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Tommy's introduced as a bigot in season 2 and often shown taking initiative in starting the bullying of Hen and Chim vs. waiting for Gerrard to do something and just not standing up for them. There's even a scene in "Chimney Begins" where no one else is even in the room to overhear and Tommy still chooses to be nasty to Chimney instead of a bare minimum of civil. Even after the "resolution" of the episode and his 'apology' (not for racism, but for making Chim prove himself at work), he's still shown to have spent years not learning his lesson, becuase he goes back to the same behaviors with Hen and Chimnney even mentions that "the Asian guy" still isn't invited out by the team for drinks or BBQ.
Then when it's "addressed" in season 7, we see remarkably little growth from Tommy, where he's blaming "the environment" and Gerrard for his choices and actions as a grown man. And in season 8, we get a healthy dose of misogyny in ageism with how he speaks of Abby, while casually acknowledging he also screwed up her life.
It's not just that he was afraid to stand up against bigotry in the face of an evil boss. He could've taken Eli's route, and just be silent. But no, Tommy is someone who chose to actively participate in workplace bigotry and bullying, and then almost 20 years removed, shrugs it off as everyone else's fault.
letâs not forget his very recent comments about Abby that were reeking of misogyny. Talking about her dating some âhimboâ younger than her (as if he wasnât actively doing the same thing) and admitting he was lying the whole relationship (not just about his sexuality).
Word for word that man said, âHeard she went a little nuts after thatâ as if her entire world wasnât flipped upside down with her engagement ending and having to take care of her sick mother. The only tiny bit of understanding he showed was him saying she deserved better, which duh.Â
One time when I was five I put a bead in my nose and it went all the way up to the bridge and I had to push down on it from the top until I could get it out because I was scared it would go to my brain and kill me.
That has nothing to do with any of what you said, but I just thought I'd put that out there because you're doing some dumb shit and I wanted you to know we've all done dumb shit. This is a safe space.
Anyway, I don't think you've ever been a closeted queer person who's said and done some at times questionable or outright fucked up things to keep yourself safe from scrutiny.* I grew up seeing people like me getting murdered and heard people explain why it would've been avoidable if they hadn't been so obvious or if they'd just chosen to be normal. I also grew up with a lot of bullies who were only bullying me because it put them in the protected group. It kept them from having people look at whether or not they were actually a good target for bullying. I'm actually friends with a couple of those people now. Not close, but we're cordial and we'll talk when we bump into each other at the store. That has more to do with us being in our thirties and living our own lives. There's a couple who had no excuse whatsoever other than being actual homophobes, I don't talk to them.
I dated in high school, I was engaged but I was 18 so I don't know how much that counts, but then I came out when I was in my early twenties. I knew I wasn't actually interested the entire time I was with those people, either. At first I just thought the relationship wasn't right for me, then I started to realize what was actually going on. I still dated, I still asked someone to marry me because I thought I could be happy with them. I did love and care about them, just not the way you should if you're going to marry them. I also didn't tell anyone I was non-binary until two months ago, even though I figured it out about fifteen years ago. A trans person hiding their identity to protect themselves from danger or rejection is nothing new, but it's kind of a shitty feeling to know you've been lying to every ex you've ever had about something like that. I don't like that feeling, and it's going to take a while for me to shake that. I don't know that I ever will.
So all of that is to say that a character like Tommy is actually kind of important to those of us who also weren't perfect at being queer, especially those of us who grew up during a specific time. I was actually pleasantly surprised that a basic network show would have someone like that, but times they are a-changing. So onto your last point:
Abby Clark is played by a now 57 year old Connie Britton (drop the skincare routine, girl), Lou Ferrigno Jr is 40, and Oliver Stark is 33. When you're an actual grown person, a seven or eight year age difference is kind of nothing. One of you might be a little more ready for things like kids or marriage, but that's not a guarantee. But hearing that your ex started dating a 26 year old when she's about 50, whether or not he knows that she actually pulled Buck's info in a very questionable way (I love that no one going after Tommy ever seems to care about the massive ethical breach from Abby), is kind of...wild. And he presumably heard about this from a mutual friend of some kind, who likely gave him this information colored by their own perception of the situation. This is where critical thinking skills become important. Based on context clues, I can safely guess that Tommy asked someone how Abby was doing or ran into someone who knows her, too, and they said "Hey, did you hear about Abby's new guy?" Otherwise he would've said "I saw that she was dating...." or "She told me she was dating..." So this could've been secondhand bitchiness, it could've been that her behavior was being framed as extremely not okay by someone they knew. We'll never know, the show doesn't have the strongest writing all the time. I'm not touching the thing about her mother, because a very close family member of mine has Alzheimer's, a good friend just lost a parent to it, and I do not want to examine the behavior of a person who's dealing with that or that of the people in their lives.
Could he have said "But I get it, she would've been going through a lot because of her mom and then our breakup"? Yeah. Would it have been nice if they wrote any scenes between Tommy, Hen, and Chimney that bridged the gap between when they weren't close and when they actually celebrated him and his accomplishments when he left the 118 to show why he would be someone Chimney would call on in two major emergencies? Yeah. I think I would've liked to see them talk things out onscreen and to show any apologies. Mostly because it would keep people from dropping an essay in my ask box when I feel like my sinuses and temples are filled with hot needles. I don't actually need to see it other than liking the three of them together, because I figured that they would've shown some hesitation before Chimney would reach out to him or he would've pulled Buck aside to warn him to be careful with Tommy. Or Hen and Karen wouldn't have been so thrilled when they realized what had gone down before Buck and Tommy came into the hospital room. There's a lot of stuff they don't show on this show, but they'd at least make a point to do or not do certain things if a character hated or disliked a character.
*I believe a certain dispatcher even did a whole big speech about this on the very show you apparently watch. I didn't like the Glee part, because I don't like Glee after season one. But the rest of it was good.
#bucktommy#omg am i part of the disc horse now??#I've never had that happen before and I've been in fandoms for ~26 years#oh god a baby born the year i got into fandom can now rent a car and get kicked off their parents' insurance#ahhhh why did i think about that#ed does a rant#ed is also Having A Week#maybe don't bug Ed with this shit idk man I just write fanfic and play board games
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told the phlebotomist, "i like to watch. im a watcher" and we both had to sit with that while she drew my blood.
#â Â â Â ooc. Â ÂŤ Â Â Â i called about the mountain bike and the locked ipad.#( me trying to explain that we had to practice on each other in MA school and as a former phlebotomist and so I'm not sensitive and I like)#( to watch the needle go in and shit and giving her absolutely nothing because my fasting brain is fucking stupid )#( my brain: tell her not sexually so she knows / also my brain: but we do like that so let's not lie )#( rip to that woman she did a good job though )#Medical tw /#( literally a routine bloodwork so it's not that deep fr )
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bro why am I still in the closet. I am in my twenties and my parents are chill. why have I chosen this path
#now itâs just gonna be embarrassing like they almost certainly know but Iâve never admitted it to them#so itâs gonna be really weird when itâs like haha yeah Iâm gay! sorry for not telling you for like. six years#and then Iâm also like. they can understand me being bi for sure#but genderfluid when Iâm mostly fem-presenting? (as much as Iâd like to be more transmasc. alas. I am not)#I feel like theyâd struggle with that more#so do I come out in stages? do I do the sexuality and let the gender marinate for a few more years?#bc then I run into the same thing. why did you not tell us for six years#I. I hate to say that what prompted this thought was hearing the sonic dub âwoah heâs bisexual I didnât know thatâ#like. woah. he is bisexual. he being me#but again idk if they can wrap their middle aged brains around the he part tbh. or the they.#itâs also a fun game of when my sister will come out#before I do? After I do? Do we do it together? if I do it does that put pressure on her?#bc she. I feel like they know about me. All my friends are gay and trans and Iâm a little too woke and I think I just give off some vibes#whereas my sister is the type of popular girl fem that doesnât set off a straight personâs gaydar. yknow#and she has had multiple vocal crushes on guys and. well letâs just say my parents know mostly about her and boys#I know sheâs smooched a few girls at parties and has had a few crushes here and there but somehow those never come up with the parents#so outwardly she just seems. very straight. and she is not#so if I come out does that set her up for an awkward thing? where she either has to also sit in the closet#and then have it be weird when she comes out in the future#or has to immediately jump on it so that they just have it all out in the open#idk. I should have just told them I was gay when I was in high school. would have made life easier I think#alas. this is my life
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I wanted to make this post because we donât see a lot of asexual characters in western media and despite him being from a hugely popular show (Seaside Hotel) youâre unlikely to know of his existence if youâre not from Denmark.
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His name is Hjalmar Aurland and heâs one of the more sympathetic and realistic asexual characters Iâve seen. He lives in a time and place where asexuality as a concept doesnât exist yet so heâs never labeled as such but rewatching the show made me realize that he acts exactly like the asexual people I personally know. Asexuality can mean a lot of things but his specific brand isnât naive to sex nor is he repulsed by sex, sexual desire or thoughts simply doesnât come naturally to him.
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He can be convinced to have sex with his wife Helene but only if she appeals to their emotional bond. Just so you donât get the wrong idea, heâs not being forced or emotionally blackmailed to sleep with her. Itâs simply that he understands sex is a way to show emotional love too and he wants to express that love for Helene when itâs important to her, and seeing as sex isnât unpleasant to him, just kinda boring, heâs willing to do that for her.
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Unfortunately that isnât enough for Helene and despite her love for Hjalmar she starts an affair with the dramatic and emotional actor Edward Weyse. He has a string of relationships, marriages and divorces behind him because despite what it may look like from the outside Edward doesnât really want shallow sexual relationships. He just canât help himself and keep falling in love with women left and right, fully and wholeheartedly, only to be dumped or dump them once the initial excitement has passed.
So Helene and Edwardâs affair that was only meant to satisfy their carnal desires quickly becomes romantic. Helene feels torn between him and Hjalmar who she still loves and Edward understands the difficult situation theyâre both in while also feeling jealous of Hjalmar. And Hjalmar? He doesnât catch on for years. Heâs not stupid but his brain just doesnât jump to sex. He just assumes theyâre good friends and why shouldnât his wife be allowed to have friends, even male ones? Things get really complicated when Helene gets pregnant and she has to have sex with Hjalmar so he wonât wonder how it happened. Edward even has to join in on the seduction, reminding Hjalmar how much Helene loves him, even though it breaks Edwardâs heart to do so.
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But like Iâve said Hjalmar isnât stupid. He saw the signs but chose to ignore them until one night when Helene accidentally says Edwardâs name. It breaks the dam in Hjalmarâs denial and he has to face that deep down he always knew. Overcome by sadness and betrayal he wanders off into the night in nothing but his nightgown and gets a room at a different hotel where he can think in peace. Eventually he agrees to return to the first hotel with Helene and Edward and decides to take control of the situation.
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He sits them both down and tells them that he understands that the three of them share a bond and that there are things he canât really do for Helene so from now on he wants their relationship to be open and honest. He wants Helene and Edward to keep seeing each other and Edward is welcome in their house, but Hjalmar wants to be allowed to call Edward by his first name and makes it very clear that Helene and Edwardâs children âbelong to himâ because he still thinks of himself as their dad and loves them as his own children. Both Helene and Edward agrees to it, though the emotional Edward is very flustered and confused by the acceptance and love heâs being shown by Hjalmar.
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This is obviously a very tv drama situation but I was so stuck by how much Hjalmar acts like my asexual friends. Having a lover for your partner isnât the most common solution but itâs an idea Iâve heard a lot of asexual people be open to under the right circumstances and of course thatâs the most dramatic solution for a romantic tv drama.
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Hjalmar is defined by so much more than his sexuality though. His main characteristic is his passion for social justice and equality, and other than some early show weirdness before they really cemented the characters, Hjamler is the only character who floats freely between the men and women. Heâs just as likely to sit with the men as he is the women, often appearing in otherwise entirely female spaces. Itâs never questioned or even brought up, not because heâs a âsafe asexualâ but because he cares and think their worries are as important as the menâs. Heâs often called a pessimist by the other men when in reality he is determined to be hopeful and compassionate and spread the love he feels the world is lacking as WWII draws closer.
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So yeah, I just wanted to share this sweet ace guy with you because you probably wouldnât have known about him otherwise.
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Can you do a "bau reacts" when they are undercover in public and about to be found out so the reader just starts making out with them to pretend they are just a couple?
(BAU Headcanons) Making out Undercover
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A/N: Mwahaha. Oh, this is a good prompt. Thanks for making me daydream all afternoon. Enjoy my lovelies đ Also, as a note, I'm writing the main BAU where I'm at watching it (season 13) plus Luke as he was requested previously đ
Warnings: Mentions of threat, mentions of weapons, alcohol references, sexual references, implied cases / unsubs. (Let me know if I missed any)
Aaron Hotchner
We know Aaron doesnât go undercover for most cases, so this would have to be a big case to get him into the field.Â
This man would be in shock. Letâs be real. He would freeze in place and try to argue for a split second until he realises what youâre trying to do and why - even if you were already together.Â
As soon as theyâre gone though, youâd glance up and see his usual steely glare that tells you youâre in for a scolding once this is over.Â
However, youâd have to be blind to miss the way he lingers for a moment, holding you close for half a second longer than necessary.Â
âI feel I should remind you that we are in the field, and whilst it may have worked, I canât endorse it as a tactic in future. Understood?âÂ
âSo Iâm hearing that weâre leaving this off of our case report then?âÂ
âAgreed. I donât need to give Strauss anything else to use to go after us and the team.â
He would roll his eyes and take off after the Unsub, but youâd have to be blind to miss the way he smirks as he goes.Â
David RossiÂ
Heâd be a little embarrassed but mostly quite smug about the whole thing, even if you were supposed to be undercover.Â
âWell, I can safely say in all my years in this field I donât think thatâs ever happened to me before.âÂ
Heâd also refuse to let you apologise for your actions afterwards either.Â
One, because heâs kind of flattered.Â
Two, because heâs been around the block a few times and knows that sometimes you have to do what it takes to solve a case or protect yourselves.Â
Three, you were supposed to be a couple and kissing is what couples do. Heâs only sour because if anything he would have liked to be the one who kissed you.Â
âRelax about it, would you? I wonât tell you some of the things Gideon and I had to do back in the old days. That was before all this new paperwork and guidelines, so thatâs all Iâll say on the matter.âÂ
You make a point of remembering to ask him about that at your next night off over drinks.Â
Derek Morgan
Derek is always up for anything so I feel like heâd be pretty relaxed about being undercover with you, even if you weren't together romantically. He has no issue playing your pretend boyfriend for one night, and is quick to wrap his arm around you.Â
Which is why it would be such a surprise to him when itâs you who initiated the kiss.Â
Derek would freeze for like a second, but only out of shock. However, you know he wouldnât fight you on it.Â
The second his brain catches up to his body he would be kissing you back, doing everything in his power to match your energy and sell this kiss.Â
If anything, youâre going to have to be the one to break away once the coast is clear and remind him youâre still technically in the field and that your team is probably wondering where the hell you are right now - and why you stopped responding to your comms.Â
âIâm just saying, if we get to do that then we need to be partnered up more often.âÂ
âYeah yeah, Morgan. Letâs just hope Penelope didnât see that else weâll never be hearing the end of it.âÂ
Emily Prentiss
Sheâs been undercover plenty of times in her life and spent a whole chunk of time actually fake-married to Doyle for an op, so sheâd be the most comfortable and understanding if you grabbed her for a kiss - especially if you were meant to be a fake couple.Â
Sheâd work it out pretty quickly and would respond in kind, pressing herself against you and running her hands all over you.Â
âQuick thinking with the kiss,â sheâd whisper as she brushed a kiss against your neck.Â
Sheâd also know exactly where the Unsub is afterwards too, having kept watch in her peripheral vision.Â
She wouldnât even have to break eye contact with you before she informed you, â3 oâclock. He just left out the fire exit.âÂ
With that, sheâd be off.Â
She also probably wouldnât even bring it up again until youâre both back on the jet. Then sheâd be smirking at you across the top of her drink and chuckling to herself.Â
âNormally Iâd insist dinner first but given that we caught that bastard I think weâre even.âÂ
JJ
JJ knows about going undercover and it takes a lot to rattle her. She would probably go along with the action, even if sheâd stay kind of stiff for a good minute or so.Â
However, sheâs a good agent and knows about maintaining a cover so quickly catches on when you pull her in.Â
Sheâd return the kiss, shooting glances out the corner of her eye when she thinks it might be safe to check on their target. If it doesnât look like theyâre buying it, sheâll turn things up a notch and spin you around so that she could take control.Â
âMy gun is under my jacket. Reach for it slowly if he comes any closer,â sheâd warn, but thankfully you donât need it. Eventually they leave, distracted by something else, leaving you and JJ to recover.
After catching your breath, you both take off in the direction your target just left in. You can tell JJ is trying not to laugh about what just happened, choosing to make it funny rather than uncomfortable if you weren't together romantically. Â
Which means you know sheâd enjoy teasing you about it in front of the others, making your cheeks burn as she announces on the jet: âFor the record, even though it was a âcover kissâ it was pretty good. Just saying. Maybe you should give Morgan some tips. That way he might get a girl to call him back after a first date.âÂ
Luke Alvez
It doesnât matter if heâs ex-army or whatever. Undercover is not really Lukeâs thing and even then, he is more used to infiltrating gangs than playing house.Â
Basically, he would be surprised by your actions, despite being undercover together. Like, I can see his eyebrows hitting his hairline so fast, bless him. Heâd look like a deer in headlights.Â
âWoah, sweetheart, slow your roll-âÂ
â- Luke. Shut up and kiss me. Now.âÂ
âI - ok.âÂ
Just like that, heâd take control, turning and pressing you against the nearest wall in an attempt to shield you from whoever was watching. Heâd also be such a gentleman about it if you weren't already together romantically, keeping his hands on your waist and pulling away the minute heâs sure the danger has passed.Â
Even then, heâd wait a minute before letting the two of you move from your position, just in case they come back. Heâs your partner and heâs returning the favour for you keeping him safe, even if in an unsuspected manner.
âYou good?â
âLuke. Shouldnât I be asking you that? I was the one who planted myself on you.âÂ
âPotato, po-tah-to. Are they still over there?â
âNo. They just left out the back.â
âThen letâs go, partner. Letâs catch this freak.âÂ
Penelope GarciaÂ
If Penelope is in the field then you know she is already hella nervous and out of her element. It doesnât matter if there was a reason she was needed for this particular assignment, she would just take that as added pressure not to let everyone down.
Which is why Iâm sure youâd feel worse about planting one on her - even if it does also help distract her from worrying for a minute. Â
All I can imagine is her giving her trademark squeal of confusion and surprise, even if you gave her a hasty warning - and apology - about what you were going to do.
Sheâd be stunned at what was happening and probably takes a minute to realise she should probably try and kiss you back, or at least look less visibly startled about it.Â
âI feel I should point out how unfair it is that this is permitted as âsuitable workplace behaviourâ as weâre undercover, yet my flirtatious texts with Agent Morgan are not? I will be writing a strongly worded email when we get back, telling HR they can go shove their-â
âPen? Hey, focus here. Unsub still watching us.âÂ
âOh, right. Sorry! Ahem⌠as you were?â Â
Also, you know that like a day or so later, once itâs all over, she sends you an email informing you that your new username on the BAU system is now âsmoochykinsâ and she will not change it until it becomes not-funny for her⌠which will probably be never. After all, Morgan has been âChocolate Thunderâ for the last two years and is still going strong. Â
Dr Spencer Reid
Spencer has been undercover before and is usually quite calm about it, even if it is faking a date or maintaining a story. Still, despite having to do your jobs, youâd hate to make him uncomfortable, knowing how he feels about any kind of physical contact - especially if you're not together.Â
As he says, with the amount of bacteria shared by shaking hands youâd be safer kissing ⌠guess it was time to take it literally.Â
Heâd be blushing like a tomato as you grab his jacket lapels and pull him close. And honestly? itâs kind of adorable. As is the way he tries to kiss you back, even if he still takes a minute to remember how to even move his body.Â
Iâm just picturing the Lila kiss in season one and how he eased into that and how stunned / embarrassed he seemed afterwards. He would pretty much be like that, but with a fake smile on his face as he rambled in your ear.Â
âWhat was that?â
âI was covering our asses. Weâre undercover, remember? Weâre supposed to be a couple and couples kiss. Also, Iâd thought you know, genius, that kissing and displays of public affection make people extremely uncomfortable.â
âNo kidding⌠Morgan can never find out about this.â
âYou donât have to tell me twice. You got a deal, pretty boy. This is between us.âÂ
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tell me that i'm what you need
a jayvik college au
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author's note:Â them in a college au has been rotting in my brain since I finished act 3, and i had to write it. it's completely self-indulgent and i understand that and i do not apologize. i have TONS more ideas for this so if it gets enough traction maybe i'll write more LMAOOO. jayvik has their hooks in me good you guys. anyways, thanks so much for reading!! i hope you enjoyed it, and feel free to leave likes and comments! i'd love to hear any feedback or thoughts :) have a great day!!
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tags:Â college party ; weed smoking ; trans viktor ; sub jayce talis ; dom viktor ; college au ; shotgunning ; making out ; sexuality crisis ; first meeting ; viktor is hot and confident and jayce loves it ; they're both idiots
warnings: sexual content, weed smoking
summary:Â Jayce goes to a party with Caitlyn and gets more than he bargained for when he meets a handsome stranger in the basement.
originally posted by vktrjyce
Jayce followed Caitlyn into the overflowing house, wincing at the music pounding against his skull. Three different people bumped into him in the foyer alone, the third spilling an obscene amount of beer on his shoes. He grimaced, waved away the guyâs half-assed apology, and attempted to adjust to the stickiness. It felt a little like heâd surpassed his age of enjoying parties like this. Or maybe he simply needed to be with the right crowd.Â
This did not feel like his crowd.Â
âCait!â He shouted over the music, grabbing his companionâs arm. She turned to him with a raised eyebrow, âThis is really how you want to spend your Friday night?âÂ
She pressed her lips into a thin line and leaned towards him, âVi invited me! I couldnât exactly say no.âÂ
He overdramatically rolled his eyes, a knowing smile on his face, âSo your girlfriendâs the partying type?âÂ
Caitlynâs own eyes widened, her cheeks going slightly pink, âSheâs not my girlfriend! YetâŚâ She shook her head, dark blue strands swaying back and forth, âAnd her sister threw this party. Sheâs just along for the ride.âÂ
âMmhmm.â Jayce scanned the crowd, looking for a head of hot-pink hair heâd only heard about in stories, âSo, where is she?âÂ
âI donât know. I canât see her from he-âÂ
âCupcake!â A muscled arm landed on Caitlynâs shoulders, simultaneously knocking her into Jayceâs side. The owner of said arm had the exact hair heâd been on the lookout for. Also, the âViâ tattooed on her face was sort of a dead giveaway, âI was beginning to think you werenât coming.âÂ
Caitlyn looked over at Vi, a pleasant smile sliding across her face. She leaned into the woman, âWhat, and leave you to your own devices? I can only imagine the chaos that would ensue.âÂ
âYou think so low of me. Iâm hurt.â Vi teased, before her eyes landed on Jayce, âWhoâs this?âÂ
Caitlyn answered before he had a chance to, âThis is Jayce Talis. Iâve told you about him.âÂ
Jayce, in turn, offered a polite smile and a small wave.Â
âSo, this is the brainiac?â Vi gave him a once-over, pursing her lips, âQuite the pretty boy, isnât he?âÂ
He choked out a slightly embarrassed chuckle, resisting the urge to rub at the back of his neck. His Mother always scolded him for having such an obvious nervous tick.Â
âDonât say that, itâll go right to his head.â Cait retorted, giving her friend a knowing look, âAnd itâs big enough already.âÂ
The man barked out a laugh, âThereâs better ways to show off than making fun of me, you know.âÂ
Once again, her eyes widened, âI wasnât-âÂ
âAww, are you trying to seduce me with your stuck-upness?â Vi cooed, pinching Caitlynâs cheek. Though she scrunched up her nose, she didnât pull away from the touch, âIf you are, itâs working.âÂ
âYouâre an idiot.â She deadpanned, and then looked back at Jayce, âYou both are.âÂ
âI guess you attract them.â He winked at her.Â
âI like this guy. Heâs not all prude and stiff like most of the people you introduce me to.â Vi commented, grinning, âWe could have some fun together, pretty boy.âÂ
âThe feelingâs mutual, Vi.âÂ
âI donât know, the thought of you two together doesnât sit well with me.â Caitlyn piped up, âAnd I absolutely do not want to be demoted to third-wheel.âÂ
âI donât think youâll need to worry about that.â Jayce gave her a knowing look, sending her gaze to the floor. So he turned it on Vi. She smirked in response.Â
âYou guys want a drink? The kitchenâs stocked with all kinds of stuff.â She offered, pulling Caitlyn closer to her.
âI wouldnât mind a drink.â His friend responded. She looked at Jayce with a warning on her face. He was no longer welcome in the group.Â
He heard her loud and clear.Â
âYou guys go ahead, Iâm gonna go mingle for a bit.â He told them, taking a step back, âWeâll meet back up later.âÂ
Caitlynâs look turned grateful, eyes sparkling in the strobe lights. Vi nodded at his declaration.Â
âAlright, see you later, then.â She bid him adieu, turning Caitlyn (presumably) towards the kitchen.Â
As they walked away, he heard his friend ask, âWhereâs Jinx?âÂ
âSomewhere causing problems, probably. I think she was trying to make fireworks or something.â Viâs response came, and then they were out of earshot. And Jayce was all alone.Â
He shifted his weight, patted his hands against his pants, and then decided he should do something. Something other than standing in the middle of this room. Watching the party go on without him. Like a loser.Â
He sucked in a deep breath and moved further into the house.Â
People were dancing, mingling, playing games, and making out on practically every available surface. He could only imagine what others were getting up to in the non-public spaces. Heâd had his own fair share of trysts in his younger days. Now, though, he much preferred a quiet night in or hyperfocusing on a new project. Cait always teased him for âturning into an old man.âÂ
Maybe she had a point. Just a little bit.Â
It took Jayce a 10-minute conversation with Salo and another 15 minutes of standing against a wall before the noise and the lights became too much. He was uncomfortable, on his way to overstimulated, and in desperate need of a small respite. So he went looking for one.Â
All the bedrooms were⌠occupied. The bathroom, when not occupied, was more of a cesspool of untoward activity than a sanctuary. The backyard was just as loud as anywhere else. All that left him with was the closed basement door. Which had an eccentric, bright pink âStay Out!!!â spray-painted on it.Â
He did feel bad about ignoring the warning, but desperate times called for desperate measures.Â
Jayce opened the door, stepped inside, and shut it behind him. The immediate quiet, even with the muffled music through the wall, sent relief through his body. He sighed and walked down the stairs. About halfway down, a familiar skunk-like smell wafted its way up to him. But since heâd already committed, he simply wrinkled his nose and kept going.Â
He stepped off the final stair, turned the corner, and took a look around the room.Â
It was a typical basement- a couple of couches, a TV, a coffee table, and various movie and show posters on the walls. The lights were off, save for a warm-colored lamp on the table. None of it was out of the ordinary. Nothing particularly caught his eye.Â
What did gain his attention, though, was the man on the couch.Â
Pale and lanky, long brown hair with strands of blonde pulled into a low bun, clad in a burgundy cardigan and black sweats with a leg brace on the right knee. Only his side profile was visible from here, showing off a long nose and sharp cheekbones. A beauty mark sat above his thin, pink lips, which were currently wrapped around a half-smoked joint. His long lashes fluttered closed as he inhaled, pulled the joint from his mouth, and laid his head back against the couch. One long finger tapped against it.Â
Jayce was, for one moment, very taken aback. If this guy was a girl, heâd be stunning.
âUh-â He grunted out, like an idiot.Â
The manâs eye opened, iris sliding in his direction. No other part of him moved. He exhaled the smoke and closed his eye again, âThe bathroom is upstairs, on the second level. At the end of the hall.âÂ
As if this strangerâs looks werenât enough of a shock, his words came out accented. It sounded Russian, or maybe Czech. It made him sound melodic, like voicing an elegant song instead of speaking. Jayce found himself wanting to hear more.Â
âOh, no, I, uh-â Jayce cleared his throat, then tried again, âSorry, I was actually just trying to find a quiet place for a minute. All the noise was⌠it was a little much.âÂ
The manâs eyes opened again, and this time he turned his head towards Jayce. The latter discovered two distinct things at that moment.Â
One, he had another beauty mark. Under his right eye, lighter than the one above his mouth.Â
Two, the attractiveness increased tenfold when he saw his whole face. A few strands of his hair had fallen out of the bun and framed his face. Seriously, he could be a model or something.
The stranger raised a thick, dark eyebrow, âWhy come to a party if the party is going to be âa little muchâ?âÂ
âWell, thatâs not-â He scoffed, rubbing a hand over his jaw, âI didnât- I came with a friend, so.âÂ
Piercing golden eyes watched him with mild curiosity, âAnd where is your friend now?âÂ
âSheâs with her- you know what? It doesnât matter.â Jayce shook his head, feeling a little disgruntled, âYouâre the one hiding down here all by yourself.âÂ
âWell, I live here. I canât exactly escape the party.â He explained, tilting his head from side to side, âThis was supposed to be my safe haven.âÂ
Jayce ignored the last part, partly out of stubbornness, and responded with a question, âYou live here? I thought Viâs sister was the host.âÂ
âJinx.â The man explained, looking away. It gave Jayce a chance to take a deep breath. He felt like a bug under a magnifying glass with those eyes on him, âAnd she is. Sheâs my roommate. One of them.âÂ
âJinx? What kind of a name is that?â He chuckled.Â
There was no response. Only a noncommittal shrug as he lifted the joint to his lips once again. A motion by which Jayce found himself hypnotized. The slender fingers holding it, the way his lips pursed as he inhaled, the twitching of his eyelids. It looked so natural- as simple as breathing. He was so caught up in it that he didnât realize the manâs gaze was on him again.Â
âDo you want some?â He asked, jolting Jayce out of his trance and offering the weed up.Â
He could feel his face heating up, both from being caught staring and from the offer. Heâd had weed a couple of times in the past, but it never ended well. Whether it be not knowing his own limits or peer pressure, he always went too far and got too anxious to enjoy it. He was open to it, but that didnât stop him from feeling nervous. A familiar emotion right now.Â
âOh, I uh- I wouldnât want to intrude.âÂ
The man smiled, just a small thing, but it made a certain softness take over his face, âA little late for that, no?âÂ
His cheeks were sure to be bright red now. He laughed nervously.Â
The good-looking stranger shook his head, gesturing for Jayce to come closer, âIâm joking. Come. The company might be nice.âÂ
âAre you sure?â The question came out hesitant, but he was already moving over to the couch. Something about the way this guy spoke made him feel compelled to listen.
However, that could be the sleep deprivation talking. Or heâd finally lost it. Both were possibilities.Â
âI find you⌠intriguing.â His new acquaintance told him, watching as he sat on the opposite side of the couch, âBesides, you said you needed a moment of quiet.âÂ
âI guess thatâs true.â He shrugged, âThanks. I appreciate it.âÂ
âMm.â Humming, he offered the joint to Jayce once again. This time, he took it.Â
It was only then that he realized there was a cane resting next to the man. Silver with a red and gold handle, decorated with graffiti that matched the âkeep outâ sign on the door. He wondered if it was the strangerâs doing, but that felt unlikely. It didnât seem like his style.Â
Jayce took a drag, forcing himself not to cough as the marijuana burned all the way down. He really was not used to this sensation. The only thing worse than the burn, though, would be looking like a fool in front of this interesting guy heâd just met. He had to play it cool.Â
God, he was such a loser.Â
âYouâre supposed to exhale it, you know.â The man spoke up, amusement lacing that magnetizing accent. It was just shy of patronizing, which strangely made his stomach coil.
This entire interaction was making Jayceâs head spin a little bit.Â
He let the smoke out in one quick breath, which immediately sent him into a coughing fit. He hunched over himself, hitting a fist against his chest in an attempt to clear the pipe. He didnât think this could get any worse. Either the humiliation or the coughing would kill him. A death that heâd happily embrace.Â
âThere, there. Easy.â A hand rested on his back, lithe fingers rubbing into the muscles, âYou havenât smoked much, I see.âÂ
Jayce barely noticed the hand on him, too preoccupied with trying not to die. He shook his head, letting out a hoarse, âNot really.âÂ
âHere.â The joint was taken from his hand and replaced with a glass of water, âDrink.âÂ
He didnât hesitate to chug half of it. Then he slumped back against the couch, eyes closed as he took a few deep breaths. The burn had subsided, leaving only a bit of irritation in his throat. At the very least, heâd stopped coughing. Small victories.Â
âAre you alright?âÂ
Jayce looked over at the stranger- his savior, in a way- and froze. Those amber eyes were locked on him, rimmed with red, and hungry. That feeling in his chest tightened, making him feel on edge.Â
He swallowed, âYeah. Yeah, uh, sorry. I donât- Iâm sorta new to this.âÂ
The man tucked some hair behind his ear and laid his arm over the back of the couch. His hand was only a few inches away from Jayceâs face.Â
âWas this your first time?âÂ
âNo.â He shook his head, âIâve done it a couple times before. Just⌠not in a while.âÂ
âI see.â He picked at a loose thread sticking out of the cushion, âDid you enjoy it? In the past?âÂ
Jayceâs mind was starting to feel foggy. He pursed his lips, âIt wasnât bad. I think I just⌠I did too much too fast. Got in over my head.âÂ
âMm, you seem like the type.â The manâs fingernails were painted black, the polish chipped, âTo get in over your head, that is.âÂ
âYeah?â He smiled lazily at his new friend, âWhat about you?âÂ
The man shook his head immediately, âDefinitely not. I am always calm and collected. Just donât ask anyone close to me for a second opinion on that.âÂ
That made him laugh. He laid a hand over his stomach, head tilted back. When he looked back at the stranger, still chuckling, there was something close to admiration on the guyâs face. Again, his stomach did a flip. What a strange way this night was going.Â
âWhatâs your name?â He asked, voice deeper and accent more prominent.Â
âJayce.â He responded, âJayce Talis. You?âÂ
âViktor.â The man told him, and it was perfect. He couldnât think of a better-fitting name.Â
âItâs nice to meet you. Even if I made a complete fool of myself with the weed.âÂ
Viktor snorted out a laugh, taking another hit from the joint. He made it look effortless, âNot at all. Youâre new to it. Iâve been doing it for a long time.âÂ
âYou never get sick of it?âÂ
âNever. It helps too much. With the, eh, pain. And, you know, it quiets the mind.âÂ
âRight.â He gestured to the leg brace, âI donât wanna pry, but I assume thatâs what youâre talking about.âÂ
âWell, there are worse ways to be nosy.â He responded, screwing up his lips, âYouâd be right, though. Itâs my bad leg. I was born with it.âÂ
âIâm sorry.â Jayce blurted, because he felt like an idiot. The weed definitely wasnât helping with his stupidness, âYou donât have to talk about it if you donât want to.âÂ
âIf I didnât want to, I wouldnât.âÂ
He held his hands up in surrender, âAlright, thatâs fair. I just donât want you to feel pressured.âÂ
âMy hero.â Viktor deadpanned, rolling his pretty eyes, âCan you feel it yet?âÂ
Jayce furrowed his brows, âFeel- oh, the weed?âÂ
The other man nodded in confirmation.Â
âA little. I donât think I had much, honestly.âÂ
âDo you want more?âÂ
âAnd have another coughing fit? I canât take more embarrassment, Viktor.âÂ
He chuckled, âYouâll survive. And we can try another way to get it down for you.âÂ
âAnother way? Like what?âÂ
Something mischievous had crossed over his face, which was slightly scary, âI believe most people call it, uh⌠shotgunning. Have you heard of it?âÂ
Jayce most definitely had. And the prospect was simultaneously intriguing and panic-inducing to him.Â
Viktor was nice and funny, and he was good-looking. But shotgunning was sort of⌠an intimate thing? In a way? The kind of thing you did when you wanted to get up close and personal with someone?Â
Was that what Viktor wanted? Was he coming onto Jayce?Â
If he was, well, that was flattering. But Jayce wasnât really⌠heâd done stuff with men before. The typical college, experimenting stuff. And it was fine- wasnât terrible. But he didnât think that was really⌠him.Â
But he was also a little high. And spiraling. And he was having a good time with Viktor and he didnât want it to end.Â
So what the hell? Why not? Whatâs the worst that could happen?
âYeah, I- I think I have.â He spoke, finally giving in and rubbing at the back of his neck, âWe could give it a shot. If you want.âÂ
âExcellent.â Viktor patted the empty spot next to him, âCome.âÂ
Jayce followed the order with no hesitation. Like a dog obeying the commands of his master. Something about it made the other manâs eyes light up, much to his confusion.Â
âSo, how are we-âÂ
He didnât get the chance to finish his sentence. The words were cut off as Viktor slid onto his legs, seating himself right on Jayceâs lap. It sent his brain, his heart, his whole body into overdrive. It didnât even occur to him to move him, though. He was too busy trying to remember how to breathe. Not necessarily in a bad way, but definitely slightly unnerving.
Friends could do stuff like this, right?Â
Did Jayce even want to just be friends? Was there something more here?Â
Viktor smelled like weed, cinnamon, and old paper. It drew him in with every breath.
Jayce, even with his sluggish mind, was coming to a semi-realization. While he couldnât be sure how true it would feel in the light of day, it felt true now. Which could mean tons of things, honestly.Â
Jayce was realizing that he liked this feeling. He liked the buzzing under his skin, the fogginess behind his eyes. He liked the weight of Viktor on him, liked the smell of Viktor, liked Viktor. Something about him was just so magnetizing. It made him nervous. This whole thing did. But he found that he didnât really mind it.Â
This was surely a crisis in the making. Something to be dealt with and reflected on in the sober light of day. He could analyze every move, second-guess every word and every reaction. He could take the time to nitpick his feelings until everything was clear. But right now, that didnât matter.Â
Right now, he felt good. And he wanted to keep doing what felt good. That should be simple enough.Â
He nodded to himself. Literally. He probably looked like a freak to his companion. If he did, he garnered no reaction.Â
âOpen your mouth,â Viktor told him, raising the joint to his lips.Â
Fuck. A cacophony of not-appropriate things flitted through his mind in reaction to the words. Not on purpose.
âWait-â He heard himself saying, which was the opposite of what his heart (and his dick) wanted him to do. Apparently, his head still had the wheel.Â
Jayce rested his hands on Viktorâs hips to stop him. Even through the thick cardigan, the latterâs hip bones were prominent. It made something twist unhappily in Jayceâs chest.Â
Viktor did wait, pausing with a raised eyebrow and the weed an inch or two from his mouth.Â
âA-are you okay like this?â Jayce stuttered out, looking up at the star of his current dilemma, âYour leg-âÂ
The questioning look on Viktorâs face turned to amusement, and he tilted his head, âThatâs what youâre worried about? You idiot.âÂ
The word didnât even sting like it wouldâve from anyone else. It sounded like an endearment more than anything.Â
âMy leg is fine.â He hummed, resting a hand on Jayceâs shoulder. The weight was nice, soothing, âIâve lived with it all my life. I know what I can handle.âÂ
Did weed have some sort of magical attraction properties? The sensation in his chest certainly felt like something out of a fairytale.Â
âOkay.â Jayce exhaled shakily- again, not on purpose, âOkay. I just wanted to check.âÂ
âHow kind of you.â That hand left his arm, coming back a moment later as Viktor grabbed his chin. He squeezed lightly, causing Jayceâs lips to pucker, âAre you ready?âÂ
Jayce nodded eagerly, giggling. Any harder and his head probably wouldâve snapped off.Â
Viktor gave him a look of approval that made his lungs ache, âInhale when I exhale. Yes?âÂ
He swallowed, âYes.âÂ
The man half-smiled, gave him a little nod, and took a long drag. It looked so easy, so beautiful, when he did it. Which was a strange thing to think. A strange action to find beautiful. But it was, nevertheless.Â
Jayce parted his lips when Viktor lowered his hand, watching with expectant eyes as the man leaned toward him. Their noses brushed, sending a tingle through his skin. His breath hitched, and then the smoke was blown into his mouth. He closed his eyes and inhaled.Â
It burned again, but he loved it this time. It filled his chest, his brain, left him feeling a little weightless.Â
There was no coughing when he exhaled. Only the relief of subsided stinging, the warmth of Viktor against him. His nerves began to hum from his head to his toes.Â
He was pretty sure he understood what all the hype was about now. Why the drug was so popular.Â
But then again, that could all be because of Viktor.Â
Viktor, Viktor, Viktor.
âSo beautiful.â He heard his companion say, and there was a thumb brushing over his bottom lip.Â
Jayce blinked his eyes open. It was harder than usual. Everything felt a little sluggish.Â
Viktor was watching him. The whites of his starlight eyes were red, his gaze half-lidded, and that hunger was back. He looked like a cat on the prowl. Stalking its prey.Â
Jayce had never been so pleased to feel like a cornered mouse.Â
âDo you like men, Jayce?âÂ
âDo I-?â The question echoed his own thoughts bouncing around his mind. It sent a strike of panic through him, slightly dampened by the drug in his veins. He didnât really have an answer for him. This night had brought up a lot of feelings on that exact topic, and most of them were muddy. It was terrifying, âI donât⌠Iâm not really sure, Viktor.âÂ
âAllow me to rephrase my question, then.â He hummed, and he was back to brushing his fingers over Jayceâs face. His lips, cheeks, nose, the space between his eyebrows, âDo you want to kiss me?âÂ
This question was much simpler. But it wasnât much easier to answer.
He really liked Viktor. He was drawn to him like a moth to a flame. Viktor was funny and he had a nice accent and his face was- honestly, the only word that came to mind was beautiful. Heâd never found a man beautiful before.Â
Jayce wanted the answer to be easy. He wanted it to come to him like a reflex. But he was scared. The fear was holding him back.Â
He tried to remind himself of the vow heâd made only a bit ago. Analyze emotions later, do what feels good now.Â
If Viktor was a woman, Jayce knew what his answer would be. And that should be enough for now. He met Viktorâs gaze once more.
âYes.â He whispered. It felt a little like signing his death sentence.Â
âGo on, then.â Their noses were touching again. Viktorâs skin was cold on his. Or maybe Jayceâs was just unusually hot.Â
âYou want me to?â Jayce was over-thinking. As he, clearly, had a tendency to do. But some part of him felt like this was all a prank, or a dream. Surely, the moment he leaned forward it would all go up in a cloud of smoke.Â
âTake what you want, Jayce.â His voice was lower, deeper. The words curled with his accent, like music notes drifting through the air, âHesitate, and the opportunity will slip through your fingers.â
That was all the push he needed.Â
He kissed Viktor. Slowly at first, awkwardly. He was giggling again, mostly out of nervousness. Jayce had experience in kissing- 95% of it was with women. And this was different.Â
Heâd lean forward and end up squishing their noses together. Let out a chuckle, re-adjust, try again. Their teeth clacked together on the next kiss, a jarring sensation that made them both flinch. Still, they were smiling and touching and going for more. Jayce tried to kiss him and missed, planting a smooch right on his chin.Â
âShit-â He snickered, pulling away. His cheeks were red-hot, âSorry, sorry.âÂ
âDonât be. And donât be nervous.â Viktorâs eyes crinkled a little as he smiled, âWeâre in no rush.âÂ
âYeah. Yeah, youâre right. Okay.â He took a stabilizing breath, half-grinning, âCan I try again?âÂ
âIâd be offended if you didnât.âÂ
Jayce laughed and kissed him again. A little more sure this time, but just as sloppy. He leaned up off the couch, pressing his hand into the small of Viktorâs lower back. Needing him closer, closer, closer. His lips tasted like raspberries.Â
Viktorâs fingers tangled into Jayceâs hair, keeping his head right where he wanted. He kissed him like he was a master at it, like it was something heâd done a million times. It made Jayce feel very, very inadequate.Â
He nipped at Jayceâs bottom lip, pulled back enough that Jayce had to chase him for more, then plunged right back in. A gentle tug on the locks in Viktorâs hands had Jayceâs mouth falling open. Viktorâs tongue slipped inside a moment later. One of his hands came to rest on Viktorâs face, thumb brushing over that sharp cheekbone. He allowed himself to be manhandled- let Viktor use his mouth as he pleased. He couldnât stop fucking smiling.Â
âThere we go, youâre getting the hang of it,â Viktor murmured against his lips. His kisses moved to Jayceâs chin, mouthing along his jawline, âSo eager, too. Like a puppy. Will you wag your tail if I call you a good boy?âÂ
He wanted to be embarrassed about the comparison. Wanted to not like the insinuation as much as he did. Mostly, though, he just wanted more Viktor.Â
âFuck.â He breathed, tilting his head back to give the other man more access. His pants were starting to strain a little bit.Â
âI think thatâs a yes.â He whispered, his breath sending goosebumps across Jayceâs skin.Â
Viktorâs kisses moved up, up, up, until he was nibbling on Jayceâs earlobe. He gave it one sharp tug.Â
And Jayce fucking whimpered.Â
Heâd never made that noise before. He didnât even know he could make that noise. It definitely didnât sound like something that wouldâve come out of him. But it had. His face was on fire.Â
âOh, you like that?â Viktor practically purred. He pulled away to look at Jayce, and his hazy eyes widened a bit, âYou didnât know you liked that.âÂ
âNo, I-â He swallowed, shifting a little in his seat, âI didnât mean to make that⌠noise.âÂ
As if his inexperience wasnât bad enough, now he was making sounds that could only be labeled as pathetic. Viktor must have thought he was such an idiot.Â
The man frowned, pink lips forming an adorable pout, âI put work into getting that noise from you. Iâd appreciate if you didnât try to downplay it.âÂ
Jayce blinked up at him, âYou liked it?âÂ
Viktor stared at him like he was an idiot. Jayce could only focus on how pretty he was like that.Â
âKiss me again?â He pleaded, because the way his head was already spinning wasnât enough. He needed more.Â
His companion was happy to oblige.Â
The kiss was back to passionate and sloppy, all tongue and teeth and wandering hands. Jayceâs shirt got halfway unbuttoned, Viktorâs hair was let down, and the forgotten cup of water was kicked onto the carpet. Neither of them noticed, or maybe they didnât care. Too caught up in each other to remember there was a whole world around them.Â
Theyâd fallen into a rhythm, moving together like partners in a dance. It was euphoric.
âShit-â Jayce moaned, eyes rolled back as the other man sucked at his neck.Â
Viktor ran his tongue down Jayceâs pulse point, kissed the spot right above his collarbone, and then bit down. Hard.Â
Jayce hissed at the sting, then grunted as it immediately turned into pleasure. All of his blood had gone South. His head was blissfully empty. Had he ever felt so needy in his life? If he had, he definitely couldnât remember it.Â
Viktor slid his hands down Jayceâs arms, interlocking them with the ones still on his waist. His fingers were slender against Jayceâs, bony and long while the otherâs were thick and strong. They fit together perfectly.
Viktor kissed him again, then again. Little pecks that left him desperate for more.Â
âHad enough yet?â He asked through the kisses, his lips swollen and red, âPerhaps you should return to the- mm- party. If youâve had your moment of quiet.â
âTrying to get rid of me?â Jayce asked, his breathing ragged. The question was asked jokingly, but it made his chest ache. Maybe he was doing terribly- maybe this wasnât as good for Viktor as it was for him. He squeezed Viktorâs hands, still clasped in his own, âAnd here I thought we were having such a good time.â
âWhatever gave you that idea?â He shot back, attempting to hide the amused smile on his lips. He certainly thought himself funny. It made Jayceâs fear die down, just a little, âBe a good boy and lay me down. I need to rest my leg.â
The nickname went straight to his dick. It also made him sit there for a solid five seconds like an idiot as his mind tried to process the words. Then he did, and it immediately had his heart lunging with worry.Â
âDoes it hurt?â Jayce asked earnestly, hooking his hands under Viktorâs thighs to lay him down on the couch. He knelt in between the manâs legs, the right one stretched out and relaxed.Â
Viktor let out a relieved sigh as he settled into the couch, âIt was starting to pinch. Nothing too bad, donât worry.âÂ
âAre you sure?â Jayce asked softly, one hand holding him up while the other held Viktorâs hip. He watched the man closely, worriedly, âWe can stop if-âÂ
âDo you want to stop?âÂ
âNo!â He choked out, dark strands falling over his forehead. The answer came out faster than his mind could keep up. Complete instinct. He furrowed his brows, âNo, I donât. I just am⌠worried.âÂ
âJayce, I am high out of my mind, having my way with a beautiful boy. I am fine.âÂ
He grinned at the sentiment, even as it made his face heat up, âBeautiful? Really?âÂ
Viktor rolled his red-tinged eyes, âYou know youâre beautiful. I wonât feed your ego. Come and kiss me more, yes?âÂ
Jayce giggled. He leaned down, âYes.âÂ
It was easier to kiss Viktor like this- more familiar. He still wasnât the one leading, but it did feel like he had more control. Not that heâd minded being at the mercy of his companion.Â
Jayceâs hand slid down the other manâs hip, grasping his thigh and pulling the leg against his waist. He could nearly wrap his hand entirely around the limb, fingertips almost touching. It made something primal, maybe territorial, bloom in his chest. Viktor was so fucking skinny.
âMm-â Viktor gasped as their groins slotted together, fingers digging into Jayceâs shoulders. He looked up with those pretty sunset eyes, lips parted, âJayce.âÂ
If he was sober, Jayce wouldâve realized that his name sounded a little like a warning. But he was high, he was horny, and he had never been much of a good listener. And Viktor smelled so good and his skin was soft and Jayce was kissing up and down his throat. Really, it wasnât his fault. He had too much he was preoccupied with.Â
He rolled his hips again, desperate for friction, and paused. Something about that was⌠off. It didnât feel how it should.Â
âHold on,â Viktor spoke up again, another warning. Jayce couldnât hear him- he was too busy thinking.Â
The cogs in his head were turning, and he was realizing, and- Shit. He pulled away like heâd been burned. He watched with wide eyes as Viktor sat up, the latterâs expression nearing resignation.Â
âJayce-â He began, and it sounded like the beginning of an explanation.Â
Once again, Jayce was not listening. How the hell was Viktor so calm? This was serious!
âOh my God.â He breathed out, running a hand through his already messy hair. He sat back on his heels, âOh my God, Viktor, whereâs your dick? What happened to it?âÂ
The other man watched him in stunned silence. It was totally unnerving. Really, why wasnât he freaking out?!
âDid I crush it? Oh my God, Iâm so sorry. I didnât know that was possible. My Mom always told me I had more strength than I knew what to do with, I just didnât think it could do this-âÂ
Viktor snorted. Loud and sharp enough that it shut Jayce up, quieted his mind. The two stared at each other for three long seconds.Â
Then Viktor started laughing.Â
The sound was light, a little wheezy, and beautiful. Despite the strangeness of the situation, it made Jayce smile. Heâd never heard a laugh quite like it.Â
Still, that didnât take away from the very real panic coursing through him.Â
��Jayce, you are- oh, God.â He chuckled, covering his mouth with a hand, âIt is a good thing you have your looks.âÂ
He furrowed his brows. His brain was very slow right now and he was very, very confused. Shaking his head, he rested a hand on Viktorâs knee, âI donât understand.âÂ
The smile the man gave Jayce was equal parts fondness and patronization, âI donât have a, eh, dick, as you so eloquently put it. I never have.âÂ
Jayce tilted his head to the side as if things would make more sense at a 45-degree angle. He blinked once, twice, three times, âWhat?â
Viktor rolled his eyes, more for theatrics than anything else, âTo put it technically, I was born a female. Which took me very little time to realize was not the case. Thus, here I am now. Not a female. My body simply⌠is a little behind in the process.âÂ
âOh.âÂ
Jayce was the dumbest fucking idiot in the world. His face was absolutely on fire, embarrassment burning through him. Part of him hoped death would just take him now, or that this was all a dream heâd wake up from. If only to save himself from the humiliation. Viktor must have been kicking himself for spending time with such an imbecile.Â
âIs that a problem for you?â Viktor asked when Jayce stayed silent, an incredulous eyebrow raised. The warmth was gone from him, defenses raised as he waited for an answer.Â
Jayce lurched forward, desperate to fix the situation, to stop being so damn stupid. A large hand cupped Viktorâs cheek, âNo! No, not at all. Iâm sorry, I just- I feel so stupid.â He laughed, more self-deprecating than anything, âYouâre great, Viktor- wonderful. And Iâm an idiot. I didnât- Iâm sorry, my brain is not working. Itâs not a problem. I like you how you are.âÂ
The word vomit spewing from him was grating on his nerves, making him cringe. He wanted to curl into a ball and die. This was the worst.Â
He expected Viktor to pull away. To tell him to leave, that they were done and Jayce was unwelcome. He expected to be shunned for his idiocy. He wouldâve deserved it, too.Â
Instead, the man huffed out a laugh. He shook his head, âIâm not sure Iâd go so far as to call you an idiot, Jayce. But it certainly was not one of your finest moments.âÂ
âDefinitely not.â He grinned, running his thumb over the sharp cheekbone, âTry not to hold it against me? I donât care that youâre a guy without a dick. I like you. Iâm just very high.âÂ
âOh, you like me?â Viktor wrapped a hand around Jayceâs forearm, âYou just met me.âÂ
He gave a half-assed shrug, getting a little caught up in how starkly contrasting their skin tones were, âIt doesnât take much.âÂ
âJust weed and some kissing, huh?âÂ
âYou also happen to be very cool.â Jayce argued, a teasing lilt to his voice, âThough the weed and the kissing donât hurt.âÂ
Viktor chuckled. He looked so lovely with his hair down and a smile on his face. Jayce wanted to commit it to a canvas and look at it forever.Â
âCan we do some more of it? The kissing?â He asked before he could stop himself. This longing in his chest was more than he could bear.Â
The manâs eyes shimmered like starlight, something akin to pride flaring in him. He liked that Jayce wanted him. Jayce liked it too- he liked that look on Viktorâs face a lot.Â
Just as Jayceâs companion opened his mouth to respond, though, they were interrupted.Â
The door to the basement was flung open, letting in a flurry of pounding music and strobe lights. Jayce jumped a foot in the air, heart rate skyrocketing, while Viktor didnât move a muscle.
âVik, you down there?â A voice that could only be described as cackly called. From here, Jayce couldnât see any part of the intruder besides black scuffed boots and two ankle-length blue braids, âEkko says I canât set off my fireworks unless youâre there to supervise!âÂ
Viktor laid his head against the back of the couch and looked up toward the doorway, âIâm assuming you wonât be taking no for an answer?âÂ
âNope!â Came her enthusiastic reply as she rocked back and forth on her heels, âI told you I was gonna make you participate in the party. Youâve had your time.âÂ
The man let out a long sigh before responding, âIâll be right there.âÂ
âDonât take too long! Iâll be on the roof!âÂ
Then the door slammed shut, and they were in the quiet again.Â
Viktor looked at Jayce with an expression bordering on apologetic, âIt seems weâll have to rain-check our kissing, unfortunately.âÂ
âYou have to go?â He didnât mean to sound as pathetic and whiny as he did. The thought of parting with him right now made him very sad.Â
âJinx is not one for patience.â Viktor got to his feet, stretching his arms above his head until his spine popped. His shirt rode up, giving Jayce a peek of smooth skin over a prominent hip bone, âAnd Iâd prefer if my house didnât get burned down by her antics. I like having a place to live.âÂ
Viktor was reaching for his cane and Jayce was panicking, panicking, panicking. He didnât want to say goodbye, not yet. His mind was a haze but he knew that much.Â
âWell, can I see you again? Sometime soon?â Desperate. He mustâve looked so desperate. He didnât care.Â
Viktor paused and looked down at him, half-smirking. His fingers tapped against the head of his cane, âIâm sure youâll see me again, Jayce. Some time.âÂ
âBut-âÂ
âYou can stay down here as long as youâd like.â Viktor walked towards the stairs, favoring the weight of his bad leg a little, âEnjoy the quiet, get some rest, take care of your⌠predicament. No one will bother you.âÂ
It didnât take a genius to know that the âpredicamentâ was Jayceâs not-so-subtle erection. His cheeks were heating up again. All he could do was watch with resignation as the man moved away from him. He was like water Jayce was trying to hold in his hands.Â
Just as he was about to ascend the stairs, Viktor stopped again. He looked at Jayce over his shoulder, gazing through strands of brown hair. His eyes shone with warmth, âThank you for keeping me company. I hope it was as⌠enjoyable for you as it was for me.âÂ
He left after that. Deserting Jayce in the basement with kiss-swollen lips, too-tight pants, and a whole lot of questions.Â
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A Deep Dive Into Why Cass Threw Dick Out A Window
If you've been here long enough you've probably seen or heard of this moment, which is super hilarious and iconic. It's mostly discussed in reference to Dick and Cass' relationship. However, in my opinion Cass throwing Dick out a window had very little to do with her opinion of him, or even of Barbara; it has more to do with her understanding of romance and love. I briefly touched on this in my gender/sexuality post, but I'm going to explain more in depth my interpretation of how Dick functions in Batgirl (2000) as a whole. (This moment is very open to interpretation though, this is just my opinion!). So let's try to answer Dick's question: what was that all about?
Love, Language, and DickBabs
While Puckett's run is notable for not having Cass date anyone, romantic love does play a role in Cass' early understanding of the world. It's the impetus that spurs her to write: in issue 2, she sees a wife read a letter from her deceased husband, and her reaction affects Cass so strongly she immediately starts trying to write. (She also kisses the husband on the cheek earlier, which may or may not be a crush). Romance, and the ability to communicate your love, is a fundamental part of Cass' desire to learn language.
So we have Cass, who has experienced neither love nor language, living with Babs, who's in a relationship with Dick. This telephone conversation in #4 (the issue where a metahuman changes Cass' brain into understanding language) again links romance to communication. Dick and Babs are talking on the phone, unable to see each other but understanding each other perfectly; Cass and Babs, on the other hand, live together and can't understand each other at all.
"She can't talk, so it's not all that different [to living alone]." Babs is telling an eavesdropping Cass that her inability to speak prevents her from love and connection - a love and connection symbolised by one of the first romantic relationships Cass is consistently around, Dick and Barbara.
Dick as an Ideal
There's a debate whether Cass likes Dick or not because half the time they're friendly, and half the time she's punching him or throwing him out windows. This disparity makes sense if you consider that Cass strongly associates DickBabs with communication, understanding, love - very idealised notions - but she does not associate Dick as a person with them. Her interactions with Dick (sans Babs) are cute and normal - Batgirl #29 and Nightwing #81 feature some very adorable Dick-Cass moments, with no real tension whatsoever.
It's only when Cass sees Dick in a romantic light (as in associated with Babs) that she makes him into a symbol.
Cass often tries to copy Babs, thinking it's the 'correct' thing to do - in DC First: Batgirl/Joker, she goes after Joker because that's what Barbara did; later in Horrocks' run she'll wear Barbara's outfit. In a way, Cass' affairs with Tai'Darshan and Kon - as much as I do think Tai'Darshan was genuine attraction - is another way to 'copy' Barbara. In #42, Cass stares at a picture of Dick and Babs while asking if Babs likes boys. Obviously Cass knows the answer is yes, but see what she asks next, and how Barbara responds:
She shifts from 'like' to 'love', and Babs responds that she 'care[s]' about him. For Cass, whose arc in Horrocks' run is about parsing out the nuances of attraction, understanding the difference between like, love, and care is incredibly difficult. She struggles to separate familial from romantic (Bruce in #50) or romantic from platonic (Kon, and in somewhat the reverse way Steph). In this conversation, Cass comes to associate Dick with like, love, and care - DickBabs becomes not just a symbol of romantic love, but of any connection whatsoever.
The Old Costume
I've discussed elsewhere that Cass wearing Babs' old costume in #45 is a representation of her desire to be 'girly', and how she associates girlhood with someone other than herself, discarding her own costume for Babs'. But putting on a costume is not the only prerequisite for being a 'girl'. In Babs' speech to Cass, she emphasises being sexually attractive to men, with her final comment being about this "particular look Dick used to give [her]". For Cass, visual language is incredibly important; putting on Babs' costume is not about being or feeling like a girl, but about being perceived as one. Dick is symbolic of the perceiver: the one who can essentially 'grant' women their femininity.
But Cass is disgusted when Tim calls her hot, which adds to her confusion - why should Dick being attracted to Babs make Babs happy, but Tim (who's not a sibling at this time) perceiving her like that grosses her out? Cass' inability to feel good - to feel 'feminine' - through the male gaze is another sign, to her, of her failure to be a woman.
Which finally brings us to issue 46...
That Ableist Kon Comment
Cass finds out Dick breaks Babs' heart and then starts hallucinating on a drug. One of the things she hallucinates is Kon saying "who wants to date a cripple? Ain't that right, Nightwing?" and Nightwing responding "not me--at least, not anymore."
For the first time, we get to the heart of why DickBabs mattered to Cass: it was an example of a disabled person in a loving, romantic relationship. It goes back to that phone call in #4, where Babs implies that Cass is hard to care about because she can't speak. The Kon comment suggests Cass has carried that with her all this time, trying to find proof that she can be loved, no matter her disability. DickBabs showed her it could be done - the break-up shows her now that it can't be done.
Dick's hallucination mocks her disability: "look at her--she can't even read!" Attributing this mockery to Dick (whose real-life counterpart, unlike the other hallucinations, has never said anything remotely like this) shows that this 'Dick-as-ideal' is intrinsically tied to Cass' self-worth.
Honestly this whole post stemmed from me thinking about this one panel. There is no real reason, from Cass' view of Dick as a person, for her to think he's brave and noble and kind (more so than anyone else). But it's in the DickBabs context - that Dick seemed to love, wholeheartedly, a disabled woman - that makes Cass think this way. And now that DickBabs is broken up, it shows that she, too, is rotten to the core; that someone like her cannot be loved.
And so when Dick shows up, she throws him out the window.
Conclusion
In this moment, Cass isn't just reacting to Dick breaking up with Barbara, she's reacting to what it means to her. If Dick can't stay with Barbara, then that means Cass, as another disabled woman, is also unable to be loved. This all leads up to #50, which features another Cass punch to Dick's face, but more importantly is when Bruce and Cass reconcile through Cass' first language. It's a confirmation that though her verbal skills may not be fully developed, she still can communicate, and she can love and be loved.
I don't think a lot of the ideas I touched on here are fully developed, or conclude cleanly. For example, how does Cass' 'failure' to be a woman relate to her inability to be loved? Is she able to have a stable romantic relationship? There are lots more questions, but the role Dick specifically plays in Cass' understanding of romance is probably not going to develop further. I just think it's interesting how Horrocks uses the Dick-Babs relationship to explore Cass' identity.
#cassandra cain#dick grayson#barbara gordon#batgirl 2000#meta#im sorry if this doesn't make sense im not sure how coherent this is#i always see people bring the window thing up as an example of cass hating dick which is fair but undersells this moment by a lot#it's one of the many many moments in horrocks run that are somewhat ambiguous and have to do with cass' gender crisis#people can still joke about this ofc it's funny but it's also just really intriguing to me#idk anyway forever a horrocks champion i guess. he gets some flack for sexualising cass (which does happen and is gross)#but his exploration of cass' gender and sexuality is STILL unmatched. god give cass more long-term woman writers
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Mister Mxyzptlk
Stiles Stilinski x Fem!Reader Blurb
Word Count: 800
Sundrop's Main Masterlist
Warnings: mentions of bullying (Stiles being bullied for having a 'weird' name); mentions of Stiles's trauma surrounding his mother's death; obscure comic book references; this is mostly just fluff - very light implications toward sexual themes, flirting and romantic attraction between Stiles and the reader.
A/N: So, the last time I was actively watching Teen Wolf (when S3 and S4 were airing) I thought it was a running gag that Stiles's real name was never revealed and it was just always a mystery to the audience (like how it's a gag in Degrassi that Heather St. Claire's face is never seen). But when I saw a tiktok showing his real name, I was shocked, and then entirely amused by it. And I was also really offended because I'm watching S1 for the first time and the coach calls Stiles's name 'child abuse' and his father doesn't even dispute that, knowing that it's a family name to honour his dead mother's side of the family. And the fact that he is a character whose real name is very hard to pronounce and very few people actually know what it is got me thinking about the comic book character - Mister Mxyzptlk - and I realized that Stiles, being a comic book nerd who is always referencing things like The Incredible Hulk and Batman and Robin, would fucking love that comparison. Thus, this mini fic. Usually, this is an idea I would save and put it as a moment in a longer fic, but I'm not currently working a fic where I feel like this fits in, so it has become its own mini fic. Random idea, but enjoy this random fluff.
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"Is Stiles your real name?"
You inquired lightly, walking out of school with Scott and Stiles.
"It's something I've been wondering since we met."
Stiles felt a unique anxiety clutch in his chest at this question. He hated telling people his real name, especially when those people were pretty girls. Especially when they were pretty girls he had only met a week ago who were new in town who otherwise didn't know what a reputation he had for being a loser and could form their own opinions of him.
He could see any chance he had with you being flushed down the drain at top speed. But it wasn't much different from any other girl he previously had a crush on.
"Cause, I thought maybe it was your last name. Guys who play sports usually do that - always call each other by their last names." You went on, not sensing the awkwardness as Scott and Stiles eyed each other heavily, waiting for the other person to speak. "But I heard the coach calling you Balinski?"
"Stilinski." Stiles corrected you. "I think he gets my name wrong on purpose to belittle me." He gave a fake laugh to play it off, but you frowned.
"Stiles is a nickname." Scott added on, trying to usher Stiles away from the awkwardness of having to tell you himself. "His real first name is... really hard to pronounce, and not a lot of people at our school even know it. So - everyone just knows him as Stiles."
This brought Stiles back to a painful memory - in fourth grade, someone had seen the attendance sheet with his real name on it, and showed it to everyone else. And this had started a barrage of bullying and rumours about how he had gotten the name.
Some said that his mother hated him as soon as he was born and wanted to name him something really ugly to match him. Some said that his mother had a brain tumour and she named him in such an odd manner because her brain was 'mush' when he was born. And whenever people in the halls mockingly called him 'tumour baby' or 'brain tumour' - then he had to painfully be reminded of his mother's absence from his life.
"So you're like Mister Mxyzptlk?" You posed, a smile coming across your face from the joy of making such an apt reference.
Stiles looked at you then, unsure if he had heard you correctly - but his heart started to beat faster and he was sure that his crush developed into full, heart-stopping love in that moment.
A gorgeous, cute, sweet girl like you making such an obscure dorky reference - there was nobody else. Nobody else would ever make him feel the way you had in that moment.
Scott was entirely confused, looking between the two of you with utter dumbness across his face, wondering why Stiles' heart rate had increased so much.
"Ugh - yeah." Stiles stuttered out awkwardly. "Yeah, I guess I am."
"So, is learning your real name the power to defeating you?" You posed, smoothing your voice into a sultry tone, stepping closer to Stiles, running a hand up his bare forearm - clearly flirting now. "Do I get three chances to moan it in your ear without making a mistake before you're allowed to do whatever you want to me?"
Scott regretted his super-hearing, being able to catch exactly what you said in a low whisper against Stiles's ear.
Stiles's brain was short-circuiting.
You were making nerdy references and coming onto him now. His blood was rioting between rushing to his pants and giving him a heart attack, and soon, before he could stop it, he practically shouted:
"Marry me!"
And while this would have been a colossally awkward fumble with any other girl, you simply giggled and smiled.
"You're so cute." You complimented in return, reaching out to gently 'boop' a finger against his nose.
Stiles continued to gape at you, feeling like he needed to say more, needed to communicate just how epicly wonderful you were in his eyes.
"Chocolate? Or vanilla? Our wedding cake could have 4 tiers, or we could get one of those cupcake tower things, I heard those are really trendy."
You let out another laugh, thinking that he was joking - not realising that he was already picking out an engagement ring in his head, and wondering which comic book characters you would name your children after.
"We can start with a date." You told him. "Friday. After the game."
He nodded.
"Yes, date." He agreed eagerly. "A date would be amazing."
"I have to get going now." You added on - and he felt like he was floating when you leaned in and kissed him on the cheek before you departed. "See you later?"
"Everyday for the rest of our lives." Stiles mumbled quietly, entirely love-struck.
"What the hell was that?" Scott asked, still entirely baffled.
"We shall have a spring wedding." Stiles replied, his eyes still locked on your back as you walked away - clearly, he was still caught up in the euphoria of the interaction.
Scott had to drag him away.
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Hiii! I love your work! I was wondering if you could write something where Mattheo and the reader are enemies with sexual tension and one day their friends lock them in a room together and wonât let them out till they fuck and they eventually do?
Thank you!!
Hii love, love the idea, hope u have fun reading. Thank you for your request đ¤âď¸
SAY YOU HATE ME | m. riddle
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summary: reader and mattheo hate each other so their friends lock them together in a room
warnings: pure filthy smut!, enemyâs to lovers, insults, arguing, dirty talk, unprotected p in v, rough, fingering, sucking on fingers, coming inside reader
words: 3,1k
When Pansy, Draco and Blaise told me they have a suprise for me, I wasnât really convinced and sure it was some kind of prank but I also wasnât a quitter or a party booper so I sighed and let Pansy put the blindfold over my eyes like she wanted to.
She grabs me by my arm and starts leading me through our common room. We walk for like 5 minutes until they stop and tell me to be quit. I nod and take a deep breath when I hear them open a door. Pansy gently pushes me forwards and I can hear her smile while saying "Have fun you two." My eyebrows furrow together. What does she mean 'you two' ? I hear the door closing behind me with a few giggles so I take my blindfold off and turn towards the door. "What the hell guys?" I yell through the door.
"Oh so that's their plan." I suddenly hear someone say behind me. I spin around, seeing Mattheo Riddle sitting on the edge of a bed. "What the fuck are you doing here?" I ask him, my eyes looking at him and then around the room we're in.
"First of all, we're in my room , so I could ask you the same. Second, isn't it obvious to you what they're trying to do?" "Oh hell no!" Angry I walk back to the door and bang against it with my hands. "Pansy! let me out!" I hear them whispering behind the door before Lorenzo's voice speaks up. "You two will not get out until you talk about your problems." "Yeah or fuck them out." I hear Draco laughing. "Draco!" Pansy hisses.
"Guy's this isn't funny! I have things to do!" I answer, hoping they would do the right thing. But who am I kidding? "No what really isn't funny is how you two always argue with each other and ruin the vibe in our friend group for years now! So talk or never get out of there!" Blaise answers and I can basically hear him rolling his eyes before they disappear from the door.
I turn around then and look at Mattheo. "This is your fault! I hope you know that." I bitch at him, sitting on the other bed in the room that is Theodore's. He starts laughing and looks at me as If I have 3 heads. "Are you kidding me? If someone is responsible for this then it's you! You're the one who always acts like a bitch to me." "Hm, maybe I wouldn't act like a bitch If you wouldn't be such a pain in the ass with your stupid comments all day long."
He raises his eyebrows and leans forwards, his elbows on his knees now. "Oh you think so? Maybe I wouldn't have to leave stupid comments If you would consider using your brain for even a second."
My eyes widen at his comment. "Excuse me? You're just mad about the fact that I'm the only fucking girl in this school who isn't on her knees for you! Sorry Mattheo, not every woman thinks you're it."
He rolls his eyes and shakes his head at me, making his curls bounce slightly over his forehead. "This is ridiculous. As If I would even want you to be on your knees for me." I scoff at that. "Yeah why should you, right? Your type is dumb and brainless. Oh sorry, I forgot whore."
I see his face getting red and his jaw clenching. Suddenly he stands and walks over to me until he stands in between my legs, making me widen my eyes at him. He leans forward and speaks "What is your problem y/n? Why are you so fucking nice to everyone, acting like a little angel but are the biggest bitch the next second. Only to me of course. What is it that bugs you so much huh?" he breathes against my face, looking right into my shocked eyes.
"I - I just told you - you're always a pain -" "- in the ass. I know. But Draco is too. And I don't see you bitching at him like you do at me." "That's different. Draco is Pansy's boyfriend and I have respect for that." He scoffs at my excuse and to be honest, he was right. But why should I tell him?
"You know.. I kinda get a feeling, that you do want to be one of them." he starts, looking intensely at my lips. I swallow and look into his dark eyes. "One of who?" A smirk plays on his lips when he gets closer, making me back away a little until I'm just supporting myself with my elbows behind me, his body leaning over mine but not touching it. I feel his body heat around mine, my cheeks getting a little flushed at the warmth. He grins and answers me." " Dumb, brainless... a whore."
I gasp at his comment but before I could protest he speaks again. "Maybe then you would have a chance with me. Maybe that's why you're mad at me. Because your little brain always gets in the way and If it would just shut up for a second, then maybe you would have a chance." My eyes almost get stuck at the back of my head at how hard I just rolled them. "First of all, that doesn't even make sense. And like I said. I don't want you."
Then I feel his right hand on my waist, slowly tracing the bare skin on there due to my short crop top. "Then why are your cheeks blushing? Why aren't you pushing me away? You're so locked into my eyes that you're just laying under me like a little helpless thing." I swallow down the clump in my throat at his words. He'r right? Why am I still under him? Normally I would have smacked the shit out of him.
"See." he starts with a smirk. "You do want this. Me. You're just too stubborn to admit that I get under your skin all the time because you want me." I breath get's stuck in my lungs when I feel his fingers on my waist wandering over my stomach. "And you know what's the worst part of it? I just want you as much as you want me. I wanna taste every single part of your body." he whispers against my lips, now just an inch away from mine. "What?" I whisper back in shock. He want's me? What the hell is going on? Did they slip something in his drink too? Is that the actual prank? Him pretending to want me?
"You heard right.." his lips get away from my face again, switching towards the side of my throat. ".. I want you so fucking bad. And you're making me go crazy with your stupid comments all the time. Every time we're with our friends and you start insulting me, I just want to pull you near the first surface possible and fuck you stupid in front of them." After that his lips meet the skin of my neck, a gasp leaving my lips at the sudden contact. His breath was warm and his lips so so soft. Goosebumps erupt over my whole body instantly.
"Mattheo.." I whisper as a warning, but for what I don't know. "What? Are you scared that I'm right? Scared that you will let those walls down? That you let me take you?" I yelp when he bites down on my neck, leaving a light mark. "Come on.. tell me you hate me."
I want t, but I can't. The words just won't leave my mouth when my eyes start closing at the pleasure he's giving me on my neck. I starts kissing down towards my collarbone, nibbling at my skin here and there. Involuntary I arch my back, pressing my body against his.
His mouth moves down to my cleavage, kissing the top of my breasts. "Fuck you taste so good, y/n. Tell me you want this." I remain silent until he pinches my nipples lightly through my top, a whimper leaving my mouth.
"Tell me you want this too or I will stop. Come on baby." The little hairs on my neck raise when he calls me that. I slowly nod, my eyes still closed. "Words. I need words. And open your eyes for me." I slowly open them, looking right into his when I do so. "Say it.." he whispers against my lips, grazing them with his own. "I - I want you too." I finally say, putting a smirk on his face before he presses his lips against mine, his left hand finding my cheek.
The kiss is passionate and longing, leaving no air in our lungs. "Fuck, this is gonna be so so good." he groans against me, climbing on top of me now fully.
He pushes my legs apart with his knees, settling between them afterwards. When he lets go of my lips, breathing heavy, he works his way down with his mouth again, starting at my chest. I bite down on my lip and let my hands go through his curls, pulling on some strands. He groans when I pull, his hands roaming up my body until he squeezes my tits through my top. They slowly push my top upwards until my chest is completely exposed. He looks down at me and grins satisfied. "Fuck how could you hide that for so long from me baby? You're killing me." he groans and I see him pushing his hips down against the mattress for some friction. I think this is the hottest thing I've ever seen in my life. Mattheo grinding against the mattress because he's hard for me.
He starts massaging my tits, leaning down with his mouth, sucking on my nipple. "Oh -" I press my lips together, trying to be quiet. I pull harder on his hair, making him groan and grind against the mattress again. God help me.
"If you keep pulling on my hair like that I'm not gonna last another second." he breathes out when he lets go of my nipple. A grin forms on my lips when I suddenly got my confidence back. " Oh so you mean you will last longer than a minute?" He frowns at me before leaning down again and biting my nipple, while playing with the other one. "Mattheo!" I hiss loudly making him laugh devilish against my skin.
"I don't know If I want you to scream my name or shutting the fuck up." he chuckles when he starts pulling down my skirt. "How about you shut the fuc-" before I could finish my sentence he stuffs two fingers into my mouth. "Use your mouth for something good and suck baby." I roll my eyes but still do as he says. I run my tongue around the top of his fingers playfully, smiling while doing so.
I gasp when I feel his other hand on my clothed pussy. "Shit, you're soaked y/n. Fucking dripping." he says with his jaw hanging down and his eyes on my private part.
With two fingers he pulls my panties down, making me gasp at the cold air against my wetness. "You make me go crazy, you know that? Bet you're so tight - oh fuck yeah." he moans when he slowly enters me with his fingers he used to pull my underwear down. You could hear the wetness all over the room. I bit down on his fingers when he starts to pump them in and out faster. "Hm yeah fucking moan for me, come on." he bites down on his lip while watching my lips wrapped around his fingers. I buckle my hips when his thumb starts teasing my clit, only touching it for a short moment before letting go of it. I indeed moan around his fingers, closing my eyes.
"I'm so hard for you I can't believe it myself." he mumbles to himself, leaning down so his breath hits my clit, pulling a whimper from me this time. He pulls his fingers out of my mouth and I hear them working his belt. "Mattheo please.." "What baby? Talk to me.." "Mhh I need more.. wanna feel you." I completely forget my pride while he fucks me with his fingers.
"Wanna feel my cock inside you? That's what you want?" "Fuck yes - please!" He pulls his fingers out of me, smiling when I whine in protest. I look up at him and see him sucking my juices off his fingers, making my stomach flip. "Taste so good princess." he groans and bites his bottom lip after pulling his fingers out of his mouth.
I watch him puling his pants down his legs, kicking them somewhere in the room. He pulls his shirt over his head, making me gasp in surprise. I knew he is fit but that fit? "Wanna take a picture?" he asks me cockily. "You wish." I scoff but smile as I see him smiling too.
I look down at him and gulp when I see the outline of his cock. "Don't worry baby, you're so wet for me It will fit without any trouble." He grabs my ankles and pulls me towards the edge of the bed. He places my legs over his shoulders, groaning again. " If I knew all these things about you I would have fucked you way earlier. For example how flexible you are." I giggle and raise my eyebrows. "I have a lot more hidden talents." "I bet." he says with a heavy breath, taking his cock into his hand and teasing my clit with his tip, brushing it over it again and again. "Mattheo.." I whine, desperate to feel him.
"I want you to beg me, just likee the little whore you are." he grins wickedly at me, using my words against me. he starts dragging his tip over my pussy, pushing it against my entrance but not enough to enter me. "Please fuck me Mattheo, please. I need to feel you, please."
He doesn't waste a second, pushing his whole length into me. "Oh my god!" I almost scream, feeling him in places I thought would't even be possible. Mattheo groans, squeezing his eyes shut, his mouth wide open. "Oh you're so fucking tight, unbelievable." He starts moving his hips in a fast pace, thrusting harder against me every time a moan or whine leaves my lips.
"You feel so good - so fucking good inside of me - fuck." I star babbling, only spurting Mattheo on. "Yeah baby, that's it. Just feel how my cock feels inside you tight little cunt. Such a pretty pussy for me." I let out a loud whine and start to claw into his back.
"Harder." he groans, his left hand finding it way around my throat. I dig my nails deeper into his skin making him chuckle deeply and smile down at me with dark eyes. Oh shit. His grip around my throat tightens, making me even wetter, " You like that, baby? Who would have thought that our little angel is such a whore for me huh?"
His hips start to move even faster than before, hitting my cervix at some point. "Oh Mattheo -" I choke out between some broken sobs. I don't know when the last time was where someone fucked me this good.
He laughs like the devil himself and says "what baby? thought you do't want me hm?" I squeeze my eyes shut as I feel a deep feeling inside my tummy. "Fuck I feel your little pussy squeezing me, you're close?" I just nod and gasp.
He slowly down to which I whine in protest. "No, no please Mattheo. Don't stop, please." I beg him without a second thought.
"Tell me you hate me again. Come on." I shake my head and groan in frustration. "Why not?" "I - I can't" He grins in satisfaction and picks up the pace from before. My walls start clenching around him, my hips buckling up against him widely and without a rhythm. "Scream my name." Mattheo." "Louder, fucking louder so they hear how we talked about our problems." he grins. "Fuck, Mattheo!" Then it hits me, like a wave crashing over me when I come around his cock, spasming around him.
"God you're milking me, baby." he moans when he feels me around him. While my head get's dizzy and I only see starts around me, he gets even faster and rougher, making me whimper now that I'm so sensitive. "Fucking come again." he demands, his tone deeper now. " I - I can't Mattheo. I'm so sensitive." I whimper when he rubs my clit again and fucks me shard that the headboard of the bed crushes against the wall. Oh they could definitely hear us.
"I promise you can baby, come on, It will feel so good princess. Just one more, for me." he says, working his finger so delicious against me. My lip trembles when he pulls a second orgasm from me, leaving me a whimpering mess under him. "Fuck yes, yes." His movements lose their rhythm, pumping his cock into me with zero control.
"Nhg baby I'm gonna come - fuck - where -" "come inside me." I say, still feeling like I'm on a cloud. He let's out a quite whimper before coming, but I still heard it. Then I feel his hot cum inside me, his body falling on top of mine while he still ruts against me. "Shit.." he breathes out heavily when he slowly comes down from his high.
I see him swallowing when he looks down at me. "I'm gonna die If this is a one - time thing." he says, making my heart miss a beat.
"It's not." I whisper against his lips before kissing him with a smile. He slowly pulls out of me, we both look down. I see him smirking when his cum leaks out of me.
Suddenly the door opens, both of our heads turning towards it. We see our friends standing in the doorway with confused looks and mouth wide open. The only one that looked smug about it was Draco. " Told you so." he chuckles. "Wow.." Enzo whispers looking at us. "I think I hate you too, y/n." he says. Mattheo pulls the bedsheets over us and growls at him. " You wish." "What the fuck! Why on my bed?" Theo yells, making all of us burst out in laughter.
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You are the best thing that's ever been mine - Part 2
Pairing: Max Verstappen x Ariel Cane (Original Character)
Summary: Sao Paulo 2024. The Dutchman delivered a defining driveâŚbut maybe there is a relationship that could also use some defining.Â
Warnings:Â Jos Verstappen, angst, crying, mention of pregnancy, mention of sex and sexual acts, physical confrontation
Author Notes:Â Hi, hey, hello! Apparently I write F1 Fanfiction now?! Also this is the first time I am trying a social media au so my Canva Skills were put to the test. (Disclaimer: I kinda put legibility over authencity, so twitter doesn't look like twitter and messages looks like...something).
Also huge thanks to @onebigfangirlworld and @leodette for holding my hand with this đ)
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The checkered flag waved and GP was in his ear: "Wow. Itâs been a long time coming, mate, but, boy, was that worth the wait. You are the man."
Max pulled in a slow breath. His heart was beating fast with the exhilaration of the race, with the thrill of victory. He had won. The first time since the Spanish Grand Prix. From P17 to P1.
"OOOH YES!! What an unbelievable race, guys! You know what that is? Simply lovely."
"Max, that was amazing. 17th to first. That was a world championâs drive. You were absolutely a class of your own today, " came Christian's voice over the radio.
There was something in his tone of voice...something that scratched something at the edges of Max's brain.
"We had an...incident at the garage today," Christian said carefully. "I would like to start this with saying that Ariel is fine."
Max didn't like the sound of that. An "incident" at the garage? That didn't sound good. And he didn't like the way Christian's tone was all cautious, as if he was bracing for some kind of reaction.
He swallowed, an uneasy feeling settling in his stomach. "What happened?" he asked, his hands clenching around the steering wheel.
There was a pause, and Max could almost picture Christian gathering his thoughts. "Jos," Christian finally said. "He said some things, and he..." another pause. âHe slapped her."
Max's mind blanked out.
He slapped her.
His grip on the steering wheel tightened so much it made his knuckles white. His heart was suddenly racing again, but not from the race. Adrenaline coursed through his veins, fueled by anger.
"What do you mean, he slapped her?" he asked through gritted teeth.
His father had done what?
"Exactly that," Christian replied, his voice firm. "He was yelling at her for no reason, and he slapped her. It was completely out of line, and it's absolutely unacceptable behavior. I've already dealt with him, sent him away. Max, I didn't tell you earlier because I knew it would only distract you in the race. I didn't want you to worry or get worked up."
He couldnât talk. Couldnât bring out the words.Â
He remembered the commotion he had heard, the wordless screaming that had happenedâŚhe hadnât been able to make out the wordsâŚbut he could just about imagine how it must haveâŚ
And alone the thought of anybody, especially his own father, laying his hands on Ariel in angerâŚit was making him ready to go to prison for life for outright murder.Â
Jos had put his hands on Ariel.Â
On Ariel.Â
Ariel.Â
The best thing that had ever happened to him. The one person in his life that he knew was going to have his back in every single way every single day. The one person that had never backed down from his temper, that had never hesitated to call him an asshole⌠who had been there for him for years.Â
Who knew him better than he even knew himself sometimes. It wasâŚ
It was infuriating.Â
Ariel was his. Nobody got to lay his hands on her unless they wanted to deal with Max himself.Â
"How is Ariel?" he bit out sharply.
"She's a bit rattled," Christian replied quickly, and Max could hear the hesitation in his voice. "A bit shaken up understandably, but she's okay. The medic checked her out. She's...she vomited afterwards." That sent a cold shard of worry down Max's spine.
She had already looked pale and green around the gills that morning but he hadnât quite⌠Max hadnât really thought that that wasâŚanything butâŚ
Ariel hated wet races, even when she had never outright said it. Max had thought that it was just her nerves and not that anything had been physically wrong with her⌠but then she had had seafood for dinner the evening before, maybe that hadnât been a good choiceâŚ
But whatever it was, Max couldn't help the image of her pale, shaky, and vomiting flashing through his mind.
"I'm coming now," he said firmly, his decision made in a heartbeat. "Iâm coming to the garage right now."
"Max, you just won a race," Christian protested, his voice concerned. "You're supposed to be celebrating right now."
He didn't care. All he could think about was her. He had to see her, he had to make sure she was okay.
"I'm not celebrating anything until I see her," he retorted, his tone brooking no argument. He didnât care what he was supposed to do. He needed to see her. He needed to see her now. "Is she still with the medic?â
"No, she is taking a nap in your driver's room," Christian answered after a moment.
The news brought a wave of relief through Max.Â
At least she was resting, and safe from Jos' reach.
"She's sleeping. She's fine. At least get weighed first, alright?" Christian pushed him. "I'll talk to the FIA, maybe we can sneak you out for a moment before the interviews start?"
To say that he was furious about it was an understatement.
Max had never been so angry in his whole damn life.
The anger was a living thing inside him, an inferno of righteous fury. How dare Jos confront her like that? How dare he put his hands on her? The very thought made him grind his teeth to the point that his jaw ached.
For the first time in his life...that win didn't matter to him. At all.Â
The win...he had won. That would normally fill him with pride, with satisfaction and the adrenaline of accomplishment.Â
But it meant nothing right now.Â
No win in his life mattered if he was going to lose Ariel.Â
Nothing mattered without Ariel. She was the only thing that mattered.Â
Nothing compared to the thought of her being hurt, of her being at the receiving end of one of Jos' outbursts.Â
Max could deal with his fatherâs poisonous words. His father could say whatever he wanted to him. But Jos hadnât.Â
Jos had spit his venom in the direction of the most important person in Maxâs life. Had dared to put a hand on her.Â
And that meantâŚthat the fury that burned in Maxâs gut was all-consuming, a fire in his veins that burned away everything else.
When he finally brought the car to the designated stop, he unclipped himself and climbed out...Normally a win after such a long drought...it would have made the Red Bull garage erupt.
This time the usual celebrations after a race were replaced by a somber mood. Everyone was there of course, congratulating him on the win, but the usual cheer and happiness were missing. Everybody's mind was still caught up in the events that had taken place during the race.
Christian was the first to greet him. He patted his back firmly. "Well done, mate," Christian said, his voice quiet. "It's been a long time coming. You deserve this one."
Somehow he mustered a thanks, even when the fury was still coiling deep within him.Â
The need to be by Arielâs side, to reassure himself that she was fine, was almost overwhelming.
And instead of doing just that, there was the media waiting for him.Â
Of course there was.Â
They were like vultures, circling the winning driver, waiting for their chance to ask questions and take pictures. Max hated them at that moment, hated every single soul of them.Â
Max had never wanted to strangle the media more. His jaw was tight as he was bombarded with question after question about the incident in the garage.
âHave you heard about what happened?âÂ
âDo you know what it was about?â
"What was said?"
The questions were relentless, and he could feel his anger simmering just under the surface. It took every ounce of his control to keep himself from lashing out. "I just heard about the incident," he said, keeping his tone icily even. "I don't know anything yet. I'll talk to Ariel as soon as I am done here."
One of the reporters, a little more brazen than the others, piped up with a question. "There are rumours that Ms. Cane is...well...expecting. Is there any truth to that? And if yes, are you the father?"
The question stunned Max into a moment of silence.Â
What wasâŚWhat the actual fuck?Â
It took him a moment to process the question, to comprehend what the reporter was insinuating. Pregnant? Ariel? With his baby? The very idea was...it was sending him into a tailspin.
Regardless of whatever everybody else had ever thought...there had never⌠nothing had ever happened between him and Ariel.
She was his best friend. The person he trusted most in the whole world and he quite simply adored her.
It wasn't that he didn't want her.Â
He did.Â
That had never been a question. From the very first time he had ever seen her...he had fallen a little bit in love right then and there, in late 2019...fallen in love with the blue eyed girl with the bright red hair that had smiled at him in that meeting room.
She had never once taken any of his bullshit. Had never once backed down from any challenge he issued⌠had met him head on, her shoulder squared.
Ariel had grown too important too quickly for him. He was utterly terrified of fucking it up. Of losing her. What if she didnât return his feelings? What if she did and then they ended up divorced down the line and hating each other?
At least like this⌠he could have her as his best friend. That would need to be enough.Â
It wasnât enough. It wasnât even close to enough.Â
But to be asked that question...to be asked if she was carrying his child...it was like pouring gasoline into an open fire. It just made the possessiveness well up inside him like a tidal wave.Â
He wanted to snap. He wanted not to answer at all. He wanted to tell the media to fuck off and leave him the hell alone. He wanted to answer that question by giving the reporter a bloody nose.Â
"That's a very personal question," he said, his eyes cold. "The answer is no. To both questions.â
Another reporter, not satisfied with that answer, piped up. "There have been rumors though," he started. "About a possible relationship-"
âMy personal life is not up for discussion,â he cut him off sharply. "Ariel Cane is the best thing that has ever happened to me. She has been my best friend for the last 5 years and a vital part of our team. Ariel is..." he trailed off, trying to figure out how to phrase it. How to express the enormity of what she meant to him. And when he finally spoke, he was surprised at how easily the words came. "She's incredibly important to me. Ariel is a remarkable woman, who I respect immensely. And a day doesn't pass, where I don't appreciate having her in my life," he continued. He had to defend her, to make it clear that what was between them was not what the media liked to portray it as.Â
The reporters looked a little stunned at the outburst. The room fell silent, everyone digesting his words. Max didn't care.
 He had said what he needed to say, and had set the record straight. The last thing he wanted was for her to be dragged down because of him.
Someone finally broke the silence. "What about your father?" another reporter asked carefully. "Will you talk with him?"
The mere mention of his father brought the anger back into the forefront of his mind. He ground his teeth, his hands clenched into fists. Max felt the anger flare up inside him again, hotter than before.
âI will. He wonât like what I have to say,â he snapped.Â
"Don't you think that your father may have had a reason for slapping her?" one reporter piped up.
"No," Max's answer was sharp and immediate. "There is absolutely nothing that would justify what he did. And if my father ever dares to even think about getting close to her again, I will make his life an absolute living hell," he said, his voice quiet but deadly.
The reporter looked like he wanted to press the point, like he wanted to dig further. But Max was done answering questions now.
"That's enough," he said firmly, his voice brooking no further argument. "Now I would like to go and see my friend and beg for her forgiveness."
He didn't wait for a response, the need to see her taking over every other thought.
He didn't fucking care anymore. If the FIA wanted to fine him, they could do that. He had more money than he knew what to do with after all.
He turned away from the reporters, ignoring the last of their shouted questions, and made a beeline for the Red Bull Garage. He didn't stop, didn't slow down even when Team Officials tried to talk to him.
All he cared about was getting to her. Getting to her and making sure she was okay.
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C'è sempre una prima volta (there is a first time for everything)
Pairing: Melissa Schemmenti x Butch!Reader
Summary: You and Melissa have been together for almost a year and she wants to try something new in bed, youâre just taken aback by her request.
Tags: One-Shot, Established Relationship, Strap-Ons (Rr), Frist Strap-On Experience (Rr), Smut with Fluff, Sexual Stereotypes, Mommy Kink and Praise Kink if you squint until your eyes hurt
Word Count: 2.4k
A/N: this was originally posted on 13.05.24 (AO3 only), but since I'm putting together a Masterlist, I decided to post it here too so that I could include it. This was the first fic (or anything really) I ever wrote , also english is not my native language so sorry for any mistakes you might encounter. I added some Italian here and there in the fic and you will find the translations in brackets.
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You had just finished giving your beautiful girlfriend her second orgasm of the night when she looked at your straight in the eyes asking if this time she could use the strap on you.
You were both lying on your bed and she was still panting and high from her orgasm, but she seemed pretty serious about her question.Â
Noticing your surprised - and kinda worried - expression, Melissa asked you what was wrong.
âNo no, nothing! Just to be clear, Iâm not saying no ⌠itâs just that nobody ever asked me something like that. I honestly never thought somebody would even want to have sex with me with a strapâ
âMa cosa stai dicendo?! (What are you even saying?!) Why would you think that?âÂ
âWell, I mean, usually butches are seen as tops and I guess in my case that is what was always expected from me in a relationship. When I say that nobody ever asked something like that to me I mean it. I always felt like it was implied that if someone was supposed to use the strap in bedâŚthat would be me. And nobody actually ever behaved differently, proved it wrong or cared enough to talk about it I guessâŚâ you replied plainly but with a hint of hurt in your voice
Melissa looked at you with an expression you couldnât quite decipher. Was it anger? Was it disappointment? Was it sadness? âHon, I never expected anything from you since the day we met. Itâs not about other peopleâs expectations, what you think you owe them, itâs about what you want. As for me, I just want you. All of you without any stereotype, expectation or limitation. Fuck everyone else and their opinions!â. You look at her lovingly, knowing she is telling the truth as you never felt any kind of pressure from her, from day one you could always be your truest self with her.Â
You prop your head forward looking for her lips, but you notice that she doesnât move and lets you come to her. Once youâre an inch away you feel her sultry voice brushing your lips âNow, do you want me to fuck you senseless with that strap or not?â
You instantly switch your gaze from her mouth to her eyes just to find two piercing emerald pools looking straight into your soul. That look alone could have you coming in seconds. Every. Single. Time.Â
âYes please.â a whisper comes out of your mouth as you lower your gaze
âGood girl. Now, we are going to start slowly and if I hurt you, if youâre uncomfortable or if at any point you change your mind, just let me know, ok? Guardami (look at me) and tell me you understand.âÂ
You finally look back at her and your stomach just drops. There she is, fully naked lying next to you. This gorgeous, fierce, stern, dominating and yet so reassuring woman. âI do, I understand.â
On that note she gets up without saying a word, takes the strap that had been sitting next to you on the bed for the past minutes, and proceeds to put it on. Still lying in bed you look at her. You have to admit the sight was just mouth-watering. It wasnât the strap, it was Melissa wearing it and knowing she was about to fuck your brains out with it.
Once sheâs done she hops on the bed placing herself between your legs, before starting to caress your sides, chest and abdomen with her hands. You ease into her touch as you start to feel her nails scarping down your hips and upper thighs. You whimper as moans start escaping your lips.
âThatâs it baby, rilassati (just relax) and let me make you feel good.â with that she pushes your legs a bit more apart, while tracing your inner thighs with her nails.Â
You start to feel that familiar buildup in your lower abdomen and wetness pooling between your legs.Â
âMel, touch me please.â comes out of your lips almost as whisper
âI am touching youâ her eyes snap up at you and a familiar electricity shots through your body when you recognize that look on your girlfriendâs face.
Youâre enjoying this, but so is she. Probably even more than you right now. Teasing you and filling you up with anticipation.Â
âMmm, I-I need you inside of me MelâŚâ
âHow badly?â She asks in the sultriest voice while her fingers run up your thighs and down your hips stopping before reaching where you need her the most.Â
You cry out at her stopping and move your hips involuntarily. âSo bad Mel, please, just ple-ahh!â Air gets sucked in your throat when you feel her fingers sliding through your folds.Â
âIâm afraid weâll have to change the sheets once Iâm done with you. Youâre dripping now e non ho nemmeno iniziato (and I barely even started).âÂ
You knew she was probably right but there was nothing you could do about it. She was just incredibly hot and you melted under her touch every single time.Â
You didnât even have time to form your thought about what she just said as you felt two fingers sliding into you.
âOh my God Mel fuckkkâ you screamed feeling how easily her fingers entered you. Melissa started moving them at an excruciatingly slow pace. As if you needed any time to adjust given how wet you were, she was just teasing.Â
Seeing how desperate you were, starting to move your hips to get more friction, your girlfriend got the hint and picked up her pace. Wet sounds and moans filling the room as her pace fastened more and more.Â
You were already getting close when you suddenly felt Melissa slipping her fingers out of you. Crying at the loss you shot her a pouty frustrated look, just to see her getting up on her knees and centering herself  between your legs.
You started to internally panic a little bit. You were aroused as fuck but this was still something new for you. As if reading your mind, your girlfriend looked at you. Her glance holding a warmth that would otherwise be out of character in a not so new situation. You gave her a silent nod and bit your bottom lip in anticipation, worry and arousal.Â
Just a few seconds later you felt the tip of her cock sliding through your folds, stopping just above your clit. You moan, still biting your lip,  and your hips start moving again.Â
She slides her cock up and down your pussy a few times to spread your wetness around and on her cock, before finally aligning herself to your entrance. You prop yourself up on your elbows just in time to see the tip disappear between your folds.Â
âAm I hurting you baby?â Melissa checks in running her left hand across your thigh.
âNo, please keep going Mel, I need more.â you cry out almost ashamed at your neediness. Melissaâs worried expression turning into a satisfied and mischievous one.Â
In one swift motion she fills you up completely. You are surprised at how this is not hurting at all, you truly are that wet for her. Not that you doubted it.Â
With her eyes fixated on yours, Melissa starts moving. Her hands are on your hips as she pulls out almost completely before sliding back in. She does that a few times before picking up her pace and setting a nice rythm, which is unfortunately not enough for you at the moment.Â
âFuck Mel, more! Fuck me harder baby please!â you cry out trying to reach for her thighs, your nails scraping the sheets.Â
You whimper and moan at the sudden loss when a few seconds later you donât feel her cock inside of you anymore. You look at her just in time to see drops of saliva dripping down her lips and feel them landing on your clit.
You feel every organ you have dropping, not just your stomach. âM-Melissa did you just-â
âSpit on your pretty cunt? Yes I did, why?â
âIt-itâs just s-â thatâs how little you manage to say between moans before she starts spreading it across your pussy with her cock.Â
âItâs just so what baby?â Sheâs looking at you with a lustful grin and deep dark eyes. She bites her bottom lip waiting for your answer while she keeps sliding her cock over your wet pussy.Â
âItâs just so hot.â you moan starting to move your hips again . âPlease Mel, fuck me.â youâre basically crying out now and her eyes turn even darker.Â
Without you even realizing, she suddenly slams her cock back into you, full lenght sliding in even more easily than before. She starts pounding you at a deliciously atrocious rythm. The sound of her hips colliding with your inner thighs fills the room and makes you both wetter.Â
âYou like feeling me deep inside you, filling you up? Mh?â her voice cuts through your bliss and you just close your eyes to try and not come on the spot.Â
âMmm fuck ⌠fuck ⌠yes! Yes I do, please donât stop!âÂ
âI want you to look at me, open your eyes. Now.â The emphasis she puts on that last word made you quiver and you instantly opened your eyes.Â
You couldnât avoid looking down at where her cock was disappearing inside of you and coming out glistening, just to be slammed back in. Again and again.Â
The rythm she was keeping, the sounds echoing through the room, her beautiful boobs bouncing at her every movement and her eyes never leaving yours. Everything was building up inside of you and you felt so close.Â
Your moans and your breathing were frantic now. One hand gripping the sheets and the other gripping the strapâs leather belt across one of Melissaâs hips.Â
She knew you were close as she bent forward to kiss you hard. It was a very sloppy kiss, tongues swirling in between moans and pantings. She placed her hands on both sides of your head with her perfectly sharp white nails gripping the sheets. You scratched down her back with both hands making her arch and hit a spot inside of you you didnât even know existed.Â
She was looking down at you, red curls falling all around you as you placed both your hands on her hips gripping the leather harness so tight âI-I think ⌠Iâm going to.. c-comeâ you cried out looking at her, pleading with your eyes.
Her hips were on autopilot, pounding into you with an animalistic rythm. âAsk nicely bimba (baby girl).â she whispered with a smirk plastered on her lips.
At this point you just couldnât talk anymore. You felt so full and intoxicated by everything she was doing to you. You knew you couldnât come without her permission though. So you took one last glance at her cock going in and out of you so quickly âMel please PLEASE let come on you cock, please I canât take it anymore!â was the pathetic cry that managed to escape your lips.Â
She smiles down at you before swinging her hair to one side with a swift motion of her head, just a second before you feel her right arm slipping between your bodies. Her hand reaches  your clit while she starts thrusting into you even harder. You werenât excepting that, you didnât think for one split second her rythm could actually increase even more than it had.Â
Her fingers start drawing fast circles on your clit and your legs start to shake. âCome for mama pretty girl.â with that permission you just moan loudly and let go. You see black and feel your pussy clenching around Melissaâs cock as one of the most powerful orgasms you ever experienced rushes through you.Â
Yet she doesnât stop. She gradually reduced her thrusting rythm to accompany you down your high. Not stopping even when you reopen your eyes, flustered and panting. Now going deadly slow, she starts feather kissing your face before connecting your lips in a long passionate kiss. Her movements now come to a stop but you both moan loudly into the kiss as her cock is still inside of you.Â
âIâm going to pull out now, please relax for me baby, you did so good.â She says before giving you a kiss on the cheek, lifting herself up and pulling her cock out of you. She removes the harness and places everything at the end of the bed before coming to lie down next to you.Â
She perks up on her left elbow and starts tracing figures on your abdomen with her right hand. Sharp nails causing you to have goosebumps all over. You turn to place your left hand behind her neck, pulling her into a loving kiss. You scarpe the back of her head, slightly pulling on messy red curls, while you kiss her passionately hoping all the love you feel for her will be felt through that kiss.Â
She kisses you back with the same intensity, making you feel all the love in this world. You part after a while because you smiled into the kiss and Melissa is now looking at you with an amused and puzzled expression. So you also perk up on your elbow, to be directly in front of her and look her straight in the eyes.Â
âI never thought Iâd let anyone have me like that, let alone enjoy it as much as I did. Thank you for wanting to try this with me. Youâre the only person Iâve ever trusted enough or wanted to try this with.âÂ
Taken aback by your words, her mouth hangs slightly open for a few seconds. Her eyes light up with tenderness and emotions most people wouldnât imagine Melissa capable of showing.Â
âThank you for trusting me with this and for allowing me to see you like that. Youâre incredibly beautiful amore mio (my love).â Melissa says before closing the few inches separating your mouths. And in that kiss you both feel how special your love is.Â
You stay a bit like that, lying naked with your lips on her forehead and her face resting on your chest. Bodies intertwined as you slowly drift into sleep grateful for the amazing girlfriend life put on your path.Â
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More Agatha All Along Incorrect Quotes!
(except these ones mostly have no actual source and just came from my brain :) )
â ď¸Warning for some mild sexual content and mentions of alcohol! â ď¸
Teen: So did dying and coming back ultimately make you less afraid of death?
Lilia, taking a long sip of her wine: No, but learning she sometimes calls Agatha âMommyâ in bed did.
*the coven, doing some spring cleaning*
Jen, who is perfectly capable of lifting it herself: Alice, can you come move this for me?
Alice, wiping some sweat off her forehead: Sure, Jen.
Jen, watching her from across the room: Mmm. Delightful.
Agatha, whispering in her ear: Pervert.
Jen, casually watching television: I donât understand why TV producers have to put those warnings at the beginning of the episode, telling people not to recreate what they see. I mean, this guyâs trying to parachute off his own roof so he can steal fruit from his neighborâs yard. People arenât really THAT stupid in real life, are they?
Alice (a former first responder), lounging in her lap with her eyes closed: Yes, they are.
Lilia, watching out the window as Teen and Agatha climb up to the roof: Yes, they are.
Agatha: Are you two seriously crying over a cartoon meant for preschoolers?
Alice, wiping her eyes: No.
Teen, rewinding their episode of Bluey: Yes.
Jen, stalking into the room: AGATHA!
Agatha, rolling her eyes: What the hell are you upset about NOW?
Jen: YOUR WIFE JUST BIT ME!
Agatha: Uh-huh. Sure.
Jen, brandishing her arm: LOOK.
Agatha, spitting out her drink: Wait, what the hell- Rio, you ACTUALLY bit her?!
Rio: Her perfume smelled tasty :3
Agatha: Kid, we need to talk.
Teen, sighing: Are you about to give me a lecture on consent and safe sex?
Agatha: Huh? How did you know?
Teen: Iâm not stupid. Did you really think I didnât notice that condoms mysteriously started appearing in the bathroom cabinets when I started bringing Eddie over?
Agatha: What makes you think the two things are related?! Those could have belonged to anyone in this household!
Teen: YOUâRE ALL LESBIANS, AGATHA! WHOSE WOULD THEY BE?!
Agatha, whoâs incredibly drunk: Yâknow what I love about women, Alice? Kissingâem. Loooooove it. My mom tried to beat it outta me, but she couldnât. Still a girl kisser over here.
Alice, whoâs also seriously drunk: Amen.
Agatha, wildly gesticulating: Smelling her perfume, grabbing her ass, feeling her grab MY assâŚTITSâŚ
Alice, nodding sagely: Good. All good.
Agatha: Winding your fingers through her hair, pulling her closerâŚ
Alice: Losing me there.
Agatha: What, Jen isnât into hair pulling?
Alice:
Agatha:
Alice:
Agatha: âŚI now recognize my mistake.
#agatha all along#agatha harkness#lilia calderu#alice wu gulliver#jennifer kale#rio vidal#billy kaplan#billy maximoff#teen agatha all along#agatha all along incorrect quotes#incorrect quotes#spicy language#we love our dangerous lesbians#agathario#agatha x rio#bloodpotions#alice x jennifer#Iâm actually obsessed with them#switch! agathario my beloveds#not letting anyone forget that alice has abs#jen isnât either#teen and agatha are both very intelligent on their own#but together they are stupid#everyone cries over bluey if you donât youâre a liar#rio is a menace to society#agathaâs mothering skills are a little rusty but sheâs trying#coven of chaos? more like coven of lesbians#theyâre all gay#alice may not be able to pull jenâs hair but jen definitely pulls hers#prove me wrong I dare you
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Once Upon A Friendship
Pairing: Childhood Bestie!Steve Rogers x F!Reader
Word Count: 8.6k~ guys i obviously have a problem, my fics just keep getting longer and longer and idk how to stop
Rating: Teens and up!
Disclaimer: Well, well, here we are~ submitting this lil ficlet for @witchywithwhiskey's Slasher Summer Writing Challenge using the following prompts: carnival/county fair + forced proximity + "You think that's blood?". & Because I also wanted to engage with our writers community even more cuz <3, -- I'm also submitting this to @the-slumberparty Sundae Bar challenge: Chocolate (secrets will be REVEALED), butter scotch (childhood friends and the feelz is real đĽš), french vanilla (cause forced proximity trope was inevitable for our reader), w/ toppings of chocolate syrup (established relationship), graham crackers (flashback-backstory heavy), and toasted almonds (đŤŁget ready for some angst).
Summary: Growing up together, you and Steve were inseparable. Where did it all go wrong?
***I don't give any permission for this to be reposted anywhere! Pls do not steal work, plagiarism isn't cuteeee~~~~
Warnings/Triggers: Minors just be mindful that this has mentions of teenage sexual activity but not explicit (all age appropriate) but adding my warning below just in case, explicit language in few pieces of dialogue, ANGST with a happy ending, childhood besties to enemies/strangers, bucky, wanda, and nat are your besties too, steve is a shit communicator, both steve and reader are young and a bit naive, cheesiness ensues, fluff, work is not beta'd so any grammar mistake is my bad!!
*Any comments/reblogs are much appreciated and are so encouraging - more than you know. Pls don't hesitate to interact with me <3
âArgh, Wanda, noâ I told you, I hate these things!â You whined despondently while grabbing at her arm.
âLook, you only have to go straight in and see it all the way through! Itâs not like thereâs any detours.â Wanda replied while giving you a deadpan look.Â
You returned the look with your own mocking face, âWan, you know that isnât the reason why I hate these things! They grab at you and try to scare you.â You shivered at the thought of one of the maze actors dragging you away somewhere where you couldnât be found.
âWellâŚthat is their job, yâknow?â Wanda said, holding her chin in mock thought. You scoffed and shoved her playfully while she giggled at you.Â
âPlus, itâs so hot out! Itâs probably so stuffy in there, especially if we go in with a random group.â You complained while attempting to fan yourself while holding your hair up off your neck. This summer was brutal, you couldnât believe that anyone would be at the carnival fair today. But alas, everyone seems to want to enjoy the last throes of summer.Â
âWe wonât go in with a random group - Nat said that theyâre going to meet up with us before we go in.â Wanda said distractedly while taking out her phone, assuming that she was going to be checking in with Natasha.
Your brain took a second to process what she just said before you froze, your mouth agape, âWait, âth-theyâreâ? Donât tell meâŚâ
Wanda stood ramrod still as if lightning just struck. The finger that was twirling her own hair froze its mindless motions as she stared at her phone unblinkingly as she realized her mistake.Â
âArgh, Wanda!â You hissed out and covered your face with both of your hands in genuine despair.
Wanda held a guilt-ridden expression, âOh no, Iâm so sorry, chip â I completely forgot that he would be coming-- honest!âÂ
You released a heavy sigh and closed your eyes to mentally prepare yourself for dealing with the person that you despised the most in this world.
Steve Rogers. The bane of your existence.Â
Well, not really (-ish).
He also happened to be a guy that you have been crushing on since you were 10 years old.
Did he know this? No. But even if he did, you would be the last person on Earth that he would pick. How do you know this, do you ask?
You and Steve knew each other since you were basically in diapers. Alongside Bucky and Nat, the four of you grew up together. Although, that didnât stop you from drawing the short end of the stick when dealing with your pre-pubescent teen years.Â
You were a late bloomerâ while Nat developed boobs and became a natural flirt at 13 years of age, you were still dealing with the bullies at 13 years old whilst trying to navigate hormones, underdeveloped boobs and pre-teen acne. Bucky quickly developed a barely there mustache and a smirk that made all of the other girls swoon (though, you were convinced that it was really just for Natasha instead). And SteveâŚwell, Steve was like you. Underdeveloped, skinny, no hair to be found on his face. He was as tall as you, and dealt with the bullies way worse off than you ever had to do.Â
But that didnât stop you from falling in love with Steve Rogers.Â
Steve was one of your best friends. He always looked after you, whether it were mean girls coming to pick on you again or making sure that you got lunch together. You walked home together, stayed at each otherâs houses to study or play video games. You developed a routine where one day in a week, you would order a chocolate chip milkshake while he got a vanilla whip at your local diner, and stayed there for hours just talking about your common interests together. Steve gave you your nickname, âchip,â since he constantly made fun of the fact that you got the same milkshake everytime.
You also remember when the both of you decided to be each otherâs first kiss. It was awkward and weirdly coordinated, but it was nice and you trusted each other. You both laughed afterwards and hugged, swearing to each other your friendship was still intact. When your parents would make playful jokes or tease you about when you and Steve were going to be a couple, you blushed and would shy away.Â
Where Steve was, you were there too.Â
You were basically inseparable as you both knew that you two were the underdogs of the group. Bucky and Nat quickly became the âItâ power couple as you all entered into highschool. Steve and you were the glue to your little gang and it just felt so nice to not be alone.
Thankfully, you were able to grow more into yourself by the time that you were 16 years old. Your skin cleared up a bit as you learned to develop a skin care routine, and your boobs started to actually look like there were two of them. Though, you never could quite get past the social isolations (despite the fact that your two best friends were the hottest and the most popular kids at school).Â
And while you changed a little bit, SteveâŚwellâ Steve changed alot. It was like one day he just woke up and became the guy that he was always meant to be. He started developing a build and grew a beard, had a huge growth spurt and joined the football team. He became strong and capable of anything. But, he was still Steve. He continued fighting for the âlittle guyâ even though he became on par with Bucky and Natâs social class at school.Â
Unfortunately, with Steveâs new social status came the one thing that you couldnât compete with: Sharon Carter.Â
Captain of the cheerleading team, it was almost natural for Steve and her to become a couple. You remembered the day that Steve and you hung out after school for your regular milkshake when he told you quietly that Sharon asked him out to the junior year annual dance. He blushed beautifully as he told his best friend the news, and you made sure to plaster on a fake smile and told him that you were happy for him.
After he took you home, you did your homework, took a showerâ and as you got into bed, you cried yourself to sleep feeling utterly alone for the first time in your life.Â
Things changed after that. Steve couldnât walk you home because he was walking Sharon home. He couldnât play video games with you at yours because he was at Sharonâs. Then, he started canceling your daily milkshake hang outs.Â
âIâm sorry, Chip- I have practice to get to.âÂ
âSharon mentioned that she needed my help today. Iâll see you next week.â
But next week came and went, and still no Steve.
You quickly realized that Steve was blowing you off when you caught him making out with Sharon at the library in school when he told you the day before that he was going to be at football practice.Â
You didnât mean to catch him at all - but you heard noises and glanced over to see him and Sharon behind the well-known âhook upâ section of the library. You squeaked in surprise since they were only half clothed, Steve with his shirt off and Sharon in only her bra. As you stood there shocked, you caught Steveâs widened eyes as they both turned to look at you. Sharon was pretty annoyed that you interrupted them (clocking her narrowed glare), but Steve at least had the decency to look embarrassed as they both put their clothes back on.Â
The shock of catching him in the act wasnât as surprising (as much as it broke your heart, you knew that people in relationships would typically take it to that level fairly quickly). What was surprising was Steveâs reaction. You thought that maybe he would apologize for lying to you, or for blowing you off as many times as he did. But instead, he cleared his throat and his eyes became more stern as he didnât say a word. He took Sharonâs hand in his and left.Â
You remembered standing there for another 5 minutes until you saw another couple glare at you as they took Steve and Sharonâs space. You didnât even get what you came forâ you walked straight home, crying, despondent over losing your best friend. (It was the movie scene where the side character gets discarded and cries silently in the rain - you felt so pathetic).
From that point forward, you didnât bother texting Steve anymore. And he didnât ever attempt to text you. He ignored you in the hallways and you didnât ever look up at him when you would pass each other either.Â
Throughout all this, Nat and Bucky were there for you when you came to them about what happened and your waning friendship with Steve. Nat was pissed while Bucky looked confused as to how your friendship could change so quickly. Even though they were still close with Steve too, Nat and Bucky made sure to include you more during their hangouts or offer to take you home, which you felt grateful for, but it didnât change the fact they had each other. And that you were still alone.Â
College was your wake up call to move on from Steve Rogers. You applied to universities that were all out of state, intentionally left your decision last minute so that no one could talk you out of it. Your parents didnât approve but ultimately respected your decision.Â
You remembered graduation where all of your parents made you take a group photo on the bleachers. Nat and Bucky were on the higher step as you and Steve took the lower one. It was awkward as you two barely looked at each other, and fumbled on where to place your hands. It was Bucky who eventually groaned exasperatedly and placed your hand on Steveâs back while he placed his around your waist.Â
You recall the moment that really ended things between you and Steve, which was a party at one of Bucky's friendsâ places. Nat and Bucky invited you to come in order to have your âlast high school experienceâ (whatever that meant). Unbeknownst to them, you were leaving the next day for settling in your new university halfway across the world.Â
The party was blasting obnoxious EDM and the house was littered with red solo cups and other kids yelling at each other as they played beer pong. Feeling so displaced, you took a beer and headed upstairs to look for an empty room.Â
Just your luck, you would enter the one that had Sharon (again, half-naked) on top of Steve (who was again, also shirtless) on the bed. You obviously interrupted them in the middle of something again. As they both turned to look at you, Sharon groaned your name in annoyance with an âugh, seriously?!â and for you to ââget out.ââ You couldnât help but ignore her as you looked at Steve once more.Â
He had this same look of annoyance in his eyes as he sat up on the bed that was so unfamiliar. Youâve never seen Steve look at you like that beforeâ as if you were a nuisance or some sort of insignificant thing. It was the same look that he gave you at the library. He became the bully that he used to protect you from when you were kids.Â
Something took over you in that moment where you felt your already fragile heart just shatter into several pieces. Though, somehow, all traces of self-pity and loneliness left your body as you coldly looked over at this stranger that you realized you maybe never really knew in the first place. In that moment, you tuned out Sharonâs nasty words, and only looked at Steve with an intentional, apathetic glint in your eyes.Â
The words just slipped out before you could even process them:
âI wish that I had never met you.âÂ
You could mutedly hear Sharon scoff and give some sort of insult (you couldnât really remember honestly) since the only thing that you waited for, and wanted to notice, was Steveâs reaction. You watched as the traces of annoyance in his eyes glazed out and changed into something that looked akin to shock, panic and something else that you couldnât place.Â
Satisfied with finally being able to impact him for once, and to let him know how much you hated him in that moment, you turned to leave determinedlyâ you were pretty sure that you heard him yell out your name before you left but you slammed the door hard, ran down the stairs, and out of the house until you made the trek home.Â
You told yourself that night, as angry tears fell out onto your pillow in your childhood bedroom, that you would move on from Steve Rogers. That you deserved more and that you were going to make space for yourself in your own way.Â
As you settled into your new apartment, met Wanda as your new roommate (and now your certified best friend), you received a call from Nat and a text from Bucky.
Natasha was, naturally, upset at you for leaving without telling her. She made you promise to never do that again and to come to her more when you needed her. You felt one piece of your heart pull together again at how sincere and emotional Nat was on the phone. You realized that you may have also neglected your best friend when you and Steve were close, and promised her on the phone to never let that happen again.Â
Bucky sent a text saying, âDude, what the fuck,â which is pretty polite for him, considering the context. You apologized and explained to him your desire to build your own life and while he was still mad at you, he expressed his understanding and respect for your decision.
Bucky and your relationship was never very close like Steveâs and his was, but he always looked after you (in his own way). You felt protected by Bucky in ways that you couldnât with anyone else, and you knew that he would always ultimately support you as he would his younger sister. He told you to text him if anyone were to bother you, and you promised that you would check in with him daily.
You did receive one text from Steve: âIâm sorry for everything, chip.â That was all he wrote.Â
You glared at your phone and deleted his text, so overwhelmed with your anger and determination to remove Steve Rogers from your life. It seemed as if your lack of response was enough for him to get the message that you were done since he didnât text you since that day.Â
At Uni, you really grew and developed into yourself. You became involved in college campus life, got a job as a TA, had a boyfriend or two. You dated one guy for six months before calling it off since you were better off as friends, and any other flings that youâve had were short-lived or just didnât land well enough to be in a committed relationship.Â
But you learned alot from these relationships and ultimately felt grateful to connect with people as you proved to yourself that you were something without the people back home. That you were more than the girl who loved Steve Rogers. You were proud of yourself for that.
Flashforward to now, youâve just finished your freshman year of college. Youâre visiting home for the summer to visit your parents, and to visit Bucky and Natasha, both of them ultimately decided to attend one of the local colleges. You kept your promise with them and stayed close, and even brought Wanda back with youâ since introducing her to them last week, she became fast friends with your childhood friends.Â
You havenât really spoken to Steve since that last stint in high school. Considering that your two best friends were still close with him too, and your families were all close, you couldnât exactly avoid him. But you never talked about what happened in highschool. At the chance that you would see and interact with each other, you would greet him politely even though there was still some animosity there.Â
Steve wasnât outwardly mean or rude, and he would try to talk with you more than once before in the past year, but you were evasive everytime in avoiding anything deeper than a âhello, how are you doing?.â You would stuff down the guilt from his disappointed and hurt expressions as you actively avoided him. You brushed off your friends who were begging you to try to repair your friendship with Steveâ and just go back to school, blissfully living in ignorance.Â
But now, as you stood in line awkwardly waiting for the Summer Queens County Fairâs haunted corn maze with Steve (your friends suddenly âneedingâ to get some drinks or go to the bathroom while Steve and you waited for tickets in line), you felt like you wanted to pass away from the how thick the tension filled the air.
You could practically feel Steveâs tense energy in attempting to engage you in conversation. And damn him, he looked good. His muscles looked even fuller as they were accentuated by a basic white tee, and his beard- argh, his beard- only made his features even more rugged and handsome.Â
You hated the way that he could still make your heart flutter, even after all this time had passed.Â
âSo,â you almost jumped when he finally broke the silence. âHow have you been, chip?âÂ
You felt yourself take a minute to defrost your stiff and frozen body as you turned to look at him. You met his curious gaze and said blatantly, âIâve been okay.â
Silence filled the space again as your bluntness seemed to envelop the air around you. âUh, thatâs good. Are youâŚâhow are you finding your classes?â
You looked back at him with narrowed eyes and just felt a rush of frustration move through you seeing his eager expression, that puppy dog look that always made you feel empathy for him suddenly made you feel annoyed and impassive.
âWe donât have to do this, Steve.â You said to him bluntly while crossing your arms defensively.
Steveâs own eyes narrowed in confusion and he swallowed heavily. He seemed to be thrown off by your comment. âIâm just trying to get to know you again, chipââ
âWell, I donât want you to get to know me, Steve, okay?!â You interrupted him as your voice raised before lowering in the latter half.Â
Looking up at him, you met his eyes for the third time that night, but what you didnât expect to see was that he looked so crestfallen and sad.Â
The guilt that has built up over the past few years swooped in and rested heavily in your chest. Instantly regretting your outburst, you sighed, âLook, I just think that we may be better off just not talking to each other, okay. We donât have to try to be friends again just because our friends forced us to finally interact with each other since highschool.â
Steve winced at your cutting words, and he still had this sadness on his face as he looked down at his feet before he said quietly, âIâm not trying toâŚâI justâŚitâs been a long time, chip. The last time that I saw you, with Sharon and with what you said, Iâ,â you both winced in that quick rehash of the incident. Steve finished with a weary sigh, âHonestly, I just miss you.âÂ
You frowned when listening to his words as the sincerity behind it felt displaced, and out of nowhere. You also couldn't help but feel concerned as you really looked at him. Outwardly, Steve looked as put together as he usually did. But people werenât used to seeing him the way that you had growing up.
Looking closer, his eyes werenât as bright as they could be, and they looked tired. Slight dark circles were forming underneath his dim eyes, shading his fully bearded face that was just a tad unkempt. He looked like he hadnât been sleeping well and his shoulders had a hunch to them that could be perceived as calmness when you knew that it more resembled a tiredness or despondence.Â
Your frown was still on your face as you elected to ignore his declaration of missing you and simply asked, âAre you okay, Stevie?â
At your question, Steve noticeably straightened up and his mouth parted in surprise that reflected in his eyes. You both stood there for a moment as you stared at him with concern and him looking at you withâŚmirth? With your lips pursed, you glanced at him with narrowed eyes at seeing the humor alight in his eyes, brightening them a bit more towards its familiar shade of cerulean blue.
âOkay, what just happened?â You asked suspiciously.Â
Steveâs eyes brightened more and the grin that was growing on his face grew even larger into a soft smile. âYou called me Stevie.âÂ
You lurched back a bit as you replayed the moment briefly in your head and stuttered a bit at the realization. You hadnât meant to call him that at all, but when you saw that sad look on his face and the signs of it on his body, you couldnât help but recall moments similar to when you were just kids, walking home, checking in with each other during similar moments, but experiencing these things together.Â
âUh- Iâ Iâm sorry, I didnât mean to call youâ,â You blushed and stuttered as you tried and failed at attempting to save your slip.Â
âNo,â Steve interrupted you, his smile wilting a little bit. âPlease, donât apologize for that. I,â I miss us when we were just kids. Nobody calls me that anymore, well, beyond Nat and Buck, of course.â He said sheepishly while running his hand through his hair, disheveling it even more into a natural, annoyingly perfect quaff.Â
You gave him an assented hum and cleared your throat as you looked back down at your feet, giving the flattened grass an invisible kick. You both were quiet again but the awkward animosity wasnât as present as it was before. You both shifted on your feet a bit more before glancing up at each other from time to time, barely missing each othersâ eyes before finally, your gazes met each other at the right time.Â
He was looking at you differentlyâ this time with that good-natured smile and levity in his eyes that glinted at you with that same âsomething elseâ that you couldnât quite put a finger on a year ago.Â
His small grin was reluctantly infectious as you felt your lips start to curve upwards as a response.
âWhatever.â You rolled your eyes trying to stuff down your smile as you replied with a cheap response. Memories surfaced again of your witty banter that you used to share that always started with Steveâs little smile, and you couldnât help but let out a small laugh as you opened them again to meet his own humorous gaze.
Steveâs soft smile grew into a teasing smirk, âThatâs good, at least I got a smile and a laugh from you before you start to avoid me again.âÂ
You only gave him an incredulous look at how blatantly out of pocket that sounded before letting out a sudden, full belly-laugh with him. You couldnât believe that you were laughing again with Steve Rogers.Â
You felt this feeling again too - it wasnât heartbreak, but rather, the shattered pieces that were shoddily put together again throughout the years felt solidified just a little bit more.
The laughs died down and the both of you remained standing there with genuine grins on your face. Before you lost your nerve, you felt a sudden urge to have him listen to you, to hear you, and to understand what really happened between you two.Â
âSteveâ,â
âChip, Iââ
You both looked at each other and laughed for a moment before he indicated for you to go first. His grin looked so boyish and sincere, you couldnât help but smile back at him as you two were just high school kids in Brooklyn again. Comfortable and authentic, together.Â
About to open your mouth, you get interrupted again by the person that you least expected to see on your visit back home.
âChip? Steve? Oh my gosh, is that you two? Wow, chip! Look at you, you certainly grew into yourself!â Sharonâs pitched voice pierced the mutual bubble that was starting to form between you and Steve and flattened its existence.
You gave her a quick glance over and were internally surprised to see that she seemed to be exactly the same. Her eyeliner framed her hazel brown eyes that were widened in what looked like surprise, and with a hint of condescension (cause why wouldnât she look down upon you with all of that pity). Her blonde hair resting softly down her back as she stood there in her floral skirt, her friends right behind her glancing over at you and Steve disinterestedly.Â
You stood there and gave her a fake shoddy grin as you greeted her back politely. âSharon, wow, hi.â Your monotonous tone couldnât be covered up in time before the words left your mouth.
She only gave you a dull hum before she glanced over at Steve with a smirk. âHi Steve, how are you?âÂ
The curious part of you couldnât help but try to catch Steveâs reaction to her presence. You had no idea where things left with them since you left that day, and you never bothered to ask your friends either. Assessing him, he was looking at her with a nonchalant expression, and you were unsure of how deliberate his reaction was as he made small talk with her.Â
Trying to gauge his expression, there wasnât any sadness present in his eyes anymore, nor was there any mirth. But, you did notice a stiffness there. The corner of his eyes crinkled a little too harshly as he forced a polite smile onto his face. You could see his jaw clench as Sharon droned on about her college experience.
Time couldnât erase the fact that you did know Steve Rogers for some timeâ and when he was uncomfortable, he wasn't able to hide it at all.Â
The theatrical tunes of the fair and the echoes of people screaming in mirth and laughter suddenly came back in as you hear the booth employee for the haunted corn maze (this line was way too long for what it was worth) call for you and Steve to step on up.Â
You couldnât stifle the quiet mutter under your breath, âthank godâ as a wave of relief flooded through your body at being able to escape the dangers that you just experienced as you turned around to follow the employee to the front of the maze. You didnât even say bye to Sharon, and you didnât even realize that your friends hadnât returned from their supposed tasks.Â
Your mutter may have been louder than you thought as you heard a snort from beside you. Glancing over, Steve was looking down at you with a returned humor that you just rolled your eyes at him. âWell, itâs not like you wanted to be there anymore than I did. Your tells are still exactly the same, Stevie.â You said derisively.Â
Ignoring the harshness of your tone, Steve only smiled more as you slipped boundaries again. You only caught it when you saw that he was simply just staring at you in response. Only then did you catch it and you rolled your eyes again with a small smile. His smile grew more as he intentionally leaned and walked into your path as you both followed the employee. You stumbled to your left at his deliberate clumsiness and shoved him away from you playfully before you could stop yourself.Â
Youâre teasing around with Steve Rogers. And reluctantly admitting, you werenât unhappy about it.Â
You both continued to shove each other away as Steve kept teasing you until you reached the front of the maze. The employee turned to face you before you went inside to explain the rules and you were listening attentively until you heard a throat clear from behind you. Looking back, you see that it's Sharon and her friends.Â
Trying to, but unsuccessfully, cover your agape mouth at seeing that they were actually following behind you this entire time, you clenched your jaw with annoyance and turned to face forward again.
The despair that you felt come in earlier from Steveâs arrival has returned tenfold with Sharonâs presence. Paired with the fact that youâre being forced to have entered a haunted corn maze, your hackles rise angrily at the fact that youâre being forced into a situation with both Steve and Sharon that you didnât even wanna be a witness to, AGAIN.
Feeling suddenly so tired and exhausted, you let out a despondent sigh, âOkay, are we doing this or what?â The employee merely raised their eyebrows before motioning you to move forward in the maze.
You could feel Steveâs eyes following you as he tried to walk next to you, but you could hear Sharon trying to engage with him again. You could hear him respond but you didn't really care anymore. You didn't mean to be rude, but you were feeling resentful of all of it again. Especially hearing Sharonâs whiny voice trying to speak with Steve right directly behind you, you once again felt utterly alone.Â
Torches and string lights lit up the corn maze. Although, the night sky was void of any lights or stars, which made the maze really feel like a mazeâ isolated and desolate. You could hear Sharonâs two friends in the back muttering that they were scared as they let out occasional, little screams at any sounds that could be heard (even if it was just the wind grazing the corn harshly, or honestly, the sounds of their own footsteps, ha.)Â
Feeling so bored and wanting to leave, you turned around to just go back when you saw Sharon holding on to Steveâs arm with a worried look on her face.Â
You were passing by some rows of hay with a sticky red substance spilling all over it when you heard Sharonâs small screech.
âOmg, you think thatâs blood?,â She said with a genuinely worried tone.Â
You wanted to laugh so bad as you looked over at Steve, just in time to see the rolling of his eyes and heavy sigh. She seemed to be grasping onto him with an even tighter grip and although Steve wasnât shaking her off, he did have that uncomfortable look on his face again.
His second aggravated sigh and furrowed brows gave away his annoyance as he attempted to subtly create some space between his body and her touch. You turned forward again as the laughter erupted in your throat, but you managed to stifle it in time with a pursed smile on your face at hearing Sharonâs affronted noise in response.Â
You could read a mean girl from far away at this point â Sharonâs attitude wasnât lost on you nor was her sudden closeness with Steve. But it didnât bother you as much as you thought it would, even if you found out that they were still together after high school. Honestly, a part of you felt satisfied that Steve, the one responsible for the existing tension between you in the first place, was finally just as uncomfortable as you were. To see Sharon offended and to see Steveâs discomfort made you feel a sense of justice and a resurged faith in good olâ karma.Â
That pride you felt in being able to find your own comfort in your healing made you feel giddy. You werenât in any sense of a relationship that held any drama. It felt good to know that the forced proximity didnât just affect you at this moment. Yeah, sucks to suck, doesnât it?
You flinched a few times as you continued walking throughout the maze with some actors coming out to scare you, but as you saw the glaring red Exit sign, you couldnât wait to get outta there. Speed walking at this point, you were determined to walk out of this maze with your gaze forward, determined to not look back at the two sore points of the past few years.Â
You made it to the exit and sighed in relief. You were already a few paces away when you heard Steve call for you.
âWait, chip! ââÂ
The body is a wonder - your mind was so fixated on leaving but when you heard him call out for you, your mind flashed to the both of you waiting in line, flashed to the sounds of your laughter mixing together, the feeling of him leaning into you. You didnât want to but, suddenly, your feet just stopped in place and you turned around to look over at him. Hope swelled in your chestâŚ
And there was Steve. And Sharon. Kissing.Â
You inhaled deeply at the sight, not expecting to have caught them, yet again, mid-kiss. The tension knotting in your stomach finally exploded, and your stomach dropped making your feet feel so heavy. It was like watching a car crash happening in front of you - you felt fixated and couldnât move, turn away. The hope that was swelling in your chest evaporated like mist, and you felt so foolish. The pieces that were somehow lodged together again from your earlier interaction broke into pieces, and felt grinded into dust. The wind took its opportune moment to breeze through your hair, and it almost felt like it intentionally took your longing for your best friend again with it.
Steve gripped Sharonâs arms harshly, shoving her away from him with an angry expression on his face. âSharon, what the hell?!â He exclaimed. Turning away from Sharon and her pouted expression, his widened eyes frantically found yours.Â
Even a few feet away, the panic that you saw in them was familiar. You remember seeing it exactly when you had severed the existing relationship between you and Steve that night.Â
You couldnât help your reactivenessâ you were feeling so triggered by what you were witnessing. Your vision started to get blurry as you felt that familiar burning sensation building in your eyes. The panic in Steveâs eyes intensified at the sight, and when he made a move to step forward, your feet instinctively took one step back.Â
Completing the reenacted memory, you felt your mouth press into a hardened line as you met his gaze with a ferocious determination. Familiar numbness rose up and a lethargic apathy just washed over you. You bravely met his gaze and although the words werenât being said, you and Steve both heard the words.
âI wish that I had never met you.âÂ
The truth was, the anger and rage that you were feeling (and letâs be honest, the resentment that you suppressed and just gaslit yourself into reframing it as healing) was just the surface. Underneath, a deep and hollow feeling of just being unwanted and undesirable bubbled up with a vengeance. You didnât wanna hear it, but you were tired, were abandoned by your friend(s), and energy depleted from tonightâs event. You knew you couldnât be there any longer.Â
Your feet continued to step back slowly as you heard Steve asking for you to please wait - but then Sharon took his arm again needily and you took that as your opportunity to bolt.Â
You dropped your teary-eyed gaze away from his almost desperate looking one, mumbled out a quick excuse and left with a brisk nod. It was just like when you were 17 again, you heard Steve call out your name again but you donât stop to look. You didnât see him staring after you so longingly and looking so dejected, nor did you see him blatantly remove his arm from Sharonâs grip again while they hushed out intense looking whispers at each other.Â
The parking lot of the carnival was in sight as you wiped away the bitter tears from your face. You knew that leaving was immature of you, and you knew that you would disappoint your friends. You knew that you were breaking your promises to Nat and Bucky (and now Wanda) about talking with them before making any impulsive decisions.
You reached your old pick-up and opened the door harshly. The tears wouldnât stop as you stood outside the car. Almost child-like, your hands curled into fists as you brought them to your eyes and just sobbed.Â
For a moment there, you thought that maybeâŚmaybe you could start again. Maybe you and Steve could rekindle your friendship, or at least, talk things through. You thought that maybe youâd be able to continue laughing again. You shook your head, feeling so much pity for yourself.Â
Heaving out another wilted sigh, you closed your eyes and tilted your head back to allow the fresh winded air to dry your tears upon your chilled face. You needed time to think, and you knew exactly where you wanted to go, and what you needed.Â
The sweetness of the chocolate shavings melted in your mouth, leaving only the sugary taste behind. You took another sip of your milkshake and made sure to swipe some whipped cream from the top for an extra sweet finish.Â
The diner was mostly empty, spare a truck driver or two sitting by the bar tops. You mindlessly stir your milkshake some more with the plastic straw and couldnât help but relieve another sigh from your body. You came to the diner for nostalgiaâs sake, and a chocolate chip milkshake was always a huge dopamine boost for whenever you were feeling sad.Â
But this time, getting your favorite milkshake at the diner left more of a sour taste in your mouth as each sip just reminded you of Steve.
You decided that you would try to bring yourself to feeling better before you left for home, which meant drinking your milkshake, making small talk with Betty (the sweet, old waitress who has been giving you milkshakes for free since you were a teenager), and settling the grievances that you could actually fix.Â
You instantly texted Wanda to let you know that you had left the carnival, and that you hoped that she was having fun going to the bathroom for the past hour. Instantly receiving an apologetic text back for ditching you with Steve, you figured it was as good a time as any to also let her know that she would have to ride back with Bucky and Nat (given the fact that you also had basically left her there too). She sent you the mouth wide open face emoji, and you knew that you both could call it even.
Nat texted you a selfie of her and Bucky pouting remorsefully. It was enough to make you crack a grin (Bucky looked so ridiculous). You demurely sent them back a picture of your middle finger (because you were the bigger person of course), which only had her text back an apology with an IOU. You knew that they were only trying to be your friends, but at least you would have this photo as blackmail for future purposes.Â
You started to play a game on your phone mindlessly when you heard the door ring, indicating a new customer walking in. Not even looking up, you proceeded to win the next level of the game until someone set another chocolate chip milkshake down on your table.Â
âOh, itâs okay, Bet, I didnât wantâ,â you started to say as you looked up. But it wasnât Betty who dropped off the milkshake.Â
It was Steve.Â
Your eyes widened a bit in just processing that he was actually there, standing in front of you. He actually came to find you? The scene from earlier was so crystal clear and akin to your high school memory, you were convinced that that would be it. As you sat there staring doe-eyed at Steve, the scene had felt like it glitched as it was now playing out differently than you had expected.
Heat rose to your cheeks as your gaze focused on Steveâs determined facial expression. You turned forward to face your new milkshake and deliberately avoided his narrowed gaze. You could feel him still staring at you and you shifted uncomfortably. He didnât say anything but moved to sit across from you in the booth, heaving out a heavy sigh of his own as he did too.
You kept your eyes down as the both of you let the silence permeate the air around you. A few minutes passed before you were about to officially just get up and leave when Steve broke the silence first.Â
âI swear,â he turned to look over at you with an exasperated gaze. âI had no idea that she was going to be there.â
A disbelieving scoff came out of your mouth and you rolled your eyes blatantly. âSteve stop, again, you donât have to do this â âÂ
âStop saying that, chip!â His voice was filled with a sternness that you couldnât ignore. Your eyes widened at him as he continued, âIâm here because I want to be, okay? Not cause Bucky, or Nat, or your family told me to or forced me to. I found you - and I asked you to wait earlier and you ran away, again!â
A glare scrunched up your face as your fury rose up at the audacity of his scolding, âExcuse me?! I didnât want to wait because I didnât want to watch you and Sharon sucking each otherâs faces off, again!â You flourished your mocking with a tight expression and only caused Steve to oppose you even more.
âShe was the one who kissed me â I didnât want to be there with her either. I havenât even seen or spoken to Sharon since you left!â Steve blurted out.
Your heart felt like it was racing in your chest and your mind blanked at hearing Steveâs reveal as you tried to stutter out a response. âWhatâ I donâtâ,â words were hard. You thought that they were together for some time during the year in college. With the way that Sharon was acting, you assumed that they were still interacting with each other, somehow, at the very least.
Steve took advantage of your surprised silence and continued, âGod, chip. After what happened at the party, I justâŚI realized then how much I hurt you.â He looked at you with such remorse as you just continued staring at him. The hardness that was built over the years was still surrounding you, trying to protect you, even if Steve was professing his regret.Â
âWhen I heard you say that you regretted having ever met me,â you both flinched at the words as he said them, âand this look in your eyesâŚit looked like you really despised me and I felt it and I justâ,â Steve cut himself off with another flinch and pinched his eyes shut.Â
âI let it get to my head. When I made the team and when people started to pay attention to me, when those bullies stopped bothering me and actually invited me to things, I lost sight of what really mattered to me the most and that was you. I know that that is a stupid excuse, and that I was hurting you, even way before what happened at the party and I was dumb, immature, and just stupid, and Iâm sorry. Iâm so sorry, chip.â He spewed out the words faster than he could coherently process them but the sincerity could be heard in his rushed tone.Â
His downcast, teary eyed gaze met yours and you felt your breath hitch slightly at the sight. Growing up with Steve, he was always the formidable one. He was the one who reached out first to hold your hand if you cried. The one to maintain composure and calmness while you were the one who was more nervous and panicked. To see Steve so out of breath, wistful, and low-spirited was worrisome and unfamiliar to you.Â
You were at a loss for words as you tried your best to process his words. Steve bit his lip nervously as he tried to gauge your reaction. When you only met him with more silence, the despondent look in his face only grew, âPlease. I completely understand if you still donât want to be friends, and after this, Iâll completely leave you alone. But honestly, chip, I canât leave knowing that you still hate me. I- I know thatâs selfish, but I canât.âÂ
You moved your stare to blankly look at your melting milkshake, the whipped cream completely evaporated into the cold drink.Â
âYou hurt me.â You blurted out.
Steve almost looked startled at hearing your voice after such a lingering silence. âI know, and Iâm so sorryâ.â
âNo, Steve,â You interrupted him indignantly, âyou hurt me.â The tears blurred your unseeing gaze again as you focused enough to meet his own. The whimper dislodged in your throat as you could no longer hide the suppressed pain.
Just like that, the both of you were 15 years old again. You were crying after being teased by other kids or bullied for your flaws, and Steve was there trying to console you. The impact of these experiences were a shared burden impenetrable to your friendship together.
The difference now is that, instead of your tears being spurred by the mean-spirited popular kids, Steve was the one who committed the offense, a betrayal that cut so deep and you were the only one to shoulder the burden.Â
Steve swallowed heavily as he blinked furiously to hold his own tears at bay. He seemed to understand what you were saying as his eyes glanced over the different features of your face. He knew all of your vulnerabilities and ignored, neglected his care of you by treating you the way that others had growing up. He abandoned you when you needed him the most, and he had to understand the severity of that in the same way that you tried to tell him then as you were now.Â
Steve exhaled deeply as he looked over at you. His still despondent eyes held a layer of genuine understanding as he apologized despairingly, âIâm so sorry.âÂ
You sniffled as tears fell freely onto your cheeks, your puffy eyes and pained expression causing Steve to flinch in his own despondence. You brought a closed fist to your face again to wipe the tears and winced as you suddenly felt strong, sturdy arms envelop you in a soft embrace.
The tears only came down stronger at the feeling of hugging your best friend. Not feeling so alone anymore, your heart cried out with you in relief as you turned and tucked your face into his chest, your arms moved to clutch his back. Once you did, his embrace only became tighter as he squeezed you to him closer.Â
You both sat there for a while, just hugging, soft sobs falling from your lips while Steve continued to repeat quiet, but earnest, apologies. After a year of animosity, sadness, and unresolved hurt, the both of you silently agreed to let this moment just be.Â
Eventually, your tears stopped running so harshly and you sniffled back your snot-filled nose very charmingly as you reluctantly pulled away from his warmth. Steve still kept one muscular arm around your shoulder as you looked up at him hesitantly.
âStevie?â You began to ask. Steve responded with a soft hum for you to continue while rubbing your shoulder soothingly. It didnât even seem like he noticed that he was doing it.
Before you could lose your nerve, you meekly asked, âWhy did you start pulling away from me when you started dating Sharon?âÂ
Steveâs hand froze and he stilled as if he were preparing for the worst. He sighed while closing his eyes for a moment. Taking a breath, he opened them back up to look at you with a resolved and honest gaze.
âWhen I told you that Sharon asked me to the prom, I thought that wouldâve been the moment that you told me that you liked me the same way that I liked you.âÂ
Your heart thundered so loudly in your chest as you gave him a shocked, glazed over expression.Â
He liked you.
âBut then you smiled at me, and you said that you were happy for me, and, I guess a part of me felt like I was foolish to have ever thought that you would actually like me more than a friend. I continued things with Sharon because I felt like I had to get over you.â He said regretfully.Â
You blinked up at him a few times before you asked dumbly, âAnd thatâs why you were pulling away? The lies and the fake excuses, or why you ignored me when you were with Sharon?âÂ
Steve flinched with each question as he confessed, âYes. It was really immature of me to ignore you. If I could go back and do it over, I would in a heartbeat.â An intentional look sat on his face as he expressed his remorse.Â
You released another speechless hum in return, still processing that Steve liked you. In a spur of your own adrenaline running through your body, you suddenly disclosed, âSteve, I did like you the way that you liked me.â
Steve stilled and inhaled sharply, â...W-what do you mean?âÂ
Mustering up your own fostered courage, you exhaled deeply and said, âI liked you too. But I was your best friend. I thought that you were the one who didnât like me, so I thought that if I supported you in dating Sharon, I wouldnât lose you completely.â You felt your face scrunch in confusion as how ridiculously unnecessary this entire separation was.
He only looked at you with incredulity as he realized, âSo, because we couldnât just buck up and tell each other honestly in that moment that we liked each other, we ended up losing each other anyways?âÂ
âUgh, what a mess.â You revered and knocked your forehead against his chest ashamedly. You both were quiet again as he resumed rubbing your shoulder calmingly.Â
âChip?â Steve suddenly spoke out.Â
Raising your head up to look at him again, still cringing from such a huge misunderstanding, you gave him a soft hum to continue his inquiry.Â
Steve looked down into your eyes, making you feel mesmerized with how deeply he was gazing at you. From how close your faces were, you could really see the subtle hints of green in his blue eyes. There was still some grief there as you looked at each other but there was again, something else that you still couldnât point out.Â
Noticing that unknowing glint in his eye for the second time that night, you questioned him curiously hoping to finally find out, âWhat is it?â
âI like you.â
Your breath hitched at his confession, his eyes filled with mirth again and an honesty that couldnât be faked. Your thundering heart skipped a beat as you felt your own spirit restore within you. You could feel those pieces in your heart start to build again.Â
You looked back at him with such relief as Steve pulled you in closer, you took in another deep breath as you responded.
âI love you.âÂ
His eyes immediately glowed with an infectious joy, a genuine laugh and smile graced his face as he got closer to you. You could hardly breathe as you returned his loving gaze, his nose nuzzled yours gently until the both of you met each other halfway in a tender, first kiss.Â
A/N: my cue to say: and they lived happily ever after! i would love to know what people thought, thanks for reading :)
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Written All Over Your Face dick grayson x reader
â summary: âWell, you know what they say, Love and Hate are two sides of a very, very thin line. For what I can see, you have a pent up sexual frustration written all over your face Dick.â
â warnings: SMUT. p in v, unprotected sex (don't be dumb and wrap it), enemies to lovers, heroe!reader, breeding kink, bulge kink Âż?, not proof-read, possessive behavior, begging...
words: 2k
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Being a heroe wasn't easy. Neither being considered a competition for Nightwing. The Ex-Robin. The Dick Grayson.
Both being ¨super-heroes¨ with no powers brought many controversial articles between you two, not only at the Gotham-Batman times, but also now at the new Titans times.
You never thought seeing him again and his boyish smile and attitude. No wonder why he has many girls falling for him, not only as Nightwing, but also as his real identity. But this rough times between the heroes, made the destiny bringing you together again.
Both of you had mutual friends, and when Dawn invited you to meet the new Titans, and asked you for help to train them, you never thought of seeing him again, neither of both of you training teenage kids how to become high quality-trained super heroes.
¨Sorry.¨ Were the last words you heard from Dawn, when she left you with bird boy at the training room, giving you an apologetic smile.
God bless her natural charm and being the trusting friend she is because you couldn't hit her face right now with the rage you're feeling.
¨Hi!¨ A green-haired boy said to you, he had the same, maybe not as pretty, boyish smile like Grayson. ¨Hello...?¨
¨Gar.¨ He told you, not putting down the smile.
With just a nod and a not so happy smile, your eyes moved into a purple-haired girl, who just smiled at you and said her name. ¨Rachel.¨ She hit the boy next to her with her elbow, murmuring his name.
¨Jason.¨ He said, ¨Is this your girlfriend Dick? Because she's pretty good looking for a guy like you. But yeah, what she's doing here anyways?¨
Oh. Yeah. Bird boy. He's here.
¨Yeah Grayson, whatâs going on?¨ Completely ignoring the fact Dick was about to answer Jasonâs question with furrowed brows and you obviously knowing why you're here since Dawn explained you. ¨And no, i'm not his girlfriend.¨ You looked at Jason with a smile which changed into a fake smile when your eyes returned to Dick. ¨He wishes.¨ You said, your head turning to the side, obviously trying to make him angry. At which he only scoffed, knowing you well enough to know what you were trying. ¨Yeah number two, maybe we can just pass at me explaining you why you´re here.¨
Number two? He WISHES.
¨I know why am I here. I don´t know if your little brain remembers you made Dawn bring me here to help you train this kids.¨ You got closer to him, not breaking eye contact. ¨And number two? pfft, If you were number one, maybe you wouldn't have been replaced by new Robin here.¨
That got him exactly where you wanted him. He might seem like a strong and rough guy, but behind all that image of big boy, thereâs nothing else but trauma.
You couldnât help but notice how his jaw clenched at the small giggle Jason let when you mentioned Dick being replaced. Side-eyeing him, Jason stopped. Dick sighed trying to calm himself down.
âFirst. I didnât know Dawn brought you here, she just told me about bringing the perfect person to help me train them, I was not expecting you.â You could tell he was still angry at the remark, so he wanted to correct you. âSecond. I didnât got replaced. I left Wayne by choice of mine.â
âAnd third. Iâm not longer Robin.â
It got into a really tense vibe between you and Dick trying to kill each-other with just your eyes, everyone in silence, clearly uncomfortable at this new encounter.
âCan both of you stop eye-fucking eachother and can we finally start the training?â Jason said, trying to bring both of you back to earth.
That clearly caught both of your attention to what Jason said, clearly annoyed at the wrong remark of how both of you were looking at each-other. âWeâre not âeye-fuckingâ each-other Jason, stop getting into otherâs people conversations.â With that, Dick started grabbing everything for the training of today, moving on. Jason just raised his arms at the air, (like when theyâre showing theyâre not armed), with a small smirk on his face.
âWell, you know what they say, Love and Hate are two sides of a very, very thin line. For what I can see, you have a pent up sexual frustration written all over your face Dick.â
That brought a hard, and big laugh to your face, how could Jason say that? This kids donât even respect their âleaderâ This was going to be a funny training.
After what seemed like 1 hour of training, and getting to know the kids, you could get which were the flaws and weaknesses. Maybe you couldnât understand quite well Rachelâs powers, but some time will do it.
You asked Gar where you could sleep the night, since it was already getting late and your most likely staying some days here, you'll also need some extra clothes at least for today.
Gar told you to stay in the spare room next's to Dick's, great, what a nice neighbor you have. He also gave you some clothes you could use tonight, tomorrow you could go back to your place and get some clothes, your skincare.... and I guess your super-hero suit.
When going out of the bathroom after a long shower (which you deserved), Dick was standing there, shirtless, all sweaty, and just with some grey sweatpants on... he looks.... nice, yeah. Obviously annoyed but when he saw you, his face turned into... panic?
He doesn't know what's happening to him right now, might be stress he needs to get relieved, yeah, sure, that's the reason he feels his pants getting tighter every-second he keeps looking at you right now.
¨Are you okay bird-boy why´re you just static over here, I know you have problems, but this a new one.¨ You looked up and down at Dick's figure, obviously checking him out, not like he needs to find out, noticing he´s quite handsome, not like you would tell him also, he's hot, and he knows it.
¨That´s... That´s my shirt¨ Was all that Dick could say, well, shit.
You knew the t-shirt had a distinct laundry soap scent which remind you of someone, and maybe a pint of perfume, but who could blame you?! Might be Gar's or Jason's!
¨And those... are my boxers.¨ double shit.
You could see he was obviously blushed and you're sure you are too, but what a coincide. It's like you could hear Rachel, Gar and Jason's laughing at the both of you.
¨Well... do want me to give them back at you?¨ You broke the tense silence, trying to take your, his, shirt-off, completely forgetting you're in front of him, you needed to find a way out of here.
¨No, no, no, stop! Leave it there, then you give it back to me.¨ He assured you, grabbing your hands and pulling them down with your, his? t-shirt. ¨And it looks better on you anyways.¨ That's all he said before speed entering to the bath-room.
¨Hey Dick!, Wait.¨ To say you couldn't feel the wetness of your pussy going out and asking for some relief, would be considered a crime. ¨What do you ne-¨ You cut him off by entering the bath-room closing the door in the process, both of your lips connecting in a perfect symphony like they were made for each-other. He left a sudden whine at the loss of the soft touch of your lips.
¨Oh.¨ Was all he could say, you don't understand what happened to you, it wasn't definitely a normal behavior between you two. ¨Oh my god. I'm so sorry Dick, I don't know what happened to me, i'm-¨ You couldn't finish the last sentence when you felt his lips in yous again. A little hesitant this time, he stops, unsure of his actions, but he lose it all. ¨Do it again.¨
That's all he needed to continue kissing you, hands caressing you neck, positioning them as a chocking posture, later going to trace your jaw as he continues kissing you.
He started giving you kisses trailing down your chin, making you moan at the specific spot that made your legs shake, he started leaving love bites between your chest, later going down on you, pulling your t-shirt upwards, getting between your breasts and marking them as his.
¨Please Dick... Please make me feel good.¨ It´s like something got into him when his hands started roaming your body like crazy, pulling your shirt off, your hand reaching his sweatpants, and later his cock, noticing he has no underwear under neat it. ¨It's like you were ready for this bird-boy, ah!-¨ Even when you try to tease him, he finds a way to tease you back even in a better way, his fingers playing with your nipple had you giddy and trembling. ¨Be a good girl if you want me to fuck you.¨
All you could do is nod and start stroking his hard cock, already leaking pre-cum which made the stroking easier, playing with the head had him as a moaning mess.
âFuck, wait â shit. Mmâ fuck. Wh-where did you learn to do that?â He left a whiny moan at the lose of your touch.
âWell, the noises you make are a pretty good indication of how you like it.â He man-handled you, turning you around, making you see yourself at the mirror.
ââŚGod you sound so fucking cocky right now and itâs turning me on even more.â He ripped apart the boxers you were wearing. ¨Don't worry, I have plenty more.¨ Fuck him and his fucking pretty smile.
With no more waiting, he positioned himself, and started thrusting into you. He fits just right, and could touch all the places you couldn't reach.
âLet me know if Iâm doing anything wrong, okay? I want to make you feel as good as possible.â Even when he's fucking your brains out, he finds a way to be that kind and nice guy he is.
âO-Okay.â Was all you could tell him, before & after some moans and whines from both of you, one specific thrust had you seeing stars.
His hand lingered down your tummy and he moaned at the bump he could feel, when he was going in and out with his thrusts. ¨Oh baby, I'm going to make you mine, fill you up.¨
He started playing with your clit, it had you crazy all the feelings of his body, his thrusts, him.
¨´You´re so good for me, all for me... 'm gonna' fill you up with my babies, 'm gonna make you a mommy, full of my cum every-day just to make sure.¨
That was all you needed to cum, with just some last thrusts he came inside you too, fulfilling his promise of keeping you full of his cum. He waited for you to calm down, before he inserted two of his fingers, recollecting the cum that was falling out your hole, inserting it inside you again, making you moan at the sudden intrusion.
He got the tub ready, and got you inside it, in front of him while he cleaned your sore body while kissing it.
¨I can't believe it took me all this years to realize how I feel about you.¨ Your heart was anxious at how your confession would be received.
¨Doesn't take an idiot to figure out. You couldn't tell I was and I am in love with you because you were too busy trying to beat all that rivalry. I was in love the moment you kicked my ass for the first time.¨
You chuckled at the confession, and laid your head on his shoulder where you could see his dumb smirk. ¨You have that stupid smirk on your face again, can't you have a serious conversation with me?, can we fight again?¨
He laughed at your comment ¨Not a possible thing for me when you look this cute all marked by me and confessing your feelings for me.¨ The small pecks he started leaving on your neck and back had you giggling.
¨I love you.¨
¨I love you too, bird-boy.¨
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pairing: Lewis Hamilton x femalereader
summary: Lewis proposes in a special ceremonyâand itâs dirty
warnings: mentions of sexual activities, slight jealousy
(a/n): this is written from Lewisâ pov cuz I love my man obsessed
I MIGHT BE the filthiest person in her life right now. The dirtiest one, with the most disgusting thoughts about her. Do I care, though?
Absolutely not.
Will I let another man touch her?
Hah. Funny enough.
Because when this night is over, a ring will be circled around the fair flesh of her finger. And my initial will be curved into it. Iâm sure of it.
My fiancĂŠ soon-to-be has chosen a red, long dress that hugs her curved body for tonightâs ceremony. I can see my parents eye her across the ballroom.
Our names are written on tonightâs sky. Mine and hers. The night is ours. And itâll not be over until we say so.
Y/N appears at the very top of the stairs and her father rushes by her side, helping her to walk towards me. Reaching for her hand as soon as she reached the last step, the crowd ceases clapping.
I take her hand in mine. It fits perfectly, as always. She fits perfectly. Her body against mine. Her smart brain along with mine. Her eyes on mine.
Everything is perfect because she is a part of it.
âLewisâŚâ She approaches me and I can detect a particular glimpse of something in her beautiful eyes.
I curl my lips in a smile. âYouâre the most beautiful woman in this room.â I say. Iâm positive that everyoneâs eyes and ears are focused on this moment. On us. âProbably in the entire world.â
She manages a smile, even though I can tell sheâs nervous. About a hundred or so people have been gathered by me and her father to celebrate this day.
Three years ago, when the date was the same as it is this day, I met her.
Three years later, Iâm marking her as mine. Officially, at least. Because I made sure she knewâand everyone else around usâsheâs mind since the very first moment.
âDonât be nervous, baby,â I push her towards me gently and cup her reddened cheeks with my hands.
Across my thumb, her initial is written on the surface with bold ink.
My hands are hers to use. Hers to lick. Hers to fuck. I wanted her to know that.
I turn around and smile at the guests. Toto gives me a reassuring father as he drinks a sip from his wine next to my father.
âLetâs dance,â I brush my lips across her ear, starting to make our way to the centre of the room.
âLewis, you know I canât dance in these shoes.â She lifts her right leg just a few inches and waves her dress so I can take a glimpse of her white heels.
I make sure to keep my tone quiet. âY/N, Iâve seen you pole-dancing in stripper-heels.â
Her face turns into a darker shade of red. Her hands feels cold. Sweaty.
I donât want her to fucking feel like that on a day as special as this one.
She has to calm down. And Iâm the one obligated to make her do it.
I brush her long hair and press pecks on her temple, cheeks, lips⌠I stop on the neck because itâs a soft spot for me. Canât let myself lose control in front of all my relatives, friends and coworkers. Itâd be such a pity to grab her and take her to the closest room and ruin such an event.
I being a glass of red whine for her knowing how much she adores it. My hand never leaves her and I can tell that as the minutes pass, her breathing feels steadier.
One hour goes by.
Two.
Itâs ten past something and about time IâŚ
âLadies and gentlemen.â I let y/nâs hand and climb on the stage, rolling the sleeves of my white shirt as I do so. âThank you for attending tonightâs ceremony, to begin with. It is a special day for us and we are very pleased to share such a great moment with the people we love.â
The crowd above the stage claps, I can even take a glimpse of my dog, Roscoe, swirling around in Ricciardoâs embrace⌠everyone is overwhelmed and that brings a smile to my lips. But nothing compares to the burning sensation in my chest.
I donât know what it is. But I know itâs a good feeling. I also got it the first time I met y/n. Or when I asked her out. Or when we first kissed or made love.
âI would like to invite my beautiful woman, y/nâŚâ I control myself not to exclaim âfiancĂŠâ or âwifeâ instead of âwomanâ. Iâm not hesitant to go on. ââŚon this stage with me.â
The people go thunderous and I help y/n to walk the few steps on the stage.
We arrive at the centre of the stage and the music stops.
All the lights on us. Everyoneâs eyes.
It feels magical.
I look up and find the most beautiful pair of eyes Iâve ever seen already fixed on me. Sheâs smiling. Itâs contagious so I grin as well. âY/nâŚâ I start but a voice interrupts my words.
âGo on one knee!â I identify Toyoâs voice in the first row as I reach for the velvet box in my pocket.
âOn one knee!â Yells my father and then the guests go crazy.
I turn to my woman and smile. âDonât ask me to go on one knee.â I say.
âAs long as you donât ask me to get on two knees.â She replies in a dirty voice, leaning towards me.â
âBaby, I want you in all for.â
She smiles again but no one hears our conversation. They still yell for me to propose on one knee.
Fuck. Iâll have to do this.
I grab the box tightly in my hand and do as asked. I get on my knees.
In front of my woman. The woman of my dreams.
Iâve been on my knees in front of y/n countless times before, but for educational purposes only. Nothing like this.
I raise my eyes. Sheâs crying.
I hold onto her hand. âY/nâŚâ I start. âPlease make me the happiest man in the entire universe and accept this proposal.â I think my heart is going to explode. âWill you please marry me?â
The crowd erupts in a chaos of applause and I find myself trapped in her eyes. I expect her to say the word first, but she doesnât.
She melts into my hands and buries her small face in my neck.
This has to be the most beautiful moment of my entire existence.
Sheâs crying and I think I am too honestly. âYes, yes, yes! A million times yes, Lewis!â She almost creams and between tears, I grab her face and unite our temples. I apply a kiss on her mouth. Itâs gently at first but then I can see her craving for more.
When I let her lips to catch my breath (I actually remembered that we are not alone, but in a room with our closest people and if she went on I would without hesitation forget their existence) I look into her eyes. I grab her delicate hand and take the ring out of the box.
It fits perfectly on her finger.
I look at her again and murmur, âPerfectly fitted. Just for you, baby. Just for my wife.â
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â : Bada Lee as the 5 Love Languages
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Cw / Dom!Bada, Fem!Reader, Fingering, Cunnilingus, Use of vibrator, Bada using a strap, Exhibitionism, Degradation (but also praise), Light bondage, Orgasm denial, Nipple play, Overstimulation, Slight choking and Fluff , MDNI
Author's notes / I wanted to imagine how Bada would express each love language in both a romantic and sexual way sooo proceed with caution and enjoy ! (Also this is semi-proofread. My brain is fried. I wrote this in one sitting).
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Words of Affirmation
Fluff :
You and Bada were at the studio practising a routine that she was teaching you.
Bada was patient and gentle with you as she would give you small words of encouragement, praising you for the little things you did.
âYes ! Good job, baby. You got it.â Bada was genuinely so proud and smitten by you.
However, you were struggling to properly execute some steps and you were quickly growing frustrated at yourself and Bada could easily tell.
âDon't get in your head. It's okay if you can't remember the moves right now. We can take a break.âÂ
You frown in disappointment at yourself and slightly pout your lips as you turn away from Bada - not wanting her to see you and slightly embarrassed that you were struggling to learn her choreo.Â
Bada thinks youâre the cutest thing in the world and smiles at your little frown.
âI promise itâs ok, baby. Youâre doing so well. Donât be so harsh on yourself and listen to me because the way you were moving ??? Yeah - you don't realise how talented and hot you are.â
She takes your face into her large palms and smiles at you.
You stubbornly pout and do your best to avoid eye contact and Bada laughs.
âMy talented, hardworking, cute baby.â She leans in and pecks your lips with a âmwahâ.
âCan we go over the steps again ?â
âOf course we can. Thereâs no rush so don't feel bad. I know youâve got this - you always blow me away.â
Smut :Â
You break eye contact and harshly bite your lip as you try to suppress your moans.
Bada grabs your chin with her spare hand and forcefully turns your head to face her again.
âWhat did I say ?â
You struggle to get the words out in between your whimpers and moans.
âThat if I look away youâll stop . . .â
Bada smirks, âThat's right baby. Donât you wanna come for me ? All over my fingers, hm ?â
You feel her two fingers thrust in you again, curling up against your walls with the sound of your wetness.Â
âAnd I wanna hear your pretty moans too, you know how I love it when you moan for me. So don't try to be quiet. Let me hear you.â She says as her thumb now plays with your clit.
You don't have to be told twice as you cry out in a breathless moan. You feel yourself approaching your limit and your walls clench around her fingers.Â
âFuck, youâre so tight baby. I love the way you feel against me. Youâre close arenât you ?â
You hate love how she knows your body so well.
You nod.
Bada bites her lip as you hold each other's gaze - her fingers thrusting into you faster.
âCome for me.â
Your legs shake and you cry out her name.
âMmm, that's good baby. Let me take care of you, just relax and come on my fingers. You look so beautiful right now. Can't believe youâre all mine.â She talks you through your orgasm.
Pussy sensitive and clit swollen, you come on her fingers. Your body falls limp and you lay breathless and stare up at her.
Bada pulls her long fingers out of your tired hole and you see it glisten with your juices.
âOpen up for me, princess.â
You do as she says and part your lips, her fingers then enter your mouth.
âClean up for me.â
Quality Time Â
Fluff :Â
You were at Badaâs apartment curled under a blanket as you waited for her to come home.
She texted you that she was coming home early today and that she missed you.
You noticed that recently Bada has been doing her best to juggle both work and her relationship with you and you really appreciated her for that.
The door opens and in she comes.
Bada kicks her shoes off and discards her bag and coat as makes her way to you.
You playfully roll your eyes, âI hope you know youâre picking those up later.â
âYeah, yeah sure whatever. Right now, Iâm picking you upâ She says as she takes you into her arms and places you on her lap.
You laugh and wrap your arms around her as she beams at you.
âIâve missed you. I wasnât sure if I was going to survive the day without seeing you.â
âYouâre so dramatic.â
Badaâs phone rings and you see her screen light up, her lock screen a photo of the two of you.
Bada doesnât hesitate and switches it off. She tosses her phone aside and refocuses on you.
âWhat if it was important ?â
âYouâre more important. Talk to me about your day.â
You and Bada sat there till the evening sun, talking and laughing and basking in each other's presence.
Smut :Â
Bada had taken you out on a date to the cinema.
You were so thankful that she always did her best to make time for you in her busy schedule.Â
You look over to her only to find her already looking at you with eyes of adoration and a gentle smile.
âWhy are you staring ? Pay attention.â You say playfully as you roll your eyes and pretend that you too were not just about to stare.
âI'm just appreciating how lucky I am to have you. That's all.â
You feel butterflies in your stomach and cross your leg over - trying to ignore the way she was making you feel as she looked at you.
Bada smirks and her hand goes to your thigh, pulling it away from your other leg as she uncrosses your legs.
Heat rises to your face . . . and elsewhere.
âWhat are you doing ?â
Her hand squeezes your thigh and slowly inches its way up. You weren't sure if you regretted wearing a skirt or were happy that you did.
âIâm showing you how lucky I am to have you.âÂ
She inches closer to your heat and rubs your folds through the thin fabric of your panties.
âYouâre already wet. And just for me.âÂ
Bada lifts your leg up onto the armrest as she gives herself more room to play with you.
âBe quiet for me, hm ?â
Bada pushes your panties aside and drags a finger lazily through your wetness before arriving at your clit.
Her index and middle finger start rubbing you, slowly circling your bundle of nerves. Her fingers slide over your clit in a steady rhythm and you jerk your hips forwards chasing the pleasure.
Your breathing gets heavy and you clamp your lips shut. You look over to your girlfriend only to see her nonchalantly gazing at the big screen - as if her fingers aren't playing with your dripping cunt.
A smirk sets on her lips and she looks at you from the corner of her eyes. âWhy are you staring, hm ? Pay attention.âÂ
You almost come right then from her words. Not believing the way she used your own sass against you.
Her fingers slide into your pussy lips swiping up your wetness before she carries on stimulating your clit - speed increasing.
You grip onto the empty seat beside you and grip onto Badaâs arm.Â
You moan.
You were thankful that you were sitting in the very back row.
Bada hushes you, âI said be quiet didn't I ? Unless you want everyone here to know what a slut you are. Legs spread and pussy out ?â
You move your hips against her fingers, desperately aching for a climax and you feel it coming.Â
âBada, Iâm close . . .â You manage to whisper.
You regret your words as Badaâs movements come to a stop.
You whine and buck your hips against her trying to get friction.
She removes her fingers and readjusts your panties and then your legs.
âWeâll continue at home, okay baby ?â She says with a teasing smile.
Acts of Service
Fluff :Â
Bada knew that whilst she had the weekend off, sometimes you didnât and today was one of those days.Â
After waking you up with scattered kisses from your forehead to your neck, Bada greeted you with an âI love youâ before leaving you to start preparing for your busy day ahead.Â
Whilst you were showering, Bada began making breakfast and your lunch. She knew exactly what you liked and for particular days of the week - especially if the day was going to be potentially busy. Bada knew you needed the energy to help you get through.Â
She hums to herself as she glides across the kitchen, from station to station.
Bada loved to do little things like this for you.
You soon emerge from the bedroom and you smile and thank your girlfriend for making you food. Bada grins and kisses your head - the smile on your face is a thank you enough.
Soon after, youâre getting ready to leave and Bada hands you your coat - holding it out as she helps you put it on.Â
âIâll see you later.â You say as you grab your bag and keys.
âAnd I'll miss you.â
You smile up at her and quickly lean in for a kiss and you leave to start your day.
Itâs later in the day and you decide you want your lunch. You open your bag up and you smile at yourself at the care your girlfriend put into making this for you.Â
Youâre so lucky.
A tucked away piece of paper catches your eye and your smile grows, knowing exactly what it is.
You open it up.
âHi baby, I hope you have a great day today. Remember to take it easy and donât overwork yourself ! Enjoy your lunch and Iâll see you at home. I love you. - Badaâ Â
Your heart swells with warmth and you fold it and tuck it away. Knowing youâll store it with the rest of the notes sheâs written for you.
Smut :Â
You knew that actions spoke louder than words.
In Badaâs case, actions spoke very loud just like the moans and cries that left your lips as you feel her insert a third finger into you.
âAww, itâs okay baby. I know you can take it.â Bada coos in faux concern as she indulges in your body and sweet cries of her name.
Your wrists were tied to the headboard and your back arched as you felt her fingers stretch you out, sliding against your sensitive walls and curling up inside you with each merciless thrust.
Bada knew how much you loved it when you were tied up, helpless and at her mercy.Â
She also knew how much you loved it when she sucked on your nipples, loving the way her tongue felt.
So Bada, intent on servicing all of your desires and needs, eagerly attached her warm mouth to your tits.Â
Her fingers still inside you as she slid her tongue over your bud, swirling it around and biting it gently before feeling it harden.
Her attention shifts to your other nipple and she repeats the same dance of her tongue as she sucks on your chest. Her free hand moves to play with the other - her thumb brushing over it and then rubbing it between her index.Â
âI know you feel good right now, don't you ? You love it when I suck on your tits.â
Sparks of pleasure shoot through you and you nod your head - unable to speak through the stimulation.
âUse your words, princess.â
Bada knew just how to play your body like an instrument, relishing your melodic whimpers and moans.
Gift Giving
Fluff :Â
It wasnât your birthday or any other special occasion but here sat a small box wrapped with a bow. And the giver of said gift standing behind it with a big smile.
âOpen it.â Bada says excitedly, almost bouncing on her feet.
Bada did this quite frequently. She loved to shower and spoil you with gifts. You insisted that she didn't need to spend money on you like this but she double insisted that sheâs doing it because she wants to. And you know that there's no point in trying to change her mind.
You open the small velvety box to see a dainty necklace with the letter âBâ carved in a gentle font.Â
You awe at it and Badaâs grin widens if it's even possible.
âIt's so beautiful. Thank you so much.âÂ
She says nothing and reaches into her neckline to pull out her own necklace from under her shirt.
Your first initial dangling from as it rests against her chest.Â
Your lips part and you stare up at her. âStop, Bada youâre so sweet.â You say as you move to hug her.
She wraps her arms around you and then takes the necklace from the box.
She takes your waist and guides you to the mirror and stands behind you.Â
âHold your hair up for me, baby,â She mutters in your ear.
You watch as she gently adorns your skin with her token of love for you, clasping the necklace in place. She then hugs you from behind, admiring you through the reflection before placing her soft lips against the back of your neck.
âSo beautiful.â
Smut :Â
You and Bada are currently out and about doing some shopping.
You walk with a slight but pleasuring discomfort as you walk ahead of the taller girl almost wanting to escape the torture that she has you under.
Bada smirks at you from behind. One hand holding your shopping bags and another in her pocket.Â
She turns it back on.
Your body jolts slightly and you bend forward a little - attempting to compose yourself.
The gift your wonderful, caring and selfless girlfriend gave you - was a vibrator.Â
âBada . . .â You whine but to deaf ears and a cocky smirk.
âHm, what's wrong baby ?
You breathe out heavily and do your best to not draw attention and continue walking.
âOh ? So youâre ignoring me now ?â
She turns up the intensity.
You almost fall to your knees.
âFuck, Bad please . . .â You beg in a whisper.
âPlease what ? You wanna come right here ? Let everyone know that I stuffed your cunt with a little toy, hm ?â
You shake your head in a no, âP-please, not here. I canât take it anymore . . .â
She bites her lip as she drinks in your desperation and pleads.Â
âCâmere.â
Bada takes your hand and drags you to an empty changing room.
She locks the door and wastes no time in kneeling down, pulling your panties to your ankles and hooking your leg over her shoulder - your needy cunt glistening and on show just for her.
She spreads your lips with her index and middle finger, adoring the sight of the toy as it continues to vibrate.
âF-fuck, Bada please I need you.â You beg as you grip onto the walls.
âNot too loud princess, I haven't even started.âÂ
Bada dives in, tongue attacking your clit. Her wet muscle glides against you, circling and worshipping your throbbing nerves. Her hands grip onto your legs, steadying you as she ravishes your poor cunt.Â
Tears of pleasure fill your eyes and you slap your mouth shut with your palm. The overstimulation of her tongue and the vibrator making you jolt and squirm above her.Â
âYouâre such a pretty whore for me aren't you ? Letting me stuff your cunt with this toy but that's still not enough for your needy hole is it ?â
Bada sucks on your clit and your legs damn near give out.
âLove how you let me slut you out. Pretty lips all for me . . .â
You feel your walls contract around the toy inside you and the tightening of the knot in your stomach finally snaps.
You bite your fist, doing your very best to not scream as you come around Badaâs tongue.
Bada eagerly licks you clean and gets to her feet, towering over you with her swollen lips glossed with your juices.Â
She then leans down and presses her lips to yours, tongue sliding into your mouth as youâre made to taste yourself.
âYou did amazing, princess. Gonna reward you when we get home. Got plenty more gifts for my babyâ
Physical Touch
Fluff :Â
It was the morning of the weekend and you were making breakfast for Bada and yourself.Â
You left Bada in bed to carry on sleeping as you knew she just had a busy week.Â
So it took you by surprise when you heard a yawn followed by the call of your name as your sleepy and messy haired girlfriend staggered into the room in search of you.
âYouâre up sooner than expected.â You say as you flip over the pancakes.Â
Badaâs hands, like magnets, immediately attach themselves to your waist as she hugs you from behind. Her face buried in your neck.
You giggle at her clinginess and rest your head against hers.Â
âGood morning to you.â
âGood morning, baby.â She mumbles into your neck and you giggle and try to brush her off but she holds you tighter, whining a dramatic ânooooâ.
You don't know how you do it but you manage to finish making breakfast with a very large puppy dog on your back.
Youâre both sitting at the dining table facing each other and Bada makes sure that her palm rests comfortably over your hand as you both eat.Â
You gaze up at her and smile to yourself. You love this side of your girlfriend. Yes, Bada had an air of intimidation and coolness around her most times, but when you waved that away all that was left was a soft and cuddly koala bear who apparently had grips of steel.Â
Smut :Â
Bada loved it when you were under her.Â
Her strap thrusting in your cunt as she gazed at you from above - fingers interlocked as she fucked you senseless.
Just like right now.
Your sweaty bodies moved with the rhythm of her thrusts and you felt her slide her palms into yours, pinning your arms besides your head as she locked her fingers with yours.
She looked down at you with adoration, loving the way your face contorted with pleasure all because of her and the way she touched your body.
âYouâre so beautiful, baby.â She grunts as her strap bottoms out with each thrust - your pussy sucking her in.Â
The air is filled with the sound of skin slapping, moans, cries and praises of worship from your girlfriend.Â
âYouâre taking me so well, princess. You feel fucked out ? Good. Iâm all you should be thinking of right now.â
Bada switches positions, manhandling you almost as you now sit on top of her.
âBe a good girl and ride me.â
Her hands leave a ghosting trail from your back to your sides before they grip onto your waist - guiding your hips as you ride her strap.
âMmm, just like that. I know you feel good as fuck right now.â
Badaâs hand travels from your waist to your chest, where she teases your nipple, thumb ghosting around it before continuing upwards to your neck.
She wraps her fingers around your neck, enough to drive you crazy as you rocked yourself on her strap.
âSuch a good girl, arenât you ? Keep fucking yourself on my strap like the pretty slut you are.â
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