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〝 woahhh hobie - you never told me that hologram hourglass was still together in your universe ?! this is like < 1, 2, 3 > - 4 ! more albums than they ever released back home 〞a technicolor array of vinyl art laid out before gwen - igniting an excitable glimmer in her eye that could be interpreted as a signal that hobie might as well start buying tickets now ⸺ because that's what they were seeing this saturday.

〝 aw wait .. man its in the light rock section ?! don't tell me ⸺ 〞multiverse. ruins. everything.

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⸺ a stream of hot plasma whizzed past gwen; intercepting with a wall nearby their target. ah, lasers. not good. usually whoever was on the other side of them was aiming for gwen. usually, that 'whoever' was frank castle. please don't be frank castle.

〝 are you kidding me dude ? 〞worse than frank castle. much worse. 〝 okay not only did you almost turn me into gwen-goo 〞wow, there's gotta have a better quip than that. 〝 -- but don't you have a gift card to go spend at the dollar dog ? 〞as if taking STEALING first place at the battle of the bands wasn't enough for this leather-clad cut-in. now he had to come make gwen's problem's his too.

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❛ you know, it's okay to be scared. the important thing is to talk about our fears, because if we don't, they throw us out of balance. i'm always here for you, if you want to talk. ❜

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taken aback initially; as she was not so accustomed to speaking to other spiders ( — or other people in general ) about her feelings. the initial response was to deflect or recoil. of course she was scared ( who wouldn't be ? ) but projecting that felt like putting a target on her back more than anything. admitting to any ( by her own judgement ) fault felt like jeopardizing one's place in the hierarchy. nevertheless, that wasn't something she felt necessary to express. yet — at least. instead, a brief sigh and a friendly expression.

〝 i uh — appreciate it ben, seriously. 〞she was being genuine. transparent. no. but genuine, yes. 〝 i'll keep that mind; can safely say i'd rather talk to you about it than spider-therapist... 〞tone was half-joking. an attempt to lighten the mood but also a somewhat true confession. something about spider-therapist never sat well with her.

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@carnivorousfatality left a message ! " i hate being in other peoples' debts. "

━ each syllable made their skin crawl. whatever this thing was it was settinmg off all kinds of internal alarm-bells. beyond the usual spidey-sense precognitive warnings, it seemed like gwen's symbiote was recoiling. disgust, fear, warning.

〝 yeah well uh you could pay it off real quick by leaving me alone ? 〞the debt in question ━ they weren't full sure on. perhaps whatever malfunction had just occurred with her ticket to the multiverse had saved this stranger. or maybe it knew something they didn't. whatever the case sticking around to find out wasn't exactly plan a. or b ━ or z.

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〝 well for example - last month i met a version of myself that was an interdimensional detective who told me she created a time loop based on something i hadn't even done yet. and that has probably been the most normal thing to happen to me all year. 〞

❛ How fortunate, seems you don't fall victim to the monotonous side of things then. Tell me, what makes each day so different? ❜

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" you doing alright there, ghost ? " he's starting to get a crick in his back from using his tail to keep her from falling. ( all dramatics - he's doing it because it's fun. )

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QUEUE audible sigh.〝 yeah just ━ hanging in there 〞dangling from a spidey-appendage wasn't really high on the docket of " things gwen stacy want's to do today." usually when there was dangling going on, she was the one doing it. the dangler, not the danglee ( phrasing ━ gwen )

she'd look up at her impromptu partner for today, attempting to get a good look at him from beyond the decorative eaves of the building. 〝 you can let me go now I'll just - y'know spider-person myself back up 〞she'd charade the action of webshooting with her hands, replete with audible and accurate < thwip thwip > sound effects.

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━ don't say it gwen. don't say it gwen. 〝 just hanging around. 〞ugh. had to do it. the inverted spider-woman would flip herself right-round, gracefully lower herself down from a web attached to the structural beam overhead, and shoot a dumb grin at peni; evidenced only by the wrinkles formed along the surface of her mask.

〝 hate to drop in unannounced but i think the bodega bandit somehow ( ? ) ended up here. i don't know if you have bodegas here, so maybe the problem will sort itself out ━ but it wouldn't have been very 'interdimensional web-warrior' of me to not check it out. 〞

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❛   perhaps this very holding back is the one suffering you could avoid.  ❜  

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sure. technically she could leave it all behind. Jump to any which universe, make any such life for herself with whoever she wanted. to take the arachnid-shaped titanium device in her hand and make like kierkegaard and leap into a perfect reality. most, probably would. and technically she still could.

she could leap into a world where all her wrongs were righted. she could turn back the clock to a time when peter was alive and harvey was still around. back to a time when the most perilous challenge they faced was making an acrobatic skill check in their d&d campaign. no masks, no codenames, no running. she could be gwen stacy again.

but she couldn’t && wouldn't. it would be simulacrum. those lives weren’t hers to live, not her choices to make - not her worlds. she wouldn’t paste images of other gwen’s lives over the scars of her own. all her suffering & struggle had amounted to something - worked towards some goal. though ambiguous ( lofty ideals such as duty, justice, and simply doing the right thing ). she couldn’t just walk away from it all. not when she was needed, not when she was relied upon. not after all she had done, all she had caused. no more running, no more masks. it was time for gwen stacy to live, for once. and live with all that life includes - suffering & bliss. 

〝  you’re right. i used to wish i could just run away from all the bad. leave everything behind and just be “normal” again - just be gwen again. but i realized there was a place for me, and people that root for me — people that rely on me. and maybe i’m not the best at it, but i couldn’t walk away without knowing i had the power to do something and just gave up.〞

she’d ponder a moment, feeling a strange bit of relief that she was able to air that resolution out without feeling any sort of fear or regret. normally, she’d’ve kept that bottled up but after the past month, she’d been through she felt someone needed to hear it. or at least, humor it

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━ caution ; as they approached, fists clenched but their posture shifted off-center. poised to pounce but obviously taken aback after making an about-turn to face the speaker. 〝 miles ━〞yes, but no. her intuition was telling gwen that something was not quite right. 〝 who ━ what happened ? where's miles ? 〞

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"so you're the girl that he was talking about, huh?" hands were crossed against his chest, eyes getting a good look at her to see if she was going to be a threat or not.

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〝 your powers ? 〞they joked - a slight deflection. gwen knew what peter meant, it was weird being around him like this. weird, but comforting. after all they'd both witnessed in their own worlds. all they've lost. she knew he wasn't exactly the peter she knew ⸺ not in the same way. her peter was gone. but she couldn't help but feel an obligation to watch out for him. there was comfort - relief even - in knowing there were other realities - other peters that had a chance at life. the good thing about spider-sense ( or just empathy ) is gwen didn't feel there was any need to put any of that into words. she was sure peter felt it too.

that's why she couldn't fault him for what she might normally consider being overprotective. besides, talking to a friend who gets it ( not just the spider thing, but the symbiote, the multiverse - the whole combo meal of issues ) was a welcome change.

〝 oh these ? janet van dyne - reed richards deserves some credit for the maintenance though. 〞they'd smirk. 〝 don't tell me, that's not how it happened in your universe is it ? 〞

"Yeah, well, in my experience symbiotes tend to be... Very particular. I figured it out later but a friend of mine pretty much turned that symbiote into a better person- Creature? I'm just gonna call it him." Peter rubbed his temples at that, really, symbiote talk often gave him headaches and the less he said about time travel, the better. "Take it from me, symbiotes feed off their host's negative emotions and amplify them. So y'know, don't let your temper get the worst of you."

If he could help Gwen Stacy, no matter which version of her, well, he could die happy. "You know, it's still kinda weird seeing you running, or well, swinging around with my powers... But I'm glad it's you. If anyone deserves them, it's you, Gwen." He couldn't help himself. He was just glad a version of his Gwendy was alive and could help people. He wouldn't ask about her Peter, he didn't need his Spider-Sense to know that could be a sore spot.

"By the way, who did your web-shooters? I've never seen you run out of web-fluid and the scientist in me is geeking out right now."

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〝 oh that ? - handwash. wet microfiber cloth — let dry for two hours. reapply water as needed. 〞yeah, honestly she should start handing out business cards with those instructions. it easily made the list of top three spidey-questions — right below ' can you put me down ?! ' and just above ' what's your favorite pizza topping ' ( most rescuees didn't ask more than two questions the third is what you'd call a statistical outlier — oh, and its pineapple )

〝 — and you're welcome ! name's gwen by the way. 〞a hand would reach out ( made sure to be devoid of web & webbing-adjacent filaments ) to shake. ever since ditching the whole dual-identity thing it'd been just a bit awkward saving people. she always felt the need to at least introduce herself now that she couldn't do the whole ' anonymous masked savior ' shtick anymore.

since he started wearing an armor like his father, there were few times that logan found himself in a dangerous situation where he needed to be saved. but that morning, he was just walking around the city like any other civilian when he was caught in the middle of a mess ( of course, because that was new york ), and before he could react, something pulled him out of danger. "holy shit thank you !" he says, to his savior. he cracked a smile and then glanced quickly at his jacket, which was full of webs. “uhm… this is going to come off, right ? it’s like…my favorite jacket.”

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━ her attention still focused on the fluorescent colored vinyl, inspecting it with the intensity of an archaeologist discovering a neolithic dig site. she'd contort the thin vinyl sleeve - reading the liner notes with a near academic interest. a subtle smile. though maybe different in tone the notes on the interior of the sleeve carried the same personal quirks she'd come to love the band for. a subtle comfort of consistency among a sea of infinite realities.

〝 oh man they rip ━ 〞she'd respond mater-of-factly. many memories had been made at the dingy venues they frequented in her reality. on earth-65 they never really made it big. overlooked by the more pop-sided rock bands. the critics placed it as bad timing. but gwen always thought they were right where they needed to be. the most memorable moments in life were always brief & fleeting. same could be said for bands.

〝 ━ super raw, genuine & topical. you would've loved them. they hit their stride when it mattered and fizzled out. seeing this makes me kind of glad they seized the moment and packed it up when they did. 〞she'd place the vinyl down. 〝 i'll have to get you some of their earlier stuff. i think my dad keeps a few records of theirs around. 〞

　　he looks at the array of vinyls arranged on the shelves, displayed over assorted zine spreads and newspaper pages. the covers are opalescent against the contrasting neon and monochrome colours of the wallpaper, sparkling under fluorescent lights when the light hits them just right. does gwen really like this stuff? he never took her to be into this sort of music. ❝ what, they disbanded in yours? ❞ he asks incredulously, crossing his arms, ❝ well, i'd consider that a better fate than what they ended up doing o'er here. a shame what happened to them-- think i liked their old music better. ❞

then he waits until she looks up and sees which section they're in. (ah, there we go. everything makes sense now.) he nods at the all-too-loud question, shrugging sympathetically as her world shatters into a tiny million pieces.

❝ their more recent stuff is rubbish, honestly. you're not missin' out. can't blame them for doin' what they're doin', though-- not with ozzy throwing a wobbly over anything that has real heart put into it. [but enough about that-- he can't help but be curious about the hologram hourglass in her world.] why, they make a different kind of music in your universe? ❞

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〝 yeah; well i did have a little help from past gwen ... who became a future gwen; oh and also a detective ⸺〞they stopped themselves, peter was already struggling to grasp their prologue best to leave the gwenception arc in the footnotes. actually, thinking about it, it really didn't make much sense to her either. shouldn't that time loop have had more consequences !?

〝 anyways it was a weird month ⸺ but i realized the symbiote was only spitting out what i was putting in. i fed it anger & fear and it latched onto that. since i figured that out, we've been cool. 〞just like a roommate. who knows all your thoughts. perfectly normal !

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"So... Let me get this straight-" Peter was the kind of person who processed stuff faster if he talked about it out loud. "In your Earth, you have a Harry Osborn who became the Green Goblin, right? But he also turned himself into the Lizard and that's how you got the black suit?" It was a very abridged version but it helped him organize his thoughts.

"Man, talk about weird differences. I also had a symbiote, though I had some... Differences of opinion with mine."

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〝 nice riddle, but i can pretty safely say none of my days are the same. 〞

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❛ Every day's the same, nothing's changed. Nothing lost nothing gained. ❜