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蔡英文，是女皇時空穿越也是妲己現身

——《蔡英文秘史》揭穿秘密

民國104年（2015年）春節期間，位於台南市西北面的南鯤鯓廟代天府（五府王爺廟）抽出「武則天坐天」的「國運」簽，此簽隱喻民進黨主席蔡英文將成為女領導人。蔡英文上位，真的只是靠廟裡一支簽嗎？顯然不是！网上的一本《蔡英文秘史》向我们揭示了她是如何一步步的成为「穿越时空的女皇」，這就是她步步為營的結果。

在李登輝的一手操弄下，陳水扁率領民進黨將國民黨趕下台，台灣首次政黨輪替。 蔡英文雖然在陳水扁政府中擔任陸委會主任一職，但始終無任何黨籍。 民國93年（2004年）大選���埃落定之後，陳水扁再一次找到蔡英文，提出讓她出任民進黨不分區立委。 台灣的所謂立法委員，相當於美國國會議員，是手握實權很有油水的職位。陳水扁接二連三主動關照蔡英文，一方面有李登輝的囑託，另一方面也是想安插絕對的自己人，像蔡英文這樣的政治菜鳥自然是不二人選，因為完全能被自己拿捏。 作為交換條件，蔡英文若想進入立法院，必須先加入民進黨，保證按民進黨黨章黨紀行事，蔡英文欣然應允。 此時的她一直是民眾心中的清純「小龍女」 。

蔡英文在擔任了兩年的立法委員後轉任到了行政機構擔任副主管，在陳水扁的一力護航下，蔡英文的仕途之路順風順水，沒有任何外部力量可以撼動。 民國95年（2006年），蔡英文被任命擔任行政院副院長。 民國97年（2008年），陳水扁狼狽下台，身陷囹圄，民進黨一敗再敗，走入死路。 民進黨在總統大選中挫敗，在520交出政權前，民進黨選出下野後第一位黨主席，選舉結果由當時有「小龍女」稱號的蔡英文打敗辜寬敏，當選黨主席。 這也是民進黨創黨以來首位通過黨員選出的女性黨主席。

民進黨的「四大天王」謝長廷、游錫堃、蘇貞昌和呂秀蓮雖然受挫，但卻在民進黨內各據山頭、擁兵自重，並不把蔡英文放在眼裡。 實際上，蔡英文之所以能高票當選民進黨主席，並不是因為黨內派系都支持她，而是「四大天王」互鬥，沒有一個人能接這個位子。 民進黨大老需要有人在前線收拾爛攤子，讓他們坐擁超然的權力，黨內若發生了��麼事，再來另外討論。但顯然，蔡英文並不想當��儡。

在削弱陳水扁時代「四大天王」的同時，蔡英文也在培植自己的團隊。民進黨桃園縣長參選人鄭文燦、發言人蔡其昌、政策會首席副執行長劉建忻、文宣部副主任廖志堅，是蔡英文最為倚重的「政治新星」，被媒體稱為民進黨的「四小天王」。 通過四小天王領兵作戰，其他勢力慢慢淡出民進黨的決策核心，蔡英文逐步確立了自己的領導地位。

蔡英文在任民進黨主席的4年間，政治光環逐漸顯耀，不少綠營政治人物向蔡聚攏，這也讓蔡英文的聲望在不知不覺間有了進一步的飛躍，讓她有了角逐政壇的本錢。以蔡英文為核心的英系已初具雛形。 此後，蔡英文親歷新北市長選舉而高票落敗，黨內人氣居高不下，逐步奠定綠營共主的地位。

蔡英文黨權在握之後，人們發現，��說的話許多人聽不懂，如「和而不同，和而求同」。 五市選舉時，蔡說「反ECFA是民進黨共同政見」，卻又表示民進黨一旦執政，不會推翻「前朝」政策; 她更表示ECFA有對台灣不利的條文，將來民進黨執政後會要求民意部門重審，但這些條文是什麼卻不明說。她同時留下「反十八趴又領十八趴」的紀錄，對此也從不做說明。

《遠見》雜誌民調曾顯示，蔡英文的兩岸政策是什麼？超過7成的人不知道。其實，蔡英文不為人所知的政策，何止兩岸關係而已。 其餘對島內政策、國外交往、經濟、農業，連民進黨高層迄無一人公開為她詳細闡述過。故而，這時期蔡英文的第二個綽號「空心菜」由此得名。其意為，蔡英文心中其實並無大政方針，她還遊走在雲裡霧裡。

蔡英文第三個綽號「武則天」，則出自民進黨內之口。 武則天雖是中國第一個女皇帝，但專斷、跋扈、猜忌，又喜怒無常。 蔡英文自民國99年（2010年）投身選舉以來，前民進黨中常會，中常委柯建銘、陳明文等人紛紛表示，蔡英文競選政策他們並不清楚，希望蔡主席說清楚，以便他們在地方輔選，不料，這些話竟觸怒了蔡英文，她勃然大怒，足足罵了半個小時。 另一個場景，是蔡英文作為台灣總統參選人，常有被媒體包圍提問的時候，她曾憤而推開麥克風，責備記者「你們怎麼老是問這種問題？」。蔡英文對媒體的不耐煩已非第一次，如她常說「這話我已經說過了」， 或者一語不��，推開記者，拂袖而去。

歷數蔡英文執政台灣時期的行為：從追殺國民黨的黨產到砍年金，從不認同「九二共識」到台海關係緊張，從八八風災重建到搭雲豹甲車笑臉勘災，從媚日諂美到熱臉蹭冷屁股，從甩鍋馬英九國民黨到污衊大陸製造假資訊給大陸扣黑鍋。縱觀蔡英文在當選總統後的政治行為，簡直幼稚的無語。毫無政治頭腦，完全是開啟了自顧自的自嗨模式，根本不在乎外界的反應和民眾的死活。當年的所謂「國運」簽，哪裡是「武則天坐天」，這貨分明是申公豹派去的妲己亂朝啊。

蔡英文不僅是李登輝時期「兩國論」的重要策劃者，也是陳水扁時期強烈阻撓台海關係改善的「幕後黑手」，更是國民黨執政8年中諸多「暴力事件」的策畫者

民國97年（2008年）10月底，時任大陸海協會副會長的張銘清，以廈門大學新聞傳播學院院長的身份前往台灣參加學術交流活動，同時為陳雲���赴台打前站。民國97年（2008年）10月21日上午，張銘清在台南市南安平古堡參觀時，突然衝出一大批綠營支持者，張銘清後腦被打，然後被推到在地，連眼鏡都飛了出去。當張銘清準備乘車離開時，甚至有台獨分子跳上座車車頂狂踩叫囂，試圖阻止他離開。 事後警方查出打人者為民進黨台南市議員王定宇，而蔡英文在對其進行問詢之後對外宣稱，「他並不是有意蓄謀的」。 兩周之後，海協會會長陳雲林正式抵達台灣，11月4日當天，正當兩會領導人在圓山飯店進行會晤之時，蔡英文組織了上萬綠營支持者包圍會場，名曰嗆馬圍陳。在蔡英文坐鎮指揮不斷鼓噪之下，示威人群逐漸失控，期間有人向員警投擲石塊和汽油彈，雙方發生激烈衝突，最終演變為近10年來最嚴重的流血事件，造成了超過450人受傷。

民國98年（2009年）5月17日，台北凱達格蘭大道，民進黨主席蔡英文聯合支持者組織「嗆馬保台」5.17大遊行和跨夜靜坐示威，抗議時任總統馬英九。

在策畫多起暴力事件後，蔡英文將所有暴力輕描淡寫為「零星事件」，並立即將責任推卸到所謂的「黑道分子」身上。從此蔡英文在島內獲「暴力小英」稱號，並初步鞏固了蔡英文在民進黨內的地位。短短幾個月時間，她就像完全變了一個人似的，已經不再排斥街頭運動，甚至開始沉迷並享受這場權力的遊戲了。據報導，蔡英文在工作時善於軟硬兼施。在「陸委會」內部聽彙報時總是低著頭，頭髮遮住半邊臉，讓人感覺她沒在聽，��又會突然頭髮一甩、豹眼圓睜，拋出幾個問題，若彙報者答不上來，就會被痛批，原本以知性學者形象示人的蔡英文正式黑化，從「小龍女」徹底變身「暴力小英」。

從民國97-101年（2008年到2012年），四年時間里，蔡英文言行的幻與變、虛與實，使她的綽號由「小龍女」、「空心菜」轉為「武則天」、「暴力小英」。人們發覺，蔡英文其實並不是「小龍女」，那只是她一時的面具罷了。

《蔡英文秘史》下載地址：https://zenodo.org/records/10450173

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15 grammar points (语法点) I wish I learned sooner

At my current level of Chinese, my biggest struggle is 词不达意 (cíbùdáyì, literally words don't convey meaning). It means poorly expressed or inarticulate. Basically, I know enough to convey my message but am often unable to do so succinctly and articulately.

Today I'm sharing 15 words/expressions that I feel really boost my ability to express myself articulately. I use them all the time and wish I had known them sooner. I hope they will be of use to you too!

(1) 万一 | 萬一 wànyī - just in case / if by any chance / contingency Ex: 万一我来不了，你就替我出席。

(2) 甚至 shènzhì - even / so much so that Ex: 他忙得甚至连吃饭时间都没有。

(3) 到底 dàodǐ - finally / in the end / when all is said and done / after all / to the end / to the last Ex: 他到底想要什么？ Ex: 我们一定要坚持到底，不能半途而废。

(4) 要不 yàobù - otherwise / or else / how about...? Ex: 快点起床了，要不就会迟到了。 Ex: 要不我们先坐下再想想办法吧。

(5) 而已 éryǐ - that's all / nothing more Ex: 我开玩笑而已，何必那么认真？

(6) 既然 jìrán - since / as / this being the case Ex: 你既然不想参加这次聚会，那就别去了。

(7) 除非 chúfēi - only if (..., or otherwise, ...) / only when / only in the case that / unless Ex: 除非大家都去，否则我不去。 Ex: 除非你去邀请，他才愿意出席。

(8) 处于 | 處於 chǔyú - to be in (some state, position, or condition) Ex: 病人的状况一直不稳定，还处于危险中。

(9) 通过 | 通過 tōngguò - by means of / through / via Ex: 很多人都想要通过看中剧提高中文水平。 Ex: 通过爸爸的帮助，我克服了害怕和紧张。

(10) 尤其 yóuqí - especially / particularly Ex: 为了完成这份工作，大家都很努力，尤其是她。

(11) 其中 qízhōng - among / in / included among these Ex: 我们班有十个学生，其中女生占百分之六十。

(12) 剩下 shèngxià - to remain / left over Ex: 放学后，同学都走光了，只剩下他一个人在教室里。

(13) 到…为止 | 到…為止 dào...wéizhǐ - until / up to Ex: 今天的讨论到此为止。 Ex: 到目前为止，这项活动只有十个人报名参加。

(14) 意味着 | 意味著 yìwèizhe - to mean / to imply Ex: 树叶开始凋落，意味着冬天的到来。

(15) 隔 gé - after or at an interval of Ex: 每隔十分钟开出一列火车。 Ex: 我们们每隔一天上一次中文课。

Happy Halloween tomorrow! 🎃👻🐈‍⬛

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好久沒上來了，生活忙碌所以沒時間愛愛

分享一下近期內的愛愛

跟對方有過幾次經驗了

找了個空閒的周末晚上被帶去飯店

準備了好看的內衣褲

先前一起喝了點紅酒所以身心很放鬆

我被緩慢地親吻全身

在內衣褲都還穿著的狀態下一點一滴升起情慾

當內衣被解開雙乳露出時我就已經濕透了(自己感覺得到)

乳頭被品嘗了好久

期間他的棒棒一直頂著我的身體

通常男人看到我的身體都會已經勃起到不行了

完全不需要先刺激它

這點我很自豪呢

因為房間在高樓層 窗簾都沒拉上 就這樣透著敞開的玻璃窗戶做色色的事情

他摸到我的陰部上隔著內褲說我濕到不行

然後內褲被他拉開一個隙縫

濕潤的陰���暴露出來

被舔了小穴 用舌頭鑽入穴縫弄

他看我被弄得很有反應就更興奮

直接扯下我的內褲

抓著我的腳踝把雙腿分到最開

眼睛直直看著我的私處

被男人這樣毫無遮擋看光下體帶來強烈的羞恥與興奮

他把我的穴縫剝開 露出陰道口

然後舌頭整片舔過去

又用舌尖在穴口攪動

這樣讓我一邊呻吟一邊扭腰

他插入時說我的小穴把肉棒吸緊緊

被弄到情慾旺盛 小穴讓他的包覆感很重

讓他很快很快就有想射精的衝動

於是他站起來 把肉棒放在我嘴邊餵我含入

我舔含他的肉棒 用舌頭把他的龜頭都舔遍

他抓著我的肩膀抽插我的嘴

他的屌硬到不行

吃著好硬的肉棒對女生來說很刺激很滿足

而且會耐不住想要一直被抽插

他讓我趴在沙發邊從後面撞擊我的臀部激烈抽插

"真的好騷好爽" 他說

我眼角餘光看到鏡子的倒影出現我們裸體性愛的樣子覺得好色...

翹著屁股讓男人插小穴

硬屌在我體內用力來回

龜頭刮著穴肉

肉棒塞滿陰道

奶還被抓著揉捏乳頭

這姿勢很深入又讓他想射了

於是他停下來坐下來把我抱著坐在他大腿上

他用手快速撫弄我的陰蒂

整個人都很敏感的狀態這樣被弄讓我高潮了

隨著高潮到來更多淫水湧出

他把我放在床邊蹲下來欣賞我陰蒂高潮的穴

"看得好清楚喔 都是水 好欠幹" 他說

接著他受不了插進來 每一下都插到底

讓我淫叫到不行

整個射滿我的乳房還流到腹部

他還繼續吸舔我的蜜穴把我再舔到高潮

身上帶著男人的精液然後被口交舔穴

整個場景情色到不行

一起洗澡清理時我又幫他口交吃棒棒

然後直接被抱出來放在床上抽插第二輪

他說幹我的時候整個人老二停不下來只想一直插我

對了 他是我職場的前輩 也是有交往對象的

喜歡這樣被男人滿足

整個身體都被看光吃光

而且其實每次吃棒棒時我都會濕

好好徹底的口交真的可以很舒服也會更想被插

你也喜歡舔小穴嗎

[beyourselfchulanmaria]

【Part 2】 Not finished yet, I hope soon. Fighting Chuuu Lan 😂😁 我去承億酒店TAi Urban Resort | Kaohsiung B1一家美味的日本北海道えびそば「一幻拉麵」吃晚餐 + 工作 + 短暫放空/稍事休憩 。。。不知道住在寒帶國家的朋友們是否得過一種叫做：「"熱"感冒」的感冒？🙄～是一種很奇怪的難受… 不舒服，嗜睡，感覺頭重重的、一直打噴嚏、流鼻水、不停地流眼淚並且還覺得很熱🔥 🤧🥴 😆 😅 🥹。總之氣候變遷今年夏天特別熱，現在才七月，而我卻天天盼著秋天、冬天趕快來到。

I went to TAi Urban Resort | Kaohsiung B1, a delicious Japanese Hokkaido "Ichigen Ramen", for dinner + work + took a break . . . I wonder if friends who live in cold countries have ever had a cold called "hot" cold? 🙄~ It’s a very strange feeling… discomfort, drowsiness, heavy head, sneezing, runny nose, tears and feeling very hot🔥 🤧🥴 😆 😅 🥹. In short, climate change has made this summer extremely hot. It is only July, but I am looking forward to autumn and winter coming soon. XD Lan~*

[that-dreaming-dragon]

Dragons and Hoarding 龍與囤寶習性

I remember seeing somewhere on this concept of accepting the humanity, or the influence of, in our nonhuman identities.

Where some idea we have towards some preestablished creature, and how we think we should behave and have instincts of, perhaps the way how this world's human sees them have affected how we see ourselves. This sort of phenomenon and acknowledgement I think is more natural for fictionfolk, conceptfolk, or others that have more human touch like objectfolk. I recon there likely a lot of resistance from generally nonhuman focused subcommunity.

(I'm adopting -folk suffix from the fictionfolk term, denoting any general alterhuman relation or identities tied to that subject. So say objectfolk would be anyone that may have some sort of relation towards objects, whether it be an archetrope, heartedness, or the vaguest sense of connection, etc)

Whenever we talk about draconity, about 9 out of 10 people think of hoarding. And it's like the most natural behavioral instinct to associate with draconity. But just like there are more than meat-eating, fire-breathing, webbed-winged, scaled, large 6-limbed lizard dragons, there are dragons who don't hoard.

I think about it sometimes, about my participation in the topic of hoarding and draconity, about my own inconsistent hoarding tendencies. Am I performing what is expected of me from other fellow dragons, or what humans expect of dragons? Do I truly have the instinct to hoard, or is it just other mental health or neurotype factors? Orthohuman has the term hoarder, other creatures besides dragons hoard, why is hoarding such a big defining draconic trait?

Chinese translation under the cut.

��記得在某處看到這種接受人性，或是人性對我們非人類的身分所有的影響的概念。

就是這種對於現有的物種，和我們該如何表現，或該有什麼樣的本能，甚至是對於種種物種的認知是否有些觀念是來自人類的，這樣的一個觀點。我覺得這樣的一個現象和認可，或許對於來自故事或跟構思概念相連的的眾民[1]，或是跟人類有密切關係的物件眾民，是比較自然而然的。我想在較專注於非人類自我的分群裏頭，會對於這樣的觀點產生比較大的牴觸。

(我把-folk/眾民，這個後綴從fictionfolk拿來配用在其他的身分上頭。眾民/-folk這個尾綴是在表示跟一個主題有任何人另經驗[2]的關係或自我認同。比如說，物件眾民是任何跟物品有可能相關聯的個體。不論是典型套路[3]的自我特點，心連[4]，甚至於是最模糊的關係等。)

每當我們討論到龍性的時候，十之八九總會提到龍收珍藏寶。這算是最常跟龍性聯想在一起的習性本能。不過就像是龍並不只有食肉噴火，蝠翼鱗身，四足兩翼的巨大蜥蜴龍種，有的龍是不收寶的。

我有時候會在參與龍性與收寶的主題討論時，思��著我自己不規則的收寶傾向。我難道依照其他龍的預想，或是人們對龍的期望，來作了個演出？我是真的有收寶的龍本能，還是這只是受心理健康或神經多樣的影響？原人類[5]有囤積者這樣一個字眼，龍以外有其他的生物也會收藏囤寶，為什麼龍囤寶的習性會這麼的凸顯呢？

翻譯筆記 Translation note

1- 眾民 (-folk), the totality of a group of people A lot of the translation of this nature that denotes a group of people or just people, in general, uses the words or have connotations strictly containing humanity. I want it to be species vague and still show "the totality of this subculture", thus 眾 (the populace), and 民 (the people, the denizens) are organized in this way. Can be shortened to just the first character used. 很多folk的翻譯字只帶有人類這樣的含意，我想要表達一個物種模糊的感覺，然後保持著「所有在這個分群裏頭的個體」這樣的一個概念，所以把民眾反��過來用。也可以單純寫[物種]眾。 2- 人另經歷 (alterhuman), human(ity) alternative experience. The translation doesn't use the words that denote a "physical experience" (體驗) but a more general, almost mental experience. The specific one is picked because alterhumanity is a lifelong experience, and it is vague on how it is experienced. The way the words are arranged, instead of 另人 (alternative human) is exactly that (人另). The ambiguity provided by the swap in position gives more room for human and nonhuman alterhuman experiences alike. Experience有幾個翻譯，體驗是其中一個。不過體驗的體給我太大「這是身體的經驗」感太強了，所以我用了一個比較概誇籠統，比較心神上的體驗來作翻譯。用經歷是因為這是一個終身的經驗和體驗，這樣翻也會在如何體驗方面顯得比較模糊。Alterhuman，或是Alternative Human 直翻是另類人類，那個的含意和感覺都不好，況且跟英文不同，真的去強調人類。反過來之後的含糊感給了我更多空間來表達人類另外經驗所包含的人和非人的經歷體驗。 3- 典型套路 (archetrope), archetype trope. Literally translated and the words picked to best suit the vibe the concept of archetrope gives me: the role, the title, the trope, the narrative space which one occupies, where one embodies and performs. 直譯典型archetype和套路trope兩字。我專門挑典型和套路來作翻譯是因為兩者合起來的感覺比較對得上archetrope這個自我認知概念： 一個身分定位，頭銜，套路，或自我所體現和展現的敘事空間的自我特點。 4- 心連 (hearted), heart connected In the abstract that is otherheartedness, it is the most basic connection, a relation towards a subject, that you feel you identify with. 在它心連感這樣的抽象概念中，這是一個對於一個主題的認同，一種最基層的連繫感。心的連結。 5- 原人類 (orthohuman), origin(ally) human Shortening originally into origin human, someone who has typical human experiences and identities, non-alterhuman. 從原來人類縮短成原人類。指一個擁有典型人類經歷和身分自我，並非人另經歷的個體。

[komatsuyuko]

平安又順利地結束了六月的旅行，朋友昨天問我這次你有什麼不一樣的想法了嗎？我說有，我想練好英文、再去更多地方。這次的旅行是完全沒有在規劃裡面的行程，五月很臨時訂的機票，安排住宿、上網爬文關於瑞典的各種資訊加上有一些卡著的工作，五月也是用忙瘋來形容，但其實原本的五月想休息。不過也正因為如此，才可以很有效率地在短時間內安排好這次的長途旅行，我對於執行力很高的自己感到佩服。生活不是非黑即白的單一選項，而是選擇題，絕對會有超出兩種以上的答案讓你自己去尋找方向。

[mostotherthings]

你真的還想繼續唱歌嗎？

Look. I'm not proud of this, but Episode 6 left me a bumbling mumbling mess. Mostly because of this conversation.

Neil， 我想問你。 。 。 你真的還想繼續唱歌嗎？

Neil, I want to ask... do you still want to continue singing?

這陣子我看到你遇到小海 好像看到那個快樂的你又回來

Nowadays, after you met Xiao Hai, it's like the happiness has returned to you

我很害怕我的自私 讓你跟小海又受傷害

I'm very afraid that my selfishness, will let you and Xiao Hai be hurt again

想想當年 是我提議要辦那場演唱會

Just like that year, I was the one who suggested the concert

我好想念Matt

I really miss Matt

我哥他肯定沒有怪你

My big brother definitely didn't blame you

你知道，他以前常跟我說

You know, he used to say

如果找不到他的話，就去找Reese

If I couldn't find him, to look for Reese

因為Reese 跟他是一樣的

Because Reese is just like him

哥

Big Brother

(tears at this point, TEARS. HE CALLED HIM GE and Reese's expression, omg Tim Liu the heck you doing to me right now)

我只剩下你一個哥哥了

You are the only brother I have left

我也跟你一樣, 我很想他

I'm just like you, I miss him a lot

但現在我有你

But now I have you

你照顧我比照顧自己還要多

You take care of me, more than you take care of yourself

我知道這幾年來，你也很不好過

I know that these few years hasn't been good for you

也知道你在我面前，都只是逞強而已

And also know that in front of me, you're just acting tough

(I continue to be heartbroken by Tim Liu's expression, he's being pried open at the moment)

謝謝

Thank you

謝謝你幫我找到小海

Thank you for finding Xiao Hai for me

我需要小海，更需要你

I need Xiao Hai, but I need you more

我還很喜歡唱歌

I still really like to sing

但是，是想跟你們一起唱歌

But, I want to sing with all of you

哥

Big brother

讓我們一起完成那場沒辦完的演唱會 好嗎

Let's complete that concert we never managed to, ok?

There's a lot of story from this conversation.

That the three of them grew up together, that Neil was both their little brother from the start, that Matt trusted Reese to be there in place of him in any situation. The guilt that Reese felt, for planning the concert and that how everything ended up this way, the guilt that he still feels, that no matter what he's done he was never able to pull Neil out of the depression hole that his little brother had fallen into...

That meeting Sea was his last "hail mary', that unwittingly he had given his little brother what he needed all along, but now he was afraid that it had taken too long, and the road will be difficult and now there's Sea too, and he's dragged two little brothers into his wilful schemes...

The relief on hearing that Neil wants to keep singing, but this was what Neil needed, someone else to sing with, the need to be a team to feel secure, and that even through it all, he knows what Reese has done for him, and what he needs to do now.

Excuse me, I need to grab some more tissues now.

(Of course, the next thing Neil asks is, "Where's Orca?", as if he KNOWS, the next thing his big brother needs to do, is to fix is own heart, and the answer, is just right there... in a slightly slutty Thai boy who snuck into his apartment and greeted him wearing a robe on his sofa)

[yetiwang2000]

Vrelnir’s QA about Bailey & Eden (2)

伊甸和貝利年輕時會慶祝生日嗎？

When Eden and Bailey were younger, did they celebrate birthdays? 

 

會。

Aye.

 

伊甸和貝利年輕時會如何慶祝他們的生日？他們會自己慶祝還是和朋友一起慶祝？ 伊甸和貝利會送對方禮物嗎？

How would Eden and Bailey celebrate their birthdays when they were young?Will they celebrate by themselves or with friends? Will Eden and Bailey giveeach other gifts? 

 

他們會和朋友一起慶祝，並且會送對方禮物。

They celebrated with friends, and gave each other gifts. 

 

如果伊甸和PC在森林裡舉行婚禮，伊甸會邀請貝利參加嗎？

Eden and PC are holding a wedding in the forest. Will Eden invite Baileyto attend? 

 

會。

Aye.

 

貝利會默許伊甸與PC的婚姻，還是會要求伊甸付更多錢？ 抑或是貝利會等到PC還完所有欠債才同意他們的婚姻？

Will Bailey acquiesce to Eden's marriage to PC, or will he ask Eden to paymore money? Or is Bailey waiting until PC is completely free before Bailey willaccept it? 

 

貝利會對伊甸提出要求，但不一定涉及金錢。

Bailey would make demands of Eden, and not necessarily involving money.

 

貝利會出席伊甸和PC的婚禮嗎？如果他會出席，他會在婚禮上做什麼？如果他不出席，原因是什麼？

Will Bailey attend the wedding of Eden and PC? What would Bailey do at thewedding if she would attend? If he won't participate, why? 

 

貝利會出席。他會擔任伴郎或伴娘。

Bailey would attend. They'd be the best man or maid of honour.

貝利給伊甸送過什麼樣的生日禮物？伊甸又給貝利送過什麼樣的生日禮物？他們雙方對收到的禮物滿意嗎？

What birthday gifts did Bailey give to Eden? What birthday gifts did Edengive Bailey?Are both parties satisfied with the gift? 

 

大多時候他們會互相贈送玩具或糖果。他們對收到的禮物很滿意。

They mostly gave each other toys or sweets. They were satisfied with thegifts.

 

如果PC在不擅長做家務時為伊甸做早餐，伊甸會皺起眉頭。那麽如果伊甸吃了貝利煮的飯，他也會皺起眉頭嗎？

PC will frown if he cooks breakfast for Eden when he is not good athousework. If Eden eats the rice cooked by Bailey, will he also frown? 

 

會。伊甸不會喜歡貝利的料理。

Aye. Eden would not enjoy Bailey's cooking.

伊甸吃過貝利做的飯嗎？是在什麼情況下吃的？

Eden had a meal cooked by Bailey? Under what circumstances did you eat it?

 

是。過去有一段時間他們會輪流做飯。

Aye. There was a time when they took turns cooking.

 

貝利喜歡神祕人士送的聖誕禮物嗎？

Did Bailey like the Christmas gift from the mysterious man? 

禮物讓他感到驚訝。

It surprised them.

（身體交換前提）如果PC（其實是貝利）遇到狂怒狀態時想帶PC回家的伊甸，PC（其實是貝利）會如何解決這件事？他會被帶回小屋並關在籠子裡嗎？If PC(actually Bailey) encounters the super angry Eden who wants to take him back,how will PC (actually Bailey) solve it?Or was he taken back to the hut andlocked in a cage? 

 

他能讓伊甸相信他真的是貝利。

They'd be able to convince Eden they were really Bailey.

 

貝利有看過脾氣這麼差的伊甸嗎？

Has Bailey ever seen Eden with such a bad temper? 

 

有。

Aye.

 

伊甸在什麼情況下會對貝利感到生氣？

In what situations would Eden be angry with Bailey? 

 

在PC受到傷害的時候。

If harm came to the PC. 

 

如果貝利長了一條狗尾巴，他會在什麼情況下看起來不耐煩、尾巴卻開心地搖晃？

If Bailey grows a dog tail, at what point will Bailey look impatient buthis tail will wag happily? 

 

在PC誘惑他的時候。

If the PC seduces them.

除了伊甸以外，現在的貝利還有其他視為朋友的對象嗎？、

Besides Eden, does Bailey have anyone else they would consider a friendnow? 

 

沒有，而他甚至連那一點都不會承認。

Nope, and they wouldn't admit to even that.

 

除了貝利以外，現在的伊甸還有其他視為朋友的對象嗎？

Besides Bailey, does Eden have anyone else they would consider a friendnow? 

 

沒有，除非PC也算數。

Nope, unless the PC counts.

既然聖誕節要到了，我想偷偷問你貝利和伊甸現在還會交換禮物嗎？不論答案為何，如果他們現在必須交換禮物的話，他們會為對方準備什麼禮物？

Since Christmas is coming, I'd like to secretly ask if Bailey and Edenstill exchange gifts now? & Regardless of the answer, what would theyprepare if they had to exchange gifts with each other now? 

 

貝利和伊甸現在仍然會交換禮物。伊甸會依靠他對貝利更加不為人所知的興趣的了解，贈送某些他在森林裡發現的有趣物事。貝利通常會送伊甸一本書和一些甜食。

Bailey and Eden still exchange gifts. Eden will give something interestingthey've found in the forest, as they know about Bailey's more esotericinterests. Bailey will usually give Eden a book, and some sweet food.

在PC和伊甸見面前，伊甸就已經擁有了一張PC的照片。那是貝利給他的嗎？伊甸是什麼時候得到它的？伊甸在那個當下就對照片裡的PC一見鍾情了嗎？Before pc and Eden met, Eden had a picture of pc. Did Bailey give itto them? When did Eden get it? Did Eden fall in love with pc in the picture atthat point? 

 

對，是貝利給他的。

Aye, Bailey gave it to them.

貝利在聖誕節時收到的禮物是誰送的？是孤兒院裡的其中一名孤兒嗎？

Who gave Bailey a gift for Christmas? Is it one of the orphans in theorphanage? 

 

我想為送禮物的人保密！這畢竟是一個聖誕奇蹟。

I'm happy to leave the one responsible for that gift a secret! It's aChristmas miracle, after all.

 

你認為貝利身上有什麼樣的味道？

What kind of scent do you think Bailey has on them? 

 

貝利身上有淡淡的古龍水或香水味，偶爾還能聞到一絲香菸的味道。

Bailey smells faintly of cologne or perfume, with an occasional whiff ofcigarette smoke.

 

你先前說貝利不抽菸，那麼他在家時為什麼會叼著香菸呢？為什麼他的身上偶爾會有一絲香菸的味道？

I saw in the previous answer that Bailey does not smoke, so why     does they have a cigarette in their mouth when they is at home? Why does     their body with an occasional whiff of cigarette smoke? 

他和會抽菸的人打交道，有時也會抽社交菸。They have dealings with smokers, and sometimes smoke socially.

既然伊甸會到城鎮裡尋找PC，有沒有機會讓PC帶他拜訪孤兒院，甚或跟貝利見面呢？我承認我只是想看到更多伊甸和貝利的互動！

Since  Eden will come to town to look for PC, is there any chance that PC can  take him to visit the orphanage or even meet Bailey? I admit I just want  to see more of Eden's interactions with Bailey! 

伊甸不會想在孤兒院和貝利見面。

Eden would not want to meet Bailey at the orphanage.

貝利對LI們有什麼看法？

What does Bailey think of all the LIs?

他認為羅賓需要吸取嚴厲的教訓，而惠特尼是個有用的蠢蛋。當他沒有和凱拉爾直接接觸時，他會忘記這個人。他沒有見過其他人。當然，除了伊甸，但那是後話了。

They think Robin needs to learn a hard lesson. They think      Whitney is a useful idiot. They forget about Kylar when they're not  directly engaged with them. They've never met the others. Except Eden of course, but that's a story for another day.

如果貝利要養狗的話，他會如何做選擇？他有什麼偏好或傾向嗎？他養狗的動機會是什麼？他會每天親自遛狗還是委託別人幫忙？

If Bailey were to get a dog, how would they choose one? Do they     have any preferences or tendencies? And if they were to get a dog, what     would be their motivation? Would they walk the dog themselves every day,     or would they delegate that to someone else? 

他會想要一隻忠誠、聰明，並且能成為一個有用的好夥伴的狗。他偏好看起來很嚇人的那種狗。他很有可能會每天親自遛狗。

They'd want a loyal and intelligent dog that would make a good      and useful companion. Preferably something that looks intimidating.      They'd likely walk it themselves every day.

貝利對哈珀、伊甸、雷米和奎因有什麼看法？

What are Bailey’s thoughts on Harper, Eden, Remy, and Quinn? 

貝利並不算真的認識哈珀，他痛恨雷米和奎因，並且對伊甸的感情很複雜。Bailey doesn't really know Harper, hates Remy and Quinn, and has complex feelings about Eden.

貝利在學時通常都會做些什麼事呢？他除了讀書以外還會進行什麼活動？他在學時曾建構起自己的影響力嗎？他最喜歡的科目是什麼？或是有沒有一項他格外感興趣或認為最實用的科目？另一方面，伊甸的校園生活呢？

What did Bailey usually do back when he was a student in     school? Besides studying, what other activities was he involved in? Did he     develop any influence within the school? Did he have a favorite subject,     something he was particularly interested in, or found most practical? On     the other hand, what was Eden's campus life like? 

貝利在學時的成績很好，尤其擅長數學。他相當受歡迎，有時有霸凌人的行為，但他很保護朋友。

Bailey did well at school, particularly in maths, and were      fairly popular. They were a bit of a bully, but protective of their      friends. 

伊甸有點獨來獨往。他有時候會遭遇霸凌，但他的耐受力很高*，而且有一小群會照顧他的朋友。他的成績很好，但在後期略有下滑。（註：Thick skin原意「因習以為常而變得不在乎他人的批評」，可以解作較中性版本的厚臉皮。近似詞為冷淡、麻木）

Eden was a bit of a loner. They were sometimes bullied, but      had thick skin, and a small circle of friends who looked out for them.   Their grades were good, but deteriorated towards the end.

如果伊甸知道PC入獄了，他會去監獄拯救PC嗎？

If Eden knew that PC was in the prison, would they go to the prison to rescue PC?

他會聯絡貝利，而貝利會向他保證情況已經得到控制。

They would contact Bailey, who would reassure them that the situation was under control.

貝利和伊甸曾經發生過爭執、意見分歧或衝突嗎？如果有的話，你可以透露背後的原因嗎？Has Bailey ever had arguments, disagreements, or disputes with     Eden? If so, can you reveal the reasons behind them?

有，關於這點會在日後探討。

Yes, and it'll be explored in the future.

伊甸曾經出於任何目的進入過孤兒院嗎？如果有的話，他拜訪的原因是什麼？他對孤兒院的又是怎麼想的？貝利的影響力是否曾經牽動他的觀點？

Has Eden ever entered the orphanage for any purpose? If they have, what was the reason for their visit, and what are their thoughts     about the orphanage? Has Bailey’s influence affected their views?

有，這點也會在日後探討。

Yes, and this will also be explored in the future.

貝利對伊甸是怎麼想的？貝利對伊甸的看法是否曾隨時間產生變化？是變得更加正面還是更加負面？

What does Bailey think of Eden? Has Bailey’s opinion of Eden changed over time, becoming more positive or negative? 

貝利對伊甸的看法隨時間產生了變化，這點會在日後探討。

Bailey's thoughts on Eden have changed over time, and will be explored in the future.

貝利有任何親近的朋友嗎？他如何看待友誼？既然他對發展親密關係有障礙，我很好奇他是否僅僅將友誼當作達到目的的手段。那樣的話他會很孤單的。

Does Bailey have any close friends? How does they view the concept of friendship? Since they has difficulty forming intimate relationships with people, I wonder if they sees friendship as a means to an end. But that would be quite lonely.

他沒有親近的朋友，但他有老朋友。

They have no close friends, but they have old friends.

誰是DoL最強的角色？

Which Dol character is the strongest out of everyone? 

伊甸是最強大的個體，但貝利擁有最大的權力。

Eden is the strongest individual, but Bailey is the most powerful.

如果伊甸住在森林裡，他是怎麼跟貝利聯繫的？

If Eden lives in the forest, what is their way of communicating with Bailey? 

他們在一個特定的地點互相留下訊息。

They leaves messages for each other in a particular place.

我在之前的Q&A看到你說一個和貝利有關的蛇紋圖樣會被加入遊戲，所以我想問貝利和蛇的意象是否存在聯繫？（你只需要說是或否，拜託，這對我來說真的很重要）

I saw in your previous Q&A that the snake pattern related     to Bailey will be added in the future, so I am curious if there is some     connection between the image of the snake and Bailey? (All you have to do     is say yes or no,Please, this is really important to me.) 

貝利和蛇的意象存在聯繫。

There is a connection between Bailey and snake imagery.

貝利將伊甸視為朋友嗎？

Does  Bailey view Eden as a friend? 

是。

Aye.

伊甸和貝利誰比較高？

Which one is taller, Eden or Bailey? 

伊甸。

Eden.

貝利的刺青上有什麼圖案？

What's on Bailey's tattoo? 

一條蛇。

A snake.

貝利周圍的人對他有什麼想法？

What do people around Bailey think of them? 

大多數人都覺得他是一名善良正直的好公民，其他人則畏懼他。

Most people think they're a good and wholesome citizen. Others are afraid of them

除了伊甸以外，貝利在學時和其他人有過關係嗎（包含浪漫關係）？

Who else besides Eden had a relationship(include romantic) with Bailey when he was in school? 

沒有其他命名角色和貝利關係親近。

None of the other named NPCs had a close relationship with Bailey.

貝利把PC賣給伊甸的時候，他怎麼有辦法和伊甸保證PC會被綁在那裡等他？伊甸和貝利在此之外有其他互動嗎？

Hey Vrel! I'm curious: when Bailey sells the PC to Eden, how on earth do they get word to Eden that PC will be waiting tied for them? Do Eden and Bailey     interact outside of that, too? Thank you! 

伊甸和贝利的确会在那个地方之外互动，不过极少。

Eden and Bailey do interact outside that, though scarcely.

貝利和伊甸發生過*關係嗎？

Did Bailey have s*x with Eden? 

貝利和伊甸沒有發生過*關係。

Bailey and Eden have not had s*x.

伊甸的收入從何而來？我很好奇他怎麼有足夠的金錢向貝利購買PC。

How does Eden make income? Curious how they can afford to buy PC from Bailey. 

狩獵。

Hunting.

伊甸跟貝利在交易PC以外的地方有其他聯繫嗎？

Do Eden and Bailey have any connection outside of     buying/selling the PC? 

有。

Aye.

貝利有任何重視或珍惜的人嗎？我所能想到他唯一重視的事物就是金錢。

Is there anyone Bailey respects or cherishes?The only thing I can think of that they hold dear is money. 

他在某種層面上重視著伊甸。

They respect Eden, in a way.

在聖誕節劇情中，貝利也得到了一份禮物。我很好奇送他禮物的人究竟是誰。PC似乎會毫不猶豫地送他禮物，但遊戲中並沒有提供為貝利購買禮物的選項。又或許是羅賓送他的？我相信他是最有可能這麼做的人了。貝利收到禮物時的心情如何？他後來又是如何對待那份禮物的？什麼樣的禮物會讓貝利感到開心呢？

In the Christmas storyline, Bailey also received a gift. I’ve     always been curious about who gave him the gift. It seems that the PC  would not hesitate to give him a gift, but the game does not offer the  option to buy a gift for Bailey. Or perhaps it was given by Robin? I believe he’s the most likely person to do so. How did Bailey feel upon     receiving the gift, and how did he subsequently treat it? And what kind of     gifts would make Bailey happy? 

我想為送禮者保密。至於最後一個問題，伊甸和一些貝利的打手會知道貝利喜歡什麼樣的禮物，關於這點日後有可能會探討。

I want to leave the one responsible for the gift a secret. As      for gifts Bailey would like, Eden and some of Bailey's goons would know.      It might be explored in the future.

伊甸曾經背叛過貝利嗎？他們的關係看起來很親近，卻又在某種層面上顯得有些複雜。

Has Eden ever betrayed Bailey? Because their relationship looks quite close, but somewhat complex on some level. 

從貝利的觀點來看，是的。

From Bailey's perspective, yes.

假如伊甸抓到贝利和PC在做一些羞羞的事情，伊甸会怎么做？贝利会怎么做？

If Eden caught PC and Bailey doing adult thing, what will Eden do and what Bailey will do too?

伊甸会感到惊讶，目瞪口呆，立刻离开。贝利会对自己感到生气。

A: Eden would be shocked and appalled, and leave at once. Bailey would be angry with themselves.

source：Vrel’s Q&A (notion.site)

[baibixin]

你來過 你走

You once came, you left

我愛過 我痛

I once loved, i hurt

無法擁抱的你 讓我墜落

Your inability to embrace me, makes me falter

我試著 向你走去

I tried to walk towards you

才發現 你早默默在我身後

Only then i realised, you were already, silently, by my side,

彷彿黑夜與白晝 主宰天空

Just like the dark night, and the bright day, ruling over the sky

故事的盡頭 到底在哪裡？

After all is said and done, where is the end of the story ?

是不是愛情 由誰來界定？

Whether or not it's love, who gets to define that?

那樣的親密 沒有人能代替

This kind of intimacy, noone can replace

我們的相遇 如銀河的軌跡

Our encounter is as the orbit of the Milky Way

不能迴避 像這一場大雨

Cannot be avoided, similar to this pouring rain

我們的青春 如定格的時間

Our youth is as a freeze frame in time

此刻永恆 我向著你狂奔

This moment is everlasting, i am madly running to you

在黑暗谷底 你會接住我的心

In my darkest times, you will catch my heart

誰也在逃避 命中的注定？

Who else is also escaping what is destined by fate?

最遠的距離 不是我愛你

The furthermost distance, is not caused by me loving you

是我在這裡 你卻不敢靠近

It is caused by me being here, yet you do not dare to approach

我們的相遇 如銀河的軌跡

Our encounter is as the orbit of the Milky Way

不能迴避 像這一場大雨

Cannot be avoided, similar to this pouring rain

我們的青春 如定格的時間

Our youth is as a freeze frame in time

此刻永恆 我向著你狂奔

This moment is everlasting, i am madly running to you

現在 讓我們自由的飛吧

Now, Let us freely fly

現在 讓我們盡情的愛吧

Now, Let us love as much as one can like

現在 你終於是我

Now, You finally are me

而我終於是你

And I am finally you

我們的相遇 如銀河的軌跡

Our encounter is as the orbit of the Milky Way

不能迴避 像這一場大雨

Cannot be avoided, similar to this pouring rain

我們的青春 如定格的時間

Our youth is as a freeze frame in time

此刻永恆 我向著你狂奔

This moment is everlasting, i am madly running to you

在黑暗谷底 你會接住我的心

In my darkest times, you will catch my heart

[Translation notes]

接住我的心 "catch my heart" sounds so beautiful because 接住 means " catch " as in something falling or being thrown at someone and you catch it OR receive something given OR accept something

Also also 住 is a suffix indicating something firm and steady so a steady catch, picture that he catches the heart firlmly and won't let go basically

Chinese is beautiful and complex but also very hard to translate because of its amazing play on words T.T

I also translated 定格 as freeze frame because "a fixed moment in time" would have been boring and not romantic at all

[rebeccalouisaferguson]

Cover Star｜A sincere conversation with Rebecca Ferguson, from "Mission: Impossible" to "Dune": "If there was a pause button in life..."

Over the past few years, we've been immersed in the eyes of Rebecca Ferguson. She is "Lady Jessica", the mother of Paul, the protagonist of "Dune 2", and "Agent Ilsa" in the "Mission: Impossible" movie series. Her charm that is not limited by frames makes every character more real and three-dimensional.

In the cold winter, we flew to London to meet Rebecca Ferguson. There was an especially warm smile in the studio. She had a sense of relaxation, sitting casually on the stacked tires, but she was also like a small flame, burning the wonderful thoughts in her mind. In front of the camera, she carefully stretched her figure and carefully selected the look she liked. With a mini racing track laid out on the ground, Rebecca Ferguson created a different sense of tension and story.

From ballet to stunts

We will always remember that in 2014, Rebecca Ferguson hid the fact that she was afraid of high-altitude stunts while filming "Mission Impossible: Runaway Nation." Tom Cruise was surprised later, "She never told anyone! She trained for it and completed it full on" However, in the face of these past events, he asked her if she agreed that she was a person who "decided to do whatever she did." The kind of person who arrives? Rebecca Ferguson replied that she doesn’t like to oversimplify or emphasize her own behavior. “I also don’t like to have a predetermined impression of myself because it may lead to self-aggrandizement (laughs). I think most people I work with also have the same traits. ! When they want to achieve something, they always give it their all, not at the expense of others. I hope it’s a process that’s kind, considerate, and exciting.”

Born in Sweden to a British mother, Rebecca Ferguson graduated from Adolf Fredrik's Music School, a well-known music school in Stockholm. At the age of 15, she participated in the soap opera "Nya Tider". She also studied ballet, jazz and funk at the Royal Swedish Ballet School, tap dance, etc. Her diverse exploration of art since she was a child seems to have given her an "artist" eye, and perhaps a bit of an artist's temperament. Her heart is like a jumping note, and she can always talk about any topic; her attention to details also injects countless inspiration and boldness into the photos.

life pause button

After Rebecca Ferguson worked in Sweden for more than ten years and gave birth to her first child, her name gradually became known to the world. In 2013, she played Elizabeth Woodville, the controversial queen of King Edward IV of England during the Wars of the Roses, in the BBC historical drama The White Queen. This English-language debut earned her a Golden Globe nomination. Since then, she has become one of the busiest stars in Hollywood. The third film in the Mission: Impossible series she starred in premiered in 2023. For months, fans discussed the poignant battle of her character Ilsa Faust; the subsequent dystopian series starring Rebecca Ferguson The first and second seasons of "Silo" premiered on Apple TV+, during which time the craze for "Dune: Part 2" broke out. Compared with the growth story of Timothée Chalamet, we seem to be more often deeply attracted by the mystery, elegance, beauty and strength (and exquisite veil!) of the protagonist's mother Lady Jessica. Since the battle of wits in the first movie The fierce physical fight is still unforgettable!

Recently, she announced her participation in the movie version of "Peaky Blinders", co-starring Cillian Murphy, the protagonist of the British period crime drama. Ask her what else she wants to challenge in her career? "There is nothing I want to change, but I will always think about challenges and chasing dreams. I have never been on the stage, and I also want to do some theater work. This is my biggest wish now, and it may also be my biggest fear. !”

The theme of the February issue of "Harper's BAZAAR Taiwan" is about F1 racing and speed. I am curious about what she hopes to "fast forward" to the ending experience? "Absolutely not! I don't want to fast forward at all! I think time goes by fast enough already. If there was an option to rewind, I would rather have that - or press the pause button - to pause time and feel my surroundings. Maybe we can revisit some of the moments to let us know we’re not at the end yet.”

Naughty, Libra, maternal, mobile, practical in building dreams, artist, etc., we wrote a character sketch of Rebecca Ferguson; and then through her sincere answers, there was an interesting collision of souls.

Fashion is a language

Rebecca Ferguson (RF): I don’t know, maybe both? I think my answer is, we learn over time. We learn by making mistakes, and we grow by listening to and observing others. At the same time, I like people and I like to communicate! If the other person is interesting and smart and makes me feel smart too, the conversation is interesting, or if the other person is challenging in some other way, that's also engaging. But I'm not always witty, sometimes I'm naughty and sometimes even rude, which isn't really good.

HB: You are a fashion icon on the red carpet, but we also want to know about your personal style and experience. Has your daily fashion changed because of the crazy costumes you wear? Or has it changed as a result of becoming a mother and entering a different stage of life?

RF: I think life is fluid and we change with it. What's important to me is comfort, although not necessarily to the standards of fashion. But fashion is in some ways an expression of identity and how we want to be seen; on certain occasions, it is also important to present yourself in a certain way. But on other occasions, like when I go to work, I usually wear fitness clothes with a big hat and T-shirt on top. When the weather is cold, it’s more casual. Even so, I will wear cool sneakers and some very colorful socks! I still left my mark, I was still me. Of course, working with different stylists has also changed me, some experiences have been great, but others have also made me realize what doesn't work for me. Fashion is really like a language, right? For example, working with my current stylist, Tom Eerebout, he takes me into some areas that I really like, and the whole process is wonderful. I discovered that I loved fashion and expressing myself through clothing and accessories.

HB: In early interviews you talked about a childhood full of creativity and memories, such as dancing, music, modeling, and gymnastics. Can you share with us how you explore your passion? Have these experiences shaped who you are today?

RF: I explored my passion through the job opportunities I was offered. I will use my past physical experience if needed! For example, when I was filming "Mission: Impossible," those dance and physical training helped me shape the character. As for another question, I think everything in life influences everything; everything we do is filling up the "backpack in life", whether it is good or bad experiences, and these experiences ultimately shape us.

HB: Can you share with us what is the best and worst thing that has ever happened to you in the entertainment industry?

RF: To be able to be a part of the entertainment industry, have a place here, and have a workspace to express myself, to be able to do all of that consistently; and to be able to make enough money to take care of myself, take care of my family (more than put food on the table), work It also makes me feel fulfilled and satisfied...it's really great. Of course, there are a lot of not-so-good things, but I'm at a very good peak at the moment, so I prefer to emphasize the positive things.

[turumoan]

趁著過年前沒開船，小編似乎可以多寫一些蛇麼來分享

比方：這些照片是陳俊男船長去年底所記錄到的畫面：

看起來就是可愛爆表！

.

可以會不會有人跟小編一樣好奇

這些照片明明不同時間拍出來的

是不是同一頭?!（（誰知道？））

但如果依照科學的角度來分析

依照照片中的背鰭形狀、表面的刮痕分布

甚至是幼豚身上的體紋與成長變化，

應該可以進行精密的辨識與分析，

確認每一隻鯨豚的獨特身分。

.....................

真的有這樣的工作嗎？

..

當然有啊！從捕捉鯨豚影像與行為特徵開始，

再將過去的照片整理成資料庫，

追蹤牠們的生活軌跡與遷徙路徑。

（這背後，凝聚了觀察、記錄與數據比對的專業。很是辛苦）

但，這些數據不僅能幫助我們了解族群數量與活動範圍，

更是分享給遊客認識鯨豚習性、生態知識，

甚至意識到海洋保育的重要性。

.

而為什麼要做這些工作？

因為鯨豚出現的頻率、行為模式，遷徙路徑，

其實都在訴說海洋的健康狀態。

而這些數據能幫助地球人評估氣候變遷、海洋污染的影響，

並進一步規劃更永續的保育政策啊！！！！！

.

等等！

我是不是又想廣告些甚麼？

沒錯！因為我們引以為傲的船上解說員，

都是來自 黑潮海洋文教基金會 的夥伴。

他們不僅是知識的傳遞者，

還是鯨豚行為的觀察者、數據的記錄者，

透過科學的眼光，解讀海洋裡每一個細微的變化，

.

這也是多羅滿賞鯨與眾不同的地方。

我們不僅讓大家欣賞鯨豚，

更希望大家能深入了解大海，學會與牠共存。

........................................

不管小編說甚麼，擺明就是行銷啊！

是的，而且偷偷告訴你，

黑潮的解說員培訓課程正在招生中！

不僅能學到如何用科學的方式探索海洋，

還能解開你對鯨豚的種種好奇心。

重點是，考上後，

日後帶航班出海，就不用花錢了耶！（這誘因是不是太弱？）

.

如果你對海洋充滿熱情，

快到黑潮海洋文教基金會報名吧！

一起成為海洋故事的記錄者，

解說員培訓可以看看這裡喔!!!

......................

黑潮海洋文教基金會

[castatratewriter520]

入宮

阿傑與阿成是雙胞胎兄弟，從小兩個人就幾乎長得一模一樣，常常讓人認不出來，但是在10歲那年，家裡的經濟頓時陷入困境，家中還有五位弟妹需要照顧，父親又因為身體太勞累，身體健康狀況越來越不好，走投無路的情況下，阿傑與阿成決定有一個人犧牲自己，入宮當太監，至少可以得到50兩的銀子，這筆錢至少可以讓家人過上大半年的時間，最後是身為弟弟的阿傑，即將到刀子匠劉爺那邊報到，在劉爺那邊，至少在手術這方面是相對良好的，很多要入宮的人都會選擇由他來操刀，在阿傑進去暗房之前，我都還不敢相信，阿傑要閹割成為太監這件事，直到暗房傳來了阿傑淒厲的叫聲，看來阿傑已經被閹掉了，此時，劉爺身邊的助手走出暗房，告訴娘親手術很成功，要我們可以先回去了，待兩週後再來接阿傑回去，看著娘親擔心的一直回頭看，心想阿傑千萬要好好的，很快兩週的時間到了，我們到達劉爺的住處時，看到阿傑已站在門口等我們了，看似沒有改變的阿傑，實際上已經是一個太監，劉爺將50兩的銀子拿給娘親，另外告訴娘親，待阿傑13歲時，就可以準備入宮了，隨著時間過去，阿傑也順利的在13歲那年入宮當太監，家中的經濟狀況也有些許好轉。

轉眼間七年過去了，我也已經20歲了，在京城開了一家麵攤，生意也很不錯，也因為很多人慕名而來，讓我有機會可以認識到蘭兒，蘭兒是滿族人，她是家中的獨生女，今年才16歲，我跟蘭兒雖然身分懸殊，但是我們兩人卻一見鍾情，我們還偷偷許下承諾，一定要永遠在一起，但是父親卻說什麼都要讓女兒入宮為妃，一年一次的選妃也已經開始，蘭兒也因為長得天生麗質，很快就被嘉慶皇帝選為貴人，當我聽到了這個消息，內心的痛苦讓我感到窒息，但是抗旨就是死罪，我一個老百姓怎麼可能鬥得過皇權，我只能偷偷躲在城門附近，眼睜睜看著蘭兒走進宮門，我透過信件，與在宮中的阿傑聯繫，讓阿傑替我打探蘭兒的消息，透過信中提到，蘭兒因為初次服侍皇上，得罪了皇上，還被貴妃娘娘懲罰，聽到了這些說什麼都要進去看看蘭兒，但是宮牆森嚴，豈能隨意進出，眼下找不到任何機會的時候，聽到皇上打算出宮看戲，心想或許這是個好時機，結果當天我在戲院附近偷看，蘭兒並沒有跟著皇上出宮，阿傑卻有這個機會隨皇上微服出宮，我也總算見到了多年未見的阿傑，兩個人偷偷閒話家常的聊著，我突然有個大膽的念頭，我與阿傑交換身分進入宮中，況且我們長得一模一樣，不會有人發現的，阿傑為了可以在外面玩，也答應了這次的計畫，阿傑詳細的說明進宮的注意事項，我也擔心會穿幫所以很仔細的做紀錄，我跟阿傑交換了彼此的衣服，阿傑看到我脫下褲子的那一刻，內心有點酸的感覺，阿傑指著我的命根子，語重心腸的說，要我一定要保護好我的命根子，不然我們都會完蛋的，這些我當然知道，我跟阿傑就這樣成功交換了彼此身分，我懷著忐忑的心情，跟著隊伍一起慢慢走進了宮中，我協助皇上更衣之後，我根據阿傑的口述，順利走回自己的寢室，不過考驗才正要開始，一群人住在同一個地方誰也不認識，我一刻也無法鬆懈，頓時覺得自己為什麼要冒這個險進到宮裡，但是已經沒辦法後悔了，裡頭的小安子跟小春子是阿傑的好朋友，這些事情阿傑都有告訴我，所以我必須小心謹慎，避免跟他們說話的時候說溜了嘴，很快的小安子跟小春子也陸續回到房間，兩個人一見到我，熱情的跑來跟我搭肩，跟我討要出宮的禮物，但是我當時根本沒有時間去購買伴手禮，只能跟他們說抱歉，兩個人掃興的眼神，讓我覺得很尷尬，深怕被他們發現自己根本不��阿傑，所幸他們並未發現我跟阿傑的不同，兩個人這時邀我一起去洗澡，準備要睡覺了，但是我怎麼可能會跟他們一起去洗澡，他們替我拿了一套乾淨的衣服，拉著我一起去洗澡，我拼命的推辭也無法擺脫這種困境，我們一同走到了澡堂，看著小安子他們兩開始脫掉衣物，印入眼簾的是兩個沒了命根子跟子孫袋的兩副軀體，雖然我小時候看過阿傑的，但是還是沒有想像過宮中除了皇上還有我以外，其他都是閹人這件事情，我拿著我的衣物發著呆，他們兩個人叫了我，還在發什麼呆啊，還不趕快來洗澡，我假裝自己現在肚子很痛，趕快跑了出去，暫時鬆了一口氣，一出來我又很不幸撞見吳總管，吳總管是所有後宮太監宮女的頭，所有人都要聽從他的安排，吳總管一看到我就問了，阿傑你慌慌張張的幹什麼呢，我立刻跟吳總管請安，隨意說了一個藉口，擔心自己會不會被吳總管發現自己的身分，好險吳總管沒有多問，只要我走路小心點，驚擾了主子小心命沒了，我低著頭一直點頭道歉，匆匆���過吳總管離開這邊，吳總管此時轉頭看著我，臉上的表情似乎有點困惑，我心裡在想，才第一天而已，就差一點被發現了，我還要撐到下一次出宮門才能換回來，內心感到很不安。

時間就這樣過了兩週，每天可以說是戰戰兢兢，直到今天，我終於遇到了身在宮中的蘭兒，蘭兒見到我的時候，我小心謹慎的接近蘭兒，蘭兒先是支開了身邊的宮女，一走過來也只問我，阿傑你出宮後有遇到阿成嗎，我看著蘭兒的臉，小聲的告訴蘭兒，要蘭兒晚上到花園的石牆碰面，阿成有些話必須私下告訴你，於是我們約好在今晚子時在石牆碰面，我們晚間也順利碰面，蘭兒一開口就問，阿成到底要你跟我說什麼，為什麼必須在這時間點，我開心的告訴蘭兒，蘭兒我就是阿成，我跟阿傑偷偷交換了身分，我就想進來看看你過的好不好，蘭兒這時震驚的說，你這是瘋了嗎，你難道就不怕死嗎，被抓到是會被誅九族的，我也只告訴蘭兒，我只會在裡面一個月，而且我也已經安全度過了兩週的時間，後續我會更加小心的，你別擔心我，你告訴我你在宮中過的好不好，蘭兒靠在我的懷裡，哭泣的訴說自己的痛苦，希望我可以永遠留在她的身邊，但是這是不可能的，蘭兒根本一點也不愛皇上，而且皇上的命根子根本疲弱無力，我安慰著蘭兒，就在這一刻，我與蘭兒吻了起來，我撫摸著蘭兒的胸部，她的胸部是如此柔軟，蘭兒退下我的褲子，看到我又粗又大的陰莖，立馬眼睛發亮，立刻吸允了起來，我的陰莖蘭兒要用兩隻手才能完全握住，我讓蘭兒躺在草皮上，我摸索著蘭兒的穴，看著已經濕掉的小穴，我粗大的陽具再也忍受不了，我的陰莖正努力撐開蘭兒的小穴，也因為太粗大了，我才放進龜頭而已，蘭兒就疼到發出了聲音，我立刻摀住她的嘴巴，深怕被別人發現，隨著陰莖慢慢插入，蘭兒的穴有點流血，原來是上次蘭兒與皇上侍寢時，皇上根本沒有用破蘭兒的處女膜，第一次將陰莖放入陰道的我，真的覺得蘭兒穴好緊，又非常溫暖的包覆著我的陰莖，此時我的陰莖開始猛烈的撞擊蘭兒的穴，隨著速度與激情越來越強烈，我溫熱的精液衝擊了蘭兒的腹部，也因為我已經很久沒有射精了，射得非常的多，蘭兒告訴我她感受到滿滿的精液在她的體內，我拔出有點軟了的陰莖，一堆乳白色的液體從蘭兒的小穴流了出來，我們兩人在這一夜裡就做了三次，每一次都射了很多在蘭兒體內，如果蘭兒因此懷孕了，這樣我們就不得不替蘭兒打算，於是我開始計劃，要讓蘭兒受到皇上的寵愛，我要蘭兒回去把自己打扮的美美的，其他由他去想想還能怎樣幫助蘭兒，過沒幾天機會就來了，打扮的漂漂亮亮的蘭兒在御花園碰見了皇上，皇上看見了蘭兒，頓時覺得她換了一個人，重新與蘭兒交談，蘭兒利用我在社會上與人打交道的經驗，成功的討好了皇上的歡心，晚上皇上就翻了蘭兒的綠頭牌，蘭兒終於順利侍寢，隔日，皇上破天荒的晉了蘭兒的位份，封為楊嬪，這幾日，我與蘭兒又偷偷的做了兩次，就在隔了一週後，沒想到蘭兒真的懷孕了，雖然太醫一度有點懷疑為什麼蘭兒能這麼快就懷上孩子，但是因為皇上與太后對蘭兒懷上孩子都非常開心，於是也就沒有多想，但是我很清楚蘭兒肚子裡的孩子是我的，因為侍寢當晚，蘭兒說皇上根本就沒有射到體內，反而還沒放進去就射了，但是至少我們矇混過關了，只要蘭兒與我的孩子未來能過的幸福，這樣我未來在宮外也可以放心了，眼看事情都往好的方向發展，我離開宮中也可以放心了，一想到我明日就要出宮了，我與蘭兒確定要分離了，內心真的很不捨，代表我再也見不到蘭兒跟我未出生的孩子，但是這是唯一的辦法，隔天我一換好輕裝就立刻拿著令牌出宮，很快來到了與阿傑約定的地方，怎知道阿傑都沒有出現，我越來越心慌，不知道阿傑究竟在哪，一直等到最後一刻，阿傑依然沒有出現，眼看皇宮就要下鑰了，再不換回來就來不及了，但時間都要到了依然等不到阿傑，我只好硬著頭皮又返回宮中，我整個不知所措的像熱鍋上的螞蟻，但是最讓人擔心的是，宮中每三個月都會要求所有太監都要重新驗身，如今三個月又快到了，小安子告訴我說，日子訂在下週五，他還跟小春子說，到時候我們三個人一起去，我整個一臉茫然的看著他們，此時，吳總管走了進來，要我到他房裡一趟，我心想平時的吳總管也不曾找過我，到底有什麼事情呢，吳總管要我把門關上，他確認周遭沒有人之後，吳總管開門見山的問，你究竟是誰，我瞬間冒汗，我裝瘋賣傻的回答吳總管，我說我是阿傑啊，還能是誰，吳總管說，你別再演戲了，昨天我到外面處理一樁命案，發現者一看到屍體是個太監，就透過關係與我聯繫了，我看到了一個長得跟你一個模樣，如果我猜的沒錯，你就是阿傑口中的雙胞胎哥哥吧，你為什麼會出現在這裡，阿成求吳總管饒命，訴說自己為何跟阿傑交換身分，聽完原因之後的吳總管怒斥到，你們簡直就是不要命了，這可是會被誅九族的大罪，你們這樣不僅牽連了家人，楊嬪、小安子、小春子，吳總管嚴肅的問阿成，你淨過身了沒有，你把褲子脫下來，我現在必須驗身，阿成畏畏縮縮的脫下褲子，看到阿成那巨大的陰莖，吳總管生氣的大罵，你竟敢沒淨身就進宮，誰給你的熊心豹子膽，表示阿成只有兩條路可以走，第一條就是你繼續假扮阿傑，永遠活在這宮中，這世上再也沒有阿成這個人，第二條就是下週被檢查出來你不是阿傑，所有相關人等都難逃一死，我跟吳總管問說，只要繼續當阿傑就可以了嗎，吳總管看著我說，為了所有人的命，你當然只能繼續當阿傑，但是你必須割掉你下面那東西，我倒抽了一口氣，我拒絕了吳總管的建議，吳總管怒斥到，這事是我惹出來的，要我擔起所有的責任，犧牲我一個人就能救所有人，眼看木已成舟，我告訴吳總管，一切聽從吳總管安排，吳總管說給他一天的時間準備，明天再幫我執行閹割，他要我回去的時候，絕對不能說出這件事，必須裝作自己是阿傑，必須做到神不知鬼不覺，小安子跟小春子看我從吳總管那邊回來，問我究竟發生了什麼事，我不能告訴他們真相，於是我只能騙他們說，我今天出去忘記買吳總管需要的東西，他很是生氣的懲罰我，小安子他們很擔心的檢查了我的身體，看我哪裡受傷了，我只跟他們說我沒事的，要他們早點去休息，他們說，要我跟他們一起去洗澡，他們說我已經推辭他們太多次了，這次說什麼都要跟我一起洗，我正當自己無法逃過一劫的時候，蘭兒此時派了一個小太監來找我，要我過去找她一趟，我立刻跟著小太監一起前往楊嬪的寢宮，一進入楊嬪寢宮後，蘭兒要其他人都退下，她以為阿傑已經成功跟我交換回來了，於是問我，阿成有沒有順利回到家，我難過的告訴了蘭兒所有事情的經過，蘭兒難過的哭了起來，因為她知道我明天就要被閹割了，現在反倒是蘭兒比我還要難過，我還安慰了蘭兒說，至少我們可以永遠在一起了，蘭兒還是一直在哭，我告訴蘭兒，你不要再哭了，沒事的，我只是少了一塊肉而已，蘭兒說這是多麼大的恥辱啊，你為了我竟然犧牲到這個地步，我跟蘭兒說，只要你跟肚子裡的孩子可以平平安安的，這絕對不是犧牲，我已經很滿足了，我擦掉蘭兒的眼淚，要她不要擔心我，她親了我，並且雙手摸著我的命根子，我很快又硬了起來，蘭兒吸允著我的陰莖，撫摸著我的睪丸，想讓我感受最後一次的幸福，自從蘭兒懷孕後，我也已經有將近兩週沒有射了，早已硬的不像話，很快一股股濃精射了出來，累積兩星期的精液，蘭兒一點也沒有浪費的全吞了進去，看著蘭兒滿足的表情，我也體驗過最後一次的射精，我已經沒有什麼遺憾的了，蘭兒允諾我，她要皇上把我安排到她的身邊當差，我開心的抱著蘭兒，心想只要可以永遠跟蘭兒跟我的孩子在一起，我什麼都可以接受，此時我不能久留在蘭兒的寢宮，於是依依不捨的離開了，回到我的寢室後，我坐在床邊思索，心想未來如何幫助蘭兒上位。

隔天一早，吳總管告訴我說要我晚上子時到敬事房，早上我依舊扮演好自己的角色，夜裡我懷著緊張不安的心情，來到了男人的地獄，敬事房，吳總管要我進來後，他昨日已安排好所有人，今天晚上不會有任何人進來這裡，我脫了身上的太監服，吳總管要我躺上台子，我整個人呈現了一個大字，吳總管將我的雙手雙腳緊緊的固定住怕我掙扎，腹部也被纏的緊緊的，此時我的命根子全部赤裸裸的展現在吳總管面前，一旁的止血散、麥稈、��水、熟雞蛋、辣椒水都早已準備好，吳總管看著我的陽具，感嘆的說到，做什麼事不好，偏要進宮挑戰威威皇權，吳總管撫摸了我的陽具，我因為太緊張又硬了起來，吳總管握著我粗大的陰莖說到，看到你這陽具要被割掉，我也是覺得挺可惜的，可惜阿可惜，不過你也別怨，宮規就是如此，吳總管摸著我的蛋蛋，他說他其實沒有看過成年男性的命根子，所以有點好奇，畢竟入宮的人基本上都在小時候就閹掉了，所以這還是他第一次看到，很快吳總管拿了一碗麻水給我喝下，我被餵下麻水之後，隨著藥效開始慢慢發作，我感覺我的腦袋有點混亂，吳總管從樑上拉下一條細麻繩，繩圈套住了我的龜頭，吳總管轉動一旁的齒輪，我的陰莖被拉的很高很緊，讓我覺得有點不舒服，隨即又拿了一條細繩將我的兩顆蛋蛋綁緊，眼看一切準備就緒，吳總管將熟雞蛋塞進我的嘴裡，並且告訴我說，忍耐一下馬上就好了，他拿起了一旁的弧形彎刀，用火烤了一下，他握著我的兩顆蛋蛋，緊接著一刀就將兩顆蛋蛋連同子孫袋一起割下，我痛到吶喊，但是我的嘴裡有著雞蛋，讓我無法發出聲音，吳總管將割下來的蛋蛋放到一旁的盤子裡，並敷上了止血散後，吳總管準備割下我的命根子，他告訴我說，沒有人能忍受割下命根子的痛，你就別想太多了，暈倒了也沒有關係，我會幫你處理好的，我開始割了喔，吳總管就一瞬間的功夫，刀子就沿著我命根子的根部割了下去，我瞬間痛的冷汗直冒，叫聲早已無法抵消切斷陰莖帶來的巨痛，暈過去之前，我看到我被切斷的陰莖隨著繩子擺盪，我便痛暈了過去，我迷糊的隱約看到了吳總管正在處理我的寶貝，吳總管將我的命根子還有兩顆蛋蛋放進裝有半甕石灰的罐子中，以吸乾所有的水分，還用大紅布包好瓶口，我沒過多久就因為疼痛而醒來，但是因為太痛了我根本無法起身，看我下體剩一根麥稈插著，吳總管請了一個心腹小太監來照顧我，小太監說這要等三天後才能拔掉，確定尿道沒有因為傷口復原而堵住了，拔掉如果尿液能順利排出就算完成了，我知道你現在雖然很疼，但是你必須下床走動，不然之後會影響你走路的，我感覺我的傷口很腫脹，疼痛的難以走路，但是為了蘭兒，為了我的孩子，我一定要忍耐，隨著小太監的照顧下，我在第三天拔除麥稈之後，因為還沒有學會如何控制排尿，尿液噴的到處都是，此次閹割非常的順利，在透過吳總管跟小太監的細心照顧下，一週後我順利的離開了敬事房，如今我已經是一個太監，雖然我不用再擔心被別人發現自己是男人，但是少了它還是會覺得很難受，回到寢室後，小安子問我這一週到底是被安排去做什麼事呢，怎麼都沒有回來這裡，我謊稱吳總管要我去宮外替他辦點事，於是就這樣花了一週的時間，此時小春子也回來了，他感到很高興的跑來找我聊天，說我終於回來了，不過這不重要，重要的是我們趕快去洗澡，不然就快沒熱水了，這次我不再拒絕，跟著他們去到了澡堂，三個人脫光了衣服，露出了三個沒了命根子的肉體，小安子跟小春子說，好久沒有看到你跟我們一起洗澡了，你要替我們刷背才行，我也沒有拒絕，幫他們刷了背之後，他們也搶著替我刷背，於是我先讓小安子替我刷背，此時我心想，明天一定要去見蘭兒，至少讓她知道我平安回來了，回到了寢室後，吳總管來了，他跟我說我的寶貝目前放在他的寢室，問我打算什麼時候拿回去，我告訴了吳總管，我明日就去拿，感謝吳總管的大力幫助，以後不論吳總管要我做什麼，我都會誓死完成任務的，他回我說，這你就不必了，我只是想保住自己的性命罷了。

隔日，我跟蘭兒見面的時候，我們抱在一起，蘭兒問我傷口還疼嗎，我告訴她雖然傷口還沒有完全好，但是在復原過程中，我一直都想著你跟孩子，這是我唯一支撐下去的動力，蘭兒摸了一下我的褲襠，把我的褲子脫下，原本有著兩顆蛋蛋跟一根大陽具的地方，真的連一丁點都沒有了，蘭兒看著雖然難過但是心想至少還有彼此的陪伴，很快我也因為蘭兒向皇上請願，我順利的來到蘭兒的宮裡當職，每當夜裡我就會偷偷來到蘭兒的床上，陪著蘭兒一同入睡，天亮前就偷偷離開，很快就等到了蘭兒的生產期，我在寢殿外很是著急，聽著蘭兒撕心裂肺的叫聲，恨不得自己可以代替她，不久之後，孩子的哭聲傳遍了整個皇宮，我很開心的看著殿內，希望可以看看自己的孩子，很快產婆將孩子抱到偏殿，將蘭兒生了一位公子的好消息告訴皇上，皇上高興壞了，大大的賞了在場所有人，並將孩子賜名綿愉，而蘭兒也晉封為賢妃，看到蘭兒替我生了一個兒子，我真的很感動，至少我們家有後了，看著孩子越來越大，跟我和蘭兒是越來越像，我心裡高興壞了，雖然不能相認，但是這樣看著孩子跟蘭兒能過著錦衣玉食的生活，那也足夠了，綿愉在小時候也會叫我爹爹，我真的覺得我很幸福，而因為有蘭兒的幫助，我的其他兄弟姊妹也可以好好的生活下去，品質也得到很大的提升，蘭兒在綿愉五歲後，正式成為賢貴妃，而我的地位也得到了許多提升，在京城外還有一間自己的宅子，我也將自己的寶貝存放在外面的宅子，我在前年也將阿傑的寶貝給贖了回來，我把阿傑的寶貝放進自己的甕裡，畢竟我現在也叫阿傑，如果有兩個寶貝罐也顯得奇怪，閹割到現在也已經過了五年多，我也早已習慣沒有命根子的樣子，但是我不後悔，現在的我已經很幸福了，雖然我沒有了命根子，但是我也換來了跟蘭兒和孩子在一起的生活，我還要看著綿愉娶妻生子，我這一生也沒有遺憾了。

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跟有女友的前同事約會

他離職後但我們一直有保持聯絡

有些不懂的事還是會聯繫請他幫忙

他也很樂意都會協助我

我們有上床過了

只是已經好陣子沒有發生

那天剛好有機會很迅速地安排並且見面了

他選在非市中心的旅館

房間情調偏暗 但很有質感

就是給人一種很情色的氛圍

完全就是適合偷偷來壞壞

洗好在床上我只穿著內褲圍著浴巾

他從後面抱著馬上對我上下其手

被男人用手摸遍全身

胸部被雙手揉捏 指頭逗著我的乳頭

這樣挑逗會很迅速讓生理有快感

他對著我的雙乳又揉又舔

奶頭感覺到嘴巴熱熱的溫度被吸著

輕輕咬著奶頭會越來越舒服

我被他壓在身上 他往我的身體做起抽插的動作

那根肉棒早就硬挺挺

我很喜歡這樣被男人用硬屌磨身體頂弄

因為可以感受男人對我的發情

光是這樣他摸著我的陰部說我已經濕透內褲了

內褲被他脫到膝蓋

他抬起我的雙腿用屌頂在我的濕穴口頂幾下就插入了

"好淫蕩這麼色 是不是欠插"

"想要棒棒"

他插進來後發出滿足的呻吟

肉棒直接這樣進入陰道內抽插

我們性器官的交合發出淫穢的聲音

我感覺得到他插得很爽

那根老二硬梆梆在我體內搗弄

我好像讓他太舒服太興奮了

他停下來說這樣很想射

就開始舔我的小穴

舌頭在陰部上來回舔舐

舔著陰唇 把舌頭伸在小陰唇跟陰蒂之間一直舔舔舔

因為被插得很有感覺了

他這樣舔沒多久我就高潮了

他分開我的陰部看著我的肉穴因高潮而收縮

"好色 穴口在收縮 好想插 餵妳吃肉棒"

然後就直挺挺插進來快速幹我

插幾下他就把精液噴在我的胸部上

然後又對著我的濕穴一陣狂舔

舌頭快速撥弄我的穴穴口

我就這樣身上帶著精液又邊被口交舔穴

"好舒服好舒服...." 我說

然後他側身摟著我 邊用手愛撫著我濕淋淋的蜜穴

我身上的精液 他的汗水 還有我的淫水

這樣跟男人做愛真的很色

之後我們清洗完原本差不多要離開了

衣服穿了一半 東西也收拾好

他在那邊對著我的身體又一陣撫摸

還把屌貼在我的屁股上一直頂

結果沒幾下肉棒又勃起了

他把我的內褲拉下去 肉棒貼著我的穴縫開始磨蹭 還一邊完我的奶頭

我原本沒有濕

但小穴被硬肉棒這樣弄真的很難不想要....

他原本想說這樣就好

但我故意想要再弄他

就自己扭動屁股去蹭他的龜頭

因為我的小穴已經在分泌淫水潤滑了

所以越弄越滑

然後他受不了 把我上身壓在床邊 後入的方式挺進來幹我的小穴穴

他插得很深很快

我也更加故意要誘惑他 所以呻吟得特別明顯給他聽

就是要更激起他幹我的慾望

在他激烈抽插幹我的時候他的手機有響

但是他還是繼續幹著我的小穴

一邊很像在自言自語又或是說給我聽

"好欠插 欠幹 好爽 騷穴"

"好壞好色...一直被你幹"

"不是想要嗎? 要射在哪裡?

他好像又快射了

我把臀部再抬高

因為我想讓自己更呈現出發情被幹的樣子

然後他射精在我的屁股上

我好像把他的精液都榨乾了

然後我事後就在想

如果他女友剛好想跟他要

可是他的精液都射給我了

他一定無法給

很後來之後我有問他

他說跟我做完之後很爽 根本不想要跟他女友做

我說他很壞

他說因為我太色太舒服了

不過我還真的必須說

好像男人都會很容易對我勃起發情

喜歡這樣享受著性愛帶來的刺激快感

最近其實性愛次數很少

所以一次要做滿足點

[beyourselfchulanmaria]

👆 I had Wonton noodles for lunch in my hometown after hopsital checked. 😋 yum (Good quality and low price are usually found in the most ordinary places in your life circle. )

我很多年已沒來過這家用餐，席間聽到老闆娘收到政府的交通違規罰單:6000TWD，O Jesus 她必須賣出約100碗麵 XD 來繳付她的罰單，她被道路攝影機拍攝的地點接近市中心我的工作室，於是我跟她開玩笑: 那天她應該去澄清湖踏青而不是來去看我的，哈哈哈! I haven't been to this restaurant for many years. During the meal, I heard that the boss lady received a traffic violation ticket from the government: 6000TWD, O Jesus, she had to sell about 100 bowls of noodles to pay her ticket. She was caught on camera by the road. The location was close to my studio in the city center, so I joked with her: She should have gone to Chengcing Lake for an outing that day instead of coming to see me. 🤣 hahaha!

臨走時我叮嚀她：注意查詢罰單並確認是政府單位而非詐騙集團。（不幸的是，她回答我說她確實在政府網站上查看了罰單。XD 所以她必須先付款，然後如果她沒有違反任何法律，她可以提出上訴。) When I was leaving, I told her: Pay attention to check the ticket and confirm that it is a government agency and not a fraud group. (and Unfortunate that she answered me she did check the ticket on Gov's website. XD so she must be pay it firstly Then she can file an appeal if she has not violated any law. )

律法不只是針對犯罪之人也幫助和保障熟知法律之人 The law is not only for those who commit crimes, but also for those who know the law well. 😏 Is not it?

平安! 感謝天主! 感謝醫生告訴我身體檢查報告很好，我只不過是"退化" (lol old guy me)和長期勞累造成的，給了我一個月份的緩合並解除疼痛的貼布，他告訴我就像機器也需要休息，叮囑我要找時間休息，不需要做手術，目前看來也不是類風溼關節炎，多休息，晚上睡覺前貼上藥布貼，若疼痛嚴重時再吃止痛藥。 Peace all! Thank God! Yesterday Thanks the doctor for telling me that the physical examination report is good, I am just "degenerating" (lol old guy me) and long-term fatigue. He gave me a month of relief and pain relief patches. He told me I need rest just like a machine. I was told to find time to rest. I don't need surgery. It doesn't look like rheumatoid arthritis for now. I need to rest more. Put on a medicated patch before going to bed at night. If the pain is severe, take painkillers. Yeahhh! safed! Ⓢ Ⓤ Ⓟ Ⓔ Ⓡ \ (｡✪‿✪｡) ／

And I'm so happy that I run on the street like a carefree puppy with howling. 🎶 🦮

(づ￣ ³￣)づ    並在我的家鄉四處逛逛去發現任何小美 Wander around my hometown to discover any little beauties. took a short time resting at afternoon.

2025.1.21 Taiwan daily life/ Lan~*

兩岸綠影搖 陽光微微笑 我在橋頭望 小鳥樹上叫 ~ 晴天‧仲茵 Poem : The heart sunny day by Chu Lan

[thesnazzysharky]

All Alone - A Inner Monologue from Specimen 9

TW: Implied rape and graphic descriptions of violence. You can also view this story on AO3 as seen here ------------------------------------------------------------------------------ 我孤身一人。 (I was all alone.) 我從我以為的永久死亡中醒來。濕的。冷。黑暗。我的身體塗滿了黏土。被所有的「木頭」包圍著。 (I woke up from what I thought was my permanent death. Wet. Cold. Dark. My body coated in clay. Surrounded by all the “logs”.) 我的心碎了，支離破碎。我不再知道自己是誰。我是誰？我幾歲了？我叫什麼名字？我以前是住在安靜舒適的家中，還是寒冷破落的街上？我有過妻子或孩子嗎？ (My mind was broken and shattered. I no longer knew who I was. Who was I? How old was I? What was my name? Was I previously living in the quiet comfort of a home or the cold and decrepit streets? Did I ever have a wife or kids?) 我再也記不起… (I could no longer remember…) 那些鬼子… 日本人… (Those demons… the Japanese…) 我記得一些事情 我記得他們所做的一切 實驗 折磨 酷熱 嚴寒 注射 切割 尖叫聲 所有被折磨的男人、婦女、兒童、嬰兒… (I did remember something. I remembered everything they did. The experiments. The torture. The heat. The cold. The injections. The cutting. The screams. All of those tortured men, women, children, infants…) 他們對待我們的方式。我們甚至不被視為人類。對他們來說，我們只是小玩具。他們可以為所欲為的玩具。 (The way they treated us. How we weren't even viewed as human. We were just little toys to them. Toys that they could do whatever they wanted with.) 我仍然記得每天籠罩在我們頭上的絕望。我還記得當那些孩子的父母沒有回到牢房時，他們淚流滿面的表情。我還記得我牢房旁邊的婦女在男人們打開門鎖後，是如何默默受創，她們… (I still remember the despair looming over us everyday. I still remember the tearful looks on those children's faces when their parents didn’t come back to their cells. I still remember how silently traumatized the woman next to my cell was after the men unlocked the door and they…) … 我還記得他們把我剖開的情景。我的身體在劇痛中扭動。我的尖叫聲充斥著整個房間，並在大廳中迴盪。當他們把他們的手和所有的小工具塞進我脆弱的身體時，我向他們求救。然後一切都暗了��來… (I still remember them cutting me open. My body wriggled in agonizing pain. My screams filled the room and echoed down the halls. I begged for help as they jammed their hands and all of their little tools into my fragile body. Then everything went dark...) 現在我變成這樣了 (And now I'm this.)

我把自己藏在陰暗處好一陣子 但總覺得不對勁 一種愧疚感，混雜著對那些……東西的憤怒、憤怒、憤恨。以及他們對我們所做的一切 (I hid myself in the shadows for awhile, but something felt wrong. A sense of guilt, mixed with this burning, bubbling, raging ocean of hatred for those... things. And what they had done to us.)

我回去了 急於報仇，解放我的人民。是時候讓仇恨的海嘯沖垮他們了。就這樣 (I went back. Eager to get my revenge and free my people. It was time to let that tsunami of hatred come crashing down on them. And so it did.) 這是一次奇妙的經歷。他們可憐地向我開槍，卻毫無作用。當我走向他們時，他們試圖逃跑的樣子。他們尖叫的美妙音樂傳入我的耳朵。 (It was an amazing experience. The way they pathetically shot at me to no effect. The way they tried to run away as I made my way towards them. The way the beautiful music of their screams made their way to my ears.) 我喜歡折斷他們的骨頭。我喜歡看見他們的身體在痛苦中扭動和掙扎。我喜歡用我新發現的力量讓他們燃燒。我喜歡撕開他們的身體。我喜歡看我的殺戮有多有創意。他們在死之前能承受多大的痛苦。如果我這樣做而不是那樣做，他們的尖叫聲會有多大。我可以讓他們承受多大的痛苦。 (I loved snapping and breaking their bones. I loved seeing their bodies squirm and writhe in pain. I loved setting them ablaze with my newfound powers. I loved tearing their bodies open. I loved seeing how creative I could get with my kills. How much pain they could handle before expiring. How loudly they would scream if I did this instead of that. How much I could make them suffer.) 他們現在是我的小玩具……因此，我的腦海沉醉於孩子般的本能殺戮慾望。我不再思考 我只想盡可能地讓那些可怕的日本鬼子痛苦。我繼續殺戮。我盡力確保那些惡魔一個也逃不出我的手掌心。我放火燒毀了周圍的一切。 (They were now my little toys... and so my mind became drunken with a childish and instinctive desire to kill. I was no longer thinking. I just wanted to cause as much pain to those horrible Japan devils as possible. I continued the killing. I tried to make sure not a single one of those demons escaped my grasp. I set fire to everything and everyone around me.) 然後我就醒了 (Then I woke up.)

突然，當我檢視周遭環境時，周遭的一切都被摧毀了。建築物消失了。我的身體塗上了紅色。一些火苗仍然揮之不去 而且到處都是燒焦的屍體……而且大部分都不是科學家。 (Suddenly, as I examined my surroundings, everything around me was destroyed. The building was gone. My body was coated in red. Some flames of fire still lingered. And there were charred bodies everywhere... and most weren't the scientists.) 我把他們全殺了 我所有的族人 所有我想拯救的人 都是為了報復那些殺了我的人，盲目自私的憤怒。有些人因為跑出大樓或那天沒去上班而躲過了我的憤怒。我沒有機會殺死那個戴圓框眼鏡的人… (I killed them all. All of my people. All of those I wanted to save. All in a blind selfish rage to get back at those who murdered me. Some of which were able to escape my rage due to running out of the building or simply not showing up to work that day. I never got to kill that man in the round glasses...)

我現在是個怪物了 (I'm a monster now.) 我再也不能在人行道上隨意散步。我再也不能安安靜靜地坐在家中。我再也不能吃喝拉撒睡。我再也不能友善地向鄰居打招呼。我再也不能參與有趣的嗜好。我再也無法擁抱我的孩子，告訴他們睡前故事，或是在工作前給我的妻子最後的一個吻，如果我有他們的話。 (No longer would I be able to go for a casual stroll on a sidewalk. No longer would I be able to peacefully sit quietly in whatever home I had. No longer would I be able to eat, drink, and sleep. No longer would I be able to give a friendly hello to a neighbor. No longer would I be able to take part of fun hobbies. No longer would I be able hug my kids and tell them bedtime stories or give my wife one last kiss before work, if I had them.) 我再也不能做人了。 (No longer would I be able to be human.)

即使是這樣，我也可以成為英雄。一個救世主。一個領導者。一個演說者 但現在我認識的所有人都死了 沒有人能知道他們的痛苦 因為只剩下我一個人了 (Even in this form, I could've been a hero. A savior. A leader. A speaker. But now everyone I once knew is dead. Nobody will be able to know of their suffering as I'm the only one left.) 我能做的只有哀悼。哀悼那些被我謀殺的人。哭泣。哭泣，淹沒在我內疚和羞愧的淚水中。尖叫。為了我變成的怪物，為了我永遠失去、永遠也回不去的東西，尖叫幾個小時。 (All I can do is mourn. Mourn those I had murdered. Weep. Weep and drown in my own tears of overwhelming guilt and shame. And scream. Scream for hours on end about the monster I became and what I have permanently lost and will never get back.) 我對著天空尖叫了幾個小時。把我所有的痛苦和煎熬都吼了出來 不知道是否有人會聽到。我的喉嚨乾了，聲帶也繃緊了，但我的求救聲仍未得到任何潛在的神甚至人類的回應。 (I have been screaming into the sky for hours. Blaring all of my pain and suffering. Wondering if any of it will ever be heard. My throat dries and my vocal cords strain, yet, my pleas for help have yet to be answered by any potential god or even human.) 我一個人。 (I'm all alone.)

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Hello everyone! It's my b-b-birthday! I wanted to post this earlier, but I ran into some internet problems and I had other stuff to deal with. Now it's finally posted! Originally I wanted to write about a slice of life story between Spooky and her father for my birthday, but I simply never had the proper time to fully flesh that out. So, I wrote this last night! Specimen 9 is one of my favorite specimens, so I wanted to make a little short story about him and how tragic he is. As a bonus detail, I added Chinese text to fit with Taker's origins. I didn't want to use Google Translate and call it a day, so I used DeepL Translate. Supposedly the world's most accurate translator.

Lastly, you may have noticed my profile pic changed. Check out this post from my awesome friend @alaskinapples99! She made this amazing artwork of me for my birthday that really warmed my heart. Thank you so much! And thank you to everyone else for liking or reblogging and showing me support over these past few months! I wrote this theory months ago and I still get a notification about it every now and then. Which is pretty crazy to me. Definitely one of my most proud posts. Anyways that's enough of me yapping. Thanks for reading and have a snazzy day!