#“because it's football night” 🙃

[bandsandwristbands]

And what if I were to fist fight the entire NFL what about that

[p0orbaby]

“ i love you. “ “ even when i snore? “ “ no. you better get that under control or i'll kick you out of our bedroom. “

This prompt for a sleepy snoring Leah Williamson🥰🙃

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The soft glow of the bedside lamp cast a warm light over the room, its gentle illumination a stark contrast to the cool night air outside. Leah lays sprawled comfortably on her side of the bed, her breathing steady and deep. You, however, are wide awake, staring at the ceiling, listening to the not-so-soft snores emanating from your girlfriend.

You turn to face her, a smile tugging at your lips despite your sleep-deprived state. Leah’s blonde hair is splayed out over the pillow, her face relaxed in peaceful slumber. She looks so serene, a stark difference from the fierce and determined footballer the world knows her to be.

“I love you,” you whisper softly, your voice only just ausible over her snores.

She stirs slightly, mumbling something incoherent before settling back into a rhythm. You can't help but chuckle, reaching out to gently brush a strand of hair from her face.

“Even when I snore?” she murmurs, eyes still closed but a small smile playing on her lips.

“No,” you reply teasingly, your voice filled with mock seriousness. “You better get that under control or I’ll kick you out of our bedroom”

Leah’s eyes flutter open, and she gives you a sleepy grin. “Is that so?”

“Absolutely,” you say, unable to keep a straight face. “I need my beauty sleep”

Leah chuckles, pulling you closer. “Guess I’ll have to find a way to stop then,” she says, her voice soft and affectionate. “Because I can’t sleep when you’re not there”

You laugh, the sound mingling with the stillness of the night. “Well we can’t have that then, can we?”

Leah shakes her head, her eyes already drifting shut again. As you snuggled into her warmth, her arms wrapped around you, you felt a wave of contentment wash over you. Even with her snoring, there was no place you’d rather be.

“Goodnight, love,” you whisper, pressing a kiss to her forehead.

“Goodnight,” she mumbles in return, her breath steadying as she drifts back into sleep.

[katelynnwrites]

Wondering If I Dodged A Bullet (Or Just Lost The Love Of My Life) | Laura Freigang

warnings: angst and my round and round in circles writing

word count: 2897

summary: laura leaves penn state for frankfurt, another way to put it would be that you and your girlfriend break up because she leaves penn state for frankfurt

a/n: i struggled so hard to complete this and it ended up being far from my best work but it is what it is 🙃

You are eighteen years old when your world changes forever.

It happens in the form of a blonde striker named Laura.

Her eyes captivate you the second you meet them. They’re the same colour as the ocean on a stormy day and possess the same ever shifting qualities.

She’s all confidence on the pitch and yet oh so shy when off it.

When your college coach introduces you to her, you know it is inevitable that you fall for her.

You have all your lucky stars to thank that she falls for you too.

******

It is one month into your relationship with Laura that you learn she loves back scratches.

You discover it entirely by accident, having mindlessly run your fingers across her shirt covered back while she was studying.

The happy sigh she let out had been a soft one but you’d picked up on it immediately.

It’s still early in your relationship but Laura has always been open about her body to you so it’s only with mild hesitation that you tentatively slide your hand up under her shirt, to gently scratch your nails on her bare skin.

The German girl groans immediately. It’s a sound of contentment and you adore the way she melts onto your bed.

She’d come over to study and you suspect, to complain about her upcoming psychology test.

Your girlfriend is awfully smart, being more than capable of keeping up her grades while still being a regular starter for your football team

You suppose that attaining a sports scholarship to study in Penn State should have given you an idea of just how driven she can be.

Laura’s a year older and thus, a year ahead of you. She has way more course material than you and her compromise for making sure she is able to finish her work and still spend time with you, is doing her work in your room. Often with her head in your lap.

You giggle at her protests the moment you stop giving her back scratches.

‘Schatz please don’t stop.’ She begs.

Her ocean coloured eyes have this beseeching look in them, the one that you are never able to refuse.

‘Wouldn’t dream of it.’ You laugh, resuming your previous actions, much to the blonde’s delight.

******

One hundred and twenty one days into dating Laura, you learn that there is nothing she wouldn’t do for you.

Your girlfriend is a big all or nothing individual, that particular characteristic drawing you to her in the first place.

The German forward gives everything she has on the pitch, absolutely one hundred percent of herself regardless of the minute or the opponent.

It just didn’t occur to you that she would bring that into your relationship.

From using the little stove in the dormitory kitchen to make your favourite breakfast on game days, to carrying your bag for you after trainings, Laura is simply committed to you.

You don’t know how else to put it.

She is just an anything for my person kind of girl.

You’re beyond grateful to be her person.

The striker is stepping up her game now, video calling you from her hotel room in Germany, just so she can wish you good morning.

There is a significant time difference between Pennsylvania and Frankfurt but your girlfriend makes it work.

The blonde sets an alarm to wake up in the middle of the night, just to call you for a few minutes right when she knows you will be getting up for your classes.

‘Good morning schatz.’ She whispers, taking in the early morning sun that is lighting up your room when you pick up her call.

‘I’d say good morning too but I think wishing you goodnight makes more sense.’ You tease.

Your girlfriend giggles, ‘I’ll take anything you want to wish me. I just wanted to hear the sound of your voice.’

You’re glad for the poor lighting because Laura’s words make your cheeks turn a bright red.

‘Lau? You did not have to wake up just to say good morning to me. Rest is important for you.’

‘I know. But I wanted to.’ She says softly, adoration filling her voice.

‘Lau?’ You ask again, staring hard at your phone screen to make her out in her hotel room.

It is dark but you manage to, the weak glow of her own phone screen helping you do so.

She is tucked into her sheets, messy blonde hair strewn all over her pillow as she giggles, ‘Yes schatz?’

‘I miss you.’

‘I miss you too.’ She breathes, a small smile playing on her lips.

Every time Germany has a training camp for their youth teams, Laura flies back to her home country to participate.

Each time, you miss her more.

Her absence is sorely felt and you’ve taken to dropping her off and picking her up at the airport just so you don’t have to miss her any longer than you have to.

‘I’ll see you at the airport in two days?’

‘Count on it.’ You promise and you blow each other a kiss before hanging up.

******

Six months into your relationship with the German player is when you find out that she has a penchant for stealing your clothes.

You have been wondering where certain items of your clothing have disappeared to and unbeknown to you, Laura has been hiding them away in her room.

Hoarding might actually be a more accurate term.

Despite how clingy you can be to your girlfriend and she to you, you don’t spend every night together.

When you do, it’s nearly always in your room because your bed is slightly bigger than hers.

It is a sore point with the blonde and she often jokingly complains that it is unfair of Penn State to give their star forward such a small bed.

Today is one of the few times you are in her room and the first time you are alone in it.

Laura’s late in meeting you and you know your girlfriend well enough to be sure that it’s because she has got a bunch of questions for her lecturer.

So you had used the spare key she had given you when you were just friends, before you’d even started dating, to let yourself into her room because standing outside it alone had been too awkward. You know she won’t mind anyway.

Tired from the day’s early morning practice, you flop down on her bed and dump your bag down at the side of it.

You absentmindedly shift her pillow to get more comfortable, only to find something beside it.

As you stare at the piece of clothing, you realise that it’s one of your missing shirts.

Lying back down, you find another of your missing shirts tucked under the other side of her pillow.

You are very confused now, beginning to wonder if you have been forgetful enough to leave not just one but two of your shirts behind, the last time you stayed over in her dorm room.

But if you were, then why hasn’t the blonde returned the shirts to you? Or said anything?

Thankfully, you hear Laura’s key in the door so you don’t have to worry about it for long.

‘Hey schatz.’ She greets cheerfully, flinging her bag onto the floor carelessly and sprawling herself on top of you.

‘Lau!’ You exclaim and she laughs.

Her hands cup your face gently and she presses a brief kiss onto your lips.

‘Hi.’ You giggle, after readily reciprocating her affectionate gesture.

‘Hi.’ She breathes.

Your girlfriend buries her face into the side of your neck, leaving more intimate kisses there.

You groan at the touch of her lips on your skin. It gives you butterflies inside but you can’t let it distract you now.

‘Laura…Laura?’

She makes a questioning noise but doesn’t slow.

‘Why have you got my shirts in your bed? Did I leave them here?’

The German girl freezes.

‘Lau?’ You prompt, reaching out to hold her hand reassuringly.

Her cheeks are rapidly turning a bright pink and she stammers, ‘I-I didn’t mean for you to find out about that…you’re going to think I’m so silly.’

You plant a little kiss on her forehead and gently tease, ‘I already think you’re silly, in the best of ways.’

Laura smiles and then shyly admits, ‘You didn’t leave them here. I kinda stole them from you because I love sleeping with your familiar smell. You always smell so good and something about it just calms me down.’

You stare at her in stunned silence.

Long enough that Laura begins to look uncertain.

Then you blurt out, ‘I love you.’

Your girlfriend lets out a small gasp, her pretty eyes shining as she whispers, ‘I love you too.’

It’s the first ‘I love you’ for the both of you and you cannot put into words how much it means.

Laura seems to be thinking along the same lines because she traces your cheekbone lightly, the action filled with adoration.

‘I love you. I love you. I love you.’ She murmurs, in between peppering your face with kisses.

‘Love you too Laura. So much, even if you do keep stealing my shirts.’

The blonde smiles and confesses, ‘Can’t help it. I bring a bunch with me to every national camp too.’

Before meeting the German girl, you didn’t know it was possible to feel this strongly for anyone.

But as it is with Laura, you discover so many firsts.

You hope that you discover many lasts too because you want what you have with her to be forever.

Fervently, you hope that Laura Freigang is the girl you have your last first kiss with.

******

Forty five weeks of dating Laura and you decide that she is the love of your life.

Maybe it’s the good morning and good night kisses, or the way she so obviously cherishes every moment she has with you. It could even be the way she smiles.

The corners of her lips tip upwards and her eyes light up each and every time she does so.

Your girlfriend’s brother says that Laura’s smile is different when it is directed at you. He claims that it is special and you are inclined to agree.

Laura herself is special to you. Boundlessly so.

She has a new found habit of sliding her hand up and under your shirt whenever you fall asleep together.

The blonde striker craves skin to skin contact with you, loves the peace it gives her.

After your girlfriend admits why she keeps your shirts beside her pillow, you offer her a better solution.

Instead of your shirts, she can have you.

Laura takes you up on that immediately and her assigned dorm room practically becomes a storage room for her belongings.

She is always in your room because she spends every night there now.

It’s one of her favourite things to curl up beside you and rhythmically match her breaths to yours.

You are warm and oh so real, unlike the often cold material of your shirts.

The German girl can be possessive and it shows in how she holds you close, even as she sleeps.

Laura presses you into her, her palm resting flat on your back and you love it.

It has you feeling safe and wanted, two things that your girlfriend has never failed to make you feel.

You know that you are right, she is the love of your life.

******

Three hundred and sixty five days of being Laura’s and Laura being yours is when she gives you a necklace for your anniversary.

It is a simple piece of jewellery, a small heart shaped locket hanging on a delicate silver chain.

‘Do you like it?’ She anxiously asks, fidgeting with the rings on her fingers.

Admiring the gift, you breathe, ‘I love it.’

Gently, you kiss her to convey just how grateful you are. The blonde smiles into the kiss, her hands cupping your face instinctively.

When you pull away, you softly speak, ‘Thank you schatz. Will you help me put it on please?’

The striker grins brightly, ‘Of course.’

She makes quick work of clasping it around your neck as you hold your hair up.

Glancing at the mirror, you play with the locket and Laura prompts, ‘Open it.’

You feel a tiny latch you hadn’t noticed earlier just as she says so.

The locket opens when you press down on it and you gasp as you see the photo of your girlfriend sharing a kiss with you in it.

You pull Laura into a different kiss, deepening it to show her just how much you love her present.

‘Love you. Love you. Love you.’ You murmur, in between the kisses you keep pressing onto her lips.

Laura lets out a pleased sigh, intertwining her fingers with yours and promising, ‘I love you too.’

You squeeze her hand in yours but can’t take your eyes off the locket.

‘Schatz, this is really beautiful.’

Your girlfriend cheekily but honestly admits, ‘Like you.’

Then she laughs at the blush that rapidly appears on your cheeks, affectionately brushing her lips across your forehead.

******

Laura’s locket never leaves its place, around your neck.

Not even when you are nineteen and the blonde, twenty, the two of you unsure where your relationship is going.

The striker has got an offer from 1. FFC Frankfurt and she knows that taking it will be the best move for her career. You know it too.

It is just your fear of what happens now that makes you anxious.

You love your girlfriend, adore her so. She’s only been yours for slightly more than a year but she is the love of your life. You don’t know what you would do without her.

Your day starts with Laura’s good morning kisses, you eat breakfast together, walk each other to classes when able to, study together, go for training sessions with one another and share goodnight kisses when it is time to sleep.

For a lack of a better way to put it, you do not remember how to live your life without her. You don’t you if you can and that may be codependent of you but it is the truth.

From the way the blonde is fidgeting with her rings, you know the feeling is mutual.

‘I-I don’t want to leave you.’ She quietly admits.

‘I know.’

‘I love you.’

‘I know. And I love you too but you have to do this schatz.’

Laura’s voice is pained when she echoes your earlier words, ‘I know.’

Touching your necklace carefully, you begin to unlatch it.

The German girl inhales sharply.

‘Don’t.’

Her ocean coloured eyes are welling with tears when she covers your hands with hers.

‘Keep it. I gave it to you. It’s yours. Please, it’s meant for you.’

‘But Lau-’

Her words are fierce as she insists, ‘No! We’re not over, you and I.’

Your smile is wistful and cautious when you look up at her.

‘Laura you don’t know that. You don’t know if any club will want to take me, let alone one in Germany. The chances of me ending up in Frankfurt with you are slim if at all possible.’

The forward’s frown intensifies, ‘Don’t say that. You don’t know that.’

As much as you want it not to be, your tone is one of resignation, ‘Schatz…’

Your dorm room feels stifling in a way it never has before and even though Laura is sitting right beside you, on your bed, she feels so far away that she might as well already be in Frankfurt.

The blonde is staring at you speechlessly and you take her hand in yours.

Holding her hand is familiar and an intimate gesture…one that you know you will not have for much longer.

‘I love you. No matter how much time passes, part of me is always going to love you. But you need to stop thinking about me. About us…and move on. You are going to do so good with Frankfurt. You are brilliant Lau, please show them exactly how talented you are.’

Your words are barely audible but you mean it. You have never meant anything more. It’s with your whole heart, your breaking heart, that you tell them to the German girl.

Laura’s tears are spilling down her cheeks and she is shaking slightly when you break your heart for good with the next two sentences out of your mouth.

‘I’m your biggest fan. That’s never going to change, it will just have to be from a distance now.’

******

Maybe it was stupid of you to let the love of your life go. But you needed to, needed to learn how to live on your own and let her be a star, halfway around the world.

In a way, you dodge a bullet too because as painful as it is, you learn. Without the striker leaving, you never would have learnt.

And for Laura who has been looking sad in all the nicest places and wanting to call your name until you come back home, it pays off.

Because some years later, as crazy as it is, you are in a German cab and telling the driver where the blonde’s place is.

You’re on your way back home to her, with her locket still around your neck.

German Translation:

schatz - sweetheart

[lostwords-found]

OK, so I'm listening to Night Vale a second time through from the beginning now, because after bingeing the whole series in two weeks I was going to go into withdrawal otherwise--this is the first piece of media I've fallen this hard and this fast for in quite a while. And I just got to episode 74.

Specifically I just got to the bit in episode 74 where Cecil mentions that Malik Herrera (the football kid who was collectively imagined by the town) has taken up carving artwork into the trees in the Whispering Forest, and says that Herrera is immune to the whole turning into a tree thing since he doesn't actually exist.

Which of course, the first time I heard it, I was just like lol, ok, that tracks with Night Valean logic.

But... over a hundred episodes later, we find out that there is at least one other person in Night Vale who can walk through the Whispering Forest safely, and it's. Cecil.

Why are you crying when you don't even exist?

SO ANYWAY, (1) augh, and (2) if anyone needs me, I expect I'll just be over here staring blankly at the ceiling for a while 🙃

[liberty-mutual-138]

Okay, Pookie. I forgot my precious ask, so I’ll send in new ones for the other OC ask game. 👁️👄👁️

5. what was your character's dream job as a kid? is it different than what their career ended up being?

6. what is the thing your oc likes the least about themselves?

16. how does your OC feel about their parents? (No hope for Ozzy and Annika 😭)

23. what are your OC’s biggest flaws and biggest strengths?

26. least favorite food and color?

28. is your OC a dog or cat person?

Pookie I’m so sorry 😭

(5) Oz’s dream job was to play in the NFL, which he was extremely close to doing. He loved football, was very talented and got an athletic scholarship to a college known for its team. Two years in, ‘68, his little brother, Johnny, gets drafted. For Oz’s entire life, he was the one expected to go into the military as the oldest, so the guilt he had overwhelmed him into joining as well. That’s why he joined the Army.

Annika wanted to be a Veterinarian because of “her” childhood dog. (some crusty ass stray she found on the side of the street) He got sick and died, and she wanted to stop that from happening to other animals. (Boris is literally the reason why Annika has any semblance of empathy. Dawg was the best)

Now… oh shit. She’s a mass murderer who kills people for a living, dead opposite of what she wanted to be. Oh well, lives a bitch and then you die.

Abbey, as a kid, wanted to do anything that supported her caregivers’ ideology, which she truly didn’t know jackshit about. She thought that they could do nothing wrong and needed support; she would’ve died for them. Instead, Abbey also took the exact opposite route. She went into the FBI to take those people down. Another drastic change in the list.

(6) Oz hates who he was between leaving Vietnam and having Jenny. “A depressed, abusive, drug-addicted piece of human shit.” as he calls it. He hates it when he exhibits any behaviors that remind himself of that time. If Oz yells at Jenny, or feels the urge to relapse, he punishes himself by not taking care of himself.

Annika hates that she isn’t as ruthless as she used to be. She’d used to kill for money, for power, now Annika can barely kill for self defense. She wishes she could go back to being apathetic, but now that scab’s been peeled off, and everything’s bleeding out.

Abbey hates how obsessive she is. Not stalker-like obsessed; I’m talking obsessive-compulsive obsessed. There’s a constant presence in her head telling her how she should be, what she must do or else something terrible will happen. How deeply she thinks about how somebody else’s acting. Girl barely sleeps at night because of her rituals.

(16) Oz HATES his father. That monster abused him physically, emotionally, and psychologically for his entire life. Nobody believed him growing up that his father was abusive, not even his siblings, because Old Man Clancy was a ‘war hero’. War hero his ass. All Ozzy saw was a monster.

However, he was a Mama’s boy through and through. She was the only person that believed him, as she went through the abuse herself. They spoke to each other in German when Old Man Clancy was away and made dinner together for rest of the family. Best memories of his life with his mom.

Annika, it depends which AU. In the original one, with her as Bell? She couldn’t care less about her parents. They never had that ‘love and attention” thing that y’all seem to be obsessed with. Her parents were more coworkers than parents. Everything was transactional within the “family”.

However, in the AU where her dad becomes Bell, she’s only about 9. Girl looks up to him, wanting to do all the things he does, and loves him more than anything. Well, she was in one of the cars during the airport thing at the beginning of the story, so now she thinks he’s dead. She was screaming out for her dad while Mason was carrying her off.

Can’t do Abbey as she doesn’t know her parents 🙃

(23) Keeping this one short:

Oz’s greatest flaw: Chronically low self-esteem; dude hates himself so much he unknowingly takes it out on everyone around him.

Oz’s greatest strength: Resilience; dudebro’s gone through hell and back, and is already up for round 4. He ain’t giving up any time soon.

Annika’s greatest flaw: Pookie look at her. Her lack of empathy; she can’t understand other’s emotions too well.

Annika’s greatest strength: Her ruthlessness. She don’t give a SHIT. She will get the job done.

Abbey’s greatest flaw: She’s a perfectionist, about herself and the people around her.

Abbey’s greatest strength: Her genuine kindness.

(26) Oz is a macho man, he hates the color pink. Dawg has PTSD surrounding non perishables, he will not eat canned food cause he found a BUNCH OF COCKROACHES IN A CAN OF CORN DURING HIS DEPLOYMENT AHHHHHHH HOW THE FUCK DID THEY GET IN THERE????

Annika hates meat. She’s a vegetarian, the smell of meat makes her gag. She’ll throw up if she has to eat it. She doesn’t like the color orange, reminds her of Captain Asshole (Adler).

What food DOESN’T Abbey hate? Girl is very picky, but her least favorite is ONIONS BECAUSE THEY SUCK. ONIONS SUCK. I FUCKING HATE ONIONS. THEYRE DISGUSTING. HOW COULD YOU ENJOY THEM???? SHE WILL GAG. Oh and her least favorite color is blue 😊

(28) Oz is a cat person through and through. Dogs remind him of Vietnam.

Annika doesn’t give a shit. If it has 0-4 legs, 0-2 eyes, makes an adorable noise (or tries to), she will LOVE it. Get her a rat, she’ll love and cherish it.

Abbey’s a dog person. They’re so funny and are always happy, and always serve as a good distraction.

THANKS FOR THE OTHER ASK! ITS ALWAGS NICE HEARING FROM MY POOKIE BEAR ❤️

[khimerah]

I finally bought College Football 25 last night thinking I would be able to play. Took a shower while waiting for it to download, only for that mf to tell me I can’t play after 21 hrs.

This is because I got the standard edition ( base retail price ) instead of spending 109 fuckin dollars to play it 3 days early, even though TODAY is the official day it comes out 😂😂😂😂😂😂.

I’m gonna make it everyone’s problem at work today. Let’s hope they let me go home early 🙃.

[starsinthesky5]

how has your day been queen💖

good!

got starbucks this morning which was amazing. except it was so fucking cold i actually was about to get frostbite. just did my usual academic weapon things again. then i hung out with my girlies. they got me flowers just bc and i ☹️

then we got CFA and went to our old highschools hoco football game….they lost…the qb got hurt and was declared out…the star wr was pissed tf off…yeah 😃😃

then i came back and took a lengthy shower because tomorrow night im my besties plus one to her cousins reception because her bf got sick 😋

and i have a hair appointment at 9 and nails at 12 🙃

[justkarliekloss]

I guess we can't have everything :( but, yeah, when I saw the scene on Twitter I felt so disgusted. I half wanted her to have kicked him in the private parts or something, bc no woman should have to endure that, but of course everyone reacts differently. But it cannot be brushed off as normal behavior. I hope he's fired or sued, bc the girls must be protected. And then the news on Olga's dad was just so heartbreaking. After a huge victory, it must feel like a punch in the guts. I hope she has all the support 💙 oh, and I hear their coach is also horrible? Don't know why tho, but honestly, it feels like too much already

The Prime Minister is now involved in this and has put more pressure on him, but he apparently doesn't want to quit. For years he's been accused of corruption and other things and has kept his position. So unless they force him to move aside legally, he isn't going anywhere. He likes money and being in a position of power way too much.

The manager also is... Yeah. There are players who refused to go with the national team if he kept being there because he apparently treated them very badly.

Our football federation sucks, yes 🙃

And Olga last night was amazing. The little speech she gave and how strong she was... ❤️‍🩹

[maerenee930]

reeeeally really looking forward to having nothing to do on saturday night 🙃 not exactly looking forward to new year’s eve this year.

i mean, i will be trying to ignore my dad and a few of his friends while they watch a football game because they get ridiculously loud and it’s suuuper fucking annoying listening to them.😑

now granted, you could argue/say “well now mae, you could’ve asked or messaged someone to hang out with you or if they wanted to do something with you that night instead of pouting and whining about the fact that you now don’t have anything to do.” and you know what? you are absolutely right. for real, i recognize it and admit it. i know and understand that really could have done that and that i probably should have.

i would like to say though as a very poor excuse, the only reason i didn’t message or ask anyone to hang out or if they would like to do something with me is because i always assume everyone has plans on nye and just plans on the weekend in general. and that i’m still at a point mentally and emotionally where i feel like i’m bothering my friends by asking them to spend time with me. that they’ll feel obligated to say yes when they’d rather not but don’t have the heart to tell me that they don’t feel up to it. well that and because i’m scared to get told that they already have plans. okay maybe scared isn’t the right word. i just don’t want to get my hopes up that they might be free only to find out they’re not. and because of my brain/depression/anxiety/other mental health issues and trauma, i’ll feel like i’m being rejected (even when that’s not really or necessarily the case) 😑🤦‍♀️

and my thought is, if i don’t try/put myself out there/ask them, then they can’t say no to me or tell me that they already have plans and then i can’t/won’t have my hopes shot down and/or feel like i’m being rejected by someone i care about and was looking forward to possibly seeing or maybe spending some time with… 😐😓 i don’t really understand why my brain works the way it does. or why it won’t just let me live or be. and it frustrates me and confuses me and it makes things so much more stressful/unnecessarily stressful and difficult and i would just really reeeally like it to stop. that would be great lol.

[chesacakeripper]

Casually bricking it for work this weekend - have swapped weekend nights at the end of July that I need off for my very delayed graduation with a very nice colleague for Easter weekend days (so he can watch the football apparently)

Did nights last weekend, which were swell, but days are going to be busier and after one (1) normal working day this week, it appears that trying to accomplish anything in a psych hospital is like pulling teeth. (It took two hours to take and work out how to send two blood samples between three FYs 🙃)

Also, I am 95% certain I'm going to be Acting Phlebotomist for half the hospital because its a bank holiday Friday and a weekend and psychiatric nurses don't do bloods.

[lornashores]

i hope you gonna keep ot making gifs/edits because like i said, there are still people who enjoy them and gonna reblog them and send you requests and wait for you to post something new!!! i hope you gonna have a great day/good night idk?¿ i think from now i can send you requests and not being anon 👽**

oh i will definitely continue to make edits! got many drafts ready and i got even more ideas on what to make as well as there's always new music videos to gif! it makes me happy that you like my stuff, i really appreciate that. and you are always welcome to request things and you're always welcome to just talk, you seem like such a kind and fun person ♡ i hope you have a good day, evening, or night as well! i'm actually gonna watch some football and then sleep because i have to be an adult and work 🙃 much love ♡

[gabelandescrocs]

Date: 05122021

Book Count: 10 out of 30 (prev. 8/27)

Heres the part where I gush about the books. Its not going to be coherent (nor helpful for you if you're seeking to read these), so please excuse me while I go lowkey feral.

The Goal - Elle Kennedy

Series: Off-Campus #4

WHERE DO I FUCKING START. istg the author was on something else when writing this because this is my favorite one out of the 6 other books of theirs I've read so far.

yes, i dont read by order nor read book series back to back my brain just cant fucntion that way lol

*ahem* HEY GOD ITS ME AGAIN, SO UH.. WHEN WILL I GET MY JOHN TUCKER HUH?? I am way past asking nicely now 😤

this one was funny, sappy, steamy and heartbreaking all at once. I literally had to stop myself at 5AM last night bcs I was reading this nonstop. I had an alarm for 7AM. 🙃

tw or cw for this (look away if you dont want a few spoilers now): unexpected pregnancy, slight verbally abusive family, sexual harassment, death of a character

Hard to Hold - K. Bromberg

Series: Play Hard #2

Okay, so I think I got this from a recommendation from spicy booktok and I didnt know it was in a series until now lol

It was a good read. Its about a professional soccer star and a sports agent. Porn with slight plot(?)

You may want to pelt the main guy's head with as many soccer balls you can physically hurl while reading this. Main sis aint that bright either.

I dont really have much to say about this one. It was a good buffer to read in between reading other book series

I might check out the rest of the Play Hard series when I've made a bigger dent on my tbr lol

I Hate You - Ilsa Madden-Mills

Series: The Hook Up #3

OKAY SO, the two main characters names are Blaze and Charisma. I think that says a lot about it already.

He's a college football star that wants to get into the NFL. She's a sorority girl trying to avoid the guy around campus bcs they had a past

Lots of switching POVs. It bothered me a little bit but don't let that discourage you from reading this!

a lot of back and forth between these two about wanting to be together but also wanting to get rid of each other lol

not sure if I'll read the other books in this series but I have "I Promise You" too so we'll see after that.

The Mistake - Elle Kennedy

Series: Off-Campus #2

Is this an Elle Kennedy review list or what? 😂 no regrets tho, her writing is great. I've had a hard time trying to fault it. You really just want to keep reading and force yourself to take a breather AGSHJDK

this was a fun read. Logan is your typical hockey himbo but hes an endearing guy with a heart. Grace is a sweetheart that you just want to put in your pocket.

The way he won the girl in the end tho !! I'm melting on the floor. That was beyond cute.

Nothing much to say. READ IT. <3

The Deal - Elle Kennedy

Series: Off-Campus #1

WHOOOOO THIS ONE. Also a fave. A little heavy on sensitive content that might trigger people (ie. rape)

Once again, I am left here to yearn for another fictional character that I know I'll never meet the real life equivalent of him. sigh. Curse you, Elle. *shakes fist*

Garrett is an idiot, but such a sweet idiot. 😢

The Hannah and Garrett dynamic: IMMACULATE

I want to say so many things but also dont want to spoil the whole story for anyone who's insane enough to waste their time reading my post.

I'll try to explain it super simple without giving away too much (i hope). Basically: girl wants hot jock. Hot jock doesn't know girl exists. Other hot jock needs help with school and seeks help from girl. Girl agrees only if Other hot jock helps her get the guy. By fake dating Other hot jock. You get where this is going right?

A Favor for A Favor - Helena Hunting

Series: All-In #2

*inhale* *exhale* *SCREAMS*

okay now that we've got that out of the way, I would like to summarize my review of this book to: Its just fucking porn. No plot. Its not at all graphic about the steamy-ness imo but ooooh lord its just 😳🔥😥💦👁👄👁

My guy Bishop, is himbo™. The poster boy for himbos with the underwear to match it. You'll get it.

The Chase - Elle Kennedy

Series: Briar U #1

ofc how could we ever go wrong with a "Oh my god. They were roommates!" trope. Another good read.

Summer is adorable as hell and how I envision her in my mind...hell yeah I'd be so into her

Fitzy is probably ranked 3rd in my himbos from the Briar U universe. Logan and Garrett might be tied for 2nd.

tw: sexual harassment by a prof

The Risk - Elle Kennedy

Series: Briar U #2

fuuucking hell Jake Connelly. Ranked 1st in the hockey himbo universe.

Jake and Brenna. These two are a fucking hurricane.

*dial tone* Hey God-- me again. Again. Here's the thing, remember me begging for a John Tucker? Yeah, I'd totally settle for a Jake. Call me when you get this!

Okay to keep it simple, its an enemies to lovers trope.

BUT istg it is so much more. Brenna is a girlboss™ no doubt

atNetflix, I hate you 99.9% of the time but if you make this into a movie and do this right, I wouldn't be opposed to it.

Enemies - Tijan

BABES !!!! BABES WHEN I TELL YOU THIS BOOK IS SO-- 😳

fuck I can't even describe it. The angst, the yearning, the sex

I am a Christian (non-practicing) but good God I need a confession after reading this

I don't think I even have words to properly talk about how much i loved reading this book.

THE LETTER 😭

The Dare - Elle Kennedy

Series: Briar U #4

Okay, as someone who also struggles with body image issues, this was a bit of a hard one to read. I took many breaks going through this one.

Girls are mean

Self-deprecating thoughts are mean

Conor is the biggest idiot in the universe and I'm so mad I can't physically punch a fictional character through a book.

im 5/23 of my tbr list. it was 5/14 but somehow my brain decided to add 9 more books for my own pleasure and torture ♡