#“youd be ok w me kissing boys?”“yeah id be ok with that”

[doubleslashkarma]

ZAM'S FUCKING THERAPY SESSION HELLO??? WHERE AM I. WHATS HAPPENING. WHY AM I IN A WATTPAD FANFIC GET ME OUT OF HERE

[imaginarybabies]

Tyson: well i know angie loves u

Tyson: didnt get a chance to talk to johnny about u but when i will im sure he'll say the same

Tyson: oh sasha

Tyson: i meant it when i said that all the way back in texas

Tyson: i just realized what happened that night in that guest room

Tyson: that’s why i said I love you

Tyson: that first time right in the middle of shit

Tyson: felt so awkward like why tf did i say that, i know we were high or whatever but i dont even do that then

Tyson: i don’t ever say shit like that when it’s just fuckin

Tyson: but it wasn’t just fuckin

Tyson: maybe in that moment i was remembering us in a past life

Tyson [deleted]: maybe i just knew deep down that i just met my future wife

Tyson: and i meant when i said youre my good luck charm too

Tyson: my guardian angel

Tyson: idk what id do if something ever happened to u

Tyson: i try not to think about it because i sure would wanna fucking die

Tyson: really don’t know how things got to be this way

Tyson: but there’s nothing in this world for me without you in it baby n i just need u to know that

Tyson: love you SO much

Tyson: more than any guy’s ever loved a girl

Tyson: i’m not good with poetic words thats just how i feel

Tyson: never even knew a love like that could exist

Tyson: which is what i try to remember when i think about the way u ended up where u are n get angry about that shit

Tyson: it’s not a perfect situation, ours but nothing in life ever is

Tyson: must’ve been yours in a past life or some shit cause this shit crazy

Tyson: when i’m with u the whole world makes s

Tyson: sense. u ARE my whole world

Tyson: and sometimes i worry u find someone at work u have that kind of connection with, cause i know u got regulars

Tyson: and i think about u leaving me for one of them

Tyson: or well once i did when i got real high lol

Tyson: and i thought id be so broken but you know what id be okay with it too if it means you’re happy

Tyson [deleted]: maybe i'd have to kill the fucker but oh well i dont care id go to jail

Tyson: all i want in life is to see you happy

Tyson: want a future with u in every sense of the word

Tyson: but only if you want that too

Tyson: i’m a lil crazy tonight don’t mind me

Tyson: and crazy horny but that’s besides the point lol

Tyson: just thinking of you gets me like that

Tyson: which is why i say you’re magical and powerful bc you are

Tyson: everyone i ever dated, had a few serous exes

Tyson: and each time with each one there was some compromises

Tyson: shit wasn’t perfect on either side but i just accepted that’s how love is

Tyson: taking the good parts of the person with the bad

Tyson: but now i feel like all that was bs because i’ve known you this long and on god you don’t have any bad sides

Tyson: you’re just this angel who came into my life and somehow wants to be with me and blessed me

Tyson: i’m the lucky one here

Tyson: u could find a better looking taller more impressive dude who probably makes more than me lol

Tyson: but i could never find another you

Tyson: ok that’s all i’m done@

Tyson: just wanted to get that off my chest

Tyson: you have my whole heart alexandra marie smith

Tyson: for as long as you want it

Sasha: tyson

Sasha: they drugged you good baby

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Sasha: I remember that

Sasha: your voice was all strained

Sasha: you were so cute

Sasha: and so good and sweet

Sasha: literally the sweetest boy

Sasha: if youd told me to die right then and there id have flatlined for you

Sasha: shit guess i really was yours from day 1 lol

Sasha: you kissed me when you did remember?

Sasha: or maybe i did could be either lol

Sasha: and i was done for

Sasha: omg baby

Sasha: nothings gonna happen to me

Sasha: but even if it did youd keep going and just do things twice because youd be living for both of us

Sasha: if you didnt youd have to take that up w me and both our dads

Sasha: but yeah lol like i said nothings gonna happen to me im not the one flying off of swings

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Sasha: ok i take it back sth could kill me i guess and its gonna be my tyson

Sasha: me neither baby

Sasha: i cant believe you came to me

Sasha: after everything it took to make it here

Sasha: you saved me

Sasha: idk what i was doing before you but it wasnt living

Sasha: you made me a person again

Sasha: remember when we first met

Sasha: you were so beautiful and so high and so goofy

Sasha: the love of my life was standing there throwing dumb lines at me and i didnt even know

Sasha: try them now see what happens lol

Sasha: but not if you have anywhere to be after

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Sasha: what

Sasha: you really think that

Sasha: youre really comparing yourself to these randos from my work

Sasha: listen i know how its gonna sound but id pick you over life tyson

Sasha: id pick you over anything and anyone

Sasha: theres nothing for me where youre not

Sasha: especially not at work

Sasha: *you* are my future baby for as long as youll have me in yours

Sasha: oh shit dont be horny on top of everything else 🥺

Sasha: i miss you so much

Sasha: please dont say that baby

Sasha: i put you through so much

Sasha: lol if you think you cant find another short blonde hoe

Sasha: its me who hit the jackpot tyson

Sasha: i wouldnt dream of wishing for anyone 1/10th as wonderful as you

Sasha: idk about money but theres noone out there as beautiful or as tall or as impressive as you

Sasha: but even if they were congrats to them

Sasha: i found my forever

Sasha: hes high as balls rn and on a mission to make me cry

Sasha: or walk to him lol

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Sasha: im keeping it forever then

Sasha: or until you take it back

Sasha: which hopefully comes after forever

Sasha: i love you

Sasha: thank you for existing