#“Oh woe is the unbreakable cycle of violence hunting has imposed on salmon dean” okay sure but what about CAS

[castielmacleod]

Having inarticulate thoughts about the culture of violence Cas was exposed to in constantly being around hunters in general and the Winchesters in particular. Especially after season 7 when he stated he didn’t want to fight anymore. Understandable after everything that had happened—a barely averted apocalypse, a civil war against his older sibling, a power trip rampage against his own family (the aftermath of which would leave him suicidal and terrified of that suicidality by 8x08). He was tired of fighting, scared of hurting people. He didn’t want to be a soldier anymore, he didn’t want to be an instrument of death and violence. Put simply, he wanted to watch the bees. Yet he would go on to spend the next 8 years after that marching under Dean’s command, more or less, and taking part in hunts to fit in, keep Dean’s favour, remain “useful”, etc. No one ever took his desire for pacifism seriously, not least of all the writers, who portrayed it as not only ridiculous but also something *just* shy of emasculating. Anyway do you think Cas ever actually got over his desire to not fight? Saving the world and protecting those he loves is one thing, but all the hunts he was implied to take part in offscreen, between episodes? Put on your coat, get in the car, kill multiple human-looking monsters who may or may not have been minding their own business, get back in the car, wash the blood off your coat, ensure the Winchesters found you useful, rinse and repeat. Do you think he ever got tired of the constant blood and killing? Because I do.