#✦ — • thewholecrew • kassy •

[headstrongblake]

@thewholecrew: you're back. i can finally breathe again. / kass & o

it's dreadful in the in-between, a terribly cold grey place that fills octavia with terror every time she dwells on it. before she'd even know that she had died or was immortal, that she was stuck in this place— she blamed the lingering feeling on a nightmare she couldn't remember. that was almost the worst of it. that there was this in-between place her soul went every time she died, and yet, once her heart began to beat again, octavia had no memory of it.

the process is slow. sometimes long and always unpredictable. but eventually, life slowly returns to her body. her skin regaining colour as blood trickled through her veins, feeding vital organs while her heart came alive. it beats slow at first. barely a thump. but before long, her heart regains a steady rhythm, slowly bringing octavia around. the overwhelming dread from the in-between leaves octavia stuttering for breath when she finally wakes somewhere comfy. her vision blurry at first as her lashes flutter against the soft, glowing light. "you're back," kassy's relieved murmur is the first sound octavia hears, alleviating any confusion as her girlfriend's fingers gently stroke her cheek. the corner of her mouth ticks upwards. she's with kassy. of course she's with kassy. instantly, octavia leans into the cool trace of her fingers, hues closing briefly. it's constantly exhausting returning, but she's safe here with kassy.

it isn't until octavia's lungs can fully expand that she opens her eyes again, this time clearly seeing the condo she's shared with kassy, and her beautiful love beside her. she looks a mess. terribly sad as octavia forced her stiff muscles to work, lifting her hand to trail the back of her fingers against kassy's jaw. "kassy." she said tenderly. it always takes some time to regain her memories of before she took her last breath, but, whatever happened, she's here now. she's alive. "i'm back, it's okay," octavia assured her softly, hoping to comfort her girl. to replace the brokenheartedness in her deep red eyes. "i'm okay," she repeated, her heart swirling with love as kassy's shifted, bringing her forehead down to octavia's to whisper, "i can finally breathe again."

[deathvisited]

[ wake ] for one muse to wake up to the other at the side of their hospital bed - kass

sebastian had been doing his best, he'd tried again and again to stop her from indulging in her addiction but there was only so much he could do. he couldn't lock her away forever and with callum being unable to say no to her..... they were here again. he sat beside the beside, hands clasped in front of him. he knew she was mad at him, probably hated him, but he'd sent both alec and callum home. they weren't good for her right now, neither of them able to hold their ground quite as well as he could, and hell he even failed. this time had been particularly bad and now.... he bent his head and prayed.

he couldn't lose her, he couldn't deal with the idea of her never waking up again. it was obvious she wasn't able to care about herself enough not to destroy herself and she was so angry with him for being gone. he could completely understand that, to a point, but there was some kind of issue with her not understanding that just because he wasn't here didn't mean he didn't care. he did, far too much, and if he was around he'd thought that it was worse off for her. his life was dangerous and the people he dealt with could hurt her. staying away was better for her, or so he'd thought. he hadn't given her the choice to make the decision for herself and that was wrong, he supposed.

he didn't believe in god but he'd start as long as she got better. they'd said she could have lasting damage from the seizure this time but he had to believe that she'd be fine, that she'd see the seriousness of it this time. he had to.

he had never felt so fucking lost, and when she stirred hours later his eyes were bloodshot from unshed tears, he'd talked to his mom and ted and they were coming because clearly everything he'd been saying hadn't been working and he needed back up. ted was furious at him for letting this happen --- as if kassy wasn't her own person and he could control her completely --- and his mother was beyond worried. "hey," he whispered, his voice quiet as her eyes fluttered open and he sucked in a breath. confusion coated her expression and as he held his breath he hoped for her to yell at him. "where am i?" the words were softly spoken and her voice hoarse with disuse. he rose to grab her some water coming back with it and a straw before answering. "the hospital," he didn't judge her for her addiction, he was just trying to understand why.

he knew kassy had her own things going on, that she'd indicated she didn't feel happy throughout the years, but he'd never realized she was medicating with pills and blow and now...... he hoped it wasn't too late. "i found you in the bathroom," he murmured. just like he had last time, she'd been sick on herself while she was OD'ing and he'd never been so scared in his life. his kassy was neat and tidy and always well put together but when she got like that..... it was terrifying. "how are you feeling?" was she going to kick him out or let him stay? he hadn't been here when she needed him but he hoped he'd proven he wasn't going anywhere.

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[defectiveparts]

@thewholecrew asked: i keep forgetting that relationships are supposed to be something you want. meme.

"uh---"

see, the thing is, buck's used to random women coming up to him at bars. it's a thing that happens more than he really cares to admit, especially now that he's out of his buck 1.0 era. he doesn't really do clubs anymore for that reason, doesn't do bars all that often either. he's only here because it had been a really long week and if he didn't drown his feelings in alcohol he was going to do something potentially stupid. when all of his friends had turned up busy, he'd decided to still go. it wasn't like he needed company. he could manage. but, well. sitting alone left him vulnerable. open to attack. he had just thought it'd be something a little bit.. different.

"well, yeah. unless it's a different kind of relationship, which--- to each their own. but. romantic relationships generally should be something that each of the people in it want."

he taps his fingers on the small table, eyes lingering on the woman across from him as he debates. she looks fairly sober, more frustrated than anything, and buck can't help the twinge of remorse he feels for her and the revelation that she's just come to.

"want a drink?" he holds up his empty glass, tilting it from side to side. "i was just about to grab another."

[headstrongblake]

thewholecrew​: kassy

     she hated the way she flinched ever so slightly as he smoothed over the tears on her cheeks, eyes shutting tightly a moment before leaning into his touch, to the kiss to her forehead. she breathed with him in the moment, trying to push away the memories that tried to flash behind her eyelids, nor the ghost touches of rough hands grabbing her. this was nick, she was with nick, and he was safe. he had always been safe. he protected her, his touch was welcome and safe and gentle. she trusted him, trusted when he said that she was safe. a shaky breath escaped her as she hugged him tighter that moment in silent thanks before releasing him once again. 

     kassy couldn’t quite meet his eyes as he leaned back. she felt him watching her but she what she felt more was shame. felt uncomfortable in her skin, in this drastic change of her reality. until now she had mostly only been on the sidelines of terrible events happening. it was still terrible but she was usually unscathed, unharmed and still able to sleep at night. even with nick’s father, she had been more concerned about him than she had been herself. it had been scary but this… this was so much different. nick had been there immediately in that moment. though there had been danger it had been trampled out so quickly she hardly had time to process it. but this. she couldn’t stop seeing and feeling and hearing all that she’d experienced. couldn’t stop thinking about the what ifs. if grant hadn’t’ve been there, if alec and rev hadn’t come to get them. if they were just a little bit longer. what would those men have done to not only her but her best friend? her jaw clenched to keep her lips from trembling, so deep in her head she at first hadn’t heard when nick spoke again.

     “hm?” she blinked, hesitantly looking at him with dark glistening eyes. “oh..” she began as his question finally registered. she was glad he continued to offer suggestions because at the moment her mind was blank. what could he do to possibly make this better? to help her? she didn’t think there was anything. maybe give her those sleeping pills he’d given octavia after the invasion but.. her skin crawled just thinking about that too and a new flood of tears pricked her eyes. she raised her hand to wipe at them almost in frustration now as her heart hurt for her best friend too. swallowing thickly, dark eyes grew wide, looking up at nick in surprise at the offer and she gave him a small, trembling smile, one so unlike her, so far from the lazy confidence or playfully coy ones she usually wore. “i’d like that..” she said quietly, rising from the kitchen chairs with him as she dabbed at her eyes again. 

     as kassy flinched just a touch, his heart painfully clenched in his chest suddenly, as if someone were squeezing the life out of his heart. it’s an instinctual reaction. he knows because not seven months ago, he’d done the very same thing with kassy’s soft touch, but he hates that she has to feel this way. that he wasn’t there to make sure nothing like this could ever happen to kassy. that he hadn’t protected her from his world enough. that won’t happen again, even if he has no business making such promises, he’d rather kill a hundred people or die himself than ever let her feel this fear again. 

    nicklas gives kassy all the time she needs to process, to come back to him as he speaks but he can’t help the worry that glazes his eyes as he tries to keep the rage pushed down. it won’t wash away the fears of what’s happened to her tonight. besides, rev had said no one had been left alive back at the warehouse and anyone that was left of the gang? they’d be dealt with as soon as he felt capable enough to leave kassy’s side because after this? death is the only option. although nicklas had refused to meet grant’s eyes, he’d taken in the tortured he endured. no, after what they’d done to grant and taking the girls? nicklas had no issue in wiping the whole damn organization off the map. they didn’t belong in their city.

    some tension slowly leaves his shoulders as kassy offers him a small smile because although her smile is nothing like the girl he’s gotten to know since she began causing havoc at his bar...it’s something. nicklas stood, lifting the chair quietly back to it’s spot before grabbing their waters off the table. as he followed kassy towards her room, he hesitated just a step behind her, “ need anything before i cement myself in your bed? ” he asked with a slight tease, turning his head quickly to peak at her pile of friends. eyes carefully inspected the group as if something might’ve happened in the moments he was alone with kassy but when everyone seems soundly asleep, he lets out a small breath of relief. with glasses in hand, he turned back to kassy, following her.

    once he’s inside her bedroom, nick sets himself in motion, putting the glasses on either bedside table before shrugging out of his jacket to rest on the cozy loveseat. he tries not to make a show of it as he slips his gun from the waistband of his jeans, attempting to keep his back to her as he does, but in the end, he settles it on the nightstand closest to where he’d be. kassy’s safe with him now. they’re all safe now. but, rev and grant had murdered nearly half this crew, it felt best to remain on high alert. just in case. “ all right, what’re we watching tonight? ” he asked with a smirk. 

[deathvisited]

“   am i the one who did this to you ??   ” /kass & brae --- @thewholecrew

the last thing he'd ever expected to get was a phone call from sebastian morrow and when it'd lit up his phone at 3 in the afternoon he had been honestly shocked. he'd stared it for long enough that it'd almost went to voicemail before he'd picked it up. he'd answered it though and what he'd heard had honestly worried him. it had been a long time since he'd seen the man, that fateful morning where he'd ruined everything because he'd gotten scared and overreacted to alec and sebastians hook up. he sucked in a breath now though as he stood outside the hospital room his heart beating out of his chest.

he didn't even know if he should be here.

he didn't know if he should go in. he stood there far far longer than he should have, to the point that the nurses asked if he was lost. he pushed into the room quietly and almost stopped halfway in. was it even appropriate to be here? he didn't know. he did know that he was worried and scared for her. he'd grown up looking after his mother and her own addiction, he'd been a father to his little sister and now...

"kassy?" his voice was quiet and soft as he finally stepped into the room, his words hesitant and nervous. they'd decided to cool things off after he hadn't been able to quite accept sebastians treatment of alec, because while he could understand alecs devotion and love for kassy and the things they did he understood that she'd always make sure alec was safe. he trusted alec to keep himself safe, but having seen the morning after he didn't know if he understood just how sebastian could keep alec safe, especially with how he'd treated him in the past... but how could he not come? how could he not check in to see if she was okay? he was terrified seeing her hooked up to the machines and batteries monitoring her vitals as he stepped closer, his eyes running over her wan features. she looked washed out and sick, something he'd seen before but never quite this badly.

he always knew she'd partied but.... had he done this to her? had his leaving caused some of this pain that had driven her to an addiction? he hoped not, and he knew realistically that it wasn't just his leaving, it had to be a mixture of things but.... he went to her bedside taking her hand gently in his own and carefully in order to not mess with the IV hook up. fluids he could see from reading the bag, his thumb running over the back of her knuckles as his dark eyes filled with a burning sensation of tears. her lashes fluttered against her cheekbones and when her eyes opened he'd never seen someone so beautiful, his breath caught in his chest as he looked down at her, giving a small soft smile. "braelyn?" her voice was full of disbelief and he froze. "hey.... i heard what happened, i ... i needed to check on you, i tried to respect your wishes and stay away but.... kassy are you okay?"

[deathvisited]

if you had to choose between grant and kassy in a life or death situation who would you choose? - to sebastian

Sebastian would save Kassy, for a couple of reasons honestly. The first reason and honestly the most important one is likely that she'd have no hope of saving herself. Grant could, realistically, probably save himself from most situations, whereas Kassy absolutely could not. But he'd also go to her because a world without kassy in it is a world he wouldn't be able to live in. i think sebastian takes kassy being in his life for granted a lot of the time and while that's unfair this would be a stark reminder that he needs her. sebastian thinks about kassy constantly, when he's out about doing his daily things he sees things and they remind him of her. she's the best and truest friend he's ever had, or will ever have and if he lost her he'd lose a large chunk of himself. i think it's why in verses where even if theyre more distant and don't see one another a lot she's always in the top of his mind. he thinks of his best friend quite literally all the time and he'd absolutely %100 choose her. he'd feel torn, but he wouldn't be able to continue on living if she wasn't also breathing.

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[headstrongblake]

patch, sender patches up receiver's wounds. / hunter & octavia / @thewholecrew​

     now that nicklas’ chaos had died down, with him elsewhere in the bar with kassy, unable to watch hunter work on her, octavia settled in the clubhouse. she tries her best to feel safer. this is somewhere safe. somewhere no one will hurt her. there’s something soft that she rests her cheek against, with arms tucked underneath while she laid on her stomach on the pool table. a pillow maybe, or someone’s hoodie. none of it really registers properly, nor does it matter as she fights to stay awake per hunter’s orders despite the throbbing in her temple she groans to him about, or the way nick’s frantic voice had felt like tiny daggers in her brain. he works to remove the glass shards from her back, causing her to moan and suck in deep breaths at the stinging sensation. 

    the room continues to sway the way it has since she felt transported back inside her body while nick lifted her up off the floor of her apartment. & when hunter comes around to the front of her, crouching to be at her eye level, watching his body sway sends overwhelming nausea through her. “ sick... ” she mumbled, arms leaving from underneath her head as she struggled against the pain and dizziness to try to push herself up. with hunter’s help, before she has a chance to explain anything else, she sits up a little while a small bucket is set in her shaking hands. copper tasting saliva fills her mouth as she spits into the bucket, but eventually, no stomach contents come forward and she puts the bucket to the side before trying to lay down again. 

     except a gentle touch from hunter around her arm sends fear and shock through her, stopping her from laying. “ don’t! ” she unintentionally panics, eyes widening the best they could at him. his hand leaves her, but quietly he spoke, not yet, octavia, soon you can sleep. hot tears spill down her cheeks, though she doesn’t realize it as she shakes her head at hunter. she wants to sleep now. wants to wake up to this being a terrible nightmare instead. wants nick and kassy. she wants grant here now. but more than anything, she wants her brother. god, she wants bellamy to be here the most. what’s your name? brows furrowed as she tried to focus on hunter’s burry figure, scoffing lightly. humour me, what’s your name. “ octavia...octavia blake. ” she grumbled to which he nodded, continuing his job at sealing the gash above her eyebrow with butterfly bandages. 

[headstrongblake]

      it’s in a dreamless sleep that octavia suddenly feels like she’s being transported through to a horror movie. at first when rough hands clamp around her ankles and down on her mouth, octavia swears it’s a nightmare. she’s had vivid ones. ones that cause her own hands to claw at her throat to remove her mother’s hands. but it’s different as terrified hues snap open to an unfamiliar man with a dragon tattoo. the second the terror truly registers, her need to fight kicks in, flailing her legs to try to be free from whoever restrains her as she shouts, “ stop! stop! who are you, get your hands off of me!! ” against the hand. neither do much to work, only earning her a jarring strike across the face before the hands at the bottom of her bed drag her free from her soft covers.

     her head hits the floor with a thunk, but quickly she tries to roll onto her side, reaching for the underside of her bed to at least gain some level on control. get her! a voice shouted though octavia expected hands to leave her ankles. but there’s too many of them. more than she could see in her sleepy daze. instead, another figure in the dark comes towards her, painfully kicking at her side. octavia let out an anguished scream, hand immediately recoiling from the bed to her side as the hands around her legs resume dragging her from her room. 

    from there time nearly freezes for octavia. her nails break as she tries to use the doorframe of her room to hold herself in place, but the man with the dragon tattoo keeps calling out orders directing the other two to control her. she’s a fucking girl, what is the matter with you two? he leaned over her, peering into her eyes as he pried her fingers from around the doorframe. it’ll all be over soon he told her just as he got a tiny bit closer to her, octavia defiantly spit in his face before wildly throwing fists and scratching what flesh she could. “ go to hell! ” that’s the last moment she saw his face so close to hers as a fist of fury came towards her eyes before she woke again in the living room. 

   the three dark figures moved around the apartment, tossing it and filing in and out of the different rooms. for a moment, she’s left alone, already bleeding and beaten as eyes barely open. your stomach not tough enough for this? get over it. she’s a job worth two g’s. octavia quietly moaned as she shifted her head, trying to see where her assailants were now that they’d stopped attacking her. boss wants viktor’s family in that grave next to him, these two are all that’s left and the oldest is still alive behind bars. let’s get her done, and get out. it was hard to hear every word through the ringing of her ears, but octavia heard enough. she had to get up. had to move if she wanted to survive. fingers dug into the carpet in the living room, forcing every painful move as octavia worked to stand in the dark. 

   look who’s awake. battered features watched two of the men come back down the hall towards her as her hands balled into fists, breaths ragged but ready to fight again as the men circled her. you don’t wanna quit do ya? her head tilted, eyes shifting away from her exit to watch the man with piercing eyes come towards her. he went for her, reaching for her and with what energy octavia had she unsteadily moved out of his reach before delivering a blow to the edge of his jaw. but as she went to attack again, her arm was pulled back behind her, throwing her through a glass side table. “ agh!! ” octavia groaned, eyes clamping shut against the pain as glass splintered and shattered around her. but she forces her eyes back open, slowly shifting off the glass as she crawled on her hands and knees. 

     this would be over faster if you just stayed down. another ruthless kick to her stomach sends her collapsing against the hardwood floor. her forehead shifts against the cool floor, blood mixing with saliva as it drips from her mouth. “ stop..please, stop... ” she mumbled weakly but the thundering footsteps moved closer to her as the beating continued. for hours it seemed like the pain doubled as they delivered blow after blow, all of it octavia convinced herself she could live through. but as the man with the dragon tattoo finally ordered his other men to grab what they could and split while his hands tightly wrapped around her throat, there wasn’t enough life left in octavia to fight him off. 

    it isn’t until a warm embrace scoops her closer with too much ease, her body limp like a rag doll that she realizes she’s still alive.. as if she’s trapped inside with no control over what’s happening. her name, along with kassy voice all sound muffled. like she’s a thousand meters below water. but then comes nicklas’. his sounding closer and closer until eyelids begin fluttering. “ kass, ” the name’s squeezed out, octavia’s voice horse. “ kassy? ” eyes slowly start to open, searching despite the blur, and her swollen features for her friend. she shouldn’t be here. shouldn’t have to see her like this. “ kass... ” octavia’s voice sounds more desperate now, the pain beginning to flood back in.

                     / @thewholecrew a drabble you & your kids probably didn’t want.

[headstrongblake]

spot to kiss + a kiss on the back of the neck  / kassy & octavia / @thewholecrew​

    cheeks and body flushed, octavia’s at the perfect rate of drunkness right now. at least lately. happy enough as she’s snuggled into her cozy bed with blankets covering both girls. she’s sure there will be some extra whining from nick tomorrow. after all, he’d gotten them both back to her apartment at this ungodly hour he’ll say. but, as octavia cuddled closer to her best friend, finger tips tracing shapes on kassy’s arm secured around her, she didn’t care. 

      “ i don’t think there’s another person who’s better suited for me, ” she says, tripping over her words a little in the quiet room. “ you’re it, kass. you’re my best friend. ” octavia declares proudly to kassy’s bouts of shhhhs & go to sleep. she giggles at little, too drunk to deeply analyze the idea that in a lot of ways, kassy feels like the only person she truly has. 

    octavia sighs contently, eyelashes fluttering closed as she feels her best friend pressing a gentle kiss to the back of her neck while they laid in bed. “ yeah, ” she mumbles tiredly, finger tips slowing their trace against kassy’s skin as she drifts off to sleep. “ you’re it... ”

[headstrongblake]

letter 2. i'm at bellamy's. home. but how fucked up is it that none of it feels like home anymore? nothing in this city...no one here, i can't feel it. i can't feel at home because you're not here. i don't think i ever realized how important you were to my sense of belonging, did i ever tell you that being with you felt like coming home? i don't feel at home now. not without you. i'm being such a girl...such a stupid girl crying over you, crying myself to sleep. i was at your condo last night. crying and drunk. i almost got arrested cause i can't understand why you're gone grant. after everything together...after all your promises of love, i can't make sense of it. it's all just...wrong without you.

letter 3. i see that man everywhere grant. it feels like i'm going crazy and every time i close my eyes, i see him on the ground. i see his blood everywhere, coating everything and me, my hands. i can hear that awful strangled noise he made when he struggled to breathe and...when my eyes are open, when i'm wide awake and trying to survive— it's like his ghost follows me around. baby, i need you to unblock me. please. let my phone call go through because i'm dying here...i feel like i'm going crazy and that you're the only one who's going to make it all make sense. you'd come back right? if you knew how this felt inside of me? what this was doing to me...i had to kill him. i had to or else... i know i lost you in the end but at least you're alive somewhere.

letter 24. today is a good day. they happen more now and i'm happy. i'm finding a place again with my family and our friends but there's still this ache...this reminder that you should be here. i've had the time of my life this summer, kass and i have even planned a trip with alec. but there's a part of me still, maybe it'll always be there that wishes you were here to. this was your family. is your family, i don't know. you don't believe that anymore, i try not to...but i still believe it. we're your family and...this is where you're supposed to be. making these memories with us. that's stupid, i know. i've moved on even and so i shouldn't think any of that right? i don't know...sometimes when i think about you, i get all confused inside. i know you don't believe in us anymore, that you don't want to be part of this family but...i wish you were part of these memories this summer. we deserved one good summer...

letter 27. nick's back... and i can't even say i'm happy to see him. i'm grateful. relieved. seeing him means...you didn't do something worse. but he came back. without you. i think i always knew when he returned it would be without you but, i didn't realize how much it would sting. kind of like tearing off a bandage left on too long. im glad he came back...we needed him. i know she won't admit it right now, but kassy needed him. grant, i don't even know how to tell you all the crazy things that have continued. i left the city with kassy and alec for a vacation, we really needed it. kass and i needed time together, really together. but, all i learned is the whole world is screwed up. bad things happen everywhere. i think that's really what brought nick home...i don't know that he gave up on thinking you'd come around. there's something different in him. maybe you know why, but...you didn't come back.

| @thewholecrew

[headstrongblake]

@thewholecrew : i hope this isn’t a bad time / alec & nick

“fuck you, these rules are bullshit, this pain is unbelievable so clearly they’re not fucking working!” nicklas spewed at hunter, angrily shaking his head as he lifted his right hand to showcase the new bandages that hunter had only finished setting. “look at this shit man, i can’t fucking do anything for what, another four weeks , i’m walking around here like a caged fucking animal.” all his frustrations are misdirected but nicklas stood from the couch in his office, bitterly leaving hunter’s presence now that he’s redone his bandages and splints. all the time he’s angry lately. at garrett. at grant. at octavia. at himself. but it’s everyone else that’s taking the brunt of it because even the times he tries to turn it inward on himself, kassy’s there to try to squash those self deprecating thoughts that race around in the corners of his mind.

nick’s on his way to hunt down a pack of smokes he’s gotta have sitting around here somewhere when there’s a quiet knock at the door. instantly, nick switches directions. but then crystal hues fall to his splintered fingers and the frustration boils hotter. he can’t even answer his own goddamn door. but like an angel, kassy swoops in before he’s even made it to the door, opening it for alec as he carried too many brown grocery bags for his arms. “what’s this?” nick inquired with a tilt of his head while kassy explained that alec was going to make his grandmothers famous lasagna. a slow nod left him. “lemme help,” nick muttered quietly, wandering up behind kassy as she assured him that they had it. but he’s in no mood to be seen as helpless, reaching for a bag from alec’s grasp as nick tucked it against his arm and chest. a grimace crossed his face but he ignored it as alec offered a quiet, i hope this isn’t a bad time.

nick sighed heavily, hanging his head as guilt and self loathing warred together inside of him. crystal hues avoided kassy, but he glanced to alec with a sad, “they’re all bad times, alec.” nick told him truthfully, his frown deepening as his mind easily slipped into that warehouse with garrett, outraged and in agony. his muscles tightened, shaking his head as he carried the single bag of groceries alec had brought to cook them yet another tasty meal.

[headstrongblake]

@thewholecrew : holding your lover by the jaw to kiss them. / grant&nick immortal? B)

these events are not his style. so far from it that kassy had to pull clothes for him. dress him like her perfect doll so that he didn’t look so out of place at a fancy ball such as this. the undercity doesn’t have stuff like this that it amazes him, though hardly surprises him that this gala is packed with people. all in elegant clothes with expensive glasses of alcohol carted around by waiters. the moment he walks in with kassy’s arm wrapped around his, he feels like a fish out of water. hues quickly scan over the sea of people to find every exit he can. but despite the tightness in his chest, it’s worth it to see how happy it made kassy for him to accompany her. plus, there’s no downside to watching octavia and grant also dressed up in expensive clothing. how dashing the two look. how delicious. his head shakes at the last thought that bubbles in his mind, echoing kassy’s voice as he moves wherever kassy wanders.

the four of them have been here for hours, dancing and enjoying themselves while nicklas indulged in all the free alcohol. everytime he seemed to finish a drink, like magic another waiter approached with full tray. it couldn’t be his fault how hot his body felt, or how dark desire filled hues continue to wander the girls and grant. if they didn’t want people to fill up on alcohol, then they needed a better system he thought to himself, watching grant cross the room toward him and kassy with octavia on his arm. typically, he’d be watching the small minx beside him. thinking of ways to push her buttons and rile her up. but tonight, as he tilted another glass to his lips, he couldn’t stop himself from staring at grant. from all the times the men have shared a moment with kassy that continue to float around in his mind, replaying on a constant loop.

“im going to get some air,” nick explained, unwrapping his arm from around kassy as grant expressed his desire to also step outside of the gala. despite how his insides tense and screamed at the offer, a smirk easily played on his lips as nick turned to the girls. “don’t have too much fun without us,” he winked before disappearing through the crowd with grant until he found an opening. before escaping through it, nick quickly grabbed himself another two glasses of champagne, nudging his head toward the opening for grant to follow. finally, for a single moment it felt like nick could fully breathe as the two men stepped out onto a balcony. just the two of them without a sea of people surrounding. “damn what a party,” nick huffed, offering grant the other glass before entirely downing his. “i dunno what i expected but that,” nick glanced back through the curtains before he shuddered a little, overwhelmed by it all as he flattened his hands against the cool railing. bit much? grant had asked him which had nick chuckling to himself.

“it isn’t for you?” he asked, turning to face grant as he leaned against the railing, studying the curve of grant’s smile as it tugged on his lips, explaining how he’s had decades more practice than nick had. lightly, nick scoffed, “right, ya’ll know the ins and outs of these places,” he muttered, dark hues idling wandering grant, studying him in ways he’s never openly done before. only ever stealing small glances during heated moments between grant and the girls. but with his liquid courage, all these jumbled feelings he’s suppressed seem to flutter inside of him. little thoughts of what if? what if he just leaned in right now? what would grant do? how would he react if nick flattened him against the stone wall and kissed him until their heads were dizzy? all the thoughts linger and twist in his mind with the alcohol and his feelings until he no longer has a sense of control over his own body. instead of any thoughts, nick acts, stepping closer to grant as blue hues shift to grant’s gaze, flickering between his mouth and golden hues. nick leans in, though a part of him resists the temptation. the fiery urge as he straightens himself with a nervous laugh.

you a little drunk? with grant’s inquisitive lift of his brow, nick’s grin grew mischievous. to hell with his reservations, or his father’s disgusted voice in the back of his mind. “oh yeah, but lucky for you, i can be a nice drunk,” he placated with a devilish glint flashing in his gaze as he once again leaned just the slightest bit closer to grant. “im going to kiss you.” nick announced, unable to take back the urge or suppress the action now that he’s said it out loud. though nick sees no unwillingness, he doesn’t wait long for grant’s protest. instead he steps toward the man, lifting his hand to grasp grant’s jaw in his hand. the second he does, it feels like an electric spark explodes in his veins, fanning the flame of his desire as he directed grant just a touch closer to him before his lips crash against the other. it’s meant to be slow. gentle and soft. but as nick’s lips touched grant, his entire body ignites and his kiss turns nearly ravenous as he steps into grant, walking the other back until his back gently connected with the outside brick.

with his hand still on grant’s jaw, it takes nick losing the air from his lungs before he can manage to pull himself back from grant. though his thumb gingerly brushes against grant’s skin, hues look at him like he could devour him right here and now. “yeah,” he mutters to himself, “i see the appeal with you…”

[headstrongblake]

@thewholecrew: grant? it can't be / kass & o

"we leave in a couple days, and you're telling me you haven't started packing yet?" octavia inquired, her brow raising as she briefly glanced toward her best friend as they came to a stop sign. she shook her head, "doubt it, i dooooon't beeelieve you," octavia teased in a sing song voice, knowing damn well her best friend was a perfectionist. she rolled her eyes playfully as kassy admitted that she'd already planned most of her outfits for vegas. "that sounds more like you," octavia concluded, pressing on the gas as she continued their drive towards nick's house.

octavia focused on driving in the wet, slick evening while she listened to kassy chatter about all the fun and exciting places she'd researched for them to explore while they were in vegas. every bit of it sounded more exciting than the last, and the longer kassy gushed about it, the more giddy octavia felt in her seat beside her. "bet you nick is waiting on you to decide what's going in his bags for his outfits," octavia smirked as she turned onto nick's street. her poor brothers would be lost without her and kass. they'd never look as good as when the girls could dress them.

as kassy agreed, still full of light and laughter, octavia's lips pressed together. green hues eyeing the familiar truck at the end of nick's driveway. though she said nothing as she pulled into the driveway, her best friend had clearly noticed exactly whose vehicle was parked there. "grant? it can't be." her best friend huffed, the energy in octavia's jeep instantly souring. once octavia cut the engine to her jeep, she simply shrugged, reaching for weed pen in the center console. "i'm sure he's just leaving," octavia replied, taking a long drag off her pen before offering it to her bestie beside her with a lighter smile. "come on, we're here to harass nick, don't even give him another thought, nick knows where you stand." she reminded her, letting out a small cloud as she exited her jeep.

octavia briefly waited for kassy before linking her arm through kassy's with a bright smile. "love you," she murmured toward her girl as the girls made their way to the front door. however, just as octavia was reaching for the door handle, it turned, and the two girls were faced with grant and a slightly panicked looking nick. "hey sweetheart, o," nick nodded, crystal hues darting between his best friend and the girls, "he was just leaving," he offered with a sheepish smile as kassy rolled her eyes, muttering "obviously," before she pushed past grant and into the house.

instead of following kassy inside, octavia stood at the front porch as the men said their goodbyes before nick retreated inside to find kassy. she offered grant a polite smile as he told her to have a good night while passing by her. "thanks," she muttered, wandering toward the empty doorway. if she were honest, every time she saw grant still here, she was as shocked as ever. while she was thankful he was keeping his word to her brother, sticking around and refusing to leave, most of her was still waiting for the day he was gone again. except, the longer he stuck around, giving her and her best friend the space that they required, she was beginning to realize perhaps maybe...just maybe, he was serious this time. that there was nowhere else he'd rather be than in this city with them.

with him, there's always a multitude of warring emotions inside of her, no matter how hard she tried to wall off any bit of feelings toward him. good, destructive, painful and treacherous. she's desperately wanted to keep them all at bay. green hues flickered to grant's back as he made his way down the driveway when her emotions bubbled up to a tipping point in her throat. "hey grant..." she called to him from the front door, her heart clenching in her chest as he quickly stopped to turn back and look at her. octavia sucked in a deep breath, her hand flexing against the doorknob. god, don't make me regret this, she thought before her lips parted, "i-... i've decided to forgive you." octavia told him simply, emerald hues studying any possible reaction before she shrugged, "for all of it."

[headstrongblake]

@thewholecrew: ❛ here, you can borrow my jacket. ❜ / nate & o

when the group of them had left the penthouse to adventure, the sun had been up and blazing warm despite the time of year. but now as octavia and the others filtered outside after spending hours inside the adult playground drinking and playing games, she felt a rush of the night chill along her arms. "is it colder because i'm all the way up here?" octavia teased, asking nate as her arms clung around his neck while he carried her on his back. her cheeks, although flushed from the sweet drinks inside, grew more rosey as she shivered against nate while they all continued down the strip, trying to find their next adventure.

"hey!" octavia whined as nate came to a halt, a little bit too tipsy to realize what he was doing when nick called ahead to rev and alec to hold up a second. hop off, nate encouraged as octavia's brows furrowed, nearly about to complain because she didn't want to continue walking on her heels until they decided where exactly they were going. beneath her arms she felt nate chuckle, shaking his head at her as he agreed she could hop right back up after. with a suspicious frown, octavia slid off his back, steadying herself on the sidewalk beside kassy before nate shrugged out of his jacket. here, you can borrow my jacket, he offered.

lips formed into a dramatic pout, "aweeeee, thanks nate," she grinned, reaching for his jacket before slipping inside of the cozy coat that was pre warmed by nathan's body heat. "okay!" she clapped her hands before making a twirling motion at nate so she could climb back up on his back. "kaaasssy baby, where to next?" octavia chimed out loud, smirking to herself as she was much closer to eye level with nick and grant when nate hoisted her back up onto his back. "so this is what it's like for you guys all the time?" she asked, flicking her hair out from beneath nate's jacket before holding onto him once more when kassy announced they were getting closer to the fountains of bellagio. "yessss, les'go see the pretty water show!" octavia happily agreed, glancing around the group to survey reactions. "hop to it nate."

[headstrongblake]

@thewholecrew: [ SMACK ] ; the sender playfully smacks the receivers ass. & ❛ i’m not hitting you, it’s called platonic bdsm. ❜ / kass & nick lmfao

once the rumbling of his bike ceased, nick waited for kassy to hop off before he followed behind her. quickly, he reached for her, his arm slung around kassy's shoulder as the two walked away from his bike toward the front of the club. octavia already stood there waiting, smiling at her best friend. "you think you two can manage to stay outta trouble while i'm gone?" he asked, smirking as she went off about how all the mischief they caused was practically his fault after he'd dubbed them trouble and destruction. "yeah, whatever you wanna tell yourself sweetheart. just don't go making atom's job ten times harder."

"your brother inside?" nick asked octavia as they approached, nodding as she explained he'd be right out. they'd only be gone a few hours while they checked on the progress of the gun warehouse but knowing there was someone out there watching kassy? trying to torment her and threaten her safety? he felt a heavy sense of relief that the girls would be here. in their territory, with their people.

distractedly nick smoked while the two girls caught up but the entire time they stood outside waiting for bellamy, crystal hues kept shifting around. searching, and watching anyone in the surrounding area. while monty was still working on all of kassy's electronics, in the meantime, every person seemed to be an enemy. hues linger on a man that seems to stare at them a little too long but as bellamy came out the front, his gaze shifted, nodding in a greeting before he looked back to the other who seemed to move on.

nick wasn't paying attention to the two blakes trying to leave in opposite directions until he felt a hand smack against his ass. hues went wide, head snapping toward kassy who gave him such a playful smirk. "whatchu keep hittin' me for?" he asked, raising his brow with a sly smile lacing his lips. ❛ i’m not hitting you, it’s called platonic bdsm.❜ kassy's words earned a laugh as he flicked the nub of his smoke to the ground, shaking his head before he leaned in to press a kiss to the side of her head. "go inside, blake and i'll be back soon."

[headstrongblake]

@thewholecrew: "you don’t have to say it, I can feel what you want." / kass & nick

"k-kassy." nick can't help the way he stutters her name as it mixes with another uncontrollable groan, his head tilting back against the sofa cushion when she grinds down against him, driving him crazy in all the best ways. the friction of her clothed against him, a stark contrast to the single bit of fabric he wore beneath her. a sharp hiss left him, his dazy gaze snapping back toward kassy as her nails left blossoming marks along his stomach. every sense outside of kassy is shot. long gone by now as his palms smooth up and down her thighs to ground himself.

"baby," nick pleads as her taunting game returns and the rhythm against him slows, dragging the release out longer as his muscles flex beneath her. his hands slowly venture up her back, sliding against her shirt while his desperate gaze met hers. the moment they meet love and yearning swirl with his desire, a breathy smile forming on his lips as they hovered close together. he sat with her, panting while staring completely in awe of her. in a little disbelief that he's here again with her. "i want..." you don't have to say it, i can feel what you want.

a chuckle rumbled in his chest, his hands flexing against her back before he moved to the front of her shirt, toying with the top hem as his other settled back on her hip. "mmm, yeah, oh i want that to..." he sighed happily, running his fingers back and forth against her with his pleading gaze refusing to leave her. teeth graze his lower lip, "i want to kiss you," he slowly moved his fingers from the hem of her shirt to brush against her collarbone, "here," nick murmured, leaning closer with his eyes still gazing up at kassy. his fingers brushed her skin higher toward the crook of her neck, "here." his tongue slid against his lip, "please."

kassy's agreement with those gorgeous full lips ghosting just inches from his face sends a shiver down his spine, instantly driving him wild as his lips attack his favourite spot of her skin. kissing and sucking while kassy's tight grip in his hair keeps him in check, directing his mouth as his tongue slides against her skin, desperate for more of her.