#“kanade's down bad...”

[yoisaki-kanade-n25]

open starter for @shizuku-moon-rabbit

Okay... You just confessed to the famous idol, Hinomori Shizuku.. No big deal, right??? That's what Kanade thought. She was currently walking to Miyajou, with a love letter in hand... Ahhh!! What will she say about this? This could either be amazing or the worst day of her life...

[ninjagirlstar5]

So, uh, I might've gone a little crazy last week and came up with a Kanade Concept rewrite. (And made some redesigns of IRL!Kanade and IRL!Hibiki to reflect that.)

SO, for context, if you've been following me for awhile (or just came across some of my posts in the past), you'd know that my friend and I have been playing through SDRA2 for fun and it's around the end of Chapter 3 that I started making posts mentioning certain segments of our reactions, feelings, and some jokes. And to say we hated it would be an understatement. But I've had asks where I went on a rant about Chapter 3 more than once, so I won't repeat myself here. If anyone hasn't seen that, you can find it here, and here.

At this point, we're at Chapter 6 and during one of our after stream chats in VC, my friend, @bittersweetbeet, suddenly brought up an idea that could've tied Kanade (and thus Chapter 3) into the main plot and that was this:

"What if Kanade was blessed with Divine Luck from Utsuro like Void? Like, she wasn't in on the plan, but the reason why everything went south for her is because her luck was running out and got screwed over in the trial because of that, and was more than willing to die because she'd prefer that over losing her Fortune. It wouldn't fix Chapter 3, but at least it'd explain how she got away with all those damn murders for so long!"

I'm kinda paraphrasing here since I don't remember the exact wording due to this idea being brought up in the voice channel. But that was essentially what they said and it drove me NUTS at the time. After all, it's been brought up that Utsuro tended to bless a bunch of kids that were the same/similar age as him during his travels out of boredom, and while we don't know a lot about Kanade and Hibiki's parents to know for certain if they were bad and good (personally, I interpret them as decent people but tended to play favorites with Hibiki and accidentally neglecting Kanade, which only worsens their issues even when they try to bring them together), we DO know that Hibiki tends to bully Kanade a lot and that alone can make for a difficult childhood even when you have parents that care about you. So, with a bit of timeline adjusting, Kanade coming across Utsuro when she was, ahem, down on her luck, and getting blessed by him after she vents about her problems can make sense as this is something he's done for awhile now. And it should be noted that not every kid he blessed with Fortune had the same level of dire straits, as many had different levels of Fortune which faded away at different paces. It's why Void lasted for as long as they did since their situation was the worst of the worst so their Fortunes faded away much slower while others either succumbed to fates sooner or lost their fortunes and survived but couldn't handle being back in the same state they tried so desperately to escape from that they just...well, you know. Not every person that was blessed with Divine Luck was going to be a good person or, hell, some people can end up getting worse with the Fortunes they were blessed with instead of becoming better (like Mikado). And so, we started chatting ourselves up about this idea and I really wanted to share it here on Tumblr that I asked if it was alright if I shared it on my blog and they gave me the go ahead. I didn't share it right away, but I was thinking over how to word the post while I was at work. Which is when I realize there were...a few problems with this idea, unfortunately. Mainly this since I brought it up in our rambles channel in the Discord server to get my buddy's thoughts on it, so I'm just gonna copy and paste that:

"...I've been trying to figure out how to word the idea of Kanade being blessed by Divine Luck and I kinda realized something: how would Kanade realize her luck is fading…when she's not a part of Void? Like, she's not in on the plan from the very start so she's been reverted to a [place] where she believes that she's fine and her luck is still running strong. And how that would be conveyed to the audience…

Like, I can believe Kanade could figure it out, even if I think how the writer LINUJ showed off her intelligence to be stupid, but I'm struggling [on] how to explain how she'd figure out that she ran out of luck? She'd be surprised that things have turned on her suddenly due to her state of being reverted back to a time where her luck is strong, but would she fully understand the context to the point that she'd rather die with her sister than lose what she already have?"

Like, I could've been overthinking on that. I could've had it so that a character comments that she was just hit with a wave of bad luck and Kanade goes, "Me? The most luckiest person ever? Never! (...unless-)" But I was really struggling to come up with an answer I was satisfied with at the time and even Bertie was like, "it's stuff like this that makes it so that the only option that would fix Chapter 3 is by rewriting the whole thing." Which is something I do agree with. This idea wasn't a complete fix to everything that's wrong with Chapter 3 anyways, especially when it comes to Kanade and how the writing on her character just sank it into the depths of hell. It was simply an explanation we both really liked.

And then Bertie went on to say, and I quote, "Tbh I think it would be more interesting if Kanade hated Hibiki deeply rather than love her. It’d be cliche probably but it’s better than the weird incest-like shit we have going on here" end quote.

And I started off with a normal response agreeing and elaborating on the idea, like so:

"HONESTLY, yeah. It's better to just scrap the whole chapter and rewrite it from the ground up.

And yeah, I do agree that anything that's different than what we got in Canon is probably much much better. Although I would still want to keep the nuances of Kanade and Hibiki's status as victims of each other's toxicity. Hibiki is constantly bullying Kanade due to seeing how good Kanade is at a lot of things and is jealous of that but still cares and loves her as a sister even though she sucks at appreciating Kanade for who she is. Meanwhile, Kanade still loves her sister and willingly goes along with her bullying, going as far as to try and be meek and shy to appeal to her sister's dominant but cowardly ways but deep down she resents her for keeping her from doing things she likes even though she does genuinely enjoy spending time with her and gets jealous whenever other people get close cause it means that Hibiki won't bother to spend time with her. She often drives them away one way or another so she can have Hibiki to herself, even when nothing changes because Hibiki is her sister and she just wants her to love her and spend time with her (but not in the gross incest way and we're taking away the whole crazy serial killer thing, she's just her own level of toxic)."

And that's when I started spiraling into an gigantic ramble that lasted nearly an hour and thirty minutes (minus a dinner break) because my brain was in a creative mood that night. Enjoy my copy and pasted ramble (I won't italicize all of this to make it easier on the eyes cause if you know me by now, my writing gets very long + a bit of editing to make it a little more coherent):

"I still like the idea of Kanade being blessed by Divine Luck and being good at many skills because of it, and she's smart enough to realize that the boy she met long ago somehow changed her when she had openly vented to him about her problems the day they met (after giving him her umbrella to protect himself from the pouring rain, as she had ran away on a whim due to being fed up with her parents and her sister [at the time]). She's very grateful for what he's done for her, believing that the skills she now has can bring herself closer to Hibiki by being useful to her."

"But here's the catcher: her blessing doesn't work in the way she had hoped. Because surprise! Divine Luck has it's own set of rules despite being able to break reality as long as the chances aren't zero. Basically, Divine Luck can make you better at anything, get you anything, without having to go through the process of improving or skipping the steps that are needed to get the result, simply jumping to the result itself. However, out of everything it can change, from skills to getting someone shelter to just winning any kind of luck-based event, it cannot change a person's heart. And Kanade, despite having the skills that are "supposed" to bring her closer to her sister, only makes Hibiki even more jealous and she continues to bully her, going as far as to push her workload onto her now that she's so "good" at everything and proclaiming that she's just as good, if not better. Her blessing got her what she wanted but not what she needed in her case, unlike with the rest of Void, and she ends up paralleling Mikado as despite being blessed with Divine Luck, it did not make them better or improve their situation due to their own choices/how they used their blessing (Mikado because he constantly pursued Utsuro to the point committing crime after crime, Kanade because instead of standing up for herself and establishing her boundaries, she continued to support her sister no matter what, something that only ends up building the resentment in her heart). That's not to say that Hibiki isn't instigating most of the abuse, she is. But Kanade isn't making things better as she uses her skills to make herself seem like the better option in comparison to the people Hibiki wants to hang out with and get to know, even going as far as to scare them away to isolate Hibiki so she doesn't even have any options to choose from."

"And then, Chapter 3 rolls around and Hibiki starts to change, trying to be supportive of the group and take charge to help everyone get through the killing game. It…surprises Kanade, but she watches her sister change and grow, becoming more confident, cheerful, kinder…

…And she realizes that she hates it.

She hates the thought of her sister changing. She hates the thought of her being kinder after everything she's done to her. She hates the thought of Hibiki growing closer to these people, becoming attached and happy without her, Kanade, her own sister.

She hates the thought of being left alone again. She hates the thought that Hibiki is going to leave her again.

She hates it, she hates it, she hates it.

She hates her.

But she loves her.

She wants her to be with her, forever.

So why won't she ever look her way?

Why, why, why?

Kanade is spiraling in her head, trying to keep up her shy, sweet side up but gritting her teeth the whole time as she watches. Even when Hibiki is being kinder to her, still making her usual jokes about her but is actually trying to prop her sister up a bit more, it's only because Sora and Setsuka had suggested her to be kinder, not because she wants to. At least, that's what Kanade thinks. She doesn't want to believe her sister is changing for the better, that she's able to change at all, that she's going to leave her behind for other people again.

And when Setsuka tries to reach out to her on the third day…Kanade finally snaps.

She tears into Setsuka, accusing her of stealing her sister away from her, for giving her ideas to be better when she can't, she should never be better than she already is because if she is, she'll just abandon her and leave her all alone. Her stupid, cowardly sister can't ever hope to be on her own, she always has to rely on her, HER, not anyone else…and definitely not SETSUKA!

And before Kanade knew it, she lunges at Setsuka.

The scuffle was short…but the result was predictable."

"To elaborate a little bit more on Setsuka, she's was still pretty distant from the group as she was focused on doing what she needs for Nikei and stuff. But after Hibiki starts to break down a little and reaches out to Setsuka for help, she commits herself to stabilizing the group once more, supporting Hibiki and telling her and everyone else that she has something to tell them. But Kanade, watching this entire scene, only starts to become even more on edge as Hibiki, once again, reaches out to someone else instead of her. Despite trying to "change," Hibiki had so easily broken down once more, crying and begging for help, relying on another person for support and to "fix" everything for her. And that convinces Kanade that Hibiki can't change, she won't EVER change, and she bitterly goes to bed. But Setsuka notices Kanade's displeasure and, not knowing why she's unhappy, decides to take matters into her own hands and have a one-on-one talk with her to see if she [can] help. Unfortunately, this decision backfires on her hard, resulting in her own death.

Now, unlike in canon, Kanade panics as this was the first time she's EVER committed a murder before. Sure, she's harassed, blackmailed, and even threatened people that tried to get close to Hibiki before with violence, people that would only take her away from her. But she didn't…she never…she didn't mean to do this! But, no, Setsuka…No, no. Why should she regret this? Why should she apologize?

Setsuka was getting in the way. Setsuka was going steal her sister away.

And Hibki was still the same as she ever was. Not being "better," not ever "changing." She was still Hibiki, the bully, the sister, the bratty, snappy, fussy older sister that demands respect despite her cowardly, weak self. A sister that Kanade deeply loves…and hates."

"But she won't let her die her. She'll escape with her, a certain "ritual" should allow her to escape with her as it's an option for the blackened on the third island according to Monocrow. If she goes through with that, she can escape with her sister…and make sure she'll never change again.

But if she loses…then she'll die. She'll die…

…and she'll take Hibiki with her. For she doesn't deserve to live without her.

Kanade goes through with the ritual as fast as she could, relying on her skills (and thus her luck) to succeed in framing Hibiki and nearly gets away with it.

But, unbeknownst to her due to her current memories, Kanade's luck has been dwindling and since her situation wasn't as dire as Void's, hers has been fading away far faster than them. And ends up making a few mistakes that seem innocent enough until it all starts to pile up, with one last conclusive evidence fucking her over and revealing her to be the true culprit.

Kanade is seething when she's caught, her ego bruised and lamenting how the hell she lost, with Syobai dryly stating that her luck has run out. Kanade laughs, saying that can't be true. She's always been lucky! She's always been able to get things her way, even when she has no friends outside of Hibiki. This tips both Mikado and Nikei off that, hey, wait a minute, is she…? Of course, neither of them speak up on it due to keeping their own plans close to their chest. Everyone asks her why, why did she do it, with Hibiki grabbing her sister, begging her why she would do something like this, why would Kanade frame her of her best friend's death? A death that she caused?

And Kanade, after years of bottling up her own resentment…finally blows up at Hibiki."

"She tells her off for her bullying, of her neglecting to pay attention or spend any time with her unless she wanted something from her, and pushing all the things she doesn't want to do onto her. She proclaims that she had ALWAYS hated everything she's done to Kanade, wishing she could've done anything else, wishing that, for once in their goddamn lives, that they did something she wanted to do, not because Hibiki had chosen it. All Kanade had ever wanted was her love and affection, but she never appreciated her or all the things she's done for her. [She even went] as far to change herself to try and appeal to her sister and her wants and needs. And yet…despite everything, she still loves her. She loves the times when they would dress up together. She loves the times when they would perform together. She loves it when Hibiki actually cares for her. She loves her, because she's her sister…

And because Setsuka was getting in the way of that, she had to get rid of her. Just like everyone else…!

Everyone freezes when Kanade admits that out loud. She pauses when she realized what she said, but instead of apologizing [or even denying it], she doubles down. She admits that she drove away their childhood friend, she admits to spreading false rumors about their teacher and getting him fired, she admits to falsifying a hurtful rejection to a guy Hibiki was getting close to and pretended to be her so that she can ruin their chances of getting together when he finally confessed, she harrassed, blackmailed, threatened people that got close…and Setsuka was just another person on a long list of those that got in the way. She just…didn't mean to kill her. It just…happened. But Kanade…doesn't care about that. She doesn't care about anything anymore. It's apparent that her luck ran out…and now she's going to die.

But she's not dying alone. She refuses to die alone.

[After all, they're] sisters, right…? It's only right that they stay together till the bitter end, right?"

"Hibiki tries to back away, but Kanade grabs her just as Monocrow drags her into her execution, bringing her with them."

"The execution goes almost exactly the same but Kanade is doing her damndest to make sure Hibiki dies with her, with Hibiki trying to escape. And it seems like it was going to happen…until Hibiki beats the hell out of her with a microphone, crying and wailing for all the people Kanade had hurt in her name, demanding why, why, why. Kanade can only answer this:

"It was ALL for you. You and you alone."'

"Hibiki drops the microphone, backing away from the sister that was so possessive of her, in her hatred and love.

And then she runs away, leaving Kanade all alone.

Monocrow doesn't stop her, for this execution was only made for Kanade…and seeing her despair as she finally loses the one thing she had tried so hard to grasp onto slip away from her was enough for him to pull the lever, the platform underneath Kanade falling and killing her.

By the time Hibiki has made it back to the trial grounds, her gait is slow and unsteady, hugging herself as she stares down at her feet, processing what had just happened. What her sister had done. What she had done to everyone she knew. What she had done to Setsuka and Hibiki herself.

Why she had done it.

She had done it for her.

She had done it to keep Hibiki to herself.

She had done it because she both loved and hated Hibiki.

And the people that had been hurt because of Kanade…was because of her. Because of Hibiki. Because of all her bullying and her selfish wants, and because she didn't treat her like she should've treated her as a sister…! Because she's a horrible, awful person that hurt her own family until it was too late, her best friend dead, her sister, dead! All because of her…!!

Hibiki falls to her knees, going into dissociation as everything that she ever thought she knew and was normal shattered like glass."

"Hibiki, for the rest of the killing game, blames herself for what Kanade has done, but with Sora and co.'s help, she's able to rationalize that yes, what she did to Kanade was horrible and none of this may have happened if Hibiki had just bonded with her sister instead of bullying her…but Kanade had also made her own decisions, alienating Hibiki's friends and support from her to try and isolate her so she can try and force her to rely on her and her alone. Hibiki had done a lot of wrong that she probably can't ever make up now that Kanade is dead, but that doesn't excuse the awful actions Kanade has done either as many people were hurt from her own actions, one even losing his job and others probably traumatized from what she did to them. They were both toxic to each other and so long as neither of them were changing, that cycle was only going to continue until something broke between them…and this just so happened to be it. It's just horrible that it also ended in Setsuka's death alongside Kanade's, who was just as much a victim as she was a perpetrator."

"As for the reveal in Chapter 6, I was thinking of two options for Hibiki and Kanade's relationship:

The two of them, despite years [of] staying together as sisters and as a part of Melody Rhythm, only ended up falling apart as their toxicity turned their head as one of Kanade's past victims, their childhood friend, decides to finally come out and reveal everything Kanade has done to her and other people, even providing evidence of what she did. And the moment Hibiki found out about it, a public argument breaks out between them and Kanade finally spills out everything about her feelings on Hibiki, which only hurts both of them as Kanade had tried so hard to isolate Hibiki from other people while Hibiki had only hurt and bully her sister out of jealousy for years. But this? This was enough for Hibiki to stand up and go, "We're done here." And she leaves, cutting ties with Kanade for the shit she's done to others but also left reeling at the revelation of what her bullying and abuse had done to her sister. Was this…her fault? She wasn't sure. But she knew [she] had to make things right somehow, even if it's only for herself, reflecting on her behavior and reaching out to those that were hurt by Kanade, apologizing for everything that had happened even though it wasn't her fault that she chose to do the things she did and tried to make it up to them…if they want her, at least. [Meanwhile,] Kanade is PISSED that her sister left her, who went as far as to block her from her phone and even ending their contract as Melody Rhythm as she's left to deal with the fallout of the media bashing her for what she's done…but as time went on, Kanade is able to pick up the pieces and strikes out on her own, telling herself that she doesn't need Hibiki or the people that criticizes her for what she's done. She can do this by herself! She never openly apologizes, but she never says outright that she's happy with how things had turned out either, despite getting her career back on track…eventually."

"And then the Tragedy happens, they lose their parents, and one of two things happen.

Either 1.) the Tragedy brings them back together, with them starting off very reluctantly working together to do charities to help those in need, only to slowly and carefully rebuild their relationship while trying very hard not to fall back into bad habits as Hibiki admits that yeah, she's done a lot of horrible things to Kanade and she IS sorry for that…but she won't let Kanade hurt anyone anymore. She's trying very hard to be patient with her sister, as they know the Tragedy is a horrible thing to go through, they even lost their parents from it…but if they want to make things work, then something has to change between them, even if Hibiki is the only one taking the initiative FOR the change. Kanade is very reluctant to admit that she was EVER in the wrong for what she did…but as they continue work and bicker over the concerts they put together, their different ideas colliding but somehow coming together with the help of their coordinator, they start to…actually bond again. They start to talk things out, Hibiki is actually trying to show interest in her hobbies and the things she likes, and while she can never bring herself to like the same things she does, she's trying to be respectful and give her the time of day this time. She's trying to make things right for her, so long as Kanade never does the things she did again. And while Kanade doesn't like the same things Hibiki does, it's still a bond Hibiki is trying to nurture…and it makes Kanade question if what she did was ever necessary, that if she had just stood her ground, let Hibiki form her own relationships while searching for her own friends that she can rely [on] like the ones she had now…then maybe none of this would have happen. Maybe they could've remain as sisters, forever, if she just accepted their differences and tried to break away and do her own thing, while letting Hibiki grow as a person [as I think if Hibiki was allowed to bond with other people, she would've grew out of her bullying and become a better person, but because she never had the chance or had people that would stand up to her and let her experience the consequences of her own actions, she never grew out of that mindset as she was never put in her place before]…

[And then the killing game happens, reverts them back to their teenage selves, and they start their toxic cycle all over again until one of them literally kills and gets executed for it.]"

"Or 2.), Kanade and Hibiki remain separate, as not even the Tragedy and the death of their own parents can bring them together. Their parents funeral, one they tried to arrange anyways, only escalates into another argument, with Hibiki changing as a person…but Kanade did not. She still feels entitled to be Hibiki's one and only sister, her one and only support, and Hibiki recognizes that, deciding that it was safer that they stay separated as she NEVER wants to risk anyone else she loves coming to harm thanks to Kanade. The two part ways, with the both of them doing their own separate charity events, with Hibiki proclaiming that Kanade Otonokoji is not her sister, [not anymore], while Kanade proclaims that Hibiki Otonokoji will always be her sister, and refuses to acknowledge the fact that she had been disowned and will continue to be disowned for the rest of their lives."

"Either way, Hibiki is depressed to realize that their future together was never forever, and Hibiki had lost her sister…one way or another."

And that's it! That's the concept rewrite, plus the sprite edits since Kanade and Hibiki are no longer together as sisters and as a band outside of the Neo World Program, so their appearances reflect on that as they pursue their own solo careers. They're no longer trying to match each other, and Kanade pursues her own rock and metal music.

Oh, and while I was copying and pasting this, I had an idea that Kanade's relationship with Sora could be interesting as she's the only one that Kanade is actually okay with getting close to Hibiki...because Sora shows interests in both of them in their FTEs. She talks to Hibiki in private about her treatment of Kanade and even asked Kanade herself if she was okay as she genuinely cares about her just as much as she cares about Hibiki. This surprises Kanade as no one has ever bothered to look her way before, they always pay more attention to Hibiki than herself. And Sora makes it clear that she's genuine about this, asking her if there's anything she can do to make things better for Kanade when Hibiki is defensive about her actions. It makes Kanade feel...seen, for once in her life, and she actually likes that. So she allows Sora to get close, so long as she promises to continue being her friend, too. It's why Sora succeeds in befriending both twins while Setsuka ended up getting rejected by Kanade in the worse possible way: Setsuka unintentionally added to Kanade's insecurities by focusing mostly on Hibiki and overlooked Kanade's needs as well. She's not doing this out of ill-will, far from it. It's just that she recognized that Hibiki is a little weaker in her mental strength and her breakdowns were far easier to notice while Kanade was able to keep a cool head most of the time. So Setsuka prioritizes on supporting Hibiki first and foremost, thinking that Kanade can handle herself fine on her own. She's not completely wrong...but she's not right, either. By the time she finally notices that Kanade is hurting and reaches out to support her, it's already too late as she's finally reached her breaking point and snapped, which resulted in her own death. Just a little something to tie this whole thing off.

[arolesbianism]

Shout out to my poor poor friend who keeps sending me video game songs trying to pin down my music taste like oh buddy I'm so sorry but Penny's battle theme is so small beans compared to the stuff I listen to

[evilmafuyu666]

leo/need stories: the girls are about to perform at a live house but oh no!!! honami is scared!! they work together and in the end they put on a great show :)

more more jump stories: the girls are about to perform at some kind of idol festival but oh no!!! minori slipped on a banana peel and fell down the stairs and broke every bone in her body somehow!!! she thinks of how sad haruka would be if they couldnt perform together and heals her bones through sheer lesbian willpower. they put on a great show :)

vivid bad squad stories: an and akito convince themselves that the only way they can sing good enough to surpass rad weekend is if they lock themselves in the saw bathroom and have to saw off their own legs to escape. their aibous are forced to break into the building and talk them down from doing this. they put on a great show :)

wonderlands x showtime: tsukasa is visited by a sleep paralysis demon in the middle of the night that steals his lucky socks. he cant perform without his lucky socks and the gang has to track down the demon and get them back. rui constructs some kind of doohickey to kill the demon and they get the socks back. the demon is implied to be a manifestation of some horrific part of tsukasas psyche but they never elaborate on it again. they put on a great show :)

nightcord at 25:00 stories: mafuyu wanders into silent hill on the way back from school one day and is chased by pyramid head. she can leave at any point but she wonders if she can find her true feelings by staying in the town, and is willing to put her life in danger just to do so. kanade finds out about this and goes to silent hill herself but she is shit with directions and cannot find mafuyu so ena and mizuki also have to go in there. when they eventually find her shes just chilling with pyramid head and watching cars 2 in the meat room. kanade wonders if pyramid head is a manifestation of how mafuyu feels towards her mother. mafuyu is now oomfs with pyramid head on twitter. nightcord doesnt do shows so they just go to ihop

[rockdrop]

I'll never stop being insane about Kanade going quiet mid-conversation to just smile at Mafuyu in the most tender way imaginable. Girl is down BAD!!

REALLL and then she asks "What do you think, Mafuyu?" or something along those lines WAHHGHGFH she's so sweet and concerned ;((

[aventurineswife]

Hello!! i hope you're having a great day, if you don't mind, can I request Aventurine with a reader that is like Kanade Yoisaki (pjsk) s/o?

Between the Notes

Summary: Aventurine and you share a tender and supportive relationship. You, a composer deeply dedicated to using music to heal others, struggle with the weight of your emotions and past guilt. Aventurine, with his charm and understanding, becomes a grounding force in your life, encouraging you to open up and let go of the need to save the world alone.

Tags: Aventurine x Reader, Kanade Yoisaki based Reader, Comfort, Romance, Emotional Support, Healing.

A/N: When I read about her backstory, I felt so bad for her 😕💔 she shouldn't go through that at such young age...

The melody poured through the apartment, soft and melancholic, each note striking like a whispered confession. The dim light of your cluttered workspace illuminated your weary eyes as your fingers danced across the keyboard. Composing was your refuge, a way to capture the emotions you couldn’t say aloud. You’d always believed music could save people, could reach places words never could.

Then, one day, Aventurine walked into your life.

It wasn’t planned—nothing with him ever was. He was a storm of charisma and daring, someone who lived on the edge of chaos, yet carried himself with grace. You met at a small event hosted by the IPC, where your talent as a composer had gained attention. He’d approached you with a warm smile, his eyes gleaming with intrigue.

“You must be the musical genius I’ve heard about,” he’d said, his voice smooth like velvet. “I’m Aventurine. And you?”

You introduced yourself, your voice barely above a whisper, but something in his gaze encouraged you to speak. From that moment, Aventurine became an unexpected presence in your world.

Months Later, The gentle hum of your computer filled the room, the only sound besides the occasional clink of a teacup. Aventurine lounged on your couch, his coat draped across the armrest. He held a teacup delicately, his eyes watching you with quiet amusement.

“You’ve been at this for hours, love,” he said, setting the cup down. “If I didn’t know better, I’d say you’re composing your magnum opus to impress me.”

You glanced over your shoulder, a small smile tugging at your lips. “It’s not for you,” you teased. “But if it makes you think of me, I wouldn’t mind.”

He chuckled, a sound that always sent warmth through your chest. “Touché. But seriously, you need to take a break. Even maestros need rest.”

You shook your head, your fingers pausing on the keys. “I can’t stop now. If I do… I’ll lose the feeling. The song—it’s meant to reach someone. It has to.”

His expression softened, his playful demeanor giving way to something deeper. Aventurine rose from the couch, moving to stand behind you. His hands rested gently on your shoulders.

“You carry so much on those shoulders,” he murmured. “Always trying to save the world with your music. But have you ever thought about letting someone save you?”

His words struck a chord, the same way a dissonant note resolved into harmony. You turned to face him, your voice trembling. “I don’t need saving, Aventurine. I… I just need someone who understands.”

He knelt before you, his gaze locking onto yours with an intensity that made your breath catch. “Then let me understand. Let me be your audience, your partner in this chaotic symphony of life. You don’t have to carry this alone.”

For the first time in years, the weight on your chest eased. Aventurine’s presence was like a counterpoint to your melody—unexpected yet perfectly aligned.

Later That Night, The two of you sat together, your keyboard silent as the stars glimmered through the window. Aventurine held your hand, tracing small circles against your skin.

“Do you think music can really save people?” you asked, your voice barely audible.

“I think it already has,” he replied, his tone earnest. “It saved me the moment I heard yours.”

And in that moment, you knew—you weren’t alone in your song anymore.

[sekaitransparents]

Masterlist

Characters:

virtual singer

hatsune miku

kagamine len

kagamine rin

megurine luka

meiko

kaito

leo/need

ichika hoshino

saki tenma

honami mochizuki

shiho hinomori

more more jump

minori hanasato

haruka kiritani

airi momoi

shizuku hinomori

vivid bad squad

kohane azusawa

an shiraishi

akito shinonome

toya aoyagi

wonderlands x showtime

tsukasa tenma

emu otori

nene kusanagi

rui kamishiro

nightcord at 25:00

kanade yoisaki

mafuyu asahina

ena shinonome

mizuki akiyama

years:

2020

2021

2022

2023

2024

2025

stars:

1 stars

2 stars

3 stars

4 stars

birthdays (v1, v2, v3, v4)

extras:

merchandise

official art

2dmv

misc

events:

previous event transparents both pre and post third anniversary can be found on this blog

we also have various transparents that were requested or submitted that aren't recent. feel free to search for any other gacha name if you want to see if we have them, as we can't tag them all lol.

2023

a story where you are the star

the best picture wrap!

over here! over there! zookeeper experience!

the tone played on that day

2024 - january to june

next to the unchanging warmth

break down the wall

blacklight lens flare

take the best shot!

the courage to lead the kindness in my heart

the scars left behind with time

relax teatime

keep it steady let's aim for the star!

the first concerto

rise as one!

3900's colourful festival

knowing the unseen

parallel harmonies

whip the wimp girl!!

someday on the stage where flowers bloom

perspective for smile

wedding live with everyone

lead to shine more

reeling in the lights

OVER RAD SQUAD!!

june 2024 bloom festival

2024 - july to december

catch the criminal?! the tales of detective tenma

the night sky we saw that day, someday in the distant future

chase my ideal idol!

let it ring! beautiful sound!

with you at the sekai's beginning

wonderhorror~!? test of courage!

work out and fly! muscle training!

this moment with you!

carry these feelings! dream stage

4th anniversary bloom festival

where does the path of thorns go?

rekindle the flame

happy enjoy music!

once again, when the leaves change color

the power of regret

[do-you-ship-it-polls]

Which Project Sekai ship is the best

Propaganda under the cut!

HonaKana (Honami Mochizuki/Kanade Yoisaki)

AJSKDKFKFK they’re so cute and silly. mizuki said she thought Honami was Kanades wife in one of the 4koma. Honami just takes care of Kanade so kindly and they so obviously care about eachother and akskekdlakdfkcll i die i really explode about them

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The obvious reason would be the fact that they literally have an event where they get 'married' – but ADDITIONALLY!

both of them have a tendency to prioritize other people's well-beings above their own and both of them are breaking out of this habit - Honami's been teaching Kanade how to cook which is soooo cute and also goes to show how Kanade's been developing as a character

they made valentine's candles together <3 (with two other people but shh)

Kanade's friends have literally described them as being like a married couple

Kanade has a card with her and Honami that's called 'She who brings me warmth' and she specifically says she feels so at ease around Honami

during the marriage event Kanade picks out a bouquet for Honami as thanks (because Honami always brings her flowers to keep in her apartment) and she _purposefully_ picks out flowers that have meanings of abundant love, respect, and admiration???? incredible.

they're just so sweet and domestic <3333

RuiKasa (Rui Kamishiro/Tsukasa Tenma)

funny haha explosion duo (they have acted out the romeo and juliet proposal scene together) (rui volunteered for that) (god he is down bad)

AnHane (Azusawa Kohane/Shiraishi An)

Lesbians. You cannot tell me they aren't lesbians (pjsk fans you've seen the stories and clips) (non pjsk fans look at the image and tell me they aren't gay /nf /silly)

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whta if we were aibous and we were both girls........ Ha Ha just kidding........... unless

[playroom-sekaii]

I am a firm believer in transmasc Mafuyu, I can see him cutting his hair a bit after moving in with Kanade during a breakdown (he wears his hair akin to his Kitty card afterwards)

Little Mafuyu is too baby to really comprehend gender but he still hates when his hair is too long, he can feel that something isn't right but since he's too small to pinpoint that it's gender dysphoria he ends up just tugging on his hair and whining, he wants it off!!

Mizuki is the main one that cuts Mafuyu's hair (he was home alone during the breakdown when he cut it and they were the only one he could call for help, they helped fix his haircut once he calmed down), and if he's ever small while they do it they dote on him so hard, humming little tunes and gushing over how handsome he is. He's bad at expressing it but he's very at peace.

"Cutting my baby boy Yuki-kun's hair~ oh Mafuyu, you look so dapper! Such a lovely little man!"

"Aaa..." <- the happiest and tiniest he's been in ages

paci

[punchingballs]

YOU TAKE REQUESTS NOW AHIHISHDHAJDHSJGFSHAHABABABAHAHAHAHAHAG

I like your writing style so much

Can you write about a silent reader that's free therapy for pjsk characters shsushsufhaudhbrsbz Hhaahshdjahfbsa

I LOVE YOUR REQUEST AND THANK YOU SO MUCHHH

"A CRY OF HELP ONLY YOU CAN HEAR"

AKITO

"What are you doing?" Akito suddenly asked gruffly, staring down at you while you sat in loneliness at an abandoned shady alleyway.

"..." No response, Akito expected that, he sighed heavily before walking down the stairs and sitting beside you.

"Are you in a bad mood?" Once more, Akito asked another question, this time he expected you to reply.

"No." Your voice was monotonous, particularly unexpressive. However, soon, that stoic and unexpressive facial expression you had, cracked slowly into a warm smile.

Akito's eyes widened slightly, his lips parted a bit.

"I'm glad that you were looking for me..."

Akito got flashed. That smile, paired with your ocean-like eyes, the gruff boy couldn't muster a reply as he could only stare in wonder, despite the blinding light you radiated.

"Tch..." Akito clicked his tongue and looked away, not because of the rampant emotions inside his heart, rather... you're too bright for him.

A moth drawn to a flame he was.

"This is one of your spots right? I just guessed that you were going to go here."

"Your intuition's sharp." Akito commented.

"Akito... is much more clingy than he thinks he is."

"I'M NOT CLINGY!"

TOYA

"Do your fingers hurt?" You asked Toya, he tilted his head, confused... and yet a sense of warmth washed over him when you noticed that fact.

"N-... Yes." Toya pondered about lying, but ultimately, he couldn't lie under your deep gaze.

Unexpressive, yet warm, distant yet so close... Toya couldn't describe the aura you emanated. He wants to understand it, to understand how exactly do you do this to him?

"I see." You gently grabbed his hands, placing your soft and delicate fingers on his and started rubbing Toya's fingers, massaging them with slow movements.

Toya didn't respond. "You don't have to-"

"No, this isn't entirely selfless... You seem so bothered sometimes, I wanted to understand you." You replied back, halting what Toya would say and he made a heavy sigh.

"Bothered...?" Toya wanted you to clarify, and so you did.

"You... seem so bothered, as if something's burdening you."

Toya's eyes widened when he saw your unexpressive face crack into a small smile. "Oh..."

"You don't have to say what it is to me, but... I want to understand you... Open up more to me will you? I don't want you to betray yourself anymore."

... Toya's blood froze and he could only stare in shock, those words. Were... He couldn't describe it, but he felt happy, he felt euphoric even.

Toya couldn't croak out a reply, just a small hmm... And looking away with a red hue on his cheeks.

KANADE

(marry me pls)

"This isn't it, none of this is it..." Kanade softly said while glaring at her monitor with a determined yet fragile expression.

It earned a frown from you.

"... I can't save others with thi-" Kanade suddenly felt a tug on her hand, her left arm was raised up involuntary as from the shadows of her room, you sprang out and had a frown on your face.

"What are you doing?"

A few seconds of silence, gazing at the ground, Kanade finally calmed down. "I..."

"Music that can save people, isn't composed by having frustration in the heart." You added on, and Kanade continued to stare at the ground with pursed lips.

Your grip on her left arm loosened up causing the smaller girl to place her arms on her lap.

You sighed before patting her head, warmth infiltrated Kanade's body, her heartbeat hastened, her hand crept up to hold her chest, trying to calm down her rampaging heart.

"Come on, let's try again, this time I'll help you." You sat beside her, and stared at the monitor.

Perhaps composing a love song... isn't bad for now? Especially when right now, there's a light so bright beside her, she can see where the path is now...

MAFUYU

Silence, silence... Perhaps some crow noises would fit between the two of them.

"So what are your interests? What do you want to do?" Wearing a fake smile, Mafuyu gazed towards you, who was silently gazing at the mall, a bit overwhelmed.

"..." No response from you.

Mafuyu scratched her cheek a bit awkwardly. "You're overwhelmed?... You don't go outside often?"

You suddenly frowned. "You're bad at lying."

"Huh?" Surprised, Mafuyu tilted her head, she started sweating a bit. "Wh-what?"

"You're bad at lying."

"... I... What do you mean..?"

"You're bad at lying."

"I heard you the third time."

"Yes, literally what I mean, what are you hiding? I'd rather have someone say their true feelings, rather than mask a fake smile... and talk to me with fake positivity."

"... I found you."

Mafuyu's eyes widened and she suddenly felt tears welling up on her eyes. You found her? Found... her?

"At least now, your game of hide and seek is over, Mafuyu."

Mafuyu didn't know, how relieving it was for someone to notice, for someone to find her, despite her continuous descend to madness.

"..." That smile, that smile you have right now, Mafuyu could only stare in shock and silence. Fuzzy, she feels so... happy right now.

"You can tell me everything... But if you can't then..." You finally reached for her head and started patting her. "I'll always wait."

... Mafuyu slammed her head on to your chest, and let her tears stain your clothes, causing you to sigh but still have that warm smile.

[babyniigo]

gosh i’ve been seeing so much bad stuff with mizuki lately :( i’m not sure if you already have, but if not, could you maybe do some little mizuki hcs? i just wanna comfort her so bad 💔

Little Mizuki Headcanons ꒰ᐢ. .ᐢ꒱₊˚⊹

Sweetest baby girl ever! Regresses from 0-7 usually, but on harder days she’s more likely to be around 0-1 in a more baby headspace!

Very sweet and polite baby, unlike when she’s big, she’s way more shy and scared to express herself or her needs. Is very quiet and shy, so sometimes she clings to her caregivers shirts and just points at what she wants while avoiding eye contact ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა

Loooooves snacking! She has little Sanrio plates with dividers that her cgs fill up with yummy treats and she snacks on them happily ໒꒰ྀི˶˃ᆺ˂˶ ꒱ྀིა

When she’s struggling with dysmorphia, ena sits her down in front of a mirror and brushes her hair softly while having her repeat soft affirmations like:

“I am safe and cared for.”

“ ‘m Safe… an cared for.”

“Good girl, Princess! Now say: I’m beautiful and worth it.”

“I’m beautiful… n worthit.”

Her favorite pet names when she’s little are: babygirl, princess, sunshine, darling, Angel and bubbles! ♡

Whoever is caregiving for her, always makes sure to gently affirm her gender by little things such as:

“Does the princess want the my melody sippy cup? Or the Bon Bon ribbon sippy cup?”

“Sweet Angel, which pretty pink dress does my pretty pink girl want to wear today?”

“Come let nana hold you, my lovely girl.”

Her regression is mostly due to her childhood trauma; and even though her caregivers try to make it a positive experience for her, she tends to cry a lot when she’s in a little headspace especially when bad memories resurface on her little mind :(

When she’s crying, she does it very quietly to not alert/burden/worry anyone with herself,, however! Her caregivers are very perceptive and always running to the rescue! ໒꒰ྀིっ˕ -｡꒱ྀི১

When she’s crying, Mafuyu cradles her in his arms and rocks her gently while he walks around the room, soothingly singing to her and comforting her.

If she’s crying and Kanade finds her, she cuddles her in bed against the headboard, gently carding her hands through her hair and kissing her head while comforting her.

If Ena finds her crying, she picks her up and talks to her and cuddles her and gives her sooooo many kisses and blows little raspberries on her tummy until she’s a happy and content baby again

Back to fluff!!! She looooves stickers soo much! Whenever she’s done good she loves it when her caregivers put a tiny sticker on her overalls or notebooks, makes her so giddy and happy! ૮꒰ ྀི >⸝⸝⸝< ྀི꒱ა

Has names for allll her stuffed animals! Whoever her caregiver who’s putting her for a nap is, must kiss her and all of them goodnight on the forehead or else she can’t sleep! ૮ ྀི◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ ྀིა

Very silent and clingy baby! If she’s in a more toddler headspace she’s very chatty and even more clingy hehe!!!

Loves forehead kisses, always bends down her head shyly and taps her forehead waiting for a kiss!

Also loves cheek pecks! 🥺 she will Shyly tap on her cheek and wait for her caregivers to swoop her in their arms and drown her in kisses!!!!

They all love their baby girl sooo much ૮ ⸝⸝o̴̶̷᷄ ·̭ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝♡

PS: yes I’ve seen the stuff on twitter :( it’s very devastating to see people still misgender her and disregard her struggles and everything she went through just to be ignorant and refer to her as a boy :/

I’m glad the mizu5 event comes on October 11 which is the National coming out day ૮ ⸝⸝o̴̶̷᷄ ·̭ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝ <3 I’ll be so proud of my baby girl when she comes out to ena and niigo!! I hope everything goes well she deserves all the love and happiness in the world, she’s the sweetest ever ૮⸝⸝o̴̶̷᷄ _ o̴̶̷̥᷅⸝⸝ ྀིა♡ ♡ ♡ ♡

[yoisaki-kanade-n25]

11 38 39 57 60 61 69? Sorry if I'm being too invasive, I just really like you a lot.

@shizuku-moon-rabbit

11: W-well... Uhm.. Yes.. I do like someone..

38: I'm not sure.

39 (Miku number..!): No, i haven't had my first kiss yet..

57: A-a bit...

60: If the other person's fine with it, then sure..!

61: Uhm.... Y-yes... I.. like it...

69: Maybe..

[glupikrol]

uhm.... sekaistuck

Here's my analysis of n25's classpects, I also made art of them, and changed the godtier designs a bit to fit them better, made it a bit more personalized.

Kanade - Sylph of Time

Sylph is a class that heals with their aspect, or creates the aspect in others.

One of the symbols of the aspect of time is music.

So you probably know where I'm going with this, Kanade wishes to save as much people with her music as possible, no matter the cost, even if it takes a toll on her physical and mental health. She spends as much time as possible on composing, to get more time she consumes energy drinks and eats instant noodles.

Sylphs have natural understanding of their aspect - Kanade is a composing prodigy, at the age of 10 she was making better music than her father, and in area conversations it's revealed that she's a living timer, she knows exactly when the light will turn green because she counts the seconds and never misses.

When she promised Mafuyu to keep composing for her, it made Mafuyu keep trying to look for her true self. So in classpect terms, she literally created more time for her. Her music also brings comfort to thousands of n25 listeners, keeps them going. Kanade is a patient person too, she has no problem in giving Ena more time to work on her art if it means it'll be better, in this case she's the most understanding in n25.

Mafuyu - Maid of Void

Maid is a class that is burdened by their aspect, and is also 'made' of it. It's often interpreted as a class that creates their aspect for themselves.

The aspect of Void symbolises emptiness, nothingness, the unknown, shadows, secrets, lack of meaning, but also infinite potential and hidden talents. It's an aspect of people lost in the dark.

So the Maid of Void creates nothingness, is made of nothingness, and is burdened by nothingness, which sounds weird but actually fits Mafuyu very much. She literally created empty SEKAI from her true feelings - how cold and empty she feels. She also keeps n25 and her true feelings a secret from her mother. And regarding the burden of nothingness - she is tired of not knowing who she is, she is tired of coldness and emptiness she feels in her chest.

But I don't think Mafuyu hates what void represents, she likes the calm and quiet of empty SEKAI, she cares about her empty aquarium, she does find some comfort in nothingness, it's just the fact that there's too much of it.

But it's not all sad and gloom, Void is hidden potential and talents, which Mafuyu has tons of, to the point it makes Ena jealous.

Ena - Prince of Space

Prince is someone who works hard and relies on outside validation. Basically Ena.

Space is associated with arts and crafts, it's about creating material stuff you can touch.

I don't have a coherent analysis here, just trust me bro. I really can't explain my thought process here as well as I want, so I'm just leaving you the short classpect description, check out the sources if you wanna know more about the classpect.

Mizuki - Knight of Heart

Knights are people who put up a front to hide their weaknessses and insecurities. They're also the guardian of their aspect.

Heart is an aspect of identity, Heart players live rich inner lives and are invested in self-discovery, they tend to be dramatic and often struggle with being misunderstood.

Mizuki does everything they can to hide their problems under their bubbly personality, they don't want to be too bothersome to others. When Ena is worried about them, Mizuki feels like they're a bad person. They've been hurt in the past, and struggle with anyone getting too close, essentially, guarding their Heart.

It may be hard to notice at first, but Mizuki is one of the most emotionally intelligent characters in the cast. They did self-discovery, they do self-retrospection, and in turn they understand other people better. They're quick to pick up when something is wrong, or when someone feels down - they see the little things. Mizuki was the first character to notice mafumom's weird behavior too.

Sources:

@classpect-navelgazing - My main source, I recommend checking them out because their theory is different than the classic view of the classpect and is pretty interesting. Very well made too! I think their aspects descriptions are better than the canon ones lmao.

@dahniwitchoflight - I used some of the elements of their theory too - most notably the bits about Maid and Sylph class. Good to check them out if you're interested!

The extended zodiac quiz - It has a lot of problems and I don't consider most of it canon, but the moons description and time's description are fine imo.

These sources are condtradictadory, yes, and while reading them you might notice that I didn't stick to some of the descriptions that much, but doing this little analysis I kept in mind that in the end the classpects are more about the vibe than anything else (but also not really, you see, it's complicated)

[analyticalstarz]

I think we should talk about Leo/Need more

During middle school, Ichika had to deal with Saki being hospitalized then having a falling out with Honami and Shiho directly after due to Shiho and Honami both becoming victims of bullying and not wanting to drag Ichika down with them. Ichika didn't even get an explanation as to why Honami and Shiho were leaving her either, she just got told "I don't want to be your friend anymore." and it got left at that. Even though Ichika still attempted to reach out, she got little in response and became extremely lonely as a result. Ichika blamed herself for the groups falling out and carried a lot of guilt about it for years; she felt listless and empty. She felt even guiltier since she was hiding the fact from Saki, who was already lonely and isolated enough as it was due to being hospitalized. Ichika spent 2 years all alone, no other friends, trying to get Shiho and Honami to talk to her, but all her efforts were fruitless. All she wanted were her childhood friends back During middle school, Honami was a big people-pleaser due to the overwhelming fear of being hated by other people. She was bullied because she had the tendency to befriend and show sympathy for people in different friend groups and avoided picking sides, to the point that she was accused of sucking up to others to avoid being hated and was called two-faced. She was treated as an outcast in her class. Once the next school year rolled around, she was afraid of being bullied again by her new classmates and only hung out with a small group of people, and subsequently, she started avoided Ichika and Shiho. Even after she started hanging out with that small group of people, Honami became wary that she'd be ostracized and hated all over again if she even made one small mistake. In one of Kanade's side stories, Honami admitted that she had the desire to "disappear" before. During middle school, Shiho preferred solitude and being by herself. She'd reject her classmates invitations to hang out, and ultimately, people started talking bad about her due to her aloof demeanor. Shiho didn't mind the gossip or rumors, but once people started talking bad about Ichika as well by default since she hung out with Shiho, Shiho pushed Ichika away and distanced herself from her in order to protect her. Since Honami was being bullied as well during that time, the two gradually grew apart once they both decided to stop interacting with the friend group. Shiho was in the light music club during middle school, and got frustrated due to the members lack of work and dedication. Once she brought it up, the club got into an argument which subsequently caused them to split up, only further worsening Shiho's reputation. She didn't mean to hurt either Ichika or Honami, all she wanted to do was protect them from getting hurt by her bad reputation. During middle school, Saki was hospitalized all throughout the duration of it due to her weak body and chronic illness. She was bedridden for days on end, and was extremely isolated and lonely. She questioned why she was the way she was, and was extremely jealous of people who could experience life normally. She never got to experience things like playing tennis, travelling or even going to school due to her poor health. Outside of immediate family, Ichika was the only one to visit her in the hospital, which she deeply appreciated. Whenever anyone visited her, Saki put on a brave face and smile so she wouldn't further upset anybody, despite how empty and hurt she was deep down inside. She'd spend her days crying without anyone there to comfort her, and often worried that she'd never get better. While in the hospital, she was completely oblivious to the groups falling out since nobody ever told her, and she only realized after being discharged from the hospital. Instead of making fun of Leo/Need for not being the most visually striking and having "boring" personalities, I think you should actually read their group stories, cause all of their lore is really interesting

[elysiaheaven]

hellooo!!! i dont know if youre accepting requests but feel free to not write this one if you are unable to!! 🫧

maybe.. ronin with a reader who is like yoisaki kanade from prsk?

https://projectsekai.fandom.com/wiki/Yoisaki_Kanade heres her wiki for a brief reading about her character if you are willing to do this! have a great day ^__^

When you were young, your mother’s lullabies were the only melodies that could soothe your restless mind. But those songs faded into silence when she fell ill and passed away, leaving a gaping void in your heart and your home. It was just you and your father now—a musician who scraped by on commissions. Music became the only way the two of you communicated, filling the spaces words couldn’t.

Your father, though worn down by grief, saw the brilliance in you early on. "You’re blessed by music," he’d say with a weary smile, his hands calloused from years of playing. He found hope in your compositions, and as you grew older, your melodies began to replace the conversations you never had. Music became your lifeline.

One cold evening, your father struggled to compose a piece for a contest. No matter how many times he adjusted the notes, they refused to fit, like a puzzle missing its final piece. Watching his frustration build, you hesitated, but in the end, you offered a section of your own. His tired eyes lit up with cautious hope, and he used it.

To your surprise, the song won the competition, and soon it was everywhere—playing on radios, in commercials, in cafes. But as the accolades poured in, something shifted in your father. The song’s success rested heavily on the part you had written, and clients began demanding music in the same style—something he couldn’t reproduce on his own.

He threw himself into his work, driven by pride, desperation, and guilt. Day after day, night after night, he composed relentlessly, his body breaking under the pressure to keep up with the spark you.

After that, you wanted to write a song. But, there was no inspiration.

After that, you met him.

He was your muse.

You sit in your cluttered apartment, the low hum of your computer fan blending with the unfinished melody you’ve been cycling through for hours. The notes taunt you from the screen—nearly perfect, but not quite enough. It’s always like this. Every sound you create feels like it’s missing something, slipping through your fingers just as you’re about to grasp it. Your body aches from exhaustion, and the cold air from the cracked window brushes against your skin, reminding you of how little you’ve slept.

You don’t have time to care. This song has to be perfect. It has to save someone, or what’s the point?

The door clicks open without a knock, and you barely register it. Only one person ever shows up unannounced like this. You hear his boots first—heavy, deliberate—and then the familiar clink of metal against leather as he drags his crowbar lazily in his grip.

"Still at it, huh?" Ronin’s voice cuts through the room like a rough, playful chord. He leans against the doorframe, his plum-colored hair spilling messily from under his black beanie. A lazy grin spreads across his lips, but you know better than to mistake it for kindness. His sharp gaze sweeps over your unkempt figure, cataloging every missed meal, every hour of lost sleep.

You don't bother looking up. "I’m almost done." Your fingers hover over the keys, trembling slightly. You’ve been saying that for days now, and he knows it.

Ronin strolls over with that familiar, unhurried saunter, like he’s got all the time in the world to spend on you—or break you, if the mood strikes him. He crouches next to your chair, his arm draping lazily over the backrest.

"Y’know, darlin," he whispers, close enough for his breath to tickle your ear, "if this song’s supposed to save people, it’s doing a pretty bad job of saving you."

You wince, the guilt settling like lead in your chest. You’ve spent so long trying to atone for what it was your father's hard work—every song, every sleepless night, is your way of making things right. But here Ronin is, unbothered and always five steps ahead, poking at the cracks you try so hard to hide.

"Ronin," you mutter, "I don’t have time for this."

He hums, amused, leaning closer until his lips graze your temple. "Sure, sure. I know. You’re saving the world one sad little melody at a time." There’s a hint of mockery in his tone, but beneath it, there’s something else—something darker, harder to pin down. "But what if I don’t let you?"

You glance at him now, your tired eyes locking with his. That smirk of his widens. He’s enjoying this—teasing you, watching how far he can push until you finally snap.

"Go home, Ronin."

He laughs, soft and low, and it sends a shiver down your spine. "Nah. I think I’ll stay."

Before you can react, Ronin slips a hand under your chin, tilting your face toward him with deliberate slowness. His grip is gentle, but there’s a warning in the way his fingers linger. "If you won’t stop for yourself," he murmurs, his eyes gleaming with something dangerous, "then I’ll stop you."

You open your mouth to protest, but he presses a quick kiss to your forehead, cutting you off. It’s not sweet—it’s possessive, like he’s staking a claim.

"You’re mine, after all," he whispers, brushing his thumb over the curve of your jaw. "And I don’t share what’s mine with some stupid song."

The words hit like a dissonant chord—jarring, unsettling, but somehow... comforting. Ronin’s chaos has always been like that—off-kilter, unpredictable, but weirdly grounding in a way that makes the world feel less lonely.

With a smirk still curling at his lips, Ronin pulls away, yanking the power cord from your computer. The screen goes black. Your heart lurches, panic clawing at your chest.

"Ronin!" you shout, your voice hoarse with frustration, but he just chuckles.

"Relax, sweetheart," he says, tucking his crowbar into his belt like this is all some grand joke. "Song’ll still be there tomorrow. You, on the other hand..." He drapes an arm over your shoulder, pulling you into his side like it’s the most natural thing in the world. "You’ve got about ten minutes before you pass out from exhaustion."

You want to be mad. You should be mad. But the warmth of his body against yours and the steadiness of his presence steal the fight from you.

"You can fight me tomorrow," Ronin murmurs, his voice soft but laced with that familiar edge. "For now, sleep."

And for once, you listen. Because maybe—just maybe—letting someone else carry the weight doesn’t feel so bad. Not when that someone is Ronin.

[rekino2114]

I probably shouldn’t do this since i got another (anonymous) request pending buuuttt….

A ult. Therapist reader that finds out about Kanade’s… crazy tendencies, but fell so hard for her and is too deep into the love hole that they try to mellow her out a bit instead of the responsible thing and call the cops

You discover Kanade otonokoji's true self

Kanade didn't want this to happen. Her crimes shouldn't have been discovered by anyone, and her true self should have been seen only by people who were about to die. She never wanted you to find out about this, You would have hated her if you did, and she couldn't have handled that. She loved you too much to bear the thought of you hating her and she definitely couldn't have killed you.

So imagine her surprise when you told her you knew about her murders and that you weren't gonna do anything about it, because you loved her. She was surprised for probably the first time in her life. That just confirmed to her that you were soulmates destined to be together forever. She immediately hugged you and started muttering about how much she loved you while you started to understand what you were really gonna deal with

So now you know your girlfriend is a yandere......congrats? She kinda acts as usual with you just less shy. She kisses you way more aggressively so she can show you just how much she loves you and constantly rambles on about how amazing you are while basically drooling and fangirling incredibly. She also did that before, but now she does that in front of you instead of alone in her room

With your ultimate you know very quickly when she's thinking about killing someone so you try to control it, if it's people who she thinks are gonna get in the way of your relationship you're quick to reassure that no one is gonna do that, and that you love her too much to let that happen even to the point of making them leave so you can talk to her. (She spares your friends as she hates seeing you sad)

But if it's someone who hurt you or made you feel bad, then there's no one stopping her. That person is gonna die no matter how much you try to calm her down. No one makes her darling cry and gets away with it. She managed to manipulate convince you into letting it slide, though, since she's doing it for you and most of the people she kills were bad people anyway

She would NEVER hurt you, though, and she makes sure you know that, the last thing she wants is for you to be scared of her or even worse leave her so she always treats you gently and reassures you of her love for you. Literally nothing could stop her from loving you and she would never do anything to cause her precious love any kind of harm

Kanade is actually very happy about how this turned out, while she would prefer for this to be completely a secret, the fact that you still love her despite all that just solidified her obsession. She is going to love you forever and ever and she couldn't be happier that you feel the same