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Something something put John’s mouth to better use and post.
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act 4 :(
@chipper-smol and i came to a realization
#THID FUCKING GAAAAAAAMMMMEEEEE#i have more i wanna draw but my hands not working orz.. maybe ill get around to it later idk#i finally FINALLY managed to get inside that star room.. my own clone!! now neither of us will be virgins!!!!#i dont have anything to go off of but when the journal mentions making another 'me' it reminds me of loop saying theyre like a mirror#theyre always able to read siffrins mind without actually reading their mind (or so they say) but maybe it could just be tone matching???#or smth like that.. idk if these two things are connected though so maybe its more like subtext#i hope im not the only one who made the childrens hospital joke when it came around to color lore part 2#im also getting the sinking feeling of watching siffrin toe his way near the deep end like bro is so so close to losing it#i feel like if i knew nothing abt the game beforehand and why siffrin is looping in the first place my feelings abt this would be different#cuz id be pretty angry too if ive been stuck in a loop long enough to feel like everyone around me is pretending nothings wrong#than the fact that i have decided not to disclose im in a time loop and that everyone is living this day for the first time#although i also get hes doing this for a reason and when u believe in the universe i guess it also comes with sunk cost fallacy#'this is the path the universe led me down before i even knew what i wanted so all i can do is double down' THATS THE FATALISM TALKING#puppy plays isat#in stars and time#isat#isat spoilers#isat act 3 spoilers#isat act 4 spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#sona#puppysona#friends#chipper#doodles
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opposing views
#pmd2#my art#grovyle#dusknoir#pokemon mystery dungeon#tempted to tag this as ship lmao what is their relationship if not the confrontation of irreconcilable ideals in a doomed world#theyre both surviving for only one reason#to fulfill their clashing objectives no matter the cost#and because of this their lives are inextricably intertwined#its no wonder it was grovyle who managed to get dusknoir to change loyalties and objectives man who else could have gotten through to him#they match each other's freak fr#pmd eos#pmd grovyle#pmd dusknoir#ig i wont tag it since its not really accurate here but trust me its canon chunsoft told me /j#edit actually no im gonna tag it#actaeonshipping#duskvyle#this is also ship content if youre a real shipper
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Sae Niijima is such a good character it drives me insane a little. She's not a mother nor a maternal or doting older sister but instead a twenty four year old who was thrown into a position of responsibility that she never asked for. She loves Makoto just as much as she resents her and its so apparent every time they talk up until November. "Are you studying?" (I want you to do well) (I need you to get a job and stop making my life harder) "I'll use any method necessary to get this promotion" (Life will be easier for us) (So stop distracting me with your problems) "Focus on your future" (I know that you're capable) (I can't afford to waste my time on you, so stop wasting time on others)
Makoto is not only the sole reason she pushes as hard as she does for a promotion, for success, and the reason that she loses herself in her animosity over her fathers death, but also someone she can't stand for so long. Makoto was 14-15 when their father died. Sae was 21. As soon as she got the career she wanted and things started to look up, her stability was robbed from her and she was disillusioned with the system that her father had taught her to rely on and completely adhere to. How do you manage, the daughter of a cop, following his footsteps towards law enforcement, when you're suddenly reminded of how unfair it is? You can't quit, your little sister relies on you and she's so young and struggling just as badly with this grief. So you pick yourself up and you get moving again. You push harder, press further. You abandon your morals and your ethics because punishing criminals (guilty or not) is almost like punishing the man who killed your father.
And the whole time she's fighting for promotions, going for drinks with the SIU Director to make herself more favourable for promotions, trying to navigate being a woman in a competitive, suffocating, male-dominated field, falling behind despite doing so much where others are promoted for doing so little - all the while your little sister comes back from school and her biggest issues are so small compared to yours.
Persona 5 revolves so heavily around grief and loss and change and Sae embodies all of that so well, all of the sharp and unpleasant and jagged parts of grief.
#sae niijima#persona brainrot real#idk what possessed me for this i jsut love her#beyond her being rlly hot and such a driven and compelling character#the way that we see her on screen is so heavily shaped and influenced by grief that its almost crushing when you notice it#she focuses on work because if she falls behind it could cost her and her sister everything#yet she lives in her fathers house. works a job her father would be proud of. is praised through her proximity to her father.#her sister idolises her and relies on her like a parent. sae was never supposed to be that to her#how am i meant to be your mother and your father? how am i meant to be the source of stability in your life when im not stable in mine#and the whole time your little sister sits there and where shes actually putting on a brave face and forcing through her own grief#struggling to put a life without her father into perspective#to you she just looks ... complacent. willfully ignorant to the situation that you're both in and the struggles you're both facing#why WOULDNT you hate her?#and then you realise that shes not ignorant. shes not as stupid or as oblivious as you thought#every time she was being distracting and asking pointless questions she was just reaching out to you#and each time you had to push her hand away and tell her not now. focus. study.#they drive me insane actually#persona 5#p5r#persona 5 royal#makoto niijima
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Begging someone to draw one of those "hang in there" posters (you know, the kind that usually features a cat hanging from a tree branch or something in that vein?) but it's Tony stuck in the fucking airshaft, please.
#He lives but at what cost.#dndads#the peachyville horror#dndads spoilers#dndads s3 ep. 8#tony collette#Someone save him#Kelseeeeeey#Kelsey I know you really don't want to but pleeeeease
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you have $100. due to a squid games type escapade, you are currently trapped in Whole Foods and can't leave or someone will take you out with a bullet to the brain. you have to buy all the food you eat. you can't shoplift it or steal it from the other competitors. a carton of 12 organic eggs costs $10.
your friend Greg has $100. due to a competing squid games franchise, he is trapped in a Costco. he can't leave, or they'll set the dogs on him. he still has to buy all the food he eats. he can buy 36 eggs for $7
which one of you will starve first? are you or Greg functionally "wealthier" within your respective squid game?
#some of the people on this website are so fucking stupid it is unbelievable#sorry to be like “you dont pay rent or have a job” but they obviously do not pay rent or have a job#maybe if i say it in television they will be able to understand#“if you live somewhere things cost more#you functionally have less money“ is so basic an idea i dont know how to dumb it down further for you#i really dont#this is like flunking out of basic story problems-level math you fucking morons#if you live in hawaii $10 is functionally $6 at the grocery store#in alaska its about $4#whats not clicking#wow what a great blocklist honeypot this post is!!!
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ripple effect legacy // my tears are becoming a sea, M83
#weaving parallels but god at what cost#something something luffy inheriting the will of a burnt out sun#something something the things we leave behind (broken promises. pain. little brothers. cool fire punch moves)#see the significance of ace is that he spends his whole life asking 'should i even have been born' and then through the positive#impact he has on everyone around him he creates a continuing cycle of change where people reach out a hand to help others#he said 'im not sure i deserve to live' and then became the most remembered and loved and sorely missed dude in one piece#like it's almost comedic how luffy keeps finding his big brother in the stories and best qualities of all the people he comes across vs.#people who knew ace and keep seeing pieces of him in luffy#anyway happy new year portgas d. ace trauma be upon ye~#one piece#op#portugas d ace#portgas d ace#asl brothers#yamato#wano spoilers#one piece spoilers#CJ's edits#amv#monkey d luffy#straw hat luffy#monkey d. luffy#portgas d. ace#CJ's op watch-through
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The Tournament
Trigger Warning for Violence
So you know how Danny is portrayed as the ghost king automatically after Pariah is defeated? What if there was more too it. Let’s say that Danny has joined a new hero team and is having fun and then there is some kind of ripple in the infinite realms that all magic users can feel. A tournament is being held to choose the new king. The reason it wasn’t held immediately upon Pariah’s defeat is because it took some time to get into contact with all the participants. Anyone eligible can attend the tournament. This includes those with royal blood, other ancients, anyone who meets a certain power level, anyone that have their own kingdom and people to rule over, or those who faught and sealed Pariah in the first place. Aka, Danny and Vlad. So Danny gets an invite to the tournament.
Now this can go two ways. One is that those ‘invited’ are obligated to attend. Like their core physically hurts if they try to refuse. And the tournament is dangerous. Creatures and demons and eldritch horrors from all over the infinite realms are attending.
Second option. The tournament is optional because it is very cut throat and usually a battle to the death (or in this case, until someone’s core is shattered) and with ghosts being able to survive a lot, the battles often end with missing limbs, spines ripped out, impailment, decapitation, and disembowelment to name a few. So many refuse to participate, not wanting to risk ceasing to exist. The problem though is that a dangerous person is participating (could be Vlad, could be another demonic villain of the JL) and unless they want this person to gain unlimited power through the crown and ring plus an army of undead, Danny has to participate. Or the world is doomed. And each time Danny goes through a trial or battle, (because there could be both.) he returns to the hero group with injures that would have killed a normal person. Practically drenched in his own ecto blood. (That’s if the heroes weren’t forced to watch their friend mid battle, unable to interfere. Man. That would suck if they had to watch his spine get ripped out or something. The screams alone. Maybe split the group so Danny can only bring a certain number of ‘guests’ and they rotate who goes?) And like, imagine what kind of conversation Danny would have. His team panicking about the impending threat of the new ghost king and Dany having to reveal that he is eligible to participate (if some outside force doesn’t reveal it for him) and being forced to compete in a tournament where you either die, or become a murderer.
#Dpxdc#dcxdp#Kizzer55555 ideas#TW warning for blood and violence#Imagine the heroes forcibly having to hold themselves back or hold eachother back because if they interfere then Phantom is dead. For good.#There is no good option.#I think some enemies might be able to surrender but surrendering could have a cost#like maybe eternal servitude binding their core to the winner so they physically can’t refuse orders?#So many would rather fight to the death than give in and essentially become soneone’s slave.#OOOOOHHHH. What if that’s how Pariah got his skeleton army? Those are all his previous competitors who surrendered.#It’s just that he didn’t let them keep their personalities. (Which is something you can do in a core binding slave contract).#That’s why many prefer death.#To have absolute control over someone to be able to strip them of their free will and use their body like a puppet is terrifying.#And even if you lose against so someone who wouldn’t abuse that power#if THEY lose then the soul contract automatically transfers to the new owner. Whether or not the previous owner chose to die.#Poor Danny is gonna be like CHUGGING ecto dejecto just to be able to healed enough for each new round.#Is that healthy? Absolutely not. It’s like living off of monster energy drinks and ibeprophen.#But what choice does he have?#The heroes are very worried about Phantom.#I see the ending as some sort of massive showdown between Phantom and Plasmius#where Danny is barely alive and forced to shatter Vlad’s core to survive. The crowd is cheering#but Danny is practically drowning in his own blood and holding his organs from falling out. Using a spear to hold himself up.#And amidst the cheering. Covered in his own blood and the blood of his enemy. Haunched over himself. He screams.
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#IF ONLY I WAS NORMAL ABOUT THEM#THEY MAKE EACH OTHER SOOOOO HAPPY#GEM????? ZERO REACTION#………….. OKAY#my love mix up#fourth nattawat#gemini norawit#geminifourth#my love mix up thailand#my love mix up th#my love mix-up!#asianlgbtqdramas#dailyasiandramas#thaidramaedit#bledit#*mlmu#*m&mgifs#HAPPY UEEUEU#chinchi streak lives on but at what cost#at happy one :(
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to forgive or forget
more lore for what ive got going on with carnival hero, for those who wanted to know why he doesnt particularly like kinger.
i like to think kinger was working on the code to remove the collars for a hefty amount of time. poor kinger tried so hard to perfect the code to release his people, but it was particularly hard for obvious reasons. he tried it so many times ; and when it finally worked, it was like a miracle. queenie, along with everyone else was overjoyed!
of course, it wasnt entirely perfect. sometimes, things go wrong when you take your excitement for granted. sacrifices get made, sometimes accidentally. the lovely king ends up forgetting about this sacrifice that was made, like he always does. the reason why shes gone fades in his mind like a bruise.
but others dont forget, nor forgive. hero never forgot this unnecessary sacrifice. he understood everything clearly after that. the collars are there for a reason. sometimes its better to be safe, to stay in ones own lane. to stay confined where you belong, where to remain unchanged is promised. for the greater good.
#that moment when your attempt to free your people costs you your wife#which in turn causes your closest ally to turn against you in agonizing silence :3#take this theory with a grain of salt#i dont exactly know the carnival timeline and im too nervous to ask#making stuff up is fun!#the amazing digital circus#the amazing digital carnival#carnival au#tadc hero#dont tell me if im wrong to assume this is what happened i like to live in a world of my own delusions<3
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So what happened to Gru's eye anyways?
This will be very very tied into my personal headcanons about both Grujaja and a little about the drain so be warned:
info under the readmore for sanity reasons hope u understand<3
My interpretation of the drain is a very bad place to raise someone. The whole place is essentially the slums of a city- though the most dangerous part of the place isn't because of anything living, but because the place is actually crumbling from poor infrastructure. Gruja was from a very low income family that lived in that area; just trying to live like anyone else.
The infrastructure expectedly ended up failing and in the collapse he got cut really badly by some of the resulting shrapnel across his face and left arm. He was one of the "lucky" ones. If you could even call it that.
He sure didn't.
#great god grove#ggg spoilers#ggg grujaja#there u go guys heres the Grujaja lore that's haunted him from the start of the headcanon i made#no big action no attempted justice just a horrible horrible event that destroys you that happens for no reason#and crawling out of it repeating the mantra “I don't want to die." in fear with nothing to live for afterwards#this is why he *tries* to join the bizzyboys and does so later. he didnt have anything anymore and thought it would give him purpose#and i guess you can say it did. he gained purpose but at the cost of barely being anything else besides being a blind devotee for 33 years#This is also why Hector begged capo to let them take him. he REALLY wouldn't have been able to live with himself knowing he left a kid ther#in a situation like that#especially as two people also desperately trying to leave the same situation#hope u got exactly what u were asking for anon im punching the wall insane
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teaser pics of stuff I’m working on in 2025!!
I also made this patreon post free, which has a bit more about each project and progress reports of where they’re at 👁️
#i know cost of living is High I want to make more patreon posts free this year#a lot of what i'm working on i can't share publicly but i... will go mad if i don;t talk about it so. preview drawings on patreon as a trea#arguably stretching the definition of 'soon' here. soon on an author timescale
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Creative Hubris takes another unsuspecting victim.
#non mdzs#It's not even that many pages and I'm getting my ass kicked!#As much as I have been clawing at the walls - I have learned so much! This project pushed me more than I thought it would#I am so excited to share what I've made. I think its actually some of the best work I've ever done.#but I really do feel like I've stumbled back into the room covered in blood and holding a smoothie.#The issue being: at some point the sunken cost fallacy kicks in and you go:#'well I might as well put in extra polish since I've spent so much time on this already'#That's your EVIL BRAIN talking to you who wants you to live in EVIL COMICS LIMBO.#Sorry to my followers who miss the mdzs comics. I went mad at sea for a month and all I brought back was a short comic.#Posting my silly side doodles to bide me time as I continue to drink the sea water.#Set me free into the plains where the horses roam and I will be able to heal <3
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WINTER IS COMING
#this is vee speaking#*falls to knees* BUT THEY GAVE BAT THE WORST OF THE OUTFITS IM DEVASTATED#JYUSHI ADMITTEDLY LOOKS ADORABLE AND YES ITS JYUSHI AND HITOYAS IS VERY MUCH HIS STYLE SO OFC ITS FINE HES FINE#AINT……. AINT NO WAY THEY GAVE KUUKOU A DARK ARMY GREEN JACKET OVER A PURPLE TURTLENECK AINT NO WAYYYYYYY#it’s *sniffs* it’s fine i’ll always have ew04 it’s canon they can never tell me bat doesn’t stunt in the winter 😭😭😭😭😭😭���😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#they deadass switched up dice and kuukou’s flow and i’m so fcked up about like maybe you can say dicekuu crumbs but at what fcking cost 😭😭😭#but you know what’s totally free?????? rio is wearing dice’s jacket but with white fuzzies RIODICE LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOO LOL#lol marui time!!!!!!! i always look forward to what mochi plushies they have and the bp outfits are a based choice lol i will be buying#are merch drops ramping up???? it feels like they are lol it’s probably in conjunction with the lives tho lol
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See I don't really believe there are any broader like. Schema of gender in Homestuck in that makes sense. Including Callie's OG gendering of classes but most others don't have a solid "reason" to them. Breath players tend to lean towards transfeminine to me but that doesn't feel like it's because of Breath and so on and so forth.
Basically the only two principles of gender determination in Homestuck I actually abide by are:
Trans characters can be partially determined in certain cases by examine their relationships to other close characters, forming something like a binary (or more) system. Transmasculine Dirk v. Transfeminine Roxy, Femme Transfeminine Gay Jake English v. Butch Transmasc Lesbian Jane Crocker, my Davepeta+ Gender Chart etc. Characters in Homestuck often model themselves in relation to their friends as we do irl.
Space is nigh-exclusively a transfeminine aspect in Homestuck itself. The job of a Space player is to seize and create their own means of creation and species-level reproduction, usually after being deprived of traditional means of womanhood, motherhood, and reproduction.
#literally think about space players all the time and how each of them is deprived of this 'normal' experience of motherhood#kanaya is raised totally separately from every other jadeblood on the planet and her means of resurrecting her species is destroyed#at the moment she is shot in the abdomen#i mean you can't say 'THIS IS A METAPHOR FOR MISCARRIAGE' any louder than that#jade in the epilogues being unable to carry a child because. i mean she has a dick. she's a trans woman. kind of irrefutable#calliope as she stands can never mature into a cherub even capable of reproduction#left with an incomplete predomination at the cost of getting to live again#and we don't get as much from porrim but from what we do know#her righteous indignation and rebellion against the society that told her that her caste and gender meant she would forever serve#as nurturer and reproducer#that she later took a different perspective on once that was no longer available to her... yeah.
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guys, he got that cookie.
(the end of a saga)
#jayvik#arcane season 2#arcane spoilers#finally#i was sick of this damn cat#i mean#they probably didn't want THAT!#but getting your souls intertwined in the universe à la kawoshin is a good enough ending i think#(so actually the hextech dream mattered because it was “our” not “my” and i find it beautiful)#even if hextech ruined lives lol#at least we got caitvi and jayvik out of it#but at what cost? (timebomb lol.)
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