tracks of the '90s!!

I really don't know what to say, but tbh I really shouldn't have to - y'all *know* I L I V E for a good RnB/Soul track. And Baby Funk definitely delivers, babies!! I'm not gonna lie, the video did put me a off little, at first; I can't help but be suspect of the dynamic here. But you know, I'm just gonna receive this blessing, and keep it pushing. Naul made a love letter to Black culture with Baby Funk, and I Appreciate™.

Rating - Heavy Rotation

1. Blind (Planetarium Records)

Trigger Warning - intense strobe lighting effects are used in the live showcase video

One of these days, I'm gonna need to learn these dudes' names. Especially since they refuse to stop terrorizing my wig collection with their group albums.

Sidenote - whoever decided to bait n switch my Black ass with them teasers, ya mama's a heaux. And I expect a full version of T.M.N.T with vocals on Case#3!! That shit is too good to just be an intro!!

*ahem*

When I first saw the teasers for Planetarium's CASE#1, I didn't think much of it. I thought they were an EDM label, number 1. And number 2, teasers didn't really give me anything to be excited about. But they blasted onto the scene with Blah, which had me eatin' my words a lil. I didn't include ha in my Fab Five for that week, but I was definitely paying attention to them Planetarium boys. And then came a live video of Glue (which I did put in my Fab Five), and now Blind.

Blind is a very clear 180 from the very fun, very tropical themed Blah. But catch these niggas drivin' off into the sunset with my wig, because I am B A L D T.

Blind is an intense synthpop track with a slight RnB tilt. Which is to be expect, because Planetarium is an RnB/Hip Hop label. But guys, this song is just S O G O O D. If every idol boy band in K-Pop *has* to do overly series tracks because They're Super Serious Boys Who Very Serious All The Time Seriously™, I'm gonna need them deliver tracks on this level.

Show me you have soul, not that you have abs. I've seen enough shirt lifts to last me a lifetime, kids.

On top of giving us a music video that's a continuation of Blah, the Planetarium boys have also provided us with a live showcase video that you can watch here. Be mindful that there is intense strobing effects during the chorus bits.

Rating - Heavy Rotation

Alright loves, that's all I've got for you guys this week!! I hope the change in format isn't jarring, but I needed to do something to alleviate some of the work that goes into these lists. Cause pretty soon, I'm not gonna have the gobs and gobs of free time that I have now to do them, on top of my standalone reviews. My SHINee Feature Spotlight series has been halted, for now, but tune in on Friday at 12pm and 6pm EST for a special surprise. And be sure to tune in on Monday at 6pm EST for me full length review of the week.

Love, you guys!!

[farklelucas]

For that character headcannon thing: Isaac, Brett, Theo, Liam (tw) Carlos, Harry, Jane (Descendants) Jake, Terry, Charles (Brooklyn 99)

whoa that’s a lot…. okay, isaac first and the rest under the cut!

1: sexuality headcanon

GRADE A BI BITCH FIGHT ME ON IT

2: otp

very very much scisaac

3: brotp

allison & isaac, isaac & liam, erica & isaac & boyd (any combination)

4: notp

allison & isaac, chris & isaac, any adults & isaac

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

SWEATER BOY. loves sweaters. ugly, plain, baggy, tight. he just loves em.

6: one way in which I relate to this character

nervous anxious mess

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

when he turns into new cocky werewolf isaac…. oh no baby what is you doin

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

mmm problematic cinnamon roll

send me a character

brett

1: sexuality headcanon

he’s canon bi and y’all ain’t gonna change that lol bye

2: otp

BRIAM BRIAM BRIAM BRIAM

3: brotp

brett & malia…… idek why.

4: notp

honestly besides brett x adults i don’t think i really even have one

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

he lowkey loves flannels and often wears them around his waist

6: one way in which I relate to this character

functional bi

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

when he’s first introduced and he laughs at liam in that weird and vaguely condescending matter

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

problematic cinnamon roll ig??

theo

1: sexuality headcanon

oof uhhh i guess gay bc it makes sense

2: otp

i don’t really have one sorry! ig thiam bc mauricio Stans but im still :/ hesitant

3: brotp

again i just don’t click with theo as a character so i don’rt really have a lot of hcs for him ajskd

4: notp

sceo and steo

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

mmmm named his car “betsy”

6: one way in which I relate to this character

selfish asshole

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

his whole evil villain thing

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

problematic

liam

1: sexuality headcanon

GAAAAYYYYYYY

2: otp

briam…. briam….. always briam…..

3: brotp

honestly liam & the whole pack

4: notp

liam & adults

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

my buckteeth boy…. he got called bunny in gradeschool and at first he hated it but now he wears it with Pride 

6: one way in which I relate to this character

FULL OF ANGER

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

i fell in a hole! :^)

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

cinnamon roll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

carlos

1: sexuality headcanon

BI BITCH!!!!!!!!

2: otp

jaylos!

3: brotp

carlos & jane/evie/mal/ben

4: notp

carlos x harry is just not for me

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

he’s that bitch u go to starbucks with that gets hot cocoa instead of coffee

6: one way in which I relate to this character

loves dogs, fashion, and being bisexual. BAD AT SPORTS ANSJDKF

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

the time where he asks jane to the dance ajskd

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

CINNAMON ROLL!!!!!!!!!!

harry

1: sexuality headcanon

pan! (it’s funny….. bc……… peter pan ;-))

2: otp

huma aka the inventors of love

3: brotp

the sea three!

4: notp

harry & carlos, harry & evie, harry & jay, harry & mal

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

paints his nails like the edgy little bitch he is

6: one way in which I relate to this character

intense urge to murder at all given opportunities

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

his rap verse ahsjdkfgkdkf

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

PROBLEMATIQUE BYE

jane

1: sexuality headcanon

bisexual. im claimin everybody tonight.

2: otp

jane lonnie aka jonnie

3: brotp

jane & carlos/audrey/evie/mal/doug

4: notp

mmm idk i don’t think i really have one? just keep her Safe

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

she loves powder blue like that is her fucking color. she owns everything in that color. she’s also obsessed with the stars.

6: one way in which I relate to this character

hates herself ajsdkfl

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

oof in the ending of the first movie when she takes the wand :/

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

CINNAMON ROLL

jake

1: sexuality headcanon

bi as FUCK

2: otp

peraltiago bitch!!!!!

3: brotp

jake & everyone honestly all his friendships with the b99 are amazing

4: notp

jake & that lawyer lady he dated for 5 minutes

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

has punched a “meninist” in the face

6: one way in which I relate to this character

uses humor to cope with his life as a MESS

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

BINGPOT

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

cinnamon roll im love him!!!!

terry

1: sexuality headcanon

hmmm im kinda just thinking hetero?? not as a bad thing i just don’t pick up any queer vibes from him, as much as i love him

2: otp

oh you best BET it’s terry and his loving wife sharon!!!! i stan true love!!!!

3: brotp

terry & everyone again but especially jake and holt!

4: notp

??? idk really????

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

his wife gets him yogurt for his birthday. straight up.

6: one way in which I relate to this character

loves his kids!! i love them too!!!!

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

nothing, perfect man

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

CINNAMON ROLL

charles

1: sexuality headcanon

soft pan!!

2: otp

charles and genevieve but also…. just charles and happiness

3: brotp

CHARLES & EVERYONE BUT BIG CHARLES & JAKE 

4: notp

charles and sadness >:(

5: first headcanon that pops into my head

has always wanted to go to paris

6: one way in which I relate to this character

awkward boy…. dumb boy

7: thing that gives me second hand embarrassment about this character

all the time. every of the time.

8: cinnamon roll or problematic fave?

the SOFTEST cinnamon roll!!!!!

[skinks]

Pure Moments i want to remember about my conversation with nothing,nowhere the other night that will be of no importance to anyone else, but where else am i gonna put them huh, it’s my blog:

he had a fractured, or maybe it was a broken ankle? he broke it running and while on bedrest watched all of stranger things in two days. they made him take his cast off at customs lmao

likes synthwave. likes kavinsky!!!

i can’t get over this but he’s smol, like 5′5′’ or 6" maybe

when he first came over and hugged me he was like “aaaah you got the hoodie!” and i told him i had my reaper shirt on too and he said “oh you’re doubled up!!” skdfkjlskdj

it was a GOOD HUG MY DUDES no one arm dealio, no sir, he came at me with his arms out and we HUGGED. i probably said “hi, oh my god”

i think i managed to stutter about how amazing the set was and how much i loved the huge drums, and he was like “oh thanks yeah, we tried to make it-” and that’s when the others came over

one of them asked where the tour was headed next and he couldn’t remember so he went RUMMAGING down the front of his multiple huge layers til he found his lanyard, peered at it, and said “…. birming-ham?????” cute™

said “harry potter is sick” and then got really excited when we told him about the studio tour in london

has cute lil pointy TEETH

im p sure he’s vegan, and he’s big into nature and outdoorsy ecofriendly living, and talked about wanting to start a kind of sustainable community. said he’s rly interested in, and wants to teach bushcraft “and like…. chopping wood” but he said it so lamely after all the passion, it was funny as fuck. someone said he should visit the isle of skye and he was like “that sounds like something from skyrim!”

he said he saw us in the crowd cause we were being… Fairly enthusiastic

said his family are really supportive; i asked if his parents like his music and he got this really shy look and nodded, then told us he went home recently and opened the door to find them playing his album and he was like “mom you’re embarrassing me”

i mentioned this in my other post but i can’t believe we like the same fucking philosopher, how goddamn wanky is that

the other girl had done her own n,n print on her shirt and he took photos and when we were on the train home she got notifications saying he liked the posts on ig…. a sweetheart…

when we were talking about other soundcloud musicians i mentioned loving his collab with yung jza and he said “oh yeah, that dude is super underrated”

he told us his old rap name in like 2006 was “average joe” lmfhgkshfsk

he went to film school, and i saw an opportunity to ask him something i’d always wondered about. on this collab album he made with a producer called oilcolor, there’s a song that uses a sample from a movie, so i said “of all the movies, i was not expecting The Vow” and he started laughing and said “that was oilcolor! he was like ‘i think this’d be tight’ and i was like ‘hmmmmmmmmmm’ and he was like ‘nah trust me, this’ll be tight’ and i was like ‘…….yeah, this is tight’”

it was rly fuckin funny how he said it. saddest emotrap boy n,n thinks the vow starring channing tatum and rachel mcadams is tight

he’s made mountain dew commercials, but now he gets to make music full time which is awesome

i asked if he listened to metal and he said sometimes he skates to older stuff, like iron maiden, and he asked what i’m into and i promptly FORGOT EVERY METAL BAND I’VE EVER HEARD and i said “uhhh, like, more modern stuff” and he went “like gojira?” and i agreed and he said something else but i couldn’t hear

he likes the movies the revenant and captain fantastic

at one point we were talking about the merch (when i bought my hoodie the merch guy asked which shirt i had and i showed him, and he was like “aw man, i’m his friend and i don’t even have that one!” lmao) and i said that i liked the shirt his merch guy was wearing, and we were all peering over at the dude when he looked up, and n,n was like “we’re just making fun of you, don’t worry” jghskdgllhgfhafd

he used to do muay thai!!! i meant to ask if he liked martial arts movies but i forgot :’( next time fer sure

told us Xclusives about upcoming music, shhh

we talked about music a ton obviously and i mentioned this soundcloud rapper collective called disaster club cause i’ve been listening to both their songs all summer and he was like “disaster club? i’m in disaster club” and i thought i misheard him so i was like “wh-what? no fuckin way!”. he said something like, he’s on the producing side but he should try and get on a track and it blew my mind a little

he’s learning the piano, we were talking about making music and i said i played it and he was like “that’s so cool! i’m trying to learn”

he was just… so open about his life, for someone whose persona surrounding the music is so anonymous and defensive, it was really wonderful. plus he was super patient about photos and other ppl coming up to our little convo

one dude came up and was like “you’re welcome back any time, any venue, small venue, my house, my bedroom……… uh- my spare bedroom” and he just laughed and thanked him the dude was actually tungle user suppressyourdemons and in fact said: “ "You're welcome back to the uk at any time, your band can stay in my bedroom (then thought that sounded sketchy) so said spare bedroom" “ sorry i misquoted you my dude, joe was appreciative regardless

shdjjfjckfjsg I forgot that at one point my new pal cammy told him that he listens to his stuff at the gym and n,n was laughing cause his stuff is Sad and totally not workout music, and I was like "so people think you're sweating but it's actually tears?" and he laughed more. I stole that joke from a post about drake but whatever, it made him laugh 

OH YEAH i didn’t realise at the time but he signed my album by underlining his name with a lil reaper scythe… cause skully/reaper motif… idk that’s super goddamn adorable to me. i’m hugging it to my chest rn because two days later i’m still an emotional wreck

he gave my pen back and was like “that is a dope fuckin pen by the way” or something to that effect, then i DROPPED IT and he went to pick it up but he had a broked up foot so i did instead

i know this is all mundane as fuck to you if you’re reading this but i don’t waNT TO FORGET ANYTHING! nothing fuckin nowhere was gonna get my pen for me cause i’m a doofus! he hugged me twice lads! fuck!!

i asked what his favourite video was to make and we joked about the hearse in skully and he was like “yeah that’s just my regular car”

we were all talking at once about our favourite songs of his and i said “bedhead always makes me cry” and he was like “aw man, bedhead? that’s old school” and he looked pleased ;u; 

said he basically wears Hiking Dad clothes all the time

he was great at listening to everything we had to say, he would look and focus on each of us, just as interested in us as we were in him and i’m so so so soosososoo happy i got to experience all of this

fhskjglsgkj while we were talking about disaster club, for some tangential reason i mentioned kpop because one of the verses in a disaster club track starts by quoting exo’s kokobop, and before the word “kpop” was barely even out of my mouth he was like “shimmy shimmy kokobop?”

nothing,nowhere, who i think by now you know means a great deal to me, quoted exo lyrics at me. there’s a reason the whole night feels like a surreal hallucination and that’s why i’m writing all of this down

i mentioned how, when he still had a tumblr i’d written a post and he’d reblogged and replied to it AND HE REMEMBERED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! he was like “oh yeah, that was a long time ago!”

I KNEW IT WAS HIM WHEN THEY CAME ONSTAGE AT FIRST FOR TWO REASONS! (u gotta remember i’d never seen his face before except for his skullface in the skully video) he was wearing a misogi hoodie, who’s another great soundcloud producer, but the font was like a black metal band lmao. the second reason was his nose. a good nose

the boi’s got Incredible cheekbones. he’s cute as hell but then i’m biased

put his arm right round my shoulder for the photo so i did the same ahhhhhhhhh

i told him how, when i first started listening to his music my main thought was always “is this dude ok?!” and he told us he’s doing better and putting it all into the music and tbh it’s a relief, like. listening to his music has always been cathartic for me,but at the same time i’ve worried about whoever was behind all that pain, for him to be able to write so clearly about depression. but he’s doing well! he said so! i’m extremely glad!

we were talking about the next time he’d be back in the uk and i said hopefully i’d have an n,n tattoo by then and he laughed and said “i don’t even have one yet, and it’s my band! i need to get one”

then we were all joking about something and i said “when you get even bigger, don’t forget about us” meaning the three of us there and he was like “i won’t!”

then he thanked us so goddamn gratefully for coming and said he had to get his cast boot back on his ankle, and i know, i know i am AWARE of how juvenile this sounds but when he hugged us goodbye he hugged me first. i know i was to his immediate left, but it still left me warm and fuzzy

LIKE!!! if that’s how nice it feels to be hugged by someone you’re a fan of, someone to whom you’re, well, just a fan - hugging a s/o must be magical

i’ve hugged so many friends this year. and troy baker. AND NOTHING,NOWHERE! TWICE! 

ok bye

[thislvllaby]

i don’t know what im doing with my life so i made a list of my characters and then like picked my number one ship for them cause im trash idk man just like let me enjoy this

alayna i literally dont have any ships for her i dont even have friendships for her someone help her

drew x zoe ( @likethe8osfilms ) they’re just like... the og okay. i can’t even tell you

angie x ruben ( @fndingnvrland ) these two!! oh my gosh these two!! they’re just everything good and pure. they’re the only thing good and pure in angie’s whole life. and just like. i love when i do like any thread with juliet or phe or anyone and i reference back to them because SOULMATES OKAY

avalon x nathan ( @hurtpeoplearelethal ) otp: we’re a dream that’s dead. the angst!! the cuteness!! theyre in love and they can’t handle anything and they’re both so emo but so like puppy dog cute like idk i wanna cuddle them i want them to cuddle EACH OTHER

bay x dustin ( @hurtpeoplearelethal ) this one was so hard cause like... dustin? eleanor? cooper? all soulmates. how do i handle anything? i chose dustin because just like. idk who bay would even be without dustin. nothing really. they’re best friend cows. they need each other.

ben x gemini ( @highoninfinities ) hey remember when they’re actually made for each other BYE

allison x scott ( @brokenmvses ) dont even look at me with this one

lilah x jonah ( @likethe8osfilms ) sometimes i just think about this innocent baby child giving him her virginity for christmas what was that

emmy x leo i was trying to like just do ships where like i have the person who wrote the opp like connected but this one is just... theres never been anyone else whose connected w her like that i cant. he’s everything to her okay,

frankie x dustin ( @hurtpeoplearelethal ) THE ACTUALLY FUCKING OG OTP wow okay like we didnt plan this and they just blessed us with so much angst and fighting and kissing and wow the love okay im gone

genevieve x mason ( @likethe8osfilms ) mason’s the only guy gen hasn’t regretted and that’s saying something cause i mean... it’s mason #amirightladies jk i love mason matlin bye

hadley x will ( @hurtpeoplearelethal ) sorry she just doesn’t even like have any other ships at all and this thread didn’t even fully happen but oh swell

hope x carter ( @likethe8osfilms ) much to drew’s dismay, been an otp since actual day 1

imogen x eleanor ( @highoninfinities ) this ship is wild. i’m worried about them. they’re everything awful lbr. its like jd and tasty coma wife. asking for trouble. 

juliet x dustin ( @hurtpeoplearelethal ) how did they become my otp for juliet? literally how? like this was a temp ship like theyre whole purpose was misc backstory and like somehow they gave me feels suddenly karen how do you do that

kc x cricket ( @highoninfinities ) hi how did we ever think they were just a brotp. theyre SUCH an otp. like just. heres me a sucker for bffs bein in love honestly like no one gets kc like cricket and they’re just. she makes him happy and they have so much fun together and i forget that this isnt a canon thing in kcs canon verse and it makes it impossible for me to play actual canon kc tbh

lily x remus ( @brokenmvses ) sometimes i feel bad for loving this ship so much cause like the otp should be lilyxjames but also im completely unapologetic 

lily luna x scorpius again this is just the only ship ive ever had for this character and like i still always want it back im not even gonna lie tbh dont look at me

logan x crispin ( @hurtpeoplearelethal ) another ship i never meant to ship!! they were also like never supposed to be anything they were just friends and then SUDDENLy i shipped it like i dont even know why do we do this karen

lucas x zoe ( @highoninfinities ) wow how many brotps turned otps will we have? how many? another ship where if they arent the otp they’re the brotp tho. like i feel like i find a way to write zoe into all of lucas’ verses cause shes just... shes the bff man. but i mean yeah, lucas was always in love with zoe so like lbr. and she was what he needed after the shit show that was thucas so

mckay x crispin ( @hurtpeoplearelethal ) sweet summer babies. this ship is like almost just cute and innocent except of course we had to make it angsty but still somehow theyre just cute and babies i dont know man but i love them 

ophelia x adam ( @brokenmvses ) this ship started as a joke?? can u belieb it?? like literally it was just like this dumb little headcanon about them both being lgbt activists and suddenly they were in love damn thank u for fulfilling dreams i didnt know i had

quentin x eleanor ( @highoninfinities ) borderline canadian incest. that’s all. 

zig x maya ( @deejaysindie ) all im gonna say is i miss them. please give me all the threads already. just let me throw zig at you deejay damn