#'these circles' being 'ed and sh circles'

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

do i find it more distressing when i see op is a minor, or when i see they're over eighteen and still in these circles

[king--of--ducks]

I am Lucifer Morningstar, King of Hell, sin of Pride!

🍎I am Lucifer Morningstar, but you can call me Luci’ or even Apple Daddy if you wish~��

🍎I have a daughter named Charlotte, but everyone calls her Charlie. And if anyone hurts her, well, I’ll fucking wipe them out. This is my game, I’m the ref!🍎

🍎Charlie has informed me that I, apparently, have fans on the internet? And I figured if there are people who love me out there, might as well talk to them! Take that depression!🍎

🍎No spamming walls of text/emojis in my ask!🍎

OOC:I have no association with Vivziepop or her characters, this is just an obsessed fan being bored and goofing off. Things will most likely be out of character at times, I’m just kinda having fun with this.

I also decided to edit my pinned post to add this bit. This blog has been covering sensitive topics lately such as sh, ed, sui, and more. If you are not comfortable with this, I try to tag the posts to the best of my feeble minded capabilities, but that is content you can find here, so be warned.

I have a Discord server

Oh wow, it’s lore!

Personal lore

The Morning(star)

The Scars of an Angel

A Brush with Death

A fateful farewell

The loss of a brother

Extra lore

A Heartfelt Message

The Blue-Gem series

The Blue-Gem series(2)

The Blue-Gem series(3)

The Blue-Gem series(4)

The Blue-Gem series(5)

Mod—

@sockmanduckman

Circle of role players—

Same mod—

@moxxies-wife—Blitzø’s employee #1

@mammon-money-maker—Nuisance

@wally-wackfords-wacky-blog—Blitzø’s old chum

@ace-loves-josh

@the-666-news

@wiener-warrior—Adam

@gossip-sipper

@yogirt-not-yogurt

Family—

@charlie-morningstar666–My beautiful little girl!

@the-moth-ex-angel—Soon to be daughter in law!

@alyxdefoisnthere—Bad sleep schedule daughter.

@damian-morningstar—Son

@headlessdeaddancer—My (step-)son!

@mcalastor—fiancé Freaky ass bitch.

@god-the-lord—My father has Tumblr?!?!

@bigdoginthesky—Another dad

@theholymessenger—Gabriel

@theholyhealer—Raphael

@michael-the-morningstar—Michael

@heavenly--knight—Another Michael?!?!

@ask-the-archs—2 for 1

@featheryhoe—King of Lust

Other—

@blitztheoissilent—Blitzø (formerly @blitz-horsie-enthusiast and @blitz-the-o-is-silent)

@logical-imp—Blitzø’s employee #2

@ducky-loyal-servant-of-lucifer—Cure for depression

@xxsmilingdeerxx—Freak

@radio-demon-on-the-air—Freak *2

@fizzythefrog—Blitzø’s bestie

@blue-gem-overlord—Ripoff Lapis

@heavens-gatekeeper—Petah!!!!

@king-mammon—Another Mammon

@sad-bird-stolas—My bestie

@the-original-dickmaster—My best friend

@the-exterminator—Adam’s petty ex

@lute-head-exterminator—Adam’s petty ex*2

@bad-boy-lover—Niffty

@nifftyhasaknife—Niffty*2

@penguinmaster9999—T and pals

@deadbeatbartender—Husker

[yellowroseswrites]

Hi, I was wondering if you could write a fic about Spencer Reid x sh/ed reader. The reader is very insecure because she feels like she used to be smart but isn't anymore and maybe after failing a case she starts harming herself again.

I was also wondering if you could include

that she wears a watch all the time

that she tends to cut small cuts on her fingers because she can blame them on other things and often digs her nails into them when anxious

has a good relationship with family so she feels her actions are unjustified

Spencer and reader are friends but shes always thought of him as more

I totally understand if this isn't possible and thank you.

"I want to help you carry it."

Spencer Reid x Sh!BAU!Reader

Author's notes- [ “has a good relationship with her family so she feels her actions are unjustified’ called me out personally and i need emotional compensation /j. Sorry these pieces have taken so long, a lot of my requests have been sh related and i wasn’t in the right headspace until recently, i hope you understand and i hope you enjoy this piece <3 also this is taken quite far from the prompt, so i’m sorry about that. I’ll definitely try to write more with reid and sh reader, so i’ll try to follow the request a bit more closely next time]

TW- {Self harm mentions, not super graphic, but it is a bit detailed, mentions of kidnapping and su!c!de (briefly), Eating habits mentioned, but not detailed at all, disassociation scenes, 2 of them i think, use of y/n}

1.2k words, enjoy

You looked down at your watch, watching the second hand tick all the way around the circle, desperately trying not to look up. If you looked up, all you would see is the dissapointed face of your best friend, Spencer.

You were sat on a stool near his kitchen counter. Usually if you were sitting here, there would be laughter and smiles, maybe pizza or some freshly baked cupcakes, but this was different. You only ever saw Reid like this once, when he sat you down to talk to you about your eating habits. You swore you would never do anything that would make him that upset again. You never wanted him to worry about you. He had enough on his plate, you would only be a burden. And yet, here you are.

You thought you were hiding it well, to be honest you really were. You never let anything slip, not a wince, not a complain, nothing. No one knew a thing, until today.

You were finishing a case, a rough one if you’re being honest. There was a young girl, one with scars everywhere, self inflicted. Everyone thought she had killed herself, except you and Reid. You both fought hard to find the girl. The team did end up finding her, she was trapped in some freaks attic. The case was closed, she was found, it was fine. You told yourself it was fine, you did your best to convince yourself that it didn’t bother you. It wasn’t until you were filling out your case reports that you finally let yourself dwell on it. You could hear Derek’s voice so clearly in your head, “Is it possible that she took her own life? It’s clear she has suicidal tendencies.” Even after JJ and Hotch explained the complexities of non-suicidal self injury, his words still rang in your head. You dont even know why it bothered you. I wasn’t judgmental, it wasn’t disrespectful, it wasn’t even a bad theory, but it rattled you. It’s like you could perfectly imagine them talking about you like that, like you were nothing but your habits. You knew that wasn’t how Morgan meant it, he was doing his job, you would do the same for any other case, but this one just stung.

As you thought about it, you faded into your mind. It’s like you weren’t even there at your desk, you were inside your head. Your nails found there way to your other hands knuckles. You were good at hiding the marks, and it was easy to lie about them. They were your hands, anyone would believe that you just knicked them, or got them stuck in your car door, or that your neighbors cat was a playful fella, or the countless other excuses you had saved in your resevoir. You never hurt youself in public, or when people could catch you, except today apperently. Your finger was red and bleeding by the time you snapped out of your haze. Or rather, was rudely dragged out of our haze by Spencer. You blinked a few times as you focused on him and what he was saying.

“Y/n stop that.” His hands were on yours. You were frozen for a second, your mind almost buffering, before the reality of that moment actually dawned on you. Without speaking a word you pulled your hands back and stoop up from your desk.

You grabbed your bag, sliding your unfinished report into your desk drawer, before beginning to walk off, “Good work Spence, I’ll see you tommorow.” You made your way to the elevator, ttrying to avoid the obvious footsteps following you. He put his hand on your shoulder as you made your way out of the building, gently guiding you to his car. You didn’t fight it, you knew you couldn’t, and you would really rather not make a scene in your work parking lot. You listened to the hum of his car air conditioner as he drove the all familiar route to his appartment. 

That’s how you ended up here. A few warm tears falling down your cheeks while Spencer silently stares at your shrunken figure. He was trying to find the words that he wanted to say, which was never a good thing. He was the Spencer Reid, he always knew what to say. 

He finally cleared his throat, after what felt like ages, “Non-suicidal self injury is a habitual addiction, but it’s possible to recover from it. You just have to tell someone about it, that’s step one. That’s always been step one. We’ve talked about this.”

“I know Spence. I’m sorry.” Your voice was small. You felt small compared to your all knowing best friend. You knew everything there was to know about self harm, sometimes it was the only thing you wanted to read about or learn about, sometimes you felt like it was the only thing you knew about,  but you knew this was how Reid helped, so you tried to stay calm as you let him tell you everything that you already had memorized. 

“We’re friends y/n, you can talk to me.”

You huffed at that, mumbling a small, “Yea friends.”

“You’re deflecting.” He sounded softer, you hurt him. You were deflecting, and now you feel worse than you did before. You hated this, you wanted to go home and relive this day. Your nails started to sink into the skin on your thigh.

“Why do you keep doing that?” Great, Spencer saw. Spencer knows. Spencers going to think your insane, he’s going to talk about you like your a victim. He’s going to talk to you like a baby and look at you like your bleeding out in front of him. He’s never going to think about you the way you think of him, your just some charity case for him. He doesn’t -

His hand grabs yours, taking it away from your leg. Before your brain can catch up with you, your arms are wrapped around him, pressing your face into his torso. Your tears are falling more freely now. You feel his hands run through your hair and rub against your back. You never feel more safe than you do when your in his arms, your thoughts can’t catch you here. 

You aren’t sure how long you stay like that before you gently pull away from him. You sit patiently as he examines your hands. You can see the hurt in his eyes, you do your best to ignore it. 

“I love you, y/n. I don’t want you to do this to youself. You can get help for this. You can talk to me about it if you need to.” He was soft, but not condescending. You could feel yourself melt, as though you needed another reason to love him.

“I can’t do that, I’ll just be a burden. This isn’t your baggage to carry.” You started to pull away again.

“It’s still your baggage, I just want to help you carry it. Let me help you, please.” His voice pulled you right back in.

You wiped the remaining tears from your face, “Okay Spence.” He sighed in relief, taking your hands and leading you to the couch. You both sat, you resting your head against his chest. You didn’t have to talk about it now. You knew you would eventually, but that's another thing about Spencer, you felt comfortable. You didn’t feel anxious about the impending conversations to be had, you weren’t stressing about him watching you or knowing your secrets, you simply felt safe. That was enough for now.

[tiny-paws]

Pinned post! :3

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[spinrekiyo]

My main Korekiyo Shinguji hcs:

Korekiyo Shinguji • they/them (though doesn’t mind any) • pansexual • acespec • autistic • they have a service dog named meadow

Kiyo’s service dog is a white labradoodle. Her name is Meadow. She is 3.5 years old. Her tasks are circling Korekiyo in a crowd, dpt when overstimulated, keeping people distanced from them, staying near them giving a sense of security, picking up items if needed, making Kiyo take meds consistently, and calming them when in panic attacks or meltdowns. She is a very good dog.

Kiyo adopted Meadow from a shelter at around 8 months old. Her past owner was not kind to her and abandoned her. Korekiyo was looking for a service dog and a new best friend, immediately connected with Meadow.

Kiyo named her Meadow because it is a peaceful kind name for a peaceful kind girl.

Kiyo works online with a service dog training course though does training themselves.

Meadow is well trained and wasn’t too strugglesome to teach tasks due to her timid and calm nature

The only problem is she was a bit scared at first though Kiyo has a tame job that isn’t super loud.

Kiyo is ambiamorous. I cannot choose a main ship for them because I believe all of them could have potential. (I believe I may have been the starter of the shinsaiibo movement soooo….)

Korekiyo has two long scars that run along their nose + a slight crook in their nose

They have pretty crooked teeth and a few noticeable gaps + pronounced canines

Straight up missing a tooth

They have sh/harmful stimming scars all over their arms

Very sharp looking smile. Their smile turns upwards and is very pointy and like a snake grin

They have ed tendencies though have a softer complexion nowadays

Their hair is pretty thick in texture though silky and soft

They have a few scars from uh.. her that are on their chest and back and such. They als have a few freckles

They eventually get cool tattoos

They have their bridge pierced and their eyebrow and ears pierced

They enjoy collecting bones, photography, writing stories, DND with the homies, and sleeping

They have POTS

In my head, the timeline for their life is as follows

- mother dies when Kiyo is 8 years old, likely of illness or addiction

- mother was absent, Miyadera was the main caregiver. She’s 6 years older than Kiyo.

- Kiyo had social difficulties growing up though was viewed as a gifted kid

- Miyadera was in and out of the hospital since she was eight with respiratory problems that are genetic on her mothers side.

- Miya always struggled with jealousy issues and problems with being too controlling.

- Miyadera passed away when Korekiyo was 16 and she was 22. She had been extremely sick 16-18, then her health seemed to get a lot better from 19-21, but then got bad again leading up to her death. She never became well enough to pursue full time schooling or work.

-The grieving process for Korekiyo was horrific to say the least. With their older sister being the only person in their life besides their father, they struggled horrifically with suicidal ideation, attempts, and not leaving their home or bedroom.

-they missed the entirety of 10th grade due to her death.

- at 17, korekiyo signed up for danganronpa after watching a few episodes. It wasn’t terrible and maybe they could not want to die

- yeah no, it didn’t help. They consented to being put into virtual reality that felt completely real though it was still legally challenged afterwards for obviously unsafe practices and the fact that mostly minors without the ability to fully grasp what they were signing up for were the ones consenting to that.

- following the events of the game, those who watched it obviously had complaints and concerns with many of the people on the show. Korekiyos ‘sister’ plot was literally just ptsd being played for gags + Kiyo’s mind having the serial killer motive for game purposes. Kiyo never killed anyone they just thought they did.

- local authorities were noted on the situation with Kiyo and many others. They were sent to a psychiatric facility to help them recover to a point where they could be trusted to live a daily life without hurting themselves or others.

-during their treatment Kiyo cut their hair really short while in an episode

- some took longer than others..

- by the time Korekiyo is out of the facility they are 18 and are given financial compensation by team DR for the added psychological damage + exploitation

-they finished 11th and 12th grade

- they then finish and graduate highschool using an online program and getting any other credits they need through their university (they cannot do a public big graduation ceremony at this time)

-cue dysphoric breakdown + gender sexuality realization

- they begin university, specializing in anthropology. They are taking art history and such, where they rediscover Angie. At first that is a horrific ordeal though it quickly becomes pleasant as she has changed a lot and so have they.

- they have an impressive breakdown at school because they’re overstimulated and triggered and anxious which makes them take a week off

- after that week, their therapist suggests that they seek out a service dog as she thinks it will help with their autism and ptsd

- cue meadow adoption

-Kiyo feels a lot better after that because meadow helped level out their nightmares and soothe them a lot more

- Kiyo gets a job as an educator at the local museum near their university

- meadow and Kiyo get name tags it’s great

[starscatteredsky]

,,,,hii

requesting a uhhh idk what u call it,,, tips list??? for a Faery/faerie changeling

thank ^v^

faerie/changeling tips!

pt: faerie/changeling tips!

avoid iron for things like jewelry, utensils, tools, etc

learn about what kind of fae are rumoured to live in your area, and how to show respect to them!

learn more about fae in general, and what kind of faerie you might be a changeling from!

avoid telling lies whenever you can

try out ethereal and fae-like makeup looks

connect with nature! take long nature walks, find little hangouts, or just learn about it from the comfort of home!

connect with animals too! any pets you or people you know have can be great to bond with!

decorate your living space with things like faerie circle mushrooms trinkets, objects collected from outside, crystals, anything that you want!

star lamps, moon lamps, or other sensory, whimsical lighting!

create art in any of its forms! painting, writing, sculpting, dancing, singing, music making, anything you have fun with! you don’t habe to be “good” at it to have fun!

enjoy playing harmless pranks on people who are ok with it!

hope these help! -🩸

Requests open!!!

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[granulesofsand]

TransID from Another Perspective

🗝️🏷️ transID and radqueer discourse, mentions of disordered eating and self-injury.

I’m not the same alter who had the first transID post on this account. I can’t speak to their opinions, and I’m not going to try. I speak for myself.

I don’t think transID is safe as it is now. There are a select few that could be, a select few that never are, but I see most of them as an in-between along the lines of ED and SH communities. I see them as dysphoric, and accept that experience as valid because it is subjective and emotional, but I don’t believe they benefit from remaining under this label.

There is no component of harm you can claim without claiming the cis version of that identity. Some people hang around this area because they cannot progress in this aspect of healing, cannot accept some level of their own lived experience. The label itself doesn’t go with dysphoria in the traditional sense, doesn’t fit with the trans- prefix. It’s not a bad place to exist, but it is inherently not the same as other trans/cis dynamics.

It’s a fine line between what it means to use this label and what it means to exist with this identity. You are not bad for the identity. The harm is inserting yourselves into survivor circles to talk about experiences you do not have. You can speak about the dysphoria, about how you got to this point and why you’re staying or leaving. But you do not belong in communities of survivors because survivorship is not a construct. If x, then y. If not y, then not x.

Transgender people have the experience of a gender not assigned to them. Transrace/ability might have community ties, which differ from those most associated with the label more similarly to transgender vs cisgender. Transharmed/harmful is like transrace/ability in that there are reasons to fall on the border, but no concrete transition will make you any more or less what you are.

Identity is complicated. I don’t want to talk about where transgender and intersex meet because I’m not sure which experience I can claim. Probably I’m both (we’re both), but I can’t prove that. Transgender people tend to have either no markers associated with particular genders or some markers of the opposite sex. Being trans is not the same as being cis, nor is it quite a fit for the evolution of the intersex community.

The lack of safety is when you claim experiences you know you do not have. We were not raised male. We were not raised Chinese. We can demonstrate markers of both. TransID allows for markers of only the assigned identity to choose a marginalized identity without holding the responsibility those of that group do, which prevents those members from gaining that experience.

Another label and more pressure to uphold aligned values might integrate the transID community into the broader category of the group you ID as. Currently, transharmed/harmful and transrace/ability speak over and damage the groups you try to fit. You want to be here, but not the way we are. You do not try to progress our rights and acceptance, just dig holes to plant yourselves in. You are not the same as the cis version, even if you are not worse. Coexistence is not what we have now.

Changes need to be made. Smaller, more specialized groups to come forward and let the cis group decide whether you belong in each circumstance you would like to. Some people will always say no, others always yes. Find the people who will tell you why.

I am only okay with people identifying with my trauma ‘for fun’ if there is an underlying cause. I accept internal experience as inherently true, but hold also that it may yet be harmful. I will sit with people with exotrauma, pseudomemories, shame for another experience, confusion over borders. You are here, your existence is neutral, but you must learn to respect boundaries and find commonalities if you are to claim any piece of this identity.

We are not so different, but we are not the same. Variety is beautiful. Let it be.

[wallcwskrc]

TW: MENTIONS OF SUICIDE, SH, EDS. Vent post to some degree

a year ago today, i tried to kill myself, i was scared, it had gotten "bad" again. my grandma had passed a few weeks ago. who I was very close to i saw her every wednesday for 7 hours. at the least, id see her saturdays a lot. the thing was, when she died, she was doing something in preparation for another funeral. she died helping the grieving, while grieving, herself, as not only there was that upcoming funeral. the day she died, december 21st was the same day her ex(?)husband, my grandpa, who I never got to meet, died, years ago.

i had also just gotten a partner, i loved him, we got together december 14th, well, it was kinda a love triangle thing, the other girl that was in it is now my best friend, she knows it all. she was the best thing i found from my ex. but my point, he did a lot. im still hurting, one of my friends, who was also his good friend, just suddenly hated me? she directly told me so, she directly, blocked me. he comforted me! my ex did. i was really happy. i guess.

im so sorry for going off track but id like to circle back to where, when and how we got together. it was online only, most likely good thing. most definitely. but to put it as short as i can. he had a girlfriend when i met him, he got broken up with by her. i was friends with her (til she left our friend group entirely due to her own personal reasons) then, not too long after, i told him my feelings, and so did, our friend, ray, ill use her name as I still talk to her a lot. !! so yea. but its not the end because, fuck it, alex, im name dropping him, said that I was trying to act like his ex to make me like him, that hurt me a lot, but, whatever, I love him right? whatever. but he got over it (?) I don't know. Nothing was ever over, everything felt tense. Alexs solution to both me and ray liking him was to just date us both...

we (me and ray) both agreed, I think now we also agree that we were just desperate, I guess. it wouldn't have mattered what proposition.

we were all dating, I was scared, btw! At the time, and this will play a strangely big role, back then, I was very "cute" in style, personality, interests, and stuff. once my grandma died, I told him. his response, was a little lukewarm, I wanted comfort, bad. but I understood ofc, that's a very awkward thing to have to reply to.

Between where we are in the timeline (december 21, 2024) and new years, things went between me being anxious he liked ray more than me (which, at the time anyway, I can confirm was true, but thatll be summarized later) and me just sending him cute little sanrio memes and gifs, I did that a lot. And other things like that. It was okay, but my stomach dropped every time he messaged me "what if he wants to break up?" "He likes her more." "My fault" "fuck" "oh, its okay, but what if he actually hates me?" Is all I thought, ever.

January 2nd, 2024.

so, I had went offline for a bit, I was overwhelmed. it didn't last that long though, after about 30 minutes I got a call, from alex. if you couldnt guess from my anxiety from simple things from earlier, the call scared me at first, what happened? Is everything okay? Oh, okay, they found a new friend! cool, ill meet her! I met her, wait, whys he ignoring me... Im right here... He had me, and ray, and he started paying attention to this girl he just met, I messaged him about how I felt left out, like I was gonna be replaced. He told me I wasnt!!!

SAME EXACT DAY, FEW HOURS LATER.

this is where, if you remember the part where our mutual friend just started hating me? Yea. That happened, I was so confused, and scared, and I went to Alex for comfort, and he comforted me! yay! I mean, he was still friends with her when she talked mad shit about me, but, I thought the positive outweighed the negative.

pretty big timeskip here regarding me and alexs relationship, same constant general me being anxious blah blah blah. But there was a lot of other stuff that happened, around the 10th I think, is when my grandmas funeral was. this whole time, but especially in this little 2 weekish period, I fell again, back into not eating enough, back into self harm. I felt belittled by my parents, everyone else and their emotions mattered more. I always had that philosophy. but it was being reinforced, heavy.

the big day, January 17th, 2024.

the day i tried to make my last.

Im not going to document this as much as you'd assume cause its kinda what this whole thing lead up to. I already feel cringe, plus details, aren't too needed, just make it a bit sadder (?)

i texted him about the many things I listed in the paragraph before, the one regarding my self harm whatever the fuck this is embarrassing to write about lol.

But uh yea, I tried to do it. last thing I messaged him before I did [INSERT MY UNDISCLOSED SUICIDE ATTEMPT METHOD HERE] was "im sorry for falling in love with you" that's really embarrassing, past kat, but I also kinda feel for her, love, or obsession, I think was actually the better word here. is a dangerous thing, it makes you stupid, and desperate, and shit.

His response to me trying to kill myself? (Which I told him beforehand I was going to do.) was just kinda.. Idk. He didn't like me saying the "im sorry for falling in love with you" one of the things he said was "if we keep into this every single day ill end up losing my feelings for you fr" which is just CRAZY. USING "fr" in reply to your girlfriend THE MORNING AFTER SHE TRIED TO KHS BTW. IT WAS LIKE 9AM WHEN HE TEXTED THING LMAO but uh also, I guess I get it, but cmon, that hurt a lot, he was the only thing I liked (even if he was the worst thing for me) his mood dictated mine, if he loved me, I loved myself, I was happy, I felt like I was on thin ice regarding being loved. I don't think anyone should ever feel that way.

Ending paragraph: big reveal moment here, I said wayyy earlier that I know he liked ray better, and the way how is, I saw him say it to his friends in a gc, directly, just, that, he said a lot of stuff in gcs. Like when, there was this gc with me, ray, alex, (the friend who randomly hated me) and a girl named lula, who I haven't mentioned but dear god she was my friend, my TRUE friend through all of this, she still is, I genuinely love her to death and I felt like she was my only true friend, she might've been at the time. and when the friend who randomly hated me ... Ik this is a little late to establish but ill just call her mary, Mary randomly hated me, she didn't like that I had that "cute" personality idrk why I just said "hai" and shit. But yea. Alex comforted me through that right? No, they made a seperate gc without me (not including Lula I don't think, or she stood up for me, ik she did that multiple times.) And just talked shit about me, while he was "comforting" me. Oh and remember that same day, a few hours BEFORE, I had gone offline for a bit but Alex called me cause they made a new friend? Oh yea the new friend was a alt account of his.

Thats just december 14 2023- january 17, 2024. If anyone reads this thing the whole way through, fuck it, this is becoming the next "who the fuck did I marry" series

(its past midnight so no longer the 17th but. Yea. We do get better, its okay, "january kat")

[bloomeng]

wanted to share this bc i completely agree

i like Con he seems like a nice guy, but something i notice often with actors/writers/etc. who suddenly gain big followings is that they too are often super excited about the part they get to play in all this, but when the balance between audience and production get thinner things get out of control.

specifically in this case we have him revealing information that technically isn’t canon and was likely cut for a reason. the thing about writing and generally just production is that there’s a million different powers at play and thus a lot of different reasons things get cut. and usually revealing the cut content doesn’t go well. ofmd isn’t anywhere near alone in this issue, i see it somewhat frequently. but ofmd is unique in that a lot of the stuff cut was specifically catering towards fans— ie: the underwater kiss, the boyfriends line, the darker elements of ed and izzy’s relationship, and now the tattoo. and because this stuff is so fan service-centric the backlash tends to be overwhelming. it’s easy to say well s2 was bad and it was cut for censorship and sure that might be a reason, but things like this get cut all the time, we just don’t usually hear about it.

personally i think izzy’s background being cut was totally justifiable, we barely had time to juggle everything else and we don’t need to know his tragic backstory to understand his whole deal. esp adding (likely) sh scars. that’s such a loaded topic, not something you can just casually address, and something that would’ve cluttered an already overfilled plot. things like that need time to be properly explored.

the way i see it is that the best stories focus on what needs to happen in a narrative not what an audience wants to see. especially in script writing, because you’re constantly writing with against a time limit, every scene should be progressing the story (unless it’s comedy). you don’t need every detail of a character’s life for their writing to be effective. in fact often times too much context can distract from the narrative and disrupt the emphasis. and i think when people talk about things “feeling like fanfiction” that’s what they’re identifying. fanfiction is perfect for and literally designed to just give people what they exactly want to see. it can explore places that traditional writing can’t and that’s valuable but when it comes to effective storytelling generally if you only write what audiences want to see it just ends up a mess. especially because audiences will always have conflicting opinions. it’s how we end up with endings like spn and sherlock. which this isn’t solely the issue of ofmd s2— i don’t even think it was the main issue— but i feel bad for the people who worked on this show when people overwhelmingly complain about how cut content shouldn’t have been cut.

fan service is great in moderation but too much and you sacrifice the impact of the story.

this isn’t about ofmd but i feel even worse when fans leak cut content. i see it a lot in video games and it always irks me because sure as a fan i’m gonna naturally have opinions but we will never know all the reasons things might’ve been changed. basically the industry is complicated and i’m not saying all changes made are good—bc they’re definitely not— but i think it’s important to remember that most of these people working on these projects are probably trying their best to balance things that we the audience are not privy to.

circling back to Con and his sharing of this info; the man totally means well and i don’t even think sharing this detail is necessarily this giant mistake— at least i hope he doesn’t get harassed over this— but i do think it exemplifies how this problem can quickly get out of hand. same with samba sharing a lot of bts footage. i think it’s very endearing to see how much the staff care about what they’re making. again as a fan i get why it’s fun to see but i also wish for the sanity of everyone we would just have a little more of that divide between audience and production.

but yah this is a big part of the reason i have a hard time participating in the vaguely (sometimes more than vaguely) parasocial relationship with actors. fans and actors alike mean well but it makes me cringe. esp when situations arise where they accidentally play into a popular fan theory and people take their word as canon. say it with me: actors are not writers. if it’s not addressed in the canon of the show it’s not canon.

something something don’t fly too close to the sun.

it’s wild to me that they took the time to apply a hidden tattoo to izzy every day and never utilized it in the show

[greenishghostey]

Blurb prompt: Playing with Eddie’s ass for the first time. He’s totally up for trying it but doesn’t think it’ll do anything but ooof is he proven wrong. Boy sees GOD.

I will preface that this is the first time I've written anything to do with pegging/anal, so there's likely gonna be a few incorrect bits, but what I lack in experience, I make up for in enthusiasm!!!

and yes, the first line is a piss-take of A Christmas Carol, 'tis the season.

18+ Content MDNI / Seriously though, this is like absolute filth

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The lube was cold: to begin with.

Eddie's hips twitched slightly when the cool gel made contact with his skin. His breathing had picked up, and he was grinding into the mattress slightly - thinking you couldn't notice, but of course, you did. Poor boy just wanted some friction, some kind of stimulation where he needed it more than anything.

The scene in front of you was one you never thought he'd actually go for. Eddie was naked, lying on his stomach, stretched out on his lumpy, soft mattress. You had seen him lie like this a thousand times; Eddie liked to sleep on his front. The addition of his spread thighs and the small arch in his back was the real kicker.

Eddie had insisted that his ass just wasn't all that sensitive. He had told you - in almost too much detail - how he had tried to finger himself while jacking off, but nothing happened. "Just started to feel like a chore after like five minutes." That's what he had told you.

You weren't convinced by his statement. Not even a little bit. You knew all too well how impatient Eddie was when it came to his cock. You knew that he hadn't been doing it properly. But you could fix that for him.

The lube was dripping down to his balls, the chill making him circle his hips harder into the mattress. You gathered a glob on two fingers and moved to massage it around his hole, letting your fingertips drag and catch at his entrance. Eddie pushed his face into a pillow to muffle a loud groan.

"Wasn't this good when I did it. Fucking christ," He said, sighing at the teasing sensations from your fingers.

"You gotta take time with these things, babe. The warm-up's half the fun." You teased, your fingers continuing to play with his ass. Your other hand had started to wander. First, massaging Eddie's heavy sack until he whined and chased your touch. Then moving to knead into his ass cheek, feeling the warm skin and watching your palm sink into the fat.

"You trust me, yeah?" You asked, your voice so soft and calm.

"Yeah, 'course, sweets. Do your worst-" Eddie meant to bite back playfully, but he cut himself off with a string of whimpers and curses. You had given him a sharp, short spank and pressed your lubed up fingers into his hole - you stared as he seemed to grip your fingers and shift his ass back into your hand.

"Atta boy," You cooed, smiling and massaging his stinging ass cheek. "You're doing so good for me, Eds. I wanna make you feel amazing." His insides were so fucking hot. Eddie was so fucking hot. Groaning when your fingers grazed his walls and trying to lift up onto his knees a little. The position must have been uncomfortable, though, so you gently pressed him down onto the mattress.

"Deeper. Please, sh-shit. Fucking fuck me." Eddie groaned, running his hands through his hair and pulling just enough for it to hurt. You would pull his hair into a ponytail if you could.

Your fingers filled him to the hilt, and you grinned at the pleasured yell that ripped from Eddie's throat. You started to thrust and circle your soaked fingers into his greedy hole. Fingertips jabbed at his prostate, and you revelled in his reaction.

Eddie knew you wanted him to be loud, but he was biting down on his pillow to stifle his animalistic moans. He was being such a good boy, and he deserved a small reward, so you went back to playing with his hairy balls. It felt that both of you were in your own little world in his bedroom - slowly going insane in the chase for Eddie's ecstasy.

You heard quietly whined words from Eddie. "What was that, babe? C'mon, use your big boy voice like you usually do." Teasing him when you were knuckle-deep in his ass was just too tempting.

Eddie lifted his head and peered back at you. Fuck, he looked ruined. His big brown eyes were glazed over. His hair was wet with sweat. His lips were red from being bitten and licked. However, his usual horny, manic grin painted his pretty face.

"What's got you all smiley?" You chirped, thrusting harder. If Eddie could still form thoughts, then you weren't working hard enough.

The grin stayed on Eddie's face as his eyes rolled back into his skull. "You're the fucking best, babe. Do me a favour?" You nodded excitedly. "Spit on it. On me."

Well, that was unexpected. But so so welcomed. Eddie emphasised his request by wiggling his hips up into your touch. Your heart rate was spiking. Your hands felt so sweaty. Your mouth filled with saliva almost immediately.

Eddie stared over his shoulder at the slow trail of spit that moved from your pursed, wet lips to his filled hole. His heavy-lidded gaze burned in such a great way. Eddie wanted you to make him messy, and who were you to deny such a lovely request.

You took to spitting sharply onto his hole and ass cheeks. Leaving Eddie sticky and wet, just like how he made you feel.

"I need to cum. Can I fuck the mattress? Fucking please, please, sweetheart." Eddie was essentially delirious by that point. His words were slurred, and he had zero control over his hips as he humped the bed. Again, your thrusting fingers started to move faster and harder.

"You can cum, Eddie. Make a mess to match mine, yeah?" You groaned deeply. "Empty these balls and cum on my fucking fingers." You cupped his sack again, squeezing and encouraging him to grind into you rather than his bed.

Eddie came suddenly and all at once. His shout was hoarse and slightly muffled by his pillow. You wished you could have seen him make a mess on his stomach and all over his sheets. After helping him ride the aftershocks of his release, you carefully slipped out of him and rubbed the backs of his thighs - observing the sheen on your pruned fingers. It spread across his leg hair and made him pant, his shoulders heaving like he had been sprinting a mile.

"So, what was that about your ass being a chore?" You snorted as he flipped over onto his back and gave you the finger - a dreamy smile on his face and a soft chuckle on his lips.

"Yeah, okay, you win." Eddie sighed, gesturing for you to come closer. "The mess is great in the heat of the moment, but now I feel gross. Help me up, sweets."

"Can't even stand up by yourself now?"

"I'll spit on your ass next. Help me."

Sweet laughter filled the quiet trailer as you and Eddie hobbled your way into the small green bathroom.

[reveseke]

Spontaneous crossover / au time with Spiderverse and Criminal minds about Spiderverse! Reader within Criminal minds ( feat a arcade themed stim board bc i wanted to make one <- TW bright colors & lights + flickering { Glowcore popping balloons } )

(( CW Sooo ~ Rather dark themes, mentions of being a lab rat, kidnapping, possible paranoia at some point even | mention of Jumping spiders ( due to the powers ) | You have been warned, approach at your own risk :3 ( probably didn't get all of it down these were the ones I thought off, if you find more please lemme know! )

Au/tropes — Crossover of Spiderverse × Criminal minds | Sci-fi | scientific super powers | found family (mention/hinted) | Angst(hinted)

Random – concept headcanons | Arcade theme in play

About reader — Masc! Aligned; trans, nonbinary & masc ambiguous friendly ! | He him pronouns used | R instead of y/n or m/n used | teen! reader around sixteen fifteen y.o ? | Hinted to have small amounts of background & a dog! | Tech savvy reader !!

Disclaimer – English is my second language and I'm Dyslexic, grammatical errors are more than going to happen. this is barely proof-read completely, it's just breezed through that's it lol.

DNI — Fudanashis/Fujodashis, fem-aligned, basic DNI criteria(ableists, racists, sexists etc), Maps(+other related terms), Pedophiles, transmeds, TERFS ( + other related terms ), antisemetics, proship/profic, kink/nude/18+ blogs, sh/pro-ana/Ed blogs, blank blogs

Gif ID. Three gifs in upper row; a gif showcasing the 90s arcade mat designs with varying colors and shapes, second gif of a bundle of cables with small flashing RGB lights in between the cables, third gif of cyan and magenta glitters being stirred.

three more gifts row down; a gif of glow in the dark stars if varying colors being thrown down, a gif of two balloons filled with green and orange glowing liquid Uber a black light being driven over by a car popping them, third gif of three arcade machines against a wall flashing lights and active. Gif ID end

Credits — 👑|👑|👑 — 👑|👑|👑

What if spiderman! Au, masc!reader being something similiar to Spider-Man, a teenager and gets to work for the government when he's caught. Of course suffering through the court etc -> as in assault charges that can be linked to him even if it was against bad guys. Y'know lol .

Also bad guys just being criminals most of the time. And actually being normal people. Ofc there can be an alternative of serums etc etc.

If they were serumed up then there would be more chaos tbh.

But I'm still thinking wether or not it be the known sci-fi type with differences to the actual Spider-Man powers. Also bc i personally love jumping spiders, i think the powers will circle them specifically. ( So the suit design descriped wouldn't be the one Spider-Man actually wears bc originality if i ever continue on this concept lol )

R just swinging around and avoiding cops and agents as he starts to realise he's being chased / targeted.

His powers are seen as something pricy and unique, one could say people may be interested in seeing him fighting in a rink.

I think he would be a lab rat if caught by anybody who has the proper or improper equipment and skill(s) to be used.

I think the first time he'd use his powers would be after being attacked or scared and having the fight or flight response activated.

Most likely panicked and absolutely bat shit scared.

At some point may have had something to do with a murder or being an accessory in it. Koff Koff. Or maybe just do something with a murder of somebody in general bc of not knowing how much power he actually has.

:0 Vigilante good guy misinterpreted to be a bad guy bc his powers went haywire.

Oh yeah heh mentioned jumping spiders above, think about ultraviolet vision as something R would be able to access.

Also bc of 15-16 y.o R he would be in highschool during these times. ( Think about it being the present)

Getting a dog for his own protection, company and to combat the possible paranoia the shit underneath may have caused and is spoke of.

Yes I'm kinda just portraying this origin of Reader to be close to the original spider-man origin. Thinking of ways he could get his powers; i don't like the origin how that ended, bc angst i need angst and the Reader being a full lab rat by being kidnapped for tests with other people. Either they survived it or died during the testing. ( I think he could have been a bit younger when this happened. )

Also kinda wanna include Survivalist intuition(link) to the mix in a way, not only for thee possible danger intuition that will be part of the myriad of things the testing may have given him.

Having a friend group that somewhat knows what's up with the reader and tries to help him as much as they can. Which includes possible not talking to the cops or FBI if being questioned at one point bc the fbi found possible lead to the reader after seeing him appearing around newspapers and the streets of Virginia mainly.

If the reader does have parents they are spoken with aswell, if he does not then he's basically taken in as the shared child of the BAU team in time lmao .

If he does not have parents as in they aren't really there in his life that much.

Finding out he's a student, a minor in general surprises them a little, especially after connecting dots and finding out what may or may not have happened to him when he was younger.

After being caught he's held accountable for the crimes he's committed. And doesn't exactly deny them either. But he's also offered a possible job bc they could actually use someone like him in the forces due to his powers.

Wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait what if more sci-fi type of shit is going on and the technology is a little more advanced from the 2000- 2018 (i think?) Technology evolution. And the reader was tech savvy and build his own equipment and instead of actual webs or chemically composed webs it's just wires?? Like grappling hooks but small and study as fuck ¿¿ Lmao

So like in a way he's not smart in chemistry way, but in technology & physics way if you will lol ??

And if the reader liked a more colorful arcade-ish designs ?? :0

The fanfiction would be a crossover obviously, but idk if there would a specific world to be put in. Bc spider verse! Reader sounds really cool. Especially arcade-aesthetic style/ tech savvy(kinda like Peni from Spiderverse, but not completely y'know?) version would be really cool.

AAAAAAAAAAA— just thinking about a case where spiderverse! Reader is already part of BAU and is sent to go undercover in a school campus bc there's a killer and nobody knows anything and he's the only one that could easily without raising any suspicious'

Also how he's secretive about being hurt and sucking it up to bandages himself home bc that's basically what he's been doing. The amount of scars and wounds he has and how's he not dead yet ?? The teams shook lol .

Oh also JJ's basic maternal instinct; he's basically if put to work with the BAU department under Hotch as a trainee also under her, Emily and Penny's gaze. Also Hotch and Derek lol imo would look after the reader a little if they're assigned with him.

Also Derek will absolutely if the Reader is energetic and speaks alot pretend to be annoyed before actually being annoyed bc he can't catch a break off of you ( in this situation he'd voice it out politely. Instead of ignoring R completely lol ) . Also teasing how much of a motor mouth R can be.

With Reid he can absolutely talk about the most random things that come to mind and if he doesn't know what R's on about R can actually educate him on it !

Also i actually think especially if the Reader is neurodivergent Reid would absolutely be the best person to talk about hyperfixations and specials interests. In other seriousness you could pour your interests and likes to him and you'd get a good conversation out of it :³ .

Also mama hen Rossi content. You cannot convince me this man does not hen over the team in general. I have seen too many headcanons and hints off of this, + the show let's it up as well in some episodes and I am headcanoning it myself lmao. He's really caring tbh.

Can you already tell I'm hip deep in found family trope content with the old BAU team lol ?

Absolutely think once Penny gets a sniff at something R's interested in she's going to get him something related to that to keep his mind off of the dark things the job forces him into. She's absolutely the one you could just pour out and she's ready to help, care and possible be doting ;; .

Also just randomly thinking about those roof-top chase scenes where reader would be the dominant one bc he could catch up faster with the target especially if it's jumping roof top to roof top. Bc naturally much stronger and longer leaps than a human can do and more stamina. ( Bc of having a jumping spider specific powers )

[movietonight]

Since it’s still Disability Pride Month I decided to share this relevant 2008 interview between blind journalist David Block and David Ogden Stiers 

David Ogden Stiers’ impressive 30 plus year acting career spans Broadway,

concert halls, movies and television. He has worked with Hollywood

A-listers such as Woody Allen, Tom Hanks, and Jim Carrey. He has been the

Associate Conductor for the Newport Symphony Orchestra for over 15 years.

He has also lent his distinctive voice to numerous PBS documentaries and

the 2006 motion picture Lady in the Water. However, despite his remarkable

and varied career, he is probably best remembered for his brilliant

portrayal of the tough, yet sometimes sensitive war-time physician, Major

Charles Emerson Winchester III on M*A*S*H from 1977 through 1983.

Stiers’ illustrious career makes him a household name and face. But, what

fans may not know about him is that he stuttered throughout his childhood,

adolescence, and even into his early acting career. Stiers said that being

an actor helped cure him.

“I didn’t stutter when the lines were written for me,” said Stiers.

“Without lines to read was another story. One day, I noticed that I wasn’t

stuttering anymore, with or without lines. I overcame it by not giving up,

by continuing to play roles, and by overcoming my fear of saying something

wrong, or sounding stupid.”

The fact that he stuttered was not his sole reason for compassionately

portraying people with disabilities.

Stiers said: “The task of loving people doesn’t have to do with their worst

aspects. It has to do with their best aspects. My feeling, we’re all the

same person but differently expressed. There’s some things I can do others

can’t, vise versa. We’re all accomplished. We’re all on the earth, and the

more we help each other get our tasks accomplished, the better our lives.”

This was exuded when he portrayed Dan Franklin, a special education teacher

in the 1977 movie, A Circle of Children. One of the themes of the movie

included special education teachers helping autistic children reach their

full potential.

While preparing for the movie the cast visited a classroom for autistic

children.

“We sat in the class with them,” said Stiers. “We sat on the floor with the

class. We did a lot with them.”

None of the children who appeared in the movie were autistic.

Being in the movie was not the only time that Stiers

interacted with autistic people. While on M*A*S*H, Stiers and other cast

members frequently interacted with William Christopher’s autistic son, Ned.

Christopher, who was the compassionate Father Mulcahy on M*A*SH, often

brought Ned to the set.

“Ned was beginning to function pretty well,” said Stiers. “Whenever Ned

felt comfortable enough to come over to a group of people who were talking,

he was immediately included. Ned was an intelligent young man who thought

at a rate of speed that I could never do.”

In 1976 and 1977 Stiers guest starred on The Mary Tyler Moore show, three

times, portraying the WJM Station Manager Mel Price, who happened to

stutter. At the time, Stiers stopped stuttering.

“I auditioned for the role and because it was terribly easy for me to

stutter realistically, they hired me.”

Stiers summed up Mel Price as being a falsely nice person. Stiers said that

this was particularly evident in episode 157, “Look at Us, We’re Walking.”

In that show, Mary Richards (Mary Tyler Moore) and Lou Grant (Ed Asner)

told Mel Price that if they didn’t get a raise, they’d quit. Price refused

and they walked out. At the end of the episode, Price asked them to return

and he even promised them a raise.

Stiers said: “that episode was like a forecast of what was to come in

corporate America. ‘You put in some good work; we’ll kill your 401k. If you

don’t like that, if you get upset and walk away, we won’t care. We’ll hire

someone better qualified for less money. If you want to go, then go!’

That’s pretty much how I view corporate business now. I don’t think that

they care about middle management or medium numbers staff.”

While on The Mary Tyler Moore Show, Stiers learned from the M*A*S*H writers

and producers that Larry Linville, who played Major Frank Burns, was

leaving the series and they hired Stiers to replace him.

“They wanted to keep the character number in tact,” said Stiers.

Although there were a number of episodes when Winchester was incredibly

benevolent, two of them dealt with him helping disabled soldiers.

In episode 188, “Morale Victory,” Winchester was kind to Private David

Sheridan (James Stephens) who thought that his dream of being a concert

pianist was ruined because of his permanently injured hand. Winchester

showed Sheridan that he could still pursue a meaningful music career, and

that his dream could never be silenced unless he allowed it to be.

“That episode was actually an idea and a present from Loretta Swit,” said

Stiers. Swit, who played Major Margaret “Hot Lips” Houlihan, had the idea

of having an affair with Private Sheridan but changed her mind because her

character had had flings with other wounded

Stiers said that the producers did not develop that episode because Stiers

used to stutter or because he portrayed Mel Price.

soldiers. Swit wondered who else could have a rapport with him. She knew

that Stiers studied at Julliard, so he became her obvious choice. She took

her idea to the producers and they liked it.

“They told me this was from Loretta,” said Stiers. “That was the hardest I

ever hugged her.”

“There are those serendipitous overlap realities that don’t actually know

one another,” said Stiers.

In 1987, four years after M*A*S*H ended, Stiers appeared on Matlock in

episode 26 “Blind Justice.” Stiers portrayed Arthur Hampton, a blind

sculptor who committed murder.

In episode 244, “Run for the Money” Winchester befriended Private Walter

Palmer (Phil Brock) who stuttered. Winchester told Palmer that from reading

his record, he knew that he had an incredibly high I.Q. To prove this, he

gave Palmer his copy of Moby Dick and told him that that the book was

worthy of his intelligence. When Private Palmer asked Winchester why he was

being so nice to him, Winchester changed the subject.

At the end of the episode, Winchester returned to his tent and played a

tape that his sister Honoria mailed him. She stuttered.

Stiers explained why Winchester refused to tell Palmer why he was being

kind and supportive: “It was part of the character trait that Winchester

would NEVER admit that he had been kind to someone. He would never admit

that that kindness came from a part of his heart that was wounded by

someone else’s trouble. He would not admit to things like moments of

compassion or insight. He maintained that awful glacial exterior.”

“The producers hired for me a blind advisor to be on the set,” said Stiers.

“She was a wonderful young lady with a gorgeous golden retriever, whose

name was unfortunately Andy. (There were two Andy(s) on the set, the Seeing

Eye dog and Matlock’s star, Andy Griffith.) I was not adept to being around

people with disabilities, never attaching my stuttering as a kid to anyone

else’s. I thought that I would never understand anyone else’s problems.

That changed when I was on Matlock. It was opening my head and my heart;

getting on with the empathy that we all need to bring to bear on getting

along with each other.” On the Matlock set, Stiers committed a memorably

embarrassing faux pas: “I would finish rehearsing a scene; I’d walk to the

woman and ask, `How did I look? Did I do everything right?’ I forgot that

she couldn’t see. She forgave me. We became good friends.”

Stiers’ advice to all aspiring actors and musicians, both able-bodied

and/or with disabilities is the same…… never give up!

[fandom-kiddo]

I’m gonna start doing requests for agere fics!! I can write cg! Reader or regressor! Reader! I can even do a ship! Just specify which character is which!

No goes

-nsfw of any kind, agere is not a kink!!

-minor X adult ships!! Only platonic stuff for those things! Like regressor! Eleven and CG! Hopper, nothing icky

-no themes like graphic SH(patching up the reader is okay but no like actual hurting themselves depictions!! That’s really triggering for me! I won’t do any ED ones either as I am a recovering bulimic, reminding the reader to eat is fine, just no depictions of it!!

-incest

-no assault, sexual or otherwise

-no dubcon, once again, no dark themes like corruption!!

-absolutely no kink of any sort! Agere blog!!!

Can dos!

-sensitive themes like nightmares, being kidnapped, punishment

-literally anything not in the no goes, if I don’t respond to your ask, it most likely means I’m either gonna write it or it’s out of my comfort level.

Fandoms

-the black phone

-stranger things

-spree

-ferris buellers day off

-top gun

-marvel

-Star Wars

Characters I’d love to write!!

-Vance hopper, the black phone

-finney Blake, the black phone

-Robin Arellano, the black phone

-Bruce yamada, the black phone

-Steve Harrington, stranger things

-Eddie Munson, stranger things

-Robin Buckley, stranger things

- Nancy wheeler, stranger things

-billy Hargrove, stranger things

-Jonathan Byers, stranger things

-argyle, stranger things

-kurt kunkle, spree

-Ferris Bueller, Ferris buellers day off

-Cameron Frye, Ferris buellers day off

-sloane Peterson, Ferris buellers day off

-Pete ‘maverick’ Mitchell, top gun

-Nick ‘goose’ Bradshaw, top gun

-Tom ‘iceman’ kazansky, top gun

-most marvel characters

-kylo ren, Star Wars

-Han solo, Star Wars

-leia organa, Star Wars

-Luke skywalker, Star Wars

-anakin skywalker, Star Wars

-obi-wan kenobi, Star Wars

-padme amidala, Star Wars

-Finn, Star Wars

-Poe Dameron, Star Wars

-Rey skywalker, Star Wars

-Alex delarge, a clockwork orange

-Jack Daniels or Agent Whiskey, Kingsman:The Last Circle

-Joel Miller, The Last Of Us

-Pedro Pascal in general tbh

Ask box is closed for now!!! Once I finish the queue of requests(if you have requested anything it is getting written!!! I’m in my last month of senior year so that is taking presidence right now but once I’m done I’ll be more than happy to write all these amazing fics!! Thanks for understanding!

[subpar-ghoulfriend]

Teacher's Pet

Aizawa's got eyes for his new teacher's assistant. Reader was is a former student of his.

tw: smut, noncon, drugging, yandere-ish, penetration

AN: My computer deleted the original version of this fic so I anger-rewrote it. Not edited.

You were always Aizawa's favorite. Never rude or lazy. And you always trusted his decisions. That's why - after a few years - when you decided to try your hand at teaching he volunteered to train you has his Teacher's Assistant. You looked the same, just a little more mature. You still looked at the man with the same doe eyed expression, waiting for his next direction. You were no longer his student and he didn't need to keep his mind from wandering.

Aizawa invited you over under the guise of grading papers. In attempt to make the task less boring, he poured two glasses of wine.

"Aizawa-sensei, how late is it?" You yawned.

Your mentor glanced at his phone, "You know you can call me Shota. It's only going to be 9, if you're tired we can finish this another day."

Nodding you attempted to stand, but plopped back down because the room began to spin. Maybe it was the alcohol mixing with your exhaustion but your body felt heavy and sluggish.

"I didn't realize you weren't much of a drinker," Aizawa laughed, extending his arm toward you. "Here, let me help you up."

You managed a few steps before taking a break to collect your bearings. On second thought, it couldn't be the wine, you only had a single glass. Then the room began to shift. Aizawa had picked you up. He was talking to you, something about being worried for your safety. You weren't fully listening, it was a pain just trying to concentrate.

When did you get on a bed?

You felt the mattress shift as Aizawa sat beside you. "I think you should just sleep it off here, I know you're pretty tough but right now you look like a confused little kitten."

Taking a deep breath you tried sitting up, "No, I shouldn't-"

The older man was on top of you. Tendrils of his hair reached down to graze your face. He smells so good, you couldn't put your finger on it but he smelled like comfort.

You snapped out of your trance when you felt a tug at your waist. Aizawa, your mentor, was pulled off your pants. When had he removed your shirt?

"Sensei, stop-"

Aizawa smashed his lips against yours. He had one had tangled in your hair to keep you from squirming away from his attack. "Are you gonna be a good girl and open your mouth for me?"

Heat was coursing throughout your body. You were embarrassed, upset, scared, but also curious. Of course your body was feeling good, but this wasn't what you wanted. You shook your head before he caught your lips again. You kept them firmly pressed together, denying his tongue entrance. But then dug his nails into your soft hips so hard that you had to cry out in pain. After exploring with his tongue he pulled away from you.

"See, that's not so hard."

To make everything worse, he had skillfully removed your bra while you were distracted.

He licked his lip as you took in your body, the only thing left was your underwear. Kneeling on the bed, between your spread legs, he place a hand under either knee. With a quick pull he dragged you toward him. Your ass was elevated, resting on the top of his thighs; gravity making your breasts perkier than they already were. If he had drugged you it must've fully kicked in because no matter how hard you will your arms, they wouldn't move.

His knuckles grazed between your thighs making tears escape your eyes.

"Oh kitty, you've soaked through your panties," he pressed a little harder against the material. "You always caught the eyes of so many of the boys. I wondered if you knew. If you acted naive around them as a way to tease. How many of them succeeded?"

You didn't respond.

Hooking a finger under you panties he moved them to the side, exposing your glistening pussy. Whimpering you begged him once more to stop. Maybe if you told him you were too tired he'd leave you alone.

"I know honey, once we're done it'll be bedtime. If you avoid my questions we're gonna have to stay up later. Tell me how many boys you let crawl between your legs. What'd they do that made you feel good?"

All the while his hand never stopped rubbing against you.

Your words came out choppy, between tearful gasps, "Please, Aizawa sensei, I don't want to. I promise, I never-"

A shiver racked your body when he began rubbing circles around your clit. You jerked away from him. You think you were strong enough to pull away but maybe he just wanted an excuse to reposition you. He leaned forward, giving your body a break and smiled against your neck, "Is my kitty a virgin?"

Humiliated you nodded your head. You never really stopped to think about your lack of a sex life, none of your peers ever caught you attention in that way. You just wanted to become a pro and prove yourself to your role model, the man on top of you.

"How perfect are you," he cooed. He moved to sucking an nipping at your breasts, leaving a trail of marks from your neck like a map. "How about we go slowly. I know they taught sex ed but real life is always different from a text book. Let me know if you have any questions, you know I'm a good teacher."

A calloused finger slid inside you. You focused on your breathing, everything was okay. It was uncomfortable but not unbearable. He moved his finger slowly, taking in how tight your felt. He didn't want your first time to be unnecessarily painful. You were mortified when he removed his finger from you and brought it to his lips. He groaned as his licked two fingers.

"You're doing so good, baby. Can you take a big breath for me?" Two fingers slid inside you, there wasn't much resistance but you felt the pressure change. You couldn't help with whine. "That's my good girl. We're gonna do three now, okay?"

Fuck. Three was too much. You felt like you couldn't take any more. Then, with his fingers still inside of you be began playing with your clit again. Your body tensed as electricity coursed from your core. The moan that poured from your lips was involuntary. More juices pooled beneath you. You kept shaking while Aizawa withdrew from you.

"Such a messy girl," he kissed you. "That's exactly what we want."

Becoming acutely aware that his erect cock was resting below your belly you looked for the first time. You weren't sure what to expect when it came to the size of any dick but certainly not what was before you.

"Wait, can we stop," you found your voice. "It's too big, I don't think I can do it."

"Trust me, it'll fit. It may be a little painful at the beginning because it's your first time but then it'll feel good. Just like how I made you feel good with my hands."

The anticipation was killing him. Aizawa was trying to keep your attention by praising you while he teased around your soaking entrance with the head of his cock.

You hissed, pushing weakly against Aizawa's chest, as he entered you. He moved slowly, frustratingly slow. He wanted nothing more that to push in to you, to make you hurt in the best way. Your walls felt so tight and warm against him that if he was a less experienced man would've already finished him.

Finally at his base you earned more praise, "Fuck, kitten, you're taking me so well. Already making me feel so good and it's only your first time. I'm gonna try to go slow but - fuck - tell me if it starts getting to rough."

After a few moments you began to acclimate and the pain eased up. But every time his hips fully met against you you were reminded his girth. You involuntarily jerked against him as that feeling of electricity began to manifest in your core. He was beginning to pick up the pace and couldn't keep from arching against him. Sparks shot through your body as he bit into your shoulder. Your walls spasmed around him. You could hear him praising you as almost completely pulled out just to thrust back into you. Repeating the motion and filling the near silence with the sound of your wetness.

Maybe something in your broke or maybe it was a defense mechanism but your started to rationalize the situation. You body did feel physically good. And lord know's you always had a thing for the hero. This would be perfect if he had gone about things the right way. You wanted some sense of control so you did the only thing you could think of.

"Sh-Shota," You moaned into his ear. Your nails digging in to his back.

"Fuck, say it again," he growled. No longer able to control his pace he moved harder and faster. Tomorrow there would be plenty of proof on your body that Aizawa had been there. "Be my good girl and say it again."

You weren't going to, but you were speaking before you realized, "Shota, I can't-"

If he kept going like this you knew hit your third orgasm of the night. You didn't know if that was a good thing or not.

"You're going to. Show me that you can be a good little whore and listen to teacher."

As if on cue you were seeing stars. Aizawa moaned into you neck and buried his cock deep inside of you. There was a new sensation and your realized that he wasn't wearing protection. His hot cum was filling you to the brim. "Wait, I'm not on the pill"

After a few more pumps he froze inside of you, "That's so fucking hot."

He pulled out and a mixture of both your fluids followed. He rolled to the side of you and brought you close to his chest.

"I'm so proud of you, you were such a good girl."

You interrupted, maybe he hadn't heard you, "I'm, I'm not on the pill."

"That's okay, I wouldn't want you to be, you're all mine. You need to sleep, we can take a bath in the morning."

You were tired, even though it felt like your mind was beginning to clear. Like a cornered animal you felt trapped. Aizawa kept whispering as you closed your eyes. He mentioned something about next time feeling better for you. That he was going to take such good care of you. How he didn't share.

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[starscatteredsky]

hihi! i’m very new to the otherkin community and i’ve been looking around for a theriotype that might suit me, and your post abt fae theriotypes was. ough. /pos.

can you do generally cryptic related ones? just like generic cryptids, but moth and/or fae related ones would be great as well!

general cryptid, moth cryptid, and fae tips!

pt: general cryptid, moth cryptid, and fae tips!

avoid telling lies, fae are incapable of it!

wear a blanket around your shoulders to feel like wings!

enjoy going on long walks, and “lurking about” to be spotted like a cryptid! (be safe though!)

have fun appearing as mysterious and cryptic to others!

learn if there are any local cryptid myths where you live!

learn about any local folklore or stories of faefolk!

get a polaroid camera to take cryptic pictures with! you could take pictures of places your cryptidself would like to lurk, pictures of yourself, pictures of strange things you find, etc

make a moth antenna headband or clips!

connect with nature in your area! try finding a territory, going on walks, swimming, climbing, or just sitting outside and appreciating it all!

draw your cryptidself in a “found footage” style

try out some cool, “creepy” cryptidlike quadrobics

avoid iron

look for things like fae circles, tracks, or other signs of fae or cryptids!

good luck! -🩸

Requests open!!!

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