#☆ﾟ post hailey verse ↳ here's to never growing up ◝

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Kenna nodded slowly and took a shaky breath. Okay. “She’s always been pretty bad with her limits.” She turned to Bortus, wrapping her arms around herself. They’d all be okay. Mackenzie would have to be okay. The kelpie reached out to the unconscious hybrid, running her hand gently through Mackenzie’s hair, watching the rest of the crew that had gathered.

Sam sighed heavily. He glanced between Hannah by Mackenzie and Angie just outside the corridor, clasping his hands behind his back. “Good question. We know where they are, right?”

“Yes,” Audrey said. “But I’m not sure how to go about breaking in to get everyone out. I don’t think there’s a way to do it with any level of stealth.”

“I have to agree with Audrey,” Lily nods. “There’s no coverage for some lengths around the outer perimeter, you’re no’ getting up there unnoticed.”

“So, we need some kind of plan to run at it full-tilt,” Hannah sighs heavily. “Great.”

“We also need some way to get the message to those inside that we’re coming so they might be able to do something on their end,” Lily points out.

“No pressure,” James nods.

Angie looks up, hearing an approach, glancing to Michelle.

[g2slade]

Looking Back on a Broken Family

2012 was a rough year to put it mildly. Just in 2012, I got divorced for the second time, found out my wife and older brother had a relationship behind my back, fell out with my best friend, had my car repossessed, got laid off from my job of five years, and once again had to deal with my family being broken up.

On thing that helped me hold it together that year was music. Probably my deepest song ever was written that year. It was called Broken Family, and it pretty perfectly illustrated how I felt at the time. Prior to 2012 I was already dealing with seeing my kids only during weekends and holidays due to my first divorce. Going through it again and not having Laila Abigail at home everyday was just another trip through hell for me, as far as I was concerned. 

I found myself sad about my children not being around, angry at my own family, betrayed by another wife and disillusioned with relationships or pretty much any kind. (Personal / Professional / Familial) My outlet was alcohol and music. 

I’ve since found myself with the greatest woman I’ve ever met. Jess came into my life and showed me how a wife should treat a husband, how a mom should treat her kids and basically how a human should treat other humans. She definitely unlocked a kinder and calmer natured person in myself. I am 100% a better person for having her in my life.

I wanted to post the lyrics to this song to paint a picture of how awful it is to break up a family and remind anyone struggling to find a reason to work through their own relationship problems that giving up comes with a cost, and even though my life is better now than ever before, it doesn’t always work out that way for others, and you may in fact be in the right relationship for you, just going through hard times at the moment. 

Breaking up and being without your family every day is not glamorous, fun or any other positive outcome. 

I also wanted to post this out there so my kids, who are all older now and can look back on this song with the proper perspective and understand how much I really loved them and struggled to live a life without them by my side each day.

I hope you enjoy the lyrics. There’s a song to go along with it, but it’s the lyrics, not the song that I’m wanting to draw attention to at this point.

“Broken Family”  by George Slade (2012)

“You think you got it rough cause you’re heartbroken?

I have my heart broken every other weekend,

When I have to send my kids back to their mom again,

Same feelings, same thing, starts up again,

And it doesn’t really get worse,

But every single time feels just like the first,

That’s my blood, I can’t get used to it,

A shitty way to live, but I gotta live through it,

Day after day, year after year,

Drink after drink, Beer after beer,

Keep it inside, hold back the tears,

Nights are alone, I wish you were here,

I don’t believe in much, but I believe in you,

You’re a part of me, and I’m a part of you,

And we’re in this together, at least we should be,

Instead we gotta live in broken up family,

Women come and go, in and out of the blue,

They can be replaced, I can’t replace you,

My heart’s four pieces, one for each of of you,

But every time you leave I feel spit up and chewed,

I hope you never have to ever feel like I do,

When I’m with you  I’m in heaven, but the opposite’s true,

Everytime I watch you leave, even though I might smile,

Just to have you back forever, I would walk the green mile,

And suffer through a death, just to come back to life,

Just for the chance to kiss you on the head every night,

Tuck you into bed, and tell you it’s alright,

Sweet dreams and don’t let the bed bugs bite,

Wake you in the morning just to cook you all breakfast,

Before you go to school; That’s a beautiful necklace,

I’d say to my daughter, I’d hug on my son,

But that’s just a dream; What my life’s become,

Maybe I could have done better as a man,

Sorry if you think that I didn’t try hard,

Days and nights and weeks were a struggle,

Sorry if you feel I didn’t do my part,

I don’t know what to say now, lookin’ back,

Me and your mother were ridin’ two separate tracks,

I was good with the kids, bad with the wife,

Maybe I’m immature, maybe that’s life,

I don’t know what to do, I don’t know what to say,

Where did it all go wrong, I wonder this everyday,

I know that sounds cheesy, but man this ain’t easy,

All four of you kids, I just want you here with me,

I get it every now and then, but it’s not enough,

But I’m proud of the way all of you are growing up,

Mileena with her grades, Sean with his attitude,

Hailey with a killer smile, Laila Abigail too,

I only count to 4 when I’m counting my blessings,

Everything else in life is just window dressing,

And window treatments, my heart’s like cement,

I guess there’s some things I just can’t prevent,

Hope you can’t see it, the pain that I go through,

So don’t turn around, just say goodbye and I love you,

I’ll see you next time, and no I can’t wait,

But I ain’t got no choice, Trapped like an inmate,

If you’re home with your kids, know it’s a blessing,

I learned it the hard way, a horrible lesson,

So you got it easy, just listen to my words,

Learn from my mistakes, listen to my verse,

Hope you can’t see it, the pain that I go through,

So don’t turn around, just say goodbye and I love you,

I’ll see you next time, and no I can’t wait,

But I ain’t got no choice, Trapped like an inmate,”

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For @unscrxpted​ - Shipwrecked! [Team Welcome to Literal Hell] Starring Ginger Kirk & Doug Karidian

Ginger’s put together pretty quickly and easily, all things considered, but she looks around at the structures around, the desolate appearances, trying to get her bearings.

No. No no no no--

She turns as another pod hits the ground, and in a moment, Doug pops out of it. He looks around wearily, seeing her and climbing out, getting his supplies. “Is it...?”

“One way to find out for sure.” She walks over to the building, doubting very much that the technology still works, but trying anyways.

A screen pops up on the window. And the face looking back at her... the name on the display...

Ginger turns around and throws up. Because she’s looking at Governor Kodos. Also known to some as Anton Karidian... Doug’s grandfather. Or to others, such as her dad... as Kodos the Executioner.

Doug sighs, trying to take deep breaths, turning as another pod lands with them.

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Raising the axe over his head, Scott brought it down hard on the log before him, splitting it evenly with enough force that both halves flew off his chopping block. He stood there for a moment, still breathing heavily. He wasn't sure how much longer he could go before they found him.

He shook his head, putting another small log onto the chopping block and splitting it down the middle with his axe. He slammed the head of the axe into the large stump, gathering the wood and tossing it into a pile before turning to head back into his cabin... pausing in confusion at the small golden lights. "What the hell...?"

And then he was somewhere he didn't recognize. A room of metal. And people he didn't find familiar in the slightest.

Sam blinked, sighing, rubbing his face. He started over towards the man, smiling reassuringly. "Hi. I'm Sam. Can y-"

Scott growled at the man approaching, his eyes turning red, planting his feet in case he needed to fight and defend himself. "Back. Off."

Sam backed away immediately, hands up. "Oooookay. Okay, uh, someone call Mackenzie."

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“Okay, okay, okay, okay,” Nova holds up her hands, her eyes bugging out. “Okay, whoa, okay then. Hey, we don’t know what’s going on anymore than you do. Jesus fucking christ...”

Shaking her head, she hits the comms panel. “Kirk to security, send Mackenzie, tell her to bring the others, and let’s try to hurry it up a bit if possible? I don’t want Sam and I to die here and I have a bad feeling about the tension in this room at the moment.”

“Malloy here, I’ll send her over,” Sylvia somehow sounds somewhat amused at that comment. “Do you want more security down there?”

“Given it’s Mackenzie and co we’re after, that might be a bad idea,” Nova answers honestly, glancing to Sam.

“Nova, are you sure--?” Ginger’s voice sounds over the comms because she’s probably standing over Sylvia’s shoulder since her sister is in distress.

“Just get Mackenzie and all down to the transporter, PLEASE,” Nova sighs. “Engineering out.” She clicks off.

Sylvia and Ginger share a look and Sylvia shrugs before opening her communicator. “This is Malloy to Mackenzie. I’d gather your old friends and head down to the transporter room, sweetie, and from the sounds of things, tensions are a little high down there so I’d make it quick.”

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For @unscrxpted​ - Shipwrecked! Starring and guest starring all muses from the USS Orville

“All I know is, Ginger, Eddie, and I will feel a lot better when we’re out of this area of space," Nova is saying to Sam. “I mean, I know there’s nothing down there, and we’re not going there, and there’s no reason to go down there anyways, but it’s... unnerving, being so close to it.”

She looks up at a familiar sound from the transporter room and then an all too common alarm. “Oh, incoming. Call Lily for me, will ya?” She smiles at him sweetly as she heads to follow up on it.

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For @unscrxpted​ - Shipwrecked! [Team Kiddos] Starring all children of Orville crew muses + Lara Bashir!

As soon as Lara’s pod hits the ground, she practically has to kick the thing open while the computer tries to deliver a full report on the planet. Class M, okay, yeah, that’s all that matters.

She starts getting supplies from the pod as provided, looking around, hearing other pods. “Kids! Kids!”

Victoria looks up from where she and Grace are helping Grayson out of his pod. “Over here, Ms. Bashir!”

Lara finishes gathering things and runs over with the phaser from her own escape pod drawn... just in case. She starts on a headcount quickly, checking them off... “Eretria, where’s Eretria?”

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For @unscrxpted​ - Shipwrecked! [Team Docs] Starring Iris Kirk

When her pod opens, Iris forces herself to push herself up and out of it. She groans slightly. “You two don’t make eet easy, you know zat, right?”

She asks it rhetorically down at her stomach, but she makes note of her accent and tries to bring it back in check. “Dr. Finn? Dr. Tayen?”

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Breathe in.

Breathe out.

Slowly.

Carefully.

Feel.

Don't think.

Feel.

Eira sat against the wall opposite her brother's cell, staring in at him sleeping. She didn't think that even when he was asleep, he had any peace. Not after what Valeris had done.

Not after Eira had abandoned him.

She'd left him behind. And now she was there, hoping he was going to just let her back in, one day? Idiot. Absolute idiot.

Breathe in.

Breathe out.

Slowly.

Carefully.

Think.

Do not feel.

Think.

Axel lays back, eyes closed, but he does not sleep, not really. Just lays there and wonders if Eira is going to speak. Wonders if she has the nerve to even try.

Logically, he knows how she thinks of herself with regards to him. In many ways, it was what he thought of her at the time.

That she had abandoned him.

Now...

Now it was less certain than he used to feel. Eira could not have taken care of him, not at their young ages at the time. He does not know what she would have done, what their mother would have done had she taken him away.

Perhaps it had been more logical than either of them cared to admit.

So he lays there, not asleep but not making it seem as though he is awake, either, and listens to his sister breathing.

Tries to think of a way to make their situation better, but there is no logical way to go about this.

And he does not know emotions enough to even begin to try.

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For @unscrxpted​ - Shipwrecked! [Team Keep It Together] Starring Hannah McCoy

Hannah gasps when her pod opens, sitting up, still clutching her emergency supplies to her chest and trying to calm herself down.

Tight spaces. That pod had been... uncomfortably closed up. She didn’t like it. She tries to breathe, tries to pull herself together... shaking badly, crying, gasping softly for air.

She looks up at a rustle, freezing... relaxing when Bortus clears the brush. “Oh. Thank god, it’s only you.”

“Dr. McCoy, are you hurt?”

“No, no, I just... I had to catch my breath.” She shakily tries to pull herself out of the pod.

“That is good. We must find the others,” he states simply, going to help her.

Hannah nods. “Good thing there’s contingencies for that. You guys got the right Federation crewmembers for the job.”

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For @unscrxpted​ - Shipwrecked! [Team Oh Fuck What’s That Down There?] Starring Lily Scott & Will Riker-Troi II

Lily grumbles under her breath as she gets out of her pod, shrugging on the survival jacket and getting things together. She looks over and sees Will and Audrey, good, at least they’re okay.

She pulls her communicator. “Scott to Orville crew, come in Orville crew.”

No answer. She starts to switch to another channel.

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For @unscrxpted​ - Shipwrecked! [Team Well We’re Fucked] Starring all Orville muses who haven’t been mentioned in previous Shipwrecked threads except Angie McCoy

Dakota wrenches her arm away from the strange being holding it and runs to join the rest of her crew. After their pods were captured, they’d been escorted into a pen together. This was all sounding somewhat familiar...

But there’s no time for that now. She looks around her crew, trying to see who was here. She relaxes only slightly when she sees Ed. “Captain!”

He’s making a headcount, too. He notices her and nods.

Dakota nods back and continues looking around at the others.

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Open! Starring Mirila Kozak

“When’s the last time the woman who seemed to be deadset on drinking her weight in the bar wanted to talk about her feelings?”

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Open Starter! Starring Dahlia

“So... this is a space station?” Dahlia wrinkles her nose. “Sorry. My friends kind of left me here like I’m not from the early 1980s and I’ll be fine on my own and I am... lost.”

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@unscrxpted​ from x

Grayson smiles and rolls his eyes at Brynn’s comment, shrugging and shaking his head. “Whatever. Yeah.” He absentmindedly pets the cat for a moment, looking back at James and nodding again.

James nods and clears his throat. “Means you’ve got a few more sisters to meet.”

“So I was hearing,” Grayson nods. “Sorta. I didn’t get much out of her about them.”

James raises an eyebrow and laughs. “C’mon, class should be getting out, you’ll love the twins.”

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@unscrxpted​​ from x

James smiles softly as he looks back at the kids... his, kids. Shaking his head, he sighs a bit, looking back in to check in on everyone, pausing and chuckling. “Well, I’ll be damned.”

Grayson groans, sitting up slowly, still chuckling a bit but taking deep breaths, trying to settle himself and get back on track. “What, what is it?”

Dahlia smiles a bit, looking satisfied in this situation, in its outcome.