#☆. THE HOST (VITA/me).
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Cover piece for ILLUSTRATION DIARY VOL. 2 (my second Ohuhu A4 hardcover marker sketchbook!). Awakened on 27 NOVEMBER 2021.
This was sketched and partially rendered two years ago, but it was only recently that I was able to finish it. I had to keep faithful to how I rendered at the time to preserve the "documentation", as it were, to how things were at the time period I did this. That is why Kidde is there instead of Starscream, as this was before the concept of Husbands were fully realized ... but I knew that Wayne Hylics and Elder-kun were beyond just simple husbando crushes at that point! ♥ And that I had a special bond with Kidde.
#wayne hylics#hylics#sky children of the light#alcohol markers#☆. SOLANNE CONTINUUM WORKS.#☆. ILLUSTRATION WORKS.#☆. PARACOSM WORKS.#☆. THE LUNAR ANOMALY (WAYNE HYLICS).#☆. THE SERAPHIM (ELDER-KUN).#☆. DAUGHTER OF THE HOST (TELFOSO/KIDDE).#☆. THE HOST (VITA/me).
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The real question about to Vita Carnis universe is, could you eat a Monolith? I wanna taste it
#Me watching every new little horror monster they introduce: Cool can I eat it?#What would happen if I just started fucking chomping down on a Host#What then?#Would I die? yeah probs but like tasty tho#Fully bringing dishonor to Gary the Mimic by gnawing off his finger as he kills me#Like yeah I’m dead but he’s always gonna be knows as that one Mimic who lost their finger to a human who went fucking feral#vita carnis#the monolith#The Mimic#The Host
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I recently watch Vita Carnis for the first time and let’s just say I FREAKING LOVE IT!
I love how this ARG is like a animal documentary like these meat creatures are like the most normal thing in existence.
I wish this ARG was a lot more popular 🥺
#vita carnis#Vita carnis mimic#vita carnis fanart#fanart#i want to adopt them all#yes that also means the mimic and the host#even if I know they would slaughter me#I’m going to make more fan art of it
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My issue is that I can anthropomorphize anything. The parasitic monster who's nowhere near human and would definitely kill me for sustenance because it's an animal and I'm meat? No it's fine, it's my bestest friend in the world ^_^
#this is ab the host of influence from vita carnis and hollow from scavengers reign#in my defense. hollows species was made for me. its so cute and fucked up looking like a freaky fetus animal#and if u talk to me for 3 minutes youll know i love fetus#📡 incoming transmission 📡#self insert#selfshipping
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vroom vroom ~ oscar piastri & alex albon
pairing: oscar piastri x alex albon x dj!reader
genre: smau
faceclaim: charli xcx
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DJ Y/N L/N spotted in the paddock for the third race weekend in a row 👀 Rumours are swirling about why she’s here, with some fans speculating she’s dating someone on the grid. Thoughts?
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user1: Why is she even there? Bet she doesn’t even know what DRS is🙄
user2: Not another celeb using F1 for clout…💀
user3: She’s been at three races in a row? That’s suspicious. Who’s she with?! 👀
->user12: She was a guest of Ferrari, dk about this time
user4: I swear if she’s dating one of the drivers… girl, leave😒
->user14: If it's Lando I'm gonna riot
user5: Y/N L/N as an F1 wag is the most random thing I’ve heard all year 🤔
user6: Can’t even imagine her fitting into the F1 world. This feels so out of place
user16: have you ever heard her music
user7: She probably thinks the McLaren is just a sports car and not a team😬
->user17: No, because that’s EXACTLY the vibe she gives 😂
user8: Honestly, it’s kinda refreshing. Better than another influencer or model wag. At least she has a real career
->user18: A real career? Be for real, mate. She’s a DJ
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Speedin like Piastri just to crash your party
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user22: yn hosting the afterparty is sooo iconic
user37: Imagine being cool enough to hang out with THE YN LN😭
user24: Wait, who are the guys in the last pic?👀
->user30: I swear that’s Alex Albon in the back?? Or am I losing it?
->user4: No, you’re right, that’s definitely him. Who’s the guy next to him though??
user15: Not Alex, Lando and Oscar showing up to her set. This feels surreal
-> user10: Oscar at a club? My day is made. 😂
-> user8: Honestly, the plot twist of the year
yourbsf: hottieee
->yourusername: wish you were there
oscarpiastri: great set
->yourusername: happy to have the winner's seal of approval
landonorris: we need to do a set together soon
->yourusername: win again and you have a deal norris
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la dolce vita
georgerussell: Thirst trap era? Proud of you mate -> alex_albon: You taught me well
landonorris: alex.jpg when
oscarpiastri: nice pics mate
user39: Alex posting thirst traps to distract from the tea is so iconic
-> user51: It’s working because I forgot the tea immediately
user45: Oscar took these pics, didn’t he? You can’t convince me otherwise
-> user29: It’s giving boyfriend energy
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After a well deserved summer break our boys get back on track and we're joined by a special guest Yn Ln
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alex_albon: Who invited her?
-> yourusername: Who invited you?
-> williamsracing: Play nice albono
logansargeant: So good to meet you!
->yourusername: you too logie💙
user89: “Special guest” lmao as if she hasn’t been spotted at every other paddock recently🙄
user45: DJ, paddock favourite, and apparently besties with half the grid. What CAN’T she do?
user82: Special guest, huh? She’s been around the paddock more than some reserve drivers. Let’s be real
user99: How tf did Williams bag Yn💀
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someone's getting head tonight
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oscarpiastri: Can’t wait for our little celebration later 🧡
alexalbon: I’m not the only one 👀
user6: Did she just drop that bomb???
user8: Well, we can’t say she’s not direct
user3: I don’t even know what to say anymore. This is wild
user14: The Alex/Oscar/Yn Throuple rumours being confirmed was not on my bingo card 😅
user2: Did they just admit it?? I need a moment
user13: I know their PR teams are freaking out rn
->yourusername: let them my man dragged that shitbox into p3 AND got to see my boys drench each other in champagne🤭
#abby's writing#f1#f1 fic#f1 fanfic#formula 1 fic#f1 smau#f1 x reader#alex albon#oscar piastri#aa23#aa23 x reader#op81#op81 x reader#f1 poly fic#i kind of hate this but oh well#purely self indulgent lol alex and oscar are my faves
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tumblr dashboard in the vita carnis dimension simulator
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gary's feeling a bit adventurous today!! hes adjusting well to his new indoor environment and doesnt startle as much when i stand close to him, we're making progress <3
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You do know trimmings are wild animals, right? A house is not a suitable place to care for a wild animal :/
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cranky cause u dont have a little guy trudging its way around ur home arent u
#also hes a rescue not a pet #we keep him in the house while hes being rehabilitated
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I wonder if taking just enough melatonin at just the right time could get you to sleep through a host spore infection...
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Only one way to find out!
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whwere the fucl am i
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(via @weepingcrawl)
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4 days?!???! Jesus op, are you ok?????
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hopital 👍
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do any crawl experts know what would cause a meat node to not drop off? the crawl by my place has only ever spawned trimmings and meat snakes - is it spawning a mimic? what should i do?
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what the fuck is a harvester
#OP KILL THAT THING #STOMP ON IT SQUISH IT CUT IT OFF WHATEVER JUST GET RID OF IT
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walked in on my little brother watching mr maker reruns and honestly i forgot how fire that show was
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WOW! I remember that show too... it was always such a delight when it came on the television! Oh, good times 💗😂😁
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goddddd, this type of person just INFURIATES me. trimmings are NOT pets!!! they ARE wild fucking animals and they are NOT adapted to live indoors!!! why does everyone keep buying into the pet trimming propaganda!!!!!!!
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cranky cause u dont have a little guy trudging its way around ur home arent u
#also hes not my pet. if u had read my tags u wouldve known that
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a grub or perhaps some kindof worm
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look me in my eyes and tell me you wouldn't

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I'm fairly new so I don't know if this stuff is already the accepted perspective among VtM players, but it seems to me that a Vampire's essence is contained within their Vitae, while the body it inhabits merely acts as a vessel for it. Rather than the corpse being "brought back to life" by the blood, the corpse is a host through which the Vitae acts its will upon the world.
Here's how I think it works, feel free to correct me:
Kindred Vitae has two basic instincts that drive its behavior: to preserve itself, and to produce more of itself. These manifest in the host as the desire to consume blood, and the desire to Embrace.
During the Embrace, a Kindred drains all blood from a mortal. This Kindred, the Sire, introduces a small amount of their Vitae into the mortal's corpse which then finds its way into its brainstem. It acts to enable motor and sensory function, but lacks sufficient Vitae to sustain the entire host body. To remedy this, it attempts to source blood from the nearest available source, causing what is known as a Hunger Frenzy.
Once blood is consumed, it makes contact with the Sire's original Vitae. It then becomes Vitae through its capacity to transmute mundane blood into more of itself. It is possible that this is achieved through a property that makes it impossible to dilute, ironically similar to that of Holy Water.
Vitae then spreads throughout the host to facilitate biological processes necessary to achieving the instinctual goals. It interacts with the host body, preventing decay but also reshaping certain tissues and organs to better function as instruments of the goals. Teeth become sharpened fangs, the stomach reshapes to allow blood directly into the circulatory system, taste buds and neurotransmitters are altered to incentivise consuming blood, etc. It also flows into the rest of the brain, where the personality and memories of the host imprint into it through its presence in the memory centres.
In the event of a threat to the Vitae's survival, such as sunlight or fire, it exhibits a response similar to the human body's response to extreme cold. To avoid loss of heat, the body concentrates warm blood in the safest and most important areas, the torso and head, leaving the extremities cold. In the case of Vitae, blood leaves the anterior of the brain and limbs, and concentrates in the amygdala and brainstem. This causes the distinctive Fear Frenzy or Rötschreck in the host as the Vitae spurs the host to flee to preserve itself.
Through unknown means, Vitae is consumed by sustaining the body or by the manifestation of Powers of the Blood. In an attempt to restore itself, it increases the host's desire to feed. In extremis it forces the host to forgo rational action in a bid to sate its primal needs. This may occur any time a Kindred exerts themselves.
Variations in Kindred Clans are possibly the result of the original "Antediluvians" whose willpower and mastery of their own Vitae were such that remnants of their personalities and powers remain in their blood and are passed down to their descendants to this day. In a similar vein, the Anger Frenzy may be a remnant of the original Kindred "Caine" whose own rage could have been passed down to all Cainites due to his immense power and will.
Fully draining a Kindred, or Diablerie, extracts the Vitae dwelling in the Brainstem which has taken on the most significant imprint of the host. This causes a conflict within the Diablerist , as two different personality imprints vie for control of the same body. Eventually the more willful memory imprint wins out and takes full control of the host.
Fin
This was a fun bit of creative writing, and has given me some ideas for more stuff about how disciplines and other vampiric traits work.
I might do some more of this stuff if people like it, or if I get bored.
Thanks for reading!
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What are your monster hear-me-outs
Xenomorphs and Deathclaws are the first that come to mind. Also kaijus from pacific rim, if they weren't giant. The host from vita carnis. Also dragons, werewolves etc. ofc but I feel like that's a given. Though I'm not interested in godzilla or slenderman, to my surprise. This is what I can think of rn the list isn't exhaustive.
If it's big bad and scary I likely have delusions about making it submit but I'd probably just get killed, realistically, though I like the idea of stripping a powerful predatory creature of its power, or being one.
My username's relevant. Obligatory mention of an old post of mine
#this turned into me rambling about monsterfucking my bad#im not crazy for any of them but cool design = it could get it#is this sharing too much? perhaps#felt like rambling.#ask#questalks#quesanswers#monster fucker#monsterfucker#terato#teratophillia
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🗝️ MUSINGS OF THE HEART 🕯️






a slew of love letters are discovered decades later revealing a love affair between a woman and her brother’s wife.
based on the love letters between virginia wolf and vita sackville-west.
to darling,
i hope this letter finds you well. to much dismay i must inform you of the passing of our beloved family pet, charlie. i remember a great deal of our time together in which you enjoyed his company. how is your heart? mine is a slew.
it is not just the passing of charlie, though i do miss him. i must confess i believe i am suffering from a defect of madness. i cannot sleep, your name is glued to the inside of my cheek. i miss you so feverently that i bite until i draw blood.
how are the babies? give them my best.
adorned,
your abagail.
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to dear,
i’m most sorrowed to hear of the passing of our beloved charlie. he was most admired in my heart as a force to be reckoned with. missing one eye and a limp in one leg but he never let it stop him.
i wish most ardently that you did not have to wait until the second paragraph to devote your love to me. i wish it was splattered in ink on all of my perfect and prestigious dresses. you have ruined my white gown with your bloody love. i couldn’t ask for a better person to destroy me.
i cannot speak much of life here with manuel. he is kind and noble, you know this, but is most certainly not you. i miss our passionately paced — loosely placed kisses in the […] but most of all, i miss your eyes.
you are a craving i simply cannot get rid of. we are visiting the farm in a month, prepare for me.
forever,
your y/n
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✑
a stolen glace is much too subtle for abby, she has to stare at you head on. you’re left agast, drinking in her shamelessness.
it doesn’t take another stern stare down to tell you that abby wants to talk to you. you’ve already excused yourself to a far corner of the house, cursing yourself at your impoliteness. doesn’t every hosts wife want to escape the party? it isn’t exactly an honorable soirée, there isn’t much cheese left to pair with grapes and wine.
speaking of wine, your drunken whines echo against the walls of the coat closet you find yourself pushed into. abby wasted no time, a lustrous tone darkening the sweet things she was saying.
“i missed you.” had translated to “i know you haven’t been touched in forever.”
and “you’re beautiful.” had found itself becoming “you’re intoxicating” on her hungry lips. there was no other place you’d want to be right now.
tangled in a web of ecstasy, your body anticipating her touch. every second mattered. if you did not have her right then and there, you’d grow ill from wanting.
and of course, just as her lips are trailing sweet kisses down your neck, your name is called down the hall.
#abby anderson x y/n#tlou au#abby anderson x you#abby anderson drabble#abby anderson smut#abby anderson imagine#abby anderson x female reader#abby anderson#abby anderson x reader#wlw love#tlou fanfiction#wlw fanfic#lesbian#not proofread#bun’s precious abby ✧.*#abbysvictim#beforeimdeceased
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Vita Carnis is the first analogue horror that actually FRIGHTENED me. My desensitized ass was violently uncomfortable w the Species Anomaly Report.
But holy FUCK is this such a fucking cool series. I LOVE the use of practical effects- I'm really not used to seeing them in media like this!! I ended up replaying that first mimic jumpscare like 7 times because I wanted to check out the costume/puppet. Not trying to dog on 3D animation whatsoever, I did love the use of it later in the series, but it's just really hard to capture natural and lifelike movements with 3D that they pulled off effortlessly with the use of the mimic costume- specifically the way the fingers slide through the gap and curl around the door...
HUGE FAN OF THE WORLDBUILDING TOO. CANNOT EMPHASIZE THIS ENOUGH. I love how every species is developed. Mimics aren't just these unkillable beasts. Inhaling the spores of a host isn't necessarily a death sentence if you catch the symptoms and get treated. Harvesters don't target humans specifically and you can distract them with heavy objects to escape. THEY HAVE WEAKNESSES!! Every creature has their own place in the food chain. Trimmings are kept as pets because OF COURSE HUMANS WOULD WANT TO KEEP A SMALL HELPLESS LOOKING THING AS A PET!! IT'S SO GOOD.
And to think- the only reason I know of this series and decided to watch it was because of a silly Roblox game. Insane.
#smugspeaks#vita carnis#Pillar Chase 2 also got me to read the entire NES Godzilla creepypasta + play Friday Night Monster of Monsters#Also honestly not that bad!! Pretty nice
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I was looking through ILLUSTRATION DIARY VOL. 1 and found several scrapped/unfinished works that I'd thought I'd share with you all! Only a few touch-ups were made since well .... they're all scrapped pictures I will never finish. Apologies for all the HYLICS art to my non-HYLICS followers ww
Here are some quick descriptions for context.
1ST: Wayne on a throne as a masterful declaration of my love for him. This was before The Four Husbands were fully realized. 2021. 2ND: Tower tarot card for a scrapped Hylics tarot project I was a part of. 2021. 3RD: Wayne protecting Kidde and Baybei. 2022. 4TH: Wayne floating about under a wisteria tree. Is he wounded? Or just there because there is nothing better to do? Y'know. Just Wayne Hylics things. 2022. 5TH: Random vacation hype art. This was around the time I was visiting my older sibling in August but never got around to finishing this, despite the completed linework. Don't ask why Dimentio is sitting on Little Sora's luggage specifically. 2022. 6TH: Wayne Hylics x me as one of the HYLICTOBER prompts. Procrastinated too much to finish despite completed inks. 2021.
#hylics#wayne hylics#scrapped art#unfinished art#☆. SOLANNE CONTINUUM WORKS.#☆. SCRAPPED WORKS.#☆. PARACOSM WORKS.#☆. HYLICS WORKS.#☆. THE LUNAR ANOMALY (WAYNE HYLICS).#☆. THE HOST (VITA/me).#☆. DAUGHTER OF THE HOST (TELFOSO/KIDDE).
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Getting Clues from Hunter the Parenting Chapter 4.1
(Vampire Superpowers, Exploding Elderly, etc. )
Before this post gets wildly off topic, the Orge Poppenang team has been putting out SO MUCH good shit. It includes MAGE STUFF and you should WATCH IT.
Also don't read this before watching 4.1 or you'll SUDDENLY EXPLODE.
I've listened to the audio log a few times now and thought it'd be useful to take notes and figure out what powers could have be used by the chapter house murderer. From the pinned comment (pictured below) on the video we know that the powers discussed will be relevant to the mystery.
There is no way that all powers will be relevant unless Caine is there, but I plan on re-watching all chapter house stuff with these notes in mind.
Disciplines and Powers
The majority of the Hunter Huddle's discussion is about Disciplines. For this post I'm assuming that Dr. Waters is right in her assumption that the Ghoul is actually a true Vampire. She could be wrong, especially since there was a discussion of Draughts in ep 3.7.
However, this post is already long enough so lets just assume she is right for now.
So, episode 4.1 mentions a lot of Disciplines. Potence, Dominate, Obfuscate, and Blood Sorcery get their own Topic sections. Protean and Presence are mentioned offhand but I won't focus on them as they didn't get the Topic treatment.
I will try to list out all specific Powers mentioned, using V5 sources only. Note that some powers can be found from multiple sources (For example, Chimerstry is found in both the Companion book and Player's Guide). I will list its most recent printing.
Powers will also be listed in the order they were brought up in the Hunter Huddle. If you think I got a power wrong or have your own ideas let me know!
Potence
"Juggling Dumpsters, innit?" - Prowess (VtM Core, p. 264)
"Or ripping someone apart.." - Lethal Body (VtM Core, p. 264)
"..leap into the air, yes?" - Soaring Leap (VtM Core p. 264)
"..to create ripples in concrete" - Earthshock (VtM Core p. 265)
"..people go breakshit berserk" - Spark of Rage (VtM Core p. 265)
"..make any part.. as violent as their fist" - Subtle Hammer (Players Guide p. 79)
"..to make their finger snaps with the force of a bullet train." - Unsure. Possibly Flick from v20?
"Halt the flow of a raging river" - I'm stumped with this one. Big-D makes several allusions to Koldunic Sorcery (elemental sorcery), but then it wouldn't be included in the Potence Topic.
Dominate
"..issued simple commands.." - Compel (VtM Core p. 256)
"puppeteer entire crowds.." - Mass Manipulation (VtM Core p. 257)
"bury suggestions so deep it erases a host's personality" - Implant Suggestion (Players Guide p. 74)
"hey, Markus, kys" - Terminal Decree (VtM Core p. 257)
"..suggestion buried in our psyche.." - Submerged Directive (VtM Core p. 257)
Obfuscate
"turn invisible" - Various. Looking for specific powers.
"Couldn't see him on security cams" - Ghost in the Machine (VtM Core p.262)
"Impose a false-self" - Mask of a Thousand Faces (VtM Core p. 262)
"sounds can be silenced" - Silence of Death (VtM Core p. 261)
"conversations cloaked" - probably Cloak the Gathering (VtM Core p. 263) as its two Nosferatu talking in the example image.
"daredevils.. specialize in ..illusions" - Chimerstry (Players Guide, p. 76) as it is associated with Ravnos
"Obfuscate reality itself" - Dementation (VtM Core, p. 256) as it is associated with Malkavians
"staying completely still" - Cloak of Shadows (VtM Core p. 261)
Blood Sorcery + Rituals
"laser heat vision" (mentioned during Obfuscate Topic) - Some form of Koldunic Sorcery (Blood Sigils p. 61)
"Extract it from a range" - Theft of Vitae (VtM Core p. 274)
"gain unnatural insights from it (blood)" - A Taste for Blood (VtM Core p. 273)
"utilize it (blood) as a weapon" - Various. Probably Baal's Caress (VtM Core p. 274)
"cauldron of blood" - Cauldron of Blood (VtM Core p. 274)
"vitae-tainted flora" - Coax the Garden (Ritual, Cults of the Blood Gods p. 55) or Viscera Garden (Ritual, Blood Sigils p. 65)
"Hexes, curses" - too broad to assign specific rituals to
Paths
D also talks about Paths a bit. These are a V20 thing that I'm not as knowledgeable on. I'm not going to consider them for any theory crafting cause, to quote the Houdini-killer himself, "Thaumaturgy is too vast to be useful!"
Now that we've gone over the powers, we can begin to speculate what clan the Vampire could be. There is some talk of vampires learning Disciplines from each other, but D makes a point to say its unlikely. For now I'm going to assume that the Vampire hasn't learned any Disciplines outside of their natural 3.
Clans
I've outlined the Clans that have overlap between the four Topic Disciplines. I'm ignoring Disciplines gained from Predator Types and clans with only one Topic Discipline for my own sanity.
Banu Haqim: Blood Sorcery, Celerity, Obfuscate Lasombra: Dominate, Oblivion, Potence Malkavian: Auspex, Dominate, Obfuscate Nosferatu: Animalism, Obfuscate, Potence Tremere: Auspex, Blood Sorcery, Dominate
Now for theory territory. What clan is likely to be in there? I've listed my thoughts from most to least suspicious.
1.) Malkavian - I suspect Malkavian the most mostly because it fits into my "Spit is a Fera and killed Fatigue under duress" theory. They would also assumedly have Obfuscate (my theory for how Occam got choked out) and Dominate. Also the Dementation art was cool.
2.) Tremere - With Tremere being a dominate power in the area and being (almost) name dropped in 4.1, yeah there is a good chance there is a vampire wizard running around blowing up the elderly. Possibly Kevin's replacement?
3.) Lasombra - I don't think its likely, but D has talked about fighting Lasombra throughout the whole series. Could be foreshadowing. HtP takes place in 2007 I think, so a bit before the Lasombra officially joined the Ivory Tower.
4.) Banu Haqim - As cool as it'd be, I think there are too many Tremere in power for a Banu Haqim to be working for the Camarilla (assuming the Vampire is actually working for them). Same as Lasombra as I'm pretty sure the clan wasn't officially part of the Ivory Tower yet.
5.) Nosferatu - I love the stinky rat people. However, we just had a Nos big bad (Pytor) so I doubt we'd have another one. It'd be awesome if I was wrong.
6.) Honorable Mention to Ravnos for being referenced directly.
So yeah those are my initial notes and thoughts that'd be useful for rewatching previous chapters. I don't know how to properly end a post so uh. RRAAHH GO WATCH NORFOLK WIZARD GAME TOO
#hunter: the parenting#hunter the parenting#hunter the parenting spoilers#world of darkness#vampire the masquerade
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I need to know what is going to happen with Ashton? grabs your shoulders!!
you are infecting me with the Ashton beyblade brainrot, i think about him an unnecessary amount /pos
GAHHH ASHTON BEYBLADE GAHHHHRHRGGAHHA i have been unwell for the past 2-3 days all my thoughts are consumed by ashton beyblade…..mostly about his backstory and why he becomes really cold before and during the new Team Dungeon vs Team Canada tournament (i haven't figured out a name for the Canadian team yet orz). I've already sent it to you earlier chalk but im gonna talk about him and his brother here since i dont think I've talked about it on tumblr yet.
Ashton's older brother (i dont have a name for him yet </3) was a regular member on the Canadian team years ago during the first world championships. his bey was based on the Rangifer constellation. the first team they battled against was Starbreaker, and Ashton's brother went up against Damian. that battle broke his brother Ryuga v Hikaru style he quit blading altogether and cut beyblade out of his life completely. Ashton was devastated by this. not only did he witness such a traumatizing battle, but the thing that bonded him and his brother together the most was severed. despite his attempts to cheer his older brother up, he never came back to it. determined to one day get his brother's blader's spirit back, he carried an image of what was once his brother's blader's spirit with him in his training and it manifested into the other half of his bey, Dancer Wapiti. the blue half of Ashton's bey is a reindeer, while the orange half is an elk.
Ashton of course has fun with Beyblade and makes relationships through it, and not all days blading before the second vs-USA tournament was he reminded of that battle, but the hopes of one day bringing his brother back to beyblade was one of his biggest motivators, and when he got wind that the WBBA would be hosting another world tournament for the first time in almost a decade it almost became his only motivator. The emotions of sadness, anger, and resentment that had been buried for years swelled back up again. Ashton believes that if he wins against Team Dungeon, his brother might be inspired to pick blading back up again.
He and Alban come across Jayce and Voxel before the tournament day, and Ashton acts coldly towards them in their battle, so much so he ruthlessly sends Voxel's bey flying into a wall behind him and Jayce. Vita is able to interrupt the battle before anymore damage is caused and anymore blading secrets are revealed. (Vita mentionnnn Ashton and vita are familiar with each other actually they battled in mini tournaments between the USA and Canada when they were younger).
skipping a little bit ahead ashton beyblade does break free from his mindset during his battle against vita :] during it, the reindeer half of his bey spirit disappears and is replaced with the other half of his elk (still blue though <3)
OTHER THAN HIS COLDNESS TOWARDS THOSE 14 YEAR OLDS…..ashton can be a pretty stoic guy, intimidating even if he doesn't mean to be, but he does have a soft side esp when it comes to his teammates (even if they call him mr. no funny business <3),,and esp Alban...even though half of the things that fox does would annoy him if anyone else did them lmfao
anyways ! i have this incomplete sketch i doodled today,,it's probably a little hard to tell without color but i tried drawing wapiti's halves. i need to get better at drawing elk and reindeer adjdjdjdjdj their facial structures are different. there's also a second doodle that i drew a last year before i thought about the split deer idea ! wapiti holds a hoop bcus ashton is a hoop dancer !
#they call me the rambler. if you see any typos no you dont#metal fight beyblade#mfb oc#oc: ashton#ive been thinking of his name being ashton lu but idk if his last name literally being the writing for deer would be too much LMAOO#it is beyblade i guess....#ask box#qloof.txt
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Severed Ties: Swallow Me Whole.
///next chapter of my Severed Ties stories of Madara’s family. Ages in this chapter are Madara: 23, Kuro: 20, and Izuna: 17. Art above by @vita-divata and it’s beautiful!! I love it so much!!
Being clan head had a whole host of issues, some he never even imagined being issues. But between Kuro’s fierceness and Izuna’s finesse it certainly helped keep him balanced being a feared warrior to other clans but a cool headed leader for his people. Not that he was perfect by any means. He felt he could never live up to Myoko’s potential or his father’s legacy. But life went on, he couldn’t let himself be held back by his fears and insecurities. He had two younger brothers to watch over, a whole clan to lead.
And watch over them he did. He kept them fighting at his side during battles. Who better to trust with his back than his only brothers. What better way to make sure they were safe. But that didn’t mean they were both happy with the arrangement. Kuro was whining for his own team. Had been for some time and he was wearing Madara down.
“I’m currently your age when you ascended to clan leader. Surely I can lead my own team.” Kuro huffed, flopping back into a chair opposite of Madara.
“Yes, but I was too young to be a clan head.” He pointed out rubbing his eyes. Why couldn’t Kuro just be content with things. He was always one to make a fuss if things got too stale or boring. “It’s not that I don’t trust you with your own team. I need you with me. I trust you to watch my back, I trust you to fight at my side.”
“And it’s not that I don’t want that, but keeping your best warriors in the same team is crippling us elsewhere.” Kuro pointed out. “Put all your eggs in one basket and others don’t get any.”
“That’s not how that saying goes and you know it.” Madara growled, eyeing Kuro with narrowed eyes.
“You know what I mean.” He huffed, rolling his eyes at Madara’s growl. He got up from his chair and moved closer. “Mada~” He whined, draping himself over his brother’s back. “Mada~” He whined again, letting more of his weight rest on Madara.
“Fine! Fine. I will set you up with your own damn team.” Madara finally relented. This had been an ongoing tug of war between them for some time. Kuro could wear him down like no one else. And it wasn’t like his brother lacked team leader skills. Madara didn’t really have grounds to deny his request. Not any that would keep him letting someone else from leading their own team. He just was worried for his brother’s safety.
“I can’t pick my own?” Kuro asked, still leaned over his shoulder weighing Madara down onto his desk.
“Be thankful I’m giving you one at all. I will not have you running into battle with friends and unseasoned warriors behind you.” Madara snapped, a sign no one should continue questioning him. Kuro got off him and raised his hands in defeat.
“Yes, sir.” Kuro chuckled, saluting him. “Just let me know, I want to train with them before we go into a battle.” He laughed again as Madara merely grunted.
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Madara hated to admit Kuro had been right but Kuro certainly loved to point it out. He could be so annoying when the mood struck him but he supposed that was the role of younger brother’s. Sending him with his own team to a different battle front was increasing their victories. That in turn increased their clan’s standing among other clans and broadened their lands.
“Be careful. The Senju are not to be taken lightly.” Madara warned his troops. “They are a large clan and they work extremely well as a team. If you are surrounded there is no shame in retreating. I’d rather lose a battle, than lose more of my people. We can always regroup back together to win another day.” He said firmly looking around at the throngs of shinobi before him. Before letting them disperse he pulled Izuna and Kuro to his side.
“Kuro be careful.” Madara said, eyeing his brother warily. Kuro hadn’t necessarily always been cocky but he certainly was getting that way.
“I did in fact hear your speech.” He said adjusting his armor, not even bothering to look up as Madara spoke with him.
“I am serious. Hashirama is revered as a god among his people, if he is on the battlefield do not go out of your way to fight him.” Madara warned. Kuro was getting big headed now that his squad was one of the most successful. And while Madara had no problem praising those who deserved it, he didn’t want his brother to bite off more than he could chew. He didn’t want to lose anyone else.
“Why? Want to fight him yourself? Still have some feelings for your secret friend?” Kuro snapped. His brief friendship with Hashirama was still a sore subject. Whenever he managed to piss either of his brothers off they liked to slap him in the face with it.
“By divine what is your problem? No, I don’t want to lose any more people than necessary and I don’t want to lose you.” Madara snapped, grabbing his arms and shaking Kuro.
Kuro merely scoffed and shoved Madara’s hands from his arms. “I won’t lead my men into a fight we cannot win. You know that.” He pointed out, but at least this time looked at Madara.
“I know, but I’m talking about you specifically,” Madara said, his voice softening.
“Do you doubt my fighting ability?” Kuro asked, tilting his head looking at Madara seriously. His hands lifted to rest on his hips, a frown on his face.
“No, but I cannot win against Hashirama alone.” He said softly. “Please be safe.”
“Fine, mother.” Kuro huffed, before laughing and giving Madara a soft shove. “I’ll be careful, who else will keep you in check?”
“Me?” Izuna pointed out, rolling his eyes as he approached the two of them. He had stayed out of their little bickering moment.
“Hardly, you’re so much better at keeping him socially in check.” Kuro pointed out ruffling Izuna’s hair. “Why do I get a special speech and the baby here doesn’t?”
“Because I stay at his side.” Izuna said dryly, swatting Kuro’s hand away from his hair.
“You two were always tied at the hip together. Don’t fear, little one.” Kuro teased him by pinching Izuna’s cheek. “I’ll be safe and back home to bother you more.”
“I’m not worried, the Senju will see your big head and realize they need to hurt your pride to win.” Izuna said grinning.
“What a rude little shit you are.” Kuro said, chuckling, this time pinching and pulling on both of Izuna’s cheeks. Kuro laughed as Izuna whined and swatted his hands from his reddening cheeks.
“Enough.” Madara said, trying not to laugh. It was nice to just be siblings around each other. “Kuro, go join your team and make your way to the west. Remember do not fear retreating.” He added.
“Yeah yeah yeah.” Kuro said, waving his hand. Madara pulled him in, pressing their foreheads together.
“Please be careful, come back home to us.” Madara said softly. He had a sinking feeling, but tried to push it away. Had to push it away, he couldn’t let himself be distracted by anything.
“Of course Madara.” He said, patting Madara’s cheek before he left them.
“You don’t normally spend so much time scolding him.” Izuna commented when they were alone, his hand rubbing his cheeks.
“He’s been reckless.” He pointed out. “I was watching him training, he’s developed a new jutsu but it’s still unstable and hard to control. I’m worried he’s gotten too cocky and willing to risk himself.”
“Hm.” Izuna thought it over. “Maybe but that’s what makes the three of us a good balance. One must balance between confidence and humility to efficiently lead.”
“When did a seventeen year old get so wise?” Madara asked, smiling.
“Unlike you two brutes, I read.” Izuna pointed out before laughing. It eased the knot in Madara’s stomach, things would be alright as long as he had his brothers at his side.
“Let’s go, no point in worrying like old maids. He’ll be fine.” Madara wrapped an arm around Izuna’s shoulder leading him off to their own squad.
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Kuro cursed himself. He was surrounded. He had made sure his own men were retreating but now he had no way out himself. There were too many men surrounding him on foot and in the trees above.
“Well, well, well Uchiha, all alone now. Did you really think you could take us all on?” One Senju asked him.
“I know I can.” Kuro said grinning. He knew they were likely to lose this battle, but it seemed they could retreat with little loss. Now all he had to do was keep his promise and make it back home. This time he would listen to Madara better, temper his pride more. He wasn’t invincible as much as he wanted to think he was.
He was doing well enough holding them back but he was getting tired. They were playing with him, slowly beating him down. The air left his lungs as he was kicked back, not necessarily from the kick to his guts but from the realization. He wasn’t going to make it home. There were too many of them and while he had certainly evened things out he was still surrounded. He wasn’t so cocky that he couldn’t see a losing fight in front of him.
“You’re all very lucky to witness this fight.” Kuro said grinning, looking feral with blood in his mouth. He was going to die here, and the thought didn’t scare him as much as it probably should have.
“Oh still talking big, boy?” An older man asked, chuckling. “Lay down your weapons, we’ll make your death quick.” He offered.
“Never.” Kuro snapped, squeezing the sword and fan tighter for a moment. He’d have to drop them though for hand signs, he’d have only one chance to pull off this jutsu. “You’ll bear witness to the Uchiha’s greatest jutsu.” He said, dropping his weapons he made quick work with the hand signals. “Fire Style! Majestic Destroyer Flame!” Breathing deep within himself, he released the wall of flames. He had never tried it in a combat situation before. It swallowed each shinobi before they had a chance to save themselves. Those who weren’t swallowed, screamed as they were lit a blaze. But he was pleased to see it did exactly as he expected. Exactly as he wanted it to do.
The only problem was the land around him was too flammable. The trees were catching fire, his only escape gone as well. And suddenly there was no escape. Walls of flames surrounded him and many others. Just past the walls of flames he could see water users attempting to kill the fire. And that just wouldn’t do, if he were to die he was going to take as many Senju bastards with him.
Again he cast his jutsu, it wasn’t as strong as before as he was losing oxygen with so much heat around him. His last thoughts were how sorry he was, he’d defied direct order not just from his Clan Head but his elder brother. Kuro picked up his weapons once more, stood there and let the flames consume him at last.
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Madara saw the flames as he and Izuna made their ways west. “No no no no Kuro you fucking moron.” He groaned, speeding up. While he hadn’t told Kuro not to use that new jutsu of his, even Kuro had admitted it was still too new to use. Apparently the battle was going poorly enough he felt the need to use something so massive. It wasn’t a good sign.
“Madara! Slow down!” Izuna called out as he watched his older brother zip ahead of them.
“I need to get to Kuro!” He ignored any more that Izuna said, instead focusing on getting to those flames. It had to be Kuro, had to be that stupid massive jutsu he was trying. He couldn’t imagine so many Uchiha using that many fire style jutsu’s at once to create that many flames at such a massive volume.
He reached over the cliff, startling to see both Uchihas and Senjus running from the massive flames. The fire was rapidly growing, spreading out as if it was a wild animal. Sharingan activated he began to look over the battlefield. “Come on, Kuro.” He growled trying to pinpoint the start of the fire.
“Madara-sama!” One man gasped reaching the cliff top.
“Where’s Kuro? That fucking moron.” He growled, grabbing the man. “Where is he?”
“He was surrounded by the tree line.” The man shook as he looked over the valley below trying to find where he had been.
“Tree line?” Madara let go of the man, and began to look again.
“He had us retreat before we were surrounded. I swear he was bringing up the rear before the flames broke out.” The man explained.
Finally Madara could find this ‘tree line’ the man spoke of. It was engulfed in flames. “No no no-stay put!” He yelled making his way down the cliff side.
“Madara-sama wait!” The man called out but did as he was asked and stayed put at the cliff.
“Kuro!” He called out, looking over each ragged Uchiha who was making their way to retreat. Some noticing Madara, worried he was going to force them back out front. “Go! Move! Up the cliff!” He said pushing them behind him up the hill side.
“Kuro!” He screamed reaching the bottom of the cliff, now seeing the sweeps of flames. It was swallowing enemies and allies alike. “Kuro!” He screamed again, the very air burned his lungs but he couldn’t leave.
“Madara! We have to get back.” Izuna called, grabbing his brother’s arm. He had finally reached Madara’s side again. It had taken Izuna some time to catch up and take in what the battle field had become. To think his brother developed and released such destruction that could not tell the difference between enemy and ally.
“Not without Kuro. We are not leaving him behind.” Madara snapped, face wild as he stared at Izuna. “We have to search for him.” He turned back trying to see if he could find him in any of the faces approaching the cliff side.
“Madara.” Izuna squeezed his arm and then reached down for his hand. “Madara-“ his voice cracked as he looked out in front of him. “Madara, there is nowhere to search that isn’t up in flames.”
“No. He is not this stupid, he would not disobey a direct order.” Madara growled, yanking his hand from Izuna’s hold. Izuna held his hurt from his face, Madara wasn’t intending on being cruel. He just didn’t want to accept the fact that Kuro -
“Where then? Where, then, would you like us to search?” He flung his arm out, “Madara! Look! Look, the battlefield is on fire!” He said, twisting Madara around and shaking him in hopes of shaking sense into him.
“I’m not leaving him behind! We are not leaving without searching!” Madara snapped, covering his face as a gust of wind blew the flames closer. The heat was starting to get to him, under his clothes and armor, he could feel the sweat prickle at his skin.
“He’s gone! Stop being so fucking stupid, we need to move back before we’re swallowed up.” Izuna bellowed as the wind swept more heat their way.
“Shut your fucking mouth!” Madara punched Izuna, knocking him to the ground. “He’s not- he’s not gone until we find a body.” He said suddenly feeling breathless and dizzy. Kuro couldn’t be gone. Not until he saw it with his own eyes. He wouldn’t believe it.
“Stay here and catch on fire then.” Izuna pulled himself to his feet, dusting himself off, and fled above to the cliff top.
Madara only stayed a moment longer. Growling he jumped his way back up the cliff and away from the flames.He stayed there, watching as many of the Senju’s fought with their water jutsus to extinguish the raging flames.
It took days to finally extinguish all the flames and there wasn’t a lot left. Kuro had certainly accurately named it- Majestic Destroyer. It had destroyed most of the landscape. All that was left was some bodies burnt beyond recognition, ashes that could have been anything, and some weapons that had weathered through the heat.
He spent the next few weeks combing through the dead land searching for anything. Anything that showed Kuro had been there, that he was truly gone. That there was no hope of bringing him home. It was disgusting work to do but he felt he was the only one to do it. Rooting through soot and ash, coming across the rare body or spare parts. Izuna waited each day at the compound doors for Madara to return.They didn’t say anything and merely did the same thing the next day.
Izuna held Madara when he returned, grasping Kuro’s blade to his chest. While, logically, Izuna had known Kuro was dead it was another thing to “see” proof his older brother was gone. The Senju didn’t take prisoners, and it was unlikely they would even know Kuro was of the mainline anyway. The rest of Kuro’s squad returned home, so his brother had sacrificed himself so his men could return home. It was devastating, though he was proud, his brother had given his life to save the rest of his men. Had given his life taking as many Senjus down with him with the largest jutsu he had. Probably one of the largest jutsu any Uchiha had. Madara had told him it was named Majestic Destroyer Flame. Very appropriate for what it did.
They placed a headstone next to the rest of their family. There hadn’t been anything left that could possibly be a body to bury. Madara hadn’t let go of the blade since finding it. Both his and Izuna’s eyes spiraled with the red of the Mangeyko Sharingan.
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Why Am I Nonhuman?
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A preface to this essay: This essay was written stream-of-consciousness as a method to sort out my thoughts on the subject, and then edited into a form more accessible to the public. If it feels a little odd or wandering in places, that’s why. I didn’t want to remove the portions that are my sorting-through of my thoughts; it felt important to the final conclusion that they be part and parcel with it.
Othercon 2024 was host to a panel run by two dear friends of mine, Goratrix of the Draconic Wizard Workshop (@goratrix-betrayed on Tumblr) and Chaiya of the Treehouse System (@treehouse-headspace on Tumblr). The panel in question discussed the idea of nonhuman personhood, how nonhumanity and inhumanity can give us insights upon personhood, and whether personhood is something we should, or indeed can, reject. It also, being run by two vampire fictives, one of whom identifies himself as human and the other of whom does not, touched on the nature of humanity as opposed to the nature of personhood - which got me thinking about my own feelings on humanity, and why exactly I reject the label of human.
Some vocabulary for those unfamiliar with the World of Darkness setting, so that I don’t have to stop and explain words mid-essay multiple times:
Chantry: the building where (typically) all the vampires of Clan Tremere living in a certain city reside and work
Childe, plural childer: a vampire created through the Embrace — the childe is the progeny of their sire.
Clan: the group of vampires one belongs to by blood, which determines which powers come naturally to them and, to at least some extent, their culture
Embrace: the process of turning someone into a vampire by draining them of blood and then feeding them some of the sire’s blood (capitalized when written)
Ghoul: a mortal who drinks vampire blood on a regular basis, granting them immortality (as long as they continue drinking vitae regularly) and a modicum of vampiric power
Sire: the person who turns one into a vampire (the person a vampire turns is their childe)
Tremere: the clan of vampires I belong to, a highly unified and organized clan of blood sorcerers who rely on intra-clan solidarity and adaptability as defense against our enemies (we have a… rocky history with many other clans; it’s a long story)
Vitae: vampire blood, sometimes also called ‘the Blood’ with a capital B
With that aside:
Some background on my history and the circumstances under which I became a vampire (or Kindred; I will use the terms interchangeably) is required to really explain where I’m coming from on this. Back in source, I was Embraced into what I recognize now was essentially a cult, run by my original sire (I have since been adopted by another), a man who I recognize now was extremely manipulative and abusive to all of us, but perhaps especially his childer and his ghouls. This cult, this chantry, contained Kindred, ghouls, and mortals who had not yet been judged worthy to be let in on the secret of the supernatural. Generally, how it works is that one is invited to the meetings of an “occult group” as a mortal, which is of course run by the ghouls and Kindred without revealing who they are, and typically observed for a period ranging from several months to a couple of years. If they pass certain tests and the general judgements of the Kindred in charge of the occult group, then they are invited to commit themselves more and more over time, until eventually they are invited to take blood from the Kindred, and be fed from in turn, for the first time (not necessarily in that order). This is a show of trust, of proving yourself; being made a ghoul is a privilege to earn - the ghouls are elevated above their peers by the gift of the Blood, brought closer to vampirism. Many ghouls remain ghouls forever, but almost all hope to one day earn the Embrace - most who are Embraced go a decade or two before being chosen, and spend it proving themself worthy of more and more trust, more and more power granted. Of course, the Kindred must constantly prove themselves as well, must constantly compete for rank both official and social - but to be Kindred is to be inherently above the ghouls and mortals, inherently more than them. To be Embraced is not just to be immortal and powerful, but to have your very mind opened to understand the world better, more deeply, than a mortal or ghoul ever could, even an elder ghoul.
Perhaps, dear reader, you begin to understand why I now have to sit and question why, exactly, I have rejected humanity, and whether I am right to have done so and continue to do so. I’ve unpacked all this enough to realize that if my reason is because it feels degrading to be called human, because it feels lesser, then… that is probably not a good reason.
And yet, even as I reconcile with the fact that I am not, in fact, superior to the mortals and ghouls around me for being Kindred, calling myself human still feels wrong. I worked hard to earn the right to drop that name; to pick it up again feels like discounting that effort and that victory. Moreover, I just… don’t connect with it anymore. Vampire affects who I am, how I think, and how I act more than human ever did. Vampirism is important to me; humanity was always merely circumstantial.
But what does that even mean? What is humanity, really? It’s not merely the circumstance of being physically human, alive and breathing; after all, many vampires still consider themselves human. What makes one vampire human, and another not? What makes me no longer human?
In many cases, at least in my world, it comes down to morality - Kindred have codes of morality called Paths of Enlightenment, or sometimes Roads of Enlightenment, and those who have adopted one instead of continuing to follow the tenets of the Road of Humanity, which is essentially what most humans can be assumed to be “following” (avoid doing harm, avoid violating other people, generally hold compassion and kindness for others, etc.), are often considered the “inhuman” vampires. But I’ve never been drawn to another Road. Indeed, I still walk the Road of Humanity; I’ve never seen a reason to leave it. Community serves me well, and compassion, connection, and consideration for others all serve community. Community and compassion are not unique to humanity - just ask the werewolves of home, or for that matter the alterhuman community here - and especially as part of Clan Tremere, where community and solidarity are highly prized, I don’t feel that they have to make me human. I can walk the Road of Humanity without being human, just as one can walk the Road of Kings without being a king.
Perhaps it’s the fact that ‘human’ and ‘vampire’ are often treated as inherently contradictory labels - that many vampires who insist on calling themselves ‘human’ do so as a rejection of what they have become. And, indeed, they do feel as though they fit into the same ‘slot’ for me, and trying to wear both at once feels wrong in a way that’s hard to articulate. But I know that that’s not inherently true either. I know people who are both human and vampire - Chaiya, as mentioned above, is one of them. Being human doesn’t have to mean rejecting what you have become, or pretending to not be what you are.
Perhaps it’s simply that while vampirism isn’t superior to humanity in general, it has been infinitely better for me personally. The Embrace is one of the best things to ever happen to me; before it, I was next to nothing, with little real hope of making something of myself. Vampirism gave me power, immortality, the chance to be part of something greater than myself, the chance to make my mark on the world. I could never have been what I am now if I had remained mortal. Perhaps it’s also that I’ve been considering myself no longer human for so long that picking up the label again feels wrong. I pulled it off, grew without it, and now it no longer fits when I try to put it back on. Perhaps it’s the very discarding of the word human that made me become something that can no longer be called human accurately, even though from outside inspection I might be mistaken for one. Perhaps. Perhaps that doesn’t mean anything at all; there’s nothing material to that.
But my friends have pointed out, as we’ve been discussing this, that perhaps the mere fact of the choice, and of being happier for it, is enough. That even if there’s no hard line between the two, that doesn’t mean which one (or ones) one chooses to use isn’t personally meaningful. After all, to borrow the analogy one gave me, is there a hard, definitive difference between a man and a woman? If there isn’t, should someone who is happier being a woman feel that she can’t call herself that because she was born a man and there’s no definitive difference? I’ve lived around enough trans people to say no, of course not. That would be ridiculous.
Ultimately, I think that is what it comes down to. Humanity as a social and philosophical concept is such a broad, nebulous thing that it’s virtually impossible to define with hard edges, as philosophy is wont to do. But… vampirism is something I chose, something I wanted, something I worked for. Humanity was only ever a matter of circumstance. Vampirism has helped me, made me a better person, made my life a better life. My life as a human was never what I wanted; maybe it could have been eventually, maybe not, but I don’t think I ever could have been as happy or fulfilled as a human as I am now. Humanity was ultimately simply not right for me, and while once it fit correctly at least as a matter of circumstance, it no longer fits even in that capacity. The Kindred aren’t above humanity, I know that now, but we don’t need to be to be other than. Vampirism is not inherently better, but it is better for me. I chose to be a vampire, and I chose to discard humanity.
Perhaps, in the end, that’s enough.
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animatic - animatic battle, lem. damien - mp , an oc from one of my projects (made em/the project off of memories i got 🔥), mephone4 - ii, airy - hfjone
sea otter, vita carnis (elder) mimic, and some sort of isopod that i haven't really looked into further
i run a lot other blogs too!!! go check them out!! theyre active most of the time and always open to send in asks to :3
@vhs-player , @m4fios0 , @2-2ime , @jonahmarshall77 , @mrkheathcliff , @ovinophobia , @certified-dentist , @no1-gummyfishlover , @therealanimatictotallyrealto , @thebestinvertebrae , @tappingthemic , @awesomeistdude , @aroundthe-clock , @in--headlights , @hell--excluded
hi i . removed the alter list because , we are NOT updating allat .
aaltthooyghh...hosts r faust/maf, toby/jonah, and animatic!!!! feel freeto assumenyoure talking to onenof us^_^
our coll. name is the battery collective or the medicine cabinet
we'll try and leave sign-offs – if you wanna know who's sign is who's, just ask
tags:
#batterys stuff !!! — art / stuff i've made
#im sayinf something look over here — text posts or wtv
last updated: 3/7/25
#putting all tags here#jshsh#batterys stuff!!!#im saying somethinf look over here#look at this!!!#osc#Spotify
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