#“you wouldn’t survive an hour in the asylum they raised me”

[secretly-a-catamount]

The Crane Wives wrote all these songs about Annabel Blackthorn, they told me themselves

[josephinekhawaja]

everything she does after this point is valid, warranted, legitimate, justifiable

[ofstoriesandstardust]

living at home in your twenties again after being independent for a few years is brutal. what do you mean i have to cook dinner for people who won’t eat it, have my beverages taken, and live in a state of filth all while i cry in frustration in my (also not clean) shower

[amorcie]

I’ve been stuck here six hours that’s why I can’t shut up

[lilliancdoodles]

you wouldn’t survive an hour in the asylum where they raised me

[kadextra]

you wouldn’t survive an hour in the asylum where they raised me

[merrygoesaround]

THE POPPY WAR AS TAYLOR SWIFT LYRICS

rin-nezha: “cause i loved you, i swear i loved you. till my dying day. i didn’t have it in myself to go with grace, and you’re the hero flying around saving face. and if im dead to you why are you at the wake? cursing my name, wishing i stayed.” “and you can aim for my heart go for blood, but you would still miss me in your bones.” “YOU HAD TO KILL ME BUT IT KILLED YOU JUST THE SAME.”

my tears ricochet

rin-nezha: “i vowed not to fight anymore, if we survived the great war.” “it turned into something bigger. somewhere in the haze, got a sense i’ve been betrayed.”

the great war

rin-kitay: “if im on fire, you’ll be made of ashes too.”

my tears ricochet

rin-kitay(sinegard days): “but i can see us lost in the memory, august slipped away into a moment of time. cause it was never mine.” “back when i was living for the hope of it all, for the hopeee of it all.”

august

rin-kitay(sinegard days): “and i know it’s long gone and there was nothing else i could do.” “cause there we are again in the middle of the night. we’re dancing round’ the kitchen in the refrigerator lights. down the stairs, i was there. i remember it all too well.”

all too well

rin-venka: “cause all of my enemies started out friends. help me hold onto you.”

the archer

venka: “and they tell you that you’re lucky but you’re so confused, cause you don’t feel pretty. you just feel used.”

the lucky one

venka: “they told me all of my cages were mental, so i got wasted like all my potential. and my words shoot to kill when im mad. i have a lot of regrets about that.”

this is me trying

rin-jiang: “don’t call me kid, don’t call me baby. look at this idiotic fool that you made me. you’ve taught me a secret language i can’t speak with anyone else.”

illicit affairs

rin: “time wont fly it’s like im paralyzed by it. i’d like to be my old self again but im still trying to find it.”

all too well

rin: “please, i’ve been on my knees, change the prophecy.”

the prophecy

rin: “whose afraid of little old me? i was tame, i was gentle, til the circus life made me mean. don’t you worry folks, we took out all her teeth.”

whose afraid of little old me

altan: “you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me.”

whose afraid of little old me

rin-kesegi: “and though i can’t recall your face, i’ve still got love for you.”

seven

rin-altan: “and isn’t it just so pretty to think, all along there was some invisible string… tying you to me.”

invisible string

rin,kitay,nezha-the trifecta: “i think i’ve seen this film before, and i didn’t like the ending.”

exile

[wackytheorist]

you wouldn’t survive an hour in the asylum where they raised me

[graaaaaayy]

You wouldn’t last an hour in the

✨asylum✨ where they raised me

in honor of IB exam season. Good luck to everyone taking them I hope you survive, preferably with your sanity intact

[thelovelyfawnsworld]

I can’t help but think about Elain when I listen to Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me?

I can’t help but be reminded of the things she endured and the nasty things this fandom has said about her while I listen to this song. So here are some lyrics from the song that is just so Elain coded:

You don't get to tell me about sad… I'm always drunk on my own tears, isn't that what they all said?

Most people often disregard Elain’s trauma. I’ve read people defend Nesta’s nasty behavior towards other people, they always say that it was because of her trauma. But they would tear Elain to shreds because she spent months in her room, withering away after they had been turned into Faes. That she should’ve just told her sisters what she was seeing instead of babbling poetic nonsense to them and wasting away.

If you could understand Nesta’s response to trauma, why couldn’t you understand Elain? Nesta wasn’t the only one who went through tons of trauma. In fact, it is explicitly stated in the book that Elain was the one who had so much to lose. She was engaged to a human, she was supposed to marry and have a future with that man even if he was a fae-hating human. She wanted that future with him and was looking forward to it. But suddenly she’s kidnapped, dunked into a massive tub, turned into a fae after who knows what she experienced inside that tub, and then she suddenly kept seeing things she couldn’t comprehend.

Of course, Elain would grieve for her human life. She did not only grieve the death of her humanity but also the death of her future family that she was looking forward to create. She grieved silently and she was miserable.

The scandal was contained… At all costs, keep your good name. You don't get to tell me you feel bad.

Now, this might be a little bit of a head cannon. But in my mind the scandal in this line would be that fateful night with Azriel which Rhysand stopped when he caught them. It would have been a scandal, an issue if they were caught by Elain’s supposed mate. There would have been repercussions that may lead to another conflict or war. But thankfully, Rhysand had contained that scandal by ordering Azriel from ever pursuing whatever they had.

Now, Elain must keep her good name, be the good little girl she is, and play as a pawn in this little political chess game that Rhysand and the other high lords are playing. But in my head, they don’t get to tell Elain that they feel bad for her if they ever see her act negatively, or even act sad because of what happened between her and Azriel. They don’t get to tell her they feel bad when they had caused it. (I’m looking at you, Rhysand.)

You wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me

In this line, I am reminded of the people who always complain about Elain’s character, how boring she is because she’s not the typical strong warrior-like female protagonist like her sisters. But really, you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised her. You wouldn’t last an hour in Mama Archeron’s grooming. You wouldn’t survive being controlled all your life like Elain.

'Cause you lured me

This reminds me of that dream Feyre had in ACOWAR where Elain had been lured by this image of Graysen, only to be captured by Hybern. Yup, that’s the only thought I have here.

You caged me and then you called me crazy

“You caged me,” everyone caged Elain to be this sweet, soft, kind, and gentle woman. She was caged by the expectations of other people. She is expected to follow the image that was set upon her at a younger age. She was often stifled by the people around her.

And then, when she acted differently, when she started babbling nonsense and just staring with a glazed look, the same people thought she was going crazy.

I am what I am 'cause you trained me

Again, readers may find Elain boring and so bland. But she is this sweet, gentle, and soft lady because she was trained to be like this. She is like this because she was groomed. How would she break free from this mold if all her life, she’s been taught to be like this? If she was never given a chance?

I’m sorry that Elain was a victim of grooming, that she couldn’t fit the standard you created for a female protagonist. I’m sorry that she doesn’t fit the mold that you created for an exciting protagonist.

this is what happens when your two hyperfixation is taylor swift and elriel

[feminist-cult-following]

pretty little liars: summer school characters as taylor swift songs

imogen adams: you’re on your own, kid, who’s afraid of little old me?, I can do it with a broken heart

“I looked around in a blood soaked gown and I saw something they can’t take away”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“I wanna snarl and show you just how disturbed this has made me / you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“I cry a lot but I am so productive, it’s an art / you know you’re good when you can even do it with a broken heart”

tabby haworthe: the smallest man who ever lived, long story short, the manuscript

“I’ll forget you but I’ll never forgive the smallest man who ever lived”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“long story short it was bad time / long story short I survived”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“then the actors were hitting their marks / and the slow dance was alight with the sparks / and the tears fell in synchronicity with the score / and at last she knew what the agony had been for / the only thing that’s left is the manuscript”

noa olivar: …ready for it?, high infidelity, don’t blame me

“knew I was a robber first time that he saw me / stealing hearts and running off and never saying sorry”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“do you really wanna know where I was april 29th? / do I really have to tell you how she brought me back to life?”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“don’t blame me love made me crazy / if it doesn’t you ain’t doing it right”

faran bryant: mad woman, this is me trying, the man 

“what did you think I’d say to that? / does a scorpion sting when fighting back? / they strike to kill and you know I will”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere / fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“if I was man, then I’d be the man”

mouse honrada: a place in this world, I hate it here, snow on the beach

“but life goes on / oh, I’m just a girl / trying to find a place in this world”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“I’m lonely but I’m good / I’m bitter but I swear I’m fine / I’ll save all my romanticism for my inner life”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“and it’s like snow on the beach, weird but fucking beautiful”

kelly beasley: would’ve, could’ve, should’v, seven, guilty as sin?

“oh, you’re a crisis of my faith / would’ve, could’ve, should’ve / if I’d only played it safe”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“your dad is always mad and that must be why / and i think you should come live with me and we can be pirates / then you won’t have to cry / or hide in the closet”

✩₊˚.⋆☾⋆⁺₊✧

“what if I roll the stone away? / they’re gonna crucify me anyway”

[raisedbythetv89]

who’s afraid of little old me is speaking to the emotional experience of what it’s like to be the person villains always create who is destined to bring about their ultimate demise

Someone who didn’t used to be a threat becomes the greatest threat because of the chronic abuse they suffered at the hands of said villains they will ultimately destroy and defeat

It stunningly captures how painful the process is to become that person, how crazy and trapped you feel at times and how angry you are at the people who created this version of yourself that they hate and want killed

IF YOU HAD JUST LEFT ME ALONE THIS VERSION OF ME WOULD NEVER HAD EXISTED YOU FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT HOW DARE YOU HATE ME WHEN I AM WHAT I AM BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!

when people abuse and traumatize you and then get really angry and attack you even more when you show said signs of that trauma and abuse

cause you lured me

and you hurt me

and you taught me

you caged me

and then you called me crazy

I am what I am cause you trained me

and then people who aren’t abused at least in the ways you were and don’t actually know you see the powerful person you’ve become as apart of this horrible process and envy you

you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me

so then you have people hating you just because you managed to survive and build something stronger out of so much pain and suffering!!! Which makes you feel batshit fucking crazy because you’re like I didn’t choose this!!! I didn’t want this!! This just happened to me and I somehow survived!!!! How dare you act like you know anything about what it’s like to be me and have the AUDACITY to envy the extremely painful life I was forced to lead!?!?!?!?

[dearestgentlereaders]

I think the way some swifties are jumping down chappell’s throat for how she’s handling this situation but then go on to brag about taylor is honestly weird as fuck. it shows they didn’t really understand the crux of TTPD which is just how fucking horrible being famous is and how the industry is like a blood sucking leach draining you of your life force. the same people who quote ‘you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me’ yet jump straight to the offensive when someone is literally struggling surviving the asylum and trying to find a way to stand with two feet on the ground. it is spelt out by taylor how hard survival is and she had all these toxic coping mechanisms and how she bottled it all up and it made her manic. not everyone is going to respond the same way as her and you can’t put everyone’s coping mechanisms to the same standard as taylor’s. even taylor couldn’t live up to those standards which is what she talks about throughout the entirity of TTPD. so this vitriol being spewed at chappell, who is quite frankly new to being at the height of fame and clearly struggling to cope is crazy to me. we have literally seen it happen to taylor and I would never want to see it happen to anyone else. I am in no way denying how wrong it is to disappoint her fans by cancelling her shows so close but it is also not wrong of her to be unsure of how to deal with this amass of hate that is being targeted towards her. both things can be right at the same time.

[little-goose]

Truly, I think we forget how silly tumblr genuinely is.

The same people who will go “girl you’re born in Pennsylvania” over that “you wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum they raised me in” lyric

Will go on Twitter and post some wild surrealist comment about foxes. And when the twitter rage accounts show up, I’ll read some shit like “you’ll never survive on tumblr if you can’t handle this level of crazy posts,” totally unironically.

Babes, we are all unserious. Just own the fact that your unhinged commentary is made for a different audience than someone else’s. Why are you trying to be king of the nerds again?

[dearaugust13]

“You wouldn’t last an hour in the asylum where they raised me”

It’s interesting because it’s so easy to get wrapped up in the lives of the rich and famous. Sometimes we struggle to just survive. Sometimes the days are so endless. She’s a smart, pretty billionaire with everything. But that’s just the surface of her life. Would we really trade it all?

[girlgenius1111]

who’s afraid of little old me?

sensational. like i can’t even describe it. the way she goes from angry to angrier and her rage gets more resigned as the song goes on as she accepts that she can do literally anything and get villainized for it, so she might as well just do what she wants. even if offends everyone even more that she just doesn’t care anymore?

“you wouldn’t survive an hour in the asylum that raised me”

everyone who watches her every move, has something to say about everything she does, could not take the scrutiny she lives under for even a minute.

also. i can do it with a broken heart is a certified bop she has no business making that song so fucking catchy but i guess that’s the point??

devoting today to listen to the whole TTPD album (both sides) without interruption

anywayyysss what’s yall fav song and why?