#🍡 nonnie

[sakkiichi]

There’s a solace that comes with knowing that ash blond with the unusual red apple streak in it. He knows it too; he seeks it just as much as you do whenever your fingers intertwine or your lips meet in a chaste kiss. It’s a craving, a longing for someone who gives you the calm you’ve always desired after a storm.

Kazuha proves himself a man of many words, parchments and leatherbound tomes of poetry scatter on almost every surface of your shared home - you’re inquisitive, always picking something up to read when a new scroll appears that you don’t recognise. He’s fluid with his words, they almost feel as though they touch you, suffocate you even. His poetry clasps at your heart even when it isn’t meant for you but honestly, when wasn’t it meant for you nowadays?

But amongst thousands of words Kazuha uses to express his emotions, particularly to you, there’s the treasured gifts he spoils you with whenever he can. From beautiful kimonos decorated in auburn leaves to match that of his own attire to glimmering lockets hanging on dainty chains that hold precious photos of the two of you inside - you don’t miss how Kazuha appears to have one hanging from his neck too. His bandaged hands will fiddle with it when he’s too awake for his own good or when the wanderer encounters a mountain in his journey that he isn’t too sure if he can climb - yet he knows he can if you’re at his side. His beloved, always there to hold his hand through the hardships of his life.

Kazuha presses his chest against your back, his lips dusting faint trails of kisses amongst your hair that makes a smile curl up on your lips as you stand before the mirror in the bathroom of your shared house. Kazuha grins at this motion, burying his nose in dark strands of hair for a moment - it’s home to him, four walls to return to at your side.

“I got you a gift,” he muses, not failing to miss how your eyes widen as he drops the information, “we stopped by Fontaine, I couldn’t resist.”

“You shouldn’t have,” you sigh, trying to pout but there’s an excitement to knowing that your whimsical boyfriend returned from his journey with another gift, “it better not be one of their dresses…”

Kazuha chuckles, his hands reaching up to brush your hair back. Ruby eyes fall to your bare collarbone and the exposed skin of your neck and he smiles, the warmth of his hands disappearing for mere moments before they return, bringing with them the chilling tingle of a cold metal chain sliding closer to your neck.

Your eyes fall to the glittering silver pendant around your neck before you raise your gaze to meet his in the mirror. You see the way his eyes twinkle as nimble fingers clasp the necklace shut and his hands fall to your waist, holding your hips. He admires the way the pendant sits on your neck, glittering like stars in the orange glow of the oil lamp next to the sink.

The man leans down, pressing slightly chapped lips against the soft skin of your cheek as his thumbs rub motions into your hips, his hands tight as if you’d disappear if he loosened his grip for even a moment - he couldn’t lose you, no.

“I love you.” He murmurs, hot breath fanning on your cheek when he doesn’t pull away before he speaks. A grin widens on your face as you reach a hand up, threading into white hair as you watch the scene in the mirror before you.

“I love you too.” You reply in a hushed voice, treasuring the serene moments like this that you’re granted when your boyfriend comes home from sea. When he’s tired of ships rocking in unruly storms or rations of dry food he wishes tasted better.

Kazuha knows that he’ll always come home to these moments, to these sights when you stand before him in the bathroom wearing simple nightwear, having just been getting ready for bed when he’d interrupted your routine. For a while, he wonders how lucky he must be to have you. To have four walls of a home locked to a person, whose embraces feel like the warmth of a fireplace and whose laughs could warm you up better than any cooked stew.

He considers what he’d do without you and for a brief few seconds, his brows knit together when he tucks his head into your neck, his lips finding the dainty chain decorating your neck.

He couldn’t lose you, no.

- 🍡

NONNIE NONNIE I LOVE YOU AND I LOVE THIS AND I LOVE KAZUHA W MY WHOLE HEART OMG OMG OMG OMG THANK YOU A THOUSAND FOR THIS HFHFHDJSJDBDJSJJS AAAAAAAA I WAS READING THIS W THE BIGGEST SMILE ON MY FACE GOSH YOU ARE AN ANGEL AAAAAAAAAAAAA CRYING SOBBING SQUEALING HFHFJDJCJDJSJDJFHDJJS WHEN HE WHEN HIM HE HIM WHEN HE OMFGGGGG NONNIEEEEE

aaaa sorry for all the caps but gosh i adore this sm 😭 his poetry and moments of sweet intimacy like this ueueueueue me happi now i shall cry and hold this fic to my heart. I LOVE YOU SM WHOEVER YOU ARE WHEREVER YOU ARE AAAAAAAA

[lunicho]

I LOVE YOU TO BAE THING 💓

me and nicholas will miss you 🙁❕

- all our love,

🍡, and nicholas 😋

I'VE BEEN WANTING TO ANSWER THIS I'M SO SORRY I LOGGED OUT BEFORE U SENT THIS :((( but i missed u guys sm i hope ur doing well cutie pie <3

[intcritus]

ooc tag list.

[moonlight-melts]

Sounds like something to talk to your doctor or therapist about for sure: it can be a did symptom or it could be maladaptive daydreaming! Or it could be a normal amount of agency; I know that I had trouble ‘getting rid’ of imaginary figures once I pictured them in the space with me, I had a hard time feeling like they weren’t there anymore. So it can just be normal to feel not fully in control of your imagination (assumin I’m normal which I might not be) but only a person who knows you specifically could say!

Can't be DID, no trauma in childhood.

I wish I still had a therapist but my previous ones+my old psychiatrist dismissed everything I felt so now I'm scared shitless of therapy.

It's like. My MaDD paras. Except I still control my paras. I don't really control the 2/3 ones I'm talking about in my post. For some fucking reason. Sometimes it's helpful but most of the time it's just a pain in the ass.

I know they're not physically here they're just in my brain. I can't stop them from talking or being there even of I try really hard.

[saetoshis]

hi, i hope you are well and the universe is treating you with warm and cozy vibes.

much love,

your 🍡 anon

OMGHAJAJA IM GONNA KISS U UR SO SWEET N PRECIOUS N ADORABLE SYOPAJAJAJA i kiss u so much 🥲🥲🥲 I HOPE U R SOOO COZY N WARM N SNUGLED UP N FULL OF POSITIVE ENERGY N YUMMY SNACKS 🤗🤗

[nymphoheretic]

hi im in love with you - 🍡 anon

You trying to get kissed, nonnie? Confessing your love for me? Aren't you the sweetest little thing ever

[decembermoonskz]

omg wait :( yes, i adore you so much, you and your writing are amazing <33 i will gladly be an anon!

if it's not taken, i'd like to be 🍡 anon :)

aww I’m happy to hear that 💜💜💜 tysm for liking my writing, even tho I’m a bit rusty I’m hoping to share the requests as soon as I can! ^^ so new stuff soon weeeee

and omg that’s such a cute emote! it’s not taken so by all means you may have it.

[anantaru]

favorite anime(s)?

I HAVE A LOT NONNIE BUT my current all time favorite is oshi no ko, i am up to date with the manga too, it's very good! 💖 other faves i have are:

my dress up darling 🍡

noragami 🧙🏻

ron kamonohashi: deranged detective 🕵🏼‍♂️

death note 👹

black butler 🧟‍♂️

rascal does not dream of bunny girl senpai 🎤

kaguya sama: love is war ❤️

classroom of the elite 😏

the quintessential quintuplets 🐰

a sign of affection 💓

attack on titan 🧌

monster💫

horimiya 🗣️

bungou stray dogs + bungou stray dogs wan 🫧

[itoshi-s]

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rin my love / sae <3 / bachira <3 / reo <3 / isagi ^_^ / ryusei >_< / nagi

haikyuu!!

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[shaisuki]

HELALAAAUURUR !!! I hope you're ok<33 💋💋 always remember to take a rest when you feel tired, and don't be too harsh on yourself ＼(^_^)／

- 🍡

HIIIII!!!!! 🍡, nonnie. Thank you for that and I will and you toooooo.

[soleillunne]

So caring for me, sweetheart. I’m doing fine but I’ll take it easy just so you can’t whine about me overworking or anything. I do like dropping drabbles, however

- 🍡

is it so bad i care about your well being nonnie? /lh

But i'm glad!

[sakkiichi]

Oh, was that my first time gifting you a drabble under my anon, sweetheart?

- 🍡

under the 🍡 emoji yes hehe i got another anon doing this for me too once, however they used a different emoji… could you happen to be the same person? ehe

[lunicho]

nonnie list! 🪐, 🪄, 🐻‍❄️, 😵‍💫, 🫧, luna, 🍎, 🧚‍♀️, 🐼, 🧸, 🩰, 🦢, miu, 🍡, 🌚, ❄, 💋

lmk if i missed any!

[melodygatesauthor]

🍥 + 🍚 + 🍡

Hi Nonnie!

Responses below the cut:

🍥 What's your favorite fic you've written?

That's a good question. If I had to pick my ULTIMATE favorite...like the one I would read and reread...it has to be a toss up beteween:

Not a Doctor (Patient Jake Lockley X Therapist f!Reader)

There's something about the way this fic unfolded for me. It just felt so good to me the entire way through. I could see the vision clearly, and I loved it. I also put a LOT of myself and my feelings toward Jake in this fic, so it was fairly personal in that way. I just think back to the writing process so fondly that it has to be up there as far as faves go.

and

A Bit Dodgy (MK System X f!Reader)

This will always hold a special place in my heart. Not only is one of my favorite people in the world @welcometostayingawake editing and advising me beautifully through it, the story is fulfilling and fun. There's angst, forbidden love, more angst, virginity loss, dubious consent, sneaky night time sex, all the boxes I have, this fic checks off and I love it.

🍚 What genre do you have the toughest time writing?

If we're speaking purely genre, I'd say I have a hard time with humor/comedy. If we're talking about tropes, I have a hard time with fluff I think. I was just talking about this today with a friend and I feel like my fluff (this is just my opinion) is a little corny and cliché at times haha. I prefer to always write smut if I can.

🍡 Which of your fics was the most emotionally difficult to write?

Save Us (Marc Spector X f!Reader)

Without a doubt, hands down, this was the hardest fic for me to write emotionally. I have said it before, I was in a long term relationship with an emotionally abusive ex, and this was a cathartic fic for that experience of my life. It doesn't have a happy ending (not in the sense that they end up together) and that's ok. It was hard since all my other fics had happy endings but this one didn't and it doesn't need one.

It's the only fic I will, without a doubt, never write a sequel for. It took a lot out of me to write it, despite how much I loved it and so did others. It just caused me a lot of pain to write. I feel like, in that fic, it brings up a lot of that push and pull that comes with trying to leave a toxic and abusive relationship.

Jake and Steven I equated to the "good" parts of my ex. Even in the most abusive relationships, there are good times. So going back and looking at all the good times with Steven and Jake were, to me, like the good times with my ex. Without fail, Marc (my exes shitty toxic attitude) would ruin those good times and good memories.

So even in the end when I left my ex, it was a very difficult thing to do, but it was necessary. It was hard because I still thought about the good times (Steven and Jake feeling bad and sad when reader left at the end. Them metaphorically holding on to her by being good to her) and Marc (metaphorically) pushing her away because he's toxic.

Anyway, guess I needed to get that off my chest. It's such a strong fic in my heart and it's up there in my top faves that I've written.

Thanks for asking nonnie!

Ask Game

[andsmile]

When are you going to post other chapter of hymn for the missing??? I love the last few chapters

thank you nonnie!

i am currently in a work trip in japan 🎎🍡🍙🎌🗼and i def didn't have any time to sit down and write. it's a delicate chapter and i need my attention on check so im betting at least a couple of weeks. sorry for the delay but when it's out it'll be worth the wait! 🩷

[saetoshis]

i am happy to see another sae itoshi fan. he is one of my favourite characters (along with bachira & nagi). your theme is very cute. wishing you a good day, filled with little moments that just feel right.

-🍡 anon

OMG YESHAJAKAKAK SAE IS SOOO COOL SNIFLE hes such a precious lil guy ahjaakak 🥲🥲🥲 NAGI TOO OMG I ADORE HIM PLS 🤕 BUT THSNK U SNIFLE ILL CRY THANK U AAAAAH i am soo warm n fuzzy eheheje thank u I AM HUGGING U N HOPING U HAVE A GOOD NIGHT / DAY i hope u r also VERY COZY 🤗🤗🤗🤗