#✖ 「OOC.」━ HELLO DARKNESS MY OLD FRIEND

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do you guys ever think about how reiner brauns biggest need was to be liked and admired so bad that he just essentially gave up like his whole life story & let his mind change him into a pretty different person just because he was liked by the people when he was like that ? do you guys think that every time he remembered being a soldier as a warrior he felt utmost guilt because it would make his heart sore every time. do you ever think of how he refers to himself as a half assed piece of shit even before the 4 year time skip because he knows how bad his goals are & how he should change but he doesn’t because HE JUST LIKES TO BE LIKED & how it was one of his strongest problems when you don't include the dissociation. do you ever think about how much he regrets the days but how much he still loved them deep down and he feels so guilty & broken & he is so torn & he feels so bad & how much I wanna hug this boy I'm emotional good fucking bye.

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I mean... not to be an ass but I would rlly love a verse where someone is reiners adoptive parent & like..... he’s treated better than both of his had.

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mhm anyways i hope everyone knows that today has not been a good day for reiners mental wellbeing ( the full marco death scene released on sunday (?).  & then chapter 100. ) but tomorrow im finally gonna tackle that dissociation meta :)

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.okay but what do people think erens touch did ??

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anyways... do u ever wonder if the words reiner would tell other people & that lot were the words he craved to hear as a child... & were told by marcel who essentially became his idol bc he gave them to him....

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hi my name is clarrie & this is the only thing i wanna see on reiner brauns face not blood not debris this fucking loving smile thank you all this has been your local psa.

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why does this panel hurt me a lot for both reiner & eren...

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anyways... is it bad to ask for fluff now ??? 

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i... feel weightless right now...

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          TBH I REALLY HAVEN’T SAID THIS IN A WHILE BUT: thank you to everyone here for giving both me & reiner a shot as to be someone more than just fanon reputation. when people say to me i’m the one who made them see reiner a different light it always makes me happy because even though it’s sad to know people hate(d) your muse ( believe me im sure y’all get protective of your own ) it’s good to see people actually giving him a shot & realising he’s more than just “ the guy who betrayed everyone & has a split personality lmao ” because tbh reiner braun deserves the world & i really hope people do learn to love him as a muse - he’s got so many layers & depth that isayama has only now just got through when to me they sone from the beginning. thank you to the people who have stuck around, those who have listened to my rants & novellas & thank you to everyone who’s given it a shot to roleplay with us because idk man... reiner braun protection started with this blog for me & i hope you guys recognise it too. 

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Am I allowed to headcanon that Reiner is the one out of the 104th to put the Angel / Star on the tree ? Cause if not, oops, it's a thing now.

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eren vs Reiner: chapter 99

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we arrived into our holiday stay today and the plants are gorgeous 🌵🍃

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INBOX CALL, specified around post chapter 90+ of snk / beardner. please like this for a mini para in your inbox !! mutuals only.

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sb: reiner deserves pain !! he’s a badddyy !!111!!!!11!

reiner:

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okay but honestly smth that fucks me up is chapter 100 has been planned for so fucking long... isayama has known all thats going to happen to all the muses for ages & god holy fu ck! while the fandom looked at reiner from mixed opinions isayama probably knew that reiner was gonna develop pt.sd & experience all this pain from earlier chapters n idk whether to laugh or cry at this discovery because holy shit why.