#♢spoilers: part 4

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Some practice sketches before I go sleep (⁠*⁠´⁠ω⁠｀⁠*⁠)

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Oh I see!! I had no idea, but that makes a lot of sense now so thankyou for sharing that!

Honestly that hurts more, having to realise that Ferdinand from an early age had to bottle everything up way more than I initially thought... His relationship to his emotions and self worth is so much worse than I realised

Not to be that guy and absolutely ruin someones day, but I can't stop thinking about Ferdinand's management of his emotions. Like specifically before he had met Rozemyne. We know that a noble's hidden room is a lot of things; a workshop and private space but also very often talked about in the sense of a safe isolated space for nobles to drop the act and get emotional if they have to. We also know that due to all the times that Rozemyne ended up crying in her own (and sometimes Ferdinands) hidden room that the usage of a simple heal is all it takes to remove any indication that the person was crying just moments before.

[P4V8 ch "Successors"] ( I'm fairly certain there was more than one occasion of him healing her puffy eyes but I could be misremembering sjsj ) Now, its likely that I'm maybe reading a little too into this, but Ferdinand knew this little detail. He's the one who initiates the healing spell on her eyes to reduce the puffiness and help restore her to a more sensible looking state with ease. Why? Because maybe he had to do this for himself in the past as well? I mean he was so alone due to Veronica's ostracization and relentless torment, that he couldn't trust anything or anyone unless they were name-sworn to him. And this is a society where even a well adjusted noble still has to hide their emotions and mask their intentions/desires to protect themselves with the occasional vent in their hidden room. He was well and truly emotionally alone. So just how many times did Ferdinand escape to his hidden room just to suffer all on his own? He had no one to lean on, his dad dies when he is still arguably young and he has no mother to speak of. His siblings were all blood relatives of the very woman who despised and wanted him dead. Not to mention this was the height of the Veronica factions power; nobody was ever going to take his side when he was their heads 'enemy'

I'd like to think that as he grew up and distanced himself from Veronica's influence and the political struggles of the noble scene, that he found himself needing to isolate and vent far less than when he was a kid. But at least with Rozemyne in the picture he starts to drop the mask even if just a bit; therefore not bottling everything up like he once used to.

Still... It's really sad to think that it was probably likely that there were at least a few times that as a kid he had no choice but to cry all alone. If he even allowed himself that much you know?

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