#'Jodi it was self-inflicted' Maybe so but like

[saltpepperbeard]

I can’t even imagine how painful it must have been for Stede to come home and see that life had easily continued on without him. He left the world of piracy because he felt that he didn’t belong, that he had ruined all the parts of it he had touched, and that he had hurt his loved ones.

So he goes home to what’s familiar, to where he thinks he might have some sort of belonging…only to find that everything happily went on without him. That his portrait was painted over. That his son had forgotten him.

Like, in that moment, he has nothing. No crew, no love, no family, no belonging. The last little bit of familiarity he had is now foreign to him. What he knows doesn’t even know him anymore.

[dirigibleplumbing]

If you wanna go EXTREME with Dean’s “confession? What confession?” self preservation inflicted amnesia, if he had lived long enough post canon without Cas he slowly forces himself to straight up suppress all memories of Cas, aided by Sam being conditioned to not even mention him least Dean spiral into a rage or depression every time, so by the time Cas does come back Dean’s likes “haha, who’s this??” And once Cas leaves again he’s all “If I think about that guy too long I start crying!! Haha weird, better suppress any memory of him!!!”

Or that Cas comes back and sees Dean’s “totally fine” from afar and after maybe even confirming with say Jody or maybe even Sam that he’s doing “ok” so Cas is all, perhaps I stay away 😞 and that’s the status quo for a while until SOMETHING gives. Like Dean starts crying constantly and doesn’t know why and Sam either knows Cas is back and goes to find him or tries to rescue him again only to learn he’s out and about and ooohhhhb boy that’s gonna be a RECKONING from Sam later

Maybe eventually Claire, who has been in contact with Cas this whole time and Clairehas been distant with Dean because of his weird self denial, just starts yelling at Dean for being ungrateful to Cas once they do meet again and it starts breaking thru and Sam is trying to stop her because who knows why will happen and uh oh here’s Cas! And there’s SO. MUCH. CRYING

YEAH

anon, I have basically nothing to add to this because it’s so juicy and complete. because of how I write, I probably wouldn’t have him forget Cas entirely, just the confession, but I adore your vision and would love to read a full fic of it

[elizabethrobertajones]

Did Bobo really create the Wayward Sisters? If so, why weren't Jack and especially Cas included in that episode? That's my biggest issue with that pilot honestly, I mean, the fact that the show abandoned Claire and Cas' bond after season 10 and gave that storyline to Salmondean. Her bond with Cas is more interesting because of their connection to the Novaks. I also think that Claire and Jack would've made a more engaging dynamic and spin off together, I think they're strong characters & actors

Hi there!

Bobo isn’t the “creator” of Wayward so much as it can even have one, as it was a very organic idea, which even involved a healthy amount of fandom input. The original campaign in season 10 was for Wayward Daughters, and the idea picked up so much steam the altered title for, I guess, a mix of copyright and thematic relevance was the Sisters one. I’d say 10x08 was the real genesis of it as something that could be really solid. Once Kim and Briana were put together the chemistry and star power they could have had together was really meteoric as far as our small SPN world was concerned. Phil Sgriccia directed 9x13 and wrote 10x08 and was more of the parent of Wayward than any specific writer in that sense. Jody and Claire were pretty much common property of the show by that point. Claire was really introduced again in relation to plotlines and questions about Cas and less to do with them really going out of their way to re-launch her. I think they’d have been much cornier about it from the start and while YA protagonist diary writing her way through the end of Wayward Sisters was cute, it’s the sort of cutesy that really has to be earned. If she STARTED that way, like maybe me and 3 friends would be stanning her and everyone else would be revolted :P

(I am a YA fantasy novel author, but I do think everyone should make room in their hearts for this level of cheese)

In any case, Bobo just threw his hat into an already crowded ring with Alex, but obviously loving the characters and having his own personal wayward child to contribute did help elevate him to the prospective showrunner seat, but also all the other writers who’d written these characters except Dabb had left at that point. If Bobo was going to shepherd them through to their new show, he’d be the legacy writer, even though he was a new baby writer in the season Donna was introduced... Attrition aside, he did genuinely write them very well, loved their stories and was great with writing Jody when he could get her, so he would also have been a good choice even if all the others were left still... 

But anyway. Season 10′s subplot for Cas was about Claire and learning some stuff about himself along the way, but she was used very much for his personal development and for Dean as well, being a mini Dean herself in a season where he had lost a lot of his sense of self. It’s a total accident of scheduling but Angel Heart (10x20) being the last episode before 10x22 is a nice touch in that regard. And while Cas tried really hard with Claire and awoke his inner Dad side so that he’d be more prepared for fatherhood next time, it was pretty insurmountable between them to have anything more than a bittersweet relationship where the best he could do was make up with her and see her somewhere safe. The fact of him looking like her actual dead father is horrendous the more you think about it and while she managed to see him for who he was instead of a horrible monster, that’s more than enough trauma to inflict on an already traumatised girl for the sake of helping Cas’s manpain and tidying up the sticky question of Jimmy and Cas’s right to the vessel. 

Angel Heart very specifically ends with TFW mailing Claire to Jody because they know she’s already good with Alex in a genuine way and can handle these sort of issues and has done it before. And also because she can be a guardian who will not constantly remind Claire that her father is dead but something is walking around wearing a perfect reconstruction of his face. Carver era did a few things here and there with bodily autonomy and the problem of angel and demon vessels, but it was also really hit and miss. They’d get random waves of feeling guilty about it but then by necessity go back to stabbing angels in their still-living vessels an episode later. Claire was a way to address at the very least that whatever Cas was being put through was only a punishment on Cas and not on Jimmy as well, which is probably why we got such sappy Heaven scenes. We NEEDED to be shown he was in Heaven and largely okay with what was going on so that the show could justify using Cas at all as a character without breaking the code of ethics they tried to make their own characters adhere to. Aside from that it also gave Cas a side plot for when he wasn’t needed in the main plot, and any emotional connection to anything that wasn’t Sam and Dean.

Anyway 10x20 caused this huge fandom high which was followed by one of the lowest lows of the fandom immediately after, and both centred on female characters (in fact, now we know, 2 lesbians even! Though I’d wonder if, The Gay Agenda aside, Bobo spite-wrote that specifically because of the roots of Wayward) and I think that galvanised the whole movement of fans and hopefully some self-reflection in the show. They DID start making an effort in season 11, which shows some of the early signs of better inclusion but also backtracking or edging nervously away from the more intense Carver era stuff. Not just because Dean didn’t have the Mark any more but in general it was like someone had opened a window and let in some fresh air... Even before Carver bailed somewhere around the midseason to go do a different show and Dabb started to step up. 

All this to say that the Wayward stuff was always about the female characters and making up for the past sins of the show. It’s even a riff on the “wayward son” line which obviously centres around male protagonists and their journey. Claire stumbled into being a part of it in the lucky way of being in the right place and time, but the journey had already started even in the season 10 momentum with earlier work and it was that which suddenly made the prospect that Jody had two young women living with her now seem like a starter for the next generation of the show as it was a mirrored format to season 1 in a way, if you took Alex and Claire as the new Sam and Dean. It was exciting but people flipped out after Angel Heart because stuff had been bubbling since season 9 and earlier in season 10, so this was just pouring more candy into an already visibly full bowl of potential tasty gems. It made a possibility seem real that hadn’t before because we already had Kim bitterly complaining that the CW refused to hear the case for a Jody spin off because she was too old. The next best thing was a Jody spin off where she was the Gandalf to some CW age appropriate characters.

(the CW is and always has been garbage)

Anyway in season 13 Jack was introduced as a Claire 2.0 but as a male character with staying power for that reason, but he was filling the space she left for Cas. He couldn’t be a father to her and neither really wanted that set up anyway. But thematically it had created the possibility of Dadstiel and the space he had in his heart for that. Since the show was in its waning years they would be looking for endgame and handing Cas an easy win with a son he could unconditionally love who would love him back unconditionally absolutely filled that gap. It was a non SamnDean thing that Cas could have for himself outside of whatever happened with them. Not sure the memo came back that he was supposed to have mORE than that but oh well it’s not real if you don’t watch it :))) But yeah Jack was always going to be linked to Cas’s endgame, he wasn’t a free-floating character such as Jody who could go where she wanted and do as she pleased. He was main story relevant from start to finish and tied inexorably to another main character’s fate. Because the show wouldn’t do that with its female characters they could be bundled into spin offs but in practical terms Jack was both never what the Wayward as envisioned by fans or writers was about, nor would he have been free to go. 

Since it would have been about centering the stories of people overlooked by the main story, Claire a case in point that she had her life ruined in season 4 and it was a footnote until season ten, and then metaphorically more the concept of having queer and non-white characters in the mix of main characters, it would have represented a future of the story where the main show was unable to tread. Probably because of the CW. Also inherent biases in the writers. Bad cocktail. Jack is both too white and too male to fit the brief to ever leave SPN, and not only that but he is so as a precise mirror to the main white male characters, being passably any one of their sons if you squint, and meant to be instantly instinctively read as such... he was one of the safest bets of representing the show as the network wanted to imagine its target demographic.

So I really don’t think that Jack has any place being in a spin off of the show unless you want more of the same. They tried to give us something different and the CW didn’t like it because it wasn’t more of the same. Ironically a Jack spin off, with or without Claire, would have more chance of being greenlit and more chance of success. But the spin off they put their heart behind was Wayward Sisters as it was. And I think it was absolutely correct that never mind leaving Jack out of it after his work was done in the lead up episode to help set the table, but honestly they could have cut all the middle scenes of Sam and Dean wandering in the woods and gained precious seconds with the girls and still had a functioning story with those guys. It was like some cowardly missive was sent that the show couldn’t actually go more than 10 minutes without showing a flesh and blood Winchester or the whole thing would spontaneously sizzle out of syndication and the money tree would wither on the spot. And in the mean time, we could have been having Banter with the girls. Or Claire and Kaia holding hands some more. The good stuff :P 

[queen-of-deans-booty]

A Whole New World

Characters: Dean Winchester x Virgin!Reader,

Word Count: 2.2k

Warnings: angst, mental illnesses, no self esteem, depressed!reader, very small mention of killing oneself

Summary: You decided to move in with Dean into the Bunker. It’s a new home, a new life, and a whole lot of new monsters you’ve never heard of. Are you sure you can handle all of the “new”? Is Dean worth it?

Part One

Author’s Note: This is the second part of six parts of the commission for @sea040561​​​.

You can’t believe you’re actually moving into the Bunker with Sam and Dean. Jody had a long talk with you when she managed to convince you that this is what you needed. You’re forty-six, a virgin, never really had a boyfriend, and you need new friends. It does no one good that you’re sitting alone in her house all the time. At least with living inside the Bunker, you get to have company. It’s big enough to warrant you space when you need it, but it’s small enough to be close to your new roommates.

Castiel and Jack are bubbly creatures, and you have to remind yourself that Jack is barely a year old, so he has a lot left to learn. Castiel at least knows to keep his distance when you look like you need it, so you’re grateful for that. Dean has been nothing but kind to you ever since he met you, and you honestly don’t know why. He could spend time with some other woman, so why is he wasting his time with you?

Your anxiety keeps you from speaking up about it, so you just let it simmer deep inside you until it eventually comes out in the form of a depressive episode or some shit like that. As soon as you get to the underground Bunker, he leads you to his room. There are a lot of rooms much like an apartment building. This place is huge, and you know you’ll get lost just trying to go to the bathroom.

Your new room is bare except for a bed, a dresser, and a night table. If you want to make this your new home/comfort place, you’re going to need to go shopping for a lot of things that makes you forget you’re living in a world with monsters. Dean can sense how nervous you are, and he chuckles at the thought of the memory of when he and Sam first found this place.

“I know this can be overwhelming, but you’re not alone in this,” he states.

You’re not alone. The sentence brings tears to your eyes, but you force them at bay so he doesn’t see you cry. You’re ugly enough as it is, you don’t need to add tears to that.

“Thanks, Dean.”

“I can help, you know, make it your own if you want.”

“No, thanks. I think I can manage,” you chuckle.

“Okay, well, take all the time you need. When you’re ready, come to the library. We can get you familiar about this place and what we do.”

“Okay,” you whisper.

Dean leaves the room a few moments later, and you take a seat on the empty bed. You thought you could handle this. You thought that coming here might be a good thing for you, but you’re not so sure anymore. Dean’s words float in the back of your mind, reminding you of how nice he is to you.

You’re not alone in this.

No, I’m good right here.

Wow look at you. You look amazing.

It could be fun having you there with us. I know I’d like it. Think about it. You don’t have to be alone anymore.

He doesn’t have to be nice to you, so why is he? Why now? Why are you now having some care for you in all the ways you wished? Why not before? What did you do in your life to deserve someone like Dean Winchester? You’re only feeling shittier about yourself because of this because you know you don’t deserve it. No one has ever been this nice to you, so you know he is only trying to be polite. Does that mean he never wanted you here? Was Jody pressuring him to ask you to move in?

You feel more alone now than ever, and you don’t know why. You have four great people waiting for you in the library, excited to have you live with them. Why are you beating yourself over this? Salt covers your bottom lip, and you realize that you’re crying. A panic attack is making its way up your body, but you have to force it down if you’re going to pretend that everything is fine. This is so overwhelming, chaotic, and stressful for you. Everything was so much easier when it was just you and Jody.

You have to tell Dean you don’t want to do this anymore. You’re going to be a burden to this family because you don’t know how to kill monsters or what all of them are, so all you’re going to be is in the way. Your heart pumps faster, your breathing picks up, and your chest starts to tighten. Your hands ball into fists so hard that your nails dig into the palms of your hands. If you feel pain during your panic attacks, then you can feel somewhat grounded.

You’re the only one who can help you through them, so you had to learn how to make them go away on your own. The indents from the last panic attacks are still there, so your nails bust the wounds open. Drops of blood spill over your fingers the harder you dig your nails in. Along with the deep breaths you’re taking, the panic attack comes dormant inside your body.

There will be time to set up your room later, but you don’t know if you’ll get the chance to. You can’t stay here, and you have to tell them that. You abandon your room and head over to the library. Everyone is gathered around one table, and you stalk right up to the table to give them the news. When Dean sees you, his smile grows on his face, and that halts you in your steps.

How can you say no to him? How can you wipe that smile off his face? He looks so happy that you’re here, so how can you take that away from him? Maybe you can learn to love it here, you just have to give them a chance. The rest of the men look happy that you’re here too, and that is the only reason why you’re not going to tell them you want to leave.

“Hi,” you breathe.

“Y/N, this is Castiel and Jack,” Sam introduces. “We haven’t properly met either. I’m Sam.”

“I know who you are,” you chuckle and take a seat at the head of the table so that no one is sitting next to you.

“It’s nice to finally meet you. I’ve heard so much about you,” Jack smiles.

Wait, what? Who was talking about you? What were they saying? Bad things? Do they hate you? Dean senses the panic in your eyes, and he is quick to shut those bad thoughts down.

“It was all good things, I promise,” he chuckles.

“So, what are you guys doing?” you ask.

“We’re getting ready for a hunt. I hear you’re fairly new to this all?” Sam asks.

“Yeah, I was attacked by some vampires when I was visiting--” you stop yourself short at the thought of your sister being dead, so you change the subject. “Anyway, I don’t know much about monsters. I didn’t even know it existed.”

“We have some time before we need to prep. We can explain some stuff now,” Dean smiles.

“Okay, that sounds great,” you chuckle.

“Well, we don’t want you going on hunts right now, but that doesn’t mean you can’t be prepared if something were to happen,” Sam explains. “We mostly see creatures like vampires, djinns, ghouls, shapeshifters, demons, and angels.”

“And you’re an angel?” you ask Castiel and then look at Jack. “And you’re a half-angel?”

“A Nephilim if you want to be correct,” Jack smiles.

“Who made you half-angel?”

“Lucifer.”

“Excuse me?”

“I think we’re getting off topic,” Dean interrupts. “You know about vampires, but to kill them, all it takes is a machete to the head. Dead Man’s Blood works as well, but you’d have to have enough of it to kill them. Decapitation is a lot better.”

“Then we have Djinns which are monsters that are kind of like genies, but murderous. They use poison to feed off your blood while giving you everything you wish inside your head. To kill them, you need a silver dagger dipped in lamb’s blood,” Sam explains.

“I’m more curious about demons and angels.”

“Angels are dicks,” Dean blurts, and then looks at Castiel who just gives him a bitch-face. “No offense.”

“Yes, well, some of us are… dicks… but not all. We’re very hard to kill, but an angel blade has to be used,” Castiel says.

“There’s an angel blade?”

“And a demon knife,” Jack beams.

He’s just too happy, but then again, he is just a kid.

“A demon knife?”

“Demons are like ghosts but with a soul. They’re assholes and will take every opportunity to inflict pain. There are several ways to kill them, and yes, the demon knife is one of them. Exorcising is also an option, and we can teach you the incantation later,” Sam says.

“Ghouls are creatures that are born, not made. They feed on the blood and flesh of the dead, so they mainly hang out in cemeteries. To kill them is to completely destroy their head, so bashing them in works pretty good. Rawheads are dangerous, but we’ve only seen them a few times in our whole life. They are creatures that love to feed off children, and the only way to kill them is by electrocution,” Dean takes over.

They go on to tell you lots of things about the monsters they hunt. For instance, shapeshifters can only shift into other people when they have their DNA, and silver is the only way to kill them. Werewolves turn on the full moon and eat hearts, and silver is also their weakness too. Wraiths have this long spiky stick that comes out of their wrists so they can eat parts of the brain, and while silver is their weakness too, mirrors can show their true forms.

There are a whole lot more monsters out there, but there is so much your brain can handle all at once. They started with the easy monsters, but you know you’ll get to learn about all of them in time. You don’t think you are going to be able to do this. You’re not fit enough to run from monsters, you’re not strong enough to take them down, and you’re not smart enough to know how to handle them. You’re two hundred and fifty pounds, overweight, and not that smart. You’ll never pass for a hunter, much less a good one.

By the time you learned all that you could, it was already dark. The Bunker has no windows, but you can tell it’s dark based on how tired you feel. You’re tired all the time, but your body starts to feel exhausted whenever it starts to become late.

“I think this is a good time to stop,” you chuckle.

“Yeah, we need our sleep for tomorrow,” Sam says and turns to you with a kind smile. “Don’t worry. You won’t be alone, Jack will be here with you.”

“Dean taught me how to play foosball,” Jack grins childishly.

“Good for you,” you nod.

“We should all get some sleep. It’s been a long day,” Dean says.

The group disperses from the library, and you immediately head to your room. Dean can see on your face that you’re overwhelmed by this all, and he can also sense discomfort. He doesn’t want to make you feel uncomfortable because he knows how this all might look. You need to be eased into it, and he’s more than happy to help you try.

“Hey, you okay?” Dean asks when he knocks on your bedroom door.

“Yeah, I will be. It’s a lot,” you sigh.

“You didn’t decorate?”

You open your mouth to answer, but nothing comes out. You close it and shrug, looking down at the floor.

“I won’t be a good unter. I’ll just end up getting everyone here killed,” you whisper.

“Death means nothing to us, if we’re being honest here,” he says and takes a seat next to you. “With enough practice, you can be a great hunter if that’s what you want. We won’t force you to go out there and risk your life.”

“I don’t know what I want.”

“And that’s okay too. Please don’t hesitate to ask if you have any questions or concerns.”

“Say I practice, okay? Say I practice to be the best… What if I still manage to get someone killed?” you ask and look at him.

“That’s a possibility, and if we’re still being honest with each other, I’ve gotten almost all of my friends killed. But if you’re worrying about keeping other people alive, then you’ll get killed.”

Would that be such a bad thing? The only reason you’re alive today is because you never had the guts to kill yourself.

“Take this one day at a time. Get some sleep,” he says.

He touches your hand with his before getting up. He leaves your room without another glance, and you have nothing left to do but ponder his words. Would you be a good hunter? Would you live long enough to know?

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[nebulawriter]

The Silence of the Lambs

I am going all out on this creepy one. 

What I know: Hannibal gives weird clues to Jodie Foster who’s trying to find a serial killer and he’s a problematic character from a trans lens. “it puts the lotion on its skin or else it gets the hose again.” I think thats this one. 

General: This movie didn’t scare me so much as make me uncomfortable. Which in many ways was the point, although I was also frustrated because many things that the movie depended on are just...so fake. That’s not how being trans works. That’s not how psychology works. That’s not how etc. etc. etc. But I think it preys on people’s fear that it’s what it’s like. Like, psychologists use their skills to know things about people and so they’ve sherlock holms’ed themselves into your brain. So that was frustrating. But as a movie it was well made.

Main Character: Jodie Foster is Adorable. A great deal of my watching this was people’s sexualization of her and the other female characters, which, again, I know is the point, but having that feeling turned on ME as a watcher was. Not the experience I go to the movies for. I didn’t like to see it, and felt more like the filmmaker’s were inflicting it on me. But I didn’t really get a sense of relief from it, so I just sat with the discomfort.

Side Character: Hannibal was a much better villain than Buffalo Bill, which, kind of the point as well I guess. I did enjoy a villain where you’re wondering how he’s going to do a thing, like, I believe he can escape with just a pen, but how? So that was interesting to watch. A Cannibal is so far removed from my sense of self that it wasn’t even really scary to me, but allowed for all the gory shots which aren’t my thing, but like, I get it.

Other Characters: They weren’t going for something between Crawford and Clarice were they? because I thought it was a well portrayed relationship. He listened to her and understood. It was interesting. Buffalo Bill is such a fantasy I can’t even diagnose him as a human character, he’s more of a creature from sci fi. Again, I know they tried to step around it with “he’s not a REAL “””transexual”””” but eeek. Everyone go watch Disclosure on Netflix, a documentary on trans visibility in media.

Plot: Trying to find a serial killer, Crawford elects a FBI student to help bring in the serial killer Hannibal Lecter. Hannibal capitalizes on a series of simple mistakes and gambles to get free, but does help Clarice psychoanalyze the killer enough to find and catch him.

Story: Maybe it’s about trying to ease your own guilt with the world. Or your own psyche. Or maybe about how difficult it is being a woman in the world (knew that already thanks movie). I think really delving into it requires me to put more energy into it than I’m maybe comfortable with if I’m not getting a grade or some financial compensation for this review.

Cinnamontography: This really is where the story shines. This is how they bring about that uncomfortable feeling so well with so many close up shots of people’s faces, staring straight into the camera. Like they’re addressing you. Like they’re bringing you into the movie. Especially Hannibal.

Design: Hannibal was quite the drama king huh? Very into aesthetics.

Other: As soon as I finished this movie my roommates were like “now you can watch the sequels!” and I went “.....sequels?”

I’m so far removed from horror franchises.....

[kansas-road]

Letting Go

A Supernatural fanfic

Chapter 6

4:18pm

Avera McKennan Hospital& University Health Center,  Sioux Falls, South Dakota

"Charlie woke up for a few minutes." Dean said

"That's great. Was she able to tell you what happened?" Sam asked anxiously. 

Dean hesitated for a long moment before clearing his throat. "Not.. exactly."

"What does that mean?" Sam asked perplexed by the tone in Dean's voice.  

Dean let out a deep breath before he continued. "She was hunting. Mentioned a woman and a child. And then it got wierd."

"Weird? How?" Sam asked 

"When she mentioned the kid she looked absolutely grief stricken Sammy. Devastated. She suddenly started panicking and got aggressive saying this kid went away and asking when would she see him again. She was crying Sam. At the drop a dime she was full on crying."

Sam was quiet on the other end. He didn't know what to make of what Dean had just described to him. He knew one thing for sure, it scared him as much as it scared Dean. 

"Dean.. " Sam said. 

"She's sleeping now." Dean cut in. He could hear the uncertainty in his brother's voice and it made everything even less comforting.  "She'll be out of it for awhile and not much help for the time being. Please tell me you guys found something."

"Actually yeah.. um let me put you on speakerphone." Sam said. 

"Hey Dean." Jody said over the phone. "How are you holding up?" 

"I'm holding up." Dean said unconvincingly. "Did you find anything?" He asked her hopefully. 

"I knew this sounded familiar. It's from a case dating back to 2003.  There was a woman named Jessica Thompson.  She was found dead in her home with stab wounds to her abdomen and slashes to her wrists. And get this.. she was wearing a white sleeveless dress. All of it just like the state you found Charlie in."

Dean was quiet for a moment; the wheels in his head spinning. "She didn't happen to have a kid, did she?" Dean asked hesitantly  

"Oddly enough, yeah. But he died 2 months prior in a drowning during a camping trip. He was only 8." Jody said sadly. So close to her own son's age, she thought. It saddened her more than she let on. 

"Let me guess.. he drowned at the very lake where we found Charlie." Dean said.   

 Jody nodded. "Yup. It was before my time as a cop. And it was big news. And even bigger when Jessica was found dead a month later."

"Was it murder?" Sam asked. 

"The official report was filed as 'self inflicted wounds'. Police found a note at the scene saying how she wanted to see her son again." Jody's voice was somber. "It's in the books as a suicide." 

"So.. what? Charlie was hunting a ghost? This woman?" Dean surmised over the phone as Jody handed Sam a photograph of Jessica. 

Sam looked back at Jody with a surprised look on his face as soon as he saw the photograph. 

"Dean I'm sending you a photo of Jessica now." Sam said. 

Dean saw a text message notification on his phone and tapped on it. A photograph appeared.  His face fell a little. The photograph of Jessica seemed to be a spitting image of Charlie right down to the long red hair. 

"Your kidding." Dean scoffed. "This just gets better and better." 

"Yeah the resemblance is uncanny." Sam said. 

"So we find Charlie in a white dress with the same wounds as this Jessica woman and we also found Charlie .. " Dean said. 

"... at the very lake where this woman's son died." Sam finished off Dean's train of thought. 

"Sounds like a ghost possession. Ghost sees a connection with her  appearance and then hijacks Charlie and brings her to the lake. But then what?" Sam continued.  

Jody declared with an air of certainty. "She killed herself so she could be with her son in death." Jody took the photograph back from Sam and looked at it for a moment before placing it carefully back into the file. "Maybe dying wasn't enough to make it happen. Maybe she had to be at the lake. And she needed Charlie to do it." Jody's tone was soft.  This case was pulling at her heart strings in a way she hadn't expected when she first met up with Sam and Dean at the hospital. 

"So we have to find out if she's possessed. And if she is..?" Dean asked as he glanced back at Charlie through the hospital doorway. 

"Then we might have to give the ghost what it wants, in this case." Sam stated.  

"What?? No,no, no.. how 'bout we force the ghost out and gank it." Dean said flatly. 

"It might not be that easy Dean." Sam retorted. 

Dean turned away from Charlie's room and walked further down the hall a bit for more privacy from the other nurses. 

"This ghost is grieving her child in death. We have to be careful how we go about this." Sam explained over the phone. "If we go in hot it could cause irreparable harm to Charlie. I mean she's already laid up in a hospital with serious injuries. And judging from what you just told us about Charlie's behavior, she's manifesting Jessica's physical and mental trauma..." 

As Dean listened to his brothers voice over his cell phone, he noticed the lights suddenly flickering overhead. The hair on the back of his neck and arms suddenly stood on end as he warily took in his surroundings. Within moments he heard what sounded like a startled scream coming from down the hallway. He spun around just in time to see a nurse running out of Charlie's room screaming. Dean wasted no time and charged down the hall careening into Charlie's room. 

He certainly wasn't prepared for what he saw. Charlie was no longer laying in bed or in bed at all for that matter.  She was standing. Her face stark white and shadowed with look of sheer  desperation.  

Before Dean could adequately process what was happening, he found himself suddenly midair and flying. He hit the back wall hard. The impact knocked his cell phone out of his hand as he drop landed onto the hospital room floor with a heavy thud. From that point everything went blurry and then dark for Dean 

The same nurse from before ran back into the hospital room, quickly appraised the scene, and without hesitation ran back out of the room screaming, again.