#“my child is fine” sir your child never speaks unless spoken to and has 0 nameable interests and cries themself to sleep nightly. | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

capitateoftheherald · 5 months

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coming to terms with the fact that it's very likely i will attempt suicide again in the future just like. statistically. and if i survive i'll probably do it again too. at the very least i am going to be plagued by the idea that i Could for the rest of my life, because that's just what multiple chronic mental illnesses is like. so for whenever my next suicide attempt is i'm thinking i should reestablish contact with my father so i can blow my brains out in his living room

#suicide tw #i don't even know how i think he would react #it would be really funny though #like my siblings would legitimately laugh about it because we all developed the same “laugh to cope” response #there was a nonzero chance of me doing this back when i still had visitation with him aged like 12 #cuz i Was depressed as fuck and there Was a gun safe in the basement and he Was stupid as fuck so i probably could have found the code #his dumb ass really had no idea that his adolescent child was fantasizing about inflicting maximum psychological damage #and the thought of that is amusing to me.#“my child is fine” sir your child never speaks unless spoken to and has 0 nameable interests and cries themself to sleep nightly.#and so the “easy child” was born.#don't forget to put the papers out for jimmy!

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