#“i loved him” if yoy did then why did you break up with me lol

[muttsona]

its always morally correct to wish death on your ex

[blodgmonster]

Thoughts on the second half of my Court of Silver Flames reread.

--"only a desperate fool would don the Mask" shut UP, Amren. I think you've insulted Nesta quite enough. Thank you. You were her only friend and called her a waste of life. Thank the Mother she found new, BETTER friends who actually like her.

-- " Never again would she be weak. Never again would she be at someone's mercy. Never again would she fail. Never again, never again, never again." QUEEN SHIT

-- Gwyn and Emerie are the best

-- Nesta struggling with meditation is a mood.

-- "I am the rock against which the surf crashes." Nice.

-- the blades that Nesta makes are BADASS. "I wouldn't eat a piece of toast if she made it." Shut UP, Amren. And again, we have Rhys withholding information from an Archeron supposedly for her own good.

--"I did nothing to earn that power...it is a tool to defend my people, not to attack others." Finally Rhys speaks some sense. "Nesta makes you unstoppable. Especially if she were to march into battle wearing the Mask." SHUT UP, AMREN OMG. Again, you treat Nesta like absolute SHIT but want to use her as a weapon. Fuck off.

-- Nesta vs. Tampon is FANTASTIC. The way he flinches away from her finger lol.

-- Nesta has absolutely every right to be pissed off that they kept this information from her. They KEEP hiding important things from people for "their own good" and it's bullshit. And her abandonment issues flaring up knowing that they discussed her back and her former friend deemed her unworthy, ugh it hurts my heart.

-- I'm glad SOMEONE fucking told Feyre about the baby most likely KILLING HER. It was SICK that Rhys took away her agency by not telling her what's going on with her own body. Why did the healer tell him and not her in the first place? Cassian thinks Nesta told her to hurt her. NO. SOMEONE NEEDED TO TELL HER. She was saying "look! Look what these people you love are doing? They hid something important from me and THEY HID LIFE CHANGING NEWS FROM YOU TOO!" And she had every goddamn right. If I was Feyre Rhys wouldn't even have a chance to get pissed at Nesta, he'd be too busy fending off my own verbal attack because HE was the one in the wrong.

-- Nesta breaking down by the lake GUTS ME

-- I saw a post on here saying that Cassian doesn't actually love Nesta. He wanted a mate, but not her. I do think it's shitty that he doesn't SAY he loves her. But his actions speak volumes. I don't think he's good at expressing himself verbally, but I DO think he loves Nesta.

-- Ataraxia aka Inner Peace. Fan-fucking-tastic, Nesta, you absolute queen.

-- "Which death-god are you?" Lanthys being scared as hell of her and her blade. Badass to the core. "Yoy are the one the sea and the wind and the earth whispered of." And then he wants her as his queen. Your fave could never lol

-- She kills Lanthys and "strange black blood" spurts from him. VALG. Someone else had black blood too, was it the Weaver? Or wait...wait...he's a Daglan which is an Asteri. But the black blood. And the fact that Nesta sees the Daglan with beasts that sound like Wyrdhounds and that look like the carved beasts in Hewn City. And Rhys' beast form is vaguely described as looking like the carved beasts in the Hewn City. Is his form a wyrdhound!??

-- "Cassian straightened before Rhys could even speak. 'You're not going to use her.'" Buddy, pal, that's what he DOES.

-- Nesta should NOT have given Rhys Artaraxia.

Okay. I have another novella of commentary going on here and I KNOW I'll have a lot to say about the last quarter of the book. I guess there will be a part three.

[pilotheather]

ok liveblog ok im watching on my work laptop bc persy is BUGGERED so no screenshots but broooo

im going to VOMIT OH M Y GODDDDDD

FUCK OFFF WHONIVERSE STOP IT. I DONT EVEN WANT THE WHONIVERSE BUT

THIS IS VOMIT INDUCING WHY IS HE GREENSCREENED INTO SPACE YOURE SICK GET THAT WHITE BOY BACK IN THE BOX

THIS IS SO DRAMATIC AND FOR WHATTTHI DONNA HI BABYGIRL HIII KISS KISS I

why am i actually welling up this is so cringe shut up IM

MURRAY GOULD YOU FUCKING RUBBED YOUR PUSSY STINK INTO THIS OPENIONG AND FOR WHAT ITS SOOO GOOD KILL MYSELF KILL MYSELF KILL MYSELF NO

my wonderful little etsy girl hi rose youre so adorbies i

HEY BRO WHAT THE FUCKING HELL HELP

DONNA IM GOING TO FUCKING VOMIT

GRANDADDDDD NOOO STOP IM GOING BERNARD CRIBBINS 😢IM HAVING A MENTY

HELP HELP SHE JUST FUCKING KICKED HIS ASSSSSS HELP IM GOING TO LOSE MY MIND SKINNY MAN . GET HIMDDONNA GET HIM GET HIM GET HIM

DONNAAAAA 😭she gave it all away?

why does that woman look so familiar im sure ive seen so many

donna is so real unemployed girl realness good for her

and she said trans rights

OK AGAIN WHO IS THIS WOMAN WHY IS SHE SO FAMILIAR. SHIRLEY. LIKE WHY IS SHE SO FAMILIAR

i feel like some of the side characters acting is wooden i can never tell if its just me or what like is it just me i feel like its david being the doctor and then random ppl like this woman whos just reading her lines out BUT sometimes i get this and i feel like its just me being autistic do yoi know what i mean like im just missing some flow bc hald the time other ppl dont pick up on it AM I . IS THAT STUPID

WHY IS THE BUDGET SO FUCKING FAT

BRO UM...

GIRL . I NEED YOU TO GET OUT OF THERE

SHIRLS. MA'AM.

rose dearest poppet- AWWWW HER LITTLE SHED IS SO DARLINGGGGGGGG

IM SORRY I HATE BEEP THE MEEPS DESIGN

I SAID IT I STAND BY IT

IM VOMITING

donna is such a good mam too i think im going to wee myself 😭. she said this CYCLEEE WILL BE BROKENNNNNNNNNNNNNN

SYLVIA NOBLE FOR ALL YOUR FLAWS THE FUCKING "YOUUUUUUUU" SHE PUT HER WHOLE FUCKING CUNT INTO THAT

GET OFF ME YOU SPACE RAT

DONNA YOURE MAKING ME LOSE MY FUCKING MIND

IM GOING TO PISS MYSELF...

STUART IS SO REAL

CAN WE KEEP STUART AROUND

WE COULD SELL MAD PADDINGTON FOR A MILLION QUID

VOMIT

EVERYTHING SHE SAID IS SO FUNNY

"i loved that man" WHY IS HE SO FUCKI-

HE'S NOT DEAD

IM SORRY SHES MAKING ME FUCKING LOSE IT I CANT FUCKING COPE HER

"Right i know her"

OK SHUT UP ITS CUTE I'LL KILL MYSELF IN FROTN OF EVERYONE

DOCTOR GENDER CONFIRMED PRONOUNS 😭?

"this lot are on my side"

NOT THE HOUSE BRO

THE GIRLS ARE FIGHTTTTINGGG

BEEP THE MEEP

WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT UCKING SHIELD THING SIR HOW DID YOU DO THAT

COME ON THE MEEP

HER FUCKING HOUSE DOCTOR HEY DOCTOR

THANK YOU BOB THE BUILDER.

SIR WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO HER FUCKING HOUSE

WE ARE BREAKING IN

SIR

what the fuck are they feeding murray gould like sir this shit is bonkers yo

WHATARE THEY PUTTING IN THE FUCKING

seeing him drive feels fucking insane sir ?

YEAH AND NOW WHERE ARE YOU GOING DICKHEAD

CORNIEST MAN EVER IN MY FUCKING LIFE

MEEEP

MEEP THE BEEEP YOU ARE ON FUCKING TRIAL

THEIR FUCKING VOICE IM ACTUALLY GOING TO FUCKING KILL MYSELF WHYS THAT MAKING ME ABSOLUTELY INSANE

well now but meep is but a gender neutral girl . decapitating someone is just-

MIRIAM MARGOYLES WOMAN

FUKCING HELL SERGEANT NOOOOOOO MY FUCKING BUG BOYS GET THAT FUCKING SHIT UP

DONNA FUCK THAT FUCKING RAT UP

HER INTUIITTTIONNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN THE WOMAN KNOWS SHE KNEWWWWW

HELP

HE FELL LIKE A SACK OF POTATOES

HELP HELP HELP THE WAY THEYRE ALL JUST LOOKING AT HIM FUCK ME

IM JUST PASSING BY ALRIGHT

YOU ACT LIKE YOU KNOW HIM

right ok no no stop im going to fucking sobbing donna babygirl im going to fucking sob my HEART OUTTTTTT WHY- WHY DO THEY KEEP MENTIONING TH.....

ok im going to fucking lose it- the sort of thing you would do um

um um

hail to the meep or whatever lol

SHIRLEY you kind of ate that ....

FUCKING HELL IM GOING TO LOSE IT AT HER SOUPED UP WHEELCHAIR HEY DONNA

DONNA SAID FUCK THIS- THE DOCTOR FUCK THISSSS SHE KNOWSSSS STUART BESTIE BOYYY

TH

WHAT IS

WHAT IS THIS

OH MY FGOD HIS SKANKY LITTLE WAISTCOATTT AWWWW WOARW

i love it its been deadlocke di love it when shes deadlocked like fuck no my overpowered plot advancerer hasb-

THE WAY SHES LOOKING AT HIMM BROOO OK YESSSS YESS EYSS GIRLL LETS DO THISSS YESSSSSSS

ACTIVATE THE DAGGER DRIVE

BRO THE TECHNO BABBLE REALNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS

THEYRE MELTING LONDON. SHAME. AH WELL. THERE'S OTHER CITIES. i think

i think

i think

oh my god is he going to wake her up

oh my god babygirl reunited no stop fuck me fuck off she

SHE

DONT SAY OKAY HEY GIRLY POPS

FUCK ME FUCKING HELLL

THATS RIGHT- CLSSSIC FUCKING DAVID TENANNT SCREAM BITCH CAN YOU QUIT HAVING A MENTY FUCKING B-

WHY DID SHE JUST REGENERATE

HI

TH

THAT FRINGE FUCKING FLICK- I GAVE AWAY MY MONEY SHES GOING TO MAKE ME LOSE MY MINDDDDDDDDD TECHNOBABBLEEE THIS BITCHHH

OK YESSS YES YESS SAY FUCKING WHATEVER #GIRL JUST SAY BULLSHIT WE CAN SAVE IT

GET UNMEEPED- HOW DID THE FUCKING GROUND JUST SEAL UP WHYS THAT MAKING ME CRACK UP

DONNA

IS SHE LIKE

HEY DONNA GET BACK UP GIRL

ok it does make me tear up though seeing them together like that- WHAT WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN WHAT-R

ROSE?

NOT TO STEREOTYPE BUT LITERALLY EVERY TRANSGIRL I CAN- BNONBINARY IM GOING TO LOSE MY MIND

sorry im like

I feel a genuine sense of dread because this is going to be mocked to high heaven all over the press but at least they fucking made a stand i guess its kinda difficult

but like im going to kind of fucking lose my mind i dont know i wasnt expecting that help its so unintentionally funny but also ..... ok its like camp as fuck. thats the thing. im actually usually completely not a fan of like- really, really upfront conversations of stuff like that in tv shows if that makes sense? but its like... at least with the current vibe in the uk im like fucking sure. yep. just say it with your chest if youre gonna do it why not. sure.

ITS A SHAME YOURE NOT A WOMAN ANY MORE

THEY SAID WE'RE WOMEN SO WE DGAF HELP FUNNY AS FUCKING HELL

THE HELL DO YOU MEAN CYBER DOG?

WE JUST FUCKING WALKING PAST CYBERDOG?

;LET HER SEE INSIDE

WHAT - IT LOOKS SO RETRYO INSIDE -

BUT NOT HIM DID HE JUST CALL HE-

OHHH FUCKING HELL

OK HERES MY HOT TAKE IM NOT ALWAYS THE BIGGEST FAN OF THE CHROME INTERIOR- OK NEVERMIND ITS GOT FUCKING DISCO LIGHTS HE GOT HIS FUCKING LED STRIPS OF AMAZON

with cold milk sorry am i being stupid or-

did she just DONNA

IM KIND OF LOSING MY MIND

AND IS DOCTOR WHO CONFIDENTIAL BACK???? YESSS YES YES YES YESSSSSSSSSSSSS WINNER WINNERRRRRRR

[seven-waters-hc]

Hi Sep!

I would like to request the same fight idea like Sanji and Shanks but for Marco with a female reader!

Why do I have the feeling this is turning into a series? It's just so so good and I love to read your ideas!

Thanks a lot (◍•ᴗ•◍)✧*。

Of course 💐!

[thank you so much (´；ω；`)]

Fighting

<scenario>

<Marco x Fem!reader>

<~590 words>

Marco hadn’t been paying attention to you at all lately and it was starting to get on your nerves. You knew he was usually buried in work as a first division commander, but he always made time for you two. But now his routine was waking up, working, and going to bed. It’s been like this for 3 days now and you were starting to wonder if he was simply lying about the amount of work he had so he could get away from you.

On the fourth day, you decided to ask him what was going on. You enter his small office and watch him fiercely writing on papers, passing them from one mountain to the next. You come up to his desk and lean onto his chair.

“Marco, how much more work do you have?”

He doesn’t even pause to look at you.

“A lot-yoi.”

“Would you maybe come out for lunch?”

You hear him huff out a small sigh.

“Maybe if I get this finished. Could you please leave right now?”

Well, that kind of hurt.

“Sorry, I’ll leave.”

And with that, you quickly exit the office. You knew it was selfish of you to bother him but you just loved spending time with him. You do whatever chores you have around the ship while talking with the rest of the crew throughout the day, waiting for night to come so you could go to bed with Marco.

When the time finally comes and the sun had set, you make your way to bed and wait for Marco. Although you don't see him often in these recent days, you still had your nights together. You wait for Marco until you fall asleep- without him. And when you wake up he isn’t there either.

You were fed up with him ignoring you. Getting up, you once again enter his office.

“Marco, quit this. What is with you suddenly diving headfirst into all of this work and then not coming to bed last night? Are you tired of me?”

You watch him put his pen onto his desk and turn around to look at you. Did you hit the nail on the head? Had he finally gotten sick of you and wanted to break up with you?

“What the hell were you talking about? All I did was fall asleep in my office. I’ve been stuck on a huge project. Will you quit this?”

“You've never had this much work in all the time I’ve been with you, surely it must be something I did?”

“No, but it’s about to be with all of your weird paranoia. Look, once I’m done with this work in a bit, I’ll do whatever you want. Now let me finish.”

You walk out feeling like an idiot. Maybe he was just swamped in work. You read and wait for him. Just as you're about to finish the book, he comes in and lays down beside you.

“Sorry that I started ignoring you out of nowhere, that project was very stressful.”

God, you felt like a jerk.

“I’m sorry for overreacting, that was immature of me.”

You crawl up to him and plant yourself right next to his side, just glad to have him to yourself again. He puts an arm around you and picks up the book you were reading, putting it on the bedside table.

You two lay there for the longest time until dinner comes around. The food never tasted better now that your boyfriend was with you again.

Sorry I’ve been neglectful about posting, school opened back up to 4 days a week and it was a huge change lol. Anyways, I’ll make sure to write as much as I can because that's the whole reason I started this blog. Summer is very soon though so I’m pretty stoked for that.

[saltynsassy31]

Wassup, it's me again. I hope you are having a good day!

You said you write about Swatchon as well? I hope i remember correctly.

If so, then why not have him listen to Spamton's crazy sales idea? Just something wholesome. He somehow had to become Spamtons role model after all?

Ah hi welcome back! It's a delight to hear from you again ^^ especially after I just woken up gjskvja love seeing you come back here (sorry I took a while to respond btw, got home late and slept alot lol)

That is a lovely idea and yes! I do qrite swatchon stuff

Also I wasn't sure what point in time I should put the fic, before, during or after he started talking to the phone guy so I had to think HARD on it so this took me longer then I'd like to admit 😅

But I have decided to make it after the phone guy shit, it is also inspired by a drawing I saw where spamton was kinda like swatch's little assistant? You'll see I guess gksjgja

(This completely went off the rails but I had fun writing it so I hope you enjoy it as much as I did ^^)

Ok enough rambling let's get to the fanfiction bkdkgka

If you asked him, Swatch would never admit it but he really did like listening to Spamton ramble on about his sales pitches

Sure, it was annoying sometimes when he kept following them around while he did his errands and wouldn't stop talking but at the same time it was quite charming of him in a weird way

"SWATCH! [buddy]] I THINK I DID IT, I HAVE THE PERFECT [[deal of a life time!]]"

Spamton said entering through the backdoor of the color café during swatch's break

Swatch put his mug down on the table and looked down at Spamton "really? And what might that be"

Spamton climbed up the table and started to tell his idea to them. Swatch carefully listened to him talk excitedtly with a small smile

"You know, out of all you've told me so far I think this is the best one yet, truly. If I could I might even hire you to do sales for me" he said with a chuckle as he took a sip from his mug

That stunned Spamton for a moment "WAIT, REALLY?"

Swatch, realising what he had just said, stopped mid drinking and blushed slightly. He put the mug down and quickly composed themselves

"Ahem, well, yes. During your stay here you were really good at what you did, I would be lying if I said I wasn't shocked from your departure" he quickly said

Spamton took a moment to let the information process through his mind "SO YOY WOULD MAKE [[A sweet deal!]] WITH ME?" He said honestly a bit excited

"Mmm, well yes, if there wasn't the fact the Queen banished you from her palace. You only come around when she isn't around"

Swatch was right, even if they'd want to make a deal it's not like he could. Spamton looked down a bit, honestly kind of disappointed in himself

Oh how he wished he hadn't made that deal with *him* but if he hadn't would he have really been this close to swatch?

Noticing how his friend seemed a bit to quiet for comfort they added "but I could arrange something with her, she's crazy but she isn't mean" Soamton gave them a doubtful look, and if they were being completely honest with himself they doubted themselves

Wich is why he adds "well, she can be nice at times if we do the right thing is what I'm trying to say, she means well"

"I'll figure some thing out"

With that, a small light of hope formed in Spamton's eyes and whatever doubt Swatch had with this idea was swept away and it made it all worth it

"ARE YOU SURE YOU WONT GET TIRED OF [[a little worm]] LIKE ME? CONSTANTLY MAKING [[the best deals in town!]] -UGH" Spamton groaned, annoyed by this advertisement tics interrupting his speech

"Spamton, look at me" he did as so "I let you ramble on about your newest pitch almost everyday and hear you talk everytime you decide it's a good time to do so"

"Do you honestly think I'll get annoyed by something I'm already used to? And if I am being completely honest, I find it quite charming, I missed your energy around here ever since you got kicked out"

Spamton smiled, this what the kindest thing Swatch had ever said to him, the nicest thing ANYONE ever told him

"Right, I need to get back to my shift though. I'll go talk to the Queen and see how it goes"

With that, they parted ways. Spamton went back to his littlentrashcan behind the shop

Could it really be that easy though? Whenever something he thought would be good never worked out for him, it was to good to be true

But he had to try, right?

So he waited, and waited. He knew it wouldn't just be done in the next hour or next day, but anxiety ate him up like a fine dish as he could not sleep

He kept looking and retouching his pitch to make it perfect, it had to be! What if he needed to impress the Queen too! He couldn't mess this up, he couldn't fail like he did Mike

He didn't want to loose the only friend he had, but he always messed up, it would only be a matter of time he would loose it all over again and-

"SPAMTON!" A voice called out wich promptly made him look up from the trash can, it was Swatch

"Gosh, I've been trying to call your attention for the past 10 minutes, are you ok? You were shaking and mumbling to yourself"

"I AM FEELING [[Like a shooting start!]] BETTER THAN EVER, MAY I SAY" Spamton said standing up to climb out the trash can "WHAT IS A [[pretty bird]] LIKE YOU DOING HERE?"

Soemtin mentally cursed himself at his tic saying things he didn't want to say but kept his usual smiling face as Swatch did not seem to mind

"I hope you haven't forgotten of my proposition" Swatch said chuckling "I talk to the Queen yesterday-" yesterday? It's already been a day already? He hasn't noticed "-and she came to me with an answer today saying she'd let you stay"

Spamton was surprised by the news, eyes so made it looked like they would pop "in one condition though"

Right, this was a deal he was making, that ment something out of him aswell

"AND WHAT THAT [[Special condition]] MIGHT BE?"

"Well, I had proposed that you worked under my wing as a, well, intern of sorts. She gave me a week to work with you and by the end of that she would come check how things are going"

Spamton gleamed at that, he felt his heart explode out of joy. He wasn't just getting a job but a job WITH Swatch, the one he most admired, that inspired him so much that he tried to commit identity theft.... Well that wasn't his brightest moment but the point still stands

The person he loved the most, but he wasn't about to admit that

"Of course, if you try to go to the basement again and try to take the disc this deal is complete nullified"

Spamton gulped at that, right, he had still been trying to get that disk for *him* even though it had already ended the deal with him, the reason he was living in the dumpster

He thought he could still prove to him he could be worthy enough for freedom! But if this works out, he won't be needing it to help him anymore, right?

"NO WORRIES [[my fiend]] I WILL NOT ENTER THE BASEMENT TO GET THE [[sweet, sweet deal!]] NOT WITH THIS [[deal of a life time!]]"

Swatch chuckled "Good, now let's get you inside and clean, your work starts today"

Spamton blinked a few times shocked "right, yeah, Queen wants you to start right away. You know how impatient she can be at times"

"NO NO, COMPLETELY UNDERSTAND" he cringed a bit at his bad grammar but ignored it as Swatch took him inside

Maybe things wouldn't be so bad after all

Ah this went a bit off the rails with the prompt but i couldn't help myself

But yeah, hope you liked it and remember you can still ask for more fic prompts, anyone who sees this

I want to keep writing, this has been really fun ^^

[aamaimonn]

Hewwo~ I'm here for the YOI ask?? Numbers 2, 5 and 17... It's nice to see someone from a fandom we both love (JSHK) also like the same anime lol~~ HAVE A NICE DAY AND THANKS A LOT! 😆💛

Aaaah yesss!! I was really into yoi doing its run! The fond memories and I feel like I’m reliving it again with jshk!

『yuri on ice asks game! 』 

2. what was your first reaction to the kiss?

Okay! So ep.7 was my reason for dropping the dub and going to sub. Beforehand I was three weeks behind because the dub was and I was just casually watching it. But I was in my third-period class when everyone was screaming about ep.7 and a classmate of mine overheard me talking about it. She aggressively (in a sweet way!) told me to get caught up and watch ep. 7 because it’s gonna be important. 

So I did! And well I actually ended up watching it in French class and well! I was so shocked. They actually had a mlm kiss...in a sports anime!! I was so shook that I had to look up the genre again to make sure it wasn’t a yaoi. My gay heart was so happy. To see these characters break down and misunderstand each other only to come back and reunite with such a sweet moment. I will not be excited about it!

5. favorite main character?

I used to make it very known on my blog that Viktor Nikiforov can have my heart and soul. I love that man so much!! It was a journey actually settling on him. First I like Yuuri because everyone did and let’s be honeslty who doesn’t!!?? Then it went to Yurio. But after ep. 10 i never went back. My 

17. favorite scene?

The proposal. I remember the hype leading up to it. I am a sucker for theories and you bet your ass I was reading every single one I could find! When someone said that it was gonna be an engagement ring, not a medal. I flipped! Cause, of course, they were right! This show tried to top itself each week and try to surprise us everytime. But I didn’t think it would be that soft and interment. I was floored and this is why ep. 10 is my favorite ep. It did a lot but also a lot of good and I just gosh I miss yoi so much ;w; the proposal in the new lighting from the dvd take will always make me warm and take my breath away

Thank you so much for asking and you have an amazing day too okay ;w;

[kimlineroom]

Him And I (21+) c. 1

Before yoy read:

WARNINGS: → incest, matter of life and death, multiple smuts, supportive bts, and many more

Summary: Taehyung comes back to Geongchang for a 3 weeks break and to mend the broken relationship with his dear sister. Suddenly this sick, twisted, unknown feeling pops up in his life and he realize... That he's in love with her.

But there's more to it.

Disclaimer: if you don't like this theme of incest, please do not read it. I will not be responsible if you're triggered although in this chapter there's nothing happening between taehyung and the oc. Although, it'd be best if you read the first chapter to understand the story more, just a heads up. All grammar mistakes is mine to blame bc english is not my first language and i am new in tumblr! This is a new experience to me lol. This fic is also cross posted in ao3 btw. Enjoy!

It was on Saturday.

 

  Miu wants to practice her vocals for her performance for the audition but she just feels so lazy and all she wants is to just roll over and sleep. That's exactly what she wants. But it doesn't go as planned.

 

  She ends up eating breakfast at 7 am with her parents and enjoying the morning air. The window is open, and everyone knows how she loves sitting by the window, so no one dares to take that spot from her. She closes her eyes as the breeze hit her face, humming in agreement. Her parents look at her and stifle a laugh. She seems to notice though.

 

  “What?” she asks, raising an eyebrow at their faces who try to stop laughing at her for whatever reason.

 

  She just stays still and looks out the window. How can people laugh at her? It's very confusing. What's so funny about a girl who's sitting on a chair staring out the window? She waits for an answer as she sips her coffee that morning with a hum of approval. Coffee has always been her favourite out of other hot drinks. In a way, it calms her a lot in the morning. An energy booster, too.

 

  Her mother let out a laugh, “Nothing it's just that you stare out the window and your expression when the wind blows on your face is priceless, honey.”

 

  Mrs. Kim said, patting her shoulder and her father's laugh also echoes as he seems to enjoy his wife's statement. What's so funny about that? She asks in her head, puzzled. She continues to stare out and let them laugh at her all they want. She notices the birds flying together in the distant, making her smile. Nature had always influenced her. It's something she can't describe.

 

  There's something about them that calms her, like this coffee. They made her feel all warm inside while she sips her coffee and connects herself with nature. It felt so peaceful and all her troubles would go away for a reason. She remembers when she was a child, she used to run out on an adventure into the woods at the back of their house. They sometimes went camping there (funny, yeah) so she got used to the forest. She knows the trails and all, and she loved listening to nature. The wildflowers, the tall trees. They're all very heart-warming to her.

 

   Her eyes would light up at the mention of camping because she knows her parents would drag her into the forest because that's their camping spot. She would jump in joy if ever they would go out and camp or visit the waterfall or something. She loves them very much and she'd ditch her phone anytime for nature. Maybe that's also one of the reasons why she has little friends in school; that she doesn't socialize much. But it didn't bother her unlike it bothered her parents or her brother. Brother��

 

   Her hands that were on her thighs under the table slowly inch towards her abdomen and wrap around it instantly at the mention of her brother. Why she did it? She doesn't have an answer. It lingers on her stomach for a while, until she snatches them away and put her hands on the table, snapping herself and letting herself resurface into reality. Her parents talked about their jobs. Mrs. Kim is a writer, a not so famous one but good enough in Daegu meanwhile Mr. Kim is an ordinary office worker. They also own a farm at the back of their house, and when things get busy, she's the one handling them. She and her brother but since he's away for work now, so it's only her, not that she's complaining.

 

   Her brother is Kim Taehyung. The Kim Taehyung of BTS. he is 23 years old, and right now, he is on tour in Japan. She looks down into the black coffee, the colour made her uneasy for some reason as she thought about him. 3 weeks he spent his day off with them and 3 days since he returned to his idol job, away from his break at this house. Taehyung. When one would think of him, everyone would say how easy going, thoughtful, and handsome he is. Yes, it's true, but there's more than that. Taehyung is more than that to her.

   She could see her mother taking the newspaper on the table. It's today. Mr.Kim had retrieved them earlier when her mother cooked breakfast.

 

   Her mother turns to her. “Look, it's your brother. The tour is a success as usual.” She says, sipping her coffee and letting Miu grab the newspaper, reading it. Or rather, looking at the headline that has pictures of her brother and his bandmates.

 

    She stares at the now blue-haired man on the stage, a little too long that she doesn't realize how bizarre it would look to other people if they see her, staring at her own brother's picture like this. Creepy. She didn't mean to linger her eyes too long on his recent picture, but she can't help it; she misses him very much. The headline is about the Love Yourself tour that's starting again. The excerpt of it is saying about how BTS had become international and over millions of tickets being sold and clean. They're performing in Nagoya tonight. Nagoya...she always dreams to travel to Nagoya.

 

   “You ok there, buddy?” Her father asks, looking at her with warm, kind eyes.

 

   His face reminded her of her brother. Well, Taehyung is his son after all. Why wouldn't she think of him when she looks at her father? She smiles at him and set aside the newspaper and lean on the table.

 

   “Nothing. It's just that...I miss him.” She said, meant every word.

 

   Everyone knows how close they are. How the two Kim siblings were inseparable until Taehyung chased his dream as an idol that his parents approved of. Taehyung is lucky, he has parents who support him no matter what decision he makes and a sister who loves him no matter what he does. It was hard for her when Taehyung walked out because he's the only friend she ever had; no one, except for her best friend Nayeon could make her feel accepted.

 

   Taehyung is her everything. Her brother, her friend, her companion, her…

 

“No need to be sad, kiddo. He'll come back soon. Besides, three weeks off is kinda long for an idol and I'm sure your time with him before he left for the tour is well spent, right?”

 

   Yeah. It was well spent indeed. She smiled bitterly and nod her head. She looks out the window again, and her eyes scan the small hut that she, Taehyung, and their father built when she was only 7 years old and Taehyung was 11. Her eyes linger on it, remember the day Taehyung gently take care of her, making sure she doesn't get hurt when she's helping while their mother makes them hot chocolate and watch as her family works together in harmony and peace.

 

   It was a peaceful day and it stays attached in her head. How can she forget? It was one of the most precious moments to her. The memory of her and Taehyung. She remembers Taehyung's sweating face as he lifts the woods and helped their father. She remembers how it felt so right to be laughing, to be helping, to be side by side with her brother. True, that she's very close with her brother and she will always be, according to him. Taehyung, even when he lives in Seoul, would always call them every day without fail.

 

   She remembers how Taehyung and herself would hang out at that old hut that they built, lying on the wooden floor and looking at the trees, the breeze pampering their faces. When Taehyung had his weeks off before he left for the tour, he stayed with her there and hang out with her, listening to each other's crackhead culture talks. The way her brother hugged her, the way his head rested on her shoulder lovingly, the I love yous that they delivered to each other…

 

   “Hey, since it's a day off, how about we go somewhere?” Her father says, snapping her out of her daydream.

 

   He's now standing beside her mother, a steaming cup of coffee in his hands as he looks at his wife and his daughter. Her mother seems to be in sync with her husband, so they are waiting for her answer. To be honest, she doesn't mind. Even though she supposed to start her practice for the audition, that usual lazinesslingers in her body. Ever since Taehyung left, her body had been in a lazy state. Why? She gulps, remembering such an event and quickly cast it aside to answer her parents.

 

   “Sure. Where?” She asks lazily, stirring her coffee then sipping them slowly. It's still hot.

 

   Her father thinks for a while, leaning on the counter and think of where their destination would be today. Suddenly, he claps his hands together which resulted in her mother to flinch. Mrs. Kim has always been a scary cat, just like her. They laughed at the woman.

 

   “You scare me!” she screamed, hitting her husband in a playful manner. Perhaps, it has been too hard of a hit because he jumped and let out an “ow.” They all laugh again, and Miu wonders about what would today be like if Taehyung is by their side. By her side. It would've been even more fun. What could he be doing, right now? Miu wonders, her laughter still lingers with them, but it dies as she stares at the black, steaming hot coffee. It's like staring at a hole. A hole in her heart that is.

 

   “As I was saying,” Mr. Kim pause, eyeing his wife in a flirty manner and look at his only daughter with a smile as he continues. “I think it'd be fun to drive off to that favourite waterfall that you love so much. It's only 30 minutes’ drive there.”

 

   He says with a smile as he realizes how much his daughter loves that place and as her eyes lit up with excitement at the mention of the waterfall. Good choice indeed. All her troubles are forgotten at the mention of the waterfall that she loves so much. She stands up, fixing her dress immediately and walk out of the house to their car.

 

   “I'll be waiting in the car. Hurry up!” She ushers them, sprinting to get outside leaving her parents in the kitchen with a smile on their faces.

 

   “Well, let's go.” Mr. Kim said, beaming at Mrs. Kim.

 

[80srockher]

Yuri on Ice Re-Watch and Live Commentary, Episode 12: Final Skate: Gotta Super-Super-Supercharge It!!! Grand Prix Final Free Skate

It.  Is.  FINISHED.

You know that feeling when a fan-nish project is projected to take only a few weeks, during the Summer, mind you, but ends up spanning, oh, about three months?  I do, now.

**Begin rant** 

Me, too, Vitya!  End what, Yuri??

I mean, it's more than a little crazy that he thought this is something Victor would be relieved to here.  It's as if they have been existing on different planes of reality.

Listen. Victor has shed tears a grand total of two times in 12 episodes and both incidents involved Yuri.  Yet Yuri still doesn't think he’s important enough to merit more of his Victor’s time away from skating.  Just.  YURI. AUGH!!!

The actor's decision to read this line as if Yuri's revelation has not stabbed Victor in the heart is masterful.  There's only so much pretending the man is capable of.

This is hella relatable as someone who also doesn't want to be touched when I'm upset by THE VERY PERSON WHO UPSET ME.  Give him a minute to process this, Yuri.

This is just a horrible, horrible cap.  Vitya is thoroughly in kicked-puppy-mode.

Um, did you ignore absolutely everything else that occurred afterwards?  Including when he straight-up said to your face that he wishes you'd never retire?

Don't fire him, Yuri!

Yuri was really out there listenin' to friends instead of Victor.  How many times did Victor ignore the others' entreaties to return to competition to remain his coach?  Don't join that Greek chorus. Yuri.      

I beg to differ.  He's always concerned about your well-being, which is why you gave him an expensive-ass symbol of devotion and put it on his ring finger.  Good God, boy.

This inspiration thing goes both ways, Yuri.  LISTEN TO VICTOR.  He is telling you what HE wants In This Moment.  Not what YOU think is best for HIM.    

Like hell! You two hash this out right now!

**End rant**

Look, a skater who was popular back when I used to watch.  LOL.  Stephane L-l-l-l-lambiel!

So, sports reporter Marooka remarks about how Yuri hasn't been seen practicing in public since the day after the short program, which has worried his fans (see, Yuri, you have FANS.)  You mean to tell me Yuri and Victor have been at odds with each other for two whole days now?!?!

Cartoon!Lambiel picks up on Yuri and Victor's uncharacteristically low energy.

You don't say, Stephane.

Also: Victor knows Stephane, personally.  What a celeb.

At least flag guy has re-energized himself since JJ's short program.

"Don't eff it up."

"Don't eff it up."

"Don't eff it up."

He eff'd it up.

Wow, shades of Yuri from episode one.

Deep, bro.

Aww! The parents in this show are the best cheerleaders.  If only there was time during the season to meet all of them.  I'd def like to see Phichit's parents.

So, JJ's dad is reminiscing on some of his son's past coaches.  Celestino, then played by Peg Bundy, was one of them.

Also…. I'm really curious as to what JJ needed to say yes to.

Damn you, Mickey Lannister Crispino!  Hands off!

Seung Gil! What an awesome cameo.  

I don't know much about scoring in figure skating but this seems a mite high for a program that was mostly jumps.

Yay! No other comment needed.

Phichit's ice-show dreams are as adorable as he is.  Christophe with a hamster cap is utterly, utterly charming.  I would fork over cold, hard blood plasma donation cash to see this in person.

It shouldn't be like this between them; especially not when Yuri plans to end his competitive career, here.

And really, why is Yuri so upset with Victor?  I suspect Yuri's selfishness runs deeper than either of them realize. IMO, he's afraid Victor might come to resent him if he retires from skating to coach him, then regrets it.

But honestly, Yuri should know Victor better than that by now.

Despite everything, Victor is still trying to be the coach Yuri needs.

But… Yuri doesn't want Victor to play coach right now.

So tickle his fancy, Victor.

Um…

Victor has an interesting sense of humor.

Also, he did win the one against the teenagers at the local comp.  Though I have no idea if a qualifier is considered part of the Senior circuit.

Yeah, katsudon's not the only way to celebrate, Yuri.  Victor wants to really give you something worth winning for.

This is just an R&B song waiting to happen.

Hmm… whatever could you mean, Yuri?

I really love how they've cut Yuri's long program with clips of Victor from Yuri's memory.  It's a visual culmination of a journey.

Ahh, that's what he meant about making up his mind about his goal.  And that's why he wanted Victor to stop playing at being coach.  Because he wasn't going to listen to him, anyway.  You know, the usual.

Yuri's internal dialogue during his routine reveals his desire to stay in figure skating with Victor forever and his fear of killing Victor's career if he remains Yuri's coach.  Victor… have you not shared with the man how competition was already slowly killing you? Might wanna do that sometime in the very, very near future.

Yuri… just loves Victor.  He can't always articulate how much, but he can show it.  His program is one big tribute to Victor and Yuri's desire to prove everyone how much Victor means to him as a coach and an inspiration.

And Victor gets the message loud and clear.

Mari+Minako are, yet again, Me.

Something I should've wondered by now is how half-blind Yuri can tell where Victor is standing.

The monkey-on-his-back that is Anxiety.

Seriously, you performed to the absolute best of your ability, Yuri.  Relax.  Relate. Release.  

Wowsa, dude.

Sooooo, Victor has just congratulated Yuri on his record-breaking performance and implies that he might come back to competition in the same breath he confesses his pride in both his pupils.  The possibility of Victor's return delights Yuri to no-end but gives me pause.  A lot of pause.

Victor. My dude.  Are you just trying not to ruin the mood?  Because quite honestly, one of the very valuable lessons you should've learned on this journey is that a little selfishness can be a good thing.  I know you want to make a grand gesture after Yuri's grand gesture but YOU CAN'T BOTH KEEP MAKING GRAND GESTURES.  You'll hurt yourselves trying to show the world your love.  

Moving on... Chris is on the ice, having serious thoughts about how Yuri, who was rumored to retire after the GPF, beat his personal best.  He laments that it won't be as easy for him to win gold as he first thought.

Then he witnesses the happy couple doing their thing.

And gets distracted.  

This is in regards to Victor.  Chris is rethinking his initial calculation of GPF - Victor = gold for him.

Aww, Chris is Phichit's buddy.  Why am I not surprised?

This scene is after Chris decides to change an earlier jump composition to the second half of his program.  Can't say he's not a fighter.

Dawww, Minako.

Really? That's it?!  By my estimation, that program was better than JJ's.  What am I missing?

Boo, this is the last time I'll see my babe, Leo.

But I concur.  Go, Otabek! I'm fond of his music choices, skating, and his costumes.  

So, Victor finds Yakov to tell him he wants to return to competition.  I mean, it couldn’t have waited until after Yurio’s skate, V?

Once upon a time, news of Victor's return may have pleased Yurio.  Now, his first concern is Yuri.  

And Victor is Not.  Happy. About this.  He’s about to cry here, tbqh.

Annnnd he requires immediate comfort.  This is sad. More than sad, when I consider Victor is letting Yuri call the shots, here.  Competing again should be Victor's own decision, as well.

Yeah, that's good advice to pass along, Victor.

I've been debating as to whether or not I should parse out the intricacies of Victor's isolation.  Honestly, I think the writers did a well-enough job of it.  I suppose I still wonder, as many others have, about his family.

I'll go out on a limb and assume he has or had people in his life that taught him to love like he does and to treat other people kindly.  One doesn't learn those sorts of things in a vacuum.  However, I headcanon Victor as having been scouted and, once recruited, moved closer to a training facility, a la these athletes.

So, isolated?  Yes. Friend-less and family-less?  I doubt it, or at least it wasn't always that way.

Meanwhile, Yuri's looking for his man.  Perhaps to tell him that he's already changed his mind about retiring?  In that case, please, look harder Yuri!

Just needed to slide in this cap of Mila getting sprung by Otabek's skating.  Good taste, Mila.

I don't know who JJ has in his pocket on the judging panel, but Otabek just completed a perfect program AND he was ahead of JJ after the short program.  Logic would dictate he'd be ahead of JJ now. But, do as you will, YOI.

This is in regards to Yuri.  In flashbacks during Yurio's routine, we discover that he was actually impressed with Yuri's prior GPF free skate, despite the errors.  It was only after he found Yuri crying in the bathroom stall that he lost respect for him.  Must be Yurio's special brand of encouragement: "Stop crying, get better, or get out of the game!"  Yeah. That must be it.

Anyway, now Yurio has changed his tune and doesn't want Yuri to retire, at all. Cute.

Lilia is so proud of her angry, pseudo- son.

 Yurio completes his most difficult program ever with only one fall.  During his skate, it's revealed that part of his motivation was to become a new goal for Yuri to surpass.  That's nice and all, but not at the expense of your own health, Yurio.

I don't think Yuri would want that for him, either.

Yurio defeats Yuri by a sliver of a margin.  I will admit to initially being surprised by the result before considering (and re-considering, after this re-watch) a few things:

Yurio won because it's entirely possible he may not win again for at least a little while.

His lack of stamina is well-documented, he's in the Senior circuit with grown men who can, and have, beat him already, and he's yet to hit a growth spurt. If the series continues into a second season, then I foresee the writers exploring these very realistic scenarios for Yurio.

This is partially why I don't predict Yurio achieving what Victor has, at least not right away.  There's not enough drama in that narrative to fill up an entire season, IMO.

Or, at the very least, they'll use Yurio to address the conflict over becoming as isolated as Victor has during his struggle to maintain dominance in the sport.

Yurio won because the name of the show is 'Yuri on Ice’.

Also, if the writers decide to have Yuri eventually retire (because he is of that age), then they don't even have to change the show’s title.  How convenient.

Last, and what I think is obviously implied in this episode: Yurio won so that Yuri would change his mind about retiring.

However… Yuri had already changed his mind.  And his biggest motivator in that decision was still Victor, so… kinda wish they hadn't made Yurio go out and suffer like that for no good reason. Honestly, there's little chance of him repeating this performance.

Anyway….

Awww! Yay!

So, Victor's in a teasing mood after Yuri presents him with his well-earned silver medal. Victor insists that he only wants to kiss gold.  So, what do you have that would be a suitable substitute, Yuri?

Eff that medal Yuri just unceremoniously dropped to the ground in preference to hopping in Victor's lap.  Coach me for another year, Victor!

What a lovely step forward for our boy, Yuri.  He didn't win gold but, all joking aside, Victor doesn't care.  Yuri’s next gold medal will be a token to Victor, instead of unnecessary proof that he was worth Victor’s time, all along.

Besides, I think he’s already given Victor the only golden item he truly wants.

But, I mean, only if you WANT to, Victor.  Are you afraid Yuri will change his mind if you change yours?  I hope that's not the case.

 Apparently, this is the only payment Victor will accept for coaching Yuri. Ok, so you're going to compete and hopefully earn some sponsorship money to pay your own bills all while coaching someone else for free?  Do we need to have a 'Victor on Ice,' a show about Victor re-learning the value of doing one thing at a time?

Roll credits!

How sweet!

The serendipity that is cartoon-world.  "I want to coach a skater from another country while also competing for my own country and you can't stop me because I'm animated!"

or

"I want to do a pair skate with my coach for my exhibition.  Know why?  Because the writers say I can!!  Ha!"

Anyway, this is romantic AF.

Cut to this adorbs face...

Running towards this one, here.

And yeah. WE'D BETTER.  Because their story isn’t over!

 The End!

If you managed to get through my all streams of consciousness, full of bad screencaps and even worse grammar, then I humbly and sincerely thank you!  I enjoyed doing it and hope you enjoyed reading it.  

[krshima]

tagged by: the lovely @kizunah thank you so much miriam, i had so much fun answering your questions!! 💕💕

i tag: @reiiciel @aizawashoutta @atsushisnakajima @durararas @reizakis @okita-senpai @ikomaj @scarletail @nicorobins @amajikie 

(this is very long so everything is under the cut!)

who’s one of your favorite characters and why?

(saying todoroki would be a cop out and we all know it so i’m going with someone else for a change) i want to throw some love out there for katsuki yuuri, my talented ice prince. his growth throughout yoi was one of the most inspiring things ever, and he’s the kind of person i look at and just can’t help but want to be like in real life. he has so much love in his heart and is so passionate and dedicated to what he loves he’s precious and i love him so much.

last book you read – what did you think of it?

i’m gonna be real right now, i don’t have the time or will to read for fun anymore (thanks college). i don’t think my psychology textbook counts, so if i go back to this summer, i read this book called “the culling” and it’s basically gay hunger games. kind of. it was about some kind of dystopian future society (classic #edgy teen novel) and basically each year a bunch of kids are chosen to undergo a series of brutal, inhumane tasks, and they all have “incentives” which are people they care about to keep them motivated to win (stay alive), because if they fail, their incentives die. the writing left something to be desired and the ending was kind of unsatisfying, so it was just okay. 5/10.

do you consider yourself a good decision maker?

it really depends on the situation. i think i’ve made relatively good decisions thus far (i’m happy with the college i’m going to, the friends i’ve made, etc.) but there are obviously things i do that i come to regret and wish i’d have thought more deeply about. more to the point is that i feel anxious under pressure to make decisions, so if there’s someone else that could make it for me, i would definitely step aside and let them take care of it, because i fear making wrong decisions all the time.

preferred studying method?

i just mostly like to be alone with little to no background noise. i can’t study when there’s other people usually because inevitably they will talk to me or talk to each other, and i can’t concentrate.

favorite word from your native language?

not gonna lie i’ve always thought of english as a fairly boring language, but i’ve always liked the world ‘serendipity’.

do you have a problematic character you’d die for?

did you mean ahn jiwon because i love that stupid motherfucker. but in all seriousness i feel like a lot of people really misunderstand his character and are missing a big part of the story when they write him off as simply a douche who’s the only reason why dg is suffering and all that shit (*ahem* not like dg, a mature adult, entered into that kind of relationship with him fully aware of what the situation would be or anything, but i digress). thanks to the new chapter we got some insight about jiwon’s childhood, how his parents treated him (very poorly), and how he felt regarding his brother (that is, his brother was always 'number one’ and he was felt like he could never measure up). he’s a really sensitive and confused person and i think in trying to be these different personalities (alex, the perfect student council present, the best son/more like this brother) he’s lost who he really is. anyway i could literally write an essay about this so i’m gonna stop here but i’ll just say that jiwon is so much more than so many people think and i would die for him.

is there something you felt like you’d never be good at, but are somewhat decent at doing now?

well i mean somehow i’m surviving college amirite? but actually i didn’t think i’d ever be able to really manage my own time and make new friends and juggle all these things by myself, but i’m here doing it and i’m not failing (yet) so i think i’m doing something right?

what’s your general temperament like?

i’m mostly a pretty chill person. i got a lot of stuff going on in my head but i just go about life as smoothly as possible.

something you want to get better at?

i’ve lost a lot of piano skill since coming to college because i don’t have the time or resources anymore to really dedicate to it, so i want to learn a lot of new songs over winter break and come up with ways to fit some time to play maybe like weekly in my schedule?

something popular everyone else likes but you don’t?

not that i didn’t like it because i never saw it, but that one phase where everyone wouldn’t shut up about la la land was really funny for me. i just didn’t care about it and had no interest in seeing it (there’s like a billion movies about cishet white people why would i want to see another one lol) but everyone acted like it was the masterpiece of the century, which kind of got old after awhile.

before consuming books/movies, do you read reviews, or do you like going in blind?

honestly i rarely read reviews, mostly because i don’t like the knowledge of someone else’s opinion priming my experience of something. if i’m going to watch/read something i really want it to be as personal to me as possible, and i don’t want to go in with a bunch of ideas in my head and expectations about what i think it should be because, for me, that takes away a lot from the experience.

my questions:

what’s one good memory from your childhood that you won’t ever forget?

do you have a favorite flower? why?

what was the last movie you saw? what did you think of it?

if you could only watch one series for the rest of your life and no other media, what would it be? why?

pancakes or waffles?

if you could only use one word to describe your personality, what would it be?

would you rather never be able to listen to music again, or never be able to watch a tv/movies/any visual media again?

what language(s) do you speak? do you want to learn/are you learning more?

where’s your ultimate dream location to live?

what’s your most unpopular opinion?

if you were granted one wish right now, what would you wish for?

[swyllh]

i spent a ridiculously long time agonizing over this, but 2 + minghao for the 100 ways to say i love you thing!

(2. “this reminded me of you.”)

premise: minghao can’t let go.

pairing: minghao x reader

genre: angst, textfic

tw: major character death, lots of swearing.

10 february 2018

minghao [1102]: hey

minghao [1102]: ITS YA BOIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

minghao [1102]: img1834.jpg

minghao [1104]: i set your phone to silent

minghao [1104]: this doesnt work when ur phone is ringign

minghao [1105]: haha

minghao [1105]: thats actually q funny wtf

minghao [1106]: like

minghao [1106]: lets pretend to talk to u like ur alive

minghao [1106]: while ur phone is ringing next to me

minghao [1107]: ………….

minghao [1110]: yeah i don’t kno wwhy im doing this

minghao [1111]: dr lee said i t would be good

minghao [1111]: oh 11111

minghao [1111]: 1111*

minghao [1111]: u used to wish on them

minghao [1112]: i thought it was so stupid

minghao [1112]: still think its sutpid 

minghao [1113]: man its so hard

minghao [1113]: m so used to u biting my head of f

minghao [1113]: i miss you

minghao [1115]: i miss you so much

minghao [2032]: k SO

minghao [2032]: i finally got to finidhign

minghao [2032]: all the fuckdifnf funrrrl 

minghao [2033]: moeny

minghao [2033]: haaaaaaaaaaaaahha

minghao [2033]: djd y inow funerla s cost soc much

minghao [2033]: 3000 %94_43?@589;@(p;%

minghao [2033]: ‘’’’’’’’

minghao [2034]: $7_*

minghao [2034]: $7__________________________*

11 february 2018

minghao [1422]: fuck

minghao [1422]: seems like drunk me couldnt turn back

minghao [1422]: the keyborad

minghao [1422]: keyboard*

minghao [1422]: lmao

minghao [1426]: this is actually fucking funny

minghao [1426]: but what i wanted to say was

minghao [1426]: cremations cost like 100000

minghao [1426]: ……………..

minghao [1426]: did i extra type

minghao [1427]: u dont even give shits about numbers

minghao [1427]: rmb that time

minghao [1427]: you like,, frget the decimal

minghao [1427]: we ended up donating like half our rent

minghao [1430]: about rent

minghao [1431]: do i sell this house now

minghao [1431]: i mean i like it

minghao [1431]: its close to the metro, theres two supermarkets, a library

minghao [1432]: but its also hell to get to work

minghao [1432]: mine not urs

minghao [1432]: ……..technially its not a house

minghao [1432]: god how do u still osund so bitchy after death

minghao [1443]: also moving out will mean moving your stuff too

minghao [1447]: idk i dont want to think about that

minghao [1820]: img1886.jpg 

minghao [1821]: the sunset today is so beautiful!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

minghao [1821]: fuck

minghao [1822]: img1887.jpg

minghao [1822]: img1888.jpg

minghao [1823]: img1889.jpg

minghao [1823]: which one

minghao [1823]: for insta

minghao [1824]: should i do a collage

minghao [2311]: 1111

12 february 2018

minghao [0608]: going out fr a run

minghao [1050]: ur mum wants to meet

minghao [1050]: think she wants to get ur stuff back

minghao [1111]: 1111

minghao [1111]: your mum says youre in heaven

minghao [1112]: she misses you a lot

minghao [1115]: ha fuck

minghao [1115]: next thing i know im gonna be waiting for you to text back

minghao [1251]: what do i say

minghao [1251]: screenshot_89.jpg

minghao [1251]: “sure!” ?

minghao [1252]: is it too morbid to add an exclamation mark

minghao [1252]: ???

minghao [1252]: sure.

minghao [1253]: the fullstop looks mean

minghao [1253]: ………………

minghao [1255]: god why cant she just

minghao [1255]: i said ‘sure’ w the fullstop

minghao [1255]: screenshot_90.jpg

minghao [1256]: what do i say now?????

minghao [1256]: why cant she get her own imaginary u

minghao [1256]: smh

13 february 2018

minghao [1637]: just got out of therapy

minghao [1637]: dr lee was talking abt the 5 stages of grief

minghao [1637]: kind of zoned out

minghao [1638]: was cool tho

minghao [1638]: youd like that psychology talk

minghao [1639]: can u imagine someone

minghao [1639]: a scientist

minghao [1639]: just going up to grieving people

minghao [1639]: like “hey can i know how ur feeling”

minghao [1639]: checking in every five days

minghao [1640]: or getting them to jorunal

minghao [1643]: kind of what i’m doing

minghao [1644]: but fuck if i let u become a memopad

minghao [1648]: anyway the bus is here

minghao [1648]: think ill sleep 

minghao [1946]: how the fuck

minghao [1946]: do u eat so much rice

minghao [1946]: i cooked exact as usual

minghao [1947]: img1890.jpg

minghao [1947]: r u fcuking kidding me

minghao [2313]: soz i missed

minghao [2313]: 1113?

minghao [2313]: at least its not 1112

minghao [2313]: 1113 is like a deliberate delay

minghao [2314]: a statement against the futility of numbers. freewill vs fate, control and determination. 

minghao [2314]: ok im sorry thts bullshit

minghao [2316]: i wont miss it again

14 february 2018

minghao [0028]: fuck

minghao [0028]: its valentines day

minghao [0028]: fucccccccccccck

minghao [0028]: everynes gonna be gross

minghao [0029]: ugh

minghao [0029]: like us

minghao [0029]: sto p soudnign so smug.

minghao [0812]: i still cant believe they skated to yoi 

minghao [0812]: what a time to be alive

minghao [0816]: ur probably so pissed that ur missing the olympics

minghao [0819]: i just checked, mens singles is on the 16th 

minghao [0819]: bet u chen rekts hanyu 

minghao [0820]: actually, no

minghao [0820]: youll cry if he does

minghao [0824]: god how many posters of hanyu do you have

minghao [0828]: youll cry if i take them down

minghao [0828]: p sure if u had any say

minghao [0828]: ud want them to paste it all over ur tomb

minghao [0829]: ………………

minghao [0830]: right now im really really hoping you dont hav some weird will that wants me to do that

minghao [0831]: ur so gross

minghao [0831]: ur room is so gross

minghao [1215]: i cant do this

minghao [1215]: ur room smells like you

minghao [1216]: fucking nivea extra fresh

minghao [1216]: cant believe im cryign over deoderent 

minghao [1217]: deodorant

minghao [1217]: even the word is gross

minghao [2311]: 1111 

minghao [2311]: i miss you. 

minghao [2312]: spent the day in your study

minghao [2312]: your mum is coming over on saturday so i packed a bit

minghao [2320]: ok i lied

minghao [2320]: i cried all over your things

minghao [2321]: how

minghao [2321]: how do you just keep crying

minghao [2321]: i should be dehydrated by nw

minghao [2322]: fuck

minghao [2322]: think im crying again

minghao [2322]: is it possible to die from crying so mcuh

minghao [2323]: i miss you

minghao [2323]: the bed is so cold

minghao [2326]: i miss you. so much. all the time.

15 february 2018

minghao [1128]: they’re going to terminate the contract on your phone

minghao [1128]: and then i wont be able to message you like this

minghao [1129]: i panicked and called dr lee

minghao [1129]: she said it was a good thing

minghao [1130]: fuck this

minghao [1130]: i know it isnt like ur gonna text back

minghao [1130]: but 

minghao [1131]: i hear your voice and it makes me safe

minghao [1131]: like youre here

minghao [1132]: fuck.

minghao [1516]: so i forgot to water your cactus

minghao [1516]: its dead

minghao [1516]: sorry

minghao [1517]: maybe oyull take better care of it now

minghao [1517]: actually

minghao [1517]: do plants go to heaven 

minghao [1518]: they can right

minghao [1518]: since they were once alive

minghao [1518]: lol

minghao [1520]: that means books cant

minghao [1520]: god it must be so boring up there

minghao [1522]: unless heaven has their own publishing company

minghao [1538]: or phone service

minghao [1540]: is that why you cant text me back

minghao [1540]: cos im texting the wrong number

minghao [1541]: i swear if u pull a new phone hoo dis

minghao [1542]: …. i cant even kill u

minghao [1542]: or its like overkill

minghao [1543]: jesus

minghao [1546]: youre always one step ahead of me huh

16 february 2018 

minghao [1741]: happy lunar new year

minghao [1741]: i went to your mum’s. we watched yuzuru hanyu.

minghao [1742]: ok FINE he won okay

minghao [1742]: nathan chen fucked up 

minghao [1742]: did u mess with him from above

minghao [1743]: thats not a fair win ok

minghao [1750]: your mum started crying in the middle of lunch.

minghao [1750]: she cooked all your favourite foods.

minghao [1751]: fuck you.

minghao [1803]: im sorry i dont mean that 

minghao [1803]: i love you

minghao [1804]: i love you

minghao [1804]: i lov eyou 

minghao [1804]: i love you 

minghao [2203]: ive been thinking

minghao [2204]: its getting hard to

minghao [2204]: talk to you 

minghao [2204]: at you, like this

minghao [2206]: im not

minghao [2206]: this sounds bad

minghao [2207]: it probably is 

minghao [2207]: every time. i do. its like.

minghao [2207]: i know youre not going to reply.

minghao [2208]: i knw youre dead

minghao [2213]: youre dead

minghao [2218]: but i miss you so much and it doesnt stop there and i still love you but your phone is still lighting up i still keep it charged and every time i try to talk about you its hard to not feel like im being ripped out from inside and i lov eyou still 

minghao [2224]: i dont want to forget you.

minghao [2248]: i dont want to wake up one day and not think of you and meet someone else and fall in love with them and throw all your things away and forget how you look like

minghao [2255]: i forgot wwhat you looked like this morning

minghao [2256]: i was looking at a photo of us

minghao [2256]: and for a moment i thought you looked strange

minghao [2257]: like, was your nose /that big

minghao [2257]: HAHAHAHAHA jk

minghao [2259]: i almost lost it. i wanted to break things and 

minghao [2302]: i dont want to say it

minghao [2311]: 1111

minghao [2312]: good night.

17 february 2018

minghao [1050]: your mum’s here

minghao [1050]: im so nervous haha wtf

minghao [2047]: the whole house is so empty wow

minghao [2047]: it’s so crazy 

minghao [2048]: but ur yuzuru posters left marks on the wall 

minghao [2048]: :p

minghao [2051]: its so weird 

minghao [2052]: its like youre not here

minghao [2055]: dr lee says its a step forward but i feel like somethings missing. and that things are going to fuck themselves up now.

minghao [2104]: its like i can hear everything now that all ur files and stuff are gone

minghao [2110]: this house is too big for me

minghao [2111]: shold i get a dog?

minghao [2111]: what if it dies

minghao [2111]: your plant died

minghao [2112]: bc i didnt water it

minghao [2114]: did you die because i didnt love you enough

minghao [2115]: the last thing we fought over was so stupid

minghao [2115]: it was about bills right

minghao [2117]: are you still pissed about that

minghao [2118]: im sorry.

18 february 2018

minghao [0233]: im unplugging your phone.

minghao [0234]: the contract’s expiring soon anyway.

minghao [0234]: so.

minghao [0240]: you’re at 76%. 

minghao [0240]: so this is kind of anticlimactic

minghao [0252]: i think ive spent too long holding you back

minghao [0252]: your mum gave me that look when she found out i was texting you.

minghao [0254]: im just scared. 

minghao [0255]: i dont want to forget what its like to love you

minghao [0301]: 49%

minghao [0510]: i had a nightmare

minghao [0511]: almost recharged your phone on auto

minghao [0512]: tired.

minghao [0512]: love you.

minghao [1110]: youre on 1%

minghao [1110]: i love you.

minghao [1110]: i love you.

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[!] message undelivered - [1111]: i love you.

[softtm]

Boyfriend! Doyoung

so like there’s an old version already but I’m in my Doyoung feels

listen here, your first meeting with Doyoung was a amusing one but definitely not the ideal one

you and Doyoung went to highschool together and like oof, you’re not on the best terms considering he’s the library assistant and you tend to have forget to return/renew your books

and Doyoung is always hunting your ass down because he feels obligated to

the first time he did it you threw an apple at him because he scared the fuck out of you

“HOLY SHIT WHAT THE FUCK MY DUDE”

“LISTEN, YOU’VE HAD THE BOOK FOR 2 MONTHS AND I REALLY NEED THAT SHIT”

“oh yeah, here ya go bud”

you were actually pretty chill about it but he wasn’t

Kim Doyoung hated you when you first met each other

probably for your solid sophomore year too

then junior year came around and Doyoung still had to hunt your ass down but you now were on friendlier terms

like you give him gummies everytime he storms in to collect the books because he needs to calm his ass down

so yeah

eventually y’all have some classes together and you sit next to each other and talk eventually becoming better friends who are still bitter to each other

boy ended up realizing he liked you the one time you came and returned your book on time and he was disappointed

like damn I don’t have to hunt them down this week :(

you realized it after he threw an apple at your for revenge

but like it actually hit you and ouch, Doyoung started babying your for like the hour and your heart kinda went BBOOM BBOOM

you guys didn’t really confess to each other until the end of junior year cus y’all are shy shy shy

either of you were planning to confess anyways but it kinda just happened I guess

like Doyoung was scolding you one day for not returning your library book on the last week of school and you kinda just kissed him to shut him up

it worked

‘I-‘

‘just shut up for once Doyoung’

‘will I get another kiss if I do’

‘bYe’

now onto actual boyfriend!doyoung

mom ™

will nag you for days if you don’t eat or if you forget to do anything really

forgot your binder?

nags you but still gives you the spare notebook he has in his bag that he especially brings for your forgetful ass

you didn’t eat yet?

nags you but pulls out a McDonald’s bag to give to you to eat because he knew you hadn’t eaten yet and drove to get you some in his free period

didn’t get enough sleep?

nags you but will sing you to sleep right after and cuddle with you until you do fall asleep but then leaves your ass to get some work done

whatta man

BACKHUGS FOR DAYS

like there is no day that goes by without you getting a back hug from him because this boy is just so soft for you istg

he’ll just kinda wrap his arms around you loosely and then rest his head on your shoulder or head depending on your height

‘Doyoung, what are you doing?’

‘showing my love and affection’

‘but why’

‘because I can, don’t question me’

never admits it but is so whipped for you like you don’t even know bro

even tho you two are like in love and whatever, will not hesitate to expose your ass

more of a savage to you then anyone else but you roast him back and all of a sudden it’s a roast session

but y’all make up because sometime by the end of the roast session he’s just like

‘oh yeah, your forgetful ass is the one that has my nagging ass heart so we’re both losers’

it usually goes silent for a sec and then you two laugh and he pulls you in for a hug and oof im soft

night dates with Doyoung are very a e s t h t i c

lol jk, y’all go raid the convenience store and eat ramen while talking shit about people

then he does the stereotypical kdrama scenario where he wipes the corner of your mouth for you and you’re all red like

‘WE’RE IN PUBLIC KIM DOYOUNG, I CAN’T HAVE A BREAKDOWN OVER HOW CUTE YOY ARE HERE’

he laughs and ruffles your hair and you’re just melting

like when did he get so soft, weren’t you guys just roasting Taeyong and his green hair

if you’re really tired, he’ll piggyback you back to your place in exchange for kisses because he was the one that dragged you there in the first place

it’s okay tho, he would have gotten those kisses for free

STORYTIME

so do y’all remember that one story about how Doyoung told his friends that he was going aboard to study but was really at SM the whole time?

yeah that boy tried to pull that on you and things did not go well

you didn’t even find out from him but from his friends who accidentally spilled the beans before he could

and so you did the normal thing

be petty about it and literally ignore him for the next two days because you can’t believe he didn’t tell you first

and if you saw him you were pretty sure you were gonna cry and crying was not on your current to-do list rn

Doyoung over here so confused and hurt cus like wtf dude

but Doyoung is smart so he eventually figured out that you got told before he could tell you and was like “today I fucked up”

eventually he did corner you after school one day since you stayed after for some school shit

you give him a resting bitch face

he gives you one back

it’s like a deadly resting bitch face stare off before he sighs and pulls you into a hug because damn, you’ve been ignoring him for too long

you’re s h o o k because Doyoung never loses a resting bitch face stare off until now

cue soft Doyoung

‘I miss you’

you’re still like ‘no way jose, I’m still mad at you’

Doyoung sighs and is like oof I should probably tell the truth rn

so he explains and you’re stuck between “HOLY SHIT IM SO PROUD” or “Imma cut this bitch”

and honestly you’re so stressed from this situation because you thought y’all were actually gonna break up and like oof there’s only so much someone can take

you end up crying

Doyoung probably ends up panicking

everyone is a whole mess

somehow you end up picking up some pizza and ice cream and going back to someone’s house to cuddle and makeup

somewhere along the line y’all have a last minute sleepover and you make Doyoung sing you to sleep for lying

he does it very happily bc he really loves you and is really really glad you didn’t break up with him

yeah

bYe ™

[bump-of-whump]

So what did you think of the whump feels in S7? I'm personally still emotional gosh! And, although I Ioved the last part where they were all in bed and all so much but my brain was still asking where the IVs and heart monitors and other medical things were, lol

Yo, I loved it! 

I’m personally a little unclear on how much passage of time there was between the lions crashing and then that montage. Days? Weeks? Perhaps even months? I’m inclined to think IVs and monitors and other medical such and such were there in the beginning, when everybody was in presumably worse shape. I think it’s only that by the time we’re seeing the montage that that equipment isn’t necessary. Although I am unclear on how long it was exactly, I do believe there was a relatively significant time gap between that crash and the hospital montage, considering the arrival of all those aliens on Earth and Shiro being well enough to speak at the memorial. The last we saw of Shiro before that was um, post falling from the freaking atmosphere after battling Sendak. 

So! Yeah, I have to admit, I wish there had been some more obvious damage and medical equipment present. But given that I think there was a decent stretch of time that passed, it doesn’t bother me quite as much as it could have. Also, I guess it makes me happy in a way, because since everybody’s (presumably) mostly healed up from where they were, whumpers have some freedom here, right? 

We can go in and write whatever kind of injuries and immediate crises we want to have taken place. ‘We’ I guess meaning people who aren’t me because personally, I don’t write for VLD and I have a crushing amount of neglected YOI prompts in my inbox I need to tend to. 😅 But that aside, that aspect of it makes me happy! 

You want Allura to have a collapsed lung, and have Garrison doctors struggling to fix it since Altean lungs are notably different than human lungs? There you have it! 

You want a heavily concussed Keith having to be strapped down because he keeps pushing himself up, disoriented and confused? Run with it! 

You want Lance’s family thinking he’s all good after some surgery to fix a bad leg break, only for him to wake up coughing blood? Go for it, Langst lovers, go for it! 

Okay…am I getting carried away? I’m probably getting carried away, I’m sorry. Basically my point is, I think that time skip there, however long it was, is a GREAT opportunity for whumpy fanfic. I hope some people hop on that and if they don’t, well, fuck it, maybe I’ll end up writing VLD after all. (But probly not.)

As for the actual scene? Uh, dude. Probably one of my favorite scenes. I didn’t like everything about season 7. I don’t think it deserves the fierce backlash it’s gotten, but there were definitely things I took issue with. That said, there were also many things I liked about the season and that scene was one of them. 

Lance holding his niece on his lap? Precious. So pure. Pidge with BaeBae on her bed was so sweet too, like awww. Both Krolia and Kolivan being there when Keith woke up warmed my heart, like. Hngh. Though…I don’t understand why Kosmo wasn’t there. Wtf is Kosmo? He better be safe. 

Loved how Romelle was looking at Allura just as soft as Coran was. Like, in the previous Voltron continuities, they’ve been related. In DotU, they were cousins and I think in GoLion she was a more different relative, but the last time I watched GoLion I was drunk, so Idk. In VLD, Romelle’s lost her family to the colony and Allura and Coran have lost theirs too, so I hope that they can all find that with each other. 

And then like, Shay visiting Hunk? How precious was that? He was so happy, he teared up! On that note though, like, before she visits him, we see that shot of the Balmera being right next door to Earth. Which is another reason I am inferring a sizable time skip, because I don’t think an entire freaking planet got there overnight. 

Barring the physics that would render this disastrous in the first place, cause I mean, it’s a mech show and physics don’t matter in mech shows, I still think it says something that it’s there now. It didn’t just teleport over…Unless it did? Hell, the Balmera’s a sentient animal so maybe it does what it wants and I’m totally off base. Whatever. 

Alright, wow. I have blabbed a lot about this. This is probably much more of an answer than you wanted, friend, and for that, I apologize. But over all, yeah, I loved that last part for various reasons and I do think it’s prime whump fic territory. 

EDIT: That last scene aside, I really wish Ezor would’ve actually gotten the chance to torture Pidge. She seems like such a sadist, it would’ve been delicious. 

[rosyredlipstick]

You mentioned you loved YOI and read some good fanfic for it!! Would you mind recommending me some, maybe..?? :')

This took longer then I meant but im real serious bout my yoi fics. gets kinda long so under the cut! 

Okay currently the fics im obsessed with - 

Fics I rec:

The princess diaries au that has me SCREAMING WITH EVERY UPDATE OMG it has such an amazing aesthetic and plot and i ADORE all the characters and this victor???? Wow. amazing.

Seek those who fan your flames by @ebenroot

summary :

Yuuri gets hand-delivered a black-print T-shirt by one of his bodyguards on Friday. There’s a small sticky note attached to the collar in Victor’s handwriting that reads: ‘Our new band shirt! Logo is still a work in progress. Name too. But it’s a start! Let me know what you think after school. - Victor’

There’s a heart next to his name that is hastily scribbled out. Then another heart next to that one, like Victor decided to put it in anyways.

Yuuri thinks he’s in love.

–

in which Yuuri is a teenager that’s actually a prince, and Victor is a teenager with a band that just wants to listen to rock music with him

i love yurio here’s a fic with him prominently i love it

along with the popular fandom troupes of pining viktor and secretly caring yurio, there’s the troupe of yuuri being a beautiful idiot without realizing it i love them all

in wine we trust  by @fireblazie

summary:

Yuri peers into the expanse of the apartment and finds a single, flickering light in the kitchen. He stealthily tiptoes across the floor with the baseball bat clutched tightly in his fists, only to find that, what the hell, this bastard is actually fucking raiding his fridge.

“That’s my pirozhki, asshat!” he snarls, ready to swing his bat when the intruder turns around.

Shit, Yuri thinks. It’s Beautiful International Student Yuuri Katsuki.

IM A BITCH FOR OFFICE AUS. LIKE. OH MY GOD.

I seriously adore everyone in this fic. Omg. ive read it so many times at this point it’s unbelievable. Wow.

the season of the spirits by counterheist / @kixboxer

summary:

Yuuri wakes up to one hell of a headache, a tie he doesn’t recognize knotted around his wrist, and two fistfuls of banknotes cradled to his chest.

~

An AU about cubicles, and the people who work in them.

THIS IS CURRENTLY ONE OF MY FAVORITE FICS EVER IT’S A STAR TREK AU MY GOOOOOOD I LOVE IT!!!!

everything here is amazing omg captain viktor and first officer yuuri with heavy heavy pining omggggggg yaaaas

To Boldly Go by @xyloophones

summary:

“Yuuri!” Viktor calls. “I’ve come to rescue you!”

Yuuri stares at him blankly. He gestures to the various unconscious space pirates with his recently discharged phaser.

“Oh, Captain,” he deadpans. “Save me.”

Or:

A year in the life of badass science officer Yuuri Katsuki, Captain Viktor “Team Mom” Nikiforov, and simultaneously the best crew and worst crew in Starfleet history.

ok so this next fic isnt finished BUT it’s the funniest fic i’ve ever read in this fandom. omfg. i was laughing so hard at every chapter pls read. it’s a speed dating au AND IT’S HILARIOUS also there’s phichit\seung-gil in this which i didn’t even know was a thing\didn’t ship UNTIL THIS FIC IT’S JUST A SIDE PAIRING BUT I LOOOOVE IT AND BOTH OF THEM

Speed Dating (Let’s Take it Slow) by @apalettefullofyou

summary:

“Why like this?” Yuuri asks, breaking the silence.

Phichit grins. “Because desperate times call for desperate measures. And if you haven’t noticed, we’re desperate.“

Tired of watching Georgi mull over his recent breakup, Viktor and the gang take him speed dating, hoping one of the twenty-something strangers could help fill the hole in his heart.

Now if only he could stop crying.

u like royal au?????? am i bout to blow your MIND

this is THE royal fic. so so so good. gods. the characterization. the pining. the povs. everyone is written so well OH MY GOD ITS SO GOOD.

The Rules for Lovers by  @adreamingsongbird

Prince Yuuri Katsuki has a duty to his country, above all else (his desires, his dreams, and his happiness included), and he knows this alliance will help to ensure the safety of his people. That’s the only reason he accepts Prince Nikiforov’s hand in marriage. The pleasant surprise, of course, is the part where they fall in love along the way. The unpleasant one, well…

That’s a long story.

I went through a superheroes phase and this fandom is the best enabler. Pls check out this superhero series, like, even if you’re not that big of a fan. It’s so wonderful throughout and intriguing and god, the plot sucks you in so well. The characters and their powers are handled so well and tbh im so invested

The Yuuri!!! On fire series by @hinatella

Summary:

A detailed exposé of what working with an ex-villain is like, as told by a very distraught Yuuri Katsuki. (P.S.: it isn’t the fact that he’s an ex-villain that Yuuri is close to losing his mind.)

so! cute! domestic life after yuuri and viktor move back to russia!! so cute!!! omg!!!!

Safety Hazards in St. Petersburg by @lucycamui

summary:

In which Yuuri moves in with Victor in St. Petersburg and Victor discovers just how distracting living with him can be.

Alternatively titled, How Many Ways Can Victor Hurt Himself? or Idiots in Love

Authors I advise to immediately read everything they produce because fUCK

Ebenroot - they wrote the princess diaries fic above but jfc. Jfc. there’s so much more. They’re doing a fairy tale au that i scream into a pillow every time it updated. Everything they write is just so purely GOOD dear GODS

Xylophones i recced their star trek series above BUT WAIT THERE’S MORE! They did a halloween week of fics that im still obsessed with (GO READ MOONSTRUCK PLEASEEEE!!!) so there’s a ton more to check out!!!

Thehandsingsweapon / @handsingsweapon *opens coat* u want some wonderfully developed characters? Some of that good character development shit?? The best parents i’ve ever read for sir victor nikiforov?????? Literally please read these fics for the pure existence of victor’s wonderful lesbian mothers. God. its all i want in life and i have to live vicariously through these fics.

Spookyfoot / @spookyfoot if for some odd reason you dont have the time/will to read 30 wonderful yoi fics, for the love of god please read their spy/mistaken identity fic. God please. It’s been months since i got the notification email for it and i STILL LAUGH FROM THE THOUGHT OF IT. so good. im in love. 

okay okay, it’s sunday night and im using this to stall doing my homework but i should go now. let me know if you want anymore!! lol it might take awhile for me to finally answer the ask but ill get to it!!! 

[vcepsis]

heyy, saw your 100 followers post (congrats!!) and i have a prompt if you're interested? i've been craving appendicitis recently, with a whumpee that doesn't know what's happening right away and is taken by surprise when the pain hits them. (suddenly doubling over clutching their abdomen in the middle of practice with a pained groan, maybe?) u kno i'm a slut for sick vitya but any character is 👌👌👌

I’m sorry this took so long (like…a month?). But thank you so much for the prompt! I know how much you love hurting poor Victor so I decided to try my hand at that for you :) this is the first time I’ve written any kind of Victor whump, so I hope it sounds ok!

(Side note: I’m always up for taking YOI whump prompts so if any of y’all want to you can hmu, it just might take a month lol)

About 2k. WARNING: Emeto mention (no descriptions), hospital scene.

Victor landed his quadruple flip with ease, per usual. Hewasn’t even sure why Yakov forced him to practice them anymore: they werealmost second nature to him at this point. It was worth it, though, to hear Yuuri’ssmall, appreciative sigh from where he was taking a break in the stands.

Something was off about this jump, though. He landedperfectly on one foot, but the landing seemed to send a jolt of pain thattraveled up his leg and settled in his stomach.

Wincing a bit, Victor skated over to the side of the rink,grabbing his water bottle and taking a long drink, hoping it would help.

It didn’t. Instead, it made his stomach churn.

“Victor?”

Yuuri had come over to where Victor was standing, still onthe other side of the ice. He was frowning at him. “Are you alright?”

Victor smiled on instinct. “Of course!”

Yuuri’s frown deepened. “Are you sure?” He cuppeda hand to Victor’s cheek. “You actually feel kind of warm…”

Victor forced himself to keep smiling. “Your hand isjust cold. Now, are you coming back on the ice?”

Victor brushed Yuuri’s hand away and skated backwards,raising his eyebrows at Yuuri, who blushed a bit. “Oh, y-yes.”

Victor turned, skating forward while trying to ignore thepain. It worked, for a moment or two.  Hewas just turning into the set up for another jump when the pain flared anew,this time on his right side. Gasping a bit, he abruptly dropped out of the jump,skating over to the side of the rink. Skidding to an ungraceful stop, hegrabbed the boards in a white knuckled grip. Squeezing his eyes shut, he triedto will the sudden pain and nausea away.

He heard the scrape of skate blades next to him, and felt ahand touch his back lightly. “Vitya?”

Yuuri didn’t know about the pain; Victor would have had toactually tell him for him to know. So Victor wasn’t annoyed when Yuuriunknowingly touched the spot on his back where the pain was radiating from. He did,however, suck in a sharp breath at the touch, and Yuuri’s hand quicklydisappeared.

“Victor, what’s wrong?” Yuuri was trying to staycalm, but there was the slightest tinge of panic in his voice.

“J-just give me a minute.” With that, Victorslowly skated to the exit, which luckily wasn’t too far away. He slipped on hisskate guards before walking as fast as he could to the bathroom.

Once there, he locked himself in a stall, fell to his kneesover the toilet, and promptly threw up his breakfast, groaning when itexacerbated the pain in his side.

Coughing harshly, he raised a shaky hand to quickly flushthe toilet. “Fuck,” he murmured under his breath. He hated throwing up.

Did he have the flu? It was the season for it, after all. OhGod, he’d been kissing Yuuri all day…

No sooner had the thought crossed Victor’s mind that heheard the door to the bathroom open, and there was a tentative knock on thestall door.

“Victor?”

“I’m ok—” His reassurances were, unfortunately,interrupted by a dry retch into the toilet.

“Victor, open the door, please.” Yuuri sounded calm enough, but when Victorfinally turned and unlocked the stall door, he saw Yuuri’s wide eyes andslightly shaking hands.

“Victor, oh no, are you alright? What happened? What’swrong? Are you feeling sick? Should I get Yakov—”

“Yuuri.” Victor cut off Yuuri’s panicked bombardmentof questions before he could spiral into a full anxiety attack. “It’sprobably just the flu. I’ll be ok, but you shouldn’t be too close.”

Yuuri blatantly ignored that last part, kneeling down andpulling Victor to him, pressing their foreheads together. “I knew you hada fever. Why didn’t you tell me you were feeling bad? We could have stayed hometoday.”

Victor shook his head slowly, smiling a bit. “Icouldn’t miss a day as your coach. What would you do without me?”

“Your health is far more important than training,whether it’s mine or yours!” Yuuri scolded him, trying to look sternthrough his worry.

Victor chuckled. “Look who’s talking, Mr.Practices-with-a-103-degree-fever.”

“That was one time,” Yuuri said, unperturbed.“You know I’m not a good role model. In any case, we need to get youhome.”

Victor just nodded as Yuuri stood, offering his hand to him.Victor took it, standing slowly and gasping out loud as the pain in his sidemade itself known again. The anxiety returned to Yuuri’s expression. “What’swrong?”

“Nothing. Just—hurts,” Victor managed to say,blinking rapidly.

Yuuri frowned. “What hurts?”

Victor gingerly touched his lower right side. Yuuri’s eyeswidened, and he pulled his phone out of his pocket, typing quickly with onehand while still holding Victor’s with the other.

“Ok, just….stay here for a second.” Yuurisqueezed Victor’s hand once before letting go and rushing off as fast as heskated feet would allow. Victor sank back down to the floor, his back to thetoilet, resting his head on the metal wall. He knew it probably wasn’tsanitary, but the cool metal felt good on his skin; he was suddenly feeling hisfever.

A few minutes went by, and Victor ended up dozing a bit inthe stall, before the door to the bathroom slammed open and made him jump abit. But this brought the pain back in full force, and he tried to bite back awhimper.

Suddenly, Yakov appeared, with Yuuri close behind him. Hehad changed out of his skates and was holding Victor’s shoes.

Yakov knelt down in front of Victor, placing a hand to hisforehead. “What hurts, Vitya?”

Victor was finding it harder to concentrate through thepain. “Right….right side…”

Yakov cursed loudly, turning to Yuuri. “Get his skatesoff and bring him outside. I’ll bring the car around.”

Victor frowned, the words not making sense. “Whatfor?”

Yakov stood, already on his way out. “We’re taking youto the hospital.”

~~~~~

Yuuri’s hands shook as he untied Victor’s skates. Victorwasn’t really paying attention, head resting on thewall, clearly a bit out ofit.

Yakov had been quick in his decision to take Victor to thehospital. Yuuri hadn’t been sure, at first, but after looking up “pain inright side” on his phone, he knew he needed to get Yakov involved. Yakovhad frowned when Yuuri ha d told him about Victor’s sudden illness, but afterseeing his reaction just now, Yuuri was sure.

It was definitely Victor’s appendix.

Rationally, Yuuri knew people went through this all thetime. Getting it removed was a fairly common occurrence, with things rarelygoing wrong. Still, people could diefrom this, right? Didn’t people used to die from this all the time? Andanything can go wrong in surgery, even with the best doctors in the besthospitals and oh God—

A hand suddenly cupped his cheek, wiping away tears thatYuuri didn’t realize were falling. Looking up, he saw Victor’s glazed eyeslooking back at him with concern.

Yuuri took a deep breath, trying to calm down. He wouldn’tbe any help to Victor if he had a panic attack right now.

After what felt like an eternity, Yuuri finally got Victor’sskates off and his shoes on. Yuuri helped him to his feet, holding back tearsagain when Victor—strong, capable Victor—actually whimpered.

Yuuri led Victor out of the bathroom and to the entrance ofthe rink, supporting most of Victor’s weight with his skates in his free hand.It was a bit awkward, but they managed to slowly make their way to where Yakovwas waiting.

The drive to the hospital was tense, with Victor’s head inYuuri’s lap in the backseat. Yakov was silent, expertly weaving through thedense St. Petersburg traffic. Victor’s eyes were squeezed shut, and every nowand then he would strengthen his grip on Yuuri’s hand so hard it made Yuuriwince, though he didn’t mind. He would do anything to ease Victor’s pain, evenif it was only a little bit.

By the time they actually arrived at the hospital, Yuuri’snerve were pretty well shot. With Yakov’s help, they got Victor into theemergency room, and after hastily scribbling on a few forms, Victor was beingprepped for surgery. Despite both the doctor and Yakov’s reassurances that thiswas a fairly routine procedure, Yuuri knew he wouldn’t be able to rest untilVictor was alright.

~~~

Victor felt like he was swimming.

His head felt heavy, and there was a weird pressure on hisside. Was he asleep? Had Makkachin fallen asleep on his stomach again? He triedto move, but found his limbs weren’t responding, and eventually, he drifted offagain.

Soon after (or was it long after? It was hard to tell)Victor found he could actually open his eyes, though his body still felt heavy.A stark, white ceiling greeted him, as well as the steady beep of machines.Where was he?

Looking over, he saw a lovely, familiar sight in all of thisweirdness: Yuuri, hunched over his phone in a chair next to him.

Wait….was he in the hospital?

Looking around some more, he saw the heart monitor next tothe bed, the IV connected to his arm. Yes, he was definitely in the hospital.

He turned back to look at Yuuri. Dark circles were smudgedunder his eyes, and the screen of his phone made his face look incredibly pale.It seemed like he hadn’t slept in a while.

Victor hesitantly moved his hand out, his fuzzy head stillnot sure how to use his voice. Luckily, the movement caught Yuuri’s eye, whosnapped his head up from his phone. Seeing Victor awake, he hastily shoved his phonein the pocket of his jeans and sat up straighter.

“Vitya…” Yuuri took his hand gently, smilingeven as his eyes filled with tears. “You’re finally awake. How do youfeel?”

Victor took a moment to find his voice. “Yuuri…whathappened…?”

“You got sick during practice,” Yuuri said, voicesoft. “It was your appendix. Yakov and I took you to the hospital.”

“Oh…” Victor frowned, trying to remember. Thepainkillers were still weighing on him heavily, and thinking was hard. Histhoughts had a strange, watery texture to them, and they slipped through hisfingers when he tried too hard to grasp them.

Yuuri squeezed his hand gently. “You were in surgeryfor a while, but it went alright. You’ll have to stay in the hospital for acouple of days, but you’ll be able to skate again in a few weeks.”

“Mhm,” Victor responded, the words not reallyregistering in his brain. He was too busy looking at Yuuri.  "You looked so tired, my Yuuri…“

Yuuri gave him a small smile, and a few tears slid down hischeek. Victor’s eyes widened, trying to reach Yuuri’s face with his other hand,but the IV stopped him. Why was his Yuuri crying? Victor hated to see him cry.

“I’m ok, Victor.” Yuuri quickly wiped his tearsaway with his free hand. “I was just so worried about you. But you’regoing to be fine.”

“Ok,” Victor said. He wasn’t sure why Yuuri shouldhave been worried; after all, he hardly remembered what happened. But as longas Yuuri was ok.

Victor found his eyes growing heavy, despite his desire tohold on to Yuuri’s voice. Yuuri noticed, though, and cupped a hand to hischeek, stroking the skin gently with his thumb. “Rest, Vitya. I’ll be herewhen you wake up.”

Victor smiled, and let sleep take him.

[lovingnikiforov]

2017 Fic Writing Round-Up

Total year-long word count: 397,326 words.....jfc

Word count by fandom:  ~ Bungou Stray Dogs: 304,788 ~ Yuri on Ice: 92,002 ~ Noragami: 536

Fics completed: 34

♥ Drabbles: ~ 15 tumblr prompt fills - bsd, yoi, noragami ~ chasing happy - bsd, odazai

♥ Oneshots: ~ Unwrapped - bsd, soukoku, pwp, IoL companion ~ just a start - bsd, soukoku, eating disorder, pre-canon ~ Seventy-Three Hours - bsd, soukoku, IoL companion ~ Reaching for Normal - bsd, soukoku, first date, IoL companion ~ Masterpiece - bsd, soukoku, tattooed Chuuya, IoL companion ~ all night long - bsd, soukoku, pole dancing Chuuya ~ You're Mine - bsd, soukoku, choker kink, mafia boss dazai, IoL companion ~ PDA - bsd, soukoku, choker kink, mafia boss dazai ~ on cliff's edge - bsd, soukoku, pre-canon, alt first reunion ~ Touch - bsd, reader-insert, pwp, gift fic ~ Closure - bsd, pre-canon, alt first reunion, gift fic ~ Deals Kept - bsd, soukoku, college au, gift fic ~ slow dancing in a burning room - bsd, soukoku, alcoholism, self-harm, gift fic ~ Drop the Act - bsd, soukoku, pwp, mafia spy Dazai ~ reach out and touch - yoi, viktuuri, touch-starved viktor ~ Puppy Love - bsd, soukoku, kid fic, jealous Dazai

♥ Chapter Fics: ~ Illustrations of Lying - bsd, soukoku, mafia boss dazai au ~ don’t you ever tame your demons - bsd, soukoku, dystopian/mafia boss dazai au

Works-in-progress: 3 ~ Equivalent Exchange - viktuuri magic/fantasy au ~ where your loyalties lie - soukoku arranged marriage/yakuza au ~ Rent a (boy)Friend - phichuuri fake dating au

This year I wrote and posted: 37 fics in total: 2 completed multi-chapter fics, 3 wip multi-chapter fics, 16 oneshots, 16 drabbles.

Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted? So, so much more. This is the most fic I've ever written in a year by far.

What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January? Yuri on Ice. There's already so much content for the fandom and I spent the first 6 months of the year without a single piece of inspiration for a yoi story and now I'm writing two.

What's your own favorite story of the year? Not the most popular, but the one that makes you happiest? Rent a (boy)Friend. It's definitely not my normal genre and that's why it's entertaining to write. Also the fact that I have no idea what I'm doing amuses me everytime I go to work on it.

Did you take any writing risks this year? What did you learn from them? I feel like my writing theme this year was taking risks. dyetyd was a big one for me: I've never tried my hand at dystopia and I've also never written anything that was as dark as that story. There's also some stylistic choices I was playing with in terms of narration. I also tried writing in present tense for the first time with wyll (which has stuck, I like it). Not to mention the scale of the worldbuilding for EE considering that it's my first yoi fic almost made me not write it.

Your best story of this year: Hmm, this is a hard one. I think I might have to go with Equivalent Exchange even though it's not finished yet. I'm really pleased with the worldbuilding and the character development in the story.

Your most popular story of this year:  Equivalent Exchange, though to be fair the yoi fandom is a lot bigger than the bsd fandom.

Story of yours most under-appreciated by the universe, in your opinion: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Looking through my fics I couldn't pick one that feels under-appreciated. The amount of support I received this year for all of my fics has been humbling.

Most fun story to write: Puppy Love. I had a lot of fun swapping headcanons with Rie (AnonLearnsToWrite) on twitter and the story practically wrote itself.

Story with the single sexiest moment: You’re Mine. Honestly I think this overall was the sexiest story I wrote this year, but I'm partial to the bit when Dazai learns just how prepared Chuuya is.

Most "Holy crap, that's wrong, even for you" story: slow dancing in a burning room, this was a prompt fill though so I feel like there's a gray area here.

Story that shifted your own perceptions of the characters: Illustrations of lying. Since this was my first bsd fic it's the one where I kind of fumbled my way through understanding the characters. Some of the choices I found on accident here ended up really impacting how I characterized Dazai and Chuuya for the rest of the year.

Hardest story to write: don’t you ever tame your demons (i know let’s all act shocked). My goal from the start of this fic was to challenge myself and I think I did too good of a job with that lol.

Biggest disappointment: Closure. There were things I wanted to do conceptually with the fic that didn't end up reading the way I wanted them to. I just always feel like I could've done better with this one.

Biggest surprise: Sora's Piece (wyll companion). I literally wrote this on a whim in response to an ask and was not prepared for my wyll readers to latch onto the character.

Most unintentionally telling story: reach out and touch. While this fic is about a viktor headcanon I've agreed with for a long time this definitely ended up being more of a vent fic than I anticipated.

Favorite opening line(s): ~ Of all the things that Dazai would have expected to find in Chuuya’s apartment, a stripper pole was certainly not one of them. - all night long ~ It is an universal truth that power rests in the hands of only a minority of those who seek it. - don't you ever tame your demons

Favorite closing line(s): ~ (He’s fairly certain this next mission probably would manage to kill the older man, and he’d prefer not to fuck this up). - Puppy Love

Favorite 5 line(s) from anywhere: ~ Her gaze runs over Chuuya’s face and she cocks an eyebrow, “you voluntarily married Dazai?” - wyll, ch. 9 ~ Kouyou turned her back to the city and met Dazai’s gaze. “When you break him, Dazai, do not be surprised if I tell you he is beyond repair.” - dyetyd, ch. 2 ~ Gin’s lips curled into a wry smile, “I don’t think whatever causes some to have abilities and others not to have them gives a damn about how the world handles it. - dyetyd, ch. 16 ~ "Hey, Kunikida-kun, did you know that I finally achieved my dream?" Dazai hums, as if the question was never asked. "I'm blissfully dead."..."If you're dead, why are you still bothering me?" - wyll, ch. 10

Top 5 scenes from anywhere you would choose to have illustrated: ~ Yuuri telling Viktor the story of the First Mage- Equivalent Exchange ~ The reveal of Mary Shelley’s ability- Illustrations of Lying ~ Chuuya touching Dazai’s tattoo- where your loyalties lie ~ That bit in You're Mine with the mirror....u kno what I'm talking about ~ Chuuya and Dazai's first kiss- don't you ever tame your demons

Fic-writing goals for next year: This has been the first time I've had a 100% completion rate for my chapter fics and I want to continue that into 2018. No more abandoned fics from Dessa 2k18.

[arisakim]

Passacaille in Barcelona

Before I start rambling about this particular OST from YOI Soundtrack, please do note that I’m not a music major student and certainly not a music prodigy, I’m just someone who like to deeply analyze things lol (and ofc, this is only my interpretation so feel free if you have any other opinion). And this post is based on some post I accidentally saw on tumblr few days ago saying that some people speculate that “Passacaille in Barcelona” is a companion piece to Yuri on Ice, but this time, Victor is the piano while Yuuri is the violin.

Okay, let’s get started then.

So if you already hear the soundtrack, Passacaille in Barcelona is that instrumental piece used as background in episode 10 (during Victor + Yurio beach scene in the morning) and slightly at episode 12 (during that talk when Yuuri wanted to end things and during the short clip of the beach after that). This song, in my opinion, has that “sad but calm” feeling; kinda like a song that you hear when you reminiscing past memories, the one that make your heart warm and flutter, but also with a bit hint of sadness there.

While Yuri on Ice is about Yuuri’s journey: his growth, his achievement throughout the story, his life and love with Victor; Passacaille in Barcelona is about looking back into all of those things already happened, but this time it’s from Victor’s POV. To simplify things, let’s just break the song into three distinctive parts: the piano at the beginning, the majority of the song aka the piano-violin duet, and the piano at the ending of the song. Also, once again, remember that Victor is the piano.

First, the piano at the beginning. We all know what is Victor’s main reason of taking break, abandoning his career, going to Japan, and coaching Yuuri. We all know that he’s lonely, that he already lost all motivation and inspiration, that he desperately need something to spark his dull life. And that’s the first part of the song. The lonely piano at the beginning is Victor; it’s about him being alone, being confused about what to do (well at least until he saw Yuuri skate to Stammi Vicino), being lost in his own glory and fame. But it’s short. It’s short because he doesn’t want to dwell on that dull and depressing past for too long, it’s short because he just want to move on and remembering all goodness that happened in his life after that. Or simply to say: after he met Yuuri again and became his coach.

Then, hopping into the second part: the piano and violin duet. Of course, this is all about Victor relationship with Yuuri. But since this is from Victor’s POV, you can hear how the piano isn’t that dominant in this part. It’s just a background accompanying the violin, the harmony to make the violin much more stronger and stand out and catch everyone’s attentions. In sentence, maybe it’s something like, “I’ll do anything, give anything, to make you shine. It’s your time. It’s your spotlight, not mine.” And yes, basically that’s what Victor did, right? He didn’t even care with his World Championships title, he just care about Yuuri. He will do anything to help Yuuri reach his goal, even though it’s actually kinda frustrating to him. I mean, at the beginning, Yuuri didn’t even realize that Victor wanted more than just student-coach relationship (just look at him being “It’s katsudon!!” with that Eros-thingy lol). Yuuri strongly thinks that their relationship isn’t something permanent, that it will fade over time because Victor is just too good and all to him (I don’t blame him, that’s his anxiety talking and I know how it feels). So yeah, it’s frustrating, but Victor chose to compromise with that. He will take what he can get, he will do anything as long as Yuuri stay close to his side. He hoped that Yuuri will never retired, because he thought that that’s the only way for them to keep being together.

But then, things started to be different when they exchanged the rings. In the song, you can hear that the piano is gradually getting stronger too around 02:00 mark (it’s getting stronger in my opinion if you hear it through earphone). And for me, that’s just simply beautiful and meaningful. It shows how much both of them actually getting stronger, not just Yuuri, but Victor too. Just like what Victor thought during the beach scene, that Yuuri not only give him (and people around him) love and life but it’s more than that. It’s about getting stronger together, it’s about supporting each other and not putting someone up there on the high pedestal. They grow so much, that maybe, maybe that time at the beach, Victor just wanted to proudly say: "We are happy, and content, and will always be there for each other.” 

Until Yuuri asked him to end things, and this is where the third part of the song comes. I keep wondering why they showed a short glimpse of the beach the morning after the talk, along with a short piano part of this song, and then suddenly the (angsty) thought came into mind. What if, what if the lone piano part at the ending of the song means that Victor actually... okay with Yuuri ending things? Okay, we know he was angry and he wouldn’t just give up that easily, but still, the decision at that time was on Yuuri’s hand. He can’t keep pushing Yuuri if Yuuri doesn’t want that, and I believe that Victor knows that better than anyone. So yes he would try, but that lone piano symbolizes how he would accept any decision made. Even if that decision end up hurting him, anything, as long as Yuuri’s happy with his own decision. And it just broke my heart, thinking that somehow, deep down inside, Victor might have this kind of thought. That he is okay even if the worst thing end up becoming reality; because while looking back at all those moments happened in their life, it was worth it and it already gave him reasons to feel alive again. Yuuri deserved to be happy and to make all decisions he wants, so Victor will let him to do that (and ofc while trying to not give up).

(And let’s be glad that Yuuri end up choosing to keep skating because if it’s not, I think my heart will seriously break)

Will go back to listen Passacaille in Barcelona in repeat now, have a good day everyone! <3