#“DAD we’re going to the MALL so my STUPID SISTER can’t RUIN MY THINGS ANYMORE”

[bloodiedbeloveds]

no but actually we are so serious about bigender aggressively outdoorsy very southern john. someone else write this so we don’t have to

[szopenhauer]

Are you more positive or a debbie downer? Debbie Downer should be my name lol

What would you love to drink right now? I’m drinking water rn, second mug in a row, my belly is going to explode

Is that an alcoholic drink or not? it’s not this kind of water :P

Oh good. What would you love to eat right now? I’m not hungry...

How many meals do you eat a day? depends

Do you brush your tongue with your tooth brush? sometimes

What are you favorite type of jeans? I’d say skinny even tho I don’t wear jeans anymore ^^”

Do you eat your nails? wait what swallow? ewww I don’t even bite them :o 

Do you enjoy making or taking surveys? taking them more 

Name something that is blue that you like Sadness from Inside out

Name something pink that you like PYNK music video by Janelle Monae? XD

If you could have one more pet, what? meh

If you could sleep next to a tame wild animal what? woah 

Would you rather have an owl or a snake? both are cool

What would you name it? Bowl for owl and for snake either Ksysio or Wonsz żmieja?

Do you eat the ice in your drink? no

Have you ever been addicted to cigarettes? I had one cigarette in my whole life but I still keep a package in my room :x

Which do you use more? Facebook or Instagram? fb, I don’t care for insta 

Do you watch beauty videos on You Tube? nah

Do you like Star Wars? love

What kind of surveys do you like the most? interesting, not just YES or NO questions, I want to go deeper 

Have you ever dropped something down the garbage disposal on accident? omg luckily not 

What CD would you never buy for yourself? anything Justin Bieber for sure

Is sex a must in your life? absolutely not

Would you rather be cute and ugly or hot and stupid? cute and ugly? lmfao ok 

Are you evil in any way? everyone is, more or less

Would you rather be a clown or a garbage man? can’t decide :D

Would you rather be a rockstar or a librarian? librarian but rock star ain’t that bad of a choice ;)

WHAT IS THE MEANING OF LIFE? again? I just got this question on ask today and that really made me anxious

Did you and your mum ever have a big fight that caused you to move out? sigh... Has the last person you kissed ever been to your house? yep but not to my room as I’m super ashamed of it, it’s not what I really want, it’s more like a storage room for mine and my mom’s things, I wish I could move and out and do what I want instead of cleaning this mess just to have it ruined days after, not that I have money now to fix things the way I imagine my bedroom to be someday :( Have you had a good day today or was yesterday better? yesterday was better but today I got a T-shirt so that was a good moment Do you have any plans for the upcoming weekend? hospital

Could you date someone very attractive, but who thought they were better than everyone else? blergh, r u kidding me?... Do you always feel like you’re making mistakes? constantly Does anybody have a tattoo with your name on it? not because of me but someone somewhere definitely has that name on them for another reason How would you feel if you got the person you liked? I'm in a relationship Is there anyone who likes you? it seems If the last person you kissed saw you kissing someone else, would they be mad? of course  What’s the first thing you heard this morning? you mean a sound (doorbell) or words (I don’t remember)? If you fell pregnant to the last person you kissed, what would you think? not possible Are you young or old? young, at least according to my ID and being childish Are there always other fish in the sea? there are but maybe I don’t want them and/or they don’t want to be catched etc. What can your tongue do? pfft Do chickens have feelings? sorta Do you think the body is the most beautiful thing that was ever made? ...  So how are you feeling today? not good enough Where is your sister right now? don’t know nor care What do you smell like? it’s so hot, I smell like sweat and I can’t stand it but I can’t shower all day long What colour is your mum’s hair? grey  When was the last time you talked to one of your siblings? last week Do you like fire? as an element of magic in fantasy movies  Does your mum vacuum early in the morning while you’re asleep? she’s noisy in different ways Does wearing glasses really make people look smart? that’s a lame stereotype Do your band-aids have cartoons on them? they’re useless but one time I bought Moomin ones because I’ve been walking through the store and they fallen right under my feet and there was nobody around nor the shelf/aisle that they could come from so it was weird and I love Moomins so I took them home (I paid) and they’re probably stored somewhere  Have you ever kissed someone you shouldn’t have? what do you mean? Who’s the funniest drunk person you know? my gf apparently - in a cute way - that’s surprising for a teetotalist like me  What was the first thing you thought of when you woke up this morning? my tee came! When was the last time you saw your father? he just left for work and I was waving to him through the window which is our tradition  What if your partner went through your cellphone? I have nothing to hide Has anyone ever been with you while you were throwing up? my parents and sister

Robert Downey Jr. — Bet you have a crush on him. he’s handsome but I’d prefer to be him instead of having a crush on sex I’m not attracted to

What would you do if you were to get stuck on a ski lift overnight? ... freeze? and pee myself Have you ever received an anonymous gift? one time when we were really poor that we couldn’t afford food someone left a package under our door, knocked and ran, bless this person whoever knew we have hard times :* What kind of laugh do you have? many kinds that happen randomly Will you have a Valentine next year? I have a bigger chance than any other year before  Macaroon or a cupcake? cupcake Did you kiss or hug anyone today? hug my mom and my dad too Are you currently waiting on someone to do something for you/to you? kinda Do you know anyone, personally, who is in an abusive relationship? Are you? I’m not in an abusive relationship but I know those who are as it’s common and it’s really sad that ppl think only beating makes relationship toxic Are you planning on going anywhere with someone, some time today? I’ll stay home  Do you find your school to be loaded with hot guys or not so much? I remember E.W. once said that we have a lot of elves around because LOTR movie had very ugly ones as we did in high school, I tried to find that pic someone posted back in the day but I failed, it was from the council from what I remember 

Is there anyone you are currently trying to get out of trouble? Why? mostly I just keep my eye on my father and my mother all the time because of covid (and not only because of it) if that counts Are you plotting anything at the moment? another chapter of the book? Have you ever wanted your significant other to get rid of a friend? because they were evil to them, it wasn’t about ME If you have siblings, have they moved out or do they still live with you? she moved out :3

Do you have a therapist? no longer Have you ever gotten a good grade in math class? yeah, in middle school I was getting awesome grades in math class What do you think of the last person you texted? we’re dating Have you ever gotten a bloody nose from snorting cocaine? I’ve never done cocaine wtf

Do you post pictures were you look good but your friends look bad? I ask them first  Are you friends with any of your exes? me and one of my exes are together Are you a whiskey person? I’m a no alcohol person

Has anyone ever made fun of your taste in music? tiny bit, wasn’t that bad

Have you ever overflown a bathtub? I have not Have you ever thrown food at a stranger in a movie theater? not in a movie theater Are you somewhat of a perfectionist? somewhat Do you like sour candy? by Lady Gaga  not eat Do you usually wear sunglasses when you’re driving? but I don’t drive Is there ever a time that you enjoy cold showers? brrrr no way Are you good at painting nails? am not but it doesn’t matter Are you good at filling silence in awkward situations? doubt it What word should you really probably remove from your vocabulary? kurwa Do you rip out the page if you make a mistake writing, or cross it out? cross it out, if I ripped the page then there would be nothing left  Do you use a full length mirror daily? we don’t own one Can you walk in heels, or do you feel awkward in them? I think they don’t match my style and they’re uncomfy in a long term Mac or PC? PC Will you tell someone if there’s something in their teeth? sorry but probably not Do you ever actually make your bed? when I have guests Do you make an effort to eat healthy? yup The last time you kissed someone, what color of shirt were they wearing? black, that’s easy What’s something you want to purchase next time you’re at the mall? food If you had to choose between a million dollars or to be able to change a regret? money because one regret won’t help me and even might make things worse Are you taller than your mom? almost 10 cm What would you do if your best friend told you they were moving today? my gf - break up  my dad - try to stop him or move out with him You’re locked in a room with the person you last kissed, problems? no problems  Do you have any ‘naughty’ photos on your phone? 0 Could you handle living with a male roommate? my dad, no one else What were you doing at 10:00 this morning? waking up Why aren’t you texting the last person you kissed? who said we aren’t texting? Do you think you’ll actually live a happy life with somebody? don’t feed my paranoia Connection between you and the last person who messaged you? love Where is your biological father right now? bus/job already Who else is in the room with you? I’m alone Water with ice or no ice? no ice  Are you wrapped in a blanket? too hot for that

Has anyone done anything nice for you today? I’m thankful for all those nice things people do for me - big or small The last time you hung out with your sibling(s), what did you do? took a walk

Do you usually bring or buy a lunch for school? bring

The last time you had sex, was it in their bed or yours? their

How old were you when you figured out you were definitely straight, or bi, or whatever? middle school was the beginning 

Do you fit in at work or in school? I was always an outcast

Have you ever looked in the mirror and thought, “Oh God, Ew.”? 99% of time

Have you ever cried at a real wedding? nope

Is there someone you need to forgive? *annoyed sound*

What’s your brother(s) / sister(s) names? personal

Suppose you saw your crush/bf/gf kissing another girl/guy, what would you do? why tho

What is your favorite color for bridesmaid dresses? whatever bridesmaid wanna wear besides white

Do you have a secret crush right now? it’s no secret

Do you know anyone who doesn’t want to have kids? me

Would you rather visit Tokyo or Paris? dunno

Do you think you would like living in New York or Chicago? Why or why not? too overcrowded/loud etc.

Name 3 celebrities who are the same height as you. Lady Gaga, Ellen Page, Reese Witherspoon

Are you happy with your height? I’d like to be taller, not too much tho

Do you have big or small hands? small

Have you been baptized?  I have been 

Have you ever been abused in any way? sadly

Do you like unicorns? they’re fine

Is there one book you have read over and over again because it’s so good? if so, which is it? I don’t reread books

Do you play games on your phone a lot? recently I became obsessed with LOVE ISLAND game 

Have you ever had to put out a kitchen fire? my mom took care of it but it wasn’t a big deal tbh

Have you ever been kidnapped? wut

Do you have anything glow in the dark in your room? stars

Do you wear a scarf, if so, what does it look like? not rn

Is there a video or computer game that you can get lost in for hours? mhm but not too long

Do you get breadsticks with your pizza? breadsticks and pizza? it’s like bread with bread - no thx

Did you ever have a waterbed? I hate those

What toy from your childhood do you miss? rubber toys?

Did you sleep in late today? yes

When was the last time you were disappointed? this day

Do you like listening to love songs? I like a variety of music which includes love songs

In your group of friends, are you the smart one, athletic one, etc.? funny mom friend... ok, fine, a dad because my puns are daddy jokes

Has any of your friends’ family ever yelled at you? no but they said bad things about me behind my back

Did you ever watch the show Full House? with my sister What was the last thing that scared you? how I feel physically Do the librarians at your library know you by name? they do

What ten people would you most likely bring on a roadtrip? 10 ppl?! shoot me...

Is there anything you’re really stressed out about right now? health issues

What was the last thing that made you cry? I’m about to cry...

What are the last three songs you listened to? Crystal Castles - Suffocation  frnkiero andthe cellabration - neverenders  Major Lazer - Be Together (Feat. Wild Belle)

[lysyuta]

Begin — Jeon Jungkook (04)

Words: 2681

Warnings: none

Description: You’ve never met your father, so you finally make the decision to go meet him in Korea. But what you found there was more than just a father.

Prologue [01] [02] [03] [04] [05]

~

You walked down the stairs, a delicious smell instantly coming to your senses.

The smell led you to the kitchen, where there was a beautiful breakfast made.

Sitting beside the counter was Jin. He was eating while doing something on his phone.

Was he still mad at you?

“Good morning, Jin-oppa.” You spoke, mentally cringing. You remembered that one day last week, Jin told you that in Korea, girls call their older brother oppa. You didn’t really want to call him that, but you thought that in this situation, it would make him less mad (if he was still mad at you).

He looked up at you while chewing his food. “Morning.” He spoke, mouth half full. “There’s your plate.” He pointed to a plate of pancakes and bacon that was beside him.

“Thanks.” You said, sitting next to him so you could eat. Sitting next to him now felt awkward, so you decided to make small talk.

“Did Ji-yeon make this?” You asked.

Jin shook his head before swallowing the food that was in his mouth and speaking. “I made it.”

“Really? Well, it tastes really good.” You slightly smiled, complimenting him.

Jin hummed in response before continuing to eat.

The room was quiet, once again.

“Did they go to work? Dad and Ji-yeon?” You ask, trying to fight the silence.

Jin nodded. You thought he wouldn’t say anything after that, so you gave up on trying to make a conversation. But Jin did speak.

“Don’t worry. I didn’t tell them about what happened at the party.” He says, not making eye contact with you and just eating his food.

“Thanks.” You say. “Yeah. I mean, telling them would’ve been the right thing to do, but I didn’t. I’m sure they’d love to know about how you got drunk and grinded on some boy you just met.” He spoke, like it was no big deal.

Wow, Jin is really good at throwing shade, but you didn’t like that it was directed towards you.

The memories of the night of the party made you upset. You looked at your brother. “I don’t like it when you’re mad at me.”

“And I don’t like it when you do stupid things.” He says.

“Well, that’s what having siblings is like, right? They get mad at you for doing something stupid, but it’s fine because they’re your siblings and you love them anyways, right?” You spoke with hope, hoping that Jin would magically stop being mad at you.

Without saying a word, Jin stood up and placed his empty dish in the sink. He was about to walk away and you started talking.

“I’m sorry. I really don’t want you to be mad at me, Jin.” You spoke.

He kept walking until you spoke once again.

“I messed up badly, I know. And now you hate me. I disappointed the brother that I’ve only known for two weeks.” You sighed.

Jin stopped in his tracks and turned around.

“Hey, don’t say that.” He said. His eyes softened once he saw tears streaming down your face. “I don’t hate you. I could never hate you, y/n. You’re my sister.”

“Stop saying cliche stuff.” You told him, wiping your tears away, even though they kept coming.

“I don’t hate you, y/n. Yes, you messed up, but I don’t hate you. Yes, I’m mad at you, but I don’t hate you.” He tells you.

“Are you sure? By the way you were yelling at me yesterday, it really doesn’t seem like you like me.” You stood up, putting your dish in the sink.

“Yes, I’m sure. I only yelled at you because I was worried. Do you know what could’ve happen if that picture leaked? If people found out that you’re my sister, my imagine would be ruined. The boy’s images would be ruined.” He says.

You rolled your eyes before wiping the tears away once again. “So you only care about your image?” You asked him. “Do you even want people to find out that I’m your sister? Do you even want me to be your sister? Or are you too ashamed of me?”

“I never said that.” He answers. “Answer the question.” You say, looking up at him.

“If you’re just going to act like this, then why would I want people to know that you’re my sister? Why would I want you to be my sister?” He asks. After the words left his mouth, his eyes widened. He looked like he regretted everything he just said, but you didn’t care. The damage was done. “Oh my gosh. I didn't—” he started, but you spoke over him.

“You’re right. Your image could be ruined because of me. Maybe I shouldn’t be here anymore. Maybe I should just go back home.” You say, looking down at your feet, not wanting to look him in the eyes. “Maybe it’s best that people don’t find out that I’m your sister. You wouldn’t want your image to be ruined, right?”

“Y/n,” Jin sighed. You didn’t give him a chance to speak before rushing upstairs to your room and locking the door.

You laid on your bed, crying into a pillow.

What were you supposed to do now? Pack up and go home?

As much as you felt like you needed to get away, in this moment, you couldn’t bring yourself to get up and pack your bags. You didn’t want to. How were you going to let this one mistake ruin something that you’ve been waiting for your whole life?

After about 10 minutes, you heard soft knocks on your door. “Y/n.” Jin called you. “Open the door.”

You sat up, but you didn’t go to open the door. “Leave me alone.”

“Y/n, please. We need to have a talk. A brother-sister talk.” He says.

You just sat there, not getting up. “It’s obvious that you don’t want me as a sister, so what’s the point?” You clutched onto the pillow that was in your arms.

“Y/n, I didn’t mean to say that. You know that I didn’t mean to say that.” He spoke. “I don’t know anything.” You say.

You heard him take a deep breath. “Y/n, open the door. Please.”

You sighed and stood up, finally opening the door before returning to your seat on the bed. You looked down at the carpeted floor, not wanting to look at him.

He entered the room and closed your door, sitting beside you.

“I’m sorry.” He said almost immediately as he sat down. “I didn’t mean to say that. I didn’t mean it at all. I really do want you as my sister y/n. I love the fact that you’re my sister. I love you.”

You froze at his words. You felt your eyes getting watery again, so you pressed the pillow against your face, not wanting him to see you.

Jin chuckled at your actions, putting his hand on your back. “Yes, you messed up, but I love you. You’re my sister and I love you. If those pictures did leak, I wouldn’t hate you. I could never hate you. Yes, I would be really mad, but I wouldn’t hate you.”

He suddenly removed the pillow from your face, tossing it on the bed and hugging you.

You rested your head on his chest, wiping your tears.

“I should’ve never yelled at you before. I shouldn’t have made you feel like I hate you, because I don’t.” He tells you.

“I’m sorry for being such an idiot. It wasn’t Jungkook’s fault. I know he was supposed to be watching me, but I told him that I’d be fine. It’s my fault, not his.” You say.

“I don’t care who’s fault it is. I just don’t want this to happen again, okay?” He asked.

“Okay.” You nodded, looking at him. “So you’re not mad at me anymore, right?”

“No.” He shook his head.

“Good because I really want to go to the mall, but I need someone to drive me.” You smile.

Jin playfully rolled his eyes, removing his arms from around you and standing up.

“Lets go.”

~

“Well, we’re having a brother-sister day, so you can’t go ditch me with Jungkook again.” Jin laughed as you two entered the same store that you went into the first time you came to the mall.

As soon as the words left Jin’s mouth, someone spoke. “Hyung!” Someone called. You both turned around to the direction of the voice to see Jimin, Taehyung and Jungkook.

They were in the same store as you guys.

“What are you guys doing here?” Jin asked as the boys walked up to you.

“What does it look like? We’re shopping, duh.” Taehyung speaks, earning a hit on the arm from Jin. “Ouch.” He says, rubbing his arm.

“Since you’re here,” Jin starts, looking at Jungkook. “Don’t ditch me with my sister again, okay.”

“I can’t make any promise.” Jungkook says, smiling at you. You shyly smiled back, not knowing why you felt something funny in your stomach when he smiled at you.

Jin shook his head and chuckled.

“Ah, y/n. Starbucks has this really cool drink that we should try.” Jungkook tells you. “Then we should go get it.” You responded, looking at Jin to make sure you had permission. 

Jin nodded and smiled and with that, you and Jungkook were off to Starbucks.

Two security guards followed you once again.

You two got to Starbucks and got your drinks before leaving and walking around the mall. “So you and Jin made up?” He asked as you sipped your drink. “Yep. I swear I will never get that drunk ever again.” You tell him.

He nods before sipping his drink. “About that night at the party,” Jungkook stopped walking and you stopped and looked at him.

“What? Did something else happen?” You asked.

“Well,” he starts. “when you were drunk, like really drunk, you kind of—” He was cut off by someone calling his name.

“Jungkook!” It sounded like a teenage girl.

Turning your head to look at where the sound was coming from, you saw tons of fans coming at you guys.

A security guard pulled you and Jungkook away while another security guard tried to hold back the crowd.

“Does this happen every single time you guys come here?” You asked while the security guard led you two somewhere else.

“Yeah.” Jungkook shrugged.

What was it that he was going to tell you? Was it something embarrassing? You’d hate to find out another stupid thing that you did while you were drunk.

“Jungkook!” A girl yelled. Her yell seemed closer than the other ones. You turned to look at the source of the voice, but you were suddenly pushed away.

You tripped, luckily, you didn’t fall. You looked to see that a fan had escaped the crowd and rushed to Jungkook. On the way to him, she pushed you out of the way.

“Y/n!” Jungkook says, grabbing your hand as security guards got the girl away from the two of you.

You heard screams and cameras flashing constantly. You still wondered how these boys dealt with it.

“Are you okay?” Jungkook asks you. You nodded. “I’m fine.”

He intertwined his fingers with yours as you walked back to he store that the boys were in.

Once you got there, the security guards stood in front and you two walked in, almost immediately finding Taehyung.

“Oh my gosh, that looks so good.” The boy says, looking at the drinks you and Jungkook held.

“Jungkook let me try it.” Taehyung says. Jungkook gave him his drink and Taehyung sipped the drink before walking away with it.

“Tae!” Jungkook groaned. Taehyung walked down one of the aisles of the store and Jungkook just let him go.

You looked at Jungkook and laughed. “Ha. Ha. Very funny.” He says before taking your drink out of your hand and drinking it.

“Jungkook!” You whined. “Now you know how it feels.” He said.

You tried to take your drink away from him, but he held it up high so you couldn’t reach it. So, you just gave up trying and watched as he sipped your drink.

You started walking through the store, dragging Jungkook along. “What was it that you needed to tell me before?” You asked him as you looked at a cute shirt.

“It—uh—it was nothing. Forget it.” Jungkook stutters. You knew he was lying. “Stop lying. What were you going to tell me?” You looked at him.

“I-I was going to tell you that when we were in my car going to the hotel, you started singing really loudly and it was kind of annoying.” He speaks.

“Oh,” you giggled. “I’m sorry. Did anything else happen?”

“Hyung!” Jungkook calls, looking in a different direction and ignoring your question.

You looked to see Jimin and Jin walking up to you.

As Jin approached the two of you, he looked down and saw that your fingers were intertwined. Jin raised and eyebrow at this cleared his throat. You pulled your hand away from Jungkook’s once you saw how Jin was reacting.

“Do you want anything?” Jin asks you. You gave him the shirt that you had previously been looking at. “That’s it?” He asked and you nodded.

Jin left to go pay for your shirt and everything that he was buying, leaving you alone with Jungkook and Jimin.

“Jungkook, did you tell her? Is that why you two were holding hands? Aww that’s so—” Jimin what cut off by Jungkook hitting him in the stomach.

You raised an eyebrow, confused.

“Ah, so he didn’t tell you?” Jimin chuckled.

“Tell me what?”

“Nothing. Don’t listen to him y/n.” Jungkook tells you. “Jungkookie, why are you such a coward? Just tell her. It’s not like it didn’t happen.” Jimin tells his friend.

“Jimin-hyung, leave me alone.” Jungkook groans and Jimin just laughs.

“What does he mean?” You asked, looking up at Jungkook. “It’s nothing, y/n.”

“Jungkook, you’re going to have to tell her eventually.” Jimin smiles.

“Jimin—” Jungkook starts.

“Y/n, when you were drunk, you kissed Jungkook.” Jimin admits. “See? It wasn’t hard to say at all.” He says to his friend.

Your eyes widened. “I did what?” You say, turning back to Jungkook. “Y/n,” he starts.

“Why didn’t you tell me earlier? Oh my gosh.” You ran your fingers through your hair.

You were so embarrassed! How could you kiss Jungkook while you were drunk?

“I was going to tell you, I just—” he says, but you cut him of. “Forget it. Don’t worry about it, okay? I’m sorry.” You apologized.

“You don’t have to—” he started once again. “I-I’m gonna g-go find Jin.” You stuttered, embarrassed.

You walked away from the two boys and waited outside of the checkout line for Jin to finish.

“Hey, why do you look like you’ve just seen a ghost?” Jin chuckles as he walked up to you. “Do I?” You giggled awkwardly. “I just don’t feel good. Maybe we should leave.”

“Don’t you want to say goodbye to the boys first?” Jin asks you.

Say goodbye to them? You didn’t even want to talk to Jungkook right now. How could you embarrass yourself like that?

“No, it’s okay. I’m sure I’ll see them soon anyways.” You tell him.

Jin shrugged and you two left the store.

All you could think about on the way home is the fact that you kissed Jungkook.

It was your fault. You were drunk. It didn’t mean anything, did it?

Did you like Jungkook?

“Oh my gosh.” You said to yourself.

“What is it? Are you okay?” Jin asks, looking at you for a few seconds before looking back at the road.

“I just—I think—” You stuttered. You didn’t know what to say. “I just need to get home. I have a really bad headache.” You lied.

Jin nodded. “We’ll be home soon, don’t worry.”

You couldn’t believe it.

You liked Jungkook.