#( I'M CRYING IN THE CLUB )

[respectthepetty]

I am *this* close to unblocking the Pit Babe tag just so I can reblog GIFs of Kenta x Pete.

They have known each other since they were kids! THEY WERE CHILDREN! Blue x Red. Best buddies. They grew up together, but Kenta turned darker while Pete remained his light in such a dark world.

Then, they kissed.

But Pete left.

And Kenta was all alone in the dark!

The blue makes sense now.

IT MAKES SENSE!

So that's why Pete knew Kenta was there watching him.

Because he always knows Kenta is there. They grew up together. They loved each other. And that's why Pete doesn't fight back. He never actually hits Kenta, just deflects Kenta's hits.

And it's why Kenta can't actually kill him.

I TAKE BACK WHAT I WROTE!

God, give me the strength to not unblock that tag. I cannot get sucked in by these ToddBlack coded motherfuckers. Not me. Not again.

[mcmuppet]

2020 ➡️ 2023

[jennchecks]

I just need to get through this week I just need to get through this week I just need to get throu

[nectardaddy]

fuckkkk

I hope yall like pure unbridled angst because the suga fic I'm cooking is diabolical

[indieedgycool]

FIRST KANAPHAN!??????!?@?@?@?×?#?#

[bloodwr4th-a]

*all come with the fact that she has debated on stabbing him every time they are together

“        stab?    stab me?     me?      let’s leave the foreplay for later,     rae.     the    kids    are    still    awake    right    now.       ”

[multiimoments]

Oh my GOSH. be still my heart 🥹 they're all so beautiful 🥰

p. s. Lily kind of resembles Molly Ringwald and what can I say except yes??? 🤌🏽

senior citizen discount at the three broomsticks

[cinnamonsugarteethtwists]

why am i getting so many ahahahads for dating apps stop it there's literally so many reasons why that is not my thing

[seungwoonies]

Xdinary Heroes covering my chem

my tiny rock sons whom i love so much TT

[mistressemmedi]

[yeollbae]

😭😭😭😭😭😭

Nicholas galitzine as George Villiers | M&G EP7

[respectthepetty]

@placetneplacet writing about Zo being resistant to Joke's advances because he truly believed it was all in his head due to Puen deceiving him has me DEEP in my feels because @placetneplacet is right. Rewatching the show with the knowledge of the trauma Puen caused Zo changes everything.

Really think about this, y'all.

THINK ABOUT IT!

Each time Zo felt any good feelings for Joke, he immediately stopped himself.

He shut down every single time because he couldn't trust himself. He didn't want to repeat his mistake of making someone else uncomfortable with his queerness.

When Joke touched him, he had to remind himself that it meant nothing.

So when he kissed Joke, he sat there that entire time believing Joke would tell him he was crazy for thinking the feeling was mutual.

He really tried to convince himself (and Joke) that nothing changed. That is meant nothing. Because he was afraid of losing a friend.

So when Joke said this, Zo panicked even more!

As @justafriend-ql wrote, once Joke spilled the Roselle juice on him, symbolizing his heart being on his sleeve, Zo thought he was exposed. He thought it was happening all over AGAIN!

And he sat there throughout that entire dinner with Joke in front of his mom, with that red stain, that scarlet letter, his heart on his sleeve FREAKING OUT!

So while Joke was hyping him up to his mom, Zo was getting more anxious telling himself IT WAS IN HIS HEAD! That it didn't mean what he thought it meant. That is was just a friend being a friend.

He was so cold to Joke because he didn't want to give Joke any evidence of his growing feelings. He didn't want Joke to feel uncomfortable, but he also didn't want to give Joke any ammunition to hurt him.

He didn't want to regret it like he did before.

Joke never said how he felt about the kiss because he didn't want to push Zo, but by him not saying anything, Zo went deeper into his head thinking about how he could salvage this without losing Joke.

So the next time he saw Joke, and Joke kept repeating that tongue twister about the fucking toads in love, ZO WAS REPEATING THAT IT WAS ALL IN HIS HEAD! That Joke was just teasing him like Puen had done!

THIS ENTIRE FUCKING CONVERSATION!

Zo was demanding that Joke tell him WHY he kept helping him. He needed to hear Joke say that they were "just friends" so he could finally confirm it was all in his head.

Zo kept calling himself an idiot because he let this happen again. He mixed up the signals. He read too much into it. He is going to destroy another friendship because HE IS THE PROBLEM for thinking the other person liked him.

He was confused because he couldn't stop caring, despite knowing it was one-sided. Even though he knew it was all in his head.

Look at his reaction to being hugged by Joke. LOOK AT IT! He was fighting himself this entire episode. Just like the kiss, he doesn't touch Joke. He stands there. HE IS PANICKING! Because if he hugs Joke, he is exposed. Joke will know how he feels.

It's not until the very end of this episode that Joke tells him that he likes him.

The very last moment, Joke tells Zo what he thought he had imagined was, in fact, real. And look at Zo's face.

That is the look of hope.

He still doesn't believe it.

But in spite of everything, he hopes this is real.

When Zo's friends are also "surprised" by Joke's feelings, it makes Zo doubt it more.

But even though Zo can't express himself because he is still terrified this is all a joke at his expense and believes Joke is going to leave him, Joke keeps showing up.

Joke keeps checking in.

Joke doesn't take Zo's silence as a rejection because he realizes Zo struggles to voice his feelings since he can't trust his feelings, but Joke follows up for his consent each time.

@stuffnonsenseandotherthings told us it's never been about food with them.

Because Puen made Zo doubt himself so much that he fought himself to the point of repression. Zo wasn't trying to quiet Joke's queerness; he was trying to convince himself that Joke wasn't gay. He was telling him it was all his imagination because Joke was simply being nice to him. He was telling him he didn't like Joke being nice to him because HE was getting it confused.

Zo knew who he was, yet Puen convinced him that was all a lie.

And I fucking hate him.

@bengiyo, add him to the list. He knew.

[mcmuppet]

yes, the car is pretty. yes, the fireproofs are black and perfect.

but this right here

this is the best part of the whole day 🧡

[martyryo]

Ministry of mitosis back on track baby

[starrylevi]

Levi doesn’t get how you find The Sims entertaining.

 “It’s a virtual dollhouse.” He tells you. “That’s what so great about it!” You retort. “Whatever floats your boat…” He mutters to himself. He says this but he makes sure you have all the sims 4 packs (there are A LOT of them). And when one is coming out, He’ll listen to you passionately explain the premise of the pack. “When it comes out, just let me know.” He’ll give you his credit card info so you can charge it as he doesn’t want you to spend any of your money.

“I made us in the Sims!” You excitedly sit in Levi’s lap with your laptop in hand.

“Hm?” Levi places his chin on the crook of your neck as his hands gently graze the sides of your thighs.

“The Sims!” You exclaim again. “Look, there’s you and there’s me…” Your finger points out each of your sims on the screen. “Oh, and we have a child together!” Levi’s eyes follow your finger as you point at the child sim. “Her name is Kuchel.”

You feel Levi tense up behind you for a moment. “Wait…what’s her name?”

“Kuchel.” You repeat, quieter this time. “Sorry, I can change her name if you don’t feel comfortable with it.” You add quickly.

Levi’s expression softens; he stays silent for a moment before speaking again. “...Can you make her?” He asks you quietly, his voice barely above a whisper.

“Your mom?” You turn slightly so you can see his face.

He nods to confirm.

 “Of course, I'll do my best.” You tell him with a soft smile.

You ask Levi to describe her to you, his eyes filled with fondness as he recalls her features and her personality. You spend hours on the Kuchel sim, wanting her to look and be as accurate as possible.

After a few days, you show Levi the finished product in the game as you have the Kuchel sim interact with the Levi sim. You look at Levi for a brief moment while the Sims are speaking to each other. The expression on his face is hard to read. It’s a mix of pleasant surprise, awe, and sadness.

“Is it okay, is there anything I should change?” You ask him, worried you didn’t capture her likeness as you watch him study her.

He silently shakes his head. “No…she’s perfect.” 

You tell Levi he’s more than welcome to play whenever he wants. You’re surprised when he does take you up on that offer. He picks up on the mechanics quickly and soon he has the whole family (Your sim, Levi’s sim, your daughter, and Kuchel) traveling all over the world, going on adventures, and trying new things together. At one point you suggest the Levi sim and the Kuchel sim spend some time alone together and Levi does just that, taking them to coffee and tea shops, having them take walks in the park, and going to the library. As you and Levi continue to play together, you learn more about Kuchel as some of the actions in the game trigger different memories of his mother.

Levi doesn’t say it but he’s thankful for this silly little game you introduced him to because he can now have a cup of tea with his mother, even if it’s only pretend.

[peterbenpcrker]

Peter had been worried sick ever since he’d heard about Luke being in town. Although he’d never known the full extent of the abuse, he knew enough. Enough to want the man gone, permanently. He wasn’t good for JJ. The following absences, ignored messages, and closed front door were only proof of that. So Peter had been on alert ever since, waiting for any signs of trouble. The first few days, there hadn’t been any. JJ had reassured him of such over text, but then the tablet notifications had stopped coming, and Peter’s enhanced senses were suddenly all out of whack. Something wasn’t right. 

Even as Peter held Rhi’s hand, walking with her to the store, his mind was elsewhere, considering his options. A direct approach wasn’t out of the question, swinging his way over there and bursting through the windows, but he didn’t want to draw attention if it wasn’t needed. JJ wouldn’t forgive him. But if something had happened, Peter wouldn’t forgive himself, either. Aunt Maya seemed reassured that JJ would come to them if he needed them, but Peter knew his friend better. He was avoidant when it came to emotional confrontation, struggling to be openly vulnerable, especially when it came to his father. Perhaps calling him out, with Luke's presence if he refused to leave, was the only way.

As fate would have it, Peter spotted the blonde on his approach to the supermarket, alone, his own breath heavy with relief. He left Rhi behind to run and catch up, managing to cut in front of JJ just after he'd made it through the entrance. When his best friend looked up to face him, Peter's stomach twisted at the sight. “That’s not nothing, man.” He was unsure what came first, the guilt or the anger, but both overwhelmed him in equal measure. Unable to control emotions that were so unfamiliar to him, Peter found that his face expressed them before his mouth did, his own eyes dark with something akin to vengeance. “I knew something wasn’t right. Why didn’t you come to me?” Without even giving him a chance to respond, knowing he'd be met with dishonesty, Peter reached out, hand gently gripping the top of JJ’s arm. He felt as though his heart was sinking with disappointment in himself. He should've intervened, he was certain of that now. “You’re not going back there. You’re coming back with me, it’s where you should be anyway. If he comes anywhere near you again, I’m gonna’ kill him.”

JJ had been avoidant ever since his father had moved to Alexandria. For the first few days, everything had been fine. Luke had claimed he was clean, full of the usual empty promises, and that he simply wanted a safe haven to reconnect with his son. JJ, as always, had fallen into a false sense of faith and belief, wanting it to be true. But as soon as Luke had found out about the adoption, that Aunt Maya had taken JJ in as her own, all hell had broken loose. The man had returned straight to alcohol, the violent behaviours and false blame quickly coinciding along with it.  He’d missed school the last several days, ignoring his friends every time they’d shown up to check on him. Teachers also called up about the absence, but it was all too easy for JJ to lie, having done it countless times before. He was sick, that was his excuse. Considering he was flighty on the best of days, the faculty hadn't dug much deeper into it. He'd managed to avoid dealing with it, thus far. But sooner or later, his hunger won out, and with his father passed out on the couch, he’d have to make the trip to the grocery store himself.  He intended to avoid being spotted, not wanting to deal with the emotional toll a confrontation would cause, knowing the bruises and his disappearance would ring alarm bells for his friends, if no one else. But it was the middle of the day, the store was busy, so even as he grabbed his bag, JJ suspected the possibility of a quick in and out operation being successful was unlikely. He needed to be reassured it was wrong, he needed an out. But he wasn't ready for the conversation that came along with that, to be so openly vulnerable, even in the face of his chosen family. He wasn't ready for his father to face repercussions he himself would be blamed for. He wanted to wait it out until Luke left on his own, as he always inevitably did. That way, if he ever returned, it wouldn't repeat the cycle again. Perhaps he really would get clean, next time. Perhaps JJ wouldn't have to get hurt again. They had no chance at fixing their broken relationship if it was exposed to intervention. As predicted, he was spotted almost instantly, his pulled up hoodie doing nothing to cover the purple markings under his eye. JJ stood opposite a very concerned face, trying to avoid thinking too much about their worried expression, or his own dismissive response. He needed to play it off, but it was hard to seem sincere when his stomach was aching with emptiness, and his body was slumped with exhaustion. “What, this? Nah, man. It’s fine. It’s just my dad, y’know? He can really snap his right jab off at times. It’s nothin’. We were just fuckin' around and it went too far. Seriously, it's fine.”