#❥ threads ┊ ft. taylor swift

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I lost count of how many times I jumped and screamed while walking through the haunted maze. Kinda want to explore one of the haunted houses, but I have a feeling I'd just be gripping onto whoever comes with me—probably Luke. Have you gone through any of the houses? And if so, I need the rundown on how terrifying they are. @taylorheat

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I'm sure she always misses you, even if she's not the best at expressing it. Do your other two go crazy whenever you come back home after an extended period of time? The football part seems like a lot of fun. You get to dress up and sport your man's colors and number. Plus your suite always looks like it's where the party is. What do you have planned for your time off? He did! It works out perfectly because I wrap up my tour in October and his starts in November. So we'll have a little bit of time to relax at home before we switch roles and he gets to be the rockstar up on stage every night. I can only imagine the things you saw that night. I'm just glad I didn't get completely wasted off of my ass like that time on the cruise. That was a rough hangover the next morning.

I think even Meredith enjoyed the time with me. And honestly that was quite the shock. Usually she just stares at me like I've lost my mind. Just a couple more months of touring and then it'll be all about being home and relaxing. And football. For now, though - I'm going to enjoy the last two London shows and my month and a bit off is going to be quite busy. At least Luke planned his tour once yours was pretty much done, right? It was nice seeing you, too. And your Karaoke was quite something. Everyone was crazy at the party. People watching is so entertaining when you're sober.

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I will absolutely join you next time. The internet is going to go up in flame at one point or another so we might as well have fun and live our best lives while it does! He did go to my movie premiere, but I meant it in the sense it was our first award show red carpet event together.

Hopefully next time you'll join me - even if it'll cause the internet to go up in flames with it, but I'm okay with that if you are. That was your red carpet debut? Shit. Feels like that should of happened a long time ago. Didn't he got to your movie premiere?

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You're welcome. I meant every word of what I said. You've always been one of the biggest inspirations to me.

Note that I said I don't think about you all that much. Not that I don't think about you at all. But thanks for the kind words you said in that question. It was nice.

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I'm sure both your family and the cats enjoyed the extra time they got to spend with you. At least there are still some more shows to look forward to after the London ones! I thought it got chaotic with Luke and I's tours and trying to schedule our time together. I can't imagine how much crazier it is for you guys between a touring schedule and a football schedule. By the way, it really was nice grabbing lunch with you and getting to talk face to face for the first time in awhile.

Yeah, I've been having the week off already but I was mostly in New York. Spending time with my family and the cats. Very important things. I'm excited to be spending time at home with Trav and relaxing before it becomes a very busy period for the both of us. But I am going to miss being up on stage and celebrating with all my fans.

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That's really all you can do is ignore it and do your best to brush it off. This little vacation sounds like it came at the perfect time for you then, since it's right before you kick off your London shows. You excited about wrapping up the European leg of your your?

I still get in rough in the media - that's something that unfortunately probably isn't going to change but I do my best to ignore that they're saying. I'm really not going to be doing much this whole vacation since the whole point for me is to relax before a week in London so I'm free.

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It is hard being young and growing up under the spotlight. I know you got it even harder growing up than we do now in the media. I couldn't agree more. As artists we should be able to all connect on that level and appreciate each other's art and how they hone their craft. I would love to grab some lunch at some point. Maybe sometime tomorrow afternoon if you're free?

I always have time to help out people I considered friends, and younger artist. I know how hard it is to grow up in this industry. It sucks that they told you all that because we should talk about artist that inspire us. But... now that we're all in the same place. Do you want to grab some lunch at some stage?

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I could have and I probably should have. I guess I just figured that you had more important things to focus your time and energy on than helping me. Even though I know you probably would have if I had asked. It was because I praised you so much and never stopped talking about how much you've always inspired me and how much I love all of your music. I guess they just wanted me to shut my mouth and focus on building my own catalog. I was just so naive when it all started.

You could have just asked me about that side of things, ya know? I would of happily gone through all of it with you. For the record, I never thought you were acting like an obsessive fangirl - don't know where your management would have got those ideas from. Everyone does covers and stuff. But thank you, I appreciate it.

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I really am sorry for the way everything played out. It was never my intention to make you look like that, but I can understand why it may feel that way from your perspective. My team were the ones who told me to stay quiet on the whole situation, which is why I've never spoken about it publicly or anything. As a matter of fact, they basically told me to stop "acting like an obsessive fangirl" in their words. Which is why I stopped posting covers to songs of yours, stopped talking about how excited I was for each album or re-record that came out after Red TV. I know it's not an excuse, but with Sour being my first record I was very naive going into the entire process. My only concern was creating art and putting it out there for the world to hear. I never stopped to think about the legal side of the business and how to operate those waters. So when everything happened between us, it caused me to really stop and pay attention. It was an opportunity to learn from my mistakes and try to do better moving forward. I honestly didn't realize I had never taken the time to give you a proper apology. I'm sorry for everything, Taylor. Truly.

Yeah, I get that but you and your team were always the one who kept bringing all that stuff up. I never said anything about it publicly, you guys just wouldn't give it a break. I'm yet to hear a proper apology about all of that. Even if you didn't intend for it to happen - it made me look like some money hungry witch. And I don't care about all that, honestly. So, that's my opinions on that. Whenever you wanna do that maybe we can work on being friends.

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I know, but you're someone I've looked up to since I was a kid. I feel like it's only human to want to be liked by someone you look up to in that aspect. Not to mention, things weren't always like this between us. I wish we could go back to when we first met before all of the drama and tension and awkwardness and just start over on a fresh, clean slate. Thank you, he makes me happier than I've ever been.

You shouldn't be seeking out anyone's approval, you know? What does it matter how I feel about you? I cheer for you when you do amazing things and you're a fantastic artist. That's something that I'm never going to deny. Oh, that's great - I'm happy for the both of you.

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I don't know. I guess deep down, I just want you to like me. Indifference is improvement, I guess. Better than hating me. Of course I did, it's what he deserves. Yeah, he's been traveling with me since his tour ended. Considering the fact that I love him I'd say, yeah it is pretty serious.

Why are you apologizing? Honestly, if people don't grow and learn from their mistakes then I wonder what's going on in that mind of theirs. I don't know where you get the idea that I don't like you. Honestly, I'm indifferent to you. And that's a completely different feeling. You keep saying those things and making assumptions. Sounds like you made sure he had a good birthday. I didn't know he'd be traveling with you. Shit. Pretty serious then.

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Drunk Taylor ended up coming out and you were the life of the party, as always. Thank you, babe! I had the best night at the Grammys. Especially since it was Luke and I's first red carpet event together.

Just having fun - think I drunk a little too much champagne but everyone's performances were such a vibe. I adored them and loved getting that jacket. Thank you - you looked stunning, too. Absolutely beautiful. Did you have a good time?

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I'm not trying to be shady, even though I can see how it sounded like that, so I'm sorry. I just feel like I've grown and learned a lot from mistakes I've made in the past. I just get a little tired of having those mistakes held over me or thrown back in my face, when I thought we've all moved on by now. I don't expect you to ever really like me or be cool with me, and that's fine. But I know you're one of Luke's good friends, so I hope we can at least be on okay terms for his sake. I'm glad I can be the one to make him happy and bring the smile back to his face, because he does the same for me. His birthday was pretty great. I did my best to spoil him, since it's what he deserves. I went all out with baking cakes and surprising him with some presents. Now he's back on the road with me, since the third leg of tour just started.

Shady. I'm glad to hear that, honestly. He does seem really happy with you - which is something that I haven't seen in a hot second with him. So thank you for bringing the smile back to his face. How was his birthday?

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I'm not a mean person with bad intentions, even if some people out there are convinced I am. He means more to me than anything else and I'm not going to hurt him. Yeah, I'm excited to get the show back on the road. But first, it's all about Luke's birthday.

I'm just making sure that you're treating my friend well. I don't want to see him with a hurt heart again. I'm glad that you're treating him well, though. He deserves someone who does. He's been through so much. You looking forward to your tour starting again?

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Yeah I’d probably rather deal with the heat over snot any day too. Greece was gorgeous and I can’t wait to go back again someday and explore it more. Why would I not be treating Luke right? You’d have to ask him how he feels, but I’m pretty confident I treat my boyfriend the way he deserves.

I've been performing while being sick so the heat really doesn't bother me too much. I'd rather that over putting my snot everywhere. Well, you're the one who keeps adding the dates. So I would hope that you're excited. How's Greece? I hope yo'u're treating Luke right. Visiting friends is always a good time. One of the things I miss about being home.

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Either way, whenever you're at an award show you're an entire vibe. You're just always having fun and living your best life, which we love to see. By the way, you looked absolutely gorgeous tonight in that dress.

Drunk Taylor? Please - it's just know how to have a good time Taylor. Everyone is always stiff about things at award shows. And we should be there to have a good time.