#⌞ emethyst⌝ ‧₊˚

[ch4rryc0smos]

SAUDADE | 00

SO THAT I CAN FIT AGAIN.

synopsis ┊all the years that kept kenji sato and hazel vellichor apart, all the hours spent yearning, or not. all the time wasted, when they could be no more than a few metres apart. love didn't come to either of them naturally, but here they are, as life wrecks them, tests them, for everything they are, and need to be. hazel seemingly forgets him, and yet all he thinks about, is her. how would he feel if he was to know that his yearning is pointless? he doesn't know that it's not. that she's just trying to heal from the years she spent trying to figure out what's wrong with her. trying to heal, and she thinks it's even less possible when he walks back into her now perfectly created theatre play of a life. then he promises her love, healing, and kindness. all the lies she was used to. but a fool remains a fool, at least in her case. And she lets him back in.

genre ┊ childhood-friends-to-lovers, slight angst, tooth rotting & chaotic fluff, domestic fluff

pairing ┊ken sato x fem-self insert/oc, ken sato x public figure!self insert, ken sato x childhood-friend!self insert

warnings ┊ mild cursing, trauma, heavy topics (?), events in ultraman: rising take place alongside this story.

word count ┊1k

author's note ┊prologue of saudade, here we go, chat! i also need to work on my other wip but i wanted to get this out first, too much procrastination happening under one roof so i'd love to get this out of the way.

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Everything is far too loud. And it’s confusing. And Hazel doesn’t get why she’s getting yelled at now. At seven, her father looks like a tower, and he looks like he’s going to fall onto her, and have her crumble beneath his hands. At seven, nothing is more terrifying than the way his accusing finger points at her, at the fear that lines her face, and at the way her hands shake. Every movement of hers is a mistake, not the practised perfection. And as her fingernails get sticky, she continues peeling off the tape she didn’t put on right. She doesn’t know how she’s meant to cope. Because her gran is her whole world, and Kenji, next door, is her whole universe. Or whatever that means. To her, she thinks it’s a big thing, and she thinks it’s him, anyway.  

And she’s meant to leave them, how can she do that? She doesn’t know how to move, how to live and act somewhere else. She doesn’t know. And she ignores the way her hands shake when she’s reapplying the tape, she inhales shakily, tries to act like she’s a big girl, like she doesn’t want to cry.

The big girl act doesn’t last long, because the next time she gets yelled at, she’s running out the door, and she doesn’t want to look her mother in the eye anymore. She doesn’t even realise it as she’s slipping on her sandals, but she knows where she’s going. And it’s next door. She’s been trying to keep the dam from overflowing, but she spills, with every stumbling step, it breaks more. 

By the time she’s reached his house, she’s wiping aggressively at her eyes as she rings the doorbell and waits. When Mrs. Sato opens the door, she’s kind, but she stops talking. That makes Hazel’s spine straighten. Silence never means anything good—

Arms wrap around her, and she’s pulled into a chest. And Mrs. Sato’s comforter’s scent wafts into her scents. Hazel inhales shakily. She’s being comforted by Emiko, and her hands go up to wipe away her tears. She opens her eyes, and Emiko’s smiling softly. 

When Hazel’s eyes finally focus fully, she looks behind the woman who’s holding her in her arms, and there he is. He’s standing, and he’s frowning, head tilted to the side. His footsteps were loud as he ran through their house, but now he was silent. Hazel didn’t like that. Silence terrified her, so much. But then he’s tugging at his mum’s shirt, and she puts Hazel down.

Next thing she knows, he’s tugging her down the hallway and into the safety of his room. She’s never missed it as much as she is now. It’s like it’s all the same, still decorated the same. His bat’s still on the floor and the shelf is littered with pictures of him, but it feels so bad to Hazel. Because she’s never going to see it again, and that’s so messed up to her. 

He makes her sit down, and he holds her hands in his. She doesn’t know what to say, or rather, where to start, but she does anyway. She starts, through tears, telling him what’s going to happen tomorrow. Why she’s been showing up less. Why she isn’t as ‘stylish’ often. And she’s fidgeting with her bracelet again. They made each other matching ones, two years ago, a month into them knowing each other. And she just realises, it’s a nervous habit of hers. She also hates that Kenji hasn’t said a word since she’s started speaking. That messes with her, honestly speaking. When their eyes meet, she can’t openly notice any signs of anger. But in the way he’s balling his fists in his laps, she’s learnt to know that he is most definitely not happy. She can’t even think she’s looking into it too much, because she always is. 

She’s always looking into everything too much. 

She regrets every word she left unsaid the next morning. Now she doesn’t have any time, any time to go back to him, to apologise. To tell him that she doesn’t actually want to go. That this is going to break her heart. She doesn’t know a lot about hearts breaking, at seven. But she thinks this is just like one. Because it hurts so bad to watch his form get smaller and get smaller as her parents get driven away. And her heart feels so heavy, she wants to get out. She wants to cry. She wants to do so much, and feels like she can’t do any of it. 

She also doesn’t know that he cries the most as soon as he gets back into his room. That he hasn’t touched the spot on his bed where she sat, because he thinks he should’ve said something. Not let his anger and sadness and emotions mess him up. What if she needed him? All the what ifs didn’t make him feel great.

At eight, he didn’t know better.

And he didn’t, anytime soon. Not at ten, twelve, thirteen, or fourteen.

Neither did she. Across the ocean, she feels fucked. The guilt eats away at her, every day. And it’s so messed up, but here she is. Trying to work through, or at least try her best to. Even with all the smarts, all the grades, she is struggling. She’s barely holding on, what with barely any sleep, and endless tuitions, and getting fucked with everywhere she goes. Either for being a Vellichor, or for wearing a bracelet that looks like it was made by an eight year old (it was). But she’s willing to try. 

She hasn’t lived long enough to let go now. And she promised Kenji, some few years ago, she said she’ll be here, whenever he needs her. Which, is ironic. Because she isn’t. But she doesn’t have the privilege to linger on that. 

She needs to get a move, even if from across the world, she needs to get her life together.

Whatever it takes. She says. Or, has to.

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[unstableverse-headcanons]

uu spoke is so underrated in terms of like. character and all that. nobody besides me and pix seems to take it seriously but his character is kinda tragic

like. the whole reason he was so easily manipulated by ashswag is because ashswag was simply kind to him. ash did the bare minimum of being polite in conversations and valuing spoke’s words and he already had spoke wrapped around his finger. it says a lot, how easily spoke was tricked by that.

im pretty sure he verbally confirmed that ash was one of the few people who’s been nice to him too, but i might be misremembering that so dont hold me to this

theres also how, in spokes pov at least, for the most part he’s just trying to be good and help the server. he wants to atone for his past mistakes and ended up getting framed and jumped by like 10 people

also, can i just say- i was genuinely a bit concerned for him during the nether fight between him and mapicc vs manepear? because he sounded like he was going to start crying and i felt so bad for him 😭

conclusion: woe. uu!spoke be upon ye

-emethyst

Uu spoke is so pathetic it's endearing 🥺 (he has committed a million crimes and is banned from EVERYWHERE)

[detournementsmineurs]

"Trésor de Guarrazar" du Royaume Wisigothique en or, saphir, émeraude, améthyste, cristal de roche, jaspe, perles et nacre (VIIe siècle) présenté dans les collections permanentes du Musée de Cluny récemment rénové, décembre 2023.

[lifesteal-headcanons]

i see a lot of people compare spoke to a dog or a puppy because he’s loud but instead i propose to you all today: orange cat.

parrot places a glass of water on the table while side-eyeing spoke because he KNOWS that motherfucker is gonna push it off. just to be a bitch. and he did. now theres water all over the floor and spoke is staring at parrot with his weird ass white eyes. parrot yet again wishes to ban him.

-emethyst

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[mellohiizz]

youre so right he is like a little bug. i want to know how he works but i also already feel like i know the basics of it, just not really how to put it into words.

to me his motivations seem very reactive. someone does something to him, he goes after them. i find it especially interesting that despite being incredibly vengeful for so long as soon as zam apologized he was like “ok we’re even now”

if i remember correctly, im pretty sure he was also the one who usually tried to initiate allyship with zam during the greatest prison video and give zam chances to join them or escape with them. im only like halfway through rewatching it rn though so dont hold me to that too strictly

i feel like he often gets misunderstood and made to be a villain when he’s mostly just morally gray and doesnt take peoples shit. but maybe im just biased bc he’s my favorite and i like him a lot

i cant defend him from the kidnapping allegations though he was kinda wrong for that ngl /j

-emethyst (same anon as before, im just tagging myself now bc i yapped too much)

he is a little bug!!! also you are so right, his motivations are so interesting to me because they seem all over the place?? like taking mutiny duo, wemmbu called zam erratic in the prison video, i'm pretty sure? but to me, wemmbu is also erratic, maybe even as erratic as zam. what differences them is that zam is erratic in a way that he overthinks things, and quickly makes decisions based on his own expectations. like the way he immediately tried to attack and kill wemmbu when they got stuck in the prison because he still expected wemmbu to kill him first despite wemmbu trying to ONCE AGAIN initiate allyship with him, despite everything that happened between them before. while wemmbu is erratic in a more calculated way if that makes sense?? he reacts in the moment, to exactly what's happening. someone does something to him, and he immediately makes a decision to act out back. he kind of just does what he wants. i feel like he also kind of contradicts himself in some ways? like how he still helped parrot when the latter was being hunted by clown, despite literally saying himself that he's on zam's side?? (he called zam his boy, or something like that???) and even after zam betrays him and destroys his civilization, insulting him and calling him pathetic, wemmbu still tries to get himself on the same side as zam? they're both freaks, someone please get them a marriage counseling or something. they lack communication LARGELY.

[browzerhistory]

Just remembered I have some rock of my own so I decided to show you! I've had these for a long time so I can't quite remember what they are tho

Left: sulphur crystal thing I grew from a kit when I was like 12 I think

Middle: probably a rough emethyst? It's purple

Right pretty sure this is a rough jade

Srry the lighting is bad lmao

OOOOO YAY ROCKS IMAGE FOR ME :3

i can't tell you about the sulphur since idk much about the kind of rocks you can grow (besides rock candy. which definitely counts), but as for the other two, i've got a couple fun facts!

amethyst is a variety of quartz and so is super duper common. in my state, it's pretty easy to find quartz geodes the size of your hand if you know where to look. it's really pretty polished and rough, and has a couple of really nice subtypes, my favorite of which is chevron amethyst, so called because of its stripey pattern:

amethyst, when heated enough, turns orange and can be sold as citrine, which is another type of quartz that's a lot rarer. if you ever find a piece of quartz labeled as citrine with a lot of inclusions or cracks, odds are that's heat-treated amethyst.

as for jade, there are a lot (and i mean a Lot) of stones out there that get labeled as jade or some variety of jade so the seller can raise the price. real jade is fairly rare and usually expensive. green aventurine is a lot cheaper and easy to pass off as jade, so odds are if you've got 'jade' it's probably aventurine, though it could also be another type of stone, dyed, or even just cleverly cut glass.

despite popular portrayal, jade can actually come in a lot of different colors, in one of two varieties: nephrite and jadeite. most samples are green, but other common colors include white (sometimes called mutton fat jade) and yellow.

(tumbled aventurine (left) vs raw jade (right); the similarities are pretty clear!)

ty for the rocks image and the chance to infodump :3

[mai-chan12]

Cinnabar ability poison mercury part 2

She's so adorable and badass ngl

[purplepoemcraft]

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[ch4rryc0smos]

─ arc i .ᐟ

❝ only hours to make up. ❞

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[unstableverse-headcanons]

can we as a community please make a duo name for egg and wemmbu. ive been trying to think of some but im not very good with unique duo names. also if you havent seen it yet everyone should definitely watch the new UU wemmbu video it was so good i love wemmbu and egg

moleduo? cause they keep joking about mole civilization? that isnt a very appealing duo name though.

civil duo? cause they keep joking about civilizations in general?

watcherdevil? since egg has the big eye (watcher) and wemmbu has horns (devil) ((he used to have a tail too))

purpleduo because they both have purple /j

lockduo because they never shut up about locking in? kinda a dumb name though

traumafromzamempire duo?

i dont want to say “egg and wemmbu” each time i wanna talk about how much i like them together, bc the duo names are fun, but its hard to find a good one. im not great with naming things. if anyone has any suggestions please hand them over 🙏

it isn’t necessary ofc but im jealous of all the other duo fans who have awesome duo names sooo

-emethyst

Ough, you're so right! I like watcherdevil, since it sounds very unique! I wonder what other people think!

[ultepgames]

Regarder le trailer : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4zpP7Bjj0FA

Voici enfin la première partie de Rêves, Lettres et Ciel !

"Alors que Hélio était parti livrer une lettre, il va se retrouver mêlé à une affaire de disparition qui l'entraînera bien plus loin que prévu..."

-Un jeu rpg maker avec des animations, du doublage, de nombreuses illustrations et des guests artistes pour chaque portrait de personnage ! (Velkia, Emethyste, Ayuumiko, BakaNetsu,...)

-Environ deux heures de jeu, la suite est encore en cours de production.

Télécharger le jeu

[lifesteal-headcanons]

clownzy with spoke as their adopted child /hj

it would be kinda funny. spoke very likely could be the youngest on the server and would fit. branzy isnt as pvp skilled, but likes chaos and elaborate traps. clown isnt as outwardly chaotic and is best at pvp. spoke is kinda a mix of both skillsets, being decent at both trapping and pvp. he would probably have fun making traps like branzy’s, ones where he can torment his friends in a fun way

branzy and spoke are both audhd while clown is autistic, so they all understand eachother to an extent. spoke and clown have a longer history since they knew eachother before joining lifesteal.

branzy teaches spoke more complex redstone engineering and they take breaks to mess with people when either of them needs one. he’s training spoke to be his successor in making deadly carnival games once he’s gone /j

-emethyst

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[emethyste34]

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[mai-chan12]

My most favourite moment when Cinnabar run away from Phos its so adorable🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

[abgemsjaipur]

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