#…who hurts me /affectionately

[shima-draws]

My brain: Haha yeah I dunno if I’ll ever get into One Piece I mean it’s so long and such a huge dedication timewise—

Me, already 13 episodes in: Um. Well,

[vaguely-concerned]

Thinking about the symbolic weight of smoking in the TLT universe that comes to the fore in The Unwanted Guest -- the way it moves through from person to person: Pyrrha smoked, and Augustine wanted to impress her in all her stone cold fox MILF James Bond glory (and tbf who wouldn't) so he started too. and even though as far as he knows she's been gone for a myriad and is never coming back, he keeps the habit. Ianthe sees something in the hollowed-out Faberge eggshell of Augustine that resonates with her, all that gilded eloquent emptiness and disdain through the ages, so she picked it up from him to try to emulate it. She picked it up so hard that Palamedes -- the exact spiritual antithesis of the 'smoking! on a space station! what a powermove' ennui Ianthe so admired -- spontaneously unnerded enough to even known how to, simply from a sort of contact contamination of the soul.

G1deon and Augustine sharing a jittery smoke after their near-Harrow experience during soup night, and it's the closest thing to any real sense of brotherhood that remains between them. Pyrrha going ten thousand years dying both literally and for a smoke (and then Camilla sold her fucking cigarettes (for a third of what they were worth, probably Pyrrha's own good, and also more importantly grocery money). what an entirely haunted time to be alive etc.). Augustine and Mercy trading a cigarette back and forth in the middle of their collusion over the love and murder of god.

An act of small and measured self-destruction in the name of something a little bit like connection when you're stuck somewhere in yourself where love itself dares not or cannot tread (ritualized, transmissible)..........

[marsvillee]

why. why did i wake up to being hurt by my tumblr mom.

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Pairing: San x fem!reader Genre: angst, military au, parent au Rating: PG 13 Summary: If only he knew how much you loved him. Warnings: character death (before the written story), implications of war, grief Word Count: 791 Note: So…… here we are…. based off this ask that @sanjoongie sent me </3

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[avenin7]

Pinesong wip

[winepresswrath]

I think I would need to reread the first book to really commit to this opinion but imo some of the horror of book!claudia is that she really is a terribly inhuman monster. she was a vampire child, so she never learned to be human. she was a vampire child so she'll never grow up and fulfill that potential. companionship is a necessity for her because she can't look after herself and that makes her bitter and disdainful of people who want love for its own sake, especially in the context of Louis and Lestat, who damned her to her current state to fulfill their own emotional needs. it's a stark contrast to show Claudia, who yes, is a vicious mass murdering vampire and has fun with it, but is otherwise a lonely woman who craves companionship and understanding because she's a person. Her beef with Louis is still about his failure to prioritize her and his assorted bad idea relationship choices but the undertones are so different and I really feel like the tragedy is that he didn't put her first and not that he could never have made her happy no matter what he chose.

[shitposting-account]

i love to think that in the hell that the deads are in rn (probably except arei but shes not escaping hell lets be real) they have to suffer their deaths over and over again like in witchs heart, kind of punishment for their sins

tw for deaths and descriptions of dying and slight gore, also cw for spoilers

how arei will be dragged over and over again with a rope, feeling the suffocation and pain in her neck

how ace will be suffering from a heart attack, how his chest will hurt and he will have a hard time to breath and breath

or how min will suffer through dismemberment of her body, the pain burning through her lost limbs

and how xander with electrocution, but since i love suffering i will also add the throat cut part

the worst part of these punishment is that theyd be alive to revive it again, they wont die, theyd be conscious to keep feeling the pain

the question now is, do they think that they deserve it? or fight to keep living even if theyre dead?

i realized i sound like veronika ok bye

[fragglerockopinions]

white man experiences racism for the first time. sad!

[theres-whump-in-that-nebula]

Just finished Reservoir Dogs, and I—

what— what… was that? [sigh] a chain of very intelligent decisions not influenced by emotion [c o U gh] deep, deep love at all oh god

I don’t even like crime moves and keep watching crime movies for the whump thinking the next one will be different— none of them ever are. They’re very well-done but awful at the same time, you know? I like grimdark but not this specific brand of realistic fiction grimdark. It’s not even cathartic (to me). No, it’s seven gigantic shots of depresso espresso injected into the bone marrow and idk how to feel about it, but one thing is for certain:

I am living for the White-Orange bromance… it was nice while it lasted djdjdjdnjdkdkdjdmsmmsls

[avionvadion]

For someone who’s writing a fic centered around Sesshomaru x OC I sure do like to put Inuyasha under a microscope to prod at his brain to figure out what’s going on in there.

(Anyways, here’s my favorite paragraph from Inuyasha’s POV from the most recent chapter.)

"He knew what it was like to lose a loved one. He knew what it was like to lose someone he thought he could trust. He knew what it was like to love and not trust, and to have that love and distrust thrown back in his face. He knew what it was like to love and lose, because he had done it several times before, and each time was more painful than the last. His entire childhood was spent running and hiding in fear, trying desperately to stay alive, because all he had known had left him and the world was intent on getting rid of him too."

(Also an excerpt from Sango’s POV because I love her and there’s something very important near the end of it.)

Lifting her gaze, Sango turned to stare at Inuyasha again- the boy chancing a glance at her out of the corner of his eye, over his shoulders. To the demon slayer, who had been informed how badly Sesshōmaru had treated him in the past, and had seen them fight at least once, Inuyasha looked like a frightened dog.

He was afraid.

Not for Irene, who- deep down- he knew was alive, but of the idea that Sesshōmaru had somehow changed. The person he despised more than anything, perhaps even more than Naraku himself.

Sango remembered all too clearly the way Inuyasha had lashed out at Irene before when she said she didn’t hate Sesshōmaru. When she said she had actually felt safe with him. The idea that Sesshōmaru could have had a change of heart, and was no longer the ruthless demon Inuyasha grew up with- grew up avoiding, grew up trying to survive against- was… terrifying to him. It was like the world he thought he understood was coming crashing down around him.

Because if Sesshōmaru’s heart actually changed for the better, if he was actually going out of his way to save Irene- Inuyasha’s friend- then that meant Inuyasha would have to feel gratitude towards him. One of his best friends would be alive because of the half-brother that had so-often wanted him dead.

But… that doesn’t erase the past.

Sango wonders if Inuyasha realizes that. If he knows that, just because Sesshōmaru has the capacity to care now and even cares about one of their friends, it doesn’t mean the scars of the past will vanish. Inuyasha is still allowed to hate him. He’s allowed to hold a grudge.

Sesshōmaru had been awful to him.

Just because there will be gratitude to the demon lord for saving Irene, that doesn’t mean Inuyasha has to forgive him.

“Inuyasha…” The bloodied mask felt heavy in Sango’s hand, but she didn’t set it down. Her features shifted into something gentler, yet still so very sad. “It’s okay.”

The half-demon said nothing.

“It’s okay to hate Sesshōmaru.”

His feelings are completely valid on this matter. Forgiveness is a gift, not an obligation, and Inuyasha does not have to give it if he does not choose so.

[unknownarmageddon]

(natural disasters)

killer would look cross in the eyes and ask him, why not stay bitter and hateful and violent all the time?

and cross tells him “im tired of being angry all the time”

and killer tells him “i’m not”

“you just like being able to piss me off”

“i like your fire”

“and if it burns me? or even you?”

“thats why i like it”

“you’re a dick, and you’re a freak.”

“i just dont want you to get boring”

“i hate you”

“oh, i know. thats one of the things i like most about you. you break everything you touch.”

“what?”

“i want you to touch me.”

“…you’re disgusting.”

“not like that, no, i don’t think you’re capable of that, i dont believe you could ever be vulnerable like that. i want you to try to kill me. break me like you break everything else.”

“you want me to hurt you”

“i want you to try.”

-storytime anon

GODDD this is insane. weeping wailing sobbing

[riinzler]

penny for your thoughts?

similar to the post i made abt dyson there are moments between rinzler and clu that’s are also reminiscent of interactions they’d have before everything went to shit, w the two of em drinking while clu usually talks abt either happier memories or of how things ‘could have been’ had tron/rinzler decided to join him voluntarily. it’s……not rlly a fun time for rinzler as he spends the entire interaction worried abt misstepping and ruining clu’s mood all while being more or less forced to deal w feelings of inadequacy as rinzler believes that clu only settled for him because he couldn’t have tron, something clu does nothing to disprove. which tbf it isn’t entirely inaccurate but rinzler is missing the most important context being yk. that he is tron lol

it’s also one of the few times clu is anything close to being affectionate towards rinzler without it being as weaponized/withheld as it usually is, which doesn’t help with rinzler’s already negative relationship with touch as he feels he can’t rlly enjoy it b/c he’s too on edge, expecting there to be a catch or for the other shoe to fall.

[iammissingautumn]

dude i wish i just met aros more

[pyrriax]

ANYWHO goodnight tumblr i'll be back on the art grind tomorrow i think 🙏

[midnightwind]

I feel like I'm 10 seconds and one bad day of insomnia from shot gunning every single Origin run of BG3 just to write down all the pet names the characters use for each other so I can stop losing my mind while writing

[termagax]

for all his misery and mopey nature i do think he likes and prefers being roadhog and wouldnt go back for anything. i think "feeling like mako" means feeling small and ashamed and weak in his mind and he hates it.

[empress-hancock]

I think being OSA would b much easier if more of these kind fictional men were real and more of these real men were not