#❛ musings • genji.

[wickedlittleoz]

Hanzo is three, dashing down the halls in the estate to the agony of his nanny, who's trying her best to catch up to him after he ran off while she was using the bathroom. He's giggling, excited, tiny hands reaching out before him for whatever they can grab onto; diving under legs and furniture, until at last he reaches the desired door: his baby brother's nursery.

"Mama!" He calls out, small knuckles rasping against the door softly. There's a minute of pause before his mother comes to the door and in the meantime the nanny finally manages to reach him. She quickly scoops him into her arms as he wiggles and whines.

The door slides open and the nanny is quick to bow her head and say, "I'm very sorry, madam-"

With a kind smile and a gentle tone, the woman cuts in, "Not a problem. It's his big day, right Hanzo?"

Though she's holding a week-old Genji in her arms, Hanzo throws himself at her and she leans in to kiss his face and give him a sideway hug. "Here, say happy birthday to your big brother, Genji," she coos softly as the baby stares up at them with big, round, curious eyes.

Hanzo leans closer to the newborn as the nanny pulls him back. "Be gentle, now," his mother says when he inches closer again. He presses a very soft kiss to Genji's forehead and the baby giggles in response. Both women laugh at the cuteness of that moment.

-

Hanzo is ten, sitting quietly on a bench, watching as about a dozen kids in Halloween costumes run around the estate grounds. Genji is among them, his vampire cape flapping behind him in the cold night breeze. He sighs, looking down at the bag of sweets in his hands, full to the brim. But none of it is his - it's Genji's.

It's all about Genji these days.

The crunch of heavy feet on gravel has him involuntarily straightening his back. The hand lands on his nape, strong and controlling.

"Get your brother," Sojiro says without looking down at Hanzo. "We're cutting the cake."

He backs off without another word and Hanzo breathes in relief. Sometimes, like now, he misses mother so much it hurts. But he can't show his pain to anyone, doesn't want father to think he's weak. So he collects himself and gets up, calling out for Genji and their friends.

When they stand side by side at their shared birthday table, Hanzo realizes they forgot to write his name on the cake. The family governess has to add a "And Hanzo!" at the end of Happy birthday to you because father calls out Genji's name and claps loudly as if that were the end of the song and there was no one else worth mentioning.

He feels sick, like he might throw up on the cake, so as soon as the singing is over and everyone is busying themselves with candies, he disappears from the crowd and locks himself up in his bedroom. He doesn't come out until the next morning, when everyone - including him - can pretend nothing out of the ordinary happened.

-

Hanzo is twenty-two, blowing cigarette smoke into the night air at the window. He knows that he should sleep, but can't seem to relax. This room feels too big for him, as do the shoes that he's having to fill since father's very recent death. He's been trained for this job all his life, but now that it's here, he doesn't feel prepared.

The door behind him slides open and he doesn't have to look to know that it's Genji. Hanzo continues staring at the cloudless sky until a body presses behind his, one arm going around his middle and the other reaching out until Genji steals the cigarette from his hand.

They smoke in silence for a moment. Genji puts out the butt on the windowsill and he finally glances towards his brother, reprimanding. All Genji does is smirk; he'd done it on purpose, to get Hanzo's attention.

The hand around his waist crawls all the way up to his hair, brushing gently at his temples. He feels as Genji tries to curl it around his fingers, but his hair is too short now, so he just plays adoringly with it.

"It's almost time," Genji says in a whisper. "I got you a present."

Hanzo looks at him again, eyebrows shooting up. Genji has never been most thoughtful... But maybe losing father has made him realize people can just. Be gone someday, out of nowhere. It has certainly made Hanzo painfully aware of that.

"You shouldn't have," he says, but as Genji's hand travels once again to wrap around his, he allows himself to be dragged away from the window and walked back towards the bed.

When he sits at the end of the bed, Genji is quick to once again curl himself around Hanzo's body; one of his legs around his back, the other over his lap, chest glued to Hanzo's side. He holds Genji's waist and watches as he pulls a tiny velvet bag from his pocket. He tugs at Hanzo's free hand until he's holding it out, palm up, so he can dump the contents of the bag in Hanzo's hold.

It's a pair of golden bands that he immediately recognizes as their parents' wedding rings. Hanzo gasps, hand shaking as if the metal could burn him. His stomach feels cold as he stares at the rings and tears threaten to spill from his eyes; he misses mother more than ever, and even though losing father felt like freedom, he misses what he represented in their lives - the figure of authority that Hanzo didn't have to be.

"Hanzo," Genji starts and he forces his eyes to move to his brother's face. "It's you and me now."

This thought, though to Genji it might mean something else, to him is a relief. He has Genji, so what else could Hanzo need? Besides, he is at the head of the family now, and he wants his brother at his side. He will have it his way.

There are tears in Genji's eyes, too, when he adds, "I'm yours if you're mine."

And for the first time since father died, Hanzo allows himself to cry.

He pulls his hand free from Genji's waist and takes the ring, slides it reverently onto the finger that his brother holds out. Cries silently as Genji does the same to him. When they kiss, it tastes like fear, salt and love.

-

Hanzo is twenty-five, hands shaking and covered in blood as he fumbles with Genji's corpse for the wedding ring. His katana rests at his feet, bloodied and sharp.

He did not have things his way.

-

Hanzo is thirty, barging uninvited into the Shimada estate to make an offering to Genji's spirit in the temple. His katana rests on the altar like a trophy. Genji lives in his heart.

-

Hanzo is forty-one, climbing to his feet and crossing his room in Gibraltar in silent strides. The old bag he hides at the back of his wardrobe has a secret compartment, a hole in the lining that he's used for over a decade now to hide a certain box.

When he returns to the bed, heart racing with anxiety, Genji is still blinking awake. But he smiles a sleepy thing and reaches out for Hanzo, who slips back into his arms. Genji spends a good minute laying a plethora of kisses over his face, neck, arms, hands; crushing Hanzo in a passionate hug.

His voice is croaky when he murmurs, "Happy birthday, old man."

Hanzo just chuckles. "Don't worry, you'll get there."

But he's hit with a wave of gratitude - to Mercy, to the gods, to the universe - that he knows Genji will get to 41, too. When for years he spent his and Genji's birthdays wallowing in guilt that his brother never knew 23, 24, 25... All thanks to him.

"We'll be celebrating in the retirement home," Genji jokes and he laughs again. He would have it no other way; having Genji at his side until the end of their lives is his only plan for the future.

Hanzo sits up, then, and Genji follows him with his eyes. Curious eyes, like that week-old baby; gaze that doesn't lose a single move while Hanzo digs out the small box and gently opens it. The shine of gold has dulled some after years of dust and lack of wear. Hanzo surprises himself that he still remembers which is which.

He takes Genji's hand, holds it with the same reverence he had that night, almost two decades ago, in his bedroom in Hanamura. The ring slips easily and fits with perfection onto his finger. It's as if time hasn't passed at all, but it has. So much of it has - and thank the gods for that.

Genji is the one to gasp and freeze in place this time, staring at the ring, at Hanzo's face. Doubtless running over the memories from that night as well. His face doesn't betray a single emotion as he slides Hanzo's ring into place and Hanzo fears that this was a mistake, that maybe some mementos are meant to be just that - objects to remember the past by. Not things to build a present and future with.

But Genji brings his hand to his face and kisses the ring, and sits up to kiss him on the lips, and Hanzo knows they're fine. They're more than fine, they're-

"-yours and you're mine," his lips moving around the words that Genji whispers, and though it's early morning and so much has yet to happen today, this has to be his best birthday by far.

Life sure has its way of making all the right things fall into all the right places, sooner or later.

[c1trvswurld]

Took a little bit off this website bc of school mostly and Secondly because I'm finally putting all of by hc and writing about hanzo into a long fic if been brewing for a while. And it's been pretty fun and calming

[gatheringfantasies]

"I may not have much in terms of money but what I do have is... Gramps."

"Be more serious with your training Lady Reimu."

"No way~!"

[shouga-nai]

How well do YOU know your friendly neighborhood cyborg ninja?

『 Take the test! 』

[chronal-anomaly]

Who's gonna write a post doomfist-fight thread with me 🔫

[boundlss]

i want to get a response out today but i usually mostly write at work and the office is full ;;;;; maybe while my water is boiling for tea when i get home i'll slam smth out.

[bylightofdawn]

Whelp, I'm doomed. I am now actively plotting out a Tseng/Reeve fic because the brainrot has gotten to that level. And I'm giving up because I've been trying to think up a plot for this Mace/Fox fic and was failing absolutely miserably.

I'm hoping if I can write and get this out of my head maybe I can concentrate on other bunnies instead. I suppose after 100 fucking hours of FF7: Rebirth it's to be expected. And I don't think I'm even at end game yet. I know I'm getting close but I'm not there yet.

I'm making myself not play the game right now in point of fact so that I can GET some writing done and catch up on replying to AO3 comments.

My life balance when a game I really want to play comes out just goes down the toilet. It's actually not great and concerning. :/ Thankfully it doesn't happen but maybe once a year or two but still.

EDIT: About those writing plans.

[monmuses]

// *ALSO! i’d like for y’all to know that i am looking to add more muses in the future! i currently have a list of canon muses that i want to write once i get my hands on icons (whether cropped by myself or commissioned), but the list goes as follows:

Yakuza muses; specifically Majima and/or Kiryu

More FNAF muses, such as Vanny/Vanessa and FNAF 1-3 animatronics (and potentially a FNAF 3 Security Guard OC!)

Cult of the Lamb muses; specifically Clauneck and Forneus!

DC muses, like any new heroes or villains/side characters (TBD list because I actually have to go through and pick out ones I like)

Marvel muses; She-Hulk, Ricky, Spiderman characters, etc.

Inscryption muses; the Four Scrybes, specifically!

Amanda Ripley from Alien: Isolation

More Overwatch muses; Widowmaker and a rewritten AU-version of Kiriko (because I personally hate how she’s written and designed in the game and cinematic), Ramattra, Sombra

Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss muses; Asmodeus, etc.

More South Park muses; Chef, Ms Cartman & Sharon Marsh, Sheila & Ike Broflovski

Demon Slayer muses; Tanjiro, Genya, possibly Mitsuri, Akaza, Nakime, Daki

DBD Killers & Survivors; Jane, Yui, and Nea while looking at Plague, Spirit, Demogorgon, etc.

[byanyan]

character inspoㅤㅤ♡ㅤㅤblank template here!!

tagged by:ㅤ@skxrbrand ty!! ♡

[chiwit-a]

muses i could've sworn i had from the jump ?? but destin reminded me so they're officially being added :

ana amari, overwatch (primary)

moira o'deorain, overwatch (primary)

genji shimada, overwatch (secondary)

[austerulous]

I’d never heard this dialogue before! Thanks, Doe. ♡

[smol-sirens-garden]

@shouga-nai Has Asked: 🧛‍♂️ go to a costume party (Genji and Lucio. Genji dresses as Oni)

He was excited for this party, having found the whackiest costume he could and was highly proud of what he had come up with. He was mingling a bit when he saw the other finally arrive, heading over to greet him.

"Wow man, amazing costume. You did great."

He zoomed around him as best he would, taking in every detail of it.

"Did you make it yourself?"

[reapiablo]

ft. @sourentropy

[gatheringfantasies]

"I just had a bad feeling...."

[shouga-nai]

Hanaoka // Throne of Anubis

[suzumenoken]

Genji Music Menu

Death of a Strawberry - Dance Gavin Dance

Vandalize - ONE OK ROCK

WANNA DIE - n9neful & WHYTYLXR

Bad Decisions - BAD OMENS

Ghost - GUNSHIP