#“ummmm it might never happen again” vibes?

[skylarbee]

miles about the possibility of tlsp3 coming out in 2024: "fat chance of that" "it's a while off that, if it happens you know, it's... yeah, unfortunately, but one day maybe"

massive thanks to @mileskanex for sharing this, full interview linked🥰

[euclydya]

Pls info dump about your system. I saw in your tag that you want to so consider this a free pass to do so I want to know all that ya want to share

HI!!!! SORRY YOUSENT THIS LIEK A WEEK AGO WE WERE WAITING 4 WHEN WE JAD ENOUGH ENERGY 2 INFODUMP JSISJDJFFNDJD OK OK UNDER THE CUT

WE ACTUALLY. ... DONT KNOW WEHRE 2 start Uhhhmmmm. hmmmm. OH MAYBE THE HEADSPACE!

ok SO the headspace changes DRASTICALLY like every few months or few weeks or so. Just a week ago it was a copy of the house we currently live in. We like,,, grew up in this house so it was Also our headspace for years as a kid and we had the vibe tht it was. The exact headspace frlm back then too bUT WE never did get to find out bc it changed AGAIN like a few days ago. smh. Now i think we're just above & outside of The Cave™™™™™ tht was discovered here earlier this year. WHICH IS REALLY FUCKING COOL! BECAUSE THAT MEANS:

The headspace survived the nuclear winter!!*

HOYL SHIT WE'RE IN THE MAIN HEADSPACE AGAIN LET'S GOOOOO <= has been stuck in Harry's headspace for the past half yearIEJFKDKFMC

[*Sometimes it just fucking gets Destroyed. Like... Semi permanently. As in, if it gets destroyed there is Very Little Chance we'll see that variation of our headspace AgainFHDJDKFKFJ and last we uhhjj Talked to anyone in the Main System, bc we are... TECHNICALLY A SUBSYSTEM! FJDJFJ, they were like Yeah no everything is fucking Destroyed <3. But that's not the case snymore ig???????]

SO w all this information actually if we rlly wanted we could probably make a decent map of the area. cuz if We jave this headspace back then we have Everythingggg it had in it back too & everything that it was connected to THAT'S NEAT WE MIGHT DO THAT!!

uhhjjj waht else. HMMM. i thuink our current front roster is neat TBH there's some guys active rn that we'd have never expected. like HI PHYS! WYD WHY R U HERE RN <3 QJAIWOSKSKDNCXN but it's fun !!!! i hope everyone innn our subsystem will fromt here at lEast once bc I Am Lov Collecting Informatión On Everyone <= Primarily fills out everyone's PK & Simply Plural descriptions. actually I think maybe everyone has fronted a sufficiently long enough time EXCEPT FOR HAND/EYE LIKE S I R GET YOUR ASS UP HERE TELL ME ABT YOURSELF BASTARD !! GJCJCKCKF all ik abt him is that He enjoys making Pokeblocks On Pokefarm. that is IT and that's NOT ENOUGH INFORMATION MY GUY but anyways.

i also think us Existing Here is so funny in itself like our asses rlly just got Possibly permanently isekai'd huh. like. like. Genuinely I don't know if our past mains r coming back at this point but that's FINE we already did the whole 96 stages of grief shit about it IF that be the case then SO be it Whatever there's pros to this life ig. like THIS body isn't on the verge of SUDDENLY DYING FOR NO REASON and also We have a cat. we have a cat!!!!! and a dog!!!!!! whaddahell!!!!!!!

there's lotsa fun shit here But there r also the Horrors. Like I PERSONALLY WOULD LOOVE TO EXIST with Out the Constant Paranoia And Delusions but IT *IS* PREFERABLE! OVER WHSTEVER THE FUCK WAS WRONG WITH HARRY <3 AJSJDJF

I will say tho. When we uhhhhhhh All popped in & all we Just assumed we'd be Gone & dormant MONTHS AGO but ummmm . well. apparently not! sO the things we wanted 2 Experience have a High probability Of Happening,! Like PT is excited for Halloween and UNLESS those pirate fucks completely take over the roster within the next like week [0f.md s2 on the 5th babey!!! holy shit!!] then it's. Probably gonna happwn!!! which is so cool we don't actually... hey did Halloween exist in (source game)

man and speaking of. Memories Of The Past as we call source memories. It's a collective sys-wide trait thing All our fictives from aNY source rlly enjoy piecing together what they remember from their canons & all It's like enrichment for us. BUT we've been kinda piecing together a rough timeline of when We all formed in our canon That's our biggest Thought Project™ rn. No estimated time 4 when it'll be Complete tho probs never tbh. and w that in mind u may or may not believe who harry's first sysmate was According 2 what we've put togetherJTJEDKFKDJS

ok that's liek 5 trillion words Whoops. we r so talkatives <3 I am going to stop there it's like 5 am JFJDDKCKF we gotta go back to bedddd -E-Chem

[nicegaai]

Ch 4:

“Since I made you wait a whole month, here's a long chapter. :)” UMMMM.. <333333 UM <3 (well I guess this explains how sloppy ch 2 felt. I was in a rush for some reason.)

HAHAHASHAFASA WHAT TH EUFKC.

I have less to say bc im getting caught up in the story . i can  hardly believe it. I might get thru this after all. Im gonna try and keep typing notes tho bc I AM going to reference these for the final few chaps 

Oh wow that was a very long serious attempt at exposition. Im proud of me for that. It didn’t turn out well written and I think its going nowhere but im also proud of Berber for trying. Ohhhh I wanna go in and edit this scene for better flow sooo bad. But I won’t. Moving on.

THE GASLIGHTING CAMPAIGN <3 YAYYY <333

kjlkJSLDGJSDLKGSLDG why am I like this. The whole Berwald thing is like. This is killing me. Why is it all happening back to back every single scene like this… once again every chapter is Too Much and like for what? What am I doing here. Hello

I FORGOT TO ADD THE FUKING EMOJIS TO THE TEXT CONVERSATION IT SAYS (emojis) THATS SOSOOSO GASDG ASODGIJ ASD GIA OSDOIGAIJSDL KGKA JSDKLGAKJSDGJL . Umm. Skull emoji. I should be making a second note for all the things I need to fix atp x_x

Ohhhhhghh Emil baby boy baby boy so silly I luv u 

ohhhHH another strange one-off stylistic choice …. I thought I edited out all the parenthesis’ed asides !!!! I kind of don’t like how that turned out. It weirds the pov. Note to self, fix that bit too.

I am not sure if I was going for a single POV or… what is happening here. I rly was like nahh im gonna do this based on vibes ^-^ and its driving me crazy to read now. i still don’t exactly know how writing the dif types of point of view work but I can tell something is off. echhhhh. Oh well, I’ll do better next time <3 

I HSOULD HAVE CUT THE SCENE THERE!!! Like 4 paragraphs earlier!! I DIDNT NEED TO DO ALL THAT its awkward  and clunkyyyyy booooooo

N?RICE INTERACTION BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK KISS HIM KISS HI M AIAIEIIEEEEEE E E EE EE E E EE. E EE *writhing darkly* *attacks regardless of target*

FUcking shit. Feeling rthings again. im going to jump into an active volcano to set my miserable spirit free. I promise there’s a punchline for all the underage discussion. I promise its going somewhere funny. I would never do something that isnt either for funny or sexy purposes. On my life bro I swear

Awhhgh another mistake uhghhhh UGHHH there should be italics there at minimum :-(

Oh my gd im getting stressed out reading B all stressed out. Why did I do this. In the original story idea, they all just had an orgy right there . There were no crazy dramatics. TBH I just chickened out and didn’t want to write sex. Thats the honest truth I just didn’t want to write sex and accidentally drug the story out for twice as long as I meant to.  And now its stuck like this. Can you believe? 

Heh. Ice mention

You know, I didn’t consider that the thing breaking would make a shit ton of noise. Ummmmmm. Emil has AirPods in he can’t hear anything <3

LMAO. KEK EVEN. This was a good chapter actually despite it all

im attempting my fic reread today. im announcing this bc i will be liveblogging to keep my morale up, NOT THAT anyone cares but i personally need this, like ill only commit to do the thing if theres an imaginary audience holding me accountable. & i like to have fun :3

anyway. captains log, its a beautiful sunny july weekend. i just finished my morning coffee, and, i am dreading this so much. i dont like rereading my own writing but i shall get over it. ok here we go.

Þetta Reddast vagueblogged directors commentary edition

Ch 1:

*opens fic and starts convulsing immediately* god i wish i smoked weed rn. i cannot chill out ever for the life of me

My Mission For Today Is: to remember what plot threads I’ve left hanging so I can resolve this story properly. And also try n remember where the flow is going. I have the end plotted out, I just am a little lost … it’s been a while :-(

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Abrupt beginning!!!! I’m not mad because I have . I HAD. Almost no writing experience when I started this. it isn’t ideal but I refuse to be one of those fanfic writers that starts rewriting early chapters without finishing the last ones. Ive never seen one of those types actually finish a longfic. …I’d already rather yap than actually read LMAO AHH

Oh this is worse than I remember. thats cool that s great ok alright *coughs up blood*

"20 somethings" WOW I really did not know where I was going with this when I started huh

LKJSDLKSJDLGKGDJSLDGJK ??? Who authorized this. Who let me cook. What the hell

I could write this better now. I could edit this into something beautiful. <- devil on my shoulder

FORGOT I WAS MAKING RICE BRB

"generously offered nothing to the exchange." wait STOPPPP. I’m so funny

GRAMMAR ERROR DETECTED why is there two periods. I’ll be coming back to fix that …………………. :-(((

Fuck. This is a lot. Marge Simpson Hiding Her Face dot Png

Oh this is stupid this is gayyy this is fukcinnn . Who fucking did t his. What was wrong with me,. This is so good actually. what was i ONNNN. 

Im gonna throw up and I don’t know if thats like/. A complimentary thing or if im just cringing that hard . Im feeling emotions. I love my OTPs..OT3~5? I love them so so much

Ok as much as im like “eww bad writing” this is .. dare I say, rly good in places. Not to suck my own dick but maybe all hope isnt lost and imposter syndrome is an illusion

Grammar mistake #2. Goddddddd. they should ban me from the archive for this

EMILLLLL EMIL EMIL EMIL HIIIIII BABYYYY EMILLL I LOVE UUUU AWWHUUGHH everyone clap for my bewoved baby bruvver right FUCKING now

Urghhh gritting my teeth… Im fully expecting the flow of events to start not making any gd sense. There’s no way this came together the way I hoped in my head and .... For real I was never able to read this all the way thru. this is my first time, lol. and it was all disjointed on the authorial end to say the least. Im scared T-T

Jlxjvklsdkjfsjlkdkjlsjklkljzsdkjlgaskljdgjklasljkgdljkasljkdgjklasjlkdgljkaskljdgjakl?????????? 

Im not liking the ratio of dialogue to whatever the other stuff is. scene-setting I guess. prose maybe. i could have dragged this out way longer... By which I mean made it a more satisfying read. But WHATEVER !!!! 

TIMO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TIMOOOOOOOOOO NUMERO UNOOOO DO MUNDOOOOOO I really need to utilize him more. As soon as I finish this fic I need to write a Timo POV spinoff where he gets cancelled on furry twitter for proshipping in real life

Hmmmm chapter ending didn’t hit as hard in practice as it did in drafts. Oh well. God damn that was a lot to happen in one chapter LMAOO???

OH SHIT MY RICE IS STILL COOKING —— 

[kinetic-elaboration]

July 28: 3x01 Spock’s Brain

Today’s ep was the infamous Spock’s Brain. I’d never seen it before and always insisted I didn’t want to but...this is a complete rewatch so I guess I kinda had to.

As predicted, it was bad. Utter nonsense for a premise and the actual execution shot through with sexism. There were some aspects that I did like but most of them have been done better by other eps--and in any case were not worth the ridiculous basis of the ep itself. Honestly, if I were watching all this live, and I waited months for this, I might have wondered if the show weren’t better off cancelled.

But I would have been wrong because the next ep is The Enterprise Incident so! Sometimes you just need to be patient.

This episode is starting out so strangely. Why is the bridge being shot from all these weird angles? And why do the colors seem...duller?

They really can spy on these other ships, huh?

“My name is Captain James Kirk.” Not breaking out the middle initial today, I see.

Chapel going for the drama as she falls down.

Kirk too, sprawled over his chair. (Makes me think of “The chair is, in fact, not bolted to the ground.”)

This honestly reads like a bad parody of Star Trek.

Ridiculous lines include: “His brain is gone.” “His incredible Vulcan physique.” “In search of his brain.” “Where are you going to look for his brain?” “It was taken out, it can be put back in.”

“Spock’s body is more dependent on his brain” than a human’s. Ummmm I feel like there’s something suspicious in there.

The only good thing about this ep is Kirk’s devotion to Spock.

Seriously why does the bridge look so different? Filming it from a different location changes everything.

When Kirk paces in front of the view screen, it really shows off how small it is.

“The spaceship that has Spock’s brain.”

I like these schematics and Chekov’s little presentation here. Also Kirk can automatically put years to all the planet evolution codes or whatever--like on the one hand, of course he can, that’s his job, but on another... what a nerd.

Honestly these people--obviously, they are underground on the ice planet. Obviously!!! I actually do appreciate this scene in general, with the bridge crew working out a problem on the bridge, which actually almost never happens--it’s definitely the best scene of the ep--but still. It’s obviously the ice planet.

Also, I like that Uhura gets to contribute. She thinks outside of the box, asks the good questions. Don’t just look at the outside evolution of the planet--ask about what the brain could be used for, and where it might be.

“Get there, find the brain.”

Oh no, he accidentally called Scotty Spock :(

“High of 40. Livable.” I realize this is a Russian joke but that’s really not that bad lol. Definitely not an ice age anymore.

“They give pain and delight.” So they’re dominatrixes?

“You are small.” Well no need to be mean about it.

Don’t you have a companion?? Love that that’s one of their synonyms for “spouse” or “partner.”

The alien men look like they’re wearing short jean skirts.

“A dead and buried city on a planet in a glacial age.” That’s a good idea. Could have done something better with that.

Chekov’s still stuck on the no women thing, I think.

Why did they dress Spock in a leftover outfit from This Side of Paradise?

McCoy and his stimulants again, waking up the alien lady after they stunned her. Multi-purpose.

“I know nothing about a brain.” Clearly.

So all the women live below ground, and all the men live above...

Ah-ha, they have found Spock’s voice.

“There is a definite pleasurable experience connected with the hearing of your voice.” This ep is almost worth it for that line.

Also Kirk’s face when he hears Spock’s voice.

I like that Spock is still funny. Honestly he’s probably funnier disembodied. This is a very humorous Spock characterization. “That is a practical idea. It seems unlikely that I shall be able to get to you.”

WHAT IS BRAIN.

They’re being quite sexist, aren’t they? “No engineering geniuses here. Only women. None of these women could ever have done surgery on Spock’s brain.” Like I know it’s that they’re obviously (or supposedly obviously) naive and childlike but like combining that with the sex segregated society and the actual phrasing of these lines (WOMEN?? Engineers?? Doctors??) plus Kirk assuming the Controller is a man (who says?) all creates this like definite sexist vibe while watching. Ugh make it stop.

How can Spock’s brain control everything? They’ve only had it for 5 minutes.

“Mistress.” I told you they were dominatrixes.

Oh yeah Captain Sulu!!

More sexist quotes: “What a way to maintain control over a man.” “I’ve certainly noticed their delightful aspects.” Please stop talking; you’re digging yourselves in a deeper hole.

(Seriously though--I feel like the unspoken world building fact here is that the women need the men for procreation specifically, which is why they capture the men, and then control them--using the “pain belts”--to have sex--the “pleasure.” They probably also use them for other labor, given the presence of the male guards and the line “they won’t help us if we don’t control them” or whatever it was. But surely the delightfulness of the women is more than their physical appearance, is what I’m saying.)

What is the commentary on gender here? Women = scary, dumb, and hot?

Yeah, how DOES Spock’s brain fit into this?

Lol at Spock’s empty body calmly watching them all fighting.

“Science will triumph.” A real lost opportunity in the AOS-verse to have Kirk say this after a bar brawl.

“You are a disembodied brain.” I feel like there’s a (McCoy) joke in here about how he’s reached his ideal state.

His body is the building. (I was right, I totally called this plot point as soon as Spock started talking about his incredibly large body and how his brain was still doing things like regulating oxygen. I must say... this is not a bad idea, except for the brain stealing part. Like there’s something in there, the idea of the complex as a body, powered by a brain. Idk.)

So basically Spock is taking another opportunity to insult Bones’ medical skills. Oh Spock, never change.

I feel like Bones is enjoying his Spock puppet, on some level.

“Pain bands.”

Use the Spock puppet, Kirk! Use it to fight the lady alien!

“The controller is young and powerful, perfect.” / “How very flattering.” LOL I can’t believe this is real.

“You took his brain. You will put it back.”

So the alien lady puts on the spiky helmet and now she’s suddenly smart. I hate thissssssssssss.

(I actually do think the idea of old knowledge stored outside of the... brains...of the current generation, for their own protection, as decided by the paternalist elders... is not itself a bad concept. Of course it’s also a concept that other eps did better, like The Apple or For the World is Hollow or even Return of the Archons. Again, combining it with all the gross things they said about women earlier just leaves a bad taste. Even though--even though!!--we don’t know who the elder people were. Like, was this a matriarchal society that saved the women in the underground because they were better? Or was it a patriarchal society that put the women in the underground because they were considered weak and in need of protection? I rather assumed the second, but I think there’s some evidence for the first, in particular, that the story reeks of Sexualized Male Fear. What’s a better combination of hot and scary than a matriarchy of women in short skirts?)

“Got your gun.” (But the other way around.)

“Our need for the Controller is more important than your need for your friend.” That sounds an awful lot like “The needs of the many outweigh needs of the one” and we all know what Kirk thinks about that. That said, he’s really not...engaging with her facially fair argument at all.

“No one may kill a man. Not for any purpose. It cannot be condoned.”

Love Scotty’s acting skills. Gotta get this gun back really fast--create a diversion by fainting! But not too much!

I do love McCoy. He’s an adventurer too. He pretends he’s not but he jumps at the chance to discover and learn. He will not hesitate to put himself in danger if it’s for the common good or to protect his friends.

“Put the teacher on.”

Now finally Kirk is engaging with the fate of the society he’s encountered lol. Like, again, he’s not wrong; they’ve stagnated under the computer/controller and it’s not moral to steal from someone else to keep your comfortable and boring life going when you could just do the work yourself, but coming this late, it feels like an afterthought. It’s also weird that she just like stood by and let them take Spock and his brain after all that to do about...not letting them have the brain. Like at the end of the day she was not so inept. Also, they never explained what happens to all the knowledge in the teacher. One would assume they’d have to access it--or not? They’re just to start from scratch? Also legit I guess. And finally... all I can really hear, in the emphasis on integrating with the men again, is “You’ll learn how to develop a society naturally and also about heterosexual sex wink wink.” (Except that as I said... I think they know about that.)

I see McCoy’s regretting that “child’s play” talk now.

“Give priority to reconnecting Spock’s vocal cords.” Yep that’s how the brain works for sure.

Wow Spock really does have to do everything himself. Including operate on himself.

“This Vulcan is telling me how to operate.”

How did he operate without...opening Spock’s skull... in any way??

Not to question the verisimilitude of Spock’s Brain lol.

Everyone’s being so rude--Spock is providing valuable last minute exposition/explanation about this weird-ass society!

It’s always odd when they don’t return to the bridge. Like, they’re not going to collect Chekov?

That was... something.

I liked a few things: any excuse for Kirk to be devoted to Spock; the humor Spock showed; I liked the bridge scene where they looked at the map of the planets; and I liked certain things about the premise of the episode, although, like I said, most of the general aspects (post-disaster society, reliance on computers, etc.) had been done better in other episodes. I liked the look into the Male Brain lol.

What I didn’t like was how outright ridiculous the basic catalyzing event was--Spock’s brain has been literally stolen like??? Are you kidding me? That led to a considerable amount of dialogue that read like a Star Trek parody. Did not like that. And of course, as I said... the sexism. I think I’ve unpacked that enough. It didn’t need to be sexist, and you can explain it in a way that’s not, but the vibe sure was. It was like... well a lot of TOS is like this imo. You can give it an A (or at least a B) for effort, but what comes out is so obviously tainted by the sexism of the creators. Like, for example, how they say they believe in women who are just as capable and professional as men, but struggle to show it. This ep wanted to show a matriarchal society but it wasn’t really a matriarchal society--it was a Freudian dream that was all about the male psyche and what it most fears and wants.

All that said.. the next ep is a D.C. Fontana creation featuring one of my favorite TOS Ladies, the Female Romulan Commander, so I will be receiving a consolation prize.

Also the AOS verse is still more sexist and doesn’t have an excuse I said what I said.

[resbang-bookclub]

AMA TRANSCRIPT: Fake News!

In our first AMA of the season, @trueeasiann answered questions about her Resbang, Fake News! Read all the insider info below!

Q: First of all, because I’m always curious about what inspired stuff, what gave you the idea to write this resbang and put it in an office setting?

Whinnie: Hmm that's a good question lmao. I know there are quite a few soma office AUs out there but they seemed very 'corporate' and I wanted to explore an office environment that's a little more different? Also, I’m very biased but I work in tech LMAO... and I wanted to share some of the fun(ny) experiences I’ve had with my coworkers!

Q: By any chance... was a real experience playing ping pong with a coworker? I was very amused at Patty whooping Blackstar ahaha

Whinnie: Lmao yes I love working in tech! I've had the honour of getting the chance to work in both a smaller startup environment and a larger corporation, and the startup experience is just so much better because it's more flexible, less redundant, and I find you have more freedom to get things done. The dialogue during the ping pong isn't exact but yes, my friends at work do play a lot of ping pong and there is a lot of smack talking and I have one friend who randomly yells out from time to time while playing (or talking in general lmao) and he really reminds me of Blackstar HAHA.

Q: Did you have a favorite scene or scenes to write?

Whinnie: I really enjoyed writing the ramen scene, where Soul and Maka first get to really know each other outside of work. The dialogue came really easy to me for that, but I also enjoyed writing the coffee shop conversation between Black Star and Maka. Re-reading that scene now gives me a laugh at all the ridiculous stuff I made BS say lmao.

Q: I really enjoyed the sorta sibling vibes that Maka and Star convos had. He is always so extra.

Whinnie: I know it's kind of an overdone trope, to make Maka and BlackStar childhood friends or friends that know each other from way back (in this case, from college), but I feel like that's the only reason Maka puts up with him HAHA.

Q: You mentioned in your footnote at the end that this was your first fandom event. did the event schedule affect your usual writing habits at all, or your process for how you put it all together?

Whinnie: Well, before this, I hadn't written for like 4 or 5 years LOL. So I didn't really have any writing habits that were affected? But this was my first time writing on a deadline, and my first time writing a full multi-chapter story (as I like to stick to one-shots) so this was the first time where I started way "ahead" of time (I say ahead in quotations because my time of perception is really off lmao and I always end up starting stuff late anyway) this was also the first time where I was writing while juggling other things. I had my full-time job and also some other extracurriculars that I had to maintain. It's not as easy as writing in high school where you can just write all day LOL and not worry about putting dinner on the table or waking yourself on time the next morning for work. So I would do like work until 6 pm, come back and eat dinner, maybe catch up on some other things like messages, and then write until 3 or 4 or 5 in the morning lol because that was the only free time I had.

Question: When I read that footnote about writing in a car during your friend's wedding to make a deadline, I was floored!

Whinnie: LMFAOOOO yeah that was a wild time. so the wedding was actually one of my old coworker's and I got a ride with my other coworker and his GF. And when we arrived I was like "Ummmm I'm still not done so I'm gonna have to ask you something weird. Can you just lock me in the car and I'll come in like 10 mins?" LOOOL… But also part of it was my fault with, again, not budgeting enough time for myself. Like, I didn't start regularly working on my resbang until December. So for that whole month leading up to my posting date, I just didn't have a social life LMAO. And I also ended up taking the day before my posting date and my posting date itself off work because I knew I would stay up all night finishing it LOOOL. I also hope I never have to do that again LOOOL. It was really rough And I have a really bad habit from high school of staying up late and not getting enough sleep and so I kind of reverted back to that schedule… even now that resbang is done.

Q: Yeah, this sounds like it was a good learning experience at least! About your limits, how quickly you work, etc… And oh no, sounds like the habit tracker Soul and Maka did might be something to use!

Whinnie: YES, absolutely haha. I saw that while I was browsing Reddit and thought it was really cool, and I thought that if people are going to read my fic, I might as well offer them something useful as well haha.

Q: Did you know where you wanted the fic to go or did you kind of let it all happen as it went?

Whinnie: Hmmmm, well obviously Soul and Maka getting together was the end goal and I knew that I wanted to write it from Maka's POV (since I find that a lot of fics are written from Soul's or a mix of both), and that I wanted it to be relatable. So I thought it was plausible that both of them would bond over their shared imposter syndrome. And I did have an outline but it was very high level and vague, so I ended up adding more stuff. I also didn't want there to be any awkward jumps, like "wow one second she hated his guts and now she likes him?" so the granola bar scene, that wasn't what I originally intended on adding but it made more sense to have it before the ramen scene. I did want to add more to the ending like a scene of Soul and Maka just living life together after confessing to each other. But alas I didn't have enough time.

Q: I also really liked how you wrote Maka as bi! there seems to be a large chunk of fandom that writes her as Ace, so it was neat to see her thru another LGBTQ lens. did you always want to write her as bi, or did that come along after you'd started?

Whinnie: Thank you! Yes, I did notice that as well, and I can definitely see her as Ace and not interested in anything sexual at all -- or heck, even Demi (which I did write her as in my other recent fic.) But I was surprised that no one has written her as bi, or even in any serious yuri relationships let alone in a relationship with Tsugumi (especially since Tsugumi seems to really like and look up to Maka LOL) so I thought that would be interesting to explore. Especially since I also identify as bi.

Q: Do you have any other Soul Eater writing in the works?

Whinnie: Well I have some vague ideas, but not right now -- after resbang came the "resbangover" (resbang hangover) LMAO and I wanted to delve back into some of my other hobbies like music, so I've been taking a break from writing fic. But who knows, maybe I will write again soon... I do want to participate in Soul/Maka week!

Q: Congrats on completing your first resbang!

Whinnie: Thanks to everyone who's read the fic and left sweet words of encouragement!

[nickywhoisi]

Ummmm anarchapella, no? Op’s take is franky the best, and you kind of are dropping the ball somewhat. It’s good to be mindful/considerate of other’s comfort levels and not overstep on difficult topics, but I remember what it’s like to be a kid, and being directly at that very curious age where everything’s a wonder and everything is a moment to learn about something that was never in your mind before. That means a child will want to ask about things. And you might not like this, but based on my experience as this kinda kid, we tend to ask in very direct, blunt, almost caveman-esquely simplified ways about...well, anything, no matter what it is. That means it may be inevitable that a child will APPROACH YOU and likely ASK A HARD QUESTION in a way that FEELS AWKWARD or WORDED IN A WAY YOU’RE UNSURE ABOUT, which will in fact be YOUR EXCLUSIVE DUTY to ANSWER AS BEST AS YOU CAN MANAGE, and you gotta do this all while NOT ALARMING, CONFUSING OR UPSETTING THE CHILD. That’s the only way I can see this situation going smoothly for all parties, and I hope I’ve described it well enough. It sounds very timebomb-ish, doesn’t it? But that’s how important it is I figure, that a child would even get the chance to ask and maybe know you in a good way. And I hope you’ve seen how op describes this scenario as “asking if they’re happy to tell you more” implying that the parent would already be mindful of someone else, and encourage the child to gauge the person all on their own and be trusted with doing something I think is INCREDIBLY grown up! Wow! So good! I think that there’s ultimately a good time and a bad time to ask people about things, but the thought of removing a kid’s right to try to ask and learn about something is actually super wrong, like in a fundamental human social creature way. To ever act like we should solve one problem by creating another is incorrect. I literally just made a post about protecting free speech for all, and here you are saying we should snuff out any generation’s ability to initiate communication, even on what looks to be well intentioned grounds. My friend, I think what ought to happen is let a momentarily difficult and uncomfortable question get presented, let anybody learn just enough about what’s so important, and learn how to socially bond again in the right way by answering back. A question asked, a question answered, a small moment of social bravery on both ends rewarded. And you are free to disagree with my thoughts if you want, but I’m afraid that you just can’t stop me from coming forward to talk. And you likely won’t be able to stop a curious kid who’s never seen someone like you before from wanting to just...know. That’s all it is.

so tl;dr op got it down right, and I’m concerned that the replier is trying to do good, but effectively is advocating for never giving children the right or opportunity to just ask questions they naturally would about things they’ve never known about or understand yet, and as a notorious freedom fighter I just can’t vibe with that hun

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more than enough help || rose and taylor

𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍: taylor’s dorm room // spring 2021.

𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐈𝐍𝐆: rose x taylor.

𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐒: sex referenced.

𝐃𝐄𝐓𝐀𝐈𝐋𝐒: rose goes to assist taylor with his final paper, and gets so much more out of it. in the hopes of having something special, rose lets her guard down for the nicest guy she has ever met. 

Rosemary Hollingsworth was not easily fooled by women, but boys were another story. Taylor was just so cute and helpless, like he needed her. Men who needed her was definitely a weakness of hers, she loved feeling helpful. She didn't even notice that he was taking advantage of her homework and assignments, blatantly copying or having her do the work for him as an example problem. Before she knew it she had done everything for him, and didn't even notice. She arrived outside his room and knocked, not even thinking about how this might put her bet in jeopardy with her sister. But Taylor was so cute, she didn't even mind losing. Their bet to not hook up with anyone had been going on way too long. If anything it would be a public service. She also didn't know if Taylor was even interested in her like that. It was just a shot in the dark, and a pretty face she could stare at. 

Taylor wasn't dumb, he fully believed work smarter not harder and that's what he did. It came easy to him and it came in the form of Rosemary. She was one of the smartest if not the smartest girl he knew and she fell for his charm. They never did anything not for his lack of trying. It made it easier for him to get his way though  and all the work she did for him proved it. Checking his phone he pulled on his grey sweatpants and kept his shirt off showing  his well defined abs. Opening the door he flashed his pearly whites. "Well hello beautiful." he moved to the side  to let her in. Biting his bottom lip as she passed. "I hope I didn't take you away from anything important.  It was this final paper that i need a little help on."  he brushed past her purposely and blushed when he stepped away." Oh shit I'm sorry baby. I mean Rose." he ran his fingers through his hair. "You always he get me so flustered." he lied.

Rosemary squealed inside her head when he opened the door and he wasn't wearing a shirt. That plus gray sweatpants? She was already dying on the inside. It had been since before Valentines when she had made this stupid bet, then this beautiful helpless boy came into her life. She hadn't been doing anything too important, just working on her own papers. Sure, they were just in the editing phase, but she also didn't really need to step away from the computer to do more work. But he needed her help, and she was excited about it. She loved feeling needed. Rosemary let a giggle fall from her lips when he brushed past her and was all flustered. It gave her butterflies to have someone who was nervous to be around her. It made her feel like the prettiest girl in the world again, "no need to apologize" she said as she touched his exposed arm briefly. Usually she was all go getting, but something about him was so sweet and sensitive.

He  knew exactly what he was doing with the clothes and the words he was saying. He didn't need help he had someone write his paper he just needed it to be proof read and his closing paragraph to be excellent.  He wanted to have fun this summer without any summer school.  He watched as her hand brushed his arm he looked down at it then back at her. "You gave me goosebumps. " he pointed to arm. He moved to the his bed and  sat down. "I wrote it I just need help with the final paragraph, it's not coming together."  he sighed dramatically. "And if i'm being completely  honest ." he paused his face going red. He knew she would think this was cute or whatever it was always that easy. "I." he looked away." No I shouldn't ruin over our friendship over it." he looked down with a defeated look. Counting to ten before looking up with a half smile. "You look amazing by the way." Taylor touched her chin softly .

Taylor was the hottest shy guy she had ever encountered. The problem with some of the guys she had hooked up with in the last year is that they knew they were hot. And damn did they act like it. He was being vulnerable with her, asking for help. When he said she gave him goosebumps it gave her an excuse to stare at his form, god he was so good looking. She was getting nervous as he seemed to be gaining mild confidence. "Thank you, you um, you always look really good" Rose became a little more aware of her bet, so she sat down at his laptop and put on her blue light glasses. She started going through and making edits, it was a good paper. It just needed some touch ups. Rose got to the final paragraph and helped him summate, "This is a really great paper, you should be proud of it" she said as she looked over her shoulder at him.

Taylor had every confidence that he was a very attractive young man. He was also confident that Rose found in just as attractive. He blushed looking away at her comment. " You don't have to be nice to me, but thank you love. " He moved next to her. He watched her as she read the paper. He knew the paper was good it was based of a draft he had written and given to someone. He didn't bother her instead he went to the mini fridge and got her a bottle of water. "That means alot coming from you Rose." He handed he resumed his place looking over her shoulder. "You have no idea how much you saved me. You have to let me thank you. " he flashed her a bright smile.  He wasn't going to just blow her off, leading her on would pay off in the long run.

It had been a minute since she'd been weak in the knees for anyone who was nice. Such a sweet boy, sweet on her. None of the usual red flags. Rosemary deserved to be with someone who was going to treat her well, especially if she was about to break this bet. But she hungered to break the bet. A nice guy was worth it. She turned her head and looked up at him as she took off her blue light glasses and he flashed a smile, "How would you like to thank me?" she said with a coy smile. Rosemary bit her lip a little as she looked at him, god she had it bad.

He read over the last paragraph happy that at the whole paper coming together.  He knew his grade for this paper was going to be amazing. Looking at her as she spoke. He couldn't help but lick his full lips, any other time his response would be something less then wholesome. He wasn't going to say that he would just move the strand out of her face. "You should let me take you out on a date.  Or we can have a little picnic here if you don't feel like being social."

Rose liked the idea of something private with him. It was so refreshing that he didn't just want her for sex. Like he actually cared about her and wanted to get to know her. It had been such a long time since that had happened for her, "I would love to have a little picnic here" she said, not wanting anything to be too public. Maybe there would be more of an opportunity to be cute together if they weren't restrained by the public eye. "I just feel like being social with you" she added sweetly.

A wide smiled flash across his face when she said yes, to her it show he was excited about spending time with her for him it was securing  that she still helped him when he needed.  "perfect." he whispered in her ear. " Just tell me what you want to eat and if I should put a shirt on. " he said being half serious. "My rose." he said with the most endearing tone he could muster. He made sure to clear his schedule for her. If it was one thing that he knew it was that girls love when you made them feel like they were the one and only.

She shined a bright smile at him. "We could just order some food, watch something" she suggested. Rosemary wanted to keep things casual and easy, for his sake more than anything. He seemed slightly nervous around her and she wanted to make sure he was in a space where he was comfortable. She hadn't talked to anyone this sensitive in a long time, it gave her that high school innocence vibe. His rose? Her heart fluttered at the idea of being with someone.

Tay nodded. " Your wish is my command." He moved to the mini fridge and pulled some menus from off the top of it. He chose to order Italian she deserved it fir all the help she had been. Making the call he fixed his bed so.sje could sit on it. " What are you into?" He asked in a semi seductive tone. " True crime? Horror? We can watch whatever."

She felt her heart rate pick up when he asked what she was into. Rose made her way to his bed and took her shoes off, adjusting her hair and looking over at him. "Ummmm, horror sounds good to me. I might get a little scared though" she warned. Rose wasn't too afraid, but she was jumpy when it came to things like that.

Taylor dimmed the lights and put on a scary movie." Don't worry i'm here." his voice was less innocent and more like him. He moved next to her, leaning against the wall. "You can come closer, I promise to behave myself." He winked at her showing that it could definitely turn into something else. He grabbed his blanket as the movie started. He knew the food would be there soon so he didn't get to comfortable.

Rose noted that he seemed to be growing more confident. Her impact, honestly. She felt like he was stepping up because of her. Like she was worth it. Rosemary got under the blanket with him and touched his hand before putting her head on his shoulder. "You don't have to behave ... if you don't want to" she said as she looked up at him through her lashes. He hadn't even told her she was beautiful, but she felt that he knew. That he liked her but didn't have the words just yet. Taylor was probably a hopeless romantic, and couldn't spill the words until it was time.

Her words confirmed she had no idea what type of boy he was. He let himself blush as if he was shy. He turned to her, his fingers on her chin leading it his face. His lips softly touching hers, pulling back just a little before kissing her again. This time deeper and with more passion. Only moving when he heard a knock at the door." Shit." He murmured. " Don't move gorgeous our food is here." He hopped up and moved to the door. He pulled out the money and picked up the food putting it on the table. "Now where were we?" He smiled jumping in front of her and kissed her again.

Oh my god, they were kissing. She hadn't felt like this in so long. Usually it was a one and done with most girls and guys, both being super upfront about how they wanted something casual. But he was different. He wouldn't hurt her, god, he couldn't hurt her. Normally, she would be suspicious of someone who was such a good kisser when they played to seem so inexperienced, but Rose wouldn't be surprised if he's had at least one serious girlfriend in the past. What if he's damaged? She could fix him. Show him how to love. Her brain was going wild for the idea. Rose couldn't care less about the food, "I think right here" said Rosemary as she kissed him back, matching his enthusiasm.

Taylor chuckled into the kiss as he moved over her. This was easier than he had expected but who was he if he didn't get exactly what she waned. His hand caressing her thigh, his tongue exploring her mouth. He kissed her for awhile before breaking it." God your beautiful." She was he could admit that."Are you sure this okay?" he sounded innocent but his hand never left her leg and his eyes was filled with lust. He needed consent before he went any further it and he needed to blush when he said it. He really didn't think this would be happening but he was glad he made time for her, and what was happenin now was definitely a bonus,

This was definitely not Rose's first rodeo. She had a revolving door of guys since the break up that had fully broken her. Rose couldn't even say his name these days. Being cheated on by your first love changes how you see love. Hearing him call her beautiful made her feel perfect again. Like she hadn't broken herself time and time again. Then the simple fact that he was asking was so sexy to her, like he was worth all of it. Like he could pick up the pieces of her and make her hole once more. Not sex to fill the void, but love and care and all those beautiful things. She could be one of those beautiful things again. The way that beautiful boy blushed when he asked was more than enough for her to know that he was worth it. Rose flipped him over and got on top of him, "I am more than okay with this, I've been thinking about you a lot lately" she said with a smile as she pressed her lips to his neck.

Taylor wasn't surprised that she wanted to do this with him, he was a rather handsome guy and he didn't do to bad in the female category. Taylor was surprised that she had been thinkin about him lately, he didn't get the vibe from her.  He had a clue she might have a little crush on him, it fed is ego to know she thought of him. He laid on his back his hand moving up her legs, his sweatpants being a very bad shield of hiding how much he wanted her. He let his hands wander up her back and slip up under hier shirt. A low grunt left his lips as her lips continued to kiss on his heated skin. "Take off your shirt." he said in a low tone, his voice made it more of a commad than a ask. Losing the good boy act for a quick second. "Please." he softened his voice for her.

He was a little more assertive than she gave him credit for, but the quick follow up with a please let her know he was who she thought. -Fade to black-. Rose laid down next to him on the bed, out of breath. "Wow, that was not what I was expecting at all" she said, catching her breathing down to a normal rate as she came down from everything. Rose wondered if she should have made him wait, but she had heard a podcast recently that waiting really meant nothing. If someone wanted to date you, they wanted to date you. If they didn't ... well it wasn't worth it to think about that when he was a sweet boy. He wouldn't have slept with her if he didn't want more with her. She wouldn't let her guard down like that for just anybody.

Taylor sat up in his bed when they were finished. She was a lot more flexible than he had predicted. "Oh yeah and what did you think was going to happen?" he hopped up and went to get her warm rag and wipe herself off. If he ever thought she was prude he was very wrong, in fact next time he needed someone to fill his bed she would be the one in five people he would text, but first he needed her out of his room. She had served her purpose and given him a little extra. Usually he would just tell her to leave but he needed a few times to be able to get away with that." Listen beautiful, I have to go to work." Lie. "I wish I could sped the whole night with you." another lie. " But I got to go, it pays for my lifestyles." he bent over to her and kissed her on her lips.

Rosemary blushed a little, "oh I don't know, usually a little more awkward with a new partner" she said being honest. He had been great, almost a little too great. But he was probably just trying hard because she was Rose, she was special. She got cleaned up and was a little sad to hear that he had to go. He hadn't said anything about work when she got here, but perhaps a lot of time had passed. "We should do this again sometime, maybe a redo on that date" said the girl as she got herself dressed and grabbed her bag. Her funk was finally over, and he was the cute. Oh Taylor. Beautiful Taylor. //END

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Episode Recap of "Joseph's Wedding"

Season 5, Episode 7 - October 23, 2017

From TV Guide: "Joe and Kendra's wedding day finally arrives, but there may still be a few surprises in store for the happy couple."

Yay!!! Last episode of the season and hopefully the series. I'm still wondering what happened to Sam's birth episode. The Duggars favorite thing in the world is explicit painful to watch birth episodes but for some reason there is a conspiracy of silence surrounding Sammy's birth. Let the conspiracy theories continue.

1. Halloween is in two days so I will get into the spirit with this recap. The show begins at the Caldwell home on Mockingbird Lane. I think this is the first time we've seen their house. The Republican red couches hurt my eyes.  Kendra is rushing around getting ready to head to high school for the homecoming festivities. I wish! She's actually heading to the church for her Children of the Corn wedding day. Did Kendra even graduate from homeschooling yet? I feel no thrill watching a child get married. Maturity and patience is a blessing. I wish the Duggars and their extremists friends would take up that motto. Kendra talks about anticipating the first kiss on the stage and she was told by Joe that he will lead the way. She just hopes not to get hurt. Joe and Kendra's wedding invitation shows that Kendra's middle name is Renee which is Anna's middle name as well. I will take this as a bad Omen. Since Josh used the name "Joe" as his cheating on his wife alias, I am feeling some Sinister vibes happening right now as I watch this. Maybe it's just me and Halloween being around the corner and that I'm full of Snickers sugar right now but I really don't think this marriage is for the long run. Maybe Anna Renee and Kendra Renee will escape one day and become ex-fundie roommates as they start a liberated life in A Cabin in the Woods.

2. Joe is at the compound and is running late for his own wedding because he had to do some errands. He was probably erasing his internet search history before some Psycho hacks into his computer. Joe is haunting the overcrowded boys' dorm handing out handwritten letters and placing them on his brothers' beds. There appears to be five sets of three bunk bunk beds in that cluttered room.  That makes up to 15 men and boys sleeping in one room when they have guests. That really has to be against fire regulations. Joe is talking about it being his last night in that room where he spent the last twenty two years. Let me correct Joe's history. They have only lived in that house for twelve years not twenty two. Maybe he blocked out the Amityville Horror abuse house from his memory.

3. Miss Cindy is back for more Misery. Too bad she didn't use her Sixth Sense and call in sick.  It's good to see Jeer using his creativity with flowers to help decorate. Real men do flowers. Some of the flowers got lost in the mail which means more stress for Miss Cindy. I really hope the Duggars or TLC are paying her well. Kendra arrives at the church, not her father's hate church, and is greeted by Laura. Laura has since left the Duggar home and is moving on to be a Mary Poppins for other fundie families, I assume. Last seen she was on a cruise with some of the Bates. Jana is going to miss her bff. Kendra starts to get ready and then Joe arrives and begins his groom transformation. His hair has never looked worse. This is one time I think a comb-over might be a wonderful idea. Jason needs to lose the facial hair if he ever wants to attract a girl. Justin says Joe will be living practically next door which I will take as meaning that Joe and Kendra are now living in the Duggar mcmansion of horror. Ummmm, shouldn't a fundie man own his own house before getting married? Leave and cleave and all? My parents never coddled me like that. Maybe the Last House on the Left in Springdale could be their Final Destination.

4. The groomsmen all line up for photos and TLC gets creative by using different camera angles to cut out It/Josh. This is Pennywise's/Josh's first appearance in a siblings' wedding. None of the girls invited him to be a part of their ceremonies. Evidence that they really haven't totally forgiven him and rightly so. He is scum. Kendra gets her gown on and presents herself to her daddy in full Bride of Chucky style. The pastor doesn't say much as Kendra does all the talking and giggling as is her style. His one comment that I thought was weird was, "Joe is in for a real treat." Ummmm, in what way, pervert!!! Pastor Caldwell also says Kendra reminded him of his wife on their wedding day. I think it's best if Pastor Caldwell keeps his mouth shut. Stranger Things might come out of it. Jana shows up to put makeup on Joe who was injured in a tragic broomball accident. The bridesmaids photos are taken on the stage and luckily Kendra picked out dresses that stretch because Anna is about to pop with Mason and Joy is breaking her seams at three months along with some quick growing Alien. Jim Bob calls mama over to have some alone time with Joe. They give him a pep talk on  how to talk sweetly to his wife. Though they go a bit overboard on the positive affirmation advice it is good advice. It's something I need to do a bit more myself everyday. It's my one Frailty.

5. A Poltergeist must be loose because Kendra's dress begins to disintegrate before she hits the aisle. Luckily, Jana drags her sewing machine around everywhere so she ended up saving the day. The brothers sit around talking before the ceremony. Joe is counting the minutes til his first kiss. I hope he can keep little Joe under control after all his holy sacrificing. His parents kissed before marriage and their union has been a complete disaster. Such silliness. How about a new tradition for Duggars. Allow them to have their first kiss in private when they become engaged. They are already bound by the engagement and they can get all the kiss stress out of the way and focus on the real purpose of a wedding, their relationship and their future. Weddings are becoming so common in this family that James enters Sleepy Hollow and falls asleep while waiting for it to start. Nobody seems to have any Tremors this time around.

6. And so it begins...again. As they prepare to walk down the aisle, Michelle tells Joe she has prayed about this day since she found out she was expecting a boy. So she goes from, I'm having a boy to I can't wait for his wedding day before he's even the size of a pickle? Michelle has too much time on her hands. As the parents take their place in the pew we see Ben behind them wrestling with Damien. Spud wants no part of sitting still. He wants to run the aisles and climb on the stage and push people off balconies. For some reason all of these fundie guys think they're required to cry as they see the bride for the first time. Joe makes a phony weepy face but no tears come. He then immediately brightens up as he joins the bride. Daddy Pastor lifts up Kendra's veil and she asks him for a kiss but he says not yet. He has to ramble off some bad jokes first. He lists off the costs that it took to raise Kendra and when Joe writes off his dowry check he'll know how much will cover the cost of buying his daughter. Is this a human slavery horror movie or an evangelical Christian wedding? I guess they're pretty much the same thing. Jk he says afterwards. Yeah, right. He says he didn't know Joe would be the one for Kendra until the Lord revealed it recently. I think the Lord is actually TLC needing another wedding ratings bonanza.

Se7en.  Pastor Caldwell again goes heavily into the covenant marriage crap which basically means the wife is trapped for life, or death like The Others, even if Joe takes after his lousy brother. Is that what Pastor Caldwell really wants for his daughter? Vows are taken and then The Rings are exchanged but not before some ALERT friend disrespects God's house by rappelling out of the rafters and onto the stage. If that happened at my church growing up, well that never would happen at the church I grew up in. Rappelling in church! Damn, we couldn't even look behind us while sitting in the pews because that was disrespectful. Eyes on God at all times! These people claim to be conservatives but their behavior in God's house is often extremely Liberal. Rings are placed on fingers and then the unity candle is lit. Then the anthem to the the devil, "Butterfly Kisses", is sung as the parents come onto the stage to pray together. They couldn't find a better wedding song than one about a creepy daddy and his little girl? How about the oldie but goody "There Is Love"? Just a little less creepy idea for the next Duggar wedding. "There Is Love" even mentions God which is amazingly often left out in much of this ceremony. Flower petals are dropped as Joe goes in like Jaws for the kiss. He holds it longer than most of the other grooms. Little Joe seemed to be in control. Kendra comes up for air and says, "That was the best kiss ever." It was her first kiss ever that we know about. Just as they're about to run back down the aisle, the power goes out. I'll take this as another Omen that God is not pleased but they ignore the darkness and run for their lives down the aisle with the bridal party following at their heels. They go on with the reception in the church using candles to light the way until finally the lights come back on to reveal that this Nightmare on Elm Street actually happened.

*The next nightmare will be if they decide to do all the JoKen wedding prep episodes next season. If that occurs, then don't expect any recaps from me. I can't live in an endless Groundhog Day cycle forever.

[mianmimi]

Emilie Autumn anon here. Haha, yeah, I know her music’s not for everyone. If you only liked Castle Down and weren’t too keen on Liar, then it’s likely you won’t enjoy her Opheliac or Fight Like a Girl eras, FLaG characterized by harsher sounds compared to her Opheliac era, though ironically the lyrics are focused on recovery and not as rage-filled as in her Opheliac era (her Opheliac era can be triggering for survivors of sexual assault, btw, as she is explicit about her own experience and suffering and doesn’t mince words when she calls rapists out, Liar is from this era). However, you might like stuff from her Enchant era, when she was pop baroque-ish and indie and sang about fairies and knights and Shakespeare characters. Maybe you’d enjoy songs like:

  Chambermaid: That moment when she sings “Tell me what I have to do to make you understand it’s a lost cause, lover” / “Hold me close when you were thinking of her” / “I don’t want to hear you say you love me” / “You’ve been gone such a long time won’t you tell where” / “Before I have to see this face I once adored” KILLS me with strordo feels. And it fits what you did with Misery Loves Company. Less a character’s thoughts and more like a dialogue between Mordo and Stephen. I also love the potential drama found in Stephen and Mordo fucking during Stephen’s time in KT, with Mordo knowing that Christine means something to Stephen yet not knowing exactly what, and thinking that Stephen is not attracted to him and just using him as a port in a storm while thinking of Christine. But Stephen’s just thinking of Mordo, probably in an incoherent inner monologue that’s pretty much Why is the world’s most beautiful man taking my dick??? *gives self a mental high-five*

  How Strange: Or as I like to call it, Emilie Autumn’s first and last foray into the uncharted lands of R&B lol

  Juliet: A song about *drum roll* Romeo and Juliet. She manages to make it sweet yet at the same there’s an undercurrent of “oh shit something’s about to happen” because... you know. Spoilers for all five people that don’t know but Romeo and Juliet die at the end. I love it mostly for the violin solo at the end. Emilie is quite the accomplished violinist and when she throws those violin solos it’s fucking awesome.

  Let the Record Show: You won’t enjoy this one, probably lol But for anyone interested in both Emilie and those songs I was going to use for that Karl Mordo Can’t Stop Falling for Problematic Men mix, this is one of them. It’s prime post-DS Mordo. “If I’m going down then I’m going down good” / “If I’m going down then I’m going down clean” / “If I’m going down then I’m going” / “The prettiest wretched whore you’ll ever see”

  Opheliac: Same as above lol this song is the one that gives the name to an era. Same as above, this was part of the fanmix. “I’ve been so disillusioned” / “I know you’d take me back, but still I feign confusion” / “I couldn’t be your friend, my world was too unstable” / “I’m open to attack, but I don’t wanna hurt you” / “How could you possibly think you had the power to know how to keep me breathing?” / “You know the games play and the words I say when I want my own way” / “You know the lies I tell when you’ve gone through hell and they say I can’t stay” / “You know how hard it can be to keep believing in me when everything and everyone becomes my enemy” / “And when there’s nothing more you can do, I’m gonna blame it on you” / “It’s not the way I wanna be” / “I only hope that in the end you will see”

  Mad Girl: Back to songs you might enjoy! lol This one is from the Opheliac era, actually, back when Emilie was obsessed with tragic women from fiction (mostly Shakespeare and Brit Lit) like Ophelia. For an Opheliac era song, its instrumentation is different and softly melancholic. Quick confession, this song always makes me cry. This one is also one of the songs for the aforementioned fanmix, because I will die before I stop referring to Karl Mordo as the classic-tragic-maiden-but-as-a-gay-man character that he is. “In all your fairytales, how did the prince say he loved you?” / “How did your father die?” / “Was he a good man?” / “My melancholy state, folly, fear, and hate, I know” / “My friend in this world is a bottle of nothing” / “Still I try, still I fall”

  Rapunzel: And we have arrived to the Enchant era! This song gives me sweet young Mordo staring out his window dreaming of his prince while stuck in Bavaria vibes. “If you sing loud and clear, someone passing by will surely hear you” / “No, you can’t be afraid”

  Rose Red: Another from Enchant. As you can tell, it’s vaguely related to Rose Red the fairytale. “Tell me no stories and I’ll tell you no lies” / “No one wants to hurt me but everybody tries” / “For this freedom I have given all I had” / “For this darkness I gave my light” / “For this wisdom I have lost my innocence” / “Take my petals and cover me with night”

  What If: This is peak Enchant era, imo. “I am far too tried to stay here” / “And I don’t care what you think of me” / “’Cause I think you were wrong about me” / “And what if you were?” / “What if I’m the kindest demon, something you may not believe in?” / “What if I’m a siren, singing gentlemen to sleep?” / “What if I’m a weeping willow, laughing tears upon my pillow?” / “What if I’m a socialite, who wants to be alone?” / “What if I’m an angel, without wings to take me home?” / “What if I’m a crowded desert, too much pain with little pleasure?” / “What if I don’t know who I am, will that keep us both from trying?”

  Special mention goes to Shalott, which I believe I already mentioned in the original post I made (or how I like to call it, Anon’s Evangelizing for Emilie Autumn lol), but I never added the lyrics that make go Mordo-bby-ilu-get-urself-a-good-man-ok. “She looks up the mirrored glass” / “She sees a handsome horse and rider pass” / “She says, ‘That man’s gonna be my death ‘cause he’s all I ever wanted in my life’” / “I know he doesn’t my name and that all the girls are all the same to him” / “So I’ll meet my death” / “But with my last breath I’ll sing to him my love and he’ll see my face in another place”

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Heya Nonny!

Oh wowowow! I’m listening to the song recommendations again right now. You hit the nail on the head with the songs I’d like more. I ended up listening to the Enchant album twice while the Opheliac album was very hard to get through, more so because of the subject matter though. It’s very raw and there’s a lot of pain and anger there. I don’t know much about the artist but I hope she’s recovering and is doing well now. Rape is a brutal experience and for her to share the emotions and thoughts she went through is extremely powerful and heartbreaking.

I actually really enjoyed “Shalott” and the acoustic version of “Mad Girl.” Her voice is super emotive and lively, raw with emotions. I can see why people can hear stordo, and more specifically Mordo in the songs.

“Juliet” has a gorgeous violin number at the start and throughout and it makes me think of Mordo playing the violin in his family castle, just thinking of the romances he used to read and how life is more tragic than romantic. T____T

“Chambermaid” really does give off the vibe that Christine’s still in the background of Mordo’s mind when he’s with Stephen. I also really enjoyed the fortune telling and card reading motifs of the song. It really needs to the magic aspect of strordo, as well as the ‘fated to meet’ aspect of their pairing.

“Rose Red” and “Rapunzel” give me youthful Mordo vibes. When he’s still hopefully and longing for the love found hia fairytales.

And okay.....I really, really fucking liked “How Strange.” Especially this part...

You know I think it's strange

Just a little bit deranged

That you think I'm gonna change to make you happy

If you can tell me why

I should wait around then I

May be coming down

But until then this means

You can see me in your dreams

Oh man that entire part makes me think of Mordo looking back at the night he walked away. He’s not gonna change just to make Stephen feel happy, and he’s asking why he should stay and wait. It’s so sad and I love it.

My favorite one amongst these songs though is....

“What If.” It’s honestly such a gorgeous song! Also a very vulnerable one.

And I'm far too tired to stay here anymore

And I don't care what you think anyway

'Cause I think you were wrong about me

Yeah what if you were, what if you were

And what if I'm a snowstorm burning

What if I'm a world unturning

What if I'm an ocean

Far too shallow, much too deep

What if I'm the kindest demon

Something you may not believe in

What if I'm a siren

Singing gentlemen to sleep

Ummmm....excuse me. That’s all Mordo to me. It’s heartbreaking, full of turmoil, full of brimming heartache and upheaval, like Mordo doesn’t even know who he is or where he belongs anymore. It makes me think of those months he spent away trying to figure it all out alone. Baby just....just please go home. Stephen’s waiting for you. Let him explain and make up for it baby ;____; Please

Thank you so much for sharing these recommendations Nonny! I’m not much of a rock or folk person. I’m actually realllly vanilla with my music taste, namely old power ballads and musical showstoppers hehehe. But that’s why I really appreciate it when people share different types of music with me! I enjoy discovering new things. And now I’m currently replying “What if” pretty much endlessly. I wouldn’t have discovered it if not for you. So thank you for sharing these Nonny!

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should be doing homework but im sexting my boy and answering survey questions

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? - ummm i really dont know, syd, seany, evie, luke or bae at home lol 

2. Are you outgoing or shy? - mostly shy but when something i want is in the sights i might as well be outgoing to get what i want 

3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? - BAE 

4. Are you easy to get along with? - I think i am easy to get along with, i look mean at first i think and i have trouble controlling my facial expressions lmfao 

5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? - yeah i think so 

6. What kind of people are you attracted to? -  fucked up sad boys who will crush my heart / boys in general im straight af to clarify/ but boys with big lips and nice eyes / someone whos funny / someone who will watch shitty movies w me/ BUT if this is just about people in general im attracted to shit lords like myself 

7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? - um actually maybe? 

8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? - my bab 

9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? - no i love talking about sex 

10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? - umm i have deep convos with everyone lol so probs today with syd and clayton 

11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? - ‘omw’ 

12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? - oh sheesh idk ive been listening to throwback shit from middle school and also hamilton 

13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?- honestly the thing i like most in the world 

14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? - luck yes, miracles not really bc i feel like that has a religious connotation 

15. What good thing happened this summer? -  i slept with someone new 

16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - would i? yes...should i? not at all lol 

17. Do you think there is life on other planets? - there has to be right 

18. Do you still talk to your first crush? - bro what how would that even be possible 

19. Do you like bubble baths?- yeaaaa but never have the chance i dont have bathtubs in my dorm room 

20. Do you like your neighbors? - i dont even know my neighbors at all i know the girl next to me is named jackie and shes nice 

21. What are you bad habits? -  im a mess all the time like i dont clean up after myself, i dont even care if im living in trash ill just keep adding more trash to the pile. i dont shower enough lol, and im obsessive 

22. Where would you like to travel? -  anywhere!! i wanna go west 

23. Do you have trust issues? - yes kinda, i have a hard time being vulnerable with people bc i build up this wall to keep myself hard and safe away from potential sadness x d 

24. Favorite part of your daily routine? - umm makeup probably :) 

25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? - probs my double chin lmfao but i can take selfies and look good anyways 

26. What do you do when you wake up? - i like have to pee as soon as i wake up 

27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? -  im good with my skin tone tbh but it would be nice to be able to tan vs burn 

28. Who are you most comfortable around? - syd, evie, luke, mik, bella, my sister 4 sure, 

29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? -  no lol 

30. Do you ever want to get married? - ummm idk im not really like super hype to the idea but it could be cool 

31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? -  ya girl has a buzz cut lol 

32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? - wowwie idk 

33. Spell your name with your chin. - miss me w that 

34. Do you play sports? What sports? - literally no sports are like the least interesting thing in my opinion 

35. Would you rather live without TV or music? - shit idk thats so hard bc i use tv as like back ground noise a lot of the time but music helps me with everything else i cant choose 

36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? - ummmm yes 

37. What do you say during awkward silences? - depends on why its awkward 

38. Describe your dream girl/guy? -  xd i dont need this 

39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? - lovesick, xxi?? thats about it oh and thrift stores!!!!! 

40. What do you want to do after high school? - bitc im doin it im in art school 

41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?- yes for sure i give everyone a lot of chances 

42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? - im sick/sad/angry lol

43. Do you smile at strangers? - i try to 

44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? - outer space 

45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? - classes bb 

46. What are you paranoid about?- money all the time 

47. Have you ever been high? - yes lol 

48. Have you ever been drunk? - also yes 

49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? - ummmmmm yikes idk no not really 

50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? - green 

51. Ever wished you were someone else? - i used to but not recently 

52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? - work ethic 

53. Favourite makeup brand? - sheesh i think jeffree star cosmetics & lime crime 

54. Favourite store? - not sure 

55. Favourite blog? - probs claudias 

56. Favourite colour?- pink 

57. Favourite food? - pizza i think 

58. Last thing you ate? - pizza lol

59. First thing you ate this morning?- i didnt eat this morning 

60. Ever won a competition? For what? - no i dony think so 

61. Been suspended/expelled? For what?- nah 

62. Been arrested? For what?- nope 

63. Ever been in love? - i believe so! i fall in love with people all the time lol 

64. Tell us the story of your first kiss?- i was in 8th grade and his name was garrett and he was my first bf ever and we kissed on my front porch it was very cliche 

65. Are you hungry right now? - for the first time in a while actually yes 

66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? - literally no i dont really have tumblr friends 

67. Facebook or Twitter? - twitter 68. Twitter or Tumblr? - this is tough bc i frequent both but probs tumblr 

69. Are you watching tv right now? - nope

70. Names of your bestfriends? - claudia, syd, evie, luke, mik, bella 

71. Craving something? What? - HUMMUS 

72. What colour are your towels? - one is like peachy and the other one is purple but i never use that one bc i cleaned up fruit juice off the floor w it and never cleaned it lol 

72. How many pillows do you sleep with? - a lot like 3 pillows and i use blankets as like body pillows for that snuggly vibe 

73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? - just one hello kitty lol 

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? - total i have quite a few but i dont bring them to school with me 

75. Favourite animal? - ummm i really dont know tbh 

76. What colour is your underwear? - black 

77. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla for ice cream / chocolate for like cupcakes or cake 

78. Favourite ice cream flavour? - tbh mint choco chip or phish food by ben and jerrys 

79. What colour shirt are you wearing? - currently just chilling in my bra fam 

80. What colour pants? - black leggings lol 

81. Favourite tv show? - right now the office for sure / but also my 600 lb life 

82. Favourite movie? -  i have so many , django unchained, perks of being a wallflower, across the universe, i lowkey love the twilight series?? idk im not well versed in classic film just shitty films that have a special place in my heart 

83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? - this is an ugly quest but the original mean girls 4 sure 

84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? - mean girls lmao 

85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? -janice lol 

86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? - bro idk finding nemo is not something i think about a lot lolol but probs the badass fish jawn w his ripped up fin 

87. First person you talked to today?- my sister 

88. Last person you talked to today?- just now syd 

89. Name a person you hate? - donald trump 

90. Name a person you love? - claudia <3 

91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? - um not currently except maybe if my illness was personified then i would punch that bitch 

92. In a fight with someone? - i dont fight w people lol 

93. How many sweatpants do you have? - literally 1 pair i think 

94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? - SO many lol 

95. Last movie you watched? - twilight last night lol 

96. Favourite actress? - hmmm, i love charlize theron, kristen stewart but not bc of twilight her other movies are fire 

  97. Favourite actor? i love tom hardy, eddie redmayne, john boyega 

98. Do you tan a lot?- not at all 

99. Have any pets?  - one cat named Bo 

100. How are you feeling? - kinda shit but ok 

101. Do you type fast? - pretty fast, working in call centers get ur typing skills on fleek lol 

102. Do you regret anything from your past? - a few things of course but at the same time whats the point in regretting things you know, it just gives you more baggage to carry around and that shit sucks 

103. Can you spell well? - for the most part i think but sometimes shits questionable lol 

104. Do you miss anyone from your past? - ummm no not really 

105. Ever been to a bonfire party? - yes i have it was a strange experience 

106. Ever broken someone’s heart? - no way bruh people break my heart all the time tho it seems lol 

107. Have you ever been on a horse? - yes but i was like 8 i think i was sooo young 

108. What should you be doing? - im chillin 

109. Is something irritating you right now? - BEING SICK  

110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? - yessssss 

111. Do you have trust issues? - not so much trust issues but i have a hard time putting my walls down for people 

112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? - ummm syd and luke hahah 

113. What was your childhood nickname? - liv, livy, liver, livy loo ( my mom calls me this when shes salty at me) my dad has always called me scooter crunch i have no idea what thats from, or any variation sometimes its just scooter and recently he called me scooter mc crunchy and that was even a lot for me lol , oh and olive!! 

114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? - yes ive been out of ohio but not to anywhere very exciting 

115. Do you play the Wii? - i did once upon a time 

116. Are you listening to music right now? - yes frank ocean’s blond album 

117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?- i mean its fine 

118. Do you like Chinese food? - i love it but only from like select places bc mediocre chinese is always kinda a let down 

119. Favourite book? - harry potter series, perks, sula, 

120. Are you afraid of the dark?- sadly yes 

121. Are you mean? - i am sometimes lol i cant even lie 

122. Is cheating ever okay? - i dont think so 

123. Can you keep white shoes clean? - dude no 

124. Do you believe in love at first sight? - this is always a question in these 

125. Do you believe in true love? - ofc 

126. Are you currently bored? - nah im cool 

127. What makes you happy? - makeup, photography, my friends, my sister 

128. Would you change your name? - no ive never thought of something that suits me more than olivia, which is why im cool with my nicknames 

129. What your zodiac sign? - scorpio 

130. Do you like subway? - as in sandwhiches yes lol 

131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? - i would be shocked lmfao 

132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? - ummm idk ive been kind of mia recently from being sick but probs syd 

133. Favourite lyrics right now? - the whole wiped out album by the neighbourhood 

134. Can you count to one million? - ive never tried and i probably never will but on principal yes i can count 

135. Dumbest lie you ever told? umm idk that im ok? i try not to lie about trivial things but if im sad or something and someone im not comfy w asks me about it ill just be like yeh im good 

136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? - closed i live in a dorm room lol 

137. How tall are you? -5′6 

138. Curly or Straight hair?- i have a buzz cut so neither 

139. Brunette or Blonde? - is this an opinion question bc i have blue hair so like 

140. Summer or Winter? - man im more of a fall/spring type 

141. Night or Day? - day i think 

142. Favourite month? - november but im really tired of my friends trying to kill themselves in my birthday month tbh LOL 

143. Are you a vegetarian? - no but maybe i should be so i wouldnt be so fucking sick all the time 

144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? milk 

145. Tea or Coffee? - i really like both 

146. Was today a good day? - my day hasnt even really started 

147. Mars or Snickers? - snickers i guess  148. What’s your favourite quote? - i dont really have one tbh 

149. Do you believe in ghosts? - yuh 

150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? -  the only book i have with me is my science book and thats not interesting at all so lol imma skip this one