#💫 shepherd's delight

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For the spotify wrapped thingy, 26!

What the Water Gave Me by Florence + the Machine

One of the themes of this song is sacrifice, and I think that's something that can tie in with Chae-Yeong. She's someone who cares so deeply about others that she's willing to risk everything that she has and everything she is in order to keep people safe. And this is a little based on my own mishearing of the lyrics that I got attached too, but I always kinda heard it as "let the old me drown", so I associate the song with the idea of rebirth. And I think she had a kind of rebirth in the form of becoming the Scarlet Shepherd

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What can I say, I love old men (and old women <3)

selfshippers with old f/o's :

proship DNI

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super big fan of your blog :D could i please have 3 alters, one based off of hime gyaru & general lolita fashion, one based off manba/yamanba gyaru, and one based off shiro lolita? i would prefer the first and third to be fem-aligned and the second to be fem and masc :3 anything else is ur choice! if u need ideas then the first can be based off flowers & princesses as well, the second can be tropical themed, snd the third can be based off of angels but you can do anything u want :3 thNk u so much if u dont wanna do all 3 then just do the last 2 for me please!

Headmates under the cut! Feel free to edit/scrap anything that doesn't fit!

༄~𖦹︎ Name(/s) ➪ Bow/Bo, Bobo, Leilani, Cherri/Cherrisa/Cherissa, Dahlia, Vani

༄~𖦹︎ Pronouns ➪ She/her, bow/bows, pink/pinks, blossom/blossoms, star/stars, pearl/pearls, princess/princesses, royal/royals, love/loves, fur/furs, cute/cutes, crown/crowns, pretty/prettys, ribbon/ribbons, lace/laces

༄~𖦹︎ Gender ➪ Girlspike, Girl(?), Lovergirl, Lovergxrl, Xenogirl

༄~𖦹︎ Orientations ➪ Ambiamorous, Cupioromantic, Aceflux, Arospike, Bi, Sapphic

༄~𖦹︎ Age ➪ 27

༄~𖦹︎ Species ➪ Human

༄~𖦹︎ Role(/s) ➪ Babysitter, and/or Shepherd, and/or Sister figure, and/or Soother

༄~𖦹︎ Source or Theme ➪ Hime Gyaru & Lolita Fashion & Floral/Royal theme

༄~𖦹︎ Appearance or Faceclaim ➪

➪ Art Links; 1

༄~𖦹︎ Proxy Option ➪ 🌸🎀/💗💫

༄~𖦹︎ Personality Traits/Quirks ➪ Sweet, caring, older sister vibe, nurturing

༄~𖦹︎ Typing Quirk ➪ Relaxed typing, uses emojis to end sentences when happy

➪ Random Sentence Example; "Hi! how are you😊" // "Hi, how are you?"

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༄~𖦹︎ Name(/s) ➪ Pearl, Sunshine, Sunny, Cove, Fisher, Ivrene, Marina/Marino, Mariana

༄~𖦹︎ Pronouns ➪ She/her, he/him, flower/flowers, bloom/blooms, blossom/blossoms, hibiscus/hibiscuses, paradise/paradises, pearl/pearls, beach/beaches, bright/brights, sea/seas, ocean/oceans, swim/swims, star/stars, shell/shells, fun/funs, party/partys (party/parties), coral/corals, fish/fishs (fish/fishes), reef/reefs, wave/waves, surf/surfs, feijoa/feijoas

༄~𖦹︎ Gender ➪ Girl(?), Boy(?), Queermascfem, TransFemmasc, Girlyboyishfluid, Girboyish, Boygirlish, Boyishgirlyfluid, Wisteriboy, Wisterigirl

༄~𖦹︎ Orientations ➪ Polarromantic, Acejump, Sapphillean, Omniromantic

༄~𖦹︎ Age ➪ 19

༄~𖦹︎ Species ➪ Human

༄~𖦹︎ Role(/s) ➪ Confidence Holder/Confidence Booster, and/or Mood booster, and/or Beauheur, and/or Delight

༄~𖦹︎ Source or Theme ➪ Manba/Yamanba Gyaru & Tropical Theme

༄~𖦹︎ Appearance or Faceclaim ➪

➪ Art Links; 1 & 2

༄~𖦹︎ Proxy Option ➪ 🌺🦪/🕶️⭐

༄~𖦹︎ Personality Traits/Quirks ➪ Outgoing, talkative, emotion-focused (acts on feelings rather than rationality), caring, fun, unhinged

༄~𖦹︎ Typing Quirk ➪ All caps typing quirk, likely uses kaomoji

➪ Random Sentence Example; "HELLO!!" // "Hello!!"

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༄~𖦹︎ Name(/s) ➪ Rose/Rosa/Rosette, Angela/Angelica

༄~𖦹︎ Pronouns ➪ She/her, light/lights, flora/floras, bloom/blooms, bud/buds, petal/petals, rose/roses, poppy/poppys (poppy/poppies), heaven/heavens, pure/pures, ruffle/ruffles, blossom/blossom, flower/flowers, fleur/fleurs, floret/florets

༄~𖦹︎ Gender ➪ Princessgender, Girlprince, Rosereagender, Florlunaine, Celestebeing, Celestae

༄~𖦹︎ Orientations ➪ Aromantic, Omnisexual

༄~𖦹︎ Age ➪ 24

༄~𖦹︎ Species ➪ Human

༄~𖦹︎ Role(/s) ➪ Advisor, and/or Syllogist/Logician, and/or Emotional Funnel

༄~𖦹︎ Source or Theme ➪ Shiro Lolita & Floral/Royal theme & Angelic

༄~𖦹︎ Appearance or Faceclaim ➪

➪ Art Links; 1 & 2

༄~𖦹︎ Proxy Option ➪ ❄👑/🥀🌨

༄~𖦹︎ Personality Traits/Quirks ➪ Reserved and quiet but not shy, calm, rational/logical

༄~𖦹︎ Typing Quirk ➪ Formal typing (Capitals, grammar/punctuation, etc)

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I took this one a bit ago! But this time I’ll do another of my mains with it <3

Stole this from twitter for the self ship community!

Reblog with your f/o and your love type:

( quiz linked here )

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I feel like Chae-Young and Helena would be the type to try out desserts together 🤔 maybe even make desserts together? (@snowpuffclovers)

It'd be a no on making desserts together bcs both Chae-Yeong and I are people who get mad being in the kitchen with other people so any attempt to cook together would probably lead to divorce lmao

But I do think from time to time Chae-Yeong would get some pastries from a bakery for her and Helena to try! It's something they only occasionally do bcs neither of them are super big on most desserts (especially if they're very sweet), but Chae-Yeong likes being able to treat Helena from time to time. They're more likely to go try out different coffees together tho!

Send me an assumption about my self ships and I’ll either confirm or deny it!

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Tumblr hates me editing my description on mobile so in the mean time, Christmas icon time! Lovely Chae-Yeong art by my friend Leo

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Just got sent this by my friend who just said “you”

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My friend did some art of Chae-Yeong with their OC for Chuseok! It’s so cute, I love them and Chae-Yeong looks so gorgeous

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In other exciting stuff today, I got some lovely art of Chae-Yeong! My wife who is so beautiful

Artist

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I forgot to say it earlier bcs I’ve been Hurting all day, but today’s my anniversary with Chae-Yeong! I love my wife so much

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Cultural Reconnection

Happy Lunar New Year! To celebrate, I wanted to do a little selfship fic, and I decided with this one to do a modern AU focused on Helena and Chae-Yeong, partially bcs they have the same backgrounds as me with that so I know a little more about Seollal (Korean new year) things from my irl attempts to connect more with my culture

Full disclosure here, like Helena and Chae-Yeong, a lot of what I know about Seollal celebrations are things that I have recently taught myself from doing research online. This may not be a 100% accurate with how things are celebrated, and if it's not, I would appreciate anyone who knows more giving feedback! While it won't change things with this fic, bcs they also are still learning how to celebrate this properly, it'd help me out with my future LNY celebrations

Rating: Gen

Genre: Fluff

Words: 2325 words

Divider by saradika

Helena doesn’t cook very often. It’s not that she’s a bad cook, but with her and Chae-Yeong both hating being in the kitchen with other people, Chae-Yeong tends to be the one to make dinner more often than not. Helena figures that with how much food they’ll need for tonight’s Seollal celebrations, though, she could handle the majority of the cooking. 

As she cooks, Helena’s in new hanbok that Chae-Yeong had bought for this. She’s had to be careful with it— the last thing she wants to do is stain the light green and pink fabric making up the layers of her clothes. Her hanbok’s chima is longer than any of the dresses or skirts she usually wears, but she likes the way it moves around her as she walks around the kitchen.

In some ways it feels like she’s not supposed to be wearing this— her grandmother never passed on much information about Korean culture to Helena or her mother beyond the food. But she’s worn hanbok before, and she reminds herself that this is a part of her culture, even if it’s something she grew up disconnected from. 

It helps that Chae-Yeong’s in a similar boat to Helena. Both of them are a quarter Korean, both of them didn’t get many cultural things passed down to them, and both of them look white. Helena is used to feeling out of place everywhere she goes, never really feeling like she belongs to any community fully. But with Chae-Yeong, she actually feels like she’s not alone. 

Trying to fill the many gaps in her knowledge of Korean culture is more fun with Chae-Yeong, though. That’s another thing that makes Helena feel less alone, less like she’s an imposter and doesn’t really count as Korean. And as Helena finishes up making their rice cake soup hopes that she’s able to make Chae-Yeong feel the same way. 

“The soup is done, starlight!” Helena calls. 

“Smells good,” Chae-Yeong says, coming into the kitchen with a bottle of sparkling cider in hand. She looks pretty in hanbok— she's dressed in has a bright red skirt and a black jeogori. The silver and pink norigae she’s wearing is a nice touch too with its butterfly charm, standing out from the rest of the outfit.

Helena thinks this look suits her well. Her hanbok even matches with the red and black paint along her prosthetic arm and leg. It seems to match her perfectly, and is a good reminder to Helena of just how pretty her wife is. 

“Thanks,” Helena says. “Did you get the rest of the table set up?”

“Mhm.” Chae-Yeong sets the bottle down on the counter, digging through their drawers to find a bottle opener. “We’ll just need to get the last of the hot stuff plated, then everything will be ready.”

Helena turns off the stovetop. “Great. I’m hungry after cooking all day.”

“I’m sure it’ll all taste amazing, yeobo,” Chae-Yeong says. “Do you want me to help plate stuff?”

“If it won’t make you annoyed,” Helena replies, half teasing. 

Chae-Yeong rolls her eyes but smiles. “Putting food on plates and cooking are too different things. And it’s not like you’re better.”

“I’m not. But it’s always good to be safe, you can get scary when you feel like it.”

“I don’t get scary.”

“Yeah, you do.” Helena nudges Chae-Yeong’s side as she walks past with a plate of bulgogi. “You look pretty like that, though.”

Chae-Yeong laughs, pausing the process of scooping some rice from their rice cooker to look at Helena. “You’re the only person in the world who could think I’m attractive when I’m mad.”

“Mhm, which is part of why I’m very lucky to have married you,” Helena says. 

Chae-Yeong gives her one last little affectionate look before they both go back to plating their food. It’s a lot of work to do, but between the two of them, they’re able to get the job done quickly. Helena switches to bringing plates over to the table, doing what she can to remember where everything is supposed to be placed.

This isn’t like her and Chae-Yeong’s normal dinner arrangements. They have food set up practically covering every inch of it. At one end of the table is a collection of fruits such as Asian pears and apples, with a row of vegetables set up on plates behind it. The third row at the back of the table is where they set up their bowls of rice along with plates full of japchae and bulgogi. There’s a spot near the middle of that back row for the rice cake soup which Chae-Yeong brings in in two large bowls. Behind the table is a folding paper screen, one set up there especially for today. They’ve also set up a candle on either side of the table’s middle row, which Helena lights as she waits for Chae-Yeong.

It’s a lot of food for the two of them to eat. Far more than they’d usually prepare. Helena’s never been a big eater, and just looking at everything laid out in front of them is almost intimidating. 

The food isn’t all for them, though. This year they’re trying something new. A part of Seollal is honoring ancestors with charye rites, and this year they’ll be making their first attempt at performing that. 

Preparing an offering table was Helena’s idea. She wasn’t sure how Chae-Yeong would feel about it. Chae-Yeong’s relationship with her family was never a good one, and if she didn’t want to be part of the charye rites, Helena would have understood. Only Chae-Yeong’s biological father even seemed remotely worth honoring. Maybe none of Helena’s ancestors are either— her relationship with her maternal grandparents had been tense for years, and she doesn’t know much about any of her relatives beyond her grandparents. 

But this is something that’s part of most celebrations of Seollal, and Helena wants to try this at least once. Chae-Yeong agreed to this too, and if nothing else Helena will be glad that she gets to do this with her wife. They had to make some substitutions, though— Helena read that alcohol is usually offered to ancestors, but neither of them drink so instead they opted for a sparkling cider. Incense is also used for charye rites too, but the smell makes Helena feel sick so instead they have a reed diffuser set up on the table by the vegetables. 

“Are you ready to do the honors?” Helena asks as Chae-Yeong comes to rest her head on her shoulder.

“If you are,” Chae-Yeong says. “I’m still not sure I’m the best one to be handling this, though. There wasn’t a ton of information about what I’m supposed to be doing online.”

“You’ll do great,” Helena promises, reaching back to give her wife’s hip a quick squeeze.

Chae-Yeong takes a deep breath. It’s rare that she’s ever nervous, but that she’s clearly worried about this is a sign of just how much it matters to her. This is a part of her culture too, a part that neither of them are experienced with. They both want to get this right. 

Knowing Helena’s not alone in this is nice. 

But it’s also nice seeing the way any nerves fade away as Chae-Yeong begins performing the charye rites. She pulls a piece of prayer written in Korean from one of the pockets built into her skirt, placing it on the table before calling out towards their ancestors in a greeting, welcoming them to the table. She’s always been good at coming off as confident even when she’s new to something, and she looks like she’s done this a thousand times as she pours a cup of sparkling cider as an offering. She places a pair of chopsticks on the plate of bulgogi and leaves a spoon in one of the rice bowls. 

Chae-Yeong moves to move the paper screen, unfolding it more so it hides the table from view. Her skirts rustle around her as she makes her way back to Helena. 

“Alright, we’ll have to step out for a bit now,” Chae-Yeong says.

Helena nods and lets her wife lead the way out of the dining room and into their living room.

“Are we supposed to just sit in silence while the ancestors eat?” Helena asks as she closes the door behind her.

“I don’t know, I couldn’t find anything about that when I was figuring this out,” Chae-Yeong admits. She takes a seat on the couch. “I’d say we try to be quiet just to be safe. That feels more ceremonial.”

“Okay.”

Helena sits down next to Chae-Yeong. She doesn’t usually like sitting around in silence for a long time— her mind wanders easily, and usually it wanders towards rumination and everything in her life that’s stressing her out. But with Lunar New Year on her mind, she finds her thoughts going to better things for once.

She wonders what her great-grandparents would have thought of her and Chae-Yeong. She never met them, and she never heard stories about them either. There are no puzzle pieces for her to put together, there’s no story she can create from scraps of information. Most of her family tree is a mystery to her even as she honors them. 

But Chae-Yeong’s not a mystery at all. Helena knows how to read her unlike anyone else, knows every single one of her little quirks by heart. She’s someone who makes sense, and Helena’s always grateful for their similarities. She makes life so much better for her, and she hopes that regardless of who her great-grandparents or even her great-great-grandparents were, they’d at least be proud of her for finding someone she can be herself around. Maybe they’d be proud of her for reconnecting with her roots, for trying to follow cultural traditions even if it took her a long time to do so. 

Family is weird, and it’s complicated, but Helena hopes that there’d be someone in Chae-Yeong’s family that’s happy for her too. And if no one else is, then Helena will be proud of her for them. 

The five minutes they’re away from the dining room pass quickly. Chae-Yeong’s leg brushes against Helena, getting past her skirt so that she can feel the plastic of her prosthetic foot brushing against Helena’s lower leg. 

Chae-Yeong breaks the silence with a cough. “We’re good to head back in.”

Helena gets up first, waiting a second for Chae-Yeong to get up after her. She stretches as she gets up, making a soft grunting noise.

Nothing’s different as the two of them make it back into the dining room, though Helena feels like it should be. She hopes that this is what they’re supposed to be doing, as Chae-Yeong makes her way to the table again. She moves to put the folding screen back in its original position, revealing the table again. She goes to take the chopsticks from the bulgogi, then the spoon from the rice bowl.

“We’re supposed to bow four times now,” Chae-Yeong says as she rejoins Helena. “It’ll help send the ancestors back to the spirit world.”

Helena hums in response, taking four deep bows along with Chae-Yeong. She hopes that if anyone is watching from the other side, they appreciate the food she and Chae-Yeong prepared for them. 

Chae-Yeong strides over to the table again, now taking the written prayer from it and burning it over the candle. The ashes fall down onto the table, and Helena notes that next year they should use a tablecloth. 

“Okay,” Chae-Yeong says. “Since we don’t have any ritual things outside of that prayer, I think that’s about it aside from eumbok.”

“Great,” Helena says. Now it’s her turn to step up to the table.

It’s hard to say if that’s what the ceremony was supposed to be like when she has no frame of reference for it. Now that it’s over, she can’t help but worry that they did this wrong. She heard that people usually eat dried fish for Seollal— they didn’t have any of that, maybe that means the food offerings aren’t right. And they might not have done the ceremony itself right either, it was hard trying to find resources online about how to do this. She knows that she’s probably being irrational, and she’s probably holding herself to too high standards, but worry still eats at her. 

“I think we might be doing this wrong,” Helena says, frowning down at the table. 

“Maybe,” Chae-Yeong replies. Her arms wrap around Helena’s waist as she hugs her from behind. “But I like trying this with you.”

Helena can’t help but smile at that. “Yeah. I like it too.”

It’s not perfect. Helena knows it never will be, no matter how much she wishes she could push everything into place. But she thinks she can be content with imperfection if Chae-Yeong is. 

So she leans back to give Chae-Yeong a quick kiss on the cheek.

“How about we go ahead and eat, then?” she suggests.

“Sounds good.”

As they sit down at a corner of the table, Helena looks at all of the food laid out before them. It’s impressive to think about how much they managed to make in one day, and even if things aren’t perfect, Helena thinks now that she’s happy with how things turned out. They’re definitely going to have a lot to eat, though, and she’s sure they’ll be eating leftovers for a long time after this. 

Helena takes a slice of Asian pear, offering it to Chae-Yeong. She takes it between her teeth, biting off a piece with an affectionate look at Helena. 

She’s lucky to be going into this new year with Chae-Yeong. Everyday with her is a gift. And Helena hopes that when they eat their rice cake soup, symbolizing growing a year older with the lunar new year, this will be one of many more years spent together.

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Chae-Yeong as a Gen.shin emote that my friend made for me!

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CHAE YEONG bc i'm so biased towards oc love but also. you and xianyun omg 😭😭😭💖💖💖💖💖

lol I just sent you an ask with this ask game about how I love you and Kylar bcs OC selfshipping is so fun! It's so important to be able to make a character and then love them. And I love Xianyun so dearly, she's my pretty bird I love so much <3 Suffering through grinding in Gen.shin rn just for aer

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Before AAPI month ends, gonna take a second to shout out all my Asian F/Os (this is a mix of canon and hc)

Jame is half Taiwanese, Chae-Yeong is a quarter Korean, Himeko and Sara are Japanese, Boone is half Filipino, and Xianyun and Yanfei are Chinese!

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📻📻📻 - for chae yeong + xianyun + mel/jayce? - @darliings

Chae-Yeong gets Postmodern Jukebox’s cover of idontwannabeyouanymore. For one I think she’d like the kind of lounge singer vibe of this cover, but it fits very well for the way she tends to think about herself imo. She has a lot of issues with her identity and how she feels she’s constantly playing a role more than ever actually being a person, so idk, this is always one of the songs ever for her to me

Xianyun gets Lovesick by Laufey! This one is kinda an easy out for me bcs I used it for a fic with aer, but I also just think she’d enjoy Laufey. And it also describes the beginning of our relationship well imo

I’m doing separate ones for Mel and Jayce bcs I couldn’t think of any good romantic songs (other than Out of My League), so for Mel, Dynasty by Rina Sawayama. The song’s perfect for her whole family dynamic/relationship with Ambessa imo, being about trying to break the cycles you were born into and imo that’s the direction her character needs to head in

Now for Jayce, I’m thinking We Forgot We Were Human by Dirt Poor Robins. For one, it’s steampunk, and that’s the Piltover vibe to me. But the song is about how in the name of progress, we leave a lot of things behind, taking for granted traditions and sometimes our own humanity, which matches perfectly with his season 1 arc imo