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#clyde.txt#đ„oc: come watch me burn#one of these images is The Same Clay Image but it's ok.... his side profile is Not accurate to what i really want so ur never gonna see#that angle and that's the only other clay image i have đđ
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FANFIC
đš In a sea of colours, we were black and white. (On hiatus)
Kuroo Tetsurou x OC
Genre: Friends to Lovers, angst, fluff
Summary: The best way to prevent a broken heart is to tame your feelings, keep them locked in a room. At least that is what Shiroyanagi Natsumi thought. Until, she sees him again, Kuroo Tetsurou, taller, older, prettier. And she realises a heart that longs, hurts more than a heart that breaks.
Words count: to come
đ„Phoenix and Ashes
Suna Rintarou x f!reader
Genre: angst
Summary: âItâs funny how nobody believed that we could make it work.â - âWell-maybe they were right.â
Meeting Suna Rintarou wasnât part of your plan. Dating him, either. Getting your heart smashed into the palms of his hand, even less.
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Donât you dare runaway (A Phoenix and Ashes Sequel â can be read as a standalone)
Miya Osamu x f!reader (ex!Suna)
Genre: Friends to Lovers, fluff
Summary: Miya Osamu thinks some things will never changeâAtsumu will always be annoying; his Maâs food will always be the best and you will always be his favourite sunrise.
Words count: 32.7k
đž And I will wait for you (a thousand springs, a lifetime)
Kageyama Tobio x f!reader
Genre: Slow Burn Romance, Fluff
Summary: âSenpai,â Kageyama calls you. âKeep an eye on me, watch me. Iâll win everything. Iâll make it to the Olympics. Iâll get gold.â You smile with your eyes closed, wrinkles forming above your cheeks. âI will.â
or, when youâre convinced that kageyama tobio is the definition of right person, wrong time.
Words count: to come
đThe footprints he etched on the earth (a sequel to The stars he left in the sky â can be read as a standalone)
Bokuto Koutarou x f!reader
Genre: Strangers To Lovers, Romance, Fluff
Summary: The stars he left in the sky are nothing compared to the footprints he etched on the earth.
or when you fall in love with Bokuto Koutarou, and wonder if youâve ever truly known beauty before him.
Words count: to come
Short Stories:
đ one goodbye, a million hellos â Suna Rintarou x f!reader
đthe stars he left in the sky â Oikawa Tooru x f!reader
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Capricorn Baby - Instagram AU
(Bengals Quarterback! Joe Burrow x Author! OC)
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Bengals: đ HAPPY NEW YEAR đ Looking forward to all thatâs to come in 2022!
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username1: hopefully there will be a super bowl win⊠the Bengals are so close yet so far from the finish line!
username2: i canât believe the Bengalsâ first football game of 2022 will be against THE CHIEFS?!
joeyb_9: 2022 will be a good year for the Bengals!
âł yourinstagram: you are definitely right about that Mr. BurrowHead!
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yourinstagram: my biggest accomplishment of 2021 was publishing my first book and becoming a New York Times Best Selling Author⊠iâm so thankful for everyone who has been apart of this journey and i canât wait to continue the journey in 2022!
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joeyb_9: iâm so proud of you and iâm happy to say that iâve been along side your journey since the beginning!
âł yourinstagram: thank you for being apart of the journey đ
bookofthemonth: your book ruined me (in a good way)⊠i canât wait for the next book that youâll publish!
emilyhenrywrites: i love you! your book is my favorite book that was released in 2021!
âł yourinstagram: i love you too! and that is such an amazing compliment coming from you đ
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Bengals: đŁïž The first game of 2022 in The Jungle!
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username1: if the Bengals donât win this game⊠itâs over for the Bengals in 2022 before the year started.
Ⳡusername2: the Bengals losing the first game of 2022 would be so embarrassing⊠all the hard work during this past season would be for NOTHING!
Ⳡusername3: the Bengals NEED to become the AFC North Champions⊠or else someone will need to burn the jungle down.
yourinstagram: itâs been a very long time since iâve been so anxious for a football game đ”âđ«
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Bengals_Updates: Joe Burrow girlfriendâs IG Story.
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username1: the way Y/FN knew she had to post this instagram story because she knows that if she wasnât spotted at the game then the media would start creating rumors that her and Joe broke upâŠ
âł username2: the last time Y/FN didnât attend one of the Bengalsâ games, the media started spreading those rumors even though we know the reason she wasnât at the football game is because she has a book signing scheduled the same day as the game đ”âđ«
username3: i wonder why she isnât attending the football game?!
âł username4: maybe itâs because itâs her birthday is the day after the game and wants to be with her family and friends?!
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Bengals: RULE THE NORTH. RULE THE JUNGLE.
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lahjay10_: đ„đ„đ„
username1: THE BENGALS ARE THE AFC NORTH CHAMPIONS⊠WHO WOULDâVE THOUGHT THAT THIS DAY WOULD COME!
username2: the football game was so entertaining to watch⊠i never realized that the Chiefs could involved in playing an entertaining football game?!
yourinstagram: 2022 really is the year for the Bengals!
joeyb_9: and now⊠weâre going to the playoffs!
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joeyb_9: king of the north #AFCNORTHCHAMPS
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Bengals: đ„đ„đ„
yourinstagram: oh damn⊠youâre so hot, now itâs time for you to get back home to me to celebrate đđ
âł joeyb_9: yes maâam đźâđš
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yourinstagram: Capricorn Baby đ·âš
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mamaburrow: happy birthday Y/FN⊠i hope you had an amazing birthday celebrating with Joey đ
lahjay10_: happy birthday miss capricorn!
bookofthemonth: happy birthday đ
emilyhenrywrites: happy birthday darling đ
joeyb_9: happy birthday baby, iâm glad you loved the cake, your present, and the alcohol đ
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BurrowDaily09: Joe Burrowâs Instagram Stories.
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username1: according to my research on zodiac signs⊠Sagittarius and Capricorns are not compatible at all. theyâre definitely going to break-up soon.
Ⳡusername2: according to MY research⊠SHUT UP!
username3: do yâall think Joe baked the cake?!
Ⳡusername4: you know damn well that Joe Burrow has little to no baking skills⊠i think she has tagged the bakery where the cake is from on her page.
âł username5: the bakery that Y/FN tagged in her post said that Joe was the one who ordered the cake from the bakery and surprised Y/FN with the cake⊠apparently the bakery is where Y/FN got Joeâs cake for his birthday a few weeks ago.
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Bengals: SEE YOU IN THE PLAYOFFS, CINCINNATI!
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joeyb_9: weâre going to rule the playoffs just like we rule the north and how we rule the jungle đ„
username1: i still canât believe the BENGALS are in the PLAYOFFS for the SUPERBOWL?!
username2: i still think that iâm dreaming⊠i need someone to pinch me hard until iâm awake.
yourinstagram: like Mr. Burrow said⊠2022 is going to be the year of the Bengals!
Authorâs Note:
if you have a request for an Instagram AU, please send the lnstagram AU request through my Inbox and iâll try to get the requested Instagram AU published as fast as i can!
thank you all for the love and support! đ€
#Joe Burrow#NFL#CFB#Cincinnati Bengals#LSU Tigers#Joe Burrow Fanfiction#Joe Burrow Fanfic#Joe Burrow Fic#Joe Burrow x Reader#Joe Burrow x OC#Joe Burrow Instagram#Joe Burrow Instagram AU#Instagram AU#NFL Instagram
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Billy Hargrove x Fem!OC
Summary: After a day of sledding with a group of her former classmates, JJ is freezing and prepares to walk home when Billy offers her a ride. She invites him in for a warm drink to repay his favor, and things quickly heat up when he lights a fire and shares his best tips on keeping the frost bite at bay. Bask in the glow of this incendiary encounter in the next 1.8k wordsđ„ CW: SMUT, oral (f receiving), overstimulation, Billy is a little demanding A huge thank you to my beta reader and editor @lifesshort-imshorter for helping me bring this piece to life!!!
DAY THREE OF HOHOHOE WEEK Prompt: Fireplace Read the rest of this mini series here: Part 1 | Part 2
JJ stood at the top of the snow covered hill with the rest of her classmates. Quite a few of them showed up to the Hawkins sledding reunion party Nancy had organized for those of them that were home for the holidays. Everyone was complaining about how cold it was and how they didnât want to be chilled to the bone by falling in the snow. She couldnât believe these people had agreed to make an appearance solely for a party to play in a winter wonderland and then refused to participate.
âSeriously, you guys?â She shook her head in disappointment. âMove. Iâm going down.â The small crowd parted, and JJ steadied her sled at the top of the hill, making sure it would travel straight from where it started. Everyoneâs eyes were on her, including Billyâs, whose burned brightly as he watched her daredevil antics.
âNeed a push?â He stepped forward and offered to help JJ start her downhill journey. She smiled over her shoulder at him and replied with one simple word.
âNope.â With that, she took a running step forward and jumped into the sled, the momentum propelling her forward and down the hill. Inspired by JJâs bravery, the rest of the group followed suit, everyone finally conceding to having the good time they all gathered for in the first place.
The rest of the afternoon was spent laughing, catapulting snowballs, and wiping out in the icy powder. Everyone agreed they couldnât remember the last time they had so much fun. Billy was just glad to be there with JJ, soaking in the warmth that emanated from her on that freezing winter day.
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The sun was setting, and JJ was completely soaked through her clothes. Teeth chattering, cheeks aching from smiling and the bite of the bitter wind, she began saying goodbye to her classmates.
âI need to get going so Iâm not walking in the dark. Iâll see you guys at Tinaâs in a couple days!â She waved, a chorus of farewells arising from the group as she gathered her sled.
âWalking?â Billyâs voice boomed above the rest.
âYeah,â JJ answered. âItâs not far.â
âNo way. Youâre freezing. Come on, let me give you a ride. Itâs on my way.â Billy stepped toward her while all of the bystanders quieted, waiting for her to bite back sarcastically. To their surprise, she accepted graciously.
âActually, that would be nice.â JJâs whole body shook from the cold as she spoke. Following Billy to where his car was parked, she was thrilled to see he was still driving that cobalt blue Camaro she had always made fun of him for but secretly loved.
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âThanks again for the ride.â JJ was still shivering as Billy pulled into the Feronsâ driveway.
âAny time,â he drawled, his signature smirk sliding into place. JJ had the house to herself for the night. Her parents were being entertained at another stuffy cocktail hour for some other overly posh law firm, and while she originally planned to get some relaxation time in, she now had a better idea.
âYou want to come in? Iâll make you a hot drink for your troubles.â
âThought youâd never ask,â Billy replied, his smirk blooming into a smile. He followed JJ inside, and he couldnât help but notice she was still shaking from the cold permeating through her wet clothes.
âIâll put the kettle on. You make yourself comfortable,â she instructed, leaving Billy alone in the living room.Â
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âWhatâs all this?â JJâs grin shone brightly against the dim glow of a fire crackling in the fireplace. She handed Billy one of the mugs she was carrying back from the kitchen, taking note of the pile of blankets on the floor in front of the dancing flames.
âYouâre freezing. We need to get you warmed up, and I thought a fire might help. Here,â Billy said, taking JJâs hand and leading her over to the bundle of warmth he had prepared. They sat down on the plush area rug together, and Billy draped two of the blankets over JJâs shoulders, wrapping his arms around her, moving them up and down slowly to create friction.
âWhat a gentleman,â JJ crooned in jest, giggling at Billyâs display.
âFrostbite is no joke, Jacqueline,â he quipped back, his smile still bright in the low light.
âI suppose thatâs true,â she agreed. They shared a comfortable silence looking far off into the fire, the crackling and popping sounds keeping them company.
âYou know,â Billy started. âBody heat is really the most effective way to warm up.â JJ met his gaze, and his ocean eyes were dark with a devilish haze. She knew exactly what he was playing at, and she loved this game.
âOh, well, in that case.â JJ stood up, letting the blankets fall from her shoulders, and pulled her sweater over her head, discarding it onto the floor. Billyâs eyes followed her every move as she peeled off more layers â t-shirt, undershirt, pants, socks â until she was down to just her underwear, her blue lace bra almost matching the color of his stare.
Billy followed suit, shedding his sweater, shirt, and pants, still watching her all the time. JJ felt the heat of a blush creep up to her cheeks just looking at him. He was like a God. The outline of every dip and valley of Billyâs body was contoured by the flickering of the fire. His golden skin looked butter-soft, and all JJ wanted to do was touch him, but she forced herself to be patient.
They returned to their seats on the rug, and Billy leaned closer to her, cupping the side of her face in his hand with a hungry look in his eyes. JJâs lips parted as Billy ghosted his thumb over them, and there was no more talking. He kissed her slowly, with passion and sincerity, and she was already losing herself.
Billy tasted sweet like honey and warm sugar, and soon JJ was melting into him while their kisses turned fiery, all teeth, tongue, and desperation. Billy pressed wet, needy kisses to her jaw, her neck, her collar bone, leaving playful bites in his wake. JJâs breathing grew heavy, and all she wanted was more, more, more.
Just when she thought she couldnât take it any longer, Billy leaned into her until her back was pressed into the thick, plush rug in front of the fire. He lowered himself to her face one last time, locking her lips into his and running his tongue along the bottom one, then the top. He was teasing her, and she was eating it up.
Billy placed nips and kisses again down her neck, to her collar bone, to her chest, and he didnât stop until he got to the top of her panties, taking the waistband in his teeth and letting it snap back against her skin. He glanced up at her from between her thighs, eyes full of sin, and JJâs heart hammered double time.
âAre you warming up yet?â Billy asked seductively before pressing his warm, wet tongue flat against her clothed slit, just enough so that she could feel the rush of his hot breath.
âWhatever you do,â JJ warned, running her fingers through Billyâs sandy curls, âjust donât stop.â A dangerous grin formed on Billyâs face just before he hooked his fingers into the waistband of her panties and slid them down her legs, tossing them to the side. Big, strong hands pushed her thighs apart, making room for Billy to nestle down in between them. His breath ghosted across her bare skin, creating goosebumps over her entire body as he licked a long stripe through her folds.
JJâs breath hitched at the contact, and she pulled lightly on Billyâs curls, eliciting a growl from deep within his chest. His tongue was like warm velvet sliding up and down and in delicious circles around her clit, and her vision grew hazy in the glow of the flames. She didnât have room in her mind to care that her moans sounded pathetic and desperate as she tightened her grip in Billyâs hair and moved her hips languidly against his expert mouth.
âFuck, thatâs so good.â Billyâs eyes snapped up to meet hers as she glanced down at his mesmerizing movements, the work of his mouth and his dark stare setting her core ablaze. She let out a gasp when she felt him push two fingers inside of her, curling them up to meet her sweet spot. He fucked her slowly, the constant contact of his tongue pushing her closer and closer to the breaking point.
âBilly, please,â she breathed, her eyes brimming with tears at the stimulation.
âBeg me,â he purred, the low vibrations of his voice against her aching pussy sending shockwaves crashing over her.
âPlease, I want to cum for you so bad. Mmmm â please, Billy.â With those magic words, he picked up the pace, thrusting his fingers into her harder and faster and sucking fiendishly on her clit until her moans turned into blissful sobs. Every move Billy made stoked the embers in her core until it was white hot and smoldering, and then there was an explosion.
JJâs eyes screwed shut, tears spilling down her cheeks as she lost control, her whole body shuddering as her walls clenched around Billyâs fingers. She writhed against his tongue, a string of colorful expletives flooding from her lips as she rode out her climax. Slowly seeping back into the fabric of reality, JJ steadied her breathing as Billy removed his fingers and set an iron grasp on her thighs, pushing them farther apart while his blunt nails dug into her flesh as he held her there.
He continued to lavish slow, lazy circles on her clit, the overstimulation sending jolts up her spine as more tears slipped down her cheeks. JJ couldnât take it anymore and tried her best to push him away, but he was too strong.
âBeg me,â Billy commanded once more. He wasnât going to stop until she was a pathetic, weeping mess.
âBilly, please,â she cried. âI canât take it anymore, please.â He gave one last long lick along her clit and looked up at her, his cerulean eyes shining like the surface of the ocean under the sun. He steadied himself on his knees and stretched his back, the glow of the fire rippling over his defined muscles before he laid down next to her.
âYou taste divine,â he whispered. He leaned in and kissed her fiercely, and she could taste the sweet and sour remnants of herself on his tongue.
Once she was finally able to string a coherent thought together, JJ knew she was in trouble. Everything about Billy consumed her entirely, and though she knew sheâd never be the same, in that moment, all she wanted was to be completely immersed in him. He was going to ruin her, and she was content to let it happen.
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(Anti-) Hero - Joel Miller x OC
Chapter 1 - Welcome to Texas
Summary:Â September 2002. In the aftermath of her father's death, Jess Young travels to Austin. With her life enough in shambles as it is, her goals are simple: sort through her father's possessions and then sell the Texan home. Things in life are never that simple, though. Especially not when her father's friend-and neighbor from across the street-tries to keep an eye on her. Joel is a total piece of ass, which is highly distracting Jess from said goals. Will Joel capture Jess' heart... And panties? đ
Warnings:Â Joel being hot AF, but sadly that's it (for now...).
Wordcount: 6k.
Authorâs note: Ahhh Joel Miller... I. Am. Obsessed. I couldn't help myself and somehow this idea for yet another multichapter monster emerged. There's much filth that needs to be written. đ„”đ„ A special thanks to my dear friend @fizzyxcustard, who listens to me rambling about my Joel obession. You mean the world to me!! đ„°đ„°â€
âEvery new beginning comes from some other beginningâs end.â
-Seneca
Thursday 26th of September, 2002.
The taxi had brought her from the Austin International Airport to the suburbs of the city and though Jess usually enjoyed taking in the scenery along the route or talking to the cab driver, today she would not even have noticed if a purple elephant had been rampaging across the street. Even the cab driverâa handsome guy named Earlâhad fallen silent, for his client was too distraught to even tell him who she was visiting or where she was from.
As she sat on the worn backseat and vaguely registered Nickelbackâs âHow you remind meâ coming from the stereo, the synthetic fabric burned against her bare legsâthe Texan heat making it even more uncomfortable. Jess suppressed a groan and shifted in her seat. She knew she should have opted for her long sundress, but the denim shorts and flimsy Metal band-shirt she wore instead were rather comfortable; it made her feel safe within herself. And though Jess had spent the first years of her life in the south, apparently it was easy to forget how unforgiving the Texan sun could beâhence her current, uncomfortable state.
âItâs hot today, donât you think darlinâ?â Earl tried, his last attempt to engage in a polite conversation with the lady. âYeah,â Jess agreed, her deep blue eyes fixated on the back of the seat in front of her. She heaved a sigh, feeling a bit guilty she hadnât obliged in some casual banter earlier. âI hadnât expected it to last. October is right around the corner.â âSummerâs not your favorite season, then?â Earl asked, looking at her through the rearview mirror. His handsome hazel eyes observed her with interest. âYou strike me as a lazy summer type of gal.â Jess chuckled at that. âNo, I am not.â âChristmas, then?â She momentarily thought of her mother and her overfondness of Christmas decorations, and shook her head. âDefinitely not.â âSpring?â Earl tried. âNo? Are you more of a Halloween and pumpkin flavored drinks type of lady?â âYeah, I do love fall.â Jess caved in as she brushed her long, raven curls over one shoulder before glancing outside. She recognised the block they were driving on, which meant they were almost there. âWhat about yourself?â âI like all seasons,â the cab driver replied with a grin, and it made her wonder briefly if Earl was one of those people who liked to stay impartial on most topicsâeither too scared to make a bad impression or too dumb to function. âEvery season has its benefits,â Earl went on, stopping at a red light. âBut if youâre makinâ me choose, I would pick summer. I like the warm weather and the late night parties that come with it⊠Where we smoke somethinâ, if you know what I mean.â
Jess eyed his golden curls, and a small smile tugged on the corner of her lips. âAre you abusing substances that you shouldnât, good sir?â She quipped. âNah,â Earl countered. âJust the occasional bit of pot, you know. To chill.â âI hear you.â âReally?â Earl said, watching her through his rearview mirror again. His hazel eyes flashed with interest. âYou smoke?â âJust the occasional bit of weed,â Jess said with a grin. âA bad habit I picked up in highschool, mostly to annoy my mother.â
Their conversation was cut short, for they had arrived at the end of the street and consequently her fatherâs home. Earl stopped the car in the curve of the cul-the-sac and took in the suburban bungalow. Jessâ father had painted it in a faded blue color awhile ago and the color went nicely with the low, gray roof, white painted window sills and the patch of grass stretching out before it. Even the red Ford F-250 that was still parked in the driveway matched the color scheme nicely. âNice place,â Earl remarked. âIs it yours?â
Technically, it was. Or would be soon. But since Jess didnât want to share the details of her life with a practical stranger, she settled for the easy answer. âNo, itâs my dadâs,â she replied as she unbuckled her seatbelt and opened the cab door. âIâm staying here for just a while.â
Earl got from his seat to retrieve her suitcase from the trunk of the car, while Jess gathered her bag from the backseat before following him. She slammed the door behind her and eyed the silent street while waiting for her baggage. It was around half past three, the sun just coming down from its daily peak. Since it was a Thursday most of the neighborhood was at work, except the elderly couple sitting in the shade of their front yard across the streetâthe Adlers, if she remembered it right. They had been at the funeral.
âHi sweetheart!â Mister Adler called as he waved enthusiastically her way. Jess couldnât help but smile at that and waved back.
âHere,â Earl said, directing her attention back again. âHereâs your suitcase.â âThanks,â she murmured. âWhat do I owe you?â âTwenty bucks?â he said with a laugh, though he had driven her all the way from the airport which must have cost her much more than just twenty dollars. Earl watched her retrieve the money from her purse. âAndâŠâ he continued after he had accepted the money, scratching the stubble on his chin. âMaybe I can call you sometime, yâknow?â
The move was cheesy, but sweet. Her first instinct was to declineâshe had a fiancĂ©, after allâbut then the realization hit her. Like her dad, Adam wasnât in her life anymore.
âSure,â she said with a nod and rummaged through her bag again, now for her notebook and a pen. She scribbled her phone number on the paper and tore it from the book. âHere,â she said. âThatâs my cell.â âYou got a mobile phone?â he remarked as he accepted the piece of paper. âNice.â
There was a small awkward silence, in which both of them didnât know what to say. Jess shuffled on her feet, unsure how to continue. âI have to go,â Earl finally said. âHave to get back to the city. Iâll call ya, okay?â She nodded and watched as he got in his car, started the engine and turned in the cul-the-sac. Forcing herself to smile, she waved her ride goodbye as he disappeared in the street.
Then, she paused at the front of the yardâkeys in one hand and her suitcase in the other. She knew she was stalling, but she granted herself a few seconds regardless. For entering her dadâs home like she owned the place, meant also accepting the fact that he truly was gone.
Dadâs place looked exactly like how they had left it the day after the funeral. Jess dumped her suitcase under the staircase in the small hallway, and moved to the living room on her right. She eyed the sparse furnitureâher dad had been a practical man, not needing more than a television, comfortable chair, a couch no one sat on and a small dining table.
She heaved a sigh and moved through the living room into the kitchen, where the breakfast bowl she had used on the morning after the funeral still stood in the kitchenâs sink and a forgotten glass of water sat on the counter. Mom had been eager to catch their plane, pushing her daughter and daughterâs fiancĂ© to hurry up.
Jess leaned against one of the bar stools, half expecting her fatherâs heavy footsteps on the stairs, excited to see her. âI miss you, dad,â she mumbled, a lump forming in her throat. Her fingers traced aimless circles over the stone kitchen counter. âWish you were here⊠Youâd know what to do with meâŠâ
The silence was deafening. âPlease,â Jess whispered, tears forming in her eyes. Her fingers faltered. âI⊠I donât know what to do, dad⊠Youâre gone and heââ
She couldnât bear to say the words out loud, for the memory was still too fresh. Her chest burned, like someone had ripped her heart out of her cage. Adam had betrayed her, and the worst thing about it was that she hadnât seen it coming. At all.
Diiiing.
âShit,â Jess mumbled, quickly rubbing away the tears from her cheeks before making her way through dadâs home to the hall. Why mister Adler already was calling on her after she had been here for just five minutes was beyond her, but because she wasnât exactly familiar with the neighborhood it would be wise to be on her best behavior. So when she opened the door, she was surprised to not find mister Adler, but Sarah Miller standing on her porch.
Jess knew the thirteen year old a bit, for their dads had been best pals from the moment the Millers had moved into one of the homes across the roadânow six years ago. Though Jessâ father was twenty years Joelsâ senior, the Millers had been quick to adopt her father as a part of their family and as a consequence, Jess had heard much about the family before even meeting them in person. Apparently Joel was a single father who had just started as an independent contractor in the construction business and Sarah was this quiet kid thatâupon closer inspectionâturned out to be equally funny and smart. So when Jess finally visited her father a few months after the Miller familiesâ arrival, she had expected to meet a typical American dad and his bright daughter. But as it turned out, her father had left one important detail out.
Joel Miller was anything but the typical American dad: he was a total piece of ass and he didnât even know it⊠With his dark, tousled hair, his deep brown eyes, scruffy facial hair and sweet smile Joel had captured Jessâ heartâand panties, letâs be fairâthe second he had greeted her, effectively turning her into this weird, clumsy gal she didnât recognize.
Sure, she had experienced her fair share of crushes and dalliances before, but this was different. Something switched whenever Joel came around the corner; she laughed too loud, choked on her drink or said something extremely stupid. Her dadâwho knew her too wellâhad teased her endlessly about her crush and at one point Jess had suspected him of matchmaking. Which, as she had told her dad, was highly inappropriate, for at the time she had been in a relationship with Adam.
âJess?!â Sarah inquired with a small chuckle. âAre you in there?â âOh,â Jess said, a genuine smile lifting the corners of her mouth. âHi Sarah! I didnât expect to see you this soon! I just arrived five minutes ago.â âIâm sorry for disturbing you,â Sarah quickly greeted her neighbor. âBut my dad isnât home yet and I forgot my keys. He will murder me when he finds out. I saw you entering mister YoungâsâCarlâsâhouse, and I know he kept a spare for us. So I thought maybe you could help me find them and save my life?â
Jess laughed at the girlâs direct approach and leaned against the doorway, the hard wood uncomfortable against her shoulder. âI would gladly help you, but I have no idea where my dad kept your key, so you have to help me look. Deal?â Sarah quickly obliged, her beautiful hazel brown curly hair bouncing as she nodded. She straightened the blue backpack that hung over her shoulders. âCome in,â Jess said while stepping aside. âDo you want something to drink?â
Unfortunately, their search for the spare key turned out to be futile and after an hour, both Jess and Sarah had to accept the fact that they would never find out where Carl Young had kept the Millerâs house keyâor his own spares, for that matter.
Both girls had resorted to the couch, initially exhausted by their search. Though it was nearing half past five, the Texan heat was still quite unforgiving, and the only way to cool off was lying splayed out on the couch, allowing the fan to wash over themâa cold glass of Coca Cola in hand.
âHow long are you staying?â Sarah inquired, watching Jess taking a sip from her drink. âDad said he wasnât sure anyone would come back hereâŠ.â âI donât know,â Jess mused, watching the ice cubes float in her drink. The fan brushed over her face, her own hair ticking her cheeks. âA month, maybe two. I need to sort out all my dad'sâCarlâsâstuff and I have an appointment with the notary to settle some affairs next week.â âWhat will happen to the house?â
Jess shrugged, unable to present the teen with a clear answer. âI need to figure that out too. Maybe I will sell it, maybe Iâll stay.â
It was weird saying the idea out loud, for it only had existed in her own mind since she had boarded the plane. With her relationship with Adam in shambles and her mother living in the big city, the only thing that tied her down to Staten Island was her job. The school board hadnât been too happy with one of their teachers taking unpaid leave when the term had just started, so Jess wasnât even sure her spot would be there when she came back. If sheâd come back.
In the background, the first tunes of INXSâ âNeed you tonightâ emerged from the radio. Jess grinned brightly and despite the warmth she jumped from the couch. She had been addicted to this record back in 1987, when she had been just sixteen. âSorry, I have to,â she told Sarahâwho was watching her in both typical teenage annoyance and amusementâand placed her drink on the radio before turning on the volume.
âAll youâve got is this moment,â Jess sang along with Michael Hutchence as she bust out her best dance moves. âTwenty-first century is yesterdayâŠ.â
Sarah watched Jess making a fool out of herself and rolled with her eyes, though a small smile adorned her lips. âYou look like my dad right now,â she told her neighbor over the music. ââAnd trust me, itâs not a compliment. How old are you anyway?â âIâm turning thirty in December,â Jess replied with a laugh. âWhich isâas my kids at school inform meâthe equivalent to the age of the dinosaurs.â âYeah,â Sarah agreed before taking a sip of her own drink. âThatâs pretty old. Though my dad is even older than you are.â âOh, really?!â âHe turned thirty-five today,â the teen told her. âSo if you are turning into a carnosaur, donât worryâdadâs probably of the herrerasauridae family.â
Jess laughed at the girlsâ smart-ass notion. âWell played, young Miller,â she quipped. âHave you bought him a gift?â âNot yet,â Sarah said, a frown now decorating her forehead. âI wouldnât know what to get him and besides, he probably will be home late again. All he does is work.â Jess heaved a sigh and turned down the volume again. She picked up her drink, absentmindedly rubbing away the condense the glass had left on the radio. She felt sorry for Sarah. Spending time with her dad must be important to her, especially because he was all she had.
âWe could start with buying a cake,â she offered. âAnd see what Walmart has to offer that could be to Joelâsâyour dadâsâliking?â âYou would do that?â Sarah chimed, her dark brown eyes pleading for her neighbor to say yes. âBut I have no money.â âItâs nothing,â Jess replied with a vague gesture from her hand. âI need to get some groceries anyway, and I think we should do something nice for your dad, donât you agree?â The teen nodded. âOne problem, though,â Jess murmured, her eyes scanning through the living room. âWe still have to find the keys of my dadâs truckâŠ.â
It was around seven when the girls returned from their shopping spree. They had picked up some pizza on their way homeâcaprese for Sarah, pineapple for Jess, and pepperoni in case Joel showed upâand now were lounging on the couch while enjoying their meal and watching Legally Blonde that was showing on tv. Jess watched Sarah as she enjoyed her pizza, and laughed with her when Elle reprimanded Warner with the iconic burn of 2001:Â âWhat, like itâs hard?â
Sarah had picked up an Aerosmith and Nirvana CDââthen he can finally listen to them on repeat in the car instead of one song on the radioââand had chosen the most elaborate cake design they could find. And though the thirteen year old swore she would pay Jess back, the latter one refused kindly. It must be hard for Sarah that her dad was doing overtime on his birthday, and Jess hoped that Joel would return home soon.
She had just taken a huge bite of her pizza, when the doorbell rang again. âThat must be dad,â Sarah concluded, scrambling herself together. âGot it,â Jess muffled with a mouth full of pineapple and rose from her seat. With the last of the pizza part still in her hands she walked towards the door, quickly swallowing her food before opening.
Joel Miller was still as hot as she remembered. He was leaning against her porch, his dark brown hair tousled from his day at work and his dark eyes observing her in a curious, though friendly mannerâbut if one would look closely, one could easily see the exhaustion written in them. Joel possessed a so-called âroman noseâ, with a prominent curved bridge that ended in a sharp, though rounded tip. His full lips were crowned by a thick, dark mustache and his cheeks sported a messy scruff. It seemed like he had just arrived home: there was some construction dust on his temple and he still wore his work clothesâa simple black t-shirt that clung nicely to his defined torso and gray, worn jeansâboth in the same rugged state. In his hands he held the note that Sarah had hastily scribbled on Jessâ counter before they left for the store, the post-it paper looking small compared to his palm.
âHey neighbor,â Joel greeted her, his lazy southern drawl wrapping around her like a silk shawl. âIâm lookinâ for my daughter. She left a note on the door, sayinâ she would be here.â âYeah, sheâs with me,â Jess said, eyeing him with a small smile while she told herself to just breathe. âShe forgot her key and said sheâs grounded forever now.â âShe tryinâ to find an ally now?â Joel said with a smirk. âSmart girl, raised her well.â âWell, it is workingâŠâ Jess commented. âI mean, come on, Miller. Is forgetting a key such a big offense?â Joel laughed at that and ran the hand that wasnât holding on to the note through his hair, tousling it further. His tanned arm flexed. âIt is when thereâs no one to let her in,â he argued. âCarl had one, and I donât like tâgive the Adlers access to my place, if yâknow what I mean. Canât leave my daughter stranded.â âNo, definitely not,â Jess agreed, thinking of mister Adler. Her dad had told her that though the couple was kind, they were very meddlesome; the type that would rearrange your home while you were awayâjust to help, of course. âThough,â she went on. âIn the event I hadnât been home⊠I can imagine spending a free afternoon with the Adlerâs would have been enough punishment, donât you think?â âSure,â he agreed. âShe can count herself lucky that you were here.â
There was a short silence, in which they observed each otherâgorgeous chocolate depths burning in their deep blue counterparts. A small twinge burned in the pit of her stomach, the same one she had felt at the funeral when Joel had shook her hand to pay his respects. It had struck out to her that even in her grief-stricken state a simple touch from him was enough to make something spark within herself.
âHow are you holdinâ up?â Joel inquired gently, pulling her from her thoughts. âHadnât expect to see you back soon.â âMe neither,â she replied, stepping aside to let him in, and vaguely sensing the cold half-eaten pizza part in her hand. âBut I have to handle some affairs here.â âHow long will you be stayinâ?â Joel asked as he brushed past her, his eyes not leaving her frame. âI donât know,â she confessed. âAs long as I need to. To go through his stuff, I mean.â Her throat went stuffy at the reminder of the enormous task of cleaning her dadâs home and sorting through his belongings; she wasnât ready for that yet. Joel nodded, offering her a sympathetic smile. âLemme know fâyou need my help, okay?â âYou already work too much, birthday boy,â she told him while she sent him a cheeky smile. âI wouldnât want to impose on your free time.â Joel groaned at that. âShe told you, huh?â âHappy birthday,â Jess congratulated him as she waved with her pizza part. âI hope youâre hungry, we got you pepperoni.â âYâdidnât have toââ âYes, I did,â she argued before taking a bite of her pizza. In her haste she accidentally gobbled down a larger chunk than sheâd bargained for; of course her clumsy, nervous ass did. Joel watched her struggle to maintain her dignityâwhich meant not coughing herself to death in his presenceâbut her trachea protested against her egoâs wishes. Jess toppled forward and went into the very coughing fit she had been trying to avoid. Joel was eyeing her with growing concern and after a few moments of hesitation, he carefully rubbed her back. âKeep it up,â he instructed, his tone calm. âIt helps.â
Of course it did, she knew that. But it also meant that she turned into a watery eyed, tomato faced mess; and that was a look she didnât particularly pursue. Jeez, the man was only in her vicinity for a minute and she already had to make a fool of herself?!
âYouâre not allowed to cook on your birthdayââ she began, her voice unsteady because at the same time her throat managed to get the loose chunk of pizza in the right place. âItâs one of my dadâs rules,â she added while looking at him through tear stricken eyes, âand itâs bad luck if you do. The fact that you dared to mention it almost made me choke, Miller!â A grin tugged on the corners of his mouth, whether it was from her pun or her current disheveled state, she didnât know. âI remember him sayinâ that last year,â Joel remarked, his hand still on her back. âCarl took us out for burgers.â
Jess slowly rose from her huddled position and smiled faintly. The sweet taste of pineapple burned in her throat and she still couldnât see properly through the tears, but her heart stung at the memory. She should have visited her dad more often, but at the time she had been so busy with her own, Adam-infused life⊠âSâokay,â Joel murmured as his fingers brushed over her t-shirt once more, which set off a confusing array of emotions in her system.
âDad?! Jess?! What are you two doing?!â Sarah called as she jumped from the couch and made her way through the hall. Upon eyeing the pair she laughed. âWhat happened here?â âDidnât you hear me almost choke myself to death?!â Jess croaked, internally groaning when she felt Joelâs fingers leave her. âI almost died.â âThatâs for eating pineapple on your pizza,â Sarah quipped as she turned on her heels and sent a knowing glance to her dad. âI warned you, Jess. People like you belong in hell.â âYouâre one of those?!â Joel asked Jess with a grin while the three of them made their way into the living room. âShe is,â Sarah agreed as she eased herself onto the couch once more, her eyes sparkling with joy. âYou donât know what youâre missing out on!â Jess defended herself half-heartedly, though she knew her chances persuading pineapple pizza haters to come to the dark side was usually a fruitless task. âNah, itâs disgusting,â Joel tutted. âThe state of New York is ruininâ your taste buds.â He lowered himself next to Sarah on the couch. âHi, kiddo. What are you watchinâ?â âLegally Blonde,â Sarah said before pulling her father into a hug. âItâs pretty cool. You wouldnât like it.â âLemme decide fâmyself!â âDad! Iâm telling you, itâs a girlâs movie!â
Jess let the pair bicker and went to reheat Joelâs pizza in the ovenâa skill she had perfected over the past few yearsâdoing overtime and still having to cook makes a girl creative. She tossed the cold remnants of her meal into the garbage bin; another consequence of nearly suffocating on her beloved pizza was that she had lost her appetite. As she listened to Sarahâs excited chatter and Joelâs low hum, she fetched two beers from the fridge. She knew his favoriteâthanks to her dadâand as her hands searched for the bottle opener in the kitchen drawer, her mind drifted to Joelâs pretty eyes and toâ
Ugh, he had no reason to be this hot, it was borderline criminal. Especially not after a long day at work, where he undoubtedly had busted his butt ordering others around and hauling stuff across the construction site. Jess peered in the drawer, her mind fixated on the way Joelâs biceps had bulged under his t-shirt. She shouldnât think of him like that, she really shouldnâtâ
âDâyou need some help?â âWhat?â she gulped, her hands randomly grabbing a knife, and he hissed at the sting it caused. âI was justââ âCarl kept the bottle opener on the side oâthe fridge,â Joel told her as he made his way towards the sink and gestured at the drawer. âNo need for searchinâ in there.â
Ah. Of course. Her father had been practical about life. He surely would have hated to spend hours searching for a bottle opener. Tears burned behind her eyes and Jess quickly grabbed the object from its place against the fridge. After lifting the cap from both bottles, she offered one beer to Joel.
âThank you darlinâ,â Joel rumbled, leaning against the kitchen counter before taking a sip. As he studied her with his dark eyes, Jess busied herself with inspecting the shallow cut she had made in her fingers. It drew some blood and she hissed at the sight. She was many things and possessed many talents, but bloodâespecially her ownâalways made her knees weak. And not the good kind of weak.
âSâjust a little cut,â Joel remarked with a small smirk. âHold it under the tap and youâre fine.â âIâm not one of your men,â she countered with a huff, eyeing him defiantly. âI donât haul dangerous stuff around all day.â âGlad yâdonât,â he murmured, while planting his beer on the counter and turning on the faucet. Without ceremony, he got hold of her hand and pushed it under the cold stream. âI donât think youâd be of use at the side,â he continued. âYouâd keep hurtinâ yâself.â Would have tâfire you on your first dayâŠ.â
That remained to be seen. If Joel stayed out of her way, she would be fine. If not⊠Well, then she was fuckedâand again not the good kind.
Jess observed the water as it poured over their hands and slowly turned into a pleasant temperature. After a short while Joel pulled her fingers close and inspected the damage. âSâfine,â he concluded before shutting off the tap. âIt doesnât even bleed, see?â âAre you judging me, Miller?!â âFâcourse not,â he replied as he retrieved his hand and dried it on his shirt. Jessâher own fingers still hovering over the sink, dripping with waterâcouldnât help but notice that his hands were littered with scars, roughened from his days at work. âI donât believe you,â she quipped, narrowing her eyes. She reached for the kitchen towel. âRemember Iâm a highschool teacher, Joel. I can smell lies and omitted truths from a mile away.â âYeah, I was told to be careful around you,â he replied with a grin as he leaned against the kitchen counter. âTeachinâ these unruly kids like my daughter must be a callinâ or somethinâ, I really couldnât.â âAh, theyâre not that bad,â Jess said. âI can boss them around all day, just like you do with your crew.â âWhyâd you think Iâd do that, huh?â âI got it from a very reliable source,â Jess said as she fetched her own beer from the counter and took a sip. As the rich, deep flavor swirled through her mouth, she eyed her fatherâs friendâs handsome features. âI imagine you had the same source,â she mused with a smile. âTell me⊠What do you know about me that you probably shouldnât?â
Joel sipped from his beer and observed her with an amused twinkle in his eyes. There were a thousand things sheâd rather not have him know. The first and obvious one was the fact that she had a crush on him, but after that there were a few cringeworthy childhood memories sheâd rather forget. It would be embarrassing if Joel knew how she had caught herself in barbed wire during one summerâtrespassing farmer Jackâs property had seemed a good idea, until the world turned upside downâor how accidentally had dyed her hair orange instead of blonde.
âWhy are you lookinâ at me? Iâm not tellinâ you,â Joel finally remarked with a vague smile. âPromised him not to.â âAha! So he did tell you stuff he shouldnât!â âNot much,â Joel admitted, despite his previous statement not to reveal any of the information he knew. The twinkle in his eyes was gone and now was replaced with genuine concern. âJust that he hoped Adam takes good care of you.â
Though Joel couldnât know about their separation, his revelation still stung. Jess shrugged and bit on her lip. âHe never told me that.. Did dadâCarlâhave his doubts?â âSânot my place to say,â Joel confessed, his brows furrowing together. He shuffled on his feet and watched Jess sink to her knees to check the oven. The smell of pepperoni pizza filled the kitchen.
âAlmost,â she commented quietly, her mind still stuck at Joelâs remark. It didnât surprise her that her father had worried about her relationship with Adam; usually when her mother pressed her to do somethingâlike pursuing a relationship with Adamâher father had been against the idea. Jess had often wondered if this had become her parentâs typical dynamic or if they truly were two opposites in every choice life had to offer.
âYour dad was somethinâ,â Joel changed the subject. âMust be weird fâyou, to be back here. With him not beinâ around here.â âYeah, it is,â Jess agreed with a heavy heart. She looked up at him through her lashes. âI miss him terribly and to be honest I donât want to be hereâno offense of course. Itâs justâŠâ she heaved a weary sigh while her gaze swept through the kitchen. âEverything reminds me of him.â She rose to her feet and retrieved a plate from one of the cabinets. Joel watched her as she placed it in the sink and opened the tap. âHeating the plate will keep your pizza warm,â Jess explained as she waited for the water to get hot. âI learned that from a chef I once dated. He was an ass, but he did teach me a useful trick or two.â âNever thought of that,â Joel murmured. âCold pizza ainât that bad, why complicate it?â Jess laughed at that. âI bet single dads donât have time to complicate their dinners,â she told him as she dried the hot plate and fetched dadâs mittens from a drawer to retrieve the pizza from the oven. âGive it a try, Miller,â she teased as she handed him a mitten and his plate. âIt wonât kill you.â
Joel, Sarah and Jess spent the evening like a normal family wouldâat Sarahâs request they watched the rest of Legally Blonde while Joel ate his late dinner. Though the latter wouldnât tell Jess if the heated plate had made his pizza better, Jess liked to think that it had. After Legally Blonde had ended, Sarah told her father and their new friend about her day at school and Jess was obliged to share the details of her trip from Staten Island to Austin. Jess could not bring herself to explain her breakup with Adamâit would surely result in a tsunami of tearsâso when the topic landed on her ex she simply stated that her fiancĂ© had been too busy to help her out. Though Sarah seemed to accept the story right away and chatted about Carlâs tendency to hoard stuff he liked, Jess felt Joelâs eyes burning on her. He probably sensed there was more to it, but he didnât press her to share. She would probably have to tell him the truth, in time. But for now, his birthday turned out to be the perfect diversion for unwanted questions.
It was around half past ten when Jess found herself leaning against the doorframe of her porch, waving at Sarah who had just ran across the street with her fatherâs keys. Joel had stepped down from her porchâabout to follow his daughterâbut had paused at her lawn. âSheâs a great kid,â Jess told Joel as they watched Sarah disappear behind the front door. âI know a lot of teens, but Sarahâs one of a kind.â âYeah,â he agreed quietly as he pushed his hands in the pockets of his jeans. âDonât know what Iâd do without her, yâknow?â âWell, for one you would not get roasted all the timeâŠ.â Joel chuckled. âI could do without being called old, yeahâŠâ He shuffled on his feet. âListen, I wanted to thank you. For takinâ care of her and everythinâ. You didnât have to.â âItâs okay,â Jess said with a grin. âI didnât mind.â âAt least let me pay you back,â Joel offered, his right hand shifting to his back pocket and retrieving his wallet, which was in a rugged, worn state. âNo!â Jess cried out as she raised her hands defensively. âNot a chance in hell. Weâre good. I have to thank you for the company, especially on your birthday!â Joel shrugged and his hands fumbled over the worn leather. âI wouldnât have done anythinâ special,â he confessed. âNot after a twelve-hour shift. Probably would have ended up on the couch, watchinâ somethinâ stupid.â âLegally Blonde doesnât count as stupid?!â she teased with a smile and was awarded with a cute grin. âIt was okay,â Joel concluded. âI was enjoyinâ the company, Young.â
There was a short silence in which their eyes met and Jess almost drowned in the beautiful molten chocolate hues. âBefore I forget; hereâs my number,â Joel murmured as he retrieved a business card from his wallet. âJust in case. Yâdad would want me to keep an eye on you.â âVery fancy,â Jess commented as she took the cardâcareful not to brush her fingers across his. âWas an idea of your dad,â Joel explained. âHe told me I needed to be more professional or somethinâ.â âThough I also heard you have no trouble finding work,â Jess replied as she admired the design. It was simple, neatâvery Joel. âSo you could always use the pile my dad probably made you buy to pick up ladies. Chicks like stuff like that.â Joel laughed at that and Jess reveled in the sound. âAnd about keeping an eye on meâŠâ she went on as her gaze met his. âI can take care of myself, Miller. Iâm not a damsel in distress.â âI know that,â he agreed. âYâdad told me as much. But just⊠Donât be stubborn and call me when yâneed me. Or swing by.â
âEven when I have night terrors?â Jess heard herself question, but by the time she realized how flimsyâand filthyâthat must come across, it was too late. She bit on her lip, unsure how she could save herself from her clumsy mouth. Joel didnât seem taken aback by her comment. He grinned broadly, an amused twinkle in his eye. âYeah, Young,â he replied in a soft tone. âEspecially then.â
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Ruffled Feathers đȘ¶
~ Part 30 ~
Summary: Julia Morgan, Bobby's niece, has always been a royal thorn in Dean Winchesters ass since the day they met 1 year ago at Bobby's memorial. She wants to be a hunter, he thinks she's a dumb kid playing dress up. Will she always be seen as an unwanted load in Dean's eyes or will he see something more?
Pairing: Dean x OC
Warnings: Age gap, language, sexual themes (used lightly), physical abuse (Not by Dean).
Word Count: 820
A/N: I know yâall are dying for some Dean and Julia romance but keep in mind this is a slow burn đ„ it will be soon tho I promise :) just hang in there for me lol. Stated as always this story is cross posted on Wattpad. Happy reading! â„ïž
Julia sat in the bunker, her body shaking with quiet sobs. She had barely processed the events of the last few hoursâDean, the fight with Metatron, his death. The image of him collapsing in her arms haunted her, the way his breath had stilled, his body gone cold.
Her heart ached with a deep, crushing weight. She didn't want to believe it was over. Not like this. Dean was always supposed to come back. No matter how bad things got, Dean Winchester always fought his way back.
Sam walked into the room quietly, his face pale and grim. He'd been trying everything he could to figure out a way to fix thisâto bring Dean back from wherever he was. But even his last-ditch effort to summon Crowley seemed futile. Cas is without his grace and Crowley was gone, and so was any chance they had of understanding what had happened to Dean, who is now a demon and is gone.
"Julia," Sam's voice was low and hoarse as he approached, something clenched in his hand.
She looked up, wiping the tears from her cheeks. "What is it?"
Sam hesitated for a moment before handing her the note. "I found this.â Her eyes fell to the note, her hands trembling as she unfolded it and read the farewell Dean left them
Her breath caught in her throat as she read it. Tears welled up again, but this time they weren't just tears of sorrowâthey were anger, frustration, and confusion all rolled into one. She crumpled the note in her hand and looked up at Sam, her eyes blazing.
"We can't just let him go, Sam," she said, her voice breaking. "He's still Dean. I know he's still in there somewhere."
Sam's expression mirrored her despair. "I know. But if the Mark's still got a hold of himâif he's really... different nowâthen he could be dangerous. We have to be smart about this."
Julia stood, pacing in frustration. "Smart? He's out thereâGod knows whereâand he's not himself. He could hurt someone orâ" Her voice trailed off, the reality sinking in. She clenched her fists. "We can't let that happen. We have to find him, Sam."
Sam sighed, running a hand through his hair. "I agree. But we need a plan. Crowley's in this too. Wherever Dean is, Crowley's not far behind. He's been playing some long game, and we need to figure out what it is."
Julia nodded, determination hardening her features. "Then we start there. Crowley might think he's in control, but Dean's not going to follow his rules."
Meanwhile, elsewhere, Crowley had indeed taken Dean in, though it was more for his own benefit than Dean's. The King of Hell saw potential in Deanâpower, anger, and the Mark of Cain fueling something dark and unstoppable. Crowley imagined a future where they ruled together, two forces of chaos and strength.
But Dean was different now. The Mark had twisted him, made him colder, less tethered to his old life. Despite Crowley's best efforts, Dean wasn't interested in playing his games.
In the dimly lit, demon-infested bar where they had holed up, Crowley leaned back in his chair, watching Dean with a keen eye as he downed another glass of whiskey. They'd been traveling together for days now, and Crowley had tried every trick in the book to gain Dean's loyalty. He offered Dean power, freedom, anything he wantedâbut Dean didn't care.
"Squirrel", Crowley drawled, trying once again to strike up conversation. "We could be something. A real partnershipâruling Hell together. The First Blade, the Markâit's all yours. You and me, making Hell ours."
Dean barely looked up from his drink, his face devoid of any real interest. "I don't need a partner, Crowley. And I sure as hell don't need you telling me what to do."
Crowley's expression flickered with frustration. "I'm not trying to control you. I'm offering you the keys to the kingdom. You've got power now, more than you've ever had. Think about what we could do together."
Dean stood up suddenly, his presence menacing and unsettling, even to Crowley. "I don't care about ruling Hell. I do what I want, when I want. You think you can leash me? You're wrong."
Crowley watched him with a sharp, calculating look, but inside, he knew. Even as a demon, Dean Winchester wasn't someone who could be easily controlled. Crowley was trying to forge a bond that simply wasn't there. Dean had his own path, and it didn't involve following anyone's ordersâespecially not Crowley's.
As Dean stormed out of the bar, Crowley sat back with a sigh. He'd gotten more than he bargained for when he resurrected Dean with the Mark of Cain. Now, it seemed, even Crowley had no idea how far this new version of Dean would go.
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Iâm Not What You Need (But I Am) (Touya/OC) (2/2)
Touya gets his real birthday gift.
tags// semi-public sex, dirty talk wc// 3121
Part 1 AO3
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Just when Eun reached the bathroom, a familiar red feather zipped past her nose, tickling as it went. She paused with her hand on the knob and turned to Hawks with eyes too wide to be innocent. Judging by the smirk on his face, he knew what she was up to already, while Akari, just coming to a stop behind him, didnât seem to.
âRunning from the party already?â
She squinted at him. He stuck his hands in his pockets and tilted his head, wearing a look that at one point would have soured her mood. Now, however, she struggled to keep her glare while her cheeks started to burn. Akari laughed and stepped between them.
âWe just wanted to say how amazing the show was,â she said, beaming at the younger woman, âYou have a wonderful voice! Did Touya love it?â
âOh, Iâm sure he did,â Hawks said, still with the damned smugness. Eunâs cheeks darkened more but she returned Akariâs smile, if not somewhat sheepishly.
âThank you! For coming to the party too. I think Touya is having a great time, actually.â
âOr will.â
She gave Hawks another glare when he peeked over Akariâs shoulder, but then a quiet thump behind the door reminded her to hurry it up. Akari glanced at the door, then at Eunâs hand on the knob, then returned to her face. An awkward moment passed, Hawksâ smirk deepened, and realization washed over Akariâs expression, the smile suddenly awkward with knowing. She spun around and pushed Hawks shoulders to get him to head back outside, then fanned her face and nodded to Eun.
âSorry! Clearly you need the restroom. Weâll see you outside!â Hawks started laughing and Akari muttered at him angrily, too quietly for Eun to hear but obviously embarrassed.
The coast finally cleared, Eun let out a sigh of relief and opened the door. Once there was enough space for her to step through, a hand gripped her wrist and yanked her inside, swiftly shutting the door behind her. Her back was pressed to it before the reverberation from the slam finished ringing off the walls, no time to worry about the whole party hearing it as Touya pinned her with a bruising kiss.
Her mind raced with her heart, only speeding up and spinning out of control when he gripped her waist in one hand, the other holding her wrist to his chest. She squeezed her eyes shut as he bit her lip and tried to pry open her mouth. Meanwhile, his fingers dug into her side and grabbed at her like heâd die otherwise. She squirmed and groaned in protest, the sound bordering on a moan, and he had little choice but to relent when she pushed against his shoulder. The kiss hadnât lasted long, yet his chest continued to heave after he pulled back just enough for her to speak.
âSlow down, would you,â she huffed. His gaze darted up from her lips and she shivered when his bright blues were somehow darker than her own eyes, not just from how large his pupils were, but from the glower he gave her. A chill ran down her spine, a tingling combination of anticipation and cold wood against the span of her bare back. He straightened just to look down his nose at her and released her wrist so he could hold her waist in both hands, then slipped them down to pull her hips firmly into his. Her breath hitched and his glower slipped into a smirk, although the irritated glint in his eye remained.
âI wouldâŠâ he growled, âI would have preferred to fuck this morning, but someone left me hanging all day.â He grinded against her to punctuate his point, watching in amusement when she bit her lip upon feeling the raging boner straining behind denim. Eun squirmed again and he held on tight enough to leave marks, his jaw clenching.
âFine, fine! Just not against this cold-ass door,â she said, a slight quiver in her voice paired with a cute pout.
Too hard to argue, Touya wrenched her away from the door, startling a squeak out of her, and pushed her toward the counter. Her dress protected her thighs from the cold marble, but only momentarily as he spun her around and bunched up the front of her skirt. His warm hand pressed into the soft, squishy spot below her toned stomach to move her away from the marble and against him, where he tried not to grind against her. He had to resist the urge to nut on the back so graciously presented to him, but when he nuzzled into the crook of her neck and breathed in her perfume, his hips moved on their own. Fingers toyed with the top of her panties as he dragged the length of his clothed dick along her ass and watched her reflection in the mirror.
Eun was biting her lip again, but it did nothing to quiet her moans, nor the whimpers when he slipped his hand under her black cotton underwear and prodded at her mons, not moving any lower. There was a lot that could make his girl nice and wet for him, and simple anticipation was high on the list. Or maybe it was just him being mean that turned her on; unsurprising considering her interesting list of kinks.
It didnât take too much teasing until she grabbed his arm and let out a whine so pitifully needy, it made his cock twitch. In such a small bathroom, he could smell her arousal hanging in the air, mingling with sweat still on her skin from the performance. And he didnât really care, considering his stinking flesh once burned and it never stopped her. He smiled against her neck and retracted his hand only long enough to tug her underwear down her thighs, letting them fall to her feet. He ran his hand over her stomach, watching the mirror intently as her body pulsed with quickened breaths, then traveled over her hipbone, still too far from where she wanted him. He squeezed the junction where her leg met her hip, then slid his hand along the crease, his long fingers gently pressing until they found their mark.
Touya cupped her bare cunt, groaning and rolling his eyes as his fingers slipped among her drenched folds. His mouth moved to her ear, where he nipped at her earlobe before openly panting. She turned, her eyes closed, so he pressed his face to the side of her head, lips to her ear.
âYouâre so wet for me, baby,â he said, voice low and gravelly like heâd just woken up. He felt her twitch in his hand, so he dragged his fingers through her folds again, smirking at the faint lewd sounds her arousal made. She tilted her head slightly, nudging his face as if to beg for more talk.
âIâve barely touched you,â he said, feigning admonishment, âItâs probably from dancing around on stage for all those people, huh? In your pretty, little dress with no bra.â At mention of her bra, he bit her earlobe again, this time just as his fingertip glanced over her clit. Her hips jerked and she briefly went on her tippy toes, only for her body to realize it didnât want to escape and drop back down. He tentatively gave the bundle of nerves more attention, rubbing gentle circles, breaking to run through her lips, and then massaging again. Her moans grew short and higher pitched. He continued his verbal onslaught despite slow, deliberate movements.
âSome of those lyricsâŠItâs like you were begging me to fuck you right there. Youâd like that, letting everyone watch me finger-fuck this tight, little pussy. Not a question, I can tell by all your slutty moaning.â
He suddenly pulled his fingers away and shoved them into her mouth, smirking when she choked in surprise. She was going to cover her mouth upon realizing she was being loud, but he anticipated the reaction. He pressed down on her tongue and caressed the muscle, letting her taste herself. She gagged softly when he slipped his fingers in farther, but only briefly before sticking them into his own mouth. He pulled them out with a pop, smirking when she pouted again.
âWhyâd you stop?â she asked, squirming.
âBecause Iâm ready to rip this fucking dress off you,â he said, only half joking. She narrowed her eyes.
âDonât you dare.â
âWhat, I donât get to tear open the wrapping on my birthday gift?â
Touya didnât wait for a retort. He tugged the bow above her butt, watching the fabric loosen as it came undone and form a gap. Slipping his hands into that gap, he ran them up, over her ribs, over her breasts, and to her shoulders, where he pushed the dress down her arms. The movement was quick yet careful, knowing sheâd atomize his dick if he ruined it. He kept his eyes on her reflection as the black fabric fell away, revealing her pale, toned body and perky breasts. It was easy to forget her tits were fairly sized, easily a handful, with how many compression tops and sports bras she wore, and the black further slimmed her figure. Licking his lips, he slipped the dress off her arms fully and let it drop around her feet with the underwear.
Eun saw his face in the mirror and shivered, feeling a bit like prey now that she was fully exposed, but she was also happy. For all their issues, and even though he was mostly just horny in that moment, there was something in his expression, something a little deeper. Appreciation? She leaned back a little more against him, smiling as his hands drifted over her form as if memorizing every inch of her skin. His warm palms cupped her breasts, squeezed lightly, then ran back down her sides to her waist. Then, his gaze flickered up to meet hers, but she couldnât read his expression before he spun her around to face him. Whatever it had been before, it was hungry now.
âWas this worth the wait?â she asked, if just to spare herself a moment before he devoured her whole. He didnât respond with words, just leaned in to kiss her throat, scraping his teeth along her jugular in a way that made her toes curl. She lifted her chin to give him space but tugged at his t-shirt. He moved to her jaw, where he trailed kisses until their lips met properly. The kiss was not gentle despite the lead-up, but sharp and demanding. It left her lips puffy and sore and lipstick on his teeth, but she couldnât stop smiling. They parted only so she could pull his shirt over his head, then he pulled her chin down with his thumb and slipped his tongue into her mouth. She pressed her tongue to his and moaned at the mingling of their spit. Her hands went to his neck first, as if to keep him lip-locked forever, but a sort of curiosity took over and she touched his chest.
Much like herself, Touya looked thin in his clothes, but good genes and a private gym filled him out nicely. Even before, heâd been toned and surprisingly strong. Now, he had a heroâs body; firm pecks she pressed her breasts against, abs just rippling enough that running her fingers over them made her brain go blank, and a deadly v that made her glad he needed belts but rarely wore them at home. She explored until neither of them could bear it any longer.
He sucked her tongue into his mouth and moaned when her fingers brushed past his navel and tugged at his jeans. He pulled away just a little, panting heavily between smaller kisses, and groaned again when she unbuttoned them and pushed them down off his hips with his boxers. Finally, his erection sprang free, the tip angry and red and smeared with precum. It bobbed against his stomach, twitching with need and impatience, not grateful until it got what it wanted.
Eun let Touya lift her onto the counter and loosely wrapped her legs around him. He groaned when she reached down to touch him, her fingers dancing over the barbells lining the underside of his cock. He scooped up her legs and watched her direct him to her sopping hole, needing to do little else than stop it from bouncing up. When the tip caught, he realized she was just as impatient as him, practically sucking him in as he slid inside. He moaned quietly as her walls quivered around him, tight yet inviting after riling her up so much, and she whined louder the deeper he went, each step of his Jacobâs Ladder driving her crazier. He was nearly balls deep when she let out a sound that the neighbors could hear. Although he loved teasing her, he didnât terribly want his mother to hear.
He hissed and covered her mouth with his hand, careful of her nose once the panic wore off. She blinked at him with bleary eyes, and he slowly removed his hand.
âBetter be quiet. Wouldnât want your brother to hear,â he said, masking his worry with their usual game. Her already flushed cheeks darkened more, and she nodded. She bit her lip when he continued, holding back another moan when he bottomed out. He had to hold back his own, his eyes briefly rolling back at the overwhelming feeling of being completely sheathed inside her.
âFuck, you feel so good,â he continued, âSo fucking tight, but you take it so well.â He emphasized the compliment by pulling back just a little to thrust into her. She squeaked quietly, leaning back to hold herself up on the counter. He hooked her legs over his elbows and held her thighs, her legs splayed open so he could watch himself fuck into her. She watched too, enamored with the way her cunt greedily took every inch with each slow thrust. After a few warm-ups, Touya picked up the pace a bit, pulling out more just to drill back into her. Soon, her legs shook, and each thrust announced itself with the slap of skin on skin and a mess of wet noises when her sweet, sticky juices coated his cock and ran down her ass.
Eun tried to stay quiet, attempted to cover her mouth only for the hand to slip back to propping her up. His name came up between her whines and moans, pathetic whimpers and pleading to not stop, never stop.
âYou fuck me so good,â she said, drawing out the oo as she bounced on his dick, her head lulling back.
The novelty of watching wore off and he pulled her closer, wrapping her legs around him again so he could fuck deeper and harder, his cock dragging along her walls and hitting the right spots with each brutal thrust. She sat up more, one hand gripping the edge of the counter and the other on his neck, occasionally slipping over his shoulder or chest and leaving pink scratches in its wake. The sting only spurred him on, made him growl as he rutted into her like an animal. He kept talking too, muttering into her ear without truly knowing what he was saying, just that it made her pussy clench deliciously.
âYou take cock so fucking well. Want you to cum all over it⊠Iâll make you lick it clean. Would you like that, slut? Yeah, you would.â
It wasnât long until they were both close. Eun abandoned all attempts to be quiet, so he kept his hand over her mouth, her still panting hot breath into his palm as she whined for him. He struggled as well, his strings of filthy words often broken by moans, so he pressed his lips to his knuckles. His blue eyes bore into hers, both their pupils blown wide and their faces pink and shiny from sweat. Her muffled whines grew higher and closer together, and he felt her tensing with each wanton thrust. Tears welled from the all-consuming pleasure, the hot coil tightening in her belly and threatening to snap each time the tip of his cock hit the deepest parts of her. She breathed heavily through her nose as her body started to find the edge.
Suddenly, Eun knocked his hand away and pulled him in by the neck, smashing her lips to his. He groaned into the kiss as she slipped her tongue into his mouth, then growled and forced hers back so he could taste every sound she made. They fell into an open-mouth kiss as the edge neared, his movements turning sloppy. When her moans picked up, they kept their lips pressed together, swallowing the otherâs noise. Her expression twisted and she half-screamed when the tension in her gut finally snapped. His cock twitched violently as he fucked through the crashing waves of her orgasm, her body jolting against his and her hips stuttering when meeting his thrusts. She was still cumming when he came as well. Hot, thick spend splashed her insides, some spilling out each time he pulled out a little too far, and her pussy continued to spasm, milking his balls until not a drop remained. It left him sore and fulfilled, although only until the party was over and they could retire to his room.
She kissed him sweetly as they came back down, both their bodies slick with sweat and their lungs struggling to catch up. He wrapped her arms around his neck and leaned into her embrace, still inside her. She rubbed her leg against his thigh slowly and ran her fingers through his hair until he was ready.
He straightened up and slowly slipped out of her, drawing a small shiver from her as his spend started to drool out of her. Before she wasted too much, he collected the spill on his fingers and pushed it back into her. She quivered again as he stuffed her with them, paused to grab her panties from the floor, and slipped them back onto her. She stared at him, a little bewildered, but didnât argue.
He helped her back into her dress and although she didnât need to, she helped him dress as well, sneaking in a cheeky touch and teasing here and there. He took it as confirmation that round two would come around.
âFor the record,â Touya said once his pants were zipped up from pissing, âThis was worth the wait.â
Eun finished fixing her makeup and looked over her shoulder at him, smiling warmly.
âBut next year I want my morning fuck.â
#original character#oc x canon#eun mha#sabuwrites#touya x oc#touya todoroki#dabi x oc#written ages ago but never posted it here
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Year coming to a close and I wanted to ask;;;
1. Favorite fic of the year.
2. Favorite fic of your own from this year.
3. Favorite writer of the year.
4. Favorite new writer of the year.
5. Favorite headcannon of the year.
6. Favorite event of the year.
First of all, thank you for your ask, Anon đ There's nothing better on a lazy winter day than replying fun asks like yours.
Disclaimer: I've read many, many wonderful fics this year, but right now I'm sitting under a blanket and my belly is full with delicious Christmas cookies (read: sugar coma), so my brain is not working too well. If your fic is not here and you know I read it (I try to leave comments on all the fics I read đ), it simply means that I'm getting senile and you can throw things at me (preferably cookies) and call me names ("Queen Under the Mountain" is the one I'm quite fond of, btw).
1. Favorite fic of the year.
This is one of the toughest questions in the world! How about I give you three fics I read this year instead? đ In Whiskey, Wisdom by @joyfullynervouscreator - Bofur x OC, fake relationship, idiots in love, Gimli as a matchmaker, amazing worldbuilding. This is an ongoing fic with but I promise you, it is worth it! đNaughty Thoughts by @linasofia - Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 - It all starts with a horse and its criminally handsome owner named Richard... RA x Reader, E-rated fic. 18+! I'm not normally into RPF, but this fic made me seriously question my usual preferences đ„đ„đ„
đ Lonely Souls by @dustbunnyprophet-blog on AO3 - Thorin/Ori, Modern AU, slow burn, reincarnation of sorts, feels, great fic idea. I'm not going to tell you what it's about (no spoilers!), but... give it a try.
2. Favorite fic of your own from this year. It won't be a surprise to some of you, but it's All Is Fair in Love and Trade - AO3 link. Thorin x Ragna (Dwarf OC), lots of negotiations, pining, some angst and a lot of steamy E-rated scenes. 18+!
3. Favorite writer of the year.
Okay, now I'm sure these questions were made to show how pathetic my memory is (think: swiss cheese). I love many fic writers for different reasons and it's impossible to pick just one. It's as if you let me into a library and told me to choose just ONE book. Impossible! I'd take all of them and go home đ I'm going to throw some lovely authors at you now but this is not even a half of people whose works I like to read: @legolasbadass @laurfilijames @fizzyxcustard @middleearthpixie @gwen-ever@i-did-not-mean-to @thewarriorandtheking @shalinizhara @linasofia @xxbyimm @bitter-sweet-farmgirl @kibleedibleedoo @guardianofrivendell @justfollowtheroad @shrimpsthings @sketch-and-write-lover @theblogofdurin @luna-xial @fromthedeskoftheraven @scariusaquarius @middleearthmama @midearthwritings @dumbassunderthemountain ... and that's just a short list of blogs off the top of my head. Send me an ask if you're searching for an author specializing in a specific kind of ships.
4. Favorite new writer of the year.
Oh, no! Not again! You're trying to trick me, fiend! ;) Jokes aside, quite a few of the names that I have already mentioned above fit that category, but there is one I'd like to give a shout out to: @elisethewildwolf . Why? Mostly because I admire how much they have developed throughout the year and how much they achieved. This fic author is 14 years old and has already written so many different stories for various fandoms! When I was 14, I wrote one extremely pathetic and very cringey fic that may or may have focused on pining after Luke Skywalker that I'd rather forget so I'm really happy to see someone like Elise who does it so much better! đ
5. Favorite headcanon of the year.
My favorite headcanon this year is the cutest canon x canon ship in the world: Boffins. Do yourself a favor and watch The Hobbit focusing on the relationship between Bilbo and Bofur and tell me if it's not the sweetest thing ever. The initial teasing, the protective!Bofur, the awkward Bilbo... Just watch it. I dare you! đ
6. Favorite event of the year.
Writer's Month 2021 - here's my masterlist. I had tons of fun writing all those little fics and getting an immense amount of feedback. Love you all! đ
Thank you everyone for keeping me company this year and being wonderful! Let's hope for an even better 2022! đđđ
#ask#fanfiction#lotr#tolkien#the hobbit#bofur#thorin#ask game#writer ask game#richard armitage#2021#tolkien dwarves#fanfiction writers#writers on tumblr
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hehe đ„đȘđđđđđâŸđđ§đ„ all of those for sweetheart pleaseeee
this is gonna be long. đ
but here comes sweetheart! my sweetheart is AMAB and uses he/him pronouns, so if that's something any of u don't prescribe to, you're free to scroll. đ
đ„ COLLISON - what emotions do they have trouble dealing with?
oooo boy
so, he quietly deals with A LOT of imposter syndrome. it's something he's struggled a lot with growing up â he's always been in some kind of position of power or excelling at something (because he won't let himself be inferior). lots of doubting his abilities in comparison to his colleagues. because of this, "fake it til you make it" has been a lifelong motto of his. he puts on bravado, confidence, and has a flare for the dramatics in an attempt to trick his brain into believing the shit ppl say about his talents. and it works! most of the time.
horrible at asking ppl for help. we can see that with milo and the shade situation, he's always trying to worm the support out of people without him asking for it (milo saw right through that. sweetheart isn't very used to that. he found it kinda hot). asking for help goes hand-in-hand with his imposter syndrome â he feels like he could be doing better, like why does he need to ask anyone for help? people are expecting a lot from him all the time, especially being this young, hotshot detective. but, good news; he's improving on this! i like to headcanon that cam was the one who provided sweetheart with that copy of jett's report.
oh but he didn't ask cam for that, oh no. he implied that he needed help and cam read him to filth. it's progress.
đȘ FAMILY - what is their family like? what is your ocs relationship to them? does your oc have any siblings?
walk with me for this
he has two dads, his bio one is divorced and remarried to his now stepdad. that happened when sweetheart was like 10.
bio dad is an air elemental, stepdad is a magneto energetic. bio mom is unempowered.
he has a stepsister who's like 10 years younger than him.
sweetheart has a good relationship with his dads, loves them to pieces. him and his mom's relationship is a bit... rocky, but it's not terrible. him and his stepsister don't really talk much?? only at holiday parties or whatever. it's fine tho, they're chill, she's a vibe.
đ BIRTHDAY CAKE - when is their birthday? do they like celebrating it?
may 9th. he doesn't have strong feelings about his birthday, but he'll still celebrate it with like... those cute little vanilla cakes with the glazed fruit on top.
đ MOON - what is your oc's greatest wish? how far are they willing to go for it?
justice? righting wrongs? sweetheart's willing to go hella far if it means bringing justice where it's deserved. we can see that with him bending the rules at DUMP to figure out what the hell happened at the inversion. you can see that with him breaking into milo's house to get information about the shade. now â should he have broken into milo's apartment to begin with? no, like, there were much easier ways for him to go about that.
but here we go again with his flare for the dramatics, his blazing determination, and his unyielding sense of justice, and you have the concoction for a questionably justifiable breaking-and-entering.
đ SEE-NO-EVIL - whats a side of your oc that they don't want to show other people?
everything in regards to his feelings of inferiority and the fact his façade is... well, a façade.
đ SPEAK-NO-EVIL - what is something your oc will refuse to stay quiet about?
people getting fucked over, for lack of a better response đ he hates watching a situation get taken advantage of, he loathes the feeling of sitting back and doing nothing to help. sweetheart feels so strongly about the inversion because that's exactly what's happening. he really wishes he could shout from the rooftops "hey, this is fucked! we should do something about this!", but for the sake of his job, he has to work in secrecy. is burning extremely bright abt it though.
đ HEAR-NO-EVIL - what is the worse thing your oc could hear from someone?
"who cares?" "not my problem." and stuff along that nature.
who cares? he cares. sweetheart cares so much and it's both his strength and his weakness. if there's a problem, he's gonna solve it. if there's anything he can do to get people out of a shitty situation, he'll devise a plan to do it. hearing others give up so easily makes no sense to him â he doesn't get along well with nonchalant, unfeeling people.
⟠BASEBALL - can they play sports? what is their best position if they play a team sport? what's their strong suit (speed, power etc.)?
his family LOVES sports (specifically basketball) so that's kinda been an ongoing theme for him all-throughout childhood.
sweetheart always liked basketball, knew sooo many things about the game â never wanted to play it though. so when he was in middle school, he was their basketball team's manager. pretty solid at it!
in high school, he played volleyball and ended up on his school's jv team. he was their libero đȘđœ his reaction time is pretty short, so the speed and consistency in which he played was a huge strength.
đ CROWN - what does your oc want to be remembered as? why?
sweetheart has always lived his life in service of others. he doesn't see that as a bad thing at all; he went into this job as a detective to help the society he lives in. because of all this, i think he'd wanna be remembered as a being someone who saved/helped people.
đ§ WRENCH - are they good at fixing relationships? or do they tend to avoid doing so?
yeah, id say he's pretty good at that. that's the whole thing he's got going on with his mom, their relationship has its faults but he makes sure it doesn't completely fail. if there's good people in his life and he cares about them, sweetheart's the type to initiate conversations and talk about what they can fix. very confrontational.
đ„ FIRE - do they have any self destructive tendencies? what habits do they have that hinder them from becoming their best self?
painful insomniac, he picked up the habit of working out to relieve stress in high school and it's... still here. gets ugly sometimes. him and damien are unfortunately shaking hands in my head.
#redacted asmr#r.thoughts#my r.hcs#redacted sweetheart#asks#zozo :D#so yeah!#there's my boy.... i love him#he's a little firecracker and i think that's great#still doesn't have a name tho#oops#redacted oc
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clay can be shipped with the godskins (obviously) and also marika. AND. if he was dark souls 3 world. he'd like leonhard and rosaria. but also depending on how messmer works i'd like to see them together. but we know nothing about messmer. but clay can handle anyone it's all a matter of if they can handle CLAY....
#clyde.txt#đ„oc: come watch me burn#i started a mariclay section on their playlist and also found a leonhard/clay song.... it's all coming together
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Playing with Fire: Part 7 (I think)
A/N: Everyone in this story is 18+, if minors are mentioned they arenât getting in any weird, sick, twisted situations with adults. I also use female pronouns for the reader and the reader may be a bit OC. I would also prefer that minors DO NOT interact with this at all. Thank you.
Warnings: Dream based, Actors mixed with characters, College AU!, Mixed universes, Raffey Cassidy stands in as Sprite, Swearing, gaslighting, manipulation, cheating, mild violence (?), implied sexual content, mentions of bullying, college strife, MCU/X-Men/Spider-Man/Actors mashed in one universe, self- doubt, insecurities, depression, angst, fluff, enemies to lovers, slow burn, family issues, mentions of disabilities, (Please let me know if Iâve missed something too.)
This is a bit of a spicy chapter đđ„đŠ
Will I stop?
âŠ.
âŠFuck.
Alright Iâm not reasionalizing this (yes I am) plus as the years went on weâve relaxed on the touching and flirting, so thatâs good! Iâm doing good! Iâm not a horrible person! Itâs not like Iâm cheating and- and he isnât either. Heâs crazy about Sprite, and he asks for my advice when it comes to her- told him he could ask Ikaris and I stopped talking after that.
Though there was this one time, about a 1œ year into their relationship, he called me extremely frustrated because Sprite decided to stay out super late at some party when he told her not to go. He asked if he could come over .
â1 Âœ years agoâ
âYes! Totally⊠No itâs not too late⊠I know itâs 2:30 in the morning, but my friend needs me, so get your ass over here.â
He came by and collapsed on my small twin sized bed face down into my pillow.
âSure, just make yourself at home.â I laugh sitting in my desk chair. My reward for my sarcasm is a loud muffled groan, âYou want something to drink?â
He nods his head in my pillow, getting up I go get him a glass of orange juice and I canât help the feeling that this is familiar somehow. Dismissing the feeling I go in and nudge his leg, âHere you go bud.â
Sitting up he stares at the glass, âOrange juice? Donât you have anything a bit stronger?â
âI can add soda-â Ah, yes, I remember now, âwhoa, Deja vu.â
âWhat is it?â He watches as I shiver at a thought remembering how the rest of that night went.
âUh nothing, just remembering something is all. So you havenât heard from Sprite since she went to the party?â
He takes a long drink before he answers with a simple, âNope!â
âHmm, well do you want to go and see if sheâs still there?â
âNot really.â
âWhy not?â
âI- IâŠâ He sighs deeply, rubbing his face roughly as he leans forward hiding his face in his hands. I thought he was just trying to organize his thoughts, or was maybe tired because of how late it was, but when I hear small sniffles I know that isnât the case.
ââŠumâŠDruig?â I whisper, putting my hands on his wrists, he tenses at this and I move to sit in front of him on the floor letting him go, softly I say, âSorry, sorry. You donât have to talk or tell me anything, but if you want to Iâll be outside in the living room. Okay?â
He just nods his head and I step out into the living room closing the door behind me. As soon as the door clicks I can hear small sobs coming from the other side and it breaks my heart into pieces, Iâve never felt so useless or helpless. Taking a breath I go sit on the couch and turn on the TV on to let him have his moment in peace. A few minutes later my roommate walks in with one of her friends and both their boyfriends.
âY/N, youâre up?!â She says shocked.
âAnd in the living room.â Her dark haired friend points out dryly, her boyfriend laughs sitting in the chair in the corner.
âHey Jane, Thor, and two people I donât know.â I nod at them in recognition.
âYou donât know me? Everybody whoâs anybody knows me.â The guy with white hair states matter-of-factly.
âIgnore him, I do. He thinks heâs God's gift to man.â She says sitting on his armrest tussling his already messy hair, âIâm Darcy and this annoying guy is Howard.â
âOh, hi.â I give them the best smile I can, but itâs so forced they grimace at me, âSorry, have a lot on my mind right now. Iâm Y/N.â
âYeah, I heard when Jane said your name.â Howard quips as he pulls out a silver flask.
âRight⊠Are you drinking?â
âAlways!â He says proudly sharing the flask with Thor. Looking at Jane she rolls her eyes and goes into the kitchen.
âSo what has you down in the dumps, Y/N/N?â Thorâs voice is loud as he sits in the chair opposite Howard.
âUh, a lot. Iâd rather not get into it right now.â I shift uncomfortably on the couch as I look to my door.
âItâs a guy isnât it?â Darcy says plainly.
âOooooo guy troubles.â Howard adds leaning forward with interest.
âWhat- no no, Iâm not having guy problems. Not saying Iâve never had any, but Iâm not having any right now- Iâm just- itâs⊠I mean I have a friend whoâs a guy, and- and heâs dealing with something. But no, I'm good with my guy. Weâre good. Completely and totally.â
âThat wasnât defensive at all.â Howard smiles as Darcy shoves him.
âHoward, stop being so nosy.â
âCanât help it, babe, and Iâm not sorry.â
âWell what troubles does your friend have?â Thor asks in a calmer tone.
âUm, I- I- I donât think I shouldâŠâ
âOoohh.â Everyone says understandingly.
âYouâre a really good friend, I wouldâve laid out their business like a spreadsheet.â Darcy laughs taking the flask.
âLucky me, huh?â Jane sasses coming to us with a cup of coffee.
âHey, if it wasnât for me you never wouldâve been with that hunk over there, so youâre welcome.â
âThank you.â She smiles into her cup.
âJane, itâs 3 in the morning.â I deadpanned, pointing at her coffee.
âActually itâs 2:58, not quite 3 yet.â
âYou and technicalities.â I roll my eyes at her with a small smile.
She shrugs with a smile while taking another long sip, âIâm so glad itâs the weekend right now, because Iâm going to have a hangover tomorrow.â
âAnd coffee is going to help? You might as well just keep drinking.â Howard tosses the flask to Thor, but I catch it on the way, âWhoa, hey!â
âI need this more than you guys.â I say chugging the contents. After four gulps I take a breath and groan as it hits my throat and stomach, âJack Danielâs, smooth.â
ââŠWow, okay I wasnât expecting that- Jane you didnât say your roommate was cool!â Darcy gets up and sits down next to me on the couch smiling impressed.
âSheâs not.â Jane replies at a loss for words.
âOh, thank you Jane.â I give her a face and she tries to find the right words.
âNo-no, no no, youâre cool, sure, but⊠not like⊠in a kind of- I IâŠâ
âItâs fine Jane, I know what you mean.â I wave her off and she gratefully takes a breath, âI donât always drink but when I do I do it for a reason.â
âWhat reason is that?â Howard asks.
âI have no idea, I thought itâd be cool to say that.â I laugh out looking at their faces.
âSheâs gone.â
âOh yeah.â Darcy pats her knees and stands up, âCome on lightweight.â
âNo, I'm fine! No one gets drunk that fast.â I sit back on the couch handing her the empty flask.
âUh- huh.â Howard isnât convinced so he goes into the kitchen, he comes back with a pb & j handing it to me, âEat this, please.â
âFine.â I roll my eyes while taking the sandwich, âIâm not drunk, but I wonât ever say no to food.â
âSo.â I donât miss the look Darcy gives Howard as she sits back down.
âSo?â I say taking a bite.
âWhatâs bothering your friend?â
âHis girlfriend decided that she- oh you sneaky bitch.â I glare at her as she and Howard laugh at my slip up, âAnd I saw the look you gave him too!â
âYou caught it but couldnât process it fast enough, Y/N youâre not sober.â Howard chuckles as he continues, âEven though you knocked this back like water, I have to say Iâm impressed. Not many can do that, just eat and hit the hay.â
âOkay dad.â I roll my eyes.
âDonât call him that.â Darcy says in a serious tone, âPlease, donât.â
âS- sorry.â
âTold you Iâm a âdaddyâ!â
âOh my god.â Darcy sighs out rolling her eyes, âHoward. Shut up. Go make me a sandwich.â
âUgh, fine.â Getting up he complains to the kitchen and while heâs making the sandwich, âWork work work, thatâs all I do, but am I appreciated? No! Work me day and night to the bone, and for what? Some sex? Please!â
I look at the small group and they all share a knowing smile and laugh at his antics. Jane waves it off telling me not to play him any mind.
âSo this is a normal occurrence?â
âOh yeah.â Thor confirms smirking, âY/N, I have to ask. Is this about Barry?â
âUhâŠâ
âNever mind.â He says, shaking his head, not pushing it any further. Nodding my head in thanks I try to stop a yawn thatâs coming up.
âYou should probably go to sleep, Y/N.â Jane says, looking at my face with slight concern.
âNo no, Iâm fffiii~~~*yawn*~~~ne. Not tired at all!â I have a dopey smile on my face as I look at her through blurry eyes.
âGo to bed kid.â Howard gives Darcy her sandwich and then tries to usher me to my room.
âBut- but!â
âNo âbutsâ, go to bed, you can play when the sun is up.â He opens my door pushing me inside and promptly closing it behind me. I can hear him snickering, Iâm about to go back outside when I hear soft snores.
âWhat the fuck! Whoâs in my room!â I panic and stop replaying the thought, âWhatâs with all the deja vu tonight?â
Looking at my bed I see Druigâs fallen asleep⊠on my bed, and itâs the cutest shit Iâve ever seen! Heâs laying on his side, wrapped in my throw blanket and all I can see is from his eyes up, walking over, I kneel down in front of him and decide to watch him sleep.
Is that creepy? Yes, but Iâm intoxicated so itâs fine.
Reaching over I brush some of his hair back and he stirs slightly, panicking I pull my hand away, seeing that I havenât woken him up I turn to go sit in my desk chair.
âWhere are you going?â His hand grabs mine, stopping me.
âDruig! Uh, youâre up! So- sorry, I didnât mean-â
My rambling is cut short as he tugs me over to him, he scoots back towards the wall creating a small space for me. With wide eyes I look at him and then the space, he seems to be second guessing his silent request, but before he can say anything I lay down next to him on my back.
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âŠOkay, so this still isnât cheating, and even if weâve never done this, it doesnât mean anything. Weâre just two friends, sharing a bed, in a completely platonic sense. Iâve had sleepovers before, Iâve shared a bed with my friends before⊠Sure they were all girls, but still!
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Neither of us move as he stares at the side of my face, and I stare at the ceiling. My heart is beating loudly in my ears and Iâm sure he can hear it. He shifts closer to me and I tense turning my face further from him.
âSorry. I should go.â His voice is a bit raspy and he moves to get up.
âNo, no itâs fine, there just isnât a lot of room. Thatâs all.â I stop him from leaving and I can hear that annoying voice in the back of my head telling me to let him go. I ignore it because 1. He needs a friend, and 2. Iâm THAT FRIEND!
âAre you sure?â
âCompletely.â
âHave you lost your mind, Y/N?â
âAlright,â He lays back down and this time I turn to lay on my side so weâre facing each other. He looks around the room before saying, âYour friends are loud.â
âYeah to be fair I met two of them today, soâŠâ
âHm.â He keeps avoiding my eyes and focuses on the blanket wrapped around him.
âYou okay?â
Wishing I didnât say anything, I can see that heâs struggling with telling me and not crying again; I donât know what Sprite did to him, but when I see her I swear to-
âNo, Iâm not. I just donât feel like Iâm this perfect person Raffey makes me out to be, I feel like I have to be this âguyâ she likes instead of being me. I even cut back on drinking and smoking for her, but itâs like her standards for a man don't apply to her in any way. If I tell her to not go to parties, or drink as much Iâm trying to boss her around or hold her back, and not let her be her own woman. I donât think I can keep this up, but I donât want to break up with her.â
ââŠHow- how long has this been going on?â
âA while.â
âWhy donât you just break up with her then?â
âI love her.â
oh⊠o- Oh, okay. This- this is fine, utterly fine! He⊠he loves her. Yay!
âY/N?â
âUh- uh yeah, wow, thatâs nice⊠When you say you love her, you meanâŠ?â I ask trying to wrap my mind around this news, surely he canât mean heâs IN love with her⊠Can he?
âIâm in love with her.â
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Well FUCK ME WITH A CACTUS!
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âW-wow, thatâs really-âŠAre you sure?â
ââŠYeh.â
âWell, Iâm happy for you. You thought youâd never fall in love, look at you now. Iâm happy for you.â
âYou said that already.â
âWhat?â
âThat youâre happy for me, you said it twice.â
âThatâs because Iâm really happy for you. Have you told her yet?â
âNo.â
âGood.â
âWhat?â
âHuh? Nothing, nothing, maybe you should tell her.â
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I have no idea why my mouth decided to say that last bit, but I hate myself for it.
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âI know, but I just donât want to talk about it, or think about it. Least for right now.â He pushes his face deeper into the pillow with tears rimming around his eyes.
âOkay. Okay, letâs get some sleep.â Getting up I feel him grab my arm again, âI have to turn the lamp off Druig.â
âLeave it on, please.â
âBut I canât sleep with the light on. Are you afraid of the dark?â I tease.
âNo, I just donâtâŠâ He never finishes his sentence and I know Iâm not going to get him to, so I lay back down and pat his dark hair.
âCanât believe you got rid of the blonde, itâs kinda weird.â
His eyes close at the patting and his brow creases when I stop, putting my hand back to his hair, I laugh as I comb through it, âYeah, I hate it.â
âSo whyâd you do it?â
âSprite thought itâd be funny to switch out my dye. I just havenât been able to dye it back yet.â
âThat little imp.â I mumble rolling my eyes, looking back at Druig heâs already staring at me, âSorry.â
Not staying anything he turns to face the wall
- Iâm not hurt.
Still facing the wall he grabs my hand and pulls me to his back. I basically became a big spoon as he curls in on himself
- Iâm not hurt!
Barely relaxing and holding onto my sanity- if i even had any- I try to go to sleep. The keyword is try, and Iâm failing. Ikaris doesnât even do this with me, sure we cuddle, but never like this.
âIkaris. I know that name⊠Oh SWEET FUCK THATâS MY BOYFRIEND!â I quickly pull my arm out of Druigâs hold and scramble out of the bed. Startled, Druig turns to me.
âWhat?! What happened?â
âI just remembered something!â
ââŠWhat is it?â
âI⊠need to pee.â
ââŠReally?â He is visibly relaxing.
âYup. Excuse me,â I walk to my bathroom and turn around quickly, âIâll be right back. Donât listen!â I rush inside, locking the door behind me and sliding down the door I try to breath.
I didnât exactly forget I had a boyfriend, I know I do, but it didnât hit me until now. It was like having a bucket of cold water dumped on me, thinking about how Druig reacted didnât help either. In the grand scheme of things if either Sprite or Ikaris were to see that theyâd flip their shit! And that makes total sense, why would I be cuddling with someone who isnât my boyfriend?⊠Even if he is my friend. I need to seriously reevaluate my life. Getting up from the ground I flush the toilet, and open the door. Stepping into the room, Druig is sitting on the edge of my bed looking at his phone.
âHey Druig, I need to tell you something-â
âHang on, Spriteâs texting me.â He barely spares me a glance.
ââŠâKay.â
Letting out a sigh he gets up, âShe wants me to pick her up. She wants to talk.â
âThatâs- okay. Talk about what?â
âDonât know, usually when someone says that it doesnât end well.â
We stand around in awkward silence debating on what to do or say next. Clearing his throat he gives me a weak nod moving to the door, âIâll justâŠgo then?â
âY-yeah you should. TO pick her up. You know.â
âMhmm.â
I place a hand on his shoulder and squeeze it reassuringly, âYou got this, just remember sheâs probably drunk so donât take it to heart.â
âAnd if she isnât?â
âYou always have me.â Smiling sincerely at him I realize how what I said sounds, âAs a friend! A friend, you know, cuz I have a boyfriend and stuff.â
âYeah, donât remind me.â He scoffs.
âSorry.â I give him a sad smile avoiding his eyes, he lifts my chin up to look at him and itâs like time stands still. No one says anything, no one moves; itâs quiet, calm, and intimate in a weird sort of way. His eyes are tired but he still smiles like nothings wrong, it feels like nothing can ruin this moment. Letting my chin go he gives me a hug, that I return wholeheartedly, he sighs pulling away just enough to look at me.
âThanks for this. I really appreciate you- it⊠You and it. I appreciate you and it.â I chuckle at him nodding my head.
âAnytime Druig.â
Giving me one more smile he kisses my forehead, I feel my face heat up at the sudden action, and when he pulls back his face is just as shocked as mine. Laughing it off I push him to the door.
âGet out of here and go get your girl.â
âY- yeah.â He blinks quickly, smiling, he opens the door and weâre met with eight pairs of eyes who seem very interested in this.
âI send her to bed alone and she comes out with a whole man.â Howard laughs out leaning back on the couch.
âOh you must be her boyfriend.â Darcy stands up to shake his hand.
âUh- oh oh, no nonononoo. No he- heâs- weâre just friends.â I wave my hands in front of my face and the look on her face is one I've seen from a lot of people. He looks at me then back at Darcy.
âYeah we're just friends. Iâm Barry, by the way. Oh, hey Howard.â His American accent sounds so weird to me now.
âThen if youâre just friends, why did you come out of her room in the middle of the night?â
âDarcy! Leave them alone, sorry about her, she likes to create problems for no reason.â
âHey, I have a reason, my reason is curiosity. They arenât dating but they sure are close. And before you say anything, I know friends can be close, but this seems a bit too close.â She scrutinizes us and Iâm uncomfortable.
âDarcy.â Howard pleads, âBarry has a girlfriend, sheâs that plucky small girl with short hair that likes to fool around with HER boyfriend.â Howard points at me, making my heart sink to my feet.
âWhat- Sorry uh what?â I close my eyes trying to decipher his words, âWhat do you mean âfool around with MY boyfriendâ?â
ââŠUuuuuuuhhhhh, nothing.â His eyes are wide as he looks at his feet.
âHoward, what do you know?â I take a threading step towards him, everyone stiffens at this and Druig places a hand on my arm.
âCalm down, Dote.â He stands next to me, glaring at Howard he loses the American accent, âShe asked you a question, mate.â
âWhoa! What just happened? Did you hear that? He was American and now heâs Irish!â Darcy exclaims pointing at Druig.
âDarcy, now's not the time.â Jane whispers harshly at her.
âHoward, I suggest you start talking, while Iâm asking nicely.â Druigâs voice is low and threatening, âTell me what you know.â
Caving under the intensity of his stare he tells us how heâs seen Sprite run her hands through Ikarisâ hair, kiss his cheek- on multiple occasions, hold on to him like her life depended on it, get piggyback rides from him and the like. Sighing out I rub my forehead.
âGeez Howard, Iâm sorry, you made it sound like they were having an affair.â I relax my posture chuckling a bit, I look at Druig and heâs still pissed, âWhatâs the matter? You didnât know they were all buddy-buddy?â
âNo, I knew.â
âOkay so why are you still mad?â He turns his dark gaze to me and my blood runs cold.
âBecause I told her to stop.â The tension in the room is thick and I donât know what to say, I donât think thereâs anything I can say to make this better. Opening my mouth he promptly says, âI have to go.â
Marching to the door like a man on a mission he leaves, but leaves his menacing aura behind. Jane is the first one to say anything,
âWell that was⊠interesting to say the least.â
âYeah.â Howard shakes himself trying to get the uneasy feeling away from him.
âDamn girl, your boyfriend can be scary when he wants to be.â Darcy slaps my back.
âIkaris? He isnât scary.â
âI thought his name was Barry?â
âWhat no, Barry isnât-â
âNah his name is Druig.â Howard stands and startâs to stretch.
âOh, well your boyfriend can be scary.â
âDruig isnât my boyfriend.â
ââŠIâm so confused.â Darcy looks at Jane for help, she sighs and explains.
âDruig, aka Barry, is dating Sprite. Y/N is dating Ikaris aka Richard. Sprite is Y/N friend and sheâs also close friends with Ikaris, but Druig and Ikaris hate each other for some reason.â
âOH! Okay that makes sense now.â Looking back at me she smiles, âYour wannabe boyfriend is scary.â
âHe isnât- you know what, forget it.â I throw my hands up defeated and go back to my room, âGood night everyone.â
Flicking the lamp off I plop onto my bed. Covering my face with my arm I canât help the defeated sigh that comes from my lips, punching and kicking the mattress I stare into the darkness of my room.
âLoki was right.â Turning on my side I look towards the wall and itâs almost like Druig is here again, bearing his soul to me, showing me how much he truly trusts me. Scooting to his side I lay on my back, closing my eyes, and taking a deep breath I realize that I can smell him. Sitting up I pull the pillow up to my nose and smell his conditioner, smiling I put it back and cover myself with my blanket.
âOh fuck this smells like him too.â I throw the blanket off, ââŠDonât do it, Y/N. Leave the blanket where it is and change the pillowcase.â
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So I took off the pillowcase and wrapped myself in the blanket- I was cold! And I donât have another clean blanket! Of course that doesnât excuse the fact that Iâm imagining the blanket as Druig holding me close, making me feel safe and warm and like nothing in the world could harm me. It also doesnât excuse the fact that my mind wanders to more⊠explicit content.
âStop it Y/N, he is your friend and heâs also dating your friend!⊠But after what just happened maybe notâŠâ Trailing my hand down I stop myself at the edge on my sweatpants, âNo, no no no no no no! God, whatâs the matter with you? What would Druig say if he knew you were doing this?!â
Actually⊠What would he say?
âHa! Fucking knew it! As if you could resist all this!â
Hmm might be more of a
âDuh, Iâve known for a while.â
Maybe even
âShow me.â
WAIT, wait, wait slow your roll Y/N! He wouldnât⊠Would he? Well, maybe not boyfriend Druig, but fuckboy Druig would definitely be down for that. Moving my hand into my sweats, I let out a gasp at the thought of Druig being here watching me. Itâs like I can hear his voice in my head saying,
~âFuck, Y/N, thatâs how good I make you feel? Iâm not even touching youâŠyet.â~
âAh, shhhh~iiiiit!â I bring my free hand to my mouth to keep myself quiet, not realizing that Iâm gripping the âDruig blanketâ up with it. Breathing in through my nose his scent invades my senses and I start to lose control when his voice chimes in my head again,
~âLook at you, barely hanging on just, and all from smelling a blanket, so pathetic. Imagine how youâd feel if I were there, hoverinâ over you, pounding into you over and over and over again.â~
I gasp for air again whispering into the darkness, âThis- this isât-â
~âThis isnât what, Y/N? Right? Was it right when you did it the first time or the second? Or when you brought Ikaris here to your room instead of me? Spare me your pitiful excuses. You shouldâve been mine from the beginning and you know it, so donât go and grow a conscience on me now!â~
My hand slows at his words, but I canât bring myself to stop; not with his smell in the air,
~âWhy are you slowing down? Did I say you could?â~
âN-no.â
~âThen?⊠There you go, just like that, donât stop. Only if your friends could see you now.â~ His chuckle fills my head causing me to whimper, ~âAll the sweet little sounds youâd try to keep quiet, only to scream my name out like a prayer. Is that what you want, Y/N? You want me to make you scream my name for all to hear?~
âYes.â
~âEven Ikaris?~
A strangled gasp leaves me and I bite my lip trying not to make any sound. I can hear Jane and the others in the living and the last thing I need is for them to hear me.
~âAnswer me!~
âYes. Yes! Even Ikaris.â
~âGood girl, I suppose I should let you cum then, hm?~
âPleeaase!â
~âGo ahead, Dote. Let go, with my name falling from your lips.~
âAh fuck⊠Druig.â I feel myself tighten and my orgasm washes over me, my mouth opens as I struggle to breathe quietly, I feel my walls tighten when I hear the âDoteâ and my legs are shaking as I come down from my high. Not moving I stare into the darkness once more, and I feel like shit, âI canât believe I just did that.â
Getting up I shuffle to the bathroom and clean myself up. Rinsing my face with some cold water I watch the droplets fall into the sink and my heart is heavy.
âI need to stop doing this!â
Marching myself back to my room I grab my laundry basket, taking the pillowcase and blanket I rush out of the dorm room to the laundry room. Since itâs so late- or early- no one's there, stuffing my clothes in I throw in the pillowcase, I almost hesitate with the blanket, but I get over myself pretty quickly. Putting the blanket in I see that the machine is pretty much at capacity.
â⊠Well, I donât want to break their washer machine. Iâll just leave it in the basket. Yeah.â Tossing it in the basket I start the cycle and wait. I wish I brought my headphones to drown out Druigâs voice from my head,
~âReally, Y/N? You think washing is going to erase what you just did? It didnât work the other times.â~ His snicker sends goosebumps to my arms and my nipples get hard.
âYou gotta be fucking kidding me.â Looking up I see that Iâm standing under the vent and the thermostat is set to 74, âWhy didnât I grab a sweater??â
Looking at the basket I can feel Druigâs âpresenceâ behind me. I know itâs all in my head, he isnât there, but a part of him is. Picking up the blanket I glare at it like it did me wrong.
~âThe blanket did nothing-â~
âI know, shut up! Fuck, man.â Rolling my eyes I wrap the blanket around myself and sit on the folding table and wait for the clothes to finish, âItâs not like Iâm going to smell it again.â
~ââŠ.Mhmm.â~
âShut up, youâre not even real.â I put my head in my hands, âJust a stupid part of my mind making you up- a dumb fantasy. I donât need you.â
I wait for his voice to ring in my head again to tell me Iâm the one thatâs stupid, that Iâm the made up one and heâs real, but the only sounds are from the washer. Sighing I sit up and lean against the wall and wait.
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I shiver that the memory and Ikaris turns to me,
âAre you cold, love?â
âHmm? Oh, a little yeah.â
âHere,â Reaching over he turns up the heat in the car, âThat should warm you up.â
âThanks.â I smile thankfully at him and go back to watching the Christmas lights on the houses. I can feel him glancing at me every now and again, and I know he knows somethingâs bothering me. He probably thinks Iâm anxious about having dinner with my family and introducing him in person, but thatâs not it at all.
I lied.
I lied about everything from I feel about Druig to how my love life is going. I thought that maybe because of being in a relationship for 2 Âœyears was supposed to mean that my feelings for Druig would die down, but it only seemed to stoke the fire more; there were some many times- I mean so many- that it seemed like Druig and I couldâve- wouldâve just had sex with each other wherever we were. We never did anything, but ever since he had gone to pick Sprite up from that party, he turned back into his old self. He would flirt with certain people- myself included- dyed his hair half blonde again, and Sprite was fine with it. She even relaxed with how she was with Ikaris, and it felt like everything was going back to normal⊠You know minus the unspoken air between Druig and myself.
What I hadnât expected was Ikaris pulling away from me; he wasnât as touchy as he once was, he started âworking laterâ, had too much homework, or he was too tired to do anything other than sleep. I was understanding at first until he was using my shower and his phone buzzed. Iâm not one to snoop but I picked up his phone and saw that it was Sersi.
Answering the call, I was going to tell her that he was busy and heâll call her later but she never gave me the chance,
``Ikaris, I have something to tell you⊠Please donât get mad, but I think we should stop seeing each other. I know you said you love me, and for a time I loved you too, but I canât keep up the lies. I donât deserve that, you donât and neither does Y/N. I want something real and I canât have that with you, so Iâm stopping this now. I hope you understandâŠ``
All the air in my lungs was gone, my brain was fried and my emotions were so overwhelmed I felt dead inside.
``Ikaris?``
``Thanks.`` I donât know how I was able to say anything so calmly.
``Y/N? Iâm sorry I- I thought-``
``Call him again later.`` I hang up the phone and put it back on the bed, Ikaris comes out in a towel and Iâm gathering some things to head out.
âWhere are you going?â He asks confused sitting on my bed, he pulls me by my hips towards him.
âOut.â I cringe at the feeling of his hands on me knowing theyâve been on someone else, âLoki, needs a favor.â
âCanât you do it later?â
âNo. Get some sleep.â At that moment his phone starts to buzz again. He reaches for it too quickly for my taste and Sersiâs name is on the screen, âIâll see you later.â Leaning down I kiss the top of his head to save face and walk out the door before I lose my mind.
Opting to take the stairs I run down them and out of the side door into the parking lot and to my car, my heart is beating fast, but Iâm not crying just shaking slightly. Getting in I inhale and exhale slowly, getting out my phone I call Loki,
``Bast what a pleasant surprise I was just-``
``You were right- all of you were. Can I come over?``
``Uh- yes of course.``
Peeling out of the parking lot I drive to the Lokiâs âhideoutâ- itâs just an old room in the theater building- ignoring the speed limit of 15 I make to the hideout in record time. Jumping out I run to their meeting room and slamming open the door they slightly jump at the loud sound.
âBast.â Loki takes in my appearance watching me closely, âAre you alright?â
âHa! Oh yeah, totally fine. More than fine, Iâm fucking fabulous!â I smile brightly plopping on the old couch, the other Lokiâs look at each other, then to me clearly uncomfortable and confused.
âYou said that Loki was right. Right about what, exactly?â Old Man Loki leans on his knees with confusion.
âAbout Ikaris, duh.â I shrug while opening a game on my phone.
âOh, so he is a douchebag.â Kid Loki confirms drinking from his juice box, âWhat else is new?â
âWhatâs new is that I just found out he was having an affair. Lol!â Laughing, I continue to play my game.
âWait, he was actually cheating on you?â Theater Director Lokiâs voice is a pitch higher than normal.
âHe would.â Sylvie says plainly walking into the room with snacks.
âOo! Snacks~!â I sit up reaching for the bowl of popcorn.
âY/N are you sure youâre alright?â Loki asks one more time, âYou seem to be handling this quite well.â
âToo well.â Old man Loki folds his arms squinting at me.
âOh Iâm fucking devastated, but the shock of it all is pretty strong, I have so much adrenaline right now, itâs taking everything in my power not to drop my phone right now Iâm shaking so bad.â
âWant some ice cream?â Sylvie offers.
âHmmm yes please.â
âDonât spill any tea until I get back.â She says sternly walking to get more snacks.
âThis place has everything.â I sit back on the couch and Iâm met with silence and anticipating stares, âGuyâs relax, I'm not going to burst into tears- at least not right now. As long as I donât think about it Iâll be fine. Seriously.â They somewhat relax in their seats but their stares are heavy. Shaking my head I look at Loki, âBabes please. Iâm fine.â
âOkay Iâm back with the ice cream!â Sylvie rushes back with five pints of ice cream, âPick your poison, Basty.â
âYyyyeeeeeeeessssssss~!â Grabbing a pint I hold it close to me, caressing it, âMy precious~!â
âAlright, tea time.â She sits next to me digging into her ice cream, âHow did you find out?â
âAnswered- oh this is cold. Answered his phone.â
âShut up! And you talked to whoever it was?â
âYup!â
âShut UP!â
âIâve met her too.â
âSHUT UP!â
âI will not-â I take a big bite, âI know itâs so crazy.â
âThen what happened?â
âHe came out of the shower and I told him I had to meet with Loki for a bit.â
âNo, no, I mean what did she say?â
âOH, um she was saying something like she doesnât want to keep having the affair and that even though he loves her she doesnât feel the same anymore⊠uuuuummmmm she wants a stable relationship and he canât give that to her⊠Mmmm good ice cream- and that she doesnât deserve to feel like that and neither do we⊠Something like that?â
âDeserve to feel like what? Shit?â Old Man Loki snaps snatching a pint from the table, âSheâs got some balls, Iâll say that much.â
âWho in their right mind thinks theyâre the victim when they are obviously the problem?!â Theater Loki takes the pint from Old Man Loki angry, âI wasnât this angry since my brother Thor was born.â
âYou have a brother named Thor too?â I say choking on my ice cream, âWhat the hell?â
âYeah this is one crazy family.â Sylvie smiles switching pints with me, âSo even though we all told you he wasnât good for you, how're you feeling?â
âIt hasnât quite hit me yet, but itâs getting there. But can I even get mad when you and a few others were telling me the same thing? I mean my friend Natasha even said he was bad news.â
âThe Widow girl?â Loki questions.
âUm the what?â
âNever mind him. Whatâre you gonna do now?â Kid Loki has ice cream all over his face as he shows interest in my developing- crumbling- relationship.
âI donât know. Break up with him?â I look around the room for an answer.
âDonât look at us for the answer, itâs your relationship.â Theater Loki says, putting his hands up, âYou are the one in the driverâs seat. Does he know that you know?â
âNo, I donât think so.â
âGood.â Old Man Loki says darkly, âWe can use this to our advantage.â
âWe- um Iâm sorry⊠What? What WE?!â I put down my ice cream, staring at him with wide eyes.
âWell, you want him to pay donât you?â Kid Loki asks, finally wiping his face.
âI mean I- I havenât thought about it.â
âY/N he hurt you, itâs okay to seek revenge.â Sylvie places her hand on my knee.
âYeah but you guys make it seem like weâre gonna murder him or something!â I look around and when no one says anything I get up quickly, âARE YOU TRYING TO MURDER HIM?!?!â
âWell~â Old Man starts.
âWould it be so bad?â Theater asks.
âI want to cut out his heart!â Kid shouts, putting his hand up.
âIâll record it.â Sylvie leans back in her seat eating ice cream again, âOoo you could even feed his heart to Croc Loki! Iâm sure theyâd appreciate it.â
âThatâs a good idea!â Old Man and Theater nod their heads in excitement.
I look at Loki for help and heâs hanging his head in disappointment, sighing deeply he stands up,
âNO ONE IS KILLING HERâŠproblem. This isnât our fight or our problem, if she wants help sheâll ask for it. Alright?â The room is quiet as they watch Loki, âALRIGHT?!â
â..yeah, alrightâŠgeez, we were only joking. -I wasnât-⊠fine⊠Buzz kill.â Comes from the others as they begrudgingly let the issue go.
âThank you, Loki.â I sit back down picking up my ice cream, but not feeling like eating any.
âSo? What happens now?â Kid asks me.
âI really donât know, I really thought we were good, but he started working late, having too much homework and the like, I just really thought everything was fine. I even stopped caring about Sersiâs perfume being on him.â
âWhoa he went to you with her perfume on? Oh bollocks he really-â Old Man stops himself trying not to get worked up again, âWhy didnât you tell him anything?â
âI did, but he always said I was worrying over nothing and that I needed to get a hold of my imagination. Which isnât entirely wrong.â
âClearly it wasnât your imagination. Why did you let him walk all over you? Thatâs not like you, Bast.â Loki says anger in his features.
âI donât know!â I feel a tear roll down my cheek, and the flood gates open, âIdonâtknowIdonâtknowIdonâtknowIdonâtknowIdonâtknowIdonâtknow!â By now Iâm sobbing uncontrollably and I feel someone rubbing my back, my vision is blurry and I just let my body go slack as Iâm now being held by Sylvie. After 26 minutes of ugly crying I wipe my face trying to calm down, âS- s- sorry.â
âDonât apologize Y/N, this isnât your fault.â
âYeah, but I still feel like shit!â
âUnderstandable, you just found out your boyfriend was cheating on you.â Theater says handing me a box of tissues.
âThanks; but thatâs not why-â I blow my nose not hearing Sylvieâs question, âWhat?â
âWhy do you say âthatâs not whyâ?â
âOh, I- um hmmm.â I clear my throat trying to find the right words.
âOh my gods you were cheating on HIM?!â Loki seems to read my facial expression better than the others, âOh my gods! BAST! Wha- I-⊠You know I have to say I did not see that coming.â
The others look at me for confirmation and my guilty face is all they needed.
âY/N!! WHAT?! YOU- But! Whaaaahahahaha! I agree with Loki, I did NOT see that coming!â
âIâm a horrible person, I know!â I cover my eyes in shame.
âNo, no no no no Y/N look at me.â Sylvie pulls my hands away from my face, âIkaris is a dirtbag, a wanker and a twat! You already had your suspicions, you are completely validated. Give him a taste of his own medicine.â
âIt still doesnât feel right.â
âThatâs because cheating is cheating. Itâs still wrong Sylvie, stop confusing her.â Loki deadpans, âWho were you even seeing, Y/N?â
âWell, it wasnât actually having a physical affair, it was more of an emotional one.â
âOooooooohhhh.â Comes from the Lokiâs, Kid tilts his head in question, âWho was that with then?â
ââŠâ
âY/N?â Old Man asks.
ââŠ..â I bit my lip looking away.
âY/N.â Loki tries to press the answer out of me.
âI know who it is.â Sylvie smirks at my wide eyes.
âWho is it?â Theater asks stuffing his face with popcorn engrossed by the drama.
âIâm not telling.â She replies, seeing the panic in my eyes.
âYou donât actually know do you?â Old Man accuses.
âNo, I do, I spend quite a lot of time in the library as does Y/N.â
The room is quiet before the boys a yell,
âITâS DRUIG!!!!??????â
ââŠyeahâŠâ I hang my head.
âI FUCKING KNEW IT!â Kid shouts jumping up and down, âOW!â
âLanguage, young man.â Old Man smacks the back of his head, âYou shouldnât even be here, itâs way past your bedtime.â
âWhatever grandpa.â He sasses as he sits back in his chair grabbing another juice box.
âYouth these days- Anyway, itâs been Druig this whole time, hasnât it?â Theater asks taking his seat.
âYeah.â
âSo why did you waste your time with Ikariass?â Sylvie turns to me clearly confused, âIâve seen you and Druig in the library, youâre like two of the most smitten people Iâve ever seen.â
âHeâs not smitten- not with me anyway.â
âBasty, Iâm going to let you in on a little secret, Ikaris isnât the only person cheating in their relationship.â She pops a piece of popcorn in her mouth.
âWhat do you mean?â
âLetâs just say that a person who has a bird's eye view sees a lot of shit that happens on this campus. How else is this campus getting safer? He sees everything and everyone, and heâs seen young Sprite with many a young men in less than ideal positions, with even less clothes.â
âSheâs cheating on him?â I breathe out.
âOh yeah.â
âIt seems that some part of Druig knows this, hence why he doesnât seem to care about flirting with some people now.â
âBut, Sylvie, nothing is ever going to happen. He loves her- heâs IN love with HER. He told me himself.â
âEh, all Iâm saying is that the both of you need to get out of these toxic relationships before itâs too late and just get together already.â
âI- we canât-â
âTrust me itâll be better for the both of you.â
âHOW?â
âBeing out of the relationship and hooking up doesnât weigh as heavy as hooking up IN the current relationship. You are too good a person to just have a fling while youâre dating someone. It will eat you alive, but itâs up to you.â
âI canât just- they are COUSINS! Do you know how weird that is?â
She shrugs her shoulders, not convinced by my reasoning, âDoes that stop you from emotionally cheating?â
âI-â
âAlright, letâs not talk about this anymore. Itâs getting late and Danvers is going to be patrolling the building soon.â Loki cuts in clearing our mess, âWhatever you choose to do, Bast we have your back, come on Iâm sure Ikaris is getting worried.â
âFor what?â I sass rolling my eyes. Standing up I stretch a bit and hug everyone goodbye, âThanks again guys, I needed this. And⊠Iâll think about what you said Sylvie.â
âŠâŠ.
I never did think about what Sylvie said, I tried but every time I did I would just start crying all over again. Knowing that Sprite was messing around with other guys didnât help our friendship either. I never called her out on it, but that didnât stop me from making snarky and rude comments whenever she said she had âsomething to doâ. Druig was getting annoyed and asked me what my problem was but I would lie and say that I was just having a day. He didnât buy it, but he let it go; I would just stew in my anger and it wasnât good for either of us. Weâd go our separate ways and cool off.
I also noticed that on some of Ikarisâ clothes I could still smell Sersiâs perfume, when I would ask him if he saw her, heâd say,
âNo, I havenât seen her for a while, sheâs been getting rides from someone else at work.â
ââŠokay.â
âYou good?â
âYeah! Iâm gonna go to the library.â
âAlright.â
I knew they were still seeing each other but I didnât have the energy to fight him on it. Heâd just say Iâm crazy and not in my right mind. Heâs done it so many times, so ignoring it is just easier.
So why do I stay with him? Thatâs easy, it's because I love him, and he loves me. I know this because he told me- not that he loves me, but that I LOVE HIM! Thatâs rich right? But I do love him, just not how he thinks I do. And here we are driving to my aunt's house for Christmas dinner and Sprite and Druig will be there. Itâs gonna be great!
Canât wait!
Wooo.
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i miss clayelle đŹđ.... i miss my ocs.... i love ocs.... the focus comes and goes so bad
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hello and welcome to my oc (and also lore discussion) blog!!
oc / oc x canon carrd
i interact from @beastren but you may also know me from my self-ship blog @deishubait
#clyde.txt#đžoc: out of a black cloud came a bird#đżoc: the dead dead water lily thing#đ»oc: this spring holds a killer in her claws#đčoc: past the mission i smell the roses#đ·oc: know she breaks; my siren#đoc: into a bright bound sea surrounded fury#đźoc: carbon made at the end of a chain#đ„oc: come watch me burn#đotp: coiling emerging#đotp: we'll see how brave you are#đŸotp: where the weeds take root#ïżœïżœotp: when it all dies you will remember me#đ€otp: make me laugh; you said we were the real thing#đ„otp: line me up in single-file with all your grievances#đoc: severin#đ”otp: goldrin#đoc: ashera#đ§ââïžoc: in the rookery
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clay........
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the truth is if clay became elden lord he'd be the worst he'd wanna fuck marika so bad and it's simply the truth. i think she would think he's funny. i love to think about this AU a lot. claymarika. mariclay. idk. anyway.
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